Trust God & The Process, Babe + Reality Recap - Licensed Yapper - EP.O18

Taliyah Goings: Hey guys, it's Talia Janae and welcome back to the License Shepherd Podcast. Welcome back. I'm in a really good mood, guys. I have had probably one of the most like remembrable weeks of my life. And I can't wait to like tell y'all all about it because it's been so much fun. And I like I don't want it to end. I'm excited for it to end because that means like something really cool and really good can come out of it. Or it can mean like I don't know, it's just such a cool experience. So I can't wait to talk about that with y'all. And of course, we're gonna talk about reality recap. I talk about one of the best shows, the number one show on television, and it is Love Island O USA. We got so much going on that I can't wait to talk and spill about all of it with y'all, because girl, I have thoughts. I have serious thoughts. Yeah, okay, so my week, guys. I So I've talked a lot about like being in your twenties and not wanting to have any regrets and feeling like your life like you haven't started yet and you feel like you're so behind with like social media and seeing other people your age or doing things that you want to do so badly or people do things and you're like, how do they get the opportunity to do that? And you just feel so behind in our twenties. And it sucks because it's like I don't know, we just feel like we should be doing the most now. And I I was talking to my dad about this like a while ago, but I was saying like I feel like the expectations are different for like my generation than it was for other generations. Like For us it's like we're watching people our age or even younger make money. I'm talking about like bank, bank, bank, bank, money, babe. And seeing them be successful so young and it makes you feel like you're not doing enough. It makes you feel like, ⁓ I really haven't taken the right steps. I really haven't, you know I really haven't reached my full potential. And I and it sometimes it gets scary because it's like, I wanna try new things but I'm scared it might not work out or I wanna try new things, but there's like a risk or you just feel like how you don't know how to start, and it all just feels very intimidating. This world is intimidating. And I've talked about a lot of like, I don't want to look back twenty, thirty years from now and feel immense regret of not going for my dreams, not going for those things that people said couldn't have happened. I wouldn't have known that unless I tried. So I've really been like, I can't live with regrets. I can't look back and like Say what if, those are the two words that I don't want to ever say to myself or look at myself in the mirror and be yo, Tlee, you had so much potential, you did not use it. Like, I don't want to do that. And it's like really more about like upsetting myself. Like, I've been told a lot growing up that like I had something about me, or I had a certain light about me, or my energy, or my personality, you know? And It's not even about like what all those people told me. It's about me. Like I don't want to go to bed at night with myself and feel regret for myself or feel like, dang, I really could have done something really cool if I just have taken the risk. And this whole week has just been me really going for my dreams and really like reaching for the stars, if you if you'll say. Like I've really been putting me first and it's scary. But it's been one of the biggest blessings that it's not even over yet. Like I remember last night I prayed to God and I was just like thanking him because I feel so blessed to be, you know, having the opportunity that I have and taking, you know, the bull by its horns and really going for it and like thanking him for putting me in a position and for putting this passion on my heart and for me to actually be going for it. I just felt very grateful. ⁓ and it hasn't even ended yet. But I'm gonna just give you a little bit of sneak peek of what I've been doing. Don't like to talk about it because I just feel like, you know, I think there's also just the feeling of feeling like you failed. So it's like I never want to tell a bunch of people what my dreams, what my real, real dreams are, because I don't want to feel like I failed. And if I did fail, I don't want them to know that I failed. I'd rather it like fail behind closed doors. Like I don't want it to seem like I didn't do it, you know. And I hate when people are like, ⁓ it's really hard to do that. Not a lot of people are successful at that. Like people say things probably and not in the meaning of like making you feel like it's not possible, but they say it as if it's not possible or they think you're crazy for going for something like that. But it's like also like when you live in a small town, like I live in Louisiana, and like if you are born in Louisiana, you stay here, like And not a lot of people want to get out of it. It's like everybody kinda has the same job. Everybody kinda wants to do the same thing. And you go to college, get out, you get married, you have kids, you have you have a successful, ⁓ steady income. Like that's just like a life here, and you stayed in the suburbs and that's just your life. And I knew that this never was for me from a young age. I was like, Yeah, I'm not doing that. And there's a lot of things that I did do that I think younger today would be like, I can't believe you did that. Like that is not that was not the plan. But I think, you know, looking back at my life, I'm like, God put this on my heart for a reason. And it's not just because it was like a childhood dream. This was something I really wanted to go for. And I think also, ⁓ so only like a couple of my friends know about it. Like a couple, maybe like two or three. Like I just didn't like to talk about it. some of my best friends I haven't told them. I haven't told anybody what I've done. I'm just gonna tell you a little bit of what I'm doing, but not really a lot a lot. Just like talking and and then like I guess when you know it happens I'll talk about it but I really don't like Makes me nervous. I feel like I'm not into superstitions, but it also makes me feel like if I tell a bunch of people it's not happen. Like, I don't know why. I just also feel like, guys, we have to understand that like people pray on their downfall. And I'm not saying any of you watchers, any of my yappers on here will pray for my downfall because they don't have a lot of support. But people don't like to see you win, bro. I remember the first time somebody told me that like quote, and I was like, you're so right, like people don't like to see you. successful doing the dang thing. Even on Love Island, we see all these people going on Love Island and like people coming out of the woodworks and exposing them or sharing old videos of themselves of the things they used to say or used to do. And now these people are now granted, you know, if you're saying racial slurred, you shouldn't be on a show like this. So like this people deserve to get taken, you know, off of the show. But like people will do that. Like You will become successful in whatever you're doing, and people will want to see you not be successful. Like people really thrive on like ruining someone's life. Like, or they don't want to see you do well, or it's like jealousy, envy, whatever it is. And I'm not saying anybody's jealous or envious of me, nor am I saying there's anything out there that people can pull up and like I can be canceled for or whatever. But I just think people really do not. People don't like to see other people do things, especially if they think for some reason they don't deserve it, or ⁓ why does it have to be this person and not me? Like people really have that envy and that jealousy in their hearts. Like we talk about jealousy as if it's like, ⁓ I'm jealous of like she has that bag. I really wanted that bag. No, there's people who have real jealousy in their hearts and will do anything for you not to have something. Even if it means in return, they still won't get it. They just don't want you to have it. And like that's like real life. think we hear like y sometimes you just don't imagine people would do things like that but they do and so like I like to keep things that are like I'm passionate about or close or really care about close to me because people are people stuck and you know they they they really don't like to see you do your freaking thing. But ⁓ yeah so that's just something I've always been nervous about and I think being like having a fear of like staying in this town. That I grew up in is such a big fear of mine. Like, y'all, I've had the urge to move out of here since I was eight. Like, I've never seen myself here ever. Like, I like I know so many people that I graduated high school with. They're like buying houses now. And I'm like, oof, like I love that for them, but like I don't want to start a life here. Like, I don't want to buy something here. I don't want to set roots down here because I know this is not where I want to end up. ⁓ and I know like there's so much. There's just something bigger for me. And I'm not saying My dreams and my aspirations are bigger than somebody else's. But because your dreams are subjective to who you are and what you want for your life, but it's just not what I want for me. And like I only want to come back here to visit my family and they're still here. But my brother and my sister only want to live here forever. My parents don't want to live here forever. So it's like I think I don't think I'll ever come back to this town only to see my friends. But like when I leave, I want to leave and I want to stay gone. I don't want to come back. I don't want to. I don't want it. I don't want I don't want it. I think and I'm always blessed. I'm like, okay, I grew up here. I grew up in one of the best areas in my parish. I live in Louisiana to be parishes. ⁓ but I live in one of the best towns in my parish. Like very good, very cool school system, very good people. You know, it's it's a very good area. And I'm blessed and grateful for that, because lots people don't have that. And I had opportunities other people didn't have. But do I want to stay here forever? No. Don't want to continue to drive down these same roads and streets. No. You know, I don't I don't want to do it anymore. And I really started investing in myself around last year, fall, fall of last year. And, you know, I think, you know, people like to put fear in you of like things wouldn't happen. Or I had like a I think I talked about this before where I had an opportunity where I thought my dream was starting about a year and a half ago. And it didn't. it just didn't happen and I was really hurt by that and it and it really made me ⁓ sad. I was really sad. But I think, you know, a year now, time's past, I think I realized I wasn't ready at that time. I think God only gives you the blessings he knows he can trust you with. And that's just what it is. He's not gonna give you something, know you're gonna mess it up. He's not gonna bless you with something when he knows you're not ready for it and you and he knows you're not gonna be successful at it. Why would he he's not gonna do that. You know what I mean? And he's not gonna sacrifice that blessing that he wants for you to go down the drain. He's not gonna do it. And looking back, I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready mentally for it. I don't think I don't I think if my dream would have happened back then, I don't think I would have made the best decisions. I think I just wanted it so badly that I would do that I could would have done anything for it. And I had to realize and also I think if I if if that happened at that time, I don't think I would have taken the time and really like gotten to know God the way that I have now and like invest in him. And you know, I I'm not a perfect Christian by far and I have times where I do slip and like I don't know my Bible every day and you know I'm really you know because that's just you know, I'm I'm a human being of the end of the day and I make choices that probably aren't the best for me, but I've gotten way closer to him than I've ever gotten in my entire life. And I feel like I had to focus on him for a little bit. Not even forever. I should focus on him forever, but I definitely need to realize what my priorities were. And I think he knew deep down I wasn't ready. I wasn't, I think he showed me that to show me that the possibility is there. I have the potential, but I'm not ready. And now to have this opportunity come my way. All week long I've been in a like workshop showcase, I guess. Workshop for for I guess for better words. Really honing in on my craft. And I'm not gonna share it just yet. I think I've shared it before, but I like really honing in on my craft, really focusing, talking to people that I've been in the industry for so long and learning from them and really like and being surrounded by people who have the same passion as you. I think that's something that's made me really happy this week. Being around so many people that have the same passion as you, that want the same thing, talking about it with these people. It's so much different than like talking to your friends about it, which I love talking to my friends about anything. But when you're talking to people who want what you want and and love what you love, it's so cool to be in an environment like that and to see people that it has worked out for them and they are successful in it. And it's like, wow, that's so crazy. That it's impossible, you know? And to be surrounded by people that think the same as me and want what I want. It was very like ⁓ from the first day. I was like nervous, and then when I there's like people I've been talking about, I've been talking with on Zoom together because we've been taking like classes together on Zoom and seeing them in person. And I've just been like, whoa, this is so freaking cool, bro. And I know I'm being kind of You know, I'm kind of being a little mysterious with what I'm talking about, but ⁓ I think when the time is right, I'll share it. But being in a room with people who think the same as you was has been so much fun. And today, you know, was the last day of that. And tomorrow is gonna be the big, you know, like showcase with all the representatives, all the people who actually work in this industry, and seeing if any of them We pray for multiple will want to sign me, will want me to represent them. And that will like when that happens, that will be like, whoa, this is really happening. Like this is really happening. And I will feel like, well, I really did the thing and I'll be very proud of myself. And, you know, to play devil's advocate if the you know the worst case scenario happens and I don't get any calls or nobody, you know, wants me to represent their team. Which would not be the best. But if that outcome happens, I think I realize I've had probably one of the best experiences in my life. And I've I think I've wanted even more because it was so much fun and I don't want to it go. Like now I'm like committed. And I but I I put on a put on a weird note. And I've said this so many times before, but I always feel like even with my family, I told my mom this, there's just something about But I always just feel like everything is gonna work out the way it's supposed to. I just feel it in my bones. And I do feel like I'm gonna get signed and I do feel like someone's gonna pick me up and want me to represent their and want me to represent them. I think I'll I'll get multiple offers. We pray for multiple offers, but I really believe in myself and I think I realize how much confidence I actually have. Because I think before when it came to this mysterious craft that I'm talking about. ⁓ but I But I when it comes to like what I say I'm passionate about, I've always felt very Like I wasn't enough or like and very intimidated by it a lot. And I've gained so much confidence this week with it, just like I don't know. I just feel really good. And like hearing people like give you such I've had I've gotten a lot of feedback. 90% of it I'd say probably been positive, 10% of like constructive criticism of things I could work on, things I could push myself to a whole another level. And it's been So good to have, you know? And I don't know, I just feel very confident that it'll all work out and God has a plan for me. And I feel like I'm living the plan that He has. And I feel like if these are just the first steps and I can't wait to see where this goes. I can't wait to see where my life is gonna be like two months from now, three months, a year from now where I am because of this, because of this this thing that I decided to take, you know, a risk on. And I feel very confident and I just feel so good. Like I can't even explain that. I was talking to some of my girls last night and I was like, Y'all, I feel s I like crying because I was like, I just feel so blessed. Like this has been one of the most best experiences ever. And I don't know, it's just like I just feel like God really, really has been with me this week. And like even if, you know, again the worst thing happens, I'll made so many connections and I don't know, I just I feel so happy. I feel very proud of myself. It hasn't even ended yet. It technically ends on Sunday, if like Saturday all goes well. But I feel immensely proud of myself. I feel like I really did the dang thing. And ⁓ that something really positive's gonna come out of this. So yeah. Like take the risk, guys. Go for what you want. Don't let people tell you what you can and can't do, you know, and hopefully then I come back. I'll have some good news, but like don't let the small town mindset really, really get in your head. Like it's so easy to like conform to that and to do that because it's just something we're are just used to. But when you live in a small town but you think big, sometimes it's intimidating because it's like, Am I crazy for thinking this big? Nobody else is thinking like this. Like, should I just, you know? You know, do what everybody else is doing. Like, you feel a little bit you feel a little a little on the outside, just a little bit. Like I remember for years I would lie about what I wanted to do. Because I just didn't want anybody to be like, I don't know. You know, and that's what it is in small towns. Like, nobody ever thinks that big. And if they do think they do that, they if they do think pretty big, they don't usually go for it. And ⁓ It's just like a fair amount. I've talked to my friends about that all the time, which I love having friends where we want more, where we just have we just have a have we just want the most out of life we can get. And you know, and hearing and being around people that beg the that think the same way as you of like, yes, like I want to explore, I want to travel, I want to try new opportunities, I want to move, I want to do so many things that are different from what everybody else is doing. And like it's so easy to get in your head. and like start doubting yourself. I like I said, I feel like I'm probably the most confident I've ever been in my life. There's times where I get really insecure and I really feel like I'm not worthy or I'm not good enough. I'm not pretty enough. I I I'm still a person and I still have those insecurities and those doubts creep in sometimes where I'm like, maybe I'm not enough. Like maybe this really isn't the route for me. Like maybe this just isn't When I'm supposed you know, and it's like, no, like I don't really take a lot of things as like signs, really, because I just don't know how I feel about like I'm not like superstitious at all, but like I've been seeing a lot of videos on TikTok of just being like, God would not put something on your heart for no reason. He just wouldn't. You know what I mean? Not saying that like it's 100% gonna happen or 100% will not happen, but he just won't do that. And I'm just really excited. I'm really freaking excited, and I've had a blast and like I'm happy that like I have support, like my mom, like the tech she sent me of just being like, I'm so proud of you for like going for your dreams and like you know, and I'm 24, like I'm still young. Okay, don't don't get it twisted. But I am getting older, okay? Twenty-five is like the midpoint, guys. I'll turn twenty-five next year. That's terrifying. Like I time isn't slowing down. The world isn't stopping for me. So I I have to get out there and I have to do what makes me happy. We worry a lot about what other people think all the time, bro. From when we were young, it's just been in and drilled in our brains to care about what people think as kids. We don't want to be the weird kid. We don't want to be so left out. We wanna wear what other people are wearing, what the shoes everybody else has. Like we've always lived and worried about what other people and their expectations of us. We whether we want to admit to it or not. You know, I was that girl that wanted to be the same with other people. You know, I we all wanted to be like our peers so much. And even when we did start going out of that, we still were scared to do it. Like it like, okay, I'm gonna wear this outfit. I feel very nervous, but I like my outfit, but I know people are gonna say weird things, but I really do like my outfit. So I'm gonna wear my outfit, but I know people are gonna talk about me. Like and we'll do it, but we still internally are like everybody's looking at me like we we grow up living with the whole thing of like worrying what other people think about us and then we're also the people who judge like you know people judge kids are mean high schoolers are mean people in college are mean adults are mean you know we we we grow up and we live our lives worrying about what other people think about us other people will say about us And that is something I don't want to do. Like, I was worried about what people were gonna think about me starting a podcast, or like who was gonna watch, or what they what they were gonna be saying, or if they're gonna be taking my clips and sending it to their friends. Like I was worried about that. But you have to start realizing I have to live for me. You have to live for yourself, guys. Really one life. One and it's not long, you know. There's people who their life end shortly all the time. Sorry enough to get Negative, but it's true. And it's like I don't want to live my life pleasing other people or or doing what other people want or or you know doing something to stay, you know, the same as everybody else. I don't want to do that. I hated growing up and I was I hated being the same. I hated it. I remember I had these blue jeans in in in elementary school, like fifth grade. I had this from justice, y'all remember justice. I had these blue jeans and they had splatter paint all over them. And they were, I thought they were the coolest pair of jeans I've ever seen in my life. They had splatter paint on them and they were so cool. And I remember it was free dress and I couldn't wait to wear those jeans on free dress day because I knew everybody was gonna be Well, your jeans are so cool. I just knew I was gonna look fire. Okay. I remember going down my hallway and feeling very confident, okay. Feeling so good about myself. People saying, Jeans are so cool, your jeans, your jeans. I like, ⁓ yes, they are really cool. I remember this girl. She was like, ⁓ my gosh, I love your jeans. I was like, thank you. And then the next free dress, probably what, a month later, two months later, she shows up in the blue jeans with the splatter paint. And I was livid. Keep in mind, girls got justice. But nobody in my grade had those jeans. So when she came to the next free dress and had those jeans, I never wore those jeans to school ever again. Ever. Again. I hated having things other people had. I hated it. I did not like it. I wanted to be different so bad. Like, bro, 10-year-old Talia wanted to be different so bad. But I did, I liked doing things. other people didn't do. I liked watching things and people didn't watch. I liked I liked being different. I did. I thrived on that, bro. I loved it so much. Like having a big personality, I've had it since I was a kid. The second the first person in my life told me your personal is so big or so bubbly, whatever, I thrived. I liked being different, you know? And growing up in a town or everybody you know everybody's different, but everybody kind of goes down the same path. I dreaded that. I did not want that. I saw where I wanted my life to go, and that's where I wanted my life to go. I did not do a lot of the things that I thought I was going to do, but I think it all comes in timing and I think God knows what we're ready for and what we're not ready for. And he knew that 18 year old Clea fresh out of high school was not ready for what I thought I was gonna do. And I because I thought I wanted to go to school in California. I wanted to go to UCLA. He knew first of all Clea didn't have the grades for that okay and he knew that we went Ready to like go that far. You know what I mean? I probably wasn't ready for that yet. He knew that. So I went to another school in my state, which was great and it was fine. And I learned a lot. Okay. But and there were opportunities that I had, and I had where I thought I was gonna get signed at one point, and he knew I was not ready. So he took that and put it to the side. And he took my whole dream and kind of pushed it to the side and made me focus on other things. I got my college education, I got a job that I loved, you know. he I wanted to leave my college job for so long. He knew I was not ready. My time there was not over. And the second he knew I was done with that and that I whatever he thought I needed to learn or grow from from being there. He knew that I learned it and I grew from it and it was time for me to leave. And when I left I was so happy to leave but I wanted to leave month prior, but he knew I wasn't ready yet. And when that time was to come, I left and I explored my wings and I got a better job, the job that I have now. And he And he will know when it's time for me to leave this job and move to another one. He'll know. He'll know I wanted to move out of the state at eighteen. He knew I wasn't ready to move out at eighteen. Okay. You know, I wasn't ready for that. You know, that time would be coming, you know? And when that time does come, he'll know I was ready for that. He will not put me in a situation that will anything that will ever deter my life or deter my relationship with him. He would never do that. You know what I mean? And he knew I wasn't ready. And even though I thought I was ready, you know, you think you we think we know everything. Even times we think we know more than God knows, okay? Sometimes we think what we want for our life should be the end all be all. But he knows. And he knew I wasn't ready at that time. But I really think my time is now. And I can't wait, you know, for tomorrow. And you know, I don't get any answers till Saturday evening. And I'm gonna be praying. God's gonna be with me, everything's gonna be fine, I'm gonna go there, show my personality, these people, they're gonna love me, and it's gonna be amazing. And you have to go through life with confidence. Because if you don't think you're the best, and if you don't think that you're worthy, nobody else will. Nobody else will. You know what I mean? ⁓ and I'm not gonna like sell myself to them. I'm gonna be 100% authentic to Leah Bro. To my core. I'm gonna show them I'm just gonna show them who I am, you know? And if they like it, which they should, then great. But if they don't, then that's fine, you know? I know that I went and I put my first foot forward and I did what I wanted to do and I took the risk. And I think the risk will come out positive. But if it doesn't, then I'll be really hurt. I'm not gonna lie, I'll be really hurt, I'll be really sad. But I know before a reason. But I'm not even thinking that way because I think everything will work out the way it's supposed to. You know, I have I'm putting this in God's hands and he knows if I'm ready or not. And I think I am, but it doesn't matter what I think, it matters what he thinks. So I'm just really excited. I've been so happy all week. I cried last night, I was so happy. I'm just feeling very fulfilled. It's so weird, but I do I'm really blessed as well for this opportunity because I want it I If I knew this existed, I would have done this years ago. But I think I wasn't ready at the time. And I'm just really happy and excited for this now. You know, I've had so many nights when I was a kid where I cried for like an experience like this so hard. I prayed so hard, like, God, please, please. And like I'm living that right now. And it's sick. It's the coolest thing I've ever experienced. And like I just want whatever y'all want for y'all's lives, even if it is to stay in your in your hometown and live there and reasoning there. Whatever it is you want for your life, whether whether whatever it is, I hope you get it and I hope I want you guys to know that it only it's gonna come when you're ready for it. And you know, ⁓ everybody's dream is everybody's dreams are valid, everybody's dreams matter, and I really hope for every part of life you're in that you're taking those risks. If you've been holding out on yourself for not taking a certain risk, do it. Take it. Please do it for me. Do it for yourself. Do it. Don't even do it for me. Do it for yourself. You know? So you can say, I try, you know? And I don't know, I'm really happy with myself. Just like proud of myself. I think I think like sometimes we don't like people think like you shouldn't really like boast about yourself or you really shouldn't. Like, I think it's great to look at yourself in the mirror and be like, I am proud of you. Period. I'm really proud of what you've overcome. I've I'm really proud of you for taking those risks. I'm really proud of you for putting yourself first. That's fine. You know, it's good to be selfless. It is it's it's amazing to be selfless. But there's some times where you c you can still give yourself kudos, you know what I mean? And I'm really proud of myself. I've I've had the best week. And all this will be I'll never I'll never forget. I had so much fun. I met so many people and It's been a blast. It's been a blast. And I can't wait to come back. And let's pray that I come back next Monday with some really good news. So Yeah. That's enough about me. I'm gonna go in and we're gonna talk about Casa Amour from Love Island because Casa Week has been a week from hell. Like it's been real stressful for me. Watching this whole week, I've been like, no, we're not quick. It's just really been a lot. First, let's just start off with the people I think my America's couple, the couple that's gonna win Love Island, Brittany, or the couple that's gonna win Love Island, Trinity and Bryce. Y'all When Casa started and Bryce was crying in the photo. When Bryce was crying and he was like, I don't know, I just really, really miss Trinity. I really like Trinity. Like, I really just want her. Like, I was like, they are securing their 100k. Do you hear me? They're going to win. And if you don't win for Bryce and Trinity, you're a hater and you have problems. And you need to go to therapy and figure that out. Because that is the love. That man loves her. And Trinity, you know, she explored Corey, you know, and she realized the second after she wasn't feeling it and she wants Bryce. I'll just think about his Bryce, she wants Bryce, Bryce, Bryce, Bryce, Bryce. And there are so many Bryce and Trinity haters up there. And I just think y'all are y'all have trauma on it to go through. Because it you can really tell. And you know what? They may prove us wrong, but that's not where we're at right now. Right now, we're seeing two people who care about and love each other so much. And they want to be together. And I heard people say, like, ⁓ the only reason why Bryce didn't move on in casa is because none of the girls wanted him. Have you ever thought about Bryce didn't want any of the girls? We don't know all the conversations Bryce had with those girls. We didn't know if those girls wanted to pursue Bryce and Bryce turned him down. We don't know that. But I know what we did see, we saw Bryce talk to Sincere. The what was it? Technically the first nine of casa. And be like, yo, these girls aren't Trinity. They don't get my jokes. Trinity was sort of like. They just don't get me like Trinity does. And seeing Trinity cry with Anaya and Melanie and just be like, guys, I want Bryce. Like, I don't want to explore. I tried, didn't like it. Bryce is who I want. And seeing her be like, what if there's someone prettier and better and smarter than me? Girl, there's no one prettier, badder and smarter than you, Trin. Like, I love them together. I'm rooting for them so hard. I can't wait. I think today, tonight, like because this is a Friday. Like we get to see them come back together and I can't wait for that and I can't wait to talk about with you talk about that with you guys because I know it's gonna be amazing and they need a date, they need the hideaway. I love them so much and ugh, they've just they've just made my heart so happy. I love them and also I want to talk about like the maturity of Trinity. Like Trinity's the youngest one there. Or she's the youngest girl. She's twenty-two, Bryce's twenty-nine, and I think we sort of we really saw that age doesn't mean maturity. Trinity's the youngest woman there, and she is so mature. And Bryce, I think this is also Bryce is a good example of why we should have older people in Love Island. Because Bryce is 29, and hearing Bryce talk about what he wants in a woman is so much different than what hearing Sincere or Casey or Corbin talk about what they want in a woman. And like Bryce really like integrated a lot of communication between him and Trinity. And everything they've gone through, they sat down, they talked about it, they got past it. Bryce didn't let them go to bed without figuring out where they were, if they were on good terms or not. You know what I mean? I think having that communication, they have the strongest communication out of everybody on that villa. And I just want them to win they're going to win. Everybody loves Trinity, she's absolutely hilarious, and I just can't wait to see them reunite tonight. And let's move on to the other boys, because they They play in big time. Hearing Corbin say to Casey, the villa girls are like high school girls, and the Casa Moore girls are like college girls. Excuse me, that is exactly what a twenty year old a 21 year old would say. And he's 21. So I'm not surprised that he said some crap like that. Like, every conversation Casey and Corbin have had in Casa has blown my mind. Like The way they talk, and it's like, are y'all forgetting that this is being recorded? That the public is gonna see this? This guy chat isn't cute at all. Cause all they're doing is talking about the other girls, saying how the villa girls are this, that, and the other, the villa girls didn't give them anything, the villa girls are whack, the villa girls, the castamor girls, all them need to come at me, a whole new group of girls. Like, y'all suck. Like, y'all, the way they're talking about the ca the villa girls is completely unacceptable. And I'm like, are y'all forgetting this is being recorded? Casey is someone I definitely didn't think he was. Like Casey from the Casey from the beginning to the Casey now are two different people. Two different people. The way he's talked about Anaya, like when they were asking, like like after the the postcard K and they were asking I think Caleb like, Are you happy for Anaya? And he was like, Nah, to be honest, I really don't care. Are you good, bro? Like, are you okay? Like, I just find that so crazy. And he knows he's bringing back T T. So why is he coming on Anaya like this? Like The way they were speaking about these girls have been insane and they need a movie night. They need a movie night so everybody can see how they've been talking about them. Corbin's like, I really don't care what Kenzie's doing. I'm happy she found somebody. Cool. You know what I mean? Like I think we need a movie night so the girls can see that these guys are nothing, bro. They're so crap. The only guys that I've showed respect are Caleb and Bryce. The other ones, trash. Complete trash. And then Sincere has been killing me. Because First of all, if Sincere doesn't come back with with Melanie, and we'll find out, and by the time this comes out, we'll know if he does or not. If he does not come back with Amora, shame on him. Shame on him, because this is exactly the same thing he did to Sol, and Soul have every reason to be upset. You cannot do what you're doing with this girl, spend all your time with her, touch her, kiss her, cuddle her, tell her all these sweet nothings, and then not bring her back. And then not couple up with her. You can't do that. I meant to just go back to Melanie and be like, ⁓ I'm back. It's like it's literally like he's going out having a having his time and then coming back to his girlfriend. Like, that is so wack and he's done this and if he does this to a moral, he's done this to two girls now. And he needs to be stopped and he's like, I have to do this to know if I really like them or not. Sincere, what? No, you don't. If you really thought you and Melanie's connection were strong enough for anything, you'd be just like Bryce. Miserable. Because Bryce has been miserable. That's what that's what she would be like. So honestly, he needs to bring Amora back. He should. Like I feel bad. I will feel so bad for that girl if he doesn't bring her back because he is basically moving like he will. And if he doesn't, that's horrible. That's so whack. And I hope she stands up for herself and is like, Bro, you tricked me. Like you really just tricked me. And then seeing how Zach is now worried because after the postcard came of like Keda seeing him kiss Alana. He's like, she's gonna think I'm bringing somebody back. Okay, you weren't innocent. Keda has been completely respectful of you and you weren't. And seeing Keda cry like that was so sad, bro. Like she was hurt. Those were tears of pure hurt because it's like I trusted you with so many things about myself and you went and disrespected me. And every girl knows that feeling. And I felt for her heavy. And but Anaya was was kinda annoying me. Because she's 'cause okay, she cried about Casey, I get it. But it's like Anaya and what world have KC came back without a girl? Like, you really you knew that, we knew that everybody knew he was coming back with a girl. Even the be the girls in the villa were like, Anaya please, he's coming back with the with the with someone. Like, please be so for real. You're gonna look stupid standing up there by yourself because you really thought Casey was gonna be there for you. Like, no. And like, I really need her to come back with Carl. Carl's such a good guy. Carl deserves that. I think he's really proven himself. You don't really know much about him. But I think seeing him and Anaya together, I love what I'm seeing. I think they're really cute together. And I just really hope Anaya doesn't like take Casey back. And Casey doesn't want Anaya back. Casey wants TT, bro. But of but she like, of course it's the girl with the Fulani brains. That made me laugh. So hard. Melanie. Melanie, your babe was being a little delusional. What if it's a challenge? It's not a challenge, bro. It's not. He's been all up on this girl all day, every day, and none of it's been a challenge. Okay. And I Melanie but also Melanie was also the one who said a couple episodes ago. He could do anything and I'll still take him back. And then after like this episode, she was like, Are we really gonna let him do that? And they come back in our beds? Exactly, Melanie. Wait, please. Like these men are doing whatever they want and they're doing it because they know they can get away with it. And all are sitting here, my man, my man, my man, but they're not s they're not mentioning you at all. Okay, you're safe. Melanie and then going back and kissing a girl like you don't miss me. Melanie was like, it's for my challenge. And Trinity said, Girl, don't be delusional. I love Trinity. She's girl, we're not we're not playing the diluble game. This is not from a challenge. And like I know, like I could tell that Kinsey was also hurt by Corbin, but I think she knew that's just the guy Corbin is. But I I see Kinsey coming back with someone, obviously, Dylan maybe, and then Corbin coming up coming Coming back with the Priya girl, whatever her name is. And then I think Kenzie's gonna wanna go back with Corbin at the end of the day. I think she finds Corbin my attractive more attractive and she has more of a connection with Corbin. But I don't think Corbin wants to be back with Kinsey. He mentioned like a bunch of red flags that he's had that he hasn't had the time to speak about yet. And I just don't see her like staying with this Dylan guy. Even Melanie with Corey, like I don't I feel like Melanie trying to give off that she probably will bring Cory back, but something's telling me I don't think she will. I think she's gonna wait for Sincere. She okay, Melanie will either bring Cory back, which I don't think so, or Melanie will be single. So just she'll just choose to be single. And Sincere's definitely gonna walk in with Amora. He should. And if he doesn't, they need a movie night to expose him. But Melanie's gonna stay with him. Like I just won't see Melanie like not choosing Sincere and all of this. Like she just gives bird, bro. And I like when she said that bird comment a couple weeks ago, I was like, ⁓ yeah, she's gone. She's gone and she's not coming back. Like, I just don't see her really standing to her guns. And Aya, I really hope after this she picks Carl because she will look dead stupid up there when she when he walks in with TT. He don't want you. And Frank, quite frankly, I don't think he ever did. He's really stuck on this whole like she never really chose me in the beginning. T T came in and chose me. He's really stuck on this. Like, he's been stuck on it for a hot minute. And I just don't I I don't want her to, so I really hope she picks Carl. Trin Trin is definitely gonna come back by herself and I can't wait to see the like reunite. I can't wait to see Bryce and Trinity reunite and like them spend their time together. And I heard that Bryce's birthday is on Monday, so like I can't wait. To see them reunite, and I think it'll be beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. And I think I'll be watching it over and ever and ever again. Who else? Kata. Ooh, will Keda bring back Che? I don't know. I don't know. We saw Kada really upset, really hurt. And I personally think Che is way more attractive than Zach. He's asking her questions about her family, like really trying to get to know her. I think they have a better vodka. I think they'll look amazing together. I think. Katie might come back single. I don't think she's gonna pick Che. And I think she really wants Zack back. And she's gonna come back choosing herself and then get back with Zack. Even though I think she should bring back Che, I don't think she will. And then who's left? Jen will obviously couple up with Gail or Ronnie. I don't really know, and I don't really care. To be honest with you. And I think is that all? Melanie will either couple up with Cory or Sincere and Sincere will bring back an o ⁓ Amaya or Amora. Sincere will bring back Amora. Who else is there? Caleb is gonna come back with Jaden for sure. I don't really know how good that really is. And then Corbin's gonna come back with I don't know her name, P. I'll call her P. She's gonna come back with P. Cindy's gonna come back with Dylan. And those are my castle predictions. Okay, we'll see tonight. And but y'all will know. But we'll know this by Monday when it comes out. But we'll see. But that's what I think's gonna happen. I just don't see it going the way. I just don't see it being like a kumbaya moment. And I don't know if any of the girls are gonna like vocal at the fire poo. Ooh, let's see. And I really they really need a movie night. After all of this, we need a movie night so the girls can see just like how the guys talk about them. I really want Trinity and Bryce to see that like they were waiting for each other this whole time. I think that'd be so beautiful to watch. And I like I hope Trinity really gets to explain to Bryce of like what that was with Corey and like you know, her feelings were always there for him and the second she kissed that dude she wasn't feeling it. I hope they have that conversation and they talk about it and you know, they really grow from it. And from what Bryce said last line, I was like, I'll take the risk. Like the risk is worth taking because I like her so much. And he was like, that's what love is. I think they're really falling for each other, guys. So I think after this they're gonna close it off. They'll be Rub Island winners. I can't wait to vote for the nine. And I think if a nine is into Carl, they'll be second. ⁓ but yeah, those are my predictions, y'all. I can't wait for tonight. I'm gonna be up here at eight o'clock sh watching the episode because I can't wait to see it. And we'll talk all about this on Monday. When it all comes out. Which I'm so nervous about y'all, but I think it'll be good. But yeah, guys, that's the episode. There's some just things that I want y'all to take away from this and like really go for what you want, guys. And don't let anybody's opinions affect you. Affect what you want for your life. You know, we all have different lives. God made us different for reasons, and He put different passions on all of our hearts, and all of our passions are equally important as everybody else's. And, you know It's hard, especially as girly pops in her twenties and like feeling like you're not doing enough or feeling like you are reached to your full up your full potential. But want everybody to know that like you're worthy. You're worthy of that dream. You're worthy of that position. You're worthy of whatever you want for yourself. You're worthy of it. God has a plan for us to really trust him. Start believing in yourself, gain that confidence for yourself and take those risks. Whether it's a new job. Moving somewhere, a financial risk, whatever it may be, take those risks. Talk talk that positive talk positively talk positively to yourself. Those words of affirmations are so important and I feel like a lot of times we expect those from other people. Take that and give it to yourself. You know what I mean? And don't let anybody tell you your dream is too big. Ever. Don't let anybody tell you you're not worthy enough for it. 'Cause you are and never ever live life with regrets. I don't want any of us to look back and be like, What if we all deserve what we want? We just have to go for it. We have to put our pride to the side, we have to put the fear to the side and realize, you know what, I can do this. And even if it doesn't work out the way we want it to, we all we can say is that we tried and we really, really put our best foot forward and gave it our all. Gave it 100%. So I really want that for everybody else, and it's something I've always wanted for myself, but it's something I really want for all of you because I really do care and I will support any of you guys. So like don't give up on yourself. God put things on your heart for a reason. Go for them. You're not behind. Everybody's timing is different. My timing is different from yours. Yours is different from mine. Ours is different from our friends. It's all different. But we're all gonna get there, guys. It's all a road. Life is a journey. Life is a hard journey. But we will end up where exactly where we want to be. And we'll look back on this day and be like, yo, I really did what I wanted to do. My life has changed significantly. And I love it so much. And it wouldn't have happened if I didn't take that risk today. So take the risk today. And I can't wait to talk to you guys again. Hopefully with good nudes. We pray for good news. I pray for y'all. Pray for me. And you know guys wearing this together. This life's hard. And as a woman, it's even harder, but we got it and everything works out the way it's supposed to. And I love you guys so so so much. Stay pretty, stay confident. And I'll see you guys next time. Peaces and blessings. Bye guys.