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The following podcast is part of the Mind, Body, Spirit
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dot fm podcast network. Angels Walk amongst us. I know
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because I am one. You're listening to angel Talk. Okay, everybody, Hi,
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it's me. Welcome to this episode and we're doing something.
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Bonker's wonderful today because talking to client slash friend Lauren
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and Lauren, it's okay if I say your last name because
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it's kind.
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Of part of it's very part of it.
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Yeah, yeah, Lauren Matthew spelled different, spelled the French way,
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but that'll make sense when we get to the story's
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So I get to talk to Lauren today because we
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had a regularly scheduled meeting. But the reason why we're
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meeting is because Lauren, you went to Ireland last year.
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Yeah, that's six months ago.
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It's great, mind tell us what happened when you were
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in Ireland.
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So we went with my entire family. It was an
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anniversary trip for my grandparents and we went to the
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town where my grandmother's ancestors were from. And so her
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family name is Archer and the Archer family was one
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of ten prominent families from that from the town of
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kil Kenny, like the kill Kenny. Yeah. So they were,
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you know, like people of power in the town. They
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had my oral status town. They were just people of status.
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And one of the other prominent families was the Roth family,
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said fuzzy friend. So we were able to tour one
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of the houses that one of our ancestors lived in,
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and it's about six hundred years old now and it
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was turned into It was a house, but it was
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also like a gathering place for the people of power
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to come up with the plan and how to keep
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everything running smoothly. There was a moment standing in the
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attic that house, I was reading a plaque about the
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prominent families, and I had this dodgeball of energy hit
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me in between my eyeballs, like made my head go
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back and everything. And it was from that moment on
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I realized, oh my god, I've been here before, Like
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I know these rooms, like I know that fireplace, I know,
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like I knew all of it. And we're touring the
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rest of the house. Come across this tapestry of the
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woman and man of the house, Rose Archer and John Roth.
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And Rose Archer had every single feature, very pale complexion,
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like a bit of a mousey brown blonde and bright
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blue eyes, and I looked at her and I was like,
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that was either my mom or that was me. Then
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I go outside and I walk around the garden that
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John Roth built for his wife Rose. I spent like
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an hour walking in there. It was like the most
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it was like my entire spirit team was. It was
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the most tranquil feeling ever. So I knew, you know,
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once I got home from my trip, that I needed
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to meet with you to make sense of it and
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to understand it. And that was the most like spiritual
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experience I've ever had, Like I have never felt like.
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It was like the veil didn't exist, you know, everything
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was just happening all at once. So I moved home
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to my parents' house at the end of July after
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our trip, and I had been experiencing a recurring dream
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about living in a city, either Chicago or New York,
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and it just made itself more prominent once they moved
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home because I was able to I don't know if
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it was just.
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Sometimes like spiritual awakening, like Paw and your things. Yeah, yeah,
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then you come home and these were I mean, in
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this moment, we're calling them dreams, but as we just
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you and I have talked about it.
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We're pretty sure we're going to bring the angels in
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here anything. I'm pretty sure you're jumping into parallels. Yes,
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tell us about these we'll call him dreams. Now, tell
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them about these dreams. Tell our listeners about these dreams
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you've been having since you returned from Ireland. Yes.
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So each night I go to sleep, I have a
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very lively dream and it's taking place in the same buildings.
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The same people are there. I'm always in these same staircases.
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Like I know where I'm going, I know that I've
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got places.
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To go to Ireland. This is like, now you're in
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Chicago or New York.
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Yes, yes, yeah, Now I'm in real time in the cities.
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And there's always the same person Matthew in my dreams.
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His name is our last names, yes, yes, yeah, which
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is so wonky, Like it's just it's baffling because every
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single time he's in my dream, it's always Matthew. It's
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always Matthew, and he's either a love connection and a
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friend or like an acquaintance, but he always has a
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role in my dreams. And he's the only person that's
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been consistent through these dreams. And you know, they shift
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slightly each time, you know, like my bedroom might be
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set up a little different, but there's always a sense
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of me moving into a new space leaving an old space.
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And I go to bed each night knowing I'm about
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to have a really fun night, like I'm about to
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go live some more, and I don't ever leave my bed.
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It's so cool.
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Yeah, you're quantum traveling. Yeah, so before we hit record,
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mm hm, you shared with me that sometimes Matthew it's
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all he always looks the same. Yes, it's always named Matthew.
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It's it's clearly this person. And also in Ireland it
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was revealed to you that you knew that you were
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going to meet your soulmate in this lifetime. Yes, could
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you reveal that component to us? Yes.
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So I get a lot of like tarot readings, and
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I use those as kind of like good just a guidance,
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you know, and I'll pause the video, check in with
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my angels and you know, make sure things are resonating.
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And I had one that just it was like an
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epiphany that the person that I saw in the tapestry
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at the roth House, that that was like almost a
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carbon copy of the person that I'm supposed to meet
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in this lifetime. And the characteristics that this guy, Matthew
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has are almost identical to this tapestry in Ireland. And
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it's one of those things where you just kind of
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have to trust your gut not call yourself crazy, just
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like it's just like no, like I know that to
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be true, you know, like it as if it were
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a fact. And so it's just it's just really bonkers
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because I'm also I'm not actively dating, I'm not meeting
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people really, I'm not going out of my way searching
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for love. But it's like I get to experience that
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in my dreams and it's so real.
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So you come back, you're now having these dreams where
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you see Matthew sometimes and sometimes he's a friend, sometimes
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he love. And you told me that according to the
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building that you're in, Like if you're in a certain building,
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you love that building. But if you find yourself in
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let's call it, go ahead and lean into if it's
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a parallel yes, it's a parallel life, and you're in
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a different type of building that you recognize. Well, I
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mean this is my friend in this building. He's a
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friend of a friend.
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Yes, yes, fascinating right, And I never know going into
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the dream, you know, I it's like it's just something
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that I notice, you know. It's never it's not like
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I go into it knowing, oh, I'm going to meet
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Matthew again, like we're gonna love each other whatever. But
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it's like, I know we're going to see each other.
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I just don't know what capacity. And it surprises me
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each time because it's just such a it's like a
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connection and right DNA. You know, it's just it just
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feels really deep. It's yeah, unlike anything I've experienced before.
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So it sounds like we've got some solid questions to
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ask your angelic team. Yes, we can ask them. First
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of all, what the heck is going on?
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You know what?
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Talk to us about the angelic physic? Here? Is this a?
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Are you jumping timelines? Are these parallels? Why? What's the purpose? Yeah?
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Is Matthew a soulmate? Will you meet him? Right? Is
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he going to be in this timeline?
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Yes?
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Writing all this stuff down, yep. I can also feel
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your team like, Okay, we're ready, We're ready.
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We're like, thank god, this conversations finally happening.
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Yeah, they're so excited and I'm going to be using
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my dowsing rods to get some of the pers no answers.
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So for those of you that are, and we may
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post this to YouTube as well, and for those of
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you who are just listening, I'll be describing what the
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dousing rods are doing. And you'll hear them being clinky
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here too, because they're made of copper, so they can
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be kind of musical. Okay, are you ready, Lauren?
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I'm so ready.
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All right, here we go. So I'm just gonna kind
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of sitting up on my leg so I'm just gonna
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balance my weight, so I'm compromising the message.
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All right.
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So I'm just calling in Lauren's guides and angels and
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anyone around her who wishes to take part. While and
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these rods are moving in a really cool way, because
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what I can feel in my hands is that they're
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they're activating. They're moving back and forth, but they're not
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doing it randomly. They actually have kind of a rhythm. Yeah,
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and there's an energy to them that feels like somebody's
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holding the end. Yes, yeah, yep, like we're playing jump rope.
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Yes yeah, yeah, it.
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Feels Oh and we should tell Lauren that that reminds
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me of that when we were talking about this together.
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You and I had visceral reaction at the same time,
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where I was just, oh my god, yes, right before
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you're about to throw up, but it and I was
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telling you and you were having it at the same.
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Time, having like it's like a heat line started at
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the bottom of my feet went up the middle of
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my body, and then I got chills on the outside.
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It's crazy.
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I was, I was turning into a starfish for a
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second and full of energy. It was cool. That's kind
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of cool when that happened. Because we're on zoom.
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Well, yeah, so cool.
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That energy can show up in that cool way. All right, ready,
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So first of all, let's get into the technical aspect angels.
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Is Lauren navigating different timelines? Yes, okay, And could we
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call these parallels parallel dimensions?
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Yes?
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And they continue by saying in my ear that you
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have been able to experience proof or validation by seeing
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similarities in these timelines, but they're just a little bit
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different and the repetition of going back into them, and
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that these are different than what we might call past
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lifetimes because you were able to experience the past lifetime
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in a very real way when you traveled to Ireland,
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and it was you yourself that you saw the tapestry. Yes,
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I do wish to correct you gently and say that, yes,
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that you have beautiful fair complexion and not a pale complexion.
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Thank you, thank you. I needed that, I needed that
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nice porcelain beautiful. Yeah.
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Okay. So and then the question of why I can't
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use the rods for so I'll just direct channel that. Well,
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they are showing me the big energetic burst that was
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moving through both your physical body and your ethereal body.
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That was I'm going to say, leveling you up or
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supercharging you this dimension so that you could become more
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aware of exactly who you are, what you are, They
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want to say, what you're made of, that there's more,
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and that you're able to combine all of the lessons
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that you and Mathew have experience together in the other
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parallels and you can pull them into this one.
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Oh that's so cool.
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So then my next question reasonably could be than is
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he a soulmate? Yes? Meet him in this lifetime, in
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this timeline. They're saying, yes, will he look yes? Well,
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that's wild because the human in me, the human in
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me honestly defaults to gosh, I hope that's true, right,
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somebody that's not real, but they're they're adamant. No, he's here.
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Why wouldn't he be in this timeline, if he's in
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all the other timelines, why wouldn't he be. You saw
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him in the tapestry in Ireland. He looked a little different,
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So let me validate that. Am I hearing that?
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Right?
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We see the other person in the tapestry? Yes, but
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he doesn't look the same.
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Lots different.
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Yeah, but that's okay, yes, yeah.
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But it's still it's still relevant because in our past
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lifetimes we have different bodies, but it's all you. You're jumping
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into the exact same tailored coat your body. Yes, it's
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in a different dimension. So yeah, it can be Chicago
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or New York or the stairwell looks different. Yeah, okay.
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Now there's other themes here too that are going on
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for you personally. About they said moving on to the new,
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out of the old self, moving on to the new.
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I mean you're you're always packing up and yes, going
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on to and when that's happening in these travels, what's.
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The stil Lauren, would you say, I'm sorry. When you're
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when you're packing and you're moving onto the new adventure
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or the new place to live, what's the feeling is it.
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Is it a good feeling, is it stressful or.
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It's honestly, it's a bit stressful because I feel like
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I'm behind, you know, I feel like there's stuff that
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I could have done to prepare myself, but I just yeah,
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it's like I just have to It's like I don't
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have any of my stuff boxed. If I'm moving, nothing
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is in boxes. I am literally having to start like
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start packing and moving. At the same time, you.
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Get the feeling that you were able to get all
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of your stuff. No, okay, so some of it stays behind, yes.
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Yeah, And I also I have a similar dream. It's
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like I'm flying. I'm getting on a plane to fly
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international somewhere, and I never have all my stuff. I'm
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never fully prepped to go, but I'm there to leave,
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you know.
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I ask them if maybe your brain waves, your brain
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can weave into this and cause maybe some stress filter
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where maybe that's just kind of a stress response you
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don't have everything. Yeah. See, so angel I'm not going
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to restate that question, but can you just go ahead
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and answer. Is there a stress response? No, No, it's
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actually what's going on there? So you are leaving in
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a hurry. Oh. In this version of you, do you
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procrastinate big time? Okay, but you also love planning. I do.
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Yeah, I'm organized chaos okay.
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Yeah. Well, the other thing I hear them say is
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you are you are working on building your support system,
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and that packing up your belongings is overwhelming when it's
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just you. Yeah, And that often the plan to go
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to the next place has come last minute very much,
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so you haven't known where you're going. And so here
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come the next renters, the next owner, and you've got
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to go.
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And so when I go back to the question of
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why are you going into these other timelines just to
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see Matthew, But it's also thematically so you can see, oh, look,
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I'm aware of what is out of joint or disjointed here,
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and it looks like I'm not really in I'm not
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feeling in charge of my plan here. I'm not really
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I'm not feeling supported in how I got to pack
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things up, or I'm not getting helped carrying the stuff
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down the steps. This version of you look at what's
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going on in your life now. You do have support
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around you, and you get to call in more and
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you have the peace in your life right now to
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make plans in your life that you feel good about. Yeah,
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you're in essence, you're course correcting.
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Thank god, thank god.
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You mentioned that when you are with Matthew, I mean
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you're fully into these dreams, you can make a choice
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tecting him your snapchatting, which is mind bending to me. Yeah,
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so could if that's true, could you also in these
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dreams visits whatever we want to call them, timeline could
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you also make some choices in these timelines to stop
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repack tell the new people that are coming in the door,
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room or the apartment, I need fifteen minutes please.
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Yeah, I'm gonna try that. I think that'd be a
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cool little experiment to do. Just see what happens and
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see what change, like what the pattern changes to. Yes,
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I I'm writing that, dun that. Yeah, because honestly, I'm
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very much a puble pleaser in my physical world. And
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it's like, I you know, it's like if I can
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just push everything out the door and get out of
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the right it's fine. But if I ask for permission.
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That might be different. Yeah, I give yourself permission. Yeah yeah,
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because nobody ideally wants to move out like that.
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Right, it doesn't feel like it, it doesn't sound like
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it feels good. No, can also be what helps your
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current relationship with current Matthew, so that you feel that
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it's an equal partnership.
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Yes.
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Yeah, So there's some things to think about. And then
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the other thing that comes through is you don't have
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to wait for sleep for these visits. You can do
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it in meditation.
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Oh my god, you're so right. Oh you're so right.
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Oh my god. Yeah, I don't need to be asleep.
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No.
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So do you feel that you can build a process
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for going into these timelines when you're awake? Do you
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feel comfortable with that? Or should we ask the angels
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how to do it?
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There's no. Yeah. I feel like I know, like if
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I'm able to if I I list into a meditation
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before I sleep, because I'd like to get into that
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more open mind space. I feel like if I were
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able to get myself in a deep enough meditative like
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I can, when I get to that point, it's like
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I can see myself floating in the air.
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Okay, So how will you do that help help the listeners?
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How would you get into that?
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So I listen to just background music. I don't like
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to listen to a guided meditation, so it doesn't have
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any influence on my thoughts or what I might be
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picturing in my mind when I just focus on I
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would focus on seeing Matthew and then picturing the stairwells
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and just slowly piecing together that full image because I
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can see the individual images of the stairwells, the buildings
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that people. So it's like because you're able to slowly
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overlap them, it's like you're it's almost like lucid dreaming,
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like you're you know, like it's like you're just able
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to piece everything together. And then it's like, oh, I'm
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in this scenario now, and it's like you're like the
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puppet master, but not in the vidictive right. It's just
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like you're able to make things happen and to control
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like what you're doing, how you go about things. That's
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how I would do it.
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Okay, I love that. Now, let me poke at it
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a little bit, Can I please?
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Yes?
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New workshop that?
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Yes?
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What if I'm having trouble keeping my body still?
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Do you ever have that issue I do. I do.
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I do progressive meat muscle relaxation. See, so I feel
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like sometimes when I feel like I've got electricity moving
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through my body and like I can't keep still, I
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work on I squeeze my fist for like ten seconds
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as hard as I can, and then when you release,
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you focus on how that relaxation feels throughout the rest
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of your body. You do that throughout your body where
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you feel the most tents. You do that with your neck,
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You do that with your like however you need to.
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You know, whatever muscles are feeling unrested, just tense them,
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and then I notice the relaxation more. When I'm you know,
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in a state of anxiety or feeling out of control,
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That's when I feel like the most relaxed with tensing
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my muscles, because yeah, that's brilliant.
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I just did it. It feels great, right.
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I learned that at therapy. It's a great way to
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diffuse the situation you're in and to just kind of
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act like a buffer. So it's taking kind of the
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intensity out of the moment a bit. You're able to
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focus it differently.
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I like it too, because I will often tell myself
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Rachel relax. Relax. That's bypassing the stress that's in my body.
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And this is a nice simple way to handle to
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let's like the stress be felt or whatever it is
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in there, like oh and there it.
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Goes yep, exactly, you felt it and then it's gone.
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Yeah.
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I really like that. Yeah, So utilizing something in your
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ears without words so it doesn't distract you there, which
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I'm kind of like because then I'm probably not going
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to hear. Let's just not name any names, but anybody
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next to me that's snoring exactly, or anytol you like
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to get up at two am and cook a meal.
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I'm one of those kids. I get to admit.
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It, all right, we all live our lives. Yes, okay,
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And then what about your breathing. Do you have to
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do ever? Have to slow your breath down?
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Oh yeah, oh yeah. I slow my breath down enough,
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and I get to a point where I feel like
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I just need to, like it's like almost cleanse the
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lungs a bit, get something new in there, and then
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I focus on like how the breath feels moving down
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my throat into my lungs, holding it and just just
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trying to only notice my body nothing else around me.
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Just notice how it's moving, and like there's a visualization
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I get with it, where like it's like these orbs
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that you're breathing into your lungs through your throat, like
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you're like breathing it in and then you're letting out
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this light.
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It's yeah, because you're not breathing in something light and
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breathing out something dark. It's all light.
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It's all light. It's all light. Yeah, yeah, all light.
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And the judgy thing we're like in light out poo.
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You know, we don't have to do oh yeah, like no,
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it's all right, it's all right, right.
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Yeah. Sometimes when I am trying to travel in spirit
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or I I'm just going to say my essence because
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I don't always know if it's my soul or my spirit.
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I'm still working at theological stuff, but I'll get this weird,
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itchy or tingly feeling in my system and it's uncomfortable.
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Does that happened to you? Yeah?
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Yeah, it's it's almost it's almost like part of you
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is like kind of left behind, going wait a minute,
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wait a.
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Minute, I don't want to go I don't like this.
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Yeah. Yeah, there's always like just like the slightest amount
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of unease.
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Uh huh.
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Yeah, but it's like, you know, I know it's I know,
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everything's fine, you know, because I know how objected.
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Yeah, And you know, honestly, sometimes when I talk to
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the extraterrestrials, one of the questions is can you how
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They want to know how we can separate our soul
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from our body, and I'm like, we don't. No, We're
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all we don't. But that's the one time if we're
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traveling into different timelines, or we're doing astral projection or something,
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or when we're dreaming that we do it. And I
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think if we're doing it on purpose, our body's like whoa, whoa, whoa.
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Yeah, they're like wait a minute, hold on. They pull
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on the ropes a bit.
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Yeah, and it does like pulling a rope, like wait, wait,
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I need to pull that tether.
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Yeah, Like that's not what you feel. It's like that's
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what you feel naturally inclined to do. But it's like
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the ego or whatever. It's like hold on, hold on,
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wait a minute, be the ego.
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I think that's a good thought. It probably is the
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ego talking to the body like whoa, And we don't play.
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That, right, because it's like, I notice, you know, if
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I'm going into these baddy thoughts of just kind of
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disconnecting from what we know as the physical world, it's like,
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oh shit, that's my train of thought.
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Sorry, welcome to my world.
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Right.
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Yeah, well that was a nice half sentence. You know.
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Well, I have a good question for you. Yes, if
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you're going into other timelines, is there a version of
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you from one of those timelines that visits this one. Yes.
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So there's a lifetime that I had back in the
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sixties that you helped me discover, and I get little
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messages from that lifetime, like I get left smiley faces,
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and I have a smiley face tatoo to my finger,
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and so I don't always I don't always know when
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there's visiting happening, but I can tell afterwards because there's
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a smiley face left somewhere and it's always somewhere visible
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for me to see. And it's one of those things
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where like it's not a perfect it's like dot dot's,
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you know, and it's not always perfect, but I always know,
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oh she was here, Like oh I was you know.
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Think it's just a love that so much.
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Yeah, And it's one of those things where I'm like,
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I can't second guess it because like it's one of
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those things where I'm setting my ego aside. I understand
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that this is something I'm not going to make sense
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of in a textbook. You know, I just have to
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go huh.
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Yeah, I just always go with the matrix.
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Yes, yes, yeah, don't try to control it, just like
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hop on and let go where it takes you.
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Well, I almost I almost said to you you moments ago,
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could you find a way to send yourself a message?
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And you already are, Yeah, what would you like, just
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what would you like another version of you to say
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to this version?
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What advice would you give to yourself?
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Just keep your head up, keep your head up, and
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like keep pushing forward. It's going to change. Like it's
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been a rough life so far, but I just have this.
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I just know that this is all so like it
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it's all happening for such a powerful reason to be
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able to lead by example, to show like, hey, you
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can like this can happen and it can still be fine.
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You can still be fine. You can still like love
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your life and be successful and help others and make
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a difference.
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Yeah, very nice. Yeah, when you were in your darkest moments,
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did you have any idea that you'd be able to
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talk about it like this? No?
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Never, I you know, there's always that hope of like
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had do you know you see all those people in
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the media or that are talking about like, oh, I
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was in this really dark spot, but now I'm here,
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you know. Now I'm able to like climb mountains, I'm
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able to do my dream job. And in those moments,
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it never felt tangible, but I'm able to reflect back
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onto those moments and look from a different point, you
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because I had very spiritual experiences in those deep moments,
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and so it just it's an interesting memory to be
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able to recall on because I know that that's a
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pivotal point for me to be able to reflect on
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almost like you know, I know, like every everything that
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happens in our life has a purpose, has meaning, even
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if we don't like it, and it's I've gotten to
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the point where I'm like, I don't love what happened,
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but if anything was different, I would not be who
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I am today. I would not have the experiences, I
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would not have the resources or connections that I have,
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and so it yeah, yeah, just keep my head up.
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Good. Yeah, Well, let's just set the intention that what
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you just said to yourself resonates to all versions of
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you and all versions of everyone listening. And so it
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is because you are a master teacher and healer and
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you mentioned your dream job to everybody's going to wonder. Yeah,
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this beautiful, sparkly person that I'm talking to dream, what
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do you do?
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So? Currently I'm a server getting paid less than minimum wage,
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but I will be I'm gonna go back to school
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this fall. I'm gonna work towards being a child psychologist.
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But more so, I want to work with the traumatized kids.
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I want to work with the kids who need the
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most help at what you know, the youngest age. Whenever
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they need help, we're there. And I would really love
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to be able to produce my own research to say, hey,
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this is how this early trauma affected this person physically,
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and here's why it didn't show up until they run
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their twenties. You know, I want to be able to
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explain that. I want to be able to help these
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children be more stable for their adult life. Like I,
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you know, I have had my anxiety and like oo
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siating my entire life. But I didn't know about it
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until I was, you know, a young adult. And so
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with learning all these things about myself later in life,
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I've experienced great therapists and it's sorry last matrain of
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thought of.
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It where you're going to go with your life.
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Yes, I just want to work with these kiddos, just
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make them more stable. I honestly, the dreamy aspect of
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it is, I would love to make a coloring book
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for these kids. I make my mental illnesses as monsters.
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I just drawn all the time, and that's been the
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most freeing thing. I give myself unnecessary rules, and drawing
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monsters allows me to break them. Because they can color
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outside the lines, I can make it ugly. I don't
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have to use pretty colors, right, And I want to
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be able to provide that for these kids so they
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can learn how to help self regulate at a young age,
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so then they're more powerful by the time time that
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they're entering society. I just, yeah, that's the goal. That's
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the dream help the kiddos.
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Yeah, well, let's just code that dream into the universe
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and say it is. Yeah, you're here for a reason.
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I have a really strong feeling that you creating this
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for children will be for everyone because we're all still
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kids inside working on our stuff.
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Or yes, yes, and yeah. The goal is to be
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able to create a workbook for each like mental health diagnoses,
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so people like I'd love to make them for like children,
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you know, different age levels, so they can continue to
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strengthen those skills and they you know, like I've taught
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my parents a lot with all the therapy that I've done.
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Yeah, oh yeah, oh girl, I could use it as
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a parent. Oh my gosh.
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Right, and it's it's and it's yeah, it's just I'd
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love for there to be just this domino effect of
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it's more of a conversation. People are talking about it,
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you know, people are like talking about the different skills,
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like the progressive muscle relaxation. That is something I learned
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in my three months of trauma therapy. Like there's just
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certain things that we can do that we just don't
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know about yet.
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You know, yeah, you're doing it.
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Yeah.
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I am so blessed when I get to learn something
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and learn something from someone as so sparkly and beautiful
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inside and out as you.
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Thank you, thank you, thank you so much.
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Yeah. Okay, everyone, if you want to reach out to
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me Rachelcorpus dot com as always and I want you
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to know that more I loved and I love you
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and we'll see you next time. Want to get in touch,
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find me on Facebook, Instagram, or rachelcorpus dot com
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The following podcast is part of the Mind, Body, Spirit
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dot fm podcast network. Angels Walk amongst us. I know
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because I am one. You're listening to angel Talk. Okay, everybody, Hi,
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it's me. Welcome to this episode and we're doing something.
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Bonker's wonderful today because talking to client slash friend Lauren
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and Lauren, it's okay if I say your last name because
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it's kind.
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Of part of it's very part of it.
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Yeah, yeah, Lauren Matthew spelled different, spelled the French way,
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So I get to talk to Lauren today because we
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had a regularly scheduled meeting. But the reason why we're
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meeting is because Lauren, you went to Ireland last year.
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Yeah, that's six months ago.
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It's great, mind tell us what happened when you were
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in Ireland.
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So we went with my entire family. It was an
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anniversary trip for my grandparents and we went to the
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town where my grandmother's ancestors were from. And so her
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family name is Archer and the Archer family was one
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of ten prominent families from that from the town of
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kil Kenny, like the kill Kenny. Yeah. So they were,
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you know, like people of power in the town. They
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had my oral status town. They were just people of status.
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And one of the other prominent families was the Roth family,
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said fuzzy friend. So we were able to tour one
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of the houses that one of our ancestors lived in,
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and it's about six hundred years old now and it
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was turned into It was a house, but it was
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also like a gathering place for the people of power
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to come up with the plan and how to keep
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everything running smoothly. There was a moment standing in the
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attic that house, I was reading a plaque about the
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prominent families, and I had this dodgeball of energy hit
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me in between my eyeballs, like made my head go
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back and everything. And it was from that moment on
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I realized, oh my god, I've been here before, Like
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I know these rooms, like I know that fireplace, I know,
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like I knew all of it. And we're touring the
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rest of the house. Come across this tapestry of the
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woman and man of the house, Rose Archer and John Roth.
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And Rose Archer had every single feature, very pale complexion,
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like a bit of a mousey brown blonde and bright
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blue eyes, and I looked at her and I was like,
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that was either my mom or that was me. Then
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I go outside and I walk around the garden that
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John Roth built for his wife Rose. I spent like
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an hour walking in there. It was like the most
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it was like my entire spirit team was. It was
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the most tranquil feeling ever. So I knew, you know,
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once I got home from my trip, that I needed
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to meet with you to make sense of it and
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to understand it. And that was the most like spiritual
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experience I've ever had, Like I have never felt like.
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It was like the veil didn't exist, you know, everything
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was just happening all at once. So I moved home
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to my parents' house at the end of July after
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our trip, and I had been experiencing a recurring dream
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about living in a city, either Chicago or New York,
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and it just made itself more prominent once they moved
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home because I was able to I don't know if
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it was just.
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Sometimes like spiritual awakening, like Paw and your things. Yeah, yeah,
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then you come home and these were I mean, in
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this moment, we're calling them dreams, but as we just
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you and I have talked about it.
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We're pretty sure we're going to bring the angels in
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here anything. I'm pretty sure you're jumping into parallels. Yes,
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tell us about these we'll call him dreams. Now, tell
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them about these dreams. Tell our listeners about these dreams
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you've been having since you returned from Ireland. Yes.
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So each night I go to sleep, I have a
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very lively dream and it's taking place in the same buildings.
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The same people are there. I'm always in these same staircases.
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Like I know where I'm going, I know that I've
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got places.
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To go to Ireland. This is like, now you're in
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Chicago or New York.
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Yes, yes, yeah, Now I'm in real time in the cities.
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And there's always the same person Matthew in my dreams.
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His name is our last names, yes, yes, yeah, which
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is so wonky, Like it's just it's baffling because every
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single time he's in my dream, it's always Matthew. It's
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always Matthew, and he's either a love connection and a
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friend or like an acquaintance, but he always has a
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role in my dreams. And he's the only person that's
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been consistent through these dreams. And you know, they shift
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slightly each time, you know, like my bedroom might be
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set up a little different, but there's always a sense
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of me moving into a new space leaving an old space.
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And I go to bed each night knowing I'm about
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to have a really fun night, like I'm about to
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go live some more, and I don't ever leave my bed.
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It's so cool.
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Yeah, you're quantum traveling. Yeah, so before we hit record,
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mm hm, you shared with me that sometimes Matthew it's
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all he always looks the same. Yes, it's always named Matthew.
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It's it's clearly this person. And also in Ireland it
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was revealed to you that you knew that you were
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going to meet your soulmate in this lifetime. Yes, could
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you reveal that component to us? Yes.
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I use those as kind of like good just a guidance,
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you know, and I'll pause the video, check in with
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my angels and you know, make sure things are resonating.
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And I had one that just it was like an
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epiphany that the person that I saw in the tapestry
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at the roth House, that that was like almost a
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carbon copy of the person that I'm supposed to meet
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in this lifetime. And the characteristics that this guy, Matthew
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has are almost identical to this tapestry in Ireland. And
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it's one of those things where you just kind of
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have to trust your gut not call yourself crazy, just
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like it's just like no, like I know that to
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be true, you know, like it as if it were
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a fact. And so it's just it's just really bonkers
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because I'm also I'm not actively dating, I'm not meeting
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people really, I'm not going out of my way searching
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for love. But it's like I get to experience that
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in my dreams and it's so real.
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you see Matthew sometimes and sometimes he's a friend, sometimes
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he love. And you told me that according to the
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building that you're in, Like if you're in a certain building,
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you love that building. But if you find yourself in
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let's call it, go ahead and lean into if it's
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a parallel yes, it's a parallel life, and you're in
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a different type of building that you recognize. Well, I
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mean this is my friend in this building. He's a
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friend of a friend.
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that I notice, you know. It's never it's not like
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Matthew again, like we're gonna love each other whatever. But
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it's like, I know we're going to see each other.
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each time because it's just such a it's like a
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connection and right DNA. You know, it's just it just
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feels really deep. It's yeah, unlike anything I've experienced before.
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ask your angelic team. Yes, we can ask them. First
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of all, what the heck is going on?
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You know what?
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Talk to us about the angelic physic? Here? Is this a?
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Are you jumping timelines? Are these parallels? Why? What's the purpose? Yeah?
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Is Matthew a soulmate? Will you meet him? Right? Is
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he going to be in this timeline?
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Writing all this stuff down, yep. I can also feel
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your team like, Okay, we're ready, We're ready.
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We're like, thank god, this conversations finally happening.
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my dowsing rods to get some of the pers no answers.
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you who are just listening, I'll be describing what the
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dousing rods are doing. And you'll hear them being clinky
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here too, because they're made of copper, so they can
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be kind of musical. Okay, are you ready, Lauren?
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I'm so ready.
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All right, here we go. So I'm just gonna kind
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of sitting up on my leg so I'm just gonna
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balance my weight, so I'm compromising the message.
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So I'm just calling in Lauren's guides and angels and
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anyone around her who wishes to take part. While and
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these rods are moving in a really cool way, because
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what I can feel in my hands is that they're
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they're activating. They're moving back and forth, but they're not
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doing it randomly. They actually have kind of a rhythm. Yeah,
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and there's an energy to them that feels like somebody's
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holding the end. Yes, yeah, yep, like we're playing jump rope.
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Feels Oh and we should tell Lauren that that reminds
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me of that when we were talking about this together.
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where I was just, oh my god, yes, right before
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you're about to throw up, but it and I was
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telling you and you were having it at the same.
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Time, having like it's like a heat line started at
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the bottom of my feet went up the middle of
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my body, and then I got chills on the outside.
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I was, I was turning into a starfish for a
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second and full of energy. It was cool. That's kind
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of cool when that happened. Because we're on zoom.
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Well, yeah, so cool.
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That energy can show up in that cool way. All right, ready,
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So first of all, let's get into the technical aspect angels.
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Is Lauren navigating different timelines? Yes, okay, And could we
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call these parallels parallel dimensions?
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And they continue by saying in my ear that you
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have been able to experience proof or validation by seeing
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similarities in these timelines, but they're just a little bit
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different and the repetition of going back into them, and
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that these are different than what we might call past
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lifetimes because you were able to experience the past lifetime
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in a very real way when you traveled to Ireland,
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and it was you yourself that you saw the tapestry. Yes,
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I do wish to correct you gently and say that, yes,
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that you have beautiful fair complexion and not a pale complexion.
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nice porcelain beautiful. Yeah.
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Okay. So and then the question of why I can't
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use the rods for so I'll just direct channel that. Well,
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they are showing me the big energetic burst that was
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moving through both your physical body and your ethereal body.
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That was I'm going to say, leveling you up or
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supercharging you this dimension so that you could become more
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aware of exactly who you are, what you are, They
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want to say, what you're made of, that there's more,
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and that you're able to combine all of the lessons
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that you and Mathew have experience together in the other
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parallels and you can pull them into this one.
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Oh that's so cool.
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he a soulmate? Yes? Meet him in this lifetime, in
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this timeline. They're saying, yes, will he look yes? Well,
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that's wild because the human in me, the human in
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me honestly defaults to gosh, I hope that's true, right,
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somebody that's not real, but they're they're adamant. No, he's here.
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all the other timelines, why wouldn't he be. You saw
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him in the tapestry in Ireland. He looked a little different,
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So let me validate that. Am I hearing that?
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he doesn't look the same.
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lifetimes we have different bodies, but it's all you. You're jumping
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into the exact same tailored coat your body. Yes, it's
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in a different dimension. So yeah, it can be Chicago
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or New York or the stairwell looks different. Yeah, okay.
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for you personally. About they said moving on to the new,
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out of the old self, moving on to the new.
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I mean you're you're always packing up and yes, going
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on to and when that's happening in these travels, what's.
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The stil Lauren, would you say, I'm sorry. When you're
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when you're packing and you're moving onto the new adventure
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or the new place to live, what's the feeling is it.
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Is it a good feeling, is it stressful or.
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It's honestly, it's a bit stressful because I feel like
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it's like I just have to It's like I don't
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have any of my stuff boxed. If I'm moving, nothing
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is in boxes. I am literally having to start like
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start packing and moving. At the same time, you.
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of your stuff. No, okay, so some of it stays behind, yes.
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like I'm flying. I'm getting on a plane to fly
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international somewhere, and I never have all my stuff. I'm
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never fully prepped to go, but I'm there to leave,
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you know.
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I ask them if maybe your brain waves, your brain
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can weave into this and cause maybe some stress filter
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where maybe that's just kind of a stress response you
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don't have everything. Yeah. See, so angel I'm not going
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to restate that question, but can you just go ahead
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and answer. Is there a stress response? No, No, it's
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actually what's going on there? So you are leaving in
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a hurry. Oh. In this version of you, do you
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procrastinate big time? Okay, but you also love planning. I do.
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you are you are working on building your support system,
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and that packing up your belongings is overwhelming when it's
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just you. Yeah, And that often the plan to go
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to the next place has come last minute very much,
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so you haven't known where you're going. And so here
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come the next renters, the next owner, and you've got
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to go.
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why are you going into these other timelines just to
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see Matthew, But it's also thematically so you can see, oh, look,
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I'm aware of what is out of joint or disjointed here,
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and it looks like I'm not really in I'm not
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feeling in charge of my plan here. I'm not really
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I'm not feeling supported in how I got to pack
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things up, or I'm not getting helped carrying the stuff
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down the steps. This version of you look at what's
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going on in your life now. You do have support
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around you, and you get to call in more and
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you have the peace in your life right now to
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make plans in your life that you feel good about. Yeah,
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you're in essence, you're course correcting.
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Thank god, thank god.
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you're fully into these dreams, you can make a choice
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tecting him your snapchatting, which is mind bending to me. Yeah,
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so could if that's true, could you also in these
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dreams visits whatever we want to call them, timeline could
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you also make some choices in these timelines to stop
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repack tell the new people that are coming in the door,
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room or the apartment, I need fifteen minutes please.
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cool little experiment to do. Just see what happens and
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see what change, like what the pattern changes to. Yes,
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I I'm writing that, dun that. Yeah, because honestly, I'm
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very much a puble pleaser in my physical world. And
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it's like, I you know, it's like if I can
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just push everything out the door and get out of
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the right it's fine. But if I ask for permission.
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That might be different. Yeah, I give yourself permission. Yeah yeah,
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because nobody ideally wants to move out like that.
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Right, it doesn't feel like it, it doesn't sound like
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it feels good. No, can also be what helps your
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current relationship with current Matthew, so that you feel that
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it's an equal partnership.
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Yeah, So there's some things to think about. And then
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the other thing that comes through is you don't have
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to wait for sleep for these visits. You can do
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it in meditation.
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Oh my god, you're so right. Oh you're so right.
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Oh my god. Yeah, I don't need to be asleep.
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So do you feel that you can build a process
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for going into these timelines when you're awake? Do you
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feel comfortable with that? Or should we ask the angels
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how to do it?
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I'm able to if I I list into a meditation
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before I sleep, because I'd like to get into that
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more open mind space. I feel like if I were
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able to get myself in a deep enough meditative like
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I can, when I get to that point, it's like
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I can see myself floating in the air.
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Okay, So how will you do that help help the listeners?
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How would you get into that?
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So I listen to just background music. I don't like
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to listen to a guided meditation, so it doesn't have
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any influence on my thoughts or what I might be
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picturing in my mind when I just focus on I
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would focus on seeing Matthew and then picturing the stairwells
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and just slowly piecing together that full image because I
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can see the individual images of the stairwells, the buildings
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that people. So it's like because you're able to slowly
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overlap them, it's like you're it's almost like lucid dreaming,
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like you're you know, like it's like you're just able
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to piece everything together. And then it's like, oh, I'm
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in this scenario now, and it's like you're like the
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puppet master, but not in the vidictive right. It's just
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like you're able to make things happen and to control
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like what you're doing, how you go about things. That's
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how I would do it.
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a little bit, Can I please?
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New workshop that?
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What if I'm having trouble keeping my body still?
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Do you ever have that issue I do. I do.
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I do progressive meat muscle relaxation. See, so I feel
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through my body and like I can't keep still, I
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work on I squeeze my fist for like ten seconds
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as hard as I can, and then when you release,
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you focus on how that relaxation feels throughout the rest
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of your body. You do that throughout your body where
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you feel the most tents. You do that with your neck,
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You know, whatever muscles are feeling unrested, just tense them,
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and then I notice the relaxation more. When I'm you know,
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in a state of anxiety or feeling out of control,
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That's when I feel like the most relaxed with tensing
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my muscles, because yeah, that's brilliant.
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I just did it. It feels great, right.
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I learned that at therapy. It's a great way to
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diffuse the situation you're in and to just kind of
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act like a buffer. So it's taking kind of the
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intensity out of the moment a bit. You're able to
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focus it differently.
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I like it too, because I will often tell myself
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Rachel relax. Relax. That's bypassing the stress that's in my body.
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And this is a nice simple way to handle to
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let's like the stress be felt or whatever it is
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in there, like oh and there it.
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Goes yep, exactly, you felt it and then it's gone.
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Yeah.
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I really like that. Yeah, So utilizing something in your
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ears without words so it doesn't distract you there, which
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I'm kind of like because then I'm probably not going
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to hear. Let's just not name any names, but anybody
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next to me that's snoring exactly, or anytol you like
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to get up at two am and cook a meal.
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I'm one of those kids. I get to admit.
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It, all right, we all live our lives. Yes, okay,
399
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And then what about your breathing. Do you have to
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do ever? Have to slow your breath down?
401
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Oh yeah, oh yeah. I slow my breath down enough,
402
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and I get to a point where I feel like
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I just need to, like it's like almost cleanse the
404
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lungs a bit, get something new in there, and then
405
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I focus on like how the breath feels moving down
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my throat into my lungs, holding it and just just
407
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trying to only notice my body nothing else around me.
408
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Just notice how it's moving, and like there's a visualization
409
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I get with it, where like it's like these orbs
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that you're breathing into your lungs through your throat, like
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you're like breathing it in and then you're letting out
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this light.
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It's yeah, because you're not breathing in something light and
414
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breathing out something dark. It's all light.
415
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It's all light. It's all light. Yeah, yeah, all light.
416
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And the judgy thing we're like in light out poo.
417
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You know, we don't have to do oh yeah, like no,
418
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it's all right, it's all right, right.
419
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Yeah. Sometimes when I am trying to travel in spirit
420
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or I I'm just going to say my essence because
421
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I don't always know if it's my soul or my spirit.
422
00:25:03.480 --> 00:25:09.079
I'm still working at theological stuff, but I'll get this weird,
423
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itchy or tingly feeling in my system and it's uncomfortable.
424
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Does that happened to you? Yeah?
425
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Yeah, it's it's almost it's almost like part of you
426
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is like kind of left behind, going wait a minute,
427
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wait a.
428
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Minute, I don't want to go I don't like this.
429
00:25:28.400 --> 00:25:34.079
Yeah. Yeah, there's always like just like the slightest amount
430
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of unease.
431
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Uh huh.
432
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Yeah, but it's like, you know, I know it's I know,
433
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everything's fine, you know, because I know how objected.
434
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Yeah, And you know, honestly, sometimes when I talk to
435
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the extraterrestrials, one of the questions is can you how
436
00:25:51.279 --> 00:25:54.200
They want to know how we can separate our soul
437
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from our body, and I'm like, we don't. No, We're
438
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all we don't. But that's the one time if we're
439
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traveling into different timelines, or we're doing astral projection or something,
440
00:26:05.000 --> 00:26:07.400
or when we're dreaming that we do it. And I
441
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think if we're doing it on purpose, our body's like whoa, whoa, whoa.
442
00:26:10.920 --> 00:26:13.440
Yeah, they're like wait a minute, hold on. They pull
443
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on the ropes a bit.
444
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Yeah, and it does like pulling a rope, like wait, wait,
445
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I need to pull that tether.
446
00:26:19.799 --> 00:26:23.160
Yeah, Like that's not what you feel. It's like that's
447
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what you feel naturally inclined to do. But it's like
448
00:26:25.519 --> 00:26:28.759
the ego or whatever. It's like hold on, hold on,
449
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wait a minute, be the ego.
450
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I think that's a good thought. It probably is the
451
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ego talking to the body like whoa, And we don't play.
452
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That, right, because it's like, I notice, you know, if
453
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I'm going into these baddy thoughts of just kind of
454
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disconnecting from what we know as the physical world, it's like,
455
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oh shit, that's my train of thought.
456
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Sorry, welcome to my world.
457
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Right.
458
00:26:59.160 --> 00:27:02.519
Yeah, well that was a nice half sentence. You know.
459
00:27:03.480 --> 00:27:06.079
Well, I have a good question for you. Yes, if
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you're going into other timelines, is there a version of
461
00:27:09.880 --> 00:27:13.960
you from one of those timelines that visits this one. Yes.
462
00:27:14.200 --> 00:27:18.920
So there's a lifetime that I had back in the
463
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sixties that you helped me discover, and I get little
464
00:27:23.680 --> 00:27:29.119
messages from that lifetime, like I get left smiley faces,
465
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and I have a smiley face tatoo to my finger,
466
00:27:32.440 --> 00:27:35.960
and so I don't always I don't always know when
467
00:27:36.000 --> 00:27:40.359
there's visiting happening, but I can tell afterwards because there's
468
00:27:40.400 --> 00:27:43.920
a smiley face left somewhere and it's always somewhere visible
469
00:27:43.960 --> 00:27:46.640
for me to see. And it's one of those things
470
00:27:46.680 --> 00:27:50.359
where like it's not a perfect it's like dot dot's,
471
00:27:50.680 --> 00:27:54.319
you know, and it's not always perfect, but I always know,
472
00:27:55.359 --> 00:27:57.680
oh she was here, Like oh I was you know.
473
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Think it's just a love that so much.
474
00:28:02.519 --> 00:28:04.480
Yeah, And it's one of those things where I'm like,
475
00:28:04.640 --> 00:28:07.440
I can't second guess it because like it's one of
476
00:28:07.440 --> 00:28:10.880
those things where I'm setting my ego aside. I understand
477
00:28:10.960 --> 00:28:13.759
that this is something I'm not going to make sense
478
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of in a textbook. You know, I just have to
479
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go huh.
480
00:28:17.640 --> 00:28:20.279
Yeah, I just always go with the matrix.
481
00:28:20.640 --> 00:28:23.839
Yes, yes, yeah, don't try to control it, just like
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hop on and let go where it takes you.
483
00:28:27.799 --> 00:28:31.640
Well, I almost I almost said to you you moments ago,
484
00:28:32.359 --> 00:28:34.960
could you find a way to send yourself a message?
485
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And you already are, Yeah, what would you like, just
486
00:28:41.640 --> 00:28:44.200
what would you like another version of you to say
487
00:28:44.240 --> 00:28:45.079
to this version?
488
00:28:45.559 --> 00:28:47.400
What advice would you give to yourself?
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Just keep your head up, keep your head up, and
490
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like keep pushing forward. It's going to change. Like it's
491
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been a rough life so far, but I just have this.
492
00:29:02.519 --> 00:29:06.440
I just know that this is all so like it
493
00:29:06.839 --> 00:29:09.799
it's all happening for such a powerful reason to be
494
00:29:09.839 --> 00:29:15.000
able to lead by example, to show like, hey, you
495
00:29:15.079 --> 00:29:18.000
can like this can happen and it can still be fine.
496
00:29:18.079 --> 00:29:20.519
You can still be fine. You can still like love
497
00:29:20.559 --> 00:29:25.079
your life and be successful and help others and make
498
00:29:25.119 --> 00:29:25.720
a difference.
499
00:29:27.200 --> 00:29:32.599
Yeah, very nice. Yeah, when you were in your darkest moments,
500
00:29:32.599 --> 00:29:34.519
did you have any idea that you'd be able to
501
00:29:34.559 --> 00:29:36.039
talk about it like this? No?
502
00:29:36.359 --> 00:29:40.000
Never, I you know, there's always that hope of like
503
00:29:40.279 --> 00:29:42.279
had do you know you see all those people in
504
00:29:42.319 --> 00:29:45.680
the media or that are talking about like, oh, I
505
00:29:45.720 --> 00:29:47.279
was in this really dark spot, but now I'm here,
506
00:29:47.400 --> 00:29:49.839
you know. Now I'm able to like climb mountains, I'm
507
00:29:49.839 --> 00:29:53.880
able to do my dream job. And in those moments,
508
00:29:53.920 --> 00:29:57.200
it never felt tangible, but I'm able to reflect back
509
00:29:57.240 --> 00:30:00.279
onto those moments and look from a different point, you
510
00:30:00.440 --> 00:30:05.160
because I had very spiritual experiences in those deep moments,
511
00:30:05.720 --> 00:30:09.359
and so it just it's an interesting memory to be
512
00:30:09.400 --> 00:30:13.599
able to recall on because I know that that's a
513
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pivotal point for me to be able to reflect on
514
00:30:16.319 --> 00:30:20.119
almost like you know, I know, like every everything that
515
00:30:20.160 --> 00:30:24.319
happens in our life has a purpose, has meaning, even
516
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if we don't like it, and it's I've gotten to
517
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the point where I'm like, I don't love what happened,
518
00:30:32.240 --> 00:30:35.519
but if anything was different, I would not be who
519
00:30:35.519 --> 00:30:37.480
I am today. I would not have the experiences, I
520
00:30:37.480 --> 00:30:39.640
would not have the resources or connections that I have,
521
00:30:40.799 --> 00:30:45.839
and so it yeah, yeah, just keep my head up.
522
00:30:46.799 --> 00:30:51.000
Good. Yeah, Well, let's just set the intention that what
523
00:30:51.039 --> 00:30:54.200
you just said to yourself resonates to all versions of
524
00:30:54.240 --> 00:30:58.039
you and all versions of everyone listening. And so it
525
00:30:58.079 --> 00:31:01.359
is because you are a master teacher and healer and
526
00:31:01.400 --> 00:31:05.119
you mentioned your dream job to everybody's going to wonder. Yeah,
527
00:31:05.160 --> 00:31:08.440
this beautiful, sparkly person that I'm talking to dream, what
528
00:31:08.480 --> 00:31:08.960
do you do?
529
00:31:09.880 --> 00:31:14.559
So? Currently I'm a server getting paid less than minimum wage,
530
00:31:15.240 --> 00:31:18.759
but I will be I'm gonna go back to school
531
00:31:18.759 --> 00:31:22.640
this fall. I'm gonna work towards being a child psychologist.
532
00:31:23.000 --> 00:31:26.119
But more so, I want to work with the traumatized kids.
533
00:31:26.160 --> 00:31:27.720
I want to work with the kids who need the
534
00:31:27.839 --> 00:31:31.039
most help at what you know, the youngest age. Whenever
535
00:31:31.079 --> 00:31:34.640
they need help, we're there. And I would really love
536
00:31:34.720 --> 00:31:38.240
to be able to produce my own research to say, hey,
537
00:31:38.319 --> 00:31:42.680
this is how this early trauma affected this person physically,
538
00:31:43.000 --> 00:31:44.680
and here's why it didn't show up until they run
539
00:31:44.759 --> 00:31:46.400
their twenties. You know, I want to be able to
540
00:31:46.440 --> 00:31:49.240
explain that. I want to be able to help these
541
00:31:49.359 --> 00:31:53.279
children be more stable for their adult life. Like I,
542
00:31:53.359 --> 00:31:56.519
you know, I have had my anxiety and like oo
543
00:31:56.599 --> 00:31:59.799
siating my entire life. But I didn't know about it
544
00:32:00.039 --> 00:32:03.640
until I was, you know, a young adult. And so
545
00:32:04.799 --> 00:32:07.480
with learning all these things about myself later in life,
546
00:32:07.920 --> 00:32:12.839
I've experienced great therapists and it's sorry last matrain of
547
00:32:12.839 --> 00:32:13.200
thought of.
548
00:32:13.119 --> 00:32:16.519
It where you're going to go with your life.
549
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Yes, I just want to work with these kiddos, just
550
00:32:21.839 --> 00:32:27.279
make them more stable. I honestly, the dreamy aspect of
551
00:32:27.319 --> 00:32:30.759
it is, I would love to make a coloring book
552
00:32:30.799 --> 00:32:34.759
for these kids. I make my mental illnesses as monsters.
553
00:32:35.160 --> 00:32:38.559
I just drawn all the time, and that's been the
554
00:32:38.559 --> 00:32:43.279
most freeing thing. I give myself unnecessary rules, and drawing
555
00:32:43.319 --> 00:32:45.799
monsters allows me to break them. Because they can color
556
00:32:45.799 --> 00:32:47.759
outside the lines, I can make it ugly. I don't
557
00:32:47.759 --> 00:32:50.599
have to use pretty colors, right, And I want to
558
00:32:50.640 --> 00:32:53.240
be able to provide that for these kids so they
559
00:32:53.279 --> 00:32:58.039
can learn how to help self regulate at a young age,
560
00:32:58.240 --> 00:33:00.640
so then they're more powerful by the time time that
561
00:33:00.640 --> 00:33:06.880
they're entering society. I just, yeah, that's the goal. That's
562
00:33:06.920 --> 00:33:09.240
the dream help the kiddos.
563
00:33:09.720 --> 00:33:14.200
Yeah, well, let's just code that dream into the universe
564
00:33:14.240 --> 00:33:17.960
and say it is. Yeah, you're here for a reason.
565
00:33:19.559 --> 00:33:22.279
I have a really strong feeling that you creating this
566
00:33:22.440 --> 00:33:24.759
for children will be for everyone because we're all still
567
00:33:24.799 --> 00:33:26.880
kids inside working on our stuff.
568
00:33:26.839 --> 00:33:31.599
Or yes, yes, and yeah. The goal is to be
569
00:33:31.640 --> 00:33:36.880
able to create a workbook for each like mental health diagnoses,
570
00:33:37.200 --> 00:33:40.640
so people like I'd love to make them for like children,
571
00:33:40.720 --> 00:33:43.799
you know, different age levels, so they can continue to
572
00:33:43.839 --> 00:33:48.039
strengthen those skills and they you know, like I've taught
573
00:33:48.079 --> 00:33:50.519
my parents a lot with all the therapy that I've done.
574
00:33:51.160 --> 00:33:54.799
Yeah, oh yeah, oh girl, I could use it as
575
00:33:54.799 --> 00:33:55.960
a parent. Oh my gosh.
576
00:33:56.240 --> 00:34:00.319
Right, and it's it's and it's yeah, it's just I'd
577
00:34:00.359 --> 00:34:02.759
love for there to be just this domino effect of
578
00:34:03.400 --> 00:34:05.640
it's more of a conversation. People are talking about it,
579
00:34:05.960 --> 00:34:08.639
you know, people are like talking about the different skills,
580
00:34:08.679 --> 00:34:12.480
like the progressive muscle relaxation. That is something I learned
581
00:34:12.639 --> 00:34:15.840
in my three months of trauma therapy. Like there's just
582
00:34:15.920 --> 00:34:18.559
certain things that we can do that we just don't
583
00:34:18.559 --> 00:34:19.320
know about yet.
584
00:34:19.519 --> 00:34:21.119
You know, yeah, you're doing it.
585
00:34:21.519 --> 00:34:22.639
Yeah.
586
00:34:22.719 --> 00:34:25.559
I am so blessed when I get to learn something
587
00:34:26.320 --> 00:34:29.119
and learn something from someone as so sparkly and beautiful
588
00:34:29.360 --> 00:34:30.360
inside and out as you.
589
00:34:30.559 --> 00:34:32.559
Thank you, thank you, thank you so much.
590
00:34:33.519 --> 00:34:36.840
Yeah. Okay, everyone, if you want to reach out to
591
00:34:36.880 --> 00:34:39.639
me Rachelcorpus dot com as always and I want you
592
00:34:39.679 --> 00:34:42.320
to know that more I loved and I love you
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and we'll see you next time. Want to get in touch,
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