ABOUT THIS EPISODE
In this episode, Yakira Apfel — fitness studio owner and mom of four — opens up about a road
that wasn't always visible from the outside. She talks about the eating disorder that took root in
seventh grade and followed her into seminary, the shame of wondering if what she went through
was even "real enough" to count, and the honest admission that she didn't get help until years
later. She's candid about postpartum anxiety, a decade of hypochondria, and what it actually
took to come back to herself — including the role movement and purpose played in pulling her
out of it.
We also go into her religious journey — how becoming a mother reshaped her relationship with
observance, the moment her family was turned away from a school over a single photo, the
quiet grief of being judged on appearance instead of character, and what it meant to finally set
down something she'd been carrying for years.
By the end, Yakira lands on what she calls mental agility: not the absence of struggle, but the
capacity to actually feel the hard stuff — the anger, the grief, the fear — and come back from it.
A raw, honest conversation about eating disorders, motherhood, faith, and learning to trust
yourself.