When Signs Change Everything

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Well, welcome, Kari.
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It is so good to reconnect with you today.
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And I am wondering if you could just share a little bit about yourself with our listeners as well.
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Awesome.
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Yes.
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Thank you for having me, Kim.
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So my name is Kari Olson.
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I am a Christian mindset and business coach.
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I live here in Minnesota, mom of three adult children, empty nester.
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I have two dogs, one husband, and super excited to be here for this conversation.
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Excellent.
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I know.
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Isn't it amazing how quickly time flies and life shifts?
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And through kind of some of the life shifts, you know, with kids growing up and a husband and a dog and all the things.
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Have you had any guidance or signs through the years, Kari ?
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Absolutely.
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I've had way more signs than I ever.
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I mean, I probably missed a whole lot of them as well.
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But when, you know, I really got more into my relationship with the Lord and was asking and looking for signs.
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Oh my gosh, I felt like they were showing up everywhere.
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Oh, I love that you were asking and looking for them.
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Do you want to expand a little bit about that and maybe even give us an example of a sign, how you asked for it and maybe how it appeared?
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I'd love to hear this.
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Okay.
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So yeah, there's three really significant ones.
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The last one is just happened two weeks ago.
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So we'll get there.
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But the first one, gosh, when I was at my lowest, I had just gone through cancer.
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My ex-husband decided our marriage wasn't very much fun anymore and told me, I'm out of here.
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Walked out and left me with our house in foreclosure and three little kids.
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And I that's a lot, Kari.
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That's a lot.
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It was.
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Yeah.
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And I was just like, whoa, oh my gosh.
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Like the rug was just swept out from under my feet.
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And I'm like, what is even happening now?
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And that honestly is what like got me to look.
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I'm like, I can't do this alone.
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Like, I Lord, I need you.
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And you know, I had always been a believer, but I was never strong.
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I never had a relationship with him.
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And so when I was like, I don't know what is happening, how to navigate this, like I just like help.
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And so I was doing it for a while on my own strength, hustling and striving.
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And when one job in healthcare wasn't enough, I got a second one and then a third one.
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And then, you know, it was when our house was actively in foreclosure, we had already been through seven sheriff sales.
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This is where they come to your door, they knock on your house, they're like, here's the papers, the date, and the time when your house is going to be auctioned off at the county courthouse and super shameful and just terrifying.
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But it had already fallen through seven times.
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And I was like, that feels like a miracle.
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And I'm like, I don't know how this is happening, but thank you.
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And but it was the eighth time that I walked out.
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This is now July of 2015.
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I walked out at 7 a.m.
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And there he was again.
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The sheriff was literally sitting at my picnic table in my fenced in backyard.
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I'm like, oh no, here we go again.
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And he hands me the papers, and I'm like, oh my gosh.
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But that was kind of the straw that broke the camel's back because I had been protecting my kids up until them.
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I didn't tell them we were moving and this was happening.
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And but I'm like, okay, it's already happened seven times.
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We've, you know, coincidentally, it's fallen through, but like, it can't keep happening.
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And so that night for dinner, I remember I sat them down, my three kids, we were eating peanut butter and jelly.
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And I'm like, guys, we're gonna be moving.
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I'm gonna be getting a fourth job.
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And even though it was July, I somehow felt like I needed to add, you're getting one Christmas present, and I don't want you to cry about it.
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Like I just felt like I needed to prepare their hearts for how awful this was going to be.
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And they what a lot of pressure you were feeling, right?
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At that time.
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I really was.
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I didn't feel like I had a lot of options.
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So I remember they're like they were they didn't say a word, but they sat there eating their sandwich with their eyes like as big as saucers.
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And I'm just like, oh my gosh, I am absolutely failing them as their mom.
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And I ran to the bathroom, bawling my eyes out.
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And I mean, the sign to me in that moment, that still makes me cry, even though it was like so long ago, was my youngest daughter, Amelie.
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And she came and she knocked on the door, and I opened it up, and she's sitting there, and she's got her little like pink cheetah print suitcase, which I still have to this day.
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It's furry, it's ugly, but it means so much to me.
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And she said, Mom, we're gonna be okay.
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I she went upstairs and she packed her suitcase full of things that she could sell for money.
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And I just started falling.
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And I'm like, Okay, Lord, this is only from you.
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Like, you have my attention.
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I am laying down control and stress and worry and striving and you know, 80-hour weeks.
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And I'm just like, hands up, this is, you know, the the sign kind of that I was praying for.
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And I just had to surrender.
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I had to control so much of that.
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And I really just had to lean into faith and trust.
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And like that was when everything kind of started turning around and changing, and so much started happening.
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Good stuff, finally, the good stuff in my life.
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I feel like after that moment.
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And, you know, to me, that was a sign from the Lord.
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Like, she was that sign to be like, let go, let go.
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You are just white knuckling this.
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You have to let go.
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And I know that evokes a lot of emotion in me too.
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And I do know part of your story, Kari, and that's definitely one of the reasons I wanted to have you on here today.
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And when you say that Amelie was your sign that day, do you I believe people can be our signs and God can work through other individuals putting us right in line with what we need to hear in that moment?
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How did your how did you feel as a mom after maybe after you reflected on that that evening?
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And how did you release that control?
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Because I know there's been periods in my life where I want something, I want the clarity, I want the outcome to appear right now.
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And I know a lot of our friends that might be listening who are grieving or looking for answers or direction, maybe not don't have that clarity right now.
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So give us some, give us some tips on how you surrendered and how did that feel afterwards?
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Yeah, I I didn't, you know, read a book or have a formula.
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I was just like, I felt like that evening.
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I remember I put them to bed and I literally am like, I don't know what to do.
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And I somehow, I feel like he just prompted me to literally be on my knees and just like I prayed and I really, really, like it wasn't just a you know, rote prayer anymore.
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It was like a, I don't know what to do here, Lord.
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I have to have you.
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I I cannot do this alone.
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And it was just a raw, like honest cry of just like, this is where I'm at, and I know that I was made for so much more than what I am actually going through.
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That, yeah, your word, your truth, what I am reading, I don't see any of it in my life, but I have to believe and I trust you to show me that this is true.
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And so it was, yeah, there wasn't, you know, anything that happened overnight other than just more peace and more.
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And that's that was the start of just everything.
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That peace that passes all understanding that he talks about.
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I had never experienced that in my life up until then.
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Oh, that just gave me chills, Kari.
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It really did.
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So I do think that sometimes that is what our soul is needing in the moment.
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And I call it because I'm in the healthcare field and you have been too.
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I just call it like it's a little bit of life support that the signs can give us, right?
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Yeah, okay.
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So moving forward, because I know you move past that.
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Tell us more.
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What's your next sign or how does the story evolve?
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I'm excited to hear this.
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Okay, so my next sign, again, I don't really have a picture of it, but this was another super clear sign, I feel like from the Lord is actually so from that night on my knees of surrendering, Lord, have your way.
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I I was on match.com and it was the very last day of their free trial.
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And I was like, ugh, well, you know, I might as well open up my parameters here.
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I don't feel like I'm meeting anyone.
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And within three months of that night, I met my now husband.
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Now I put him through a lot.
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It was the very last night before my membership ended.
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We met, we had a great time.
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I was still very, very broken.
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I had a lot of wounding in my heart that just needed some healing.
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And so, in the two years that we were dating, I broke up with him five times.
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So the fifth time that I broke up with him, I'm like, yeah, this is ridiculous.
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I don't, I cannot keep putting him through this.
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Why do I keep come coming back to him?
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I loved him, but I was also going through like a bit of actually, I was diagnosed with PTSD, where when he would want to move forward, you know, let's look at houses, let's look at rings, my body would physically react in such a way that's like, if this is the person for me, I should not be feeling so much fear, so much anxiety, feeling like I'm gonna throw up.
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And so I'm like, this can't be the right thing.
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And so that fifth time when I broke up for him, I'm like, this is for good.
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I cannot keep doing this to this poor man and going back, even though I still loved him.
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So about six months after I broke up, was on a first date in St.
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Paul, Minnesota, and I heard a laugh behind me, and I looked over my shoulder and I'm like, there he is.
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And my husband was sitting right behind me.
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I literally could have like tapped him on the head, and I was like, oh my gosh, like I just felt a fire in my body, and I'm like, I have got to get out of here because he was on a date with another girl too.
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And so I just am like, I gotta go.
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I quickly excuse myself.
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I ran out of that restaurant, and but I feel like that was such a again, another sign from the Lord to be like, hey, Kari, even when you know, you keep trying to mess up my plans, like I'm just gonna get you right back on track and where you need to be, because this is a man who loves you and he will do anything for you.
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And I just cried that night because I feel like I finally saw it, and I'm like, I know I need to do some healing, and I'm willing to finally go there, and whatever it takes, I want this.
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And so literally within two months of that night, we were engaged, and three months later we were married.
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Like it can happen so quickly when you just like you know, really understand what's happening.
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And yeah, I feel like that sign was the catalyst that that is why we're married today.
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Like, I don't know.
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I really don't know that if that hadn't happened, I would not be sitting here and married to this man who loves me with all of his heart.
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And I'm so grateful.
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Oh my gosh, that brings the saying of it goes something like, whatever's meant for you will not pass you by to a whole nother level, right?
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And what are the odds that in all of the restaurants in all of St.
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Paul, Minneapolis, the twin cities, at the same date, the same time, on a date, which obviously evokes some emotion in you, right?
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It's like, no, no, no, no, no.
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This is like I need that in my life, right?
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You like it's like a little wake up call, and and that it was still a line because obviously things move forward.
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Like I can't, don't you think that these signs are just so magical?
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Like, I don't understand how the timing is, but it is there to get you back on track.
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Do you do you believe that too?
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That sometimes signs can get you on track and open doors instead of closing doors, or maybe open doors that had to be closed.
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Yeah, that is literally the catalyst in why I feel like I am where I am today.
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Yeah.
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Oh, and I know you do have a wonderful husband and a you know, just a wonderful marriage, and it also shows us that there are things we need to experience in life, and it's not on our timeline a lot of times, which now your timeline went like so quick, right?
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Like it's like you already knew each other, you were able to just move forward quickly, and life is just unfolded beautifully sets with all of the regular life things, right?
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But yeah, yeah, yeah.
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It's I can I can't explain it.
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Yeah, it's just so cool.
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I love how sometimes our nervous system or our emotions can limit us from understanding what we're feeling or how to move through things.
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Was there anything in particular you did during that time after realizing, like, hey, I need this man in my life?
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I mean, you must have like given him a phone call or ran into each other again, or like, how did that happen?
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How did you step back into the being of who you were to allow him in, allow that love in?
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Yeah, I I was a pretty hot mess that night, and I left him a voicemail.
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I'm just like, I I was so mad at him for being on the first date.
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Like, I think that's hilarious because I'm like, Kari, you were doing the same thing.
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But yeah, I was just like, I think it really brought up the emotion.
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And again, just seeing him.
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And I realized I love him, and I realized that there was just something going on in me that needed some help and needed to be dressed.
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And yeah, found an amazing therapist, did some EMDR, got the healing, like understood what was actually happening in my body and nervous system so that I could I could keep continue to move forward in the path that I felt like God had for me.
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Yeah.
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Oh, I love that.
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And my sign method, stillness, intention, gratitude, and noticing.
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Honestly, I feel like you're doing all of those things.
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And sometimes God signs, we do have to take action on them.
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Yeah, right.
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We have to participate in our life as well.
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So yeah.
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All right.
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I know that you have worked, worked with so many beautiful women in the world as well, and you're so purpose-driven in your coaching work and mindset.
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Share a little bit more, maybe if there's any signs around that or your next story.
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I know you said you had three for us today, so love it.
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Yeah, I feel like when I started looking for signs, something that the Lord, and again, it just started with all these what I interpreted at least initially of coincidences.
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Like I didn't recognize, at least initially, until they just kept showing up and showing up.
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So white feathers were just a thing that I feel like the Lord was like, you know, trying to speak to me through.
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And sometimes it would be, yeah, out in nature when I'm talking to him or on a walk.
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I've even had twice them literally in my office like fall down on a Zoom, like they were captured on Zoom.
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And I'm like, why are their feathers falling from my office?
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But the most recent one, the one I kind of referenced earlier, was I went on a women's retreat two weekends ago.
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This was so recent, and I was really struggling with direction and a couple different things that I was just feeling really cloudy on.
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And again, you know, it was probably just because I hadn't taken time.
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I wasn't still, I wasn't doing all the things you teach to really like get the clarity that I needed.
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But I knew that going here, finding stillness, seeking him, like I just he's gonna show up and I'm gonna get the clarity I need.
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So I was really looking forward to Saturday afternoon when we had quiet time.
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And it was in northern Minnesota.
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It was rainy and cloudy and not a great weekend to be outside, but I was like, I just need to go by the lake because I love water and I need to just sit there.
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And I literally sat down, I had my Bible, I had my journal, I'm like ready for, you know, this is the way I want you to go, Kari.
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And I was praying.
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And when I opened my eyes, it was I literally laughed out loud because there in front of me was a white hen.
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I'm like, what am I even looking at?
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I took a picture.
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I think I sent it to you, Kim.
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But I'm like, what?
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There's a hen in front of me, and as I'm sitting at the lake, and then it just like all these kind of you know, impressions and I feel like, yeah, signs from the Lord were like, Kari, do you know how many white feathers are right in front of you right now?
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Like, there's so many, and it was just a beautiful hen.
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And but I also then felt like it was just such a comforting sign from the Lord, and I just felt like he really directed me.
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I wrote it down to Psalm 91:4, that he will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge.
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So, like, I just cried because I was like, I have been, that's what I've been seeking is just refuge and peace and clarity and direction, and which I got all of those things.
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It was just so quickly that afternoon, but it was just I still just giggle thinking about that and a hen, but it meant so much to me.
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And all of his promises, all those feathers right in front of my eyes, saying, Yep, I got you, Kari.
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You do not even have to worry.
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Oh my gosh, that is just so amazing.
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And I've had my own experience with feathers, and I have feathers in my book and things like that.
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But Kari, I think what you're describing to us today, and you can tell me more, but like sometimes signs don't come in the forms that we think they're going to come in, and sometimes they can be like really big and loud, or they can be very tiny.
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And I feel like that tiny head had a big impact because it was like thousands of feathers all at once in your moment of stillness, bringing you that comfort, right?
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That no, yeah.
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Oh my gosh, it never ceases to amaze me how when we take time to notice, because you could have just said, Oh, that's crazy, a hen by the water at a lake.
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That's weird, and just continued praying, right?
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But for whatever reason, you pause and realize the connection.
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That our life can really shift in an instant.
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Yeah.
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Yes, yeah.
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I cannot, it's it's just yeah, kind of unexplainable how much again, peace I had, how much comfort I had in seeing it.
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You know, like it's just the connection to what we know or even our guessing that it means just brings such beauty.
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Do you have any mindset suggestions for anyone today?
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If maybe they're not seeing the signs, noticing the signs, or even asking from the sign for the signs, or not believing in signs.
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Oh, yes.
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I I believe, yeah, mindset is everything.
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And our thoughts and our beliefs create our actions and our results.
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And I have really seen that play out in my life.
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But number one, it's just, you know, maybe you feel like it's it's it's a fact.
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I don't see signs, that kind of thing.
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Stuff doesn't happen to me, you know, like whatever limiting beliefs that you have around it is number one.
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I would say just be open, just be like, hey, you know, if if there is a sign, let me not miss this.
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Because I feel like even before all those, like I'm a type of person who maybe needs like a sign smacked to her head, you know, like the my daughter and my now husband, like those were giant signs.
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I feel like I was maybe not getting it because I'm a very logical person.
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Like I just I don't know.
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But leaning, leaning into that or at least being open to like, you know, Lord, if you have something you want to show me, if you, you know, have a message, if you have a thing, like just be open.
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And I think that's the first part.
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But if you're really searching for clarity and you want something, I I mean, I it's in the Bible that when we seek him, we will find him.
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And that's what I was intentionally going into that weekend two weeks ago with.
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That was just my mindset of like, I know he's got stuff for me.
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I just need to be open to seeing it and receiving it.
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And then, yeah, having him help me interpret it.
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So I think if you want it, believe that it's happening.
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Believe it's it's there.
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You just, you know, need the eyes to see, the eyes or the ears to hear, whatever it is.
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Like, it's there's so much goodness around us in the world that I feel like is from the Lord.
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But like when you are looking for it, you absolutely will find it.
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And that's a the mindset that I would just really encourage you to go with is be looking for the good, be looking for the signs.
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I really do uh feel like that is a practice that sometimes we need to recreate.
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We get in the habit of doing it, and then we kind of get knocked down with life once in a while, but it's so simple to get back on that.
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I know with everything that you have experienced.
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Tell me about maybe what a gratitude practice is or something that you do to shift into gratitude and make life a little bit deeper.
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Yes, this is something I started when yeah, everything in my natural circumstances were were telling me that I had nothing to be grateful for.
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Or at least that was my mindset.
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I I I did it, Kim.
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I I feel like we were just meeting at this time, but and and in front of people, I try to be a different person.
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But when I am home alone and I am living in a house in foreclosure, and I don't know how I'm gonna even have enough cereal in the cabinets to get my kids through the end of the month.
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Like I am mopey and I am angry and I am bitter and I am just like not a grateful person.
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That's who I felt like I really was at that time.
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I had so much hurt, and I I was just like not grateful.
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I was mad about so many things in my life.
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And yet, I that's when I was like, okay, this is not how my story ends.
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And even though I felt very justified in being in that situation, because I feel like subconsciously, you know, if I if I was not in that situation, I was somehow letting my ex off the hook.
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And even though I didn't want this, I just I needed him to see that I was suffering, our kids were suffering.
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Like it was just a jumbled mess.
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But once I was able to just be like, okay, letting that go, yes, I've I had to be honest around, I still kind of think my life sucks.
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But I have things to be grateful for.
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And we just, I'd started doing it with my kids, and I noticed the mood is starting to shift and change.
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And we did it at dinner every single night.
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And they would sometimes roll their eyes.
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Actually, more often than not, they would roll their eyes, but I would be like, no, guys, we are focusing on this, we are speaking this out, we are being grateful for what we do have, even when we still we want to be content with where we're at, even if we still want more.
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Like we can still be really, really grateful for the things that we do have.
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And I started seeing how it shifted me, and I started seeing how it shifted my kids.
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And I'm like, this is a good thing.
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And we kept that practice up until they left the house.
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And I'm hoping that they still continue it somehow.
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But like there is always something to be grateful for, kind of like what I was saying before.
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When we look for it, we find it.
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So do not get stuck in your own, uh, this is hard and everything is hard.
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Like, I get it.
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Those were the loops, the neural pathways that just kept running in my brain.
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But that's where we do have to like take that thought captive because we can do it.
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It's not always easy, it's definitely not automatic, but we can take those thoughts captive and we can be like, okay, what actually is a more helpful thought?
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And then we can be building the other neural pathways that may feel like it's a it's a rough road right now, but like we can start shifting it from the automatic ones to be like, no, you know, stopping that, being like, uh, this is not how I want my brain to be running and choosing and deciding.
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We do, I didn't even know that we needed to think about what we think about.
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I just was a person who likes, yep, my facts are feelings and this is the way it is, but we have so much choice here.
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And so, yeah, if you're not where you want to be, I believe that there's just some lies or limiting beliefs around, you know, what might be holding you back.
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And it is going to be life-changing once you can start identifying that and work on it and choose new, you know, pathways and you know, beliefs and thoughts that are going to serve you well.
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And there's no doubt in my mind that by doing that with your children around the dinner table, not only did you set a foundation up for them, but I feel like that's what kept you in that foundational house for share of sale after sheriff sale.
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I mean, that's unbelievable the length of time that you were allowed to stay in that home until you were ready to move on, right?
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Until it was time to shift your life a little bit more.
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Yeah, absolutely.
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I agree too.
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Yeah.
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Miracles.
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Miracles within gratitude.
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Even though we all have life experiences, once we're ready to, even if it just takes a couple sentences to try to take the first steps forward out of it, right?
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Amen.
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Amen.
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Yeah, it's it there is no logical explanation of why I stayed, was able to stay in that house for it.
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Ended up being six years and two months without a mortgage payment.
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Yeah.
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That is your health.
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That is, that is.
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Oh right, Kari.
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We are always talking about curating connection.
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And today we talked about a lot of different forms of connection that you had with signs, with God, with your life.
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What are you currently curating connection with right now?
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I mean, because of what I have been through, because of what he has done for me, number one is, you know, my relationship with the Lord.
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You know, I grew up in a beautiful home, but I was entirely scared of God.
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I just thought he was like this mean man above, waving his finger at me, and I could never be good enough.
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And I was always afraid of messing up, and I just, I wanted nothing to do with that.
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And so ran as far as I could away.
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But when I just felt like I needed to under, I had such a wrong understanding of his nature, of his character, of his love, of how he always wants the best for me, for all of us.
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And so it was in curating that connection, number one, and just seeking him and his presence and his leading.
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Oh my gosh, there are so many things that I would not have done or have done in my life if it weren't for him.
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And they are just really huge blessings.
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And so that is my number one.
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But then just also showing other women, you know, in their businesses, specifically, you know, what is possible when when we have that and and you know, walk hand in hand, step in step, just with the one next right step that he has for us.
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So powerful.
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I love that.
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You are curating connection in so many ways in your life.
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And I am grateful for you connecting with us today here on Curating Connection.
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Until next time, everyone.