Journeyman feat. Ryan Dejonghe Ep.133

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You share, pay for peace with them.
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The word is not cannot describe how my heart has been.
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But where do we begin? Now that you're back from
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the desk? All the color of the door, I make
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your cog, I make your cor just hiking dome, no mother,
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But was there?
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All right? So back of ben this bitch for another one.
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This is Connecticut's most controversial podcast to allow for you.
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This is the Domino Effect, And as always I go
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by the name of Domino. Appreciate y'all for tuning, and
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appreciate y'all for being here. So we got G on
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the balls as usual, Chro behind the lens as usual,
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and the guest I have today. I want to say,
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from the moment I met him, I knew he was special.
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And I ain't been fucking wrong since right, I ain't
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been let down yet. It's the only person I personally
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know that has died and lived to tell the tale.
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He is a writer. He's a former preacher, stand up
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comedian and impriv actor. He's a former marine. Thank you
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for your service man, now his latest venture. He's a
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fucking hypnotist. I don't know how, I don't know why,
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but he's a journeyman of sorts. Ladies and gentlemen, This
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is Ryan de Ryan, how are you?
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Thank you for having me here on this It's like
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a sacred space in this environment. The studio is nice. Man,
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if we got the jams, everyone is cool. Yeah, it's
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just like as soon as you walk in the door,
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just feel like this is like home.
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Yeah. So, so I try to, you know, bring people
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in here that I genuinely want to talk to and
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they vibe is cool. You know, every now and then
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you bring somebody who just throws off the whole functional.
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But for the most part, I'll bring people in here
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who I know are cool. Well, I know I'm gonna
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have a good conversation with who I know will enjoy
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this type of thing. So again, appreciate you for being here.
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Appreciate you for doing this. Took a little while. You know,
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you're a little apprehensive at first. Yeah, I don't think
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you knew what a podcast was or what the fuck
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was on what I was going to say. But again,
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thank you for being here. Appreciate your of course. Yeah,
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so quick story of how I met Ryan. So I
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told the story before a bunch of times. So I've
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been wanting to do stand up comedy for a while,
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didn't actually know how to get into it, right. So
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I would go down to the open micce at the
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Stress Factory and I would just say there, not knowing
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that you can actually like sign up and get time
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or whatever. Right. So one night I'm at the Stress
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Factory and I see somebody I work with, and I say,
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don't recognize you from working you know this, that and
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the third, And it turns out he was running a
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comedy class. I had no clue he did fucking comedy.
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Never talked to him at work, never thought twice you know,
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I heard, you know, run the office. He was funny,
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but I never knew it was I do stand up
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and I do this for a living funny. So I
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signed up for the class. Now, initially signed up for
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the class. Not I knew I wasn't gonna learn shit
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about comedy, but I knew I was gonna meet some
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interesting people and make some connections. Right, So I signed
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up for the class. You know, somebody I work with,
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you know, is is running it, So there's something familiarity.
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And then I walk into the class. First person I
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meet is Ryan. Ryan gets up, introduces himself. He says
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hey I'm Ryan. I say hey, I'm CAV and then
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I think I reached out to shake his hand. He
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was like, can I have a hug? I gave him
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fucking up. I was like, I know what type of
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person this is? Now? I like, I know that you're
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like you. You came off as like a genuinely nice person.
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You didn't mean no ill will towards nobody, and I
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got that just from meeting you for them five seconds.
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So game a hug. And then once he started doing comedy,
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we started, you know, getting to know each other a
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little bit. I said, Oh, this motherfucker's water and I thought,
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and then I heard the story a little bit and
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I was like, I know there's more to it. I
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know it's more that that. I know, if I dig
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a little deeper, there's a lot to it. And ever
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since then, I was like, I gotta interview this motherfuckers.
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I know he got a story. I know, I know
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it's something that happened in his life, whether it be
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yesterday or years down the line or whatever. He has
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a bunch of ideas, he has a bunch of insight,
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and he's been through some shit. But the thing, well,
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what initially brought you to comedy. I want to say, like,
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was that like a escape for you? Was it, like
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did you see comedy as like armor to like shield
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the facade of you?
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Like, what what's a journey? Brother? So you mentioned the
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death experience, and so what I experienced in that place
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was the Bible talks about this perfect piece that's beyond understanding,
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beyond words. It's this place where you had no responsibilities.
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It's perfect peace, no bills to pay, no stress, no war.
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And it was a place where I was no one
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but everyone at the same time. It was a place
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where I was nowhere but everywhere at the same time.
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It was a place of infinite possibility. And so when
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I came back, when they revived me, I had two questions. One,
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what's my purpose? Because the doctor said my chances of
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survival was four percent and so okay, so why am
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I back here? And the next question was how do
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I tap into that place without having to die to
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get there? Can I walk this earth and have unlimited potential?
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Now, when you were revived, were you kind of upset
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that you were brought back because you just felt such
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because every time I hear somebody that has you know,
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survived death in a way. When they come back, they
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kind of not upset that they were brought back, but
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they felt such peace and such like just tranquility. It
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was like you should have just left me there.
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Well, let me ask, how does it feel awake from
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a dream.
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H It's kind of surreal, like I feel like everything
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that I dreamed happened. But it's just like, oh, I
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wake up and I'm in the same spot that I
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fell asleeping right right.
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The Tibetans they say it's waking up from one dream
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into another.
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M hm. So so you feel like this is like
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your second life. Do you feel like this is your
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second chance?
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Do you?
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It is a rebirth.
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It is a rebirth, a rebirth into realizing the rebirth.
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Even in Christian being born again, it's the same thing.
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It's being born into that realization of who you are
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as a child. And that's why Jesus says, come the
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little children, because even looking at from a science perspective
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of hnosis, your subconscious is open. As a child, You're
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open to suggestion, just like you're open to the possibilities
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of Santa Claus and you believe Santa is real and
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you believe God is real, and yet somewhere along the line,
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these voices from outside of us a society says, Santa's
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not real, God's not real. This possibility creating a studio
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like this is not going to happen. It's impossible. And
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yet when you get that rebirth, you realize things are possible.
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And that's where I'm at now, is what else is possible?
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Now? Did anything about death seem surprisingly normal? Huh?
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Well, the way that comes to me and that question
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is in those moments where I meditate and just the
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mind starts quieting down. It just is, it's walking with
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that piece. So as far as normal, I mean, that's
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who we are, right before we're even born, we are
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before we carry this body, the person inside of you,
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like that is who you are. And so that's normal, right,
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And this is just a gain. This is just a
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simulation of sorts like the matrix.
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Right, yeah, Now it has your sense of of what
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a bad day is changed since then, it's evolved, right right,
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Like right now, I'm reading this book called The Course
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of Miracles and it's every day for three hundred and
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sixty five days, you read a selection.
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It's crazy how that book came about and on it.
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It's like looking at everything, even this table, and realizing
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that this table is an essence of God or the universe.
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For us, it's a way of seeing things. So even
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a bad day there's a blessing. You can wake up
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every morning and say this is going to be a
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perfect day, and you'd be surprised at the things that
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used to irritate you. The things that used to cause
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a bad day are now the providers of a good day.
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For instance, going back to Tibetans, they have these prayer wheels.
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I don't know if you've seen them in the bet
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huge wheels with sanscrit written on them, and inside the
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wheels are little pieces of paper written with the same phrase.
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It's a Mani padme home is the phrase in Sanskrit,
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and it's just filled with thousands of pieces of paper
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in this big drum and they spin it thousands of day,
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thousands of times a day and just say, I'm maney
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pad me home, I'm mani pad me home. So it's
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like they're saying millions of prayers a day. And what
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that phrase translate is the jewel is in the lotus,
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And what that means is when you look at a
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lotus flower, it's buried in the shit of the world.
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It's buried in mud, it's buried in literal shit, and
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yet it blossoms and it floats to the top of it.
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So the jewel of life is found within the shit. Yeah,
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so a bad day is your blessing. It's a teacher,
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it's a lover. It's an expression of life and how
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you can move at one with it.
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Yeah. I always see quotes like that where it's like
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you're not having a bad day, you're having a bad
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like three minutes, so you having like a bad two seconds,
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where it's like it's just inconvenient, it's uncomfortable for this time,
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but it doesn't take like the twenty four hour spectrum
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for you be like, no, this whole day is thrown
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the shit.
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Yeah, exactly. I saw this millionaire online. He took this
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big stack of money. I forget the how much. I
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think it was like thirty four thousand dollars or maybe
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it's more, but represent one dollar for every minute of
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the day. And so they had this big stack of
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money on the table and someone came by and stole
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ten dollars. He's like, now that person stole ten dollars?
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Should I just knock it off the table to gate
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this say? Is the day is over now all my
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minutes are wasted because of that ten minutes. It's just
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ten minutes, just all this other wealth in your day
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to create.
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And I noticed a lot of a lot of times
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too that people suffer from like, oh this thing is
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happening that just me? Why me? Like they either they
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look to the scott or they look at the past
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decision that brought them here. Was like, why is this
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happening to me right now? And people don't know that. Listen,
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it could be way worse. Like you're complaining about, oh
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your car broke down. Somebody don't have a car. Yeah,
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somebody don't have a bike, somebody don't have skate, somebody
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don't have legs an extreme case, but it's like you're
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worried about something so minute that can be fixed, and
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it's like you should be thankful that you had a
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car that broke down. Right.
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So that's a great analogy because in every situation there
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is a blessing and it's sometimes difficult, as he means,
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to realize that, yeah, the car breaks down and there's
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a blessing somewhere in there.
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Just look for it. Yeah. Like I've seen things where
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it was like like somebody missed the bus and then
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you know they heard later that day the bus crashed something.
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It was like, okay, so you were meant to be
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five minutes three, So your life can be spiritual, so
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you wouldn't get in this accident at you know, just that.
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Third or if your car breaks down and the tow
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truck driver comes down, like for instance, for me, in
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that scenario, right my car, the battery dial stuck somewhere
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triple A guy comes by, you know what he was
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going through it that day. He said he was feeling down,
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almost suicidal because he's going through a divorce, and it
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was my chance to send a little love to him.
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M hm.
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So my car breaking down was a chance to share
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to someone that they loved that needed to hear the
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message of their love.
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And he didn't know that it would come from somebody
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he was actually helping.
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Neither to I I could have sat there and been
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like why God, why, Or even in my death situation,
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if I'm I used to be a preacher, why did
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I die? Because I literally prayed to die before I
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was also depressed, suicidal, and I was like, God, I
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don't have the balls to take my own life. I
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was exactly. I was literally on the cliff with a
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knife in my hand. I was going slice and jump.
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I just couldn't do it. So I prayed and he answered,
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He answered.
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Kevin, what you wish for? Type shit? Right now? You
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actually died from cardiac arrests, which is way different than
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the heart attack. So what is I guess the difference?
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Yeah, good question, And bravo for you knowing, because a
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lot of times on the movies you see cardiac grass
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and equate it with a heart. Heart attack is a
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plumbing issue of the heart, so your arteris get clawed, placking,
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exactly man. And then it just you know, the fluid
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can't get through the plumbing issue, and sometimes the plumbing
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issue can back up and cause the electrical issue, which
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is a cardiac arrest. So cardc arrest is electrical. And
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so that day my heart just lights went out, instant,
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no feeling, just instant. I was eating. I was at
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Red Robin and the mall and they had the bottomless
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fries and my last words were sure, I'll have more fries,
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And then just dropped just drop was three, dropped her
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on top of him. My mom and dad were there panicking,
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and my mom she's just crying out to Jesus, Jesus,
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don't let him die. Jesus, don't let him.
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Die, you know.
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And some dude came over and embraced her and then
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turned her away. And when they shocked me back the
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first time, he's like the Lord answer to your prayer
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and poof. No one saw the dude, like they looked
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around to think him not there man, And the Bible
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says there we entertain angels unaware. That means there are
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there are pieces of the universe here in our life
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around us that we may not see that serve us
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and want the best for us. It's for your highest good,
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whatever that may be.
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Yeah, wow, I gotta be pretty traumatic for your kid
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and your mom to see it. I can imagine something
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like they're having me, Like you know, it's a point
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where like I found people unresponsive for not having the
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best of time that my uncle just passed not too
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long ago, and I was the one that took that
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found them. So I kind of know like kind of
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what your son going through. But it's like that image
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never leaves your head, and that I don't know how
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much you remember at three, like I remember, I guess
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from four years old on. So that might be like
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like a blip or something like in like the back
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of his head, but it's like it's it's there, like
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he saw it. But yeah, that's that's that's gotta be wild.
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Do you remember your first thought or your first feeling
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after you were brought back? Was it like damn? My
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first man?
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Yeah, the first words was what the fuck? That was? Literally?
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And my dad's a pastor, and I was saying that
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over and over again, like what the fuck?
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What the fuck? You know?
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Just over and over?
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Did you did you know what happened? Or you just
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know that you wasn't?
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Yeah, I was.
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I was so discombobulated between that place I was at
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and back in this world, and I was like, man,
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what the fuck?
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Now it was? I want to say, you deal with
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anxiety a lot and stuff like what you used to
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used to? Yeah, so this is that what brought on
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the cardiac wrest of that was a Oh. The anxiety
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was after.
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It was after after, yeah, yeah, after, because I was
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scared of dying again.
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It's funny even.
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Though that place was so incredible. I was still scared.
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So I get myself a fitbit and you watching my
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heart rate all day long and just trying to eat perfectly.
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Like there was a period of time I was like, okay,
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I heard this plant based vegan diet, the whole food
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diet was great. So I did that, and then they
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got another credit arrest. I was running, I was sleeping.
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Everything was meticulous as far as like that Brian Johnson
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got on YouTube, he sends millions to live forever. I
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was following a similar protocol. Gotta be a bed at a
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certain time, perfect dark, gotta eat just the right food
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at a certain time, got you know all that stuff, meditate,
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just check, check all the boxes. And it happened again.
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And thankfully I had this box in me now that
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will shock me instantly, and that scared me, and it
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also showed me I had no control. I have no control.
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Yeah, So I guess instead of losing fears because you know,
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you died once in our radio, it's like I didn't
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had the worst thing happened to me, you kind of
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gained more fears.
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Yeah yeah, this that duality or gained different fears. Yeah yeah.
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Our fears that aren't there. That's a lot of what
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anxiety is is the way our brains process memories is
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stored within our bodies. There's like the book The Body
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Keeps the Score and so, and there's another one by
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Lisa Feldman Barrett. She's up at MIT and Cornell both.
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She's brilliant and she talks about how we look at
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memories and then we compare them. Our brains do this,
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compare them to our current event. And so if the
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memory or the current event reminds us of the memory,
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the brain predicts what will happen, right, and it probably
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won't because the past is never repeated exactly the same.
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Our brains are trying to predict that. And so that's
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what's creating this mismatch and this strife and this anxiety.
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Fear creates fear right, Danger is real, right, Like fear
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is something made up with.
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You, exactly fear fear, and you weigh those out like
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you put those emotions in both hands and feel the
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weight of them. Put love and light in one hand
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and put fear in the other and feel them so
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you can have a choice. That's our superpower. Everyone has.
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This superpower is to have a choice in every moment.
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Do you feel the love of the situation or.
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Do you feel the fear?
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And you weigh that And that's how you walk one
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with God.
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Is to walk one with love.
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Every situation. Even when your mother in law is dogging
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you out for being an asshole, you's gotta look at her,
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man and be like, I love this bitch.
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Now, well, there's a couple of ways I go. Now.
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Has your relationship with your ex gotten better over the
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years or it's still pretty eumocuous?
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I got it's forgotten for me, you know. The strife
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for me is wishing the other side would just let
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go and move on with their life and fryd of
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healing they need. That's my prayer for And I have
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many exes, brother.
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But it was like the ex wife and stuff like that.
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A lot of court battles there, right, a lot of court,
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a lot of like you said, strife and that legal system.
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And yet I found peace right. And it's funny because
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for a while, the strife affects the kids. And so
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my daughter lives with me, and my son lives with
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my ex, and for a while he wouldn't talk to
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me for years and years and as I go on
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this journey of finding love, because I wasn't always this way,
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and I'm still working on it. I'm not perfect. I'm
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still working on it, but as I'm moving forward with it,
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it just heals on its own. And one night I
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was dreaming and it just a voice came out said,
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just text your son. I woke up, texted him, I
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love you, I'm here if you need me, and he
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responded for a first time in two years. So I
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was like, damn, that's cool.
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Yeah, because a lot of times you don't know what
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that's brought on by. It could be resembling that mom
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and dad aren't in the same house, or she could
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be feeding them bullshit, saying like the worst things about
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you when it's like, yes, that's not the case. Yeah,
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or it's just like, you know, I don't know how
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old he is, so I want to guess he was
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like a teenager at this point. Yeah, So it was
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like the teenage ang stuff, like you know, being angry,
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not knowing why you're angry, and not having a dad,
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you know, a father figure to look up to. Every day. Yeah,
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it's like I don't know what to do, so I'm
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just man I'm not going to talk to him. But
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then you break the ice and I was like, oh
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my god, I don't love you, dad. Just break that wall.
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Break the wall. Yeah, now you mentioned God a lot.
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Have you always been religious or this religious?
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So I was raised in the Methodist Church, and so
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I wouldn't say. I was always curious, like I would
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pray and hope, or I see this televangelist on TV
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after school. I forget his name, Bennie Hen, Bennie Hill,
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who's the comedian Bennie Hen's one's a comedian and one
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is a television evangelist.
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He'll sounds familiar, don't I'm not sure it was. First.
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I think Benny Hen is the one that's a He
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wore white suit and he'll say, I'm gonna hold my
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hands to screen and heal you.
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Bullshit, yeah exactly.
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So I'm like, okay, I have acne. So I'm gonna
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be like, all right, heal yeah, heal my acne.
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And he said, okay, now for this to work, you
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got send in a check, recommend him how ten thousand dollars?
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But whatever, you got ten thousands.
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I'm like, well, maybe you know. So I was always
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searching I would go through and I even became a
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minister then, And.
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You guys have been in no just.
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Because of my curiosity, just wanting to know more of
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this thing we call God. And I became a minister
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and went to the seminary, saw cool things happen in
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the church, and yet it still felt that the church
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overall was boxing God in and so kind of full circle.
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That's one way I got into comedy is like I
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didn't I knew of God. I was curious of God.
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Yet it felt like Jesus says these works, and greater
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shall you do. Jesus said, feed the poor, feed the hungry.
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You know all these things that Jesus said looking around,
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and it wasn't happening in the church. Blind weren't getting
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their site back the poor. Where I brought a homeless
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guy to church and to the head that's during seminary,
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and the head guy is like, Ryan, shame on you.
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And I borrowed a car to go get the guy
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to bring him the church, and the guy who owned
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the car came and yelled at me in church in front.
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Of the dude.
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He's like, dude, I'm gonad have to pay for that
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to get cleaned. It stinks so bad. I'm like, this
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is not God, this is not what Jesus was saying
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at least, And so I walked away and then downhill depression, dying,
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and then finding my way back. So I started studying
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all the different religions and all the spiritual practices, even
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Egyptian mythology, and seeing what it was. And I find
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that everyone is pointing at something. Yet we get so
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wrapped up and who's doing the pointing. Muhammad's pointing or
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Jesus is pointing. Yeah, they're pointing at something. Why are
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they pointing at? Yeah, so we could call it guy
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called it the universe, call it vibration, call it kai sciousness,
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but it's real.
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Yeah, yeah, definitely. What question about God got louder after
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you came back? Mm hmm, that's a good question.
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The thing that post in my mind is did God
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create us in his image or did we create him
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in ours?
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Mmm? That's a bar. Yeah yeah, did we create what
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we wanted him to be? Or was he actually or
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did he actually create? Yeah? Yeah, yeah yeah.
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And so what kind of opened my eyes to answer
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some of that is it's these things called the Gnostic
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text and the early stages of the church. So in
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the I don't know if you your listeners viewers know,
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Jesus talked a lot about the Sadducees and the Pharisees
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are two Jewish sects. During the time Jesus was in
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the scene, he was a different sect and the Egyptians
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called these scenes the pewtie or healers, and they believed
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in something different. And so they were also the scribes
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of the time. They were the historians, and they would
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document what would happen. And so a lot of what
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they document about Jesus was put in what's called coptic text.
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That's the type of it's an involvement from hiergarrifflics of
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the Egyptians, and so they would write it down and
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they put it on this papyrus and these scrolls like
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the Dead Sea scrolls, and they would because of the
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persecution at the time, they would hide that away because
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it was being destroyed. And so the books that we
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know Matthew, Mark, Luke, John, they were all in these texts.
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And there's other books too, such as a book from
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Mary Magdalen and Thomas. They wrote these other books and
487
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these books were found in the Cave. I think it
488
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was nineteen forty five in Egypt, and they included all
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the Gospels and these other books. And it was funny
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because Mary Magdalene was on it. The disciples saw what
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Jesus was saying as literal, like there's a kingdom that
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we're going to inherit, and yet Mary Magdalene says, the
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kingdom is here, it's within you. And even as funny
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because they made a movie about those books with Jaquin Phoenix.
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He played Jesus. The movie is called Mary Magdalene, Oh okay,
496
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and Joaquin Phoenix plays Jesus, And so a lot of
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that is contradictory with some of what pause saying. I'm
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you may remember my comedy thing about taking the Bible
499
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and ripping pages out.
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I remember that some wild ship on stage. I was
501
00:27:42.599 --> 00:27:45.759
like this motherfucker. Guys like if he can stick to landing,
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he got some.
503
00:27:46.960 --> 00:27:49.839
Yeah, yeah, and often there was no landing.
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00:27:50.000 --> 00:27:52.039
Yeah it was. It was. It was a lot of
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freestyle ship that you did up there. It was like,
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I don't because I remember one showcase we did. We
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was like I'm gonna go up there and wing it.
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I was like, you sure, he was like I got
509
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and you started doing that shit, you started ripping pages
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out the Bible and just yeah, yeah it was it
511
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got crazy.
512
00:28:06.240 --> 00:28:10.079
Yeah yeah. I remember these these this group of black
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women on the front row. They're a church, you know,
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they're from a church, and they were not happy.
515
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You can't do that, desecrate the Bible right in front
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of me, right right.
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It's funny how we get so wrapped up in just
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paper mm hmm. But words on paper.
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00:28:27.680 --> 00:28:29.559
What a sacred text is holy text? And how dare
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you white man do that?
521
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Exactly exactly. And it's funny because someone else told them
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to believe those words of Paul, Like Jesus never never
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said in order to get to heaven, you needed to
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believe that I died for your sins, confess my name
525
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m He never said that. Jesus didn't say paid tied.
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Jesus didn't say you got to x y Z. Paul,
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who's a lover of the law and was persecuting people,
528
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killing them and beating them and putting them in jail
529
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for the law, said oh this Jesus things.
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I like it.
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Man. So here's my version.
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See that's why I don't fuck with religion. The way
533
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I do is because the way you'll be playing with
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00:29:11.480 --> 00:29:13.440
Jesus in my face, where it's like you got to
535
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go to church, you got to present a certain way,
536
00:29:15.119 --> 00:29:16.599
you got to offer tithes, you got to get you
537
00:29:16.599 --> 00:29:19.759
got to do all this unnecessary shift for somebody that's omnipresent.
538
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Like I don't get why I need to go to church.
539
00:29:21.799 --> 00:29:23.759
I don't get why I need to you know, give
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you give this physical form money. It's just a certain
541
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And then it's like we can't even agree on how
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the motherfucker look, let alone like what we should believe
543
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and what we shouldn't. What's sacred was not Old Testament
544
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News test I'm like, listen, it's too much for me
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if I die and I get to meet it him,
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whatever it is, this higher being. Like I believe in
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the Higher Power. I just don't believe in what y'all
548
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been force feeding me.
549
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Yeah, that's it, man. And at the end of the day,
550
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one of my favorite verses and psalms just be still
551
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and know that I am Lord, or be still know
552
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I am God m And it talks about that still
553
00:30:02.680 --> 00:30:07.960
small voice, right, because a lot of times church TikTok
554
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people at home, family members, they're loud, man, they're loud.
555
00:30:12.599 --> 00:30:16.200
Even your inner voice sometimes loud says you're no good,
556
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you can't do this, blah blah blah. Yeah, if you
557
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just sit still and listen, there's this quiet voice that
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says anything as possible because I love you and this
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is all for you. This is your playground. Have fun
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and know that you're loved.
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Right, That's what I try to tell my kids and
562
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my friends sometime when they're like spiraling, I'm like, all right,
563
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let's stop, all right, let's calm down, let's forget everything.
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Just sit and let's just censor how we're feeling right now,
565
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and then let's take one thing, one step at a time,
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one thing at a time, and then we can move
567
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from there. That's all this, Like I gotta do this
568
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right now. Oh but this is in a way, or
569
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I owe this, or this needs fixing. I'm like, okay,
570
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just stop. It's relaxed because the stress, this anxiety ain't
571
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gonna do nobody no good. Right, Let's just fucking be still.
572
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Let's stay with our thoughts, let's take let's take it
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one one step of one day at a time, one
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week at a time, whatever we gotta do. Let's just
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do that and not do what you've been doing. Yeah.
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Yeah, So as that pattern interrupt, and I wonder I
577
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would love to see a study of this, because right
578
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now as we're talking, you got the people here putting
579
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on this nice music in their headphones. I don't know
580
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if anyone listening can hear it, but.
581
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I'm I mean in the playback they won't.
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But yeah, but so I got this nice music. It's
583
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a nice welcoming environment, it's safe space. So I'm wondering
584
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if a study theoretically, I think I know what would happen.
585
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You have a group of people that go to a church,
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pick any church you want, and then you have a
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people group of people that come in here and just
588
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close your eyes and listen to this music m and
589
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over the course of let's say a month. Compare those
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two people who will be more godlike when you meet
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them on the street.
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Right because their censored, they're come, they know themselves, They've
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had conversation with themselves. I don't think enough people have
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like an inner monologue, like I don't. I don't, I
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don't think.
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So they have a sometimes that inner monologue.
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Just as shit. Sometimes it's shit. Sometimes sometimes it help
598
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you in more ways than you know. Now. Is this
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something that you used to preach that you now see differently?
600
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Oh yeah, man, I mean I used to preach all
601
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the stuff is the dividing right, like you need to
602
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pay your tithes or you're going out a hell. Even
603
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the church, one of the church I belong to, is
604
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talking to women like you have to listen to the man,
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you have to be straight, you can't wear makeup, you
606
00:32:51.039 --> 00:32:55.599
can't watch movies with f bombs in it, all these rules, man,
607
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And I used to preach that. And it's funny though,
608
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because as I look back on the time as a preacher,
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there was two scenarios. One would be I would do
610
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hardcore studying, look up the original Greek of the word,
611
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look up the Hebrew, like really analyze it, and I
612
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present that and to the church and it's just be
613
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a dead service. And yet when I went and I
614
00:33:20.440 --> 00:33:26.319
just felt this peace. Something I wrote down, just maybe
615
00:33:26.400 --> 00:33:28.480
a verse that spoke to me. I got there, so
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I was like, I don't know where this is going,
617
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but something telling me say this verse and just talk
618
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on it. And I get chills now thinking about it,
619
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because people would be healed. People would be moved, lives
620
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would be made better, And it wasn't my words as
621
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words coming from me. It's like when God told Moses
622
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go speak in front of Pharaoh. And now keep in
623
00:33:50.039 --> 00:33:54.200
mind Moses had a stutter, all right, so you know
624
00:33:54.279 --> 00:33:56.920
he's already overthinking it. I got to talk to the
625
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most important man in the world who's holding my people captive.
626
00:34:03.680 --> 00:34:05.720
I'm just going to go talk to him because God
627
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told me to talk to him.
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So what do I say?
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You know, if I would you me and I'll go
630
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talk to the most important person to let my people
631
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out of slavery, I'll be like, okay, So bullet point one. Now,
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God said, don't even think about what you're gonna say.
633
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Just go up there and just open your mouth and
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I'll speak to you.
635
00:34:26.400 --> 00:34:30.280
Now, what advice aged the worst? What? What advice aged
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the worst? What advice age is the worst? Age of
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the worst? Like that that you gave to somebody or
638
00:34:35.199 --> 00:34:39.000
somebody gave to you in the church, or a word
639
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something that just after a while you're like, no, I
640
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don't really cling on it, just the way I did
641
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it in the beginning.
642
00:34:46.760 --> 00:34:50.599
Man, I think I was always cool with saying I
643
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don't know, so I don't have a recollection of what advice.
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It'd be more modern, like even.
645
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Was a great answer, Yeah, because like pontificating like no,
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I'm gonna just pull something out there like no, I
647
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don't know, I can't recall right now this.
648
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Yeah, well even in the moment, like when you ask
649
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that question, I'm thinking about people that I've sat with.
650
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They've come to me, like one in particular. For whatever reason,
651
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this the first thing came my mind. Is this man
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who just felt like he was never perfect because his
653
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mom felt like he was never perfect. She'd be always like,
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you're getting straight a is, but you're not trying hard enough,
655
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you know, just be always on his ass. And here
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he is, grown as a man away from his mom,
657
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and still he has his mom with him telling him
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that he's not good enough. And I'll recall quoting a
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specific like dogma like well if you like bow five
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times and crawl on your hands and knees and do this,
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you know that's even then, I felt like I don't
662
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know what's going on, but I do know that God
663
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loves you, and that's that's always been who I am saying.
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I don't know the answers what I do know is
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just this little piece of truth within me.
666
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Now do you feel like you were I guess chosen
667
00:36:13.519 --> 00:36:15.960
because you ever think of like why do these thoughts
668
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come to me? Why do I feel compelled to speak
669
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the way I do? Why? Like just why? Why? Me? Why?
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And why this lifetimes?
671
00:36:24.719 --> 00:36:28.400
Sometimes I more look at others, Like on my podcast,
672
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I have people come on doing some incredible things, and
673
00:36:32.239 --> 00:36:36.039
this one woman there's like the lineage of healers. And
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then so for instance, it's one man, he's just old man.
675
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He just puts his hand on your shoulders and puts
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his hands one side on each of your ears, doesn't
677
00:36:45.679 --> 00:36:47.840
even touch your ears, just puts them there like an energy.
678
00:36:48.360 --> 00:36:51.039
And then he says, have a good trip, and you like,
679
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for forty five minutes you go on the psychedelic experience
680
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just from him saying have a good trip. I don't
681
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understand it. I don't understand Let's go there. Yeah, people
682
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like Jesus, like miracles come from this dude. Like there's
683
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a church in Montreal where he was and there's crutches outside,
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and he doesn't show it like that guy was watching
685
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growing up. He doesn't charge like it's like back then
686
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it was maybe forty bucks. Forty bucks for a forty
687
00:37:19.880 --> 00:37:25.239
five minute experience, and people were healed of cancer. Someone
688
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said he even rose the guy from the dead. I
689
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don't know if that's true or not, because I mean,
690
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whatever it is.
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Was it like.
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00:37:33.599 --> 00:37:36.159
Hands on and the story of that was he just.
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Kevin did this shit. He started a car with his hands.
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You know, I don't know what to believe no.
695
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More, Yeah, exactly. I don't know, though. There are enough
696
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people saying similar stories about this person, and so the
697
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question in my mind is can anyone be able to
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heal like that? And That's where I'm at with this
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hypnosis stuff, is I think anyone can. And there's just
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something like, for instance, in reiki, did the thing where
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you put your hand over someone and heal them. They
702
00:38:07.480 --> 00:38:10.559
did the study and they're like, okay, well you know
703
00:38:10.599 --> 00:38:13.079
the placebo effects, So you can't do the study on
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people because they have done studies with people. You put
705
00:38:16.000 --> 00:38:20.280
your hands on them and they heal but percentage. And
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then they're like, well, what if we did on mice,
707
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so they inject the mouse with cancer or something, I
708
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will expedite the cancer. They will get cancer. And so
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they had some mice over here and some mice over here,
710
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and they did their hand on healing. Send them just
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loving thoughts. I send you, little mousey man, little mickey mouse,
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thoughts of love and light. And you know what, those
713
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mice were cure. Not all of them, but a lot
714
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of them had spontaneous remission of their tumors. Mice doesn't
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know what you're doing, but yet they can.
716
00:38:58.519 --> 00:38:59.119
I feel better.
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00:38:59.440 --> 00:39:04.480
Yeah, yeah, I don't know, man, and yet anyone can
718
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do it.
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Right. It's I think it's.
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Holding that love and that fear. You talk about that
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fear and if you sent to yourself and just hold someone.
722
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Because again going back to this guy named Jesus, right,
723
00:39:17.719 --> 00:39:20.119
it's funny how when you look at Jesus first, you
724
00:39:20.199 --> 00:39:23.480
take away Paul and just look at Jesus. It makes
725
00:39:23.519 --> 00:39:26.519
a lot more sense because she does didn't teach all
726
00:39:26.559 --> 00:39:29.400
this stuff that Paul says, like, oh, if this couple
727
00:39:29.480 --> 00:39:31.199
is fighting, kick him out of the church. You know,
728
00:39:31.280 --> 00:39:35.159
he's all these rules and regulations that he established. And
729
00:39:35.239 --> 00:39:40.400
yet Jesus said, just be love, be present, be the
730
00:39:40.480 --> 00:39:41.599
voice of God on earth.
731
00:39:42.159 --> 00:39:45.239
Now, what got you to hypnosis? What? Well? Before I
732
00:39:45.280 --> 00:39:48.039
ask that, what do people misunderstand about hypnosis.
733
00:39:48.599 --> 00:39:53.639
Oh yeah, I think a lot of people are scared
734
00:39:53.679 --> 00:39:54.880
that it's mind control.
735
00:39:56.400 --> 00:39:58.119
Yeah, that's what I think most of the time. Yeah,
736
00:39:58.159 --> 00:40:00.519
where it's like, oh, makeing somebody do from bark like
737
00:40:00.519 --> 00:40:02.760
a dog and he was like, okay, right, that type
738
00:40:02.760 --> 00:40:03.559
of shit that.
739
00:40:03.559 --> 00:40:06.519
Is so entertaining entertainment. Because there's another friend of mine,
740
00:40:06.800 --> 00:40:09.960
Richard Barker says he went on Good Morning America and
741
00:40:10.480 --> 00:40:13.239
Al Roker. The first time he couldn't get Al Roker
742
00:40:13.320 --> 00:40:16.400
to go. The second visit Al Roker every time he
743
00:40:16.440 --> 00:40:21.159
said weather Aroker with how how like you're a wolf
744
00:40:21.199 --> 00:40:22.960
at the moon. And then so he's like, hey, oh
745
00:40:22.960 --> 00:40:27.199
what do you do? I'm a weather ran Now see
746
00:40:27.199 --> 00:40:28.199
I don't be knowing shit like that.
747
00:40:28.199 --> 00:40:29.960
It's fate where like people just going along with the
748
00:40:30.000 --> 00:40:32.239
bid or it's just like that's really like some like
749
00:40:32.280 --> 00:40:34.519
I did that, and I'm making you do that until
750
00:40:34.559 --> 00:40:35.840
I say stop right.
751
00:40:36.000 --> 00:40:39.039
And then here's the funny thing. It's a hypnotist, isn't
752
00:40:39.079 --> 00:40:42.840
a puppet master. You're the puppet master. I'm just giving
753
00:40:42.880 --> 00:40:45.679
you suggestions on how to get there, and people are
754
00:40:45.920 --> 00:40:49.960
automatically and this is I kin to this. In comedy,
755
00:40:50.000 --> 00:40:54.159
for instance, people are always in a trance of sort right,
756
00:40:54.679 --> 00:40:57.400
And so my theory back then doing comedy was people
757
00:40:57.440 --> 00:41:00.639
come to the show in the trance already. Either they
758
00:41:00.679 --> 00:41:03.079
got in a fight with their spouse or the partner,
759
00:41:03.159 --> 00:41:05.760
they couldn't find parking, they're running late, they got bills
760
00:41:05.800 --> 00:41:09.599
to pay. Then there's this loop. That's what's happening in
761
00:41:09.639 --> 00:41:13.400
the brain. Is this loop of the thoughts we think
762
00:41:13.440 --> 00:41:16.800
today are the same thoughts we had yesterday, Yeah, and
763
00:41:16.880 --> 00:41:19.559
the day before. It's the same shit. And so my
764
00:41:19.679 --> 00:41:22.760
idea was, what if we break the trance at the door,
765
00:41:23.440 --> 00:41:27.000
shake their hands, laugh with them, joke around, and all
766
00:41:27.000 --> 00:41:29.159
of a sudden they're like, oh this is weird and unexpected,
767
00:41:30.079 --> 00:41:32.239
and all of a sudden the show, the comedy show
768
00:41:32.280 --> 00:41:34.440
does a whole lot better. People will be asking me
769
00:41:34.519 --> 00:41:36.800
on some of my shows I produce, like I don't
770
00:41:36.840 --> 00:41:39.480
know how you do it right. It's like, well I
771
00:41:39.519 --> 00:41:42.440
don't either. The just know, break their trans at the
772
00:41:42.480 --> 00:41:43.679
door and then they have a good time.
773
00:41:43.880 --> 00:41:46.079
M hm. Yes, it seems it seems like that. You,
774
00:41:46.159 --> 00:41:47.760
like I said in the in the beginning, you seem
775
00:41:47.800 --> 00:41:53.159
like a genuine nice person and you were I want
776
00:41:53.159 --> 00:41:56.360
to say bread for something like this, but you're you're needed,
777
00:41:56.679 --> 00:42:01.800
whereas like we're all in our thought we you know,
778
00:42:01.960 --> 00:42:03.760
had to have that fear where we go into something
779
00:42:03.800 --> 00:42:05.960
with a preconceived notion and you just come and just
780
00:42:06.000 --> 00:42:07.840
break that cycle, like hey, let me just throw this
781
00:42:07.920 --> 00:42:10.119
ropelock and hey, you know how you doing? Make him laugh?
782
00:42:10.159 --> 00:42:11.880
Do this, that and the third, and it just sends
783
00:42:11.920 --> 00:42:16.199
you off into like a more tranquil I guess, happier state.
784
00:42:16.760 --> 00:42:19.679
Happier state. Yeah, I mean we all we're all searching
785
00:42:19.679 --> 00:42:22.559
for like happiness every day. We want that dopamine high,
786
00:42:22.599 --> 00:42:24.800
but we want it constantly. But it's just like life
787
00:42:24.840 --> 00:42:26.599
don't work out like that. But then you come in
788
00:42:26.679 --> 00:42:29.320
and provide that dopamine high, whether it be for a
789
00:42:29.360 --> 00:42:31.360
second or be for the next few days. It was
790
00:42:31.440 --> 00:42:33.719
like that guy, he really made an impression on me, Yeah,
791
00:42:33.920 --> 00:42:36.360
somehow someway, like whether he just he just said hi
792
00:42:36.480 --> 00:42:38.079
when I was feeling down, or he made me laugh
793
00:42:38.079 --> 00:42:39.840
when I didn't feel like fucking laughing. Yeah.
794
00:42:39.920 --> 00:42:41.199
Yeah, so that's it man.
795
00:42:41.320 --> 00:42:41.559
Yeah.
796
00:42:41.679 --> 00:42:44.119
And you say, how did that get into noosis? It's
797
00:42:44.119 --> 00:42:47.559
all from that point of death threat. Well, really, even
798
00:42:47.599 --> 00:42:50.559
in childhood, like I remember being eight years old and
799
00:42:51.400 --> 00:42:54.480
you know I was. I didn't have a you know,
800
00:42:54.519 --> 00:42:58.400
there's moments that were rough, like being sexually abused, being
801
00:42:58.480 --> 00:43:02.119
like drugged down against my will, grab either arm and
802
00:43:02.320 --> 00:43:03.480
pulled into the basement.
803
00:43:03.599 --> 00:43:07.119
You know, like, yeah that was shit, you like so
804
00:43:07.119 --> 00:43:10.599
so real quick. Yeah, the ship used to joke about
805
00:43:10.960 --> 00:43:15.280
it wasn't funny. It was just very jarring and very honest,
806
00:43:15.400 --> 00:43:17.519
and I felt like you wanted the people to join
807
00:43:17.599 --> 00:43:20.599
in on this, like you purposely made people uncomfortable without
808
00:43:20.639 --> 00:43:22.880
having a punchline a lot of the times. And I
809
00:43:22.960 --> 00:43:24.320
was just like, yo, what the fuck is Like you
810
00:43:24.360 --> 00:43:29.440
would joke about molestation, I guess, rape, suicide, fucking something
811
00:43:29.480 --> 00:43:32.719
about the Marines, and I was, what the fuck is
812
00:43:32.760 --> 00:43:36.440
Wen doing? What's happening? It was like I think you
813
00:43:36.480 --> 00:43:38.480
said you witnes somebody suicide or something like that or
814
00:43:38.679 --> 00:43:40.960
like something. I don't know. I'll let you take a story.
815
00:43:41.079 --> 00:43:43.440
But it was the most jarring ship where I was like,
816
00:43:44.440 --> 00:43:46.360
I don't know what brand of commedy this is, but
817
00:43:46.400 --> 00:43:48.320
I'm along for the ride until he figures it out.
818
00:43:49.119 --> 00:43:50.519
Like I was, I was trying to figure it out.
819
00:43:50.559 --> 00:43:51.840
I was trying to be with you. But once you
820
00:43:51.880 --> 00:43:54.000
got into like I guess his name was Mike the guy.
821
00:43:55.440 --> 00:43:56.880
Oh yeah, Mike.
822
00:43:57.599 --> 00:44:03.480
I was like, what the fuck is happening? Yeah, yeah,
823
00:44:03.519 --> 00:44:03.840
it was.
824
00:44:03.960 --> 00:44:08.599
It was Yeah, I'm sorry that dude. That dude's I
825
00:44:08.639 --> 00:44:12.599
think he's dead now. Oh he had brutally murdered his
826
00:44:12.679 --> 00:44:15.360
wife and was in jail. I think he ended up
827
00:44:15.360 --> 00:44:16.400
getting killed in jail.
828
00:44:18.400 --> 00:44:19.239
Yeah, but yeah.
829
00:44:19.280 --> 00:44:24.440
So we talked about the darkness early on in childhood,
830
00:44:24.480 --> 00:44:28.519
and yet somehow the light found me. I remember finding
831
00:44:28.519 --> 00:44:33.760
these cassettes is plastic and peeling the plastic open and
832
00:44:33.800 --> 00:44:36.519
the cassettes were embedded in the plastic, and he pulled
833
00:44:36.559 --> 00:44:38.719
him out as Tony Robbins Man, and I just listened
834
00:44:38.760 --> 00:44:41.559
to that over and over, awakened the giant within and
835
00:44:41.639 --> 00:44:43.960
all that good stuff. And I guess that was kind
836
00:44:43.960 --> 00:44:46.719
of programming me too, like is there a way to
837
00:44:46.880 --> 00:44:50.639
escape the darkness? Like I didn't have control someone dragging
838
00:44:50.679 --> 00:44:53.920
me into the basement, but I did have a control
839
00:44:54.159 --> 00:44:58.480
over the light which I saw. And it reminds me
840
00:44:58.519 --> 00:45:00.840
of Victor Frankel and writing the man Search for a
841
00:45:00.880 --> 00:45:03.639
Meeting in the book where he was in the concentration camp,
842
00:45:03.679 --> 00:45:06.280
and the same thing, like how you find love and
843
00:45:06.400 --> 00:45:10.880
lightness and happiness in the concentration camp, same type of thing,
844
00:45:11.679 --> 00:45:12.559
finding your meaning.
845
00:45:13.280 --> 00:45:15.280
Now you talk about that so candidly, like how did
846
00:45:15.360 --> 00:45:17.920
you reach this point of where you can, I guess,
847
00:45:17.920 --> 00:45:21.159
talk about it openly and not feel a shame, not
848
00:45:21.280 --> 00:45:23.239
feel abandon not feel.
849
00:45:22.920 --> 00:45:25.719
Like, yeah, you know, like someone programming should have been
850
00:45:25.800 --> 00:45:26.360
to protect me.
851
00:45:27.119 --> 00:45:28.480
Yeah, right, it's.
852
00:45:28.320 --> 00:45:33.719
That programming, that programming. So even like the story in
853
00:45:33.800 --> 00:45:36.119
my head is I remember telling my dad that this
854
00:45:36.280 --> 00:45:39.199
was going on and he's just in shock and didn't
855
00:45:39.239 --> 00:45:39.719
believe it.
856
00:45:40.239 --> 00:45:41.440
And he didn't believe it.
857
00:45:41.239 --> 00:45:43.760
It continued to go on, or even like I remember
858
00:45:43.920 --> 00:45:46.280
one day the garage door was open and there's a
859
00:45:46.360 --> 00:45:49.159
lady walking across the street and I was screaming, help me,
860
00:45:49.599 --> 00:45:53.400
help me, and the dude grabbed my arm and pulled
861
00:45:53.400 --> 00:45:55.079
me into the basement and the lady just looked and
862
00:45:55.159 --> 00:45:57.719
kept walking. I was like, damn, you know, we could
863
00:45:57.760 --> 00:46:03.119
sit and stew over that. And part of memories. Memories
864
00:46:03.119 --> 00:46:06.360
are never one hundred percent accurate, never.
865
00:46:06.440 --> 00:46:08.800
Never, So the way you remember is may not be.
866
00:46:08.840 --> 00:46:11.079
It just may be a traumatic response to how your
867
00:46:11.119 --> 00:46:13.719
brain wants you to remember, So it doesn't ye fuck
868
00:46:13.760 --> 00:46:15.800
you up completely the way your brain just.
869
00:46:16.519 --> 00:46:20.239
Yeah, and for a moment, and other things might trigger me,
870
00:46:20.320 --> 00:46:22.079
like I might see a lady walk across the street
871
00:46:22.079 --> 00:46:24.159
in the garage doors open, and maybe they'll trigger me.
872
00:46:24.880 --> 00:46:31.320
Yet we can reprogram those memories. And by reprogramming, it's like, man,
873
00:46:31.360 --> 00:46:34.360
how do I phrase this? Like just looking at it differently,
874
00:46:34.400 --> 00:46:36.679
looking at this was a lesson and this made me
875
00:46:36.719 --> 00:46:39.679
who I am, And this made me have sympathy on
876
00:46:39.920 --> 00:46:43.559
people that aren't where I'm at right now, and that
877
00:46:43.599 --> 00:46:46.920
everyone deserves love. Even if I can't physically be there
878
00:46:47.360 --> 00:46:50.079
and love them, I can send love and it does work.
879
00:46:51.360 --> 00:46:54.639
Like they did this experiment where this group of people
880
00:46:54.719 --> 00:46:57.400
were in Philadelphia and they gathered together to send love
881
00:46:57.440 --> 00:47:02.360
to Washington, d C. And during the time that they
882
00:47:02.400 --> 00:47:03.519
were sending love.
883
00:47:03.360 --> 00:47:05.760
To Washington, DC, they looked at the stats.
884
00:47:06.920 --> 00:47:10.400
Folent crime was down, rape was down, murder was down.
885
00:47:11.119 --> 00:47:15.639
It's like no one sent a memo to DC and said, hey,
886
00:47:15.639 --> 00:47:22.559
exactly exactly. It's just there's something about when people gathered together, like, yes,
887
00:47:22.639 --> 00:47:26.440
you can be effective on your own, yet gathering together
888
00:47:26.519 --> 00:47:29.119
and holding space like we are here now in the studio.
889
00:47:29.320 --> 00:47:32.159
It's a gathering of spirits and we're sending love right
890
00:47:32.320 --> 00:47:34.760
just a mass of love. Just we're sending it that way.
891
00:47:35.400 --> 00:47:37.960
Hopefully it reaches there and it has a positive effect,
892
00:47:38.039 --> 00:47:40.679
or just you know, we see something from it.
893
00:47:40.800 --> 00:47:45.840
And it changes. It literally changes. And a lot of
894
00:47:45.840 --> 00:47:47.599
people are like, well, if God exists, and why this
895
00:47:47.679 --> 00:47:51.719
war exist, It's because we created it. Anytime you're stuck
896
00:47:51.719 --> 00:47:54.239
in traffic or pissed off at someone, you're sending hate
897
00:47:54.360 --> 00:47:58.840
out into the universe. Yeah, and that hate accumulates and
898
00:47:58.960 --> 00:47:59.679
forums war.
899
00:48:00.079 --> 00:48:00.480
Mm hmm.
900
00:48:01.159 --> 00:48:01.920
Look at Gandhi.
901
00:48:02.000 --> 00:48:02.239
Man.
902
00:48:02.960 --> 00:48:06.639
The English Empire was in there with weapons, and this
903
00:48:06.920 --> 00:48:11.000
motherfucker was just like, I'm gonna love you man, and
904
00:48:11.039 --> 00:48:15.159
they left. I have no idea how that happened. How
905
00:48:15.159 --> 00:48:17.320
do you get people in an army of people with
906
00:48:17.519 --> 00:48:21.960
weapons to leave your country you don't have any weapons.
907
00:48:21.519 --> 00:48:27.039
Like, yeah, I'm just all right, he said. He said, no, okay, goodbye.
908
00:48:27.159 --> 00:48:29.760
Yeah, yeah, we'll leave your resources alone. Now what happened?
909
00:48:29.760 --> 00:48:30.519
Why did and take it over?
910
00:48:30.599 --> 00:48:35.000
He said, no, exactly exactly, it's beyond their understanding.
911
00:48:35.079 --> 00:48:38.800
But the works. Now, do you think that those situations
912
00:48:38.840 --> 00:48:41.199
made you I guess the love and the light that
913
00:48:41.239 --> 00:48:43.320
you are to other people where it's like you wanted
914
00:48:43.320 --> 00:48:46.960
to I guess you wanted to, you know, take a
915
00:48:47.000 --> 00:48:50.480
negative and turn into a positive. Well, I wasn't loved
916
00:48:50.599 --> 00:48:52.480
or protected. I want to be that for other people.
917
00:48:52.960 --> 00:48:54.480
At first I was going to say I don't know,
918
00:48:55.880 --> 00:49:01.079
and now the question resonates with looking back, I realized
919
00:49:01.119 --> 00:49:04.519
that through it all, like I've always been loved.
920
00:49:04.960 --> 00:49:06.280
M The way.
921
00:49:06.360 --> 00:49:08.199
The phrase I like to say is the universe has
922
00:49:08.239 --> 00:49:11.280
always had my back, and I believe it's always has
923
00:49:11.320 --> 00:49:13.880
your back. You're sitting here today, You've been through some
924
00:49:13.920 --> 00:49:16.719
hard shit and you've gotten through it.
925
00:49:17.199 --> 00:49:18.559
Yeah, and now.
926
00:49:18.480 --> 00:49:21.679
Look you're sitting in the studio. It's cold outside, it's
927
00:49:21.800 --> 00:49:22.719
cozy inside.
928
00:49:22.840 --> 00:49:23.119
M HM.
929
00:49:24.119 --> 00:49:27.840
People around here are just engaged and interested and feeling
930
00:49:27.840 --> 00:49:28.400
the vibe.
931
00:49:29.159 --> 00:49:29.360
Yeah.
932
00:49:29.400 --> 00:49:31.920
You never know if you're feeling goosebomb. I don't know.
933
00:49:32.199 --> 00:49:33.760
You never know if you're going to get through it
934
00:49:33.880 --> 00:49:35.599
or when you're going to get through it. But somehow,
935
00:49:36.079 --> 00:49:38.199
once you look back on it, you just like, oh shit,
936
00:49:38.440 --> 00:49:41.400
that that that did happen. And now I'm here, know
937
00:49:41.440 --> 00:49:43.119
how it happened. I just took a day by day.
938
00:49:43.000 --> 00:49:44.639
And hopefully you learn something about it.
939
00:49:45.079 --> 00:49:48.039
I mean, hopefully everything you go through you take a
940
00:49:48.079 --> 00:49:49.800
little bit of something from it, you know, be a
941
00:49:49.880 --> 00:49:52.920
you know, good, bad, or indifferent. You take something that
942
00:49:53.039 --> 00:49:57.519
carries with you the rest of your life. Now, you
943
00:49:57.519 --> 00:50:02.679
were a marine, Now what made you go into the army? What?
944
00:50:02.800 --> 00:50:05.119
What the fuck made you want to be a marine?
945
00:50:05.920 --> 00:50:09.719
Yeah, so that's a funny story. In high school, I
946
00:50:09.800 --> 00:50:13.800
was really into politics, especially being a Republican Rush Limball.
947
00:50:14.519 --> 00:50:20.440
I was official dittohead. I was campaigning for George Bush
948
00:50:20.760 --> 00:50:23.840
door knocking as a kid, saying you vote for this dude,
949
00:50:24.639 --> 00:50:27.000
like into it And I wanted to be just like
950
00:50:27.159 --> 00:50:31.199
JD Vance's Now. I wanted to be a guy from Ohio,
951
00:50:31.599 --> 00:50:36.039
join the Marines, go into legal and become a US senator.
952
00:50:36.639 --> 00:50:40.119
That was what I wanted to do. And I got
953
00:50:40.159 --> 00:50:43.000
into Ohio State University. I wanted to get an education.
954
00:50:43.440 --> 00:50:44.559
Originally you're from Ohio.
955
00:50:45.000 --> 00:50:48.679
Yeah, and then my dad's like this late sued me,
956
00:50:48.760 --> 00:50:51.199
got a file bankruptcy, and I didn't know I could
957
00:50:51.199 --> 00:50:52.519
still go to college. But I was like, oh, I
958
00:50:52.559 --> 00:50:54.800
don't know what the fuck I'm going to do. I
959
00:50:54.840 --> 00:50:58.920
was sitting at home playing Minecraft on my computer, listening
960
00:50:58.960 --> 00:51:02.960
to Rod Stewart just chilling and the recruiter ring ring ring.
961
00:51:03.039 --> 00:51:05.000
I pick up the phone and like one of the
962
00:51:05.000 --> 00:51:09.719
first questions, he asks how much do you weigh? Like,
963
00:51:10.159 --> 00:51:11.920
I don't know. I told him while they waited, and
964
00:51:11.960 --> 00:51:14.119
he's like, oh, you're a big dude, you must be
965
00:51:14.239 --> 00:51:18.599
a superstar football start, you know, buffing me up. I'm like, oh,
966
00:51:18.679 --> 00:51:21.960
this makes me feel good. And then before I start,
967
00:51:22.039 --> 00:51:23.920
you know, I'm like, imagine, I remember they had the
968
00:51:23.960 --> 00:51:26.079
swords on the bat on the trucks, you know, the
969
00:51:26.119 --> 00:51:29.199
few the proud, and you get the sword man and
970
00:51:29.239 --> 00:51:33.159
those sharp blue uniforms with the blood stripe on it.
971
00:51:33.719 --> 00:51:36.079
I'm like, man, I would look badass in that.
972
00:51:37.199 --> 00:51:37.840
And that's it.
973
00:51:37.960 --> 00:51:41.280
I signed up for the uniform man and the.
974
00:51:42.159 --> 00:51:43.400
I just want to look good for a second.
975
00:51:44.079 --> 00:51:49.000
Yeah. And then all throughout people are saying, you know,
976
00:51:49.079 --> 00:51:51.599
the Marines is tough, right, Yeah. And then they showed
977
00:51:51.599 --> 00:51:54.039
me these boot camp videos. I'm like, man, that looks gnarly.
978
00:51:54.239 --> 00:51:57.239
Or they show me full metal jacket. Yeah, I'm like,
979
00:51:58.320 --> 00:52:01.079
and funny enough, full metal jack. That's where I went
980
00:52:01.119 --> 00:52:03.880
to boot camp. That was the actual Paaras Island and
981
00:52:03.960 --> 00:52:07.519
they actually filmed that. So they have these like sewer
982
00:52:07.559 --> 00:52:09.960
lines up above, just like the power lines. They're not
983
00:52:10.000 --> 00:52:12.840
in the ground because it's like swamp man. So the
984
00:52:12.960 --> 00:52:17.559
sewer lines are above ground there. Yeah, brick buildings, househole.
985
00:52:18.519 --> 00:52:25.159
I imagine. Yeah, Now what what marine lesson do you?
986
00:52:25.320 --> 00:52:27.599
I guess still shows up in your daily mindset?
987
00:52:29.159 --> 00:52:33.320
Yeah, embrace the suck. Yeah, the Marines are good about
988
00:52:33.360 --> 00:52:34.360
embracing the suck.
989
00:52:35.239 --> 00:52:36.719
Explain that. What is embrace the sun?
990
00:52:38.440 --> 00:52:41.400
The thing that comes to my mind is it's raining
991
00:52:42.039 --> 00:52:45.639
and I'm sitting in literally sitting in mud in the
992
00:52:45.679 --> 00:52:50.639
middle of the woods or like not woods, like tropical right,
993
00:52:50.760 --> 00:52:55.320
m just mine soonish and you dug out a foxhole
994
00:52:55.960 --> 00:52:59.079
and you're sitting in and you're just sitting in mud.
995
00:52:59.559 --> 00:53:01.760
And then you get this meal and you open it up.
996
00:53:01.800 --> 00:53:04.000
It's just crap and it falls in the mud and
997
00:53:04.039 --> 00:53:08.079
you're eating the food that's in the mud. That's embracing
998
00:53:08.119 --> 00:53:08.760
the suck.
999
00:53:10.159 --> 00:53:16.960
Just like some shit I gotta do. Right, that's crazy.
1000
00:53:16.320 --> 00:53:19.280
Do the preacher and marine and comedian ever argue in
1001
00:53:19.320 --> 00:53:20.760
your head? Like, do you ever?
1002
00:53:21.199 --> 00:53:25.079
That's a funny question because lately I've been on this
1003
00:53:25.159 --> 00:53:27.360
thing inside of each of us is what we call
1004
00:53:27.480 --> 00:53:31.719
ego states, or another way to look at is internal
1005
00:53:31.760 --> 00:53:35.360
family system, Like we have a family within us. You've
1006
00:53:35.360 --> 00:53:39.960
heard of I have that small kid and me child, yeah,
1007
00:53:40.199 --> 00:53:43.880
exactly exactly. And so sometimes those parts want to do
1008
00:53:43.920 --> 00:53:47.559
different things, like, for instance, maybe a part of me
1009
00:53:47.679 --> 00:53:49.719
wants to come on this podcast and another part of
1010
00:53:49.760 --> 00:53:53.719
me want to go home and play Pokemon. Right, there
1011
00:53:53.719 --> 00:53:58.559
are different parts of me, and then it's coming to
1012
00:53:58.639 --> 00:54:01.199
one with those parts saying I could be on the
1013
00:54:01.239 --> 00:54:02.920
podcast and play Pokemon.
1014
00:54:03.280 --> 00:54:05.679
Yeah, yeah, I've still got time on my day. I
1015
00:54:05.679 --> 00:54:09.519
could do this and go yeah, just do that exactly exactly.
1016
00:54:09.679 --> 00:54:13.159
So it's more of like being able to negotiate. That's
1017
00:54:13.159 --> 00:54:16.239
a hostage situation. Sometimes there's parts of you that are
1018
00:54:16.280 --> 00:54:18.239
afraid to come out because it wounded, such as a
1019
00:54:18.400 --> 00:54:22.639
part of me before, and it goes outside. Kind of
1020
00:54:22.800 --> 00:54:25.440
skipped the track here, but going back to comedy from
1021
00:54:25.719 --> 00:54:29.559
my death experience and searching for answers, I did shamanism,
1022
00:54:29.599 --> 00:54:32.440
I did reiki, I looked at spiritual practices, and I
1023
00:54:32.519 --> 00:54:37.320
saw comedy as a way of healing and there's an
1024
00:54:37.440 --> 00:54:39.400
essence to it. And the Bible does talk about that
1025
00:54:39.480 --> 00:54:42.840
laughter is like a medicine, and there are scientific studies
1026
00:54:43.320 --> 00:54:48.079
where they've taken people with cancer to comedy shows and
1027
00:54:48.159 --> 00:54:51.960
they or sorry, not cancer. It's diabetes and their blood work.
1028
00:54:52.599 --> 00:54:54.440
So they drew the blood before they went to the
1029
00:54:54.480 --> 00:54:56.199
comedy show and if it's a good show, you know
1030
00:54:56.239 --> 00:55:00.000
where they're actually laughing, and then they measured their blood afterwards,
1031
00:55:01.039 --> 00:55:05.320
they literally heal their blood sugars go to more normal
1032
00:55:05.400 --> 00:55:10.119
level afterwards because of laughter. Because laughter, right, they say
1033
00:55:10.199 --> 00:55:11.199
laughter is the best medicine.
1034
00:55:11.280 --> 00:55:14.000
Yeah, it is true, one hundred percent true. And so
1035
00:55:14.079 --> 00:55:16.079
I wanted to do that. And then what I found
1036
00:55:16.159 --> 00:55:19.000
myself doing is being away from my family, being in
1037
00:55:19.119 --> 00:55:23.760
barge late at night, comics fighting with one another, these
1038
00:55:23.840 --> 00:55:28.159
roast battles. You know, it's like it just feels not healing.
1039
00:55:28.559 --> 00:55:31.960
So I felt split. You talk about these different parts
1040
00:55:32.000 --> 00:55:35.079
within you, so part of me felt it was healing,
1041
00:55:35.119 --> 00:55:38.840
part of it felt like it's hurting. I felt conflicted.
1042
00:55:39.360 --> 00:55:43.000
And then I landed on this hypnosis stuff and I'm like, oh,
1043
00:55:43.039 --> 00:55:47.159
this is cool because I can entertain and I can
1044
00:55:47.199 --> 00:55:50.039
heal at the same time, because I've done it Innosa's
1045
00:55:50.039 --> 00:55:51.800
shows as well as work with clients.
1046
00:55:53.079 --> 00:55:56.960
So do you feel like entertainment is your calling in
1047
00:55:57.000 --> 00:55:58.840
whichever way, shape or form that you see it? And
1048
00:55:59.360 --> 00:56:03.639
because I say, you've been a preacher, a comedian, improv artist,
1049
00:56:03.840 --> 00:56:06.679
you've done you know, all this stuff, and it's all
1050
00:56:06.719 --> 00:56:09.239
about talking to people making them feel a thing. And
1051
00:56:09.280 --> 00:56:10.599
I guess entertained.
1052
00:56:11.400 --> 00:56:17.239
Yeah, it's I feel the word attention m And even
1053
00:56:17.320 --> 00:56:21.360
Kevin Hart talked about that, honest, now not Kevin Hart, dude,
1054
00:56:21.360 --> 00:56:23.719
who's the guy that got slapped Chris Rock. Chris Rock,
1055
00:56:24.119 --> 00:56:27.719
he talked about that on his comedy special where attention
1056
00:56:28.320 --> 00:56:34.000
is the most precious commodity because it's hard to get.
1057
00:56:35.280 --> 00:56:37.760
And I feel like my calling is to be healer
1058
00:56:37.920 --> 00:56:40.800
and if I can capture attention long enough so that
1059
00:56:40.960 --> 00:56:45.360
you are healed, that's my calling. To capture your attention
1060
00:56:46.480 --> 00:56:49.679
and then begin to wonder maybe what is going on
1061
00:56:49.800 --> 00:56:52.079
is right, and then just asking yourself, does this make
1062
00:56:52.079 --> 00:56:53.000
sense for yourself?
1063
00:56:53.679 --> 00:56:59.400
Yeah? Yeah, Now with the hypnosis, I feel like a big,
1064
00:56:59.519 --> 00:57:06.400
big thing that is just given others belief in excess. Right, man,
1065
00:57:07.440 --> 00:57:08.440
do you believe that?
1066
00:57:08.880 --> 00:57:08.920
What?
1067
00:57:09.000 --> 00:57:12.679
Do you think that belief shapes reality more than people think?
1068
00:57:13.119 --> 00:57:13.599
Of course?
1069
00:57:14.400 --> 00:57:17.920
Yeah, So what happens is and there's this guy, James Tripp.
1070
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:20.119
He describes it as a loop. And you picture a
1071
00:57:20.159 --> 00:57:25.280
clock at the twelve o'clock position as your belief and
1072
00:57:25.320 --> 00:57:27.239
then as you go down the clock to three o'clock
1073
00:57:27.519 --> 00:57:34.719
is imagination, and then at six is neurophysiological changes in
1074
00:57:34.760 --> 00:57:37.599
your brain, and then that shapes your reality at the
1075
00:57:37.639 --> 00:57:40.519
nine o'clock position, and your reality goes back to shape
1076
00:57:40.519 --> 00:57:43.119
your belief at the twelve o'clock. So what I'm saying
1077
00:57:43.199 --> 00:57:48.480
is you've heard of neuroplasticity, right. So traditional therapy like CBT,
1078
00:57:49.360 --> 00:57:55.360
that's a redundant. Cognitive behavior therapy challenges your beliefs. Hypnosis
1079
00:57:56.239 --> 00:58:00.800
starts at the three o'clock position with your imagination. So
1080
00:58:00.840 --> 00:58:04.440
if you could intercept thought and begin just play with imagination,
1081
00:58:05.239 --> 00:58:09.239
you could begin to reshape those neural networks and alter
1082
00:58:09.400 --> 00:58:13.880
your reality. University of Chicago did a really cool study
1083
00:58:13.880 --> 00:58:18.440
on this where they took group playing basketball free throws
1084
00:58:19.159 --> 00:58:20.159
and they had three groups.
1085
00:58:20.239 --> 00:58:21.280
One group nothing.
1086
00:58:21.320 --> 00:58:23.400
Everyone threw a free throw at the beginning to measure
1087
00:58:23.400 --> 00:58:27.239
how good they are. Group one nothing, no practice. Group
1088
00:58:27.280 --> 00:58:30.039
two went out and practiced free throws every day.
1089
00:58:30.480 --> 00:58:31.719
Group three they just.
1090
00:58:31.760 --> 00:58:36.400
Imagined throwing free throws. Okay, they never touched the basketball
1091
00:58:36.440 --> 00:58:39.559
during the study. They sat at home and just imagine
1092
00:58:39.679 --> 00:58:42.280
what would be like to pick up basketball. Kind of
1093
00:58:42.599 --> 00:58:45.280
arch it a little bit bend your legs throw it.
1094
00:58:45.880 --> 00:58:48.519
That group had a twenty three percent increase in their
1095
00:58:48.559 --> 00:58:51.440
ability to free throw. The group that was out practicing
1096
00:58:51.440 --> 00:58:55.880
every day increased by twenty four percent, very similar numbers
1097
00:58:56.679 --> 00:59:00.320
of touching a basketball or just imagine imagine. Yeah, and
1098
00:59:00.360 --> 00:59:05.679
it's because they create and rock stars do this. Superstar
1099
00:59:05.880 --> 00:59:07.960
athletes do this. They imagine, Like.
1100
00:59:07.960 --> 00:59:09.559
If you see it in your mind first, then you.
1101
00:59:09.519 --> 00:59:12.880
Can right imagine catching the ball and IgE weaving in
1102
00:59:12.920 --> 00:59:16.280
and out and duking and getting that topasure.
1103
00:59:15.880 --> 00:59:18.079
Throwing it, seeing you go through the net, you know
1104
00:59:18.199 --> 00:59:20.360
how many times you need to And then once you
1105
00:59:20.440 --> 00:59:22.800
actually do it, it's like, oh, I've seen this scenario
1106
00:59:22.840 --> 00:59:25.719
because I've practiced it in my mind right a thousand times,
1107
00:59:25.719 --> 00:59:28.079
so this isn't foreign to me. Yeah. Yeah, so I
1108
00:59:28.119 --> 00:59:30.119
don't have belief of missing. I have a belief like, oh,
1109
00:59:30.199 --> 00:59:33.119
I've seen this before. It's kind of like building muscle
1110
00:59:33.199 --> 00:59:35.559
memory without Actually that's what it is.
1111
00:59:36.639 --> 00:59:42.079
That's neuroplasticity. It's building that possibility and letting it draw
1112
00:59:42.159 --> 00:59:46.760
to you. Yeah, and I can show you a cool trick,
1113
00:59:47.559 --> 00:59:48.239
a trick with me.
1114
00:59:48.440 --> 00:59:50.280
Sure, I would love to see it. I would love
1115
00:59:50.360 --> 00:59:53.760
to see this. Yeah, Okay, cool all right, all right.
1116
00:59:53.840 --> 00:59:56.280
So what I like to do in my like hypnosis shows,
1117
00:59:56.320 --> 00:59:59.480
I show them a little like mentalism trick, a little
1118
00:59:59.519 --> 01:00:02.880
magic trick. I'll let you choose the whole process.
1119
01:00:02.920 --> 01:00:04.679
Here. I got a deck of cards and.
1120
01:00:04.719 --> 01:00:06.440
I got this What you have no idea in this
1121
01:00:06.599 --> 01:00:07.400
black envelope?
1122
01:00:08.039 --> 01:00:10.280
What do you choose? See that seems more intriguing because
1123
01:00:10.320 --> 01:00:12.239
I know what's in the deck of cars, but I'll
1124
01:00:12.280 --> 01:00:17.239
see you no, but this black thing, yeah, yeah, I want.
1125
01:00:17.400 --> 01:00:21.519
That, all right, cool man? Yeah, So in this and
1126
01:00:21.639 --> 01:00:24.920
you may have seen Ghostbusters. For those just listening, I'll
1127
01:00:24.960 --> 01:00:28.480
describe it to you. And Ghostbusters they show these esp cards.
1128
01:00:28.480 --> 01:00:34.159
They have these signs like star, square, wiggly lines, plus
1129
01:00:34.199 --> 01:00:37.000
sign or circle. So I have a set for you
1130
01:00:37.360 --> 01:00:39.280
and I have set for me. What I'm gonna do
1131
01:00:39.400 --> 01:00:42.519
is now we haven't chatted for all of how long?
1132
01:00:42.679 --> 01:00:43.239
Yeah? Years?
1133
01:00:43.239 --> 01:00:47.159
It's yeah, but I feel like I know you, okay,
1134
01:00:48.400 --> 01:00:51.360
know you well enough that I can make a prediction here.
1135
01:00:51.639 --> 01:00:55.880
I'll put the rest of the cards here away from that, okay. Now,
1136
01:00:56.280 --> 01:00:59.440
with this prediction, I'm just gonna put it on top
1137
01:00:59.480 --> 01:01:02.360
of those cars, just put them in this crappy looking envelope,
1138
01:01:03.039 --> 01:01:04.800
And what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna pull out
1139
01:01:04.840 --> 01:01:07.199
one card at a time, and you tell me when
1140
01:01:07.239 --> 01:01:10.880
to stop. It's your shape, the one that resonates with you, okay,
1141
01:01:11.280 --> 01:01:15.719
because I know you like first one. There's five, first one,
1142
01:01:15.760 --> 01:01:16.480
there's a circle.
1143
01:01:16.800 --> 01:01:18.320
I keep going, You're stop there.
1144
01:01:18.119 --> 01:01:21.239
You have a choice at all times, and yet I
1145
01:01:21.280 --> 01:01:26.400
know your choice plus sign. You keep going wiggly signed,
1146
01:01:27.079 --> 01:01:30.119
Stop at the wiggly sign. Okay, So you you could
1147
01:01:30.199 --> 01:01:32.920
tide me stop at the circle or the plus sign,
1148
01:01:33.039 --> 01:01:35.280
or to you told me the wiggly sign, or I
1149
01:01:35.280 --> 01:01:38.320
could stop at that star, or.
1150
01:01:38.280 --> 01:01:40.440
I could stop at that square.
1151
01:01:41.719 --> 01:01:46.320
There's one card left, brother, bet that'd be And you
1152
01:01:47.519 --> 01:01:53.599
chose this motherfucker, this squiggly line. And yet not only okay,
1153
01:01:53.960 --> 01:01:58.719
not only do I know you, because before I came,
1154
01:01:59.480 --> 01:02:01.920
I only shows a squiggling because all the other cards
1155
01:02:01.960 --> 01:02:02.599
are blank.
1156
01:02:03.840 --> 01:02:05.480
All right, now, how the fuck do you do something
1157
01:02:05.519 --> 01:02:09.360
like that? But here this you begin to wonder at
1158
01:02:09.519 --> 01:02:12.239
how do you do something like that? Well, this is.
1159
01:02:12.199 --> 01:02:15.599
The things that intermix of what's real and what's not.
1160
01:02:16.320 --> 01:02:19.039
And I ask you now just to hold this card
1161
01:02:19.039 --> 01:02:20.239
with your two fingers like this.
1162
01:02:20.719 --> 01:02:21.079
Okay.
1163
01:02:21.800 --> 01:02:25.199
Now I want you to imagine on that card is
1164
01:02:25.320 --> 01:02:29.039
something worth looking at. It's a blank card, but can
1165
01:02:29.079 --> 01:02:30.920
you imagine it on the card?
1166
01:02:31.159 --> 01:02:33.960
I'm trying to think of something. Sure, yeah, cool.
1167
01:02:34.400 --> 01:02:37.800
Maybe it's your wife because you love looking at it. Okay,
1168
01:02:38.079 --> 01:02:41.039
So whatever it is that you're looking at, imagine looking
1169
01:02:41.079 --> 01:02:43.079
through it as if you could see my hands behind
1170
01:02:43.079 --> 01:02:45.920
the card. So you're looking through it and keep looking
1171
01:02:45.960 --> 01:02:48.920
at it for a moment, and just to begin to imagine.
1172
01:02:49.760 --> 01:02:53.159
What would you like to have glue spreading in your fingers.
1173
01:02:53.760 --> 01:02:56.400
I wonder what the glue would feel like. I wonder
1174
01:02:56.440 --> 01:02:59.480
if even the glue would have it sound like as
1175
01:02:59.519 --> 01:03:03.800
a seal. And you just imagine that glue sticking your
1176
01:03:03.800 --> 01:03:07.559
fingers together. Now, and you begin to keep looking at
1177
01:03:07.559 --> 01:03:10.440
that card and imagine it's just the moment. I want
1178
01:03:10.480 --> 01:03:13.519
you to try, in a moment to open your finger
1179
01:03:13.559 --> 01:03:15.320
and you'll find it. The more you try, the more
1180
01:03:15.360 --> 01:03:19.559
your fingers begin to get stuck together. Now, go and try,
1181
01:03:19.559 --> 01:03:22.320
and the more you try, the more it's stuck. Ah.
1182
01:03:22.960 --> 01:03:27.199
That's okay, that's okay. Because what happens with a lot
1183
01:03:27.199 --> 01:03:29.079
of people, and you'll see this on my YouTube channel,
1184
01:03:29.639 --> 01:03:32.840
is that they'll their fingers will get stuck and like.
1185
01:03:33.440 --> 01:03:35.440
Well I supposed to be slower? What was I supposed to.
1186
01:03:35.440 --> 01:03:37.960
It doesn't matter, It doesn't matter. Yeah, just some For
1187
01:03:38.079 --> 01:03:41.760
some people, their fingers get stuck. And then the whole
1188
01:03:41.800 --> 01:03:44.880
point is they're already confused, like, Okay, is this a trick?
1189
01:03:45.000 --> 01:03:45.480
Is this real?
1190
01:03:45.639 --> 01:03:48.199
Is what's going on? But my fingers are actually getting stuck?
1191
01:03:48.199 --> 01:03:51.400
And then I'm like, release your fingers. And if your
1192
01:03:51.440 --> 01:03:54.320
mind could get your fingers stuck, what can your mind
1193
01:03:54.360 --> 01:03:56.719
get unstuck in your life?
1194
01:03:57.239 --> 01:04:00.280
Right now? I had a question about that. I find
1195
01:04:00.280 --> 01:04:00.800
it real quick.
1196
01:04:02.119 --> 01:04:03.159
Oh you've been stalking me.
1197
01:04:03.199 --> 01:04:04.920
I'm like, oh, no, I've been doing a lot of shit. Man.
1198
01:04:04.960 --> 01:04:07.400
I've been wanting to ask you about God is gay.
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I've been wanting to ask you about the love cult
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all time, the whole type of shit.
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Yeah, my ex wife's lawyer also wanted to ask about
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the love call in court.
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So what okay, So what the fuck is the love like?
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What was it? What? What was the prims behind it?
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What was the psyche behind it?
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So I don't know. If you've you've obviously heard of Freud,
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then there's kyl Jung and there's another contemporary this this
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I think it's from Russia. But then he landed in Germany,
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gerd Jeff and he would go and have teach about
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meditation in a coffee shop, a loud coffee shop, and
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he would make people lean in and so it's kind
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of my and he would like go and party at
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night and stuff. So I was I kind of like
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the anti meditation dude, like the anti guru, and so
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it's like just weird art in a way. So we
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literally went to a bar and the bar was a
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private club, so it didn't have much business. You walk
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into the basement there was a bar, and it was
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just to talk about cool shit, like like that jewel
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and the lotus type of thing you need a ship
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to grow and be beautiful, you know, and stuff like that.
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And there was like just being weird for weird sake
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because the love Call had me and I think it
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had like the American flag and an eagle and a
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bunch of women in bikinis and it's like, come to
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Ryan's love.
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Calt, Now, how did I guess all of your doings?
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Because you one thing I admire about you is that
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you get shit done if you have an idea, if
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you have a thought, if you have like a something
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like a force that's pushing you to do something, you
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just go ahead and fucking do it. I don't see
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you stagning for too long, but if I see you
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quiet and you come back like that, that's what the
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fuck he was building. How did I guess all of
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your ventures affect your personal relationship and things like that,
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whether it be ex wife, whether bed, whether you're be friends.
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I don't know if it directly answers the question, but
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a story comes to mind about these two an old
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man and a young man, and there are wood choppers,
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and then the young man was like, I want to
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have a contest with you, old man, to see who
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could chop the most wood. And then so, yeah, they
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lined up all the logs and they're chopping wood, and
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the old man just kept walking away periodically, and the
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young man was chopping, chopping, chopping, and the old man
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come back, chop, walk away for a while, come back,
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and at the end of the day, the old man
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chopped more wood, and the young man's like, dude, how
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is that possible? And the old Man's like, when I
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walked away, I was sharpening my axe.
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Okay, yeah, And you feel like that was more beneficial
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for you to go sharping your eggs rather than I guess,
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sit and keep doing this loop.
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Yeah, the loop, yeah, the loop, yeah, the loop. I
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don't really know it just it feels like with tai
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chi for instance, where you just feel that energy where
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it pulls you. I find the more that I try
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to force something to happen, the further it gets away.
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Right.
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That goes with everything right, and then when I just
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let go, then it happens. That's even with the like
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the hypnosis, Like I put ads and I say do this,
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and I do it just like all the marketers tell
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me to do it, and it just doesn't feel good,
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it doesn't work out right. And then when I just say,
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you know what, this is my attention, I feel like
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someone or something has put it in my heart to
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do it, and then it just it feels blessed that way.
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M Now, I watched a couple of YouTube videos about
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the hypnosis and stuff like that, and it seems that
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like you give some stuff away for free and some
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stuff a pay service, right, And we had the conversation
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about the preachers and the pullpit and exdvertise and all
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that stuff. Do you feel like that it's kind of
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contradictory to actually like have someone pay for healing or hypnosis.
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We love that question.
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Yeah, because just recently I have changed my model. So
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tomorrow and the next day I'll send it out to
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all I have thousands of people on my mailing list.
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I'll send it out. I said, big announcement, I'm no
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longer charging because it does it feels contradictory. I'll put
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out a donation box, right, I'll say, Yeah, feel free,
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whether you see me or not, whether you get healed
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or not, just if you want, if you feel.
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With feel compilled. Yeah.
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Yeah. And I don't want to pressure you, just I
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just want to courage you do whatever you feel, whether
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you donate to me or whether you donate somewhere else,
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whether you feel like you want to buy a cup
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of coffee for the person behind you, whatever it is.
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And it all goes back to one of my favorite
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books is Bible. And I know I'm kind of going
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all over the place.
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Yeah.
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One of my favorite books of the Bible has written
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by James, who is the half brother Jesus. So Jesus
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was born according to the Bible and have a virgin Mary.
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She went on and married Joseph and had more kids.
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One of those kids was James. So imagine being Jesus's.
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Little brother.
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Growing up. You know you're gonna hear why can't you
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be more like Jesus?
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Right wine?
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Yeah?
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Yeah, what did you do?
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You can't even put your shoes on the right feet.
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Your sandals, the sandals are pretty easy. Yeah, well why
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do you put your right sandal? And now the thong
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is in between your pinky toe.
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It's like.
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And so James wrote the definition of sin to the person,
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to him that knows to do good and does it
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not to that person is right, right, it's enlightening. And
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then so I feel dirty charging for money, especially if
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it doesn't work right, Like, do I see healing? Yes,
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people get healed. Do I see people that don't get healed?
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Yes?
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And I feel like a dirt bag that they're paying money.
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So I'm like, here's the deal. I'll see you and
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ideally you won't pay me beforehand. Ideally you'll decide what
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you want to do later on. Yeah, it's like up
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in Massachusetts, say it's this Vpanessa retreats. It's where you
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go and you sit in silence for ten days silence.
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You can't even write anything down. You just sit there
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for ten days, you can't talk.
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That's easy for me.
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Yeah, what would drive me nuts is not being write
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down my thoughts.
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Oh yeah yeah, because I like, oh that's a good one.
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It's like you have to let it go.
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You have to let it go. Just let them go
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to the ethos and just exactly exactly and then so
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what they do, it's all donation based. You cannot even
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give to them unless you've been on one of their
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appiness retreats. And once you're there, it's not required for
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you to pay. But if you want to donate your
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time or your money, you can do that. And they're
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been there for decades. They have a beautiful building and
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acres of land and it works.
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I feel like that's how a lot of services should be.
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Like when I order Uber Eats, I don't I don't
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give them a tip until I get my fucking foods
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because they'll they'll leave a food in like a place
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where it's like I'm trying to open the door. Now,
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the foods in front of the door might not get
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over or it's just like it's not well camped, or
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it's not the place I wanted it to be. It's like,
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you're not getting a fucking tip. But if you do
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everything correctly and it's to my liking, if I'm happy
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with the service that was provided, then I'll pay you.
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I'll give you a tip. It's not you're not getting
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a tip for nothing. It's just driving. It's funny about
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tips because according to Jim Rohn, it the accron is
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to ensure to ensure proper service tips.
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And so you slipped them a twenty at the door,
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get a good table, get a good service, and the
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tip was at the beforehand.
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That's funny.
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I hear what you're saying that who eats, and it's
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shocking how many people uber eats and try to get
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my daughter not to door dash every day.
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Yeah it's expensive. Yeah, my daughter she bought on this
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pit fucking child, just just growing and always hungry. She
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always wants something and I'm not around. It was like,
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can you ober eat me? No, motherfucker. So if I
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buy you something for twenty dollars and it costs forty
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five to fucking bring it to you kind of defeats
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the purpose. You kind of should have bought I kind
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of should have picked it up or got it later.
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Yeah, And then you have that balance. Am I being
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a shitty father because I'm not feeding my daughter?
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Yeah?
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Or am I'm giving in and I'm enabling her? It's like,
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you know, that's where I'm at, Like what what am
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I doing?
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But you got to take the bumps because I guess
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that's just part of being a parent or being a
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man to being a father is just providing. It's just
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like you don't know when. You don't know when or
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if you'll reap the rewards of doing what you did.
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But he's just like something has to be done. Like
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my child is hungry now, I can't say, well, the
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surcharge is forty five dollars and you can't eat right now.
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So it was like I gotta feed my child.
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And there's something about giving and receiving, like I don't
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know what it is, like you feel called to give
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and it comes back, and yet it's scary. You talk
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about that fear, Yeah, like I hear his voice, I
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should do this, and I am scared to do it.
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Like for instance, yesterday I was at the Mexican grocery
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store and we're making ingredients to make a sick guacamole,
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and this dude in front of us had the whole
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pile of groceries and something earlier that they said today
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you're going to pay for someone.
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Yeah, I was like.
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And then it started out. I was at dunkin Dunna's.
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I was like, okay, looking behind me, whoever's behind me,
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I'll pay for the food. And I was kind of
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disappointed there's no one behind me. It's like, man, I
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want to do good. Ain't no motherfucker to do? Why
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did that voice tell me that? And then later, just
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a few hours later, then it showed up. I was like, oh, okay.
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It was supposed to be at that place. It was
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supposed to be here.
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And then so reluctantly I put in my cards, like fine,
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I'll pay theirs too, you know, whatever whatever it is.
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And then all these blessings start coming in immediately, like
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the cashiers like, wow, that's so cool because what you
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didn't know is that guy just got a little bit
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of money for the day and couldn't you know whatever.
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And then so the cashiers started giving us extra food
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for free, and the guys were opening the door and
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saying God bless you, Like I was the pope or
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something you're right like because they don't see stuff like
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that every day. And I hated in the reverse where
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like people give something expecting something, they don't just give
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out the kindness.
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Of their heart. Yeah, like you like if you, I guess,
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give a homeless person money, You're like, all right, so
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my car's coming, now, when's it going to go? And I'm
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gonna get you know, free gas. When I go to
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the gas station? Am I going to find twenty dollars
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on the floor that I just gave some like someone?
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I hate that shit. I hate that we live in
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a society. I kind of like almost craze that or
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like needs that where it's like all right, I did good.
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Now where's where's mine? Yeah, Where's where's where's my Ryan? Yeah?
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Something like that.
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Yeah yeah Yeah. It's the funny thing about life and
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it's a game figuring it out.
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Now, I guess where I want to go? Is uh,
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what's something you're still trying to hear from heal from
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that isn't physical? Hmm.
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I guess the thing is my belief. It's hard because
1436
01:15:49.159 --> 01:15:51.960
when I when there's someone in front of me that
1437
01:15:52.079 --> 01:15:56.520
needs healing, it hurts me. If they don't get healed,
1438
01:15:56.560 --> 01:15:59.239
and I feel like it's my fault. Yet when they're healed,
1439
01:15:59.279 --> 01:16:02.119
I know it's not my fault that they got healed either,
1440
01:16:02.600 --> 01:16:06.520
it's not me that heals them. So I guess that's
1441
01:16:06.600 --> 01:16:08.439
the one I want to be healed from. Is that
1442
01:16:08.960 --> 01:16:14.479
understanding of why it happens and sometimes why it doesn't happen.
1443
01:16:15.159 --> 01:16:16.840
Because I want to do my best. I want to
1444
01:16:16.840 --> 01:16:20.560
do whatever my part is to encourage good outcomes for
1445
01:16:21.279 --> 01:16:21.840
other people.
1446
01:16:21.960 --> 01:16:24.199
Whatever your calling is, I guess.
1447
01:16:24.199 --> 01:16:27.479
Yeah, whatever's in their life, whether they need you mentioned
1448
01:16:27.479 --> 01:16:30.039
that physical healing. If you need physical healing, I want
1449
01:16:30.039 --> 01:16:32.439
to help. If you need emotional healing, I want to help,
1450
01:16:32.600 --> 01:16:35.479
and I have help, then I can help. And yet
1451
01:16:35.479 --> 01:16:39.159
sometimes that's the thing that bothers me is did I
1452
01:16:39.199 --> 01:16:42.439
do everything I could for the other person? And I
1453
01:16:42.479 --> 01:16:45.680
want to be able to sit with that holly and
1454
01:16:45.720 --> 01:16:49.720
be like I did my part. I showed up, I
1455
01:16:49.840 --> 01:16:51.560
was who I needed to be in that moment for
1456
01:16:51.600 --> 01:16:52.159
that person.
1457
01:16:53.920 --> 01:16:56.720
Now have you been hypnotized? But I imagine like the
1458
01:16:56.800 --> 01:16:58.960
hypnotist has to be hypnotized at some point, like you
1459
01:16:59.000 --> 01:17:00.720
have to know the feeling that you're giving out.
1460
01:17:01.520 --> 01:17:04.960
Yeah, and again it all goes back to it's all
1461
01:17:05.039 --> 01:17:09.760
hypnosis is self hypnosis. So you're hypnotizing yourself in the
1462
01:17:09.800 --> 01:17:13.880
way you're allowing yourself to feel emotions, such as if
1463
01:17:13.880 --> 01:17:17.399
you're a sporting event and you get into that that
1464
01:17:17.680 --> 01:17:21.960
wave of emotion. Emotion, Yeah, the flow state, and like
1465
01:17:22.039 --> 01:17:26.960
for instance, like freestyle, I think that's a form of
1466
01:17:27.039 --> 01:17:30.279
hypnosis because when you're really in it, you're not sitting
1467
01:17:30.279 --> 01:17:33.039
there thinking I'm going to say this word because it
1468
01:17:33.119 --> 01:17:35.479
rhymes with this word, or it sounds good, or.
1469
01:17:35.399 --> 01:17:36.439
It hits the right beat.
1470
01:17:36.840 --> 01:17:41.279
It's coming from somewhere else and it's that subconscious communication.
1471
01:17:42.800 --> 01:17:46.960
Some people would argue hypnosis is attention, and some of
1472
01:17:47.000 --> 01:17:50.479
it is just focused attention. Some of it is expectation
1473
01:17:51.439 --> 01:17:54.560
and the hypnosis that so when you to answer your question, yes,
1474
01:17:54.640 --> 01:17:59.640
I've been hypnotized, though I still almost doubt my skills
1475
01:17:59.720 --> 01:18:01.720
and c areas like well, for instance, you just dropped
1476
01:18:01.760 --> 01:18:04.760
the card, right, Obviously, I can't control you. I didn't
1477
01:18:04.800 --> 01:18:07.159
know the outcome. I know that when I do it
1478
01:18:07.199 --> 01:18:10.119
on the street, about ninety percent of the people don't
1479
01:18:10.199 --> 01:18:14.319
drop the card. Some people do. You and the rabbi
1480
01:18:14.359 --> 01:18:17.159
I tried it on both dropped the card. It's funny,
1481
01:18:18.880 --> 01:18:21.199
that's right. Yeah. The Rabbi is like, well you do it,
1482
01:18:21.279 --> 01:18:24.119
and I'm like, I'm doing this. He's like, oh, try it, okay,
1483
01:18:24.119 --> 01:18:27.039
and then he looks at me, drops the card. It's
1484
01:18:27.039 --> 01:18:29.800
eye contact with me, drops the card like this is
1485
01:18:29.840 --> 01:18:33.119
what it is. We had a good conversation about using
1486
01:18:33.199 --> 01:18:37.439
hypnosis for porn addiction, so although that didn't the card
1487
01:18:37.479 --> 01:18:42.600
stick didn't work, though, another conversation ensued about what can
1488
01:18:42.640 --> 01:18:45.439
we do can we help someone that has porn addiction
1489
01:18:46.319 --> 01:18:49.479
recover and be able to find a new addiction in
1490
01:18:49.520 --> 01:18:52.840
their life that's more productive and healing for them and
1491
01:18:52.880 --> 01:18:55.600
their relationships right now.
1492
01:18:55.800 --> 01:18:58.479
Also something that we didn't touch on, which is weird
1493
01:18:58.479 --> 01:19:02.119
because we just talked about porn addiction. But used to
1494
01:19:02.119 --> 01:19:04.560
do like church reviews and stuff like that. So I
1495
01:19:04.640 --> 01:19:06.399
used to go to different churches and I guess give
1496
01:19:06.439 --> 01:19:08.760
them like a rating and how many churches did you
1497
01:19:08.800 --> 01:19:09.880
actually like review?
1498
01:19:10.000 --> 01:19:12.680
I guess I want to say it's four or five.
1499
01:19:13.119 --> 01:19:17.199
And my attention is to go to all faith because
1500
01:19:17.239 --> 01:19:19.840
in my journey of looking at religions, I feel like
1501
01:19:19.920 --> 01:19:23.399
I know enough to be able to really stand out
1502
01:19:23.640 --> 01:19:27.439
like the Black Church and Bridgeport, like That was easy
1503
01:19:27.479 --> 01:19:30.680
for me because I knew all the songs. I knew
1504
01:19:30.680 --> 01:19:31.359
what they were doing.
1505
01:19:32.920 --> 01:19:34.399
If I go, did you have to study before you
1506
01:19:34.439 --> 01:19:36.039
went there or did is it something like.
1507
01:19:36.920 --> 01:19:39.079
I used to have church? I was like that, So
1508
01:19:39.520 --> 01:19:41.680
the spiritual song, the gospel songs.
1509
01:19:41.720 --> 01:19:43.680
Okay, right, so you didn't go in there and look
1510
01:19:43.720 --> 01:19:45.239
like a fucking nark or something like that, like this
1511
01:19:45.279 --> 01:19:46.039
is motherfuck.
1512
01:19:45.800 --> 01:19:47.600
Exactly when I first went in, it was kind of
1513
01:19:47.640 --> 01:19:48.000
like that.
1514
01:19:48.319 --> 01:19:50.039
And then this big white boy.
1515
01:19:50.119 --> 01:19:50.359
Yeah.
1516
01:19:50.439 --> 01:19:52.600
But then when they're like, he set me free, he
1517
01:19:52.720 --> 01:19:55.399
set me free. You know, I was just dancing in
1518
01:19:55.439 --> 01:19:58.800
the aisles with them, you know, like and they're like, oh, okay, yeah, yeah,
1519
01:19:58.840 --> 01:19:59.600
he's cool for now.
1520
01:19:59.680 --> 01:20:00.359
Yeah yeah.
1521
01:20:00.560 --> 01:20:03.000
Now when I my ultimate goal is like go to
1522
01:20:03.079 --> 01:20:07.079
Mecca and see the Kabah and bow before it. As
1523
01:20:07.119 --> 01:20:11.279
a Muslim, they won't let they won't let if you're
1524
01:20:11.319 --> 01:20:15.119
not a Muslim that you're in a right okay. And
1525
01:20:15.239 --> 01:20:17.720
I see myself as a Muslim because I talked before
1526
01:20:17.760 --> 01:20:21.840
about in Christianity they had the or the Jewish, they
1527
01:20:21.840 --> 01:20:24.119
had the three sects and Jesus was a scene and
1528
01:20:24.239 --> 01:20:26.800
later they became the Gnostics, and so I con sider
1529
01:20:26.880 --> 01:20:32.079
myself a Christian gnostic. For Muslims, there's the soufis, the
1530
01:20:32.439 --> 01:20:36.239
ones that spin, they're the mystical ones. I see myself
1531
01:20:36.279 --> 01:20:39.760
relating to that. Like Rumy Rumy was a Muslim, and
1532
01:20:40.000 --> 01:20:43.920
I relate to a lot of what he says about
1533
01:20:44.199 --> 01:20:47.880
the Quran, and so in that regard, I do believe
1534
01:20:48.479 --> 01:20:51.039
now the vision of who they're praying to and the
1535
01:20:51.119 --> 01:20:53.680
vision of who I'm praying to might be different, yet
1536
01:20:53.840 --> 01:20:55.640
on the outside it looks the same.
1537
01:20:55.720 --> 01:20:59.319
Right, I guess I want to ask, like, with all
1538
01:20:59.319 --> 01:21:02.239
these ventures that you do, like, what's your miss mission statement?
1539
01:21:02.279 --> 01:21:04.119
What's your why why you do?
1540
01:21:05.119 --> 01:21:07.199
Like first I thought you said, what's your missus thing?
1541
01:21:10.319 --> 01:21:12.600
What's your mission statement as to why you do the
1542
01:21:12.640 --> 01:21:14.600
ship that you do? Like why you want to do
1543
01:21:14.640 --> 01:21:17.640
the stuff that you like, what's what's the the the
1544
01:21:18.000 --> 01:21:20.960
the goal? Like what like is it just understanding? Is
1545
01:21:20.479 --> 01:21:23.159
it is a curiosity? Is it I have a message
1546
01:21:23.199 --> 01:21:25.880
to get out there? Or is like what is it?
1547
01:21:26.479 --> 01:21:30.279
Yeah, it's curiosity because I remember going down this retreat
1548
01:21:30.359 --> 01:21:34.880
and they did this whole like seance like thing and sleep,
1549
01:21:35.000 --> 01:21:38.119
food deprivation and then like find out your interescence and
1550
01:21:38.159 --> 01:21:42.319
my interescence is playful curiosity, and so that's what I'm doing.
1551
01:21:42.319 --> 01:21:46.079
I'm being curious about what's possible, and like I want
1552
01:21:46.119 --> 01:21:51.399
to see. What's really driving me these days is healing
1553
01:21:51.439 --> 01:21:53.840
people so they don't have to suffer like I suffered.
1554
01:21:54.119 --> 01:21:54.399
Hmm.
1555
01:21:55.640 --> 01:21:57.920
And to tell them that you can be more than
1556
01:21:57.960 --> 01:22:01.680
your suffering. That to me lights me up when I
1557
01:22:01.720 --> 01:22:05.239
see someone that was shrouded than darkness of their own
1558
01:22:05.279 --> 01:22:08.960
thoughts come to the light of what their own life
1559
01:22:09.119 --> 01:22:11.000
is and who they really are.
1560
01:22:11.720 --> 01:22:13.920
To me, that feels like.
1561
01:22:13.920 --> 01:22:15.000
I'm at one with God.
1562
01:22:16.399 --> 01:22:20.479
M So you feel like a conduit. Basically, we're just like, yeah,
1563
01:22:20.840 --> 01:22:23.279
speaking through me. I just I'm just I'm just saying
1564
01:22:23.359 --> 01:22:25.800
what what I perceive my purpose to be is to
1565
01:22:25.800 --> 01:22:28.520
take the word that I've been down with and just
1566
01:22:29.199 --> 01:22:30.800
give it to you. And I feel like the chosen
1567
01:22:30.840 --> 01:22:31.399
person to do that.
1568
01:22:31.600 --> 01:22:32.920
It's a cosmic orgasm.
1569
01:22:33.079 --> 01:22:39.000
Mm hmm. Let's see. I guess we'll get you out
1570
01:22:39.079 --> 01:22:42.479
here soon. So I got some rapid fire questions. You
1571
01:22:42.560 --> 01:22:44.279
just the first thing to give me, the first thing
1572
01:22:44.319 --> 01:22:49.880
that comes to your mind, peace or excitement, peace, discipline
1573
01:22:49.960 --> 01:22:56.600
or freedom, freedom, faith or logic, faith, control or surrender, surrender,
1574
01:22:57.279 --> 01:23:01.920
purpose or happiness purpose. I like that now.
1575
01:23:02.119 --> 01:23:03.720
But yeah, like my other answers.
1576
01:23:03.520 --> 01:23:06.600
I love it. I love all that because because it
1577
01:23:07.039 --> 01:23:09.760
all depends on I guess, how you're feeling in the
1578
01:23:09.800 --> 01:23:11.680
moment and what just sticks out to you once you
1579
01:23:11.760 --> 01:23:15.479
hear Because some people might say, you know, they want excitement,
1580
01:23:15.520 --> 01:23:17.680
but they want discipline as well. I don't think the
1581
01:23:17.680 --> 01:23:21.000
two go hand in hand, you know. Faith ovlogic, that's
1582
01:23:20.800 --> 01:23:24.640
a that's a something that people grasp with where I
1583
01:23:24.680 --> 01:23:27.399
tell my kids all the time, like your feelings aren't facts,
1584
01:23:27.399 --> 01:23:30.359
like you could feel one way and what's actually happening
1585
01:23:30.479 --> 01:23:33.880
is you know the truth. And faith over logic is
1586
01:23:33.880 --> 01:23:36.800
like we can feel that, you know, whether it be
1587
01:23:36.840 --> 01:23:39.279
religious or whatever have you. That guy's gonna, you know,
1588
01:23:39.399 --> 01:23:41.119
cure the cancer if I pray hard enough. But the
1589
01:23:41.159 --> 01:23:43.920
logic is like this medicine that hit that's here on
1590
01:23:43.960 --> 01:23:48.479
earth is or the cancers too far along and you
1591
01:23:48.600 --> 01:23:51.159
might not have that long to live. It's like just
1592
01:23:51.319 --> 01:23:55.720
logical stuff. I guess. My final thing is, uh, after
1593
01:23:55.800 --> 01:24:00.560
everything you've lived through, who are you now? Who you
1594
01:24:00.600 --> 01:24:02.560
thought you'd be at this stage in your life?
1595
01:24:08.640 --> 01:24:10.359
I mean, at one point I felt like I was
1596
01:24:10.399 --> 01:24:13.840
going to be a Senator right. At one point, I
1597
01:24:13.840 --> 01:24:18.279
thought I'd be a preacher. And it's funny because I
1598
01:24:18.319 --> 01:24:21.600
think one of the biggest things I've heard other people
1599
01:24:21.680 --> 01:24:24.960
say this that all fear stems with the fear of death.
1600
01:24:25.600 --> 01:24:29.960
And now that I've been there, theoretically I want to
1601
01:24:29.960 --> 01:24:32.319
have a fear, so though I do, and it's that
1602
01:24:32.479 --> 01:24:36.439
fear that attached to ego, meaning that who you are,
1603
01:24:37.279 --> 01:24:39.920
and then so by there will be times in my
1604
01:24:39.920 --> 01:24:43.119
life I just flushed my ego. There's one time where
1605
01:24:43.159 --> 01:24:47.039
I in Covid, I set up an energy healing business, Reiki,
1606
01:24:47.840 --> 01:24:51.840
and I wrote a book Man. It was produced and
1607
01:24:51.920 --> 01:24:54.800
published and there's copies out in the world right now.
1608
01:24:55.520 --> 01:24:58.439
And yet part of me is like, just flush the ego.
1609
01:24:58.920 --> 01:25:01.000
I destroyed every copy the book I could find. I
1610
01:25:01.039 --> 01:25:06.239
took off of Amazon, I took away that business, the website, everything,
1611
01:25:06.319 --> 01:25:09.479
just flushed it and became no one. And just to
1612
01:25:09.600 --> 01:25:13.600
be in touch with that sense of by becoming nobody,
1613
01:25:13.760 --> 01:25:16.399
I at the same time can touch everybody.
1614
01:25:17.119 --> 01:25:17.439
Hmm.
1615
01:25:18.119 --> 01:25:20.960
So who I am today, at the end of the day,
1616
01:25:21.000 --> 01:25:25.479
I'm nobody, nobody, I am just like Jesus said, I am.
1617
01:25:26.399 --> 01:25:31.399
It's a great stopping point. I guess what's what's what's next?
1618
01:25:31.399 --> 01:25:33.319
What do you have going on? Do you have any more?
1619
01:25:33.600 --> 01:25:35.960
I guess books in the in the words like what's
1620
01:25:36.039 --> 01:25:38.720
what's the next? Because I don't know how long this
1621
01:25:38.760 --> 01:25:40.600
hypnosis shit is gonna last? Because I've seen you do
1622
01:25:40.680 --> 01:25:42.359
so many things and tell the us many things.
1623
01:25:42.600 --> 01:25:44.920
So it's like Yans say, it's the same thing, like Ryan,
1624
01:25:45.039 --> 01:25:47.560
you just I'm like, I say, I want to put
1625
01:25:47.640 --> 01:25:49.680
this much money into the business, and she's like, but
1626
01:25:50.399 --> 01:25:51.520
what are you going to do next?
1627
01:25:51.840 --> 01:25:54.600
Exactly? I mean I'm like that as well, where I'm
1628
01:25:54.640 --> 01:25:56.760
scattering and I want to do everything as a creative,
1629
01:25:56.840 --> 01:25:59.520
like I want to you know, I fell into podcasting,
1630
01:25:59.560 --> 01:26:01.680
I want to do stand up. I want to Yeah,
1631
01:26:01.840 --> 01:26:04.399
I write, I do a bunch of shit. I create
1632
01:26:04.479 --> 01:26:06.720
content now. So it's like I don't know what I'm
1633
01:26:06.720 --> 01:26:09.760
gonna do next, but what I'm doing now I enjoy.
1634
01:26:10.479 --> 01:26:13.720
And that's where the piece comes from, as being where
1635
01:26:13.760 --> 01:26:15.640
you are now, so.
1636
01:26:15.920 --> 01:26:16.840
You don't even know what's next.
1637
01:26:16.840 --> 01:26:19.680
It's just like like certain things I'm working on, like
1638
01:26:19.720 --> 01:26:22.680
I'm working on a book about what I learned from
1639
01:26:22.760 --> 01:26:24.800
dying and taught me about living, and they'll be called
1640
01:26:24.880 --> 01:26:28.640
the dow of the laundry. So it's one of the
1641
01:26:28.640 --> 01:26:32.239
big things. You come from this heavenly place and you
1642
01:26:32.359 --> 01:26:35.600
still gotta do laundry and then so part of that
1643
01:26:35.720 --> 01:26:38.399
is why I'm writing about. For instance, the other day,
1644
01:26:38.439 --> 01:26:41.119
I was doing laundry and I looked at the floor
1645
01:26:41.239 --> 01:26:44.159
and my daughter missed the trash can. There's dryer lit
1646
01:26:44.199 --> 01:26:47.000
on the floor, and there's dryer sheets, Like this is
1647
01:26:47.039 --> 01:26:51.159
a mess. And yet by standing there in that moment
1648
01:26:51.439 --> 01:26:56.039
and just appreciation, appreciating that will never be that way again.
1649
01:26:56.800 --> 01:26:59.319
This is the only time this will ever be just
1650
01:26:59.439 --> 01:27:02.479
like this, The only time I'll smell the dryer sheets,
1651
01:27:02.479 --> 01:27:04.119
the only time now I will be sitting on the
1652
01:27:04.119 --> 01:27:06.000
floor just like this, the only time I'll be breathing
1653
01:27:06.079 --> 01:27:09.079
like this, you know, just appreciating the moment you are
1654
01:27:09.159 --> 01:27:12.000
at now. There's a beauty in that.
1655
01:27:12.640 --> 01:27:18.319
There is You have a very glass half full approach
1656
01:27:18.359 --> 01:27:20.920
to life that, you know, I think more people need
1657
01:27:20.960 --> 01:27:24.199
to get in tune with because I guess we're walking
1658
01:27:24.199 --> 01:27:26.079
around with the problems of the world on us, and
1659
01:27:26.119 --> 01:27:29.920
we're very pessimistic and you just see, are you free? Hmm?
1660
01:27:31.039 --> 01:27:31.800
Not always?
1661
01:27:32.000 --> 01:27:33.800
Not always.
1662
01:27:33.960 --> 01:27:35.880
I'm working towards it and That's another thing I'm working
1663
01:27:35.960 --> 01:27:38.479
on and I've already started it. Is this book of
1664
01:27:38.479 --> 01:27:41.079
course of miracles. I'm talking about is sharing it with
1665
01:27:41.199 --> 01:27:44.760
others to show them how they can find freedom. And
1666
01:27:44.800 --> 01:27:48.359
it's looking at life in a different ways, true vision,
1667
01:27:49.319 --> 01:27:52.479
and seeing it as it is and just holding it
1668
01:27:52.760 --> 01:27:55.720
with that love, knowing that it's all part of the
1669
01:27:55.840 --> 01:27:57.760
universe and that has your back and that loves you.
1670
01:27:58.840 --> 01:28:01.760
And you mentioned before too, something about the ship we
1671
01:28:01.800 --> 01:28:04.760
see today, it's just a mirror of what's been in
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our lives and our past. So what we're looking at
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today is a projection of our past. And then so
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if we change our current perspective to love and light
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and healing, your future begins to change. Like I said before,
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ninety of the thoughts we have today or the same
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as yesterday. If you change those thoughts, your future also changes.
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Yeah, experience with the best teacher was a horrible mirror.
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Or else the phrase this too shall pass. It may
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pass like a kidney stone.
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Right right. It's gonna hurt, it may hurt, Yeah.
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And then there's something powerful when we can hold the
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hurtness and gratitude be like thank you. You can say God,
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thank you, universe, whatever it is, you just say thank
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you for giving me this hurt.
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Right now, I have a tattoo that says that I
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thank God for the pain. No, I thank you for
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the rain.
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Thank you for the rain.
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That's right, that's right.
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And it reminds me of a beautiful phrase of Tibetan say,
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like whether they what do you what's the best thing
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to do in the rain? Let it rain?
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That might be the episode let it Ring. Yeah.
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Yeah, And people will try to prevent the rain. They'll
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try to prevent traffic, they'll try to prevent taxes. You know,
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whatever it is that's hurting you, people try to, you know,
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push it away. And you don't have to draw it in.
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Just let it be.
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That's it. Promote yourself, telling people where they could find you, face, Instagram, YouTube,
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all that coul shit.
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Trance well dot help so trance like you're in a
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trance t r A and ce well, like you're in
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01:29:55.319 --> 01:29:59.359
a deep well, you're in this beautiful trance and it
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01:29:59.479 --> 01:30:03.760
heals you. Trance Well dot Help is the website, It's
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on my social media. That's where I'm at. That's where
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I can help heal. Come along a journey group classes
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emails blogs. We got something for you that will help heal.
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Any not charging, right, he not charging. It's all free,
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right if you want to, if you want to give
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to the to the calls to the mission, more than
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happy to.
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Yeah, that's right. And part of that fear is that
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I might get overwhelmed. And yet I know other practitioners
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that will work with me to help. Whether we do
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01:30:38.520 --> 01:30:42.760
it in a group class or something or one on one,
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01:30:42.960 --> 01:30:43.800
we'll find a way.
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Find a way. That should be the We always find
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a way, somehow, find a way. Thank you for this. Yeah,
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I appreciate you. Yeah, it's like I said, it's been
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a long time coming. There's a lot of stuff I
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01:30:56.800 --> 01:30:58.319
wanted to know about you. I feel like I didn't
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01:30:58.319 --> 01:31:00.760
get to everything I wanted to, but I feel like
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I got enough, and I feel like the people got enough.
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If we it's come back, maybe next year I'll be freestyling.
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You start doing fucking music or something. Man, if you
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start playing the bait like you might get inspired by
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01:31:12.279 --> 01:31:13.920
this ship and be like, hey, I was a hypnosist.
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Now I'm a fucking guy.
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I put out in the universe a couple of days ago.
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I'm looking for a guitar likes guitar. I was at
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a guitar center yesterday, like, you know, I know some
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some of the chords and some of the stuff. I
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was there and I was like, you know what, I'll
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just go trust the universe. It'll show up when it
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shows up.
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Fucking journeyman, Ryan the Young. So yeah, man, that's it.
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So one thing is for Sartain with too much for
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these niggas and three much for these hose.
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I have no idea what that means, but that's right.
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I go buy the name of Domino that is Ryan DM,
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and we're out of here. We're out of here. To
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mother
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One