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The day is upon me.
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This is my half marathon. I'm a war zone
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kids is my term for those of us like
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myself. I'm a child sex abuse survivor.
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As an adult, I live with borderline
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personality disorder. I'm a recovering
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addict, believing I got a sorted [ __ ]
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like that. And uh
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I started running last uh April. First
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day I ran more than 100 yd.
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I'm running in a half marathon today.
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And uh
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uh
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[ __ ] it is my motto for this. I was
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first I was disappointed cuz I thought I
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had this idea I'm going to run me a half
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marathon and I thought there's like an
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actual race with an entry fee
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you know, and a bib today, but I was
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wrong. I got the dates wrong so I can
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September.
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Uh so I decided, you know, I so I felt
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crushed by that. There's stupid Johnson,
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you did it again.
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You know, and then I was like, snap out
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of it, buddy. Relax.
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Do it your way.
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So, I made my own half marathon course.
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I'm going to leave at my house and uh
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I'm going to return to my house and
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a little more than 13. In fact, it's a
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little bit more. It's going to be about
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14 mi.
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And I you know, I was bummed out about
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that. This is not a real race. I'm dumb.
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No, and then I realized I got my Gen X
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motto out. The Gen X motto, my motto
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[ __ ] it.
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I'm going to do it my way. It is
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entirely fitting for me in this guy's
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life that the first half marathon I run
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will be one on a path that I picked out.
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A path that I chose. Because I'm a
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pilgrim on the trail of the western
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lands, a place of peace and wholeness
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where I learn and become what I am. And
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so it is entirely fitting that the half
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marathon I run
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ain't going to be a course or a path
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that anyone else has ever run because
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they can't cuz it's my race, like life.
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This is my race. I'm scared. I have a
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lot of fear. I have never run that far
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on a road. I've run 14 mi on a
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treadmill. I have not run 14 mi on a
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road. I run 10 mi on a road. I have
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fear. That is okay. I'm going to start
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the race and uh put one foot in front of
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the other and then I'm going to finish
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the race and I'll be back after that and
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let you all know how it goes. All right?
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So uh
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If all else fails me, I'm going to make
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it to the end of this race
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channeling the power
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of Gen X. That's what I'm going to do.
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I'm going to channel all the power of of
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Gen X and say [ __ ] it. I'm going to get
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back to
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the finish line, which is the starting
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line, which is always how it is in life.
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The place where you end up is the place
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where you start and that is just how it
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do. I'm thrilled and excited and I'll
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catch you all here after a while this
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afternoon. It's a beautiful day on the
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trail of the western lands, boys and
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girls. We're going to get in after it at
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a race pace today, which is still one
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league per hour.
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Language: en
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The day is upon me.
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This is my half marathon. I'm a war zone
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kids is my term for those of us like
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myself. I'm a child sex abuse survivor.
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As an adult, I live with borderline
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personality disorder. I'm a recovering
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addict, believing I got a sorted [ __ ]
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like that. And uh
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I started running last uh April. First
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day I ran more than 100 yd.
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I'm running in a half marathon today.
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And uh
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uh
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[ __ ] it is my motto for this. I was
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first I was disappointed cuz I thought I
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had this idea I'm going to run me a half
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marathon and I thought there's like an
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actual race with an entry fee
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you know, and a bib today, but I was
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wrong. I got the dates wrong so I can
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September.
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Uh so I decided, you know, I so I felt
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crushed by that. There's stupid Johnson,
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you did it again.
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You know, and then I was like, snap out
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of it, buddy. Relax.
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Do it your way.
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So, I made my own half marathon course.
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I'm going to leave at my house and uh
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I'm going to return to my house and
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a little more than 13. In fact, it's a
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little bit more. It's going to be about
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14 mi.
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And I you know, I was bummed out about
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that. This is not a real race. I'm dumb.
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No, and then I realized I got my Gen X
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motto out. The Gen X motto, my motto
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[ __ ] it.
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I'm going to do it my way. It is
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entirely fitting for me in this guy's
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life that the first half marathon I run
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will be one on a path that I picked out.
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A path that I chose. Because I'm a
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pilgrim on the trail of the western
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lands, a place of peace and wholeness
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where I learn and become what I am. And
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so it is entirely fitting that the half
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marathon I run
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ain't going to be a course or a path
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that anyone else has ever run because
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they can't cuz it's my race, like life.
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This is my race. I'm scared. I have a
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lot of fear. I have never run that far
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on a road. I've run 14 mi on a
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treadmill. I have not run 14 mi on a
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road. I run 10 mi on a road. I have
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fear. That is okay. I'm going to start
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the race and uh put one foot in front of
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the other and then I'm going to finish
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the race and I'll be back after that and
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let you all know how it goes. All right?
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So uh
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If all else fails me, I'm going to make
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it to the end of this race
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channeling the power
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of Gen X. That's what I'm going to do.
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I'm going to channel all the power of of
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Gen X and say [ __ ] it. I'm going to get
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back to
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the finish line, which is the starting
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line, which is always how it is in life.
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The place where you end up is the place
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where you start and that is just how it
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do. I'm thrilled and excited and I'll
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catch you all here after a while this
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afternoon. It's a beautiful day on the
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trail of the western lands, boys and
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girls. We're going to get in after it at
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a race pace today, which is still one
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league per hour.
