Privilege, Purpose, And The Courage To Simply Be

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There was a day I remember dreaming of the life that I have now.
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So why is it that for years I've carried a guilt for the life that I've built?
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A guilt that I have access that others don't.
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Guilty that I have choices others don't.
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Guilty that I have a privilege that others don't.
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Recently, I was on a regular weekly accountability call with a girlfriend who I've been doing these calls with now for over six years.
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That's over 300 hours of calls with this friend.
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Needless to say, she knows me and my journey intimately.
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Well, I met with her at a personal growth event.
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It was back in 2019.
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We both have grown so much in our lives and in our businesses.
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She has watched me struggle and succeed.
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She has watched me cry and celebrate.
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She has walked with me through the online virality, through deep leading it all.
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She has known me as a cleaning lady, as a health coach, as a content creator, a relationship coach, an intimacy educator, professional speaker and trainer, an app developer, a business coach, a software systems and automation developer, a retreat facilitator, an energy worker, an emotional mastery coach, and now as a TEDx Harvard Square speaker, she has seen and heard it all.
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So when I tell you my hands were sweating and my heart was racing when I went to tell her what my most recent decision has been.
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I was so nervous of what she was going to think of me.
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Will she be disappointed?
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Is she going to be jealous or spiteful?
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Is she going to try and talk me out of it?
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No, what I didn't prepare for was her actual response.
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It was pure love, support, and encouragement.
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I mean, how could I have thought she would do anything less?
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She reminded me that we walk two separate paths, and it's okay for mine to look different than hers.
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She will still walk it with me.
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You see, the decision I made was to step back from my business and go back to just being a stay-at-home partner again.
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I felt like I was admitting failure, taking the easy way out, by letting my man be the breadwinner that he is, and me just focusing inward on our health, home, and happiness.
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Well, the truth is, I don't have to work.
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I have been, I haven't been required to work for the last decade of my life, if I'm truly honest.
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Everything I have created, everything that I have done, has been because I chose to.
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That's the privilege.
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That's the privilege I have had since I was 23 years old.
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It's a privilege few have in this world.
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A privilege that I use to fuel my purpose, which is to reduce suffering through storytelling.
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I never had to build my business.
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I chose to.
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I never had to coach people in all areas of life.
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I chose to.
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I never had to volunteer or speak at events.
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I chose to.
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And now I'm choosing to step back.
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Not forever, not in always.
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But what I'm stepping back from is the pressure to do it all.
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The expectations of others and of myself, the complex systems and data, the long days on calls, speaking for free, the ex for exposure at events, the maintaining of a digital presence through social media, websites, the Her app, memberships, checkout portals, email funnels, you name it, the promoting of products and services, the consistent podcasting, yes, podcasting, and making of YouTube videos, the annual industry events, attending virtual webinars and networking calls.
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I'm stepping away from all of it.
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And what I'm stepping into is more time with myself and Tom.
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More focus on movement and recovery.
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More homemade meals prepped.
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More slow mornings with longer routines, more self-care and skin care, more time for home care and maintenance, more space in my week for nothingness, more fly dance fitness classes, Pilates, yoga, you name it, more walks outside with audiobooks and music, more reading books in the sun, ultimate creative freedom of expression, more curiosity and learning, more time with family, more peace and calm, more gratitude and stillness.
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This is the very thing almost every woman out there is looking for.
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An integrity-based, kind, honest, intelligent, hardworking, wealthy, healthy, handsome man.
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And at twenty-two, I attracted mine.
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Which is also my favorite number and my lucky number.
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Imagine.
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Imagine manifesting everything you ever wanted at twenty-two years old.
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That includes genuine love, human to human, something some people never experience in their entire lives.
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When I tell you, my brain broke.
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When really it was the day my heart was healed.
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And I was simply forming new narrow pathways in my brain.
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It's been over a decade since then.
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I constantly grew.
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I learned, I stretched myself, I faced discomfort because I chose to become the woman I am today.
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And I'm grateful I did.
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I earned who I've become day by day.
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Did I have help in the form of support?
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Yes, absolutely.
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Did I show up and put in the work?
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Yes, absolutely.
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Will I continue to?
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Yes, absolutely, at my own creative pace.
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I am deciding to finally step into the privilege I have and live the life I now feel like I have earned over the last two decades.
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So now I'm converting the Her Collective just to the value vault.
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Just.
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It is truly the ultimate resource library.
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Everything I've ever created and everything I ever will create will go live in the value vault.
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Either pay$99 a month to access for as long as you'd like, or pay$4.99 for a lifetime.
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But there's no more community and there's no more weekly or monthly coaching involved.
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It is just access to all the resources you could need.
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I'm releasing myself from any responsibility of anything that repeats commitments of my time.
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But that said, I still intend to host retreats as exclusive ways to receive mentorship or coaching from me.
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Attending a retreat is now the only way to qualify for my one-on-one sessions.
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It's basically just support after the retreat.
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With me no longer attending events, making content, and actively networking, these retreats really will be curated by word of mouth and invite only, making them less of a business trip and more of a luxury girls' trip with purpose and emotional impact.
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I intend to continue sharing the vision of her healthy emotional regulation.
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And as I do, it will come from a place of inspiration versus desperation.
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Because when we suffer, our ideas suffer with us.
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And one of my foundational ideas is that each of us thrives at a different calibration of being and doing.
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I actually get the opportunity and the honor of expanding on this topic in an upcoming TEDx Harvard Square talk in February 21st of 2026.
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And for my idea to fully thrive in its communication, I must be living its core thesis.
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I have been much too far into the doing for far too long.
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It's time for me to experiment with more being, to find my personal sweet spot.
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So happy birthday to me.
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It's been fun being 33.
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And now that we're officially 34, it's time we slow down even more.
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Thank you for listening.
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See you next time.
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Whenever inspiration joins me.
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P.S.
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If you were not worthy of it, it wouldn't be showing up as a choice in your reality.