Timeline "Kill Switch" and other Astrological chaos

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What's bubbling? Magical people.
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Welcome back to the Witching Hour with Miss Merlin, where
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we like to talk about all things witchy and magical.
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I'm your host, Kimmy aka Miss Merlin. Hi, priestess, medicine woman,
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shamanic witch, psychic medium and.
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Magical person.
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I'm a little off my game because guys, as you know,
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it's been a while, right, So I'm gonna explain why
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that is.
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And Mel is here today.
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Hi, Mel, Hi magical Kimmylin. Yes, hello, it's been quite
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a while, but you know, sometimes it's necessary to have
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a little bit of a break.
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Oh man.
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Yeah, So I'm not even sure what's going on here.
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And I mean, like just with the podcast, I I
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was going through such burnout, like I was making myself
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physically sick.
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It was it was not a good situation at all.
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As you know, leading up to it, I kept losing
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my voice and it's like, why is this happening. I'm
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not sick, you know, It's just it wasn't making any sense,
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and now it's kind of making sense. I was very
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very burnt out, like past the point of burnout, and yeah,
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I just I couldn't do it. I woke up the
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one Saturday, I had everything ready to go. I yes,
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I was still struggling with my voice, but I just
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I couldn't do it. I couldn't even get out of
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bed that day. And just like the stress of it
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and all of that together, like it was making me
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physically sick. So I just had to I had to
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take a step back and recess and relax.
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And I think it was also like I felt.
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So obligated to be here, you know, because I didn't
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want to let anybody down. And I still don't because
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I love it. I love, you know, teaching and sharing
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what I know. But I think like there was just
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there was so much pressure in that, you know, and
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it just it just got to me, I think, and
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it was just too much and I just had to
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I had to take a sabbatical. And I took a
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sabbatical from everything. Like I was not on any social
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media at all. I wasn't doing any lives on TikTok.
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Yeah.
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I just needed to just sit down and shut up
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for a little while.
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Yeah. Listen, it happens to the best of us. And
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you always put one hundred and fifty percent of yourself
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and your heart and your energy into all of your endeavors,
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whether it's podcasting, social media lives, or teaching, whatever you do.
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You know, you put so much heart and effort into it,
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and when that happens sometimes, especially now with the way
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that the planets have been going.
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Oh my gosh. Yeah, that doesn't know.
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Astrology kind of confirms everything that you're saying. I think
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we all have been collectively burned out, yeah speak and
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just uh not knowing which end is up at times,
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and like that's on and off all this year for
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me as well. So totally understand it. But we are
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so happy that you're back.
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Oh I know, I am, thank you, thank you.
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I don't know what's going to be happening with the
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podcast going forward, Like I want to continue to do
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it because I love it, but I'm just not sure
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what direction I'm going to take it, you know, like
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what what we're going to be doing with topics wise
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things like that. As I've been mentioning before, I want
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to get video going on this for like the YouTube platform,
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and I think like Spotify has a video option and
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things like that.
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Amazon, I think, so I want to I want.
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To do that, get more connected, you know, with the audience,
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I want to know what you guys want to like,
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what do you want to know about?
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So email me?
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All the links will be in my link tree in
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the description portion of this video. And uh yeah, So
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speaking of the astrology that's been crazy, let's.
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Talk about that, shall we.
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So there's been a ton of planets in retrograde okay,
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like a ton and and and they're putting us through it. Man,
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But this is a wrap up like this is a
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snake year, right, this is all about that dying. It
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almost feels like dying over and over and over again.
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Like melst me this wonderful post that I did pass
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on to a couple of clients too, because that Medusa
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energy has been coming through very strongly, so really healing
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and empowering, the feminine energy, healing from trauma, healing from
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feeling like we've been controlled in some way. You know
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when people head control over our person or our bodies
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or you know, that's the energy Medusa helps you with.
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She's so misunderstood. I love her so much. She's such
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a powerful and loving and nurturing goddess when she's there
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to help you with the trauma. So if you're seeing
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a lot of snakes as a synchronicity. Maybe her energy
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is reaching out to you, so invite her in. But yeah,
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the shedding of the skin, the feeling like we're dying
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over and over and over again. Yeah, but again that
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has to all to do with the planets that are
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actually in retrograde right now.
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So we have Mercury. Of course, Saturn was in retrograde.
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It just went direct on the fifteenth, so we're still
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kind of just coming out of the post shadow period
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of that, and that was that's been pretty rough in itself. Yeah,
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asking us to reassess boundaries, our responsibilities, making sure our
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long term goals and commitment line up and align with
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what we actually want to do and what our purpose is.
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And a lot of internal tests in this area too.
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So yeah, I'm sorry I cut you off there. What
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did you want to say?
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Huhy, No, that's okay, just talking about the retrograde planets.
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All the outer planets have been in retrograde, with the
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exception of Ludo wasn't retrograde, but that isn't anymore. But
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all of the major outer planets have been in retrograde.
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So Jupiter and Saddern and Urinous and Neptune are all
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in retrograde or about to be or is coming out
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of ventrigade. So that's why. And together now with Mercury
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and retrograde in the sign of Scorpio, and we all
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know what happens when planets are in Scorpio and deep
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dive time. Yeah, it's that that constant death and rebirth
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because that's the Scorpio ways in deep investigation and death
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and rebirth. So I personally speaking, have been shedding a
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lot of ideas and mindset, negative mindsets and things that
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I didn't even know I was subconsciously holding on to
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that have been they've been shown up like mother and
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all kinds of Yeah, just feminine wounding in general has
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been really really to the point where it's almost unbearable sometimes.
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And the water trying that we have currently and really
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experienced during the new Moon and Scorpio.
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That's just happened the other day, guys.
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Yeah, yeah, you know, Mercury is a Scorpio and it's retrograde,
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and then we had cancer in Jupiter, and then we
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have Pisces in Neptune and Saturn boat So when you
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have all of that water energy, it's a deep dive
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into your emotion.
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Yeah.
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So this new moon that just occurred on the twenty
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half of this but really really set us up to
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understand what our conscious and subconscious minds are still holding
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onto and what we really need to let go of
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before twenty.
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Six Yeah, yeah, yeah, the Okay, so I wrote down
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the dates here. So mercury retrograde's over on the twenty ninth, Okay,
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so expect that.
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Yeah right, So.
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Expect the normal things you usually expect with mercury retrograde patterns,
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resurfacing people, places, things coming back, you know, for closing
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out to see did you get the lesson?
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You know this and that?
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Are you learning a new way of communicating all of
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these things? So, again, it's over November twenty ninth, but
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there will be a post shadow period after that for
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about two two and a half weeks. Jupiter not over
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until March tenth. Yeah, so Jupiter is forcing us to
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go through some personal growth right now, looking at our
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long term goals, our philosophy and beliefs. Like mel was
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saying she had some of that stuff coming up, I'm
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going to talk about some of that ancestral in a
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little bit too. It's encouraging us to have a period
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of reflection to ensure that our ambitions and expansion are
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truly aligned. And then we have Urinus, of course, and
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Urinus comes out of retrograde February fourth, So we're closing out.
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We're getting to the end of this one, thankfully.
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And this one is all about freedom, right, This one
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is giving us freedom. It's forcing internal and I believe
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external revolution. So where do we need liberation? It's forcing
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us to be in our authenticity. Changes for your life
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and how do you express your individuality? And we have Neptune,
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of course, Neptune, we're almost done, it's ending December tenth.
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And Neptune prompts inward examination of illusions, fantasies, escapism, right,
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that where we spiritually bypassing things, difference between spiritual truth
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and self deception. So it's teaching us grounding as well,
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grounding our dreams into reality that are lined, setting healthy
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boundaries as well. It was eleven eleven on the recording.
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Just my eyes just went up to that, so that's interesting. Yeah,
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And then we of course had Saturn that we've talked about,
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so we're just kind of in the post shadow of
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Saturn and that has ended that ended actually on I
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think November sixteenth or something like that. Yeah, So reassessing boundaries, responsibilities,
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the commitment again to the long term goals. So lots
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of stuff, lots of forced things going on right now.
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Like the planets don't ask permission.
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They're like hey, you know, they're not like, hey, do
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you want to maybe look at this? They're like, no, bitch.
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Definitely, we are forced to see these things that we
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need to reassess and do something about now, being that
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it's almost the end of twenty twenty five, so the
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snake year is almost over, and then we go into
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twenty twenty six with the beginning of the Year of
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the Horse according to the Chinese astrology, and that's movement.
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Forward exactly fastick.
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And you know, there's no time to play games, snake.
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The snake year is about shedding what no longer serves us,
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But the Year of the Horse is about taking what
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we need and what we want and moving forward fast.
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And that is why I think it's been so rough,
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right because we have to have one, two, three, four
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I just saw on the timer, you know, for the
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end of this year especially, is because we have to
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wrap up all this stuff and get it out of
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the way so we can shoot.
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Forward with the year of the Horse.
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So I did notice eleven eleven, and then I looked
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at my notes and I wrote down here eleven eleven
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solar flare. So we did have that huge solar flare too, right,
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that was causing stuff. The human resonance has been going crazy.
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Recently.
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We also had what we in the spiritual community are
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calling the kill switch, which happened October thirtieth.
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Yeah, so the kill switch to this timeline, you know.
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Yeah, so a lot more people are starting to wake
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up and yeah, a lot of people are just starting
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to see through illusions and see things. You know, you
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can't unsee certain things anymore. But yeah, and this timeline
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was meant to be hard, So as much as it sucks,
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it was meant to be hard, right, so we could
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get rid of all the fuckery.
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Yeah, that's the only word I can think of, right.
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Yeah, Yeah, it's true. It's I think for a long
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time we've got little bits and pieces of things that
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maybe we chose not to look at all the red flags,
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all of the blocks and all the resistance, and so
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now it's the time, whether we like it or not,
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to face our shadows and do something about it.
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No choice, right now, integrate it. You don't have to
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get rid of it. We're never ever going to get
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rid of our shadows. That's part of who you are.
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It's part of what makes you who you are, right,
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It's integrating it is accepting that about yourself, you know,
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and loving it too. There's been this whole Group seven
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thing too, I've been seeing on TikTok. I think that's
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part of the October thirtieth people who kind of came online.
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I just want to say, we don't group guys.
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We are all a part of the whole.
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Exactly.
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Yeah.
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But actually the whole Group seventh thing was started by
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an artist. I think her name is Sophie James. I
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might have that wrong, so don't quote me on that.
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But it's brilliant actually marketing because it's made its way
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around the algorithm.
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But that's all it is.
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There's nothing actually to it. But yeah, and I just
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think it's interesting to you guys. And I mentioned that
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the astrology right now it lines right up and is
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the same as it was around the French Revolution. And
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what did we just see happen in the United States
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around Halloween? Right, there was no access to snap benefits,
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so people were hungry. While the president threw a great
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Gatsby Marie Antoinette party let him.
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Take Yeah, so decided to make that time a good
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time too. Something in the White up construction him, Yeah,
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what are you kidding me?
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Yeah?
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Yeah, And I'm just I'm I can't even my gas
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are flabbered mil when it comes to this whole situation,
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because I can't and I can't. I can't deal with
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how some things are getting so normalized.
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It's there.
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They're not like that reporter that he called a piggy
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the other quiet piggy.
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I'd have broken that motherfucker's nose right now. Say that
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to me.
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I dare you, oh how she had the self control
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not to slap that man in the face.
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M I know, Yeah. It's disgusting, It's really disgusting. And
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it's just he is a topic I don't even want
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to know.
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He's the most file creature, most file creature on the planet.
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But I will say I do think it's somewhat hilarious
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that he was blaring music the other day in the
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White House like a teenage girl, and the song of
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choice was don't let the.
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Sun Go Down on Me by Elton John.
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Priceless when I'm pretty sure that that's the diagnosis he
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just got because he had an ri he's sundowning. Yeah,
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we know it. Everybody knows that. I've been saying it
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for months.
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Full disclosure.
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Another reason why I was taking some time off is
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because I do have some extremely maga relatives, hey, which
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I don't understand because they grew up and were educated
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in Canada.
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It makes no sense to me.
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But as you guys know, I'm very vocal on this
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channel about my feelings and I bring out the truth
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and I tell you what I'm psychically getting about what's
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going to happen and how this things are playing out
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on the world stage. But I did get a message
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from my cousin warning me that my name had popped
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up in a very very deep right group, and as
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we know, that can be quite dangerous. So that was
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another reason why I took a little bit of a
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step back. So, yeah, that's that's that's not a cool
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thing to happen. And I did notice that too a
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couple times on TikTok. I should have called the woman out.
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You know how you can reply to a comment. I
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should have done that so people would know who she was,
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but I just blocked her and moved on. But like,
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I'm getting some of these trolls coming in that are
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saying ghastly horrible things to me when I'm going on live.
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Like this woman said to me that I was unrapable.
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That's a comment that a woman said to me online
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on TikTok.
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Isn't that crazy? Another woman said that to me.
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That's disgusting, disgusting.
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It is, it is.
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But I just I'm you know, I'm always honest with
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you guys, So I'm gonna tell you the truth.
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You know.
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I was burnt out from a lot of that too.
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That's a little bit scary. And I got that message
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from my cousin. I didn't even talk about it until
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right now.
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Yeah, yeah, I didn't know.
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Nope, Nope, I didn't tell anybody. So but that's that's
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the thing. That's that's what that side wants to do
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is intimidate and scare and cause fear and right.
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Yeah, but yeah, we're.
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Seeing all those things. Everything is coming to light. You
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can't unsee certain things, and we are starting to see
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the fall of certain regimes in re time. And the
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way it plays out is going to be really really
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interesting because we are closing out collectively a lot of
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ancestral cycles right now, a lot.
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Mainly one of them patriarchy.
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We were talking about that a bit before, with the
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meduced energy, right reclaiming our power and not letting men
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tell us what to do, you know, control us in
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any way and be.
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Able to hurt us and abuse us.
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And the way that it has been you know, since
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the beginning of time, since well since colonization and Christianity
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is what happened, because before that it was the worship
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of the Goddess as a life maker, as it should be, right, Yeah,
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but yeah, but just a lot of cycles. I'm seeing
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a lot of these collectively with some of my clients
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as well, with the feminine stuff being healed, seeing a
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lot of like birth trauma and things like that coming up.
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Things in the womb space, the womb area, your sacral
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area of your body, warm space, bladder, all of the
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you know, all of those organs in that area, all
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of this stuff. But traumas like that aren't even ours,
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you know, that go back and are passed down through
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the bloodline, through the placenta.
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We carry those right, So we're.
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Closing those out, and we're closing out a big cycle
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of feminine dealing with toxicity, you know, like women who
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stayed in marriages because they.
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Couldn't afford to.
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Go another way, or stayed in you know, like bad
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situations because of that. H this is all ending, you know,
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we're all we're taking our power back and it's really beautiful.
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I'm like really loving the energy of it, for sure.
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Yeah, No, definitely, definitely we are. We are finally waking
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up and rising right and just understanding that we need
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to be confident and who we are and what our
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birthright is. The birth right is to be powerful.
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Right, Yeah, and not to settle. We don't need to.
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Settle exactly exactly, just to go for it, go for
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it whatever it is that we want and what we desire,
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and and just doing what it takes to do it
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and not let anyone stop anyone.
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Or shake your shake your resolve.
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Right, shake your confidence, shake your self esteem. And that's
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the thing, you know, when we work on ourselves and
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our self worth, yea, then we can do anything.
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It's true, because it doesn't matter what anybody says, it's
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not going to shake it right, You're still going to
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be directed the way you're directed. And that's that is
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one thing I'm seeing with that rise of that feminine energy.
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You know a lot of men are panicking and sorry
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about your luck, but women are not settling for nonsense anymore.
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Like that whole like, what do you bring to the table.
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You're asking a confident woman who is you know, living
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on her own, taking care of her business, doing what
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she needs to do, and you're living in your mom's
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basement with no job and playing video games all day?
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What do you bring to the table. No, that's not
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flying anymore.
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And like the oh, that whole energy is so gross.
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That and the whole like dating app and stuff energy too.
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It's so yucky, it really is.
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Yeah, it's predatory. Yeah I don't like it, but yeah,
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people are waking up to it. You know what else
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I'm seeing a lot of people waking up to other
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people projecting you know, right, we're talking about the confidence. Right,
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So when you do your healing and you have that
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confidence and stuff too, you understand when this is not personal,
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this person is projecting their own nonsense onto me.
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Right exactly. You know, you know, and you know if
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you have established discernment and you have established strong boundaries,
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then you know exactly what's your stuff and what is
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it and so other people's shit won't affect you.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, well you stand in your power and nothing can
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affect you.
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Yeah, and like do better, people like that shit doesn't
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fly anymore.
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I was that's how I was raised or what? No,
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unlearned that shit? You're an adult, Yeah, it's true.
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Excuses to me, it's just excuse me. It is like,
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you know what, you don't have to repeat the cycle.
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You don't have to repeat the pattern of Okay, but
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my parents raised me that way. It doesn't matter. But
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you know, if you know that you don't want to
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continue this cycle, then you have a responsibility to.
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Do to stop it.
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And that's I think that's where we are right now,
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at a big right, at a big point collectively, is
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our people making the decision to you know, take responsibility
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for themselves right and unlearned that shit and move forward
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or are we going to stay in the same stupid patterns? Right? Right?
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It's about taking accountability, and I think that this year
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is a big year for taking accountability. Yes, once we
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have awareness about our our wounds and about our traumas,
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then we have a responsibility to do so thing about it. Absolutely,
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not just not just saying, oh, well, you know what,
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I'm this way because of this trauma or that or
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that situation. Okay, so now you understand the root cause, yeah,
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what are you doing about it? Right?
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Yeah, you can't use that as an excuse. Yeah, I Oh,
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it drives me crazy. You know what drives me the
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most crazy. I hate when people fucking lie to me. Like,
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first of all, I take it as the hugest insult
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because I'm a human lie detector.
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I know you're lying to me.
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Like, just because I'm not calling you out on it
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in the moment is because I don't want to put
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the energy into the argument. But I am making a
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mental note of it. Believe me, I saw it, and
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I feel like it's an insult to my intelligence When
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people do that. It's like you really think that I
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am that stupid that I am not going to see
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through this right exactly. First of all, I'm intelligent. Secondly,
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I'm gifted. Like I've literally told you that these things,
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you know, these things, and the fact that you're still trying.
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Oh, it makes me so angry.
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Yeah, I know it's true. I'm the same. I mean,
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I can tell when somebody's lying to me. It's like, oh,
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they just telling stories. Yeah, I'm just kind of look
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at somebody like really, or if I'm on the phone
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with them, I'm like I make all types of faces
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of them.
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Oh I are you?
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Yeah?
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Yeah yeah. Sometimes my face gives me away too.
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It gives me away. It's it's terrible. Yeah, what what
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I don't say, my face will say for me.
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Sometimes I try not to, though, because I just like
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to see how far someone's gonna go. Right, I'm just
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gonna note this stuff until like you won't see me
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anymore and you'll be sitting there wondering why.
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Right, Yeah, yeah, for sure, I'll detach immediately exactly that
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you're giving me a bullshit story. It's like, okay, you
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can tell someone else's because I don't believe you. Yeah,
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and I know you're lying.
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Yeah.
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And the gaslighting too, Like I have a master's degree
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in that.
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Okay, that was. So many narcissists in my life.
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Don't even try, right, Yeah, it just drives me crazy.
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Yeah. I think this has been the year of calling
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people out. Yeah, I've been calling people out this year especially.
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I mean in the past couple of years, I've been
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doing it more of it versus just letting people think
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that they're getting away with stuff. But this year I've
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actually been really just calling. Like I had to tell
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my mom and I felt sad about doing that because
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she she does have dementia, but she has this way
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of pushing my buttons. And again the chiron who Yeah,
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feeling unworthy or things like that originated with with that relationship.
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And I know this. So you know sometimes someone even
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though you know they can't help themselves to a degree,
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it's if you're warning them not to push your boundary
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and they do it anyway. M hm. There's only so
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much patience a person has explode.
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You only have like that tank has a capacity, right,
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it's not unlimited. We can't expect ourselves to have unlimited empathy, patients,
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all of those things.
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Like we're humans, right, Yeah, exactly.
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Yeah, I'm seeing that pattern though, like collectively you know
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that you're talking about and I was, I was going
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back a little through my ancestry. I just want to
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talk about this for a minute because I have some
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things I want to I want to write some wrongs,
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so as a lot of you know, I've told you
488
00:30:05.039 --> 00:30:09.519
that the show Vikings that's about my family, and a
489
00:30:09.599 --> 00:30:13.319
lot of people's first reaction to that is no, it, okay, whatever,
490
00:30:13.400 --> 00:30:16.799
I don't even care. I have nothing to prove to anybody.
491
00:30:17.440 --> 00:30:19.720
But how did this all come about? People have asked
492
00:30:19.759 --> 00:30:21.759
me that how did I figure this out? So the
493
00:30:21.799 --> 00:30:25.480
most interesting part is that show came out and I
494
00:30:25.640 --> 00:30:28.759
was so drawn to it, so drawn to it. I
495
00:30:28.799 --> 00:30:32.559
was like, why because like the culture and that I love,
496
00:30:33.000 --> 00:30:37.960
I love, but there's violence, you know, I can't.
497
00:30:39.000 --> 00:30:39.720
I can't.
498
00:30:39.960 --> 00:30:43.599
It's there's a lot of very violent stuff on there
499
00:30:43.759 --> 00:30:49.759
right right, and that's really hard for me to watch anyways,
500
00:30:50.200 --> 00:30:52.240
and I can't fast forward that stuff because I need
501
00:30:52.279 --> 00:30:54.880
to know what happens. So I was like, why are
502
00:30:54.880 --> 00:30:56.680
we so drawn to this? But anyways, I thought, well,
503
00:30:56.720 --> 00:30:59.079
maybe it's just the culture, right, So I had already
504
00:30:59.079 --> 00:31:02.039
been watching it for a bit and then I was like,
505
00:31:02.279 --> 00:31:03.079
you know what, I'm.
506
00:31:02.880 --> 00:31:04.000
Just going to do this for fun.
507
00:31:04.160 --> 00:31:07.119
And I put my family tree what I knew into
508
00:31:07.240 --> 00:31:12.079
ancestry dot com and then I got a message from
509
00:31:12.720 --> 00:31:16.400
one of the directors on there, and they asked me
510
00:31:16.440 --> 00:31:19.119
if i'd be willing to do my DNA because there
511
00:31:19.160 --> 00:31:21.920
was someone who thought that they might be related to
512
00:31:22.640 --> 00:31:27.920
me and I. At the time, money was a little tight,
513
00:31:28.640 --> 00:31:31.960
so I said like, I really can't do that right now,
514
00:31:32.480 --> 00:31:33.960
and they said, well, we'll pay for it.
515
00:31:34.799 --> 00:31:37.640
I was like, oh, okay.
516
00:31:37.759 --> 00:31:42.720
So I did it, and we found out my mom
517
00:31:42.839 --> 00:31:47.559
has a brother that they never knew about, and so
518
00:31:47.680 --> 00:31:52.160
we were able to reunite that part of the family
519
00:31:53.119 --> 00:31:57.279
with my family, which was really cool. But going back,
520
00:31:57.440 --> 00:32:01.400
like learning the genealogy and going back and figuring it
521
00:32:01.480 --> 00:32:05.559
out and just connecting with other people, Like once you
522
00:32:05.599 --> 00:32:08.480
connect the dots and you do your DNA, it's like
523
00:32:09.799 --> 00:32:15.160
all these connections are just made completely right. So then
524
00:32:15.200 --> 00:32:17.160
you go back and go back and go back. And
525
00:32:17.200 --> 00:32:19.960
I was actually working with one of the directors there
526
00:32:20.359 --> 00:32:23.559
because I am a part of a very interesting bloodline,
527
00:32:23.599 --> 00:32:27.000
so we wanted to figure it out. And it actually
528
00:32:27.279 --> 00:32:32.319
came about that I am part of the Norse Gaelic
529
00:32:33.319 --> 00:32:41.400
Emar dynasty, so that's Regnar of course, and then I
530
00:32:41.680 --> 00:32:45.759
thought it was Uba, one of his other sons, that
531
00:32:45.960 --> 00:32:47.759
I went Regnar Uba.
532
00:32:47.559 --> 00:32:48.119
But it's not.
533
00:32:48.480 --> 00:32:54.640
I'm actually from Ivar. I've aught the Boneless in the
534
00:32:54.759 --> 00:32:59.480
Viking show. They they show him as kind of being impotent.
535
00:32:59.680 --> 00:33:00.839
Well he wasn't.
536
00:33:03.680 --> 00:33:04.559
Apparently not.
537
00:33:04.839 --> 00:33:07.359
No, So I go from.
538
00:33:07.240 --> 00:33:14.160
Ragnar to Ivar the e Imar dynasty, and then Ivar's
539
00:33:14.200 --> 00:33:22.400
son Citriac Citriach Kayak, who actually then had another child.
540
00:33:23.160 --> 00:33:27.039
They're the am Lab Kiran dynasty, which was the king
541
00:33:27.079 --> 00:33:28.160
of Dublin in York.
542
00:33:29.640 --> 00:33:31.480
And then that.
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00:33:31.359 --> 00:33:35.359
Goes to Citric Silkenbeard, who was the king of Dublin
544
00:33:35.480 --> 00:33:39.279
in nine eighty nine to ten thirty six. He had
545
00:33:39.759 --> 00:33:44.640
a daughter named Ranghild, who had a son named Sinan,
546
00:33:45.359 --> 00:33:51.759
and then Sinan had a daughter very late in his life.
547
00:33:52.519 --> 00:33:56.960
So she's just put as Firch Sinan, which means daughter
548
00:33:57.000 --> 00:34:04.000
whose name was never recorded. Wow, So that's that's where
549
00:34:04.039 --> 00:34:11.440
the line goes. Yes, yes, So if you guys have
550
00:34:11.480 --> 00:34:14.000
seen the show, I just want to write some wrongs here.
551
00:34:14.079 --> 00:34:15.679
I'm just going to take a minute to do that
552
00:34:15.760 --> 00:34:22.039
if you don't mind. So Ivar the way that he
553
00:34:22.280 --> 00:34:24.440
died on the show not accurate.
554
00:34:26.079 --> 00:34:29.039
Yeah, Ivar died in eight seventy to eight.
555
00:34:28.960 --> 00:34:32.599
Seventy three a d There's conflicting sources on that, but
556
00:34:32.760 --> 00:34:35.719
he died of the crippling disease that he had. It
557
00:34:35.840 --> 00:34:40.480
wasn't from battle the battle that we saw. H Uba
558
00:34:41.159 --> 00:34:44.440
was killed in England in a battle. He never did
559
00:34:44.519 --> 00:34:49.800
make it to the Americas. That part was, you know,
560
00:34:49.920 --> 00:34:56.679
for dramatic purposes. Segret snake in the eye in the show,
561
00:34:57.239 --> 00:34:59.440
Ivar got mad and threw an axe at him and
562
00:34:59.519 --> 00:34:59.920
killed him.
563
00:35:00.079 --> 00:35:01.320
That didn't. That didn't happen.
564
00:35:04.079 --> 00:35:08.119
Seagard died in eighty seven eighty, which was like ten
565
00:35:08.199 --> 00:35:11.119
or fifteen years after Ivar, and his cause of death
566
00:35:11.760 --> 00:35:14.119
is strongly suspected to just be that he died of
567
00:35:14.159 --> 00:35:19.280
old age. Bijorn had a very epic Valhallo worthy death
568
00:35:19.360 --> 00:35:21.960
on the show. I'm sorry to say it didn't happen
569
00:35:22.000 --> 00:35:26.159
that way. He lived a very fruitful life well into
570
00:35:26.159 --> 00:35:31.599
his seventies. And FITZI oh fits suck. They did fit
571
00:35:32.039 --> 00:35:37.079
so dirty. This was the least accurate one. They made
572
00:35:37.119 --> 00:35:41.599
him a drunk in the show basically and an addict,
573
00:35:43.400 --> 00:35:48.800
and he wasn't that. What was true was he was
574
00:35:48.880 --> 00:35:53.239
part of the Great Heathen Army who avenged Streigner after
575
00:35:53.280 --> 00:35:56.320
his death, and then he did go with Ivar with
576
00:35:56.440 --> 00:35:59.920
the Ruf's army, and he was a very fearsome warrior
577
00:35:59.920 --> 00:36:03.199
that he was taken prisoner in a battle, and they
578
00:36:03.239 --> 00:36:06.039
gave him a choice of how he would like to die,
579
00:36:06.480 --> 00:36:09.760
and he chose to be burned alive a top amount
580
00:36:09.920 --> 00:36:14.519
of bones and bodies. So that was like an epic
581
00:36:15.519 --> 00:36:19.119
death in Viking lore in history. So the show really
582
00:36:19.159 --> 00:36:22.840
did him dirty on that. Why they didn't follow that storyline,
583
00:36:22.880 --> 00:36:27.079
I don't understand. But yeah, I just wanted to write
584
00:36:27.079 --> 00:36:32.119
those wrongs. But I wanted to talk about a little
585
00:36:32.159 --> 00:36:38.320
bit how that's the ancestry the cycle, right, because in
586
00:36:38.400 --> 00:36:43.320
the show, when Ragnard started to travel to different places,
587
00:36:44.000 --> 00:36:47.679
that was at the time where Christianity was starting to
588
00:36:48.920 --> 00:36:52.320
make its conquered around. So when they did travel to
589
00:36:52.360 --> 00:36:57.039
England and Ragnar was good friends with the king, they
590
00:36:57.159 --> 00:36:59.920
kind of shared stories, they shared their beliefs, and.
591
00:37:01.519 --> 00:37:07.880
He had that kind of what's the word I'm looking for? Oh, sorry, guys,
592
00:37:09.280 --> 00:37:11.360
I'm trying to pull the word out of my brainium
593
00:37:11.400 --> 00:37:16.039
right now. My brain is not braining, like when you're
594
00:37:16.079 --> 00:37:19.800
kind of split down the middle. Huh, do you know
595
00:37:19.840 --> 00:37:20.559
what I'm talking about?
596
00:37:21.800 --> 00:37:21.840
No?
597
00:37:22.599 --> 00:37:25.880
Okay, Like with his beliefs, right, because like he had
598
00:37:25.920 --> 00:37:28.840
his his Norse beliefs, right, and then he traveled and
599
00:37:28.880 --> 00:37:35.639
then he learned all this stuff about Christianity, right, So conflict, yes, it.
600
00:37:35.559 --> 00:37:37.760
Was worn conflicted, that's the word.
601
00:37:37.840 --> 00:37:44.400
Yes, sorry, Oh my gosh, perrymenopause. Guys, it's not fun.
602
00:37:44.559 --> 00:37:47.039
You can blame it on the planets, so I can.
603
00:37:47.440 --> 00:37:49.719
Yeah, I will. I'm going to blame Perry menopause and
604
00:37:49.800 --> 00:37:50.400
the planets.
605
00:37:51.239 --> 00:37:56.599
But yeah, very conflicted about the beliefs, right, And I
606
00:37:56.679 --> 00:38:02.480
experienced that myself because I have my Norse paganism and
607
00:38:03.559 --> 00:38:09.239
also Celtic stuff goes all the way back to them, right,
608
00:38:09.320 --> 00:38:12.559
and aslog was a vulva, right, So that's where the
609
00:38:12.559 --> 00:38:15.719
witchcraft comes from. And my whole line, the feminines in
610
00:38:15.760 --> 00:38:17.679
my family have all been into it, have gifted in
611
00:38:18.280 --> 00:38:24.639
witches basically, whether they knew it or not. But yeah,
612
00:38:24.719 --> 00:38:26.480
that all comes down from that. But then from my
613
00:38:26.679 --> 00:38:30.840
father's side of the family, my dad was raised Catholic,
614
00:38:31.000 --> 00:38:36.400
so he put us in Catholic school and all that
615
00:38:36.440 --> 00:38:40.639
kind of stuff. So I had to also figure out, Okay,
616
00:38:42.719 --> 00:38:46.039
I love Odin, you know, but they're telling me over
617
00:38:46.079 --> 00:38:47.960
here that I have to love Jesus.
618
00:38:49.119 --> 00:38:54.760
And that Odin doesn't exist. So this was the conundrum, right,
619
00:38:54.800 --> 00:38:55.400
the conflict.
620
00:38:55.800 --> 00:38:58.679
So I think like with that I was closing out
621
00:38:58.760 --> 00:39:02.960
part of that cycle for my ancestry, right, and then
622
00:39:03.559 --> 00:39:06.400
I just wanted to touch on Ivar really briefly too.
623
00:39:06.639 --> 00:39:10.079
So Ivar was disabled and if you watch the show
624
00:39:11.239 --> 00:39:14.400
right now, actually put him out to die as a
625
00:39:14.400 --> 00:39:16.639
baby because it's like he can't he won't be able
626
00:39:16.679 --> 00:39:20.920
to take care of himself, you know, Aslag of course
627
00:39:20.960 --> 00:39:24.000
went and got him, brought him back and he ended
628
00:39:24.079 --> 00:39:29.880
up being like a very very respected, fearsome Viking. But
629
00:39:30.199 --> 00:39:33.440
that whole like you're disabled, you can't do it right,
630
00:39:34.159 --> 00:39:36.760
and that in it as you guys know, I'm very
631
00:39:36.760 --> 00:39:42.280
open with it, Audihd. Right, so people my whole life
632
00:39:42.440 --> 00:39:44.519
would tell me you can't do it, but no, I
633
00:39:44.559 --> 00:39:47.719
just want to do it a different way, right because
634
00:39:47.760 --> 00:39:50.840
my brain doesn't work the way that yours does, you know.
635
00:39:51.400 --> 00:39:53.679
But making me feel less then.
636
00:39:55.440 --> 00:39:58.199
And that's another big wound for me too, Like the
637
00:39:58.360 --> 00:40:02.960
second and I re energy. People don't forget that the
638
00:40:03.039 --> 00:40:06.639
second that I disclose to some people that I have
639
00:40:06.719 --> 00:40:12.400
autism or that I'm on the spectrum, immediately they think
640
00:40:13.800 --> 00:40:15.480
that they have a one up on me in some
641
00:40:15.599 --> 00:40:19.639
way or they're more intelligent than me in some way. Well, baby,
642
00:40:19.719 --> 00:40:21.960
let me tell you, I'm the kind of autism that's
643
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:25.079
the genius in the room. So you're not smarter than me,
644
00:40:27.800 --> 00:40:31.119
but it's just and they automatically go into that energy
645
00:40:32.800 --> 00:40:36.000
of a superiority, you know what I mean, Like you
646
00:40:36.039 --> 00:40:38.039
can almost feel the shift instantly.
647
00:40:38.519 --> 00:40:39.199
I hate it.
648
00:40:39.679 --> 00:40:43.760
I hate it, Like, don't underestimate me because of what
649
00:40:43.960 --> 00:40:47.760
you perceive to be a disability, because it's not. It's
650
00:40:47.800 --> 00:40:50.760
actually a superpower for me because I've learned how to
651
00:40:50.880 --> 00:40:51.239
use it.
652
00:40:53.320 --> 00:40:54.519
Like a magical power.
653
00:40:55.599 --> 00:40:58.599
Yeah, this is true. And we've had this conversation about
654
00:40:59.000 --> 00:41:04.119
how we feel about people who are special, you know,
655
00:41:04.639 --> 00:41:11.159
autism and again quote unquote disabilities like that, and I
656
00:41:11.199 --> 00:41:11.679
don't like to.
657
00:41:11.679 --> 00:41:14.039
Say the wordence.
658
00:41:15.199 --> 00:41:20.000
Yeah, yeah, exactly, you know special, it's just super ordinary special.
659
00:41:20.159 --> 00:41:22.760
I mean, there's so many other beautiful words that we
660
00:41:22.800 --> 00:41:26.559
can use to describe someone who is not unlike who
661
00:41:26.639 --> 00:41:32.199
is unlike us. But again, the us, we all should
662
00:41:32.320 --> 00:41:38.159
be like people who are neuro divergent because they they
663
00:41:38.320 --> 00:41:42.119
have you have and my son is autistic, so I
664
00:41:42.599 --> 00:41:47.039
recognize it in him as well. They there's a connection,
665
00:41:47.280 --> 00:41:53.480
a special more superior connection to spirit, the spirit, realm,
666
00:41:53.840 --> 00:41:58.039
to magic, to all of the things that we cannot
667
00:41:58.159 --> 00:42:02.519
see the people that are again, I don't want to
668
00:42:02.519 --> 00:42:06.159
say ordinary, but people who don't have those abilities, right,
669
00:42:06.400 --> 00:42:13.360
we don't have those same perceptions, extrasensory perceptions. Because my
670
00:42:13.559 --> 00:42:20.519
son will know right off the bat wolves trustworthy and
671
00:42:20.559 --> 00:42:23.639
who is it? And he can read a room faster
672
00:42:23.800 --> 00:42:27.679
than anybody else can. And it's just he's just my
673
00:42:27.840 --> 00:42:31.400
greatest teacher in this life. He really is. And I
674
00:42:31.559 --> 00:42:36.280
love the fact that he is just so unlike everybody else.
675
00:42:36.440 --> 00:42:39.480
I think it is a superpower and I love it.
676
00:42:40.599 --> 00:42:43.480
Well, that's that is something that is said in the
677
00:42:43.480 --> 00:42:49.079
neurodivergent community that we're here to wake everybody else up
678
00:42:50.480 --> 00:42:53.159
the way that our brains were and when we do
679
00:42:53.239 --> 00:42:55.280
the healing, and this is how everything is connected.
680
00:42:55.280 --> 00:42:56.639
That's why there's no groups people.
681
00:42:56.960 --> 00:43:00.000
Okay, So when those who have already been awake and
682
00:43:00.079 --> 00:43:03.480
doing the healing or doing that healing, they're bringing up
683
00:43:03.840 --> 00:43:07.320
everybody else with them. So the more people who keep
684
00:43:07.400 --> 00:43:10.239
doing it and doing it are bringing up more people.
685
00:43:10.599 --> 00:43:15.599
That's why the October thirtieth kill switch thing happened, right, Yeah,
686
00:43:15.760 --> 00:43:18.559
and why a lot of people bang came online at
687
00:43:18.559 --> 00:43:19.199
the same time.
688
00:43:20.360 --> 00:43:26.320
Yeah, exactly. And I have never heard so many, even celebrities,
689
00:43:26.440 --> 00:43:28.000
talking about things.
690
00:43:27.800 --> 00:43:30.000
Like manifestations and energy.
691
00:43:30.079 --> 00:43:37.360
And spirituality, yeah, energy work and mindsets, and it's like wow.
692
00:43:37.719 --> 00:43:40.360
I mean, every time I turn on the TV and
693
00:43:40.440 --> 00:43:44.400
I watch an interview about from someone, you'll hear all
694
00:43:44.480 --> 00:43:46.960
of these people talking. I mean, it could be a
695
00:43:47.039 --> 00:43:51.199
sports figure, it could be an actor or singer, whomever
696
00:43:51.280 --> 00:43:55.320
it is. I've never, in all my years, have heard
697
00:43:55.880 --> 00:44:02.360
these things coming out of people's mouths so openly. YEA, honestly,
698
00:44:02.960 --> 00:44:07.719
it's like amazing. It's amazed at the awakening that's occurring
699
00:44:07.840 --> 00:44:08.320
right now.
700
00:44:08.440 --> 00:44:08.840
Yeah.
701
00:44:08.920 --> 00:44:11.159
Yeah, I'm seeing it too, Like a lot more people
702
00:44:11.199 --> 00:44:14.320
are mentioning astrology and manifestation and energy.
703
00:44:14.480 --> 00:44:17.119
Yeah, and crystals even and stuff.
704
00:44:17.639 --> 00:44:19.559
And yeah, I just want to tell you guys, when
705
00:44:19.599 --> 00:44:22.239
I when something happens, and I tell you that I'm
706
00:44:22.239 --> 00:44:25.760
going to consult my crystals. I'm not talking about my stones.
707
00:44:26.039 --> 00:44:29.039
My best friend has a whole bunch of personalities, so
708
00:44:29.519 --> 00:44:30.480
I just consult her.
709
00:44:30.760 --> 00:44:41.679
I just consult her. That's the crystals. I'm just kidding. No,
710
00:44:41.840 --> 00:44:44.199
it's speaking of manifesting.
711
00:44:44.920 --> 00:44:47.519
I manifested something very cool that has to do with
712
00:44:47.559 --> 00:44:48.480
her melanos.
713
00:44:48.920 --> 00:44:52.199
But so I love Helthy.
714
00:44:52.840 --> 00:44:55.159
I love her. I love her, I love her. She's
715
00:44:55.199 --> 00:44:58.440
one of my all time favorite artists. I have certain
716
00:44:58.480 --> 00:45:01.920
ones that I just really grab too and just love, love, love,
717
00:45:02.119 --> 00:45:05.000
and she is one of them. And she is doing
718
00:45:05.119 --> 00:45:10.199
three more intimate shows in Toronto in January. And I
719
00:45:10.239 --> 00:45:12.639
saw that she was doing the back to bad Lands tour.
720
00:45:12.719 --> 00:45:15.519
And normally, you know, when people go out and they tour,
721
00:45:15.639 --> 00:45:19.159
they do all their view stuff, right, this tour is
722
00:45:19.320 --> 00:45:21.800
all about her doing all her old stuff that we love,
723
00:45:23.280 --> 00:45:27.639
which is amazing, right that hardly ever happens. So I
724
00:45:27.840 --> 00:45:31.480
noticed that this tour was happening, and I said, I want.
725
00:45:31.280 --> 00:45:33.840
To go to this. I really want to do this.
726
00:45:34.559 --> 00:45:37.800
And within two days, my children had.
727
00:45:37.679 --> 00:45:41.360
Bought me tickets for my birthday, which is Christmas Eve,
728
00:45:41.960 --> 00:45:45.880
and made arrangements for my best friend Crystal, who lives
729
00:45:45.880 --> 00:45:48.199
in the States and who hasn't been here in five years,
730
00:45:48.400 --> 00:45:51.480
to come over for a couple of days. We're going
731
00:45:51.480 --> 00:45:53.400
to spend a couple of days together in Niagara Falls,
732
00:45:53.639 --> 00:45:54.719
have some fun, and.
733
00:45:54.800 --> 00:45:55.599
Go to the concert.
734
00:45:56.599 --> 00:46:01.599
So yeah, yeah, and I manifest did that in like
735
00:46:01.719 --> 00:46:03.079
forty eight hours.
736
00:46:03.599 --> 00:46:08.920
Right, Yeah, that's amazing, And that's always You're gonna have
737
00:46:09.000 --> 00:46:12.000
so much fun. Like, it's a blast, and just to
738
00:46:12.119 --> 00:46:16.840
know that it's something that you've always wanted and probably
739
00:46:17.000 --> 00:46:20.079
thought at some point it wasn't going to happen. Yeah,
740
00:46:20.199 --> 00:46:25.079
to know that you manifested it now it's amazing. Yeah,
741
00:46:25.079 --> 00:46:26.400
it's so great. Yeah.
742
00:46:26.440 --> 00:46:28.239
Now I have to decide whether I'm gonna dye my
743
00:46:28.239 --> 00:46:33.480
hair blue or pink. I've had my hair very pink
744
00:46:33.599 --> 00:46:36.199
before and that looked cute. I might try the blue
745
00:46:36.360 --> 00:46:37.719
this time. We'll see.
746
00:46:38.239 --> 00:46:40.000
Yeah, it was cool.
747
00:46:40.280 --> 00:46:43.639
Yeah, And we're gonna be in Niagara Falls right when
748
00:46:43.679 --> 00:46:46.920
the ice Wine Festival is happening, So.
749
00:46:47.440 --> 00:46:49.320
Yeah, we're gonna we're gonna have a little bit of
750
00:46:49.360 --> 00:46:51.239
ice wine. Dine isis said.
751
00:46:51.320 --> 00:46:59.199
So so if you guys don't know what ice wine is, yeah,
752
00:46:59.360 --> 00:47:02.480
it's uh, it only happens in certain places. Of course,
753
00:47:03.159 --> 00:47:06.360
there are certain times of year where the grapes freeze
754
00:47:06.440 --> 00:47:09.360
on the vine at a certain temperature and it just
755
00:47:09.480 --> 00:47:12.320
locks in the flavor and the sweetness inside the grape.
756
00:47:12.400 --> 00:47:14.480
So that's when they make ice wine.
757
00:47:14.559 --> 00:47:16.239
So it is kind of a little bit of a
758
00:47:16.320 --> 00:47:19.679
rarity because like it only happens once a year obviously.
759
00:47:20.880 --> 00:47:23.119
But yeah, but I haven't drank.
760
00:47:22.880 --> 00:47:26.320
Any alcoholic beverages in like since the last time she
761
00:47:26.400 --> 00:47:28.440
was here, because she was here at New Year's So
762
00:47:28.480 --> 00:47:33.320
we had a glass of champagne. So two SIPs of
763
00:47:33.400 --> 00:47:40.800
the ice wine and i'n be like, whoa.
764
00:47:39.519 --> 00:47:41.599
Ah, that sounds like so much fun.
765
00:47:43.880 --> 00:47:44.760
Oh goodness.
766
00:47:45.239 --> 00:47:47.599
Yeah, Like I said, I usually don't drink it all,
767
00:47:47.639 --> 00:47:49.480
but dionysis that I have to, so.
768
00:47:51.199 --> 00:47:52.880
I follow what my deities say.
769
00:47:54.079 --> 00:47:56.639
That's it. Hey, you know what, it doesn't happen all
770
00:47:56.679 --> 00:48:02.039
the time. No, no celebration for you, and you should celebraik.
771
00:48:02.360 --> 00:48:03.480
Yeah, yeah, that's true.
772
00:48:03.480 --> 00:48:07.840
And I'm going to yeah good Yeah, tomorrow is.
773
00:48:07.800 --> 00:48:08.519
Going to be fun too.
774
00:48:08.679 --> 00:48:10.880
You guys are going to be listening to this after
775
00:48:11.199 --> 00:48:13.760
probably it already happens because we're recording this on Friday.
776
00:48:14.239 --> 00:48:17.000
But I'm going to be in the Santa Claus Parade
777
00:48:17.000 --> 00:48:20.519
in Gravenhurst tomorrow in a cute little elf dress, handing
778
00:48:20.559 --> 00:48:21.119
out can.
779
00:48:23.800 --> 00:48:26.199
Wow. I can't wait to see picture.
780
00:48:27.280 --> 00:48:28.800
Yeah, I'll post him because of my outfits.
781
00:48:28.840 --> 00:48:31.599
Really cute, adorable.
782
00:48:32.079 --> 00:48:34.320
Yeah, yeah, cute little alf dress.
783
00:48:34.480 --> 00:48:38.599
But yeah, a friend, a friend of mine, her mom,
784
00:48:38.760 --> 00:48:41.039
I think, is on the board or something for the
785
00:48:41.119 --> 00:48:44.519
parade in Gravenhurst. So we're gonna go up there tomorrow
786
00:48:45.119 --> 00:48:47.440
and uh and be in the parade. And there is
787
00:48:47.480 --> 00:48:50.599
a really really cool crystal shop up there called Metatron's
788
00:48:50.639 --> 00:48:51.679
Garden that I love.
789
00:48:52.320 --> 00:48:56.800
Yes, oh, I'm sure you're gonna take a trip there.
790
00:48:57.199 --> 00:49:00.000
Yes, Oh, absolutely definitely have to stop in and visit
791
00:49:00.119 --> 00:49:08.920
Emily love her. I am if you're listening. But yeah,
792
00:49:09.400 --> 00:49:14.760
lots of stuff going on. Like I said, I don't
793
00:49:14.800 --> 00:49:18.760
know where the podcast is going, like what direction it's going.
794
00:49:18.840 --> 00:49:21.280
I want to keep doing it, but I get I
795
00:49:21.320 --> 00:49:25.239
think that was part of the burnout too. It is
796
00:49:25.280 --> 00:49:28.119
because I didn't really have a clear direction of what
797
00:49:28.239 --> 00:49:30.400
I wanted to do. Like one week I would do
798
00:49:30.440 --> 00:49:32.079
a reading and then one week I talk about this,
799
00:49:32.159 --> 00:49:34.440
and when we can talk about this, which is really cool,
800
00:49:34.760 --> 00:49:36.519
But it's kind of hard to keep up with all
801
00:49:36.559 --> 00:49:39.960
of that when you're doing it by yourself right to
802
00:49:40.039 --> 00:49:41.760
make sure because I want to give you guys the
803
00:49:41.800 --> 00:49:44.239
most accurate information, So it takes a lot of research
804
00:49:44.840 --> 00:49:47.519
and stuff going in, even if it's a topic that
805
00:49:47.599 --> 00:49:50.599
I know inside out right, because I want to fact
806
00:49:50.679 --> 00:49:57.039
check everything. So yeah, so I don't know what's going
807
00:49:57.119 --> 00:50:01.960
to be happening going forward. You know, whether I'm going
808
00:50:02.000 --> 00:50:04.719
to be here every Saturday like I was before, or
809
00:50:05.199 --> 00:50:08.760
whether things are going to change. But I just want
810
00:50:08.760 --> 00:50:10.559
to take a minute and thank you guys for being
811
00:50:10.599 --> 00:50:12.760
here and for listening so awesome.
812
00:50:13.079 --> 00:50:14.519
I appreciate you all so much.
813
00:50:14.559 --> 00:50:16.760
And my absence and that had nothing to do with
814
00:50:16.800 --> 00:50:18.639
you guys, and had nothing to do with the material.
815
00:50:18.960 --> 00:50:19.400
I just.
816
00:50:21.039 --> 00:50:22.119
I just needed a rest.
817
00:50:22.960 --> 00:50:26.519
Yeah, And it was forced because I was not letting
818
00:50:26.519 --> 00:50:29.079
myself get there.
819
00:50:29.360 --> 00:50:30.000
Yeah.
820
00:50:30.440 --> 00:50:36.039
OK. And that's just another confirmation about how important self
821
00:50:36.079 --> 00:50:41.320
care is, Yes, and listening to our bodies and just
822
00:50:41.400 --> 00:50:44.239
slowing down when we need to and not putting so
823
00:50:44.360 --> 00:50:50.159
much pressure on ourselves to have something completed if we're
824
00:50:50.239 --> 00:50:53.679
not in the right energy or in the right space
825
00:50:53.800 --> 00:50:56.840
to do it. So I know that your listeners love
826
00:50:56.960 --> 00:51:00.480
listening to you, but I'm sure that they will understand
827
00:51:01.400 --> 00:51:05.920
that you needed to take the time to rest and that,
828
00:51:06.760 --> 00:51:09.599
you know what, they'll be happy whenever they can hear
829
00:51:09.679 --> 00:51:13.039
from you. So I don't I really don't think that
830
00:51:14.679 --> 00:51:19.440
they're gonna hold it against you. They're gonna be welcoming
831
00:51:19.480 --> 00:51:24.119
you back with open arms in whatever way you feel
832
00:51:24.199 --> 00:51:27.960
like coming back, because whatever you do, you know, your
833
00:51:28.000 --> 00:51:32.840
stuff is so interesting and you share so much good
834
00:51:33.079 --> 00:51:42.320
information and just personal insights. And we as the guests,
835
00:51:42.360 --> 00:51:44.960
you know, because I know you've had a few different guests.
836
00:51:45.119 --> 00:51:49.440
We all enjoy coming on your podcast and whatever capacity
837
00:51:50.079 --> 00:51:53.320
you allow us to. I know I always have such
838
00:51:53.360 --> 00:51:56.400
a great time. I love coming to your podcast and
839
00:51:57.000 --> 00:52:00.159
whatever you make of it. I can't wait to see
840
00:52:00.599 --> 00:52:03.960
and hear how it's gonna be. And if you invite me,
841
00:52:04.119 --> 00:52:05.960
I will be part of it.
842
00:52:05.440 --> 00:52:08.360
I love that and I love having you here.
843
00:52:09.079 --> 00:52:13.079
But I think, like also the burnout, Like we were
844
00:52:13.119 --> 00:52:16.440
talking about cycles and I brought up the autism. I
845
00:52:16.480 --> 00:52:20.079
think that was also me doing a lot of masking, right,
846
00:52:20.199 --> 00:52:25.079
because women present with autism a lot different than men
847
00:52:25.280 --> 00:52:30.079
boys do. Right, You often can't even tell, like until
848
00:52:30.280 --> 00:52:32.800
I tell people a lot of people don't know that
849
00:52:32.880 --> 00:52:37.280
information about me, because I have been an excellent masker
850
00:52:37.679 --> 00:52:44.079
my whole life, and that is exhausting, you know. And
851
00:52:44.199 --> 00:52:46.760
I think that was part of the burnout too, And
852
00:52:46.960 --> 00:52:51.639
just you know, I'm just going to allow myself to
853
00:52:51.639 --> 00:52:55.039
to be myself, you know, right, and when I get
854
00:52:55.079 --> 00:52:58.239
nervous and things like that happen, think I stim sometimes
855
00:52:58.320 --> 00:53:00.760
and you may hear something come out of my mouth
856
00:53:00.800 --> 00:53:02.920
that makes no sense to the context of what we're
857
00:53:02.920 --> 00:53:08.079
talking about. But I'm just gonna let it roll now,
858
00:53:08.280 --> 00:53:11.079
you know, I don't. I don't care anymore. I'm not
859
00:53:12.360 --> 00:53:14.360
I'm not going to exhaust myself.
860
00:53:15.119 --> 00:53:18.480
Right and you shouldn't. No, and you absolutely shouldn't. Just
861
00:53:18.599 --> 00:53:21.760
you know, just be free to say what you need
862
00:53:21.800 --> 00:53:24.679
to say. Be who you are. And that's why you
863
00:53:24.760 --> 00:53:28.599
have so many listeners who really enjoy what you have
864
00:53:28.719 --> 00:53:32.760
to share with them because it's authentic. It's not shit,
865
00:53:33.360 --> 00:53:34.440
it's not a story.
866
00:53:35.119 --> 00:53:36.079
Sorry, damn.
867
00:53:40.039 --> 00:53:42.719
It makes you who you are, and it's I think
868
00:53:42.960 --> 00:53:47.440
personally speaking, it's endearing because it's you're just speaking your truth.
869
00:53:47.519 --> 00:53:48.880
However that comes out.
870
00:53:49.719 --> 00:53:52.480
Well, what I just said there, that was, That was
871
00:53:52.639 --> 00:53:56.480
it's been dying to come out the whole time, Jessica Rabbit.
872
00:53:57.480 --> 00:54:02.519
I'm not bad, just drawing that, that's what that's.
873
00:54:02.920 --> 00:54:06.519
You'll if you're in my house while I'm making food,
874
00:54:08.000 --> 00:54:10.239
that is the most time that you're gonna hear me
875
00:54:11.639 --> 00:54:20.119
being silly. Bring You might hear some money python coming
876
00:54:20.119 --> 00:54:21.920
out of the kitchen with no context.
877
00:54:26.079 --> 00:54:31.719
I am Oh, there's no.
878
00:54:31.840 --> 00:54:36.800
There's certain things that just stick in my brainium and
879
00:54:36.920 --> 00:54:39.079
I'll just keep hearing them. Over and over and over
880
00:54:39.119 --> 00:54:40.960
and over and over again, and it's almost like a
881
00:54:41.039 --> 00:54:45.599
pressure until they say it out loud, right yeah, and
882
00:54:45.639 --> 00:54:48.679
then it's hard to keep that stuff back, like especially
883
00:54:48.679 --> 00:54:52.000
when you're in a public setting, you know, the only
884
00:54:52.039 --> 00:54:54.079
way I can describe it, because a lot of people
885
00:54:54.079 --> 00:54:56.840
don't notice about autism, but it's almost like a Tourette's thing,
886
00:54:57.519 --> 00:55:02.119
right when when you stim it's the same type of thing.
887
00:55:02.519 --> 00:55:04.320
It's hard to keep control of that.
888
00:55:04.639 --> 00:55:09.800
And when you're over stimulated too, logic doesn't apply, you know,
889
00:55:10.119 --> 00:55:16.000
like I could be could watching myself, you know, it's
890
00:55:16.039 --> 00:55:19.320
an out of body experience, you know, when you get very,
891
00:55:19.400 --> 00:55:22.599
very overstimulated, right, You'll be watching myself throw a tantrum
892
00:55:22.639 --> 00:55:24.679
like a two year old. And I'm sitting here knowing
893
00:55:24.880 --> 00:55:27.159
I'm throwing a tantrum like a two year old and
894
00:55:27.199 --> 00:55:30.360
this is ridiculous, but there's also nothing I can do
895
00:55:30.559 --> 00:55:31.559
to stop.
896
00:55:31.199 --> 00:55:37.039
It, right right. Yeah. I've seen that in my son
897
00:55:37.119 --> 00:55:41.480
as well. So when he's it doesn't matter who he's around,
898
00:55:41.800 --> 00:55:44.599
he does echoing, so he'll just repeat the same thing
899
00:55:44.639 --> 00:55:46.760
over and over and over and over and over again.
900
00:55:47.360 --> 00:55:51.960
And for people who are not accepting of things or
901
00:55:52.039 --> 00:55:57.840
unaware or whatever you want to call it, just not tolerant. Yeah,
902
00:55:57.920 --> 00:56:01.239
they may be put off by it, may think it's strange,
903
00:56:01.360 --> 00:56:04.119
or have all kinds of opinions and judgments about it,
904
00:56:04.159 --> 00:56:06.760
But he's just being himself. And that's why I never
905
00:56:07.400 --> 00:56:10.079
try to stifle him, and we just don't. We let
906
00:56:10.159 --> 00:56:13.159
him be who he is, even no matter where we are,
907
00:56:13.400 --> 00:56:16.480
it doesn't really matter. So and I like that.
908
00:56:17.440 --> 00:56:19.800
I wish that I had had that growing up.
909
00:56:20.800 --> 00:56:24.519
Yeah. Yeah, so I've I've come to understand that you
910
00:56:24.639 --> 00:56:28.039
have to accept people for who they are and how
911
00:56:28.119 --> 00:56:31.880
they are. And just I love it. I just love
912
00:56:31.960 --> 00:56:35.800
people who are so unique and just not cookie cutters
913
00:56:35.800 --> 00:56:38.719
of everybody else. And I guess that's why I love
914
00:56:38.760 --> 00:56:44.280
you so much. They're so unlike most people that I know,
915
00:56:45.079 --> 00:56:47.039
So I just I love it.
916
00:56:47.199 --> 00:56:51.679
Oh, I'm definitely an individual that's for damn as.
917
00:56:51.599 --> 00:56:53.840
You are, and that's one of the things that is
918
00:56:53.880 --> 00:56:56.920
so endearing about you. Yeah.
919
00:56:57.280 --> 00:57:00.719
Yeah, I just I just don't understand, Like, I love
920
00:57:00.760 --> 00:57:03.119
how supportive you are, and I think that's wonderful because
921
00:57:03.159 --> 00:57:05.039
I like never had any of that. But I just
922
00:57:05.039 --> 00:57:08.559
don't understand how like nobody knew my mom gave me
923
00:57:08.599 --> 00:57:12.360
a box recently, always going through it. There was one
924
00:57:12.400 --> 00:57:14.360
in the basement at their house, and I had like
925
00:57:14.440 --> 00:57:16.639
all my old report cards and stuff like that, and
926
00:57:17.719 --> 00:57:24.960
I'm reading all the teacher's comments and stuff like, hello, it.
927
00:57:24.840 --> 00:57:30.239
Is spelled right out for you here, what like at
928
00:57:30.320 --> 00:57:34.280
least the EHD. Come on? How did you not see that?
929
00:57:36.360 --> 00:57:40.320
She focuses on the wrong things? Unimportant to come on?
930
00:57:40.599 --> 00:57:42.599
That's one of the main things.
931
00:57:43.119 --> 00:57:45.079
Ye, red flag, red flag.
932
00:57:45.239 --> 00:57:49.320
Yeah yeah yeah.
933
00:57:49.440 --> 00:57:52.320
Just reading all that, I'm like, oh my god, how
934
00:57:52.440 --> 00:57:53.880
you people failed me?
935
00:57:55.960 --> 00:58:01.800
Yeah, but that's part of letting go too, right, Yeah,
936
00:58:02.119 --> 00:58:07.519
accepting that they all failed, that wasn't my fault, right,
937
00:58:07.760 --> 00:58:09.440
and moving on from it.
938
00:58:10.559 --> 00:58:12.840
That's it. That's it. You don't let it hold you back.
939
00:58:13.000 --> 00:58:15.519
You don't let it stop you from anything that you
940
00:58:15.760 --> 00:58:19.280
want to do. And that's the best way is just
941
00:58:20.000 --> 00:58:23.360
live your life. Yeah, see who you are and do
942
00:58:23.400 --> 00:58:27.320
it unapologetically. And you do that anyway, so I think,
943
00:58:27.440 --> 00:58:28.159
bravos here.
944
00:58:28.559 --> 00:58:30.280
Yeah, I'm going to be doing it more so.
945
00:58:32.079 --> 00:58:34.280
Good. I can't wait to see what you do.
946
00:58:34.880 --> 00:58:38.519
Just letting the freak flag fly. See you see where
947
00:58:38.519 --> 00:58:39.440
it goes.
948
00:58:41.039 --> 00:58:44.679
Exactly, that's right, Let it fly, Let it fly.
949
00:58:45.639 --> 00:58:52.360
Yeah. Oh, goodness. But yeah, I think that's good for today.
950
00:58:52.440 --> 00:58:55.920
We covered the astrology and why it's so crazy and chaotic,
951
00:58:55.960 --> 00:58:58.039
and if you guys have felt the same, now you
952
00:58:58.079 --> 00:59:05.880
know why blame the planets, That's.
953
00:59:05.639 --> 00:59:10.519
What I say. It's all their fault.
954
00:59:09.039 --> 00:59:14.800
That ye, no, that would be spiritually bypassing. But we
955
00:59:14.840 --> 00:59:16.039
can blame them a little.
956
00:59:15.800 --> 00:59:18.000
Bit, yeah, a little bit.
957
00:59:18.119 --> 00:59:22.320
Yeah, we can halfway blame them, that's fine, right.
958
00:59:22.840 --> 00:59:27.400
Or we can thank them, yes, thank them for bringing
959
00:59:27.440 --> 00:59:30.599
about all of this, which seems to be chaos, but
960
00:59:30.760 --> 00:59:37.599
really it's just us getting our shit together, finally seeing
961
00:59:37.599 --> 00:59:40.280
what we need to see and doing something about it.
962
00:59:40.760 --> 00:59:43.760
So I'm all for it. I'm all for the chaos
963
00:59:43.800 --> 00:59:47.199
if it means that the lessons will finally be learned
964
00:59:47.199 --> 00:59:48.960
and I can move on from certain things.
965
00:59:51.199 --> 00:59:53.400
I always kind of laugh to myself when I when
966
00:59:53.440 --> 00:59:55.639
I want to blame the planets, because I always see
967
00:59:55.679 --> 01:00:01.000
like that meme in my head with the moon tell
968
01:00:01.239 --> 01:00:04.719
the full movie, stop blaming me for your ship, Becky.
969
01:00:06.280 --> 01:00:12.320
Yes exactly, I know it, talking it over and over.
970
01:00:13.320 --> 01:00:20.480
Yeah, yeah, I don't want to be Becky.
971
01:00:22.880 --> 01:00:23.239
True.
972
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Yeah, yeah, sometimes they have to though, it's the other
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way we get through. But laughter laughter helps too. All right,
974
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well that's where I'm going to leave it. And yeah,
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just find ways to make yourself smile. Take a moment.
976
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We have a very stressful time of your coming up.
977
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You know, I'm going to do my best to try
978
01:00:44.119 --> 01:00:47.920
and guide you guys through it. Again, no promises to
979
01:00:48.280 --> 01:00:50.840
whatever is happening with this, but I'm gonna do what
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01:00:50.880 --> 01:00:51.320
I'm gonna do.
981
01:00:53.480 --> 01:00:56.719
That's it. Do it your way, Yeah, only do it
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01:00:56.800 --> 01:01:01.320
your way however that is for you. Whatever you however,
983
01:01:01.800 --> 01:01:04.639
you know you're called to do it, guided to do it,
984
01:01:04.719 --> 01:01:06.360
feel like doing it, just do it?
985
01:01:06.599 --> 01:01:08.639
Yeah? Yeah, Well, like I said, I want to I
986
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want to do the video thing. I think we might
987
01:01:10.440 --> 01:01:11.440
do shorter.
988
01:01:11.760 --> 01:01:16.800
And more video, and as a platform, I do like
989
01:01:16.880 --> 01:01:19.679
YouTube a lot better than the energy of other things
990
01:01:19.760 --> 01:01:22.800
because I'm just not I'm just not enjoying the energy
991
01:01:23.159 --> 01:01:25.039
of social media at all.
992
01:01:25.480 --> 01:01:33.960
Right now, it's just you, it is it is. Yeah.
993
01:01:34.000 --> 01:01:38.119
So yeah, until something else comes along, which I know
994
01:01:38.199 --> 01:01:40.360
it will, I just feel it. And I've been saying
995
01:01:40.400 --> 01:01:42.719
that for a while, some sort of new form of
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communication or something.
997
01:01:44.000 --> 01:01:44.400
I don't know.
998
01:01:44.639 --> 01:01:46.360
I don't know what that looks like, so don't ask me.
999
01:01:48.679 --> 01:01:52.280
But but yeah, I'm seeing it, but we're starting to
1000
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see things play out and interesting to keep watching that happen.
1001
01:01:56.400 --> 01:01:59.639
And I will be here, maybe not every week, but
1002
01:01:59.840 --> 01:02:03.159
I I will be here helping you guys through it,
1003
01:02:03.199 --> 01:02:04.199
guiding you guys through it.
1004
01:02:04.639 --> 01:02:05.559
Yeah, And if.
1005
01:02:05.480 --> 01:02:07.559
You wanted to book a personal reading or service or
1006
01:02:07.559 --> 01:02:11.280
anything like that with me, you can find the links
1007
01:02:11.280 --> 01:02:14.400
in my link treet below. All my services and pricing
1008
01:02:14.440 --> 01:02:17.159
are on my social media. They're listed there in pin
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01:02:17.320 --> 01:02:21.360
videos or highlights, so that's where you'll find all that information.
1010
01:02:21.400 --> 01:02:24.679
And you can always email me and ask questions. Email
1011
01:02:24.719 --> 01:02:26.199
me and let me know what you want to talk
1012
01:02:26.199 --> 01:02:28.519
about on here, because I want to hear from you,
1013
01:02:29.039 --> 01:02:32.239
all right. So thank you mail so much for being here.
1014
01:02:32.320 --> 01:02:33.320
Always love having you.
1015
01:02:34.039 --> 01:02:39.639
It's always it's always fun. Anytime you let me know and.
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01:02:39.519 --> 01:02:42.679
I'll be yes, and we'll do that for sure. And
1017
01:02:42.719 --> 01:02:45.800
thank you guys again so much for sticking with me
1018
01:02:46.039 --> 01:02:50.880
through all the stuff. I appreciate you all and love
1019
01:02:50.920 --> 01:02:54.239
you all more than you know. And remember you guys
1020
01:02:54.239 --> 01:02:59.239
always make your own magic, okay, And so until next time,
1021
01:02:59.400 --> 01:03:01.599
stay magic, all my friends, love you so much.
1022
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Bye bye