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hello.
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Hello.
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Welcome back to the podcast.
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I know this is real.
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I repeat, this is real.
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This is not a drill.
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Your girl, Elizabeth is back.
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Welcome to what I'm calling season two of the InBetween.
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It only seemed fitting to give it a new season because, well, I'm not really the same version of me that you last met.
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I'm not trying to be like, oh, I am so changed.
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Uh, you know, it's about self discovery, the pursuit of self, which to be honest, is just a continuous flow of lesson after lesson after lesson.
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That's what I'm learning.
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But I'm bumps, see what I did there.
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But I am a more, I was gonna say nuanced version of myself, and that sounded super weird.
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But I'm definitely more involved.
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I'm definitely different.
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I mean, heck, I look back at who I was a year ago, January, 2025, versus the version of me in February and March and April, may, June, July.
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All the months.
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I feel like I went through so much life change, so much evolution, so much growth, healing.
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Speed bumps, life curve balls, all of the things.
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Every month was a different version of myself.
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And then toward the end of the year or, or really when I kind of just let you guys on red, uh, I was basically crashing out.
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I was completely lost.
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I finally was forced to slow down after I sold my house and faced the reality that I was maybe not okay.
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Maybe the whole or surviving thing, um, had taken a little bit of a toll.
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And then my life imploded because all this health stuff happened.
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There is so much to talk about.
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But the first thing I wanna address is I am sorry for abandoning you.
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I know I talked about, I'm gonna come back, I'm gonna do it for two weeks.
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I got all these episodes I recorded before I moved outta my house.
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Well, guess what?
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I still have those episodes and they're freaking amazing.
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They're gonna come out.
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But I just kinda got up and left and sometimes that's what you have to do to take care of you.
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2025 was a year, was a year, I'll just lemme just start there.
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It was a year.
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Okay.
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Not just for me personally, some of the highest highs and then low lows, that gutted me to my core, but it was also quite the year.
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Politically.
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Uh, let's see, professionally, how many other words can we say that starts with a P?
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Personally, politically.
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Professionally, anything else?
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What am I thinking of here?
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I don't know.
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Pop, culturey.
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There we go.
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Yeah, pop.
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Culturally, all that.
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Just say it's been a year and The point I'm trying to make is life.
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Life.
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And I had to take a beat.
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I guess you can say I had to surrender.
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Surrender to what was going on at the moment.
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Surrender on my journey, surrender to the path because I was going through so much life change and like I said, some high highs, some low lows, but when it all kind of came crashing down on me and I could no longer run from, not to be dramatic, but the truth that your girl needed to chill out and needed to just, I don't know, visualize someone just like floating through space.
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Like, oh, like that's kind of where I was with things.
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I just needed to be still and process my emotions, process what was going on, and then deal with all of the life shit that started hitting me all at once.
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I got diagnosed with a bunch of health things.
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Um, when it rains, it pours.
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They say, I got diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder.
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Hello Thyroid.
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Let me tell you something.
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Your thyroid is quite an interesting organ muscle.
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What is it?
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I guess an organ.
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I don't really know actually now that I say that.
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But from my autoimmune disorder, I got diagnosed with a rare disease.
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40% of the people that have the autoimmune that I have also get this rare disease in your eye.
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Fun things, fun times.
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So it was one thing after another.
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Uh, all of these diagnoses required multiple providers, multiple healthcare professionals.
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Work was crazy.
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I just crashed out.
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I crashed out and I already could tell with the podcast that I was struggling.
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I didn't feel like I was showing up as my true, authentic self.
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It's still me'cause I'll be honest, I'm an extrovert.
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Extrovert.
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I know how to turn it on.
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I know how to go.
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I know how to perform.
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I know how to bring it.
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But there was something inside that just wasn't resonating, and I knew that I could try to honestly just keep pushing myself, kill myself to do this, put it out there, push myself to keep putting out content that I wasn't really in love with and wasn't really believing in.
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Or I could just take a freaking beat and figure out what I needed to focus on in my life, which at the time it was health and honestly just being still something that I had been running from all year.
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So this was all around like August.
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It was like pretty much right after the last episode, which I think came out in July, but anyways, I knew I'd always return because this is something I'm very passionate about.
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It feels kind of silly to be like, I'm passionate about my podcast.
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It's not so much the podcast, but it's the connection.
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It's the ability to perform in a way, but perform not as a character, but as myself.
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What you see on this podcast, what you hear, this is me, IRL.
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This is me in person in real life, talking to my friends, talking to my coworkers, talking to my family.
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It's a way for me to show up authentically and hopefully entertain you, hopefully brighten your day, maybe even teach you a thing or two, and maybe if I'm lucky, show you why it's important to love yourself, why it's important to choose yourself.
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I feel like 2025 was all about me asking the question, what does choosing me look like in any scenario?
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How do I navigate the line of self-love and romantic love, like pursuing romantic love?
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That's where that term self-worth came to be.
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Started learning a lot about that.
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Come to find out, it's not that I didn't have low self-worth, but I had some room for improvement.
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But to be honest, if I didn't have such a strong foundation of self-love, which I know I, I, that's a huge pillar here, something I preach about all the time.
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If I didn't love myself enough to, to meet me where I was at, didn't love myself enough to evolve and, and grow from where I was at, love myself enough to say, Ooh, I felt icky on the inside.
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I need to work on some boundaries.
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I need to work on what I deserve, recognizing what I deserve, realizing what I deserve, and not just in romantic pursuits, but in life.
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And rest.
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That was a big thing because I was go, go, go, go, go.
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'cause it was life thing after life thing.
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And I wanna be honest, like it took me a while to accept that things were not all great, things were not all good because I mean, I was traveling the world.
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I have the best friends anyone could ever ask for that helped support me when I was low and uplift me and go on adventures.
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And I have the best mom, like I just have the best mom who has been by my side throughout all of this entire journey of life and choices and decisions and growth and all of it.
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I didn't think I was allowed to be sad.
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I wasn't allowed to sit back and go, damn, I think I've been surviving.
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Maybe that's part of it.
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When you're in survival mode, you don't really realize it necessarily.
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'cause you're in this fight or flight and your anxiety is so used to running a certain way.
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Your body's so used to working at a high level and I'm already a high achiever.
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I already do a lot.
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It's like just part of my personality, hello in Agram three.
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But I didn't take the time to step back and say, whoa, whoa, whoa, girlfriend, let's, let's rest.
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And not only rest, but give myself permission that it was okay to do that.
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Whew.
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Who can relate to that?
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That was a big lesson and unfortunately it took life crashing down on me.
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Crashing out, if you will, for me to finally accept that.
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I wish I could say that after all the health stuff happened.
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And then it was like, okay, lemme schedule this appointment, schedule this appointment, schedule this appointment.
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You know, I'd probably, I I, I'd start to get to that point of Russ, but no, no, I, I was still living in this hamster wheel frame of thought that gotta keep going, gotta keep going.
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I don't, I I, I, I can't stop.
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'cause at the time I sold the house, I moved back in with my mom temporarily and I remember she'd make comments like, oh, if you stay here for a few months and you, you know, get, get on your feet, get a new place.
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And I was like, oh hell no.
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I'm not gonna live with my mother at 34 for more than a month.
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I ended up staying there for like three months, three and a half months I needed it.
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cause once all the health stuff started happening and I was in, in the flow of getting care and trying to get the right medication and doing this and doing that, it started to creep up on me that I wasn't doing so hot.
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I was actually.
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I was really struggling.
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I don't know if I fully slipped into depression maybe.
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I mean, depression has many layers to it.
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It's not necessarily black or white, but what is life except all gray?
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And I had to accept that I was lost.
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So all that to say, I had to stop the podcast because I couldn't even tell you who is Elizabeth Cheney?
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I was still the version of me that you have come to know and love.
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But there was also a new part of that that I hadn't quite reached yet or accepted.
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But I was still holding onto the old version of me because in my head I thought to myself.
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I worked so hard for this.
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I went through a major depression years ago.
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I found the, the power of self-love.
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I found myself, blah, blah, blah.
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When I checked in with myself, I, I realized when was the last time you felt your intuition?
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When was the last time you felt connected to yourself?
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When was the last time that you just didn't feel like you were burning the candle at both ends, despite all the high highs and the adventures you'd been on and experiences you'd already had?
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The first thing I wanna say with coming back is sometimes we have to stop.
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But clearly, as you witness now, that doesn't mean you won't come back.
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That doesn't mean the dream is dead.
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That doesn't mean your motivation, your goals are no longer there.
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You're no longer thinking about them.
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And you know, when I first launched this podcast, I struggled with imposter syndrome.
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Who doesn't nowadays, but am I good enough?
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Am I gonna be successful?
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I had all these weird kind of overly ambitious expectations for me just beginning and I had to learn.
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That is not the way this works.
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One, you gotta find your voice.
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Two, you gotta learn just all the things that go with this.
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Three, you gotta stay committed because success with this comes after a while.
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Unless like you were on a reality TV show or on just on a TV show in general, you are a nobody.
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You gotta build your audience, you gotta build your brand, so to speak.
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And so in the beginning I used to have so much anxiety about if I, I didn't pound an episode every week because I read consistency was the most important thing.
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So I was hell Ben, on being consistent.
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I was gonna put on an episode every week.
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I was gonna do this and do that and put myself out there.
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And eventually doing this podcast for a year plus it finally started to hit me.
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I am being consistent.
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I just need to trust myself more.
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So building trust within myself with my goals, my dreams, my motivations, all of the things that I wanna achieve in this life.
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I held onto that, which is why I was able to walk away when I needed to take care of me and just focus on my life and focus on getting to the next chapter, the next step, the next place, figuring out why I felt so lost, reconnecting with myself.
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so I just wanna say for anyone listening, life happens.
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Maybe you can keep pursuing your thing when life is lifeing.
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There's definitely been times over the past couple of years since I've been doing the podcast where life lived and I kept it moving.
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Think about when Luna passed.
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That was not okay.
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One of the most devastating periods of my life, but I kept doing it, kept showing up.
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I.
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I think there is power and strength in recognizing that showing up is not the move because how can I show up for this podcast that is all about authenticity and being me and getting deep and being silly and weird, and hopefully making you laugh if not laughing at me versus with me.
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You know what I mean?
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If I didn't know who I was at the time, I have never felt so disconnected from myself, especially given all of the work and and self-discovery I've done over the past few years.
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I felt like my life was consumed with doctor's appointments.
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I felt like I was a shell of a person.
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My inner narrative was not kind.
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So how could I show up on this podcast with a smile on my face that honestly, I don't even know if it would've been genuine trying to be Elizabeth Cheney, host of the in-Between podcast when, when I was just floating through space, they say 2025 was the year of the snake Chinese New Year.
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I think that's where it comes from.
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And a snake is all about shedding its skin, being born a new right regenerating itself.
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That is exactly what 2025 was for me.
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I had to shed the old version of me.
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Step into the new skin, the new life, the new timeline, the new everything.
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And the catch is I'm still me.
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I'm just an evolved version.
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And that was the lesson I learned in those few months living at home where I had to let go and surrender to life and figure out what the fuck is going on.
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So I'm back.
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I feel more like myself than I have.
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Do I be dramatic and say forever or do I be more humble and say in a very long time?
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Either way, I'm back and I am me.
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I'm different.
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Not quite the same, but I think there's beauty in that because,, I personally believe we're always evolving.
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We should always be growing.
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But the point is, I'm here.
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I've got so many stories to share.
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I've had so many experiences, I don't even know where to begin.
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And who knows, maybe, maybe this episode is just a reintroduction back to myself.
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Back to the podcast.
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I know I'm gonna have new listeners.
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I know I'm gonna have new guests.
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I've got a new place, as you can see with the background.
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I love my new apartment.
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Lemme tell you something, for the first time in my adult life, this space feels like mine.
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I just moved in like mid-November and I worked really, really hard to completely move in.
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I mean, I have hung all my art, all the art that I've been collecting over the years.
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Furniture, there's just so much color in this place.
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I'm obsessed.
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I've had a few friends come over and they're like.
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How do you have so much already done?
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It looks like you've been living here over a year.
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And I said, because after a year and a half of nonstop life change, I wanted to feel grounded.
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I deserved to feel grounded.
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So I busted ass, got this shit handled, and boom, here we go.
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So I'm, I'm not sure if I'm gonna get into everything right now.
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Honestly, I was really nervous just to start back the podcast and record.
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Let's not even discuss the amount of takes it took for me to get all of this set up.
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Took me a second, but she figured it out eventually.
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That's for sure.
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Um, I eventually, in the next couple of weeks to month or so, I wanna do a, a photo shoot, revamp the podcast again.
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I'm still me, but it's a newer version.
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You know, I've always been determined that I'm not gonna let life define me.
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You know what I mean?
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I am not made up of the things that have happened to me, I am a product of how I have handled the things that have happened to me, how I have navigated, how I have pulled myself up by the bootstraps when I was at my lowest low.
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How I have seen and continue to try and focus on the beauty and the lesson and whatever's going on.
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That's not to say that it's immediate.
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I definitely bitch, I definitely wallow and I definitely go, why me?
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Honestly, I talk about last year having so many life changes and constant curve balls and things like that, and they're still happening.
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I just had dental surgery last week.
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I'm like, okay, universe, when does all this stop?
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And the answer is, it doesn't.
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Life keeps Lifeing.
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What's the words of that All Star song?
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Well, the years start coming and they don't stop coming back to the road, and I hit the ground running.
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Okay, wow.
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Very proud of myself for remembering that, but it's true.
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Saying that all the time when I was a kid, never realizing what that truly meant.
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And now I'm living it.
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Life, be life.
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And it's always gonna be lifeing.
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But as I, I proved to myself last year many times over and over again, monthly, weekly, gosh, if not daily, and many times before that, I will be okay.
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I will get through because what have I always said?
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I can't bet on me who, who's going to?
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So I bet on myself that I would eventually get through whatever shit was going on.
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I was gonna get through this health stuff and I was gonna get back on this podcast.
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'cause just because you got a break, it doesn't mean things are over.
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With the way society is nowadays.
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We're so used to instant gratification.
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You make a post, you get the likes, you get the comments, you get the reach, you get the satisfaction.
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I mean, Amazon delivery will deliver it.
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Sometimes within hours we have become accustomed to instant, instant everything.
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So when life does happen, especially when you have to pause, it's unnerving.
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Some of us aren't really equipped to handle it.
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I mean, that's why I think I was running from, I don't be like running from the truth, but just running theoretically, metaphorically last year until life said, I'm gonna catch up with you and make you slow your ass down.
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And I'm finally at a place where I don't know what's next.
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and that's so freeing for me.
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It was one thing after another, this decision, this, this, that.
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And again, I'm not saying that there's not stuff going on in my life.
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Of course.
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'cause again, what's the theme?
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Life life's.
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But for the first time in a very, very long time, I feel like I have a blank slate.
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It's just me, myself, and I, my choices, my decisions, my dreams, my pursuits, my goals.
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And that is so freeing.
00:20:11.151 --> 00:20:18.711
I remember back in like the earlier days of the podcast, I would talk about the unknown and how there is power stepping into that.
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There is power in the free fall.
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It's unnerving, especially if you're a control freak, especially if you like things being planned, is power in the unknown and I was not even prepared for what it would feel like when I was fully stepping into a period of who knows what's gonna happen.
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I'm in control of my fate.
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I'm relying on no one but myself.
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And that's exciting.
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It's scary, don't get me wrong'cause I don't know what I'm doing.
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I mean, this episode could be amazing.
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This episode could suck.
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I have no idea.
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It's a little all over the place.
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And I even journaled out what I was gonna write and I'm just like, you know, tears it up.
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I have no idea, but I'm showing up as me.
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I'm showing up as Elizabeth, and that's so exciting.
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Again, I don't know what's next.
00:21:06.637 --> 00:21:08.077
I'm gonna put out some episodes.
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I'm gonna get my networking going.
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But I'm just riding the ride, figuring out as I go and as I get back into it, as I pursue this and pursue that, of course I'm gonna get more.
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Curated, so to speak.
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I'm gonna get more polished, but I could sit here and obsess over trying to make something perfect, or I could just show up, kick it with you guys and chat like how it used to feel.
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But there's something different now.
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I truly feel authentically myself.
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I have nothing to hide.
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So on that note, let's address a few things that caught my interest over the year of 2025, and then I'll give you a little insight into what to expect from the InBetween podcast over the next couple of weeks, months or so, and just remind you that I'm really happy you're here.
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I promise I'm not gonna abandon you again.
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And I mean it this time.
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I know I might come off a little bit as an unreliable narrator, given how I was like, I'm gonna be back and then I disappear.
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Then I come back and I disappear.
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But I'm really here now.
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All right, so I already said I'm not gonna get into the politics of 2025.
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We all know where I stand on that.
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It has absolutely sucked.
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And for the sake of my mental health, I had to stick my head in the dirt.
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It wasn't that I wasn't informed, but I also could not handle the amount of content around the disaster that is politics in America, especially, let alone on a global scale.
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Knowledge is power.
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I agree, but also it is a lot and it's overwhelming.
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Like I said, I don't wanna get into it.
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I just felt like it would be disingenuine not to at least address the dumpster fire that is American politics at the moment.
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So this is me acknowledging that.
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And now we're gonna move on.
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All right?
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Because this is a happy podcast.
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And as I've mentioned, there's just so much shit out there.
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We are gonna take this time to enjoy ourselves, be at peace, be entertained, be empowered.
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Words.
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I've used multiple times already.
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I feel like I'm on repeat.
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Maybe I am in a robot state.
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Just kidding.
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But.
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This is a safe space.
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This is where we can just let loose talk about life and not worry about what's going on the outside because Lord knows we're gonna be flushed with information about it.
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couple things that I would love to call out in terms of pop culture that really resonated with me last year.
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One K-Pop Demon Hunters.
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I know what you're thinking.
00:23:40.983 --> 00:23:42.784
What the heck is K-Pop demon hunters.
00:23:42.784 --> 00:23:53.933
If you've been living under a rock and you haven't heard of it, I remember when my friend Lisa first texted me and our friend Rachel, and she was like, have you guys watched K-Pop Demon Hunters?
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And I'm like, what?
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That, that sounds like an anime show.
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Lisa is also a mother to two small children.
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So I'm thinking this must be some kind of kid thing.
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And I'm like, uh, Lisa, no.
00:24:04.648 --> 00:24:06.538
I have not watched K-Pop demon hunters.
00:24:06.598 --> 00:24:08.219
Uh, that sounds ridiculous.
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I have other things to do.
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She was like, no, you have to watch this movie.
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Not only are the, is the music so catchy, but the messaging, oh my gosh, I'm in my feels.
00:24:16.709 --> 00:24:21.388
So we had a full girls' night revolving around K-pop demon hunters.
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Well, let me tell you, that movie not just slapped the music was incredible.
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I work out to it all the time, but the storyline, oh my God, it was so good.
00:24:34.571 --> 00:24:35.652
It was so healing.
00:24:35.801 --> 00:24:41.652
It's all about you're swearing your scars, proudly loving every piece of you, even the dark parts of you.
00:24:42.342 --> 00:24:45.162
There's like this whole song at the end that's like super epic.
00:24:45.162 --> 00:24:45.731
Of course.
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And it's about like the lies we tell ourselves are that they're lies.
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Oh my gosh, it was so deep and I'm like, this damn cartoon has got me crying on top of all the girl power themes in it.
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Oh my gosh.
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So I highly recommend if you have not seen K-Pop demon hunters, it is worth your while.
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It may have the most ridiculous name, but it is absolutely a slam dunk.
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It's a banger.
00:25:10.737 --> 00:25:11.457
It's incredible.
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Highly recommend.
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I spent Tuesdays watching Dancing With the Stars, with my, my mother and my grandmother because my mom and nana live together.
00:25:19.804 --> 00:25:23.284
Uh,'cause my nana, you know, her health isn't doing too, too hot.
00:25:23.284 --> 00:25:27.334
So my mom makes sure she's good and takes care of her along with my aunt.
00:25:27.621 --> 00:25:30.861
but Tuesdays we're dancing with the stars so obsessed.
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Definitely still a goal of mine to be on there one day eventually.
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Like, can you not envision it?
00:25:35.381 --> 00:25:38.050
Elizabeth Cheney podcaster.
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Obviously I'd have to be humungo to be on Dancing With the Stars as a podcaster, but you never know.
00:25:43.405 --> 00:25:44.036
You never know.
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Plus, this year I'm gonna get into public speaking.
00:25:47.256 --> 00:25:49.685
I'm gonna do all the things that I said I was gonna do last year.
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And then life was like, actually, we have other plans for you.
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You need some lessons, you need some things to learn.
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I'm not gonna digress down that path'cause I had just rambled about that for however many minutes before this.
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Anyways, dancing with the Stars was amazing.
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I got into basketball.
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I know.
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Big surprise there.
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Big surprise there.
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I'm a theater kid.
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Okay.
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I was never a sports person.
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When someone asked me, what sports did you play growing up?
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I'm like, I didn't.
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I box stepped.
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Jazz fingered or jazz hand.
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I don't know.
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That sounded very, very weird, but you know what I mean.
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I performed.
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That's what I did.
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Okay.
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I didn't play sports other than like this two week basketball camp my mom forced me to go to when I was 13, and it was miserable.
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I jammed every single finger.
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They had to type my fingers.
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Oh my God, I was so embarrassing.
00:26:37.921 --> 00:26:39.181
I had like crab claws.
00:26:39.240 --> 00:26:41.747
I kid you not, oh God.
00:26:42.106 --> 00:26:46.037
I'm getting like triggers, thinking about just how awkward and embarrassing that was.
00:26:46.217 --> 00:26:50.267
I got most improved player at the end of the camp because I was tall and I could block really well.
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But trust me, there was no baskets being made and there was no dribbling really to happen.
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I just was like, get outta the way.
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I got crap claws for hands, but all jokes aside, somehow my super sports loving mother.
00:27:05.182 --> 00:27:06.922
Convinced me to be a Hawks fan.
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Hawks are Atlanta's basketball professional basketball team.
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But really it actually started with the Atlanta Dream, which is Atlanta's WNBA team, which is the women's team.
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'cause they were really crushing it and you know, women power love that.
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And she was like, we should go to a dream game.
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And I'm like, fine for you, Cindy.
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I'll go.
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Let's do this.
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Had a blast.
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The energy was so great.
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Also, the Atlanta Dream is amazing.
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Okay.
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I was loving it.
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It was so much fun that.
00:27:32.872 --> 00:27:34.731
Progressed into being a Hawks fan.
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My mom got season tickets.
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She's like, Hey, do you wanna go?
00:27:37.942 --> 00:27:40.551
I'll get you this sick jersey so you can match everybody.
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I know.
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I'm like a poser.
00:27:42.082 --> 00:27:43.612
I'm like, yeah, I like basketball.
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Literally.
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This is the first game I've ever watched in my entire life.
00:27:46.632 --> 00:27:50.771
However, little did I know I was gonna become a fan.
00:27:51.221 --> 00:27:53.501
I was screaming, I was hooting, I was hollering.
00:27:53.501 --> 00:27:54.642
I knew what was happening.
00:27:54.761 --> 00:27:55.932
I have favorite players.
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I know their names.
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Working on understanding stats.
00:27:59.531 --> 00:28:00.011
Just kidding.
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I mean, you kind of naturally, as you, you know, watch a sport, I think you just start to pick up on things.
00:28:06.251 --> 00:28:09.912
Don't worry, I'm not like Wikipedia stats for players.
00:28:10.061 --> 00:28:25.461
However, I would consider myself a little Hawks fan and you know, when I thought I was becoming a Braves fan, really that was just more of a bandwagon thing when they were winning the World Series in 2021, which, that was still really cool and I enjoyed that.
00:28:26.481 --> 00:28:37.241
But after sitting through many Braves games over the past couple of years and having now sat through, I don't even know, like four or five Hawks games at this point, three or four Dream Games basketball is so much more fun to watch.
00:28:38.201 --> 00:28:40.541
But keep in mind, I will never be a football fan.
00:28:40.751 --> 00:28:44.172
I am confident in that that shit is boring.
00:28:44.501 --> 00:28:46.241
I don't understand why it's so popular.
00:28:46.487 --> 00:28:48.797
I don't know, but I'm not gonna be a football fan.
00:28:49.166 --> 00:28:52.287
I'm sure you didn't expect for the in-between to become a sports podcast?
00:28:52.467 --> 00:28:53.156
I'm really not.
00:28:53.217 --> 00:28:55.646
I'm talking about new me, how I evolved, how I've grown.
00:28:55.916 --> 00:28:56.366
Well guess what?
00:28:56.366 --> 00:28:57.086
Now I like sports.
00:28:57.477 --> 00:28:57.507
Oh.
00:28:59.096 --> 00:28:59.727
so there's that.
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Cool times, fun times.
00:29:01.856 --> 00:29:02.787
We love that for us.
00:29:03.536 --> 00:29:06.266
Uh, the final season of Stranger Things aired this year.
00:29:06.609 --> 00:29:06.650
Actually.
00:29:06.710 --> 00:29:08.144
It just like finished airing.
00:29:08.375 --> 00:29:09.815
I will not give any spoilers.
00:29:10.474 --> 00:29:16.174
The one point I wanna make is there's been a lot of discord on the internet about, oh, the season sucked.
00:29:16.234 --> 00:29:16.865
Me, me, me, me, me.
00:29:17.974 --> 00:29:18.694
I loved it.
00:29:19.535 --> 00:29:20.884
I loved it.
00:29:21.065 --> 00:29:24.275
I boohooed like a absolute baby at the end.
00:29:24.525 --> 00:29:25.484
Holy moly.
00:29:25.694 --> 00:29:27.404
It was so emotional.
00:29:27.674 --> 00:29:38.115
Um, I think there were a lot of things coming up for myself personally, from the year where I was 10 years ago when the Showe first aired, all the journey and adventures.
00:29:38.115 --> 00:29:40.005
I'd been on myself this past year.
00:29:40.664 --> 00:29:44.565
Let's just say I was, I was crying more than just what was happening on the show.
00:29:45.224 --> 00:29:50.924
But the point I'm trying to make is all the people coming after the show eat dirt.
00:29:51.045 --> 00:29:53.265
It was so good, in my opinion.
00:29:53.865 --> 00:30:03.194
Sure, there was some pacing issues, but overall I thought it was a beautiful closure to the story and it closed everyone's story up with a nice little bow, and I freaking loved it.
00:30:03.464 --> 00:30:03.884
Okay.
00:30:04.335 --> 00:30:04.904
Am I bummed?
00:30:04.904 --> 00:30:05.565
It's over?
00:30:05.805 --> 00:30:06.255
Yeah.
00:30:06.615 --> 00:30:08.714
But also it was a great sendoff.
00:30:08.865 --> 00:30:13.994
I feel like I got everything that I needed, so I love Stranger Things.
00:30:14.345 --> 00:30:17.525
Definitely not a hater and y'all just need to chill the hell out.
00:30:18.221 --> 00:30:20.740
And then the last bit of pop culture that I want to bring up.
00:30:21.280 --> 00:30:23.305
Is heated rivalry.
00:30:23.567 --> 00:30:26.958
If you're not sure what heated rivalry is, let me just give you a hint.
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It is about a gay romance between professional hockey players.
00:30:32.914 --> 00:30:34.384
I'm gonna go ahead and put this out there.
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Do not watch this with young children.
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It is not safe for work.
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I repeat not safe for work, to be honest, I would probably categorize it as soft p0rn.
00:30:45.101 --> 00:30:58.151
The first two episodes I was like, oh my God, the writing was a little cheesy for my take, but then by episode three, oh my gosh, the plot started plotting and it got so good, so deep, so beautiful.
00:30:58.840 --> 00:31:00.070
I was crying at the end.
00:31:00.681 --> 00:31:07.431
There's been a lot of discussion about why do so many, like straight women love this show so much.
00:31:08.270 --> 00:31:17.421
And to be honest, it's because it's just this beautiful love story of acceptance and being yourself and being genuine.
00:31:17.631 --> 00:31:35.181
Like the season finale doesn't have some crazy big pull out, twist doesn't have some big reveal moment necessarily other than, well, I guess spoiler alert, uh, the one guy kind of coming out to his parents and I say kind of, I mean full launch, full sin coming out to his parents.
00:31:35.181 --> 00:31:37.131
They kinda catch him with his, his lover.
00:31:37.851 --> 00:31:41.765
But there was no dramatic showing.
00:31:41.765 --> 00:31:56.351
It was just these two people who fell in love and getting to exist without games, without bullshit, just being themself vulnerable, authentic.
00:31:56.724 --> 00:32:06.693
And I think now that I'm kind of going down this route, I realize I probably should have better prepared this, but, it's no surprise that modern dating sucks a lot.
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You see the articles, having a boyfriend is not cool anymore.
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Emotionally available people, no one wants to be really themselves.
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Everyone's just hiding behind their phone or this or that.
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Dating apps make things more accessible, so you're always looking out for what could be better.
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I mean, I've read it all, I've seen it all, whatever.
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in the midst of all of that, on top of, you know, the world being on fire, to see this beautiful raw story between two people that.
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Were hiding their loved and, not just accepted for each other, but from their family and, to be chosen.
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It was just so beautiful.
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It was so full.
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It was so emotionally stable, for lack of better words.
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So I feel like the reason why so many straight women were like, oh my God, he did rivalry is'cause we are looking for that ourselves.
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I know this is more than just straight women.
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I think anybody searching for love, anybody wanting companionship, partnership, trying to find their person.
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Like that's what you're looking for.
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To be chosen, to be seen, to be accepted.
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For everything that you are.
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I mean, shit, if I had a dollar for every time I was told and or was made to feel that I was too much, I would be rich as hell right now.
00:33:19.974 --> 00:33:33.055
And you know, now that I'm saying all this, it's a perfect way to come back full circle and talk about self-worth and how that was ultimately the big journey that I was on last year was the pursuit of self, self-worth.
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How does that fall in line with self-love?
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How do I navigate this?
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How do I define this?
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What are boundaries?
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Lots of healing.
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Lots of shedding.
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You're of the snake, so if you're into very sexualized shows, but a damn good plot and storyline, highly recommend heated rivalry if you are one of the many, many, many people who thought stranger things sucked.
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Don't at me, I don't care.
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But if you loved it, would love to tuck your head off because I've got lots of thoughts and feelings on it.
00:34:04.984 --> 00:34:10.592
So there's a few highlights from the year to wrap all of this up, let's look ahead.
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What's the in-between got no pressure.
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I am coming into this.
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I'm getting reacclimated., I'm getting back in the routine of this, that consistency that I talked about earlier, but like I said, I'm not abandoning you and I will not abandon you.
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I promise you, you are gonna have consistent episodes moving forward.
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I have all the guests that I recorded last year, some great content coming at you, which I'm gonna slowly start to release over the next couple of weeks to a month or so.
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And then we're gonna talk about things like self-worth, navigating that fine line between boundaries and what you deserve, and also meeting people, compromising.
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There might be some elements of like romance, you know what I mean?
00:34:52.916 --> 00:34:55.436
Like dating, modern dating, all of that.
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But I am gonna try to.
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Not make it broad because we gotta have topics and I gotta talk about what I'm experiencing, the authenticity of life, right?
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Self-love.
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Self-worth, who we are, what we deserve.
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Pursuing your dreams, doing the damn thing, putting yourself out there.
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I mean, to be honest, I feel slightly cringe.
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I may have already even already mentioned that, but I of course have already blacked out the first half of this recording because like, holy moly, I'm doing the damn thing.
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It's been a minute, but continue to put yourself out there.
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Believe in your shit.
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Your shit's cool, your dream, your art, your pursuit, your idea, your product, whatever it is that you are sitting on or maybe you aren't even sitting on.
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Maybe you've already kind of put something out there.
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It's worth it.
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It's needed.
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It's cool.
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I don't care if there's 20 other podcasts about self-love.
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They're not me.
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In the same vein, there's only one you in.
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Whatever it is you're pursuing.
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And you don't even have to necessarily have it like a side hustle or like an entrepreneurial thing.
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It could be you pursuing a family.
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It could be you pursuing a promotion.
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It could be you pursuing, I don't know, a new complicated recipe that you're trying to impress your in-laws with.
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I have no idea.
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don't forget, there's one you and that makes whatever it is you're doing special and important and necessary, we need it.
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I don't even have to know you to know that we need it.
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Alright.
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So thank you for welcoming.
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Oh my god, I cannot say that word.
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Welcoming me back.
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Wow.
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Say that five times fast.
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Welcoming me back, welcoming me back.
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I don't even think I can say that.
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Wow.
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That's a lot of syllables.
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Thank you for welcoming me back.
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We'll get it out eventually.
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Oh my goodness.
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I'm so happy to be here.
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I enjoy being cringe.
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I enjoy putting myself out there.
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I enjoy the imposter syndrome that comes with it.
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I enjoy feeling like I'm gonna throw up.
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Just kidding.
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No one enjoys that.
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But I enjoy this.
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This is just the beginning, but she's back.
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But on that note, I think it's time for me to go.
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I hope you've enjoyed this episode.
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I hope you recognize that.
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This is gonna be our year babes.
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Like this is gonna be a great year.
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And I know I always say time is, a manmade concept.
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It's not real.
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You make up your own time.
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I also kind of feel like the new year really starts in March.
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'cause everything's dead right now.
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So March is when springtime starts to roll around and things start to be reborn.
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But whatever New year, new me, new you, even if it's like you didn't have any crazy life, life change, chances are you still went through some stuff and you're here standing and that is freaking awesome.
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I love that.
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So what's the spiel at the end?
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If you're not doing so already, you can follow me on Instagram at Elizabeth Cheney, which is my personal, so that's where all my life updates, day to day things going on, me just venting, riffing, whatever the heck being awkward, silly, weird.
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You'll find that there.
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And then the podcast, Instagram is in dot between pod.
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You can follow me on TikTok at the InBetween podcast and YouTube at the in between podcast where you can watch this video And.
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Make your own judgment on how awkward I look and seem, because it's been a minute since I was on this thing.
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Oh, I digress.
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But if you did enjoy this episode, please share this with a friend.
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Share it with your neighbor, share it with your coworker, share it with your family member.
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Heck, if you really, really feel entitled, I would love a review.
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Uh, you can do that on Apple Podcast, Spotify, wherever you get your podcast.
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And, uh, just remember.
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You're worth it.
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All right.
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All right.
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I'm gonna go, I feel like I'm getting kind of silly.
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Also, I'm ravenously hungry, so I'm gonna jet, but I will see you not next week because this episode comes out on a Friday and this is like the big return.
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So the week after next, I'll be back with an all new episode and a special guest.
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Until then, I'm your host, Elizabeth Cheney.
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Talk to you soon.
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Bye.
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hello.
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Hello.
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Welcome back to the podcast.
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I know this is real.
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I repeat, this is real.
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This is not a drill.
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Your girl, Elizabeth is back.
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Welcome to what I'm calling season two of the InBetween.
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It only seemed fitting to give it a new season because, well, I'm not really the same version of me that you last met.
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I'm not trying to be like, oh, I am so changed.
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Uh, you know, it's about self discovery, the pursuit of self, which to be honest, is just a continuous flow of lesson after lesson after lesson.
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That's what I'm learning.
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But I'm bumps, see what I did there.
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But I am a more, I was gonna say nuanced version of myself, and that sounded super weird.
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But I'm definitely more involved.
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I'm definitely different.
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I mean, heck, I look back at who I was a year ago, January, 2025, versus the version of me in February and March and April, may, June, July.
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All the months.
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I feel like I went through so much life change, so much evolution, so much growth, healing.
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Speed bumps, life curve balls, all of the things.
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Every month was a different version of myself.
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And then toward the end of the year or, or really when I kind of just let you guys on red, uh, I was basically crashing out.
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I was completely lost.
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I finally was forced to slow down after I sold my house and faced the reality that I was maybe not okay.
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Maybe the whole or surviving thing, um, had taken a little bit of a toll.
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And then my life imploded because all this health stuff happened.
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There is so much to talk about.
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But the first thing I wanna address is I am sorry for abandoning you.
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I know I talked about, I'm gonna come back, I'm gonna do it for two weeks.
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I got all these episodes I recorded before I moved outta my house.
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Well, guess what?
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I still have those episodes and they're freaking amazing.
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They're gonna come out.
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But I just kinda got up and left and sometimes that's what you have to do to take care of you.
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2025 was a year, was a year, I'll just lemme just start there.
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It was a year.
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Okay.
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Not just for me personally, some of the highest highs and then low lows, that gutted me to my core, but it was also quite the year.
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Politically.
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Uh, let's see, professionally, how many other words can we say that starts with a P?
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Personally, politically.
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Professionally, anything else?
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What am I thinking of here?
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I don't know.
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Pop, culturey.
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There we go.
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Yeah, pop.
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Culturally, all that.
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Just say it's been a year and The point I'm trying to make is life.
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Life.
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And I had to take a beat.
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I guess you can say I had to surrender.
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Surrender to what was going on at the moment.
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Surrender on my journey, surrender to the path because I was going through so much life change and like I said, some high highs, some low lows, but when it all kind of came crashing down on me and I could no longer run from, not to be dramatic, but the truth that your girl needed to chill out and needed to just, I don't know, visualize someone just like floating through space.
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Like, oh, like that's kind of where I was with things.
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I just needed to be still and process my emotions, process what was going on, and then deal with all of the life shit that started hitting me all at once.
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I got diagnosed with a bunch of health things.
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Um, when it rains, it pours.
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They say, I got diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder.
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Hello Thyroid.
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Let me tell you something.
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Your thyroid is quite an interesting organ muscle.
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What is it?
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I guess an organ.
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I don't really know actually now that I say that.
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But from my autoimmune disorder, I got diagnosed with a rare disease.
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40% of the people that have the autoimmune that I have also get this rare disease in your eye.
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Fun things, fun times.
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So it was one thing after another.
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Uh, all of these diagnoses required multiple providers, multiple healthcare professionals.
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Work was crazy.
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I just crashed out.
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I crashed out and I already could tell with the podcast that I was struggling.
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I didn't feel like I was showing up as my true, authentic self.
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It's still me'cause I'll be honest, I'm an extrovert.
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Extrovert.
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I know how to turn it on.
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I know how to go.
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I know how to perform.
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I know how to bring it.
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But there was something inside that just wasn't resonating, and I knew that I could try to honestly just keep pushing myself, kill myself to do this, put it out there, push myself to keep putting out content that I wasn't really in love with and wasn't really believing in.
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Or I could just take a freaking beat and figure out what I needed to focus on in my life, which at the time it was health and honestly just being still something that I had been running from all year.
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So this was all around like August.
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It was like pretty much right after the last episode, which I think came out in July, but anyways, I knew I'd always return because this is something I'm very passionate about.
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It feels kind of silly to be like, I'm passionate about my podcast.
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It's not so much the podcast, but it's the connection.
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It's the ability to perform in a way, but perform not as a character, but as myself.
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What you see on this podcast, what you hear, this is me, IRL.
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This is me in person in real life, talking to my friends, talking to my coworkers, talking to my family.
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It's a way for me to show up authentically and hopefully entertain you, hopefully brighten your day, maybe even teach you a thing or two, and maybe if I'm lucky, show you why it's important to love yourself, why it's important to choose yourself.
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I feel like 2025 was all about me asking the question, what does choosing me look like in any scenario?
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How do I navigate the line of self-love and romantic love, like pursuing romantic love?
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That's where that term self-worth came to be.
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Started learning a lot about that.
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Come to find out, it's not that I didn't have low self-worth, but I had some room for improvement.
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But to be honest, if I didn't have such a strong foundation of self-love, which I know I, I, that's a huge pillar here, something I preach about all the time.
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If I didn't love myself enough to, to meet me where I was at, didn't love myself enough to evolve and, and grow from where I was at, love myself enough to say, Ooh, I felt icky on the inside.
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I need to work on some boundaries.
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I need to work on what I deserve, recognizing what I deserve, realizing what I deserve, and not just in romantic pursuits, but in life.
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And rest.
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That was a big thing because I was go, go, go, go, go.
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'cause it was life thing after life thing.
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And I wanna be honest, like it took me a while to accept that things were not all great, things were not all good because I mean, I was traveling the world.
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I have the best friends anyone could ever ask for that helped support me when I was low and uplift me and go on adventures.
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And I have the best mom, like I just have the best mom who has been by my side throughout all of this entire journey of life and choices and decisions and growth and all of it.
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I didn't think I was allowed to be sad.
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I wasn't allowed to sit back and go, damn, I think I've been surviving.
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Maybe that's part of it.
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When you're in survival mode, you don't really realize it necessarily.
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'cause you're in this fight or flight and your anxiety is so used to running a certain way.
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Your body's so used to working at a high level and I'm already a high achiever.
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I already do a lot.
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It's like just part of my personality, hello in Agram three.
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But I didn't take the time to step back and say, whoa, whoa, whoa, girlfriend, let's, let's rest.
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And not only rest, but give myself permission that it was okay to do that.
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Whew.
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Who can relate to that?
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That was a big lesson and unfortunately it took life crashing down on me.
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Crashing out, if you will, for me to finally accept that.
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I wish I could say that after all the health stuff happened.
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And then it was like, okay, lemme schedule this appointment, schedule this appointment, schedule this appointment.
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You know, I'd probably, I I, I'd start to get to that point of Russ, but no, no, I, I was still living in this hamster wheel frame of thought that gotta keep going, gotta keep going.
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I don't, I I, I, I can't stop.
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'cause at the time I sold the house, I moved back in with my mom temporarily and I remember she'd make comments like, oh, if you stay here for a few months and you, you know, get, get on your feet, get a new place.
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And I was like, oh hell no.
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I'm not gonna live with my mother at 34 for more than a month.
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I ended up staying there for like three months, three and a half months I needed it.
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cause once all the health stuff started happening and I was in, in the flow of getting care and trying to get the right medication and doing this and doing that, it started to creep up on me that I wasn't doing so hot.
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I was actually.
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I was really struggling.
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I don't know if I fully slipped into depression maybe.
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I mean, depression has many layers to it.
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It's not necessarily black or white, but what is life except all gray?
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And I had to accept that I was lost.
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So all that to say, I had to stop the podcast because I couldn't even tell you who is Elizabeth Cheney?
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I was still the version of me that you have come to know and love.
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But there was also a new part of that that I hadn't quite reached yet or accepted.
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But I was still holding onto the old version of me because in my head I thought to myself.
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I worked so hard for this.
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I went through a major depression years ago.
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I found the, the power of self-love.
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I found myself, blah, blah, blah.
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When I checked in with myself, I, I realized when was the last time you felt your intuition?
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When was the last time you felt connected to yourself?
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When was the last time that you just didn't feel like you were burning the candle at both ends, despite all the high highs and the adventures you'd been on and experiences you'd already had?
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The first thing I wanna say with coming back is sometimes we have to stop.
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But clearly, as you witness now, that doesn't mean you won't come back.
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That doesn't mean the dream is dead.
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That doesn't mean your motivation, your goals are no longer there.
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You're no longer thinking about them.
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And you know, when I first launched this podcast, I struggled with imposter syndrome.
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Who doesn't nowadays, but am I good enough?
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Am I gonna be successful?
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I had all these weird kind of overly ambitious expectations for me just beginning and I had to learn.
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That is not the way this works.
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One, you gotta find your voice.
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Two, you gotta learn just all the things that go with this.
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Three, you gotta stay committed because success with this comes after a while.
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Unless like you were on a reality TV show or on just on a TV show in general, you are a nobody.
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You gotta build your audience, you gotta build your brand, so to speak.
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And so in the beginning I used to have so much anxiety about if I, I didn't pound an episode every week because I read consistency was the most important thing.
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So I was hell Ben, on being consistent.
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I was gonna put on an episode every week.
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I was gonna do this and do that and put myself out there.
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And eventually doing this podcast for a year plus it finally started to hit me.
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I am being consistent.
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I just need to trust myself more.
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So building trust within myself with my goals, my dreams, my motivations, all of the things that I wanna achieve in this life.
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I held onto that, which is why I was able to walk away when I needed to take care of me and just focus on my life and focus on getting to the next chapter, the next step, the next place, figuring out why I felt so lost, reconnecting with myself.
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so I just wanna say for anyone listening, life happens.
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Maybe you can keep pursuing your thing when life is lifeing.
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There's definitely been times over the past couple of years since I've been doing the podcast where life lived and I kept it moving.
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Think about when Luna passed.
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That was not okay.
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One of the most devastating periods of my life, but I kept doing it, kept showing up.
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I.
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I think there is power and strength in recognizing that showing up is not the move because how can I show up for this podcast that is all about authenticity and being me and getting deep and being silly and weird, and hopefully making you laugh if not laughing at me versus with me.
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You know what I mean?
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If I didn't know who I was at the time, I have never felt so disconnected from myself, especially given all of the work and and self-discovery I've done over the past few years.
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I felt like my life was consumed with doctor's appointments.
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I felt like I was a shell of a person.
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My inner narrative was not kind.
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So how could I show up on this podcast with a smile on my face that honestly, I don't even know if it would've been genuine trying to be Elizabeth Cheney, host of the in-Between podcast when, when I was just floating through space, they say 2025 was the year of the snake Chinese New Year.
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I think that's where it comes from.
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And a snake is all about shedding its skin, being born a new right regenerating itself.
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That is exactly what 2025 was for me.
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I had to shed the old version of me.
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Step into the new skin, the new life, the new timeline, the new everything.
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And the catch is I'm still me.
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I'm just an evolved version.
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And that was the lesson I learned in those few months living at home where I had to let go and surrender to life and figure out what the fuck is going on.
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So I'm back.
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I feel more like myself than I have.
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Do I be dramatic and say forever or do I be more humble and say in a very long time?
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Either way, I'm back and I am me.
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I'm different.
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Not quite the same, but I think there's beauty in that because,, I personally believe we're always evolving.
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We should always be growing.
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But the point is, I'm here.
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I've got so many stories to share.
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I've had so many experiences, I don't even know where to begin.
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And who knows, maybe, maybe this episode is just a reintroduction back to myself.
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Back to the podcast.
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I know I'm gonna have new listeners.
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I know I'm gonna have new guests.
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I've got a new place, as you can see with the background.
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I love my new apartment.
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Lemme tell you something, for the first time in my adult life, this space feels like mine.
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I just moved in like mid-November and I worked really, really hard to completely move in.
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I mean, I have hung all my art, all the art that I've been collecting over the years.
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Furniture, there's just so much color in this place.
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I'm obsessed.
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I've had a few friends come over and they're like.
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How do you have so much already done?
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It looks like you've been living here over a year.
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And I said, because after a year and a half of nonstop life change, I wanted to feel grounded.
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I deserved to feel grounded.
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So I busted ass, got this shit handled, and boom, here we go.
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So I'm, I'm not sure if I'm gonna get into everything right now.
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Honestly, I was really nervous just to start back the podcast and record.
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Let's not even discuss the amount of takes it took for me to get all of this set up.
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Took me a second, but she figured it out eventually.
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That's for sure.
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Um, I eventually, in the next couple of weeks to month or so, I wanna do a, a photo shoot, revamp the podcast again.
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I'm still me, but it's a newer version.
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You know, I've always been determined that I'm not gonna let life define me.
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You know what I mean?
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I am not made up of the things that have happened to me, I am a product of how I have handled the things that have happened to me, how I have navigated, how I have pulled myself up by the bootstraps when I was at my lowest low.
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How I have seen and continue to try and focus on the beauty and the lesson and whatever's going on.
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That's not to say that it's immediate.
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I definitely bitch, I definitely wallow and I definitely go, why me?
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Honestly, I talk about last year having so many life changes and constant curve balls and things like that, and they're still happening.
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I just had dental surgery last week.
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I'm like, okay, universe, when does all this stop?
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And the answer is, it doesn't.
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Life keeps Lifeing.
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What's the words of that All Star song?
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Well, the years start coming and they don't stop coming back to the road, and I hit the ground running.
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Okay, wow.
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Very proud of myself for remembering that, but it's true.
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Saying that all the time when I was a kid, never realizing what that truly meant.
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And now I'm living it.
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Life, be life.
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And it's always gonna be lifeing.
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But as I, I proved to myself last year many times over and over again, monthly, weekly, gosh, if not daily, and many times before that, I will be okay.
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I will get through because what have I always said?
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I can't bet on me who, who's going to?
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So I bet on myself that I would eventually get through whatever shit was going on.
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I was gonna get through this health stuff and I was gonna get back on this podcast.
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'cause just because you got a break, it doesn't mean things are over.
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With the way society is nowadays.
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We're so used to instant gratification.
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You make a post, you get the likes, you get the comments, you get the reach, you get the satisfaction.
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I mean, Amazon delivery will deliver it.
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Sometimes within hours we have become accustomed to instant, instant everything.
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So when life does happen, especially when you have to pause, it's unnerving.
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Some of us aren't really equipped to handle it.
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I mean, that's why I think I was running from, I don't be like running from the truth, but just running theoretically, metaphorically last year until life said, I'm gonna catch up with you and make you slow your ass down.
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And I'm finally at a place where I don't know what's next.
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and that's so freeing for me.
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It was one thing after another, this decision, this, this, that.
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And again, I'm not saying that there's not stuff going on in my life.
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Of course.
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'cause again, what's the theme?
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Life life's.
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But for the first time in a very, very long time, I feel like I have a blank slate.
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It's just me, myself, and I, my choices, my decisions, my dreams, my pursuits, my goals.
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And that is so freeing.
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I remember back in like the earlier days of the podcast, I would talk about the unknown and how there is power stepping into that.
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There is power in the free fall.
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It's unnerving, especially if you're a control freak, especially if you like things being planned, is power in the unknown and I was not even prepared for what it would feel like when I was fully stepping into a period of who knows what's gonna happen.
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I'm in control of my fate.
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I'm relying on no one but myself.
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And that's exciting.
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It's scary, don't get me wrong'cause I don't know what I'm doing.
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I mean, this episode could be amazing.
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This episode could suck.
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I have no idea.
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It's a little all over the place.
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And I even journaled out what I was gonna write and I'm just like, you know, tears it up.
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I have no idea, but I'm showing up as me.
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I'm showing up as Elizabeth, and that's so exciting.
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Again, I don't know what's next.
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I'm gonna put out some episodes.
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I'm gonna get my networking going.
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But I'm just riding the ride, figuring out as I go and as I get back into it, as I pursue this and pursue that, of course I'm gonna get more.
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Curated, so to speak.
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I'm gonna get more polished, but I could sit here and obsess over trying to make something perfect, or I could just show up, kick it with you guys and chat like how it used to feel.
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But there's something different now.
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I truly feel authentically myself.
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I have nothing to hide.
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So on that note, let's address a few things that caught my interest over the year of 2025, and then I'll give you a little insight into what to expect from the InBetween podcast over the next couple of weeks, months or so, and just remind you that I'm really happy you're here.
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I promise I'm not gonna abandon you again.
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And I mean it this time.
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I know I might come off a little bit as an unreliable narrator, given how I was like, I'm gonna be back and then I disappear.
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Then I come back and I disappear.
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But I'm really here now.
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All right, so I already said I'm not gonna get into the politics of 2025.
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We all know where I stand on that.
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It has absolutely sucked.
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And for the sake of my mental health, I had to stick my head in the dirt.
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It wasn't that I wasn't informed, but I also could not handle the amount of content around the disaster that is politics in America, especially, let alone on a global scale.
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Knowledge is power.
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I agree, but also it is a lot and it's overwhelming.
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Like I said, I don't wanna get into it.
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I just felt like it would be disingenuine not to at least address the dumpster fire that is American politics at the moment.
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So this is me acknowledging that.
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And now we're gonna move on.
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All right?
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Because this is a happy podcast.
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And as I've mentioned, there's just so much shit out there.
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We are gonna take this time to enjoy ourselves, be at peace, be entertained, be empowered.
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Words.
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I've used multiple times already.
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I feel like I'm on repeat.
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Maybe I am in a robot state.
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Just kidding.
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But.
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This is a safe space.
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This is where we can just let loose talk about life and not worry about what's going on the outside because Lord knows we're gonna be flushed with information about it.
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couple things that I would love to call out in terms of pop culture that really resonated with me last year.
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One K-Pop Demon Hunters.
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I know what you're thinking.
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What the heck is K-Pop demon hunters.
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If you've been living under a rock and you haven't heard of it, I remember when my friend Lisa first texted me and our friend Rachel, and she was like, have you guys watched K-Pop Demon Hunters?
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And I'm like, what?
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That, that sounds like an anime show.
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Lisa is also a mother to two small children.
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So I'm thinking this must be some kind of kid thing.
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And I'm like, uh, Lisa, no.
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I have not watched K-Pop demon hunters.
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Uh, that sounds ridiculous.
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I have other things to do.
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She was like, no, you have to watch this movie.
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Not only are the, is the music so catchy, but the messaging, oh my gosh, I'm in my feels.
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So we had a full girls' night revolving around K-pop demon hunters.
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Well, let me tell you, that movie not just slapped the music was incredible.
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I work out to it all the time, but the storyline, oh my God, it was so good.
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It was so healing.
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It's all about you're swearing your scars, proudly loving every piece of you, even the dark parts of you.
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There's like this whole song at the end that's like super epic.
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Of course.
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And it's about like the lies we tell ourselves are that they're lies.
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Oh my gosh, it was so deep and I'm like, this damn cartoon has got me crying on top of all the girl power themes in it.
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Oh my gosh.
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So I highly recommend if you have not seen K-Pop demon hunters, it is worth your while.
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It may have the most ridiculous name, but it is absolutely a slam dunk.
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It's a banger.
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It's incredible.
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Highly recommend.
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I spent Tuesdays watching Dancing With the Stars, with my, my mother and my grandmother because my mom and nana live together.
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Uh,'cause my nana, you know, her health isn't doing too, too hot.
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So my mom makes sure she's good and takes care of her along with my aunt.
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but Tuesdays we're dancing with the stars so obsessed.
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Definitely still a goal of mine to be on there one day eventually.
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Like, can you not envision it?
00:25:35.381 --> 00:25:38.050
Elizabeth Cheney podcaster.
00:25:38.455 --> 00:25:43.346
Obviously I'd have to be humungo to be on Dancing With the Stars as a podcaster, but you never know.
00:25:43.405 --> 00:25:44.036
You never know.
00:25:44.036 --> 00:25:47.256
Plus, this year I'm gonna get into public speaking.
00:25:47.256 --> 00:25:49.685
I'm gonna do all the things that I said I was gonna do last year.
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And then life was like, actually, we have other plans for you.
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You need some lessons, you need some things to learn.
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I'm not gonna digress down that path'cause I had just rambled about that for however many minutes before this.
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Anyways, dancing with the Stars was amazing.
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I got into basketball.
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I know.
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Big surprise there.
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Big surprise there.
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I'm a theater kid.
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Okay.
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I was never a sports person.
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When someone asked me, what sports did you play growing up?
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I'm like, I didn't.
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I box stepped.
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Jazz fingered or jazz hand.
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I don't know.
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That sounded very, very weird, but you know what I mean.
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I performed.
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That's what I did.
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Okay.
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I didn't play sports other than like this two week basketball camp my mom forced me to go to when I was 13, and it was miserable.
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I jammed every single finger.
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They had to type my fingers.
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Oh my God, I was so embarrassing.
00:26:37.921 --> 00:26:39.181
I had like crab claws.
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I kid you not, oh God.
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I'm getting like triggers, thinking about just how awkward and embarrassing that was.
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I got most improved player at the end of the camp because I was tall and I could block really well.
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But trust me, there was no baskets being made and there was no dribbling really to happen.
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I just was like, get outta the way.
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I got crap claws for hands, but all jokes aside, somehow my super sports loving mother.
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Convinced me to be a Hawks fan.
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Hawks are Atlanta's basketball professional basketball team.
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But really it actually started with the Atlanta Dream, which is Atlanta's WNBA team, which is the women's team.
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'cause they were really crushing it and you know, women power love that.
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And she was like, we should go to a dream game.
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And I'm like, fine for you, Cindy.
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I'll go.
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Let's do this.
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Had a blast.
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The energy was so great.
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Also, the Atlanta Dream is amazing.
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Okay.
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I was loving it.
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It was so much fun that.
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Progressed into being a Hawks fan.
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My mom got season tickets.
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She's like, Hey, do you wanna go?
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I'll get you this sick jersey so you can match everybody.
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I know.
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I'm like a poser.
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I'm like, yeah, I like basketball.
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Literally.
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This is the first game I've ever watched in my entire life.
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However, little did I know I was gonna become a fan.
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I was screaming, I was hooting, I was hollering.
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I knew what was happening.
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I have favorite players.
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I know their names.
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Working on understanding stats.
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Just kidding.
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I mean, you kind of naturally, as you, you know, watch a sport, I think you just start to pick up on things.
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Don't worry, I'm not like Wikipedia stats for players.
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However, I would consider myself a little Hawks fan and you know, when I thought I was becoming a Braves fan, really that was just more of a bandwagon thing when they were winning the World Series in 2021, which, that was still really cool and I enjoyed that.
00:28:26.481 --> 00:28:37.241
But after sitting through many Braves games over the past couple of years and having now sat through, I don't even know, like four or five Hawks games at this point, three or four Dream Games basketball is so much more fun to watch.
00:28:38.201 --> 00:28:40.541
But keep in mind, I will never be a football fan.
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I am confident in that that shit is boring.
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I don't understand why it's so popular.
00:28:46.487 --> 00:28:48.797
I don't know, but I'm not gonna be a football fan.
00:28:49.166 --> 00:28:52.287
I'm sure you didn't expect for the in-between to become a sports podcast?
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I'm really not.
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I'm talking about new me, how I evolved, how I've grown.
00:28:55.916 --> 00:28:56.366
Well guess what?
00:28:56.366 --> 00:28:57.086
Now I like sports.
00:28:57.477 --> 00:28:57.507
Oh.
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so there's that.
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Cool times, fun times.
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We love that for us.
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Uh, the final season of Stranger Things aired this year.
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Actually.
00:29:06.710 --> 00:29:08.144
It just like finished airing.
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I will not give any spoilers.
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The one point I wanna make is there's been a lot of discord on the internet about, oh, the season sucked.
00:29:16.234 --> 00:29:16.865
Me, me, me, me, me.
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I loved it.
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I loved it.
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I boohooed like a absolute baby at the end.
00:29:24.525 --> 00:29:25.484
Holy moly.
00:29:25.694 --> 00:29:27.404
It was so emotional.
00:29:27.674 --> 00:29:38.115
Um, I think there were a lot of things coming up for myself personally, from the year where I was 10 years ago when the Showe first aired, all the journey and adventures.
00:29:38.115 --> 00:29:40.005
I'd been on myself this past year.
00:29:40.664 --> 00:29:44.565
Let's just say I was, I was crying more than just what was happening on the show.
00:29:45.224 --> 00:29:50.924
But the point I'm trying to make is all the people coming after the show eat dirt.
00:29:51.045 --> 00:29:53.265
It was so good, in my opinion.
00:29:53.865 --> 00:30:03.194
Sure, there was some pacing issues, but overall I thought it was a beautiful closure to the story and it closed everyone's story up with a nice little bow, and I freaking loved it.
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Okay.
00:30:04.335 --> 00:30:04.904
Am I bummed?
00:30:04.904 --> 00:30:05.565
It's over?
00:30:05.805 --> 00:30:06.255
Yeah.
00:30:06.615 --> 00:30:08.714
But also it was a great sendoff.
00:30:08.865 --> 00:30:13.994
I feel like I got everything that I needed, so I love Stranger Things.
00:30:14.345 --> 00:30:17.525
Definitely not a hater and y'all just need to chill the hell out.
00:30:18.221 --> 00:30:20.740
And then the last bit of pop culture that I want to bring up.
00:30:21.280 --> 00:30:23.305
Is heated rivalry.
00:30:23.567 --> 00:30:26.958
If you're not sure what heated rivalry is, let me just give you a hint.
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It is about a gay romance between professional hockey players.
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I'm gonna go ahead and put this out there.
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Do not watch this with young children.
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It is not safe for work.
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I repeat not safe for work, to be honest, I would probably categorize it as soft p0rn.
00:30:45.101 --> 00:30:58.151
The first two episodes I was like, oh my God, the writing was a little cheesy for my take, but then by episode three, oh my gosh, the plot started plotting and it got so good, so deep, so beautiful.
00:30:58.840 --> 00:31:00.070
I was crying at the end.
00:31:00.681 --> 00:31:07.431
There's been a lot of discussion about why do so many, like straight women love this show so much.
00:31:08.270 --> 00:31:17.421
And to be honest, it's because it's just this beautiful love story of acceptance and being yourself and being genuine.
00:31:17.631 --> 00:31:35.181
Like the season finale doesn't have some crazy big pull out, twist doesn't have some big reveal moment necessarily other than, well, I guess spoiler alert, uh, the one guy kind of coming out to his parents and I say kind of, I mean full launch, full sin coming out to his parents.
00:31:35.181 --> 00:31:37.131
They kinda catch him with his, his lover.
00:31:37.851 --> 00:31:41.765
But there was no dramatic showing.
00:31:41.765 --> 00:31:56.351
It was just these two people who fell in love and getting to exist without games, without bullshit, just being themself vulnerable, authentic.
00:31:56.724 --> 00:32:06.693
And I think now that I'm kind of going down this route, I realize I probably should have better prepared this, but, it's no surprise that modern dating sucks a lot.
00:32:07.653 --> 00:32:10.084
You see the articles, having a boyfriend is not cool anymore.
00:32:11.193 --> 00:32:14.584
Emotionally available people, no one wants to be really themselves.
00:32:14.584 --> 00:32:17.763
Everyone's just hiding behind their phone or this or that.
00:32:17.763 --> 00:32:21.753
Dating apps make things more accessible, so you're always looking out for what could be better.
00:32:21.753 --> 00:32:23.854
I mean, I've read it all, I've seen it all, whatever.
00:32:24.186 --> 00:32:32.317
in the midst of all of that, on top of, you know, the world being on fire, to see this beautiful raw story between two people that.
00:32:32.765 --> 00:32:39.184
Were hiding their loved and, not just accepted for each other, but from their family and, to be chosen.
00:32:39.694 --> 00:32:40.954
It was just so beautiful.
00:32:40.954 --> 00:32:42.858
It was so full.
00:32:42.983 --> 00:32:46.284
It was so emotionally stable, for lack of better words.
00:32:47.094 --> 00:32:54.324
So I feel like the reason why so many straight women were like, oh my God, he did rivalry is'cause we are looking for that ourselves.
00:32:55.000 --> 00:32:56.799
I know this is more than just straight women.
00:32:56.799 --> 00:33:02.829
I think anybody searching for love, anybody wanting companionship, partnership, trying to find their person.
00:33:02.859 --> 00:33:04.630
Like that's what you're looking for.
00:33:04.839 --> 00:33:07.750
To be chosen, to be seen, to be accepted.
00:33:08.305 --> 00:33:10.285
For everything that you are.
00:33:11.244 --> 00:33:19.615
I mean, shit, if I had a dollar for every time I was told and or was made to feel that I was too much, I would be rich as hell right now.
00:33:19.974 --> 00:33:33.055
And you know, now that I'm saying all this, it's a perfect way to come back full circle and talk about self-worth and how that was ultimately the big journey that I was on last year was the pursuit of self, self-worth.
00:33:33.775 --> 00:33:35.605
How does that fall in line with self-love?
00:33:36.025 --> 00:33:37.345
How do I navigate this?
00:33:37.404 --> 00:33:38.845
How do I define this?
00:33:39.025 --> 00:33:40.375
What are boundaries?
00:33:40.669 --> 00:33:41.568
Lots of healing.
00:33:41.689 --> 00:33:42.618
Lots of shedding.
00:33:42.618 --> 00:33:56.298
You're of the snake, so if you're into very sexualized shows, but a damn good plot and storyline, highly recommend heated rivalry if you are one of the many, many, many people who thought stranger things sucked.
00:33:56.689 --> 00:33:58.189
Don't at me, I don't care.
00:33:58.429 --> 00:34:04.038
But if you loved it, would love to tuck your head off because I've got lots of thoughts and feelings on it.
00:34:04.984 --> 00:34:10.592
So there's a few highlights from the year to wrap all of this up, let's look ahead.
00:34:10.601 --> 00:34:13.884
What's the in-between got no pressure.
00:34:14.634 --> 00:34:15.923
I am coming into this.
00:34:15.983 --> 00:34:26.224
I'm getting reacclimated., I'm getting back in the routine of this, that consistency that I talked about earlier, but like I said, I'm not abandoning you and I will not abandon you.
00:34:26.224 --> 00:34:29.583
I promise you, you are gonna have consistent episodes moving forward.
00:34:30.123 --> 00:34:38.974
I have all the guests that I recorded last year, some great content coming at you, which I'm gonna slowly start to release over the next couple of weeks to a month or so.
00:34:39.226 --> 00:34:49.527
And then we're gonna talk about things like self-worth, navigating that fine line between boundaries and what you deserve, and also meeting people, compromising.
00:34:49.856 --> 00:34:52.916
There might be some elements of like romance, you know what I mean?
00:34:52.916 --> 00:34:55.436
Like dating, modern dating, all of that.
00:34:55.766 --> 00:34:58.137
But I am gonna try to.
00:34:58.661 --> 00:35:07.141
Not make it broad because we gotta have topics and I gotta talk about what I'm experiencing, the authenticity of life, right?
00:35:07.541 --> 00:35:08.322
Self-love.
00:35:08.592 --> 00:35:12.282
Self-worth, who we are, what we deserve.
00:35:12.612 --> 00:35:16.211
Pursuing your dreams, doing the damn thing, putting yourself out there.
00:35:16.751 --> 00:35:20.052
I mean, to be honest, I feel slightly cringe.
00:35:20.141 --> 00:35:26.802
I may have already even already mentioned that, but I of course have already blacked out the first half of this recording because like, holy moly, I'm doing the damn thing.
00:35:26.981 --> 00:35:31.242
It's been a minute, but continue to put yourself out there.
00:35:31.871 --> 00:35:33.581
Believe in your shit.
00:35:34.391 --> 00:35:43.092
Your shit's cool, your dream, your art, your pursuit, your idea, your product, whatever it is that you are sitting on or maybe you aren't even sitting on.
00:35:43.092 --> 00:35:44.501
Maybe you've already kind of put something out there.
00:35:45.012 --> 00:35:45.672
It's worth it.
00:35:45.972 --> 00:35:46.661
It's needed.
00:35:46.842 --> 00:35:47.442
It's cool.
00:35:47.501 --> 00:35:52.302
I don't care if there's 20 other podcasts about self-love.
00:35:52.512 --> 00:35:53.231
They're not me.
00:35:53.597 --> 00:35:55.938
In the same vein, there's only one you in.
00:35:55.938 --> 00:35:57.407
Whatever it is you're pursuing.
00:35:57.733 --> 00:36:01.423
And you don't even have to necessarily have it like a side hustle or like an entrepreneurial thing.
00:36:01.963 --> 00:36:03.614
It could be you pursuing a family.
00:36:03.673 --> 00:36:05.503
It could be you pursuing a promotion.
00:36:05.503 --> 00:36:10.603
It could be you pursuing, I don't know, a new complicated recipe that you're trying to impress your in-laws with.
00:36:10.693 --> 00:36:11.954
I have no idea.
00:36:12.527 --> 00:36:20.880
don't forget, there's one you and that makes whatever it is you're doing special and important and necessary, we need it.
00:36:21.451 --> 00:36:23.070
I don't even have to know you to know that we need it.
00:36:23.940 --> 00:36:24.240
Alright.
00:36:25.231 --> 00:36:27.601
So thank you for welcoming.
00:36:27.751 --> 00:36:29.701
Oh my god, I cannot say that word.
00:36:29.701 --> 00:36:31.320
Welcoming me back.
00:36:31.501 --> 00:36:31.740
Wow.
00:36:31.740 --> 00:36:32.731
Say that five times fast.
00:36:32.760 --> 00:36:35.070
Welcoming me back, welcoming me back.
00:36:35.460 --> 00:36:36.541
I don't even think I can say that.
00:36:36.570 --> 00:36:36.780
Wow.
00:36:36.780 --> 00:36:38.610
That's a lot of syllables.
00:36:40.021 --> 00:36:41.731
Thank you for welcoming me back.
00:36:42.721 --> 00:36:43.891
We'll get it out eventually.
00:36:44.311 --> 00:36:44.880
Oh my goodness.
00:36:45.601 --> 00:36:46.951
I'm so happy to be here.
00:36:47.233 --> 00:36:48.523
I enjoy being cringe.
00:36:48.929 --> 00:36:50.728
I enjoy putting myself out there.
00:36:50.998 --> 00:36:53.159
I enjoy the imposter syndrome that comes with it.
00:36:53.309 --> 00:36:55.168
I enjoy feeling like I'm gonna throw up.
00:36:55.528 --> 00:36:55.978
Just kidding.
00:36:55.978 --> 00:36:56.789
No one enjoys that.
00:36:56.969 --> 00:36:58.858
But I enjoy this.
00:36:59.181 --> 00:37:01.731
This is just the beginning, but she's back.
00:37:02.601 --> 00:37:04.670
But on that note, I think it's time for me to go.
00:37:04.971 --> 00:37:06.291
I hope you've enjoyed this episode.
00:37:06.291 --> 00:37:07.880
I hope you recognize that.
00:37:07.981 --> 00:37:09.871
This is gonna be our year babes.
00:37:09.931 --> 00:37:11.161
Like this is gonna be a great year.
00:37:11.190 --> 00:37:14.001
And I know I always say time is, a manmade concept.
00:37:14.001 --> 00:37:14.570
It's not real.
00:37:14.570 --> 00:37:15.411
You make up your own time.
00:37:15.411 --> 00:37:17.510
I also kind of feel like the new year really starts in March.
00:37:17.510 --> 00:37:18.471
'cause everything's dead right now.
00:37:18.471 --> 00:37:22.130
So March is when springtime starts to roll around and things start to be reborn.
00:37:22.130 --> 00:37:36.110
But whatever New year, new me, new you, even if it's like you didn't have any crazy life, life change, chances are you still went through some stuff and you're here standing and that is freaking awesome.
00:37:36.351 --> 00:37:37.010
I love that.
00:37:37.820 --> 00:37:40.221
So what's the spiel at the end?
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If you're not doing so already, you can follow me on Instagram at Elizabeth Cheney, which is my personal, so that's where all my life updates, day to day things going on, me just venting, riffing, whatever the heck being awkward, silly, weird.
00:37:53.420 --> 00:37:54.260
You'll find that there.
00:37:54.440 --> 00:37:57.681
And then the podcast, Instagram is in dot between pod.
00:37:58.041 --> 00:38:04.771
You can follow me on TikTok at the InBetween podcast and YouTube at the in between podcast where you can watch this video And.
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Make your own judgment on how awkward I look and seem, because it's been a minute since I was on this thing.
00:38:12.409 --> 00:38:13.460
Oh, I digress.
00:38:13.605 --> 00:38:17.204
But if you did enjoy this episode, please share this with a friend.
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Share it with your neighbor, share it with your coworker, share it with your family member.
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Heck, if you really, really feel entitled, I would love a review.
00:38:27.855 --> 00:38:30.885
Uh, you can do that on Apple Podcast, Spotify, wherever you get your podcast.
00:38:30.934 --> 00:38:33.125
And, uh, just remember.
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You're worth it.
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All right.
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All right.
00:38:36.103 --> 00:38:37.873
I'm gonna go, I feel like I'm getting kind of silly.
00:38:37.873 --> 00:38:48.704
Also, I'm ravenously hungry, so I'm gonna jet, but I will see you not next week because this episode comes out on a Friday and this is like the big return.
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So the week after next, I'll be back with an all new episode and a special guest.
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Until then, I'm your host, Elizabeth Cheney.
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Talk to you soon.
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Bye.
