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If you've been here for a while with delightfully dysfunctional, now delightfully dharmic, you know that this has been a space that is all about embracing the messiness of being human with honesty, humor, and a dash of spirituality.
00:00:26.480 --> 00:00:35.439
I love weaving in parts of psychology and psychedelics into the messages and the conversations that I have.
00:00:36.000 --> 00:00:49.520
And over the last year or so, I realized that I actually needed to take some time and live those questions instead of constantly talking about them.
00:00:50.079 --> 00:00:53.039
I needed to dive deeper into life.
00:00:54.000 --> 00:01:01.359
So my husband's surgery really began this process of death and rebirth.
00:01:01.600 --> 00:01:04.159
Now, obviously, not actual death.
00:01:04.239 --> 00:01:06.879
I'm here in the flesh, I promise you.
00:01:07.120 --> 00:01:19.280
But it was a death of an identity, a death of a way of life, a death of a pace of life, and some ideas about who I thought I was supposed to be.
00:01:19.519 --> 00:01:22.079
And what I thought my life was supposed to look like.
00:01:22.560 --> 00:01:26.480
Maybe you've had moments like that in your life too.
00:01:26.640 --> 00:01:37.280
I didn't fully understand that I was changing until I gave myself enough time and spaciousness to really just be.
00:01:38.000 --> 00:01:43.920
In this last year, there has been so much that I have learned.
00:01:44.239 --> 00:01:50.959
When my husband Zach got hurt, it was a difficult experience for our family.
00:01:51.200 --> 00:02:06.959
And it was also an opportunity that forced us to slow down and to really reevaluate the pace of our life, the direction, what our family really needed?
00:02:07.599 --> 00:02:11.039
What kind of childhood do we want our kids to have?
00:02:11.280 --> 00:02:13.520
How much do we want to work?
00:02:14.000 --> 00:02:15.759
What are our passions?
00:02:16.319 --> 00:02:19.120
Where are we aligned and misaligned?
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Core principles of a dharmic life, of an aligned life.
00:02:25.280 --> 00:02:26.879
Where do we want to live?
00:02:27.039 --> 00:02:29.840
What do we want our days to feel like?
00:02:30.479 --> 00:02:32.960
What are we building all of this for?
00:02:33.919 --> 00:02:37.439
How do I want to feel when I wake up in the morning?
00:02:37.680 --> 00:02:41.360
How do I want to feel when my head hits the pillow at night?
00:02:41.599 --> 00:02:47.039
And eventually those conversations turned into decisions.
00:02:47.520 --> 00:02:52.560
And those decisions became moving to Spain.
00:02:53.120 --> 00:02:56.800
Which still feels a little bit surreal to say out loud.
00:02:57.199 --> 00:03:00.000
So yeah, a lot has happened.
00:03:00.240 --> 00:03:16.560
And I think that one of the reasons that it never felt right to turn the podcast on and pretend like nothing had changed after a year of us not getting to be in active relationship with one another.
00:03:16.879 --> 00:03:23.360
You delightful humans, was because I didn't want to pretend that I hadn't changed.
00:03:23.439 --> 00:03:29.759
I didn't want to pretend that as a human being I don't need my own ebb and flow.
00:03:29.919 --> 00:03:33.919
I don't need my own changing of the seasons.
00:03:34.479 --> 00:03:36.879
A pause before the bloom.
00:03:38.080 --> 00:03:42.080
And that pause took longer than I had initially thought.
00:03:42.879 --> 00:03:46.400
But honoring it has made all the difference.
00:03:46.879 --> 00:03:48.960
My family has changed.
00:03:49.280 --> 00:03:51.680
My priorities have changed.
00:03:52.560 --> 00:03:57.759
And honestly, I think this show needed to change with me.
00:03:58.319 --> 00:04:03.680
So this is a new beginning for Delightfully Darmic.
00:04:04.159 --> 00:04:06.479
And I'm really excited about it.
00:04:06.719 --> 00:04:16.480
You're still going to get conversations about mental health, relationships, trauma, psychedelics, spirituality, all of the things that we've explored here.
00:04:17.040 --> 00:04:27.279
But I want this space to be a little bit more alive, a little bit less polished, a little bit more like you're coming along on the journey with me.
00:04:27.839 --> 00:04:35.519
So I'm going to be sharing and vlogging some content about my family's transition, something I've never done before.
00:04:35.839 --> 00:04:39.759
This huge decision to move internationally to Spain.
00:04:39.920 --> 00:04:56.639
The highs, the lows, adjusting to a new culture, navigating family life, work, marriage, parenting, and trying to intentionally build a life that feels aligned with what we actually value.
00:04:57.040 --> 00:04:58.319
And I want to be real.
00:04:58.480 --> 00:05:04.959
I'm sure that we've romanticized parts of this life, and the reality will come.
00:05:06.000 --> 00:05:13.519
It isn't all sunshine and rainbows, but thus far we are a month into this move.
00:05:14.000 --> 00:05:15.839
I will say that it's better.
00:05:16.000 --> 00:05:17.839
It's better than where we were.
00:05:18.079 --> 00:05:23.839
I feel more energized and alive than I have in a really long time.
00:05:24.079 --> 00:05:27.199
Because I've never heard anyone say, you know what?
00:05:27.680 --> 00:05:35.839
Sold everything, packed up my life, and moved my family internationally, and it all went completely smoothly.
00:05:36.720 --> 00:05:41.120
That's not been our experience either, and I don't want to bullshit you.
00:05:41.439 --> 00:05:48.959
We're currently still waiting on our shipment of belongings to come, and we're not entirely sure when it'll get here.
00:05:49.360 --> 00:06:01.199
So you're gonna be witnessing and experiencing a, again, less polished version, but in exchange, you'll get more realness.
00:06:01.759 --> 00:06:07.920
Also, a significant portion of the equipment that is needed to do video reactions is not here.
00:06:08.240 --> 00:06:24.000
So at least for right now, the content on this channel is going to be shifting to be interviews and conversations and again like live and real moments with me and my family.
00:06:24.319 --> 00:06:32.240
So I really hope you join me and are curious about everything that goes into an international move to Spain.
00:06:32.480 --> 00:06:43.600
But I want you to know, for those of you that have been asking about video reactions and those sweet, delightful humans who have reached out, thank you, I see you, I hear you, it means so much.
00:06:43.920 --> 00:06:57.120
I'm alive, I'm well, and at some point when I get more energy back and all of the equipment is here, you will get those video reactions back on this channel as well.
00:06:57.360 --> 00:07:04.000
They're just temporarily being held hostage somewhere on the Atlantic between the United States and Spain.
00:07:04.399 --> 00:07:08.000
If you can manifest them closer, please do.
00:07:08.480 --> 00:07:17.199
And honestly, going forward, I want to give myself permission to make these videos when I actually have time and energy to make them.
00:07:17.360 --> 00:07:33.439
I don't want this channel to become another place where I feel like I am constantly trying to feed an algorithm or performatively be something that I'm not because that is not aligned and that is not authentic to who I am.
00:07:33.839 --> 00:07:38.160
I want it to be somewhere that I get to play and be curious.
00:07:38.399 --> 00:07:42.160
I want it to be somewhere that feeds my aliveness.
00:07:42.639 --> 00:07:46.560
And right now I'm really excited to be here.
00:07:46.720 --> 00:07:50.319
And there is one other really exciting change that's happening.
00:07:50.560 --> 00:07:56.480
I have invited my friend and colleague, Tanya Bodwin, to join me on the podcast.
00:07:56.720 --> 00:08:00.399
And oh, I cannot wait for you to meet her.
00:08:00.720 --> 00:08:13.600
Tanya and I have the kind of conversations where we can just start talking about therapy, and somehow we end up discussing marriage and motherhood, psychedelics, nervous system resets, generational trauma, existential crises, and laughing along the way.
00:08:13.839 --> 00:08:26.000
Whatever completely ridiculous thing might have happened this week or that we are experiencing in the moment, and we are so excited to share that with you.
00:08:26.240 --> 00:08:35.039
She is thoughtful, funny, grounded, deep, and brings a perspective that is different enough from mine that I think the conversations are going to be really interesting.
00:08:35.360 --> 00:08:39.679
And one of the things I've realized is that I don't want every conversation to feel like an interview.
00:08:39.840 --> 00:08:48.480
I want more authentic conversations, I want more curiosity, more disagreement at times, because that's real.
00:08:48.720 --> 00:08:49.759
More laughter.
00:08:50.000 --> 00:09:02.080
I want more moments of two people just being honest about trying to figure something out together and not presenting themselves as someone who has all of the answers.
00:09:02.399 --> 00:09:11.519
Because the reality is that therapists are people too, and we are on our own life journey figuring things out too.
00:09:11.759 --> 00:09:14.480
So I want to be real about that with you.
00:09:14.720 --> 00:09:21.600
Tanya and I will be recording our first episode very soon, and I'm so excited for you to get to know her.
00:09:21.840 --> 00:09:34.240
I think that the biggest lesson this past year has been that sometimes becoming the next version of yourself means letting go of the previous version and starting fresh.
00:09:34.480 --> 00:09:48.639
And I needed that quiet, I needed that space, I needed to live some life that wasn't being turned into content while I was still trying to understand what it meant to die and be reborn.
00:09:49.279 --> 00:09:52.399
But now I feel ready to come back.
00:09:52.639 --> 00:10:06.000
Not necessarily with a perfectly defined content strategy, not with a promise that I'm going to upload five times a week, and definitely not pretending that I have everything figured out, but with a lot of curiosity about what happens next.
00:10:06.240 --> 00:10:09.200
So if you've been here for a few years, thank you.
00:10:09.440 --> 00:10:12.159
Thank you for letting me disappear for a while.
00:10:12.320 --> 00:10:14.879
And if you're new here, welcome.
00:10:15.200 --> 00:10:17.759
There's apparently a lot of new things happening.
00:10:18.080 --> 00:10:30.159
This next chapter is going to include mental health, real life, psychedelics, spirituality, Spain, travel, family time, and probably a few existential crises.
00:10:30.720 --> 00:10:33.120
And hopefully a lot of delight.
00:10:33.360 --> 00:10:35.840
So welcome back to Delightfully Darmic.
00:10:36.080 --> 00:10:37.759
I'm really glad you're here.
00:10:38.559 --> 00:10:40.799
See you next time, Delightful Humans.
00:00:08.320 --> 00:00:26.160
If you've been here for a while with delightfully dysfunctional, now delightfully dharmic, you know that this has been a space that is all about embracing the messiness of being human with honesty, humor, and a dash of spirituality.
00:00:26.480 --> 00:00:35.439
I love weaving in parts of psychology and psychedelics into the messages and the conversations that I have.
00:00:36.000 --> 00:00:49.520
And over the last year or so, I realized that I actually needed to take some time and live those questions instead of constantly talking about them.
00:00:50.079 --> 00:00:53.039
I needed to dive deeper into life.
00:00:54.000 --> 00:01:01.359
So my husband's surgery really began this process of death and rebirth.
00:01:01.600 --> 00:01:04.159
Now, obviously, not actual death.
00:01:04.239 --> 00:01:06.879
I'm here in the flesh, I promise you.
00:01:07.120 --> 00:01:19.280
But it was a death of an identity, a death of a way of life, a death of a pace of life, and some ideas about who I thought I was supposed to be.
00:01:19.519 --> 00:01:22.079
And what I thought my life was supposed to look like.
00:01:22.560 --> 00:01:26.480
Maybe you've had moments like that in your life too.
00:01:26.640 --> 00:01:37.280
I didn't fully understand that I was changing until I gave myself enough time and spaciousness to really just be.
00:01:38.000 --> 00:01:43.920
In this last year, there has been so much that I have learned.
00:01:44.239 --> 00:01:50.959
When my husband Zach got hurt, it was a difficult experience for our family.
00:01:51.200 --> 00:02:06.959
And it was also an opportunity that forced us to slow down and to really reevaluate the pace of our life, the direction, what our family really needed?
00:02:07.599 --> 00:02:11.039
What kind of childhood do we want our kids to have?
00:02:11.280 --> 00:02:13.520
How much do we want to work?
00:02:14.000 --> 00:02:15.759
What are our passions?
00:02:16.319 --> 00:02:19.120
Where are we aligned and misaligned?
00:02:19.599 --> 00:02:24.719
Core principles of a dharmic life, of an aligned life.
00:02:25.280 --> 00:02:26.879
Where do we want to live?
00:02:27.039 --> 00:02:29.840
What do we want our days to feel like?
00:02:30.479 --> 00:02:32.960
What are we building all of this for?
00:02:33.919 --> 00:02:37.439
How do I want to feel when I wake up in the morning?
00:02:37.680 --> 00:02:41.360
How do I want to feel when my head hits the pillow at night?
00:02:41.599 --> 00:02:47.039
And eventually those conversations turned into decisions.
00:02:47.520 --> 00:02:52.560
And those decisions became moving to Spain.
00:02:53.120 --> 00:02:56.800
Which still feels a little bit surreal to say out loud.
00:02:57.199 --> 00:03:00.000
So yeah, a lot has happened.
00:03:00.240 --> 00:03:16.560
And I think that one of the reasons that it never felt right to turn the podcast on and pretend like nothing had changed after a year of us not getting to be in active relationship with one another.
00:03:16.879 --> 00:03:23.360
You delightful humans, was because I didn't want to pretend that I hadn't changed.
00:03:23.439 --> 00:03:29.759
I didn't want to pretend that as a human being I don't need my own ebb and flow.
00:03:29.919 --> 00:03:33.919
I don't need my own changing of the seasons.
00:03:34.479 --> 00:03:36.879
A pause before the bloom.
00:03:38.080 --> 00:03:42.080
And that pause took longer than I had initially thought.
00:03:42.879 --> 00:03:46.400
But honoring it has made all the difference.
00:03:46.879 --> 00:03:48.960
My family has changed.
00:03:49.280 --> 00:03:51.680
My priorities have changed.
00:03:52.560 --> 00:03:57.759
And honestly, I think this show needed to change with me.
00:03:58.319 --> 00:04:03.680
So this is a new beginning for Delightfully Darmic.
00:04:04.159 --> 00:04:06.479
And I'm really excited about it.
00:04:06.719 --> 00:04:16.480
You're still going to get conversations about mental health, relationships, trauma, psychedelics, spirituality, all of the things that we've explored here.
00:04:17.040 --> 00:04:27.279
But I want this space to be a little bit more alive, a little bit less polished, a little bit more like you're coming along on the journey with me.
00:04:27.839 --> 00:04:35.519
So I'm going to be sharing and vlogging some content about my family's transition, something I've never done before.
00:04:35.839 --> 00:04:39.759
This huge decision to move internationally to Spain.
00:04:39.920 --> 00:04:56.639
The highs, the lows, adjusting to a new culture, navigating family life, work, marriage, parenting, and trying to intentionally build a life that feels aligned with what we actually value.
00:04:57.040 --> 00:04:58.319
And I want to be real.
00:04:58.480 --> 00:05:04.959
I'm sure that we've romanticized parts of this life, and the reality will come.
00:05:06.000 --> 00:05:13.519
It isn't all sunshine and rainbows, but thus far we are a month into this move.
00:05:14.000 --> 00:05:15.839
I will say that it's better.
00:05:16.000 --> 00:05:17.839
It's better than where we were.
00:05:18.079 --> 00:05:23.839
I feel more energized and alive than I have in a really long time.
00:05:24.079 --> 00:05:27.199
Because I've never heard anyone say, you know what?
00:05:27.680 --> 00:05:35.839
Sold everything, packed up my life, and moved my family internationally, and it all went completely smoothly.
00:05:36.720 --> 00:05:41.120
That's not been our experience either, and I don't want to bullshit you.
00:05:41.439 --> 00:05:48.959
We're currently still waiting on our shipment of belongings to come, and we're not entirely sure when it'll get here.
00:05:49.360 --> 00:06:01.199
So you're gonna be witnessing and experiencing a, again, less polished version, but in exchange, you'll get more realness.
00:06:01.759 --> 00:06:07.920
Also, a significant portion of the equipment that is needed to do video reactions is not here.
00:06:08.240 --> 00:06:24.000
So at least for right now, the content on this channel is going to be shifting to be interviews and conversations and again like live and real moments with me and my family.
00:06:24.319 --> 00:06:32.240
So I really hope you join me and are curious about everything that goes into an international move to Spain.
00:06:32.480 --> 00:06:43.600
But I want you to know, for those of you that have been asking about video reactions and those sweet, delightful humans who have reached out, thank you, I see you, I hear you, it means so much.
00:06:43.920 --> 00:06:57.120
I'm alive, I'm well, and at some point when I get more energy back and all of the equipment is here, you will get those video reactions back on this channel as well.
00:06:57.360 --> 00:07:04.000
They're just temporarily being held hostage somewhere on the Atlantic between the United States and Spain.
00:07:04.399 --> 00:07:08.000
If you can manifest them closer, please do.
00:07:08.480 --> 00:07:17.199
And honestly, going forward, I want to give myself permission to make these videos when I actually have time and energy to make them.
00:07:17.360 --> 00:07:33.439
I don't want this channel to become another place where I feel like I am constantly trying to feed an algorithm or performatively be something that I'm not because that is not aligned and that is not authentic to who I am.
00:07:33.839 --> 00:07:38.160
I want it to be somewhere that I get to play and be curious.
00:07:38.399 --> 00:07:42.160
I want it to be somewhere that feeds my aliveness.
00:07:42.639 --> 00:07:46.560
And right now I'm really excited to be here.
00:07:46.720 --> 00:07:50.319
And there is one other really exciting change that's happening.
00:07:50.560 --> 00:07:56.480
I have invited my friend and colleague, Tanya Bodwin, to join me on the podcast.
00:07:56.720 --> 00:08:00.399
And oh, I cannot wait for you to meet her.
00:08:00.720 --> 00:08:13.600
Tanya and I have the kind of conversations where we can just start talking about therapy, and somehow we end up discussing marriage and motherhood, psychedelics, nervous system resets, generational trauma, existential crises, and laughing along the way.
00:08:13.839 --> 00:08:26.000
Whatever completely ridiculous thing might have happened this week or that we are experiencing in the moment, and we are so excited to share that with you.
00:08:26.240 --> 00:08:35.039
She is thoughtful, funny, grounded, deep, and brings a perspective that is different enough from mine that I think the conversations are going to be really interesting.
00:08:35.360 --> 00:08:39.679
And one of the things I've realized is that I don't want every conversation to feel like an interview.
00:08:39.840 --> 00:08:48.480
I want more authentic conversations, I want more curiosity, more disagreement at times, because that's real.
00:08:48.720 --> 00:08:49.759
More laughter.
00:08:50.000 --> 00:09:02.080
I want more moments of two people just being honest about trying to figure something out together and not presenting themselves as someone who has all of the answers.
00:09:02.399 --> 00:09:11.519
Because the reality is that therapists are people too, and we are on our own life journey figuring things out too.
00:09:11.759 --> 00:09:14.480
So I want to be real about that with you.
00:09:14.720 --> 00:09:21.600
Tanya and I will be recording our first episode very soon, and I'm so excited for you to get to know her.
00:09:21.840 --> 00:09:34.240
I think that the biggest lesson this past year has been that sometimes becoming the next version of yourself means letting go of the previous version and starting fresh.
00:09:34.480 --> 00:09:48.639
And I needed that quiet, I needed that space, I needed to live some life that wasn't being turned into content while I was still trying to understand what it meant to die and be reborn.
00:09:49.279 --> 00:09:52.399
But now I feel ready to come back.
00:09:52.639 --> 00:10:06.000
Not necessarily with a perfectly defined content strategy, not with a promise that I'm going to upload five times a week, and definitely not pretending that I have everything figured out, but with a lot of curiosity about what happens next.
00:10:06.240 --> 00:10:09.200
So if you've been here for a few years, thank you.
00:10:09.440 --> 00:10:12.159
Thank you for letting me disappear for a while.
00:10:12.320 --> 00:10:14.879
And if you're new here, welcome.
00:10:15.200 --> 00:10:17.759
There's apparently a lot of new things happening.
00:10:18.080 --> 00:10:30.159
This next chapter is going to include mental health, real life, psychedelics, spirituality, Spain, travel, family time, and probably a few existential crises.
00:10:30.720 --> 00:10:33.120
And hopefully a lot of delight.
00:10:33.360 --> 00:10:35.840
So welcome back to Delightfully Darmic.
00:10:36.080 --> 00:10:37.759
I'm really glad you're here.
00:10:38.559 --> 00:10:40.799
See you next time, Delightful Humans.
