Spread Open & Filled Doctors, Nurses & the Thrill of Authority

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Welcome back, my delicious, sturdy listeners, to another steamy episode
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of Nikki After Dark. My name is Nikki, and tonight
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we're pulling on the white coat, snapping on a glove,
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and getting very, very comfortable on the exam table. Because
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this episode is all about authority. Doctors. Nurses. Priests. And
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even the beautiful moment when the person in charge decides
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to stop being professional and start being hungry. So lie back,
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spread those legs, and try to relax. You'll feel a
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little pressure. Possibly. Here are three quick teasers of what's
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coming up tonight's episode. Imagine the childhood doctor who once
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examined your little body has now a full-grown milf. Big chest.
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Silky leggings, long hair, and she just locked the clinic
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door and climbed on top of you. That old burning
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sensation down there is about to come roaring back. And
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this time, it has nothing to do with nerve damage.
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And you're strapped into the stirrups, legs wide, dripping and exposed.
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And it isn't just the gynecologist between your thighs. It's him,
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his male colleagues, the entire damn clinic. cold saline and
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gloved fingers included. You came in for exam, and you'll
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leave filled. And finally, a trans man with a very
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specific weakness for men in power, a priest with a collar,
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a doctor with a chart, gets on his knees with
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a three-week breeding schedule by a nurse who has her
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own idea what a fertility test looks like. Stick around,
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because once the door locks, These people do not stay professional.
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Before we get things started, let me ask you something.
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I want real answers, not the polished versions. What's one
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person from your life you absolutely shouldn't have wanted and
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you can't stop thinking about? A teacher, a boss, a
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friend's parent, your colleague's spouse, someone who was technically off-limits
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and knew it. And was it the taboo that made
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the marriage existable? Or what if you wanted them even
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if they'd been totally available? And if they walked into
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the room right now, would you do it all over again?
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Or run away? Remember, you can always send me your
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answers and confessions at Nikki, N-I-K-K-Y, at DearNikki.com, or drop
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them in our website at DearNikki.com under your Confessions tab
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if you want to remain anonymous. We've also got Discord,
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and trust me, our conversations can get very flirty there.
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Come play with us. Alright, you know what time it is. Well,
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not that time yet, but remember, it's our riddle. It's
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sounding absolutely obscene, but our answer is always 100% clean.
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Here you go. He spreads your legs, greases me up.
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and slides me in while you gasp and grip the table.
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I open you wide so he can peer as deep
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as he likes, and I hold you there, cold, patient,
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while he takes his sweet time with you. When he's done,
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he pulls me out, lice me down, and tucks me
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away still wet until the next body comes along. I've
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been inside more people than you've had hot dinners. What
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am I? Okay, chew on that one. And remember, we
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will reveal the answer at the very end of our show.
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You know what time it is. It's time to sit back, relax,
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let's have a whiskey, with some filthy cherries, of course,
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and explore some erotic fantasies from people just like you
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and me. Dear Nikki, I keep replaying the dream she
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told me about, the one that still makes my cock
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throb every time I picture it. She was on the
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exam paper. My favorite gown pushed up. The doctor had
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to pull her legs up and spread wide so he
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could take a proper look. I was right there in
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the corner, hard as a rock under my clothes, watching
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where her thighs trembled open. She could see me. She
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saw how thick I was getting just from the side
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of her like that. Exposed, vulnerable, her pussy already glistening
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under the bright lights. The doctor's fingers slid between her folds,
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slow and clinical at first, and deeper. He murmured that
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she was enjoying it, that she was soaking wet. She
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let out this soft, helpless moan when she caught me
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rubbing myself through my pants. That sound undid him. He
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leaned in, tongue flat and hungry, picking up her slickness
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while she watched me finally pull my cock out. Wet, obscene,
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with his mouth on her, and filled the room. He
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pushed inside her, stretching her open while she moaned louder, heavier,
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hips rocking to meet that thrust. I was choking myself faster,
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eyes locked on the way her body took him, the
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way the door opened and the nurse stepped in. She
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glanced at me, then my wife getting fucked on the table,
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and asked if I needed any help. Her mouth wrapped
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around me a second later, warm and tight, sucking me
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deep while my wife watched it all, watched me getting
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sucked off while the doctor pounded into her. It pushed
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her over the edge more than once. She came hard,
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clenching around him, and when he finally spilled inside her,
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she was still shaking. At the same time, the nurse
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swallowed every drop of mine, her throat working around me
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until I was spent. She enjoys being spread like that.
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Sometimes she wants toys that are thicker, longer, things that
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fill her more than I can. I love knowing that
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about her. But the fantasy that lives in my head
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more than anything else is quieter, riskier in a different way.
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I want to sit in a hotel room with a
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massage table set up. I'd have her lie on her stomach,
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warm oil in my hands, working the tension out on
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her shoulders, her lower back, the soft curve of her ass.
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and a knock at the door. A late-night personal massage.
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I let him in. He knows the deal. He can
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try to seduce her, but it only goes as far
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as she allows. While he's massaging her, he'd lean in close,
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his hard cock brushing her hand again and again, testing
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whether she'll take hold of it. Nothing more. No sex.
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Just that slow, teasing romance, hanging the hair while I watch.
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The thing is, the whole idea starts to feel like
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too much. Like I'm pushing something that could hurt her,
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or manipulating her into something she doesn't actually want. I
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don't know how I could handle any of this with her.
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If you have any ideas or tips, I'd really like
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to hear them. Sign your secret corner watcher who can't
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stop picturing her spread. Well, you know how I tell
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everybody to talk about this. The car, right? You don't
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have to look at each other. Scenery changes. Kind of
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like a great confessional with just blank walls in them.
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What is it? Like a window? Not a window, but
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a curtain. That's the thing I'm looking at. For my author,
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have you two talked about these fantasies outside the dream
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she already shared? Or does it mostly still live only
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in your head? And what would, as far as she allows,
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actually look like if you tried the massage idea for real?
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And for my listeners, have you ever shared a cuckold
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or voyeur-style fantasy with a partner and then second-guessed whether
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it was too much? What made the difference between it
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staying hot and it starting to feel like pressure? Dear Nikki,
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our airline is ruthless about employee health, so every six
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months we all get a full workup, including the gynecologist.
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For years it was the same older woman in her fifties,
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sharp tongue, rough with the speculum, and completely indifferent to
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whether we were comfortable. I always left her exam room,
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flushed and embarrassed, same as the other girls. This week
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I found out she's gone. A new doctor is a young,
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handsome guy I've already noticed in the building. He's cute
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in a clean-cut, confident way that makes my stomach flip.
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And now I'm terrified. In one week, I'm going to
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have to spread my legs for him. I already know
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he'll see how wet I am the second his finger
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touches me. Just thinking about his hands on my labia
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makes my thighs clench. I can't stop imagining the moment
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he parts me and realizes I'm soaked for him. It's
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happened twice before. A few years ago, before a set
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of qualifying flights, I was on the table for a
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routine exam and the room wasn't empty. The doctor had
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bought in four medical students with him. Five young men
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stood around me while I lay there, while my legs
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wide open in the stirrups. I could feel the cool
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air of my bare pussy and hear the quiet shift
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of their shoes on the floor. The doctor started examining
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me with my lips already swollen, slick with arousal. I
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couldn't stop. And I squeezed my eyes shut, teeth gritted,
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face burning with shame. He was talking to the students
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in a calm, professional voice, explaining something clinical, when he
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gently spread my labia with two fingers to show them.
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Of the soft pressure, the way he held me open
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right in front of all of them, ripped a small,
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helpless moan out of me before I could swallow it.
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I stayed perfectly still after that, praying they hadn't heard,
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while he finished the exam. At the end, he wiped
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my juices away with a napkin like it was nothing.
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I grabbed my clothes, yanked my skirt down, and practically
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ran out of the room without looking at any of them.
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I was halfway down the hall before I'd realized I
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left my panties on the chair. I never went back
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for them. Signed, your secret airline girl. I've never been
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in a job that's required and all that, so I
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wouldn't know. But I've never had an exam like that
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where they brought in students. I don't think. No. Now,
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regular practitioner, yes, but not my kind of colleges. I
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probably just jinxed myself. That mix of pure clinical exposure
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and uncontrollable wetness, it makes this confession hot. She's just
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not nervous about the new doctor. She's already soaked to
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the thought of him seeing how her body responds. For
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my author, when the new exam happens, are you planning
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to tell the doctor anything, or you try to just
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stay quiet and hope he doesn't notice how hot you get?
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Have you ever gone back in your mind to that
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student exam and finished the fantasy? the way you wanted
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it to go? And for my listeners, have you ever
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gotten aroused during a real medical exam and had to
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hide it? What would you actually do if a young,
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attractive doctor was the one spreading you open next week?
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I think this happened to me, which is true. I
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have white coat syndrome bad. I would just blame it
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on white coat syndrome. Yeah, I'm aroused because I have
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white coat syndrome. I get wet and nervous at the
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same time. I don't know. Maybe. Dear Nikki, a week
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after the torsion scare, I was back in the same
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exam room, already knowing my regular doctor wasn't the one
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walking in. It was the young GQ guy from the
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first visit. He stepped inside, looked up. The second he
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recognized me, his face went a little pink. I smiled.
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He cleared his throat and asked how I was doing,
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how the testicles were feeling. I told him the truth.
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They were still tender. He ran the thorough usual list. Biking, motorcycle, golf,
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all no. Then he paused and asked straight-faced, does masturbating
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relieve it? I said I wasn't sure. I haven't tried
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because they'd been too sore. He told me to get
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up on the table the same last time, pants and
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underwears down to my knees so he could take a look.
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I lay back and pushed them down. He started probing
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with gloved hands, careful around the tender spots. I wasn't hard,
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just firm from the attention. He muttered, oh no, not
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this again. I said, I really am here to see
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the doctor, even though part of me had been hoping
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it would be him. He kept examining me the way
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he had before, and I could feel the sticky drops
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of pre-cum already leaking out. cool against my skin. I
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thought he was just leaning in for a closer look
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until I felt the warm, wet drag of his tongue
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licking the drops clean off the head of my cock.
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Then his mouth closed around me. He glanced up once,
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eyes dark and said, I can help. His fingers pinched
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my nipples while he sucked, taking me deeper. There was
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no mistaking how much he wanted it. He kept shushing me,
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trying to stay quiet. And I was right there with him,
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When the pressure built, I blurted that I was going
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to cum. He didn't pull off. I shot hard, powerful
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pulses straight down his throat. He stood up, tipped his
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head back, and swallowed. Easy clean up, he said, shaking
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his head. We've got to quit meeting like this. I
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laughed and told him it was easy to find him.
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Then I said, pants and underwear off, and patted the table.
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He hopped up, I wrapped my hand around his cock,
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and started stroking slow at first, then faster, edging him
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over and over until he was shaking and begging. I
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kept denying him until he gasped that he was running
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out of time. The second I let him finish, his
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cum shot so high, the first spurts almost cleared his chest.
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I watched his cock go soft, then rolled him onto
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his stomach, even he resisted for a second. I spread
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his legs, leaned in, and gave his ass one quick,
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firm lick. I pulled my pants back and headed for
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the door. All done? He called after me. Fuck my
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ass next time. Just don't like it. I looked back. Sure.
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Same time next week? He nodded. I walked over, kissed
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him deep, slow, and asked if he was gay. Nope,
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he said. I told him I wasn't either, but I
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still liked him. Liked his cock, liked his ass, and
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his damn good kisser. We both agreed our wives better
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never find out. He said he wasn't telling, and I
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said the same. I walked out of the clinic feeling strange.
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I'm a straight guy who likes to suck cock. Is
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that really possible? Signed, your secret straight patient. Who still
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wants next week. Oh, I hate labels. You all know
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I hate labels. No, you're just sexplorative. Curious. As the cat.
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With milk. I think that's the saying. Hmm. So now.
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I don't know. Whatever makes you feel good. That's why
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I say it, right? For my author, when you walked
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out that day, did the, am I still straight question
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feel exciting, confusing, or both? Are you actually planning to
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show up next week and take him up on the
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fuck my ass request? And this was sent in a
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while ago, so I'm assuming you've already seen him, and
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maybe a couple times by now. What the hell happened?
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And for my listeners... Have any of you ever had
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a sexual encounter that made you question a label you
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always used for yourself? And what would you do if
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a hot doctor who just sucked you off asked you
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to fuck him the following week? I have a couple
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hot doctors. I've got an appointment soon. I'm just gonna
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let that linger right there. Dear Nikki, I still can't
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believe I'm writing this down, but here it is, the
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whole thing, exactly as it happened. Let me take you
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back to last Friday. Actually, no. To understand it, we
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have to start before that. Years ago, when I was
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a kid, there was an acupuncturist doctor who used to
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treat my aunt. She checked me too, back then. She
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had one of those full-body checkup machines, something like an
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MRI machine. I was a kid, so they stripped me
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down for the checkup, and everything came back normal. Except
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for one thing. The nerves in my penis had some
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kind of problem. I don't know exactly what it was,
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but I used to feel a burning sensation down there.
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So I'd go with my aunt again and again, and
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the doctor would give me this laser therapy right on
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the upper part of my penis, just below my belly.
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I left the treatment years ago once I felt relieved
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after a few rounds, and that was that. Or so
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I thought. Fast forward to the Wednesday my mom and
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I ran into her in Zudio. She recognized us instantly,
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and she was with her kids. She took my number,
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we chatted for a second, and then we all went
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our separate ways. Then Friday hits. She messages me. The
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conversation was painfully simple. How are you? What are you doing?
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That kind of thing. And then, out of nowhere, she
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calls me to meet her at her clinic. I was like, okay,
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let's go. Any excuse to see her new clinic, right?
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Before we go any further, let me describe her, because
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you need to picture what I was walking into. She's
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around 5'4, and her bro boobs were huge. You could
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see them pressing into her shirt. She wears these very tight,
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silky leggings that hug her ass so perfectly. When the
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air lifts the rear of her shirt, the whole shape
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of it just there. Long hair, a total perfect milf.
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She's somewhere around 40 to 45, the kind of woman
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who walks into a room and makes you forget your
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own name. So I get to the clinic. She's not
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there yet. There are only a few other patients awaiting.
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She arrives and I'm standing right in the doorframe. She's
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this high and wants to get past me. The door
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is small. Two people can't fit side by side. So
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I spin on the spot to face her. And she
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turns her back to me, squeezes through, and while she's
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sliding past, her ass rubs right against my penis. Nikki,
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the sensation was real, the best feeling in just one graze.
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She looked at me in this weird, knowing way, and
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I pretended I didn't notice, staring off like nothing happened.
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After one patient, she calls me in. The clinic is
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fully private. Curtains are every bed. She tells me to
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sit on the bed, right next to her chair, and
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start asking about my family. The conversation rolls, and I
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noticed her bra strap is out. And the white shirt.
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Her bra is visible, too. Nervous as hell, but I
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tell her, your bra strap's out. And she goes, uh,
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Thank you so much. While she's talking, I look down
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and see her leggings are silky yellow. And from the sides,
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you can see the outline of her panties. I was
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losing it. She catches where I'm looking. She gets up,
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locks the door, and jumps on me, pressing her whole
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weight onto my chest, trying to kiss me. I resist
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at first, but then I get turned on. She kisses
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me first, and then she started pulling off her shirt.
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But some patient called her outside. She slipped out, but
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didn't even go through the door. She just stood there
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and said, I'm intending someone. I'll be back in a minute.
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And while she was talking, I lifted the rear of
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her shirt and saw the outline of her panties again.
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I wanted to eat her through that fabric, lick and
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bury my face in it. I was practically drooling with lust.
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She comes back and starts pulling off my jeans. I
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stop and tell her to take off her shirt first,
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and she does. And there it is. Red bra. I
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couldn't control myself. I grabbed them, squeezed them so hard,
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like a hand gripper. She unhooked the bra, dropped her
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knees and pulled off my jeans and then my underwear. There,
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she saw my cock. Not huge, maybe six to eight inches,
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and she just started sucking it. I held her hair,
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pushed my cock deeper into her mouth. A few minutes later,
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I picked her up, put her on the bed, pulled
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off those tight leggings, and started eating her pussy through
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her panty. and just tasted fishy. You know, that raw, real,
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musky taste. Then I slid her panty off, lubed up
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my clock with my own saliva, and pushed inside her.
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She tried to moan, but I put my palm over
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her lips, and her eyes went wide. She squeezed my
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thigh and whispered, Faster. Faster. So I fucked her like
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it was BDMS porn. We did a doggy-style missionary. Both
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kinds of cowgirl. In the end, I was about to cum.
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She got on her knees, stuck her tongue out, and
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asked me to finish in her mouth. So I did.
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She started laughing and said something I honestly don't even remember.
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Then she hugged me tight and said, Thank you so much.
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I haven't had sex like that in years. I'll invite
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you again for this. And then left. Oh, and she
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swallowed the whole load. Sign your secret, acupuncture patient. Well,
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you sure did give her some acupuncture. Just saying, right?
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Oh my god, you had the restraint of a saint
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for the first half and then the stamina of a
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machine for the second? Yum. For my author, when she
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said she'd invite you again, did you two ever actually
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follow through? Or is the invite in still waiting? And
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what was the, is the age gap weird for either
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of you? Or did the milf factor make it hotter?
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You mentioned resisting the first kiss. Was it actually going
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through your head in that split second before you gave in?
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Might have been, oh shit, mine would have been like,
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what the hell, and then went with it. I think
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that's what mine would have been. Or my listeners, have
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you ever hooked up with someone from your past? A doctor,
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a teacher, an old neighbor? And did the history make
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it better or messier? Dear Nikki, let me just start
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by saying it plainly. I'm a cockslut. Unapologetically, I've lived
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out more fantasies than I can count on two hands,
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and a fair few of them have happened exactly where
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you'd at least expect. Bent over a desk in a clinic,
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pressed against the counter in a doctor's office, on my
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knees in a break room while someone in scrubs stood
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at the door to keeping watch. Medical professionals at their
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own workplace? Yes. Often. That's my thing. But there's one
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box I have never, not once, managed to tick. And
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it drives me insane. Because I constantly insist on male doctors.
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I ask. Every time. And every single time it's a
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woman who walks in anyway. Because there's always a female
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chaperone hovering at the edge of the room. Watching. Taking notes.
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Being professional. And honestly, fine. Let her watch. Let her join.
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She can even have her way with me, too, for
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all I care. The whole clinic. The entire hospital, even.
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Bring everyone. Because what I want is specific. What I
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want to be is strapped down, legs spread wide, knees
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knocked in a cold metal stirrups, that paper sheet thrown
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somewhere on the floor and forgotten. Then I want them
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to use whatever tools they've got lying around that little tray. Speculum, swabs,
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glove fingers, all of it. Fill my uterus with saline
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so I can feel the strange and cold wet weight
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of it sloshing inside. Dilate my cervix. Stretch it open
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slowly so I can... Finger can slip inside where almost
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nothing ever reaches. Fuck me while I'm wide open on
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that table. Fuck me during the exam itself. Mid-speculum. Mid-everything.
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With the cut board abandoned and my chart a mess.
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And just... Fuck me in a gynecologist's office. Please. And Nikki,
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since you asked me to actually tell it, let me
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do it properly. Let me describe the version I replay
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in my head at night. It's morning, early, the kind
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of gray light that makes a clinic feel like a secret.
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He's older than me, gray at the temples, forearms like
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a man who actually uses his hands, and a voice
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that goes low and calm when he says my name.
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In the chaperone, a woman, Around my age, quiet, eyes
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that flick down my body half a second longer than
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they should. Good. I want her there. I want witnesses.
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I undress behind the curtain. The gown is thin and
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they always say the same thing. Everything off, open at
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the back. I fold my clothes on the chair and
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don't even bother trying the gown. Why would I? The
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moment I sit on that table, the fabric parts over
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my thighs and I let it. He starts the exam
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like a professional. Small talk, blood pressure, my wrist in
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my warm hand. And then he tells me to lie
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back and slide down to the edge. And the second
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my bare ass meets the cold paper, my whole body
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tightens with anticipation. The nurse guides my heels into the stirrups.
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The metal is cold against my skin. My knees fall apart,
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and there I am, spread open under a bright overhead light,
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nothing between me and the room but air. He rolls
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the stool between my legs, and the nurse stands at
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his shoulder, watching, and he says it, that sentence that
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makes my stomach flip. Just relax. You'll feel a little pressure. Pressure. Right.
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The speculum is cold and slicked with gel, and he
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eases it in. I feel it open me, that slow
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mechanical bloom, the stretch that borders on too much and
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lends right on not enough. He clicks it into place.
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My breath catches. That light blurs into me. I'm so
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exposed I could scream. And then he doesn't stop there.
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He reaches for the syringe, the saline. I feel the
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cool flush of it trickling into my cervix, filling me,
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a strange heavy fullness blooming deep in my belly. My
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thighs start to tremble in the stirrups. The nurse notices.
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She steps closer, rests a cool hand on my knee
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and murmurs. Almost done. While her thumb strokes once. Twice.
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Right where my thigh meets my hip. As almost done.
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As if. Then his gloved fingers dilate me. Slowly. Deliberately.
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One finger circling my cervix, coaxing it open. Then in.
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A finger inside my cervix. Do you understand how obscene
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that feels, Nikki? That deep, impossible stretch? that spot that
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nothing else ever touches. I moan before I can stop it.
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It echoes off the tiled walls. And that's when the
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exam stops being in the exam. He looks up at me,
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gloves glistening, and something in his face shifts. He peels
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off one hand of the glove and slides two bare
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fingers into my pussy, curling them. And I swear I
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see stars. The nurse moves without being asked. She unhooks
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the speculum, sets it aside with a wet little clink
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on the tray, and then her hand on my belly
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pressing down, holding me open from the outside while he
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works me from within. Then he stands, unzips, and he
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pushes inside me while I'm still slick with saline and
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jail and my own mess, and I feel everything, every ridge,
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every slow inch, my cervix kissing the head of him,
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my hips straining against his stirrups because... I can't close
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my legs. I can't move. Can only take it. Strapped down.
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Spread wide. Exactly how I wanted. The nurse leans over
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my chest and pushes the gown aside, her mouth finding
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my nipple, her teeth grazing. and I arch so hard
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the paper crinkles beneath me. He fucks me in slow,
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deep strokes at first. Clinical. Almost. And then faster, the
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stool squeaking, the tray rattling, the stirrups knocking as my
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legs shake. Say it, he growls. Say what you came for.
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So I do. I tell him to fill me up.
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Tell him to use every tool in that tray to
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keep his fingers in my cervix while he fucks me.
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It makes me a mess of his chart. He laughs
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low and rough and does exactly that. When I finally come,
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it's with both of them on me, his cock buried
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to the hilt, her mouth on my breast, and my
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whole body clenched tight in the stirrups. And he finishes
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deep inside me, deep inside, while the saline and everything
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else runs warm down onto the paper. He pulls out slow,
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reaches for a wipe like nothing happened, and says, deadpan.
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Same time next month? Same time next month. Please. Signed,
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your secret stirrup slut. Hmm. Stirrups, huh? I mean, I'm
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not gonna lie. When you go to the gyno and
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you're on the table with your legs spread... And then
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00:31:17.049 --> 00:31:18.670
you have to get your ass, that's the one thing
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00:31:18.710 --> 00:31:21.029
I never, because my legs are short, it's like, okay,
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00:31:21.069 --> 00:31:23.539
gotta scoot. That's not very sexy. I cannot scoot to
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the end of the fucking table for the life of
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me sexy, if you ask me to. But I will
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admit that when your legs are, because yes, mine is
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a man, when they're spread wide and he's down there,
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I have to count the tiles on the ceiling to
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00:31:39.289 --> 00:31:42.490
make sure I'm not thinking dirty thoughts, because who wouldn't
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00:31:42.630 --> 00:31:47.579
with the opposite sex down there, right? For my author,
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of everything you listed, the stirrups, the saline, the cervical dilation,
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the tools on the tray, which is the one thing
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that actually gets you wet first before anything else happened?
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And if the chaperone joined in for real, would you
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want her gentle and reassuring or rough and in charge
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00:32:06.740 --> 00:32:11.009
alongside him? And be honest, in your actual exams, have
496
00:32:11.049 --> 00:32:13.769
you ever come on that table and pretended you didn't?
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00:32:14.930 --> 00:32:17.920
And question for my listeners, What's the one setting you
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00:32:17.940 --> 00:32:22.539
keep fantasizing about, but you haven't ticked off yet? And
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what's actually stopping you? Dear Nikki, Okay, here it is.
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My most specific kink. The one that never fails to
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00:32:32.220 --> 00:32:35.069
get me hard the second I think about it. I
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00:32:35.130 --> 00:32:38.289
have the biggest fetish for being fucked by either a
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00:32:38.349 --> 00:32:43.289
priest or a doctor. Either one. Both. Ideally in the
504
00:32:43.309 --> 00:32:47.720
same week. And it's not really about the outfits, although, God,
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00:32:47.759 --> 00:32:51.900
the outfits help. It's about their position, the collar, the
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00:32:51.940 --> 00:32:55.779
white coat, the way both of them are handed authority
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00:32:55.839 --> 00:32:59.470
by the world and then told to stay professional, stay holy,
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00:32:59.910 --> 00:33:04.650
stay above it, and how deliciously easy it is to
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00:33:04.710 --> 00:33:08.670
make them break. Something about the power they hold, how
510
00:33:08.690 --> 00:33:11.930
taboo it would be for them just to take advantage
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00:33:11.950 --> 00:33:15.339
of me. That's what gets me. That's the whole thing.
512
00:33:16.160 --> 00:33:19.259
And it's hotter because I'm a trans guy, so they're
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00:33:19.299 --> 00:33:22.839
both looking at me. I man in their care and deciding,
514
00:33:23.599 --> 00:33:27.029
with that flicker behind the eyes, that they want to
515
00:33:27.089 --> 00:33:30.170
do things with me they're not supposed to. That flicker.
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00:33:30.990 --> 00:33:35.230
That's what I chase. So let me tell you about
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both of them, Nikki, because in my head, they've already
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00:33:38.769 --> 00:33:44.480
both happened. The priest. It's confessional at first, because it
519
00:33:44.519 --> 00:33:48.289
always is. Dark wood, the trapped air, the little screen
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00:33:48.329 --> 00:33:51.430
between us, the small hull of candle wax and the
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00:33:51.569 --> 00:33:56.029
old incense and something faintly of wool. He's on the
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00:33:56.049 --> 00:33:59.049
other side. I can hear him breathe. And I keep
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00:33:59.069 --> 00:34:02.619
my voice low. I confess things I've already confessed just
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00:34:02.640 --> 00:34:06.359
to hear him say, Go on. But the real thing
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00:34:06.420 --> 00:34:11.099
happens later, in the scarcity, after everyone's gone, when the
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00:34:11.139 --> 00:34:15.090
candles are guttering and he's shrugging off the stole and
527
00:34:15.210 --> 00:34:18.500
unbuttoning the top of his cassock, like a man finally
528
00:34:18.539 --> 00:34:22.599
off duty. He's older, bigger through the shoulders, hands that
529
00:34:22.619 --> 00:34:25.820
have held the same book for thirty years. He catches
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00:34:25.860 --> 00:34:28.619
me watching his throat above the collar and doesn't look away.
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00:34:29.610 --> 00:34:34.130
Come here, he says, and it's not a question. And
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00:34:34.150 --> 00:34:37.969
then go. He backs me against the vestment chest, presses
533
00:34:38.030 --> 00:34:41.909
the heavy body over mine, and the smell of him Incense,
534
00:34:42.260 --> 00:34:46.400
clean cotton, and warm skin fills my whole head. He
535
00:34:46.420 --> 00:34:49.539
kisses it like he's been starving. He gets my shirt open,
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00:34:49.840 --> 00:34:53.239
palms on my chest, my top surgery scars with his
537
00:34:53.320 --> 00:34:57.119
thumbs like he's reading something sacred. And when I gasp,
538
00:34:57.619 --> 00:35:02.039
he does the low thing again. Easy. And it only
539
00:35:02.079 --> 00:35:05.579
makes me harder. He lays me over the wooden bench,
540
00:35:05.900 --> 00:35:09.920
leels between my legs, still in his black trousers, and
541
00:35:09.960 --> 00:35:15.340
pushes the cassock up. eats me out like a devotion. Slow, patient.
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00:35:16.099 --> 00:35:18.460
His tongue is unhurried in a way that makes me beg,
543
00:35:19.059 --> 00:35:22.940
and he loves that I beg. When he finally stands
544
00:35:23.019 --> 00:35:25.900
and pushes inside me, the collar is the only thing
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00:35:25.960 --> 00:35:29.070
still straight on him. Everything else is about to be ruined.
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He fucks me deep and steady, one big hand flat
547
00:35:33.730 --> 00:35:36.150
on my lower back and the other curled in my hair,
548
00:35:36.769 --> 00:35:39.909
murmuring sins into my ear like it's a blessing. The
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00:35:39.949 --> 00:35:43.230
bench creaks The candles throw out their shadows are hung
550
00:35:43.309 --> 00:35:46.230
above the wall. I come with my face pressed to
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00:35:46.269 --> 00:35:49.789
the wood and my hand gripping the edge. And he follows,
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00:35:50.329 --> 00:35:54.070
buried to the hilt, breathing hard against my neck. Then
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00:35:54.090 --> 00:35:57.090
he pulls out, tucks himself back in order in three
554
00:35:57.489 --> 00:36:01.489
efficient motions, straightens the collar, and looks at me like
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00:36:01.809 --> 00:36:05.610
I'm the one who did something holy. And the doctor.
556
00:36:06.610 --> 00:36:10.260
The doctor is cleaner, sharper, and somehow filthier for it.
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The exam room is white and cold and the smells
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00:36:13.539 --> 00:36:17.139
of alcohol, wipes, and latex. He's my age or a
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little older, sleeves rolled up to the elbow, forearms I
560
00:36:20.670 --> 00:36:23.829
could stare at for hours. He's the kind who says,
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hop up and just breathe, and a voice so flat
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00:36:28.670 --> 00:36:33.860
it shouldn't be hot. And yet, and yet, it is.
563
00:36:34.840 --> 00:36:37.619
He checks me over, blood pressure, heart, all of it,
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and every touch is clinical until it isn't. until his
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palm flattens on warm on my sternum and lingers a
566
00:36:44.809 --> 00:36:48.289
bit too long, until he tells me to lie back
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and lift my shirt. He presses his stethoscope against my
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00:36:51.829 --> 00:36:56.329
chest and takes it off and just touches me, thumb
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dragging slow over my nipple, watching my face for reaction.
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Still taking your tea? he asks, and it's such a
571
00:37:04.659 --> 00:37:08.059
normal question that the answer feels obscene when it finally
572
00:37:08.099 --> 00:37:11.829
comes out breathy. The glove comes off. He loops two
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fingers and tells me to open my legs. And then
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he's inside me, curling, finding the spot, and telling me
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about it, narrating my own body back to me like
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00:37:24.000 --> 00:37:28.960
a chart. So you're tight here, he says. Notice how
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00:37:29.000 --> 00:37:32.639
you clench when I do that? I could die. He
578
00:37:32.659 --> 00:37:35.809
has a third finger and I whimper and he says, good,
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in a flat voice and that one word nearly finishes me.
580
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Then he stands, unbuckles, pushes me into the exam table
581
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with the paper crinkling on my back, and my legs
582
00:37:47.239 --> 00:37:52.139
hooked over his hips. Fast, precise, deep. A man who
583
00:37:52.340 --> 00:37:55.780
does everything well and knows it. He fucks me like
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a procedure with a perfect outcome, one hand braced on
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the table, the other pushing my knee up so he
586
00:38:01.780 --> 00:38:04.820
can get deeper. He watches my face the whole time,
587
00:38:05.440 --> 00:38:08.980
cataloging every twitch. I come with his name in my mouth,
588
00:38:09.639 --> 00:38:12.840
and the overhead light burning my eyes. He pulls out,
589
00:38:13.159 --> 00:38:16.300
snaps the glove back on like nothing happened, and writes
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00:38:16.400 --> 00:38:19.559
something on my chart. See you in six weeks, he said.
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Six weeks? Signed, your secret altar boy. I understand both
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00:38:27.159 --> 00:38:29.840
of these fantasies, not that I would ever do one
593
00:38:29.860 --> 00:38:35.050
of them, but I can completely understand them. Matter of fact,
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00:38:35.070 --> 00:38:40.289
I may have watched one particular of these, and a
595
00:38:40.309 --> 00:38:45.329
porno this weekend to get off. Just saying. Questions for
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00:38:45.389 --> 00:38:48.809
my author, if you could ever have one, priest or
597
00:38:48.829 --> 00:38:53.489
the doctor, which do you actually pick and why? In
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00:38:53.530 --> 00:38:55.909
your fantasy, do you want them to keep the uniform
599
00:38:56.329 --> 00:39:00.650
on the whole time or slowly shed it? And which
600
00:39:00.690 --> 00:39:03.570
is hotter for you? And does the taboo make it
601
00:39:03.659 --> 00:39:06.699
hotter for you if there are cis men who've never
602
00:39:06.760 --> 00:39:09.440
been with a trans guy before? Or do you prefer
603
00:39:09.500 --> 00:39:13.280
that they already know exactly what you're doing? And for
604
00:39:13.320 --> 00:39:18.019
my listeners, where's the line for you between respectable authority
605
00:39:18.320 --> 00:39:23.090
and someone who could absolutely ruin you? And which side
606
00:39:23.469 --> 00:39:28.030
do you keep chasing? Okay, my darlings, let's talk about
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00:39:28.050 --> 00:39:31.480
what tonight's confessions really gave us. us. Because it isn't
608
00:39:31.780 --> 00:39:36.000
and wasn't just sex. It was trust. Every single one
609
00:39:36.039 --> 00:39:39.820
of these stories lives and dies on surrender, handling your
610
00:39:39.860 --> 00:39:42.739
body over to someone who's supposed to know it better
611
00:39:42.780 --> 00:39:46.280
than you do, and letting them take the wheel. There's
612
00:39:46.380 --> 00:39:50.170
power in being cared for. There's a freedom in being examined.
613
00:39:51.070 --> 00:39:55.679
And there's something deeply empowering about saying, you're the expert.
614
00:39:56.320 --> 00:39:59.780
Now prove it. The milf who waited years to finish
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when a childhood appointment started. A clinic who turned an
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00:40:02.969 --> 00:40:05.789
exam into an orgy. A trans man who turned into
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00:40:05.849 --> 00:40:11.050
breeding schedule into a lifestyles. Different bodies, different uniforms, same lesson.
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The person in charge is only in charge until they
619
00:40:15.190 --> 00:40:19.019
want you. And now, It's the answer for your riddle.
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Are you ready? I'll read it again for you. He
621
00:40:22.860 --> 00:40:26.360
spreads your legs, greases me up, and slides me in
622
00:40:26.400 --> 00:40:29.659
while you gasp and grip the table. I open you
623
00:40:29.699 --> 00:40:31.719
wide so he can peer as deep as he likes,
624
00:40:32.409 --> 00:40:36.070
and I hold you there, cold, patient, while he takes
625
00:40:36.130 --> 00:40:39.389
a sweet time with you. When he's done, he pulls
626
00:40:39.429 --> 00:40:42.429
me out, wipes me down, and tucks me away and
627
00:40:42.570 --> 00:40:47.150
still wet until the next lucky body comes along, I've
628
00:40:47.170 --> 00:40:51.289
been inside more people than you've had hot dinners. When
629
00:40:51.349 --> 00:40:55.519
am I? A speculum. It was kind of obvious I
630
00:40:55.539 --> 00:40:56.920
kind of thought, so I didn't want to read it again.
631
00:40:56.940 --> 00:41:04.960
All right, it's time for your naughty tuck-in. The paper
632
00:41:05.039 --> 00:41:07.699
crinkles under my hips the second I settled back on
633
00:41:07.719 --> 00:41:11.010
the exam table. The gown is even shorter than I pictured.
634
00:41:11.760 --> 00:41:14.309
Thin cotton that barely covers the tops of my thighs
635
00:41:14.349 --> 00:41:17.289
when I sit. When I lie down, it just rides
636
00:41:17.369 --> 00:41:19.869
up so high. The cool air of the room hits
637
00:41:19.909 --> 00:41:24.820
my bare skin. No panties. No bra. Just the gown,
638
00:41:25.380 --> 00:41:30.059
already tight across my chest. The fabric pulling taut every
639
00:41:30.079 --> 00:41:32.920
time I breathe. He's standing at the side of the table,
640
00:41:33.039 --> 00:41:36.559
gloved hands warm through the latex. We'll start with a
641
00:41:36.579 --> 00:41:40.920
full check, he says, calm and professional, like this is ordinary.
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00:41:41.659 --> 00:41:44.659
His palms settle on my shoulders first, sliding down my arms.
643
00:41:45.360 --> 00:41:49.480
then back up, thumbs pressing lightly at the hollow, my throat,
644
00:41:50.039 --> 00:41:54.500
before drifting lower. The gown shifts with every pass. He
645
00:41:54.539 --> 00:41:57.599
works over my ribs, my stomach, the soft give of
646
00:41:57.639 --> 00:42:00.670
my waist. I try to keep still, but the heat
647
00:42:00.829 --> 00:42:04.170
of his hands keep climbing. When he reaches my breast,
648
00:42:04.230 --> 00:42:07.170
he doesn't ask me to sit up or adjust. He
649
00:42:07.190 --> 00:42:10.989
simply starts there, through the thin cotton, palms cupping the
650
00:42:11.030 --> 00:42:15.050
weight of them, fingers spreading. These feel dense, he murmurs.
651
00:42:16.139 --> 00:42:19.219
I'm going to need a better look. His thumbs hook
652
00:42:19.239 --> 00:42:22.230
the neckline and ease it down an inch. Then another.
653
00:42:23.070 --> 00:42:26.849
The fabric catches under the swell, then gives. The cool
654
00:42:26.909 --> 00:42:30.449
air hits my skin as the gown slips lower and
655
00:42:30.510 --> 00:42:35.380
lower until both breasts are completely bare. My nipples tighten
656
00:42:35.500 --> 00:42:39.760
instantly in the open air. He doesn't stop. Both hands
657
00:42:39.820 --> 00:42:43.199
now cover me, squeezing, lifting, rolling the flesh between his
658
00:42:43.239 --> 00:42:47.329
palms like he's testing how it yields. His thumbs drag
659
00:42:47.369 --> 00:42:52.429
across my nipples, once, twice, then pinch at the first,
660
00:42:52.789 --> 00:42:57.380
then firmer, twisting just enough that sharp little pulse runs
661
00:42:57.460 --> 00:43:00.679
straight down between my legs. I bite the inside of
662
00:43:00.699 --> 00:43:06.159
my cheek. The sound still escapes, small and helpless. He
663
00:43:06.199 --> 00:43:11.360
keeps going, massaging, pinching, rolling the pinks between thumbs and
664
00:43:11.420 --> 00:43:15.150
fingers until they're stiff and aching. and I can feel
665
00:43:15.170 --> 00:43:20.170
the wetness gathering, thick and slick between my thighs. One
666
00:43:20.309 --> 00:43:24.409
wrong shift in the gown, he'll see it. Spread your knees,
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00:43:25.230 --> 00:43:28.760
he says, already guiding one hand to my thigh. I
668
00:43:28.820 --> 00:43:31.480
need to do a check down there. My legs part,
669
00:43:31.780 --> 00:43:35.739
the gowns fall completely open. Cold hairs rush over my
670
00:43:35.780 --> 00:43:39.480
bare cunt, and I know. Know he can see how
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00:43:39.519 --> 00:43:43.039
wet I am, how my lips are already swollen and glistening.
672
00:43:44.070 --> 00:43:47.550
He doesn't comment. He just spreads me wider with two fingers,
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00:43:48.230 --> 00:43:53.070
holds me open, and looks. Then the one gloved finger
674
00:43:53.150 --> 00:43:58.510
presses in, slow, thick, sliding easily because I'm soaked. He
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00:43:58.550 --> 00:44:02.030
pushes deeper, curls, and finds that spot that makes my
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00:44:02.070 --> 00:44:07.989
hips jerk. He stays there, presses, rubs tight, deliberate circles
677
00:44:08.030 --> 00:44:11.900
while his other hand stays on my breast, still pinching
678
00:44:11.980 --> 00:44:16.849
and rolling my nipples. The pressure builds fast. My thighs shake.
679
00:44:17.289 --> 00:44:20.530
I try to keep quiet and fail. Small and broken
680
00:44:20.630 --> 00:44:24.780
sounds keep slipping out each time he grinds against that spot.
681
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He has a second finger without asking, stretching me, thrusting now,
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00:44:30.000 --> 00:44:32.380
fucking me with his hand while his thumb finds my
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clit and circles. You're clenching, he says, almost clinical. Keep going.
684
00:44:39.030 --> 00:44:42.110
I need to see how you respond. I come hard,
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thighs clamping around his wrists. cunt, pulsing around his fingers
686
00:44:47.050 --> 00:44:50.809
while thin, helpless cries tear out of me. He doesn't stop.
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He keeps thrusting, faster, deeper, the wet sounds of it
688
00:44:55.360 --> 00:44:58.559
filling the room until the pressure spikes again and I'm
689
00:44:58.619 --> 00:45:02.800
coming a second time, harder, liquid gushing around his fingers
690
00:45:02.880 --> 00:45:06.599
and soaking the paper underneath me. My whole body seizes.
691
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He works me through it, milking every twitch, every spurt,
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until I'm limp and panting and the table's wet. beneath
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00:45:14.630 --> 00:45:18.769
my ass he pulls his fingers free slowly they shine
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you look like a porn star when they do that
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he says a voice lower now like something made just
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to be used a perfect little fuck though he strips
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the gloves off drops them drops to his knees between
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my spread legs his mouth is hot and immediate he
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licks the broad stripe through the mess and then seals
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his lips around my clit and sucks I try to
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push at his head. Like, too much. But he just
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pins my thighs open with his hands and eats me
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like he's starving, tongue-fucking me into me, then flattening and
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grinding against my clit until I'm sobbing and shaking again.
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He doesn't slow down when I tell him it's too much.
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He just holds me open and keeps me going until
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another orgasm rips through me, wet and messy, my cunt
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fluttering against his tongue. When he stands, his cock is
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already out, thick and heavy, the head flushed dark. He
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drags it through my folds once, twice, coating himself, then
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pushes in. The stretch is sudden and perfect. Sinks in
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deep in one slow thrust, bottoming out, and stays there
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for a second while my body clenches around him. Then
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he starts to move, long, deep strokes that rock the
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whole table, one hand still mauling my breast, pinching and tugging,
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my nipple in time with every thrust. Look at you,
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he grunts, hips snapping harder. Take it like that, like
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you were built for this, my perfect little slut. Open
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your legs wider. Yeah, just like that. Let me fuck
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this greedy cunt the way it needs. The words hit
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hard as his cock. I come again around him, walls
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clamping down, and he groans, diving deeper, faster, The wet
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slap of our bodies aloud in the quiet room. His
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hand leaves my breast only long enough to grip my
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hip and eat me onto him. Then it's back, squeezing, rolling,
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keeping my nipples sore and sensitive while he pounds me
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into me. I feel him swell. He shoves into the
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hilt and stays there. Cock pulsing, hot cum flooding me
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in thick spurts that I can feel coating my insides.
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He keeps grinding through it, milking every drop until he's
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spent and still buried deep. When he finally pulls out,
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gum spills immediately, warm and thick, sliding down over my
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ass and onto the paper. He watches it, breathing hard.
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You'll need to come back in three months, he said,
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tucking himself away like nothing happened. Just to be safe.
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We'll do the full exam again. My legs are shaking
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too hard to stand right away. I sit up slowly,
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gown still open, come dripping down my inner thighs, and
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reach for my clothes while he stands there and watches.
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Every movement makes a more leak out. By the time
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I get my panties on, they're already soaked through. He
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hands me an appointment card without a word. I leave
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the room and on steady legs, the thin paper still
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clean to the back of my thighs, already counting the
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weeks until the next visit. Thank you so much for
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spending your night with me. If you've tonight got you hot,
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get your confessions to me. It's a Nikki, N-I-K-K-Y at DearNikki.com
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or DearNikki.com if you want to rename anonymous under our
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confession tab. Or you can also just find me over
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on our Discord channel. And remember, you can hear the
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live version of this podcast Monday through Saturday at 8 p.m.
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Central Standard Time. So come join me in real time. Finally,
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Do me a favor, hit the like and subscribe for
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me in steady supply of dirty secrets. Until next time,
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stay filthy, stay curious, and keep those legs open to possibilities.
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This is Nikki, after dark. Good night, my gorgeous perverts.