The Queued4Christ Show : Called To Lead- "Lillian Lloyd’s Pastoral Turn"

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What you wanna do?
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What you wanna do?
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Move I get gonna move, I get gonna move.
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It's a very breakfast to the use.
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It's a new day with a new way.
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Hey, hey, hey, everyone.
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This is Kiana, your creator and the host of Cube for Christ.
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And I am super excited because I am doing something that it is so, so, so, so different than the actual norm that I normally do.
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And I just, you know, I want to say thank you to everyone that has liked, you shared, you commented, whatever you've done.
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I'm super excited because I guarantee you that this is a privilege and not a punishment to be a vessel for crisis.
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So I'm super excited to be here on this Friday.
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If you are excited to be here, y'all clap your hands, put some fire in the chat, and let us know where you are tuning in from.
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I'm super excited that you have decided to give me your Friday.
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Okay.
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So, anyways, anyways, I want to make sure you go ahead on and you share this live screen with someone because I I guarantee you, you don't want to miss it, right?
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You do not want to miss it, and you don't want someone else to miss their blessing.
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So make sure you go to share this and you are going to the website at www.qforchrist.com and you are going to the podcast and liking it.
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Like, you know, y'all do all that, do all that extra stuff, right?
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So I'm super excited about this special live podcast that I am having.
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And I tell you that I am ready, ready, ready.
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But I want you all to remember that on Mondays, we are live every Monday with the books of the Bible.
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Make sure you are there for the books of the Bible.
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Make sure you are um tuning in um on that Monday because you don't want to miss that, okay?
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So, anyways, anyways, as I say, I have the honor and privilege to be live and in person.
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And I ain't alone, y'all.
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Y'all, I know y'all get tired of seeing me sometimes, but I am not alone.
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I have the honor and the privilege to be able to have a podcast with none other than my sister, Pastor Lillian Lloyd.
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How are you today?
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Lillian wonderful, and I'm so happy to be here.
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I'm so happy to be here.
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This is a blessing.
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Man, I'm telling you.
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We come a long way, girl.
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Let me tell you, I don't think y'all understand.
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Pastor Lillian Lloyd, she used to um straighten my hair.
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And and I used to be the kitchen beautician.
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She was one of the ones that that started out straightening my hair.
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And I used to, and I used to be like scared because I'm like, Don't burn me.
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Oh, don't burn me.
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But I'm super excited to be able to share the stage with you.
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This is like our third time being here, but this is our first in person.
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Yes, she has been on the podcast a couple times and she has blessed my soul.
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I sat there and laughed, y'all.
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My cheeks was hurting.
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Do you hear me?
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Oh, yeah.
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So I'm excited about the fact that you are here.
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I know that I know who you are.
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I know who she is, y'all.
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But I'll could you just introduce yourself to everybody that who don't know who Pastor Lillian Lloyd is?
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Who is Pastor Lillian Lloyd?
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Well, uh, I'm just me.
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I am singer, songwriter, uh, producer, and now the new chapter in my life, Pastor.
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And I've been evangelizing for 30 years all across the country, and now we have gotten to this new phase.
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I'll be 50 years old in June of this year.
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And so that is considered the beginning of the second half of your life.
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And so this this next chapter, this uh my friend says uh this he said halftime is over.
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You know, the halftime show is over.
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It's time to jump in at the third quarter and finish strong.
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Finish the game strong.
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So that's what we're doing right now, finishing the game strong.
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I've traveled as an evangelist, traveled as a lead vocalist for Ricky Dillard and New G for over 18 years, and as now as a solo artist, and just still doing music, still doing my theme, working on new music, but now the focus is the pastorate.
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So that's where we are.
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Wow.
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30 years though?
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30 years.
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It doesn't seem like it's been that long, but it has been that long.
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Look, I'm sitting up here carrying.
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Carrying the team.
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Oh my goodness.
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You look good though.
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I'm trying.
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Like I'm trying.
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Let me tell you, if I can look good at 50 like that, I'm look, don't play me.
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Don't play with me.
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All right.
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So I'm I'm super excited, and you know, and the thing about it is that I have had that honor, like I said, when we were younger, to look up to you when we were singing in the young coraliers, and we were like, okay, you know, like, you know, and then this.
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I was still learning.
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Right.
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And then when you went off, it was like, oh, okay, Lillian, look at Lillian.
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That's that's awesome.
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And uh, and so, but I didn't think it was 30 years.
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Oh my goodness, oh man.
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It's actually been longer than that with 30 years, but it's just been 30 years since I started evangelizing and and and touring and whatnot.
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But wow, that's amazing.
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Yeah, that is so amazing.
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Well, we're gonna talk about how you step in into your pastorship because I know that that is new, that is something that um, you know, when God calls you, it's it's it's it it could probably be scary to someone, but I'm excited.
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So, what I'll do right now is I'll say uh a prayer before we go further.
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We want to make sure we usher in the Holy Spirit, and then and then we'll just jump right into how you know God has cued you to your pastorship.
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Okay, so dear Heavenly Father, God, I say thank you.
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I say thank you for this time.
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God, you knew this time before we did, and so we thank you now for allowing us to be here, God.
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We know that you are blessing us as we get ready to just give your word to someone, God.
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We ask you to uh allow someone to hear something that will pierce their heart, God, and they ask, what must they do to be saved?
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God, we just thank you now for Pastor Lily and Laura for jumping into that pastorship, God.
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We know that you are going to guide her, we know that you're gonna lead her, we know that anything her hand touched is going to turn to gold.
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And we thank you now for allowing her to be here, God, in this moment.
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God, we just ask you now to hide us behind the cross, allow your word to come forth, God, God, not our words, but your word.
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And we thank you now for what you're doing in the realm of the spirit, God.
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And so we just love you, God, for who you are, we honor you and we cherish you.
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It's in Jesus' name that I pray.
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Amen.
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Amen.
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Hallelujah, y'all.
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I love, I love, I love it, I love it.
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I'm telling you.
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I um I I look, I hope she jumped up and sang in a minute, y'all.
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Not tonight.
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Oh man.
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So, anyways, anyways, I'm super excited about um you being here, and the purpose of tonight is to show people how you have been cued to be able to jump into pastorship.
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And I'm super excited because you said you've been doing evangelists 30 years.
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Now, that's already um pastorship, but when you were a kid, I know you probably didn't think that you would end up as being, you know, jumping into that pastorship.
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So, what did you have in plans versus what God has planned for you now?
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This was always the plan.
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Oh wow.
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This was always the plan.
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This was always what it was going to be.
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I started, you know, just like a regular preach, most preachers, kids, and children that know at an early, we know at an early age what we're gonna be.
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Right.
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Why I always tell people, watch your children and watch what they're taking an interest in.
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Right.
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Uh one a young man was telling me that his kid used to go in the yard and dig little holes in the yard and put the little stick men in the in the um in the holes.
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So what are you doing?
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He said, I'm digging graves.
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I'm I'm having funerals.
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He's a mortician now.
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He's a funeral director, a very successful funeral director.
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And so this is like this was a this was a pattern when he was a child.
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And and so I grew up lip-syncing in the mirror and and doing shows and putting on productions.
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I had this, my dad had this um gold recliner in our living room, and I would get my teddy bears and line them up on the recliner, and I would sit in the middle, so I had to be small to be able to fit all my bears and me in there.
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I would make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and cut it in a bunch of pieces and get up and get an apple and slice it in pieces, and that was the food for the band.
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So we was on we're on the tour bus.
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That that that chair was my tour bus.
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Wow.
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And I would cut up little pieces of paper to make money, and that's how I paid the band.
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Wow.
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And I would make my set list off of um, you know, the album covers.
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I would take the backs of the album covers and look at who's who the musicians were, who the engineers were, who the techs were, and that's why we call in.
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See, they all know they all know how they'll know.
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You'll skip and that's Don, and that's Jake.
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Uh Dave, could you come and handle this?
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You know, I had the whole little thing going.
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That's so stupid.
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They don't know nothing about the album cover.
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Oh, yeah, they don't know anything about that album cover, but that was just a beautiful part of being a child.
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And it's like I'm I'm the baby of 11 children.
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A lot of people don't know that.
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Seven boys and four girls.
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I'm the baby.
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And so you come from a big family too, so you know what you know what that routine is like.
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Yes.
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And uh, but there's there's such a huge age gap between us.
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Um, the oldest just turned 86 years old.
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Wow.
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And I'm about to be 50.
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I didn't know that.
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So his wife and my mom were pregnant at the same time.
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Wow.
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Yep.
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And one of our cousins, uh, she was pregnant at the same time as my mom.
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She was having her first kid, my mom was having her last.
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So it's one of them things.
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Look, I know, I look, I know all about that too.
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We know how it is.
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We come from a very loving family.
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Right.
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But it was it was just always there.
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I would get in the mirror, went to hear Lynette Hawkins and Karen Clark and Tremaine Hawkins and all those ladies sing, and I would just, ooh, I'll be crying, I'd be in the mirror, just carrying on and putting on my shows.
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And then, of course, I had the little rock star side of me too.
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So I'd be uh Mother Spinest and Tina Turner and Parliament Fuckedelic and all that, you know.
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And so I had all those things, Girth Went in Fire, and all those records and things that I that I would lip sync too.
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So I just I always had that thing in me with with music.
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I love jazz.
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So I would have I had in my I would dim the lights and do my jazz shows, you know, with my uh Ahmad Jamal records and all those things.
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I it was a I was a I was a character, but that's what I'm doing today.
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Everything I was doing then, everything I was thinking then is what I'm doing now.
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So I believe that uh Prophet Corey Easterling said, if it's in your mind, then it's in your future.
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Come on, and if it's not in your mind, then it's not in your future.
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So whatever you want to do, whatever you believe for yourself, you got to get it in your mind so that you can see it in your future.
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That look, I hope y'all, y'all, y'all need to be taking notes, okay?
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Because, you know, everything happens twice, your mind first, and then your hand.
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And so, like what you were saying, you was, you know, singing to Karen Clark, and then you had the opportunity to actually sing in front of Karen Clark.
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Absolutely.
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How amazing was that?
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Let me tell you something.
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Let me tell you something.
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First of all, let's let's talk about vocal prowess, stamina, range, the the glamour of Karen Clark.
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Let's declare Karen Clark Shared.
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And when I say her name like that, I'm not meaning any disrespect because we know she's evangelist, she's Dr.
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Karen Clark Shear, we know she's first lady and whatnot.
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So definitely not saying it to be disrespectful, but just her as an artist.
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That darn Karen Clark Sheared is the one.
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The one.
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She is the one.
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And so to even get the phone call, Kiki reached out to me um like two like a week before watch night and says, she's like, Lillian, I know it's last minute, but can you come to Grady Master?
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I absolutely can't come to Grady Man.
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Let me let me look up my ticket right now.
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Right now.
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So she um she reached out to me.
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She said, Does this ticket work?
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And I'm like, absolutely, let's do it.
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And um they flew me in and we were there for the service, and it was just phenomenal.
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I can't even explain how phenomenal it was.
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But just to be able to be in that room and and a little bit of history about the church where they are now, that was actually my bishop, uh, our former bishop who he's gone home to be with the Lord, but that was his building, Bishop David Ellis.
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That was his church back in the day, uh, Greater Grace on Seven Mile and Schaefer at the corner of Seven Mile and Schaefer.
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So that that building for me is that's like the mother, that's like the Mason temple of the PAW, almost so it was like the that's the mothership for us.
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That's the that's the Mecca for us.
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And so to be able to be in that building just a week prior to me stepping into the pastor, it really meant a lot to me just to be in that room.
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And I have a great deal of respect for Bishop Shear and what he's doing with the Church of God in Christ.
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And he is I I told somebody today, I said I think he's the best thing that has happened to Kojik since Bishop Um Bishop Gilbert Patterson.
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And uh, I didn't mean that to be disrespectful either, but I just think he is the man.
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He is the man for the church, he's the man for to move us forward into the future because so many people are content to remain in the past, or they're content to remain in the dark ages, they're content to be stuck on a bunch of stuff that wasn't really working back then, but we just dealt with it, we accommodated it.
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But he really is forward, he's a very forward-thinking, um, forward-thinking leader.
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And I just I really admire him and I admire the work that he's doing there in Detroit.
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And I celebrate the Clark and the Shared legacy.
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It's just an awesome, awesome, awesome legacy.
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And the moss legacy, all of that's just an awesome legacy.
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Yes, like you said, he is going to take us in the future.
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Absolutely.
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Like literally.
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If we let him, yeah, if you let him, he'll take you.
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If you let him, but you know, a lot of people are gonna rail against it.
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Yeah, I refuse, I refuse.
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Well, just like this in this country, the Republicans and then Democrats are going back and forth because there are those that are really ready to see this segregation thing in.
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They're ready to see the racism in and all this foolishness that's going on in the world.
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And there are some that would rather drop dead than to see other people advance.
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They're so afraid that my that that equity somehow means that they're going to be oppressed.
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Wow.
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You know, you're you're gonna do to us what we've done to you.
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No, we just want you all to leave us alone.
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That's all we want.
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We just want our fair share, we want our fair turn.
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We're not asking you for anything we haven't earned.
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We have earned everything we've received in this country.
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We have earned it.
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We have earned it, we have more than earned it.
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We have worked double hard for the scraps, right?
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And like you said, we just want you to leave us alone.
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Yeah, and it's time to pay up.
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Leave us alone and pay up.
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Right.
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That's all we want.
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Leave us alone.
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Just leave us alone, leave us alone and pay up.
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Yeah, yeah.
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So that I mean, that's good.
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I mean, like, like you said, we have to um we have to be able to know that when greatness is in our presence, like how you said about um Bishop, Bishop Shear, and stuff like that, and that right there can help us move forward into our calling.
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Because a lot of the things that we have to do is understand is that we supposed to be taking stuff from people and not being jealous of people.
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And a lot of people don't understand that, right?
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You know what I'm saying?
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And so when you recognize that it was time for you to move, who did you unite with and just be like, you know what?
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Let me let me let me learn from you, let me let me shave some of this off of you.
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Who were those people?
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Well, I um I never sit under anybody that I don't trust with my life.
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I will never sit under anybody that I don't trust in my life.
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And I really got when I was living here, that was over 30 years ago, when I was living here, I started going to Greater Overcoming Church.
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Bishop J.L.
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Cotton.
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And these these testimonies are very sensitive because a great deal of the people who are a part of my story are no longer here.
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And they're not here to see this manifestation, right?
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To see the words that they spoke.
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They didn't live to see the manifestation.
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And I know we say, Well, they still see, they know they they're watching over.
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Okay, yeah.
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But they're not here with us to witness it and for us to see the expression on their faces and experience them saying, Wow, my living was not in vain, my preaching was not in vain.
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And so now I'm I'm, you know, just very intentional about letting them know when I'm in their presence.
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I was uh with Apostle Um Irene Bell, went to visit her because she's been under the weather, and you know, it just your life just flashes before you when you see your mentors incapacitated, when you see them.
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Um, she and everybody knows she recently suffered a couple of strokes and left her in a in a pretty bad way.
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And so we're definitely still praying for her because we believe God to be the healer.
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They have a sign on the wall in her bedroom that says, God is a healer.
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I said, change that to God is the healer because he's the only one that can heal.
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Right.
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And not only can he heal, but he will heal.
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Right, he is willing and able to do just what he said, and so, but to see her like that and knowing that when we were 13, 14 years old coming over to her house, and she be walking around and just praying for us, prophesying to us, ministering to us, and pouring in us, we'd be sitting all over her bed, and she just took out time with us.
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But see, this generation of pastors and leaders, they don't have time to deal with one-on-one with anybody.
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They want to stand up, give you a lecture, and send you home in 45 minutes.
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We sung one song, y'all took up 12 offerings and gave us a 20-minute speech, and now you're ready to go.
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Right.
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Ain't nobody prayed, nobody's laid hands, nobody's teared, ain't nobody spoke over you, nobody's hugged you, nobody's embraced you, nobody has given you any one-on-one contact.
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So you just here, here's the plate, you take it and do with it what you believe.
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If you eat good, if you don't eat, I don't care.
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That's not my problem.
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But I care that you ate.
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Right.
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I care, I care that you ate.
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There was a um, there was a video on YouTube yesterday, it was uh Instagram, I think it was, yesterday.
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This um CNA was crying.
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I mean, she was just hysterically crying because she had brought a plate to one of her patients, and when she came back for her next shift, the plate was still there untouched.
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And she was trying to figure out why wasn't the plate touched.
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The man couldn't feed himself and nobody helped him eat his food.
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So he had been there all night without his meal.
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Now I am too sensitive for that kind of stuff.
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I can't I can't you can't even say stuff like that around me because I'm gonna try to find out right now so I can take this man a box of chicken or something and stand there and feed him myself.
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Right because I'm I'm silly like that.
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I really am.
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And I have been to visit, you know, loved ones in the nursing home and then go around and look in the other rooms and what y'all need, what you got, you all right?
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You need a blanket, I go to the store and buy them a blanket and bring them some chicken and all that.
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I'm just I'm just like that.
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Right.
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Because you just don't ever want anybody to feel like nobody cares whether or not they're okay.
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Right.
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People thrive when um somebody is caring for them.
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Right.
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I was with my nephew yesterday, he was driving me around running some errands, and he was talking to uh his fiance, and he said, Um, what did you eat today?
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Are you hungry?
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Okay.
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What you want on it.
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You know, I'm just listening to him take this order, and then he says, You go out here to the car, uh, give me uh such and such and such, and he's just giving them the order.
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And that just really touched my heart because people will talk to you all day long having asked you, Did you eat?
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They don't care about how you're moving, and they they may know you're in a financial struggle and never even offer to buy you a sandwich.
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Right.
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They can know, they can know what your situation is and will just allow you to stand there and tell you their whole struggle.
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But I think one of the problems is we want people to beg us for help.
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We want people to grovel and plead with us.
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Oh, please.
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That's just we we get a kick.
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I think some people get a kick out of being needed.
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They get a kick out of being needed, they get a kick out of being necessary in somebody's life.
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And I said, Lord, if you ever deliver me from the space I was, I went through a season in my life where I had to live with my friends, where I slept on people's couches, I slept on the floor and they treated me like trash.
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People will do that to you.
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I said, Lord, when you bless me with my own so that I can come and go as I please, if anybody ever has to stay with me, they will never experience that.
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Right.
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Feeling like they're in the way, feeling like you're a bother, feeling like you're a burden.
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You're you're you're just, oh, you're a headache, you're a hassle.
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It's a hassle to have you here.
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Don't invite people to live with you if you're not ready to welcome them into your home and make them feel at home for as long as they need to be there.
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And I'm not saying open up your house and let bums come in and just squat and live forever and tear your house up and disrupt your family.
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But if somebody falls on hard times, if you call me tomorrow and said, Lillian, I need to come to Vegas for a couple of weeks.
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I'm not gonna mistreat you.
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Yeah, I'm not gonna come in there opening the curtains.
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If I'm up, everybody up.
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No, that's weird.
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That is weird, that is weirdo behavior.
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I'm sorry if that's what y'all do, but that is weirdo behavior.
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Everybody doesn't fall asleep at the same time.
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Everybody's body requires a different amount of rest.
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Right.
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You don't know what time I went to sleep.
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You don't know what I deal with in the night while I'm sleeping.
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Right.
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People have nightmares and night terrors, people deal with sleep paralysis, sleep apnea.
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I've dealt with it all.
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And so I know what it is to have unrestful sleep and interrupted sleep.
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And when you finally do doze, I've heard some moron busting door open, turning on lights, talking about when I'm up, you're up.
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When I'm up, you up.
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And you have to realize that God is watching that kind of behavior because that speaks to your character.
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Right.
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You are a rude person, you're inconsiderate, and God is going to allow you to get in a position where somebody's gonna put you in a place where if they're up, you gotta be up.
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Come on now.
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Come on.
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So be careful how you be careful how you handle every season of your life.
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I thank God for 30 years of evangelism.
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I thank God for traveling on the road and touring all over the country and across seas.
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I thank God for those lessons because now I'm settled enough to be a pastor.
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You got too many people that are taking the pulpit and leading people someplace they've never gone before.
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Right.
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They're trying to prepare you for something they've never done, they're trying to speak to an experience that they've never had.
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Right.
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I used to get on my mom all the time.
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I mean, my mom, we had a very different relationship.
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People said we talked like we were colleagues more than we did, like we were mother and daughter.
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But she was preparing me.
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She didn't realize that she was preparing me to be a leader.
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I went through a storm in my life.
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She said, Lillian, I don't believe that somebody made you do something.
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I said, but I I felt threatened and I was like, No, no, no, I don't buy that.
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Right.
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I don't buy that somebody made you, not you.
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Right.
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You have always had your own mind.
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You have always spoken up for yourself.
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She said, I believe if I put you in the room with the Obamas, you would know how to handle yourself in the conversation.
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Wow.
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She didn't realize how huge a compliment that was coming from her.
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And so she said, so so the notion that somebody made you do something or forced you to do something, I have a hard time buying that.
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She didn't understand the situation.
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But I had to kind of see myself through her eyes.
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I said, I didn't realize you thought so highly of me.
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But I'm glad to know that now.
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That gave me a really big boost of confidence.
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Right.
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That I needed to know that I'm more prepared for this thing than than I actually thought I was.
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I'm doing better than I thought.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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I mean, and that's a that's a great compliment, right?
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You know my mom.
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So coming from coming from her, that was that was huge.
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But we we really, we really, man, you have to draw from all of your experiences.
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Right.
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All the experiences that you've had in life.
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You have to draw from those and be able to apply them to what you have in front of you.
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You got so many preachers, 15, 17, 18 years old, already in full-time evangelism, traveling across, they have had no spiritual experience.
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They don't even know the Bible yet.
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And yet they're they're they have an itinerary, you got a briefcase, you got a manager, you got all of this, and they have turned these, they have turned these kids into a bunch of showmen.
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Right.
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You got somebody else writing your sermons, and you're teaching them how to hoop, you're teaching them how to the the doingness of preaching.
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Right, right.
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You're teaching them how the mechanics.
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There, there's there's a mechanics of preaching, right?
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And and a tone that you put in your voice, and you're trying, you're you're you're 12 years old, you're trying to pitch your voice lower to sound heavier, and and it, and and you're you're it sounds unnatural, it sounds uncomfortable, right?
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And you're you're forcing yourself into armor that you come here, David.
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When David got ready to go into battle with Goliath, Saul tried to put his armor on David, right?
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But Saul was much bigger than David, much bigger, and his armor did not fit David, yeah.
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And so he's trying to move and maneuver in armor that was not created for him.
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He says, No, give me uh-uh, take this off.
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I haven't tried this, yes.
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Take this off of me.
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I haven't tested it, I've never done anything in your armor, so I can't be comfortable to be myself in your armor.
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I was in Memphis, Tennessee.
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Pastor Karen Clark, she had preached, Dr.
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Karen Clark preached, and she went into he came in one.
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I said, Lady, you are not gonna embarrass me in this church today.
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I don't know what you think this is.
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But let me tell you who's not getting ready to get in this mic with you.
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I'm not getting in this mic with you.
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She said, Come on.
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And I was like, she's like, get up here.
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I'm like, what am I supposed to do?
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The Lord said, Be yourself.
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That's a what have you been doing for the last umpteen years?
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That was Jeanette coming out of me then umpteen.
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That was her number.
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Uh umpteen.
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That's that's they're making right there.
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You've been doing this for umpteen years, so now you're gonna get here and get startled and starstruck and act like you don't know what to do.
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Right.
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Do what you've been doing, right?
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Nobody's expecting you to sound like Karen Clark.
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We're expecting Lillian Lloyd.
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She said, Do what you do.
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That's good.
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And I told him, put me in B flat so I can do what I do.
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Right.
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Because she started in A flat.
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That's why I'm gonna say don't put me because she probably was in that.
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Praise the Lord.
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And so it was actually two, she was just a little, so she was just under, like a just a little lower.
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But I went to my key, I sang it, and then I said, All right, she started singing my song, so I'm gonna sing your song.
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So I went into the hallelujah praise.
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And she just she just losing it, loving it.
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And that was just that connection that was created right there.
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And so to come back again and be at their church to perform at New Year's Eve was just it was magical.
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I think the video got over 160 plus thousand views in one day on my page.
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So it was it was pretty exciting.
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It was pretty exciting, yeah.
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But you need your own armor, you need your own gift.
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You uh Bishop Norman Wagner told us at my Uncle Raymond's funeral, he said, Don't be the second coming of me, be the first coming of you.
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You have too many duplicates and replicas in the body of Christ.
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Everybody wants to be the second coming of whatever the great thing was, but there are so many missing great things.
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There's so much missing greatness because we're too busy trying to replicate the last great thing.
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Come on, that's what happened to them.
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That's that that has been the downfall of the music industry.
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You got Michael Jackson, you got Prince, who can outdo Prince, who can be the next Prince, who he sounds just like Michael Jackson, or he sounds like Bobby Brown, or he sounds like Casey Haley, or he sounds like D'Angelo.
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Right.
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So we keep trying to read, we treat trying to replicate greatness rather than exploring newness.
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We're losing the newness, and it's dying out.
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It it you you can't you can turn on the radio now and you can't tell the difference between these artists now.
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I said you can take three songs from five different artists and put them on the same record, you wouldn't even know it was a different artist.
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Wow, because all y'all sound alike, all of and I think that's a good that's a good thing that you have to learn um is about being authentic, you know what I'm saying?
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Because a lot of people don't know how to just be authentic in themselves and do what needs to be done because God don't call you to be like David, He called you because He called you, that's right, you know, because He needs you in the realm of this earth, He needs you, you know, just like when you were saying you was in front of Dr.
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Karen Um Clark Sheared, and it's like, oh no, I didn't call you.
00:31:14.240 --> 00:31:18.079
She wanted you to come up and be Lily, she didn't want you to come up and try to be her.
00:31:18.319 --> 00:31:26.640
And so even this even this past week when we were uh in the watch night service, before she gave me the mic, she said, Bishop wants you to do your thing.
00:31:26.960 --> 00:31:27.359
Right.
00:31:27.599 --> 00:31:28.960
Do your thing, right?
00:31:29.119 --> 00:31:34.160
So that means she wants the hair, she wants the strut, she wants all that lay on this, and you did it.
00:31:36.480 --> 00:31:37.759
I wore this dress.
00:31:37.920 --> 00:31:46.079
I had planned to wear another dress, but I just when I picked it up, put it on, I was like, that's not fancy enough for the occasion because it's watch night in Detroit.
00:31:46.160 --> 00:31:47.680
I gotta be blingy, I gotta be cute.
00:31:48.240 --> 00:31:50.799
So I thought I had this other dress, I'd never worn it before.
00:31:50.880 --> 00:31:52.480
I'm like, mm-hmm, I'll try it.
00:31:52.640 --> 00:31:53.119
Threw it on.
00:31:53.200 --> 00:31:54.640
I'm like, this is kind of cute.
00:31:54.720 --> 00:31:55.359
I like it.
00:31:55.440 --> 00:31:55.680
Okay.
00:31:56.720 --> 00:31:59.680
But the split on the side was a little high.
00:32:00.079 --> 00:32:02.079
It covers the leg, but the split was on the side.
00:32:02.160 --> 00:32:08.000
Now, I don't a front split, I'm not gonna wear because I just know there's no way I'm gonna be sitting there doing that all night.
00:32:08.079 --> 00:32:08.720
The whole night.
00:32:08.880 --> 00:32:11.920
Because I know my performance, I know what it requires.
00:32:12.079 --> 00:32:15.920
And so I just asked the young lady that was assisting me for a lap scarf.
00:32:16.079 --> 00:32:20.000
But even with the lap scarf, I'm like, this split is ha.
00:32:20.319 --> 00:32:22.000
When I sit down, it was coming up a little higher.
00:32:22.079 --> 00:32:24.319
So I was digiting with that closure.
00:32:26.000 --> 00:32:29.680
So I said, I told, I asked Bishop, I said, Is it all right if I die?
00:32:29.759 --> 00:32:32.000
He like, go, die, die, go.
00:32:33.759 --> 00:32:35.200
Do it, do it, go.
00:32:35.920 --> 00:32:36.640
So did you know?
00:32:36.880 --> 00:32:38.720
So they would they were there for me to smoke, you know.
00:32:38.799 --> 00:32:40.480
They was with the genetic I did it.
00:32:40.640 --> 00:32:40.960
I did it.
00:32:41.440 --> 00:32:41.759
I did it.
00:32:42.160 --> 00:32:42.720
I love it.
00:32:44.400 --> 00:32:51.279
I said, I I love that, and that's why I said he's so forward-thinking because you know, some of our leaders from the past probably wouldn't have been cool with that.
00:32:51.359 --> 00:32:51.519
Right.
00:32:51.680 --> 00:32:53.279
You know, you do a little too much, that daughter.
00:32:53.359 --> 00:32:55.599
You know, get a sheet put over that sister because she couldn't go.
00:32:56.079 --> 00:32:58.000
Y'all know it, y'all got to see the video.
00:32:58.079 --> 00:33:02.799
I love when when when Lily would get up there and she would get off like, I could have died.
00:33:02.960 --> 00:33:03.440
Yeah.
00:33:03.759 --> 00:33:05.039
I'd be like, okay.
00:33:05.279 --> 00:33:06.400
Because I really could have been dead.
00:33:06.559 --> 00:33:06.799
Right.
00:33:06.960 --> 00:33:07.759
I really should have been dead.
00:33:07.839 --> 00:33:08.000
Oh.
00:33:08.319 --> 00:33:20.720
And so many of my friends, I I always think of there was a young lady that I went to school with, her name was Stacy Bird, and the summer before we were to enter into ninth grade, she got murdered by her boyfriend.
00:33:20.799 --> 00:33:23.039
She was 13 years old, got shot in the head.
00:33:23.279 --> 00:33:26.160
And I think they told us at the time she was pregnant.
00:33:27.440 --> 00:33:35.119
So we got back to school in uh for the for the fall, uh, going into ninth grade.
00:33:35.440 --> 00:33:38.480
They call the role in my homeroom.
00:33:38.960 --> 00:33:41.839
Her last name starts with a B, so you know she was at the top of the list.
00:33:42.079 --> 00:33:42.240
Right.
00:33:42.559 --> 00:33:43.599
Stacy Bird.
00:33:44.400 --> 00:33:46.240
The whole class just got quiet.
00:33:47.279 --> 00:33:50.400
We just couldn't say anything, but I just was just stunned.
00:33:50.720 --> 00:33:54.720
And so I think the second day rolled around.
00:33:55.279 --> 00:34:00.400
And and as a matter of fact, three of our classmates got killed during the summer that year.
00:34:00.640 --> 00:34:10.400
One got hit by a car, I think one was hit by a drunk driver, the other one had some little fluke accident with an infection, and he ended up dying.
00:34:10.639 --> 00:34:15.519
And the Stacy's situation with her getting murdered by our boyfriend.
00:34:15.760 --> 00:34:20.079
And all three of them were supposed to be in my homeroom class.
00:34:20.400 --> 00:34:20.960
Wow.
00:34:21.679 --> 00:34:27.519
So I went to the teacher afterwards and I said, She died this summer, he died this summer, he died this summer.
00:34:28.000 --> 00:34:29.920
She's like, Oh God, no, what happened?
00:34:30.079 --> 00:34:31.119
I told you, explained to her.
00:34:31.280 --> 00:34:35.440
So that's why the whole class just kind of got numb when you when you said those names.
00:34:35.599 --> 00:34:45.519
And so it was just a sobering moment for me at 13, 14 years old to say, that very easily could have been me.
00:34:45.679 --> 00:34:45.920
Right.
00:34:46.079 --> 00:34:48.159
I live in the same neighborhood these guys live in.
00:34:48.320 --> 00:34:54.320
We, you know, we're experiencing because that was back when the drug uh problem, crack cocaine really hit Macon really hard.
00:34:54.480 --> 00:34:57.599
That was the Jerry Anderson era of Macon, Georgia.
00:34:57.760 --> 00:35:00.239
So it was really, really crazy back then.
00:35:00.400 --> 00:35:02.800
And so I'm just grateful to God that I survived it.
00:35:02.880 --> 00:35:05.440
I remember God tried to get me to try crack one time.
00:35:05.760 --> 00:35:07.840
And I said, Do you know who I live with?
00:35:08.159 --> 00:35:09.280
Are you nuts?
00:35:09.440 --> 00:35:10.000
Yeah, right.
00:35:10.159 --> 00:35:11.280
Do you know my mother?
00:35:11.519 --> 00:35:11.920
Right.
00:35:12.159 --> 00:35:15.679
You think I'm gonna come in her house high on crack?
00:35:16.320 --> 00:35:17.599
You got to be crazy.
00:35:17.760 --> 00:35:18.960
You got to be crazy.
00:35:20.880 --> 00:35:23.679
Anyways, I'm not smoking a cigarette and going to my mama's house.
00:35:23.760 --> 00:35:27.840
You think I'm about to smoke crack and go in the house and live there?
00:35:28.559 --> 00:35:29.280
Nah, doc.
00:35:29.599 --> 00:35:30.400
We ain't doing that.
00:35:30.559 --> 00:35:30.800
Right.
00:35:30.960 --> 00:35:32.639
We're not we're not doing that.
00:35:32.880 --> 00:35:33.760
Right, right.
00:35:34.000 --> 00:35:36.079
I'm scared of Jesus and I'm scared of Jeanette.
00:35:36.159 --> 00:35:38.239
I'm telling we got look, we got whippers.
00:35:38.400 --> 00:35:42.639
I don't know what you all don't know what you came to do, but we got whippers when we were kids.
00:35:43.280 --> 00:35:48.880
Look, my my older kids will tell you they they say they got whippers, but they talking about the younger ones though.
00:35:49.440 --> 00:35:52.400
Baby, look, we got the break shoes beat off of us when we was kids.
00:35:52.559 --> 00:35:53.599
My mama didn't play.
00:35:53.760 --> 00:35:54.079
Right.
00:35:54.239 --> 00:35:58.800
And my dad, all my dad had to do was raise his voice, and you just who cares?
00:35:59.519 --> 00:36:00.000
Yeah.
00:36:00.239 --> 00:36:02.320
Oh Lord, I'll send the kiss you.
00:36:03.119 --> 00:36:05.360
We turn right to Jim, uh, Jimmy Swaggard, honey.
00:36:05.519 --> 00:36:06.880
My daddy, yeah, forget it.
00:36:07.119 --> 00:36:09.440
You start repenting for stuff you didn't do, honey.
00:36:09.760 --> 00:36:23.679
Man, that that is so, you know, like like you said, we we have to understand that, you know, being able to know the difference, you know, before you do something, right?
00:36:24.000 --> 00:36:39.039
Because a lot of the times, a lot of people will be like, oh, well, I'm gonna try it, and then then next thing you know, you end up with that consequences, and so that is the biggest thing about understanding that calling and saying, you know what, no, I ain't gonna do this.
00:36:39.119 --> 00:36:40.719
I I fear the Lord.
00:36:40.960 --> 00:36:47.280
I fear the Lord, and some people are they they are more in tune with their ambitions, right?
00:36:47.920 --> 00:36:51.119
Their self-centered ambitions, right?
00:36:51.199 --> 00:36:56.719
Right but you have to redirect your focus to your Christ-centered agenda, right?
00:36:56.800 --> 00:36:58.079
Right, what are your Christ?
00:36:58.159 --> 00:37:00.960
What agenda do you have that is Christ-centered?
00:37:01.119 --> 00:37:04.079
Right, or Christocentric agenda.
00:37:04.480 --> 00:37:06.480
What is it that is centered on Christ?
00:37:06.639 --> 00:37:09.199
What are you doing that is bringing glory to God?
00:37:09.360 --> 00:37:14.719
Right, we talk a lot about living in our truth and being happy.
00:37:15.440 --> 00:37:19.280
Where in the Bible does it tell us to live in our own truth?
00:37:19.440 --> 00:37:22.639
Right, not nowhere, Greek, Hebrew, nowhere.
00:37:22.719 --> 00:37:26.800
Do you see anything about God wanting us to live in our own truth?
00:37:27.679 --> 00:37:29.440
It tells us to die to self.
00:37:29.679 --> 00:37:30.079
Absolutely.
00:37:30.800 --> 00:37:32.719
So this is this is no longer about you.
00:37:32.800 --> 00:37:33.599
That's what I tell people.
00:37:33.679 --> 00:37:37.119
I told my singers uh the other day, we're getting ready for a rehearsal tomorrow.
00:37:37.440 --> 00:37:38.480
Rehearsal is tomorrow, isn't it?
00:37:38.639 --> 00:37:39.119
Oh God.
00:37:39.280 --> 00:37:41.679
So I mean, the week just flew by so fast.
00:37:41.840 --> 00:37:48.159
It did, just flew by so fast, but it is not about your personal style.
00:37:48.320 --> 00:37:49.519
I have a requirement.
00:37:49.679 --> 00:37:49.840
Right.
00:37:50.159 --> 00:37:50.559
Uniform.
00:37:50.719 --> 00:37:52.880
I still believe in in hosiery for ladies.
00:37:53.039 --> 00:37:56.480
I still, you know, that skirt needs to come at least below your knee.
00:37:56.639 --> 00:37:58.239
It it needs to cover.
00:37:58.400 --> 00:38:01.039
You you have to loosen it up.
00:38:01.119 --> 00:38:04.239
I know you like it snug, but you got too many bellies for that.
00:38:04.400 --> 00:38:07.599
So you need to, you know, wear something that works with with your body.
00:38:07.679 --> 00:38:11.840
You have see the I learned I learned a very valuable lesson.
00:38:11.920 --> 00:38:15.280
I bought this dress one time, and some of those that follow me probably saw the video.
00:38:15.440 --> 00:38:19.920
But I bought this dress that I saw on Erica Campbell.
00:38:21.199 --> 00:38:30.400
I don't I don't have Erica Campbell's body, and I I didn't I knew that, but it's like I thought when I put the dress on, the dress was gonna do something magical.
00:38:32.320 --> 00:38:35.599
Yeah, the dress didn't come with the body, the body didn't come with the dress.
00:38:35.679 --> 00:38:37.599
So when I put it on me, it looked stupid on me.
00:38:37.679 --> 00:38:40.480
So I put it in the closet and I didn't think about it anymore.
00:38:40.719 --> 00:38:47.519
So after I went on this weight loss journey and I got a little hee-hee and little hee-hee, I said, Oh, okay, all right.
00:38:53.760 --> 00:38:58.880
Because I was going to church and I needed something to wear um to this particular service.
00:38:58.960 --> 00:39:03.440
I said, Oh, I'm gonna try that dress on and see what it looks like now.
00:39:03.519 --> 00:39:04.559
Maybe I'll zip that suck up.
00:39:04.719 --> 00:39:13.280
I was like, and I was able to put it on and it look, it was it looked nicer on me, and now the dress is too big.
00:39:13.440 --> 00:39:14.159
Won't God do it?
00:39:15.360 --> 00:39:16.559
He'll do it, won't he?
00:39:16.880 --> 00:39:21.440
But the funny thing, the funny thing was I put it on and didn't realize I had it on backwards.
00:39:21.679 --> 00:39:28.320
So I'd gone to church, danced, shouted, spoke in tongues, sang, ran across the church, dressed on just as backwards as it could be.
00:39:29.199 --> 00:39:30.159
Big dummy.
00:39:30.320 --> 00:39:36.719
So I didn't really until I got in the car because it was so hot that it was hot, hot, hot, hot, very humid.
00:39:36.880 --> 00:39:38.079
And it was hot inside the church.
00:39:38.239 --> 00:39:40.880
We was in there just getting it, you know.
00:39:41.119 --> 00:39:44.639
I got to the car, I said, Oh, me, unzipped the shit.
00:39:46.480 --> 00:39:48.079
I'm looking for the zipper.
00:39:48.320 --> 00:39:54.400
I said, I know doggone well, I'm not the zipper goes in the front.
00:39:58.079 --> 00:40:02.320
Your dumb self has set up here all this time with the dress on backwards, trying to be cute.
00:40:02.639 --> 00:40:04.480
Oh Lord, that is so funny.
00:40:04.719 --> 00:40:05.599
That is very stupid.
00:40:05.760 --> 00:40:13.760
That's very stupid, but it's okay, you fit the dress though, absolutely, and probably wore it and started a new trend.
00:40:13.920 --> 00:40:15.199
Absolutely, you know what I'm saying?
00:40:15.440 --> 00:40:21.199
So we wouldn't have known if you hadn't told us right, like nobody would have known that, you know.
00:40:21.440 --> 00:40:26.320
I mean, Erica Camel might have, but you know, yes indeed.
00:40:26.639 --> 00:40:30.239
Oh man, I think I got that company some sales because if I was like, when did you get that dress?
00:40:30.480 --> 00:40:31.760
I had to post the thing right now.
00:40:34.400 --> 00:40:48.719
Yeah, but that's that, you know, that's that's the thing about you know, about being able to um distinguish, you know, and so when when God called you to this, like how did that happen?
00:40:49.039 --> 00:40:50.079
How did that look?
00:40:50.239 --> 00:40:54.079
Or did you like when you understood that this is where you were headed to?
00:40:54.320 --> 00:41:08.400
I was in Trenton, New Jersey, about maybe 15 years ago, and I was walking down the street, headed into the sanctuary, and it was a dark, abandoned, just dismal looking street.
00:41:08.639 --> 00:41:11.119
And when I got inside the church, there was only a few people there.
00:41:11.199 --> 00:41:16.559
It was really dark looking, and it was just an old church, and it was a lot of older people there.
00:41:16.719 --> 00:41:19.440
It's maybe probably about 10 people in the service that night.
00:41:19.679 --> 00:41:20.800
I stood on the floor and I preached.
00:41:21.039 --> 00:41:22.800
Because I'm a preacher, I don't care who's in here.
00:41:23.440 --> 00:41:23.760
Right.
00:41:24.000 --> 00:41:27.119
I grew up in a small church, you know, and we didn't have no mics at my daddy's church.
00:41:28.079 --> 00:41:30.320
You know, so they all understand that type of stuff.
00:41:30.559 --> 00:41:30.960
Absolutely.
00:41:31.039 --> 00:41:37.039
We didn't have any musicians, you just sang, clap your hands, sing some hymns, and then my dad would preach, and then we went home.
00:41:37.360 --> 00:41:44.800
And um, but I preached, and as I was coming out, I started looking around that area.
00:41:44.880 --> 00:41:47.360
I'm like, what could change this place?
00:41:47.519 --> 00:41:50.639
Or is there any hope for this place?
00:41:50.880 --> 00:41:52.559
Is there any hope for this street?
00:41:52.719 --> 00:41:54.159
Is there any hope for this block?
00:41:54.320 --> 00:42:02.239
Is there and as I was saying that, that's when the Lord started giving me the burden and letting me know that that's the pastoral eye.
00:42:02.320 --> 00:42:02.639
Right.
00:42:02.800 --> 00:42:22.400
That's the shepherd's heart in you, wanting to see growth, wanting to see expansion, wanting to see people be helped, wanting to see people be delivered, making sure I laid hands on every single person in the room, making sure I I talked to the pastor, I talked to the elderly saints, I embraced them, I made them uh feel like I was a part of them.
00:42:22.559 --> 00:42:28.480
I wasn't there floating above them, and I'm, you know, they whisk me in the door and I'll say my speech and then whisk me back out of the back.
00:42:28.559 --> 00:42:29.039
No, no, no.
00:42:29.119 --> 00:42:30.639
I want to be, I want to interact.
00:42:31.039 --> 00:42:32.559
And so that's when the Lord laid it on my heart.
00:42:32.639 --> 00:42:34.960
And I said, Well, am I gonna start the church in Trenton, New Jersey?
00:42:35.039 --> 00:42:35.920
Like, where am I going?
00:42:36.079 --> 00:42:37.519
Because I'm I've always been a get up and go.
00:42:37.599 --> 00:42:39.039
Wherever you say, Lord, I'm going.
00:42:39.599 --> 00:42:40.239
It's up.
00:42:40.400 --> 00:42:41.760
That's that's I'm I'm telling you.
00:42:42.000 --> 00:42:47.360
When he says go so see, I I want to challenge this notion of running from a call.
00:42:47.599 --> 00:42:47.920
Right.
00:42:48.079 --> 00:42:52.000
Where exactly are you running to that you're gonna escape God?
00:42:52.800 --> 00:42:55.119
Think about how stupid that sounds, right?
00:42:55.519 --> 00:42:59.199
Right I'm gonna go hide over there and and God won't see me.
00:42:59.519 --> 00:43:00.159
Right.
00:43:01.119 --> 00:43:02.320
Good luck.
00:43:02.559 --> 00:43:02.880
Right.
00:43:03.119 --> 00:43:05.920
If I fly to New Mexico, God won't see me.
00:43:06.159 --> 00:43:08.800
I'm gonna move overseas and I can escape.
00:43:09.039 --> 00:43:11.920
You cannot escape the plan of God.
00:43:12.079 --> 00:43:12.320
Right.
00:43:12.559 --> 00:43:20.159
So it's either you're going to say yes to the call and be at peace, or you're gonna say no and watch your whole life fall apart in front of you.
00:43:20.559 --> 00:43:23.199
Because we are chosen by God.
00:43:23.360 --> 00:43:26.960
Right now, you can choose whether or not to obey, but I don't think it's gonna go very well for you.
00:43:27.119 --> 00:43:36.559
I don't and I don't think God's gonna twist your arm off, but I I really believe that we are at our best when we're aligned with his purpose for our life.
00:43:36.639 --> 00:43:36.880
Yes.
00:43:37.039 --> 00:43:39.760
I don't I don't believe I'll be happy without God.
00:43:40.079 --> 00:43:40.320
Right.
00:43:40.480 --> 00:43:41.599
I don't believe I can be fulfilled.
00:43:41.679 --> 00:43:45.840
I don't believe I can go out and find something else to do that would fulfill me, like doing the work of the Lord.
00:43:46.400 --> 00:43:47.280
I love my job.
00:43:47.440 --> 00:43:47.679
Right.
00:43:47.840 --> 00:43:56.400
I love preaching, I love to teach the word, I love ministering to people, I love visiting the sick, I love visiting families when they're going through the time of reading.
00:43:56.480 --> 00:43:57.360
I enjoy that work.
00:43:57.440 --> 00:43:57.599
Right.
00:43:57.840 --> 00:44:01.440
I hate that I have to do it sometimes with going to Hospital because I hate for people to be sick.
00:44:01.679 --> 00:44:02.800
I for people be in pain.
00:44:03.039 --> 00:44:26.480
But I love to see a smile come on a sick person's face when I walk in the room, when I walk in the AIDS ward, when I walk in a cancer patient's room, when I when I walk in those rooms and a sigh of relief that I've brought some sense of peace or some sort of comfort to the family during that time, it lets me really appreciate what the presence of God does.
00:44:26.639 --> 00:44:32.800
And not calling myself the presence of God, but when he comes in, he brings peace, he brings comfort, he brings joy.
00:44:32.960 --> 00:44:38.079
And so when I come in with him in me, I bring peace, comfort, joy, and all those things with me.
00:44:38.320 --> 00:44:41.840
I tell people all the time, you you you you're gonna leave two things.
00:44:42.000 --> 00:44:44.400
You're going to leave an odor or a fragrance.
00:44:44.960 --> 00:44:47.760
So the question then becomes what did you leave when you left the room?
00:44:47.920 --> 00:44:49.760
Did you leave an odor or a fragrance?
00:44:50.000 --> 00:44:52.800
Have you ever hugged somebody somebody that was musty?
00:44:55.599 --> 00:44:56.079
Yes.
00:44:56.320 --> 00:44:58.320
You ever talked to somebody had bad breath?
00:44:58.559 --> 00:44:59.039
Right.
00:44:59.280 --> 00:45:01.920
And then when they leave, you can still smell it on you.
00:45:02.159 --> 00:45:02.400
Right.
00:45:02.559 --> 00:45:09.199
You ever had somebody pray for you with bad breath and they start talking, spitting all across your head, and you can still smell that when they're gone.
00:45:09.440 --> 00:45:10.239
Oh Lord.
00:45:10.800 --> 00:45:12.239
They left an odor.
00:45:12.719 --> 00:45:19.679
Whatever they said, it could have been a blessing they spoke of your life, but you couldn't receive it because it was masked by their odor.
00:45:19.920 --> 00:45:25.599
There are some of us that are gifted and talented, but our attitudes leave an odor.
00:45:26.079 --> 00:45:27.760
It leaves a stink in the room.
00:45:29.039 --> 00:45:31.199
It leaves the funk behind.
00:45:31.440 --> 00:45:31.760
Right.
00:45:32.000 --> 00:45:42.159
But when you are saved and you are nice, when you're warm, when you're inviting, when you're accommodating, when you're when you're courteous, you leave a fragrance behind.
00:45:42.320 --> 00:45:47.119
And people anticipate your arrival and they dread your departure.
00:45:47.840 --> 00:45:52.480
I have friends that literally break into tears when it's time for me to leave them.
00:45:52.719 --> 00:45:53.039
Right.
00:45:53.280 --> 00:45:55.119
I just hate when you leave.
00:45:55.280 --> 00:45:56.719
I wish you could stay longer.
00:45:56.880 --> 00:45:58.159
I hate to see you go.
00:45:58.239 --> 00:45:59.760
And I love to hear that.
00:46:00.480 --> 00:46:02.719
I love that my friends feel that way about me.
00:46:02.880 --> 00:46:03.039
Right.
00:46:03.199 --> 00:46:04.639
And I ain't in there casting no spell.
00:46:05.920 --> 00:46:08.960
I ain't casting no spell on my friends and on my people.
00:46:09.119 --> 00:46:11.199
But I just I love like that.
00:46:11.360 --> 00:46:11.679
Right.
00:46:11.920 --> 00:46:13.039
I pour like that.
00:46:13.199 --> 00:46:14.400
I give like that.
00:46:14.639 --> 00:46:14.960
Right.
00:46:15.119 --> 00:46:16.400
I impart like that.
00:46:16.559 --> 00:46:27.760
And so when you when you have that personality, when you're a giver, when you're a sower, when you're a healer, when you have that mindset and that and that personality, that aura, that response to people, right?
00:46:28.000 --> 00:46:29.760
Then they want you around.
00:46:30.400 --> 00:46:31.360
They want you around.
00:46:31.519 --> 00:46:36.239
I'm looking forward to shepherding God's people because I like people.
00:46:36.400 --> 00:46:39.039
You got a lot of people that can preach, but they don't like people.
00:46:39.360 --> 00:46:42.559
And so ministry is a challenge for you because you don't like nobody.
00:46:42.719 --> 00:46:45.440
Because you don't like you don't like people in your in your business.
00:46:45.840 --> 00:46:46.719
I'm an introvert.
00:46:46.880 --> 00:46:47.679
I'm an introvert.
00:46:47.760 --> 00:46:48.400
I don't like.
00:46:49.199 --> 00:46:50.079
Shut up.
00:46:52.159 --> 00:46:53.440
Like seriously.
00:46:53.599 --> 00:46:58.480
You heard something on the radio or you read something in the book, and now you're you're deeming yourself an introvert.
00:46:58.559 --> 00:47:00.159
No, you're just socially awkward.
00:47:00.239 --> 00:47:00.960
You're just weird.
00:47:01.039 --> 00:47:02.239
You don't know how to interact with people.
00:47:02.400 --> 00:47:04.320
You don't know how to have conversation with people.
00:47:04.559 --> 00:47:04.800
Right.
00:47:04.960 --> 00:47:06.480
You you're you're selfish.
00:47:06.639 --> 00:47:09.920
You don't know how to engage and interact.
00:47:10.159 --> 00:47:10.639
Right.
00:47:10.880 --> 00:47:12.880
You're only concerned about what affects you.
00:47:13.039 --> 00:47:14.800
I want to know what's going on in your world.
00:47:14.960 --> 00:47:15.199
Right.
00:47:15.360 --> 00:47:16.480
What's going on in your life?
00:47:16.639 --> 00:47:17.840
How do you feel today?
00:47:18.000 --> 00:47:18.159
Yeah.
00:47:18.400 --> 00:47:20.320
You guys got a situation going on right now.
00:47:20.400 --> 00:47:21.920
I've already been down that road.
00:47:22.400 --> 00:47:23.760
But you're here doing this.
00:47:23.840 --> 00:47:24.079
Right.
00:47:24.239 --> 00:47:27.760
When you've got something going on in your personal life, I want to know how you're doing.
00:47:27.920 --> 00:47:28.159
Yeah.
00:47:28.400 --> 00:47:31.760
I ain't going to flip it on you because I know we got to stay in a certain space.
00:47:31.840 --> 00:47:32.719
But you see what I'm saying?
00:47:32.800 --> 00:47:32.880
Yeah.
00:47:33.039 --> 00:47:35.840
I would be crazy not to ask you, how are you?
00:47:36.000 --> 00:47:36.320
Yeah.
00:47:36.480 --> 00:47:37.920
How are you coping with this?
00:47:38.079 --> 00:47:40.000
This is a new direction we're getting ready to go in.
00:47:40.079 --> 00:47:43.760
And we don't know how long the Lord is going to allow this thing to move the way it's moving.
00:47:43.840 --> 00:47:44.000
Right.
00:47:44.159 --> 00:47:46.239
And which direction it's going to turn in.
00:47:46.559 --> 00:47:48.960
And that it that affects every part of your life.
00:47:49.119 --> 00:47:50.480
That affects the life of your children.
00:47:50.559 --> 00:47:54.159
It affects your career, it affects your ministry, affects every aspect of your life.
00:47:54.719 --> 00:48:01.039
And you cannot have a person leading you somewhere that does not give a flying fig how you're making it from day to day.
00:48:01.199 --> 00:48:01.760
Right, right.
00:48:01.920 --> 00:48:04.880
What do I look like getting up in the pulpit because I want to go on vacation?
00:48:04.960 --> 00:48:08.480
I'm going, the Lord told me that everybody in here needs to give a seed of$1,000.
00:48:08.800 --> 00:48:10.320
It is inconsiderate.
00:48:10.559 --> 00:48:11.199
Right.
00:48:12.000 --> 00:48:14.400
You are an insensitive leader.
00:48:14.559 --> 00:48:19.920
If you ask for a$1,000 seed, you got 50 members, half of them are unemployed.
00:48:20.000 --> 00:48:30.159
And so you know they're going to rob Peter to pay Paul just to give you that$1,000 seat because they are feared or they're in fear of their safety.
00:48:30.480 --> 00:48:32.639
They're in fear of their blessings being cut off.
00:48:32.800 --> 00:48:35.280
They're in fear of being cursed with a curse.
00:48:35.519 --> 00:48:36.559
Right, right.
00:48:37.199 --> 00:48:38.719
That is intimidation.
00:48:38.880 --> 00:48:40.239
That's manipulation.
00:48:40.719 --> 00:48:41.599
That is control.
00:48:41.840 --> 00:48:42.880
That's domination.
00:48:43.039 --> 00:48:44.159
It is not God.
00:48:44.320 --> 00:48:45.760
That's not how God works.
00:48:45.920 --> 00:48:47.280
That's not how He moves.
00:48:47.440 --> 00:48:50.159
You're not going to get a blessing because you gave a thousand dollars.
00:48:50.320 --> 00:48:54.159
You got a blessing because you gave what you had with a cheerful heart.
00:48:54.320 --> 00:49:03.199
The Lord loves a cheerful giver, not a threatened giver, not an intimidated giver, not a fearful giver, but a cheerful giver.
00:49:03.519 --> 00:49:04.159
Yes.
00:49:04.480 --> 00:49:06.079
That's how the ministry is blessed.
00:49:06.239 --> 00:49:09.199
You want, I was, I was in, I was in, I'm I'm always somewhere.
00:49:09.280 --> 00:49:10.719
These stories always ascend somewhere.
00:49:10.880 --> 00:49:11.920
I was always somewhere.
00:49:12.159 --> 00:49:15.519
Um we were in New Orleans for uh we had Squall Fest.
00:49:15.679 --> 00:49:21.920
And while I was there, I was with one of the singers, and their first lady, it was her birthday, so she came on the trip with her girls.
00:49:22.000 --> 00:49:26.079
And I was sitting at the table, one of them was her biological daughter, the other young lady is her spiritual daughter.
00:49:26.159 --> 00:49:28.559
And so they were just so in love with this woman.
00:49:28.800 --> 00:49:30.480
The interaction was just amazing.
00:49:30.639 --> 00:49:33.039
I said, Okay, I'm starting a church.
00:49:33.280 --> 00:49:35.519
I need to know why you like her so much.
00:49:36.639 --> 00:49:38.239
Why do y'all get along so well?
00:49:38.400 --> 00:49:40.480
She said, Well, number one, she don't need me.
00:49:41.119 --> 00:49:43.679
She's got a job, she's got a life.
00:49:43.840 --> 00:49:46.880
She's not all in my business trying to run my house and run my life.
00:49:47.199 --> 00:49:51.679
She's not asking for money every week so that she can go get her hair and her nails done.
00:49:51.840 --> 00:49:52.800
She works for the government.
00:49:52.960 --> 00:49:54.320
Our pastor is a lawyer.
00:49:54.480 --> 00:49:56.480
They have good money of their own.
00:49:56.719 --> 00:50:05.599
So when I make my good money of my own, I love sewing into them because they're not hirelings and they're not fleecing the sheep.
00:50:05.840 --> 00:50:10.000
They're doing the work of the ministry and they deserve whatever we can give them.
00:50:10.159 --> 00:50:13.519
So it meant it was nothing for me to fork over this amount of money.
00:50:13.599 --> 00:50:15.440
It's nothing for me to drop this in their lap.
00:50:15.519 --> 00:50:22.639
It's nothing for me to pour this into them because I know that they're not just here to milk us from what they can get from us.
00:50:22.800 --> 00:50:23.039
Right.
00:50:23.280 --> 00:50:25.039
And then you don't see them anymore during the week.
00:50:25.119 --> 00:50:27.679
They're gonna pop in town, have a service, and then disappear.
00:50:27.920 --> 00:50:29.039
Right, right.
00:50:29.360 --> 00:50:30.480
You can't contact me.
00:50:30.559 --> 00:50:31.679
You don't have my phone number.
00:50:31.760 --> 00:50:33.440
We don't have any way of interacting with you.
00:50:33.519 --> 00:50:36.719
You're not gonna visit the sick, you're not gonna pray with anybody.
00:50:37.199 --> 00:50:40.719
You're not doing you're not shepherding, you're just preaching, right?
00:50:40.880 --> 00:50:44.960
You're just hosting movements and revivals and and and having services.
00:50:45.199 --> 00:50:45.599
Right.
00:50:45.760 --> 00:50:46.960
And that's not what I'm about.
00:50:47.039 --> 00:50:48.880
I'm here to do a work.
00:50:49.039 --> 00:50:53.440
Yeah, I live in Vegas, but I'm gonna be here for the most part doing the work.
00:50:53.599 --> 00:50:55.440
You will have access to me.
00:50:55.599 --> 00:50:58.239
Yeah, you will have complete access to me.
00:50:58.400 --> 00:51:02.559
I care about you, I care about what's going on with you, I care about your family.
00:51:02.719 --> 00:51:04.239
I don't care if they're not members of this church.
00:51:04.320 --> 00:51:05.119
Your mother is sick.
00:51:05.199 --> 00:51:06.159
I'm coming over there.
00:51:07.519 --> 00:51:07.920
Mm-hmm.
00:51:08.559 --> 00:51:09.679
Your mama ain't saved.
00:51:09.760 --> 00:51:16.079
I'm still going over there because I don't care if she's not saved, I want God to heal her so she can get saved.
00:51:16.239 --> 00:51:16.400
Right.
00:51:16.559 --> 00:51:20.559
So she can't so she can know who Jesus can know the healer.
00:51:20.719 --> 00:51:21.199
Right.
00:51:21.440 --> 00:51:28.000
He can make her whole, and then she can give her life to him as an act of gratitude for the healing.
00:51:28.400 --> 00:51:29.039
You see?
00:51:29.280 --> 00:51:29.599
Right.
00:51:29.760 --> 00:51:35.199
People need to ex they need to have an experience of God to get a revelation of God before they can accept him as their savior.
00:51:35.280 --> 00:51:39.920
We just want to bring him in there and slam on the altar and start tarrying over them, and they don't even know who you're talking about.
00:51:41.599 --> 00:51:45.760
And we're such poor representation of him, we're such poor representatives of who he is.
00:51:46.000 --> 00:51:47.679
We're really bad representatives of the company.
00:51:47.760 --> 00:51:48.320
I talked about this.
00:51:48.400 --> 00:51:51.360
Uh there was a product called Herbalife years ago.
00:51:51.920 --> 00:51:56.000
And it was this diet program, and you make it a little shake and drink the shake.
00:51:56.079 --> 00:51:58.400
But they have these fat people selling the stuff.
00:52:03.199 --> 00:52:06.320
You people are not very good representation of the product.
00:52:06.559 --> 00:52:08.480
And that's how that's how some Christians are.
00:52:08.639 --> 00:52:16.800
Yeah, and I tell people I say some of y'all are overweight lovers, y'all big, big, big, big backs, and you're selling supplements, and people are buying it.
00:52:16.960 --> 00:52:20.400
You tell them, Oh, well, if you take two of these, and we're not seeing no results, baby.
00:52:20.559 --> 00:52:23.039
Don't advertise it until we see some results.
00:52:23.199 --> 00:52:23.360
Right.
00:52:23.599 --> 00:52:27.920
You make one commercial and say, I'm about to try this, watch me shrink.
00:52:28.639 --> 00:52:31.519
Make that video, don't post it yet, just make the video.
00:52:31.679 --> 00:52:34.719
And then after you shrink, come back and say, This is how I shrunk.
00:52:34.880 --> 00:52:35.280
Right.
00:52:35.519 --> 00:52:42.880
Don't come in here with this drink two of these and and chew these gummies, and six months later, you still big as a house.
00:52:43.039 --> 00:52:43.199
Right.
00:52:43.360 --> 00:52:45.599
Because what do we go in and why do we buy this?
00:52:45.760 --> 00:52:45.920
Right.
00:52:46.079 --> 00:52:46.960
Why are we in here?
00:52:47.199 --> 00:52:48.320
Why we in these meetings?
00:52:48.400 --> 00:52:54.960
Why are we going to these conferences and and paying these fees to sell a product that nobody has proven really works?
00:52:55.119 --> 00:53:09.679
Why should I come to church when you're saying you're saved, but you're depressed, you're suicidal, you're still screwing everybody in town, you're in 15 different relationships, you're on living right, you're still cussing, you're still smoking weed, you're still drinking, you're still doing everything I'm doing.
00:53:09.840 --> 00:53:13.360
What good is it for me to be saved if nothing about you has changed?
00:53:13.840 --> 00:53:16.239
If any man be in Christ, he is a what?
00:53:16.400 --> 00:53:17.119
New creature.
00:53:17.519 --> 00:53:20.159
All things are passed away, and behold, all things become new.
00:53:20.800 --> 00:53:22.320
I got a new governor.
00:53:22.639 --> 00:53:27.280
Woo! I got a new governor, I've got a new set of rules that I follow.
00:53:27.360 --> 00:53:28.320
Yes, I'm still human.
00:53:28.400 --> 00:53:29.679
Yes, I still have these cravings.
00:53:29.760 --> 00:53:34.880
Yes, I still have these habits, yes, I still have these struggles, but I have a different response to Tokushababa.
00:53:35.119 --> 00:53:43.920
I have a different response to my struggle, I have a different response to my frustration, I have a different response to my habit, I have a different response to my hangouts.
00:53:44.559 --> 00:53:49.440
Because I got a word hanging over my life, and I can't do everything that you do.
00:53:50.079 --> 00:53:53.599
I can't respond the way I can't go up to the job and cuss everybody out.
00:53:53.760 --> 00:53:56.400
I can't go in the airport and flip the desk over at the airport.
00:53:56.480 --> 00:53:59.519
I can't go in there and show out why because I got the Holy Ghost.
00:53:59.679 --> 00:54:02.559
Yes, the whole my Holy Ghost won't let me do that.
00:54:02.800 --> 00:54:05.280
I can't steal groceries out of the store.
00:54:06.239 --> 00:54:12.320
I can't ring up a bell pepper and leave with a comforter because I got the Holy Ghost, He won't let me.
00:54:12.559 --> 00:54:13.199
Right.
00:54:13.840 --> 00:54:14.719
He won't let me do.
00:54:14.960 --> 00:54:16.000
We went with Anna's Linen.
00:54:16.239 --> 00:54:19.199
I don't know if y'all remember Anna's Linen, but they had a nice store called Anna's Linen.
00:54:19.360 --> 00:54:23.679
They sold towels and sheets and just bedding and it just every any color of the rainbow they had it.
00:54:23.760 --> 00:54:24.320
Remember Anna's?
00:54:24.639 --> 00:54:25.199
I think I remember.
00:54:25.519 --> 00:54:32.960
I went there one day and bought up a bunch of stuff, and the young lady forgot to ring up my shower curtain.
00:54:33.679 --> 00:54:37.599
And I said, when she gave me the total, I said, that don't sound right.
00:54:37.679 --> 00:54:38.960
Or maybe something was on sale.
00:54:39.119 --> 00:54:41.599
So I got outside and I looked at the receipt again.
00:54:41.679 --> 00:54:43.599
And I said, She didn't charge me for this shower curtain.
00:54:43.679 --> 00:54:45.280
Shower curtain was$19.99.
00:54:46.000 --> 00:54:48.239
I said, Oh no, that ain't no 15 cent difference.
00:54:48.320 --> 00:54:49.920
That's that's$20 whole dollars.
00:54:50.079 --> 00:54:50.400
Right.
00:54:50.559 --> 00:54:51.679
So I went back in there.
00:54:51.760 --> 00:54:54.400
I said, You didn't charge me for this shower curtain.
00:54:54.639 --> 00:54:58.559
She said, and you didn't and you came back?
00:54:59.440 --> 00:55:00.000
Yeah.
00:55:00.639 --> 00:55:01.519
I said, baby, I'm not.
00:55:01.679 --> 00:55:02.559
I said, I got the Holy Ghost.
00:55:02.639 --> 00:55:04.239
I'm not going to help behind no shower curtain.
00:55:04.400 --> 00:55:05.440
I know that's real.
00:55:05.760 --> 00:55:06.719
Are you crazy?
00:55:06.960 --> 00:55:09.360
I came in here with enough money to buy what I need.
00:55:09.599 --> 00:55:09.840
Right.
00:55:10.079 --> 00:55:11.440
I didn't come to steal from you.
00:55:11.599 --> 00:55:11.840
Right.
00:55:12.000 --> 00:55:13.599
I came to patronize the store.
00:55:13.760 --> 00:55:14.000
Right.
00:55:14.159 --> 00:55:20.000
And I and my conscience won't allow me to walk away, knowing that you didn't ring this up.
00:55:20.719 --> 00:55:22.079
We're not moving like that, baby.
00:55:22.239 --> 00:55:22.800
That's so good.
00:55:23.039 --> 00:55:24.719
Holy Ghost is the Holy Ghost in all things.
00:55:24.800 --> 00:55:26.719
He's not just the Holy Ghost when it's time for you to lay hands.
00:55:26.800 --> 00:55:34.960
See, we want, we want, we want the anointing when it's time to lay hands, when it's time to prophesy, when it's time to get an engagement, when it's time to hit the hot note.
00:55:35.199 --> 00:55:36.400
Then we want the presence of the Lord.
00:55:36.480 --> 00:55:49.519
But when it's time for us to live right, speak to people, talk right, act right, be nice, interact, engage, resolve conflict, deal with your family, take care of your elderly parents, then we ain't we ain't studying about the Holy Ghost.
00:55:49.760 --> 00:55:50.800
Then now you ain't got the Holy Ghost.
00:55:50.880 --> 00:55:51.679
We ain't got no Holy Ghost.
00:55:51.760 --> 00:55:53.039
We ain't think about no Holy Ghost now.
00:55:53.199 --> 00:56:00.079
We only want it when we can shine with that I might know him and the power of his resurrection.
00:56:00.480 --> 00:56:03.840
But we don't want it, we don't want to know the fellowship of his suffering.
00:56:04.159 --> 00:56:04.639
Right.
00:56:04.880 --> 00:56:06.880
Everybody wants the resurrection power.
00:56:06.960 --> 00:56:21.360
Everybody wants the power, they want the the dunaness, they want that ability to do the hard thing, they want the ability, the strength of God, the kebab, they want the glory, the kratos, they want the strength, but they don't want the suffering.
00:56:22.400 --> 00:56:27.599
Even, and it goes beyond that, even being made conformable to his death.
00:56:28.880 --> 00:56:30.000
See, we don't want that.
00:56:30.079 --> 00:56:30.639
Oh no, no, no.
00:56:31.760 --> 00:56:33.280
No, no, no, keep that over there, guys.
00:56:33.360 --> 00:56:35.039
We're we're all set over here on death, folks.
00:56:35.119 --> 00:56:35.760
No, no, no.
00:56:35.920 --> 00:56:38.159
Good times, happy feelings, warm tingly.
00:56:38.400 --> 00:56:39.679
Let's have lots of that.
00:56:39.920 --> 00:56:42.079
Anything demonstrative works.
00:56:42.239 --> 00:56:44.239
Let me lay hands and people fall out.
00:56:44.480 --> 00:56:51.920
And that's why so many of these churches are popping up because people are addicted to how it looks when somebody falls out, right?
00:56:52.079 --> 00:56:54.320
What are you so mesmerized by that for?
00:56:54.480 --> 00:56:56.079
You're just a vessel.
00:56:56.400 --> 00:56:59.360
It doesn't make you anointed, it doesn't make you special, right?
00:56:59.599 --> 00:57:00.960
Because somebody fell out.
00:57:01.199 --> 00:57:01.679
Right.
00:57:02.079 --> 00:57:05.599
How do you live after service is over?
00:57:05.760 --> 00:57:06.159
Right.
00:57:06.320 --> 00:57:10.800
And how does that person live after they've getting after they've gotten up off the floor?
00:57:11.119 --> 00:57:12.159
What happened in there?
00:57:12.239 --> 00:57:16.079
Were there any chains broken, any yokes destroyed, any burdens removed?
00:57:16.320 --> 00:57:18.239
Then all we did was put on a show.
00:57:20.159 --> 00:57:21.840
All we did was put on a show.
00:57:22.000 --> 00:57:25.760
It's just demonstration with no manifestation, right?
00:57:25.920 --> 00:57:29.039
No revelation, no transformation.
00:57:29.360 --> 00:57:34.320
Be not conformed to this world, but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.
00:57:34.639 --> 00:57:36.960
Has your mind been renewed?
00:57:37.199 --> 00:57:37.840
Yes.
00:57:38.639 --> 00:57:44.480
Or are you just spotting a bunch of scriptures and still going about life as you always do?
00:57:44.719 --> 00:57:49.199
What's different about you when the doors are closed, when the lights are off?
00:57:51.360 --> 00:57:54.320
What kind of pictures do you have in your phone?
00:57:54.880 --> 00:57:55.519
Yes.
00:57:57.119 --> 00:57:58.480
Folks send you stuff sometime.
00:57:58.559 --> 00:58:02.480
You like, how long did it take you before you deleted it?
00:58:02.639 --> 00:58:02.880
Right.
00:58:03.039 --> 00:58:04.480
Or did you delete it?
00:58:05.039 --> 00:58:06.880
Most people put it in that high.
00:58:08.880 --> 00:58:12.400
Or they delete it, but they keep going back to the recently deleted product.
00:58:14.159 --> 00:58:14.639
That's a mess.
00:58:14.719 --> 00:58:16.559
I hate that it doesn't mean like that.
00:58:17.119 --> 00:58:19.360
I'm acting like I didn't see that two minutes later.
00:58:19.840 --> 00:58:20.159
Right.
00:58:20.320 --> 00:58:21.360
That's that's so good.
00:58:21.679 --> 00:58:34.480
I mean, I'm telling y'all, the Holy Spirit, I I'm I'm excited about you stepping into what God has called you to do because I know that you have have that calling.
00:58:34.639 --> 00:58:35.360
You know what I'm saying?
00:58:35.519 --> 00:58:52.480
And being that you undid it for 30 years already, and to step in and that burning to make sure that people are living holy, that is that is a you know a God calling gift because there's a lot of people that's in it for the wrong reason.
00:58:53.519 --> 00:58:58.960
They fell in love with the glam the glam era of evangelism ruined it for a lot of people.
00:58:59.119 --> 00:58:59.519
Right.
00:58:59.840 --> 00:59:09.119
Because you see all these big name preachers and they're traveling, they're doing these big conferences and these huge arenas, and everybody wanted to be the next this one and the next that one.
00:59:09.199 --> 00:59:10.239
I'm going to the Potter's house.
00:59:10.559 --> 00:59:10.960
That was the goal.
00:59:11.039 --> 00:59:11.840
Get to the Potter's House.
00:59:11.920 --> 00:59:12.400
Get to the Potter's house.
00:59:12.480 --> 00:59:18.639
And then I'm gonna be a woman without loose, I'm gonna be on manpower, I'm gonna be on the Mega Fest, I'm gonna be, and so that became people's goal.
00:59:18.800 --> 00:59:19.039
Right.
00:59:19.280 --> 00:59:22.400
Souls was no longer the goals, it was the stage, right?
00:59:22.559 --> 00:59:25.199
The platform became the so became the goals.
00:59:25.519 --> 00:59:33.519
I want to be able, I want to be able to do ministry full time because I don't want to go to work on Monday.
00:59:33.679 --> 00:59:41.280
Right, I want to be able to sleep in fancy hotels, eat and order room service, lay up all day, and then fly out.
00:59:41.440 --> 00:59:41.920
That's what it is.
00:59:42.159 --> 00:59:43.360
That sounds so glamorous, doesn't it?
00:59:43.519 --> 00:59:43.920
That's what it is.
00:59:44.079 --> 00:59:45.039
That's what I do every week.
00:59:45.119 --> 00:59:54.880
I I fly out, I get flown in and I get flown out, and I and I travel and I'm dragging suitcases here and there, and people are taking me, picking me up in nice cars and taking me around.
00:59:55.039 --> 01:00:05.840
And all of that is great, but there is a burden and a responsibility that comes with that that you don't see right when we're on stage.
01:00:06.079 --> 01:00:10.559
You didn't see all I had to go through before I got on stage at Greater Emanuel the other Sunday, right?
01:00:10.719 --> 01:00:15.119
You didn't see all that I had to go through to get to the airport and get all the stuff done and get the clothes in.
01:00:15.519 --> 01:00:19.360
I have there's a there's just a whole process, right?
01:00:19.679 --> 01:00:25.199
I had to do it while I was in acute liver failure, I had to do it while I had an issue of blood for two years.
01:00:25.360 --> 01:00:25.760
Wow.
01:00:25.920 --> 01:00:32.159
A lot of the videos you see on YouTube, you have no idea what I was going through in my physical body.
01:00:32.320 --> 01:00:34.800
Wow, the challenges I was going through my physical body.
01:00:34.960 --> 01:00:36.960
When I recorded, I've got the victory.
01:00:37.039 --> 01:00:38.719
I was in an abusive marriage.
01:00:38.960 --> 01:00:39.360
Wow.
01:00:39.519 --> 01:00:44.880
And I had just had an altercation with my husband right before we recorded, I've got the victory.
01:00:45.119 --> 01:00:45.599
Wow.
01:00:45.840 --> 01:00:47.519
We fought the night before the recording.
01:00:47.599 --> 01:00:51.840
I didn't even know if I was gonna have enough voice to sing because he had me up arguing all night long.
01:00:52.079 --> 01:00:53.280
You see what I'm saying?
01:00:53.519 --> 01:00:54.639
The stress of that.
01:00:54.800 --> 01:00:58.639
This fool is sitting in the audience when I gotta stand before God's people.
01:00:58.800 --> 01:01:01.119
But that's where the ad-libs came from.
01:01:01.280 --> 01:01:02.960
I ad-lib my situation.
01:01:03.119 --> 01:01:06.000
I prophesied to myself in my ad-libs.
01:01:06.159 --> 01:01:12.480
You made it through the divorce, you made it through the courts, through convictions, addictions, through headaches and heartaches, through the pain, the suffering.
01:01:12.719 --> 01:01:14.000
Do you know you got it?
01:01:14.719 --> 01:01:15.599
I got the victory.
01:01:15.679 --> 01:01:16.800
Everywhere that I go, I got it.
01:01:16.880 --> 01:01:18.960
Walking on my job, walking in my house, signing up for that loan.
01:01:19.039 --> 01:01:20.719
Everywhere that I go, I got it.
01:01:20.880 --> 01:01:23.360
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, January, February, March, and April.
01:01:23.440 --> 01:01:24.079
Now I'm in a hurry.
01:01:24.159 --> 01:01:28.079
You know, all of that was me prophesying my way out.
01:01:28.400 --> 01:01:28.960
Wow.
01:01:31.920 --> 01:01:33.039
In song.
01:01:34.079 --> 01:01:38.239
Some people, if they stump their toe, they're not gonna make the concert.
01:01:38.639 --> 01:01:39.280
Right.
01:01:39.840 --> 01:01:40.880
A little breeze blow.
01:01:41.119 --> 01:01:41.440
Uh-uh.
01:01:41.519 --> 01:01:42.960
I'm gonna be in bed about two or three days.
01:01:43.039 --> 01:01:44.000
It's too windy out there.
01:01:44.159 --> 01:01:45.440
You're not ready.
01:01:45.760 --> 01:01:54.480
And that's why God, that's why the Lord can't use a lot of you all, because you have too many darn excuses for why you can't show up.
01:01:54.639 --> 01:01:55.599
I don't feel like it.
01:01:55.679 --> 01:01:59.760
I don't, and I told I got a little uh dental situation going on here.
01:01:59.840 --> 01:02:01.440
This tooth needs to be extracted.
01:02:01.679 --> 01:02:06.079
And I woke up yesterday, looked in the mirror yesterday, and saw that my face was starting to swell.
01:02:06.159 --> 01:02:07.760
I said, I'm getting a darn abscess.
01:02:08.000 --> 01:02:10.880
I said, Boy, you really are pointing on thick, aren't you, Satan?
01:02:11.039 --> 01:02:12.000
Yeah, he will.
01:02:12.159 --> 01:02:13.519
Your stupid self.
01:02:14.480 --> 01:02:16.480
And I said, I looked at myself in the mirror.
01:02:16.559 --> 01:02:19.360
I said, It's a little puffy, but I'm still not stopping.
01:02:19.599 --> 01:02:20.239
Right.
01:02:20.800 --> 01:02:21.199
Right.
01:02:21.440 --> 01:02:24.159
I'm going right down there with a puffy face.
01:02:24.400 --> 01:02:24.800
Right.
01:02:24.960 --> 01:02:38.880
And as a matter of fact, I got on the phone, called my dentist in Vegas, had them to ship my uh to transfer my prescription here, and they sent me my antibiotics, and the swelling has already started to go down because it was real puffy yesterday under my eyes and everything.
01:02:39.119 --> 01:02:41.519
And I said, This is this is getting silly.
01:02:42.719 --> 01:02:46.639
But warfare warfare is always attached.
01:02:47.360 --> 01:02:49.039
There's always attached to a big move.
01:02:49.119 --> 01:02:52.079
When God is getting ready to do something major, there's always some kickback.
01:02:52.639 --> 01:02:53.119
I love that.
01:02:53.280 --> 01:02:56.800
One of our musicians lost his lost his baby in this process.
01:02:57.039 --> 01:02:58.400
The funeral is tomorrow.
01:02:58.559 --> 01:02:58.880
Wow.
01:02:59.199 --> 01:03:00.880
Baby died in childbirth.
01:03:01.519 --> 01:03:02.079
Wow.
01:03:02.320 --> 01:03:05.199
One of my other musicians, she had two seizures.
01:03:05.280 --> 01:03:08.480
They had to recalibrate her med, so she's not gonna be able to make it.
01:03:08.719 --> 01:03:09.199
Wow.
01:03:09.440 --> 01:03:14.880
My main organist is leaving for Florida because he had a death in their family down there.
01:03:14.960 --> 01:03:19.599
And the friend, one of his close friends passed, so he's gotta go down there and come back and be very concerned.
01:03:19.840 --> 01:03:21.199
So just all kinds of attacks.
01:03:21.360 --> 01:03:23.519
My nurse has a bleeding ulcer.
01:03:24.480 --> 01:03:25.920
So she can't come.
01:03:27.840 --> 01:03:32.559
All my key people, all my close people, my my circle got attacked in the middle.
01:03:32.719 --> 01:03:35.280
I was like, Well, Lord, why are you letting it happen to them?
01:03:35.360 --> 01:03:36.079
What about me?
01:03:36.159 --> 01:03:37.760
And I deal with what I gotta deal with.
01:03:37.840 --> 01:03:39.039
Don't let it happen to them.
01:03:39.199 --> 01:03:39.679
Uh-uh.
01:03:40.000 --> 01:03:43.039
No, they gotta suffer with me in order to reign with me.
01:03:44.239 --> 01:03:45.360
They've got to suffer.
01:03:45.519 --> 01:03:47.519
They've got to be able to take the darts.
01:03:47.679 --> 01:03:51.119
If they can't take the darts, then they haven't earned the prize.
01:03:51.360 --> 01:03:52.239
Come on now.
01:03:52.480 --> 01:03:55.119
They haven't earned the reward, they haven't earned the blessings.
01:03:57.360 --> 01:04:04.000
They haven't earned the blessing, they haven't earned the joy, they haven't earned the the benefits.
01:04:04.159 --> 01:04:04.320
Right.
01:04:04.559 --> 01:04:04.800
Thank you.
01:04:04.960 --> 01:04:05.280
Right.
01:04:05.599 --> 01:04:08.320
Who is she finna have me running?
01:04:08.639 --> 01:04:09.360
You hear me?
01:04:09.599 --> 01:04:10.400
They haven't earned that.
01:04:10.960 --> 01:04:15.199
So it is necessary that they go through this storm.
01:04:15.360 --> 01:04:15.679
Right.
01:04:15.920 --> 01:04:18.400
It's necessary that they go through this trial.
01:04:18.559 --> 01:04:20.880
It's necessary that they be tossed to and fro.
01:04:20.960 --> 01:04:25.039
It's necessary that hey, we we did it, but we didn't get paid today.
01:04:25.280 --> 01:04:25.519
Right.
01:04:25.760 --> 01:04:27.039
Gotta do that sometimes.
01:04:27.360 --> 01:04:28.000
Right.
01:04:29.039 --> 01:04:34.239
But this is this is the phase where you prove your loyalty.
01:04:34.400 --> 01:04:38.079
You prove, and I'm not, I don't, I'm not an advocate for using anybody.
01:04:38.239 --> 01:04:38.480
Right.
01:04:38.639 --> 01:04:42.159
Because I will leave empty before I let my people be destroyed.
01:04:42.239 --> 01:04:43.360
I don't, I don't play that.
01:04:43.599 --> 01:04:44.400
I don't play that.
01:04:44.559 --> 01:04:47.760
And I might need you to give me a couple days, but make sure you have your coins.
01:04:47.920 --> 01:04:48.159
Right.
01:04:48.320 --> 01:04:49.840
But we're prepared this time.
01:04:50.000 --> 01:04:50.639
Praise the Lord.
01:04:50.880 --> 01:04:51.440
Hallelujah.
01:04:51.679 --> 01:04:57.599
You know, I had a fiasco the week of my birthday, just several of my events got canceled right back to back.
01:04:57.679 --> 01:05:03.280
And that was what was gonna pay for the uh salary for my people that I hired to do the show.
01:05:03.440 --> 01:05:07.920
But God restored it, put it back, and we were able to take care of it in a few weeks.
01:05:08.079 --> 01:05:09.760
But I just don't like owing people.
01:05:09.920 --> 01:05:11.119
That makes my nerves bad.
01:05:11.280 --> 01:05:11.920
I'm telling you.
01:05:12.079 --> 01:05:14.719
But there are some that are set out to be dishonest.
01:05:15.039 --> 01:05:15.199
Right.
01:05:15.360 --> 01:05:17.039
They never had any intention of paying you.
01:05:17.199 --> 01:05:17.280
Right.
01:05:17.519 --> 01:05:19.280
So when you call them, they don't answer their phone.
01:05:20.079 --> 01:05:22.719
When you call them, they they ghost you, they they block you.
01:05:23.599 --> 01:05:23.920
Right.
01:05:24.079 --> 01:05:26.159
And then they get on Facebook and call you the devil.
01:05:26.719 --> 01:05:28.480
You see, that kind of nonsense.
01:05:28.719 --> 01:05:32.079
But this is a suffering way, and I'm grateful.
01:05:32.239 --> 01:05:34.719
It's another day's journey, and I'm so glad.
01:05:34.880 --> 01:05:36.480
This old world can't do me no harm.
01:05:36.639 --> 01:05:39.679
See, I don't know what those songs meant back then, you know.
01:05:40.000 --> 01:05:42.559
But but my mind is made up.
01:05:43.119 --> 01:05:44.320
I'm on my way up.
01:05:45.039 --> 01:05:47.679
I'm gonna hold my head up and I'm going on with the Lord.
01:05:47.760 --> 01:05:49.039
I'm I'm here to stay.
01:05:49.440 --> 01:05:54.320
I'm here to do this work, I'm here to finish what the Lord has started in me.
01:05:54.559 --> 01:05:54.960
Yes.
01:05:55.199 --> 01:05:57.440
And raise up the next generation of leaders.
01:05:57.519 --> 01:05:59.760
Because I'm not gonna be here always, I'll be 50 years old.
01:06:00.320 --> 01:06:03.840
So, you know, I'll be you know we'll be looking up, they'll be 60.
01:06:04.639 --> 01:06:06.480
And you look around, you'll be 70.
01:06:06.639 --> 01:06:07.679
You know what I'm saying?
01:06:07.920 --> 01:06:08.400
My God.
01:06:08.639 --> 01:06:10.800
And people are checking out of here in their 50s.
01:06:11.199 --> 01:06:11.519
Yeah.
01:06:12.079 --> 01:06:13.599
People are checking out of here in their 30s.
01:06:13.679 --> 01:06:16.960
I saw somebody today, uh, 1986.
01:06:17.440 --> 01:06:17.760
Wow.
01:06:18.079 --> 01:06:20.239
Born in 1986, that just passed away.
01:06:20.400 --> 01:06:20.559
Wow.
01:06:20.719 --> 01:06:23.199
I said, What what's happening to these young people?
01:06:23.440 --> 01:06:24.000
Right?
01:06:24.320 --> 01:06:31.280
They're committing suicide, they're having heart attacks and strokes in their 40s, 30s and 30s.
01:06:31.519 --> 01:06:33.280
30s and 40s, yes.
01:06:33.440 --> 01:06:34.239
Yes, yes.
01:06:34.559 --> 01:06:35.199
It's a time.
01:06:35.360 --> 01:06:35.840
It's a time.
01:06:36.639 --> 01:06:38.239
But I'm up for the challenge.
01:06:38.559 --> 01:06:40.000
Well, I'm you know what?
01:06:40.159 --> 01:06:41.760
I'm I'm full.
01:06:42.159 --> 01:06:48.000
I am so full because of the simple fact that you have came and blessed my soul.
01:06:48.320 --> 01:07:04.159
Like literally, because a lot of people, you know, when they're stepping into something new, they, you know, they they shy away or they don't talk about it because they're not determined as much as they should be.
01:07:04.559 --> 01:07:05.519
And pray out.
01:07:05.840 --> 01:07:06.159
Yes.
01:07:07.440 --> 01:07:09.519
Thank you for allowing me this opportunity.
01:07:09.840 --> 01:07:11.920
And um, we're gonna pray for your mom.
01:07:12.159 --> 01:07:12.480
Yes.
01:07:12.639 --> 01:07:13.840
I'm gonna pray for your mom.
01:07:14.400 --> 01:07:20.719
And um, and we believe God to one thing the Lord does is he always does what's right.
01:07:20.960 --> 01:07:26.800
Yes, and it may not always be right to us, but it's always right for us.
01:07:27.039 --> 01:07:31.920
Yes, it's always right for the person that's involved, and he's gonna do what's right concerning her.
01:07:32.079 --> 01:07:38.000
We trust him to be fair, we trust him to be just, we trust him because he is the healer.
01:07:38.159 --> 01:07:38.800
Oh, yes, God.
01:07:38.960 --> 01:07:39.840
And we know he's able.
01:07:40.000 --> 01:07:42.000
Father, in Jesus' name, I thank you for this time.
01:07:42.320 --> 01:07:45.199
Thank you for this gathering, and thank you for this meeting today.
01:07:45.360 --> 01:07:49.440
We love you and we give your name praise, honor, and glory for all that you're preparing to do.
01:07:49.519 --> 01:07:53.280
And we thank you that your healing virtue is going and touching mom right now.
01:07:53.679 --> 01:07:56.800
In the name of Jesus, from the crown of her head to the sole of her feet.
01:07:56.880 --> 01:07:58.719
She has served you all her life.
01:07:58.960 --> 01:08:02.079
She has given her life to you, she has done your work.
01:08:02.320 --> 01:08:07.760
And I know that sometimes these things happen to our parents just so they can rest because they're gonna keep going.
01:08:07.840 --> 01:08:09.920
If if you don't stop them, they won't stop.
01:08:10.320 --> 01:08:16.640
And so I thank you now that you are giving her this time for her body to repair itself and to heal and to be made whole.
01:08:16.720 --> 01:08:20.239
I just ask that you would cover her family and keep them together as they go through this time.
01:08:20.319 --> 01:08:25.680
I've been down this road, I know what it's like, and it can be very trying on the family being a caregiver.
01:08:25.760 --> 01:08:37.359
But I ask that you would touch the direct handlers, everybody that handles her, every therapist that comes in, all those that are going to deal with her and have any hands on her, touch them right now and cover them in your blood.
01:08:37.600 --> 01:08:42.159
Bless the gathering, bless this cued for Christ, bless this ministry.
01:08:42.399 --> 01:08:57.600
This is a ministry, this is a work, this is a platform that's been opened, that the word of the Lord can go forth and we can discuss the work, we can discuss the blood, we can discuss the power of God and what he's doing through our careers and through our ministries.
01:08:57.760 --> 01:09:03.600
We thank you and we ask that you would bless it, increase it, increase it, and stretch it in Jesus' name, amen.
01:09:03.680 --> 01:09:12.159
And everybody that's listening, everybody that's listening, I believe in God that this is going to be a powerful year for you, a year of fire.
01:09:12.399 --> 01:09:26.960
Yes, God, the fire of God, the power of the Holy Ghost just being so prevalent, so resident, so so relevant, so radiant in your life that people are gonna say, there's something different about you.
01:09:27.119 --> 01:09:27.600
Yes.
01:09:27.920 --> 01:09:28.640
Take this time.
01:09:28.720 --> 01:09:30.319
We're at the first week of the year.
01:09:30.640 --> 01:09:33.199
Get in your Bible like never before, read it.
01:09:33.359 --> 01:09:35.840
Turn that TV off at night and get in your scriptures.
01:09:35.920 --> 01:09:39.119
If you have to play the scriptures, let the scriptures play while you're asleep.
01:09:39.279 --> 01:09:40.640
Take some time out with the word.
01:09:40.880 --> 01:09:44.720
Don't start your day on social media, start your day in the word.
01:09:45.119 --> 01:09:46.560
Yes, start your day with prayer.
01:09:46.640 --> 01:09:49.600
If you don't do nothing but say, Lord, thank you for waking me this morning.
01:09:49.760 --> 01:09:51.439
Lead me and guide me during this day.
01:09:51.600 --> 01:09:53.920
Don't let me get off track, don't let me get off course.
01:09:54.000 --> 01:09:55.920
Bishop Shear says something so powerful.
01:09:56.000 --> 01:09:57.760
It was so simple, but yet powerful.
01:09:57.920 --> 01:09:59.680
Lord, I want you involved.
01:09:59.920 --> 01:10:01.680
Get it, get in here and take over.
01:10:02.159 --> 01:10:07.039
Take over my children, take over with my kids, take over with my family, take over with my Lord.
01:10:07.119 --> 01:10:07.520
Take over.
01:10:08.560 --> 01:10:09.760
I have messed this thing up well.
01:10:10.079 --> 01:10:11.600
I if please come get this.
01:10:11.680 --> 01:10:16.319
Yes, take over with everything that's going on with me.
01:10:17.119 --> 01:10:17.680
Yes.
01:10:18.000 --> 01:10:19.680
Y'all clap your hair.
01:10:21.279 --> 01:10:24.399
Am I the only one that's that's ready to run?
01:10:25.359 --> 01:10:27.199
I'm ready to run.
01:10:27.359 --> 01:10:28.479
I'm super excited.
01:10:28.640 --> 01:10:40.720
I want to say thank you for your just the anointing, the Holy Spirit talking through you and being a blessing to the podcast and and and everybody.
01:10:40.880 --> 01:10:42.880
I hope I hope they was taking notes.
01:10:43.920 --> 01:10:45.359
I hope they was taking notes.
01:10:45.439 --> 01:10:49.199
And so I'm super excited about what God is doing.
01:10:49.439 --> 01:10:53.680
And want to say thank you again for being um tuning in.
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If you tuning in next year, next next uh well, next month, next year, then thank you again for tuning in.
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So, anyways, I thank you all being here, and please, please, please just stay cued for Christ.
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All right, bye y'all.