When Human Design and Astrology Become a New Cage: How Labeling Yourself Prevents True Healing

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Have you ever stopped yourself from making a decision until you checked your astrological transit first?
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Or if, like, Mercury is in retrograde?
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Did you read your human design chart and think, wow, that explains a lot?
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I guess that's just how I am and how I'm supposed to operate.
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Have you ever felt disappointed or confused about something you learned about your natal chart, but then just accepted it because that's what the stars apparently had in mind when you were born?
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Today we're talking about how astrology and human design and those very cool, easy to obsess over esoteric systems can do more harm than good, because they often become a cage instead of a blueprint for your freedom and highest self-reclamation and true potential.
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So many people put their charts above them as if their charts are the authority and not their highest selves.
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And that's why you can know your natal chart like the back of your hand, understand your human design, and still struggle in healing or success, self-actualization and self-realization, because you've been taught to feel like you need permission from your chart to be your true self.
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Welcome to the Simple Source, a paradigm-shifting space where self-love, healing, spirituality, and personal growth are redefined.
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Have you been told healing takes years, that abundance must be attracted, or that transformation requires struggle?
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You haven't been told the truth.
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I'm Linda Vallions, a certified, trauma-informed holistic coach, author, and spiritual guide.
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After healing myself from chronic conditions, complex trauma, and lack, not by following traditional frameworks, but by creating my own, I'm now teaching you to love, heal, and free yourself, mind, body, and soul, so you can reclaim your highest health, happiness, and potential with joy and ease.
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You were never meant to struggle or wait for what is already yours.
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Let's get started with today's episode.
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So I'm doing this episode because I'm in the middle of a full top-to-bottom business redesign and restructuring, where I'm revamping my entire business, like literally from top to bottom, left to right, to align with the integration of my astrology and human design.
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But I have unsubscribed from common distortions, still widely taught in the esoteric systems around the world, which means that I am not operating beneath my charts.
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I created these charts, meaning my highest self and my soul chose the exact time, the exact place, the exact conditions of my birth for specific reasons.
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And those reasons are not to struggle while paying off karmic debt and learning lessons in earth school, contrary to popular belief and what I used to believe.
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Those reasons are self-mastery, mastery over reality, mastery over source, over consciousness, over existence.
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And when I stopped viewing my chart through common disempowering distortions and started viewing it through clarity of the truth, that I chose and created this chart.
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That means it's not above me.
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Saturn doesn't dictate my timing in life.
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Neptune doesn't confuse me because I am Saturn.
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I am Neptune.
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I am source, and I am the master of my chart.
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And from that, my whole reality started responding to me in ways that most people would call unbelievable.
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Now, you probably sought human design and astrology to know yourself, right?
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To gain more insight about why you are the way you are or why your life is the way it is.
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And if you've had good astrologers and human design experts, then you probably felt some sense of feeling seen.
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But that feeling of being seen can become a dependency where you check your chart before you trust yourself, before you consult with your own highest self, where you see your channel or your gate and go, well, I guess that's my lot in life.
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Or you start building your life around what you think it says that you're capable of or allowed to do.
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Like projectors are low energy, generators are high energy, emotional authority means you can't trust the moment.
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So you got to stop trusting yourself in the moment.
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And then your sovereignty and your actual self-knowledge get smaller and smaller, not more expansive, because you've given your authority to your charts.
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And then that initial sense of relief and freedom from feeling seen becomes a crutch and then a break.
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So when you use your chart to determine what you can't be, what you cannot do, what you cannot want, hold, create, receive, you've turned what is a sacred map that you designed into a cage.
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Now the systems are not the cage, it's the frameworks that they're interpreted in and taught through that distort your relationship to them that are the cages.
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And an astrological chart or human design chart is uniquely capable of stealing false authority because when a person tells you who you are, you can argue that, right?
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You can go, no, you don't actually know me, but a chart is different.
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A chart feels like a fact because it's data, it's math, it's a system.
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So it's actually easier to hand a chart your sovereignty than it is to hand it to a person.
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Now I use that word a lot, sovereignty, because it is it's that important to genuine, enjoyable, and lasting healing and health and happiness and mastery of yourself, mind, body, and soul, and reality.
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Sovereignty means nothing outside of you gets the final say on who you are, what you can do, and thus ultimately your freedom.
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Not a chart, not a transit, not a gate, not a channel, not an open or closed center.
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Nothing.
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You are the authority over yourself.
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Now a chart can reveal something, but it cannot run you.
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It can't determine your capabilities or your potential or your perceived limitations.
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A transit can tell you what the cosmos are doing, like the weather report, but it doesn't get to outrank you.
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A gate can name a pattern, but it doesn't get to be your identity.
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Now, this all might make you a little uncomfortable because you've maybe been using astrology and human design to make decisions, to run your life.
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And I think that's good.
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Be uncomfortable because that means some part of you is remembering your truth at last.
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Or maybe you're like, all right, Linda, but I am not obsessed.
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And maybe you don't think your relationship to astrology or human design or other esoteric systems is that big of a deal, right?
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You just find them interesting, fun.
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And you don't want like your perception of this thing that you love to be tarnished.
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So, first of all, I'm right there with you.
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I have been reorganizing my entire professional life according to my charts.
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And I have been obsessed with my charts a little bit, but not from the position of them being the authority, but from the position of I created my charts because I am my highest self, and that makes me the authority.
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There's a massive difference, and we're gonna get into more of that later.
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But also when your nervous system doesn't feel safe in your internal environment, meaning your sense of self, your beliefs about yourself, your emotional baseline, it then goes looking for that sense of safety externally.
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And if your body doesn't feel safe as a baseline, then not knowing what's going to happen feels scary, right?
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Like a threat.
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So you grab those tarot cards and you get your chart to get an answer, some certainty, some direction.
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Now, that doesn't mean that something is wrong with you.
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It just means that your nervous system is doing what it's designed to do, which is seek safety.
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And that seeking of safety makes it easy to believe in distortions that claim to empower you when really, when you examine them closely and apply some logic to them, they don't hold up.
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The big and the widely accepted ones are one karma, two, Saturn is quote unquote blocking you.
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Three, Neptune makes everything foggy.
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Four, you know, Mercury retrograde is just gonna fuck everything up, right?
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Beware.
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Now, do you notice a pattern there?
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With every single one of them, the action is happening outside of you, to you, by a planet, by a supposed supposed energetic debt, by the sky's position, and you're powerless to do anything but concede.
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That's the tell, friend.
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Whenever something makes you think that life happens to you instead of moves through you, you're being fed a distortion.
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Now let's pick apart the big ones uh that are relevant to astrology and human design.
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And again, let me just be clear.
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I am not shitting on astrology or human design.
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Clearly, I love them, but I utilize them very differently than most people.
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All right, so let's start with karma.
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Now, I used to buy into the karma story too, but boy, does it not make sense when you reconnect to your highest self because there's no karmic debt.
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You did not reincarnate in Earth School because you were a not so awesome person in another life and you need to purify your soul in order to be like good enough to reunite with source.
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That distortion, I mean, just coming out of my mouth, it just makes no sense.
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And that distortion gets reinforced by a lot of spiritual, a lot of popular spiritual frameworks, and it's just simply not true.
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Think about it.
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If you are divine as you are, which you are, and you are source, because that is what all of creation is made of, then why would you be powerless to like quote unquote negative energy?
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You are the source that creates energy.
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That means energy yields to you.
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Your highest self is not floating in a higher dimension surrounded by negative energy that that they're powerless to, waiting for you to repent and evolve as a soul so you can be enlightened.
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Like the story just makes it just makes no sense because you're you're already enlightened.
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You are source, you've just forgotten.
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And that story keeps you small, it keeps you indebted to false authority, and your soul shackled to this earth school, quote unquote, fallacy created to keep you coming back to this planet where there is a massive distortion matrix that feeds off your fear and shame.
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But what is true is a choice, is consequence, patterns resolving or not resolving, your soul and your field correcting course or not.
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There's no debt.
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All right.
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Second one, Saturn.
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This is a big one.
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Saturn never blocked anybody.
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Saturnian energy isn't looming over you, keeping you in a certain place in your life because you have a square or opposition or difficult house placement.
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Saturn is the mastery gate, meaning it represents how your self-mastery and power take form, where you get focused, where you mature, where you reclaim your brilliance, where you build something real that lasts.
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People took the planet of mastery and they made it into a planet of punishment.
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Then they started bracing for their Saturn return, like, oh shit, it's gonna get real now.
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But your Saturn return is where you just embody a more mature version of you, where you integrate the experiences of your truth and you step into greater self-mastery as an adult.
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That's all it is.
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The punishment is something you buy into, that you subscribed to, that you did not question.
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And when you unsubscribe, Saturn is actually a really solid homie that you're gonna come to love because Saturn is like, I know you're brilliant and I know you're capable.
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Now I want you to believe that too.
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That's Saturn.
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Okay, Neptune.
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Neptune is the ego's dissolution gate, meaning it's where false certainty dissolves and creates space for truth, for clarity, for vision, spiritual mastery.
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Okay.
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Where the control, the fantasy, the projection, the version of you that is egocentric, not egoic, that's different.
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Egocentric loses its grip.
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So your true self or something true emerges.
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But it gets associated with confusion because many people don't want to relinquish their ego beliefs, their projections, their fantasies, their masks.
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And so when Neptune shows up, there's resistance.
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And that resistance is what feels like, uh, I don't know what's going on.
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Is this real or is this not real?
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Is this true or not true?
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And that's only because you've identified with a false version of yourself.
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If your identity is anchored in your higher self, it's not a fog, it's a liberation into your highest self, into spiritual mastery.
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So those are the big ones that I'll use as examples, but there are other like major common distortions that are that just go unquestioned in astrology.
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But here's how you can disengage, start disengaging from that distortion and reclaim your authority and sovereignty.
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So ask yourself if any placement, any transit, anybody's take on your chart makes you feel smaller, scared, passive, ashamed, behind, waiting for something outside of you to happen, like to give you the green light, or makes you feel in debt.
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If you answered yes to any of those, then it was filtered through distortion.
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A true reading, a true interpretation does the opposite.
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It hands you back your authority along with greater clarity and true direction.
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You walk away feeling like the author of your life, not like a bystander or a witness.
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And that question must be asked and answered diligently.
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Anytime, anytime you're engaged in a reading or interpretation of any of your charts, you should always be questioning the source.
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Does this free me or does this cage me?
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Because I've experienced my friends talking about their astrology with so much disempowerment and lack of self-knowledge, as if Saturn means they have to struggle and earn success through hard work because of some karmic debt or lessons they had to learn in order to evolve, as if Neptune is all dreamland and nothing solid, and they don't question what they're told or what they read through the lens of sovereignty and authority.
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They just accept this idea that they're subordinate to a planet or to like energetic ties.
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And all of that has a real effect on your nervous system and subconscious because when you say Saturn is blocking me, your body doesn't interpret that as like an interesting astrology fact.
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It registers that as restriction, loss of freedom, and suppression, right?
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That's all coming and I can't do anything about it.
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And then your body and your nervous system are going to start to contract before anything has actually happened in your life.
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So the next time you read your chart, I want you to notice how much are you bracing?
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Is your chest open or constricted?
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Is your jaw tight or relaxed?
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And that tension and tightening is the tell that the distortion is doing its number on you.
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Because the planets were never running you.
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They're just mirrors.
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They show you the energies that your own consciousness and highest self chose to meet, chose to work with, chose to master.
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That's the whole job of the sky and everything in the world in the universe to reflect you back to you because you are source.
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You are everything.
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You are the planet.
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You are the sky.
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So read your natal charts, read your human design with that true lens.
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And then you're going to experience how that shifts everything in you.
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Now I want to talk about human design now, because boy, are there major distortions there too, sometimes even worse than astrology, because the language is so specific.
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Like it starts to sound like it's describing this like permanent deep version of you.
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But let's sort all of that out.
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Okay, so here's how a human design revelation usually goes.
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Okay.
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You learn your type and you start compartmentalizing and shrinking to fit inside it, right?
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I'm a projector, so I don't have the energy.
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I'm a generator, so I just have to respond and wait, right?
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I've got emotional authority, so I can't trust myself in the moment.
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I have to sit in the wave for three days first.
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You learn about a gate and you go, well, that explains the loneliness, I guess.
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That's just me for life.
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Or you read your profile line and some part of you, conscious or unconscious, goes, I guess that's just what I'm allowed to be.
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People read human design through limitation without realizing it.
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My human design is this, so I am only this and I must be this, or my energy isn't optimized.
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Now you're not doing anything wrong per se with that.
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You've just bought into a widely accepted framework without questioning if the lens of interpretation is serving you, is reflecting your highest self, or if it's inhibiting you.
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And most people run with the shadow expression and limitation lens of their human design.
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They call it like home.
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But the truth is, every gate, every channel, every line runs on a spectrum, like everything else in existence.
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There's not just like one flavor of loneliness or heartbreak or struggle or joy or love or success.
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How your energy shows up when you're scared, when you're dysregulated, when you're abandoning yourself is all, it's different, depending.
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And how the same energy shows up when you've actually met it and integrated it, learned to operate it as your highest self is also totally different.
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But it's the same gate, it's the same channel, it's the same line, it's the same placement, but completely different experiences.
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The shadow version is just one data point on a spectrum, but so many people only see the shadow version, and so they get stuck in the energy of old conditioning.
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But a gate or a channel doesn't rule you, doesn't rule how you can move through your life as your true self.
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I want to give you some examples now.
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For instance, gate 64, which is a gate I personally have in my human design chart.
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The shadow expression of gate 64 is confusion, mental pressure, not being able to get your thoughts straight.
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But the mastery and clean version or expression of the gate is the ability to hold like a fuck ton of semi formed ideas and still be mentally coherent, clear, and decisive.
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So you're not doomed to be confused.
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Until you're like clear, that's the shadow interpretation.
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I'm actually very rarely confused, very rarely confused, but I do have a healthy imagination and a complex mind that I love.
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Another example is gate 40.
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It can be interpreted as living in loneliness, right?
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Isolation, never quite belonging anywhere.
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That's the shadow expression.
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The mastery and clean expression is sovereign solitude that serves, right?
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Sacred rest, giving from a full cup and wanting something substantial in return instead of overgiving until you're depleted.
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So it's not loneliness, it's solitude that replenishes.
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Another example is the 2838 channel.
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The common read of that is life is a struggle, right?
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I'm here to fight through life.
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But that's the shadow interpretation.
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The mastery in the clean expression is the one who doesn't shrink in the face of a challenge, the one who knows exactly what's worth putting your energy into and refuses to burn energy on anything less.
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So you're not doomed to struggle and you are not defined by struggle.
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You are built to find the meaning of your effort and to go all in when it counts.
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Another example is channel 1858.
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The shadow interpretation is people feel like it's uh nothing is ever good enough.
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Like, why am I so critical?
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Why am I always unsatisfied?
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But the mastery and clean expression is it's your life force that can feel when something's out of integrity and what's to bring it back into integrity.
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So you're not doomed to see the flaw in everything.
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You're just someone who restores the truth.
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So you can see how the shadow expression traps you in a small expression of yourself when you feel defined by this what you think is a not so great channel or a difficult channel, where the clean and the integrated expression is your blueprint for mastery.
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But the chart and the channel didn't change.
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It's whether or not you perceived it from your own authority, sovereignty, and highest self.
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So releasing the distortion frameworks from your human design is the difference between you actually knowing your true self and you remaining small and disempowered as your shadow self.
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And when you define yourself through the shadow pattern, then your identity becomes merged with that pattern.
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And then your mind attaches to it and your body has to compensate for it.
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And that means that you begin to defend this small version of you while your body is just stressed from the suppression of your whole and true self.
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You know, I remember seeing the gate of confusion in my chart and being like, what the fuck is that?
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I'm never confused.
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What does that even mean?
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And then I read Gene Keys, and that actually helped clarify that confusion is a pathway to either shadow or mastery.
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And then I was like, oh, okay, I get it.
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I get it.
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And in doing my integrated business blueprint that combines six of my major astrological charts and my human design, there was a lot of stuff that a traditional astrologer or a human design person would be like, ooh, that's a quote unquote block.
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Like everyone's chart is like just like innately baked with like blocks.
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But since I've unsubscribed from that distorted, disempowering narrative of being blocked and beneath some higher power, it was all empowering.
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All of it.
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Every supposedly difficult square opposition aspect, channel, whatever, all of it was empowering, liberating, because I created it.
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I created the design, I created the blueprint, and I left myself codes and maps and instructions, not punishments, not blocks, not tests, because I am already my highest self.
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I don't need to pass some Saturn test to earn my value when I, as source, created Saturn.
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I created my chart.
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And that's why my entire business redesign has been joyful and magical and fulfilling.
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No anxiety, no, but what if my channel doesn't allow this?
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Or what if Neptune keeps that foggy?
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None of that.
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I'm not showing up from my chart that I created as source as anything other than my source self.
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But many people aren't using their charts to remember their highest selves.
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So many people use their charts to try to manage their future.
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When's the love coming?
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When is the money coming?
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When is the success coming?
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When does the shitty situation finally let up?
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When does the Pluto transit clear and life can feel stable again?
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When's the safe window to make the move?
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And they're looking for validation of their experiences, their desires, their dreams, their hopes and fears.
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And that means that you're reading your charts to find out when you're allowed to relax, when you are allowed to choose, to feel, to love, to shine, to leave, to release, to do the thing you already know, if you're connected to your highest self, that you should be doing.
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And I've been there too, friend, with astrology, with tarot cards, with all of it.
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I remember that feeling of, okay, but I'm just going to do one more reading, just one more.
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I remember that.
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And I have given that version of myself love because something about the future was scary for her.
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And she had yet to master her fears and herself.
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But micromanaging your future through esoteric systems is a form of a trauma response because you are seeking to control something that's making you feel out of control and unsafe.
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And because astrology is real data and human design is real data, when you do a reading and you get that dopamine hit and a sense of relief surfaces, it feels validating.
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The chart feels like it helped you.
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And what you are conditioning then and reinforcing to your body is that you have to check your external world to know if you are safe because you're not safe in yourself.
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And then that's why working with esoteric systems can become addictive.
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It's that same loop as someone who needs constant reassurance from their partner.
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The reassurance feels like validation and belonging.
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Every time you reach for it from a place of inferiority and disempowerment, you're trusting yourself less and less.
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So the checking never truly resolves the fear and the wound underneath.
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It actually feeds it.
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You know what I'm talking about.
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When you see a future negative transit, you panic, right?
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When there's a harsh aspect on your solar return, your stomach drops.
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For something that hasn't even happened yet, and honestly, may not happen.
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Or if it happens, it could be totally different from this doomed lens that you're perceiving it to be.
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Because again, there's a spectrum for everything.
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And letting something that's not yet real determine the very real moment that you are in right now, and causing you to brace is how you feed that fear loop.
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And then you keep going back to your charts, to your transits to find out when things are gonna ease up, when things are gonna get better, and then you wait while fully braced and fully trapped in this struggling to live my life and be free and fully alive and whole pattern.
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And to be clear, astrology and human design are systems to design to be interpreted.
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They're not fixed interpretations.
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The same chart can be read by two different people completely differently.
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So it's not the chart that's your enemy.
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The chart is not the issue.
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The issue is your nervous system doesn't yet feel safe being in the present moment with uncertainty.
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So I'm not saying like abandon your charts.
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Again, I love astrology.
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I love human design.
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What needs to happen is you have to learn to relate to your charts with a body that is regulated, that is safe in itself, that is sovereign in itself, and a nervous system that doesn't outsource authority and permission to be free.
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The more you need your chart to tell you what's going to happen, the less of you is actually present to live and to shape your reality right now.
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And there is no way that you can master your reality if you're not coherent in it.
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Again, your chart is a mirror.
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It is not a final destination, it is not a determination, it is not an authority.
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Your highest self, your soul, the part of you that is source, picked the exact moment, place, second that you took your first breath on purpose, not to sentence you to a life of hardship and struggle and heartbreak and loneliness and pain or suffering, but to design an experience that it chose to have in this incarnation.
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Your chart is not a list of rules and boundaries.
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It's just a map that you drew of what you came here to build, to master, to feel, to move through, to become in this body this time around.
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So the reclamation of your authority is the truth that you chose Saturn's placement.
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You chose your Chiron placement, you chose the retrogrades, your north and south nodes, you chose your energy type, your channels, your gates, your open and closed centers, all of it to serve your mastery of self, mind, body, and soul in this incarnation.
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And each part of your charts is just a code.
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It's an instruction, it's a guideline, it's a clue, it's a path back to remember who and what you truly are, which is source.
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And once you remember that, once you relate to your charts as their creators, as your highest self, then you're going to experience how what are supposedly fixed charts is actually not fixed at all because you are that powerful.
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Because no, your natal chart is not the same your whole life.
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In several major timeline shifts last year, my natal chart changed.
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That's correct.
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Not once, not twice, more than once in a span of a few months.
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And not just mine, but also my twin flames in the exact same way, because he's my twin flame.
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But every time I reclaimed more of my sore self, released more spiritual distortion, restored more of my own authority and sovereignty, my reality responded because that's what it does.
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And some of those reclamations and releases and restorations were so consequential and monumental, my birth time in this incarnation changed.
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It's cosmic placements.
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Because yes, what you do now can change your past.
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Nothing is fixed because time is nonlinear.
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And when you understand that you are limitless by nature, reality starts to become limitless to you.
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So your personality, your potential, your life path, they're not fixed by the cosmos.
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You are the cosmos that shaped all of it.
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So please consult your astrology.
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Please study your human design.
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Love them because they're truly remarkable systems and tools and sources of information.
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Just stop kneeling to them.
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You can honor Saturn without fearing Saturn.
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You can move through Neptune without losing yourself.
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You can relate to a gate without shrinking into the smallest version of it.
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You can relate to your chart like the instrument that it is instead of the one in the audience listening to the music in the back row.
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So here's your action step for the week.
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Choose one thing in your astrology chart or your human design chart that you've been relating to as some sort of a limitation.
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Maybe it's a placement you've been told is difficult.
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Maybe it's a transit you've been bracing for.
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Maybe it's your human design authority, your type, your profile, one of your gates, one of your channels, maybe it's your Saturn placement, your Chiron placement, an open center, whatever it is.
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Just choose the thing that makes your body tighten and makes you feel small when you think about the thing.
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And then once you know that once you've decided what that is, and you know, if you're open and not overthinking, it'll surface pretty immediately.
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But then I want you to ask three questions.
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First question is, what have I been told this thing means?
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Second question, how does my body feel when I believe or subscribe to that interpretation?
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Third question, if I created this chart as my highest self, what would this be showing me about my power instead of a perceived false limitation?
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So the answers to those questions are gonna shift you from that energy of I am below my chart to the energy of I am the creator of my chart.
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Because you're not asking your chart to tell you who you are, you're asking your highest self to show you why you chose that placement or that gate, that transit, that center, that pattern or whatever as part of your mastery in this incarnation.
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And then I want you to notice what happens in your body when you stop asking, what does this mean that I'm stuck with?
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And you start asking, what part of my sovereignty and power and divinity is this helping me remember?
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Feel what happens in your body when you do that, because that question is going to reveal to you whether you've been reading your chart from fear and unquestioned distortion or from your true authority.
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Because relating to your chart as your human self or highest self is the difference between it holding you back and healing you, and the difference between being free or being trapped in a box.
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Because when someone tells you that you are less than your highest self and reinforces your identity as a lower version of you, beholden to an external authority, whether that's through common spiritual and manifestation teachings or astrology or human design, you're not being told the truth.
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That's when you relate to your chart as only your human self, which you think is beneath your highest self, and you look at it as if it came before you, as if it has some like ancient authority you have to understand and then submit to accordingly before you are allowed to move through your life with confidence or clarity or certainty.
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But when you relate to your chart as your highest self, your source self, who knows Saturn doesn't gain anything because you are Saturn, you remember that your chart came from you.
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You didn't randomly incarnate under some cosmic formation that accidentally assigned you like a personality and a timeline or a ceiling for your potential or success or love or abundance.
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You arrived through a precise doorway that you chose and you created under precise conditions that you designed, because that is what would give your soul the exact materials that you wanted to work with in this life.
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So your chart is not the thing that decides your destiny.
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It's the codes, it's the map, it's the blueprint of the destiny you chose, not Saturn, not a channel, not your house placement.
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You as your highest self, which you are your highest self already, right now.
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And the moment you stop asking your chart what you're allowed to become and have, and you start asking yourself why you gave yourself these particular energies and experiences to master, your sovereignty and your power are no longer diminished by false external authority.
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You stop being the person waiting for permission from the stars, and you begin to remember that you are the consciousness that birthed them.
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Thank you so much for being here today.
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