JayKindaFunny & Amariah Morales Open Up About Fame, Faith & OnlyFans (EP 001)

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It used to be sponsored by like gambling companies and promoting gambling.
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Money was, oh my god, at one point, I can go to the stores and basically harass people and do stupid stuff.
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I don't even want to do that no more.
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Once I got baptized, I quit OnlyFans.
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I remember like literally the next day, like telling them like, get off the account, I'm changing the password, deleting this.
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Even giving up the money that OnlyFans came with, like, that was like extremely hard.
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I had literally a four-year-long partnership with Fash Nova.
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Like, literally that same week, we're like, hey, we're not continuing this partnership anymore.
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I haven't even wanted to do content really the same after my baptism.
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My heart says no.
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And I know like God has a bigger purpose for me.
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We got invited to be on the Jimmy Fallon show.
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And you know, he does the show, it was cool.
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They order us a car.
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We get in the car, and he's a Christian, like immediately starts talking about God.
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We listened to him the whole drive to the airport.
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We went in the airport and I got emotional, you know, just thinking about this.
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And then he literally told me this.
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He was like, I think we weren't even supposed to be there for Jimmy Fallon.
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I think we were supposed to be here just for this guy.
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I really thought like I could do it on my own.
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You know, I can just keep getting famous, keep making money, and just like that would be enough.
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Even when I got it, like I would just tell her, I would be like, I just I feel lost too.
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I feel like, you know, I'm I get a super viral video.
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It's like, all right, what's the next video?
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We literally got everything we wanted.
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We got the money, we got the views, the followers, we got everything.
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And it was just like nothing was changing.
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And when I would get high, it wouldn't make me think.
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I'm like, this is it.
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All these things that I thought were gonna make me happy.
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I'm not happy.
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Like all the things I was doing, like was making me farther away.
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I want actual fulfillment and I want to be closer to him.
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What's up, family?
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Welcome to Let's Chop It Up.
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This is actually our first podcast, and we have two special guests that I believe are gonna encourage you.
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Um, their testimony that we're gonna speak about, which I really haven't heard pretty much anything about yet.
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I believe will um touch you in the way that God wants to touch you.
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And we're just gonna chop it up.
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Like we're not gonna try to be anything else, or we're not gonna really just try.
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We're just gonna let the Holy Spirit move and just chop it up as friends.
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And we believe many people will encounter the love of Jesus through this podcast.
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So again, welcome to Let's Chop It Up.
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And I am with Amariah and Jay.
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Jay and Amariah, what's up, man, my brother?
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Great to meet you, man.
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Nice to meet you too, my brother.
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It was a pleasure, man.
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Yes, sir.
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Yes, sir.
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So, like all the way from Tampa, right?
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Yeah, basically, yeah.
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Basically, the Tampa small, small town, Palm Harbor, by Tarpon Springs.
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Tarpon Springs.
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I usually say Tampa just because it's like it's easy for everybody.
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Yeah, no.
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I'm from Broward, but I used to back in the day, I would just tell people I'm from Miami.
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Yeah, exactly.
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Exactly.
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Word, man.
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So yeah, man, thank you for coming out.
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Thank you, sis, for coming out.
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Um, we're just gonna chop it up.
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Let's get it slow, yeah.
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First pod for both of all of us, honestly.
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First yeah, for every yeah, we here.
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I'm excited, man.
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And um, first and foremost, I want to say, like, um, obviously, we everyone knows you have a gift, and you have a gift.
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Um, I just was praying about it before I came, um, just with the Lord speaking to me about it, and we'll talk about that later.
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But um, first, I just I want to get into the testimony, bro.
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Yeah, because it's the testimony of the saints and the blood of the lamb that overcomes the enemy.
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That's what Revelation, the book of Revelation, talks about.
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So our testimony is what brings people in to even like listen, you know what I mean?
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100%.
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So because you know, we can go out in the streets and or just talk to people with you know Bible verses, and people will be like, man, what the heck?
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Like, I don't want to hear that.
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But then when you talk about testimony, it opens up the heart.
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100%.
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That's how we found you, just through your testimony.
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And it just um, you know, I know we talked about it a little bit, but yes, you showed me your testimony, it was so powerful.
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Watching you just be honest and you s your whole story, it's it was crazy.
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Amen, bro.
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Yeah, how God worked in your life and just it was inspired me, you know, inspired me to take that step forward, you know.
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Yeah, bro.
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So, like I saw the baptism video.
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That's actually how I knew that you know, you got saved and everything, and why I reached out.
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Um man, it was powerful.
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I could tell in the baptism videos I was watching it, it was legit.
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Like you really like gave your life to Jesus.
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Yeah.
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And um it touched a lot of people, man.
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It got a lot of views, huh?
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No, yeah, it it it definitely was very impactful, you know.
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Like, I've never posted something like that, so I definitely didn't know what was gonna you know, how people would see it, what people would say.
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I just knew that I wanted to share what I've done to inspire somebody to get closer with Jesus.
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Come on.
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And and and just, you know, if it I could help one person just by posting that, you know, that's all I wanted to do.
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You know, I didn't want it to do it just to go viral or you know, for likes.
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It's just I'm I'm so used to that.
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So that's kind of where I'm leaning toward leaning off is just doing stuff for you know, viralness and likes.
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I want to do stuff because my heart where my heart is, and uh I wanted to give it to God.
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That's good, bro.
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I love that.
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Like, man, so like even useless, like I mean, I saw your platform, like I I was looking at it too, and you know, your fiance said, Hey, like, can my fiance come on the podcast and everything?
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I was like, bad, like why I needed her, I needed her.
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Like she was so she says a huge part of my story, and she has her own great testimony, and it's just amazing just how God brought us together, and it's just so coincidential.
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It's like it's crazy.
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We'll get into it, but it's it it's it's an amazing story.
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So I needed her here.
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Yeah, so like I mean, did you bring him to Christ?
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Like, were you like a big role of him coming to Jesus or was it kind of together or I've had I've had God in my life my whole my whole childhood, my whole upbringing, my no with my parents and um even them just uh you know, guiding me and you know, telling me that God is important, Jesus is important, going to church.
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But you know, I kind of shied away from that and just started doing things on my own.
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They weren't being the best example for me, you know, uh in my childhood, you know, just you know, they would bring me to church, but it would be a toxic household.
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It would be, you know, them just showing me like just terrible examples, you know, drugs, you know, fighting, you know, abusiveness.
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And um, it was just so much I can go into detail.
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But um, you know, when me and Amariah met, that's when like she brought me back to where that my childhood where I did believe in Jesus, you know, and you know, it was a big part of that gap where I didn't have Jesus, I didn't feel like I had Jesus in my life.
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Um, I just thought I could do it all my own, you know, and get to be famous and you know, make money and do it all for just for myself.
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Yeah.
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Um, I feel like it wasn't it wasn't that simple.
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Yeah, it's not that simple because it's like when we met, like I was on my own, like you know, I'm chasing fame, I'm chasing money at the same time.
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And so we kind of like came together.
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Now we're in a relationship and we're both chasing these things.
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Exactly.
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It didn't start off, it didn't start off.
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I I just think where our focus was was chasing money and fame.
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So it just skewed our whole relationship, and like now being out of it, I can look back and be like, dang, like it wasn't right, even for our relationship.
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Like now we're like backpedaling because we just rushed into moving in together really quickly.
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Wow, you know, we bought a house together, we did a lot of things where like we're acting like we're married and we're actually not, and you know, yeah, it was just and even our family dynamics, it was like you know, we're we're financially responsible for his family, and just like I felt responsible for my biological dad, and I was doing OnlyFans at the time.
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So what?
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Yeah, I was doing OnlyFans when When you met him, yeah.
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When he met me.
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Yeah, yeah.
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So I don't know anything, so yeah.
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Yeah, so it's just crazy.
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So yeah, that's like a lot.
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It's a lot.
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So I don't know where we should start.
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Yeah, it is a really good thing.
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We can get into just everything, but yeah, bro.
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Like, let's chop it up.
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Like whatever.
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Like, this is good.
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So it was me and MRI met in Miami, like we didn't know each other, obviously.
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We met in Miami because it was like uh in a concert going on.
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So I was uh walking to South Beach and basically just filming, vlogging, you know.
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I would vlog and just do funny stuff.
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So we literally got it on camera, our first encounter, and she just walked past me.
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She walked past me, and then I saw her obviously walk past me, and I I thought she looked beautiful, you know.
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So so I said, Chew mommy, you know, like I like I like that's the truth.
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Like, I was like, I was like, chew mommy, and like she just kept walking though.
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She didn't stop.
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She didn't stop, she didn't stop, but her friend that was with her noticed me, and he was like, Oh, that's the chew poppy guy.
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Yo, I'm gonna go back and take a picture.
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Like, come on.
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He he comes, takes a picture with me.
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They come back, and then I basically was like, Dang, though, let me get your Snapchat.
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You know, I took the picture with him, and then I said, Can I get your Snapchat?
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Got her Snapchat, and then we just went our separate ways, you know.
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I still was doing my own thing, and then um it wasn't until like I remembered like I was back home in uh where I lived in Clearwater at the time, and I was like, oh dang, that girl I met, you know, she was very beautiful.
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Like, I'm gonna just see her Instagram through her Snapchat, and then I seen, I looked her up, her name up on Instagram, and it said Tampa.
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And I was at Tampa in the bio.
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I was like, oh dang, let's let's like I'm gonna hit her up, I'm gonna let's collab, let's do something.
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That's crazy, like so coincidental.
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She lives in the same area, you know.
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Yeah.
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So uh basically, long story short, I hit her up for a collab, and then like that's kind of how we met.
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You know, she came and just we just hung out and more like friends, and just she saw me like do videos at Walmart and like prank people, and just like it was just so weird because I've never had a a girl done that before, like want to come hang out with me and just see me do my job, you know, and just work, and it was it was crazy.
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So then we just kind of just became friends and yeah, it was actually insane.
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Like like my story, like leading up to meeting him.
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It would like I can't help but like be like God like made us meet, like it was the vibe.
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Yeah, it was so weird.
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Like before him, I was I was going to school at UCF, and I was going to school to be a graphic designer, and I really wanted to be like a creative director, so I was like volunteering my time at this like music video like studio, and so and that's kind of it got me into doing OnlyFans and being a model in the music video.
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So I'm like at at the same time, I'm like helping design these sets, and I'm in the music videos at the same time.
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So I'm and I could just feel like the way the guys would just like that never take me seriously, and it was just like every aspect of my life, like that's how I always felt, you know, even as a kid in in high school, like just growing into my body, like I would get just attention, like you know, and it just made me feel I'm like, is this the only way I feel valuable?
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Is just if I get this attention, and like all these people are like constantly training me to like feel this way, and so I just was like, Okay, well, this is what I have to offer, so I guess this is what I'll do.
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And so I'm chasing doing music videos and trying to be famous, I'm getting attention from all these celebrities that are you know, I I did a music video with 6ix9ine, and like it was so crazy.
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Like the night before my mom was like, I like don't want you doing this, like I don't I'm so disappointed in you, and just like trying to get me to not do it.
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And I just was like, she doesn't get it, like she doesn't know what I'm doing, so I don't'm gonna trust her.
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And I had like a month before this gotten into a car accident where I totaled my car, and so I'm like begging my my grandma to like let me use her car, she doesn't know what I'm doing it for.
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And so I do go take my grandma's car to Miami and I do this music video.
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And long story short, on my way back, I fall asleep at the wheel and I total my grandma's car, literally, like two cars in a month, and like I like now looking back, I'm like you were driving and like I fell asleep on the highway?
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Uh not on a big highway, but yeah, like I could have killed someone.
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You were close to home.
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Yeah, I was like 30 minutes away from home.
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What did you hit?
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Like the median?
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I like I rear-ended someone, yeah.
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Yeah, I got so lucky.
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I like could have killed someone, I could have killed myself.
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Like, thank you, Jesus.
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He had his hand on you.
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Yeah, I literally like nothing, nothing.
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I got a concussion.
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That was it.
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The car was like terrible.
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Like, I don't know how I like You shouldn't have survived.
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Yeah, I shouldn't have.
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Like, I didn't even really remember.
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Like, I and eventually I was like, I know I was tired.
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Like, I definitely fell asleep.
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Yeah.
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And it like prevented me from doing music videos.
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Like, I couldn't do them at all.
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He stopped it.
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Yeah, he literally was like, All right, you're not gonna do it.
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Like, we're gonna make it impossible.
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Like the fact that I got into two car accidents was like insane.
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And cars usually usually represent ministries and stuff like that.
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So God was like, nah.
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Yeah, no, seriously.
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I and so I was like, guess I'm not doing that anymore.
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And I so I started doing TikTok, and I'm like, okay, okay, I'm gonna do TikTok now, since like this is during COVID too.
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So I'm like, this is all I gotta have.
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I'm I'm trapped in my house because you know, all the school campuses are closed, and so um, I feel I felt depressed.
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I was like, like everything I was doing, I can't do it anymore.
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So I'm now I'm on my TikTok journey and like doing learning how to like monetize and stuff like that.
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And then long story short, I long story short, I I meet have these like creator friends, and you know, I'm like, this is like this weird like Hollywood like world where like you know, the this guy was literally like, oh, I'll fly you out to Miami and you're gonna meet Bad Bunny and like literally like luring me.
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And so I like tell my friend at the time, and I'm like, you need to come with me.
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And so we I fly down to Miami.
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We're we're thinking we're about to meet Bad Bunny, and like that never happens.
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He promises like tickets to rolling loud, that doesn't happen.
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And so we're like all disappointed, and so I'm like, okay, let's just make the best of it and let's just go to the strip and just like walk the beach.
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Oh, should be.
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I meet this is how I meet Jay.
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Like this literally like would have never happened, like if this guy didn't lure me all the way over there, and then the accidents too are just sub mentioned.
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I I don't even think I would have met the person who like came back to to take a picture with Jay if I would have stopped doing those music videos.
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And if all of these things didn't happen, like I would have never met Jay.
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And so we go back home and it's so crazy.
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Like, he hits me up, and I find out, like, yeah, we neither of us live in Tampa.
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We actually live like five or ten minutes away from each other.
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Like our whole family, like his family lives 10 minutes away.
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My family, like, we all I'm like, this is so meant to be.
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Like, he has brothers the age of my brother.
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So it was like, we literally, it was so easy.
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It was like, and that was something for me.
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I had dealt with so many like bad relationships with guys, and like, you know, being before him being in a relationship for four years with a guy that just did not, he did not have God in his life at all, like was abusive.
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And so I just kind of like I was coming from like a place of like I was single for a while, and you know, I'm chasing all these things that weren't really good for me.
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And so meeting him, I'm like, he's actually such a cool guy.
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Like he actually like never made me feel the way that any other guy made me feel.
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And just like we were friends, like naturally, like immediately.
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Like, that's I just I literally like accidentally told him I loved him, like before we were even dating.
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That wasn't accidentally, yeah.
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No, it was on the U UCF campus.
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I remember.
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I was actually on UCF campus, yeah.
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Yeah, because we were I was filming there and um she just like ran away and both short.
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Before she ran away, she was like, I love you, bye.
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I was like, wait, what?
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We just went like a month ago.
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I was like, oh dang.
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But not like that was that was a whole yeah, it's just crazy.
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No, it was literally me, like obviously I moved back.
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We we had, I don't even think we were dating it.
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Maybe we were, I don't know.
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No, not yet.
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But we have I've now COVID's over.
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You know, now I'm back at school.
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I just I'm like, I wanted to move to Orlando this whole time.
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Now I'm like, I have this guy I really like, and he's back in Tampa.
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I'm like, I want to go back.
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Yeah, so we had to go back and see.
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Well, so yes, now we're just like we're talking.
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Even I think we've talked for like three months and then we started dating.
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Yeah.
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But basically, I'm like over here trying to be a full-time student, and then when I get out of class, I'm over here pranking with him on my campus.
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And so, yeah, I and that kind of shows you like what my priorities were, was just like you know, I wasn't prioritizing school at all.
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Like, I literally was just couldn't wait to get out of his class just so I could go pursue content.
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Success.
00:16:49.840 --> 00:16:53.679
Yeah, yeah, like which is like what do you got like now at the point where you're at right now?
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Like, what do you feel like success is to you now?
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Yeah, it hasn't been it's way different, it's way different because just to give you some insight, like when we first started, when we started talking, dating, you know, we didn't have God at the center of our life.
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Obviously, yes, I was Christian, she was Christian.
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Our parents uh, you know, gave us that lifestyle when we were kids, but we weren't prioritizing God the same way how we are now when we're just more mature and we were kind of just like, you know, seeing how we can work together and like help each other, you know, while my platform, her platform, you know, you know, just building each other up like that, and just for the wrong reasons, you know, whether it was me uh, you know, sexualizing her in my videos, um, you know, her showing me off in her videos, you know, it's like we were our dynamic dynamic, we still, you know, loved each other, we still were in love with each other, but we were just prioritizing this money, fame, and just trying to just keep getting to that next level.
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Um, and it wasn't till years, you know, years into our our relationship where you know, I saw the change in her and like I saw her start watching, you know, videos about God, videos about Jesus.
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And you know, we moved in an apartments, um, and it was like two years into our relationship where like I seem like she like wanted something different.
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And then even uh even me, like I knew about Jesus.
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I knew that um it was the the thing I needed to pursue, but I still chose not to.
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I still chose you know to get more famous, you know, get do it for the likes, you know, just do anything I can.
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And uh when I started seeing her change, she was slow, such a slow pace, but I didn't even want to change, you know.
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I I didn't want to follow her just because I saw what she was doing and I knew it was good what she was doing, but I didn't want that for me.
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I just kept I kept going and um so when was this like 2022, 23?
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What was this?
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Yeah, I mean we've been into you're skipping ahead so much.
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Really?
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Yeah, I think to answer your question that you asked was like it was we got all the things we wanted.
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You know, we literally got everything we wanted.
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We got the money, we got the views, the followers, like we equally were growing at the same pace.
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Like we got everything, and it was just like nothing was changing, you know.
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Like we now I'm like, I I literally never smoked weed, I never did any drugs, and then once I started doing content, I'm surrounding myself by people that are.
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I so I started doing I started smoking weed, and it got to the point where I was like, I'm using this to numb out like everything, like that was my escape, you know.
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And I'm like, I'm not happy, like I'm not all these things that I thought were gonna make me happy.
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So you had the fame, yeah, the money, the love, the relationship, but you're not fulfilled.
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Yeah, but we didn't have God at the center, exactly, bro.
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Of everything that we would and it made me spiral.
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It was literally like, I'm like, this is I'm like, this is all I'm like, and when I would get high, it wouldn't make me think.
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I was just like, I'm like, this is it, you know, this is all I'm doing.
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Like, I'm just this is a legacy I'm gonna leave.
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It's just I'm selling my body one.
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That that's a I think a really big part of our story too, is doing me doing OnlyFans, like it it brought people that it's so weird.
00:20:08.640 --> 00:20:10.480
Like the world of OnlyFans is so weird.
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It you know, I didn't do I didn't have an agency until like I honestly started dating him, and it was because you know, people see me associated with him.
00:20:19.359 --> 00:20:26.720
So I started being a part of an agency and they like kind of blew me up, and they're taking advantage of our relationship, you know.
00:20:26.799 --> 00:20:30.880
You like and it comes across like, oh, you're just creators, yeah.
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Like you're not doing anything bad, yeah.
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You're not doing nothing wrong.
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And and it affected our relationship, our friends, like our my family, everything I did, and I just couldn't see it.
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Like, you know, we moved in really quickly.
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Yeah, we did not see it.
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It was like we were blinded to just we thought it was normal what we were doing, even though we you know, we're not doing nothing crazy, you know, she's not doing nothing crazy on OnlyFans in my head at the time, and it just like it was just so normal.
00:20:58.000 --> 00:20:59.039
But now looking back at the time.
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Where it was like everything we're doing is like so influenced by like money, really.
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Yeah, it was just like I'm in his videos because guess what?
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It brings people to my OnlyFans.
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But then it also I'm in and it's crazy.
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Yeah, it's crazy.
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Like all of his platforms that he would work with, it would do good when he would sexualize me.
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And so it was like promoting that yeah, like you know, like Snapchat like prioritizes the thumbnail.
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So it's like I always thought, like, oh, I need to put a girl in a thumbnail because that's what's gonna, you know, get the view.
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Somebody's gonna click, and just like it was seemed all so normal just because I was wanting to make more money, you know.
00:21:35.519 --> 00:21:41.599
I wanted to benefit off that, so it's like we just our dynamic in the beginning was so normal, like that.
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That was it.
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And I think just like getting exposed to people who are like they think it's so normal, you know, like these people have been doing it.
00:21:48.480 --> 00:21:52.720
Yeah, we didn't we didn't have people around us that would be like, yo, what are you guys doing are wrong is wrong?
00:21:52.799 --> 00:21:56.400
You know, you putting her in your content, showing all your girlfriend off like that.
00:21:56.559 --> 00:21:59.759
It's like yeah, it was like we were just influencing others to do the same.
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Same thing.
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It becomes like a multiplication.
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Yeah.
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And like so many people around us like wanting to be like us.
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And you know, that like makes you feel good, but then you're just like, this is all fake.
00:22:10.079 --> 00:22:11.119
So you guys are at the top.
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You guys are reaping from all of it, the money, the fame.
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And then you're teaching others, like, do this because and then everyone around you is like desensitized to this.
00:22:18.559 --> 00:22:20.079
Like it's almost like this is normal.
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Yeah.
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Like this is it's all good.
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Like we know you're like basically we know your heart is not for that, but we're gonna use that the wrong things.
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It's like I feel like the culture, man.
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Like, I didn't only OnlyFans wasn't big before I got saved.
00:22:31.839 --> 00:22:32.960
I got saved in 2019.
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Like, I think it just came out.
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Yeah, it just yeah, it just like I didn't even because before that I was been I was addicted to pornography my whole life as a kid.
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Like, so that but I I heard about it as I got saved and all that.
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COVID was when it took off, right?
00:22:43.759 --> 00:22:44.559
Like I think it was COVID.
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But I've noticed, bro, like that like it's just culture is being more and more desensitized to like what the enemy wants.
00:22:51.279 --> 00:22:52.799
So we're like, bro, like reels, bro.
00:22:52.880 --> 00:22:58.079
We scrolling it's like every the algorithm has like you see a fight, then it goes to sexual, then it goes to this.
00:22:58.160 --> 00:23:05.200
It's like it's like yeah, it wants you to stay on the platform, so it's showing you what what catches your eye, and it's like they put that stuff out there, yeah.
00:23:05.519 --> 00:23:19.200
And I was putting that stuff out there, you know, using girls in the videos, but even before I met her, you know, I would just try to like sexualize any girl I worked with, you know, and not thinking that it was wrong, not thinking that I, you know, I I should hold myself to a higher standard than that.
00:23:19.359 --> 00:23:21.119
That's not what God wants me to do.
00:23:21.359 --> 00:23:33.920
And um, you know, obviously now it's it's it's great that I can see that, but you know, I wish somebody would have told me it's like, hey man, like there's another way to do it, you know, to be successful, you know, and uh and do it, do it for the right reasons.
00:23:34.160 --> 00:23:37.680
I remember being on TikTok, I think it was, or I think it was Instagram reels, and I've seen your videos.
00:23:37.759 --> 00:23:38.720
I haven't seen a lot, man.
00:23:38.880 --> 00:23:40.400
I said like maybe three or four reels.
00:23:40.559 --> 00:23:47.200
The Cheeto, the the Cheeto one, and like and then the one in the store where you were like a Walmart worker and you're like, you're like, oh, like stop recording, my friend, or whatever.
00:23:47.440 --> 00:23:48.240
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:23:48.480 --> 00:24:02.400
But like I like, and I see a lot of those comedians, like some other ones, when I see those channels, I'm like, they have a calling and they have gifting, like they have something like a destiny, but it's almost like the enemy, like you I said, tries to pervert it to put you down the wrong path.
00:24:02.480 --> 00:24:06.400
Because I'm gonna I'm gonna release that later, like the word the Lord gave me for you guys when I was praying.
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But it's you guys are gifted, you guys are smart, like anointed, called for something greater.
00:24:13.599 --> 00:24:21.119
And it's like if the enemy can steal that and use it for his side, he will and keep you comfortable.
00:24:21.200 --> 00:24:28.400
Yeah, but then deep down, you know, because as Christians, and even people are not even Christians, bro, they know like this ain't it, and they have to numb it.
00:24:28.960 --> 00:24:31.119
You gotta smoke, you gotta pop pills, you gotta drink.
00:24:31.279 --> 00:24:34.400
Because it's it's like how can you keep going unless you have that fix?
00:24:34.480 --> 00:24:35.599
Yeah, it's always a fix.
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When you don't have it, you think this is the promised land.
00:24:38.240 --> 00:24:45.759
If I get a million followers, if I get a hundred thousand followers, if I I made it and you go wild, then you make it, and you're like, Yeah, what's next?
00:24:46.640 --> 00:24:46.799
Right?
00:24:47.359 --> 00:24:48.720
Because you don't know, you're like, what's next?
00:24:48.880 --> 00:24:58.880
There's nothing okay, and everyone's looking at me and they're idolizing me, and they think that I'm like I'm almost like their leader, and it's like I gotta get high, I gotta do something to numb the pain because there's no fulfillment.
00:24:59.119 --> 00:24:59.680
Exactly, yeah.
00:24:59.839 --> 00:25:04.640
So you guys are like, and I think a lot of people are gonna be blessed by this because I'm like, bro, social media is crazy, bro.
00:25:04.880 --> 00:25:05.599
Yeah, it is, yeah.
00:25:05.759 --> 00:25:10.880
I never had a platform in the world, but like now that I have like somewhat of a platform, it gets crazy, bro.
00:25:10.960 --> 00:25:12.480
Like at these revivals and stuff like that.
00:25:12.640 --> 00:25:22.559
People like I see some people come for Jesus, and then God uses the platforms to bring people in, but then you can see all also the idolatry, like where people are like, oh my god, like they're you ever seen that?
00:25:22.640 --> 00:25:22.720
Yeah.
00:25:23.039 --> 00:25:26.559
When they see you and they know you're famous, and then their eyes are just like, yeah.
00:25:26.799 --> 00:25:28.000
They don't look at you like a human.
00:25:28.160 --> 00:25:34.000
Yeah, they're looking at like a like and you're just like Yeah, I appreciate you, bro.
00:25:34.079 --> 00:25:35.920
But yeah, you know, I'm just normal guy, you know.
00:25:36.079 --> 00:25:36.640
Just a normal guy.
00:25:37.039 --> 00:25:49.839
Normal girl, we're also normal people, and you know, even just even seeing the the baptism, you know, me posting it, like a lot of people reached out, you know, good and a lot of people, you know, bad, but uh mostly good, honestly.
00:25:49.920 --> 00:25:54.880
But a lot of people did want to, in a way, see like, oh, this this went so viral.
00:25:54.960 --> 00:25:59.119
Like, oh, you can get you can uh you come on my podcast to talk about can you come on this?
00:25:59.200 --> 00:26:00.079
Can you come on that?
00:26:00.319 --> 00:26:03.599
And it's just like you know, you can tell where people's hearts at.
00:26:03.680 --> 00:26:16.720
And yep, and that's where like when we saw you reached out, we knew where your heart was, you know, based on what we've seen from you, and we we trusted that you know coming on here would be an opportunity to be honest and and you know, with an honest man.
00:26:16.799 --> 00:26:17.680
So thank you for having me.
00:26:17.920 --> 00:26:18.559
I appreciate that, bro.
00:26:18.640 --> 00:26:19.359
For real, for real.
00:26:19.599 --> 00:26:20.720
I appreciate that for real.
00:26:20.960 --> 00:26:24.480
Yeah, for me, like um, like the platform and stuff like that, like having it.
00:26:24.559 --> 00:26:31.200
I know God uses it, but it does get awkward for me, like it gets weird, like because like you said, like I'm a normal person and I want to be normal.
00:26:31.359 --> 00:26:34.079
I I know that with influence, it's like you can't be normal again.
00:26:34.160 --> 00:26:36.960
Like even being in public with my wife and kids, it gets weird, bro.
00:26:37.039 --> 00:26:38.640
Like, I just want to be like normal.
00:26:38.720 --> 00:26:40.240
And it's like people are like, Can you give me a word?
00:26:40.319 --> 00:26:40.799
Can you pray for me?
00:26:40.880 --> 00:26:42.640
And I'm just like, bro, I'm at trampoline park, bro.
00:26:42.720 --> 00:26:43.759
Like with my kids, bro.
00:26:43.920 --> 00:26:48.720
Like, yeah, and they just did and it's I get it, like God uses it, but yes, yeah, yeah.
00:26:48.880 --> 00:26:50.240
Platforms is like a big thing.
00:26:50.319 --> 00:26:51.200
It's like you make it now.
00:26:51.279 --> 00:26:53.440
If you have a platform, you don't need to go through a company.
00:26:53.519 --> 00:26:57.359
You can like you can do that, but like now it's like if you got the yeah, you know what I'm saying?
00:26:57.440 --> 00:27:00.559
You can go a rah-rah TikTok with a phone, like it's just what are you doing?
00:27:00.960 --> 00:27:10.720
It's like so like, yeah, man, that's crazy that that uh God showed you guys that because a lot of people influencers are in that right now and they don't they don't think they're wrong.
00:27:11.039 --> 00:27:13.440
No, no, we didn't we didn't think we were wrong either.
00:27:13.680 --> 00:27:18.799
And that's what's crazy, is like I'm over here at these like OnlyFans events and like we're talking about God.
00:27:18.960 --> 00:27:19.920
And I'm like what?
00:27:20.079 --> 00:27:22.160
Yeah, literally, I'm like talking to these girls about God.
00:27:22.240 --> 00:27:24.160
And it was it was so weird.
00:27:24.319 --> 00:27:27.200
Like it was honestly started because I started smoking weed.
00:27:27.359 --> 00:27:28.880
I was just like, I don't know what it was.
00:27:28.960 --> 00:27:39.839
It was like I never done something like that before, and I just like I couldn't stop thinking, and I just like started thinking about my life and like what my purpose was, and and I just I was so obsessed about over it.
00:27:39.920 --> 00:27:44.480
Like I was like every single day I'm like, I'm watching, I don't know if you know the Bible project, like that.
00:27:44.720 --> 00:27:45.599
I love the Bible project.
00:27:45.920 --> 00:27:49.440
That literally like changed my life, like the way it was, yeah, it's so crazy.
00:27:50.319 --> 00:27:51.359
Yeah, it's so crazy.
00:27:51.440 --> 00:27:58.400
Like, I watched all of them, so I started like you know, learning about Islam, Judaism, Chris, Christianity.
00:27:58.559 --> 00:28:15.279
I'm like, I want to know who he is, you know, and like it was like every single day, like to the point where Jay is like I'm getting ready for rolling loud and I'm like blasting the Bible project, and like yeah, honestly, I thought it was like in that time, like I said, like she was doing that all on her own, you know.
00:28:15.359 --> 00:28:26.559
It she didn't care what I if I wanted her to do it or not, she just was doing that, and I saw that, and in a way where I was like, I didn't have a relationship with Jesus, so I was just like, What are you doing?
00:28:26.640 --> 00:28:28.000
You know, like why are you doing that?
00:28:28.160 --> 00:28:32.160
You know, and like questioning her and just saying, like, like, oh, are you okay?
00:28:32.319 --> 00:28:38.319
Like, you're just like watching like so much stuff about you know the the God and Jesus, and I'm like, like, are you good?
00:28:38.480 --> 00:28:44.480
Like, and it in a way was like I just didn't was prior, I was prior to prioritizing just what I wanted to do.
00:28:44.960 --> 00:28:51.440
I wanted the the famous, you know, more money, and like like money was uh my God at one point.
00:28:51.759 --> 00:29:07.039
I remember looking up my bank account every morning, just like trying to make it go up, make it go up, and like to the point where it was like that was during that time though, where she was just on her own, like getting great getting her relationship with Jesus, and I was just I was total opposite, basically.
00:29:07.200 --> 00:29:12.160
Yeah, he had told me he was like, I just feel like like uncomfortable by it.
00:29:12.319 --> 00:29:17.279
And I remember like you feel like you feel internally like yeah, internally, yeah.
00:29:17.359 --> 00:29:31.359
You know, like I it was in I remember it was like on our balcony and she just kept watching, you know, and like we would be out there just hanging out, and I would just be like, Yeah, like you don't need to watch that much, you know, like it m it it makes me feel weird, I guess.
00:29:31.519 --> 00:29:45.680
I said I something something along that lone lines, and um it's crazy for for me to say that just because I knew like about Jesus my whole life, and I feel like he's been a part of my whole life, and um that's why it's like it's just so crazy.
00:29:45.920 --> 00:29:48.240
And it was weird for me because I felt like I felt bad.
00:29:48.400 --> 00:29:49.440
I'm like, oh my god.
00:29:49.599 --> 00:29:51.279
Yeah, and I was stirring her away now.
00:29:52.400 --> 00:29:55.680
It was like for a second, I was like, okay, I'll just watch it in secret now.
00:29:55.920 --> 00:29:59.039
And but it got to the point where I had to tell him like you can't do that.
00:29:59.359 --> 00:30:03.119
Like if you're gonna be with me, like you gotta be okay with whatever's happening.
00:30:03.920 --> 00:30:11.039
And then eventually he was like, Whatever, she's gonna, you know, I was like, like, I think I've watched so many And that was like two years in our relationship.
00:30:11.119 --> 00:30:22.000
We're going on five, and uh it was just crazy like to see the change, you know, like in her and Yeah, I have I would say I do have a really strong personality where like you know, I'll tell him I'm like this, I'm gonna do this.
00:30:22.240 --> 00:30:23.279
You know you're an evangelist.
00:30:23.440 --> 00:30:28.400
Yeah, and I would tell him, I'm like, I'm like, if you want to be with me, like you gotta you gotta be open to it.
00:30:28.799 --> 00:30:30.000
Stricken up, you're an evangelist.
00:30:30.319 --> 00:30:31.519
That's what evangelists do.
00:30:31.599 --> 00:30:33.839
Like, like, yeah, I'm gonna release that word later though.
00:30:34.160 --> 00:30:35.519
Both of you guys are evangelists.
00:30:35.599 --> 00:30:41.920
Like, there's a five-fold ministry, there's five gift things in the book of Ephesians the apostolic, the prophetic, the evangelist, the pastor, the teacher.
00:30:42.000 --> 00:30:45.279
So what you guys see with me like doing in the streets, that's what that's evangelism.
00:30:45.519 --> 00:30:46.160
Yeah, that's awesome.
00:30:46.559 --> 00:30:47.519
Reeling in the fish.
00:30:47.599 --> 00:30:47.759
Yeah.
00:30:48.000 --> 00:30:48.319
Peter.
00:30:48.559 --> 00:30:49.519
No, she's definitely.
00:30:49.839 --> 00:30:55.039
I mean, and I feel like for me, it was always hard to like get to where she was at, you know, seeing her do that.
00:30:55.200 --> 00:30:58.319
Like, yeah, I didn't prioritize like learning the same way she did.
00:30:58.400 --> 00:30:59.440
You know, it took a long time.
00:30:59.519 --> 00:31:07.119
It took really up to last year, like actually trying to take it serious and like Yeah, I think like it wasn't until I quit OnlyFans.
00:31:07.200 --> 00:31:11.359
Like that's when I seemed God like it was like I could see the change in him.
00:31:11.519 --> 00:31:12.960
It wasn't just like words anymore.
00:31:13.200 --> 00:31:14.640
And you quit on your own, you just told me.
00:31:14.720 --> 00:31:15.920
Yeah, well, it was kind of crazy.
00:31:16.000 --> 00:31:18.960
It was back and forth, you know, long fiction.
00:31:19.599 --> 00:31:25.279
I would when people ask me this question, I'm like, yeah, it wasn't a moment, it was like everything leading up.
00:31:25.440 --> 00:31:40.880
And it was like I had people in my life, and I had a a friend that I had at the time, and she was like, she was Christian, and she was telling me, like, you know, why I would always tell people this, like, even my agency, I'm like, oh, I'm gonna quit one day, like, I'm not doing this forever.
00:31:41.359 --> 00:31:42.240
If you prophesy, yeah.
00:31:43.200 --> 00:31:46.480
Yeah, and I would just know like I had to tell someone for it to happen, you know.
00:31:46.559 --> 00:31:52.720
I remember telling myself, I'm like, if I want change, like I can't just keep doing it and like expect it to happen magically.
00:31:52.960 --> 00:31:57.119
And so I remember like telling my agency, like, hey, I'm gonna quit soon.
00:31:57.359 --> 00:32:03.279
Uh, you know, I had this friend, like, just it was like every day I felt like she was like, Why are you still doing it?
00:32:03.440 --> 00:32:06.240
And it got it got to the point where I'm like, why am I still doing it?
00:32:06.400 --> 00:32:08.480
And then he's telling me And I had a teller, yeah.
00:32:08.559 --> 00:32:10.960
He's like, I don't want you to do it, I'll take care of you.
00:32:11.119 --> 00:32:14.079
And I'm just like, all right, and now I have I'm like in a corner.
00:32:14.160 --> 00:32:20.880
I'm like, I now it's like it the question was, am I gonna trust God's plan or am I gonna trust my plan?
00:32:21.119 --> 00:32:24.160
And so, and that was something I I've always thought about as a kid.
00:32:24.240 --> 00:32:27.519
I'm like, you know, I was always told that like God has a plan for everyone.
00:32:27.599 --> 00:32:29.759
Yeah, and I'm just like, so why don't I trust it?
00:32:29.839 --> 00:32:40.640
You know, why am I just you know, and it really wasn't until Charlie Kirk passed away that it was literally that day I was like, if one good thing happens from this, it's gonna be me quitting.
00:32:40.720 --> 00:32:46.960
I remember like literally the next day, like telling them, like, get off the account, I'm changing the password, deleting this.
00:32:47.119 --> 00:32:49.440
And so I I basically deleted it that day.
00:32:50.160 --> 00:32:52.000
Wow, the day that he got the next day.
00:32:52.400 --> 00:32:52.960
Basically, yeah.
00:32:53.200 --> 00:32:54.079
Yeah, yeah, basically.
00:32:54.319 --> 00:33:01.599
Yeah, she felt so convicted and like Yeah, I was like crying-seeing her change like that, it was just it was powerful to me, you know.
00:33:01.680 --> 00:33:04.319
It took it I didn't see it the same way.
00:33:04.400 --> 00:33:08.079
I didn't, you know, wanna change, you know, my ways the same way that she did.
00:33:08.160 --> 00:33:15.519
But then once she made that change and over time, you know, I had to trust what God was doing in my life, you know, like God brought us together for a reason.
00:33:15.599 --> 00:33:20.400
Yeah and it's not just to do the same thing I was doing, the same thing we were doing, you know.
00:33:20.480 --> 00:33:26.319
And when I seen that, I had to, I had to make a decision to like, yeah, I want this woman to be my wife, you know.
00:33:26.400 --> 00:33:30.559
I don't want her to be on OnlyFans, I don't want, I don't want to promote her sexually anymore.
00:33:30.640 --> 00:33:35.759
I don't want to do the same stuff we've been doing all these years, you know, just for the wrong reasons.
00:33:35.920 --> 00:33:36.160
Yeah.
00:33:36.319 --> 00:33:41.200
And so that's why like we kind of just Yeah, well, obviously I was like, I want to get baptized.
00:33:41.599 --> 00:33:46.319
You know, and we start going, we found a church which was Radiant and Shout out to Radiant Church.
00:33:46.480 --> 00:33:53.519
Yeah, so we start going to Radiant and like, you know, it was just me and him and my friend, and then I'm like, I'm we need our whole family to come to church now.
00:33:53.759 --> 00:33:55.759
So I'm like on the She brought the whole family.
00:33:55.920 --> 00:33:56.720
We brought the whole family.
00:33:56.960 --> 00:33:57.759
I'm like harassing people.
00:33:58.079 --> 00:34:01.039
My family hasn't been in church in just how many years.
00:34:01.440 --> 00:34:02.960
Her family hasn't been to church in years.
00:34:03.359 --> 00:34:04.799
She brought us all the Bible.
00:34:04.960 --> 00:34:05.680
She brought us all back.
00:34:07.119 --> 00:34:10.960
My dad was stationed in Italy, so we were Air Force.
00:34:11.280 --> 00:34:11.760
Air Force.
00:34:11.920 --> 00:34:12.079
Yeah.
00:34:12.239 --> 00:34:16.480
And so I lived in Italy for like nine years, so like my childhood basically.
00:34:16.800 --> 00:34:22.800
And uh so ever since we moved back from the States, it was like we just never went to church anymore.
00:34:23.280 --> 00:34:27.119
So it was like I just felt like every time I went to church, it was like insane.
00:34:27.199 --> 00:34:31.519
I'm like crying, I'm like, I could feel like something happening, you know.
00:34:31.599 --> 00:34:35.039
And and so I was just like, we have to, I'm like, I have to get everyone to come to church.
00:34:35.119 --> 00:34:36.639
And so the evangelist.
00:34:36.800 --> 00:34:37.760
That's what the evangelists were.
00:34:37.920 --> 00:34:41.119
No, it was it was so crazy, and it was like I was praying so hard.
00:34:41.199 --> 00:34:50.800
Like, I remember like, you know, my little brothers telling me, like, we don't need to go to church, like, you know, it's not like as long as we have a relationship with him, like the it doesn't matter.
00:34:50.880 --> 00:34:52.880
I'm like, no, that is not happening.
00:34:53.280 --> 00:34:56.559
And so I finally like convinced everyone to come to church.
00:34:56.639 --> 00:35:00.480
So I get everyone to come to church, and it was so crazy.
00:35:00.719 --> 00:35:06.480
Like, I so long story short, I actually start when I quit OnlyFans, I start fostering cats.
00:35:06.639 --> 00:35:07.760
Like, I like love cats.
00:35:07.920 --> 00:35:08.159
Wow.
00:35:08.320 --> 00:35:12.320
So I start like literally, I've had like 25 cats in my house at a time.
00:35:12.480 --> 00:35:17.920
Like I've I've like helped like I think over 150 cats in in a year, yeah.
00:35:18.159 --> 00:35:21.039
And so at this time, like I'm like helping all these cats.
00:35:21.199 --> 00:35:30.639
I have this really like I had this cat that got returned and it was like traumatized, and so it got adopted to like someone, and and this is like me just stressing over this cat.
00:35:30.960 --> 00:35:33.360
And it like was fighting with this other cat.
00:35:33.440 --> 00:35:38.480
And I know this is like so weird, but this is literally like this was so crazy for me.
00:35:38.960 --> 00:35:40.960
Um I was praying for this cat.
00:35:41.119 --> 00:35:44.880
I was just like, I God, just please like let these cats like get along.
00:35:44.960 --> 00:35:47.119
I don't want to get it get it returned again.
00:35:47.599 --> 00:35:54.159
And this was like the whole week of her, like, you know, she's not sure if she's gonna keep the cat, and I finally get everyone to go to church.
00:35:54.480 --> 00:35:55.679
I pray for all these things.
00:35:55.760 --> 00:36:00.559
Like, I literally like I'm like, please, like, let the sermon be like speak to every single one of us.
00:36:00.639 --> 00:36:06.960
And it was crazy, it was like everything, like my parents' marriage, Jay's family, like like every little thing.
00:36:07.119 --> 00:36:12.639
And then while we're in church, I get a text message from this lady and she's like, the cats are getting along.
00:36:12.800 --> 00:36:14.639
And I'm like, this is the weirdest thing.
00:36:14.800 --> 00:36:19.679
I'm like, come on, and it might seem small to some people, but it was it felt like spiritual.
00:36:19.920 --> 00:36:27.360
It was like he he it was like him telling me that he cared about the little things, like like a cat that I'm taking care of.
00:36:27.760 --> 00:36:28.159
Relational.
00:36:28.320 --> 00:36:33.840
Yeah, and it it just made me feel like I never took prayer seriously either, like ever.
00:36:34.079 --> 00:36:43.039
And I only did it when I needed something, and so it was like I could see him moving when I would pray, and I'm like, okay, clearly, like there's power in this.
00:36:43.119 --> 00:36:45.440
Like, I became like I'm like praying over everything.
00:36:45.599 --> 00:36:47.840
I'm like, bruh, come on, man.
00:36:48.079 --> 00:36:50.400
She just that yeah, yeah, bro.
00:36:50.480 --> 00:36:51.760
God showing up and showing out.
00:36:51.920 --> 00:36:52.960
Yeah, it was so crazy.
00:36:53.039 --> 00:36:54.239
Even just with Jay, too.
00:36:54.320 --> 00:36:56.880
Like, I would always tell Jay, I'm like, there's something about us.
00:36:57.039 --> 00:36:58.880
I'm like, this is just too weird.
00:36:59.039 --> 00:37:06.159
Like, even like when I'm on my journey, like before I quit OnlyFans, it was like random people coming up to just Jay.
00:37:06.239 --> 00:37:11.519
Like, which we're it's me and him together, but people just coming up to Jay, and then he's like, God wants me.
00:37:11.599 --> 00:37:13.119
Yeah, God wants a relationship with you.
00:37:13.199 --> 00:37:14.480
And I'm like, this is so weird.
00:37:14.639 --> 00:37:33.920
And like, I'm like, even Jay hasn't even got into his story of like with his family, and like to me, when I hear that, I'm like, this is there's some plan for us, like, and that's why I've been so like passionate of just like we can't we can't just go to a normal life, like that's too easy to just be like, all right, God saved me.
00:37:34.079 --> 00:37:37.199
I'm gonna just live a private life now, and like I just couldn't.
00:37:37.280 --> 00:37:39.599
I was like, he's give like all of this.
00:37:39.679 --> 00:37:42.320
Like, I look at my life, I'm like, this is like weird.
00:37:42.480 --> 00:37:48.159
I'm like living like a double life, it just doesn't make sense, and I just don't want it to mean nothing, you know.
00:37:48.239 --> 00:37:51.920
And so, like, there's so many weird stories, like, so many.
00:37:52.000 --> 00:37:57.840
Like, we went, we got I I we went from um Jimmy Fallon.
00:37:57.920 --> 00:38:01.280
We got invited to be on the Jimmy Fallon show, like a couple months ago.
00:38:01.599 --> 00:38:02.239
Oh, in LA?
00:38:02.400 --> 00:38:05.119
No, like last year, uh Jimmy Fallon's in New York, yeah.
00:38:05.280 --> 00:38:05.679
New York, yeah.
00:38:05.840 --> 00:38:07.039
Oh, yeah, New York, yeah.
00:38:07.199 --> 00:38:08.400
That's the Jimmy Kimmel, yeah.
00:38:08.559 --> 00:38:09.360
That's Jimmy Kimmel.
00:38:10.000 --> 00:38:11.280
Right, we got him confused too.
00:38:12.079 --> 00:38:13.360
And it was insane.
00:38:13.519 --> 00:38:18.320
Like, I was like, you know, we were like, this is such an amazing opportunity, like this is so cool.
00:38:18.480 --> 00:38:20.800
And at this time, I think I had gotten baptized.
00:38:21.119 --> 00:38:21.679
Yeah, yeah.
00:38:22.079 --> 00:38:25.360
And so I'm like, you know, what I don't know what the meaning of this is.
00:38:25.679 --> 00:38:28.079
Hopefully, like, you know, something comes out of it.
00:38:28.159 --> 00:38:30.000
And you know, he does the show, it was cool.
00:38:30.159 --> 00:38:31.119
That that was it.
00:38:31.280 --> 00:38:37.039
And literally, I'm like telling him and my cameraman, our cameraman who's also dating my sister.
00:38:37.119 --> 00:38:38.960
So yeah, so we're really close.
00:38:39.039 --> 00:38:40.639
And so I'm over here like talking about it.
00:38:40.800 --> 00:38:46.400
Yeah, like any chance you would get, she would just talk about Jesus, talk about why why we need to make this change.
00:38:46.559 --> 00:38:47.360
What are we doing?
00:38:47.599 --> 00:38:52.000
And just like to the point where it's like, dang, it's like we just can't, we gotta listen, you know, we gotta listen.
00:38:52.320 --> 00:38:58.000
Yeah, and I was like all night like tell telling them about God and like how all of this is for a reason.
00:38:58.159 --> 00:39:03.119
And I could just sense, like, they just weren't like I could sense that they weren't really like hearing what I was saying.
00:39:03.360 --> 00:39:04.239
They weren't receiving in the car.
00:39:04.639 --> 00:39:06.320
And then the next day was so insane.
00:39:06.400 --> 00:39:07.840
Like the We get in the Uber.
00:39:08.079 --> 00:39:11.280
Yeah, they no, they order us a car and we didn't know.
00:39:11.440 --> 00:39:15.360
So the guy was like waiting out there for like 30 minutes, and we we thought he was gonna leave.
00:39:15.440 --> 00:39:16.800
And he was like, Oh no, I'll wait.
00:39:16.880 --> 00:39:17.599
So he waits for us.
00:39:17.679 --> 00:39:21.039
We get in the car, and he's like, he's a Christian.
00:39:21.119 --> 00:39:23.199
He's literally like immediately starts talking about God.
00:39:23.760 --> 00:39:28.000
He has his Bible on his um passenger side, yeah, and he just starts talking about God.
00:39:28.320 --> 00:39:43.920
The same thing she was saying, the same thing she was saying the night before, and it just like how we need to, you know, you know, learn the Ten Commandments, you know, like change our ways, you know, like how he's lived his life and how he has his kids, his daughters, and he's teaching them, and just it was so much.
00:39:44.079 --> 00:39:49.679
No, it was so crazy because we were literally talking about like what it means to be a man, and I asked them that.
00:39:49.760 --> 00:39:53.440
I was like, I'm like, you can create your own version of what that looks like.
00:39:53.519 --> 00:39:56.880
Because I asked Jay that and he was like, Oh, a man is like someone who takes care of their family.
00:39:57.039 --> 00:40:06.880
I'm like, so okay, if a man can't take care of his family, he's not a man, you know, and so I'm like, you have your definition needs to be according to what God's, you know, definition of a man.
00:40:07.119 --> 00:40:08.079
And so it was crazy.
00:40:08.159 --> 00:40:11.840
This guy literally is like, he looked like I think he was like in his 60s, 70s.
00:40:12.000 --> 00:40:26.239
He like shows us a picture of himself like with the shirt off, he's like ripped, and like he's like, I love my family, like I have a really good relationship with my wife, we have grandkids, like he's like all of the things that you would like probably aspire to be.
00:40:26.559 --> 00:40:32.880
And like he was like, You everything I said, it was so weird, like to the point where I'd never seen Jay like this.
00:40:32.960 --> 00:40:37.679
Like, well, yeah, we got out, we got out, like he we listened to him the whole drive to the airport.
00:40:37.920 --> 00:40:56.559
We got out, and I just felt so like just like that's this is meant to be, like, you know, like and I got to the point where we were like, we went in the airport and I got emotional, you know, just thinking about this man, and I was just like, you know, I want to be like him, you know, I want to be like that, and like have God, uh a relationship with Jesus like that, so I can actually be a man.
00:40:56.639 --> 00:41:06.079
Because I thought that's what I thought was being a man, you know, before Jesus, before putting God in my life, is that, you know, take care of my family, like, you know, just that's it, you know.
00:41:06.159 --> 00:41:16.000
Like, but it what was insane to me, like that stands out to me, is just like Jay also started like tearing up, and I'd never seen him get emotional when we talk about God or anything.
00:41:16.159 --> 00:41:17.760
And then he literally told me this.
00:41:17.920 --> 00:41:22.480
He was like, he was like, I think we weren't even supposed to be there for Jimmy Fallon.
00:41:22.559 --> 00:41:24.320
I think we were supposed to be here just for this guy.
00:41:25.360 --> 00:41:44.159
Yeah, after after that, after we came back, I was like, This is the reason why, you know, this is the reason why it and obviously God did a great thing, you know, put me on a great show like that, but just it was so coincidental that I mean, how could you not see go through that and just be like, yeah, God wanted us to learn and listen to this guy?
00:41:44.400 --> 00:41:49.920
She's obviously, you know, telling us what we need to hear and to to change, you know, to start the change.
00:41:50.000 --> 00:41:53.360
And even even after that, it's not like I was like, oh, okay, I'm gonna.
00:41:53.599 --> 00:42:02.320
I I took it more seriously little by little to a point where it's like I needed to get baptized, you know, and you know, I needed to actually want to be a man.
00:42:02.480 --> 00:42:14.880
And like, you know, my whole life I've thought just, you know, I was pretty childish, you know, pretty just kidlike in a way where it's like I'm not caring about, you know, the most important things, you know, I'm very non-immature.
00:42:15.039 --> 00:42:27.599
And if I wanted to take her us seriously, take our relationship seriously, and do what the Bible says is put her first, you know, which was a hard part, hard thing for me, you know, throughout the years is putting her first with my family.
00:42:27.760 --> 00:42:30.960
Um, you know, I've had to take care of my family for forever, you know.
00:42:31.119 --> 00:42:33.280
Um putting her before you before your family.
00:42:33.679 --> 00:42:36.880
Before we met, you know, I my family relied on me.
00:42:37.039 --> 00:42:37.519
Yeah, exactly.
00:42:38.159 --> 00:42:38.639
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:42:38.800 --> 00:42:45.920
Yeah, so I had to put her first now, you know, just so we can continue and like we can get married and like have God at the center.
00:42:46.079 --> 00:42:51.599
And it I can go in from this detail, just how my story is too, just yeah, from the start.
00:42:51.760 --> 00:42:52.880
It you it will explain a lot.
00:42:53.119 --> 00:42:59.039
Yeah, it's this is such a long story, but I think you do need to share like about your Bible came alive, like so.
00:42:59.119 --> 00:43:04.239
Like, like I keep hearing this verse no one comes to the Son, Jesus, unless the Father draws him in.
00:43:04.880 --> 00:43:12.960
So, what God was doing with both of y'all is he was drawing y'all in, drew you in first through the Bible project and all that other, like everything you said, and then started drawing you in.
00:43:13.039 --> 00:43:17.840
Yeah, but that was the father, even though it was a Jimmy Fowland show, you know, like amazing, like that's that's crazy.
00:43:18.000 --> 00:43:24.639
But then, like the father, your father, your heavenly father, it's like, hey, I'm gonna make it known.
00:43:25.360 --> 00:43:29.519
Not like a little prayer, someone praying for you in the streets, I'm gonna make it known.
00:43:29.679 --> 00:43:37.039
Yeah, like I might have my daughter say something, but you're just gonna be like, whatever, like and then get in the whip, and you this random guy.
00:43:37.280 --> 00:43:43.920
And that, yeah, that's like the first time I got, I like literally cried, like, yeah, just because I was like, damn, this is like so crazy.
00:43:44.159 --> 00:43:44.880
He made it real.
00:43:44.960 --> 00:43:50.079
Like, it's like the God outside of time and space showed up and said, Hey, I'm here, my son.
00:43:50.239 --> 00:43:50.559
Mm-hmm.
00:43:50.719 --> 00:43:54.880
That's the but the Bible says no one comes to Jesus, the son, unless the father draws him in, bro.
00:43:55.039 --> 00:43:59.519
So all those little things you guys are talking about that draw that that's just it's all leading up to that real.
00:44:00.480 --> 00:44:01.360
It's real, bro.
00:44:01.440 --> 00:44:02.800
Like it's an encounter.
00:44:02.880 --> 00:44:03.920
Like it's encounters.
00:44:04.159 --> 00:44:04.639
It's real.
00:44:04.880 --> 00:44:05.519
Yeah, bro.
00:44:05.920 --> 00:44:06.239
100%.
00:44:07.039 --> 00:44:13.599
Yeah, like I always wanted to be like, like I have some from friends, like some grown men friends that are Christian.
00:44:13.679 --> 00:44:17.280
And I I would talk to him and be like, like, how do you have how do you get the Holy Spirit?
00:44:17.360 --> 00:44:30.000
You know, like I I see you like he's in a relationship with his wife for 50 years and just like he's like the only reason we lasted this long is because God is because we uh put God in the center of our marriage.
00:44:30.400 --> 00:44:31.679
You know, it's not gonna be easy.
00:44:31.840 --> 00:44:36.000
You're gonna keep fighting, everything's gonna be not easy.
00:44:36.320 --> 00:44:42.639
But if you have God in the center, and that's when I was like, dang, like, okay, so I needed to do that with us, you know.
00:44:42.960 --> 00:44:49.280
And uh I need to get baptized, you know, I need to, you know, be new and like not think how I used to think.
00:44:49.760 --> 00:44:52.159
And so that's the was leading up to that point.
00:44:52.719 --> 00:44:57.519
You know, the stuff in the Jimmy Fallon, you know, was I think it was in like December, right?
00:44:57.920 --> 00:44:59.840
December, November, something like that.
00:44:59.920 --> 00:45:13.360
Yeah, one of the two months, and then leading into this year, just you know, knowing that I had to make that change, even though I was like, you know, I can just be, I don't have to be a Christian, I would say sometimes, you know, I would be like, you know, I can try to do it on my own.
00:45:13.519 --> 00:45:38.559
I can think on my own, like, but it's like it's something in me just always new that it just if I wanna if I want to move forward with our relationship and and keep us together because I love her very much, not only for her, but for myself to save myself and uh save my family, teach them a better way to to learn and like put their faith in Jesus, then I have to lead the way, I have to be the leader as a man and as a provider.
00:45:38.800 --> 00:45:41.519
So that's why I I made my decision to get baptized.
00:45:41.679 --> 00:45:45.440
And uh and you came into covenant, that's what that's what marriage is, it's covenant.
00:45:45.920 --> 00:45:49.920
Where it's like when you get when you get baptized, you you die to the world and you marry Christ.
00:45:50.320 --> 00:45:52.239
You get married to Jesus at baptism.
00:45:52.320 --> 00:45:53.920
It's so sacred and special, bro.
00:45:54.079 --> 00:45:59.440
Like and then you when you get married, it's not like just y'all two are gonna be in a marriage, it's God right in the middle.
00:46:00.719 --> 00:46:05.280
So it's a covenant with Jesus, like you said, like it's like because you like you guys are gonna go through things, yeah.
00:46:05.519 --> 00:46:10.719
Beautiful, like me and my wife go through all types of stuff, but like you always go back to the word, like what is God saying?
00:46:10.960 --> 00:46:14.400
Yeah, because the devil always is gonna try to like mess us up, yeah.
00:46:14.639 --> 00:46:17.119
Yeah, bro, especially because you guys are gonna be building the kingdom now.
00:46:17.519 --> 00:46:32.480
You guys are gonna be doing already know content for the Lord and be a like a van, like it's God's gonna I'm I'll I'll talk about it more later, but like it's gonna be powerful and the foundation has to be Christ, it has to be Christ, and you're gonna have children and everything's gonna be blessed.
00:46:32.719 --> 00:46:36.480
Yeah, but Jesus is is bro, that's like that's that covenant, bro.
00:46:36.880 --> 00:46:40.639
And I saw something on your Instagram as I was scrolling, and I just feel like to ask, you know.
00:46:40.719 --> 00:46:44.559
I hope it's not uh isn't crazy, but like I saw your your father passed away.
00:46:44.719 --> 00:46:51.599
Yeah, and as you were speaking, I kept feeling like the Lord was saying like he wants to be a good father because you know he saw his father.
00:46:52.079 --> 00:46:53.840
Love you, loved your father, father, right?
00:46:53.920 --> 00:46:56.880
Obviously, and now you're like, man, I want to be a good father.
00:46:57.039 --> 00:46:57.679
Yeah, right.
00:46:57.840 --> 00:47:07.920
Yeah, and and you know, it's a big story my dad has to do with a huge part of this the reason why I started content, the reason why I wanted uh, you know, more out of life.
00:47:08.079 --> 00:47:26.000
I didn't want to, you know, do the normal, normal nine to five, even though I had to, you know, I I had to work and it's just my dad uh taught me like I had to be a hustler, but then he also, you know, taught me a lot of bad things, a lot of seeing the bad things he did made me not want to do that, you know.
00:47:26.159 --> 00:47:32.159
It's like, you know, got and that's where I was like, you know, God could have let me just do what he was doing, follow his footsteps.
00:47:32.239 --> 00:47:34.239
You know, he was very addicted to drugs.
00:47:34.559 --> 00:47:43.440
He would uh he would take me literally on these drug runs and like him go get his his his uh his drugs and I would see everything, you know.
00:47:43.519 --> 00:47:50.719
I was like, you know, 16 at the time, 16, 15, 14, and just it it was just normal, you know.
00:47:50.800 --> 00:47:58.159
I was just like we're spending time together, you know, we would just hang out, but I loved him so much that I just didn't see the wrong in what he was doing, you know.
00:47:58.400 --> 00:48:00.639
And uh it's my dad, you know.
00:48:00.719 --> 00:48:04.000
I th I thought what he was doing was what he needed to do for himself, you know.
00:48:04.480 --> 00:48:05.679
Did he believe in Jesus?
00:48:06.000 --> 00:48:08.559
He did, he did, but he got stirred away, you know.
00:48:08.719 --> 00:48:11.519
He uh he lost his faith as he got older.
00:48:11.679 --> 00:48:25.280
And um, you know, he initially when I was like a kid, like a kid kid, like I was like 10, you know, like nine, eight, like we would go to church, you know, we would go to church, I would go to the youth school, you know, he would speak, he would speak in the church, he would speak.
00:48:26.000 --> 00:48:31.119
And uh um, and yeah, we you know that's where I felt like I had a relationship with Jesus.
00:48:31.199 --> 00:48:32.320
That was like the last time.
00:48:32.400 --> 00:48:40.480
But when I was a kid and like going to the youth school, like I would always pray, I would always be I would always say, you know, if God is with me, who can be against me?
00:48:40.719 --> 00:48:43.920
You know, like he he taught me, he instilled that stuff in me.
00:48:44.159 --> 00:49:00.960
And uh, and just as life went on though, as we grew older, as I grew older, as he grew older, him and my mom's relationship just got abusive, got you know, he was start addicted to drugs, going to work, you know, they would come sell it to him at uh he would work at Tyrone Square Mall.
00:49:01.039 --> 00:49:03.519
I don't know if you know where that is, and it's just a mall in uh St.
00:49:03.679 --> 00:49:04.000
Pete.
00:49:04.159 --> 00:49:04.400
Okay.
00:49:04.559 --> 00:49:17.519
He worked at a clothing store, and and literally like he's had clients that used to sell clothes, like like he would sell cool clothes, and um he would literally get the clients uh the clients would come sell him drugs while he's working.
00:49:17.679 --> 00:49:23.599
And uh it's just because my dad was in the military and he was uh he was yeah, he was a Marine for four years.
00:49:23.760 --> 00:49:24.079
Wow.
00:49:24.239 --> 00:49:29.679
Um, and he got um he was a hundred percent disability.
00:49:29.840 --> 00:49:36.800
So he had he had a pain in his back um from something that happened um where he had to get oxycodones, you know, for life.
00:49:36.880 --> 00:49:38.960
He's been on oxycodones his whole life.
00:49:39.199 --> 00:49:52.320
And uh even before like me and just like him having a relationship with my mom, he had a whole another another relationship with a with a woman, had kids, hadn't all the family, and he was addicted to drugs then back then.
00:49:52.400 --> 00:50:01.440
So he would like relapse, he would get clean, relapse, and um initially just just basically he was addicted to the oxies when he ran out.
00:50:01.519 --> 00:50:08.800
He would abuse it, he would take me on the drug runs, he would go on the drug runs, they would come to his job, and he he just couldn't get away from it.
00:50:08.960 --> 00:50:10.480
So it was just the normal.
00:50:10.639 --> 00:50:31.760
And as the years went by, just him, my mom didn't want to be with him, obviously, because of that, you know, because what the example she's uh she he's showing us, and uh she didn't take the necessary necessary steps because she we were all relying on him, you know, he was the moneymaker, you know, he he provided for us, and my mom really couldn't, you know, be on her own.
00:50:31.840 --> 00:50:35.280
So she would just enable just what he would do, you know.
00:50:35.519 --> 00:50:47.119
And my dad even had like like to the point where I'm a kid and my dad, I would see my dad doing like adult things, you know, like where he uh is like masturbating, literally.
00:50:47.199 --> 00:50:49.039
Like I would see I was exposed to that.
00:50:49.440 --> 00:50:51.280
It's like waking up in the middle of the night.
00:50:51.440 --> 00:51:03.360
Sometimes I would see that, you know, and then this even to the point where he had literally pornographic disc just on the top of a bookshelf, just for in plain sight for anybody to see when you walk in this room.
00:51:03.519 --> 00:51:06.960
And uh nobody, nobody said, Hey, that shouldn't be there.
00:51:07.039 --> 00:51:08.320
It's just just there, you know.
00:51:08.400 --> 00:51:15.440
So like even me as a kid, like getting exposed to that as an early age, it was so much just it's evilness, you know.
00:51:15.519 --> 00:51:15.840
Yeah, bro.
00:51:16.079 --> 00:51:24.719
And uh, and even to the point where I had to climb up there because I was so curious, and I I got exposed, you know, at a at a really young age, like 12, 13.
00:51:25.280 --> 00:51:29.599
12, 13, just like just seeing that, and it was just such a bad example.
00:51:29.679 --> 00:51:32.719
Obviously, now I can say that, but in the time it was just normal, you know.
00:51:32.800 --> 00:51:34.079
I was like, whoa, this what's this?
00:51:34.239 --> 00:51:34.960
What's that?
00:51:35.199 --> 00:51:47.760
And then as the years went by, you know, yeah, like it led to this like you know, watching that and doing, you know, normalizing that, normalizing porn, yeah, and normalizing seeing that, seeing how he was.
00:51:47.920 --> 00:51:56.159
He was very perverted in a way where he would, you know, take pictures of of of women just like standing around on his phone.
00:51:56.320 --> 00:52:00.400
And it was so much just bad, you know, just looking back at it.
00:52:00.559 --> 00:52:05.519
But honestly, it made me who I am today, just seeing all that stuff as the years went by.
00:52:05.840 --> 00:52:10.079
Um, something in me was just like, nah, like I don't want to be like him.
00:52:10.320 --> 00:52:11.599
You know, I don't want to be like that.
00:52:11.679 --> 00:52:17.760
Even as a kid, you know, I as I grew into high school and just just you know, working and doing normal stuff.
00:52:17.840 --> 00:52:19.360
Like, I love my dad very much.
00:52:19.440 --> 00:52:23.679
Yeah, but like I could see like something was off with his health, something was off with him.
00:52:23.760 --> 00:52:29.840
And you know, I would tell him to stop doing drugs, I would tell him to don't do that, don't do the weird stuff, perverted stuff.
00:52:29.920 --> 00:52:32.159
Like, but he would just do it, keep doing it.
00:52:32.239 --> 00:52:33.599
Yeah, he would just keep doing it.
00:52:33.679 --> 00:52:34.719
And spiritual.
00:52:35.199 --> 00:52:44.880
It was just like seeing that and going from that to just trying to be a kid in high school now, and just going from that to like being like, Man, like I need to do something.
00:52:45.039 --> 00:52:47.360
I need to, I need to do something more, you know.
00:52:47.440 --> 00:52:49.440
So that's where I started doing content.
00:52:49.599 --> 00:52:54.480
I started doing content in high school, and I was like, man, like I need to just I always want to make people laugh.
00:52:54.559 --> 00:52:56.000
I want to like do something funny.
00:52:56.079 --> 00:53:06.000
Like I seen YouTubers at the time, and I was like, man, like if I can do something really funny and like make people laugh, maybe I can be like this YouTuber, and started doing that.
00:53:06.320 --> 00:53:24.800
And it was just more like an escape, you know, it was an escape to like to do something else, and like not just used to so much bad going on at the house that like I wanted to lift somebody up, post content, make people laugh, you know, do something funny with my friends, do something stupid.
00:53:24.960 --> 00:53:30.400
Um, and uh it got to the point where yeah, I was just doing content, doing content in high school.
00:53:30.559 --> 00:53:37.679
My dad would would see that he would just be like, all right, it's dumb, but you know, you gotta you gotta go back to work, you know, you gotta keep working.
00:53:38.079 --> 00:53:40.320
And uh, you know, it was just the same routine though.
00:53:40.400 --> 00:53:49.119
Like even this us hanging out, it was really like he would, we would, it got to the point where it was like he would we would go, I would go hang out with him, go on a drive with him.
00:53:49.199 --> 00:53:53.440
I knew what he was getting, and we would come back and he would lock himself in his room.
00:53:53.840 --> 00:53:58.559
And uh basically whenever he came out of the house, he was he was basically cracked out.
00:53:58.639 --> 00:54:02.559
You know, he he started doing he started doing crack um in the house.
00:54:02.639 --> 00:54:04.000
You know, I had two little brothers.
00:54:04.159 --> 00:54:07.199
I have two little brothers, um, Jez and Josiah.
00:54:07.360 --> 00:54:09.920
My mom's in the house, she's not with them anymore.
00:54:10.079 --> 00:54:13.440
They're still legally married, but she's on the opposite side of the house.
00:54:13.679 --> 00:54:15.760
Um, my brothers, you know, they're young, you know.
00:54:16.000 --> 00:54:20.559
You know, my other brother was uh they're three years apart, and the other one's six years apart.
00:54:20.639 --> 00:54:23.039
So they're younger, they don't really know what's going on.
00:54:23.280 --> 00:54:32.559
They listen to him, they listen to whatever he says, but I started seeing like what he was doing, and I was just like, I'm trying to help him, I'm trying to talk to him, you know.
00:54:32.639 --> 00:54:36.000
I'm starting to get a sense like this isn't what you're supposed to be doing, you know, dad.
00:54:36.079 --> 00:54:39.119
Like you're not supposed to show them what you're doing, you know.
00:54:39.199 --> 00:54:42.559
They see where you're doing, they don't know, but that's the example you're setting.
00:54:42.639 --> 00:54:52.480
And it was always an excuse, you know, it was always an excuse from my dad, and I just loved him so much that like I literally just anything he did was like it was normal at the time.
00:54:52.559 --> 00:54:53.119
It was normal.
00:54:53.360 --> 00:54:56.800
I had to be okay with it, even though I would tell him it was wrong.
00:54:57.039 --> 00:55:02.719
Um, you know, he had very bad asthma, very bad, just like everything just like was going down.
00:55:02.880 --> 00:55:06.000
And God, God wasn't at the center of none of this, you know.
00:55:06.400 --> 00:55:09.440
I just feel like he he never talked about God anymore.
00:55:09.760 --> 00:55:17.840
He would talk about the earth is flat, he would talk about just uh, you know, you know, aliens and being being obsessed with other stuff, you know.
00:55:17.920 --> 00:55:20.480
Like it wasn't like how I was when I was a kid, you know.
00:55:20.559 --> 00:55:28.800
Like he he he instilled the you know stuff uh what God says in the Bible in me as a kid, but it just he just completely lost it at that point.
00:55:29.280 --> 00:55:31.199
And then my brothers didn't know that either.
00:55:31.280 --> 00:55:33.519
I mean, they were just seeing everything.
00:55:33.840 --> 00:55:40.320
Um long story, obviously, but it's got to the point where you know I love doing content, I love filming.
00:55:40.400 --> 00:55:44.960
You know, I was working at UPS at the time, and my dad was still doing the same stuff.
00:55:45.199 --> 00:55:52.159
It was the same routine, I'm telling you, like, like come out the room, go in his room, come out cracked out, just like just every day.
00:55:52.400 --> 00:55:54.639
I would say every day, like, or every other day.
00:55:54.800 --> 00:56:07.119
And like maybe if I if I had a I would have to cry to him and be like, stop, you know, like and he would stop for a week, but he would just come back and he would just make excuses like, oh, your mom, your mom's not, you know, being with me, you know.
00:56:07.199 --> 00:56:08.719
What else am I supposed to do?
00:56:08.880 --> 00:56:11.199
You know, I don't have love, I don't have love anymore.
00:56:11.280 --> 00:56:12.320
I want to be loved.
00:56:12.480 --> 00:56:14.239
You know, this is the only thing I can do.
00:56:14.320 --> 00:56:17.920
Like, this is what makes me it gives it escapes me, is the drugs.
00:56:18.159 --> 00:56:23.280
And um, you know, I it was hard for me to just like obviously I knew it was wrong, but what can I really do?
00:56:23.440 --> 00:56:25.360
I was like 16, you know, 17.
00:56:25.679 --> 00:56:26.639
It's your pops needs a dick.
00:56:27.039 --> 00:56:27.760
I couldn't do anything.
00:56:27.840 --> 00:56:41.840
I just had, you know, I knew going to work, I would uh, you know, go play racquetball with him, you know, we would do this stuff, but his health was just on the decline and decline as he kept just abusing the drugs, abusing crack, doing uh doing stuff he wasn't supposed to.
00:56:42.079 --> 00:56:48.719
Um, you know, so like it just got to the point where he really couldn't take it anymore, his lungs, you know, everything like that.
00:56:48.880 --> 00:56:52.639
Um, you know, so it was just one morning, just one morning in uh January.
00:56:52.800 --> 00:56:54.960
This was January 2020.
00:56:55.119 --> 00:56:57.679
Yeah, January we just spent New Year's together, you know.
00:56:57.760 --> 00:56:58.639
So we had a good time.
00:56:58.800 --> 00:56:59.440
New Year's.
00:56:59.599 --> 00:57:01.519
It was like the 13th of January.
00:57:01.599 --> 00:57:06.320
Uh I just was sleeping in my living room um because I had to give up.
00:57:06.400 --> 00:57:11.599
I actually had to give up my room to my brothers because you know, we we didn't have money, we didn't have anything, you know.
00:57:11.679 --> 00:57:13.840
So it was very like we were just struggling.
00:57:14.079 --> 00:57:16.559
And um, that's where um he woke.
00:57:16.719 --> 00:57:23.199
Um my my little brother Jez, he woke up, he went in the room, and he basically saw my dad on the ground.
00:57:23.440 --> 00:57:30.320
He saw my dad on the ground lifeless, and he came to me, my little brother Jez, and he said, Jay, dad's on the ground.
00:57:30.719 --> 00:57:31.599
I said, What?
00:57:31.760 --> 00:57:38.159
I said, and I just I stood up, walked in, seen him on the side of his bed, he was gone.
00:57:38.960 --> 00:57:43.679
You know, I I just I had to get I just didn't even know that was panic at that point.
00:57:43.920 --> 00:57:54.880
Panic at that point, my whole family panicked, everybody panicked, and we were just in shock, you know, very in shock, just couldn't believe like what happened, what we're seeing in front of us.
00:57:54.960 --> 00:57:58.719
He's just lifeless, trying to couldn't do anything really.
00:57:58.800 --> 00:58:01.760
He was already gone, so he had to pass away overnight.
00:58:01.840 --> 00:58:02.719
And dang, bro.
00:58:02.880 --> 00:58:04.480
It just got to hear that, bro, for real.
00:58:04.719 --> 00:58:05.679
No, I appreciate that.
00:58:05.920 --> 00:58:14.000
And you know, my dad, I love him so much, like to this day, like I wish like he would hear be here to see, you know, everything that that's happened now, you know.
00:58:14.159 --> 00:58:34.079
But you know, a part of me also knows that that was God's plan, you know, like he was suffering so much that he um that you know I I almost feel like he made a prayer, you know, like or something, like before he before he passed away, just knowing that like for us to be okay, because it wasn't until after that like everything changed.
00:58:34.400 --> 00:58:35.679
My whole life changed.
00:58:35.760 --> 00:58:57.039
It was we went from not even being able to, you know, do Christmas, not even be able to do, you know, I would have to sacrifice, you know, my Christmas for my brothers, because we he just he was so bad with his money that like literally like he we would go to pantries in a Range Rover, like he wanted to spend on the car, but we would still have to go to pantries.
00:58:57.119 --> 00:59:00.559
That's just to give you a little example of just how bad a m of money is.
00:59:00.719 --> 00:59:11.599
But you know, after he passed away, um my mom was oh, so I forgot my mom was trying to divorce him through all this, and um he passed away, so she couldn't divorce him.
00:59:12.000 --> 00:59:20.159
And so after that, since my dad was in a 100% disabled uh veteran, my mom started getting checks in the mail.
00:59:20.559 --> 00:59:28.320
And now she gets a sh and she got like this huge back pay of just checks that she was supposed to get since he passed away.
00:59:28.400 --> 00:59:32.480
That cause now basically she's the she's the provider, she's the one.
00:59:32.559 --> 00:59:36.159
And since she's legally married to him, she get she gets the check.
00:59:36.800 --> 00:59:39.119
She gets his checks that he it was coming in.
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And um basically nobody knew that, so we were just like, what the heck?
00:59:44.320 --> 00:59:49.360
Like now my mom has got so much money, she she's got a big check for like$20,000.
00:59:49.840 --> 00:59:57.119
And it's like we I literally had to spend my last six hundred dollars to like like put my dad in the urn and like cremate him.
00:59:57.280 --> 01:00:02.320
You know, I was working at UPS, and just like right after that, she gets a huge check like that.
01:00:02.480 --> 01:00:04.239
She gets she's able to move us.
01:00:04.320 --> 01:00:19.760
We had to sell the house that we were in to go to apartments, and just she was able to take cover that because of what my dad, uh you know, is uh the checks were coming in from him, and uh it was just started to slow like that, where it was like that's just so crazy.
01:00:19.840 --> 01:00:22.800
Like, she would have divorced them, she we wouldn't be here.
01:00:22.880 --> 01:00:25.119
We would, we would have to probably be homeless.
01:00:25.199 --> 01:00:28.320
We would have to be homeless because we couldn't pay the rent, we couldn't do anything.
01:00:28.559 --> 01:00:36.159
So it was just that was already showing like damn, God knew that this was gonna happen, knew that this was meant to be to lead down.
01:00:36.239 --> 01:00:44.639
And then I I just I saw that and I was like, dang, like, you know, I'm gonna keep working, I'm gonna keep working at UPS, I'm gonna keep doing content, I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna give up on it.
01:00:44.719 --> 01:00:48.719
You know, I don't know my dad would want me to keep going on what I want to do.
01:00:48.960 --> 01:00:54.320
And it's I and I didn't have faith in God where I was putting the glory to him.
01:00:54.480 --> 01:00:58.960
I would say, oh my dad, my dad's covering me, my dad's my guardian angel.
01:00:59.039 --> 01:01:02.000
You know, I would say, I would say, my dad's doing all this.
01:01:02.079 --> 01:01:02.800
Look what he did.
01:01:02.960 --> 01:01:11.280
He gave my mom the the$20,000 check, you know, like this is all because his spirit, I wasn't giving the glory to Jesus, you know, to the Father.
01:01:11.519 --> 01:01:15.119
And uh, I would just be like, He's protecting us, you know, he's guiding us.
01:01:15.360 --> 01:01:19.599
And uh later on that year, the same year, so I was in January, he passed away.
01:01:19.920 --> 01:01:25.280
Um, later on that year, I was still doing content, and then TikTok finally came around.
01:01:25.440 --> 01:01:27.039
And TikTok kind of finally came around.
01:01:27.199 --> 01:01:29.840
I started doing the true papi muñano stuff on TikTok.
01:01:29.920 --> 01:01:41.519
Yeah, and it wasn't until I went to LA with my friends that I started doing true papi muñaños there, and it blew up on TikTok, and uh it didn't blow up crazy, but it blew up enough to where it was like people thought it was funny.
01:01:41.599 --> 01:01:49.440
I was like, damn, people actually like this stuff, like might as well keep going, and then it uh just kept going, just kept going, honestly.
01:01:49.519 --> 01:01:59.119
And then I came back home and uh I got hit up by uh this really famous YouTuber and at the time, and he was basically like, Yo, bro, I like I like your videos, bro.
01:01:59.199 --> 01:02:01.760
Like, you do you want me to fly you out here?
01:02:01.840 --> 01:02:05.440
I I would like to fly you out here and uh you film some content for me.
01:02:05.599 --> 01:02:09.199
And uh if it goes, if it works out, you know, we can do it like a regular thing.
01:02:09.360 --> 01:02:13.920
I fly you out, you film content, you know, you help me, I help you, type deal.
01:02:14.239 --> 01:02:15.920
And so I was like, dang, this it's crazy.
01:02:16.000 --> 01:02:23.119
I'm working at UPS, like I'm making, I started making like you know, seven dollars, you know, a day on TikTok just because the program there was in.
01:02:23.199 --> 01:02:25.199
I was like, damn, I'm I'm making money on TikTok.
01:02:25.360 --> 01:02:26.800
I'm sure I'm gonna quit my job.
01:02:26.880 --> 01:02:29.920
I'm gonna quit my job at UPS and go all in and go all in.
01:02:30.000 --> 01:02:39.840
And then after I quit my job, I got the text from him so that he wants to fly me out, fly me out of LA, like, hey, bring a friend, like you're gonna film some concert with me.
01:02:40.079 --> 01:02:43.039
And long story, he he blew me up basically.
01:02:43.199 --> 01:02:51.679
Like on TikTok, I didn't have I had like a couple hundred thousand, but once I started working with him, um it just took off, took off, took off like crazy.
01:02:51.840 --> 01:02:59.199
Like, that's where like I started doing like the bumping people's carts during the COVID days, like hitting people's carts and just like you know, being annoying.
01:02:59.519 --> 01:03:01.519
That's like it's being super annoying.
01:03:01.599 --> 01:03:05.119
But I think I've seen like I thought that was like your followers or like that.
01:03:05.280 --> 01:03:07.119
Yeah, falling over and doing all that stuff.
01:03:07.199 --> 01:03:12.559
And then it we blew up, and it was just that same years where I had where my dad passed away.
01:03:12.719 --> 01:03:14.079
I had I blew up.
01:03:14.239 --> 01:03:16.719
I blew up and it wasn't like a normal blow up, you know.
01:03:16.960 --> 01:03:17.519
No, it wasn't.
01:03:17.679 --> 01:03:25.760
It was like millions of it was like it was like millions of followers on TikTok every month, just blowing up because I we started how many followers you haven't talked about?
01:03:26.000 --> 01:03:31.280
I never see like uh well now I have like 20 27 million, 27 million on TikTok.
01:03:31.679 --> 01:03:32.159
Dang, bro.
01:03:32.639 --> 01:03:36.079
But he probably pretty much got all of those within that span of time.
01:03:36.320 --> 01:03:39.840
Yeah, and like even when I looked back at his old content, I'm like, this is insane.
01:03:39.920 --> 01:03:42.320
It was like hundred million views, 300 million views.
01:03:42.400 --> 01:03:43.920
I'm like, this is ridiculous.
01:03:44.480 --> 01:03:47.280
It was just stupid videos, you know, stupid, dumb videos.
01:03:47.360 --> 01:03:49.840
And I didn't, I just was like, this is crazy.
01:03:49.920 --> 01:03:51.519
I wish my dad was here to see it, you know.
01:03:51.599 --> 01:03:57.280
I I always like kept saying that, and like I never really thought what my dad did was bad.
01:03:57.519 --> 01:04:02.159
You know, in that time, I was like, man, I would be able to take care of him so much now.
01:04:02.239 --> 01:04:09.360
I'll be able to take care of my family, and like I would still take care of my family, but like I would just be like, Dan, like I wish he was here to see it.
01:04:09.920 --> 01:04:15.519
You know, I I didn't understand what God did, you know, what was God doing, like what he was trying to teach me.
01:04:15.760 --> 01:04:22.079
I would always just feel so bad and like just like like Dan, like I blew up literally the same year that he passed away.
01:04:22.239 --> 01:04:27.760
Wow, and uh it was just you know, it was that was in 2020, now we're in freaking 2026.
01:04:28.000 --> 01:04:31.440
And it's like I still felt like that up until now, though.
01:04:31.599 --> 01:04:35.199
You know, up until now, where now we even talked about this yesterday.
01:04:35.280 --> 01:04:37.199
It's like I understand what God did.
01:04:37.360 --> 01:04:46.000
I understand what God was trying to show me through through all that, through the bad, through him passing, through showing the success after.
01:04:46.159 --> 01:05:08.079
And it wasn't that it wasn't that like obviously it sucks that he wasn't be able to see it, but it was supposed to happen that way because yeah, honestly, like I just I just knew how my family was with me blowing up and being successful, that they just you know, my mom even at the time, like she was taking advantage of me, you know, when my when I was started getting money, you know.
01:05:08.239 --> 01:05:23.679
You know how family is when you start blowing up, they you know, you I I felt obviously obligated to take care of that, take care of them, but you know, started like buying her designer, buying her Gucci, buying her whatever she wanted, you know, because I'm like, we blew up, you know, like we blown up, like I'm gonna take care of you.
01:05:23.840 --> 01:05:27.039
And like didn't understand really, like, I didn't need to do that.
01:05:27.119 --> 01:05:28.320
That's not love, you know.
01:05:28.400 --> 01:05:30.480
That's not, you know, I'm just still just a kid, you know.
01:05:30.559 --> 01:05:34.400
I'm about I'm you know, 20 years, 19, 19 years old.
01:05:34.639 --> 01:05:38.559
And uh I was I was treating my family like I was the father.
01:05:38.719 --> 01:05:41.119
You know, I was becoming, I was becoming the dad to my brother.
01:05:41.280 --> 01:05:42.159
You became the father figure.
01:05:42.400 --> 01:05:49.760
I became the dad to my brothers, I became the husband treating to my mom, you know, like buying her whatever, doing, you know, taking her out.
01:05:50.159 --> 01:06:03.039
And it wasn't until like I met Amariah that like she saw that, you know, she she slowly saw that, and not that like she didn't want me to help my family, she didn't Want me to take care of them, but she saw the dynamic.
01:06:03.199 --> 01:06:04.480
The dynamic was off.
01:06:04.559 --> 01:06:06.719
Like, I shouldn't be a father to my brothers.
01:06:06.880 --> 01:06:08.880
I shouldn't, I can't, I can never replace that.
01:06:09.039 --> 01:06:09.920
I can never replace that.
01:06:10.000 --> 01:06:12.559
Even no amount of money would ever replace that.
01:06:12.719 --> 01:06:14.639
And um the same thing for my mom.
01:06:14.800 --> 01:06:26.719
And she opened my eyes and uh made me see, like, yeah, like, you know, like they were kind of taking advantage of just what the opportunity that obviously is like once in a lifetime it felt like, you know, it felt like that.
01:06:26.960 --> 01:06:32.880
I feel like it was so traumatic for everybody, just like losing your father, that it's like the father figure was never in the home like he should have been.
01:06:33.280 --> 01:06:38.320
And then you you blow up and everything, and it's like it's almost like they gravitate towards you as the father figure.
01:06:38.719 --> 01:06:43.760
But bro, like now that you're you're born again, the best thing you could do is to lead him to Christ.
01:06:43.920 --> 01:06:44.079
Yeah.
01:06:44.559 --> 01:06:48.719
Like financially, obviously, you use wisdom that you have to steward now.
01:06:48.800 --> 01:06:51.199
Like now that y'all are about to get married, it is true.
01:06:51.440 --> 01:06:53.599
Like the first priority is God, then it's your wife.
01:06:53.760 --> 01:06:54.400
Like that's the order.
01:06:54.480 --> 01:06:55.760
It's God as a man of the home.
01:06:56.000 --> 01:06:58.320
You're gonna, bro, you're gonna be an amazing husband and father, bro.
01:06:58.639 --> 01:06:58.800
Thank you.
01:06:58.960 --> 01:07:00.239
For real, like godly.
01:07:00.480 --> 01:07:04.159
It's the first, the first is the God, and then it's the wife, then it's the children.
01:07:04.639 --> 01:07:11.519
And then we don't neglect our family members, but we also prior we steward, like we make sure, make sure they're on the right path.
01:07:11.599 --> 01:07:14.079
Yeah, like all the money that comes in, you know it's not yours.
01:07:14.400 --> 01:07:15.199
No, it's God's.
01:07:15.280 --> 01:07:16.639
Yeah, everything he's giving me.
01:07:16.960 --> 01:07:17.360
You feel me?
01:07:17.519 --> 01:07:21.119
So that you just steward it now that you have a relate revelation, like I that was you.
01:07:21.679 --> 01:07:22.559
You took care of me.
01:07:22.639 --> 01:07:26.000
Even when I didn't know you, you loved me, like you took care of me.
01:07:26.079 --> 01:07:27.199
Your hand was on my life.
01:07:27.360 --> 01:07:32.239
Like, it's it's it's it's it's it's it's emotional that sometimes like I think about that too, bro.
01:07:32.320 --> 01:07:34.880
Like, all the times where I could have been this, that, this, that.
01:07:35.119 --> 01:07:37.840
I know now that I'm in Christ, it was you.
01:07:38.559 --> 01:07:39.280
You know what I'm saying?
01:07:40.000 --> 01:07:43.199
Like in and leading your family to Christ, that's the best thing you can do.
01:07:43.360 --> 01:07:44.639
Because then they learn those principles.
01:07:44.880 --> 01:07:45.360
Exactly, yeah.
01:07:45.599 --> 01:07:49.599
And now you're now your brothers are gonna be amazing fathers, husbands too, because of you.
01:07:49.920 --> 01:07:51.360
And that's the best thing you could do, yeah.
01:07:51.599 --> 01:07:58.320
Like, you know, I always thought like money could solve problems and uh solve their problems, especially when I first blew up.
01:07:58.559 --> 01:08:10.400
But just over the years, seeing that it doesn't change anything, you know, it doesn't just magically solve away anybody's problems, and especially mine now, hers now, you know, it's just really where your heart is.
01:08:10.559 --> 01:08:12.480
Who do you who do you give your heart to?
01:08:12.639 --> 01:08:26.880
You give your you want to wake up and glorify yourself and you know, keep chasing this cycle of cycle of just fame, success, where it's just it's gonna get to a point where you can get it and it feels good, but then it's like you're gonna chase it and chase it.
01:08:26.960 --> 01:08:30.880
And it's like you're gonna be like, damn, I gotta keep going, keep getting and you don't know what the hell you're chasing.
01:08:30.960 --> 01:08:32.640
You just it's an endless cycle of stuff.
01:08:32.880 --> 01:08:33.600
So it's a drug.
01:08:33.760 --> 01:08:34.800
Yeah, yeah, it's a drug.
01:08:34.880 --> 01:08:37.520
It's a dopamine, yeah, dopamine hit you from that.
01:08:37.920 --> 01:08:45.840
That's what the coolest part though is like as I was changing, I could see everyone around me like change, like Jay's brother.
01:08:46.079 --> 01:08:47.680
He's like what two years younger than you.
01:08:47.840 --> 01:08:48.479
Yeah, just saw it.
01:08:48.880 --> 01:08:58.000
Yeah, and so he he would like come to our apartment, like I would say, like it was like multiple times a week, and we're just sitting out, we're smoking, and we're just talking about God.
01:08:58.159 --> 01:08:59.920
Like, literally, it was like crazy.
01:09:00.000 --> 01:09:02.239
I was just I couldn't stop talking about it.
01:09:02.319 --> 01:09:04.159
So I'm like influencing his little brother.
01:09:04.479 --> 01:09:09.600
And his little brother was like, it sounds like very like similar characteristics of his dad.
01:09:09.760 --> 01:09:26.479
Obviously, never had the chance to meet his dad, but just quick to anger, you know, just like always like beating himself up, like and or and almost even being in denial of just like of the his problems, and so like like saying little lies, you know.
01:09:26.640 --> 01:09:31.520
And so I I'm just I do have a really strong personality, so I'm like, don't do that, you know.
01:09:31.760 --> 01:09:38.399
Like he would watch a lot of anime, and like he started believing in just like weird like Buddhism or whatever it is.
01:09:38.560 --> 01:09:53.600
Oh, yeah, and so I started telling him about Jesus, and it was so crazy, like I didn't really need to say much, but it was like then he started to go to church on his own, like before I even went to church, before he even started going to Bible studies and like at the same church, no, at a different church, like he went on his own.
01:09:54.000 --> 01:09:56.159
Yeah, this was before we even started going to church, yeah.
01:09:56.960 --> 01:10:00.319
And you could see the change in him where it was like, bro, this is crazy.
01:10:00.399 --> 01:10:05.199
Like, I didn't even this I'm just working on myself, and he's over here, like and you planted seeds.
01:10:05.520 --> 01:10:06.319
Yeah, no, seriously.
01:10:06.479 --> 01:10:11.199
And then I would say once I got baptized, I quit OnlyFans.
01:10:11.279 --> 01:10:14.239
It was like after we all went to church, it was so crazy.
01:10:14.319 --> 01:10:23.039
Like, I'm literally like hosting Bible studies, like teaching his family, like we're all like coming together and like going to church every Sunday.
01:10:23.119 --> 01:10:25.199
Like I could even see it in Jay's mom.
01:10:25.279 --> 01:10:31.920
Like, that's something you know, we didn't have that great of a relationship at first because I felt like I had to like fight to be there.
01:10:32.000 --> 01:10:34.960
It was like it was so many things that didn't want us to be together.
01:10:35.039 --> 01:10:42.800
It was like his friends at the time, like literally talking bad about me and like saying that uh, you know, there's so many girls out there.
01:10:43.039 --> 01:10:45.680
Why are you committing your yourself to her?
01:10:45.920 --> 01:11:00.560
You know, his mom and his family see that Jay is changing and they're blaming me for me setting boundaries, you know, because she came in and like, you know, she saw what the way the dynamic was, and I was like, I was so in the moment that I didn't see that.
01:11:00.640 --> 01:11:03.279
I thought it was normal, you know, the same way my whole life, you know.
01:11:03.359 --> 01:11:05.600
I'm just like, oh, I'm just taking care of my family now.
01:11:05.760 --> 01:11:13.199
And uh, she came and pointed out just like the things that I was doing and what I was setting up is that I wasn't setting up healthy habits, you know.
01:11:13.279 --> 01:11:20.640
I wasn't setting up those like I was just setting up my mom to just, you know, ask for whatever she wants and be entitled to basically my money.
01:11:20.720 --> 01:11:28.640
I was setting up my brothers to look at me as their dad and take care of them, like I'm their dad, and it was just then I would never have life.
01:11:28.800 --> 01:11:29.840
I would never have life, you know.
01:11:29.920 --> 01:11:33.199
I would that would be my life, and obviously it was hard, you know.
01:11:33.279 --> 01:11:38.560
My mom saw that she she I've influenced she thought she was a good person, a good girl.
01:11:38.640 --> 01:11:50.079
But once she started like helping me set those boundaries and me opening my eyes, then I was like, damn, okay, like you know, it's just cause this is like conflict after conflict after conflict, and yeah, spiritual, you know, yeah, yeah.
01:11:50.319 --> 01:11:56.479
Yeah, and and now now we have a really good relationship, but it was like all of these things had to happen clearly.
01:11:56.800 --> 01:12:00.319
Like it made us really strong, like in our relationship.
01:12:00.479 --> 01:12:08.640
And like I even tell Jay all the time, like, we have so many creator friends, like there's one in particular, I won't say their names, but they they're very similar.
01:12:08.720 --> 01:12:14.319
Like, I I see us in them, and like they ended up breaking up because she became Christian.
01:12:14.479 --> 01:12:18.800
And I'm just like, Jay, like that could have been you, like you could have just like got rid of me.
01:12:18.880 --> 01:12:21.039
You didn't sign up for this version of me.
01:12:21.279 --> 01:12:35.760
And I'm like, that's not I I'm just because I know how I am, like it would could have been easy for Jay to do that if he just wanted to chase the fame and chase money, like he could have got rid of me, you know, moved to LA, done you know what all these creators do.
01:12:36.000 --> 01:12:44.159
But I'm just like, there's obviously like a plan for us, and like I just see that so much where I'm just like you know how I know it is because God revealed it.
01:12:44.720 --> 01:12:54.000
Same thing happened with me and my wife, like your girlfriend and boyfriend, like we're in the drug game and all the witchcraft and all this stuff together, but God was moving through it all, revealing himself to me and her.
01:12:54.720 --> 01:12:57.199
So in 2019, I get saved two weeks later.
01:12:57.279 --> 01:13:06.800
Like, she thought I was crazy, but then she gets saved, and then God starts revealing himself to her personally, which led to us making that decision, like, bro, like within two months to get married.
01:13:07.439 --> 01:13:16.800
Like, we didn't I always tell people like I recommend a local church, I recommend a pastor, but like I know every situation is different, like there's never a black and white for it, right?
01:13:17.439 --> 01:13:22.880
But what I feel just I feel this, and I'll say this you know boldly, bro, is like God has already confirmed to y'all.
01:13:23.279 --> 01:13:26.079
Cause you would have never you would have never stayed.
01:13:26.159 --> 01:13:26.399
Yeah.
01:13:26.560 --> 01:13:35.119
If it was if if if God didn't reveal himself to you and show you, like, yo, I'm real, like I love you, and I'm in this, you probably would have been like, nah.
01:13:35.600 --> 01:13:41.600
Yeah, I could have just, you know, been famous and been whatever, what any girl, and just lived that lifestyle.
01:13:41.760 --> 01:13:47.199
But, you know, I really, I really did know that like I love my family and I I loved her.
01:13:47.680 --> 01:14:06.319
And I knew that like it's just like it was like I could decide, you know, while we're still early in our relationship to let go and just, you know, not have her not even change the my dynamic in my family to to so I can just keep doing the easy stuff and keep giving them whatever they want and just and just setting myself up for failure, really.
01:14:06.560 --> 01:14:19.279
But I knew it was like it was hard to see, but now looking back, it's like I'm so glad that I stayed with her, that I I chose her to you know be my wife, uh my future wife, and you know, now we have a great relationship.
01:14:19.439 --> 01:14:20.479
My family loves her.
01:14:20.880 --> 01:14:25.680
You go on family trips now, like yeah, like we all we all like spend time together, our families.
01:14:25.760 --> 01:14:26.960
We're that's what I love about her.
01:14:27.039 --> 01:14:28.720
She's she's very family oriented.
01:14:28.880 --> 01:14:33.600
Obviously, I am, and now we just we're about to go on a trip to freaking Lake Powell.
01:14:33.680 --> 01:14:34.000
Oh, really?
01:14:34.239 --> 01:14:35.439
Yeah, Lake Powell, Utah.
01:14:35.520 --> 01:14:36.800
Yeah, all because of Jesus.
01:14:36.960 --> 01:14:38.399
Yeah, he brought us together.
01:14:38.479 --> 01:14:41.520
She she plant she planted the seed and brought us all back.
01:14:41.760 --> 01:14:45.680
I feel like in did that now we guys follow the word, bro.
01:14:46.079 --> 01:14:49.600
The word is what kept y'all together, like everything that you're saying, like biblical principles.
01:14:49.680 --> 01:14:53.359
As you get more in the word, you're gonna see like that's like how we defeat the enemy.
01:14:53.520 --> 01:14:54.880
It's the sword of the spirit, yeah.
01:14:55.119 --> 01:14:58.159
So the enemy wants to divide, God unified through the word.
01:14:58.560 --> 01:15:01.279
And bro, like and then you just you planted the seeds, dude.
01:15:01.680 --> 01:15:05.119
And then now everybody's like, okay, what's the one common denominator?
01:15:05.279 --> 01:15:05.600
Jesus.
01:15:05.840 --> 01:15:06.319
Yes, yeah.
01:15:06.479 --> 01:15:07.920
So it's like we can't have opinions.
01:15:08.000 --> 01:15:08.960
It's like, what does the word say?
01:15:09.119 --> 01:15:09.439
Jesus.
01:15:09.520 --> 01:15:12.319
I mean, we have opinions, but like we're gonna like let all that go.
01:15:12.399 --> 01:15:13.199
What does the word say?
01:15:13.359 --> 01:15:17.439
Okay, like no yeah, and she was so persistent, she was like, What is what is a man?
01:15:17.600 --> 01:15:22.079
And you know, like, how how are you gonna lead me if you're not a man, you know?
01:15:22.319 --> 01:15:27.199
If I'm I'm not a man of God and I'm not trusting what God says a man should be.
01:15:27.439 --> 01:15:29.119
And uh, that was the hardest part of it.
01:15:29.279 --> 01:15:34.319
I'm like, damn, I've lived my whole life taking care of my family, but now I gotta put her in front of my family.
01:15:34.640 --> 01:15:36.880
So that that was like something that messed me up, you know.
01:15:37.199 --> 01:15:46.560
Yeah, he didn't even I remember when we first talked about that, he didn't even know that was like a yeah, I was like when I was like, I was like, it says in the Bible, like you leave your mother and father, and he was like, No, yeah, yeah, yeah.
01:15:46.640 --> 01:16:04.560
I was about to say that verse I go on, but yeah, I was like, dang, like there's that's crazy because that's very hard for me to like even imagine, you know, like leaving my family, you know, just because my how my dad and everything just I was so attached to them, and uh obviously it I knew what I needed to do now.
01:16:05.039 --> 01:16:06.560
That led them to Jesus, yeah.
01:16:07.680 --> 01:16:08.880
The greatest father, yeah, exactly.
01:16:09.119 --> 01:16:19.359
And it's what's the coolest part is just like we didn't do this, like I didn't even do this, like even giving up the money that OnlyFans came with, like, that was like extremely hard.
01:16:19.439 --> 01:16:21.039
But it was sacrificing, yeah.
01:16:21.119 --> 01:16:26.319
It was like I was making so much money, even when I had like stopped making content for it.
01:16:26.399 --> 01:16:28.479
I'm like, oh, I could just let it keep going.
01:16:28.640 --> 01:16:34.880
And that's why when Charlie Kirk did pass away, I was like, no, like this life is it is not that simple.
01:16:35.359 --> 01:16:44.800
And I'm just like, I want I want actual fulfillment and I want to be closer to him because I felt like all the things I was doing like was making me farther away.
01:16:45.119 --> 01:16:45.600
Sin, yeah.
01:16:46.079 --> 01:16:47.039
You know what the Bible says?
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Anything that you give up in this life, lifetime, like you sacrifice, he gives you a hundred times fold in this life and the life to come.
01:16:54.560 --> 01:16:55.520
That was what I stood on.
01:16:55.600 --> 01:16:56.319
It was hard, bro.
01:16:56.399 --> 01:17:02.000
Even my girl, like my wife, we were like, dang, bro, like we're about to go from that to like, yeah, you know what I mean?
01:17:02.079 --> 01:17:03.279
And I was just like, dang.
01:17:03.760 --> 01:17:05.199
But I know that feeling.
01:17:05.439 --> 01:17:06.000
I know that feeling.
01:17:06.239 --> 01:17:13.439
And I try to give her comfort, you know, like, you know, I'm obviously making money off monetizing, you know, my platforms, you know.
01:17:13.520 --> 01:17:15.600
I was like, you know, you don't have to do it no more.
01:17:15.760 --> 01:17:25.199
You know, uh, I can take care of us, I can step up, and then even gone to a point now where like I'm not even, I'm not even wanting to film the same way, you know.
01:17:25.279 --> 01:17:30.479
I'm not even and it's like now I'm trying to like shift to like, okay, how's my content gonna look forward now?
01:17:30.640 --> 01:17:35.439
But then it's like, okay, then I'm not monetizing the same way, I'm not making as much, you know.
01:17:35.520 --> 01:17:42.319
And then even as far as like I used to be sponsored by like gambling companies and promoting gambling, I don't even want to do that no more.
01:17:42.399 --> 01:17:47.199
You know, I don't even want to like the money's there, the money's there for me to take, but I don't even want to do it.
01:17:47.359 --> 01:17:48.319
You're not biting the big name.
01:17:48.399 --> 01:17:49.520
I don't I don't want to do it no more.
01:17:49.600 --> 01:17:55.359
It's just like my heart says no, you know, like like and I know like God has a bigger purpose for me.
01:17:55.520 --> 01:18:03.760
Yeah, and it's it's definitely easy, easy to take, but it's like I know I gotta figure it out and I gotta trust in God's plan so that we can move forward.
01:18:04.079 --> 01:18:09.760
I can provide and uh you know lead us in the you know our future family and just in a better way.
01:18:10.000 --> 01:18:13.199
You ever heard the saying or the verse, the joy of the Lord is our strength.
01:18:13.760 --> 01:18:14.720
Have you guys ever heard that?
01:18:15.520 --> 01:18:18.960
So the joy that comes from God is supernatural and it actually strengthens us, right?
01:18:19.119 --> 01:18:29.920
And when I was praying for you guys, and the Lord showed me for you specifically, is like that he kept saying the joy of the Lord is your strength, that you're gonna bring joy, but it's not gonna be the same type of joy.
01:18:30.000 --> 01:18:32.239
You're gonna bring joy, God's gonna give you a blueprint.
01:18:32.720 --> 01:18:34.560
It's you're gonna shift your content, like you said.
01:18:34.640 --> 01:18:38.479
Like, I'm glad that you confirmed that it's gonna be a shift for both of you.
01:18:39.119 --> 01:18:43.119
But God's gonna confirm what it is, and it's gonna bring joy to a lot of people.
01:18:44.079 --> 01:18:47.920
I feel like you're a pure evangelist, and I feel like you are very pastoral, bro.
01:18:48.319 --> 01:19:00.000
Like you're gonna be preaching and helping a lot of people pastorally, but like and when you told me that about your dad, I was like, Yeah, that's a confirmation, it's a generational blessing that your dad had that's um passing on to you.
01:19:00.159 --> 01:19:02.800
It's like almost like a mantle to preach the gospel, bro.
01:19:02.960 --> 01:19:04.239
Like, but you're gonna do it.
01:19:04.479 --> 01:19:07.119
The Bible says, be wise as a serpent, gentle as a dove, right?
01:19:07.199 --> 01:19:09.039
Paul said, I'll be all things to all men.
01:19:09.199 --> 01:19:16.319
So it doesn't mean you have to go straight, like bliss, like just all the way like I'm Christian now, Bible studies, read, like listen to the Bible, right?
01:19:16.399 --> 01:19:18.159
Like unless God tells you to do that.
01:19:18.319 --> 01:19:23.600
Yeah, but I believe God's gonna give you guys a blueprint and it's gonna make sense, and God's gonna breathe on it.
01:19:24.239 --> 01:19:28.560
And it's going to take off, and it's gonna be more than what you guys were doing.
01:19:28.960 --> 01:19:34.880
Like God's gonna really flex and and show the world that um I can do more.
01:19:35.760 --> 01:19:36.159
Exactly.
01:19:36.399 --> 01:19:46.640
And it's supernatural because like you think like, dang, you guys are already like on top when it comes to the creator content side of things, but God is gonna breathe on it, bro, and he's gonna put you in front of um, yeah.
01:19:46.720 --> 01:19:48.479
I feel like God's gonna show you guys the blueprint.
01:19:48.640 --> 01:19:49.359
Yeah, I agree with that.
01:19:49.760 --> 01:19:51.039
I think it might have something to do with this.
01:19:51.199 --> 01:19:52.640
Well, yeah, literally, yeah, yeah.
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Like, I didn't I haven't even wanted to do content really the same after my baptism because I'm like, I was like, I can go, you know, to the stores and you know, like basically harass people and do stupid stuff.
01:20:05.279 --> 01:20:07.520
I'm like, I still want to make people laugh though, you know.
01:20:07.600 --> 01:20:12.000
Like I really truly find joy in that, and like that's really what I want to do is make people laugh.
01:20:12.079 --> 01:20:17.520
But now I'm like, okay, my mind is telling me like you can do it different, but then it's like I don't know what that looks like.
01:20:17.600 --> 01:20:21.439
So then my mind always is like, Oh, you can go do the same, same stuff you used to do.
01:20:21.680 --> 01:20:23.439
But just in me, it's just like I don't want to.
01:20:23.760 --> 01:20:25.279
The Holy Spirit's like, I don't want to, yeah.
01:20:25.359 --> 01:20:26.720
Yeah, he's convicting you, yeah.
01:20:26.880 --> 01:20:28.800
Bro, the Bible says, Seek and you shall find.
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Yeah, seek him with your whole heart.
01:20:30.560 --> 01:20:33.840
So it's like it's God is He likes to play hide and seek.
01:20:34.319 --> 01:20:36.079
He likes to like hide, come, come seek me.
01:20:36.479 --> 01:20:42.159
So you fasting, you praying, praying together, like just getting discipled, like growing in the word, growing in the faith.
01:20:42.239 --> 01:20:44.239
And bro, you're gonna be it's gonna come one day.
01:20:44.720 --> 01:20:46.079
Like, how didn't I think about this?
01:20:46.319 --> 01:20:46.560
Exactly.
01:20:46.880 --> 01:20:52.319
It's because he didn't let you, it's the right time, it's gonna make sense and it's gonna just be epic, bro.
01:20:52.399 --> 01:20:54.560
And it's gonna bring a lot of people into the kingdom.
01:20:55.199 --> 01:20:57.760
Like you guys are gonna build the kingdom of God, the saving of souls.
01:20:58.399 --> 01:20:59.439
Yeah, I really hope so.
01:20:59.680 --> 01:21:01.039
I've met a lot of influencers, bro.
01:21:01.119 --> 01:21:09.119
Like, I know a lot of like people that came from the world and like that I haven't like done podcasts with, or just people that like I'm like I'm growing in relationship with, and it's hard, bro.
01:21:09.199 --> 01:21:12.239
Like, I've I've seen a lot that still haven't made the transition yet.
01:21:12.640 --> 01:21:17.119
And it because and because they're worried, like it's it's always this, it's always the money, and I get it.
01:21:17.199 --> 01:21:24.479
Yeah, people that don't have a platform don't get it, like they don't understand, like okay, uh you you go from making this much to like you, you know you can all be gone.
01:21:24.800 --> 01:21:25.199
Exactly.
01:21:25.279 --> 01:21:26.960
Yeah, that's what's even crazy with me.
01:21:27.119 --> 01:21:34.640
Like when I quit doing OF, it was like I had a partner, I had literally a four-year-long partnership with Fashion Nova.
01:21:34.960 --> 01:21:39.439
Like, literally that same week, we're like, hey, we're not continuing this partnership anymore.
01:21:39.600 --> 01:21:42.560
Yeah, like when you gave up OnlyFans, yes, yes.
01:21:42.720 --> 01:21:45.920
And it was crazy because for me, I felt I felt joy.
01:21:46.000 --> 01:21:47.359
Like I was like, this is meant to be.
01:21:47.439 --> 01:21:49.119
Like, I wasn't sad about anything.
01:21:49.279 --> 01:21:53.359
Literally, I like lost the friend that helped me to quit OnlyFans.
01:21:53.520 --> 01:21:57.760
Like, she was considering doing OnlyFans after she just convinced me not to.
01:21:58.000 --> 01:22:01.199
All of these attacks, and I was just like, you know what, this is all meant to be.
01:22:01.279 --> 01:22:05.520
Like, I felt this joy of just like at nothing was like stressing me out.
01:22:05.600 --> 01:22:06.399
I was like, this is just weird.
01:22:08.239 --> 01:22:17.119
Yeah, and even with like the the fashionova, like it might seem like it was like a bad thing to happen, but honestly, it was like this was still allowing me to do that same type of content I was doing.
01:22:17.279 --> 01:22:17.439
Yep.
01:22:17.680 --> 01:22:20.880
So it was like it God was just like, all right, this door is closed.
01:22:21.039 --> 01:22:43.920
And so, and ever since then, like he's brought people into my life that like I now have a a really good friend, and she she her she has like a really cool story, and like she used to manage an OnlyFans agency, and like she radically gave her her life to God, and like she's like on a mission to like bring awareness of OnlyFans and like has brought me into this.
01:22:44.000 --> 01:22:45.600
So I've been like helping her do that.
01:22:45.760 --> 01:22:52.640
Wow, yeah, and so that's kind of like behind the scenes, like we're doing that, and then I have uh we're starting with a cat cafe, yeah.
01:22:52.720 --> 01:22:58.000
We're gonna open like a storefront cat cafe, and like help rescue cats, and like it was so crazy.
01:22:58.079 --> 01:23:01.600
I was like, how I want God to be a part of this, and like that's powerful.
01:23:01.760 --> 01:23:05.199
Yeah, I literally I went on a walk and I was like, God, like what can I do?
01:23:05.359 --> 01:23:07.279
And literally, like in my head, it just pops up.
01:23:07.439 --> 01:23:11.520
I'm like, cats for Christians, and I'm like, I'm like, I'm gonna create a Bible study one day.
01:23:11.680 --> 01:23:13.199
And I love cats.
01:23:13.920 --> 01:23:15.359
I was stationed members, he's in Greece.
01:23:15.760 --> 01:23:21.279
I don't know if you guys know about this, but like there's like they call it an infestation of cats because there were so many mice they brought a bunch of cats.
01:23:21.520 --> 01:23:22.640
So I used to be on the base, bro.
01:23:22.720 --> 01:23:25.840
I'd pull up to the base, and there'd be like 10 cats that always pull up.
01:23:25.920 --> 01:23:26.960
I had names for all of them.
01:23:27.600 --> 01:23:28.640
I know how to like hold.
01:23:28.720 --> 01:23:29.760
Like I love cats, bro.
01:23:30.079 --> 01:23:31.359
Oh, you gotta pull up when we open it.
01:23:31.520 --> 01:23:33.359
Yeah, facts, but pulling up, bro.
01:23:33.520 --> 01:23:35.039
Like, I I I I have a heart for cats.
01:23:35.119 --> 01:23:37.760
I love dogs too, but yeah, I really got close to cats.
01:23:37.840 --> 01:23:38.720
Before that, I was like, eh.
01:23:39.199 --> 01:23:42.159
And then after that grease, like it's like I'd be coming home, they just be loving me.
01:23:42.239 --> 01:23:43.600
I'm like, man, I feel loved, bro.
01:23:43.760 --> 01:23:44.159
Like these cats.
01:23:44.479 --> 01:23:46.079
It's funny because he used to not like cats.
01:23:46.239 --> 01:23:47.439
He used to say he was allergic.
01:23:47.680 --> 01:23:53.840
I was really allergic, and she like wanted we moved into our apartments and she like she wanted to get a cat, you know.
01:23:54.000 --> 01:23:55.680
And I was like, dang, like, I'm gonna be allergic.
01:23:56.000 --> 01:23:58.800
You're literally scared of the asthma, you know, all this stuff.
01:23:58.960 --> 01:24:02.319
So she got like this ragdoll, and it was cute, you know, it was cute.
01:24:02.399 --> 01:24:10.159
But like literally the first week of us being in the apartments and the and being with this cat, the first week I had asthma attacks like every day.
01:24:10.319 --> 01:24:15.359
My allergies was just so bad that it was like and then after a week, it was just gone.
01:24:15.600 --> 01:24:16.720
It's like I got used to it.
01:24:16.880 --> 01:24:20.560
I got used to it, like my body just yes, God healed you.
01:24:20.720 --> 01:24:21.279
God healed me.
01:24:21.359 --> 01:24:22.079
Yeah, yeah, literally.
01:24:24.319 --> 01:24:24.720
Yeah, I didn't.
01:24:24.960 --> 01:24:28.880
I was like, dang, like I was just literally asthma attacks, like so bad.
01:24:29.119 --> 01:24:33.279
Yeah, it's crazy because even our pastor like would say stuff about cats.
01:24:33.439 --> 01:24:35.199
I'm like, this is like the weirdest thing.
01:24:35.359 --> 01:24:39.920
Like, like lit like one time he was like, you can't spend all your money on a cat.
01:24:40.000 --> 01:24:42.560
And now I know he he actually like does this.
01:24:42.720 --> 01:24:43.840
He like jokes about cats.
01:24:43.920 --> 01:24:45.359
I don't know, he's probably not a cat person.
01:24:45.600 --> 01:24:46.319
Oh, okay, okay.
01:24:46.560 --> 01:24:48.800
At the time, I was like, why did he just say that?
01:24:49.359 --> 01:24:54.560
Yeah, and for and for me, I was smoking weed, you know, even though I got baptized.
01:24:54.720 --> 01:24:57.359
I was that was like the one thing it was so hard to let go.
01:24:57.439 --> 01:24:58.239
Like process, yeah.
01:24:58.399 --> 01:24:59.439
Yeah, it was really hard.
01:24:59.520 --> 01:25:03.600
I would just like, you know, honestly, it made me feel like I'm not good enough.
01:25:03.680 --> 01:25:06.239
Like I'm over here still smoking, I've got baptized.
01:25:06.319 --> 01:25:12.479
And like now, being more mature, I'm just like, yeah, it takes time to like get all of that stuff out, you know.
01:25:12.640 --> 01:25:15.600
And now my outlook on it is like way better.
01:25:15.680 --> 01:25:22.319
Like but at that time I literally was like had panic panic attacks because I was just like, I really wanted to do it.
01:25:22.399 --> 01:25:25.520
Like, I'm over here praying about it and like at the same time wanting to do it.
01:25:25.760 --> 01:25:26.880
You were addicted to it, yeah.
01:25:27.039 --> 01:25:33.199
And I was just like, I have to like not give myself grace and not like expect this to like change overnight.
01:25:33.439 --> 01:25:37.279
And like that's something, even like with Jay, like you know, he posted his baptism.
01:25:37.359 --> 01:25:44.000
Now all these people are like expecting him to be the next Bryce Crawford, and it's like shout out to Bryce too, man.
01:25:44.079 --> 01:25:45.840
Yeah, shout out to Bryce, I love him, I love him.
01:25:46.319 --> 01:25:47.680
But literally getting that exact comment.
01:25:47.760 --> 01:25:49.359
Like, they're like, you know, you gotta be more serious.
01:25:49.600 --> 01:25:49.840
No, yeah.
01:25:49.920 --> 01:25:53.600
They're like, they're even to the point where like you can't even say chupapi muñeño anymore.
01:25:53.840 --> 01:25:54.880
No more chupapi mu.
01:25:55.279 --> 01:25:59.359
I'm like, bruh, chupapi muñeño is a made-up word, it means nothing bad.
01:25:59.520 --> 01:26:01.039
Like I can say it, man.
01:26:01.199 --> 01:26:02.720
I can say it and praise Jesus.
01:26:02.880 --> 01:26:14.000
Yes, praise God, and like, and like I that's where it's like obviously, yeah, I want I want to post content now that is good, you know, that that shares the good message, and um that's where I'm at right now.
01:26:14.079 --> 01:26:23.520
You know, I I want to give up everything that what I used to do and just just move in a way where I I can promote Jesus, I can maybe help other people.
01:26:23.680 --> 01:26:30.880
And obviously, I don't know what that looks like, but I feel like this, you know, is a great is a great way to get the get us, you know, connected with you.
01:26:30.960 --> 01:26:35.119
And I feel like you've been a great person doing that, you know, you know, on your platform.
01:26:35.199 --> 01:26:39.520
So I do feel like y'all are gonna do a lot of podcasts as the Lord leads.
01:26:39.600 --> 01:26:45.600
Maybe have your own podcast too, if you don't think you're gonna be doing the cats, the the cats in coffee, cats cafe.
01:26:45.920 --> 01:26:46.560
Cat cafe, yeah.
01:26:46.800 --> 01:26:47.199
That's fire.
01:26:47.359 --> 01:26:48.720
Like that I feel like that's from the Lord.
01:26:48.880 --> 01:26:49.840
Definitely should do that.
01:26:50.000 --> 01:26:51.520
And bro, he's gonna reveal more.
01:26:51.760 --> 01:26:54.800
It's like the Bible says it's precept upon precept, line upon line.
01:26:54.880 --> 01:27:01.760
So it's like, it's never all like boom, like it's like he gives you a little bit, and he's like, now move in faith.
01:27:02.319 --> 01:27:03.760
Be obedient and move in faith.
01:27:03.920 --> 01:27:07.359
So you know now, okay, I can't post wild stuff anymore.
01:27:07.840 --> 01:27:16.560
But God wants me to do something, and that that's bro, that's like the best like feeling is like I don't know what it is yet, but like you got the opportunity to find out, exactly, bro.
01:27:16.640 --> 01:27:18.159
And he reveals it, yeah.
01:27:18.239 --> 01:27:25.279
And that's why I have to even now, you know, I want to like read my Bible more, I want to gain a better relationship with Jesus.
01:27:25.439 --> 01:27:28.399
Even though I just got baptized later, not everything's perfect.
01:27:28.479 --> 01:27:31.920
I'm not like like this change whole, you know, person.
01:27:32.159 --> 01:27:34.239
You know, I don't sin at all now.
01:27:34.399 --> 01:27:34.720
I do.
01:27:34.800 --> 01:27:41.920
I mean, I still do, and like that's where I'm like, I have to prioritize the relationship and like actually trusting in this plan.
01:27:42.000 --> 01:27:46.560
You know, he's he's obviously been in my life this whole time, you know, since I was a baby.
01:27:47.279 --> 01:27:53.840
So for anybody watching, he like he just got baptized, just got saved, like he's growing in the sanctification process.
01:27:53.920 --> 01:27:59.760
And if you're if you're judging him, thinking that he needs to be like a pastor guy, like stop.
01:28:00.319 --> 01:28:00.720
Just stop.
01:28:00.880 --> 01:28:01.840
Like he's growing.
01:28:01.920 --> 01:28:03.600
It's called sanctification.
01:28:04.720 --> 01:28:08.399
The Holy Spirit fills you, and then now your soul is being washed.
01:28:08.960 --> 01:28:13.680
So now the renewal of the mind, the heart being healed, like it's just it's a process.
01:28:14.239 --> 01:28:17.199
And it's great that you guys understand discipleship.
01:28:17.279 --> 01:28:18.479
Like it's like growing in it.
01:28:18.560 --> 01:28:27.520
Like it's like, okay, I gotta get in my word, gotta be part of a church, get pastored, get accountability, like we were talking about earlier, like getting a family, like the local church over there in Tampa.
01:28:27.600 --> 01:28:30.960
That's it's necessary to be plugged into a local church, bro.
01:28:31.039 --> 01:28:32.479
Cause like, and even serve.
01:28:33.199 --> 01:28:33.920
Like, serve.
01:28:34.000 --> 01:28:35.920
Like, I don't even care where I serve.
01:28:36.000 --> 01:28:38.399
Like, I just want to be in the house of God, like David said.
01:28:38.880 --> 01:28:40.640
I just I don't care if I'm a door holder.
01:28:40.720 --> 01:28:43.359
I just rather not be in the tent of the wicked.
01:28:43.760 --> 01:28:45.920
Like, I'll be a door holder in the house of God.
01:28:46.000 --> 01:28:48.479
Wherever his presence is at, I'm hungry.
01:28:48.800 --> 01:28:50.479
And that's where God reveals.
01:28:51.039 --> 01:28:53.920
Like you go low, he brings you high.
01:28:54.399 --> 01:28:55.119
Always remember that.
01:28:55.199 --> 01:28:57.840
Like water flows from top to bottom.
01:28:58.079 --> 01:29:04.399
Oil, like everything flows from as we go low, like Christ, like He went the lowest by going on the cross, right?
01:29:04.560 --> 01:29:06.800
Like He lowered himself, he humbled himself.
01:29:07.119 --> 01:29:08.319
God entered a body.
01:29:08.560 --> 01:29:09.920
Like He didn't have to do that.
01:29:10.159 --> 01:29:12.960
And because He did that, bro, he went the lowest of the lowest.
01:29:13.039 --> 01:29:20.720
Like God who could have called upon angels to strike everybody, gave Himself in to be arrested and brutally beaten for us, bruh.
01:29:20.880 --> 01:29:24.640
Like that's the greatest humility that anybody could display.
01:29:24.800 --> 01:29:26.880
And now it's like you guys are doing that.
01:29:26.960 --> 01:29:34.000
You're sat you sacrificed OnlyFans, sacrifice the weeds, sacrifice the the the the vulgar or whatever stuff you're doing.
01:29:34.239 --> 01:29:36.000
The gambling, the gambling, all that bro.
01:29:36.079 --> 01:29:38.720
Like this is this is this is the proof that you're saved.
01:29:39.439 --> 01:29:42.079
Like you would not be doing this if you weren't saved.
01:29:42.560 --> 01:29:44.640
Like there's no way, like, why would you?
01:29:44.800 --> 01:29:48.399
Even you, like, you know, like dang, bro, like I can't post the same content.
01:29:48.479 --> 01:29:50.399
It might I might start losing some things.
01:29:50.640 --> 01:29:53.439
But that's but bro, that's that's the beauty.
01:29:53.760 --> 01:29:56.880
I know I'm better than I know God has a better plan for me, you know.
01:29:56.960 --> 01:29:58.800
Like, and that's where I'm like, I'm gonna trust him.
01:29:58.880 --> 01:30:07.119
I'm gonna, you know, it might take some time of not even making making money, you know, like sacrificing that because yeah, it's like it's not about money, you know.
01:30:07.199 --> 01:30:08.399
It's like it's not about that.
01:30:08.479 --> 01:30:11.039
And that's where now it's about God.
01:30:11.199 --> 01:30:12.560
It's about God for me.
01:30:12.720 --> 01:30:18.239
And it's always it should have always been uh uh about him like that in my life, but I just didn't prioritize it.
01:30:18.399 --> 01:30:21.760
Yeah, bro, because like it's just you were just you were just far away from him.
01:30:22.000 --> 01:30:22.960
But like he knew it though.
01:30:23.039 --> 01:30:28.479
Like he knew that you would come in, he knew he he would draw you in, he knew that she would come in your life, he knew that she would get drawn.
01:30:28.720 --> 01:30:33.920
Like it's like Yeah, it's oh yeah it's the master plan of the like and it's like we like we're mind blowing in bro.
01:30:34.000 --> 01:30:35.600
This is only the beginning for y'all.
01:30:35.680 --> 01:30:38.399
This is only the big like this is the beginning of the beginning.
01:30:38.880 --> 01:30:42.399
The beginning hasn't even like it's like there's gonna be so many great things.
01:30:42.479 --> 01:30:46.720
Like, I really feel like y'all are gonna have a beautiful family, like it's gonna be so powerful, bro.
01:30:46.800 --> 01:30:49.840
Like, it's gonna bring so much unity within within friends and family.
01:30:49.920 --> 01:30:51.039
Yes, it brings a division.
01:30:51.119 --> 01:30:54.399
The Bible says Jesus didn't come to bring peace to everything, right?
01:30:54.479 --> 01:31:02.399
He came to bring a sword to divide mother against daughter, father against like what that means is like he's not a like a divisive God.
01:31:02.479 --> 01:31:08.000
It's that when he comes into a house, when someone gets saved, it does cause a division, a division.
01:31:08.239 --> 01:31:11.680
Like when I came to Christ, lost my brother, lost my family, like lost my best friends.
01:31:12.000 --> 01:31:15.600
Best friend, we were beefing to the point of like like murderous things.
01:31:15.680 --> 01:31:17.680
Like it was like all the people I was trapping with, bro.
01:31:17.760 --> 01:31:18.800
Like, thought I went fed.
01:31:18.880 --> 01:31:19.520
Like it was crazy.
01:31:19.680 --> 01:31:24.479
It was just me, then my girl gets saved, we get married, and my kid, my friend, and it was just bro, I had nobody, bro.
01:31:24.560 --> 01:31:25.439
I lost everything.
01:31:25.920 --> 01:31:27.279
I had had two properties.
01:31:27.439 --> 01:31:30.079
My wife had a property, had like eight cars, bro.
01:31:30.159 --> 01:31:32.880
Like, had to sell everything, lost all that.
01:31:33.039 --> 01:31:36.319
Almost got evicted when we started house, we started our house church, bro.
01:31:36.399 --> 01:31:42.000
Like, crazy things started happening, and like it gets to a point where you're like, God, what's going on?
01:31:42.159 --> 01:31:48.560
But then he's always there, and it's his presence that gives you satisfaction, and then he lifts you at the right time, bro.
01:31:48.960 --> 01:31:50.880
Remember this because you're gonna need this.
01:31:51.279 --> 01:31:53.039
He lifts you at the right time.
01:31:53.439 --> 01:31:58.000
Don't stop, don't stop seeking him and working hard as he leads, amen.
01:31:58.560 --> 01:32:04.079
But it's gonna be at the right time, and it's gonna and you're gonna realize like, bro, that that that was you, God.
01:32:04.159 --> 01:32:06.079
Like, I'm I'm grateful for it.
01:32:06.239 --> 01:32:09.279
Yeah, I'm grateful, and I'm not saying you're gonna go through what I went through.
01:32:09.760 --> 01:32:11.119
Everyone goes through different things.
01:32:11.680 --> 01:32:17.760
But I again, like I've met a lot of influencers, bro, that come out of that thing, and the ones that actually did come out, they went through a lot.
01:32:17.920 --> 01:32:22.880
But now I've seen the fruit of their faithfulness lead to so much greater, bro.
01:32:23.199 --> 01:32:28.000
So much like and that, but that process is like it's so fiery.
01:32:28.079 --> 01:32:30.000
It's like you feel like you're walking through a fire.
01:32:30.880 --> 01:32:35.600
And like it's it's that's what the Bible says, the the the purifying fire of the heart.
01:32:35.760 --> 01:32:39.520
So just bro, like the weapons of your warfare are now not they're not carnal.
01:32:39.680 --> 01:32:41.359
So now it's like, okay, how do I fight?
01:32:41.520 --> 01:32:47.760
I can't fight with going viral on a video and like you know, the thumbnail, like you know how to go viral, but it's now it's not about that.
01:32:47.840 --> 01:32:48.640
So how do I fight?
01:32:48.880 --> 01:32:52.159
Prayer, the word, being plugged into a local church.
01:32:52.239 --> 01:32:59.039
Yeah, bro, you fasting, like all these things gonna be new, but it's gonna be God will be moving the same way He's been moving through it all.
01:32:59.359 --> 01:33:03.199
Little like, I'm here, miracle, I'm here, miracle, I'm here.
01:33:03.279 --> 01:33:09.520
Where you're like, bro, and then when you get married, bro, it's like that's gonna be yeah, it becomes war.
01:33:09.680 --> 01:33:13.359
Like, and it's like now it's not you alone or you alone, it's together, bro.
01:33:13.600 --> 01:33:15.760
And it the the the enemy hates marriage.
01:33:16.560 --> 01:33:19.760
He hates marriage because, bro, like two are better than one.
01:33:19.920 --> 01:33:24.000
The Bible says one can take down a thousand, but two can take down ten thousand.
01:33:24.399 --> 01:33:25.119
That's times ten.
01:33:25.359 --> 01:33:30.319
Yeah, and then when the kids come, the Bible calls them arrows to the enemy's camp.
01:33:30.560 --> 01:33:33.439
Damn, he that's why why you think look at the society, bro.
01:33:34.159 --> 01:33:36.800
Everyone's like divorced, yeah, baby mama, baby daddy.
01:33:36.880 --> 01:33:39.119
Yeah, they're after like bro.
01:33:39.199 --> 01:33:40.720
Kids, like, I mean, you went through it.
01:33:40.880 --> 01:33:42.079
You saw you went through it in your own.
01:33:42.399 --> 01:33:44.159
Kids nowadays, yeah, even worse.
01:33:44.479 --> 01:33:45.039
You feel me?
01:33:45.119 --> 01:33:47.039
So it's like it, you know, I you're Puerto Rican, right?
01:33:47.119 --> 01:33:50.000
You said right, like especially like in Puerto Rican culture, you see a lot of that, bro.
01:33:50.079 --> 01:33:52.239
Like, you see a lot of like just messed up homes, bro.
01:33:52.319 --> 01:33:54.800
Like, and it's like, and it's because Jesus ain't in it.
01:33:54.880 --> 01:33:59.600
Yeah, you see some, I see good ones, like in the like God is sparking a revival in Puerto Rico.
01:33:59.920 --> 01:34:01.840
Like Puerto Rico's being lit up on fire right now.
01:34:01.920 --> 01:34:12.079
I have a pastor out there, like great things are happening, but yeah, bro, it's unfortunate that just man, I think the whole like American society is just like it doesn't know what to do, but people are waking up.
01:34:12.319 --> 01:34:12.880
No, they don't know.
01:34:13.039 --> 01:34:23.520
No, seriously, like so many creators that we know that are like they're going on podcasts and talking about God and talking about how they're not fulfilled, and like you like the same way we were feeling.
01:34:23.600 --> 01:34:24.720
I'm like, this is insane.
01:34:24.800 --> 01:34:26.399
Like, it's a great awakening, yeah.
01:34:26.479 --> 01:34:56.720
And I think that like for us, like why we want to share our stories is because it's like there are other creators that will see this and kids that are gonna see this, and I just like I I if we could prevent them from chasing what we just chased, yeah, you know, like I would love to do that and show them that God is the thing that they should be chasing, not the money, not the fame, because it's not gonna do anything, and it actually adds more problems that you're not you you're not thinking of, especially with family.
01:34:56.880 --> 01:35:07.680
Like, that is the number one thing that why girls don't leave OnlyFans is because they are paying for their their parents to be retired, and so now they can't leave.
01:35:08.000 --> 01:35:13.359
Now they have to keep selling their body because everyone else is on top of them, profiting from it.
01:35:13.520 --> 01:35:16.640
And I think it's very similar to even social media, you know.
01:35:16.880 --> 01:35:29.039
If Jay didn't have me to help him set boundaries, like he would be in the same position right now, and it might be more pressure to keep doing the gambling because hey, he he's taking care of all these people, he has to.
01:35:30.800 --> 01:35:31.520
That was fire.
01:35:31.760 --> 01:35:33.039
I felt the presence of God, bro.
01:35:33.920 --> 01:35:36.079
That was that was that was that's a real right there.
01:35:36.159 --> 01:35:37.439
What you did that was that was crazy.
01:35:37.680 --> 01:35:38.399
You went crazy.
01:35:38.640 --> 01:35:39.680
I felt the presence of God.
01:35:39.840 --> 01:35:40.960
Um, yeah, man.
01:35:41.119 --> 01:35:43.119
Um, that's that's amazing.
01:35:43.279 --> 01:35:45.039
Um, God is gonna I'm here for you guys.
01:35:45.119 --> 01:35:49.680
Like I say this on camera, and I'll obviously I'll say we'll talk more off camera, but I'm here for you guys.
01:35:49.760 --> 01:35:50.319
Like, thank you.
01:35:51.920 --> 01:35:52.800
I want you to meet my wife.
01:35:53.119 --> 01:35:54.159
Yeah, we gotta come to your church.
01:35:54.239 --> 01:35:55.199
Yeah, you'll slide, bro.
01:35:55.279 --> 01:35:59.920
Like, and it's crazy because we were talking about coming to your church before you even reach before you reach out.
01:36:00.079 --> 01:36:00.159
Yeah.
01:36:00.880 --> 01:36:01.439
Wow.
01:36:01.760 --> 01:36:03.439
Man, you come, bro, you're family, bro.
01:36:03.600 --> 01:36:09.520
No one's gonna treat you like oh, like bro, like they're gonna hug you, like man, you are family, bro, like in Christ for real.
01:36:09.680 --> 01:36:10.880
That's all you'll feel the love.
01:36:10.960 --> 01:36:13.760
I'll let I'll let the Lord reveal that to y'all, and you'll be able to do that.
01:36:13.920 --> 01:36:15.359
Yeah, we will really appreciate that.
01:36:15.520 --> 01:36:22.159
I think that's like the hardest part for us right now, is like that just kind of what you said is like people do look at us like we're famous.
01:36:22.399 --> 01:36:26.960
I just want to like be loved for just who I am and not as a daughter of the king.
01:36:27.039 --> 01:36:28.800
Yeah, yeah, as a daughter of Jesus, yeah.
01:36:28.880 --> 01:36:31.199
And so son of Jesus, like a son of God.
01:36:31.359 --> 01:36:31.680
Yeah.
01:36:31.920 --> 01:36:34.000
And we luckily, you know, we have people around us.
01:36:34.159 --> 01:36:38.159
Like we even started premarital counseling with this like Christian couple, and they're really good.
01:36:38.319 --> 01:36:39.600
They're really yes, yeah.
01:36:39.760 --> 01:36:40.960
They are I always recommend that.
01:36:41.039 --> 01:36:42.319
Yeah, very really important.
01:36:42.399 --> 01:36:46.000
Just to like get the things out of the heart, just just little things and then prepare.
01:36:46.399 --> 01:36:47.920
Exactly, bro, because it is big.
01:36:48.239 --> 01:36:49.520
Because when you get married, there's no divorce.
01:36:49.760 --> 01:36:50.479
Lifelong commitment.
01:36:51.199 --> 01:36:54.000
I don't believe we never divorced anyway.
01:36:55.760 --> 01:36:56.640
Not for real though.
01:36:56.800 --> 01:36:59.760
Like, I'm I'm never wanna not be with her, you know.
01:36:59.840 --> 01:37:01.119
I I want to lead her.
01:37:01.199 --> 01:37:06.640
And that's the thing that like I realize now is that like, you know, she I can't let her take the lead all the time.
01:37:06.800 --> 01:37:23.439
You know, she obviously has great input, she's very smart, like she'll tell me what not to do sometimes and what and then what I think is right, but like I have to get myself right to be able to lead her so that she can just trust me, you know, so she can be like, all right, what you say is actually right because I'm following what God says.
01:37:23.760 --> 01:37:25.600
Yeah, because you're the pastor of your home.
01:37:26.079 --> 01:37:26.960
But I'm gonna say this, bro.
01:37:27.119 --> 01:37:30.560
Like, I just know like how you think and how you move, like you're gonna catch on very quick.
01:37:30.800 --> 01:37:32.960
And it's honestly, it's God getting you right.
01:37:33.520 --> 01:37:37.199
Remember that it's you submitting to him, and bro, he's gonna get you right, bro.
01:37:37.279 --> 01:37:37.920
It's the word.
01:37:38.399 --> 01:37:39.520
You get in the word, bro.
01:37:39.600 --> 01:37:42.319
It's it's just bro, you're you're gonna be good.
01:37:42.399 --> 01:37:43.439
You're pastoral, bro.
01:37:43.520 --> 01:37:48.000
I'm telling you, you have a pastor's heart, like it's the evangelist and the pastor, like I can see it.
01:37:48.560 --> 01:37:51.920
And God is gonna show that as time goes by, but just stay in the word, bro.
01:37:52.079 --> 01:37:52.960
Yeah, I have to, yeah.
01:37:53.920 --> 01:37:56.640
Like you're a leader, you're I can you're I mean, obviously, right?
01:37:56.880 --> 01:37:57.920
You have all this influence.
01:37:58.479 --> 01:38:01.439
And that's what's amazing about Jay, is like he relates to so many people.
01:38:01.760 --> 01:38:02.239
I can tell.
01:38:02.479 --> 01:38:05.359
Like we got the hood guys that love Jay.
01:38:05.520 --> 01:38:08.239
Like we got the just normal white guys that love Jay.
01:38:08.319 --> 01:38:11.520
Like, literally, we get so many people that just love him.
01:38:12.960 --> 01:38:34.159
You know, and they don't they just seen me do, you know, crazy stuff at Walmart, you know, and that's why I was like, you know, I really didn't expect, you know, the the the what the results of my baptism posting it and seeing people, you know, like support me in that way, support me in that way, where like they all we all have this thing in common where we are gonna give our hearts to God, we're gonna give praise Jesus.
01:38:34.399 --> 01:38:35.920
And you know, I didn't expect that.
01:38:36.000 --> 01:38:38.800
I didn't expect it to do numbers or anything, you know.
01:38:38.960 --> 01:38:48.239
Like I said, I just wanted to, you know, I seen how she posted her baptism, you know, and this was last year, and I was like, dang, like when I do that, when I when I'm ready, I'll I will do that.
01:38:48.399 --> 01:38:52.399
And uh, you know, she motivated me a lot to be here right now.
01:38:52.800 --> 01:38:54.079
You had to sacrifice though, bro.
01:38:54.479 --> 01:39:07.520
You had to make those sacrifice the world, sacrifice the things that you want to do naturally, because you are gonna want to do what you your flesh wants you to do, you know, go, you know, do things that doesn't support God.
01:39:07.600 --> 01:39:11.039
And it's like it's it's obviously easier said than done.
01:39:11.359 --> 01:39:22.880
But like, I trust me, like if you put your heart to God and you follow God, like you will have a better life, and you can still have your uh you know, your passions, you can still have things you like to do, but just add God into it.
01:39:23.039 --> 01:39:26.880
And that's where I realized is that like you know, I I love making people laugh.
01:39:26.960 --> 01:39:29.119
So, like, okay, how can I add God into it?
01:39:29.279 --> 01:39:30.880
You know, I love pickleball.
01:39:30.960 --> 01:39:31.840
How can I add content?
01:39:32.159 --> 01:39:35.039
How I love basketball, how can I add God into that?
01:39:35.119 --> 01:39:45.920
You know, like then it means something, you know, what you're doing, what you're doing, my content, then it will mean something purposeful rather than you know, you know, moaning people's ears.
01:39:48.000 --> 01:39:49.439
Bro, but you just said a Bible verse.
01:39:49.520 --> 01:39:54.880
I don't even think you like Matthew 6, 33, seek first the kingdom of God and all his righteousness, and all these things will be added.
01:39:55.039 --> 01:40:00.399
So what you're saying is I want to put God in it, so I'm not just doing it just to do it, like for whatever.
01:40:00.560 --> 01:40:05.520
Like, I I want a the foundation to be for God and then bro, and then it's like Yeah, she taught me that, you know.
01:40:05.600 --> 01:40:08.000
I I I really thought like I could do it on my own.
01:40:08.079 --> 01:40:15.840
You know, I really did think that like, you know, I can just keep being, you know, keep getting famous, keep making money, and just like that would be enough.
01:40:16.000 --> 01:40:21.680
And just even when I got it, like I would just tell her, I would be like, I just I feel lost still.
01:40:21.760 --> 01:40:27.119
I feel like you know, I'm I get a super viral video, you know, million views, million likes.
01:40:27.359 --> 01:40:29.359
It's like, all right, what all right, what's the next video?
01:40:29.520 --> 01:40:30.800
And like I talked to her about it.
01:40:30.880 --> 01:40:34.319
I'm like, all right, we need to figure out what's the next video, what can we do next?
01:40:34.560 --> 01:40:38.239
And just it was a cycle, a cycle, and I just kept talking to her about it.
01:40:38.319 --> 01:40:44.000
And she was just like, you don't have God, like you don't you don't have God at at the center of your life.
01:40:44.159 --> 01:40:50.319
So he's like, you're gonna keep doing, you're gonna keep being unfulfilled, even though, yeah, I'm I'm truly blessed.
01:40:50.399 --> 01:40:52.319
Like, what has God given me in my life?
01:40:52.479 --> 01:41:00.479
When I'm being able to support my family, being able to be financially stable to this point, and but it's like I never gave him that praise.
01:41:00.560 --> 01:41:04.000
I always thought like I did it on my own, or it was my dad helping me.
01:41:04.239 --> 01:41:09.119
Um, which like she made me realize, like, you know, like God's been in your life this whole time.
01:41:09.680 --> 01:41:11.279
He actually was your dad, your heavenly father.
01:41:11.439 --> 01:41:12.239
Yes, yeah, exactly.
01:41:12.399 --> 01:41:13.199
My heavenly father.
01:41:13.439 --> 01:41:13.760
Come on.
01:41:13.920 --> 01:41:22.239
And uh, and I prayed that my dad's in heaven with him, and and that he, you know, he he did leave what it was necessary.
01:41:22.399 --> 01:41:25.119
You know, he taught me the ways to what not to do.
01:41:25.279 --> 01:41:32.239
And you know, she's made me see and open my eyes so much to see and like, yeah, he's got God has been in my life this whole time.
01:41:32.479 --> 01:41:41.520
Even when I didn't want to prioritize him, even when I thought I I was doing it on my own, she made me realize, like, no, he's been there since the start, and he wants you, he wants your heart.
01:41:41.760 --> 01:41:44.960
I'm like, all right, well, I'm gonna give it to you.
01:41:46.319 --> 01:41:48.880
Man, well, this is uh this was super fire, man.
01:41:48.960 --> 01:41:51.520
Like, this was amazing for real, for real.
01:41:51.840 --> 01:41:56.000
It touched me just so now that you guys are actually like truly saved, bro.
01:41:56.079 --> 01:42:04.399
Like, really love God and sacrifice so much because it showed like sacrifices the Bible says the bear fruits of repentance, right?
01:42:04.479 --> 01:42:06.800
So when someone truly repents, there's gonna be fruits.
01:42:07.680 --> 01:42:17.359
Posting the video, giving up OnlyFans, posting the video, like all the things you guys said, like the sacrifice, marriage as a sacrifice, like saying, like, I'm about to be with somebody for the rest of my life.
01:42:17.680 --> 01:42:19.119
There's so many people out there.
01:42:19.600 --> 01:42:23.359
But the only way you can do that truly is if you know God has ordained it.
01:42:23.680 --> 01:42:24.079
Yes, yeah.
01:42:24.479 --> 01:42:27.199
Once you know God, yo, you've ordained this, there's no hesi.
01:42:27.439 --> 01:42:28.560
Like it's like we all in there.
01:42:28.640 --> 01:42:31.359
Like, let's go, let's let's do it, offer you Jesus.
01:42:31.520 --> 01:42:34.319
So I mean, I believe it's gonna encourage a lot of people.
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Um, I believe that uh anyone watching right now, um, I know you've probably been touched.
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Um you want to preach the gospel or you want me to do it?
01:42:44.079 --> 01:42:45.359
I feel like I feel like you can do it.
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Uh if you can't, yeah, I could say something.
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Yeah, anything.
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I guess for the viewers that are watching this, what I would want to tell you is like it doesn't matter whether I was doing OnlyFans or Jay's over here chasing viral videos.
01:42:59.600 --> 01:43:03.520
To me, like what I've got to learn is like it's all the same thing.
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You're gonna keep chasing this thing, and you're gonna put yourself in positions where you might start doing drugs, you might start sleeping with multiple people, and you'll end up in a place where like all you have is the things that are numbing you out.
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And without God, it it just it feels so empty.
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It doesn't matter what money, amount of money that you think is gonna solve those problems, it's not.
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You're just gonna be in this endless race of chasing it.
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And God has been the one thing in my life where I'm like, you know, as just a little girl, like never feeling good enough.
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Like that is the main thing that caused me to do all of these things was not feeling worthy.
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And like that's something I constantly like feel now.
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Is like uh it doesn't even matter if my biological dad doesn't pick me.
01:43:50.960 --> 01:43:55.920
I have my heavenly father who does want a relationship with me.
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When even with my cats, you know, with anything that I do, it's like I feel so loved, I feel worthy.
01:44:02.239 --> 01:44:09.119
Even when I get into fights with Jay, I'm like, I still have someone who loves me regardless of what I do, or even when I mess up.
01:44:09.199 --> 01:44:15.279
Like that is the one thing it's like you hold yourself to the standard of like you need to be perfect, but that's actually the opposite.
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It's like God accepts you even though you're not perfect, and he's the one that makes you righteous.
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And like he's fixed everything, even though I don't have all the material things that I thought would fulfill me.
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Like, I have the things that matter.
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I have someone who loves me, I have my future husband, my I have my family, I see them all the time.
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Like, I have those, those are the things that actually matter, not fitting in, not getting what everyone else wants.
01:44:45.039 --> 01:44:50.000
It's when you realize that, literally nothing else is going to matter.
01:44:50.159 --> 01:44:56.880
When you have Jesus in your life, you like it's like a feeling you can't even describe.
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Like it I can't even say what what he means to me.
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Like it's something I even as a Christian, like growing up, like I didn't even have that.
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Now it's like I can pray and I can see the answers.
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I can like see everything that he's doing in my life, and it has so much more impact.
01:45:18.079 --> 01:45:30.880
And so I just pray for everyone that is seeing this that you see like the genuineness from what we've shared, and like that was our whole mission of today was just be as vulnerable as possible because that's something we haven't done.
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Just so you guys can see like the change that he can really like.
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We gave up thousands of dollars, we gave up our entire lifestyle, the friends we had.
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I we gave that all up because we genuinely believe that this is real.
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Thank you, Jesus.
01:45:46.800 --> 01:45:47.359
That's good.
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Amen.
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And I feel this in my heart strong.
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I feel like you and your biological father soon are gonna um there's gonna be restoration.
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I really hope that's he's gonna come to know Jesus and there's gonna be restoration.
01:45:59.600 --> 01:46:03.039
Because God even loves him too, and it's gonna be good.
01:46:03.359 --> 01:46:05.439
Yeah, I really, I really hope that for my dad.
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What's his name?
01:46:06.479 --> 01:46:06.880
Leo.
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I'll be praying for Leo.
01:46:08.319 --> 01:46:08.479
Thank you.
01:46:08.720 --> 01:46:11.199
Leo, if you're watching this, I'm praying for you, my brother.
01:46:11.520 --> 01:46:14.399
Come to our church in Orlando and Yeah, man.
01:46:14.960 --> 01:46:18.399
You have a daughter who loves Jesus, and yeah, everything's gonna be good.
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Thank you for that.
01:46:19.520 --> 01:46:20.079
Thank you for that.
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Thank you guys.
01:46:21.039 --> 01:46:22.720
And um, yeah, that I think that was perfect.
01:46:23.359 --> 01:46:25.119
And Jen Jay, anything you want to say?
01:46:25.439 --> 01:46:28.319
I mean, it was an honor to be here.
01:46:28.479 --> 01:46:31.520
I really do feel like I was meant to be here.
01:46:31.680 --> 01:46:48.159
And um, I feel like my relationship with Jesus, my relationship with God has always been me just like I said, not prioritizing it, me knowing that he's real, knowing that you know what he did for us, he died on the cross, and and it's for us.
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And and maybe I didn't understand that.
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I didn't understand like what that actually meant, you know, back at back then, but it's never too late to realize it.
01:46:57.039 --> 01:47:06.479
It's never too late to under actually understand what that means, what he did for you, and like so that you can live a life that's fulfilled through him with him.
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And that's what I want now is that I want to understand, I want to give my life to Jesus because it's just it's it's there, it's there for us to take, and he's there for us to be there for us for the rest of our lives.
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So it's like you can make that decision and you can be fulfilled with whatever you do.
01:47:24.640 --> 01:47:40.560
Like MRI said, like, it doesn't need to be videos, it doesn't need it could be anything, acting, it could be basketball, it can be anything you do, as long as you have a relationship with God and you truly believe that he died for you, what he did for you, and that he rose from the dead, like you will be saved.
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And that's what I came to believe.
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And it's never too late.
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Like it you can be 50, you can be 10, you can be 25, like me.
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It's like it's never gonna be too late as long as you make that decision in your life.
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Man, it's so good, bro.
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I thought the presence of God on that one, bro.
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Guys, yeah.
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Hope you guys are blessed.
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Love you guys.
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If you um if this blessed you, just comment down below, whatever blessed you.
01:48:07.920 --> 01:48:10.800
I feel I feel like a lot of people are gonna catch breakthrough from this, man.
01:48:10.880 --> 01:48:12.800
And um, yeah, we're just chopping it up.
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First podcast, podcast number one.
01:48:15.439 --> 01:48:16.239
Chopping it up.
01:48:16.479 --> 01:48:20.239
Chopping it up We gotta put that like the audio or like maybe like a little intro.
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Chew popping in you.
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All right, y'all, man.
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Love you guys.
01:48:25.920 --> 01:48:26.720
God bless you guys.
01:48:26.800 --> 01:48:28.640
And yeah, I'm a pastor in Orlando.
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Come to The Rock, Orlando, look it up online, and man, yeah, God is moving, God is awakening his people.
01:48:35.600 --> 01:48:38.960
Revival is here, it's now, and um, yeah, we out.
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We got some new merch out, some new remnant merch.
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Um, man, go check it out.
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Go check it out on the website, all that.
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All of it supports us being able to get our first building.
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That's the goal.
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We want to get our own building.
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Right now, the building we're at right now can't fit everybody, and but we know God is moving and he's a God of order, and yeah, we're following what he said, and he wants us to have fire merch, and it's actually good quality for real, for real.
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Like I'm acting, like I it's real good.
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So go check it out, and it all goes to the kingdom, man.
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So God bless you guys.
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Thank you.