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Simone Keelah: Welcome to Sōl
Talk: From Corporate to
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Creative, the podcast to help
you transform your five to nine
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interests and passions into your
nine to five reality. Join us as
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we delve into the stories,
strategies and insights that
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will support you on your path
from corporate to creative
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fulfillment. And I'm your host,
Simone Keelah.
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We're doing something a little
bit different on the pod today,
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and I am just going to have a
conversation with you about
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creative resistance, but without
as much preparation as I ideally
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would like to have. But I'm
really just kind of feeling
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called to speak as candidly as
possible. I have pulled together
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some books and just did lay on
my couch for about five minutes.
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Trying to just think about some
topics tied to creative
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resistance, but whatever comes
up, in my mind, it's just what
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whoever's listening needs to
hear. So know that. And if there
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is something more that you do
want to hear or are hungry to
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have conversations about or
connected to when it comes to
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this topic, definitely shoot me
either a DM or email to let me
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know afterward. But yeah,
creative resistance. Why this is
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on my heart as I started writing
a Substack on this because of
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response that I had to email
that I received. I haven't
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finished that Substack. That
needs to happen at some point.
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So I figure also whatever comes
up in this conversation can be
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leveraged for that writing. But
it's something that is close to
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me as near and dear to my heart,
because it's something that I
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find I'm constantly dealing
with. And it's something that as
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I look over the last four years
of this creative journey, it's
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something that I have faced time
and time again. And I say
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creative resistance, but it's
really just any sort of
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resistance to the way in which I
want to live my life.
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For a while, that was coming up
when I was at my last marketing
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job four years ago, almost five
years ago this year, which is
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wild. And I had the thought of
leaving without a job and
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knowing that I wanted to be a
writer, but not even knowing at
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that time, what was possible.
Wasn't even fully thinking about
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scripts and everything, but just
knowing that I wanted to create
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a life around creativity. And I
had that specific thought about
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living a creative life, almost a
moment from God, where I was
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sleeping on a plane and woke up
to this, I don't want to say I
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woke up to a voice, but woke up
to that phrase of I want to live
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a creative life. And it was
outside of me. I may have spoken
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about this before. And then what
came after that was the reality.
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And knowing that it was
something that I heard and felt
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with my entire spirit, that was
really different than what I do
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with that afterward. So that's
why this topic of creative
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resistance is something that I
know very well because I dealt
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with it then I dealt with, okay,
when do I leave? What's the
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timing around that? What will my
people say? What questions will
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I quote unquote have to answer?
How will I make money off the
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questions that just come up when
you have a feeling about doing
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something that is big or
requires courage or anything
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like that. And then along the
journey, just feeling that at
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different points in time,
whether it was leaving some of
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my freelance opportunities,
whether it was around money,
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whether it was around launching
the podcast, whether it was
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around putting out medium
articles or Substack posts or
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posting on social media, there
has been so many moments of
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resistance. And I think that
people can look at other
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people's lives and not see those
moments. So I think that giving
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time and space and talking about
them is so important for that
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reason. So that's part of why I
am really interested in the
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topic of creative resistance.
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I have here pulled up as one of
the things that I'm just like,
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okay, there's something really
special, beautiful here that I
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want to read. It's from Rick
Rubin to Creative Act, A Way of
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Being, which is a book that a
friend from UF gifted me.
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Melissa, thank you, if you
happen to listen to this. But
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the first page of, I read the
whole book, me reading the first
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page right now makes it feel as
though like I'm just reading the
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book for the first time. But I
read the whole book. But as I
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was looking at different things
that would be worth pulling from
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this after my five minute little
moment, I was like, okay, well,
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maybe the Creative Act has
something tied to resistance.
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But this is where I landed. This
is the one thing that I found,
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which is on page one. And it
says, "Those who do not engage
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in the traditional arts might be
wary of calling themselves
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artists. They might perceive
creativity as something
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extraordinary or beyond their
capabilities, a calling for the
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special few who are born with
these gifts. Fortunately, this
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is not the case. Creativity is
not a rare ability. It is not
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difficult to access. Creativity
is a fundamental aspect of being
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human. It is our birthright. And
it's for all of us. Creativity
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doesn't exclusively relate to
making art. We all engage in
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this act on a daily basis."And I
just thought it was important to
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like read that because of the
fact that I think the resistance
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comes up for a lot of us when we
aren't living these lives, when
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we might be doing something
else. And it feels as though
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it's maybe not possible for us
to do this. Maybe that what I'm
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doing is not special enough.
What I'm doing is not unique
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enough. What I'm doing isn't
good enough compared to other
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people who are also doing it. So
I think that a lot of resistance
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comes up for folks just because
they don't recognize themselves
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as artists. I mean, I have that
conversation pretty often with
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even noting in any of my
SubStacks that this is for
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creatives, a creative life. It's
like, "Well, I'm not a
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creative." So I think that
there's a level of resistance
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that just comes up with the path
itself and the identities that
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we take on or don't take on. And
I think that it's really
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important to as much as possible
as a way of moving through
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resistance. It's really about,
oh gosh, it's about the stories
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that we're telling ourselves. As
simple as naming yourself or
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feeling connected to a label of
being a creative or an artist
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and getting over or trying to
challenge this idea that it's
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just for the chosen few. So
that's one thing of one place to
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start with this conversation.
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And to go back to the idea of my
Substack that I need to finish,
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I got the idea of wanting to
write about creative resistance
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because once again, it came up
for me. I was reading an email
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from a TikTok creator that I
follow. Her name is Rayna
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Campbell. She's a success coach.
And the title of the email was
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related to her basically
changing the weather on her
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wedding day. She stopped the
rain that was in the forecast on
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her wedding day. And I opened
the email because I mean, it was
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a good subject line, right? It
was like, "Oh, what you got to
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say here? I'm intrigued." But as
I read and she spoke about how
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she had all of these perfect
details arranged for her wedding
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that was in a tiny coastal
village in the Italian Riviera
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and how the bridesmaid dresses
were perfect. And she had her
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wonderful wedding gown and the
chauffeurs and this like
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picturesque thing and how the
only issue was that the weather
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forecast up until the day of the
wedding was calling for a storm.
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But she just knew and kept the
belief the entire time that no,
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there was going to be sun on her
wedding day. And it was like to
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the point where her friends, the
groom were like, "Hey girl, we
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need to move this shit inside."
And she's like, "No, no, no, no,
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no. Like it's going to, there's
going to be sun. There's going
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to be so much sun. My skin's
going to feel sunburn or
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something." And as I was reading
this, that resistance started to
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peek its head out and I was
like, "Oh, she's tripping."
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Like, no one would have done
this. I would have definitely
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called for my contingency plan.
Because obviously the end result
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is the fact that it ends up
being a sunny day. Or the reason
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why it ends up being a sunny day
was luck or was maybe like the
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forecast shifted and she just
didn't know. Like I just had all
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of these rational thoughts that
I was starting to hurl at her
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figuratively. And I noticed in
myself because I've done enough
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reading or taken in enough
information about resistance.
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I'm like, "Oh, it's happening."
That thing of feeling resistance
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to an idea, maybe that it's
miracles could happen, that we
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are so much more powerful than
we give ourselves credit for,
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that someone could just know
something with their entire
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being and can easily change the
weather. Whatever the thing was,
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I just realized that there was
resistance there. And whether it
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is changing the weather, whether
it is resistance to calling
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oneself a creative, whether it
is resistance to the way in
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which we make money, all of us
have something that we are
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resisting actively. And I just
want to make sure that we don't
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necessarily seek to change that
right away, but we start to
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become aware of when it's coming
up for us. And so I've just
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jotted down a few things where
I'm like, Maybe these are... And
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again, I could do a deeper dive
because I haven't done research
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into all these yet because
again, this is more off the
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cuff. But things that I'm
thinking about when it comes to
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the topic of resistance.
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The first one, obviously, that
what I was just speaking to
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would be like, the awareness of
it. And the importance of
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recognizing when it comes up.
Another thing that came to us on
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the couch 20 minutes ago, was
around being curious, and how
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much curiosity can really prep
support us as there are moments
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of being resistant to something.
And so instead of judging it,
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instead of being annoyed, that
it's happening, you know, how
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can we start to dig into like,
the whys behind it? Money is a
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thing that I think a lot of us
who aren't raised with a lot of
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money, there's resistance that
we face to it. And so we might
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find ourselves judgmental of
other people who make a lot of
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money. I mean, okay, so how many
times have we heard some version
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of money is the root of all
evil? And how many times have we
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wanted to, I mean, maybe not
you, whatever, let me talk about
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myself. There is something that
that comes up, sometimes when,
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you know, you hear about, you
know, especially a billionaire,
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because I actually don't believe
in billionaires, but like, even
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say, a millionaire, like someone
with multi million dollars. And
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it kind of feels like this
asshole, you know, like, or a
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person that has all of the
finest like cars and or Nepo.
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Babies, you just want to you
start to paint stories or, you
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know, pictures of who these
people are and how awful they
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are. And not to say that they
there aren't awful millionaires,
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because of course there are. But
are they awful? Because they're
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a millionaire? Or there's awful
human beings? And what is it
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really saying about us and what
we think is possible in our
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lives. And I realized for myself
the importance of blessing. One
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of the books that I've read, I
think it's millionaire mindset
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is talks about blessing that
which you want. And so I think
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that when you think about or
when you're dealing with a
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thing, or a topic that there is
resistance around, and you start
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to become curious about it. And
you want to figure out how to
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hold space for the reality of
like, I might want this thing,
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but also there is perhaps
limiting beliefs around it, then
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you could start to transmit some
of that energy by instead of
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being like, this thing sucks. I
hate this thing about it. It's
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blessing that like, okay,
there's money that's out there
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that is accessible to everyone.
And it's super dope, that I'm
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seeing more examples of people
that have it. So that's an
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example of blessing that what
you want, and becoming curious
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about where it's like, is it
journaling about why you might
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be feeling this way about a
person speaking about their
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wealth or their access? I think
that's something that I started
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to do with that Reina email is
like being curious of what I you
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know, acknowledging like, okay,
there's something coming up and
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then being curious, like, why is
this idea of someone being
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capable, or at least, like
believing that they were able to
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change the forecast on their
wedding day? Why is that
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triggering you? And just start
asking yourself those questions
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and it doesn't mean it's gonna
be like, Okay, well, you have
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diagnosed yourself in the
perfect of ways and now you're
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over that area of resistance.
It's just sometimes being more
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aware of these things allows us
to call ourselves out when it's
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happening, and allows us to
start rewiring the program a
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little bit another thing that
had crossed my mind was around
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distracting ourselves, which
sounds crazy, but okay,
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transparency moment, right. I
know for myself that an area
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that I now I don't think I
always said I definitely now
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have some resistance around is
romantic love. And that is in
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part because of failed
situations. That's in part
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because of limiting beliefs that
come after, you know, long
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seasons of singleness. That is
likely also because I've taken
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in, you know, statistics and
stories that don't serve me or
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like you know, quote unquote,
failed situations on different
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apps, this that the third. And
so some people lean heavily into
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that point. But one thing I
think is important for my life
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at least is deciding when it's
going to be a season of
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strategizing, versus a season of
surrendering, surrendering to
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me, yes, let God do what God
wants to do, but also directing
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my energy into more fruitful
endeavors, things that allow my
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light to shine brighter. And so
that means that I'm not on the
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apps, for instance, but I am
birthing other things. And I am
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recording a podcast where I'm
talking about creative
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resistance, and writing a subset
on it. And you know, earlier
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today, I had a wonderful call
with someone who I hopefully
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have on the pod next week about
all things related to creativity
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and in stepping into your
creative power. And I am, you
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know, spending the weekends
playing, you know, and hosting a
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friend that's in town, and I'm
doing things that allow me to be
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aligned, to live out my dreams,
to be a better version of
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myself, where, you know, in
theory, the light shines
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brighter, and that's attractive
to people. But either way, I am
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not directing attention in
places that to me, aren't
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necessarily the best use of my
energy, it doesn't make my
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energy light up. And I want to
do the things that make my
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energy light up. And, and
oftentimes, if there's an area
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that there's resistance upon,
sometimes I think the antidote
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is, is shifting your attention.
So it's not on the lack of the
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thing, especially I think
something where we're looking at
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things like oh, we lack money,
or you lack romantic love, I
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think those are the areas in
particular that directing your
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attention elsewhere is
important. But if it's something
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that you actually want to be
doing, so going back to
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something that is more maybe
creative nature,
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entrepreneurial, then completely
not doing it is, is actually
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detrimental, feels extreme. But
I do think it's harmful for what
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you ultimately want in the
dreams, you ultimately want to
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do slash manifest. So that is
not me giving you permission,
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even though that's not what
you'd ever asked for to like,
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take nor your creative impulses
by any means. And then another
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thing that has been on my heart
when it comes to all of this
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stuff, and resistance, because
resistance shows up in the body
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so much. I feel like it's
important to make sure that
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there is an outlet to make sure
that the ways in which things
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actually get physically stuck in
us that we are figuring out a
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way to move and get it out and
release. I had a podcast I
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recorded this season on play. If
you haven't listened to that,
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definitely go listen, but like
somatic techniques and different
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things, just so you are moving
your body and helping some of
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that stagnant energy, doing
things that are play and
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releasing some of the pressure
that we put on things because,
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again, resistance feels like a
block, you know, I'm clenching
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my fists right now, because
that's what it feels like. It's
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like holding really tight. It's
white knuckling something in
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your life. And that's why I had
just said, you know,
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surrendering, letting go and
releasing that grip is really
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good. But then how do you shake
it out? How do you get the blood
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moving again, you know, so it
could be exercise, it could be
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whatever hobbies and stuff where
it's not so much pressure to
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have whatever kind of set result
on the thing.
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And, oh, another thing before I
forget, this is what happens
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when you don't have all the
notes that you normally too. But
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basically, with resistance,
particularly creative
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resistance, it's important to
break, say it's something that
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you're pursuing, say it's, I
want to do more when it comes to
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I want to be an actor, but I'm
35 actually was an example that
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again, the woman that I'm
bringing the podcast had
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mentioned. So that's just in my
head right now. But wanting to
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be an actor later in life or a
director or a musician and say
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it's like pass what we consider
like the prime you know, and so
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there's that resistance of like
naming the thing that we had
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talked about in the needy need
to acknowledge but very often in
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the episode TJ I feel like
really eliminated this episode
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30 A, but there's a way in which
you can still take messy action
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and break whatever the goal that
you're moving toward breaking,
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you know that into smaller steps
and finding a way to take action
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in a way that does not feel so
overwhelming. And that's why
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it's like the smaller step. ups,
because so often the things that
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we really want that are really
important to us, we have almost
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Ooh, we are romanticizing them
in ways, and romanticizing is a
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beautiful thing at times. But I
think that when you're
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romanticizing things to the
point where it's like, oh, this
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is a hoop dream, right? Because
it's the thing that we may have
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wanted, or we were afraid to
name, then it feels like this
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thing that is only doable,
accessible by a chosen few
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people that are predestined to
be able to do this thing. And
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the resistance comes up, because
you're like, I am therefore
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asking for miracle for it to be
me that gets to do this thing.
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Instead of realizing that like,
all of these goals, all of these
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things that we want to do
someone's doing and, and seeing
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the people that are doing are
just proof that it's possible to
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do. And I think that it's
possible to do if I change the
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narrative, if I start to
identify more with the thing, if
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I turn my attention, if I play a
little bit more, if I break into
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smaller tasks, if I take messy
action, and figure out how to
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take the power back here, then
that thing that is a dream, is
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actually capable of being boiled
into steps to achieve. And maybe
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it's not in substance chief,
maybe it's just in steps to
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create a habit around that
thing. So it feels less
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overwhelming, so it feels less
out of reach. So it feels like
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it's more of a possibility,
something that you're truly able
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to manifest in your life.
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So that's what's coming up for
me when it comes to this topic
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of creative resistance. Or I
should say, coming up for me in
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the past 30 to 40 minutes, I
would love to dive more into the
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topic of creative resistance,
because I do believe that it is
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something that we all will
continue to feel in our lives
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like point blank period. It
could be when it comes to
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working out when it comes to
starting a business when it
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comes to realizing your creative
potential when it comes to a
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specific creative project. When
it comes to leaving a job taking
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a job when it comes to money,
there's so many things that for
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us in our individual lives, it's
going to feel like we're hitting
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a wall. And I don't want us to
hit that wall and just decide
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that a thing is not for us or
it's out of grass. I have one
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last thing that I put aside to
read. And it's from clear ways
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where to begin her book. It's
called Win moving forward. Do
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not worry about feeling lost,
there is a compass inside of
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you. If you're listening, it
will tell you which way to go.
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this when it comes to creative
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pursuits specifically when it
comes to anything related to
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your soul, that ultimately, you
are being guided internally. But
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sometimes because of past
traumas, our own limiting
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beliefs, how we were raised, how
we were conditioned, the
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patriarchy at large, there are
things that we are going to want
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to believe that aren't possible,
or feel like we're facing too
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much a headwind for us to
actively pursue. And so as much
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as possible, just name the
thing, and then start working to
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move past the thing. That's all
that's where we are today. I
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hope this was helpful. I will
talk to you all soon.
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soul talk. If you want to stay
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Simone Keelah: Welcome to Sōl
Talk: From Corporate to
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Creative, the podcast to help
you transform your five to nine
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interests and passions into your
nine to five reality. Join us as
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we delve into the stories,
strategies and insights that
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will support you on your path
from corporate to creative
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fulfillment. And I'm your host,
Simone Keelah.
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We're doing something a little
bit different on the pod today,
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and I am just going to have a
conversation with you about
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creative resistance, but without
as much preparation as I ideally
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would like to have. But I'm
really just kind of feeling
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called to speak as candidly as
possible. I have pulled together
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some books and just did lay on
my couch for about five minutes.
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Trying to just think about some
topics tied to creative
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resistance, but whatever comes
up, in my mind, it's just what
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whoever's listening needs to
hear. So know that. And if there
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is something more that you do
want to hear or are hungry to
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have conversations about or
connected to when it comes to
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this topic, definitely shoot me
either a DM or email to let me
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know afterward. But yeah,
creative resistance. Why this is
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on my heart as I started writing
a Substack on this because of
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response that I had to email
that I received. I haven't
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finished that Substack. That
needs to happen at some point.
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So I figure also whatever comes
up in this conversation can be
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leveraged for that writing. But
it's something that is close to
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me as near and dear to my heart,
because it's something that I
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find I'm constantly dealing
with. And it's something that as
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I look over the last four years
of this creative journey, it's
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something that I have faced time
and time again. And I say
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creative resistance, but it's
really just any sort of
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resistance to the way in which I
want to live my life.
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For a while, that was coming up
when I was at my last marketing
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job four years ago, almost five
years ago this year, which is
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wild. And I had the thought of
leaving without a job and
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knowing that I wanted to be a
writer, but not even knowing at
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that time, what was possible.
Wasn't even fully thinking about
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scripts and everything, but just
knowing that I wanted to create
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a life around creativity. And I
had that specific thought about
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living a creative life, almost a
moment from God, where I was
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sleeping on a plane and woke up
to this, I don't want to say I
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woke up to a voice, but woke up
to that phrase of I want to live
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a creative life. And it was
outside of me. I may have spoken
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about this before. And then what
came after that was the reality.
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something that I heard and felt
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with my entire spirit, that was
really different than what I do
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with that afterward. So that's
why this topic of creative
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resistance is something that I
know very well because I dealt
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with it then I dealt with, okay,
when do I leave? What's the
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timing around that? What will my
people say? What questions will
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I quote unquote have to answer?
How will I make money off the
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questions that just come up when
you have a feeling about doing
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something that is big or
requires courage or anything
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like that. And then along the
journey, just feeling that at
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different points in time,
whether it was leaving some of
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my freelance opportunities,
whether it was around money,
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whether it was around launching
the podcast, whether it was
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around putting out medium
articles or Substack posts or
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posting on social media, there
has been so many moments of
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resistance. And I think that
people can look at other
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people's lives and not see those
moments. So I think that giving
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time and space and talking about
them is so important for that
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reason. So that's part of why I
am really interested in the
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topic of creative resistance.
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I have here pulled up as one of
the things that I'm just like,
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okay, there's something really
special, beautiful here that I
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want to read. It's from Rick
Rubin to Creative Act, A Way of
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Being, which is a book that a
friend from UF gifted me.
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Melissa, thank you, if you
happen to listen to this. But
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the first page of, I read the
whole book, me reading the first
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page right now makes it feel as
though like I'm just reading the
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book for the first time. But I
read the whole book. But as I
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was looking at different things
that would be worth pulling from
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this after my five minute little
moment, I was like, okay, well,
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maybe the Creative Act has
something tied to resistance.
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But this is where I landed. This
is the one thing that I found,
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which is on page one. And it
says, "Those who do not engage
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in the traditional arts might be
wary of calling themselves
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artists. They might perceive
creativity as something
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extraordinary or beyond their
capabilities, a calling for the
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special few who are born with
these gifts. Fortunately, this
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is not the case. Creativity is
not a rare ability. It is not
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difficult to access. Creativity
is a fundamental aspect of being
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human. It is our birthright. And
it's for all of us. Creativity
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doesn't exclusively relate to
making art. We all engage in
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this act on a daily basis."And I
just thought it was important to
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like read that because of the
fact that I think the resistance
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comes up for a lot of us when we
aren't living these lives, when
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we might be doing something
else. And it feels as though
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it's maybe not possible for us
to do this. Maybe that what I'm
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doing is not special enough.
What I'm doing is not unique
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enough. What I'm doing isn't
good enough compared to other
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people who are also doing it. So
I think that a lot of resistance
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comes up for folks just because
they don't recognize themselves
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as artists. I mean, I have that
conversation pretty often with
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even noting in any of my
SubStacks that this is for
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creatives, a creative life. It's
like, "Well, I'm not a
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creative." So I think that
there's a level of resistance
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that just comes up with the path
itself and the identities that
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we take on or don't take on. And
I think that it's really
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important to as much as possible
as a way of moving through
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resistance. It's really about,
oh gosh, it's about the stories
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that we're telling ourselves. As
simple as naming yourself or
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feeling connected to a label of
being a creative or an artist
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and getting over or trying to
challenge this idea that it's
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just for the chosen few. So
that's one thing of one place to
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start with this conversation.
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And to go back to the idea of my
Substack that I need to finish,
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I got the idea of wanting to
write about creative resistance
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because once again, it came up
for me. I was reading an email
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from a TikTok creator that I
follow. Her name is Rayna
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Campbell. She's a success coach.
And the title of the email was
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related to her basically
changing the weather on her
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wedding day. She stopped the
rain that was in the forecast on
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her wedding day. And I opened
the email because I mean, it was
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a good subject line, right? It
was like, "Oh, what you got to
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say here? I'm intrigued." But as
I read and she spoke about how
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she had all of these perfect
details arranged for her wedding
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that was in a tiny coastal
village in the Italian Riviera
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and how the bridesmaid dresses
were perfect. And she had her
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wonderful wedding gown and the
chauffeurs and this like
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picturesque thing and how the
only issue was that the weather
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forecast up until the day of the
wedding was calling for a storm.
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But she just knew and kept the
belief the entire time that no,
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there was going to be sun on her
wedding day. And it was like to
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the point where her friends, the
groom were like, "Hey girl, we
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need to move this shit inside."
And she's like, "No, no, no, no,
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no. Like it's going to, there's
going to be sun. There's going
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to be so much sun. My skin's
going to feel sunburn or
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something." And as I was reading
this, that resistance started to
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peek its head out and I was
like, "Oh, she's tripping."
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Like, no one would have done
this. I would have definitely
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called for my contingency plan.
Because obviously the end result
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is the fact that it ends up
being a sunny day. Or the reason
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why it ends up being a sunny day
was luck or was maybe like the
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forecast shifted and she just
didn't know. Like I just had all
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of these rational thoughts that
I was starting to hurl at her
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figuratively. And I noticed in
myself because I've done enough
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reading or taken in enough
information about resistance.
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I'm like, "Oh, it's happening."
That thing of feeling resistance
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to an idea, maybe that it's
miracles could happen, that we
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are so much more powerful than
we give ourselves credit for,
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that someone could just know
something with their entire
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being and can easily change the
weather. Whatever the thing was,
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I just realized that there was
resistance there. And whether it
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is changing the weather, whether
it is resistance to calling
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oneself a creative, whether it
is resistance to the way in
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which we make money, all of us
have something that we are
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resisting actively. And I just
want to make sure that we don't
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necessarily seek to change that
right away, but we start to
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become aware of when it's coming
up for us. And so I've just
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jotted down a few things where
I'm like, Maybe these are... And
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again, I could do a deeper dive
because I haven't done research
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into all these yet because
again, this is more off the
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cuff. But things that I'm
thinking about when it comes to
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the topic of resistance.
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The first one, obviously, that
what I was just speaking to
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would be like, the awareness of
it. And the importance of
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recognizing when it comes up.
Another thing that came to us on
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the couch 20 minutes ago, was
around being curious, and how
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much curiosity can really prep
support us as there are moments
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of being resistant to something.
And so instead of judging it,
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instead of being annoyed, that
it's happening, you know, how
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can we start to dig into like,
the whys behind it? Money is a
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thing that I think a lot of us
who aren't raised with a lot of
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money, there's resistance that
we face to it. And so we might
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find ourselves judgmental of
other people who make a lot of
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money. I mean, okay, so how many
times have we heard some version
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of money is the root of all
evil? And how many times have we
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wanted to, I mean, maybe not
you, whatever, let me talk about
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myself. There is something that
that comes up, sometimes when,
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you know, you hear about, you
know, especially a billionaire,
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because I actually don't believe
in billionaires, but like, even
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say, a millionaire, like someone
with multi million dollars. And
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it kind of feels like this
asshole, you know, like, or a
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person that has all of the
finest like cars and or Nepo.
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Babies, you just want to you
start to paint stories or, you
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know, pictures of who these
people are and how awful they
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are. And not to say that they
there aren't awful millionaires,
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because of course there are. But
are they awful? Because they're
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a millionaire? Or there's awful
human beings? And what is it
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really saying about us and what
we think is possible in our
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lives. And I realized for myself
the importance of blessing. One
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of the books that I've read, I
think it's millionaire mindset
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is talks about blessing that
which you want. And so I think
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that when you think about or
when you're dealing with a
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thing, or a topic that there is
resistance around, and you start
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to become curious about it. And
you want to figure out how to
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hold space for the reality of
like, I might want this thing,
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but also there is perhaps
limiting beliefs around it, then
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you could start to transmit some
of that energy by instead of
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being like, this thing sucks. I
hate this thing about it. It's
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blessing that like, okay,
there's money that's out there
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that is accessible to everyone.
And it's super dope, that I'm
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seeing more examples of people
that have it. So that's an
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example of blessing that what
you want, and becoming curious
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about where it's like, is it
journaling about why you might
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be feeling this way about a
person speaking about their
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wealth or their access? I think
that's something that I started
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to do with that Reina email is
like being curious of what I you
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know, acknowledging like, okay,
there's something coming up and
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then being curious, like, why is
this idea of someone being
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capable, or at least, like
believing that they were able to
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change the forecast on their
wedding day? Why is that
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triggering you? And just start
asking yourself those questions
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and it doesn't mean it's gonna
be like, Okay, well, you have
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diagnosed yourself in the
perfect of ways and now you're
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over that area of resistance.
It's just sometimes being more
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aware of these things allows us
to call ourselves out when it's
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happening, and allows us to
start rewiring the program a
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little bit another thing that
had crossed my mind was around
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distracting ourselves, which
sounds crazy, but okay,
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transparency moment, right. I
know for myself that an area
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that I now I don't think I
always said I definitely now
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have some resistance around is
romantic love. And that is in
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part because of failed
situations. That's in part
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because of limiting beliefs that
come after, you know, long
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seasons of singleness. That is
likely also because I've taken
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in, you know, statistics and
stories that don't serve me or
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like you know, quote unquote,
failed situations on different
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apps, this that the third. And
so some people lean heavily into
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that point. But one thing I
think is important for my life
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at least is deciding when it's
going to be a season of
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strategizing, versus a season of
surrendering, surrendering to
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me, yes, let God do what God
wants to do, but also directing
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my energy into more fruitful
endeavors, things that allow my
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light to shine brighter. And so
that means that I'm not on the
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apps, for instance, but I am
birthing other things. And I am
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recording a podcast where I'm
talking about creative
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resistance, and writing a subset
on it. And you know, earlier
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today, I had a wonderful call
with someone who I hopefully
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have on the pod next week about
all things related to creativity
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and in stepping into your
creative power. And I am, you
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know, spending the weekends
playing, you know, and hosting a
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friend that's in town, and I'm
doing things that allow me to be
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aligned, to live out my dreams,
to be a better version of
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myself, where, you know, in
theory, the light shines
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brighter, and that's attractive
to people. But either way, I am
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not directing attention in
places that to me, aren't
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necessarily the best use of my
energy, it doesn't make my
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energy light up. And I want to
do the things that make my
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energy light up. And, and
oftentimes, if there's an area
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that there's resistance upon,
sometimes I think the antidote
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is, is shifting your attention.
So it's not on the lack of the
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thing, especially I think
something where we're looking at
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things like oh, we lack money,
or you lack romantic love, I
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think those are the areas in
particular that directing your
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attention elsewhere is
important. But if it's something
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that you actually want to be
doing, so going back to
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something that is more maybe
creative nature,
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entrepreneurial, then completely
not doing it is, is actually
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detrimental, feels extreme. But
I do think it's harmful for what
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you ultimately want in the
dreams, you ultimately want to
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do slash manifest. So that is
not me giving you permission,
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even though that's not what
you'd ever asked for to like,
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take nor your creative impulses
by any means. And then another
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thing that has been on my heart
when it comes to all of this
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stuff, and resistance, because
resistance shows up in the body
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so much. I feel like it's
important to make sure that
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there is an outlet to make sure
that the ways in which things
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actually get physically stuck in
us that we are figuring out a
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way to move and get it out and
release. I had a podcast I
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recorded this season on play. If
you haven't listened to that,
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definitely go listen, but like
somatic techniques and different
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things, just so you are moving
your body and helping some of
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that stagnant energy, doing
things that are play and
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releasing some of the pressure
that we put on things because,
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again, resistance feels like a
block, you know, I'm clenching
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my fists right now, because
that's what it feels like. It's
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like holding really tight. It's
white knuckling something in
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your life. And that's why I had
just said, you know,
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surrendering, letting go and
releasing that grip is really
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good. But then how do you shake
it out? How do you get the blood
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moving again, you know, so it
could be exercise, it could be
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whatever hobbies and stuff where
it's not so much pressure to
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have whatever kind of set result
on the thing.
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And, oh, another thing before I
forget, this is what happens
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when you don't have all the
notes that you normally too. But
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basically, with resistance,
particularly creative
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resistance, it's important to
break, say it's something that
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you're pursuing, say it's, I
want to do more when it comes to
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I want to be an actor, but I'm
35 actually was an example that
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again, the woman that I'm
bringing the podcast had
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mentioned. So that's just in my
head right now. But wanting to
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be an actor later in life or a
director or a musician and say
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it's like pass what we consider
like the prime you know, and so
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there's that resistance of like
naming the thing that we had
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talked about in the needy need
to acknowledge but very often in
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the episode TJ I feel like
really eliminated this episode
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30 A, but there's a way in which
you can still take messy action
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and break whatever the goal that
you're moving toward breaking,
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you know that into smaller steps
and finding a way to take action
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in a way that does not feel so
overwhelming. And that's why
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it's like the smaller step. ups,
because so often the things that
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we really want that are really
important to us, we have almost
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Ooh, we are romanticizing them
in ways, and romanticizing is a
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beautiful thing at times. But I
think that when you're
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romanticizing things to the
point where it's like, oh, this
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is a hoop dream, right? Because
it's the thing that we may have
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wanted, or we were afraid to
name, then it feels like this
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thing that is only doable,
accessible by a chosen few
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people that are predestined to
be able to do this thing. And
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the resistance comes up, because
you're like, I am therefore
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asking for miracle for it to be
me that gets to do this thing.
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Instead of realizing that like,
all of these goals, all of these
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things that we want to do
someone's doing and, and seeing
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the people that are doing are
just proof that it's possible to
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do. And I think that it's
possible to do if I change the
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narrative, if I start to
identify more with the thing, if
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I turn my attention, if I play a
little bit more, if I break into
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smaller tasks, if I take messy
action, and figure out how to
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take the power back here, then
that thing that is a dream, is
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actually capable of being boiled
into steps to achieve. And maybe
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it's not in substance chief,
maybe it's just in steps to
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create a habit around that
thing. So it feels less
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overwhelming, so it feels less
out of reach. So it feels like
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it's more of a possibility,
something that you're truly able
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to manifest in your life.
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So that's what's coming up for
me when it comes to this topic
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of creative resistance. Or I
should say, coming up for me in
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the past 30 to 40 minutes, I
would love to dive more into the
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topic of creative resistance,
because I do believe that it is
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something that we all will
continue to feel in our lives
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like point blank period. It
could be when it comes to
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working out when it comes to
starting a business when it
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comes to realizing your creative
potential when it comes to a
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specific creative project. When
it comes to leaving a job taking
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a job when it comes to money,
there's so many things that for
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us in our individual lives, it's
going to feel like we're hitting
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a wall. And I don't want us to
hit that wall and just decide
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that a thing is not for us or
it's out of grass. I have one
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last thing that I put aside to
read. And it's from clear ways
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where to begin her book. It's
called Win moving forward. Do
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not worry about feeling lost,
there is a compass inside of
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you. If you're listening, it
will tell you which way to go.
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And I know I always mentioned
this when it comes to creative
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pursuits specifically when it
comes to anything related to
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your soul, that ultimately, you
are being guided internally. But
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sometimes because of past
traumas, our own limiting
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beliefs, how we were raised, how
we were conditioned, the
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patriarchy at large, there are
things that we are going to want
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to believe that aren't possible,
or feel like we're facing too
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much a headwind for us to
actively pursue. And so as much
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as possible, just name the
thing, and then start working to
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move past the thing. That's all
that's where we are today. I
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hope this was helpful. I will
talk to you all soon.
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That wraps up this session of
soul talk. If you want to stay
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