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Welcome back.
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This is Turning the Corner.
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My name is Tip.
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It is Saturday, July 25th.
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Just got out of Mercury retrograde.
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Y'all know what I'm talking about.
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Holy shit, what a month it was.
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I swear to God, this stuff exists.
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I had the worst month I've had in probably a few years.
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I don't I don't even know what happened.
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It's like when you watch that reel of Johnny Depp going, what the fuck was that?
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What the fuck was that?
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Like that's exactly how I feel about the past month.
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It has been one shitstorm after the next.
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And I'm trying to turn the corner.
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I am just wiped out.
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I'm drained.
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You know, those karmic lessons had to pop up again and chaos and confusion.
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And just every time Mercury retrograde comes around, my life goes upside down.
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Every time.
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And it's usually in March or July.
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And it's it's just it's horrible.
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It's just, I didn't know so much could happen to one person in the 30-day cycle or however long it was.
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It felt like 30 years, but wow, this was a bad one.
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Like, I don't know if y'all believe in that stuff, but holy crap.
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I wanted to do today's episode on when people say, you know, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
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No.
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I feel like I'm a soldier coming back from war with PTSD from a war that I didn't sign up for.
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That's how my life feels.
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And it's not just from the past month.
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It's it's been most of my life.
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And I really hate hearing people say what doesn't make you or what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
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And it doesn't.
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It it gives you stress.
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It gives you wrinkles.
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It gives you insomnia.
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It gives you depression and anxiety.
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It gives you worry and anticipation.
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It gives you flight or flight mode.
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It gives you hypervigilance.
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It gives you irritability and mental health issues.
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That that that's that's what that means.
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You know, all the things I've been through in life, and I'm grateful for the good, don't get me wrong, but all the things I've been through in life, and I'm not saying anybody's life is easy or harder than mine.
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It's just mine is what it is.
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And I just didn't think life was supposed to be this hard.
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I didn't think that in your mid-30s, you still can't find a man who can respect you and value you and be loyal to you and be honest to you and commit to one woman.
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I I I didn't know it was gonna be so hard to find one like that.
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I I have yet to find one like that.
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I don't know what green flags are.
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I I I don't know what it's like to be respected, heard, supported, listened to, cared for, protected.
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I don't know what it's like to have a man where they don't put me in investigation mode or fight or flight or fear or constant worry that they're cheating.
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I I don't know what that is.
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And it's sad at 38 because I'm such a hopeless romantic and I really just want my fairy tale.
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And I I'm I'm accepting the fact that I live in a generation that it's just impossible.
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I don't know if it's a generational thing with these men that something happened in the with these men that are 30, 40, and 50 somewhere growing up, that they have no self-esteem, they have mental health issues, they have no integrity, no morals, no ethics, no uh respect, no, I don't even know the word.
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I I just feel like they're all broken.
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And they call us crazy.
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Well, the broken men make us crazy, and we're not crazy.
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We just react to their bullshit.
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But it it it just seems like every man I meet in that generation just is all the same, the same phrases, the same body language, the same excuses, the same mental health issues, the same patterns, the same routines, the same phrases, like they're all avoidant attachments and they're all on dating apps trying to fill a void, and they're all on the same, like all the same guys are on all the dating apps.
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Like they're so desperate to fuck somebody's life up.
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Like, let me get on Tinder and Bumble and Hinge and Match.com and plenty of fish and you know, all the rest, Facebook dating.
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And if you get on those platforms, you'll see the same guys on all of them.
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That should tell you something.
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And most of those guys end up on that Facebook page.
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Are we dating the same guy?
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It's sad.
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It's sad.
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You know, I saw a post today that said women are refusing to get married and having kids, and so many people were unhinged in the comments.
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You don't know what you're missing out on.
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It's the meaning of life.
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It's a beautiful experience.
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You know what's a beautiful experience?
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Not being cheated on, abused, and lied to, or being stuck with a man because you have a kid and you're staying together for the marriage.
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That that's not a beautiful experience.
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So this life is hard.
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And I know people have it worse than me.
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And then and you have it worse than me, or they have it worse than you.
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And it's not a competition.
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If I think my life is rough and hard, it's fucking hard.
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Like no one gets to decide if my life is harder or easier than anybody else's.
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It I'm exhausted.
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I'm tired.
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I feel like it's a battleground 24-7, and I'm walking on a landmine and never knowing what step I take, it's gonna set off the next bomb.
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Like, I am tired.
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And I I'm at my breaking point.
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And again, what doesn't kill me makes me stronger.
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You know, I almost did die a few times by the hands of a man.
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So has it made me stronger?
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It's made me more aware, it's made me more hyper-vigilant, it's made me more untrusting, it's made me more angry, it's made me more sad, it's made me more isolated, it's made me more depressed, it's made me more confused, and it's made me more of a worrier, it's made me more of a insecure, jealous type of girlfriend.
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I mean, that's you know, and it's not just relationships, it's family.
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Some sometimes family members treat you the same way, and life is hard.
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And when you try to explain things to people, they we live in a world where everybody cares about themselves.
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I mean, I care about people, I do, but I care about me too, and I try my best to uh just be a nicer person.
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But people push you to your limit, man, and you tell them don't poke the bear, don't poke the bear, don't poke the bear, and then they want to challenge it as if you're joking, and then when they finally get the last poke in and you bite, then you're the you're the bad person.
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And life just wasn't supposed to be this hard.
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We live in an economy where we have to decide if we want to pay our electric bill or put food in the fridge.
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We gotta live in an economy where we have to decide if we want to go out for the day and enjoy something or pay our rent.
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Like it's it's mentally unhealthy for this entire world.
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It's not just my life, it's not just your life, it's not just America, it's everywhere and everyone.
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Everybody's fighting a battle uphill, somehow, some way, some form.
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And a lot of people don't talk about it.
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A lot of people do.
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And the ones that do get judged, and the ones that stay quiet get judged, or at least accepted.
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Um, a lot of people are afraid to speak out.
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I'm not.
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I might talk too much, I might be too honest, but I'd rather that than not be authentic.
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I'd rather people hate me for who I am than like me for who I'm not, and I'm very true to myself.
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And I'm tired.
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I have put up with so much bullshit from people in my life: family, relationships, friends.
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And when, you know, everyone had said put boundaries down, cut people off, I do that.
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And then everybody gets unhinged and they don't like it.
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So you're damned if you do, you're damned if you don't.
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And life is not supposed to be complicated like this.
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It's just, I feel like I exist just to pay my bills.
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I haven't done anything except one.
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I I went to Vegas in May for crime con and came back June 1st or 2nd.
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I've gone out one time since because I have no desire to be around people, loud music, rambunctious environments.
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I I I'm drained just thinking about it.
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And that's depression.
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You know, I admit I am depressed and I uh was seeing a therapist, but it wasn't working.
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All they have wanted me to do was text and send emails to get it everything out, and I'm like, this isn't helping me.
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I can do that with my best friend.
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Like, medication can only do so much, it's a band-aid.
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It helps.
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It it helps.
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It it allows you to function in life, but it's not a cure.
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It doesn't take away layers and layers and layers of trauma and depression and anger.
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I try to uh try to find the good in every day, but some days are hard and they're getting harder as I get older.
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And life's just not enjoyable.
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It it's I'm going to be honest.
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Like, I know there's a lot of people out there who agree with me.
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Like, this is not how life should be.
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And I'm not saying I'm gonna do anything to myself.
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I'm just stating that like life should not be this hard.
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We should be out laughing, smiling.
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I look like I've aged probably 10 years in the past three months because I've gone through so much trauma and stress in my life in the past three months just dumped more on me and I'm tired.
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But the insomnia is kicking in, so I look really exhausted.
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I just hope people out there understand like they're not alone and this isn't only just happening to them.
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I just think it's a bullshit excuse.
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What only what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
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No, it doesn't.
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It breaks you, it defeats you.
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And another thing I hate when people are like, be the bigger person.
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So somebody disrespects me and hurts me.
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And I'm supposed to look the other way because that makes me the bigger person.
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No, that makes me somebody that looks the other way and doesn't stick up for themselves and doesn't demand respect and accountability.
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That that's what that means.
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So when you're the bigger person and you let disrespect go because it's just want worth your peace, you're you're allowing that person to continue to treat you that way or continue to be that type of person to others.
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And I take it too far sometimes, I admit.
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I will be a whistleblower, I'll scream, I'll put my foot down because I had years of people walking all over me and trying to control me and trying to tell me what I should do with my life.
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And I I just don't tolerate anymore.
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And it's probably gonna be very hard to find a man now.
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Like I've lived by myself for five years.
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I don't know if I could live with somebody again.
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I honestly don't.
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I want my h happy ever after.
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I want to get married, but then I see all my friends and look back at the what men have put me through, and it's like uh uh it's scary to bound yourself to somebody and to try to start a life with somebody when every relationship you've known has turned out to be fake, abusive, deceitful, betrayed.
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You know, when I'm usually good, I am good alone, and I have more peace without a man in my life.
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But I wish for once I could have my knight in shining armor.
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Like a man who just holds me when I cry and isn't the reason why I'm crying.
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You know, I want something to add happiness to my life, not make me happy, if that makes sense, but I have yet to be shown.
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And I've been through a lot.
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So to tell me that what doesn't kill me makes me stronger is a bunch of bullshit.
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Or be the bigger person is a bunch of bullshit.
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No, I will not accept disrespect from somebody just to keep peace.
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I will not be quiet to make others comfortable.
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So a lot of people don't like me.
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I don't want to say they're intimidated because that's egotistical, but a lot of people don't like me because I'm so honest, transparent, and genuine that it either pisses them off because they don't like to be around people who tell the truth, or it strikes a nerve in them about something that they're not being honest with, or they hide themselves behind a mask so hard that I trigger people.
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I don't, I don't gossip, you know.
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If if my friends tell me something and tell me not to tell anybody, I don't tell anybody.
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Unless I know that what they're telling me is gonna hurt somebody else, I'll tell them.
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Like if my best friend told me today that like she was cheating on her husband, because her husband is my friend, I'd tell him.
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Like, I'm not gonna sit here and look the other way and go, it's not my business.
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Well, when your husband is one of my best friends as well, it is my business.
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Now that's not going on in my life.
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I'm using that as an example.
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And um, I've told both of them that.
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I I had said, you know, if you did this to her and she did this to you, I'd tell both of you.
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Because I'm not gonna sit back and watch people I care about lives get destroyed because I don't want to get involved.
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Now I'm gonna get involved.
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You're my best friends.
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Like, why are we in why are we friends if we're not gonna be involved and support each other?
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I I never understood that concept.
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I'm not gonna walk on eggshells because you're doing something wrong.
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People get worried about, well, I don't want to ruin a their relationship.
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Listen, what they're doing is ruining the relationship.
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You intervening and telling the truth isn't gonna.
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So once again, don't be the bigger person all the time.
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I barely am anymore.
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Like, I just don't, I don't hold back.
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I I don't have a filter anymore.
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And again, I think that's from years of being controlled, even in high school.
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Like I felt like I had this cage and I was hooked to strings and I was trying to break free from my mom controlling me.
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And, you know, in her mind she was protecting me, but in my mind it was control.
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And then my abusive boyfriends just I don't know if I have a target on my forehead that just says I'm an empath, please take advantage of me.
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Please gaslight me, please manipulate me, please abuse me, please cheat on me, please lie.
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It's like I feel like I'm a walking target for narcissists, and I used to want to fix people.
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I I'm not fixing people.
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I stopped doing that.
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Like that's that's a waste of my energy and resources and mental health.
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And uh I cut people off now.
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I don't entertain disrespect.
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I don't care if you're blood or not.
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It took me a long time to get here, and I'm back to who I was before these abusive relationships, and people seem to have forgotten that part of me because I've I have forgotten myself for so long.
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And now they're just like, wait a second, I don't remember Tiff being this way.
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No, I was.
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It's just been almost 20 years since you saw it.
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So now that I'm back, after everybody encouraged me to set boundaries and cut people off and voice how I feel and not hold back, now it's a problem because now they're being told the truth that they don't want to face.
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So life is just like, I really hope when we die, I hope we really do find the reason of life.
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Like, what is the meaning?
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And I saw something the other day, you know, those who don't want kids are here living their last life because they don't have any more knowledge to pass on to the next generation.
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That made sense to me.
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Now I believe in afterlife, I believe in reincarnation, I believe in spirituality, I believe in God.
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I don't want to bring a kid into this world, but I'm glad I've at five years old I realized I didn't want kids.
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What a shit world we live in.
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What a shit world.
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God bless those who do have kids, man.
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Like, I couldn't imagine having another mouth to feed in this economy.
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We're worrying about somebody else, you know?
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Ugh.
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I just got my coffee and realized there's no cream in it.
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Thank you, Duncan.
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Ugh.
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Anyway, yeah, I I I couldn't imagine living a life having to put like worry about somebody else right now.
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Like it life is hard.
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It's hard enough not having kids that depend on me.
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Like I like I just don't I feel bad for people who have kids.
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I honestly do.
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And not out of pity.
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It's just holy shit, I can't imagine your life right now.
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And you know, some people want kids.
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Some people grow up and that's all they want to do is be a parent.
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Props to you.
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Kudos to you.
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I salute you, but not for me.
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Just hard.
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Every day I wake up going, what the fuck's gonna happen today?
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Like what hammer's gonna fall today?
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What shoe is gonna drop today?
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Because it's always something.
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Like, I don't know if that's how other people's lives are, but that's sure as hell how my life is.
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You know, and then it was going good for a while.
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And I I thought, well shit, like I'm finally getting happy, I'm finally happier.
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Things are starting to fucking work and and work out in my way, and then boom, nope, happened again.
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So I lost my best friend because he just decided to be a piece of shit, and I had to cut family members off because they disrespect me.
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I am down to a very select few people in my life, and it can get lonely, but it's lonelier when you have people around you who don't really give a fuck about you.
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So that that's lonely to me.
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I just don't think life is supposed to be this hard where you don't enjoy anything, where you don't look forward to anything, where you just want to sleep so you don't have to deal with bullshit.
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You just want to be alone so you don't have to deal with bad people, you don't date because you don't want to get cheated on or abused.
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Like, that's just a sad existence.
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And I hate that I live in this generation.
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I don't belong in this generation.
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I'm such an old school like hopeless romantic.
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Like, I'm I definitely was born in the wrong era.
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I I don't belong here.
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And I see a lot of Gen Zers, I envy the Gen Zers, man.
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I wish I lived or I wish I was born in the early 2000s because I feel like the whole world was so different and they only know what they know, like we only know what we know.
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And I feel like they're they have an advantage because they live in a world with so much technology that the opportunities for them are endless.
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You know, we kind of got the best of both worlds.
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We got life without technology, we got life with technology.
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We had to learn how to adapt, but they were just born into it.
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So it's good, they're that generation is gonna move a lot further and a lot and be a lot more successful because they don't have a lot of the things that held us back.
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So and they see things differently.
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Like they work smarter, not harder.
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They don't believe in working 40 hours a week for corporate.
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A lot of them find ways to make that same amount of money in half the time or less.
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Their goal is not the big house and the picket bents and the five kids running around.
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You know, they say about the American dream, you have to be asleep to believe it.
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So these Gen Zers are awake.
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I don't want to say the word woke.
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I hate that, but they're awake and they're very aware of the mistakes the millennials and uh Gen X has made, and they look at us like we're not gonna fucking do that.
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Like they see how we worked our asses off to grind for nothing, and they're like, yeah, no, I'd rather just be single and travel and work off my laptop by the pool.
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Like, if I was in that generation, I would be so much more further in life at 22, 23 than I am at 38.
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So I would have used all that to my advantage.
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They're they're lucky, so but they're also living in an economy that's crashing and expensive, and they have to make a lot more money to survive than we did.
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Um, you know, we're all in the same playing field right now.
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We're all trying to catch that ball and hit a home run, and we're all in the same competition in life.
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So, and that sadly, in 2026, that end goal is just to survive, it's not to be happy and live our best lives, it's to survive, and that's a miserable existence for all of us.
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And I'm not trying to be cynical, I'm not trying to be negative, but this is life.
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And since I'm such a transparent person, like I say it what it is, and we live to survive in 2026.
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We don't live to live.
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And people are like, you know, don't work your life away.
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Well, I have to, or I'm not gonna have a life.
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You know what I mean?
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Like, my job has to come first, and my paycheck has to come first, you know, because I don't depend on a man.
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I don't have anybody paying my bills.
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Mommy and daddy don't pay for everything.
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And for once I wish somebody would pick up the slack, but they don't, and they can't.
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So it's all on my shoulders.
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I don't think that we as a society should be pushed to our breaking point of mental breakdowns, nervous breakdowns, depression, anxiety, suicide, choosing to leave the lights on or f or eat, choosing to put gas in our car or pay a rent.
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Like I this just isn't normal, guys.
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This is not normal.
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And the boomers all out there always want to say, Well, I worked four jobs and put myself to college.
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Yeah, when college was like three thousand dollars a year, like it it it's three hundred thousand now to get a a a freaking college degree and you go broke and go in debt the rest of your life, which I'm not even gonna go down that road of student loans, but uh of course it was easier for you.
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You know, the cost of living was not what it is today.
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You could survive, two people could survive off a$27,000 salary.
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Now, you know, as one person, you have to make a hundred thousand to survive, and that's like the bare minimum.
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So this is just not normal.
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Like, no, what kills us should does not make us stronger.
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It's not going to make us stronger.
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We shouldn't be tested to our breaking point every day of our lives just to have a paycheck, just to wake up.
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Like it's it's not normal, guys.
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It's not normal.
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And I hope this resonates with somebody because you know, we all say this, that, and the other and say, well, this is how it should be.
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And I wish this would stop, and everyone's like, well, you know, do something about it.
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The whole world has to come together for it to make a change.
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One person, a strong voice starts it.
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Yes, absolutely.
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One voice can change a lot of things.
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But to have power, you need an army behind you.
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And a lot of people are just too afraid to go against the norm.
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Too too many people are afraid of being looked at differently in society or breaking the rules or speaking up for what's wrong and speaking up for what's right.
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And if you don't have people behind you, you know, you don't have your soldiers behind you.
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It's it's a uh ever ending loop of defeat.
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What didn't kill me did not make me stronger.
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It made me angrier, it made me sadder, it made me more tired, it made me more sad and angry and hateful towards, I don't even know, like, I don't hate people and I don't hate myself, but just maybe hate's not the right word.
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More furious, more impatient, more less likely to tolerate anything.
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It made me just bitter.
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And I don't try to be a bitter person, but it it's it it's at a point now where it's like, what gives, man?
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Like, what gives?
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Why can't you catch a break in life?
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And again, I'm not making myself sound like my life is worse than others or easier than others.
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It's just, I know I'm not the only one feeling this way.
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I know as a collective, like everybody everywhere, no one's happy.
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Nobody's happy.
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Just because you see somebody sitting on a boat in freaking, you know, Key West in the sand with a bikini on and a beer in their hand, doesn't mean they're happy.
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They're showing you, they're trying to convince you that they're happy, but they're not happy.
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Nobody is happy.
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Like that, I'm sorry.
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Not in the world we live in.
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No one gets up every day and going, wow, my life is just perfect, and I'm so happy, and nothing is wrong in my life.
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Nothing is wrong.
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No, that's bullshit.
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If more people were honest about how unhappy they actually were, there'd be less pressure to try to be something we're not.
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You know, I always see this meme that says, in a world of Kim Kardashians, be a Princess Diana.
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I love Princess Diana.
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I've been following Princess Diana for 30 years.
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When I was eight years old, she passed away and she was just good.
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She respected humanity.
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She had hope.
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She healed.
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She healed people by just having a good heart, by being a genuine person who had compassion and honesty.
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She healed people and did something productive, did something that is noble and admirable and inspiring.
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I mean, more than one thing, obviously.
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But she didn't use her body to get power.
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She didn't use her body to get likes on social media.
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She didn't use her status for a way to be entitled and make people feel small.
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You know, she used that to help lift other people.
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And, you know, she had a lot of mental.
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Health issues too and self-esteem issues.
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I mean, but look, even a prince cheated on her, on Princess Diana, like to be with Calmilla.
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I mean, come on.
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And she's like the perfect example of a woman, you know, a great mother, a devoted wife, an inspiration to all, you know, all over the world, not just England.
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She touched the lives of everybody around the world.
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She was our people's princess in America.
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And we don't even have royalty here.
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She was a princess, and not like she wears a crown and she's a princess like Disney.
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It's she was royalty without the status because she set an example of humanity.
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And what didn't kill her didn't make her stronger either.
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She was broken inside, but guess what?
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She still woke up every day and treated people with respect.
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She still woke up every day and set an example.
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She still woke up every day and wanted to see better in this world and took action to make it happen.
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I will I'd rather be like Princess Diana than Kim Kardashian.
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I'm just saying, it's not about looks.
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It's not about how much you weigh.
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It's not about what kind of clothes you wear.
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It's not about what kind of car you drive, what size house you live in.
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None of those things matter.
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None.
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None of it matters.
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You know, when I die, I want to be remembered for how I loved, not things that I achieved, not things that I, you know, I just I just want to be remembered by somebody who loved others fiercely.
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That that's what I want to be.
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That's the legacy I want to leave behind.
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And I love hard, so I I get hurt hard.
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And I don't know when to put a boundary down of when to stop being so into caring about other people or put a boundary down on how like not to be so emotional and invested in somebody that I actually care about.
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It's all or nothing for me.
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There's no in between.
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Um, I either give it my all or I don't give anything.
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It's tiring.
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I wish I was I'm I'm more of an introvert now and a homebody, but like I wish I was more like those people who just don't talk about their feelings because it seems like those people get further in life and know how to really just use it to their advantage to get everything they want.
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And they get seem to just have people flock to them.
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But the ones who are anxious, the ones who are transparent and genuine and whistleblowers, the ones who are loud and have a voice, life's hard, man.
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People come at you the pitchforks and axe knives and you know fire sticks, and they want to burn your house down because you speak truth.
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So tiring.
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And the only way things change is if you speak the truth.
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That's it.
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Life should not be this hard.
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We should not have to feel like we're going into a battle every single day when we wake up.
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And every night when we lay our heads down and go to sleep, we should not feel like we just had to fight a war.
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Inside of our own minds.
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Mental health needs to be taken so much more seriously.
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Every job should offer like 12 mental health days a year, once a month, just to turn your phones off, your laptops off, and reset.
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And people are like, well, that's what weekends are for.
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No, because weekends are for us catching up on life, running errands, you know, doing laundry, going grocery shopping, all this, that, and the other.
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We really need a four-week work week.
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A lot of people always feel so much better when there's a three-day weekend because you get that extra day.
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You don't have to do anything.
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You can just exist, you know.
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Having two days off a week is not like it's not good either.
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Because by the time you're rested, you know, from the weekend running your ass off, you gotta get right back up and go to work.
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Like, I just want to say something good for humanity.
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I don't know.
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I don't really know the point with this episode.
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I just woke up this morning and just thought, like, what doesn't kill me makes me stronger.
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And I just laughed out loud.
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I'm like, I I I literally feel like a soldier who came back from war that I didn't sign up for.
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And they always say God chooses his strongest soldiers for battle.
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No, I don't believe that.
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I just think sometimes life happens and there is free will, there is choice.
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And one little thing can change the whole direction of your life.
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One little decision.
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If I could go back to high school, God, I wouldn't want to, but if I had to, God, the small decisions I I made would have led me down a differ different path.
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Even in college, you know, I've I have achieved a lot and I have met some amazing people and I have, you know, pushed forward.
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And people want to say I'm resilient.
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I'm ti I don't have it in me anymore.
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I I just I don't.
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I'm just tired, guys.
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Nothing excites me.
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Nothing is like, you know, except true crime stuff in my crime community, but nothing else is like, I'd rather just sleep.
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And I know that's not normal, but it's like I'd rather just avoid bullshit in this world.
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When I'm asleep, nothing is wrong.
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And that's sad.
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That's a sad existence for human life.
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Like 8 billion people in this world, I'm not the only one that feels this way.
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I know I'm not.
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People just don't voice it.
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I just I just wish for once that I didn't have to feel like I was going to war every day.
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That I could have rest instead of res, you know, resilience.
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I wish I could have respect and honesty from people and appreciation and understanding and some compassion.
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That's that's what I would like from people that claim they care about me.
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But I feel like I'm fighting this war by myself.
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It's I feel like it's me against, you know, 300 soldiers in a field.
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And I gotta give every ounce of my strength to deserve to survive, to be the last one standing because I got nobody behind me.
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I I hope that makes sense to you guys.
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Like I'm trying to paint a picture, but it's hard.
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I I hope life gets easier for you.
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I hope every battle that you face you conquer.
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I hope you get rest.
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I hope you get peace.
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I hope you get clarification on things that you're confused on.
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I hope that you find your power.
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I hope that you respect yourself and love yourself to walk away from something that hurts you.
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I hope that you find who you are without defining yourself around somebody else.
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I hope that you find something in your day that just makes your soul feel alive.
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That's what I want for people.
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Not to feel like how I feel every day.
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There's so much silence in this world, even though we're so loud.
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There's so much silence.
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I'm tired.
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Literally, I'm exhausted.
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I was up until three o'clock this morning for no reason.
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None.
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And then my body just decided to be a dick and woke up at eight o'clock this morning.
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And I'm just like, great, fantastic.
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Glad that I'm just so stressed out that my insomnia is just like, yo, you go to sleep when we put you to sleep, and you will wake up when you when we want you to wake up.
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I'm like, I need sleep.
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Like when I don't sleep much, I get really bad anxiety and panic attacks, and I become a really nasty person.
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So, like, I know my boundaries, and I don't like to be around people when I feel like this because my energy, I can't wear a mask.
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I can't just pretend I'm happy around people.
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Like, my energy will drain other people, and that's not fair.
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I just want you guys to know that you're not alone.
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You're not alone.
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I know I'm not alone.
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I I know it.
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I know I'm not, I know there's people out there who feel exactly the same way.
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So I don't feel like I'm the only one that could feel this way.
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This world sucks.
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This world is shit.
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And I know when I curl up with a book and a cup of coffee and I w get myself lost in a in a book, I don't have to worry about anything going on on the outside.
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Like I just get to escape in my own little reality.
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My books don't kill me and make me stronger.
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It gave me a safe place to just disappear to.
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And I read a lot of nonfiction, mostly true crime, but I like to educate myself.
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But just remember, what doesn't kill you doesn't always make you stronger.
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It it might give you some perspective.
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It may give you some lessons you learn, but it doesn't make you stronger.
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It just makes you somebody who keeps their guard up.
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It makes you somebody who's afraid of being vulnerable, it makes you somebody who doesn't believe and trust other people.
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And at least for me.
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And I don't know.
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I just felt like I needed to make this episode.
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Like somebody out there needs to hear it.
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And sometimes me talking about things, it's no different than me talking to a therapist and just to get my thoughts out.
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If it makes sense to people, if it helps somebody, then that's why I do this.
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But I want to thank you for all the support so far with this podcast.
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Again, it was something that I had in mind for a while.
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And there's no really rhyme or reason or theme.
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It's just every day you have to turn the corner.
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You have to flip the page.
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You know, you have to make a choice.
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And the reason why it's called turning the corner, a little backstory.
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I had a food photography and social media marketing business since 2013 called Klein's Corner.
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And it was just a blog and a food photography page.
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I promoted local mom and pop restaurants, and my colors were orange and yellow, and a burger was my logo.
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And um, people recognized that brand.
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So I wanted I stopped doing that in 2023.
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And I wanted to do a podcast that was meaningful, that could give a message and to help somebody.
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And I couldn't think of a name.
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So I was talking to my friend Jim and Gabby Petito's mom, Nikki, and together they came up with turning the corner for a better tomorrow.
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It's a branch of Klein's Corner because I'm still, you know, I'm not helping restaurants, but I'm helping people in the community.
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So that's why it's turning the corner with a K, because my last name's Klein with a K.
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So Corner had a K.
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So it was it was just like a spin-off.
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And, you know, the themes, there's no specific genre.
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It's just life, hope, humanity, healing, you know, cheating, family dynamics, abuse, missing persons, advocacy, nonprofits, not for-profits, raising awareness, divorce, all types of abuse, mental health.
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I mean, I can keep going.
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So I just get a thought in my head and then I turn on my podcast.
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It's not like I have a plan of what I want to talk about.
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I just get up and go, I think I need to talk about this today.
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And that's how I roll.
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I don't have a set time or day when I release a podcast because I have to feel it.
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I have to be in the moment.
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I have to have a reason.
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I have to have a direction.
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I have to have inspiration behind it.
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Not, well, I mean, get this out there because it has to get out.
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And I'm on a schedule, so people are expecting an episode.
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No, I mean, I could go, I can do one every day when I feel like it, and then I could stop for three weeks and then release another one.
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It's just how I feel that day.
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My true crime is a little different because I do record people, but the main part, like, I'll just jump on and do one when I feel like it.
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I just, I've always done things my way.
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Always.
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And I don't know.
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Just I I hope this, I hope this podcast helps others.
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I'm I'm really trying to be real and raw and genuine and just help people not feel not so alone in this world and you know, take some weight off your shoulders.
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So thank you for turning the corner with me.
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I am your host, Tiff.
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Be sure to subscribe and rate and review.
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I am on Spotify, Apple, Amazon, YouTube, iHeart, TikTok, Snapchat, Instagram, Facebook.
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You can also follow my other podcasts, True Crime with Tiff Klein.
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There are three seasons, 10 episodes on this latest season.
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And this is the season where I really start recording and interviewing people.
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All things true crime, missing persons, abuse, domestic violence, big true crime cases.
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I've met so many cool true crime community people in the past few years.
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And if you want to check that out, it's also on Spotify, iHeart, YouTube, Apple, Alexa.
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Or not Alexa, Amazon.
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And you can also follow me on TikTok, Snapchat, Instagram, Facebook.
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Um, and I'd I'd love to connect with you.
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Please subscribe.
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And I'll be back when I get another bug up my ass on what I want to talk about.
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But thank you for turning the corner.
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And thank you for listening.
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You know, and and you don't have to like me.
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You don't have to agree with me, but you have to respect me.
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That's my motto.
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So I hope this serves somebody out there.
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I hope that you don't feel so alone.
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Keep turning that corner, and I will be back.
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Welcome back.
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This is Turning the Corner.
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My name is Tip.
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It is Saturday, July 25th.
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Just got out of Mercury retrograde.
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Y'all know what I'm talking about.
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Holy shit, what a month it was.
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I swear to God, this stuff exists.
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I had the worst month I've had in probably a few years.
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I don't I don't even know what happened.
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It's like when you watch that reel of Johnny Depp going, what the fuck was that?
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What the fuck was that?
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Like that's exactly how I feel about the past month.
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It has been one shitstorm after the next.
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And I'm trying to turn the corner.
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I am just wiped out.
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I'm drained.
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You know, those karmic lessons had to pop up again and chaos and confusion.
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And just every time Mercury retrograde comes around, my life goes upside down.
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Every time.
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And it's usually in March or July.
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And it's it's just it's horrible.
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It's just, I didn't know so much could happen to one person in the 30-day cycle or however long it was.
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It felt like 30 years, but wow, this was a bad one.
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Like, I don't know if y'all believe in that stuff, but holy crap.
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I wanted to do today's episode on when people say, you know, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
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No.
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I feel like I'm a soldier coming back from war with PTSD from a war that I didn't sign up for.
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That's how my life feels.
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And it's not just from the past month.
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It's it's been most of my life.
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And I really hate hearing people say what doesn't make you or what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
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And it doesn't.
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It it gives you stress.
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It gives you wrinkles.
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It gives you insomnia.
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It gives you depression and anxiety.
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It gives you worry and anticipation.
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It gives you flight or flight mode.
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It gives you hypervigilance.
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It gives you irritability and mental health issues.
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That that that's that's what that means.
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You know, all the things I've been through in life, and I'm grateful for the good, don't get me wrong, but all the things I've been through in life, and I'm not saying anybody's life is easy or harder than mine.
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It's just mine is what it is.
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And I just didn't think life was supposed to be this hard.
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I didn't think that in your mid-30s, you still can't find a man who can respect you and value you and be loyal to you and be honest to you and commit to one woman.
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I I I didn't know it was gonna be so hard to find one like that.
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I I have yet to find one like that.
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I don't know what green flags are.
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I I I don't know what it's like to be respected, heard, supported, listened to, cared for, protected.
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I don't know what it's like to have a man where they don't put me in investigation mode or fight or flight or fear or constant worry that they're cheating.
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I I don't know what that is.
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And it's sad at 38 because I'm such a hopeless romantic and I really just want my fairy tale.
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And I I'm I'm accepting the fact that I live in a generation that it's just impossible.
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I don't know if it's a generational thing with these men that something happened in the with these men that are 30, 40, and 50 somewhere growing up, that they have no self-esteem, they have mental health issues, they have no integrity, no morals, no ethics, no uh respect, no, I don't even know the word.
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I I just feel like they're all broken.
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And they call us crazy.
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Well, the broken men make us crazy, and we're not crazy.
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We just react to their bullshit.
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But it it it just seems like every man I meet in that generation just is all the same, the same phrases, the same body language, the same excuses, the same mental health issues, the same patterns, the same routines, the same phrases, like they're all avoidant attachments and they're all on dating apps trying to fill a void, and they're all on the same, like all the same guys are on all the dating apps.
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Like they're so desperate to fuck somebody's life up.
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Like, let me get on Tinder and Bumble and Hinge and Match.com and plenty of fish and you know, all the rest, Facebook dating.
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And if you get on those platforms, you'll see the same guys on all of them.
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That should tell you something.
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And most of those guys end up on that Facebook page.
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Are we dating the same guy?
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It's sad.
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It's sad.
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You know, I saw a post today that said women are refusing to get married and having kids, and so many people were unhinged in the comments.
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You don't know what you're missing out on.
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It's the meaning of life.
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It's a beautiful experience.
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You know what's a beautiful experience?
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Not being cheated on, abused, and lied to, or being stuck with a man because you have a kid and you're staying together for the marriage.
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That that's not a beautiful experience.
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So this life is hard.
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And I know people have it worse than me.
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And then and you have it worse than me, or they have it worse than you.
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And it's not a competition.
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If I think my life is rough and hard, it's fucking hard.
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Like no one gets to decide if my life is harder or easier than anybody else's.
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It I'm exhausted.
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I'm tired.
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I feel like it's a battleground 24-7, and I'm walking on a landmine and never knowing what step I take, it's gonna set off the next bomb.
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Like, I am tired.
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And I I'm at my breaking point.
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And again, what doesn't kill me makes me stronger.
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You know, I almost did die a few times by the hands of a man.
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So has it made me stronger?
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It's made me more aware, it's made me more hyper-vigilant, it's made me more untrusting, it's made me more angry, it's made me more sad, it's made me more isolated, it's made me more depressed, it's made me more confused, and it's made me more of a worrier, it's made me more of a insecure, jealous type of girlfriend.
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I mean, that's you know, and it's not just relationships, it's family.
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Some sometimes family members treat you the same way, and life is hard.
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And when you try to explain things to people, they we live in a world where everybody cares about themselves.
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I mean, I care about people, I do, but I care about me too, and I try my best to uh just be a nicer person.
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But people push you to your limit, man, and you tell them don't poke the bear, don't poke the bear, don't poke the bear, and then they want to challenge it as if you're joking, and then when they finally get the last poke in and you bite, then you're the you're the bad person.
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And life just wasn't supposed to be this hard.
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We live in an economy where we have to decide if we want to pay our electric bill or put food in the fridge.
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We gotta live in an economy where we have to decide if we want to go out for the day and enjoy something or pay our rent.
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Like it's it's mentally unhealthy for this entire world.
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It's not just my life, it's not just your life, it's not just America, it's everywhere and everyone.
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Everybody's fighting a battle uphill, somehow, some way, some form.
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And a lot of people don't talk about it.
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A lot of people do.
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And the ones that do get judged, and the ones that stay quiet get judged, or at least accepted.
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Um, a lot of people are afraid to speak out.
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I'm not.
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I might talk too much, I might be too honest, but I'd rather that than not be authentic.
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I'd rather people hate me for who I am than like me for who I'm not, and I'm very true to myself.
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And I'm tired.
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I have put up with so much bullshit from people in my life: family, relationships, friends.
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And when, you know, everyone had said put boundaries down, cut people off, I do that.
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And then everybody gets unhinged and they don't like it.
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So you're damned if you do, you're damned if you don't.
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And life is not supposed to be complicated like this.
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It's just, I feel like I exist just to pay my bills.
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I haven't done anything except one.
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I I went to Vegas in May for crime con and came back June 1st or 2nd.
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I've gone out one time since because I have no desire to be around people, loud music, rambunctious environments.
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I I I'm drained just thinking about it.
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And that's depression.
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You know, I admit I am depressed and I uh was seeing a therapist, but it wasn't working.
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All they have wanted me to do was text and send emails to get it everything out, and I'm like, this isn't helping me.
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I can do that with my best friend.
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Like, medication can only do so much, it's a band-aid.
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It helps.
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It it helps.
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It it allows you to function in life, but it's not a cure.
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It doesn't take away layers and layers and layers of trauma and depression and anger.
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I try to uh try to find the good in every day, but some days are hard and they're getting harder as I get older.
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And life's just not enjoyable.
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It it's I'm going to be honest.
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Like, I know there's a lot of people out there who agree with me.
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Like, this is not how life should be.
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And I'm not saying I'm gonna do anything to myself.
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I'm just stating that like life should not be this hard.
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We should be out laughing, smiling.
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I look like I've aged probably 10 years in the past three months because I've gone through so much trauma and stress in my life in the past three months just dumped more on me and I'm tired.
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But the insomnia is kicking in, so I look really exhausted.
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I just hope people out there understand like they're not alone and this isn't only just happening to them.
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I just think it's a bullshit excuse.
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What only what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
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No, it doesn't.
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It breaks you, it defeats you.
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And another thing I hate when people are like, be the bigger person.
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So somebody disrespects me and hurts me.
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And I'm supposed to look the other way because that makes me the bigger person.
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No, that makes me somebody that looks the other way and doesn't stick up for themselves and doesn't demand respect and accountability.
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That that's what that means.
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So when you're the bigger person and you let disrespect go because it's just want worth your peace, you're you're allowing that person to continue to treat you that way or continue to be that type of person to others.
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And I take it too far sometimes, I admit.
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I will be a whistleblower, I'll scream, I'll put my foot down because I had years of people walking all over me and trying to control me and trying to tell me what I should do with my life.
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And I I just don't tolerate anymore.
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And it's probably gonna be very hard to find a man now.
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Like I've lived by myself for five years.
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I don't know if I could live with somebody again.
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I honestly don't.
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I want my h happy ever after.
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I want to get married, but then I see all my friends and look back at the what men have put me through, and it's like uh uh it's scary to bound yourself to somebody and to try to start a life with somebody when every relationship you've known has turned out to be fake, abusive, deceitful, betrayed.
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You know, when I'm usually good, I am good alone, and I have more peace without a man in my life.
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But I wish for once I could have my knight in shining armor.
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Like a man who just holds me when I cry and isn't the reason why I'm crying.
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You know, I want something to add happiness to my life, not make me happy, if that makes sense, but I have yet to be shown.
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And I've been through a lot.
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So to tell me that what doesn't kill me makes me stronger is a bunch of bullshit.
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Or be the bigger person is a bunch of bullshit.
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No, I will not accept disrespect from somebody just to keep peace.
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I will not be quiet to make others comfortable.
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So a lot of people don't like me.
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I don't want to say they're intimidated because that's egotistical, but a lot of people don't like me because I'm so honest, transparent, and genuine that it either pisses them off because they don't like to be around people who tell the truth, or it strikes a nerve in them about something that they're not being honest with, or they hide themselves behind a mask so hard that I trigger people.
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I don't, I don't gossip, you know.
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If if my friends tell me something and tell me not to tell anybody, I don't tell anybody.
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Unless I know that what they're telling me is gonna hurt somebody else, I'll tell them.
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Like if my best friend told me today that like she was cheating on her husband, because her husband is my friend, I'd tell him.
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Like, I'm not gonna sit here and look the other way and go, it's not my business.
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Well, when your husband is one of my best friends as well, it is my business.
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Now that's not going on in my life.
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I'm using that as an example.
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And um, I've told both of them that.
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I I had said, you know, if you did this to her and she did this to you, I'd tell both of you.
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Because I'm not gonna sit back and watch people I care about lives get destroyed because I don't want to get involved.
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Now I'm gonna get involved.
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You're my best friends.
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Like, why are we in why are we friends if we're not gonna be involved and support each other?
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I I never understood that concept.
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I'm not gonna walk on eggshells because you're doing something wrong.
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People get worried about, well, I don't want to ruin a their relationship.
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Listen, what they're doing is ruining the relationship.
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You intervening and telling the truth isn't gonna.
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So once again, don't be the bigger person all the time.
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I barely am anymore.
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Like, I just don't, I don't hold back.
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I I don't have a filter anymore.
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And again, I think that's from years of being controlled, even in high school.
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Like I felt like I had this cage and I was hooked to strings and I was trying to break free from my mom controlling me.
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And, you know, in her mind she was protecting me, but in my mind it was control.
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And then my abusive boyfriends just I don't know if I have a target on my forehead that just says I'm an empath, please take advantage of me.
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Please gaslight me, please manipulate me, please abuse me, please cheat on me, please lie.
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It's like I feel like I'm a walking target for narcissists, and I used to want to fix people.
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I I'm not fixing people.
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I stopped doing that.
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Like that's that's a waste of my energy and resources and mental health.
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And uh I cut people off now.
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I don't entertain disrespect.
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I don't care if you're blood or not.
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It took me a long time to get here, and I'm back to who I was before these abusive relationships, and people seem to have forgotten that part of me because I've I have forgotten myself for so long.
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And now they're just like, wait a second, I don't remember Tiff being this way.
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No, I was.
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It's just been almost 20 years since you saw it.
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So now that I'm back, after everybody encouraged me to set boundaries and cut people off and voice how I feel and not hold back, now it's a problem because now they're being told the truth that they don't want to face.
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So life is just like, I really hope when we die, I hope we really do find the reason of life.
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Like, what is the meaning?
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And I saw something the other day, you know, those who don't want kids are here living their last life because they don't have any more knowledge to pass on to the next generation.
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That made sense to me.
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Now I believe in afterlife, I believe in reincarnation, I believe in spirituality, I believe in God.
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I don't want to bring a kid into this world, but I'm glad I've at five years old I realized I didn't want kids.
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What a shit world we live in.
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What a shit world.
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God bless those who do have kids, man.
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Like, I couldn't imagine having another mouth to feed in this economy.
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We're worrying about somebody else, you know?
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Ugh.
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I just got my coffee and realized there's no cream in it.
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Thank you, Duncan.
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Ugh.
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Anyway, yeah, I I I couldn't imagine living a life having to put like worry about somebody else right now.
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Like it life is hard.
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It's hard enough not having kids that depend on me.
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Like I like I just don't I feel bad for people who have kids.
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I honestly do.
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And not out of pity.
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It's just holy shit, I can't imagine your life right now.
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And you know, some people want kids.
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Some people grow up and that's all they want to do is be a parent.
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Props to you.
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Kudos to you.
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I salute you, but not for me.
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Just hard.
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Every day I wake up going, what the fuck's gonna happen today?
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Like what hammer's gonna fall today?
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What shoe is gonna drop today?
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Because it's always something.
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Like, I don't know if that's how other people's lives are, but that's sure as hell how my life is.
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You know, and then it was going good for a while.
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And I I thought, well shit, like I'm finally getting happy, I'm finally happier.
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Things are starting to fucking work and and work out in my way, and then boom, nope, happened again.
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So I lost my best friend because he just decided to be a piece of shit, and I had to cut family members off because they disrespect me.
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I am down to a very select few people in my life, and it can get lonely, but it's lonelier when you have people around you who don't really give a fuck about you.
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So that that's lonely to me.
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I just don't think life is supposed to be this hard where you don't enjoy anything, where you don't look forward to anything, where you just want to sleep so you don't have to deal with bullshit.
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You just want to be alone so you don't have to deal with bad people, you don't date because you don't want to get cheated on or abused.
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Like, that's just a sad existence.
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And I hate that I live in this generation.
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I don't belong in this generation.
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I'm such an old school like hopeless romantic.
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Like, I'm I definitely was born in the wrong era.
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I I don't belong here.
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And I see a lot of Gen Zers, I envy the Gen Zers, man.
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I wish I lived or I wish I was born in the early 2000s because I feel like the whole world was so different and they only know what they know, like we only know what we know.
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And I feel like they're they have an advantage because they live in a world with so much technology that the opportunities for them are endless.
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You know, we kind of got the best of both worlds.
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We got life without technology, we got life with technology.
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We had to learn how to adapt, but they were just born into it.
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So it's good, they're that generation is gonna move a lot further and a lot and be a lot more successful because they don't have a lot of the things that held us back.
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So and they see things differently.
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Like they work smarter, not harder.
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They don't believe in working 40 hours a week for corporate.
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A lot of them find ways to make that same amount of money in half the time or less.
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Their goal is not the big house and the picket bents and the five kids running around.
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You know, they say about the American dream, you have to be asleep to believe it.
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So these Gen Zers are awake.
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I don't want to say the word woke.
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I hate that, but they're awake and they're very aware of the mistakes the millennials and uh Gen X has made, and they look at us like we're not gonna fucking do that.
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Like they see how we worked our asses off to grind for nothing, and they're like, yeah, no, I'd rather just be single and travel and work off my laptop by the pool.
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Like, if I was in that generation, I would be so much more further in life at 22, 23 than I am at 38.
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So I would have used all that to my advantage.
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They're they're lucky, so but they're also living in an economy that's crashing and expensive, and they have to make a lot more money to survive than we did.
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Um, you know, we're all in the same playing field right now.
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We're all trying to catch that ball and hit a home run, and we're all in the same competition in life.
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So, and that sadly, in 2026, that end goal is just to survive, it's not to be happy and live our best lives, it's to survive, and that's a miserable existence for all of us.
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And I'm not trying to be cynical, I'm not trying to be negative, but this is life.
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And since I'm such a transparent person, like I say it what it is, and we live to survive in 2026.
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We don't live to live.
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And people are like, you know, don't work your life away.
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Well, I have to, or I'm not gonna have a life.
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You know what I mean?
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Like, my job has to come first, and my paycheck has to come first, you know, because I don't depend on a man.
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I don't have anybody paying my bills.
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Mommy and daddy don't pay for everything.
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And for once I wish somebody would pick up the slack, but they don't, and they can't.
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So it's all on my shoulders.
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I don't think that we as a society should be pushed to our breaking point of mental breakdowns, nervous breakdowns, depression, anxiety, suicide, choosing to leave the lights on or f or eat, choosing to put gas in our car or pay a rent.
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Like I this just isn't normal, guys.
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This is not normal.
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And the boomers all out there always want to say, Well, I worked four jobs and put myself to college.
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Yeah, when college was like three thousand dollars a year, like it it it's three hundred thousand now to get a a a freaking college degree and you go broke and go in debt the rest of your life, which I'm not even gonna go down that road of student loans, but uh of course it was easier for you.
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You know, the cost of living was not what it is today.
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You could survive, two people could survive off a$27,000 salary.
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Now, you know, as one person, you have to make a hundred thousand to survive, and that's like the bare minimum.
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So this is just not normal.
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Like, no, what kills us should does not make us stronger.
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It's not going to make us stronger.
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We shouldn't be tested to our breaking point every day of our lives just to have a paycheck, just to wake up.
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Like it's it's not normal, guys.
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It's not normal.
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And I hope this resonates with somebody because you know, we all say this, that, and the other and say, well, this is how it should be.
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And I wish this would stop, and everyone's like, well, you know, do something about it.
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The whole world has to come together for it to make a change.
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One person, a strong voice starts it.
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Yes, absolutely.
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One voice can change a lot of things.
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But to have power, you need an army behind you.
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And a lot of people are just too afraid to go against the norm.
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Too too many people are afraid of being looked at differently in society or breaking the rules or speaking up for what's wrong and speaking up for what's right.
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And if you don't have people behind you, you know, you don't have your soldiers behind you.
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It's it's a uh ever ending loop of defeat.
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What didn't kill me did not make me stronger.
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It made me angrier, it made me sadder, it made me more tired, it made me more sad and angry and hateful towards, I don't even know, like, I don't hate people and I don't hate myself, but just maybe hate's not the right word.
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More furious, more impatient, more less likely to tolerate anything.
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It made me just bitter.
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And I don't try to be a bitter person, but it it's it it's at a point now where it's like, what gives, man?
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Like, what gives?
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Why can't you catch a break in life?
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And again, I'm not making myself sound like my life is worse than others or easier than others.
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It's just, I know I'm not the only one feeling this way.
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I know as a collective, like everybody everywhere, no one's happy.
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Nobody's happy.
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Just because you see somebody sitting on a boat in freaking, you know, Key West in the sand with a bikini on and a beer in their hand, doesn't mean they're happy.
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They're showing you, they're trying to convince you that they're happy, but they're not happy.
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Nobody is happy.
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Like that, I'm sorry.
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Not in the world we live in.
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No one gets up every day and going, wow, my life is just perfect, and I'm so happy, and nothing is wrong in my life.
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Nothing is wrong.
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No, that's bullshit.
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If more people were honest about how unhappy they actually were, there'd be less pressure to try to be something we're not.
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You know, I always see this meme that says, in a world of Kim Kardashians, be a Princess Diana.
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I love Princess Diana.
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I've been following Princess Diana for 30 years.
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When I was eight years old, she passed away and she was just good.
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She respected humanity.
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She had hope.
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She healed.
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She healed people by just having a good heart, by being a genuine person who had compassion and honesty.
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She healed people and did something productive, did something that is noble and admirable and inspiring.
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I mean, more than one thing, obviously.
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But she didn't use her body to get power.
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She didn't use her body to get likes on social media.
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She didn't use her status for a way to be entitled and make people feel small.
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You know, she used that to help lift other people.
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And, you know, she had a lot of mental.
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Health issues too and self-esteem issues.
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I mean, but look, even a prince cheated on her, on Princess Diana, like to be with Calmilla.
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I mean, come on.
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And she's like the perfect example of a woman, you know, a great mother, a devoted wife, an inspiration to all, you know, all over the world, not just England.
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She touched the lives of everybody around the world.
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She was our people's princess in America.
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And we don't even have royalty here.
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She was a princess, and not like she wears a crown and she's a princess like Disney.
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It's she was royalty without the status because she set an example of humanity.
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And what didn't kill her didn't make her stronger either.
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She was broken inside, but guess what?
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She still woke up every day and treated people with respect.
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She still woke up every day and set an example.
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She still woke up every day and wanted to see better in this world and took action to make it happen.
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I will I'd rather be like Princess Diana than Kim Kardashian.
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I'm just saying, it's not about looks.
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It's not about how much you weigh.
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It's not about what kind of clothes you wear.
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It's not about what kind of car you drive, what size house you live in.
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None of those things matter.
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None.
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None of it matters.
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You know, when I die, I want to be remembered for how I loved, not things that I achieved, not things that I, you know, I just I just want to be remembered by somebody who loved others fiercely.
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That that's what I want to be.
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That's the legacy I want to leave behind.
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And I love hard, so I I get hurt hard.
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And I don't know when to put a boundary down of when to stop being so into caring about other people or put a boundary down on how like not to be so emotional and invested in somebody that I actually care about.
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It's all or nothing for me.
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There's no in between.
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Um, I either give it my all or I don't give anything.
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It's tiring.
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I wish I was I'm I'm more of an introvert now and a homebody, but like I wish I was more like those people who just don't talk about their feelings because it seems like those people get further in life and know how to really just use it to their advantage to get everything they want.
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And they get seem to just have people flock to them.
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But the ones who are anxious, the ones who are transparent and genuine and whistleblowers, the ones who are loud and have a voice, life's hard, man.
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People come at you the pitchforks and axe knives and you know fire sticks, and they want to burn your house down because you speak truth.
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So tiring.
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And the only way things change is if you speak the truth.
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That's it.
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Life should not be this hard.
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We should not have to feel like we're going into a battle every single day when we wake up.
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And every night when we lay our heads down and go to sleep, we should not feel like we just had to fight a war.
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Inside of our own minds.
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Mental health needs to be taken so much more seriously.
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Every job should offer like 12 mental health days a year, once a month, just to turn your phones off, your laptops off, and reset.
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And people are like, well, that's what weekends are for.
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No, because weekends are for us catching up on life, running errands, you know, doing laundry, going grocery shopping, all this, that, and the other.
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We really need a four-week work week.
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A lot of people always feel so much better when there's a three-day weekend because you get that extra day.
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You don't have to do anything.
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You can just exist, you know.
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Having two days off a week is not like it's not good either.
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Because by the time you're rested, you know, from the weekend running your ass off, you gotta get right back up and go to work.
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Like, I just want to say something good for humanity.
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I don't know.
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I don't really know the point with this episode.
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I just woke up this morning and just thought, like, what doesn't kill me makes me stronger.
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And I just laughed out loud.
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I'm like, I I I literally feel like a soldier who came back from war that I didn't sign up for.
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And they always say God chooses his strongest soldiers for battle.
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No, I don't believe that.
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I just think sometimes life happens and there is free will, there is choice.
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And one little thing can change the whole direction of your life.
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One little decision.
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If I could go back to high school, God, I wouldn't want to, but if I had to, God, the small decisions I I made would have led me down a differ different path.
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Even in college, you know, I've I have achieved a lot and I have met some amazing people and I have, you know, pushed forward.
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And people want to say I'm resilient.
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I'm ti I don't have it in me anymore.
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I I just I don't.
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I'm just tired, guys.
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Nothing excites me.
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Nothing is like, you know, except true crime stuff in my crime community, but nothing else is like, I'd rather just sleep.
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And I know that's not normal, but it's like I'd rather just avoid bullshit in this world.
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When I'm asleep, nothing is wrong.
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And that's sad.
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That's a sad existence for human life.
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Like 8 billion people in this world, I'm not the only one that feels this way.
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I know I'm not.
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People just don't voice it.
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I just I just wish for once that I didn't have to feel like I was going to war every day.
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That I could have rest instead of res, you know, resilience.
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I wish I could have respect and honesty from people and appreciation and understanding and some compassion.
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That's that's what I would like from people that claim they care about me.
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But I feel like I'm fighting this war by myself.
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It's I feel like it's me against, you know, 300 soldiers in a field.
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And I gotta give every ounce of my strength to deserve to survive, to be the last one standing because I got nobody behind me.
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I I hope that makes sense to you guys.
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Like I'm trying to paint a picture, but it's hard.
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I I hope life gets easier for you.
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I hope every battle that you face you conquer.
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I hope you get rest.
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I hope you get peace.
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I hope you get clarification on things that you're confused on.
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I hope that you find your power.
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I hope that you respect yourself and love yourself to walk away from something that hurts you.
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I hope that you find who you are without defining yourself around somebody else.
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I hope that you find something in your day that just makes your soul feel alive.
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That's what I want for people.
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Not to feel like how I feel every day.
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There's so much silence in this world, even though we're so loud.
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There's so much silence.
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I'm tired.
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Literally, I'm exhausted.
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I was up until three o'clock this morning for no reason.
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None.
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And then my body just decided to be a dick and woke up at eight o'clock this morning.
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And I'm just like, great, fantastic.
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Glad that I'm just so stressed out that my insomnia is just like, yo, you go to sleep when we put you to sleep, and you will wake up when you when we want you to wake up.
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I'm like, I need sleep.
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Like when I don't sleep much, I get really bad anxiety and panic attacks, and I become a really nasty person.
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So, like, I know my boundaries, and I don't like to be around people when I feel like this because my energy, I can't wear a mask.
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I can't just pretend I'm happy around people.
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Like, my energy will drain other people, and that's not fair.
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I just want you guys to know that you're not alone.
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You're not alone.
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I know I'm not alone.
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I I know it.
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I know I'm not, I know there's people out there who feel exactly the same way.
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So I don't feel like I'm the only one that could feel this way.
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This world sucks.
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This world is shit.
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And I know when I curl up with a book and a cup of coffee and I w get myself lost in a in a book, I don't have to worry about anything going on on the outside.
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Like I just get to escape in my own little reality.
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My books don't kill me and make me stronger.
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It gave me a safe place to just disappear to.
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And I read a lot of nonfiction, mostly true crime, but I like to educate myself.
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But just remember, what doesn't kill you doesn't always make you stronger.
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It it might give you some perspective.
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It may give you some lessons you learn, but it doesn't make you stronger.
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It just makes you somebody who keeps their guard up.
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It makes you somebody who's afraid of being vulnerable, it makes you somebody who doesn't believe and trust other people.
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And at least for me.
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And I don't know.
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I just felt like I needed to make this episode.
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Like somebody out there needs to hear it.
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And sometimes me talking about things, it's no different than me talking to a therapist and just to get my thoughts out.
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If it makes sense to people, if it helps somebody, then that's why I do this.
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But I want to thank you for all the support so far with this podcast.
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Again, it was something that I had in mind for a while.
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And there's no really rhyme or reason or theme.
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It's just every day you have to turn the corner.
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You have to flip the page.
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You know, you have to make a choice.
00:29:46.640 --> 00:29:49.920
And the reason why it's called turning the corner, a little backstory.
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I had a food photography and social media marketing business since 2013 called Klein's Corner.
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And it was just a blog and a food photography page.
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I promoted local mom and pop restaurants, and my colors were orange and yellow, and a burger was my logo.
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And um, people recognized that brand.
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So I wanted I stopped doing that in 2023.
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And I wanted to do a podcast that was meaningful, that could give a message and to help somebody.
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And I couldn't think of a name.
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So I was talking to my friend Jim and Gabby Petito's mom, Nikki, and together they came up with turning the corner for a better tomorrow.
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It's a branch of Klein's Corner because I'm still, you know, I'm not helping restaurants, but I'm helping people in the community.
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So that's why it's turning the corner with a K, because my last name's Klein with a K.
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So Corner had a K.
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So it was it was just like a spin-off.
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And, you know, the themes, there's no specific genre.
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It's just life, hope, humanity, healing, you know, cheating, family dynamics, abuse, missing persons, advocacy, nonprofits, not for-profits, raising awareness, divorce, all types of abuse, mental health.
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I mean, I can keep going.
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So I just get a thought in my head and then I turn on my podcast.
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It's not like I have a plan of what I want to talk about.
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I just get up and go, I think I need to talk about this today.
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And that's how I roll.
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I don't have a set time or day when I release a podcast because I have to feel it.
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I have to be in the moment.
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I have to have a reason.
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I have to have a direction.
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I have to have inspiration behind it.
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Not, well, I mean, get this out there because it has to get out.
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And I'm on a schedule, so people are expecting an episode.
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No, I mean, I could go, I can do one every day when I feel like it, and then I could stop for three weeks and then release another one.
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It's just how I feel that day.
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My true crime is a little different because I do record people, but the main part, like, I'll just jump on and do one when I feel like it.
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I just, I've always done things my way.
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Always.
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And I don't know.
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Just I I hope this, I hope this podcast helps others.
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I'm I'm really trying to be real and raw and genuine and just help people not feel not so alone in this world and you know, take some weight off your shoulders.
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So thank you for turning the corner with me.
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I am your host, Tiff.
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Be sure to subscribe and rate and review.
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I am on Spotify, Apple, Amazon, YouTube, iHeart, TikTok, Snapchat, Instagram, Facebook.
00:32:01.519 --> 00:32:04.559
You can also follow my other podcasts, True Crime with Tiff Klein.
00:32:04.640 --> 00:32:07.839
There are three seasons, 10 episodes on this latest season.
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And this is the season where I really start recording and interviewing people.
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All things true crime, missing persons, abuse, domestic violence, big true crime cases.
00:32:16.960 --> 00:32:20.559
I've met so many cool true crime community people in the past few years.
00:32:20.640 --> 00:32:25.839
And if you want to check that out, it's also on Spotify, iHeart, YouTube, Apple, Alexa.
00:32:25.920 --> 00:32:27.519
Or not Alexa, Amazon.
00:32:27.680 --> 00:32:31.440
And you can also follow me on TikTok, Snapchat, Instagram, Facebook.
00:32:31.599 --> 00:32:33.359
Um, and I'd I'd love to connect with you.
00:32:33.440 --> 00:32:34.720
Please subscribe.
00:32:35.119 --> 00:32:38.960
And I'll be back when I get another bug up my ass on what I want to talk about.
00:32:39.119 --> 00:32:41.599
But thank you for turning the corner.
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And thank you for listening.
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You know, and and you don't have to like me.
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You don't have to agree with me, but you have to respect me.
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That's my motto.
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So I hope this serves somebody out there.
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I hope that you don't feel so alone.
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Keep turning that corner, and I will be back.
