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To my daughter Boots, I love you. Forever and
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to the ends of all things. I know you don't think
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much of your power. I am a miserable drunk. I
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shouted too much. I hit you when I should have
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listened. I would give anything to be able to
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make up for what I did. I just... I love you.
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You might never get this, Boots. The Shadowcats
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and B Corp might delete it. Hide it away in some
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black site. I don't know. But what I want to
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tell you, so that there is even a chance you'll
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read this, you will understand that I didn't
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run away. Three nights ago, on a shade -sailed
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mining skiff, The boys and I pulled up a hall.
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It was mostly iron, but we also found diamond.
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Jeffries was the first to tell us. His idea was
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to collect more iron and lie about the diamonds,
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adjust the weight accordingly. Said he had a
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mate. Foolishly, we believed him. Even Nick.
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But Paul required some convincing. Sorry, Boots.
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Pa, he's not a good man. Never was, and I won't
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lie. When I hurt you, I told myself it was making
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you strong, making you mean and tough to survive
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this world. It was a lie. You looked at me with
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your beak. Brown eyes. Confused. Innocent. Wondering
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why I hurt you so much. Anyway. I killed Paul.
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I lured him to the airlock. And released his
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body. The void of space. And I keep seeing him
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in my head. But what's worse. Because it only
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feels real. But the nightmare shows me your face.
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Not his. I'd do it again. A thousand times more
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for you. I don't think this makes me a better
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man. Or a better father. It just shows how much
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the rot has taken hold of me. Boots. I don't
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take this hate with you. Don't hate this. pathetic
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tired old man you are far more clever beautiful
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and amazing to have yourself dragged down by
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the likes of me the diamonds boots that's it's
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not how you got that money i know you're a good
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girl and you will want to give it away please
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let's keep it make a life for yourself Zara and
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X are selling pastures. Land and freedom. Go
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there. Corporations cannot stop you. You will
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live a long, happy life. It was your ma and my
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life insurance. I kept it secret. Greedy and
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angry, I wished you not to take a cent. I blamed
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you for her death for all those years. It wasn't
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your fault. Yeah, it was mine. Maybe if I had
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saved more. Saved more money. If I had taken
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better care for her. Got her a better doctor.
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We'd both be alive. It's my insurance, Boots.
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I'm not making it out of this. But it would take
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weeks for the missive. To reach the Brokers
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there is a mandatory month between signing up
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and my death. Before it takes effect. Legal causes
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and all that. It'll be an unwanted drunk as it
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perks. No one will look for us. No one will even
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know. It might take years for them to declare
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my death. And by then. He'll be long gone. I
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was an idiot. Plain and simple. Undeserving of
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even the memory of your love. Your eyes and your
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grace. You're so much like your mother. And I
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will die. Knowing I died trying to be the man
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you both see me to be. I'll get to it. Kid, I'm
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sorry. Under my skin crossed the bugs. Some kind
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of parasite was inside the diamonds. I compressed
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until we unsealed them with our drills. It made
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the others angry. Unhinged. Jeffreys was killed
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by Nick in the shower. I'm sorry, I cannot articulate
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my words more. They were lovers. Like your mother
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and I. But God, Jeffries. Nick tore his throat
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out. And then Nick came for me. I've been locked
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in the storage closet for days now. Nick just
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stares at me. Sometimes I think he's trying to
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talk to me. And over time, his expression had
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changed. Anger had turned to curiosity. He looks
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at me with his head tilted. His eyes, blood red.
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Mouth oozy. I think he wonders why I haven't
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turned like him. Unlike them, I wasn't a kind
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man. I hurt you and your mother. And anyone I
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could get my hands on in my arrogance. This.
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creatures these things inside me tell me to kill
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tell me to be angry i lived with mindless anger
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my whole life whatever this is we'll have to
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do better i wish i could see you one last time
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i want to write more To say more. But whatever
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is inside me. It gnaws at my spine. My fingers
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twitch. Even now as I write. Nick has started
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to hit the wall. His palms split apart like overcooked
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hot dogs. He knows what's coming. The more. I
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adjusted the shift just in time. Now I can see
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the lights of the furnace I can feel the heat
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already Or station whatever is inside this gift
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not even the diamond will survive I will not
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let this thing hurt you whatever it is dies here
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with me First alien life And it's your useless
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pie, it means. Maybe they grew because of that.
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I know I would be. I love you, Boots. Forever.
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To the end of all things. we have it, listener.
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A story that burned bright. A father who neglected
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his child. Monsters may not be all redeemable.
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That doesn't mean they shouldn't try. Oh, and
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if you're wondering, did boots get out of there?
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Did boots make it? To Zylon 5. Don't worry listener.
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I have it in good faith. That she's living. A
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long. And happy life. Thank you. For joining
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me today. For hearing the story. Of this tragic
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man. Have a good night. And good luck. Signing
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off.
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To my daughter Boots, I love you. Forever and
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to the ends of all things. I know you don't think
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much of your power. I am a miserable drunk. I
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shouted too much. I hit you when I should have
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listened. I would give anything to be able to
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make up for what I did. I just... I love you.
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You might never get this, Boots. The Shadowcats
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and B Corp might delete it. Hide it away in some
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black site. I don't know. But what I want to
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tell you, so that there is even a chance you'll
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read this, you will understand that I didn't
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run away. Three nights ago, on a shade -sailed
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mining skiff, The boys and I pulled up a hall.
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It was mostly iron, but we also found diamond.
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Jeffries was the first to tell us. His idea was
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to collect more iron and lie about the diamonds,
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adjust the weight accordingly. Said he had a
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mate. Foolishly, we believed him. Even Nick.
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But Paul required some convincing. Sorry, Boots.
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Pa, he's not a good man. Never was, and I won't
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lie. When I hurt you, I told myself it was making
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you strong, making you mean and tough to survive
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this world. It was a lie. You looked at me with
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your beak. Brown eyes. Confused. Innocent. Wondering
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why I hurt you so much. Anyway. I killed Paul.
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I lured him to the airlock. And released his
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body. The void of space. And I keep seeing him
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in my head. But what's worse. Because it only
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feels real. But the nightmare shows me your face.
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Not his. I'd do it again. A thousand times more
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for you. I don't think this makes me a better
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man. Or a better father. It just shows how much
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the rot has taken hold of me. Boots. I don't
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take this hate with you. Don't hate this. pathetic
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tired old man you are far more clever beautiful
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and amazing to have yourself dragged down by
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the likes of me the diamonds boots that's it's
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not how you got that money i know you're a good
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girl and you will want to give it away please
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let's keep it make a life for yourself Zara and
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X are selling pastures. Land and freedom. Go
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there. Corporations cannot stop you. You will
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live a long, happy life. It was your ma and my
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life insurance. I kept it secret. Greedy and
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angry, I wished you not to take a cent. I blamed
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you for her death for all those years. It wasn't
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your fault. Yeah, it was mine. Maybe if I had
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saved more. Saved more money. If I had taken
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better care for her. Got her a better doctor.
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We'd both be alive. It's my insurance, Boots.
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I'm not making it out of this. But it would take
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weeks for the missive. To reach the Brokers
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there is a mandatory month between signing up
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and my death. Before it takes effect. Legal causes
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and all that. It'll be an unwanted drunk as it
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perks. No one will look for us. No one will even
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know. It might take years for them to declare
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my death. And by then. He'll be long gone. I
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was an idiot. Plain and simple. Undeserving of
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even the memory of your love. Your eyes and your
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grace. You're so much like your mother. And I
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will die. Knowing I died trying to be the man
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you both see me to be. I'll get to it. Kid, I'm
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sorry. Under my skin crossed the bugs. Some kind
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of parasite was inside the diamonds. I compressed
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until we unsealed them with our drills. It made
00:05:41.089 --> 00:05:46.589
the others angry. Unhinged. Jeffreys was killed
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by Nick in the shower. I'm sorry, I cannot articulate
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my words more. They were lovers. Like your mother
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and I. But God, Jeffries. Nick tore his throat
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out. And then Nick came for me. I've been locked
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in the storage closet for days now. Nick just
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stares at me. Sometimes I think he's trying to
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talk to me. And over time, his expression had
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changed. Anger had turned to curiosity. He looks
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at me with his head tilted. His eyes, blood red.
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Mouth oozy. I think he wonders why I haven't
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turned like him. Unlike them, I wasn't a kind
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man. I hurt you and your mother. And anyone I
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could get my hands on in my arrogance. This.
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creatures these things inside me tell me to kill
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tell me to be angry i lived with mindless anger
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my whole life whatever this is we'll have to
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do better i wish i could see you one last time
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i want to write more To say more. But whatever
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is inside me. It gnaws at my spine. My fingers
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twitch. Even now as I write. Nick has started
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to hit the wall. His palms split apart like overcooked
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hot dogs. He knows what's coming. The more. I
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adjusted the shift just in time. Now I can see
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the lights of the furnace I can feel the heat
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already Or station whatever is inside this gift
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not even the diamond will survive I will not
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let this thing hurt you whatever it is dies here
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with me First alien life And it's your useless
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pie, it means. Maybe they grew because of that.
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I know I would be. I love you, Boots. Forever.
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To the end of all things. we have it, listener.
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A story that burned bright. A father who neglected
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his child. Monsters may not be all redeemable.
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That doesn't mean they shouldn't try. Oh, and
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if you're wondering, did boots get out of there?
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Did boots make it? To Zylon 5. Don't worry listener.
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I have it in good faith. That she's living. A
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long. And happy life. Thank you. For joining
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me today. For hearing the story. Of this tragic
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man. Have a good night. And good luck. Signing
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off.
