The Hidden No That Blocks the Life You Want

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Audree: Okay, so I was gonna
share something with Audrey.
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She has no real idea what it is.
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And then, uh, I thought, well, we'll
just mic up and, and see what happens.
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So
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I guess if I start the, the
story from the beginning is to
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review it from my perspective for
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clarity and also for the, the listener.
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So yesterday we had a, a very interesting
session with the Shi where basically
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they gave me a thrashing where they
said, "Look, you know, Michael, you
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know, you're not using the tools."
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Not-- I won't go into the, the details,
but, um, you, you're not taking action
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in the world in the way that m- that's
been suggested to us, recommended to
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us, and there's c- there's really,
you know, in a way a disregarding
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of instructions and guidance.
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And, you know, we see this with
our students all the time, and
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so I guess, you know, you know,
you s- spot it, you got it.
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So this is me being on the,
the receiving end of that.
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So like I, like I'm in the state
I'm in, I'm just going through
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it with a lot of gratitude.
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Like, oh, 'cause I j- like I just wanna
move well, correctly through creation.
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And, you know, we're in this middle
of this really, really intense
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transformation that they liken to being
in a, in a chrysalis as a caterpillar gets
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melted into and reforms into a butterfly.
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And really that's what it's been feeling
like for, I guess, a couple of weeks now
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And so, so that's kind of the,
the, the backdrop is, "Hey, you're
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not, you're not doing this."
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And, and so, so I re- was reading
through the transcript of the
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channeling session, which I normally
do, and then, y- you know, the, and
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I, I slow down at places, and there's
this question of like, "Well, why?
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Why are you, why are you, like,
kind of in sabotage mode?"
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They didn't quite say it that
way, but that's my interpretation.
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Like, why am I…
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I mean, clearly, I mean, it's so
evident that I'm making these, you
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know, kind of poor life choices or
choosing to stay in resistance and
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having the experience of staying in
resistance or, you know, choosing to
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stay stuck and having that experience.
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And, you know, so it's like, okay, well,
that clearly that's what's going on.
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So the, so I'm, I'm curious,
you know, w- why is that?
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So one of the things they were saying
is, "Well, you know, maybe you don't
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want what's coming through the journey."
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And that really opened up something in me
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Yeah, that really opened so, and it, and
when I was going through it, it like,
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I got kinda got like the, you know, I
guess the first one or two levels of it.
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But that's kind of all that
came, and then, you know,
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in the night again, I was…
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I, I got up 'cause my mind's going
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You know, with attack thoughts and,
and so, you know, I got up and,
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you know, activated being in the
truth of what and who I am, and
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the mind comes, keeps coming in.
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I'm going like, "Okay, well
I'm, I'm really tired of this."
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Like I, like I, I'm kind of done with
this whole mind, the neurotransmitter
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being stuck in this low frequency
thoughts and states, and this
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identity of self-destruction.
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And then it got to a point where
things were, were quiet in my
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being, and I went to sleep.
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Then I woke up, and it's like,
"I don't, I don't feel great."
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And I'm like, "Okay, well, I'll do
my usual thing of having a shower."
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And during the shower,
that's when it all came in.
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And
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To explain this, I'm going to talk
about waking up to the movies.
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And, and what I realized about waking
up to the movies, what it's doing
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is showing you, Jean-Marc Sauer says
this, it's showing you what you don't
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see in your ordinary day-to-day life.
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I would characterize it
now today very differently.
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What it's showing you are symbols and
metaphors for the unprocessed choices
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and trauma from other dimensional
experiences, past incarnations, other
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aspects of your incarnation that have
gone through some sort of experience
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and there's some sort of choice and
glitch and holding on in your system.
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So it's not about, I mean, it is about
seeing this life, but it's really
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about seeing beyond this life because
it's taking us to, movies are taking
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us to experiences way beyond our kind
of normal everyday reality, right?
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So we get to experience another lifetime
in this incarnation, in this life.
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So that's my realization.
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And so the two, you know,
it's almost like, you know,
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the perfection of creation.
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The two kind of clips that I got,
these little vignettes, one is from
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the series The Mandalorian where
Baby Yoda or Grogu is so traumatized
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that he's hiding what and who he is.
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And that's what's going on with me.
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That's what's been going on and then I
was, I was seeing like all the different
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past lives of being tortured killed
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all sorts of horrible things happening
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kind of doing this k- doing this kind of
work and bringing light into the world
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And then I'm like, "Oh, I chose
to have those experiences."
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So again, going back to, you know,
the protocols of unbinding choice
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and, you know, using the tools
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And then the, um, the other aspect
that came up, this might have been
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before, I'm not sure what the sequence
is, was from Project Hail Mary
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Where there's the only guy who can go
on the mission and he doesn't wanna go.
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And it's this cute little JC
that is like, "Oh, I'm that guy.
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I'm that guy who's, like, the guy who's
set up perfectly to go on the mission.
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There's no one else,
and I don't wanna go."
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Which reminds me of, you know, the
character 22 from Soul as well.
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So there's this, um, there's
this for me, this profound
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Letting go of the
i-identities of limitation.
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And, and of course the way
this is presented in my
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life is, you know, being Mr.
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Magoo, not quite getting
it, having confusion
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being in fear
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hiding my brilliance
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Adding all aspects of the truth of what
and who I am or what I'm experiencing
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Well, it's giving me a pretty good
idea why I haven't really felt safe.
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That was the choice to
have that experience.
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Anyway, that's my share
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Thank you.
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That's a beautiful share
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That's a huge insight and awakening
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You know, this little blip in a movie
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And to be honest
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You know, every human being on the
planet is having that same process
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so traumatized that they had to hide the
truth of what and who they are, not from
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other people, from even from themselves
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And when you think about it all
the persecution heretics, witches
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There's a whole entire religion around
somebody that was enlightened in trying
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to help humanity gets put on a cross
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And then they formed a religion around
it and stuck the cross in every single
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church with a dead guy hanging from it.
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Just as a reminder, this can happen to you
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Mm.
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It's also this, you know, don't go
against the rules of the deviation
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Yeah
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… the rules of oppression.
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Mm-hmm.
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Under the guise of he died for your
sins, so you should feel shame and guilt
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When we think about, you know, movies or
books is what inspires us are the heroes.
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Those who move beyond the limitation,
those who move beyond the oppression,
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those who free others, those…
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It, it's, it's like that's almost like
the, the blueprint of every movie.
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Yeah, it is.
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That's the whole concept of
a hero, like a protagonist.
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Mm-hmm.
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It's overcoming all obstacles, all the
pain, all the wounding that's deep inside.
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You know, receiving a tool or
some- something that they can
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wield their strength through.
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But the ultimate, the ultimate journey
is realizing their own strength, their
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bravery, their courage, the choices
that they're making through the journey.
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It's not about the, the sword or the, the
magic stone that they, that they h- have.
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Michael: Mm.
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Audree: That I think gives them the
impetus or the false sense of feeling safe
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enough to do the … have the courage.
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But the real courage lies within.
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I don't even like to say the
word lies because that's a lie.
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It lies within.
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So even that, that saying is
stopping you from understanding
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the truth of what and who you are.
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The word believe has the word lie in it.
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Right.
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So it's like all these little obstacles,
these little traps if you get too close
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So for me, this is really, uh,
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highlighting this
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principle of creation, mechanic
of creation that you're doing
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the whole thing to yourself
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You know, it's not like, "Oh,
I get confused," or, you know,
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"I don't understand," or, you
know, "I fog," or you know.
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It's like, it's like well, n- n- no.
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It's like there was a, a
choice point in my being
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that's there that's causing those things.
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So everything that's going on, I'm
just really getting this clarity
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now, everything that's going on in
your reality, in your inner reality
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around you, there's a choice point.
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And what the work, and I get--
I mean, it's all obvious.
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This is all tying in now.
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That why awareness is the primary
mechanism of crea- of evolution is
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that y- we're unlocking the awareness
of those choice points to evolve, to
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move beyond the limitation towards the
truth of what and who we are, right?
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So it's not like if I look at, you
know, where I am in, in my journey,
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it's not like I can keep those
choice points of limitation and also
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somehow magically transcend them.
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The journey is about purifying
out all that is not truth, and
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then the truth is what remains
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So the choice to hide,
to limit, to persecute
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So, you know, I know we've been wondering
this and, you know, our students have
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been wondering, well, you know, you
know, wow, this is like really incredible
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work that you're bringing to the world.
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Like why, why are you so stuck?
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Like why is it not bigger?
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Why is it not expanding?
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And now I know
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I'm aware of the no.
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I'm aware of the no in my
system that was saying- You're
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aware of the knowing.
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I'm aware-
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You've been knowing, knowing
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I'm aware of the no in my system-
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Yes
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… that the fear
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Of the, of, of what's there before us so
great, it's like this massive … That's
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what it was experienced, this massive no
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And it reminds me of, uh, you
know, you're saying like we
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can't hold the goodness, right?
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You know, we want the goodness in
our life, but we can't hold it.
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The, and the reason we can't hold it
is 'cause there's a part of us saying
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that, "No, no, I, I, I can't have this.
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I don't deserve this.
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I…"
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You know, whatever.
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That's the, the kind of the hidden
layer that's actually creating the
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limitation we're experiencing in our life.
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And in, in a way, that's why,
that's why no one can free you.
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A- Audrey and I can't.
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Guide- your guides can't.
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It, it's one has to do the work
oneself to see the limiting choices
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that we've made and let go of them
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Ultimately, it's on us.
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And of course, it's really good to take
support because when you have support,
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then the whole journey goes faster
and you get hints of what to look for.
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Got a big hint yesterday
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It's interesting 'cause they-- it
wasn't revealed to me, "Oh, this
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is what's going on with you."
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It was just a couple of questions,
and that's what I think the
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universe is structured as.
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It's like everything's there for
you, but you have to choose to
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turn towards the investigation.
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You have to choose to
turn towards the light.
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You h- have to be a yes to say,
"Yes, I wanna figure this out."
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And when you have that yes, and, you
know, you're using the tools like,
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you know, whatever, what if it were
true, and, and just being open and
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curious, then the information comes.
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But they're a yes.
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It's not like, oh, you know, we've got
these guides, and they gave me the answer,
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and blah, blah, blah, blah, and they're,
you know, they're helping us in the
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journey, and that's why we're making it.
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No.
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They're giving us the absolute minimum
structure that we need so that we can put
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the pieces together and figure it out.
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Some assembly required.
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It has to be that way.
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Think about being a teacher.
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I mean, you're, you're
a, an amazing teacher.
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Do you give people the
answer when they come to you?
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You just point them in the direction
to harness their own intelligence
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to find the answer themselves.
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That's why we talk about running your
own experiments, not-- don't believe us
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You have to run your own
experiment because when it's the
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personal experience, that's when
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the understanding, that's when you
harness the, the teaching and the
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transmission of, of the teaching into
your own being as a living reality.
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It's the only way
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I think about being an energetic
healer and people saying, "Well,
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there's no scientific evidence."
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But your body healed from cancer
or your bone healed rapidly instead
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of taking 18 months, it took a week
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That's, that's true evidence.
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Somebody's observation or telling
you it's true is not truth to you.
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Has to be a lived reality.
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I am.
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Hmm
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Even that saying, you know, "First you'll
be horrified, and then you'll be amazed."
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We're very lucky in this lifetime.
00:20:06.638 --> 00:20:13.478
The traumas that occur to us in this
lifetime are not as great as the
00:20:13.488 --> 00:20:18.138
traumas … Like, people like, you
know, you see those movies of people
00:20:18.138 --> 00:20:23.447
going back into a past life, and they
go back into medieval times, and y- they
00:20:23.447 --> 00:20:30.097
land, and all of a sudden there's these
k- knights or guards in the forest,
00:20:30.098 --> 00:20:34.768
and they immediately just run by them
and cut off their heads, you know?
00:20:34.817 --> 00:20:42.687
It's like the, the traumas, the
violence that hu- humanity has
00:20:42.688 --> 00:20:46.247
endured on this planet is great.
00:20:50.734 --> 00:20:53.874
I mean, we used to burn
people alive at the stake
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as a, as a weekend thing in the village.
00:21:00.562 --> 00:21:03.642
I mean, it was just common occurrence.
00:21:04.502 --> 00:21:10.082
Or stick peop- sticking people up on
a cross and letting them slowly die
00:21:13.196 --> 00:21:20.686
Or huge, you know, hunts of heretics
and massacres, and it still goes on
00:21:20.686 --> 00:21:22.816
today, which is the weirdest thing.
00:21:23.206 --> 00:21:25.676
Genocide, war.
00:21:27.345 --> 00:21:31.696
It's 2026, and we're still killing
each other, persecuting each other.
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Well, there's a reason for that.
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There's still poverty.
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Until the, the, the mind changes.
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Consciousness.
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Oh, shoot
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Okay, we've got a microphone glitch here
00:21:44.074 --> 00:21:44.924
Test, test.
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Is that good?
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Yeah, you're live.
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Okay.
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I think the other thing to say here
00:22:04.871 --> 00:22:05.802
There's a few things
00:22:17.454 --> 00:22:22.283
So I have a lot of experience with
past lives, not only my own personal
00:22:22.283 --> 00:22:29.363
experience of spontaneously having this
type of awakening happening in my being
00:22:30.434 --> 00:22:35.553
and not fully understanding it yet,
and then going to over eight years of
00:22:35.553 --> 00:22:43.103
formal training to learn how to, to work
with energy and work with past lives.
00:22:43.893 --> 00:22:47.213
And then my-- after that, my own…
00:22:47.793 --> 00:22:51.513
Not even after that, during that,
just having my own training through
00:22:51.513 --> 00:22:56.983
experience, and then working as
a healer on a medical team and
00:22:56.983 --> 00:22:59.153
working with people in past lives.
00:23:01.358 --> 00:23:11.678
So the one thing working with past lives
is that what I've learned as a facilitator
00:23:11.917 --> 00:23:17.898
of past life healing is that I never
tell people who they were in a past life
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And that's also a very important aspect
of the healing and the transformation
00:23:28.889 --> 00:23:33.429
and having the experience of
remembering, awakening to your past life
00:23:36.334 --> 00:23:41.354
Because again, if somebody tells
you something, it's not your truth
00:23:43.470 --> 00:23:51.690
Yet, if you have the experience, the
vision, the remembering, the awakening,
00:23:52.680 --> 00:23:55.229
it can be facilitated for sure
00:23:57.678 --> 00:24:01.468
You know, I've taken you through
that but the first thing I
00:24:01.498 --> 00:24:03.328
ask is, "What do you see?
00:24:04.508 --> 00:24:05.948
What do your feet look like?"
00:24:06.878 --> 00:24:09.708
I don't say, "Oh, this is who you are."
00:24:10.798 --> 00:24:13.797
That, that takes away a person's power-
00:24:14.608 --> 00:24:14.818
Michael: Mm
00:24:14.838 --> 00:24:17.877
… Audree: to, to have the
experience for themselves.
00:24:20.302 --> 00:24:25.381
And when you have the experience for
yourself and the awakening, the memory,
00:24:26.601 --> 00:24:31.002
in the memory, the feelings come back.
00:24:32.151 --> 00:24:34.571
All the information comes back to you.
00:24:36.401 --> 00:24:38.682
And I remember one of our students
00:24:42.230 --> 00:24:50.180
I mean, y- you, you actually step into
the trauma, and what can happen is then
00:24:50.180 --> 00:24:55.800
you have the identity to the trauma,
so you're re-traumatizing yourself
00:24:58.958 --> 00:24:59.438
So-
00:25:00.678 --> 00:25:00.988
Michael: Mm-hmm
00:25:01.058 --> 00:25:07.438
… Audree: here's the other thing is
w- we're, we're removing or we're
00:25:07.438 --> 00:25:09.998
dissolving all the structures.
00:25:10.248 --> 00:25:15.528
So even the identity of, oh, I
was this person in a past life,
00:25:15.528 --> 00:25:20.487
or I did … I mean, some of
it could be really, really bad.
00:25:20.497 --> 00:25:24.937
Like, you could see things that
you've done that are horrifying,
00:25:26.307 --> 00:25:31.438
or you can- … see things that
are done to you that are horrifying
00:25:33.846 --> 00:25:41.406
And then you either identify as the
victim or the perpetrator, and that is not
00:25:44.212 --> 00:25:47.032
healing and transformation
00:25:49.966 --> 00:25:53.696
So it's a very interesting
00:25:57.134 --> 00:26:03.614
It's very interesting with past lives
because the truth is, is that if anything
00:26:03.614 --> 00:26:08.114
that happened to you, any trauma,
and trauma can be as the perpetrator
00:26:08.124 --> 00:26:14.623
or trauma can be as the victim, is
left unresolved, you will experience
00:26:14.943 --> 00:26:17.844
something similar in this lifetime.
00:26:18.273 --> 00:26:21.594
So you never truly have
to go back into a lifetime
00:26:24.533 --> 00:26:26.974
And when you do go back,
there's a reason for it
00:26:29.782 --> 00:26:30.922
And it's for healing.
00:26:31.682 --> 00:26:34.132
It's to fully let go of the identity.
00:26:35.512 --> 00:26:40.922
It's to fully resolve the, the
trauma, the pain, the suffering
00:26:47.648 --> 00:26:51.187
It's funny that we're talking
about this now because it's my
00:26:51.187 --> 00:26:52.957
ex-husband's birthday today.
00:26:53.378 --> 00:26:53.598
Michael: Mm.
00:26:54.578 --> 00:26:59.788
Audree: And I remember when I met him,
I was so happy 'cause I wa- I don't, I
00:26:59.788 --> 00:27:02.088
didn't remember any past lives with him.
00:27:03.598 --> 00:27:07.348
And I was like, "Oh, we're,
we're on a clean slate here.
00:27:07.348 --> 00:27:09.228
This'll be a great relationship."
00:27:10.237 --> 00:27:17.007
And then it turns out every single
lifetime that I've ever had has been with
00:27:17.008 --> 00:27:19.077
him, and it hasn't been the greatest.
00:27:21.067 --> 00:27:21.748
And, uh
00:27:24.430 --> 00:27:29.650
But it went all the way back
to the trauma I caused him.
00:27:30.060 --> 00:27:30.370
Michael: Mm-hmm.
00:27:31.310 --> 00:27:33.950
Audree: And holding that identity
00:27:36.106 --> 00:27:42.146
of what I did to him was more
horrifying than anything that
00:27:42.146 --> 00:27:43.706
he could ever have done to me
00:27:46.282 --> 00:27:47.552
We're back to self-judgment
00:27:47.702 --> 00:27:47.952
Yeah
00:27:53.590 --> 00:28:00.070
And it has taken a long
time to say thank you
00:28:00.930 --> 00:28:01.159
Michael: Mm
00:28:01.580 --> 00:28:05.009
Audree: and to forgive myself
and my own pain and suffering
00:28:08.558 --> 00:28:13.358
And so you're kind of looking
at like, why would you do that?
00:28:14.978 --> 00:28:20.118
And I, I think the great thing about
the work that we do is that it's always
00:28:20.148 --> 00:28:26.287
been integrated throughout all aspects
of being on all planes of existence
00:28:26.298 --> 00:28:28.177
throughout all time, space, and beyond.
00:28:28.667 --> 00:28:30.187
Everything that we do
00:28:34.520 --> 00:28:39.280
goes back through the timelines,
through the multi-dimensions, through
00:28:39.280 --> 00:28:42.440
the parallel realities, just in case.
00:28:42.810 --> 00:28:45.250
Not as, "Oh, this is true."
00:28:46.720 --> 00:28:46.900
Mm.
00:28:47.300 --> 00:28:51.649
It's more like a, "Well, just in
case it's true, let's hit everything.
00:28:51.660 --> 00:28:55.260
Let's, let's just, let's … If
I'm sitting here in meditation
00:28:55.260 --> 00:29:00.090
now, let it impact everything
everywhere- Mm … all at once."
00:29:00.139 --> 00:29:00.339
Mm.
00:29:02.319 --> 00:29:04.450
What I'm, I'm just noticing now is
00:29:07.668 --> 00:29:13.048
That it's not looking at past lives
for, you know, for fun, right?
00:29:13.058 --> 00:29:14.828
It's not, that's not what
this is about at all.
00:29:14.838 --> 00:29:15.078
I'll
00:29:15.078 --> 00:29:17.098
take past lives for fun, Bob.
00:29:17.848 --> 00:29:18.138
Yeah.
00:29:18.328 --> 00:29:21.308
It's, it's having a present moment…
00:29:21.498 --> 00:29:24.707
This is my situation that I've
described here, just to understand,
00:29:24.717 --> 00:29:26.147
like, the, the structure of it.
00:29:26.687 --> 00:29:33.338
It's a present moment challenge and
unresolved experience in the present
00:29:33.348 --> 00:29:42.167
moment, and then understanding enough of
the mechanics of creation to understand
00:29:43.447 --> 00:29:50.067
and be open to experiencing past lives
as a mechanism to support the resolution
00:29:50.147 --> 00:29:52.867
of the present moment situation.
00:29:53.247 --> 00:29:53.417
Michael: Yes.
00:29:53.437 --> 00:29:56.387
Audree: So it's not like saying,
and it's not like saying, "Oh,
00:29:56.557 --> 00:29:57.777
I'm having this experience.
00:29:57.787 --> 00:29:58.957
It must be a past life."
00:29:58.957 --> 00:30:04.467
No, no, no, no, no, no, because
the, the, the, the, the, the beauty
00:30:04.467 --> 00:30:09.457
and the complexity of creation is
that maybe it is, maybe it isn't.
00:30:09.557 --> 00:30:11.928
Maybe that's useful, maybe it's not.
00:30:12.437 --> 00:30:16.687
And so it, you know, and I think,
I think we were talking about our
00:30:16.687 --> 00:30:21.737
students and about being a teacher,
and I'll, I'll tie this in here.
00:30:21.737 --> 00:30:27.218
What was coming up for me is, I remember
we'd have these, uh, for the leadership,
00:30:27.218 --> 00:30:31.338
these, these monthly coaching c- not
coaching calls, these monthly, um,
00:30:31.507 --> 00:30:37.457
evolutionary leadership calls, and
someone would describe a problem, and
00:30:37.467 --> 00:30:38.858
there wasn't any coaching happening.
00:30:38.858 --> 00:30:39.897
That's not the structure.
00:30:39.897 --> 00:30:45.117
The structure was, "Okay, w- what
is your assessment of the situation
00:30:45.377 --> 00:30:48.518
and what, what are, what parts of
the framework, what tools would you
00:30:48.518 --> 00:30:51.018
use to support navigating this?"
00:30:52.727 --> 00:30:56.397
And so everyone, in a way, got
extraordinary value from it, but
00:30:56.397 --> 00:30:59.157
at the same time hated it because
then their minds had to work, right?
00:30:59.437 --> 00:30:59.797
Mm-hmm.
00:31:00.208 --> 00:31:03.327
But, but that's what, that's
what the self-mastery is.
00:31:03.327 --> 00:31:05.077
It's like thinking, "Oh,
well, here's the situation.
00:31:05.307 --> 00:31:10.167
What aspects of the mechanics of,
you know, leadership or the mechanics
00:31:10.168 --> 00:31:11.887
of creation are useful here?"
00:31:11.888 --> 00:31:14.887
And so what I'm, the reason I'm
sharing this now is because, well,
00:31:15.337 --> 00:31:17.367
past life is just one mechanic.
00:31:17.648 --> 00:31:18.088
Michael: Mm-hmm.
00:31:18.337 --> 00:31:18.737
Audree: Right?
00:31:18.868 --> 00:31:22.277
It's like if you're in a
garage, you've got a whole set
00:31:22.277 --> 00:31:25.228
of tools to fix cars, right?
00:31:25.377 --> 00:31:27.397
You don't always use the, the wrench.
00:31:28.157 --> 00:31:29.317
That wouldn't make sense.
00:31:29.318 --> 00:31:31.547
I mean, there, there are
a thousand tools there.
00:31:31.547 --> 00:31:33.128
You use the tool for the job.
00:31:34.077 --> 00:31:38.138
And I think that's what the, the
self-mastery is, is, is getting the
00:31:38.138 --> 00:31:44.647
mastery over the, the core set of
tools and, you know, I guess, you know,
00:31:44.648 --> 00:31:47.147
getting help for the, you know, the
parts that, where you don't have that
00:31:47.148 --> 00:31:52.587
specialization or tools, or support from
others who have that specialization,
00:31:53.148 --> 00:31:54.457
and then you get the job done.
00:31:54.467 --> 00:31:55.657
The car's back on the road.
00:31:56.678 --> 00:31:57.837
It's never been before.
00:32:06.702 --> 00:32:09.412
So going back to your Bless you
00:32:13.228 --> 00:32:15.308
Going back to your insight
00:32:18.336 --> 00:32:19.156
What happened?
00:32:20.836 --> 00:32:24.416
Can you describe in more detail?
00:32:24.746 --> 00:32:26.076
So whi- which part?
00:32:27.296 --> 00:32:31.366
Well, I think for me it was starting
with the question, like, well, you
00:32:31.366 --> 00:32:35.655
know, why is there so mu- why are,
why are we stalling in this trans…
00:32:35.745 --> 00:32:38.436
So obviously this might apply to a lot
of people listening to this, but why am I
00:32:38.436 --> 00:32:40.075
stalling in my transformational journey?
00:32:40.075 --> 00:32:44.835
Why am I stalling at this place that
doesn't feel comfortable, right?
00:32:44.876 --> 00:32:49.345
So it's not the transformational
journey, it's getting to the other side.
00:32:49.356 --> 00:32:50.645
It's getting to the outcome.
00:32:50.685 --> 00:32:51.975
Yeah, it's getting to the outcome.
00:32:52.315 --> 00:32:53.576
The life improvement.
00:32:53.685 --> 00:32:54.405
Exactly.
00:32:54.435 --> 00:32:56.966
So, so why are things
stalling is kind of the…
00:32:58.095 --> 00:33:02.035
And so for me, I was really looking at
that, and they said, "Well, do you not
00:33:02.036 --> 00:33:04.235
wanna, do you not wanna have the outcome?
00:33:05.115 --> 00:33:06.456
Do you not wanna go on the journey?
00:33:06.456 --> 00:33:07.665
Like, what, what, like what is it?
00:33:07.675 --> 00:33:08.335
Do you not wanna…
00:33:08.545 --> 00:33:10.705
Oh, do you not wanna
finish the transformation?
00:33:11.405 --> 00:33:13.456
Because you, it's kind of like you
don't, you know, maybe you don't
00:33:13.456 --> 00:33:14.575
want what's on the other side."
00:33:15.255 --> 00:33:17.815
And so that's, that's
what activated my being.
00:33:19.766 --> 00:33:24.155
And I started to look, okay, well,
you know, back to this question,
00:33:24.155 --> 00:33:25.756
am I ready to let, let the good in?
00:33:25.796 --> 00:33:28.785
Am I ready to really live
an extraordinary life?
00:33:30.912 --> 00:33:32.062
And, oh, this is interesting.
00:33:32.062 --> 00:33:32.962
There's another detail.
00:33:33.712 --> 00:33:37.642
And what came up for me is, well, it
was actually … Oh, this is, this is
00:33:37.642 --> 00:33:40.302
yesterday, so this is a little, we'll
get this in more detail here, but,
00:33:41.182 --> 00:33:42.822
um, this is what you're asking for.
00:33:43.162 --> 00:33:45.242
It's like the mind was active.
00:33:45.242 --> 00:33:49.121
The mind goes, "Well, oh, oh my gosh,
I don't know if I can deal with all
00:33:49.122 --> 00:33:50.701
that, all that extraordinary-ness.
00:33:50.702 --> 00:33:51.811
That might be too much for me."
00:33:52.102 --> 00:33:55.992
And at the same, at the same
time, the very same time, the very
00:33:55.992 --> 00:33:58.951
same mind is going, "You know,
I don't know if I can do it."
00:34:00.241 --> 00:34:02.062
And I'm going looking at,
looking at this like, well, you
00:34:02.062 --> 00:34:03.342
don't know if you can do it?
00:34:03.351 --> 00:34:04.411
That's why you don't wanna go?
00:34:04.411 --> 00:34:06.601
Well, if you can't do it,
it won't be extraordinary.
00:34:07.022 --> 00:34:09.671
But you, you don't, you don't
think you can do it, whatever's
00:34:09.671 --> 00:34:12.022
required of you, and at the same
time you think it's extraordinary.
00:34:12.182 --> 00:34:13.701
That doesn't make any sense.
00:34:14.362 --> 00:34:14.812
And I was just
00:34:14.981 --> 00:34:18.212
seeing- I'm confused 'cause you
said that you don't wanna go, you
00:34:18.212 --> 00:34:20.071
don't wanna have the extraordinary?
00:34:20.281 --> 00:34:20.561
Yeah.
00:34:20.562 --> 00:34:23.961
The mind's going, "Oh, I don't know if I
can, I can let all that extraordinary in.
00:34:23.961 --> 00:34:26.182
I don't know if I'm ready for
that- Oh … that much goodness."
00:34:26.191 --> 00:34:26.651
Right, right, right.
00:34:26.651 --> 00:34:26.791
And
00:34:26.792 --> 00:34:29.042
at the same time, the mind's
going, "Oh, I don't know if I
00:34:29.042 --> 00:34:30.601
can do what's needed of me."
00:34:30.601 --> 00:34:33.111
And it's like, well, if I can't do what's
needed of me, I can't get the goodness.
00:34:33.121 --> 00:34:35.051
It's like, it doesn't make any sense.
00:34:36.381 --> 00:34:37.101
Well, it does.
00:34:37.131 --> 00:34:38.731
It's you're justifying
00:34:39.171 --> 00:34:43.292
… Well, I, I, what, what I'm saying
is the mind … What I'm noticing
00:34:43.292 --> 00:34:45.811
this moment is I'm saying, "Oh,
wow, look how cool this is."
00:34:45.811 --> 00:34:53.092
The mind is making up stuff that isn't
even coherent, and I'm buying it.
00:34:53.451 --> 00:34:53.792
Mm-hmm.
00:34:56.822 --> 00:34:59.722
I'm going, "Oh yeah, I don't know if
I can handle it, all that, you know,
00:34:59.722 --> 00:35:02.852
that, that goodness," and, "Oh, I
don't know if I, you know, I'm, can
00:35:02.852 --> 00:35:04.372
actually do what's required of me."
00:35:04.552 --> 00:35:08.242
And I'm like going like, well, I think
that was like the, the channeling
00:35:08.242 --> 00:35:11.352
from yesterday is, you know, this is
a great deceiver, you know, the mind.
00:35:11.831 --> 00:35:12.141
Yeah.
00:35:12.492 --> 00:35:15.272
It's constantly, constant source of
00:35:19.992 --> 00:35:20.232
Hmm.
00:35:21.062 --> 00:35:21.752
Distortion
00:35:22.772 --> 00:35:26.092
Or maybe just trying to keep you
safe, and that's what it thinks.
00:35:26.812 --> 00:35:28.762
Well, see, then that's when
we go to the deeper layer.
00:35:28.762 --> 00:35:31.892
Well, it was trying to keep me safe
because, you know, all the other times,
00:35:31.922 --> 00:35:38.991
you know, I got killed or tortured,
or tortured and killed, or maimed, or-
00:35:39.002 --> 00:35:39.671
Are you sure?
00:35:41.671 --> 00:35:42.352
Every time?
00:35:42.552 --> 00:35:44.182
Not every time, many of the times.
00:35:44.871 --> 00:35:45.121
Right.
00:35:45.142 --> 00:35:49.301
So why are you just focusing on the,
the ones where you were persecuted?
00:35:49.312 --> 00:35:50.592
Does that make you feel special?
00:35:51.121 --> 00:35:54.552
No, it's about the mind, you just talked
about the mind feeling safe, right?
00:35:54.561 --> 00:35:55.572
Trying to keep me safe, right?
00:35:55.572 --> 00:35:58.161
The, if it turns out well, there's
nothing to keep me safe for, right?
00:35:58.611 --> 00:35:59.931
There's no, there's no kind of-
00:36:00.371 --> 00:36:00.881
Bingo
00:36:01.221 --> 00:36:01.501
… yeah
00:36:05.240 --> 00:36:05.480
Hmm.
00:36:06.880 --> 00:36:12.230
Like, why isn't the mind focusing
on all the times where you did live
00:36:12.230 --> 00:36:16.570
in higher states of consciousness
and it was good, peaceful
00:36:26.734 --> 00:36:28.344
It was getting it wants to have a job.
00:36:28.824 --> 00:36:29.214
Yeah.
00:36:29.634 --> 00:36:30.924
Trying to create job safety
00:36:35.464 --> 00:36:35.804
by sabotaging
00:36:38.144 --> 00:36:38.183
things.
00:36:38.183 --> 00:36:40.453
Oh, that's what happened on my TV show
yesterday, is the, the woman that came to
00:36:40.453 --> 00:36:43.074
save the- Uh-huh … the Scottish castle.
00:36:43.273 --> 00:36:43.883
Yeah, she wanted
00:36:43.933 --> 00:36:47.533
to- You know, she was hired by
the bank to save this castle from
00:36:47.543 --> 00:36:53.363
bankruptcy 'cause the, the castle own-
owe- owed the bank a lot of money.
00:36:53.994 --> 00:36:58.723
And they started doing better, and
they started, um, producing income.
00:36:58.723 --> 00:37:04.813
The castle started producing income
from tourism, and so she, her job
00:37:04.813 --> 00:37:10.304
was done, and the bank was giving
control of the, the castle back to
00:37:10.304 --> 00:37:14.023
the owners, and she wanted to stay.
00:37:15.153 --> 00:37:17.354
So she started sabotaging
00:37:19.993 --> 00:37:21.943
so she could stay at the castle.
00:37:22.324 --> 00:37:22.554
Michael: Mm.
00:37:25.262 --> 00:37:25.672
Audree: Yeah.
00:37:26.002 --> 00:37:27.402
So she could keep her job.
00:37:28.462 --> 00:37:30.562
The mind just wants to keep its job.
00:37:31.312 --> 00:37:32.862
It thinks it's gonna die
00:37:50.058 --> 00:37:55.268
It's the last vestige of the egoic
consciousness because they're linked
00:38:07.636 --> 00:38:09.046
And truthfully, it is dying
00:38:11.936 --> 00:38:13.716
I mean, that's what transformation is.
00:38:13.726 --> 00:38:14.526
It's death.
00:38:16.466 --> 00:38:19.936
Moving from one state to
another, the old state has to die
00:38:33.413 --> 00:38:36.254
And then the other, the other dimension to
the whole thing that was going on with me
00:38:36.254 --> 00:38:40.453
is my mind's going, "Well, thinking about
all the things that we want to accomplish
00:38:40.453 --> 00:38:44.074
and get done in the material plane,"
and then, "Well, how's this gonna work?
00:38:44.074 --> 00:38:44.814
And what about this?
00:38:44.814 --> 00:38:45.944
And how are we gonna solve this?
00:38:45.944 --> 00:38:46.823
And what about that?"
00:38:46.824 --> 00:38:49.243
And then d- like, you know,
problem, problem, problem,
00:38:49.243 --> 00:38:50.703
problem, problem, problem, problem.
00:38:51.464 --> 00:38:52.973
And then I'm going like, "Okay.
00:38:54.183 --> 00:38:55.564
Yeah, you're right.
00:38:55.564 --> 00:38:56.043
I don't know."
00:38:57.134 --> 00:39:02.294
And am I gonna go with that energy, or
am I gonna go with trust the process?
00:39:08.744 --> 00:39:12.324
And trust the process is not
about being Pollyanna-ic.
00:39:12.324 --> 00:39:13.234
It's, it's about
00:39:16.342 --> 00:39:20.232
moving to a frequency where
things can open up and unfold
00:39:26.870 --> 00:39:31.170
I was just telling that story to
one of my students, our students
00:39:33.742 --> 00:39:37.422
They wanted to continue in the advanced
course, but they didn't have the money
00:39:40.012 --> 00:39:41.872
And I told her the story of
00:39:45.932 --> 00:39:47.092
Going to Barbara Brennan
00:39:47.472 --> 00:39:47.762
Michael: Mm-hmm
00:39:47.762 --> 00:39:49.802
Audree: I didn't have the
money to go to Barbara Brennan.
00:39:51.212 --> 00:39:57.102
It was like $6,000 a year plus
all the travel and all the hotels
00:39:58.012 --> 00:39:59.042
This was in the '90s
00:39:59.322 --> 00:40:01.071
Five times a year, yeah.
00:40:02.082 --> 00:40:05.492
And I had just gotten a, a
really expensive apartment
00:40:06.281 --> 00:40:07.841
on the Gold Coast in Chicago
00:40:11.310 --> 00:40:12.950
And I couldn't get out of my lease even
00:40:16.526 --> 00:40:22.685
But I signed up anyways, and I put
down the down payment, and I signed
00:40:22.685 --> 00:40:27.756
up for the monthly, and I had no
idea how I was gonna pay for it
00:40:30.446 --> 00:40:30.516
And
00:40:30.616 --> 00:40:31.976
you were a yes in your system
00:40:32.056 --> 00:40:37.466
I was a, I was a absolute 100% yes,
something will happen, something will work
00:40:37.466 --> 00:40:45.426
out And I think it was three or four weeks
before I was gonna go for my first class
00:40:47.572 --> 00:40:52.971
There was a huge rainstorm, and I
lived on the top floor of my building.
00:40:54.692 --> 00:40:59.471
And I was getting ready to go to dinner
with my sister, and we heard this, like,
00:40:59.471 --> 00:41:05.582
noise, and all of a sudden the whole
entire ceiling cracked from wall to
00:41:05.582 --> 00:41:10.262
wall, and there was literally a waterfall
00:41:12.758 --> 00:41:16.038
Through my living room of water
00:41:20.029 --> 00:41:20.540
And then
00:41:22.870 --> 00:41:24.770
Like, I had to call the landlord.
00:41:25.810 --> 00:41:27.370
And we're just, like, astonished.
00:41:27.390 --> 00:41:31.250
Like, we're-- My sister and I
were just standing there, like,
00:41:31.299 --> 00:41:34.640
literally, like, "What's happening?"
00:41:34.730 --> 00:41:40.259
Like, the whole ceiling, and
there was just water pouring.
00:41:40.750 --> 00:41:44.160
Like, I, I, I got a bucket,
I got a, a garbage can.
00:41:44.170 --> 00:41:47.810
Like, there was nothing, 'cause it
was the whole, like, 10 feet of,
00:41:47.959 --> 00:41:50.679
of water, you know, coming through.
00:41:51.810 --> 00:41:52.509
And, uh
00:41:54.734 --> 00:42:00.183
The landlord comes over and
she's just like, "Oh my God
00:42:03.278 --> 00:42:05.517
And she didn't even know what
to … She was really young, and
00:42:05.528 --> 00:42:08.877
she called her parents, and like,
it was like this whole thing.
00:42:09.477 --> 00:42:10.917
They lived in the building, too
00:42:13.846 --> 00:42:15.206
And the neighbors came.
00:42:15.276 --> 00:42:20.776
All the neighbors came looking, and the
sup- the superintendent ca- like everybody
00:42:21.126 --> 00:42:23.006
was, everybody was- They heard about it
00:42:23.006 --> 00:42:26.586
everybody was standing and like,
"We've never seen anything like this."
00:42:26.626 --> 00:42:28.906
It was just an, like an act of God
00:42:31.062 --> 00:42:34.002
And I'm like, "I can't…
00:42:34.232 --> 00:42:36.792
Well, I c- uh, this apartment's unlivable.
00:42:36.792 --> 00:42:40.932
I can't, I can't live in this," you know?
00:42:42.201 --> 00:42:43.692
And my neighbor's like, "You can…
00:42:43.932 --> 00:42:45.592
I have a empty apartment.
00:42:46.042 --> 00:42:51.502
I bought the apartment next door
to make my condo bigger, but I
00:42:51.511 --> 00:42:53.182
haven't broken down the wall yet."
00:42:53.192 --> 00:42:55.782
And she's just like, "How
much can you afford for rent?"
00:42:55.831 --> 00:42:59.381
And I was like, "Like $200 or $300."
00:42:59.381 --> 00:43:00.361
And I like, I…
00:43:00.391 --> 00:43:02.151
For a year, I lived in-
00:43:03.171 --> 00:43:03.981
The Gold Coast
00:43:04.182 --> 00:43:05.461
… in this apartment for…
00:43:05.502 --> 00:43:10.731
I think I paid $350 or something
like that, and I was able
00:43:10.731 --> 00:43:12.412
to afford Barbara Brennan.
00:43:14.542 --> 00:43:16.241
Like, it just got me out of my lease.
00:43:17.821 --> 00:43:19.311
Yeah, I think that's what, uh-
00:43:21.514 --> 00:43:25.974
That's what's coming up for me is
that really being in this place
00:43:25.974 --> 00:43:33.643
of looking at where's my yes and
where's my no Knowing the no and
00:43:36.142 --> 00:43:41.002
You know, for me, it's really just
come about, and I think this is true
00:43:41.002 --> 00:43:43.642
at probably at every stage of the
journey, is coming back to the yes.
00:43:44.812 --> 00:43:46.162
Like, where's your yes?
00:43:47.812 --> 00:43:49.791
Like, so I'm looking at where's my yes?
00:43:49.991 --> 00:43:54.051
Uh, it's my yes towards being in
the mind giving me the shit show,
00:43:54.421 --> 00:43:57.851
or is my yes to moving through?
00:43:57.872 --> 00:44:01.542
Is my yes to the truth
of what and who I am?
00:44:01.542 --> 00:44:03.571
Is my yes to going beyond this?
00:44:03.631 --> 00:44:08.801
Like, and so when I keep on coming back
to my yes, then, then that opens up
00:44:14.453 --> 00:44:14.933
Yeah.
00:44:15.024 --> 00:44:18.654
So that, so which is what your, your
point about the story is, is like you had
00:44:18.654 --> 00:44:24.243
just such a strong yes Mm-hmm … that
creation organized around that principle.
00:44:24.413 --> 00:44:24.824
Michael: Mm-hmm.
00:44:26.203 --> 00:44:29.694
Audree: And you know, I think this is
what's, what's really been kind of-
00:44:33.816 --> 00:44:36.526
I call it like a burr under my
saddle, like this kind of like
00:44:40.022 --> 00:44:45.341
The mind wrestling with the paradox of
on the one hand everything's there for
00:44:45.341 --> 00:44:51.901
me when I say yes, on the other hand I'm
saying no and I can see how I'm saying no
00:44:52.571 --> 00:44:58.272
and then I'm saying well it hasn't fe- it
felt like I've been making the best choice
00:44:58.272 --> 00:45:04.871
I could at every point in time based on
what I understood so how am I missing out
00:45:04.871 --> 00:45:06.841
on opportunities that I could have had?
00:45:07.261 --> 00:45:11.341
Like it's almost like well the
configuration of this trajectory of
00:45:11.761 --> 00:45:17.401
neurons and energetics and came up
with what happened so it's perfect
00:45:18.191 --> 00:45:20.872
and at the same time it's like well
and it's perfect and it could have
00:45:20.872 --> 00:45:25.631
been something different and I'm
saying well like well what is that?
00:45:25.932 --> 00:45:27.321
Like what is that different?
00:45:28.131 --> 00:45:30.861
And what I got to is
just it's just the yes.
00:45:31.561 --> 00:45:36.331
It's just that choice within our being
of are we gonna go with our yes or are
00:45:36.331 --> 00:45:39.071
we gonna go with the no of the mind?
00:45:39.142 --> 00:45:42.351
'Cause the mind is just saying no, no, no.
00:45:42.351 --> 00:45:44.142
It's like 22 in that movie Soul.
00:45:44.151 --> 00:45:44.541
No.
00:45:44.551 --> 00:45:44.971
Michael: Mm-hmm.
00:45:45.022 --> 00:45:45.502
Audree: No.
00:45:45.502 --> 00:45:45.831
Mm-hmm.
00:45:45.831 --> 00:45:46.351
No.
00:45:46.821 --> 00:45:48.081
That's what the mind is.
00:45:48.492 --> 00:45:49.471
That's what your mind is.
00:45:49.471 --> 00:45:50.921
That's what my mind is.
00:45:51.711 --> 00:45:56.491
And the way through it is not about
trying to fix the mind, it's about
00:45:56.861 --> 00:46:02.011
being with the yes and letting
the yes shine through our being
00:46:08.590 --> 00:46:10.160
Yes, I wanna move beyond this.
00:46:10.160 --> 00:46:10.630
Yes
00:46:13.676 --> 00:46:14.436
I want the peace.
00:46:14.436 --> 00:46:15.916
I want the truth of what and who I am
00:46:18.316 --> 00:46:19.446
I want to live an extraordinary life.
00:46:19.786 --> 00:46:20.126
Yes
00:46:23.636 --> 00:46:25.866
Reminded, you know, I was going
through this a couple weeks ago.
00:46:25.866 --> 00:46:27.066
It was reminding me of the movie Yes Man.
00:46:27.076 --> 00:46:29.576
I didn't re-watch it because I've
seen it, like, a bunch of times
00:46:31.790 --> 00:46:34.210
But this is, you know, the,
the truth is out there.
00:46:34.220 --> 00:46:35.430
This is, this is what it is.
00:46:35.430 --> 00:46:36.970
It's our, finding our yes.
00:46:38.840 --> 00:46:40.509
And that'll move us through everything.
00:46:41.050 --> 00:46:46.700
It's also the yes to heal, the
yes to let go of the identity of
00:46:47.400 --> 00:46:52.990
whatever it is that you've done
or that you've been a victim to.
00:46:53.229 --> 00:46:57.300
Because you've wrapped your identity
around that, you're going to
00:46:57.300 --> 00:46:59.140
have to let go of your identity.
00:46:59.569 --> 00:47:05.560
I had a client that had MS, and it was
her whole entire identity, and I knew
00:47:06.630 --> 00:47:09.489
You know, she came to me for healing,
and I knew I couldn't help her.
00:47:10.049 --> 00:47:10.410
Michael: Mm-hmm.
00:47:10.770 --> 00:47:16.609
Audree: Because her whole entire
… Everything about her life was wrapped
00:47:16.610 --> 00:47:18.599
around having MS, multiple sclerosis.
00:47:19.519 --> 00:47:19.860
So she was a yes to
00:47:21.130 --> 00:47:21.160
that.
00:47:21.170 --> 00:47:21.870
She was a yes to
00:47:23.459 --> 00:47:23.749
her-
00:47:24.020 --> 00:47:24.570
Identity
00:47:24.619 --> 00:47:25.429
… identity.
00:47:31.534 --> 00:47:35.534
And she came to me for healing,
but it was l- so weird because-
00:47:36.184 --> 00:47:36.644
Well
00:47:36.644 --> 00:47:40.373
… she didn't wanna h- she thought she
wanted to heal 'cause she thought that
00:47:40.374 --> 00:47:44.963
that was what she was supposed to do,
but it was actually she just wanted
00:47:44.963 --> 00:47:52.843
somebody to, to give her massage work
and healing work to reduce the pain,
00:47:53.253 --> 00:48:01.204
but she didn't wanna let go of the, of,
of the chronic, the chronic disease.
00:48:01.694 --> 00:48:02.983
She didn't wanna let go of that.
00:48:03.003 --> 00:48:03.933
That was not
00:48:07.534 --> 00:48:07.544
嗯。
00:48:10.382 --> 00:48:13.212
You know, I'm reminded, so, so this
yes is, I mean, this is bringing up a
00:48:13.212 --> 00:48:15.382
lot of, like, recurrences in my mind.
00:48:16.762 --> 00:48:21.152
I remember when I was doing my,
uh, neurolinguistic practitioner
00:48:21.152 --> 00:48:24.451
or master practitioner training,
like, a long, long, long time ago.
00:48:25.802 --> 00:48:29.032
And, uh, one of the, the stories, well,
if you're gonna try to help someone
00:48:29.032 --> 00:48:33.222
overcome smoking, you gotta make sure
they carry a, a butt bag around with them
00:48:33.222 --> 00:48:34.951
so they, they keep every cigarette butt.
00:48:35.552 --> 00:48:38.671
And if they can't do that simple
practice of keeping every cigarette
00:48:38.671 --> 00:48:42.082
butt, they're not a really
yes to, to working through it.
00:48:42.452 --> 00:48:42.761
Michael: Mm-hmm.
00:48:42.891 --> 00:48:43.681
Audree: And so
00:48:46.958 --> 00:48:51.458
You know, I guess the, the, the the really
hard thing is whatever we're experiencing
00:48:51.458 --> 00:48:52.978
in our life, we're a yes to that.
00:48:54.608 --> 00:48:59.088
Or we're-- the yes for something
different isn't stronger than the
00:48:59.097 --> 00:49:02.398
no in our system that's keeping
us in whatever we're experiencing.
00:49:03.538 --> 00:49:07.767
I, I mean, I remember when I was
listening to Bentino years ago, where
00:49:07.767 --> 00:49:15.477
he said, "If you're-- have poverty or
financial lack, you, you're pledging
00:49:15.477 --> 00:49:17.937
your allegiance to that lack."
00:49:19.338 --> 00:49:20.718
And it struck me.
00:49:22.257 --> 00:49:22.787
Wow.
00:49:24.338 --> 00:49:27.378
Like, whoa, that is so true
00:49:29.996 --> 00:49:32.895
And, and the mind will be like, "No,
n- I don't pledge my allegiance-
00:49:32.906 --> 00:49:33.406
I don't want
00:49:33.406 --> 00:49:34.556
that … to that.
00:49:34.566 --> 00:49:35.966
That's not true."
00:49:36.496 --> 00:49:36.726
It's like, yeah.
00:49:36.736 --> 00:49:39.645
Why, why would I pledge
my allegiance to that?
00:49:44.494 --> 00:49:45.944
And what if it were true?
00:49:45.994 --> 00:49:47.104
That's what we're saying.
00:49:47.114 --> 00:49:51.854
What if it is true that
you're creating your reality?
00:49:57.038 --> 00:50:03.088
then you're the problem and you're the
solution, and then you have a way out.
00:50:04.328 --> 00:50:10.757
You might not believe it yet or know it
yet, but just that, th- I mean, that's why
00:50:10.948 --> 00:50:13.808
it's on the website, What If It Were True?
00:50:14.978 --> 00:50:17.478
It used to be the top thing
00:50:22.646 --> 00:50:23.676
What if it were true?
00:50:54.830 --> 00:50:55.210
Yeah.
00:50:55.319 --> 00:50:56.590
This is a deep structure
00:50:59.888 --> 00:51:06.018
The mind wants what's known, so it's a no
to everything else, no matter how painful.
00:51:06.977 --> 00:51:09.997
Oh, this reminds me of, uh, in
organizational changes, like
00:51:09.997 --> 00:51:11.457
people love the status quo.
00:51:11.558 --> 00:51:11.988
Michael: Mm-hmm.
00:51:12.178 --> 00:51:13.868
Audree: It's a powerful attractor.
00:51:13.968 --> 00:51:14.377
Michael: Mm-hmm.
00:51:15.118 --> 00:51:19.848
Audree: And so that's what it is for us
at an individual level, is the status quo
00:51:20.797 --> 00:51:22.787
is a powerful attractor 'cause it's known.
00:51:22.817 --> 00:51:28.397
So because it's known, the mind creates
this sense of safety and security
00:51:28.397 --> 00:51:32.147
'cause it, "Oh, I know what it is,"
whereas the unknown is perceived
00:51:32.147 --> 00:51:34.647
as threat, even the unknown better.
00:51:34.647 --> 00:51:38.127
That's why people, when they have
these, you know, wonderful life events
00:51:38.127 --> 00:51:44.407
like, you know, getting a new job
or, uh, winning, winning the lottery
00:51:44.427 --> 00:51:49.078
or getting married, you know, it's
a, it's a stressful event, right?
00:51:50.368 --> 00:51:50.897
It's like, what?
00:51:50.897 --> 00:51:55.597
Uh, uh, because if you think about
it from the mind perspective, the
00:51:55.598 --> 00:51:57.147
mind wants the, the certainty in it.
00:51:57.197 --> 00:51:58.857
All these new, all the newness
00:52:01.614 --> 00:52:02.684
Is not that
00:52:03.294 --> 00:52:03.564
Michael: Mm-hmm.
00:52:25.976 --> 00:52:30.665
Audree: We've also been brainwashed
to believe that any type of
00:52:30.665 --> 00:52:35.336
change creates chaos and it's bad.
00:52:36.576 --> 00:52:42.575
And it's just been this manipulative
mechanism so people don't overthrow
00:52:46.398 --> 00:52:52.088
The, the, the ways or the
functioning that's in place
00:52:55.662 --> 00:52:55.672
Hmm.
00:52:56.372 --> 00:52:57.412
We're coming up on time.
00:52:57.542 --> 00:52:57.741
Mm-hmm.
00:52:57.741 --> 00:52:59.116
I don't know what, what else is important
00:52:59.116 --> 00:52:59.471
for you.
00:52:59.471 --> 00:53:01.531
I don't really have anything else to say.
00:53:01.531 --> 00:53:01.542
Hmm.
00:53:13.370 --> 00:53:14.670
May the force be with you
00:53:15.770 --> 00:53:17.110
May source be with you
00:53:17.510 --> 00:53:19.040
May source be with you
00:53:20.040 --> 00:53:24.040
Which of course it already
is 'cause you are that
00:53:28.154 --> 00:53:33.533
May you have the strength
and courage to find your yes
00:53:36.436 --> 00:53:36.656
Hmm.
00:53:37.846 --> 00:53:38.446
It's all your strengths.
00:53:38.466 --> 00:53:41.436
For me, you have the choice for your yes
00:53:45.742 --> 00:53:45.752
Hmm.
00:53:46.472 --> 00:53:47.302
Okay, let's take three minutes
00:56:27.100 --> 00:56:27.990
Michael: Thank you for joining us.
00:56:28.509 --> 00:56:29.520
Let's be evolutionary