OVER DEZE AFLEVERING
This week’s episode starts with a simple question:
What if the thing you’ve been trying to grow isn’t actually the thing you want?
After spending the last year and a half building a YouTube channel from zero, I found myself looking at subscriber numbers, view counts and performance charts in exactly the same way I once looked at sales targets. The numbers were growing, but so was the pressure. Somewhere along the way I realised I was chasing bigger without ever stopping to ask whether bigger was actually better.
We talk about the reality of virality, the hidden cost of millions of views, losing subscribers, and why some of the channel’s biggest successes brought the least satisfaction. I also share what surprised me most when I discovered that more than 6,000 people have subscribed to the channel and later left.
The conversation then turns to something I’ve never shared publicly before: a personal strategy document I wrote at the beginning of this journey called The Doctrine. Looking back at those original goals forced me to confront a question that applies far beyond YouTube. The same lesson seems to keep appearing everywhere. More money did not automatically create a better life. More possessions did not create happiness. More destinations did not create fulfilment. And more subscribers are not necessarily better either.
Along the way we talk about community, the familiar faces who keep turning up week after week, the difference between an audience and a crowd, and why protecting something meaningful may matter more than endlessly expanding it.
A conversation about growth, identity, and the moment you realise the scoreboard might not be keeping score of the right thing.
