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Yeah, and it's it is so easy to do.
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And as artists, we're always kind of involved in something creatively that we want to be a part of.
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And so, yeah, it's easy to just be so enthralled in what you're doing that that you ignore the things that you need to nourish your body.
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What does it really look like to build your dream life while you're living it?
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One day I'm on stage singing with Hugh Jackman, 36 weeks pregnant, just trying not to give birth in Oklahoma.
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And the next, I'm having real conversations about love, loss, career pivots, and becoming someone I didn't even know I could be.
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Because this show isn't just about Broadway, it's about the moments that change you, the risks you take, the dreams you almost talk yourself out of, the strength you don't realize you have until life asks you to use it.
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If you've ever felt like you're in between chapters or stepping into something new, you're not alone.
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You're just getting started.
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This is the Salicia Show, where Broadway meets culture and your real life becomes the main event.
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Hello and welcome or welcome back to another episode of The Salicia Show.
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Woo! Woo! I'm your host, Salicia Thomas, and I'm online with Tinya Brandon right now, who sings the vocals in this in the theme song, y'all.
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I'm in the back like this.
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Yay! Be in the hype menu.
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Oh my gosh.
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I love it.
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Like you wrote that.
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You're the bomb tie.
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You're just a woman of many talents.
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I love you, and I'm so glad we did this together.
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You were like, I want my show to be big.
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I was like, well, they need a big theme song.
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Let's hit it.
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Theme song.
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And you're like, how about this?
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I'm like, oh, I like that.
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Broadway news.
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That's you want to know.
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Come on.
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All right.
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So you don't even know what we're talking about today.
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Let me tell you what we're talking about today.
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I don't.
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You said it was going to be a surprise, and I'm like, ooh, surprise, surprise.
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I mean, it won't be that surprise.
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Listen, we're like free balling it today.
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I know you don't like to free ball it, but I do.
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And so we're you gave me a list of subjects I could choose from, and so I'm choosing one, even though we don't have a roadmap.
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Listen, and this is how we find balance in our relationship.
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Sometimes we do it out, sometimes we do what you want, and it all works out.
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And it all works out.
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And it's gonna be short and sweet.
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It's gonna be short and sweet because you have a Spanish class.
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Let's I do.
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Let's freaking go.
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Yes, I've been taking Spanish twice a week.
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I am looking to get really, really good.
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I want to audition for shows in Argentina.
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That's my goal.
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That's my goal this year.
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Yeah.
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That's so freaking cool.
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Thanks.
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Thanks.
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I've now said that on the record, so now the whole world can keep me, hold me accountable.
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Great.
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Great.
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I want to see you on stage speaking another language or on TV.
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Buenos Aires, here I come.
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Buenos Aires.
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Okay.
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Sorry.
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Okay, today I want to talk about resting and recharging.
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Okay?
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Let's see here.
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We have giving yourself permission.
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Oh, giving yourself permission to stop tackling the culture of overworking, what it means to intentionally rest instead of accidentally collapsing.
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First of all, let me ask you this.
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Have you ever accidentally collapsed?
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Yeah.
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What was that?
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It was not pretty.
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I actually, and it wasn't like, okay.
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Let me preface this by saying I didn't like pass out, but I was definitely I definitely needed to like just hold off.
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You know, I was, I was, I was doing a lot at once.
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And it was actually while I was in college.
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So I did a, and I'm gonna tell this story so fast.
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I did a super senior semester, a super senior semester, my very last year of college.
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My dad was like, I got you with college, I will help you pay for the first four years, but any time that you need after that, that is on you.
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And I was like, cool.
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And so I needed one more semester to complete everything that I wanted to do before I graduated.
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And in order to help me pay for that semester of college, I did pageantry.
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That is how that was my entrance into pageantry.
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I was like, I don't know.
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Yes.
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So my dance teacher was like, I can get you a wardrobe, we're gonna do this, you're gonna look great, you're gonna get up there, you're gonna win this money, and you're gonna pay for school.
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And I was like, Beth, sounds good, fantastic.
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Turns out, pageantry, there's uh there's a lot of image that goes along with being a part of pageants, and I knew that.
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However, I am also a you know petite and slightly curvaceous black girl, and I lost a significant amount of weight, and I was not eating a lot, and I was a theater major and a dance minor, and I was working, I was going back back and forth from school and home to work and teach dance classes, and I was doing appearances and competing in the pageant so that I could fulfill all of my duties before Miss North Carolina, and that wore me out, and that wore me completely out.
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I was very teeny tiny, and I was extremely exhausted, and toward the end of my super senior semester, I could not do anything.
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Oh my god, and so I was kind of forced to just sit down.
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I couldn't go to class, I was just kind of forced to go home and be with my mom for a little bit, and she was like, listen, eat and rest, and and we will figure out what's next.
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And and that's you know, you know, the long and short of kind of what happened.
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And so now I take I take it very seriously when I decide, okay, I'm gonna be working, and I'm gonna be working for this long, and when I absolutely cannot do it anymore, then I'm gonna take a break.
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My my my husband helps me with that a lot too.
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Um, it's like, all right, have have you eaten today?
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You know, yeah, especially on busy days, it's easy to forget.
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I don't usually I love to eat, I've always loved to eat my whole life, but like when I am like on a crazy schedule, that's the only time I would forget to eat.
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Yeah, and it's it is so easy to do.
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And as artists, we're always kind of kind of involved in something creatively that we want to be a part of.
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And so yeah, it's easy to just be so enthralled in what you're doing that that you ignore the things that you need to nourish your body.
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And that's why rest is so important, I think.
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I think if you don't choose rest, God will be like, let me bake it into your schedule.
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100%, 100%.
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Something breaks down so that you have to sit your butt down.
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That's right.
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That's right, that's right.
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And I know we could do a whole episode another time about like body image and how you perceive yourself and what what you want to be putting forward or what you expect the industry expects of you.
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That's a whole nother conversation that we could go into for sure.
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Absolutely.
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That is another episode, not for another episode for another day that I would like to do the next time we record, actually.
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Sure, yeah.
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What do you think about Ress?
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Have you have you unintentionally collapsed at a time?
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Yes, but in a metaphorical sense.
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So I will say Britney Spears musical after that show closed.
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I was passing on every audition.
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My agents were getting me good stuff, good stuff.
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And I was like, pass, pass, pass.
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And then it got to the point where I was like, Lord God, don't let these agents drop me.
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Because I love me some Daniel Hoff agency.
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Dustin Flores is the bomb.
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Love him.
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I'm like, Lord, don't let them drop me because I keep saying no to all of these opportunities.
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And so I had a meeting.
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I called my two agents, Mark, uh, Mark and Dustin, for a meeting, and we met in person.
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And I said, I don't know if I'm broken, but I know I keep passing on all these things, and I need you to know that I appreciate these auditions that you're getting me.
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I don't know what's wrong with me.
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I don't want to go in for anything.
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And they're like, take the time you need to rest and live your life.
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They've been my agents since 2017, 2016, something like that.
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The same with how to be a whole person.
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Yeah, totally.
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Clear telling.
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Yeah, I've been with them basically my my whole career as well.
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And and I and I love them, and I love that they are so open to just being like, hey, you are a person who has a life.
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So it's okay.
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I remember going into them and telling them that I was coming here to, you know, support my husband and like the opportunity that he has with with work and everything.
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And they were like, okay, okay, life.
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Life happens, you know?
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Yeah.
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And so I always appreciate, you know, when people in the industry are like, listen, you're you're allowed to be a person too.
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You're allowed to be both a person and an artist.
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You need to be a person so that you can be a better artist.
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That's right.
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That's right.
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That's right.
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So so I feel like I did get a little bit broken in, and it forced me to take a break.
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Run away with us.
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Yep.
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And in that I'm finding other avenues that I love of what I can do when I'm not on stage.
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I love that.
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I love that.
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What have you found that you can do not while you're not on stage?
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Honestly, what we're doing right now.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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This is so fun for me.
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And I've been doing this, but I was doing it like at a different everything.
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Like it's uh at a higher frequency now, and I can feel that.
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Right, right.
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Yeah.
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Like, let's lean into that.
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What happens?
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I keep putting my energy into everybody else's projects.
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What happens if I put my energy into what I actually want?
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That's right.
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100%.
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100%.
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And that could be like a part of like uh your recovery too, right?
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Sometimes rest isn't always just like going to sleep, right?
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Sometimes it's just like what else can I be doing?
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Feeding your soul.
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Yeah.
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That that really fulfills me.
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Or like we had that episode about like a hobby.
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And like my hobby right now is like doing pottery.
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Like, I love doing that.
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I don't have to think about being perfect for anybody or anything or getting everything right.
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I can't it's me and this clay, and I'm taking my time.
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And if I make something great, if I don't, the clay folds back on itself and I start from the beginning, you know?
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Right.
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And speaking of replenishing our souls and doing what we feel like doing, you have to go to your Spanish class right now.
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I love this for you.
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I do, I do.
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For new goals, new goals, new dreams, new expansion, more onwardness.
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It's it it it feels like rest, but it feels like um productive rest.
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Hmm.
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I love that, and I love you and Ty.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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Salicia.
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I love you.
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Until next time.
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Until next time.
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We'll see you guys next week on the Silicia Show.
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Bye.
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Yeah, and it's it is so easy to do.
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And as artists, we're always kind of involved in something creatively that we want to be a part of.
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And so, yeah, it's easy to just be so enthralled in what you're doing that that you ignore the things that you need to nourish your body.
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What does it really look like to build your dream life while you're living it?
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One day I'm on stage singing with Hugh Jackman, 36 weeks pregnant, just trying not to give birth in Oklahoma.
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And the next, I'm having real conversations about love, loss, career pivots, and becoming someone I didn't even know I could be.
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Because this show isn't just about Broadway, it's about the moments that change you, the risks you take, the dreams you almost talk yourself out of, the strength you don't realize you have until life asks you to use it.
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If you've ever felt like you're in between chapters or stepping into something new, you're not alone.
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You're just getting started.
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This is the Salicia Show, where Broadway meets culture and your real life becomes the main event.
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Hello and welcome or welcome back to another episode of The Salicia Show.
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Woo! Woo! I'm your host, Salicia Thomas, and I'm online with Tinya Brandon right now, who sings the vocals in this in the theme song, y'all.
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I'm in the back like this.
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Yay! Be in the hype menu.
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Oh my gosh.
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I love it.
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Like you wrote that.
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You're the bomb tie.
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You're just a woman of many talents.
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I love you, and I'm so glad we did this together.
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You were like, I want my show to be big.
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I was like, well, they need a big theme song.
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Let's hit it.
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Theme song.
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And you're like, how about this?
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I'm like, oh, I like that.
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Broadway news.
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That's you want to know.
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Come on.
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All right.
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So you don't even know what we're talking about today.
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Let me tell you what we're talking about today.
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I don't.
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You said it was going to be a surprise, and I'm like, ooh, surprise, surprise.
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I mean, it won't be that surprise.
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Listen, we're like free balling it today.
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I know you don't like to free ball it, but I do.
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And so we're you gave me a list of subjects I could choose from, and so I'm choosing one, even though we don't have a roadmap.
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Listen, and this is how we find balance in our relationship.
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Sometimes we do it out, sometimes we do what you want, and it all works out.
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And it all works out.
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And it's gonna be short and sweet.
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It's gonna be short and sweet because you have a Spanish class.
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Let's I do.
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Let's freaking go.
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Yes, I've been taking Spanish twice a week.
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I am looking to get really, really good.
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I want to audition for shows in Argentina.
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That's my goal.
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That's my goal this year.
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Yeah.
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That's so freaking cool.
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Thanks.
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Thanks.
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I've now said that on the record, so now the whole world can keep me, hold me accountable.
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Great.
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Great.
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I want to see you on stage speaking another language or on TV.
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Buenos Aires, here I come.
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Buenos Aires.
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Okay.
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Sorry.
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Okay, today I want to talk about resting and recharging.
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Okay?
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Let's see here.
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We have giving yourself permission.
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Oh, giving yourself permission to stop tackling the culture of overworking, what it means to intentionally rest instead of accidentally collapsing.
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First of all, let me ask you this.
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Have you ever accidentally collapsed?
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Yeah.
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What was that?
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It was not pretty.
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I actually, and it wasn't like, okay.
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Let me preface this by saying I didn't like pass out, but I was definitely I definitely needed to like just hold off.
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You know, I was, I was, I was doing a lot at once.
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And it was actually while I was in college.
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So I did a, and I'm gonna tell this story so fast.
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I did a super senior semester, a super senior semester, my very last year of college.
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My dad was like, I got you with college, I will help you pay for the first four years, but any time that you need after that, that is on you.
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And I was like, cool.
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And so I needed one more semester to complete everything that I wanted to do before I graduated.
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And in order to help me pay for that semester of college, I did pageantry.
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That is how that was my entrance into pageantry.
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I was like, I don't know.
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Yes.
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So my dance teacher was like, I can get you a wardrobe, we're gonna do this, you're gonna look great, you're gonna get up there, you're gonna win this money, and you're gonna pay for school.
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And I was like, Beth, sounds good, fantastic.
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Turns out, pageantry, there's uh there's a lot of image that goes along with being a part of pageants, and I knew that.
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However, I am also a you know petite and slightly curvaceous black girl, and I lost a significant amount of weight, and I was not eating a lot, and I was a theater major and a dance minor, and I was working, I was going back back and forth from school and home to work and teach dance classes, and I was doing appearances and competing in the pageant so that I could fulfill all of my duties before Miss North Carolina, and that wore me out, and that wore me completely out.
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I was very teeny tiny, and I was extremely exhausted, and toward the end of my super senior semester, I could not do anything.
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Oh my god, and so I was kind of forced to just sit down.
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I couldn't go to class, I was just kind of forced to go home and be with my mom for a little bit, and she was like, listen, eat and rest, and and we will figure out what's next.
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And and that's you know, you know, the long and short of kind of what happened.
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And so now I take I take it very seriously when I decide, okay, I'm gonna be working, and I'm gonna be working for this long, and when I absolutely cannot do it anymore, then I'm gonna take a break.
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My my my husband helps me with that a lot too.
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Um, it's like, all right, have have you eaten today?
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You know, yeah, especially on busy days, it's easy to forget.
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I don't usually I love to eat, I've always loved to eat my whole life, but like when I am like on a crazy schedule, that's the only time I would forget to eat.
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Yeah, and it's it is so easy to do.
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And as artists, we're always kind of kind of involved in something creatively that we want to be a part of.
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And so yeah, it's easy to just be so enthralled in what you're doing that that you ignore the things that you need to nourish your body.
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And that's why rest is so important, I think.
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I think if you don't choose rest, God will be like, let me bake it into your schedule.
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100%, 100%.
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Something breaks down so that you have to sit your butt down.
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That's right.
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That's right, that's right.
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And I know we could do a whole episode another time about like body image and how you perceive yourself and what what you want to be putting forward or what you expect the industry expects of you.
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That's a whole nother conversation that we could go into for sure.
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Absolutely.
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That is another episode, not for another episode for another day that I would like to do the next time we record, actually.
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Sure, yeah.
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What do you think about Ress?
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Have you have you unintentionally collapsed at a time?
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Yes, but in a metaphorical sense.
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So I will say Britney Spears musical after that show closed.
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I was passing on every audition.
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My agents were getting me good stuff, good stuff.
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And I was like, pass, pass, pass.
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And then it got to the point where I was like, Lord God, don't let these agents drop me.
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Because I love me some Daniel Hoff agency.
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Dustin Flores is the bomb.
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Love him.
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I'm like, Lord, don't let them drop me because I keep saying no to all of these opportunities.
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And so I had a meeting.
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I called my two agents, Mark, uh, Mark and Dustin, for a meeting, and we met in person.
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And I said, I don't know if I'm broken, but I know I keep passing on all these things, and I need you to know that I appreciate these auditions that you're getting me.
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I don't know what's wrong with me.
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I don't want to go in for anything.
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And they're like, take the time you need to rest and live your life.
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They've been my agents since 2017, 2016, something like that.
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The same with how to be a whole person.
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Yeah, totally.
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Clear telling.
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Yeah, I've been with them basically my my whole career as well.
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And and I and I love them, and I love that they are so open to just being like, hey, you are a person who has a life.
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So it's okay.
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I remember going into them and telling them that I was coming here to, you know, support my husband and like the opportunity that he has with with work and everything.
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And they were like, okay, okay, life.
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Life happens, you know?
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Yeah.
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And so I always appreciate, you know, when people in the industry are like, listen, you're you're allowed to be a person too.
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You're allowed to be both a person and an artist.
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You need to be a person so that you can be a better artist.
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That's right.
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That's right.
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That's right.
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So so I feel like I did get a little bit broken in, and it forced me to take a break.
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Run away with us.
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Yep.
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And in that I'm finding other avenues that I love of what I can do when I'm not on stage.
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I love that.
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I love that.
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What have you found that you can do not while you're not on stage?
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Honestly, what we're doing right now.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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This is so fun for me.
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And I've been doing this, but I was doing it like at a different everything.
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Like it's uh at a higher frequency now, and I can feel that.
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Right, right.
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Yeah.
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Like, let's lean into that.
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What happens?
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I keep putting my energy into everybody else's projects.
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What happens if I put my energy into what I actually want?
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That's right.
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100%.
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100%.
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And that could be like a part of like uh your recovery too, right?
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Sometimes rest isn't always just like going to sleep, right?
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Sometimes it's just like what else can I be doing?
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Feeding your soul.
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Yeah.
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That that really fulfills me.
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Or like we had that episode about like a hobby.
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And like my hobby right now is like doing pottery.
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Like, I love doing that.
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I don't have to think about being perfect for anybody or anything or getting everything right.
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I can't it's me and this clay, and I'm taking my time.
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And if I make something great, if I don't, the clay folds back on itself and I start from the beginning, you know?
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Right.
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And speaking of replenishing our souls and doing what we feel like doing, you have to go to your Spanish class right now.
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I love this for you.
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I do, I do.
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For new goals, new goals, new dreams, new expansion, more onwardness.
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It's it it it feels like rest, but it feels like um productive rest.
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Hmm.
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I love that, and I love you and Ty.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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Salicia.
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I love you.
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Until next time.
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Until next time.
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We'll see you guys next week on the Silicia Show.
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Bye.
