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Hello and welcome to this last episode of the beginning of our summer together, summer solstice.
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Blessings to everyone listening and everyone abound in the world.
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This is my favorite season.
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I'm very excited to be here with you.
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And I will be taking a break from the podcast in July, going on my first ever Europe trip.
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And I will be away for most of July.
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I'm very excited.
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I will be, of course, creating some content, but I made a beautiful Substack that I will link in the show notes that I am going to, of course, do the podcast on today.
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And it is called Externally Stretching.
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Okay.
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When we stretch not just internally, which is so important, but we externally stretch our energy abound outwards, right?
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Leaving our comfort zones to grow.
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So I'm going to talk about why this is important.
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And I am writing for my journey ahead.
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That's why I'm so inspired about this.
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Entering my new life as an empty-nested mama of four, always been and will be my favorite number.
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So summer solstice has arrived.
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I believe we are in day two right now, officially, or maybe even today is the first day.
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It's the 22nd as I'm recording.
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And my most loved season, and this particular summer of 2026 may be the one that stretches me the most.
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A few months ago, upon feeling settled in my next temporary home, I spontaneously felt the need to go travel alone, to be abroad somewhere in a place that I've wanted to go for decades, but wasn't able to for obvious reasons.
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Some may or and do judge me for being irresponsible financially, but that's another story for later.
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Sometimes we just got to do what we want to fucking do.
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And we feel called to do it.
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And yeah, things cost money, you know, and we can't always do them.
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And sometimes we can barely do them.
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And and you know, we can have fear around, no, you know, be held back that we shouldn't do this because X, Y, and Z, you know, and be thinking about what's gonna happen in the future.
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And you know what?
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But I'm just like, fuck it.
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I'm gonna do it.
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And I know that things always work out.
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Um, my entire life, I've gone through so much, and it always fucking works out somehow.
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So, you know, like my dad said, he's always been one of the most positive figures in my life.
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I know if some of you, you know, know me or have heard um my podcast that I did on Father's Day last year.
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You may be thinking, is this the same dad?
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Yes, my dad and I strongly disagree on politics.
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I can't even go there.
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But put that aside, he has always been positive, no matter what.
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He's just, I think that's why he's still here, is that he doesn't worry.
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He just doesn't stress about things.
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At least he doesn't appear to, right?
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He's very jovial, has a good personality, he's just always kind of lighthearted and just always looks at the bright side.
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And you can tell the way he speaks that he's grateful, and he'll even, you know, tell me, you know, how grateful he is for his grandkids and how he thinks that it's a good idea that I go on this trip.
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And I think at first he was a little bit shocked.
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I think you know, a lot of people were, but that, you know, I may never get to do it again.
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We don't know what tomorrow brings, right?
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We don't know, you know, how much longer we're gonna be here, if we're gonna, you know, and the state of the world and what's gonna happen next.
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And so I'm just like, you know what?
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I'm gonna do it.
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I've waited this long.
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I have an opportunity where I'm more freed up now.
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And I just barely have enough money to do it.
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I thought I had a little bit more.
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And as it gets closer and you start, you know, really seeing how much, because I started planning this like two or three months ago, I'm like, holy shit, like I'm barely gonna pull this off.
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But I'm fucking doing it.
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There's no turning back.
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In my heart, that everything always works out no matter what, after so much of my life going sideways or upside down, hitting rock bottoms, and then somehow pulling through the most difficult moments, which I am still pulling through, but I've I've pulled through a lot just in this year since February.
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I yeah, I I definitely am here comfortable in my own space.
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I was discombobulated, you know, not having a home for months.
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I actually, that's when I first started thinking about leaving the fucking country because I was like, I'm not finding a home here.
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I'm not even like attached here for any particular reason.
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I could just leave, you know, maybe I just go work on a farm abroad or something.
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I love farming.
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I love organic gardening, I love being in nature, you know, I've got my passport.
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Maybe I just get the hell out of here, right?
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So that's actually what first got me sparked with this energy.
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And then a few weeks later, I did find a home.
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And I was like, okay, well, maybe I'm not gonna do that.
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But then once I got settled, I was like, you know what?
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Maybe I can still do it.
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So I will be blogging about this.
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I will be trying to post as much as possible.
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I am having a very difficult time right now for whatever reason with both of my devices, my phone, my iPhone and my MacBook are pretty much completely like maxed out.
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Um and I've been trying to juggle my storage and delete things and figure out how I'm going to manage my storage while I'm over there and be able to, of course, take some video and some photos and hopefully upload.
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Um, so that's you know, kind of my one of my biggest issues right now.
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But um, I know that everything always works out.
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You just have to trust and believe, pulling through in the most difficult moments of life.
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Okay, so definitely still tough at times to believe in what is not seen.
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Surreality, which comes from the word surreal, right?
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I knew that was a word.
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I looked it up surround surreality, which I can't even say the fucking word, is a journey I'm in currently.
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And I challenge each of us to be a part of leaving what feels all too comfortable to stretch outside of what we know, even if we feel it's impossible.
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I'm not completely living my most surreal existence yet, though this sounds amazing, and I hope someday that I can.
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That is where I strive to be.
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Just feeling like blissed out, this is surreal, I'm giving thanks.
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Um, I mean, that's that's what I believe, why what we're here to strive for and who we truly are, right?
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We were, and I'm sure a lot of you are hearing this, and it's fucking true.
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We were all taught, we were brainwashed.
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Okay, let's just say that.
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And a lot of people are still being brainwashed, and it's sad to see.
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But we were fucking brainwashed by the system growing up.
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99% of us probably were.
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At least I'm gonna speak for the US.
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And so now it's the unraveling of that.
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And I love seeing people that are doing that, and I'm on that train.
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So in just 10 more days, I will be flying high in the sky on my first trip ever to Europe.
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I know this may sound like nothing to many souls who have danced here and there in one or maybe multiple lands so far, but for me as a 52-year-old woman who chose to have my children young when I had little income to barely support our family home, there was not the option of traveling far and wide with all of my kids.
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You know, maybe if I would have had one or two, I would have made that happen.
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But yes, I'm grateful for some experiences to have traveled a handful of times on short trips with either one, two, or three of them to places like Hawaii, Mexico, NYC, and Vancouver, and even Vancouver for a day.
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That was a college trip for my older daughter.
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Of course, we had many good times just traveling locally in our own beautiful state of California.
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But I am ready to conquer challenges with a brave heart, knowing that I'm protected by the most high.
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Stepping out of what's normal, aka comfort zone, is stretching the soul to have more faith as well as breaking down walls of fear.
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For instance, Kundalini Yoga has shown me that the more you push thyself past what feels comfortable, the more you will keep doing this in everyday life.
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For those who know this practice, you know what I'm saying.
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Basically, any defined yoga practice is hard work, pushing you against discomfort to just breathe through the building of endurance, strength, which then builds confidence, and so on.
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So I was using kundalini yoga as said example since the exercises are repetitious in nature, but definitely not boring.
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Okay.
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You just can keep going and not give up.
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Because if you can do that while you're working out your body and pushing against the resistance of what doesn't feel good, you know, building muscle and strength and endurance, then that is going to also help you with other things in life.
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Okay, so that's that's going into the physical.
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I'm talking about going into the external, okay, not the internal, but the external and pushing the energies and the boundaries that sometimes, you know, are around us of wherever we are living in our own reality can keep us, you know, it's good to be grounded, okay.
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Actually, really want to be grounded.
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I really hope that I just have my own place someday and I can just be a homesteader and just like not move around any fucking more.
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That is like my biggest dream.
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But for now, I believe going out into the outer world, I chose Europe because I have six or seven.
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No, I think it's seven, actually.
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I used to be six, and then we found out there was one more in the lineage.
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Different countries that my ancestors came from in Europe.
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So I'm mostly European blood with a little bit of Native American.
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So why would I not want to go there, right?
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I'm not gonna be able to go to all the countries.
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I'm only going to actually one country.
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Um, I will only be in Italy for half of my trip, or a little bit more than half of my trip is in Italy, like two-thirds of it.
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Um, and my mother is half Italian, my grandfather is full-blooded Italian, so I am a quarter Italian, my kids are all a quarter Italian, well, three of my kids, um, because their dad was also a quarter Italian.
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So we have both their parents are a quarter Italian from different parts of Italy, they are, you know, a quarter Italian.
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So, of course, that's one place that I want to go.
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And I will be working on two different farms there that are biologic farms doing sustainable farming methods, permaculture, organic farming.
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And I am so excited about that.
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That is a week of my stay in Italy, which is over half of it.
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I think there's another like five or six nights that I will be there, that I won't be on the farm on two different farms.
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But yeah, so excited to tell you about that.
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So back to um surrendering, to trusting the process of where we are led tremendously helps to keeping the flow going downstream.
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We want to be going downstream, not upstream, right?
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Intuition tapping is always essential.
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As this is ultimately the truth that guides us to our highest self and thus shifts our perspective into a more peaceful one of knowing we are on the right path, no matter what.
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Back in recalling a powerfully intensive self-growth workshop I attended in 2007, where the group on the final day had to pick an activity to stretch our souls, like becoming a homeless person for a day, skydiving, or contacting multiple people that we may need to forgive or be forgiven.
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Those are all scary things to do, right?
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And I think there was like other things.
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I those are just the ones I could remember.
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These all were ways that were scary for many of us.
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And some of us never do these things, right?
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So when we do such or other actions in life, what happens is life changing.
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More growth happens every time we stretch this muscle to go outside of our boundaries, okay, to push our energy out.
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So why not stretch into the unknown?
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Well, if you're good, you're good, right?
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I believe it seems is that some people just are.
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But if you are searching for more out of life and like myself, feel the need to dive into the unknown waters of where my ancestors once were, then do it like now is is like no other time on this journey.
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Okay, like I'm just doing it now, I'm just making it happen.
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We do not know what the future holds, y'all.
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So all I know is I am transforming into the best version of my true authentic self, and I just want to be free, and to just be.
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So thank you so much for listening today.
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I love and appreciate all of you out there, all of you good people doing good things, spreading kindness and love throughout the world, wherever you are.
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I like I said, will try to be sharing clips and you know things when I'm over there and I will be doing lots of writing.
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I'm hoping to work on my book that I said I would have finished by now, but maybe it'll be finished by next year if I get it done this year.
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So I thought, you know what?
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If all else, I can just be like, okay, I'm away from home.
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I don't have the distractions of everyday life.
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I can work on this project that for whatever reason, I have too many other things going on when I am at home to work on this, but I really do want to finish it.
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So that is one thing that I'm planning on doing.
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I did buy a new journal because I have like six other journals I've been writing in for the last, you know, decade.
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And um, you know, there's a few pages left in each one, and I'm like, this is ridiculous.
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Like, why am I juggling all these journals?
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So I finally bought myself a new journal.
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It had probably been at least five years, and I am taking that on this trip.
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I haven't written one thing in it yet, and probably will on the plane there.
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And then I will be writing, um, working on my book, and I will be creating content, and I will just be enjoying vacation, right?
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Because this needs to be treated as such.
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So I wish you a wonderful summer, and I will be also putting out my yoga videos like I promised every other week.
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Um, that should still happen as long as I don't run into more space issues.
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And please follow me on my YouTube channel.
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Um, forgive the recordings that maybe aren't the best.
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I'm practicing, I'm getting it all down with the camera and the set and how to um record in the best way.
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I will be doing a lot of things on chronic pain, you know, short under 10 minute videos with just maybe like three or four different asanas to open up certain areas of the body and loving ourselves and bringing in self love every time.
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Hello and welcome to this last episode of the beginning of our summer together, summer solstice.
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Blessings to everyone listening and everyone abound in the world.
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This is my favorite season.
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I'm very excited to be here with you.
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And I will be taking a break from the podcast in July, going on my first ever Europe trip.
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And I will be away for most of July.
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I'm very excited.
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I will be, of course, creating some content, but I made a beautiful Substack that I will link in the show notes that I am going to, of course, do the podcast on today.
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And it is called Externally Stretching.
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Okay.
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When we stretch not just internally, which is so important, but we externally stretch our energy abound outwards, right?
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Leaving our comfort zones to grow.
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So I'm going to talk about why this is important.
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And I am writing for my journey ahead.
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That's why I'm so inspired about this.
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Entering my new life as an empty-nested mama of four, always been and will be my favorite number.
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So summer solstice has arrived.
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I believe we are in day two right now, officially, or maybe even today is the first day.
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It's the 22nd as I'm recording.
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And my most loved season, and this particular summer of 2026 may be the one that stretches me the most.
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A few months ago, upon feeling settled in my next temporary home, I spontaneously felt the need to go travel alone, to be abroad somewhere in a place that I've wanted to go for decades, but wasn't able to for obvious reasons.
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Some may or and do judge me for being irresponsible financially, but that's another story for later.
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Sometimes we just got to do what we want to fucking do.
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And we feel called to do it.
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And yeah, things cost money, you know, and we can't always do them.
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And sometimes we can barely do them.
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And and you know, we can have fear around, no, you know, be held back that we shouldn't do this because X, Y, and Z, you know, and be thinking about what's gonna happen in the future.
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And you know what?
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But I'm just like, fuck it.
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I'm gonna do it.
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And I know that things always work out.
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Um, my entire life, I've gone through so much, and it always fucking works out somehow.
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So, you know, like my dad said, he's always been one of the most positive figures in my life.
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I know if some of you, you know, know me or have heard um my podcast that I did on Father's Day last year.
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You may be thinking, is this the same dad?
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Yes, my dad and I strongly disagree on politics.
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I can't even go there.
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But put that aside, he has always been positive, no matter what.
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He's just, I think that's why he's still here, is that he doesn't worry.
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He just doesn't stress about things.
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At least he doesn't appear to, right?
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He's very jovial, has a good personality, he's just always kind of lighthearted and just always looks at the bright side.
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And you can tell the way he speaks that he's grateful, and he'll even, you know, tell me, you know, how grateful he is for his grandkids and how he thinks that it's a good idea that I go on this trip.
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And I think at first he was a little bit shocked.
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I think you know, a lot of people were, but that, you know, I may never get to do it again.
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We don't know what tomorrow brings, right?
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We don't know, you know, how much longer we're gonna be here, if we're gonna, you know, and the state of the world and what's gonna happen next.
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And so I'm just like, you know what?
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I'm gonna do it.
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I've waited this long.
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I have an opportunity where I'm more freed up now.
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And I just barely have enough money to do it.
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I thought I had a little bit more.
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And as it gets closer and you start, you know, really seeing how much, because I started planning this like two or three months ago, I'm like, holy shit, like I'm barely gonna pull this off.
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But I'm fucking doing it.
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There's no turning back.
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In my heart, that everything always works out no matter what, after so much of my life going sideways or upside down, hitting rock bottoms, and then somehow pulling through the most difficult moments, which I am still pulling through, but I've I've pulled through a lot just in this year since February.
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I yeah, I I definitely am here comfortable in my own space.
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I was discombobulated, you know, not having a home for months.
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I actually, that's when I first started thinking about leaving the fucking country because I was like, I'm not finding a home here.
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I'm not even like attached here for any particular reason.
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I could just leave, you know, maybe I just go work on a farm abroad or something.
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I love farming.
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I love organic gardening, I love being in nature, you know, I've got my passport.
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Maybe I just get the hell out of here, right?
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So that's actually what first got me sparked with this energy.
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And then a few weeks later, I did find a home.
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And I was like, okay, well, maybe I'm not gonna do that.
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But then once I got settled, I was like, you know what?
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Maybe I can still do it.
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So I will be blogging about this.
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I will be trying to post as much as possible.
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I am having a very difficult time right now for whatever reason with both of my devices, my phone, my iPhone and my MacBook are pretty much completely like maxed out.
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Um and I've been trying to juggle my storage and delete things and figure out how I'm going to manage my storage while I'm over there and be able to, of course, take some video and some photos and hopefully upload.
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Um, so that's you know, kind of my one of my biggest issues right now.
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But um, I know that everything always works out.
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You just have to trust and believe, pulling through in the most difficult moments of life.
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Okay, so definitely still tough at times to believe in what is not seen.
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Surreality, which comes from the word surreal, right?
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I knew that was a word.
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I looked it up surround surreality, which I can't even say the fucking word, is a journey I'm in currently.
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And I challenge each of us to be a part of leaving what feels all too comfortable to stretch outside of what we know, even if we feel it's impossible.
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I'm not completely living my most surreal existence yet, though this sounds amazing, and I hope someday that I can.
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That is where I strive to be.
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Just feeling like blissed out, this is surreal, I'm giving thanks.
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Um, I mean, that's that's what I believe, why what we're here to strive for and who we truly are, right?
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We were, and I'm sure a lot of you are hearing this, and it's fucking true.
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We were all taught, we were brainwashed.
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Okay, let's just say that.
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And a lot of people are still being brainwashed, and it's sad to see.
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But we were fucking brainwashed by the system growing up.
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99% of us probably were.
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At least I'm gonna speak for the US.
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And so now it's the unraveling of that.
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And I love seeing people that are doing that, and I'm on that train.
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So in just 10 more days, I will be flying high in the sky on my first trip ever to Europe.
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I know this may sound like nothing to many souls who have danced here and there in one or maybe multiple lands so far, but for me as a 52-year-old woman who chose to have my children young when I had little income to barely support our family home, there was not the option of traveling far and wide with all of my kids.
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You know, maybe if I would have had one or two, I would have made that happen.
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But yes, I'm grateful for some experiences to have traveled a handful of times on short trips with either one, two, or three of them to places like Hawaii, Mexico, NYC, and Vancouver, and even Vancouver for a day.
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That was a college trip for my older daughter.
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Of course, we had many good times just traveling locally in our own beautiful state of California.
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But I am ready to conquer challenges with a brave heart, knowing that I'm protected by the most high.
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Stepping out of what's normal, aka comfort zone, is stretching the soul to have more faith as well as breaking down walls of fear.
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For instance, Kundalini Yoga has shown me that the more you push thyself past what feels comfortable, the more you will keep doing this in everyday life.
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For those who know this practice, you know what I'm saying.
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Basically, any defined yoga practice is hard work, pushing you against discomfort to just breathe through the building of endurance, strength, which then builds confidence, and so on.
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So I was using kundalini yoga as said example since the exercises are repetitious in nature, but definitely not boring.
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Okay.
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You just can keep going and not give up.
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Because if you can do that while you're working out your body and pushing against the resistance of what doesn't feel good, you know, building muscle and strength and endurance, then that is going to also help you with other things in life.
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Okay, so that's that's going into the physical.
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I'm talking about going into the external, okay, not the internal, but the external and pushing the energies and the boundaries that sometimes, you know, are around us of wherever we are living in our own reality can keep us, you know, it's good to be grounded, okay.
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Actually, really want to be grounded.
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I really hope that I just have my own place someday and I can just be a homesteader and just like not move around any fucking more.
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That is like my biggest dream.
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But for now, I believe going out into the outer world, I chose Europe because I have six or seven.
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No, I think it's seven, actually.
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I used to be six, and then we found out there was one more in the lineage.
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Different countries that my ancestors came from in Europe.
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So I'm mostly European blood with a little bit of Native American.
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So why would I not want to go there, right?
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I'm not gonna be able to go to all the countries.
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I'm only going to actually one country.
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Um, I will only be in Italy for half of my trip, or a little bit more than half of my trip is in Italy, like two-thirds of it.
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Um, and my mother is half Italian, my grandfather is full-blooded Italian, so I am a quarter Italian, my kids are all a quarter Italian, well, three of my kids, um, because their dad was also a quarter Italian.
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So we have both their parents are a quarter Italian from different parts of Italy, they are, you know, a quarter Italian.
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So, of course, that's one place that I want to go.
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And I will be working on two different farms there that are biologic farms doing sustainable farming methods, permaculture, organic farming.
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And I am so excited about that.
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That is a week of my stay in Italy, which is over half of it.
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I think there's another like five or six nights that I will be there, that I won't be on the farm on two different farms.
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But yeah, so excited to tell you about that.
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So back to um surrendering, to trusting the process of where we are led tremendously helps to keeping the flow going downstream.
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We want to be going downstream, not upstream, right?
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Intuition tapping is always essential.
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As this is ultimately the truth that guides us to our highest self and thus shifts our perspective into a more peaceful one of knowing we are on the right path, no matter what.
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Back in recalling a powerfully intensive self-growth workshop I attended in 2007, where the group on the final day had to pick an activity to stretch our souls, like becoming a homeless person for a day, skydiving, or contacting multiple people that we may need to forgive or be forgiven.
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Those are all scary things to do, right?
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And I think there was like other things.
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I those are just the ones I could remember.
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These all were ways that were scary for many of us.
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And some of us never do these things, right?
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So when we do such or other actions in life, what happens is life changing.
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More growth happens every time we stretch this muscle to go outside of our boundaries, okay, to push our energy out.
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So why not stretch into the unknown?
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Well, if you're good, you're good, right?
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I believe it seems is that some people just are.
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But if you are searching for more out of life and like myself, feel the need to dive into the unknown waters of where my ancestors once were, then do it like now is is like no other time on this journey.
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Okay, like I'm just doing it now, I'm just making it happen.
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We do not know what the future holds, y'all.
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So all I know is I am transforming into the best version of my true authentic self, and I just want to be free, and to just be.
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So thank you so much for listening today.
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I love and appreciate all of you out there, all of you good people doing good things, spreading kindness and love throughout the world, wherever you are.
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I like I said, will try to be sharing clips and you know things when I'm over there and I will be doing lots of writing.
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I'm hoping to work on my book that I said I would have finished by now, but maybe it'll be finished by next year if I get it done this year.
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So I thought, you know what?
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If all else, I can just be like, okay, I'm away from home.
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I don't have the distractions of everyday life.
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I can work on this project that for whatever reason, I have too many other things going on when I am at home to work on this, but I really do want to finish it.
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So that is one thing that I'm planning on doing.
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I did buy a new journal because I have like six other journals I've been writing in for the last, you know, decade.
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And um, you know, there's a few pages left in each one, and I'm like, this is ridiculous.
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Like, why am I juggling all these journals?
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So I finally bought myself a new journal.
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It had probably been at least five years, and I am taking that on this trip.
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I haven't written one thing in it yet, and probably will on the plane there.
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And then I will be writing, um, working on my book, and I will be creating content, and I will just be enjoying vacation, right?
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Because this needs to be treated as such.
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So I wish you a wonderful summer, and I will be also putting out my yoga videos like I promised every other week.
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Um, that should still happen as long as I don't run into more space issues.
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And please follow me on my YouTube channel.
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Um, forgive the recordings that maybe aren't the best.
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I'm practicing, I'm getting it all down with the camera and the set and how to um record in the best way.
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I will be doing a lot of things on chronic pain, you know, short under 10 minute videos with just maybe like three or four different asanas to open up certain areas of the body and loving ourselves and bringing in self love every time.
