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00:00:03.457I was watching this video and this girl was like, I don't know.
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00:00:05.707I don't know how to start this. Like, well, then she's like,
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00:00:09.293I guess I'll just like, I'm talking now. Now I'm talking.
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00:00:21.697Talking is happening now. Listen. And we're here for it.
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00:00:25.647I like all your plants over there. She was looking really sad.
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00:00:31.717She still needs some love but she was just in a really dark place i feel that,
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00:00:34.736she's coming back to life,
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00:00:42.317physically a dark space or yeah like literally a dark space on that it's over,
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00:00:46.567there in the in the room oh just like right when you walk out of the store right
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00:00:51.337in front of you she's looking a little lamp a little lamp,
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00:00:57.741she's perking up anyhow Unlike me.
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00:01:02.918Dark place. Continuing on.
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00:01:11.608I'm actually coming out of the dark place. I thought you've been working on eating right.
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00:01:18.115Yeah, that's helped significantly. Has it? Plunging to... Oh my god, I'm so sorry.
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00:01:21.534Let me silence that. Is it? It's Lily Woods.
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00:01:26.654Oh, I love her. Oh, I shouldn't have said her full name. whatever um,
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00:01:33.849what was i saying your dark place oh it's yeah the taking care of myself part
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00:01:39.469has prevented me from plunging into total darkness for sure but it was all.
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00:01:46.779I hate saying it i don't know why i hate saying it but it was my just my luteal
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00:01:51.979face okay i don't know why i hate like especially when i'm in it now that i'm
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00:01:59.394good it was fine but when you're in it it's and it's like a conversation of
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00:02:02.128maybe it's because of your luteal face,
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00:02:07.309now i really want to kill you and don't talk to me about it don't speak to me
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00:02:11.515ever again what are you what are you invalidating my feelings right now,
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00:02:17.094oh is that what it feels like yeah it feels like this isn't you're just like
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00:02:24.582oh it's such a simple little answer for you but my feeling is really big and complex exactly,
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00:02:27.902i was like oh maybe you were right,
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00:02:35.649what kind of down bad though is it like i don't want to get up no like so angry
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00:02:41.556yeah like i i would i couldn't hold still really oh my gosh did i tell you about
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00:02:45.091my dream where the other night where i was really angry and i was like,
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00:02:51.069trying to like i was trying to throw stuff and break stuff But like when I would,
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00:02:55.679Like I wouldn't feel anything, you know. I was just still like angry and it
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00:02:58.713was just making me mad. Does that work in real life?
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00:03:01.604I would feel something. But like...
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00:03:05.319I'm trying to feel something. Even like just the...
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00:03:08.959Like, one time,
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00:03:18.281I took, like, a can of, like, a LaCroix out, and I just threw it against the wall. Love that.
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00:03:25.901better. Yeah. Like, fuck LaCroix, dude. So gross. No.
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00:03:34.739Just whatever I had on hand. Yeah. You know? This will do. Yeah.
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00:03:41.554I just want to throw something. Something needs sacrifice to the rage gods today. And it did.
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00:03:45.130And I instantly, karma, I went to pick up the can.
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00:03:55.270It popped more. Did it split it all over you? No, it just cut my finger. Oh.
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00:04:05.481Oh, great. Now I'm even more angry. now i feel stupid yeah for throwing this,
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00:04:11.881immediately after throwing it it's kind of like that just happened but then,
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00:04:18.321then it cuts you yeah then it cuts yeah but yeah in my dream the it would it
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00:04:22.791wasn't helping and so i just got my car and started driving did that help in the dream,
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00:04:28.508The thing that I was mad at was, like, Saint being somewhere that I didn't approve of.
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00:04:43.149So, yeah, it started making me feel a little better. Doing something about it,
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00:04:45.888you know? Yeah. That makes sense. That usually helps.
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00:04:53.579I was, like, inches away. I was seconds away, I should say, from lucid dreaming the other night.
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00:04:57.985What? How do you know? because i was what what in the dream i was,
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00:05:02.599lots of other shit happened that's irrelevant but at this point i get in the
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00:05:06.659car with this rando dude and we're like going to look for something and it's
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00:05:10.106like dire we need to hunt for this thing or this person i don't remember,
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00:05:16.979and he's like but we're hungry and i'm like yeah you know we are yeah and then
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00:05:20.682this other girl random girl gets in the back seat with a whole pizza and she's like,
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00:05:29.769this is a dream we can just summon food right now we could just summon whatever
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00:05:34.249food we want and before he could respond my fucking alarm went off i was like
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00:05:36.769i'm gonna kill somebody no,
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00:05:42.909i know the timing was absurd it was so absurd i was like bro that's never happened
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00:05:51.329i can manipulate this i'm like i'm awake two seconds later.
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00:05:57.699Maybe it's just like that space you know you have to be in that liminal space
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00:06:00.329of like almost awake i don't know,
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00:06:04.137but that would make sense i guess because you're slightly conscious yeah so,
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00:06:09.189then it's just everything all of a sudden things are adding adding up yeah the
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00:06:17.959all of a sudden wait this dream doesn't make sense for a minute it felt like
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00:06:29.146oh my god it's hilarious so maybe one day,
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00:06:35.688okay actually get to yeah do you ever are you do you ever like actually intentionally try to
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00:06:39.482though well like what else can i do other than like pray about it before i go
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00:06:47.685have you for sure yeah i'll go through phases where i'm like okay tonight's the night.
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00:06:59.613Exactly. But no, it never happened
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00:07:11.165That's what they say about everything. I know. But then, but also manifest. But also...
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00:07:17.841Make it happen, but also let go of it completely and never want it again.
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00:07:19.403And then all of a sudden it pops up.
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00:07:23.757It's here as soon as you don't want it. So it's like we aren't in control.
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00:07:29.121So what's this bullshit they're talking about manifesting? I don't know.
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00:07:34.211I'm learning more about the argument. It's bullshit. I'm learning more about
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00:07:37.440the argument that people make that there's no such thing as free will.
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00:07:44.381And intrigue. You were into this a while ago. well it pissed me off yeah,
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00:07:49.901let me say i was come back around it's come back around by someone whose opinion
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00:07:52.931i trust more than the first person who's talking about it so then i go oh maybe
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00:07:59.364i should who maybe i should look at it wasn't it just a book yeah it was robert.
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00:08:08.191There it is i just had to that last name is familiar saploski well probably
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00:08:12.500because i talked about him well i have his book a third of the way finished
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00:08:15.618not all the way because i just was like fuck this book i'm not whatever,
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00:08:18.881but then sam harris started talking about it,
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00:08:23.605he mentioned it in the daily meditations i'm doing and i was like hold up sam,
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00:08:30.261you're just gonna drop that sam sam you're just gonna drop that kernel and kernel
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00:08:40.121and yeah then i dissected it on my walk with jay and we just talked about it
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00:08:47.114me want to just throw my hands in the air and be like okay if that's fucking real then like,
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00:08:52.241why be a good person why try and make your life better like if you don't have
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00:08:58.001free will agency to direct your life but then we googled it but you do listen
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00:09:00.890we googled it okay the argument is.
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00:09:06.620In my very limited understanding, okay, that in your teeny weeny,
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00:09:09.360tiny little brain, my teeny weeny little peanut brain,
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00:09:18.420what I realized is the argument is that there's no free will because every decision
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00:09:22.593that you make is just a response from everything that's happened in the past.
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00:09:29.815Every person that exists, every choice they've ever made has just been a response to chance,
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00:09:35.530but that response that they choose is based on just their past and if you could
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00:09:42.730but it just replayed you would make all the same choices,
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00:09:53.530You're not consciously choosing that and then they talk about the neuroscience
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00:10:03.720seconds before you blurt out your choice the brain is already fired as like
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00:10:06.500making it the neuron has already connected as like there was a decision made
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00:10:08.568and then there's like a few seconds delay,
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00:10:13.190before they speak their choice well you have to think about something before
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00:10:17.740you do it yeah but their argument is that the brain is deciding or like firing
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00:10:22.564something to move my arms no yeah but that's like more of an instantaneous thing,
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00:10:27.347It's like I can think about moving my arm at the same time That I move my arm,
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00:10:31.039Not like I'm going to think about moving my arm One, two, three,
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00:10:36.440there it is No, not you thinking about moving your arm Your brain is like Oh,
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00:10:44.581arms Like it's sending the thing to move it The neuron Right before I don't know,
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00:10:51.500I don't know, man That's why it pissed me off But also all of that is like.
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00:10:56.415As long as you feel like you get to make the choice, then who cares?
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00:10:59.807Who fucking cares if it's real? Yeah, no, for real. You know what I mean?
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00:11:05.645Yeah, but also, like, if that is the case, it makes me more grateful for my
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00:11:09.695life because it's like, oh, well, if I didn't choose all this,
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00:11:13.555which I didn't in a lot of ways, like, I didn't consciously.
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00:11:19.605But you did. I don't consciously remember choosing where I was born and who my parents are and. No.
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00:11:23.375Like, all that type. and some people argue that you do but whatever that doesn't
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00:11:27.185matter right at the end of the day it's like well i'm fucking here i'm fucking
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00:11:30.125here i'm fucking here bud so what do you fucking want from me,
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00:11:36.437um so what but yeah we get to make choices.
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00:11:43.885Every day that you get to decide on your on your own no but those choice those choices apparently,
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00:11:49.815are just being chosen because of all the past experiences that you've had
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00:11:55.005like everything you had no past experiences you wouldn't exist like what yeah
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00:11:59.474so it's just that your your brain is just a biological,
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00:12:03.886response system to your environment that's all,
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00:12:09.665that makes me want to make a choice that i wouldn't usually make oh god,
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00:12:14.775but that would just be all the defiance from your past well that would just
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00:12:19.153be me reacting to what you said which i only said because of my past experiences,
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00:12:25.440what is anything then it's all just consciousness appearing in consciousness,
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00:12:29.033consciousness bouncing off each other apparently.
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00:12:33.632So really i don't know it's like,
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00:12:38.673what's the point of what you're saying that's why it pissed me off when i first
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00:12:40.945heard it because i'm like what's the fucking point of this what are you saying,
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00:12:44.794is it like that kind of thing where it's like we can't understand what it's
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00:12:48.713what's being said yet because we don't know it yeah it's like it's being said
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00:12:52.213but like we just don't get it yeah because we eat it we do peanut tiny peanut wanes,
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00:12:56.693but also because i didn't finish the book i was triggered and i stopped and
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00:12:59.387that's on me well it sounds like you just got a little uh,
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00:13:05.483summary of something yeah i got like a two-page google summary out of a google
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00:13:08.913search that gave me clarity,
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00:13:16.292did it make you feel better yeah that it just doesn't nothing but nothing matters,
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00:13:22.468is that what you got to well it's kind of a relief if you think about it like oh my,
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00:13:31.274it's not up to me to fucking do anything really like to make any kind of significant change or.
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00:13:36.445Alter the state of the world in some crazy way like,
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00:13:43.513to me the whole argument put this thought in my brain that we are just nature
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00:13:48.053experiencing itself like a tree grows and you don't look at a tree and go oh
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00:13:49.988that's weird why did it decide to put a branch right there,
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00:13:54.806like it just did like nature just did that you know and then you see a person
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00:13:58.093who makes dumb decisions and you go why are they making dumb decisions like
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00:14:00.913nature just decided to make a dumb person.
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00:14:04.073Just is what it is.
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00:14:12.454Nature just decided to make a dumb person i don't know can't explain it.
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00:14:18.915Do you feel like you are okay with that answer because you enjoy your life like
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00:14:25.881what if you didn't like your life um you're like so i guess i just have to suffer for however long as,
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00:14:33.105you could don't you get to choose to suffer or not yeah by the way you think
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00:14:37.681about things that's what sam harris's shit is all about like it's all just,
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00:14:42.429that's what's so actually contradictory about his whole standpoint because he,
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00:14:47.645his whole app waking up is like about meditation and he's arguing meditation
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00:14:52.913is just the training of your attention and what you focus on and you can choose to see it differently,
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00:14:56.585and just observe your life instead of identifying with all these thoughts and
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00:14:58.260emotions and things that are coming up,
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00:15:02.955and all of that is appearing in the same space that our external world is appearing
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00:15:06.375in everything's appearing in the same space which is consciousness,
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00:15:13.925and it's a choice if you choose to suffer in that space so it's really interesting
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00:15:19.442that he is like teaching this but at the same time like there is no free will and I'm like,
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00:15:24.045what then how am I choosing to show up here every day and meditate and try and
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00:15:25.160make a difference in my mind,
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00:15:31.555what but maybe that's just all happening because of past experiences I had that
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00:15:35.189led me to believe meditation is good for you maybe try it.
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00:15:38.712So.
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00:15:43.247You could use it as a tool in your
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00:15:47.164victim mindset or as a tool in your empowered mindset. It's up to you.
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00:15:51.447You know. Oh, there's no free will, so I'm just going to sit here and fucking
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00:15:53.410do nothing about my situation.
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00:16:02.240Or it seems like that's not every single thing ever.
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00:16:07.493What? Like, are you going to choose to be a victim or not be a victim?
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00:16:17.937With free will with butt cheeks with left right i'll do whatever with butt cheeks,
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00:16:23.747i will unfreely willy unfree your willy i will,
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00:16:29.488lock it up lock it up,
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00:16:36.012don't act like you don't want my willy oh you're willy,
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00:16:39.367the second we start recording i
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00:16:43.277get start getting blown up what's going on what's going on i start blowing.
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00:16:52.407No don't blow up on me people don't people start they start feeling your energy
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00:16:58.379is firing you know what i mean they're like let me get in on that it's true i've been,
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00:17:03.504dull as a 24 year old knife all day until this moment,
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00:17:08.270so not you're never dull.
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00:17:14.141When i'm experiencing myself all the time it feels like it do you think if we
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00:17:16.274worked in an office together oh my god dude,
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00:17:22.911you'd hate it no oh oh my god i'd get myself i thought that's where you were
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00:17:28.568going no i would be like with so much more fun just put your put your desk over there okay,
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00:17:33.537no i i wouldn't get anything done yeah no exactly i do think,
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00:17:38.251so we'd be like so where how do we design this room no yeah no for real,
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00:17:43.451um so i do think of like if you were at work with me then it would be so much
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00:17:47.441fun well at my job we would have a good time at my job i'd be like okay you
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00:17:48.371have to stop talking to me now,
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00:17:54.281focus yeah your job you'd kick me out i kicked well technically i got kicked
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00:17:59.131out of the office but jay and i are separated you kicked each other out we kicked
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00:18:01.314each other out i wanted this room i chose this,
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00:18:07.171you trying to convince yourself this room's more colorful or yeah it's cuter
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00:18:12.471it is cuter um and it just feels right but i can tell you the week that i've
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00:18:16.036had my own office i've been hyper productive,
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00:18:20.431can't be stopped oh my god good for you i know just getting stuff done left
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00:18:24.121and right yeah i can take a phone call at any time stop i can get on a zoom
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00:18:27.987call at any time you don't have to work around somebody else's schedule yeah
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00:18:32.010it's fire i know like a free do you feel like you clean your house every day,
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00:18:35.673i pick it up every day but I don't classify that as cleaning.
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00:18:37.681Do you do the dishes every day?
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00:18:47.033No. I probably do the dishes at least every other day. Laundry? Probably twice a week.
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00:18:52.479And you never mop the floor. I haven't a day in my life.
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00:18:58.203When it comes to chore day, I'm not making eye contact with the mop. Right.
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00:19:02.272Avoiding it. That's not even like in your list of duties. It pops my brain and
00:19:02.272 -->
00:19:05.291then I go, what'd you say? I didn't hear that. It was a whisper.
00:19:05.540 -->
00:19:13.127Do you think that cursive is whispering or what was it? No, it's a British accent.
00:19:14.405 -->
00:19:19.892Was it singing or is it whispering? Oh, well, it would be singing. It's a British accent.
00:19:19.912 -->
00:19:24.192Yeah, I could see that. I could see that.
00:19:25.148 -->
00:19:30.628If of the two, it would be singing. Is there any culture that's still just cursives old people?
00:19:32.207 -->
00:19:34.326Okay. It's a culture. Yeah.
00:19:37.304 -->
00:19:43.068And me. You don't discursive. Just cursive? No, that would be so time consuming. Yeah.
00:19:44.241 -->
00:19:49.252I remember like growing up and I don't like a teacher or somebody was like just
00:19:49.252 -->
00:19:53.062cursive and it's just like come on dude give it up who are you trying to impress
00:19:53.062 -->
00:19:58.614seriously who do you think you are give it up if they only wrote like that give it up.
00:20:02.799 -->
00:20:05.272Would you say a hot dog is a sandwich fuck no,
00:20:07.496 -->
00:20:11.592but it kind of is no if you think about it it's a hot dog it's its own category
00:20:11.592 -->
00:20:15.432yeah like if we're being technical you're right but like you could throw it
00:20:15.432 -->
00:20:19.352in the sandwich category with the amount of shit people be putting on that shit
00:20:19.352 -->
00:20:21.300if you were an uncultured swine,
00:20:24.578 -->
00:20:27.859Is that culture? If you're in America, I guess.
00:20:30.307 -->
00:20:33.309That would be crazy. If someone called it a sandwich, I'd be like,
00:20:33.309 -->
00:20:35.160what country are you from? Let's get some.
00:20:36.039 -->
00:20:38.379They're like, we're going to have sandwiches and whatever. And you get there
00:20:38.379 -->
00:20:41.079at the party and it's hot dogs. I'd be like, oh, they changed the menu.
00:20:41.119 -->
00:20:44.679You're like, where's the sandwiches? I was expecting sandwiches.
00:20:44.679 -->
00:20:47.200Oh, they're right here. Here, have a sandwich. I'm like, this isn't a sandwich.
00:20:47.838 -->
00:20:51.373Would you leave? Yeah. I can't associate with these people. Yeah.
00:20:53.341 -->
00:20:58.049What kitchen utensil do you feel the most connected to oh i like that question
00:20:58.049 -->
00:21:04.399i knew you oh my knife i have a you do you actually feel connected to your knife
00:21:04.399 -->
00:21:08.089i love my knives i love them like.
00:21:11.633 -->
00:21:16.143I'm trying to think, though, like which of your personal utensils, too.
00:21:17.357 -->
00:21:19.223You think me and Jay have separate kitchen utensils? No, no,
00:21:19.223 -->
00:21:24.083no. I just mean like, I'm not just meaning like a general. Yeah. Don't touch my tools.
00:21:24.743 -->
00:21:29.543All your drawers have either one of your names on each one. These are mine.
00:21:29.543 -->
00:21:31.423Don't fucking touch these. They're color coordinated. Yeah.
00:21:34.637 -->
00:21:37.993No, like not just like a knife, you know what I mean?
00:21:37.993 -->
00:21:44.511It's like in my kitchen what tool is my favorite that i i know i love my knives okay like my knives are,
00:21:45.411 -->
00:21:50.143peak so you feel the most i wish my laundry wishes i would say my apron but
00:21:50.143 -->
00:21:53.230i forget that it exists and then my clothes are stained,
00:21:53.991 -->
00:21:58.583oh i was thinking i was like no your laundry doesn't wish that like and you're
00:21:58.583 -->
00:22:01.163gonna have to wash your apron wash my apron like once a year.
00:22:04.443 -->
00:22:09.353Never well if i used it more i'd probably wash it more yeah um i need an apron
00:22:09.353 -->
00:22:11.417i had one at one point but i lost it actually,
00:22:13.437 -->
00:22:17.203that sucks and you it should be just like on a hook yeah that's what i thought
00:22:17.203 -->
00:22:19.983but then i put it behind my pantry door thinking i was so smart and then out
00:22:19.983 -->
00:22:24.721of sight out of mind yeah no wrong never used it yeah my life that's fair um,
00:22:26.550 -->
00:22:30.758okay are you satisfied with my answer like you seem unsatisfied,
00:22:33.318 -->
00:22:36.453can't say knife or what you can say knife well what's your answer you just you
00:22:36.453 -->
00:22:39.893just got to the answer so fast i didn't know that you were gonna be had no doubt
00:22:39.893 -->
00:22:44.922in my heart right yeah that's what and then i was trying to think but i'm like.
00:22:49.340 -->
00:22:54.973My um i don't want to say knife just like you but i do feel strongly connected
00:22:54.973 -->
00:23:01.783to one specific knife but yeah other than that i really feel connected to my um,
00:23:03.696 -->
00:23:08.787like juicer yeah juicer that is like the yellow one yeah yeah,
00:23:10.784 -->
00:23:13.988I fuck with her. Yeah. I would say the same, but mine's like chipping.
00:23:13.988 -->
00:23:17.301And so every time I use it, I'm like, am I getting paint in my food? You have the same one?
00:23:18.126 -->
00:23:22.445It's like a yellow squeezer majiggy. Like this? Yeah.
00:23:25.097 -->
00:23:28.408Exactly. Like that. It's peeling. The paint is peeling? Yeah.
00:23:28.408 -->
00:23:32.458It's odd. Mine's not. She's old. She's seen a lot.
00:23:33.532 -->
00:23:35.831If I can't say knife, I would say mesh strainer.
00:23:37.398 -->
00:23:43.288Why? I use it for so many things. and it's like such a specific tool that if
00:23:43.288 -->
00:23:44.579you don't have you're hurting,
00:23:45.891 -->
00:23:50.248you're like fuck i need a strainer what am i doing yeah if i didn't have one
00:23:50.248 -->
00:23:52.433i would go to the store right now and get one really yeah,
00:23:53.879 -->
00:23:56.798because i know i'm gonna need it when i least expect needing it,
00:23:58.250 -->
00:24:01.448what else do i always need when i least expect it and i'm not talking a strainer
00:24:01.448 -->
00:24:07.978a mesh no i heard you okay it's like really let me clarify it's i thought that
00:24:07.978 -->
00:24:10.690that for a second it's the really tiny one yeah yeah,
00:24:11.427 -->
00:24:14.988what is your i need one of those actually i think i only have a rig a reg a
00:24:14.988 -->
00:24:16.818reg a i don't know how you're surviving,
00:24:18.594 -->
00:24:23.438especially with all the tea you make i know well that's why often the things
00:24:23.438 -->
00:24:26.042that i have are a little either lumpy or like,
00:24:27.133 -->
00:24:36.067clumpy or you know be clumpy slumpy oh oh something that i need that i still haven't gotten i'm sure,
00:24:38.008 -->
00:24:42.958i almost bought one the other day you know was it good enough it it was like
00:24:42.958 -->
00:24:46.226an interesting shape and at first I was like oh I like it and then I was like,
00:24:47.543 -->
00:24:51.653I don't like it just like I do with everything else um.
00:24:54.208 -->
00:24:57.766I'm glad you haven't done that with me oh I could never do that with you but,
00:24:58.219 -->
00:25:04.321the but it made me be like you know what I'm open to the idea of a toaster start.
00:25:07.765 -->
00:25:12.603That's hilarious wait what were you gonna say the thing you need a funnel,
00:25:13.329 -->
00:25:17.805oh my gosh i know okay wait with all my t's and all my like i literally the
00:25:17.805 -->
00:25:22.185strainer with that the funnel funnels life-changing it seems like it would be
00:25:22.485 -->
00:25:27.005i tried using i tried pouring a shit inside of another shit without one last night,
00:25:27.705 -->
00:25:31.265spilled half of it yes like you could have just pulled the funnel out but i
00:25:31.265 -->
00:25:32.285was like i don't want to wash it,
00:25:34.395 -->
00:25:40.322literally me except i just don't even have it in the room yeah so nowhere on the premises an option,
00:25:41.878 -->
00:25:45.445kitchen tools are amazing but you can go overboard with them you know sometimes
00:25:45.445 -->
00:25:48.845i see some and i'm like that is so extra yeah it's like so specific like an
00:25:48.845 -->
00:25:54.707avocado scooper outer i'm like i can use a spoon like a normal 100 like the
00:25:55.067 -->
00:25:57.516garlic thing that you have what,
00:25:58.565 -->
00:26:02.578oh the garlic peeler thing that i don't even use anymore exactly yeah,
00:26:04.784 -->
00:26:10.055i mean once you get too specific i think it's like okay if if this thing can
00:26:10.055 -->
00:26:15.165only do but yeah like one thing now you're just like accumulating tools more
00:26:15.165 -->
00:26:18.721than you like cooking now your drawer is just way too full,
00:26:19.934 -->
00:26:20.961and you can't even open it.
00:26:23.300 -->
00:26:30.651Yeah you know what i mean yeah not about it would you consider cereal soup fuck
00:26:30.651 -->
00:26:34.010no soup is hot it's not always hot,
00:26:35.299 -->
00:26:39.356cold soup yeah what's that's a smoothie in a bowl no i'm thinking of,
00:26:40.959 -->
00:26:49.641what it's called i just gazpacho gazpacho it's all right a cold soup you're
00:26:49.641 -->
00:26:53.817making that up no I'm switching it right now. Switch it up.
00:26:54.293 -->
00:26:56.307I don't know how to spell gazpacho.
00:26:57.096 -->
00:26:58.716Gazpacho? That sounds like...
00:26:59.801 -->
00:27:02.121Okay, let me tell you how I spelled it and let me tell you how it's spelled.
00:27:02.121 -->
00:27:06.135It's reminding me of the villain prince from...
00:27:08.021 -->
00:27:13.674Gaston? Gaston, there it is. From Belle, Beating the Beast. My favorite,
00:27:15.973 -->
00:27:20.228princess movie. Is it? Someone told me I look like a Disney princess the other day and it was so sweet.
00:27:20.797 -->
00:27:27.037Which one would you be and i was like just take me home no whoa,
00:27:28.007 -->
00:27:32.861get me out of here now all we gotta say um no no as in like what am i doing
00:27:32.861 -->
00:27:38.041here i look like a disney princess let me go be a disney princess oh my mind went somewhere else um,
00:27:42.061 -->
00:27:46.151wait what did you which one would i be yeah which one would i want to be or
00:27:46.151 -->
00:27:48.301which one do i look the most like wannabe.
00:27:52.818 -->
00:27:56.179Which ones are we classifying as Disney princesses? Because it's up in the air.
00:27:57.080 -->
00:27:58.647The princesses that are on Disney.
00:27:59.940 -->
00:28:02.774That's a bigger list than what even you're thinking. I already know.
00:28:02.977 -->
00:28:06.332Yeah, but like... Do you want me to tell you how I spelled gazpacho or no?
00:28:07.474 -->
00:28:11.090Just tell me what gazpacho is. Okay. Because I know you spelled it wrong.
00:28:13.157 -->
00:28:17.370But how wrong is what's funny? I still pulled it up. Is it? I know.
00:28:17.370 -->
00:28:20.779I was like, I'll get there. I always do.
00:28:21.893 -->
00:28:26.247A traditional raw blended cold soup originating from the,
00:28:28.418 -->
00:28:34.090something region spain and port portugal can't trust a refreshing chilled liquid
00:28:34.090 -->
00:28:36.760dish made by blending or chopping raw vegetables,
00:28:37.555 -->
00:28:42.280sounds gross but that's a smoothie in a bowl no a smoothie what's the definition
00:28:42.660 -->
00:28:44.399of a blending raw vegetables,
00:28:45.827 -->
00:28:47.220i guess smoothies do,
00:28:48.974 -->
00:28:56.543have veggies in it what's the difference between gazpacho and a smoothie ones in a cup.
00:28:58.703 -->
00:29:05.859Difference between probably like yes okay you'll put fruit in a smoothie okay
00:29:06.254 -->
00:29:09.226fine it's not that far off,
00:29:11.351 -->
00:29:15.176You get one of those green smoothies? So gazpacho is a chilled,
00:29:15.176 -->
00:29:16.976savory, blended vegetable soup,
00:29:17.296 -->
00:29:21.576while a smoothie is a thick, typically sweet blended beverage,
00:29:21.576 -->
00:29:26.594usually built around fruit and dairy or plant-based milk. So what's the difference between juice?
00:29:27.129 -->
00:29:31.320Like if you juice some apple and celery and ginger into a cup?
00:29:32.225 -->
00:29:37.386Gazpacho in a cup. No, because you're not juicing. If you're juicing something,
00:29:37.386 -->
00:29:41.456you're getting all the juice out and taking everything and throwing everything
00:29:41.456 -->
00:29:43.655else against the wall. I'm not going to try cold soup.
00:29:45.188 -->
00:29:47.574We'll see. We'll see.
00:29:49.408 -->
00:29:57.460And so, therefore, what we're trying to get at is that cereal could be considered soup. Fuck no. Why?
00:29:58.284 -->
00:30:03.143That ain't blended vegetables. That's processed fake food in a box with some,
00:30:03.943 -->
00:30:06.793dairy juice in it. Dairy juice. Cow juice in it.
00:30:08.047 -->
00:30:17.805With some cow udder juice. some lactated cow juice dare i keep going no you could actually.
00:30:20.574 -->
00:30:25.396Um titty juice i knew you were gonna be against the cereal soup situation well
00:30:25.396 -->
00:30:28.866who wouldn't be you don't like anything different that's okay i'll try anything
00:30:28.866 -->
00:30:31.058once you heard it here first she doesn't like anything different,
00:30:31.818 -->
00:30:36.091i'll try it well you know what cereal or are you saying gazpacho i'll try anything once,
00:30:37.640 -->
00:30:43.756you know what i don't like is a like a sweet potato soup oh my god i love it
00:30:43.756 -->
00:30:45.431like a sweet soup i hate that it's,
00:30:46.795 -->
00:30:53.336so gross i think i had gazpacho before and it was disgusting yeah sounds about right,
00:30:55.076 -->
00:31:00.666what i've been saying that's what i've been hinting at it just that just feels
00:31:00.666 -->
00:31:03.720like it's defying the purpose of soup in so many ways.
00:31:06.647 -->
00:31:12.812So, feels like a sin. Well, what's a soup? It's like a comforting,
00:31:13.386 -->
00:31:16.237cozy, tummy-soothing...
00:31:17.235 -->
00:31:20.168I don't think that if I were to look up the definition of soup,
00:31:20.168 -->
00:31:23.830it would be any of those words. Well, Google doesn't know everything.
00:31:25.530 -->
00:31:28.340All right. But if we have nothing to base everything off of, then what are we doing?
00:31:30.048 -->
00:31:35.869All just sharing our own opinions and experiences. Okay.
00:31:36.212 -->
00:31:41.508Soup is a primarily liquid food made by cooking meat, fish, or vegetables in
00:31:41.508 -->
00:31:43.984a liquid base, like stock water or milk.
00:31:47.299 -->
00:31:52.378Yes. Pretty basic. I don't really like that definition. See,
00:31:52.378 -->
00:31:55.240mine was better. It was. Yeah. Fuck Google.
00:31:55.995 -->
00:32:00.108Fuck Google. Womb Google. You sound so crick this whole episode.
00:32:00.468 -->
00:32:02.686Listen, I don't know why. Everything.
00:32:04.050 -->
00:32:04.808Fuck Google.
00:32:07.238 -->
00:32:08.288Sometimes it slips.
00:32:10.738 -->
00:32:17.608I'm sure I've asked you this before, but like. What? Is there something on my face?
00:32:21.099 -->
00:32:27.375No, I don't know why it's so funny to me. Because it's such a basic question. Oh.
00:32:29.499 -->
00:32:33.686But like, do you believe in soulmates? Yeah. You actually do?
00:32:34.243 -->
00:32:36.750Yeah, but I think we have multiple. Okay.
00:32:37.592 -->
00:32:41.806Multiple soulmates? Like we could. You could have multiple soulmates? Yeah.
00:32:42.891 -->
00:32:46.988But what's the definition of a soulmate to you? Are you Googling it right now? Mm-hmm.
00:32:48.828 -->
00:32:55.128I want to see what Google says. The definition of a soulmate to me would be,
00:32:56.434 -->
00:33:02.238someone who you connect with on a soul level that feels...
00:33:04.455 -->
00:33:09.017Like you truly understand who someone is and what motivates them and,
00:33:10.898 -->
00:33:16.380you care because of that you love them when did it when did it become like they're
00:33:16.380 -->
00:33:21.420like there's one like soulmate and it's romantic and it's like this is your,
00:33:22.270 -->
00:33:25.776like when did that start probably hollywood probably,
00:33:29.411 -->
00:33:31.844We can all be traced back to Hollywood.
00:33:36.151 -->
00:33:39.935Mentioning Disney princesses. Oh, yeah. Who would you be? No,
00:33:39.935 -->
00:33:41.526that's probably where it comes from. That's what I'm saying.
00:33:42.902 -->
00:33:48.045Probably. Who would I be? I just feel like I need to list off the Disney princesses
00:33:48.045 -->
00:33:51.065for you first because I don't think you know all your options.
00:33:51.065 -->
00:33:54.535We don't have that kind of time. No, there's 13 official Disney princesses.
00:33:54.535 -->
00:33:56.015That's it? Do you not have that much time?
00:33:56.572 -->
00:33:59.010Oh, I guess. Do you need me to stop? Fine, go ahead. Do you have somewhere to be?
00:33:59.660 -->
00:34:06.145Technically not yet so you're good technically i have time oh my gosh no never
00:34:06.145 -->
00:34:14.635mind okay snow white okay i know you know i know you fuck with her well i mean not her but yeah okay.
00:34:18.085 -->
00:34:26.879Cinderella aurora ariel bell jasmine pocahontas mulan,
00:34:29.039 -->
00:34:30.867that was the same year i was born mulan,
00:34:33.340 -->
00:34:37.835tiana the princess and the frog i fuck with her i don't really remember that
00:34:37.835 -->
00:34:41.125movie super well you the princess and the frog i mean i'm i watched it but it's
00:34:41.125 -->
00:34:45.177like i don't remember well i've seen it more recently than you i'm sure yeah,
00:34:46.471 -->
00:34:52.729rapunzel merida from brave right moana right,
00:34:54.273 -->
00:34:58.245and raya which i've never seen raya what the hell is that from the last dragon
00:34:58.245 -->
00:35:02.515raya and the last dragon oh didn't know she was officially made the list congrats
00:35:02.515 -->
00:35:06.097raya have you seen that no never even heard of her oh um,
00:35:08.662 -->
00:35:14.825i was originally gonna say jasmine and then when you when you said mulan i was
00:35:14.825 -->
00:35:19.675like oh maybe her okay this is who you want to be yeah that i like more so i
00:35:19.675 -->
00:35:23.599guess closely identify with mulan or jasmine.
00:35:27.732 -->
00:35:30.805Because they're like and pocahontas is kind of this way too but they're the
00:35:30.805 -->
00:35:33.090ones that are like not so helpless yeah,
00:35:35.557 -->
00:35:40.924oh my god you know yeah like oh no bell's not helpless,
00:35:41.733 -->
00:35:44.784crazy looking crone bitch witch lady oh,
00:35:45.324 -->
00:35:50.774bell's not helpless moana not helpless oh well the reason i don't choose the
00:35:50.774 -->
00:35:54.804newer ones is because you don't i don't have like as much of a connection to
00:35:54.804 -->
00:35:58.050them you know i watch them as an adult yeah it's like oh cute kids movie,
00:35:58.706 -->
00:36:03.645when i was rapunzel not helpless i don't really remember that story fully either,
00:36:04.342 -->
00:36:09.393at least not the one that it's citing which is tangled rapunzel and tangled oh she's like.
00:36:12.383 -->
00:36:16.884I'm going on an adventure whether my mother likes me to or not okay yeah i forgot
00:36:16.884 -->
00:36:22.907about that story i just was like she does like you know the man does find her and they end up,
00:36:24.225 -->
00:36:28.864saving each other technically i feel like technically she's like more of a new
00:36:28.864 -->
00:36:33.924princess in my mind tangled yeah yeah i don't is there's one like a rapunzel before her
00:36:34.244 -->
00:36:37.436isn't there yeah but i don't think it's a movie i thought it was just a story,
00:36:38.070 -->
00:36:39.283it's gotta be i don't know,
00:36:40.438 -->
00:36:42.679there's no way they left that cash out there,
00:36:45.262 -->
00:36:50.674there's no way when they tried to make it they made tangled like why would you
00:36:50.674 -->
00:36:54.397name it tangled and not Rapunzel. Weird.
00:36:56.365 -->
00:37:03.087Sounding copyright-y. Oh, was Rapunzel not originally a Disney story? Maybe.
00:37:05.020 -->
00:37:10.064The original OG animated adaptation of Rapunzel most people associate with modern
00:37:10.064 -->
00:37:11.458cinema is Disney's Tangled.
00:37:11.731 -->
00:37:14.104What? That doesn't feel right.
00:37:14.464 -->
00:37:16.642They're erasing history. That doesn't feel right at all.
00:37:17.425 -->
00:37:21.669Yes, there is a short animated film titled Rapunzel released in 1992.
00:37:24.104 -->
00:37:30.374Uh no way no way they just stole their shine there was never a officially released
00:37:30.374 -->
00:37:33.563feature-length disney movie strictly titled rapunzel.
00:37:36.524 -->
00:37:37.747I would have bet a million dollars
00:37:37.747 -->
00:37:41.452on that. Is this the mandala effect happening right now? The mandala.
00:37:42.626 -->
00:37:45.787It feels like it, honestly, because what? Because what?
00:37:46.187 -->
00:37:48.727Like, I feel like growing up, we knew who Rapunzel was. Yeah.
00:37:48.727 -->
00:37:51.174We knew Rapunzel. Yeah, I knew her. Good gal.
00:37:53.229 -->
00:37:53.850That's insane.
00:37:56.271 -->
00:37:59.627Well, are you good? Your nose seems really itchy. Nose itchy.
00:37:59.627 -->
00:38:03.539Nose itchy. Are you allergic to me? Yes.
00:38:04.793 -->
00:38:11.178And I've suffered this long. get over it okay take some claritin and get over it what's,
00:38:12.747 -->
00:38:17.558what's one thought you can't seem to shake today oh today can't shake it today
00:38:17.709 -->
00:38:22.417i'll extend it to the week if if you can't think of one for today today,
00:38:24.042 -->
00:38:24.977is
00:38:27.775 -->
00:38:30.776i'm bleeding out my grotch oh my god me too are you yeah,
00:38:33.069 -->
00:38:38.537when did you start yesterday i was like i was tired you know and i'm laying
00:38:38.537 -->
00:38:41.647down by saying i was like can we just lay down for a minute and he's like yeah and i was like my,
00:38:44.147 -->
00:38:49.887my bleeding makes me tired you know and he's like yeah uh your bleeding makes me really tired too.
00:38:54.076 -->
00:38:58.470Okay good then lay down good then let's do,
00:38:59.967 -->
00:39:06.387that's hilarious yeah he saw a massacre basically well he was like are you okay
00:39:06.387 -->
00:39:10.387was he panning no he was just i was just like yeah and he's like that's blood,
00:39:13.192 -->
00:39:17.227and i was like yeah no he's he says that's bleeding or that that's bleeding
00:39:17.227 -->
00:39:26.938yeah like yeah um what day happens every month what day what day i think it's like day three.
00:39:30.321 -->
00:39:35.900What day is it for you? Two. That's really close. We're synced up.
00:39:36.921 -->
00:39:38.944And my body's following yours. You are my leader.
00:39:42.140 -->
00:39:46.231I feel, do you feel like one of us is a leader to the other?
00:39:46.974 -->
00:39:51.189No. I feel like. I feel like we take turns. Yeah, like in different categories,
00:39:51.305 -->
00:39:53.975like you're the leader. In different moments, I would say. Yeah.
00:39:54.591 -->
00:39:58.108And like, we switch off seamlessly. Yeah.
00:39:58.248 -->
00:40:03.404Seamlessly. Seamless. it's never like i'm the leader no i am we're not vying
00:40:03.404 -->
00:40:07.034for power in our relationship and butting heads oh it's more like you please
00:40:07.034 -->
00:40:11.764take the lead you like well if we're if you're not going to take the lead we'll take it together,
00:40:14.324 -->
00:40:18.564okay wait oh that was this the thought you can't shake was about bleeding wait
00:40:18.564 -->
00:40:22.838what's yours i thought i can't shake today,
00:40:25.270 -->
00:40:30.727There's like a reoccurring song playing in my head. Is it? Is that a thought
00:40:31.168 -->
00:40:32.822that I can't shake? I guess. What is it?
00:40:35.794 -->
00:40:39.759Can you guess? Can you guess? Guess. Something Nickelback?
00:40:41.895 -->
00:40:46.794No, take a guess. An educated guess. I feel like if you thought about it for
00:40:46.794 -->
00:40:47.710a second, you could get it.
00:40:48.715 -->
00:40:50.486The one you were singing earlier on the pod?
00:40:51.612 -->
00:40:57.664No. Oh. I'm out of ideas. yes hate me today i would never have guessed blue
00:40:57.664 -->
00:41:02.954october hey i was singing it to you the other day like so much just a couple
00:41:02.954 -->
00:41:06.014days ago you were singing it back to me you don't remember this,
00:41:07.308 -->
00:41:13.404listen it's been in your head that long you don't remember no it i saw a tiktok
00:41:13.404 -->
00:41:19.084where with this i should i can take talk dude uh this man like covering that
00:41:19.084 -->
00:41:21.322song and since that day it's been,
00:41:22.692 -->
00:41:26.644it's been playing and i think that that day was the day that i was singing it
00:41:26.644 -->
00:41:30.564to you so yeah it's still in there and i was playing it today and i like look
00:41:30.564 -->
00:41:31.954back and saint's like hey,
00:41:34.585 -->
00:41:36.994it's like oh shit i've been playing this a lot even my three-year-old knows
00:41:36.994 -->
00:41:43.204the lyrics he picks up quick yeah he's uh smart like that you know big brain
00:41:43.204 -->
00:41:48.690things big brain things no i feel like i remember lyrics pretty quickly,
00:41:51.933 -->
00:41:58.361You had a big brain. Congrats. No, thanks. Maybe it's an Aquarius team. It for sure is.
00:42:02.715 -->
00:42:06.012What is your thoughts on smartwatches? Hate them.
00:42:07.693 -->
00:42:10.494Ugly. Oh, because they're ugly? Yeah. Oh.
00:42:11.463 -->
00:42:17.163That's why? Mm-hmm. Oh. What about them is so awesome?
00:42:17.529 -->
00:42:21.331No, I was going to say unpopular opinion is that I think they're overrated.
00:42:21.482 -->
00:42:23.410Yeah, I think they're overrated and they're ugly.
00:42:23.712 -->
00:42:28.873Yeah, they are ugly. I would agree with you on that. But my biggest qualm with them is... The stats?
00:42:29.173 -->
00:42:33.255Having a fucking smartphone on your wrist all the time is not...
00:42:33.719 -->
00:42:37.475So you wouldn't be the kind of person who would get the chip? Fuck no.
00:42:38.781 -->
00:42:42.043If they're forcing people to get the chip, I would literally run away to live
00:42:42.043 -->
00:42:42.954in the mountains instead.
00:42:44.853 -->
00:42:49.293Run away from society. What if it did so many things that you would want? Like what?
00:42:52.079 -->
00:42:57.793It just it could like balance your chemicals in your body sunlight and water
00:42:57.793 -->
00:42:58.749and movement will do that.
00:43:02.238 -->
00:43:05.373Without the overlord it could track them and it'd be like,
00:43:06.053 -->
00:43:09.033it could be like you need a little bit of this right now it would just tell
00:43:09.033 -->
00:43:12.159you actually you would still need to do the things but it would just be like
00:43:12.524 -->
00:43:15.973this is the exact meal you need to eat right now that would help you this is
00:43:15.973 -->
00:43:20.233the exact regime that you would need right now to help you Who is it?
00:43:21.841 -->
00:43:27.853The chip in your body. And who controls that? It would be calculating all your
00:43:28.293 -->
00:43:30.711levels, everything in your body at all times and be like...
00:43:33.040 -->
00:43:37.022Yeah, but who wrote the code for that? Your mom.
00:43:38.164 -->
00:43:41.926I still wouldn't put it in if she did. Love you, mom, but nah.
00:43:43.186 -->
00:43:48.411I don't know a scientist somewhere. I don't trust them.
00:43:50.704 -->
00:43:55.504Just slip a little code in there, whatever they want, at any point.
00:43:56.604 -->
00:44:00.479And then they start mind control. It's like the bucket in Spongebob.
00:44:01.504 -->
00:44:05.624Yeah, exactly. the bucket head exactly oh my god they were predicting the future
00:44:05.624 -->
00:44:12.364like the simpsons they always are spongebob would you no god no well you were
00:44:12.364 -->
00:44:15.504kind of defending it for a second well i have to it's the point of a conversation,
00:44:16.544 -->
00:44:18.224right we can't disagree on everything.
00:44:20.756 -->
00:44:26.114That would be boring yeah i mean like cereal is a soup obviously it's fucking
00:44:26.114 -->
00:44:31.698not come on that's hot dog disgusting sandwich fuck no it is a hot dog disgusting,
00:44:32.465 -->
00:44:35.404well if you thought that i didn't agree with anything you've said today,
00:44:36.564 -->
00:44:39.524you'd be mistaken i only speak truth um.
00:44:43.377 -->
00:44:49.084What's the weirdest compliment you've ever received any back-ended compliment,
00:44:50.198 -->
00:44:56.693is that a compliment they're trying to have you ever gotten a back-ended compliment um yeah,
00:44:59.444 -->
00:45:06.134i know i have um yeah i sure have i'm trying to like think of an actual one
00:45:06.134 -->
00:45:08.385it's just vague memories but like,
00:45:13.325 -->
00:45:17.119i don't even i can't even think of one but just it's all i know is they usually
00:45:17.119 -->
00:45:19.362come from like middle-aged white women,
00:45:22.369 -->
00:45:25.498like karens like a,
00:45:27.744 -->
00:45:32.109oh you're really or have you ever given a come have i ever given a backhand
00:45:32.109 -->
00:45:33.892not like backhanded but like.
00:45:40.618 -->
00:45:44.188Front-handed just slapped him right in the face,
00:45:45.801 -->
00:45:49.505saying just compliments people all the time and it's so cute he's like said
00:45:49.726 -->
00:45:53.074so good at like just talking to straight injurers when i was on the phone with
00:45:53.074 -->
00:45:55.252you today he was talking to a lady in front of us,
00:45:55.827 -->
00:46:00.053like this not lady she was definitely at least younger than me but she was so
00:46:00.175 -->
00:46:02.996sweet and cute and he's just like i like your pillow,
00:46:04.970 -->
00:46:08.724she buying a pillow and i don't know if she she had a big pillow in her hand,
00:46:09.224 -->
00:46:11.784and i don't know if she said something about his shirt or if he started talking
00:46:11.784 -->
00:46:15.294about it but he was just like mom mom mom mom and i'm like what he's like she
00:46:15.294 -->
00:46:19.194watches spider-man too oh i swear i heard him say that and i was like what is
00:46:19.194 -->
00:46:22.204he talking about yeah i'm like looking at her and she's just like laughing,
00:46:23.911 -->
00:46:29.714oh she does that's awesome that's crazy what a small world what's your favorite
00:46:29.714 -->
00:46:33.264character talk to her no i'm just kidding ask her,
00:46:34.225 -->
00:46:37.794um i love that he's so outgoing he'll say hi and And they'll turn right back
00:46:37.794 -->
00:46:40.824around to me and be like, mom, I said hi to them.
00:46:43.704 -->
00:46:49.164Today at the park, he got on the back of, I'm assuming a homeless man. I don't know.
00:46:51.919 -->
00:46:52.999I'm sorry.
00:46:56.226 -->
00:47:05.236Bro, what? Okay, there was this man getting a drink, like a watering fountain or whatever.
00:47:05.990 -->
00:47:09.324And he insane was to me he's like i need a drink i need a drink of water i was
00:47:09.324 -->
00:47:11.714like oh i didn't bring my water i had like a drink and i was like you can have
00:47:11.714 -->
00:47:13.798some of this like matcha or whatever and he's like no,
00:47:14.547 -->
00:47:18.134he's and he's like from the drinking fountain i was like oh and but that man
00:47:18.134 -->
00:47:21.635was there he kind of looked homeless ish vibes,
00:47:22.935 -->
00:47:24.744and maybe not though but,
00:47:26.232 -->
00:47:29.344um i was like oh we'll just we'll let him finish and then we can get a drink
00:47:29.344 -->
00:47:33.584yeah i'm like sitting at not like it wasn't a big park, but I'm not right by
00:47:33.584 -->
00:47:35.949the drinking fountain. I'm across the park from it.
00:47:36.500 -->
00:47:39.362But Saint just goes over there and I'm just watching him and,
00:47:40.899 -->
00:47:44.469the man like starts drinking or uh like wiping off,
00:47:46.240 -->
00:47:51.823the spout with I don't know a cloth he had he starts wiping it off for him and
00:47:51.823 -->
00:47:57.123like saints getting it like but he's like on his tippiest tippy toes like leaned
00:47:57.123 -->
00:48:00.027all the way over like I'm assuming barely getting any water.
00:48:01.890 -->
00:48:05.723And I'm just like laughing at him and then and I'm thinking this man is gonna
00:48:05.723 -->
00:48:07.273go away but eventually the man
00:48:07.273 -->
00:48:12.740lays on the ground and is like step on my back and you can't stop reach,
00:48:13.668 -->
00:48:17.073and get it and he did and i was like oh you're kidding i took a picture i can
00:48:17.073 -->
00:48:23.683tell you let me see and i i was like standing up to go get him and then i was
00:48:23.683 -->
00:48:26.886like i had to take a picture because what the fuck and then i go over there,
00:48:28.143 -->
00:48:31.823and i was just like oh my god like thank you and the man just like quickly quickly
00:48:31.823 -->
00:48:35.413runs away basically so i was like oh maybe he was maybe he's not supposed to
00:48:35.413 -->
00:48:39.691be within 200 meters oh my god i hope that's okay,
00:48:41.463 -->
00:48:48.253stop oh my god i was just saying he does not look homeless he's wearing nikes he like,
00:48:49.623 -->
00:48:52.353a part of me was like does he just work around here like he kind of looked like
00:48:52.353 -->
00:48:55.513a worker but then the interaction after i got up and went over there and was
00:48:55.513 -->
00:48:58.122like thank you you know he was so weird about it and he was just kind of like
00:48:58.342 -->
00:48:59.253like he almost seemed like he
00:48:59.253 -->
00:49:03.015was on drugs slightly like he was just like oh and he was sweating a lot,
00:49:03.619 -->
00:49:05.546and he was like oh okay bye and i was just like,
00:49:06.731 -->
00:49:11.153thanks for letting him step on your back i mean either he was just a really
00:49:11.153 -->
00:49:13.372kind person or a super weirdo but,
00:49:14.295 -->
00:49:21.724it was funny either way hilarious weirdo hilarious picture oh my god so um.
00:49:23.791 -->
00:49:26.653For the sake of our community we'll like to say he's just a normal guy that's
00:49:26.653 -->
00:49:29.409slightly awkward yeah yeah um,
00:49:30.396 -->
00:49:32.713i mean i guess that makes sense if you're a stranger and you're trying to help
00:49:32.713 -->
00:49:36.523him it would be worse if you picked him up yeah i was thinking like yeah you
00:49:36.523 -->
00:49:40.193know like pick him up yeah maybe it would be a little weirder if he like grabbed
00:49:40.193 -->
00:49:43.876him and was like lifting him up but this way he was just like just step on my back.
00:49:46.025 -->
00:49:48.065I never would have thought of that, though. Step on my back.
00:49:48.065 -->
00:49:50.737It's fine. Damn. What a G.
00:49:51.730 -->
00:49:55.335Oh, I'm breaking my. What did you just do? I'm breaking my chair.
00:49:55.335 -->
00:49:57.611I don't know. You know, hold still.
00:49:59.654 -->
00:50:07.043Hate me today. Hate me tomorrow. I like the line where it says, hate me.
00:50:08.634 -->
00:50:11.363So you can finally see what's good for you.
00:50:14.713 -->
00:50:20.276Is that what he says something like that hey so you can finally see,
00:50:21.296 -->
00:50:25.306no okay we're really off no it is like the tone and everything oh yeah i didn't
00:50:25.306 -->
00:50:31.743take singing lessons no but like the you know hey if we were to be like,
00:50:33.135 -->
00:50:37.816hey may you die you know what i mean like that's off that's wrong right yeah
00:50:38.156 -->
00:50:41.204so but the part where it's what's your point.
00:50:44.995 -->
00:50:48.336I'm trying to get the exact wordage right for you for all the things i didn't
00:50:48.336 -->
00:50:51.833do for you it's a it does say that too but that's not the line i'm talking about,
00:50:53.685 -->
00:50:55.183hate me for all the things,
00:50:57.667 -->
00:51:00.196i don't know hate me in ways,
00:51:04.236 -->
00:51:07.536yeah it'd be cool to go see them live i would fuck with that it would i would
00:51:07.536 -->
00:51:09.486too and i never actually have really,
00:51:10.926 -->
00:51:15.886like they've been around me in my life right but i've never like searched them
00:51:15.886 -->
00:51:19.616up and like listened with my heart um,
00:51:22.141 -->
00:51:27.546oh until recently like i've never like been like oh let me listen to blue october
00:51:27.546 -->
00:51:31.176you know i mean it's just been like a band that's like around in the atmosphere
00:51:31.176 -->
00:51:36.449but not in my atmosphere that's how i am with a lot of old rock bands like what,
00:51:38.301 -->
00:51:42.736like uh acdc and metallica and stuff like that,
00:51:44.716 -->
00:51:49.956um hate me so you can finally see what's good for you so i was right oh congrats
00:51:49.956 -->
00:51:54.758um uh you know who i would really like to see in concert.
00:51:58.136 -->
00:52:04.115Let me guess yeah that's why i'm silent oh guess so i'm not saying anything,
00:52:04.887 -->
00:52:08.123who you would really like to see in concert is it somebody that you've been
00:52:08.123 -->
00:52:12.137like vibing with lately or is it just like all time i've always vibed,
00:52:12.933 -->
00:52:15.167rihanna do you know me,
00:52:16.804 -->
00:52:21.253you don't like rihanna i mean i like beyonce same category you were a big-ass
00:52:21.253 -->
00:52:24.063beyonce girl at one point that's true i guess back in the day but What do you
00:52:24.063 -->
00:52:27.246mean you wouldn't be absolutely hyped to see Rihanna?
00:52:27.647 -->
00:52:31.263No, I would. Yeah. But I'm not going to like seek out the concert.
00:52:33.144 -->
00:52:36.693If Rihanna tickets just landed in your lap, you would go is what you're saying?
00:52:36.693 -->
00:52:38.340Oh, yeah. If they just landed here.
00:52:39.094 -->
00:52:41.983I don't think she even tours or does anything at this point,
00:52:41.983 -->
00:52:46.351but. Damn. Okay. Who else? It's like something, somebody recent?
00:52:47.111 -->
00:52:51.673On your mind? I've been listening to them for years. Is it in the realm of Blue
00:52:51.673 -->
00:52:54.211October? Yeah. Oh. Well, kind of.
00:52:55.174 -->
00:52:57.020It's a man. I'll give you that.
00:53:00.167 -->
00:53:03.336Band? No. But the name sounds like a band.
00:53:10.749 -->
00:53:14.046I don't got it. Hosier. Oh, my. Okay.
00:53:15.463 -->
00:53:20.143Oh, my. That almost happened. I know. Almost.
00:53:21.623 -->
00:53:27.379And then something came up. It's poopy. As it tends to. Yeah.
00:53:28.418 -->
00:53:30.603Whatever. So,
00:53:35.263 -->
00:53:38.014what did you believe as a kid that you now wish was true?
00:53:40.903 -->
00:53:46.239A belief you had as a child that you wish was true? Ooh. Ooh. Yeah.
00:53:52.800 -->
00:53:57.229That's a tough question. I mean, like, that people are good.
00:53:59.267 -->
00:54:00.165I never believed that.
00:54:03.371 -->
00:54:07.225Oh. You feel like you do believe that still? That people are good? Yeah.
00:54:07.605 -->
00:54:10.675I do believe that. You give people the benefit of the doubt to the max.
00:54:10.675 -->
00:54:16.285I don't know. Tell the fuck up. It's like I have marbles in my mouth today.
00:54:19.721 -->
00:54:24.395No, no, no. I wish it was true. But you believed it as a child?
00:54:26.937 -->
00:54:32.231I guess. I can't, like, confirm that I was, like, this is a belief I have, you know?
00:54:34.100 -->
00:54:37.968Oh, I got one. What? That life is fun all the time.
00:54:39.354 -->
00:54:43.085You believed that? I felt it. Did you? Yeah. Like, until when?
00:54:43.085 -->
00:54:45.937Because saints are already saying, I'm bored!
00:54:46.610 -->
00:54:48.562You know? No, that's different than, like...
00:54:50.447 -->
00:54:53.443Oh, life's just as shits and giggles? like you believe that,
00:54:54.551 -->
00:54:59.614it is shits and giggles yeah it actually is all fun and games no,
00:55:00.589 -->
00:55:09.332it's shits and giggles not fun and games shits emphasis on the shit and giggles,
00:55:10.040 -->
00:55:13.690you get both of them where did that come from just for shits and giggles,
00:55:14.793 -->
00:55:19.475like what who's shitting and giggling who's doing something just to shit and
00:55:19.475 -->
00:55:23.668giggle about it more people should yeah,
00:55:24.713 -->
00:55:29.145we should be doing more things just to shit and giggle about it shit about it
00:55:29.145 -->
00:55:31.058don't you think what does shitting about it mean.
00:55:34.151 -->
00:55:37.593I was thinking of them more like as together like you're it's like shit and giggle,
00:55:39.930 -->
00:55:45.447come to the shit and giggle the best name for a comedy club.
00:55:50.770 -->
00:55:54.544Comedy club at kylie's house oh my god should we like force people,
00:55:56.738 -->
00:56:03.010into coming up with it a set a bit and you have to stand up in front of everybody
00:56:03.010 -->
00:56:05.930and do it um i don't think anybody would show up to my parties again,
00:56:07.070 -->
00:56:11.760if i had a hard time surprise everybody surprise christian would be like oh
00:56:11.760 -->
00:56:15.490fuck yeah i've been waiting for this day christian would have he's like so how long do we get yeah,
00:56:16.410 -->
00:56:19.410you could take the whole time if you want he's done actual he's gone on a real
00:56:19.410 -->
00:56:22.772stage has he yeah oh i didn't know he was funny like that oh,
00:56:24.850 -->
00:56:26.174i mean like i didn't know he like,
00:56:28.027 -->
00:56:31.827well like even thought that like that was an idea for him you know um he's got
00:56:31.827 -->
00:56:34.947a lot of ideas up in that noggin he sure does i don't know if he's still doing
00:56:34.947 -->
00:56:41.970it the mind is vast must be a redhead thing comedy or vast mind funny um,
00:56:43.147 -->
00:56:45.860no it's not a redhead thing i don't know a lot of redheads,
00:56:47.665 -->
00:56:53.197um it's just anything christian does really must be redhead no i do like to
00:56:53.197 -->
00:56:54.631use that line with him for sure.
00:56:56.483 -->
00:57:02.057Um no i already have my next birthday game planned and i'm what is it i can't
00:57:02.057 -->
00:57:05.907tell you why because then you're gonna start researching i'm i can't i'm not
00:57:05.907 -->
00:57:08.476a part of it no why well you're gonna participate,
00:57:09.172 -->
00:57:13.347no i like being it doesn't work like that behind the computer it doesn't work like,
00:57:14.067 -->
00:57:18.227this one doesn't work like that but what i'm gonna start researching what do
00:57:18.227 -->
00:57:19.852i need to like have facts on hand,
00:57:21.025 -->
00:57:23.767it's gonna be like trivia did you see dude,
00:57:25.307 -->
00:57:28.847i saw this video of these people i'm just like i have to research about everything.
00:57:30.592 -->
00:57:34.707You ask your ai how do i start researching about everything give me an itinerary give me um,
00:57:36.292 -->
00:57:40.106i saw this video of this person that was like when you turn your birthday party into like,
00:57:41.058 -->
00:57:46.767a test and they had a bunch of like old like you're in school tests of all the
00:57:46.767 -->
00:57:49.637different subjects and they're all filling out these worksheets how annoyed
00:57:49.637 -->
00:57:54.015would you be super yeah like no like i'm not doing that,
00:57:54.618 -->
00:57:58.444i'll do like a game show vibe how to are you smarter than a fifth grader vibe
00:57:58.752 -->
00:58:02.987oh yeah you know yeah i'd do that but not like let's sit down and take a test,
00:58:03.607 -->
00:58:09.407yeah like what unless it's one of those like math like times table tests then
00:58:09.407 -->
00:58:12.997i'll bang that shit out or unless it's like a take this test to figure out what
00:58:12.997 -->
00:58:13.983kind of mermaid you would be,
00:58:14.939 -->
00:58:17.181sure you know sure,
00:58:18.447 -->
00:58:21.647which Disney princess would you take that? I'd fuck up that test.
00:58:23.369 -->
00:58:24.947Would for sure take that test.
00:58:28.349 -->
00:58:32.985At the other day really itchy today you see these are the moments that like
00:58:32.985 -->
00:58:35.635i wish that you worked with me you know what i mean like the,
00:58:36.195 -->
00:58:40.635the little bits like at the expo where they like put the food up and then we
00:58:40.635 -->
00:58:44.103take the food and run it right yeah i was so hungry one day,
00:58:44.829 -->
00:58:46.055and like the food would just come
00:58:46.055 -->
00:58:49.385up and the like person working with me next to me i would just be like.
00:58:53.096 -->
00:59:00.375I'm about to eat this right now taking it you just run to the bathroom okay,
00:59:03.295 -->
00:59:07.935just like it's i've never eaten before in my life why is it always feel like that when you're hungry,
00:59:10.317 -->
00:59:17.434because i'm dying literally my body's like we're dying that's what my body thing gonna pass away yeah,
00:59:19.338 -->
00:59:24.305there's nothing beyond this moment yeah you know what else makes you feel that
00:59:24.305 -->
00:59:28.782way the luneo phase yeah sure all.
00:59:32.225 -->
00:59:38.335Everything sucks were you saying something just really though i don't i don't
00:59:38.335 -->
00:59:41.475remember but hey if i worked with you then you wouldn't be able to tell me all
00:59:41.475 -->
00:59:46.035these funny stories no you would be there and they would be funnier and like there would be more,
00:59:46.935 -->
00:59:48.874yeah it's not like not always all bad,
00:59:49.913 -->
00:59:54.275on the flip side i didn't think it was all that flip side would be better i
00:59:54.275 -->
00:59:58.565never thought it was all bad but you just were like coming up with a reason
00:59:58.565 -->
01:00:00.687why you shouldn't work with me,
01:00:03.206 -->
01:00:09.612Well, because I already have a job. Well, yeah, but like you were trying to
01:00:09.612 -->
01:00:13.335make it seem like it's better that you don't, you know. I like what I'm doing more.
01:00:15.395 -->
01:00:24.701Which is valid and fair. But not that one singular aspect that I don't get to work with you. Yeah.
01:00:25.920 -->
01:00:30.002Yeah. That's the worst part about my job. Well, maybe we can work together one
01:00:30.002 -->
01:00:32.752day. We actually are right now, technically.
01:00:33.588 -->
01:00:35.167Maybe we can make that a job. I'm clocked in.
01:00:36.166 -->
01:00:39.952I forgot. She's not getting paid for this episode, guys.
01:00:45.366 -->
01:00:48.855I think that's all my questions. I like your rapid fire questions today.
01:00:49.604 -->
01:00:50.928I could find more if you want.
01:00:54.341 -->
01:00:57.415I actually, let me see if I already asked you the questions that I put down
01:00:57.415 -->
01:01:00.860in my question list. Oh, shit. She got a list.
01:01:02.154 -->
01:01:06.067Where do you like to get your thoughts out? If you got a lot of thoughts, where do you go?
01:01:07.122 -->
01:01:12.480I like to scream them into the ether. But where? Where do you usually do that? The ether.
01:01:16.085 -->
01:01:18.905Is the ether in the room with us? Always.
01:01:20.925 -->
01:01:24.155Is the ether present? Just wherever you are.
01:01:24.155 -->
01:01:30.464Like either just scream no where do you think my journal,
01:01:31.811 -->
01:01:35.795do you actually though yeah i processed some of that anger in my journal the
01:01:35.795 -->
01:01:37.320other night and it actually was great,
01:01:38.313 -->
01:01:42.395i started crying did you feel like you got it out do you feel like you understood
01:01:42.395 -->
01:01:45.455where it was coming from yeah do you feel like you sat with it long enough to
01:01:45.455 -->
01:01:49.865understand where it was coming from i'm still sitting with it but that little
01:01:49.865 -->
01:01:52.465journal exercise i did where you just ask why a bunch of times,
01:01:53.882 -->
01:02:02.107led to a place that was worth processing okay and then i go like when i start doing that then i go,
01:02:03.500 -->
01:02:09.135and then i go but then i go but did you did you just make all this up to justify
01:02:09.135 -->
01:02:12.135how you're feeling and it sounds good so now you're gonna believe it and then
01:02:12.135 -->
01:02:15.455like tell yourself you need to process it when really you're just like making
01:02:15.455 -->
01:02:17.251this up based on an emotion that you're feeling,
01:02:17.925 -->
01:02:22.835it would be easier for me to be able to answer the question if i knew what you
01:02:22.835 -->
01:02:26.435were talking about because then you could validate whether what i'm feeling is true or not,
01:02:27.532 -->
01:02:33.743i could be like did you just make get there on your own or was there some guidance
01:02:34.184 -->
01:02:36.361well i was feeling angry and then,
01:02:37.168 -->
01:02:41.875but like answering the questions as truthfully as i could in the moment was
01:02:41.875 -->
01:02:43.443the answer that you got to like.
01:02:46.810 -->
01:02:48.221Self-fulfilling prophecy.
01:02:50.357 -->
01:02:53.677No, the answer that I got to is that I realized I'm still angry at my dad.
01:02:54.989 -->
01:03:03.916For what? For choices that he made that led to him dying that I judge as silly choices. Yeah.
01:03:09.826 -->
01:03:14.739Let's get into it. That's right there. What is that? What is that?
01:03:15.419 -->
01:03:18.619That's grief. Are you mad at anybody else for those?
01:03:19.399 -->
01:03:23.305Like, are you mad at anybody else for choices that they make?
01:03:25.116 -->
01:03:25.499Yes.
01:03:28.727 -->
01:03:32.888And then I go, why am I judging them? Yeah, like.
01:03:35.076 -->
01:03:38.706What's going on there? Are you actually mad at him or are you just sad?
01:03:41.044 -->
01:03:46.676I think it's just sad underneath. Because the second I realized that, I stopped journaling.
01:03:47.615 -->
01:03:51.803And I go, okay, you can feel that. And then the next day, I'm walking about
01:03:51.803 -->
01:03:53.316it. Going on a walkabout.
01:03:54.274 -->
01:03:58.442And I'm like, he just made choices.
01:03:59.469 -->
01:04:02.123Well this was all the same time all the free will shit was coming to mind right
01:04:02.123 -->
01:04:07.130okay so i'm like he just made choices based on his choice his past experiences
01:04:07.368 -->
01:04:09.116no but it's true he just made choices based on,
01:04:10.079 -->
01:04:13.313what he knew and what he had do you feel like his choices were selfish is that
01:04:13.313 -->
01:04:15.652why you're mad um i don't think,
01:04:16.709 -->
01:04:23.111he obviously could see the future so it's not like he knew how that was gonna all end up but.
01:04:24.656 -->
01:04:29.613Some of the decisions yeah like that just seems like a but then again i don't
01:04:29.613 -->
01:04:31.493fully know the situation that he was in,
01:04:32.307 -->
01:04:38.413you know mentally financially spiritually whatever like i wasn't all the leads,
01:04:39.033 -->
01:04:43.503i wasn't in his experience so i don't know what actually led him to make those
01:04:43.503 -->
01:04:45.025decisions i'm just viewing it from,
01:04:45.606 -->
01:04:49.703the experience i had of it and being like that was all terrible that's dramatic
01:04:49.703 -->
01:04:53.783all terrible choices that's dramatic no i just my experience of it but that's
01:04:53.783 -->
01:04:55.625dramatic it wasn't all terrible it was just,
01:04:56.345 -->
01:05:02.642weird a lot of it was weird and i'm like what are we doing like what um,
01:05:03.925 -->
01:05:09.363so it's yeah just me judging it based off of the experience that i had and comparing
01:05:09.363 -->
01:05:12.644that to the experience i think that i wish that i had.
01:05:15.402 -->
01:05:18.731How do you know that if he was here, it would have been just sunshine and rainbows
01:05:18.731 -->
01:05:25.251the whole way through to this point? Definitely wouldn't have been because people
01:05:25.251 -->
01:05:29.560still die and things still happen. No, I mean like with him.
01:05:30.936 -->
01:05:33.921Well, he would still be alive, so there's that. Yeah, no. You just mean like
01:05:33.921 -->
01:05:35.318his mental state? No, like.
01:05:39.806 -->
01:05:40.091Well.
01:05:42.391 -->
01:05:45.791Let me back that up. Back it up. no keep you can keep driving at home i'm just
01:05:45.791 -->
01:05:47.973confused what you're saying no because i'm like.
01:05:55.376 -->
01:05:58.392I'm changing my mind about what I said. Okay.
01:05:58.613 -->
01:06:03.586Because even if it's not sunshine and rainbows, him being here would be better
01:06:03.586 -->
01:06:05.103than him not being here. Yeah.
01:06:09.433 -->
01:06:19.136But to be, are you angry at anybody who is living for the choices that they be making? Yeah.
01:06:20.973 -->
01:06:28.296Yeah. And then again, I still go, you are not in their shoes and that is literally
01:06:28.296 -->
01:06:32.990not your place or responsibility or,
01:06:35.254 -->
01:06:38.963authority to judge them it's just like you want something that you don't get,
01:06:39.491 -->
01:06:44.135yeah so you're mad about it yeah or i don't want something that i'm getting,
01:06:45.227 -->
01:06:46.719and i'm mad about it Yeah.
01:06:48.965 -->
01:06:55.310I feel that. Why are you doing that? Right. But with a living person, you could say it.
01:06:56.464 -->
01:06:57.880But I'm not gonna. Oh.
01:07:01.567 -->
01:07:05.073Never? Not in the things that are coming to mind.
01:07:07.993 -->
01:07:10.546Because you've tried to say things before and it doesn't work?
01:07:10.546 -->
01:07:12.788Or because it's just not your place? Both.
01:07:13.516 -->
01:07:16.486But mostly because it's just not my place. like where i'm at right now is just
01:07:16.486 -->
01:07:24.415going okay but like why judge them what would jesus do you know,
01:07:26.540 -->
01:07:33.116are you still judging them though i'm trying not to but my brain does it my
01:07:33.116 -->
01:07:36.797brain just does it my brain just does it okay i don't know a little bitty peanut brain.
01:07:41.888 -->
01:07:45.163You know like we all just jump to conclusions about what we think other people
01:07:45.163 -->
01:07:51.353are doing with their lives how we could do it so much better yeah or it's so clear to see how,
01:07:52.394 -->
01:07:56.753bad the choices you're making are or whatever you know yeah like oh from an
01:07:56.753 -->
01:07:59.173outside perspective it just makes so much sense,
01:08:00.206 -->
01:08:05.321and then you're like yeah but no that's not how it is yeah but no yeah but no,
01:08:05.837 -->
01:08:10.283i don't think it's just because everybody's clouded and has poor judgment on
01:08:10.283 -->
01:08:12.797their own lives obviously that's not true it's just,
01:08:13.627 -->
01:08:17.683there's so much more nuance when you're living the experience but when someone's
01:08:17.683 -->
01:08:21.969just telling you there or you're observing their experience you're just getting like,
01:08:22.863 -->
01:08:24.849the main headline bullet points.
01:08:26.526 -->
01:08:30.549Of someone's life and yeah oh i know the solution to that,
01:08:31.769 -->
01:08:35.333no you fucking know so you were what was the question that you asked earlier
01:08:35.333 -->
01:08:38.357though to yourself was like was this just like your own,
01:08:39.315 -->
01:08:44.363like you just came up with this answer to yeah so that whole process of me journaling
01:08:44.363 -->
01:08:48.253about it and going why why why why why until you get to something deeper,
01:08:49.444 -->
01:08:52.833i question that whole process still even though it did get me to something that
01:08:52.833 -->
01:08:59.637did spark real emotion and felt like it was something i'm just like that whole process is,
01:09:00.821 -->
01:09:05.447me just coming up with answer answers that i feel like are right in the moment,
01:09:06.986 -->
01:09:10.793and then every day that i in the future from that moment that i'm reflecting
01:09:10.793 -->
01:09:13.778back on that and thinking about it i'm just like choose it i'm thinking
01:09:14.184 -->
01:09:17.323am i going to choose to identify with that am i going to choose to believe that
01:09:17.323 -->
01:09:20.923that is the story because it was just a little journal exercise that i did to
01:09:20.923 -->
01:09:23.193come to some conclusion about why I'm feeling so angry.
01:09:24.099 -->
01:09:27.153But really, that's just an emotion that I'm feeling and choosing to identify
01:09:27.153 -->
01:09:30.943with and say, oh, I need to go into that because I'm feeling angry.
01:09:32.249 -->
01:09:33.242What if it's just...
01:09:35.140 -->
01:09:38.553Happening what if the anger is just there and,
01:09:40.057 -->
01:09:44.340yeah it's not to say ignore it and like feel it and process it i guess but does
01:09:44.340 -->
01:09:48.573that mean i need to dissect it and pull it apart and say like what is this coming from,
01:09:49.670 -->
01:09:53.180how do i know for sure that the answer that i come to with that question of
01:09:53.180 -->
01:09:57.100where is this coming from is fucking real or not that's what i'm saying versus
01:09:57.100 -->
01:09:58.701me just making up a story that i feel good about,
01:10:01.215 -->
01:10:03.647are your emotions real i don't know,
01:10:05.830 -->
01:10:10.960just nothing what's even real free will isn't real nothing's real your emotions
01:10:10.960 -->
01:10:17.225aren't real nothing what is real that's actually leading you to,
01:10:19.268 -->
01:10:26.140a place other than this present moment but i guess the reason why you want to
01:10:26.140 -->
01:10:31.020go diving into why is because you want the feeling to go away now yeah and you've
01:10:31.020 -->
01:10:32.074got the feeling to go away,
01:10:33.450 -->
01:10:37.937i went to bed but you had emotional release did you not feel better after that
01:10:38.210 -->
01:10:39.882no i did yeah i guess it did,
01:10:40.967 -->
01:10:43.660but then it's like okay maybe that's all it was maybe it's just that emotional
01:10:43.660 -->
01:10:47.850release but yeah do i choose to identify with that story and then go forward
01:10:47.850 -->
01:10:52.826saying that was the thing that made me angry you know did you choose,
01:10:53.853 -->
01:10:57.580just choose to identify with i haven't decided it's still up in the air,
01:11:00.088 -->
01:11:02.270undecided but.
01:11:05.062 -->
01:11:10.238I mean, you're getting into some scary territory. Why? You're getting into the
01:11:10.238 -->
01:11:12.168just nothing means anything. No.
01:11:12.848 -->
01:11:17.278And nothing is anything. No. And that to me is, I say scary,
01:11:17.278 -->
01:11:20.988but it's also not in my brain because I feel like once I get there,
01:11:20.988 -->
01:11:24.548then I'm just like, oh, fuck it. Then, you know, it's just like, what the fuck?
01:11:24.948 -->
01:11:27.828But sometimes it does feel like I'm lost with no direction.
01:11:28.788 -->
01:11:32.509Lost with no direction. Yeah. I don't know, though.
01:11:33.350 -->
01:11:38.188That's the only line I remember. Yeah. but i gotta be strong that's what it
01:11:38.188 -->
01:11:45.468is oh hannah montana yeah always is knew it miley sorry no it's hannah montana um the name's hannah.
01:11:48.988 -->
01:11:53.488Yeah it's always gonna be another mountain that's miley and cyrus yeah you're
01:11:53.488 -->
01:12:01.370right don't get it twisted my bad my bad um no i don't think it's scary scary territory because,
01:12:03.703 -->
01:12:09.588i'm not like taking it that serious it's just like a funny right experiment
01:12:09.588 -->
01:12:14.018in my head like i'm not taking myself so seriously and by self i mean all those
01:12:14.018 -->
01:12:18.071things that i'm identifying with yeah because i feel like if you took even like that,
01:12:18.883 -->
01:12:21.414why session too seriously like you could be,
01:12:22.767 -->
01:12:26.758down in a hole well i think doing that a lot where you take the those types
01:12:26.758 -->
01:12:28.137of things very seriously like.
01:12:29.891 -->
01:12:34.760The thing I journaled about or or the the way that my therapy session went or how my,
01:12:36.236 -->
01:12:40.616my medicine ceremony went and like all the things not to say there's not value
01:12:40.616 -->
01:12:41.936there because I think there is but like,
01:12:42.986 -->
01:12:44.216I don't want to take all of those
01:12:44.216 -->
01:12:48.756things too seriously because then I'm sensing that could push me into,
01:12:49.741 -->
01:12:56.096like a spiritual materialism territory where now in pursuit of ascending beyond
01:12:56.476 -->
01:13:02.495my ego i am now just creating another ego that is more spiritually aware than my last one,
01:13:03.644 -->
01:13:06.292and you're still in the same predicament of,
01:13:07.656 -->
01:13:12.316now just identifying as someone that's woke because i've done my work right
01:13:12.316 -->
01:13:16.286it's like at the end of the day that doesn't matter like i'm not trying to like
01:13:16.286 -->
01:13:22.284create another ego version of myself that is air quotes healed,
01:13:23.323 -->
01:13:27.382like i'm just experiencing and trying not to,
01:13:28.548 -->
01:13:34.496bring unnecessary suffering upon myself period and that's like okay well how
01:13:34.496 -->
01:13:37.746am i doing that then is me identifying with all these stories just bringing
01:13:37.746 -->
01:13:41.742unnecessary suffering upon myself have you come to that conclusion before,
01:13:42.596 -->
01:13:43.965i feel like oh i'm just mad at my dad,
01:13:45.584 -->
01:13:47.128um i've had the thought.
01:13:49.595 -->
01:13:54.373Yeah i guess never like that clearly though no because,
01:13:56.318 -->
01:14:00.096i would i would do the thing where like instantly that i kind of have that thought
01:14:00.096 -->
01:14:04.206of like a little bit of anger then instantly i'd be like you can't be angry
01:14:04.206 -->
01:14:07.196at someone that's dead because can you,
01:14:08.476 -->
01:14:13.126know because like i quickly i'm like well they you know my parents do the best
01:14:13.126 -->
01:14:17.456they can he did the best he could and like i don't want to like remember,
01:14:18.133 -->
01:14:23.700my relationship with him as like feeling angry like i just want to remember the good things just,
01:14:26.126 -->
01:14:26.956stay on the bright side,
01:14:31.530 -->
01:14:35.345you know someone who was saying that at work like so much and i was just like
01:14:35.345 -->
01:14:41.095shut up that was shut up do you even listen i don't even know if they know i
01:14:41.095 -->
01:14:45.832have a podcast or that it's called that but i was like oh the bright side again oh,
01:14:47.995 -->
01:14:51.161here it is i'm just kidding i thought it was funny but,
01:14:54.087 -->
01:14:55.387yeah um.
01:15:00.438 -->
01:15:07.911So anyway so anyway that's where my head's been at that's all that whole 20
01:15:07.911 -->
01:15:10.641minute rambling i just did is everything that goes through my head when someone
01:15:10.641 -->
01:15:14.005goes hi how are you 20 minutes is crazy a question that i hate,
01:15:15.752 -->
01:15:19.304hi how are you no is like oh so what's new.
01:15:21.464 -->
01:15:24.391Oh especially with somebody you haven't seen in a long time and i was going
01:15:24.391 -->
01:15:27.451on a rant about this the other day of how i hated that and during the rant i
01:15:27.451 -->
01:15:30.026was like oh well maybe i'm just being a bitch,
01:15:31.785 -->
01:15:36.431maybe they're just trying to like connect i just like the question feels way
01:15:36.431 -->
01:15:42.121too broad to ever answer it's like everything's new have you ever literally
01:15:42.121 -->
01:15:45.095so then it's been a year since i've seen you nothing's the same yeah,
01:15:46.401 -->
01:15:49.831so that's where my brain goes but then my brain after that goes to well then
01:15:49.831 -->
01:15:53.711pick one thing it would be that's something to talk about like and then i'm
01:15:53.721 -->
01:15:55.581like you don't have to be such a negative little piece of,
01:15:56.781 -->
01:16:00.171give me 20 minutes while i rack through ask me a better question every change
01:16:00.171 -->
01:16:02.331that i've been through since i last saw you let me go through that real quick
01:16:02.331 -->
01:16:07.501in my head next time i'm gonna be like what is like what is the area of my life
01:16:07.501 -->
01:16:10.979you are most interested in oh that's a good response and i'll give you,
01:16:12.338 -->
01:16:15.443the new of that yeah we could start there i don't,
01:16:16.117 -->
01:16:19.671i don't have all the time i got 20 minutes i don't know what you value the most
01:16:19.671 -->
01:16:25.031about me oh that's a good you know question i'm curious about your what were
01:16:25.031 -->
01:16:28.040you wanting to get into with me yeah you know right,
01:16:28.603 -->
01:16:32.481so maybe i should just actually become more clever and better and more interesting
01:16:32.481 -->
01:16:34.739and then i don't need to hate somebody's question,
01:16:35.470 -->
01:16:40.009and now that we have this conversation that can happen yeah so thanks for opening up hey what's new,
01:16:41.234 -->
01:16:42.561shut the fuck up i'm just trying.
01:16:44.401 -->
01:16:48.681To role play what is new since the last time i saw you when was the last time
01:16:48.681 -->
01:16:51.416i saw you saturday yeah what's new since the last time i saw you,
01:16:52.995 -->
01:16:55.757You're not doing it. Oh, what's...
01:16:58.281 -->
01:17:05.236Well, for you, not everything is new. What area are you the most interested in my life?
01:17:07.285 -->
01:17:12.117Your romantic relationships and what's new in that.
01:17:17.793 -->
01:17:18.737What's new?
01:17:22.193 -->
01:17:25.620I mean but like next question,
01:17:27.771 -->
01:17:36.084it's eric's birthday today yeah oh happy birthday so but like what's new,
01:17:39.043 -->
01:17:43.730it's basically the same old actually i feel like i could tell you about some
01:17:43.730 -->
01:17:49.880conversation but i'm gonna that's rude not here oh not now not here not now,
01:17:51.920 -->
01:17:57.160um but i knew that that's the area you wanted to know about i mean i've got
01:17:57.160 -->
01:17:59.152the deal on a lot of the other ones more recently,
01:17:59.802 -->
01:18:04.790yeah just really not that much new i've been noticing that i've been just not
01:18:04.790 -->
01:18:08.070seeing anybody lately and that's why i was asking you earlier about how much
01:18:08.070 -->
01:18:10.709you clean your house because i'm like every day i'm like okay,
01:18:12.288 -->
01:18:16.450i need to clean my entire house and then you have a three-year-old and then
01:18:16.450 -->
01:18:24.403what else is there you know then go to bed that's every day yeah yeah that's l-i-v-i-m baby.
01:18:27.033 -->
01:18:33.800So when when when is the time that i spend with other people right now you're
01:18:33.800 -->
01:18:38.940spending time with me yeah um last weekend we spent time together yeah um we're
01:18:38.940 -->
01:18:41.320gonna spend time together in three weekends from now,
01:18:43.135 -->
01:18:44.145we'll see each other again.
01:18:46.444 -->
01:18:51.657Lately it's every tuesday or monday it's tuesday i know,
01:18:52.411 -->
01:18:56.800you wish it was monday yeah i know some like i thought that but then also you've
01:18:56.800 -->
01:19:02.019been like tuesday and so i'll say you made me tuesday well we just like make the plan monday night,
01:19:02.831 -->
01:19:07.214well we can make it for monday yeah okay,
01:19:08.044 -->
01:19:11.270to record is what we're talking about guys to be here now with you all to be
01:19:11.270 -->
01:19:16.510here now and so i guess it could be like a weekly you know what's new what happened
01:19:16.510 -->
01:19:17.704in this last week with you,
01:19:19.816 -->
01:19:24.443but what was this last week literally what i already told you mine i've been
01:19:24.443 -->
01:19:29.452i went to a party did you know that no what kind of party birthday party oh,
01:19:30.410 -->
01:19:33.021like adult birthday party oh was it like,
01:19:34.517 -->
01:19:42.993shots okay like what's the college party vibe um kind of okay shots and eventually
01:19:42.993 -->
01:19:44.161some people were wrestling,
01:19:45.351 -->
01:19:48.413it always happens and that would have been me if i was there yeah it It would
01:19:48.413 -->
01:19:50.499have been because it was... I would have whipped their asses.
01:19:51.637 -->
01:19:54.363You would have. Actually, I don't know. Both of them seem...
01:19:54.940 -->
01:19:58.113Both of these ladies. Oh, it was ladies? Yes. Oh, that's... That's what I'm
01:19:58.113 -->
01:19:59.483saying. You would have been in there. Damn.
01:20:00.600 -->
01:20:04.524You would have been in there. Invite me next time.
01:20:05.643 -->
01:20:08.222It was late. Oh. Yeah. Never mind. Mm-hmm.
01:20:12.088 -->
01:20:17.342But what else was at the party? Shots and... Yeah.
01:20:18.689 -->
01:20:23.425At one point, we convinced Allie to go hide and we'll find her.
01:20:24.923 -->
01:20:28.803You never looked? I never looked. I'll be honest. And I was the one making it
01:20:28.803 -->
01:20:32.538happen. But the herd looked.
01:20:33.183 -->
01:20:35.823The crew looked. Someone looked. Other people looked. Yeah, no.
01:20:37.103 -->
01:20:40.003But in my eyes, she was out of bounds now that I found out where she was.
01:20:40.003 -->
01:20:42.603And she was underneath her car.
01:20:43.479 -->
01:20:46.330Oh, my God. Hiding underneath her car. That's crazy. Yeah.
01:20:47.225 -->
01:20:51.633And i was like i would have never looked there ali i'm so sorry how long was
01:20:51.633 -->
01:20:57.545she there not that long you know it's um really hard being the champion of hide and go seek,
01:20:58.630 -->
01:21:01.144Do you think you're the champion? I almost died from it once.
01:21:01.847 -->
01:21:04.023I think that makes me the champion. Does it? Yeah.
01:21:05.112 -->
01:21:07.740You're not the reigning champ forever because you almost died once.
01:21:08.528 -->
01:21:10.618I'm sorry. I'm actually really good at it, though.
01:21:11.535 -->
01:21:15.552We'll play next time. Okay. Because Saint was actually asking me yesterday to
01:21:15.552 -->
01:21:16.597play hide and seek with him.
01:21:17.642 -->
01:21:19.812Whenever I play hide and seek with him, granted, he's a child.
01:21:20.713 -->
01:21:24.042Well, okay, that doesn't count. No, I know, but I'm talking like even when we
01:21:24.042 -->
01:21:26.129were little and I play hide and seek.
01:21:26.553 -->
01:21:32.062You think you have the best ideas? I do. you do i do you always do and i remember
01:21:32.062 -->
01:21:35.082in this in the old house we lived in in vegas i found the best hiding spot and
01:21:35.082 -->
01:21:38.362everybody was like nobody ever found you yeah it kind of gets annoying when
01:21:38.372 -->
01:21:41.435nobody's finding you there would be multiple times where people would be like where are you hiding
01:21:41.737 -->
01:21:45.132and i'd be like i'm not telling you because then my spot is ruined,
01:21:46.085 -->
01:21:50.452and then everybody would covet my information i'd have to keep a secret beat
01:21:50.452 -->
01:21:53.392you out of it beat it out of you beat me out of it.
01:21:56.272 -->
01:22:00.292Um sometimes i would tell but i wouldn't always divulge my secrets where where
01:22:00.292 -->
01:22:04.032was it it was like one of those living rooms that's vaulted,
01:22:04.934 -->
01:22:10.702and so it's two-story and there was like a tall fireplace okay going up it and
01:22:10.702 -->
01:22:17.026there was like a bench not a bench but like a shelf um up above the fireplace,
01:22:17.635 -->
01:22:20.882and you couldn't tell just from looking at it but it kind of like wrapped around
01:22:20.882 -->
01:22:24.382the back kind of weird but like it wasn't just like a shelf it kind of went
01:22:24.382 -->
01:22:26.482behind and i just went and hid behind there,
01:22:27.372 -->
01:22:30.832behind the little fireplace chimney thing i just hid there forever and it gets
01:22:30.832 -->
01:22:33.435to the point where multiple times when i was little it gets to the point where,
01:22:33.929 -->
01:22:35.420they'd be like dad have you seen kylie,
01:22:37.039 -->
01:22:40.539fucking find her like where is this bitch that's when you know it gets bad when
01:22:40.539 -->
01:22:44.179you're asking the the people who are not playing and then everybody's like kylie
01:22:44.179 -->
01:22:47.653come out and i'm waiting for someone to not be in the room so i can come out
01:22:47.891 -->
01:22:50.224and find them right so they didn't see where i came out of,
01:22:51.141 -->
01:22:54.849and that was my plan that time i almost died but then i almost died but you
01:22:54.849 -->
01:22:56.023couldn't get out but i couldn't get out,
01:22:57.097 -->
01:23:01.497there wasn't it's because you were in the trunk of a car right in a garage in summer.
01:23:03.518 -->
01:23:07.131There wasn't like a middle thing for you to kick out or did you just not think
01:23:07.131 -->
01:23:09.665of that i was hitting everything i could oh you,
01:23:10.501 -->
01:23:14.871know but no there wasn't like a not that i saw i was looking for the lever that
01:23:14.871 -->
01:23:17.801you pulled to fold the seat down and i couldn't find that and then were you
01:23:17.801 -->
01:23:19.922getting hot or were you starting to panic both,
01:23:21.002 -->
01:23:25.171were you starting to panic because you were getting hot yeah like actually hot
01:23:25.171 -->
01:23:28.071yeah and i'm like it's getting really hot in here and like they haven't found
01:23:28.071 -->
01:23:32.121me or did you start panicking and then you started getting even more hot because
01:23:32.121 -->
01:23:34.585you're panicking probably did make me more hot yeah,
01:23:35.624 -->
01:23:39.025because i'm banging on the fucking trunk yeah and yelling yeah,
01:23:40.152 -->
01:23:43.803so it's too good it's too good too good.
01:23:45.901 -->
01:23:49.621Well we'll play yeah we'll play we'll play for sure actually i do like hide
01:23:49.621 -->
01:23:52.401and go seek in the dark i fuck with that that's what they were trying to play
01:23:52.401 -->
01:23:57.761originally and then and then it was just like you hide actually nobody else
01:23:57.761 -->
01:23:59.714wants to play you just go hide,
01:24:00.649 -->
01:24:05.541do you like games at a party oh yeah i don't like games at a party what do you
01:24:05.541 -->
01:24:10.274like to do at a party i'm more of like chatting no,
01:24:11.847 -->
01:24:16.331like is everybody sit down we're gonna play a card game oh no i was thinking
01:24:16.331 -->
01:24:19.945like arm wrestle or like hide and go seek you know,
01:24:21.161 -->
01:24:25.876or like those games where it's like on your phone but on the screen me i mean
01:24:25.992 -->
01:24:30.700that's bottom tier the bottom tier game see chatting is above that,
01:24:31.716 -->
01:24:35.841depends on the crowd i'm like above that yeah i guess if it's just like oh everybody's
01:24:35.841 -->
01:24:41.004freaking bored here let's throw up that game yeah yeah bottom feeder,
01:24:42.020 -->
01:24:45.201i actually like that game i don't know why i'm like hating on it there no not
01:24:45.201 -->
01:24:49.211bottom feeder but like what's that like whatever game yeah you play on your
01:24:49.211 -->
01:24:52.811i don't know what it's called jackbox yes yeah,
01:24:53.775 -->
01:24:58.280yes no there's certain things in that game that i like i don't like the whole game,
01:24:59.447 -->
01:25:02.639fair just so everybody knows how i feel about it i want to know.
01:25:13.563 -->
01:25:19.688You know yeah um i feel like i was being rude just now yeah and i want to take
01:25:19.688 -->
01:25:25.822it back well you could apologize you are the queen of hide and seek apologize and i'm sorry okay,
01:25:28.185 -->
01:25:34.704thanks say it say it um we'll see if i still am,
01:25:35.853 -->
01:25:40.128oh yeah we will see i have to defend now and now i now i'm now i'm coming for
01:25:40.128 -->
01:25:48.948your neck oh yeah oh now we're not playing and uh saying i don't want to say
01:25:48.948 -->
01:25:50.331he can't be there but like,
01:25:52.096 -->
01:25:55.108you know he's gonna fuck it up if he's like with me you know what i mean like
01:25:55.108 -->
01:25:56.168he's not gonna want to hide for
01:25:56.168 -->
01:26:00.388as long as i'll hide right you know like let's just go out and yeah and,
01:26:01.248 -->
01:26:04.518i couldn't tell my spot it would instantly give me up but also he's probably
01:26:04.518 -->
01:26:07.968talking the whole time exactly he actually never stops talking,
01:26:08.948 -->
01:26:13.918yeah i know these days it's on another level literally um,
01:26:16.048 -->
01:26:21.067i think that's cute unless i was around at 24 7 it is cute it's the,
01:26:22.710 -->
01:26:27.578it's the mom and then he says nothing after that though mom mom mom mom mom
01:26:27.578 -->
01:26:32.654mom i'm like what and it's just like i'm like oh you're gonna.
01:26:37.246 -->
01:26:41.758Oh they're tests somebody's testing me somebody's fucking testing me they've
01:26:41.758 -->
01:26:47.678got then you go saint what what what what should i bother him no don't pull
01:26:47.678 -->
01:26:49.540him out of his i don't know,
01:26:51.374 -->
01:26:58.857said he's gonna find something to need oh yeah like don't no i give you busy
01:26:58.857 -->
01:27:03.013doing something i would never bother that never no,
01:27:04.317 -->
01:27:09.822he's working very busy he is putting stickers on the window leave him be,
01:27:11.250 -->
01:27:14.937god i would i would interrupt that because i know i'm gonna have to scrape that
01:27:14.937 -->
01:27:17.624off later no i mean like not stickers like,
01:27:18.761 -->
01:27:21.997they're acceptable on the window they're like a little gooey things what are
01:27:21.997 -->
01:27:27.407those oh yeah halloween decorations yeah they're like at the bottom of the window
01:27:27.407 -->
01:27:29.413where the bushes cover so you can't even see them,
01:27:30.614 -->
01:27:36.007and they're actually all ripped up and just on the window seal because he's
01:27:36.007 -->
01:27:40.042taking them off and put them back on a million times yeah he's always like mom i ripped this one,
01:27:41.313 -->
01:27:43.350i'm like just put them back together close together,
01:27:45.330 -->
01:27:51.042it's fine i love him let me think if he said anything funny since the last time i saw you.
01:27:54.258 -->
01:28:01.955No i'm sure he did i'm like he does always every day but like did it stick with me not this time.
01:28:07.766 -->
01:28:13.507Well all's to say all's to say how long was that an hour and a half wow I know.
01:28:14.268 -->
01:28:17.041Do you feel like you're done? Yeah, it's date night.
01:28:18.539 -->
01:28:22.357Also, I need to go to the bathroom. I was going to say before you said that,
01:28:22.357 -->
01:28:26.376I was going to say take a shit. No, I'm bleeding out of my couch. Oh my God, right. Okay.
01:28:27.885 -->
01:28:31.287And I'm on a white chair. Oh yeah, get out of here. I'm going to go.
01:28:31.287 -->
01:28:35.497Get off of that chair. With loves and likes. Shits and giggles.
