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Where to start?
It is now Wednesday and I still don’t feel 100% able to speak about my latest plant medicine experiences (though I am going to try) partly because I am still trying to process everything that happened and partly because I know to those who have never been through these types of experiences, it will sound like new age madness and leave me open to a lot of criticism from the uneducated.
What I can talk about is the human connection experienced over those 4 days.
What the weekend taught me more than anything is that we are living in a society that is plagued with illness.
I am not talking about the virus but about how we all think, feel and act. We all REACT from a place of fear, founded on unresolved trauma from years of immersion in a society that does not have the health of humanity at its heart.
Almost 30 people of varying ages between 22 and 50+, from different backgrounds and life experiences all coming together with one similar goal in mind, healing.
This gathering provided each and every one of us a space that allowed us to drop the defensive veils we wear so often, that we believed them to actually be who we are.
Once we allowed ourselves to be vulnerable, to go inside ourselves and be honest about our experiences, fears, and feelings, something magical happened… we felt heard, we felt understood, we felt safe!
We were able to speak about the hurt and pain that we had suppressed for years, for some of us… decades! When released, we came to the realisation that we aren’t alone and how our words and experiences resonated with so many others.
And it is within that realisation that TRUE human connection is formed.
People you would not see yourself having much in common with suddenly became much closer.
All of us have damaged inner children SCREAMING for attention, CRYING to be heard and it is through the suppression of these emotions that our illnesses form.
What I went through this time was not easy, in fact, it was very painful. I had to accept that I have been lying to myself for years in order to cope in this society.
REAL MEN DON’T CRY!
Only we do and we MUST in order to allow ourselves to heal and cry I did and I continue to cry as I go through this highly emotional process.
This journey has challenged me, it has forced me to reconsider long-held beliefs that have formed my identity.
It made me face repressed emotions, emotions so repressed that I actually didn’t even realise they were there never mind a problem but it is within this pain that true freedom is found.
