Conscious Dating Explained: Billy Carson & Seatrice Foster Reveal Their Love Story

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I got contacted by his ex.
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A DM from my ex?
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Slid in my DMs, and she told me, I do pretty good at interrupting you, so good.
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Okay.
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Like how we met, how we're together, why we're together, what happened.
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How did we shift timelines?
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She's like, girl, where are you going?
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I said the Bahamas.
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She was like, girl.
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Billy Carson, the alien guy.
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That I've been watching for years, wants to fly me to the Bahamas.
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And then I was really nervous because, you know, back then they were talking about getting flued out, the young girls and stuff.
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I called my girlfriend.
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I was like, girl.
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I think this is the definition of getting flued out.
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We got by the pools, we relaxed.
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We just had such a great weekend there.
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Um, you know, it was good.
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It was good, yes.
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Speaking of food, it was good, right?
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But here's a caveat.
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So some of you guys may know that Billy used to be vegan for like 30 years, okay?
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And I'm a vegan.
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And so when we first were speaking back in 2020, because it took a while before we met in person, and he was still vegan at that time.
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But when we got there and we were eating, he ordered chicken.
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So I'm sitting here, right?
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I'm like, it's that vegan chicken.
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No, they ain't a vegan chicken.
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It's bones in this chicken.
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He gets to eat in the chicken.
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Like he ain't never had chicken before.
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No more no more.
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I don't need perfect baby.
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No more.
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If I give you my wife, don't buy this wide open.
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Stay within on over.
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My partner, Seatrice Foster.
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Cedris has an extraordinary story.
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She went from being a homeless single mother to becoming a successful entrepreneur, real estate investor, and businesswoman.
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Over the years, she has built and led companies across real estate, lending, consulting, and investing, and has helped facilitate more than a half billion dollars in real estate transactions.
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That's billion with a B.
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Today she leads House Foster Family Office, where she oversees her family's long-term investment strategy across real estate, private equity, emerging opportunities, and legacy-building ventures.
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She also owns and operates several businesses, including Trinity Capital Development, Foster and Williams Real Estate, and UShift Consulting.
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But what I admire the most about Seatrist isn't just what she's accomplished, it's who she is.
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She's a devoted mother, deeply spiritual, adventurous, resilient, and intentional about how she lives and loves.
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She approaches life with curiosity, consciousness, authenticity, and a genuine desire to see people become the highest version of themselves.
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She also knows what it means to overcome.
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Cedrice is a survivor of domestic abuse and recently celebrated 27 years of sobriety.
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Those experiences have shaped the compassion that she carries for others and inspired her work through Nikki's House, a non-profit organization supporting victims and families of impacted by domestic violence.
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And she definitely knows how to enjoy life.
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She loves traveling the world, motorcycles, supercars, spontaneous adventures, and taking her slingshot out whenever she gets a chance.
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What drew me to Seatris was her heart, her resilience, her spirituality, her ambition, and the way that she encourages people to live more boldly, love more deeply, and become more conscious about the lives they are creating.
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Cedris Foster.
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Wow, that was humbling.
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I didn't know it said all of that.
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Yeah.
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Whoa.
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Absolutely.
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And also now I want you to tell everyone a little bit about yourself.
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Like, how did you, that's a lot, that was a mouthful right there, right?
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So how did you go from where you were to that?
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Like what inspired you to become an absolute boss in that industry?
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Oh wow.
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Thank you for that.
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Um, honestly, it was I was in a position with my children.
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Um, at one point I was homeless.
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We were homeless, um, sleeping, sleeping in cars, lucky if we were able to um get a hotel.
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And um then finally, you know, things turn around and I was able to rent a home and establish stability for my children.
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Uh the problem with that was landlords, when they were ready to sell, it didn't matter how many friends my kids made, how much stability I created and safety for them, it was time to go.
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So after that happened every two years and seeing the impact it had on my children, I desired to own a home.
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Uh at that time, didn't know anything about credit, uh, nothing about owning a home.
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I knew my parents owned a home, but they never talked to us about that anymore.
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So let the Bible raise us.
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But um but when it came to like any financial literacy or things like that, we were pretty much on our own.
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And I'm hey, I'm making money, I pay my rent on time, why can't I buy a home?
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And uh they basically told me, you know, uh income, you know, barriers, uh, the type of income, you know, uh documentation I had wasn't correct.
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I didn't even understand that.
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I literally knew nothing.
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And so I decided at that stage, well, let me help others.
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I'll become a loan officer so I can learn.
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And in turn, serving others, I'll teach myself, and then I can eventually buy a home for my children and I for stability.
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And uh that's what started me, you know, along that journey.
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And I got really, really good at servicing and solving problems um and providing for people that were in my position as well, and and really enjoyed it and and eventually um used that knowledge to uh flow into investments, uh, things like that.
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A few different things triggered that as well, but we don't have to talk about that now, that'll be for later.
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But yeah, but really what what started was just being a single mom and wanting to provide stability for my children.
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Yeah, so that was your inspiration, of course, really to to provide that stability and to get a more consistent situation, family life where they wouldn't be moving around a lot, right?
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So that in some way just it it gave you something that I learned from Dr.
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Daniel Eamon of Eamon Clinic.
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So shout out to Dr.
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Eamon.
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Uh when I went to visit him a few years ago for a brain injury, and he looked at my brain scan, he saw a trauma pattern in my brain from my childhood.
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He recognized that there was a pattern there, and he told me that I had developed something called PTG, not PTSD.
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And I see that from the traumatic situation that you felt this irregularity of life uh that you were experiencing and wanting to do better for your kids, you also didn't succumb to the situation and the environment you developed PTG, which is post-traumatic growth.
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And so that post-traumatic growth I see now has allowed you to accelerate.
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In other words, you utilize those situations, you compress them and you alchemize them, you learn from them and you turn them into something better.
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You use it for the energy or the fuel to drive you to higher places, which is where you are now.
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Yeah.
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But this podcast is really designed to help grow deeper connection, to learn and grow from past relationship trauma, from past personal trauma, to understand connections better, communication better, de-escalation better.
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So many things that we're gonna be touching on.
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And also we're gonna be tapping and touching on um bringing in couples that have great experience, that have had success, right?
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Some of some might be celebrities, some might not be celebrities.
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But we want to find out what was a driving force in their success to be able to allow them to go through the storm together.
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And you're gonna find out that we're both learning at the same time.
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And so this is gonna be a very interesting podcast, but we do want to start with our story, like how we met, how we're together, why we're together, what happened, how did we shift timelines?
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Yeah because I know we made a post that went viral a few times actually, and a lot of people were asking, like, what happened?
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What's going on?
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I just I shifted timelines.
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Mandela effect.
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Now we're here.
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Yeah.
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So let's start off with that.
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You want to start first, you want me to start first?
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Uh well, I mean here's the thing.
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I think that um, you know, we both have um different perspectives, um, but it's kind of one in the same.
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So I think you can lead, and I I do pretty good at interrupting you, so go ahead.
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Okay.
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Okay.
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Well, I'll start off since I was the uh initial aggressor.
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So 2020, uh, I was single, and uh I made a post on social media, and then I saw your your own your home account comment on it.
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And I thought, that's an interesting, you know, tagline or name for social media account, own your home.
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And I was like, huh, that's interesting.
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So I clicked on it.
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And when I tapped on it, it took me to your own your home account on social media.
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And that's when I saw obviously you, some photos of you, but also these homes that you had converted from like uh fix and flips, I guess they were, right?
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And the work that you had done, like the before and afters were like astonishing.
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And I was into real estate a little bit, right?
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I was a speculator, I had built a um a USA land and investments company.
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I had at one point over 400 properties all across the United States.
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And so I had this interest in real estate, and uh I had gotten out because you know, I went through that whole market crash in 2008.
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But your account intrigued me to think I should probably get back into real estate, you know.
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I mean, plus, I mean, she don't look half bad anyway, so this would be a good conversation, you know.
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She looked nice.
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So I reached out, uh, I literally slid in the DMs, as they say, all right, back in 2020.
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And uh that sparked the conversation.
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And we started communicating and talking, and um, I saw I recognized immediately, I recognized your level of intelligence was very high, you know.
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So that got me really excited, you know, because um when you talk to somebody, you know, you and if they sometimes, you know, they just come off as not that uh not that bright.
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And it's nothing against them, it's just that maybe they're sharper in different topics.
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But in this particular topic, you weren't fronting, like what you knew is what you knew, like what your account was about was really what you were about.
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Like you were an expert in this stuff, and I recognized that you weren't fronting, you know, just for views or whatever.
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And that really excited me and it made me, you know, really attracted to you.
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And um, you know, I saw that we started having a lot of more consistent conversations and communications.
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We eventually hopped on the phone and we were talking on the phone quite a bit, and we would talk on the phone for probably like hours, right?
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Yeah, it got to that point, yeah.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Talk on the phone for hours, um, never actually meeting in person.
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Yeah, you were in Chicago, I was in uh West Fort Lauderdale back then, and then um it was coming pretty close to Valentine's Day.
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It was, and I knew I didn't have a Valentine's Day date, and so I used a little bit of psychology.
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Which I didn't know he was using.
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Well, in sales they call it assume the close.
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I'm you know, and that's I'm a salesman, so in sales they call it assuming the close.
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Yeah.
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So I asked a question, like I would, you know, uh, what are you doing the 13th through the 16th?
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Mm-hmm.
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And uh I make sure not to say the word February, not to name the name or title February of, you know, the month, but I wanted to just um establish the days within that month because obviously we knew the month, because if I say February, it might trigger the understanding immediately.
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But I guess, you know, and you say, Oh, nothing.
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I said, Okay, great.
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You know, would you why don't you meet me in the Bahamas?
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And so that initially started the um the setup of the date, which then I'm pretty sure you recognize, wait a minute, this is Valentine's Day weekend.
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And um, and I'm pretty sure you recognize it from there and realize, okay, it's Valentine's Day, he's setting up for Valentine's Day.
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What did you think about that?
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Oh.
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Well, I had gotten out of relationship um some months prior.
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And um that during that time, uh, Valentine's Day wasn't a thing um for us.
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I wanted it to be.
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So um when I left that relationship, I, you know, envisioned, you know, every Valentine's Day moving forward and how I wanted to feel.
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So when you um said, What are you doing?
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It was like late in January, you're like, what are you doing the 13th through the 16th?
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I'm like, um, nothing does this guy not know that's Valentine's Day.
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But I was like, I guess this is for certain he's single, so yay.
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And so um, so yeah, so I was pretty excited.
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He was like, you know, well, do you want to go to the Bahamas?
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And I'm like, by default, I'm gonna be in the Bahamas.
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I didn't think you knew it was Valentine's Day because the way you act.
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And I wasn't gonna remind you because I didn't want you to cancel it.
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So I just rolled with it.
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I'm like, oh I'm free.
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So it was pretty awesome.
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Um, you know, and you're like, you didn't want any strings attached, you just wanted to get to know me.
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And um, you offered, you know, um to fly me there and and meet there.
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And it was crazy because it was something like I had never done before.
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Like I was in, I was completely celibate.
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I was so committed to, you know, I'm I'm dating to intentionally and I'm gonna take my time.
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But you it was like Billy Carson, the alien guy, wants me to that I've been watching for years, totally love this guy.
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He's so intelligent, wants to fly me to the Bahamas.
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And then I was really nervous because you know, back then they were talking about getting flued out, the young girls and stuff.
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I called my girlfriend, I was like, girl, I think this is the definition of getting flued out.
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So I was like, she was like, girl, where are you going?
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I said, the Bahamas.
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She was like, girl.
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She said, you're definitely getting flued out.
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And I'm like, oh, okay.
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She said, what you gonna do?
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And I was like, I don't know.
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I don't know what, you know, I was like, I want to go.
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I said, yes.
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She said, you said yes.
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I'm like, yeah.
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And she's like, well, you know, he's a guy, he might want something or whatever.
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I'm like, whoa.
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So and I, and so we had that conversation.
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It was like a huge thing with the girlfriends, and um, then I was like, I don't know how to break it to him, you know.
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I said, when should I tell him I'm celibate when I get there?
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Or and she's like, you need to be honest with that man, and you don't want to be in another country, you know, and there's a problem.
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I was like, okay, so you ended up calling me, and I was about, and this is one, this is another thing we'll talk about later.
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You always, even back then, just knew something before I even knew it.
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So I was about to say something.
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You had called me, and you're like, hey, I just want you to know I got you your own room because I didn't want you to feel uncomfortable.
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And I was like, really?
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You're I was like, yeah.
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You're like, yeah, I don't want you to, you know, think I'm some creep.
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Yeah.
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And I'm looking for anything from you.
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I just want to get to know you.
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And um, I just thought that'd be a nice environment to get to know you.
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And you didn't see the other side of the phone, but I was like, Yes.
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And so I was like, Yeah, thank you.
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And I played it really cool.
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Yeah.
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But oh, I was on a group chat with the girls.
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I was like, girl.
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So yeah, so that's how I felt really nervous at first, but then afterwards you made me really comfortable, which you always do even today.
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Thank you, yeah.
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So yeah, I wanted to make sure that you had your own separate room.
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There was no expectations.
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Uh it wasn't about getting the draws and all this.
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I just really wanted to get to know you.
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So that's why I decided to get two suites.
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I gave you a suite and I got my own suite.
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Yeah.
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And that way you'll be comfortable, I'll be comfortable.
00:19:49.250 --> 00:19:53.089
There'll be no anticipation of any kind of pressure or any kind of requirements.
00:19:53.329 --> 00:19:53.569
Yeah.
00:19:53.809 --> 00:20:01.409
This literally was just um, you know, two friends finally meeting and hanging out and having a good time with no expectations.
00:20:01.970 --> 00:20:07.970
And to let you know, they were two sweets, and I'm not talking about the regular sweet.
00:20:09.329 --> 00:20:12.289
These are like sweets, okay?
00:20:12.529 --> 00:20:17.569
So when you're coming in and you're like, sweet, and I opened the door.
00:20:17.649 --> 00:20:21.250
I was like trying to act all dainty, but that wasn't just it.
00:20:21.329 --> 00:20:28.450
Like from the moment I landed, I flew there, he put me on first class, okay?
00:20:29.089 --> 00:20:36.210
And at that time, you know, me, I was still arguing over, you know, levels of coach, okay.
00:20:36.930 --> 00:20:39.089
I ain't paying no 55 extra dollars.
00:20:40.049 --> 00:20:43.009
And he, you know, put me on first class.
00:20:43.169 --> 00:20:56.450
I land, he picks me up in a limo with a driver in the Bahamas with flowers, and I was like trying to play cool.
00:20:56.690 --> 00:20:58.450
This is during COVID, right?
00:20:58.529 --> 00:21:17.889
So I had like this mask on, you know, and then I was, you know, able to take it off or whatever, but you know, it was I'm talking about like I still remember to this day the feeling was calm and it was a peace.
00:21:18.210 --> 00:21:22.930
And it was wow, God, that's what she was doing.
00:21:23.089 --> 00:21:38.049
You know, it's it's and I realized, and I always say this at that time it hit me like my mantra is there's nothing worse than being with the wrong person when the right one shows up.
00:21:38.450 --> 00:21:41.730
And when he showed up, I was like, oh, this is the right one.
00:21:41.889 --> 00:21:43.889
I am so glad I'm single.
00:21:44.049 --> 00:21:56.049
I am so glad, you know, and and then we get there and you walk into this suite, and it's like, you know, I was fine with a room, you know, but he had a suite and it was he didn't even know me.
00:21:56.129 --> 00:21:57.970
And he was like, Well, I'm gonna make sure you have that.
00:21:58.129 --> 00:22:01.889
So at that moment, I saw that he was very generous and thoughtful.
00:22:02.129 --> 00:22:13.329
Um, and you know, you just don't get that type of generosity, and it wasn't anything I required, but it was just something about him that I saw, you know, in that moment.
00:22:13.569 --> 00:22:17.250
And I was like, Whoa.
00:22:18.529 --> 00:22:18.849
Okay.
00:22:20.129 --> 00:22:22.210
Stay celibate, Seatrace.
00:22:22.609 --> 00:22:24.609
Anyway, but that's a grown folks conversation.
00:22:24.690 --> 00:22:25.569
But go ahead.
00:22:25.730 --> 00:22:26.769
But I did, but go.
00:22:27.009 --> 00:22:27.649
Yeah, yeah, no.
00:22:28.210 --> 00:22:44.289
And and truth be told, I mean, you were only you were only fighting over those, and you know, your internal battle over those prices, not because you couldn't afford them, just because um I think it was just psychologically, you know, um coming from where you came from, and I went through that process too.
00:22:44.369 --> 00:22:50.210
It's like this you almost like I'm gonna save where I can save.
00:22:50.769 --> 00:22:54.609
And um, you know, so I understand that that process, that thought process.
00:22:54.849 --> 00:22:55.809
But it was great.
00:22:55.889 --> 00:22:59.730
It was great to to get there, to you know, come down into customs and so.
00:23:00.129 --> 00:23:03.809
You in the customs line, you know, for the first time, seeing you in person and everything.
00:23:03.889 --> 00:23:05.889
And uh we had such a great time.
00:23:05.970 --> 00:23:08.529
We went to Noble, we took a great photo in front of Nobu.
00:23:08.769 --> 00:23:11.329
We, you know, we walked all over the property there.
00:23:11.569 --> 00:23:13.409
Um, we really had a good time.
00:23:13.490 --> 00:23:20.129
We ate great food, we hung out by the pools, we relaxed, we just had such a great weekend there.
00:23:20.289 --> 00:23:22.129
Um, you know, it was good.
00:23:22.289 --> 00:23:23.009
It was good, yeah.
00:23:23.250 --> 00:23:28.529
Speaking of food, it was good, right?
00:23:29.009 --> 00:23:31.169
But there's a caveat.
00:23:32.210 --> 00:23:39.569
So some of you guys may know that Billy used to be vegan for like 30 years, okay, and I'm a vegan.
00:23:39.889 --> 00:23:50.049
And so when we first were speaking back in 2020, because it took a while before we uh met in person and he was still vegan at that time.
00:23:51.490 --> 00:23:57.569
But when we got there and we were eating, he ordered chicken.
00:24:00.369 --> 00:24:02.049
So I'm sitting here, right?
00:24:02.450 --> 00:24:06.769
I'm like, is that vegan chicken?
00:24:06.930 --> 00:24:08.210
No, they ain't a vegan chicken.
00:24:08.289 --> 00:24:09.089
It's bones in this chicken.
00:24:09.250 --> 00:24:14.369
He could be eating the chicken, like he ain't never had chicken before.
00:24:15.250 --> 00:24:20.769
He eaten the chicken like he ain't never had it, but also like he done had the chicken.
00:24:20.849 --> 00:24:22.930
And I'm like, Mr.
00:24:23.009 --> 00:24:27.409
Carson, um, I thought you were vegan.
00:24:28.049 --> 00:24:28.690
I was.
00:24:29.169 --> 00:24:38.049
And he was like, oh yeah, I that was, yeah, I had to change because you know, I had to guide a test and you know, my blood and all this stuff.
00:24:38.129 --> 00:24:41.730
Now, mind you, I had dated before and I had met a guy.
00:24:41.970 --> 00:24:44.690
It was like three dudes that kept telling me they were vegan.
00:24:44.849 --> 00:24:49.089
Like one guy, I'm in the car with him, and I see a Harold's chicken bag.
00:24:50.609 --> 00:24:57.569
And I'm like, sir, this is Harold's chicken.
00:24:58.129 --> 00:25:02.529
He was like, no, uh-uh, that ain't no Harold chicken.
00:25:02.609 --> 00:25:04.849
I said, it literally is a Harold chicken bag.
00:25:04.930 --> 00:25:05.490
Where's the chicken?
00:25:05.649 --> 00:25:05.970
Oh God.
00:25:06.129 --> 00:25:07.649
He goes, Oh, oh man, you know what?
00:25:07.730 --> 00:25:08.849
I said, I thought you were vegan.
00:25:08.930 --> 00:25:11.569
He says, Oh man, I just got the fries.
00:25:11.649 --> 00:25:13.089
I'm like, Oh God.
00:25:13.490 --> 00:25:16.930
I see the chicken crumbs right here.
00:25:17.490 --> 00:25:18.529
You left the crumbs.
00:25:18.930 --> 00:25:21.250
He's like, ah, I left alone.
00:25:21.490 --> 00:25:23.409
So then, so that's like the third guy.
00:25:23.569 --> 00:25:25.490
So now, Billy, I'm my girlfriend's already happy.
00:25:25.569 --> 00:25:26.690
This is the perfect guy for you.
00:25:26.769 --> 00:25:27.889
You're both vegan.
00:25:27.970 --> 00:25:30.609
You you don't drink, you don't do this, and all this stuff.
00:25:30.769 --> 00:25:36.529
And I, and you both like aliens, and so I get there tearing up some chicken.
00:25:37.970 --> 00:25:41.089
I'm like, not remember the Harold's chicken guy.
00:25:42.049 --> 00:25:43.970
Yeah, no, I I got the evidence.
00:25:44.129 --> 00:25:46.769
I I got the I got the vegan photos.
00:25:47.009 --> 00:25:50.210
So he's like, so now, so after that, I was like, you know what?
00:25:50.289 --> 00:25:50.769
I get it.
00:25:50.930 --> 00:25:54.769
You were vegan, you just eat chicken now, so you're a chicken-eating vegan.
00:25:54.930 --> 00:25:57.250
Yeah, you caught me at the beginning of my transformation atmosphere.
00:25:57.649 --> 00:25:58.369
Right at the beginning.
00:25:58.450 --> 00:25:59.490
I'm like, just my luck.
00:25:59.569 --> 00:26:00.049
But it was fine.
00:26:00.450 --> 00:26:01.889
It was just chicken and vegetables.
00:26:01.970 --> 00:26:04.849
I hadn't gotten the other meats yet, but yeah, it was.
00:26:05.250 --> 00:26:06.930
He's still my chicken-eating vegan.
00:26:07.649 --> 00:26:08.450
I love you.
00:26:08.690 --> 00:26:09.490
I eat really good.
00:26:09.569 --> 00:26:12.450
I eat good, whole, clean food, you know?
00:26:12.529 --> 00:26:12.769
Yeah.
00:26:12.930 --> 00:26:14.289
And I don't eat snacks.
00:26:14.529 --> 00:26:14.849
Nope.
00:26:14.930 --> 00:26:16.690
That's why I say you're a chicken-eating vegan.
00:26:16.849 --> 00:26:17.169
Yeah, yeah.
00:26:17.490 --> 00:26:19.250
Processed food, snacks, and all that stuff.
00:26:19.329 --> 00:26:21.409
Don't drink, don't smoke, don't do drugs.
00:26:21.730 --> 00:26:23.250
He's so healthy, like all the food.
00:26:23.409 --> 00:26:24.369
No processed food.
00:26:24.609 --> 00:26:26.849
If I eat a candy bar, he like cringes.
00:26:31.649 --> 00:26:34.129
He's like, oh God, you gotta eat that.
00:26:37.649 --> 00:26:39.889
So, but no, we have fun with each other.
00:26:40.129 --> 00:26:43.730
But yeah, so that's how that so that was the only thing that was different there.
00:26:43.809 --> 00:26:47.329
But it was cool because he was still my, you know, that was my little name I gave him.
00:26:47.569 --> 00:26:48.609
So yeah, it's okay.
00:26:48.769 --> 00:26:49.250
It's all good.
00:26:49.409 --> 00:26:54.210
We got over it and we still we what I liked about you was that we still had a great time.
00:26:54.289 --> 00:26:59.889
You know, I had started my transformation process with my diet thing or whatever, but well, you didn't hold that against me.
00:26:59.970 --> 00:27:00.930
We still had a great time.
00:27:01.250 --> 00:27:03.970
Yeah, we laughed, we joked, we laughed a lot, you know.
00:27:04.369 --> 00:27:11.970
We we um we had a good time walking the proper the property and the premises and everything, and um and then that weekend came to an end.
00:27:12.369 --> 00:27:19.250
Yeah, and we came back to the States, and then um you visited me for a couple days, um, which was great, you know.
00:27:19.649 --> 00:27:19.809
Yeah.
00:27:19.970 --> 00:27:23.250
Uh I had a brand new house in uh in Parkland at the time.
00:27:23.889 --> 00:27:25.889
And um, we had a great time there.
00:27:26.049 --> 00:27:28.049
And then you had to fly back to Chicago.
00:27:28.529 --> 00:27:28.849
Yeah.
00:27:29.409 --> 00:27:32.769
So you fly back to Chicago, you're going back to your life.
00:27:32.849 --> 00:27:34.849
I'm going back to what I normally do.
00:27:35.329 --> 00:27:37.409
And I know that you had a couple things going on.
00:27:37.490 --> 00:27:40.450
I think you went to a Joe Despenser retreat and then you traveled.
00:27:40.690 --> 00:27:45.250
Yeah, but I was gone to Jamaica for two weeks, Joe Disp Joe Despenser for two days.
00:27:45.490 --> 00:27:54.529
So, like, I think um, yeah, we had a you know, plan of seeing each other again, but the our our um, you know, conversations just kind of dwindled.
00:27:54.690 --> 00:28:04.529
I was, you know, in that retreat is really, really intensive and it was a phenomenal, but you know, you can't really you're not talking to people and you know, um, throughout that day.
00:28:04.690 --> 00:28:08.049
And at the end, you know, you're lucky if you get to speak.
00:28:08.369 --> 00:28:09.970
I remember, yeah, it was hard to get, of course.
00:28:10.049 --> 00:28:15.250
I mean, I didn't expect to try to force you to talk because you're in a a retreat, nine hour meditations a day.
00:28:15.569 --> 00:28:15.970
Yeah, yeah.
00:28:16.049 --> 00:28:16.769
Oh, wild.
00:28:17.169 --> 00:28:17.569
Wild.
00:28:17.809 --> 00:28:18.210
Yeah, yeah.
00:28:18.289 --> 00:28:28.849
I'm not gonna lie, that kind of have a little, a little bit of effect on because it's this disconnection that begins to happen when you're and you're I'm so busy, so I'm focusing, focusing on all these things, you know.
00:28:29.009 --> 00:28:32.529
And then we were gonna meet up in Detroit in March.
00:28:32.769 --> 00:28:35.970
In March, we're gonna meet up in Detroit, and then so second date.
00:28:36.450 --> 00:28:39.569
Yeah, that would have been our second date, not too far from Chicago.
00:28:39.730 --> 00:28:40.690
Yeah, yeah.
00:28:42.690 --> 00:28:42.849
Yeah.
00:28:43.649 --> 00:28:52.450
And um I decided to make it an in and out because my schedule was so crazy, and I just wanted to get up there, get the job done, and get out of there.
00:28:52.609 --> 00:28:52.930
Yep.
00:28:53.809 --> 00:29:09.809
And um, so we switched that up, and I figured I'm just gonna catch up with her, you know, another time and we'll make it into an actual real thing, not just this rushed, you know, you come all the way to Detroit, and then I only got a few hours, you know, and then you're gonna drive all the way back to Chicago.
00:29:09.889 --> 00:29:11.730
I was like, ah, I don't want to make her do that.
00:29:11.809 --> 00:29:14.450
She's gonna be uncomfortable and just didn't seem right.
00:29:14.529 --> 00:29:19.490
I figured maybe I can just find another weekend where we can actually like spend a whole weekend or something, or I'll come visit.
00:29:19.730 --> 00:29:30.289
Um and then life got to life, and I uh end up going there working on the project that I was working on.
00:29:30.529 --> 00:29:43.169
Um end up meeting somebody and didn't date them immediately, but in some weird kind of a way, that person ended up down by my house two days later when I got back.
00:29:44.049 --> 00:29:50.129
Um and um so it was really, I could see, what's the word I'm looking for?
00:29:50.609 --> 00:29:51.970
Um intentional.
00:29:52.849 --> 00:29:54.210
Really intentional.
00:29:54.769 --> 00:30:09.970
And so um my kindness for the situation and that person claimed that they were in with their friends, um, you know, allowed me to to open my my uh my doors up to talk and do this and do that.
00:30:10.049 --> 00:30:15.730
And I just started ended up dating this person uh and started dating that person.
00:30:15.809 --> 00:30:22.930
And then of course that meant that our phone calls got less and less until it diminished.
00:30:23.250 --> 00:30:28.450
And then um I think within that same time period, something else happened on your side.
00:30:28.769 --> 00:30:33.569
Yeah, so it's this is the crazy thing.
00:30:33.889 --> 00:30:40.369
Because when he was like, he called me because we had that set, like we talked about that whole situation.
00:30:40.529 --> 00:30:46.529
He wanted me to try whatever um you know thing it was to do, some biohacking thing.
00:30:46.609 --> 00:30:51.970
And it was we were we talked in depth about meeting there and um spending a weekend there.
00:30:52.210 --> 00:30:58.609
And so when he found out I was driving, I he's you know, he basically said, I'm not gonna have you do all that.
00:30:58.769 --> 00:31:04.690
Um, you know, so you don't have to, you don't, you know, you don't have to come or whatever it is before he got there.
00:31:05.089 --> 00:31:13.089
And so in that moment when he said that, there was something like you know inside me.
00:31:13.169 --> 00:31:20.769
I think I don't know if it was women's intuition or whatever, but something felt different, right?
00:31:20.930 --> 00:31:26.769
Like it just in that moment, I felt like you know, and I can't say what it was.
00:31:26.930 --> 00:31:28.930
I just remember the feeling was just off.
00:31:29.250 --> 00:31:31.409
Something off, right?
00:31:31.649 --> 00:31:33.649
And I was like, huh, okay.
00:31:34.529 --> 00:31:36.529
Didn't think about it anymore, didn't think about the feeling.
00:31:36.690 --> 00:31:39.089
I was like, okay, no problem, we'll you know, see each other later.
00:31:39.250 --> 00:31:42.930
Now I hadn't seen him in what three weeks or whatever.
00:31:43.490 --> 00:31:50.769
Um, and you know, and it wasn't anything against him, it was just a weird feeling, like like you know, I just get that.
00:31:51.009 --> 00:31:54.609
And so I'm like, okay, no problem.
00:31:55.569 --> 00:32:02.210
And then um 24 hours pass and I don't get a call from him.
00:32:03.009 --> 00:32:10.529
And I have like this rule if a person does not call me, like these are standards, ladies and gents.
00:32:10.849 --> 00:32:18.289
If a man does not call you in 24 hours or reach to contact you in 24 hours, you're probably not the one.
00:32:19.169 --> 00:32:20.690
That's just my thing.
00:32:20.849 --> 00:32:26.609
But and if you are the one, you don't want someone that doesn't call you for 24 hours.
00:32:26.690 --> 00:32:30.450
That's in you know, that's an indication of what the relationship's gonna look like.
00:32:30.609 --> 00:32:30.930
True.
00:32:31.169 --> 00:32:40.849
And so for me, that was just I just knew what my deal breakers in dating was, so I wouldn't end up in the situation I was in before.
00:32:40.930 --> 00:32:47.970
Yeah, you know, after dealing with a series of relationships and patterns, you begin to say, okay, let me do this different.
00:32:48.049 --> 00:32:50.210
And that was one of those for me.
00:32:50.529 --> 00:32:52.930
And um, and I was like, you know what?
00:32:53.089 --> 00:32:53.569
It's okay.
00:32:53.649 --> 00:32:57.409
It wasn't like we were exclusively dating each other or anything.
00:32:57.730 --> 00:33:02.369
For me, it was okay, he's not the main focus.
00:33:02.529 --> 00:33:05.250
You know, I kind of okay, I don't know.
00:33:05.409 --> 00:33:10.450
Y'all might judge me for this, but I have like a lot of brothers and they were all in football.
00:33:10.529 --> 00:33:13.490
So I and I was the older sister that was kind of like burst.
00:33:13.569 --> 00:33:16.210
So I associate things with sports.
00:33:16.930 --> 00:33:22.769
So you know how you have your franchise player, then you got the ones on the bench.
00:33:22.930 --> 00:33:26.849
But if the player, you know, gets hurt or something, you gotta bring in.
00:33:27.250 --> 00:33:31.970
So yeah, Billy to to say the least, I wasn't done with him, but he was on the bench.
00:33:32.129 --> 00:33:35.329
And so he was on the bench.
00:33:35.409 --> 00:33:38.289
And so I'm not gonna make a call, you know.
00:33:38.450 --> 00:33:43.329
Um, so I made that decision, you know, and I figured he'd come back around if it's meant.
00:33:43.409 --> 00:33:45.329
And plus, you know, if it's not, it's okay.
00:33:45.409 --> 00:33:46.450
And not a big deal to me.
00:33:46.529 --> 00:33:48.930
I was just, you know, open to other things.
00:33:49.409 --> 00:33:52.690
Anyway, he talks about two days.
00:33:52.849 --> 00:33:57.329
Within two days of that, I'm at, well, I'm at home the next day.
00:33:57.569 --> 00:34:04.049
Now, mind you, I'm supposed to be in Detroit, so I didn't have any plans that week weekend.
00:34:04.129 --> 00:34:06.690
So I was happened to be home.
00:34:07.169 --> 00:34:21.970
And my ex came from months prior, came back with the pick a sign and a word breakup in a red circle in the ex saying that he was boycotting our breakup.
00:34:22.210 --> 00:34:30.130
And he would not leave outside my house, and he continued to come back those two days, boycotting the breakup.
00:34:30.530 --> 00:34:33.730
He said he's on strike from the breakup.
00:34:34.289 --> 00:34:40.769
And so finally, after the second or third day, I let him in and talked to him, and he gave me this great bid.
00:34:41.570 --> 00:34:54.450
And um, I was like, well, I tell you what, we've been together for off and on for a very long time, and um we I want to be married, and I don't know if we're at that level.
00:34:54.690 --> 00:35:00.369
So, you know, at my age, you know, we can date again, but I'm gonna date other people.
00:35:00.530 --> 00:35:03.010
Yeah, I'm gonna still be open to date other people.
00:35:03.250 --> 00:35:07.490
And I I mean, because in another thing, like, you know, Billy was still on the bench, you know.
00:35:07.570 --> 00:35:11.330
I was like, can't just throw him off the team already.
00:35:11.490 --> 00:35:14.850
And so I'm just playing.
00:35:15.010 --> 00:35:19.170
But I mean, but honestly, I was just real with him and I was like, you know what, we'll see.
00:35:19.250 --> 00:35:20.450
Let's just see how things are.
00:35:20.610 --> 00:35:24.130
But I was honest, I was like, I'm seeing, I'm intending on seeing other people.
00:35:24.210 --> 00:35:31.570
I wasn't, I didn't have a lot of time, but you know, just conversation and being open to, but that was, you know, is what it was.
00:35:31.730 --> 00:35:34.610
So he was like, you know, I got my shot.
00:35:34.930 --> 00:35:44.370
During that time, he, you know, courted me and um Billy texted me.
00:35:44.610 --> 00:35:46.530
So that was the difference.
00:35:47.570 --> 00:35:53.490
So um, and then probably like a month and a half later, um, he proposed.
00:35:53.570 --> 00:35:53.730
Yeah.
00:35:53.970 --> 00:35:55.890
And so I ended up engaged.
00:35:56.210 --> 00:35:59.650
Um, I never had to have the conversation with Billy because Billy never called.
00:35:59.730 --> 00:36:01.090
He just texted.
00:36:01.330 --> 00:36:04.370
And what we girls call break crumbing.
00:36:05.250 --> 00:36:12.050
And so for me, you know, um, I wasn't, he wasn't, I didn't consider him as an option anymore.
00:36:12.130 --> 00:36:13.970
Um, we were still kind of doing some business together.
00:36:14.050 --> 00:36:22.690
He was more so talking to parts of my team and my son and stuff like that, but we weren't talking personally, so I never had to have the conversation with him.
00:36:22.930 --> 00:36:27.890
Hey, I got back with my ex, and he never had to have the conversation with me.
00:36:28.050 --> 00:36:29.250
Hey, I met someone.
00:36:29.330 --> 00:36:29.650
Yeah.
00:36:29.970 --> 00:36:30.530
Weird.
00:36:30.690 --> 00:36:34.289
We just kind of both just didn't say nothing.
00:36:34.450 --> 00:36:35.090
Yeah.
00:36:36.450 --> 00:36:39.170
And so but we did respect each other's relationship.
00:36:39.250 --> 00:36:41.810
In other words, I wasn't trying to have my cake and eat it too.
00:36:41.890 --> 00:36:48.289
I wasn't like trying to talk you and pretend I got contacted by his ex, another ex.
00:36:48.370 --> 00:36:48.690
Yes.
00:36:48.930 --> 00:36:49.170
Okay.
00:36:49.650 --> 00:36:49.970
Right.
00:36:50.050 --> 00:36:50.289
Yeah.
00:36:50.610 --> 00:37:02.289
Slid in my DMs, yeah, and she told me what a wonderful, amazing human he is, and how happy she was to see that he found someone because he deserved it.
00:37:02.850 --> 00:37:06.289
I mean, uh this woman, I mean, she's beautiful.
00:37:06.370 --> 00:37:09.250
I mean, and I because I looked at her, I'm like, ooh, who's this?
00:37:09.330 --> 00:37:09.490
Yeah.
00:37:09.650 --> 00:37:10.850
I got I didn't know who it was.
00:37:11.010 --> 00:37:18.930
This is a very beautiful person, and she told me that I didn't know who she was, you know, and Billy hadn't mentioned her to me.
00:37:19.090 --> 00:37:29.970
And she shared with me who she was, and she shared with me why she was contacting me, and she went on to tell me from her experience who this man was.
00:37:30.610 --> 00:37:42.930
And another thing I'll tell you before when I was manifesting, I said, I need the next man that I'm with, I need the ex to co-sign for it, right?
00:37:43.170 --> 00:37:47.170
And this is the ex before we before we met the first time.
00:37:47.490 --> 00:37:52.450
So she says, I smiled so hard watching that video.
00:37:52.850 --> 00:37:54.450
He's truly happy.
00:37:54.690 --> 00:37:57.650
I didn't care for that last one, lol.
00:37:58.210 --> 00:38:02.769
Not that my opinion matters, but I told him from the beginning, you were the one.
00:38:02.930 --> 00:38:04.850
You're the total package.
00:38:05.170 --> 00:38:08.289
Thank you for healing his heart and taking care of him.
00:38:08.450 --> 00:38:10.850
I'm very happy for you both.
00:38:11.490 --> 00:38:24.690
And I was just stunned and surprised because at the time I didn't know who she was, so I then, you know, reached out to you.
00:38:24.930 --> 00:38:28.769
But this was my response to her, and I said, Thank you.
00:38:28.930 --> 00:38:30.370
This warms my heart.
00:38:30.530 --> 00:38:33.330
I truly appreciate your kind words and support.
00:38:33.570 --> 00:38:35.650
I just shared this message with him.
00:38:35.810 --> 00:38:39.410
As from the tone, I could tell you two knew each other.
00:38:39.650 --> 00:38:45.170
He disclosed to me who you were to him, and that's a true testament of his character.
00:38:45.410 --> 00:38:53.010
It's funny because before dating him, I said, the next man I commit to, I need a referral from the ex.
00:38:53.730 --> 00:38:56.610
So I just love how Source works.
00:38:56.850 --> 00:38:59.250
We're honestly healing each other's heart.
00:38:59.570 --> 00:39:04.850
I finally feel safe in a relationship, sending you lots of love and light.
00:39:05.410 --> 00:39:08.850
And then she responds, Thank you so much.
00:39:09.250 --> 00:39:12.210
Looking forward to our paths crossing one day.
00:39:12.450 --> 00:39:21.970
As an ex, I can honestly say he has a heart of gold, very kind, very caring, which I'm sure you already know.
00:39:22.130 --> 00:39:28.370
Tell him I said hi, and please take good care of him, as I know he will do the same with you.
00:39:28.610 --> 00:39:29.970
Cheers, beautiful.
00:39:31.330 --> 00:39:33.410
And I said, we'll do.
00:39:34.610 --> 00:39:40.690
But yeah, super nice, so crazy, completely out of the norm.
00:39:41.330 --> 00:39:53.170
And that's when I knew, you know, um, yeah, this is exactly the timeline I want to be on.
00:39:54.769 --> 00:39:58.210
Like I wasn't in a relationship, and you weren't trying to talk to me and pretend like you weren't in a religious-right.
00:39:58.370 --> 00:39:59.650
We just zoop.
00:39:59.970 --> 00:40:05.810
One of those, and that's kind of our personalities because we're both flight risk anyway.
00:40:06.050 --> 00:40:09.890
So we're just kind of very practical people.
00:40:10.050 --> 00:40:14.370
And I mean, I'm gonna call and make an announcement, you know.
00:40:14.530 --> 00:40:23.570
No, I mean, if it's not there, and it wasn't like we were, you know, exclusively dating or anything like that, but you know, things just just happen.
00:40:23.810 --> 00:40:25.650
So yeah.
00:40:25.970 --> 00:40:30.690
Yeah, so that was our first magical date that we had, and then how it just kind of faded away.
00:40:30.850 --> 00:40:31.170
Yeah.
00:40:31.410 --> 00:40:35.170
You were engaged, I was in a relationship, I eventually became engaged.
00:40:35.330 --> 00:40:38.610
Yeah, I got married, you called your engagement off.
00:40:38.850 --> 00:40:39.810
In three months, I was out.
00:40:40.210 --> 00:40:41.650
You're like, you know what?
00:40:43.010 --> 00:40:44.370
I didn't do that.
00:40:46.690 --> 00:40:48.850
You know, yeah, just the Virgo and me.
00:40:48.930 --> 00:40:50.530
She's like, I'm gonna make this work.
00:40:50.769 --> 00:40:52.610
Yeah, there's nothing wrong with you.
00:40:52.690 --> 00:40:53.010
Yeah, I know.
00:40:53.170 --> 00:40:53.970
That's the beauty of you.
00:40:54.130 --> 00:41:00.450
Yeah, you know, I just wanna, I just wanna, you know, uh, you know, when I can when I'm in something all the way, then I'm like, Yeah, figure this out.
00:41:00.610 --> 00:41:04.050
So I did everything I possibly could to try to figure it out, you know?
00:41:04.210 --> 00:41:04.610
Yeah.
00:41:04.769 --> 00:41:07.010
Um, but everyone's on their own path, you know.
00:41:07.170 --> 00:41:11.490
So it brings us to the timeline.
00:41:11.970 --> 00:41:12.850
Timelines.
00:41:13.250 --> 00:41:15.410
You gotta you came up with this statement.
00:41:15.490 --> 00:41:21.090
So we're gonna talk a little bit more about this in a second, like this story of how because now obviously you're saying, wait a minute.
00:41:21.170 --> 00:41:24.050
So you guys aren't together, so how are you together now?
00:41:24.210 --> 00:41:24.850
What happened?
00:41:24.930 --> 00:41:26.050
Right, how did this happen?
00:41:26.130 --> 00:41:31.330
So we're gonna talk about that, but you started talking about dating your timeline, right?
00:41:31.890 --> 00:41:34.769
And and all of this, and um, this is a statement.
00:41:35.010 --> 00:41:50.289
Really, it make it made so much sense because I'm always talking about timelines and fractured timelines and the fractal holographic universe and how our thoughts create reality and how our thoughts and our actions change and shift the momentum of the timeline that we're on.
00:41:50.610 --> 00:41:54.210
And so, yeah, what made you come up with that understanding?
00:41:54.450 --> 00:41:55.890
How'd you figure that out?
00:41:56.289 --> 00:42:03.650
Well, you know, I started reading a lot in, you know, quantum physics and creating from the field and parallel universes and things like that.
00:42:03.730 --> 00:42:23.170
And I I got really deep into that somewhere around um 2022 is I got off all social media, um, and because of a tragedy that happened um in my in my life, yeah, uh, my brother passed away and I didn't understand it.
00:42:23.330 --> 00:42:32.690
And so I really started diving deep into you know the choices we make and how every choice has a different outcome.
00:42:32.850 --> 00:42:38.370
Yeah, you know, and and I read that before, but then I started really experiencing it.
00:42:38.530 --> 00:42:41.090
Um and then the crazy, it was the craziest thing.
00:42:41.170 --> 00:42:44.610
I ended up seeing this guru that looked exactly like my brother.
00:42:44.850 --> 00:42:45.570
You showed him to me.
00:42:45.650 --> 00:42:46.769
Yeah I showed him to you.
00:42:46.930 --> 00:42:51.010
Oh my God, when I say he looked exactly like my brother, yeah, okay.
00:42:51.650 --> 00:42:58.450
I it was one of those moments, like I don't know, I didn't want to tell too many people because they thought I was crazy.
00:42:58.850 --> 00:43:04.530
But when my brother transitioned at just 41, you know, um, I felt like he was robbed, right?
00:43:04.690 --> 00:43:09.570
I'm like, oh, but I knew I'm like, okay, there's a version of him that is still living.
00:43:10.210 --> 00:43:27.090
But I ended up, I was scrolling online, and this picture came up of this man that was a guru, and he told this story about how he was really close to his sister, and she gave him a kidney.
00:43:27.970 --> 00:43:35.730
And one of the issues my brother was having, if he would have survived, we would have had to give him a kidney.
00:43:36.450 --> 00:43:38.210
And I would have given him a kidney.
00:43:38.610 --> 00:43:40.210
We were already getting tested for it.
00:43:40.690 --> 00:43:49.330
But this gentleman, he said, I live because my sister were close, she gave me a kidney, and he talks about that time he went into the hospital and all that.
00:43:49.410 --> 00:43:51.970
And it was very similar to what my brother had gone through.
00:43:52.690 --> 00:43:54.370
And so, but he lived.
00:43:54.769 --> 00:44:04.050
And so I said, I called my sister, I said, Oh my god, I think we merged timelines with Sien's other version of himself that actually lived.
00:44:05.250 --> 00:44:06.370
Craziest thing ever.
00:44:06.530 --> 00:44:13.810
I went to see him and he saw my brother, and he I'm enlightenment, like he believed it too.
00:44:13.970 --> 00:44:17.490
It was, and the story was on track, is almost the same.
00:44:17.570 --> 00:44:19.890
They just had some differences, you know.
00:44:20.050 --> 00:44:22.930
Um, and some were very, very similar.
00:44:23.250 --> 00:44:24.850
And it was just crazy.
00:44:24.930 --> 00:44:27.490
And I'm like, so I got on this thing, like, what are we?
00:44:27.570 --> 00:44:29.490
We're all like living right now.
00:44:29.650 --> 00:44:32.289
I just can't see them because I'm not on that timeline.
00:44:32.370 --> 00:44:33.250
Yeah, yeah, right.
00:44:33.490 --> 00:44:35.410
But I felt like I got a taste.
00:44:35.730 --> 00:44:39.810
So then I started looking at everything in my life as far as timeline.
00:44:40.050 --> 00:44:46.930
The person when I was younger, the woman that was, you know, homeless and had a choice to, you know, do this or that.
00:44:47.090 --> 00:44:47.810
She exists.
00:44:48.050 --> 00:44:49.170
The one that didn't exist.
00:44:49.330 --> 00:44:51.570
And, you know, now I'm on this timeline.
00:44:51.730 --> 00:44:59.410
And then I started thinking about, and because I'm single at this time, you know, and then I started applying it to dating.
00:45:00.610 --> 00:45:10.930
And I looked at my life, and every time it took a turn off of my path, it was because some guy showed up with a mask.
00:45:11.490 --> 00:45:12.130
You know?
00:45:12.370 --> 00:45:14.130
And I thought, oh, this is it.
00:45:14.210 --> 00:45:18.130
And they would always get me off of my course.
00:45:18.610 --> 00:45:23.090
And I'd go through all of these things and I'd have to, I'd get rid of them, and then I'm back on course.
00:45:23.650 --> 00:45:25.250
And I'm going and going and going.
00:45:25.410 --> 00:45:39.730
And I'm like, maybe if I just date someone that's on the same timeline as me, you know, and I'll know from certain instances, I don't have to keep delaying my destiny.
00:45:39.810 --> 00:45:40.130
Yeah.
00:45:40.690 --> 00:45:42.930
And so I went over all the relationships.
00:45:43.010 --> 00:45:46.769
It seemed like a different, the same spirit and a different body.
00:45:46.930 --> 00:45:47.170
Yeah.
00:45:47.410 --> 00:45:49.170
And it was the same lesson.
00:45:49.490 --> 00:46:01.890
It was this person, anger, alcoholism, cheating, you know, um, overly religious, abuse, you know, all these different things that showed up.
00:46:02.690 --> 00:46:07.570
And I'm like, wow, these are these tests, these are these distractions.
00:46:07.730 --> 00:46:16.210
And I'm like, no, these are these tests and these versions of me that I'm seeing that I have to overcome.
00:46:16.370 --> 00:46:18.130
And I have to recognize those things.
00:46:18.210 --> 00:46:19.330
They just show up for that.
00:46:19.410 --> 00:46:23.490
But I go, oh my God, you're the love of my life.
00:46:23.570 --> 00:46:23.730
Yeah.
00:46:24.050 --> 00:46:29.490
It doesn't matter if you're, you know, ah, you just got out of prison after seven years.
00:46:29.650 --> 00:46:31.010
That's okay.
00:46:31.330 --> 00:46:33.170
We all deserve second chances.
00:46:33.410 --> 00:46:34.610
What'd you know what I'm saying?
00:46:34.769 --> 00:46:36.850
Like, oh, you just, you know, whatever.
00:46:37.010 --> 00:46:39.250
Oh, you drink profusely on a day.
00:46:39.650 --> 00:46:40.130
That's all right.
00:46:40.210 --> 00:46:40.930
I used to drink too.
00:46:41.010 --> 00:46:41.970
Look at me, I'm sober.
00:46:42.130 --> 00:46:42.850
I can help you.
00:46:43.010 --> 00:46:49.890
You know, nine times out of ten, however the state you find a person, and you think you can help them come in your shape.
00:46:49.970 --> 00:46:52.130
No, you're gonna end up more so in theirs.
00:46:52.210 --> 00:46:52.450
That's right.
00:46:52.690 --> 00:46:53.330
Their situation.
00:46:53.490 --> 00:46:53.730
That's right.
00:46:53.890 --> 00:46:54.930
And on their timeline.
00:46:55.010 --> 00:46:58.530
It's very rare that they're gonna rise to the level to be on yours.
00:46:58.769 --> 00:47:04.769
You know, so so that's when I realized, okay, if I if it could just be so simple.
00:47:04.850 --> 00:47:07.010
And it's not about judging a person.
00:47:07.330 --> 00:47:16.769
If I know I have a purpose-driven life, I know that I want to have, you know, these homes for homeless people, these homes for women of domestic abuse and all that things.
00:47:16.850 --> 00:47:27.170
And then I date someone and they say in their future, you know, the biggest thing they want to do is, and this was a real thing, was go to Great America.
00:47:27.730 --> 00:47:35.730
You know, these are like we're adults, these are, you know, rides, joy rides.
00:47:35.810 --> 00:47:39.810
Yeah, these are literal like joy rides, you know.
00:47:40.050 --> 00:47:41.810
And that was like their main goal.
00:47:41.890 --> 00:47:45.970
I just want to get a season pass to this and this, and this is my goal in life.
00:47:46.370 --> 00:47:47.730
And there's nothing wrong with that.
00:47:47.810 --> 00:47:53.810
But if my goal in life is to make the world a better place, it's very hard to make someone without purpose understand your purpose.
00:47:54.289 --> 00:48:00.610
So that's when I said, okay, uh, leading up before you, I started dating, having these little micro relationships.
00:48:00.690 --> 00:48:06.050
So within two months, you pretty much know if you're on the same timeline or not, or if this person is for you.
00:48:06.130 --> 00:48:06.370
Yeah.
00:48:06.610 --> 00:48:11.330
Based on and it's not being judgmental because someone will love them exactly as they are.
00:48:11.650 --> 00:48:14.210
But that doesn't mean they're for you or your destiny.
00:48:14.370 --> 00:48:14.530
Right.
00:48:14.690 --> 00:48:21.410
Now you can always learn from these people, but you know, usually it's a distraction from your destiny.
00:48:21.570 --> 00:48:24.769
And those situations have to end.
00:48:24.850 --> 00:48:27.970
And unfortunately, sometimes they're very painful.
00:48:28.210 --> 00:48:30.289
And personally, I was tired of the pain.
00:48:30.370 --> 00:48:30.610
Yeah.
00:48:30.769 --> 00:48:32.690
So I was like, I'm getting out early.
00:48:32.769 --> 00:48:37.010
If if this is what I want, this is what I'm looking for, and this is the journey I'm on.
00:48:37.170 --> 00:48:44.850
And if we can't lock in and look at that path together and resonate with each other, no, no more for me.
00:48:45.010 --> 00:48:45.650
I don't care.
00:48:45.890 --> 00:48:48.450
You're an alcoholic, you're a smoker, you're doing all that stuff.
00:48:48.530 --> 00:48:49.650
There's nothing wrong with that.
00:48:49.730 --> 00:48:52.850
But if that's not my pastime, exactly.
00:48:53.090 --> 00:48:56.530
My pastime is reading books, the field on quantum physics, yeah.
00:48:56.690 --> 00:48:59.330
Why am I dating someone that never reads?
00:48:59.570 --> 00:49:00.210
Exactly now.
00:49:00.530 --> 00:49:01.090
Exactly, yeah.
00:49:01.170 --> 00:49:04.450
You have and it make it just makes so much sense.
00:49:04.690 --> 00:49:13.410
And so once you brought it up to me, and I went back into, like you said, the physics and everything else, all my science, it just I just had this aha moment.
00:49:13.490 --> 00:49:15.330
I was like, Yeah, you know, yeah.
00:49:15.730 --> 00:49:17.250
Why didn't I see that before?
00:49:17.410 --> 00:49:19.810
You know, um, dating your timeline.
00:49:20.050 --> 00:49:28.530
And I look back at all of my previous relationships, which I learned so much from each individual one, you know, nothing against anybody uh from the past.
00:49:28.610 --> 00:49:32.530
It's just that each one of them, we just weren't on the same timeline.
00:49:32.610 --> 00:49:40.050
Yeah, our timelines intersected, yeah, but then because of where they were, water always finds its level.
00:49:40.210 --> 00:49:44.769
So I then ended up getting drawn into their timeline.
00:49:45.570 --> 00:49:50.130
And it wasn't because I didn't allow it, because you we only we only allow.
00:49:50.289 --> 00:49:50.450
Yeah.
00:49:50.769 --> 00:49:55.010
But I ended up allowing myself to get drawn into their timelines.
00:49:55.170 --> 00:50:15.250
Uh, and I and I um even though I still consider continue to excel and um and go above and beyond, you know, most people's expectations uh in in in my life and and what they perceive to be the life of a person that's uh growing and building, there's still so much more that I could have had done by now.
00:50:15.570 --> 00:50:15.890
Yeah.
00:50:16.130 --> 00:50:17.730
I mean like so much more.
00:50:17.810 --> 00:50:19.170
And people say, how can there be more?
00:50:19.250 --> 00:50:22.210
Oh, I already know there is so much more.
00:50:22.370 --> 00:50:26.370
Like I'm talking about magnitudes more than I could have been.
00:50:26.450 --> 00:50:33.650
I've I've held myself back to support these people along the way and to and to try to enhance their timelines.
00:50:33.890 --> 00:50:36.289
And uh so I got drawn into them, you know?
00:50:36.450 --> 00:50:36.690
Yeah.
00:50:36.769 --> 00:50:38.130
Uh it just makes so much sense.
00:50:38.210 --> 00:50:44.130
It's so powerful because once you understand dating your timeline, yeah, everything begins to shift.
00:50:44.210 --> 00:50:45.490
Like I can see it now.
00:50:45.650 --> 00:50:45.890
Yeah.
00:50:46.050 --> 00:50:47.890
And so we're gonna get back into the story.
00:50:48.610 --> 00:50:48.930
Okay.
00:50:49.410 --> 00:50:53.810
So now, so people are probably saying, well, how the hell are they dating their timeline all of a sudden?
00:50:54.530 --> 00:50:56.210
What the hell happened?
00:50:56.450 --> 00:50:58.930
How in the world are they together?
00:50:59.330 --> 00:51:01.490
So I'm gonna give y'all what they call it, the T.
00:51:01.810 --> 00:51:02.130
The T.
00:51:02.450 --> 00:51:10.050
Wait a day, the kids do the I've been waiting to do that for a long time.
00:51:10.130 --> 00:51:11.490
Is it this finger this finger?
00:51:11.650 --> 00:51:11.890
I don't know.
00:51:12.050 --> 00:51:13.570
I'm gonna let you do it because that's too feminine for me.
00:51:13.650 --> 00:51:14.690
I guess no, you can't.
00:51:15.970 --> 00:51:16.850
We know you're not.
00:51:17.650 --> 00:51:18.769
You are all men.
00:51:21.730 --> 00:51:38.690
So um you know, obviously, you're you you're gone, you came out of your relationship, and um uh I didn't even know it existed, obviously, and you know, and you kind of really didn't really know too much about mine, even though your brothers probably told you that I wasn't one because you had gotten off the internet.
00:51:39.010 --> 00:51:40.530
I was off the internet for three years.
00:51:40.690 --> 00:51:41.010
Yeah, yeah.
00:51:41.410 --> 00:51:42.050
It was crazy.
00:51:42.450 --> 00:51:44.690
I was off, yeah, you gotta take that timeline.
00:51:44.850 --> 00:51:49.170
I was off from 2022 to 2020 March of 2025.
00:51:49.410 --> 00:51:50.130
That's incredible.
00:51:50.289 --> 00:51:53.330
And I only came back to promote my birthday party.
00:51:53.570 --> 00:51:53.890
Right.
00:51:54.130 --> 00:51:55.250
That's incredible.
00:51:55.570 --> 00:51:57.410
And so that kind of picks off.
00:51:57.570 --> 00:52:00.850
So um I'll go back to 2024.
00:52:01.010 --> 00:52:01.650
Yeah.
00:52:02.050 --> 00:52:08.930
And September of 2024 uh is when a lot of tumultuous things began happening in my life.
00:52:09.090 --> 00:52:11.650
A lot of things that just weren't in synchronicity for me.
00:52:12.289 --> 00:52:18.289
Um, and I was on tour in Turkey uh with a group of people, doing a great tour.
00:52:18.450 --> 00:52:23.010
Um and uh by the time I landed, I already felt like something was a little off.
00:52:23.250 --> 00:52:23.410
Yeah.
00:52:23.650 --> 00:52:25.570
I didn't feel my normal self, you know?
00:52:26.210 --> 00:52:32.690
And you're talking to a person that never gets sick, and I I I have an award out there for never being sick.
00:52:32.769 --> 00:52:43.250
I literally never missed, out of eight years of coaching children, 121 kids in sports, never missed a practice, a tournament, you know, uh a game.
00:52:43.410 --> 00:52:44.289
Oh nothing.
00:52:44.769 --> 00:52:50.210
And so I was the only coach that had never missed anything because I was never sick, these snotty nose kids never got me sick.
00:52:50.530 --> 00:52:51.250
I was thinking that.
00:52:51.410 --> 00:52:52.610
I didn't want to say it out loud.
00:52:52.850 --> 00:52:53.250
I know, right?
00:52:53.410 --> 00:52:54.130
I'm like the kids.
00:52:54.370 --> 00:52:55.650
Yeah, these kids ain't never got me sick.
00:52:55.810 --> 00:52:55.970
Wow.
00:52:56.210 --> 00:53:01.250
And still to this day, as far as I know, the last time I had a blood test was uh six months ago.
00:53:01.330 --> 00:53:03.650
I still don't have any antibodies for COVID.
00:53:03.810 --> 00:53:03.970
Yeah.
00:53:04.130 --> 00:53:05.250
So I still haven't got COVID.
00:53:05.410 --> 00:53:08.130
But back then in 2024, I thought I might have had COVID.
00:53:08.210 --> 00:53:10.289
I'm like, maybe this is what COVID feels like.
00:53:10.370 --> 00:53:12.210
Yeah because my skin was hurting.
00:53:12.289 --> 00:53:15.810
And I remember my son, Justin, was telling me that his skin was hurting.
00:53:15.890 --> 00:53:16.050
Yeah.
00:53:16.210 --> 00:53:18.530
I said, I think I got this COVID finally, you know?
00:53:18.690 --> 00:53:18.930
Yeah.
00:53:19.170 --> 00:53:22.930
Um, so I'm thinking, well, I'll get over it because everyone else got over it, you know, that I knew.
00:53:23.090 --> 00:53:25.730
And it just kept getting worse and worse and worse.
00:53:26.370 --> 00:53:30.690
Um fast forward, uh, I get back to America, I get very ill.
00:53:30.769 --> 00:53:31.890
I'm I'm really ill.
00:53:32.289 --> 00:53:34.930
Um even though I don't end up in the hospital right away.
00:53:35.170 --> 00:53:36.769
It took me two days to get to the hospital.
00:53:37.250 --> 00:53:51.090
The day that I got to the hospital, thank goodness for one of my employees, Nina, she actually physically put my clothes on my body, picked me up, and put me in a car and made sure that I got to the hospital because I wasn't being taken to the hospital.
00:53:51.410 --> 00:53:51.570
Yeah.
00:53:51.810 --> 00:53:53.890
And that was the same night that I died in the hospital.
00:53:54.450 --> 00:53:59.490
That was the beginning of like this transformation process for me and this realization.
00:53:59.970 --> 00:54:02.690
Um I coded for 15 minutes roughly.
00:54:02.930 --> 00:54:03.890
Um I was gone.
00:54:04.130 --> 00:54:05.250
I was on the other side.
00:54:05.810 --> 00:54:11.010
And uh I had crossover three times in that same night, but that third time was the longest time.
00:54:11.890 --> 00:54:16.530
And um I had uh, you know, uh you know, sepsis.
00:54:16.930 --> 00:54:21.250
I was trending, my white blood cell blood cell count was trending towards organ failure.
00:54:21.490 --> 00:54:21.730
Wow.
00:54:21.890 --> 00:54:23.170
It was trending towards 40.
00:54:23.330 --> 00:54:25.970
And at 40, you're you know, you're pretty much gone.
00:54:26.530 --> 00:54:29.010
Um and so I came back.
00:54:29.490 --> 00:54:32.370
The next day I was laying in that bed trying to figure out what had happened.
00:54:32.450 --> 00:54:38.610
I was so low on oxygen, I was the color black of this chair because you know we're black people, so we don't turn purple, we turn black.
00:54:39.010 --> 00:54:39.730
I got blacker.
00:54:40.130 --> 00:54:40.289
Yeah.
00:54:40.530 --> 00:54:46.769
I know people saw me in some podcasts that came out after I got out of the hospital because I did them.
00:54:47.010 --> 00:54:48.289
I was pitch black.
00:54:48.450 --> 00:54:48.690
Yeah.
00:54:48.930 --> 00:54:50.530
And they were like, that's a clone.
00:54:50.850 --> 00:54:53.890
No, that's just a sick person, you know, trying to recover.
00:54:54.050 --> 00:54:56.130
I lost 28 pounds in two weeks.
00:54:56.450 --> 00:54:56.850
Wow.
00:54:57.090 --> 00:55:13.730
And uh but I was there, you know, in this afterlife place, this crossover um near death experience that I had, these disembodied voices were speaking to me, and they told me that, you know, you can go back, you can stay here forever, but if you go back, it's gonna be hard.
00:55:14.930 --> 00:55:17.250
And um I said I wanted to go back.
00:55:17.490 --> 00:55:22.850
And as soon as they as soon as I pronounced back, I was back in the body.
00:55:23.250 --> 00:55:38.530
And um I it then began to you know come back, and um the doctors the next morning had finally figured out uh a suitable mixture to work on my the bacteria that I had.
00:55:38.769 --> 00:55:40.610
The bacteria was was very strong.
00:55:40.850 --> 00:55:42.130
Yeah, whatever this was.
00:55:42.210 --> 00:55:48.370
And as I researched it later on, I began to realize that it wasn't a normal type of pneumonia, it was something abnormal.
00:55:49.010 --> 00:55:52.370
Um but anyway, they were able to finally find something to fight it.
00:55:52.450 --> 00:55:59.490
They had to send my cultures out to a specialist to have a special type of antibiotic created just for the bacteria that I had.
00:55:59.810 --> 00:56:00.050
Wow.
00:56:00.289 --> 00:56:01.330
That's how rare it was.
00:56:01.730 --> 00:56:04.850
And then finally I started getting a little bit better, you know?
00:56:04.930 --> 00:56:06.769
Yeah, I was struggling pretty bad.
00:56:07.170 --> 00:56:10.450
And I was just saying there trying to figure out like why what just happened to me.
00:56:10.530 --> 00:56:11.650
Like, I never get sick.
00:56:11.730 --> 00:56:14.690
That would have been my now technically my twelfth time in my life.
00:56:15.090 --> 00:56:15.250
Yeah.
00:56:15.810 --> 00:56:20.130
Anyway, so the hard part I thought was gonna be recovering.
00:56:20.690 --> 00:56:23.330
That actually turned out to be the easier part of the hard part.
00:56:23.570 --> 00:56:23.970
Oh wow.
00:56:24.130 --> 00:56:37.090
You know, yeah, you know, and um I started identifying things that were going on around me, um, and things within the circle, uh, my my influencer circle, and I just saw things that just didn't add up.
00:56:37.410 --> 00:56:44.610
Um and then I had this attack situation happen, this online crazy attack that happened, planned attack.
00:56:44.850 --> 00:56:49.250
Um, and then I had to go through that all while trying to recover.
00:56:49.810 --> 00:56:56.530
Um, and then moving into the the year, some more um insane things were revealed to me.
00:56:57.010 --> 00:57:11.490
Uh the universe had revealed some things to me, and um not only myself, but even my team who are here at this house actually in this studio got to witness and see something that was um that was definitely not serving me for my greater good.
00:57:11.970 --> 00:57:12.289
Okay.
00:57:12.769 --> 00:57:18.289
And so I made a decision um uh that day that I had to make a change.
00:57:18.370 --> 00:57:21.090
I had to get out of a relationship that I was in.
00:57:21.170 --> 00:57:27.170
Uh, I had to move on, and um you know, I didn't recognize it was a timeline, but it was a timeline.
00:57:27.250 --> 00:57:28.610
I was just on the wrong timeline.
00:57:28.930 --> 00:57:33.090
Yeah, and uh that was a strong, like a big thing for a Virgo.
00:57:33.490 --> 00:57:35.330
Yeah, you know, so we lock in.
00:57:35.730 --> 00:57:36.450
Say it wrong.
00:57:36.610 --> 00:57:37.970
I mean I think I made a mistake.
00:57:38.130 --> 00:57:38.769
Yeah, yeah.
00:57:38.930 --> 00:57:40.050
Yeah, that's tough.
00:57:40.289 --> 00:57:43.650
And we really lock in, like we we we lock in hard.
00:57:43.730 --> 00:57:46.289
I mean, you know, your son's a your son Dominic's a Virgo.
00:57:46.450 --> 00:57:46.690
Uh-huh.
00:57:46.769 --> 00:57:47.250
We lock in.
00:57:47.410 --> 00:57:47.650
It's hard.
00:57:47.810 --> 00:57:48.450
Your sister's a Virgo.
00:57:48.610 --> 00:57:50.769
Your sister's a Virgo Rather Virgo, you know.
00:57:51.010 --> 00:57:52.210
My daughter April's a Virgo.
00:57:52.450 --> 00:57:52.850
My granddaughter.
00:57:53.250 --> 00:57:55.330
You know, she was in her relationship for 13 years.
00:57:55.810 --> 00:57:56.050
Wow.
00:57:56.450 --> 00:57:59.730
It was bad when I couldn't tell her, but you know, I had to just let her ride it out.
00:57:59.890 --> 00:58:01.650
So she came to the point that I came to.
00:58:01.810 --> 00:58:02.130
Yeah.
00:58:02.289 --> 00:58:04.050
And you know, so I had to take care of that.
00:58:04.130 --> 00:58:06.690
And um, you know, men never file divorce.
00:58:06.850 --> 00:58:09.730
I mean, 15%, it's a very low number.
00:58:09.970 --> 00:58:10.289
Yeah.
00:58:10.769 --> 00:58:13.330
But, you know, I just felt it was the right thing to do.
00:58:13.410 --> 00:58:20.850
Um, I got a lot, I I take away whatever positive I could take away from that past relationship and just realized the timeline isn't uh isn't there.
00:58:21.010 --> 00:58:24.289
The greater good for me and where my life is going just wasn't there.
00:58:24.530 --> 00:58:27.810
I decided it was just time for me to shift and just move on.
00:58:27.970 --> 00:58:29.730
Um, but that took a lot of courage.
00:58:29.890 --> 00:58:30.289
Yeah.
00:58:30.530 --> 00:58:39.810
You know, it took a lot of courage and um uh it took a lot of strength, fortitude, uh, and um, you know, it was uh a big decision.
00:58:40.050 --> 00:59:01.890
Now, during this process of me going through all of this transformation and clearing out and re-reorganizing my relationship and my circle and everything else, and um I uh one day my social media manager he says, I need to get a code from your phone for Twitter, which is now called X.
00:59:02.450 --> 00:59:05.570
So I said, Okay, it's it's weird, it's called X, isn't it?
00:59:05.810 --> 00:59:06.130
Right.
00:59:06.450 --> 00:59:07.730
So X.
00:59:07.810 --> 00:59:08.769
I just thought about that.
00:59:08.930 --> 00:59:09.730
It's X.
00:59:10.050 --> 00:59:10.690
It's X.
00:59:10.930 --> 00:59:11.490
Oh wow.
00:59:11.730 --> 00:59:12.370
E X, X.
00:59:12.610 --> 00:59:14.210
It's a method, it's a metal.
00:59:14.769 --> 00:59:17.010
So I go, okay, I gotta find this phone.
00:59:17.090 --> 00:59:18.210
It's on the old phone.
00:59:18.289 --> 00:59:18.850
Yeah.
00:59:19.170 --> 00:59:20.610
A phone that I didn't have anymore.
00:59:20.850 --> 00:59:21.970
I had it, but I didn't use it.
00:59:22.130 --> 00:59:22.370
Yeah.
00:59:22.690 --> 00:59:24.130
So I go dig this phone out.
00:59:24.289 --> 00:59:27.010
I finally found it after like a day and a half of searching.
00:59:27.250 --> 00:59:28.930
I plug it in, get it charged up.
00:59:29.010 --> 00:59:30.530
I'm gonna get him this code.
00:59:30.769 --> 00:59:39.570
As soon as the phone charges up and I turn it on, I open up the phone to tell him to go ahead and you know request the code again because I need a new code.
00:59:39.730 --> 00:59:43.090
And I saw a text message in there from Seatrus, you.
00:59:43.890 --> 00:59:45.250
I said, What in the world?
00:59:45.410 --> 00:59:47.170
I ain't talked to this woman in years.
00:59:47.410 --> 00:59:48.530
Hey, what's up, everybody?
00:59:48.610 --> 00:59:51.410
It's Billy Carson, aka Forbidden Knowledge.
00:59:51.570 --> 00:59:56.210
I wanted to talk to you guys today about the 12-day Forbidden Tour of Egypt.
00:59:56.370 --> 00:59:58.210
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This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity hosted by myself, Billy Carson.
01:00:02.370 --> 01:00:04.289
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01:00:20.610 --> 01:00:22.210
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01:01:03.570 --> 01:01:05.810
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01:01:06.050 --> 01:01:08.769
Well, you know, he's a guy, he might want something or whatever.
01:01:08.930 --> 01:01:10.610
I'm like, whoa.
01:01:10.769 --> 01:01:12.850
Yeah, tell me what happened before that.
01:01:13.250 --> 01:01:14.210
Uh, which one?
01:01:14.450 --> 01:01:15.010
Which one?
01:01:15.250 --> 01:01:21.490
And I'm gonna share this because I want you guys to understand dating your timeline, what it looks like when you finally meet someone on your same timeline.
01:01:21.570 --> 01:01:21.650
Yeah.
01:01:22.050 --> 01:01:26.050
So our story is super romantic.
01:01:26.450 --> 01:01:27.810
Yes, yeah, yes, yes.
01:01:28.050 --> 01:01:42.050
And he promised me that he would love me, he would care for me, he would protect me, and he would make me happy if I gave him a chance because I deserved it, and so did he.
01:01:42.289 --> 01:01:43.810
I try to laugh because this is my wall.
01:01:43.970 --> 01:01:44.769
I'm trying not to cry.
01:01:44.850 --> 01:01:46.289
But the therapist told me that.
01:01:46.450 --> 01:01:47.810
I don't know, I think it's good coping.
01:01:48.210 --> 01:01:55.730
But and I I knew that what you were dealing with and how you were dealing with it and how you were being handled wasn't appropriate.
01:01:55.970 --> 01:01:58.930
And when he spoke to me, he touched my soul.
01:01:59.330 --> 01:02:15.330
Hypothesis was that both of us had been through so much past relationship trauma and had experienced so much adversity that when we got together, it was like, no, this is too easy.
01:02:27.810 --> 01:02:31.330
And I saw a text message in there from Seatris, you.
01:02:32.210 --> 01:02:33.570
I said, What in the world?
01:02:33.650 --> 01:02:35.250
I ain't talked to this woman in years.
01:02:35.490 --> 01:02:36.530
What are you doing, Billy?
01:02:37.730 --> 01:02:39.250
She's gonna keep telling me story.
01:02:39.410 --> 01:02:40.050
Okay, go ahead.
01:02:40.370 --> 01:02:41.490
So how do you tell it?
01:02:41.730 --> 01:02:54.370
So I tap on this message, open it up, and uh you were extremely, in my opinion, the way I felt, the way I read it in my ear, in my mind's eye, it seemed like you were a little upset.
01:02:58.530 --> 01:02:59.970
You were a little upset.
01:03:00.289 --> 01:03:06.530
Uh you said that your ex, and I was getting this code for ex, by the way, which is the craziest scenario.
01:03:06.610 --> 01:03:07.570
I just realized that on this podcast.
01:03:07.890 --> 01:03:08.769
I didn't say your ex.
01:03:08.930 --> 01:03:09.650
You didn't say ex?
01:03:09.810 --> 01:03:10.530
You said your wife.
01:03:10.690 --> 01:03:11.010
Yeah.
01:03:11.170 --> 01:03:11.970
I said my ex.
01:03:12.050 --> 01:03:13.090
Oh, I meant to say my ex.
01:03:13.170 --> 01:03:14.530
Yeah, you're exactly a mess.
01:03:14.690 --> 01:03:16.289
Yeah, my ex has sent you a message.
01:03:16.530 --> 01:03:16.850
Yeah.
01:03:17.170 --> 01:03:23.890
And I'm sitting thinking now, my ex and it's it's um ex on the code was for ex, the the in the social media account.
01:03:24.210 --> 01:03:25.330
But had sent you a message.
01:03:25.410 --> 01:03:29.730
And I'm like, how in the world would my ex send her a message?
01:03:29.970 --> 01:03:33.890
You know, I'm thinking, like, why, how, that that's impossible.
01:03:34.050 --> 01:03:38.210
Now you put your wife in there, but I'm saying X because at that point, just my ex, you know?
01:03:39.010 --> 01:03:43.730
And um, and I'm thinking, how in the world does she even know this that you exist?
01:03:44.130 --> 01:03:44.610
Right.
01:03:44.850 --> 01:03:48.289
And then I said, can you please send me a screenshot of this message that you got?
01:03:48.370 --> 01:03:49.010
It was an ad.
01:03:49.090 --> 01:03:50.289
It was a marketing ad.
01:03:50.450 --> 01:03:53.730
So you sent the marketing and said, This this phone number is a private number.
01:03:53.810 --> 01:03:54.690
I don't give this number out.
01:03:54.769 --> 01:03:58.450
I don't, I didn't subscribe to this because it said you had subscribed and you clearly didn't.
01:03:58.610 --> 01:04:01.890
And it was a marketing ad for my ex's new company.
01:04:02.130 --> 01:04:05.250
And I was like, How in the world did she get this?
01:04:05.410 --> 01:04:12.690
And then it dawned on me, oh, you still, of course, you were in my text message database for forbidden knowledge because that's how we met.
01:04:12.850 --> 01:04:14.210
You like forbidden knowledge?
01:04:14.450 --> 01:04:22.690
I have that text message number for forbidden knowledge, which is my marketing text, SMS company, and then my personal number because we used to talk.
01:04:23.170 --> 01:04:25.410
So I said, Oh my God, that's crazy.
01:04:25.570 --> 01:04:36.769
And that's how I found out that there was a situation where you know my database was being utilized without my without my knowledge to market other stuff.
01:04:37.090 --> 01:04:45.890
Um, and so I uh after you sent me back the information and showed me what the text said, I was kind of stunned, a little embarrassed.
01:04:46.050 --> 01:04:47.330
I apologized.
01:04:47.570 --> 01:04:51.810
And then um uh that's when we you know started our communication.
01:04:51.890 --> 01:04:53.330
So you can tell your perspective on it.
01:04:53.570 --> 01:04:54.610
Let me tell my perspective.
01:04:56.530 --> 01:04:58.530
Men have a funny way of seeing things.
01:04:58.690 --> 01:05:04.130
I think they just see us as unhinged.
01:05:05.570 --> 01:05:05.890
Anyway.
01:05:06.690 --> 01:05:08.289
It could have been my PTSD.
01:05:08.530 --> 01:05:11.490
It could have been, but from that situation.
01:05:11.810 --> 01:05:27.250
So, you know, or I think it could have been guilt from the previous thinking, because you know, you probably may have thought I had, you know, some type of feelings about whatever.
01:05:27.650 --> 01:05:29.250
Oh, maybe maybe subconsciously.
01:05:29.330 --> 01:05:35.570
I didn't think it was not that I didn't have an attitude because he knew he ain't called me for 24 hours.
01:05:35.730 --> 01:05:36.930
No, no, I gave you a message.
01:05:38.610 --> 01:05:43.410
I'm taking somebody to the Bahamas giving them sweets.
01:05:47.090 --> 01:05:49.970
Okay, anyway, that's for the next Viking.
01:05:50.769 --> 01:05:57.570
Anyway, so what I for me, disclaimer, I was not upset when I sent that text message.
01:05:57.810 --> 01:05:58.450
I believe you now.
01:05:58.610 --> 01:06:01.890
When I he don't believe me because he keeps telling the story that I was upset.
01:06:02.050 --> 01:06:04.450
I thought you were, so I gotta tell what I felt in that moment.
01:06:04.610 --> 01:06:05.730
Oh, what he felt in that moment.
01:06:05.810 --> 01:06:05.970
Yeah.
01:06:06.530 --> 01:06:09.010
But he just said, okay, anyway.
01:06:10.930 --> 01:06:12.530
I was not upset.
01:06:12.690 --> 01:06:19.730
The message simply read, okay, and we're gonna show this message, and you guys come up with what you think it was.
01:06:19.890 --> 01:06:25.410
All I said was, hi, just received a message from your wife.
01:06:25.570 --> 01:06:27.490
Um, this is my personal number.
01:06:27.650 --> 01:06:34.530
Please remove me from your database as it's my private number, you know, and I only use it for certain things, something to that matter.
01:06:34.850 --> 01:06:36.690
Thank you, and hope you've been well.
01:06:37.090 --> 01:06:38.370
That's all I said.
01:06:38.530 --> 01:06:38.769
Yeah.
01:06:39.010 --> 01:06:41.410
I will show that to prove that's all I said.
01:06:41.490 --> 01:06:42.769
And I left it alone.
01:06:43.010 --> 01:06:45.810
I wasn't caring, I wasn't thinking about anything.
01:06:45.890 --> 01:06:50.210
I just was annoyed because I it wasn't that particular thing.
01:06:50.289 --> 01:06:59.650
It's just, you know how you just get annoyed when you get advertisements on your phone, and I thought I had cleaned up all the spam, and then here I go, and I'm like, and it's like, oh, such and such cursion.
01:07:00.050 --> 01:07:03.490
I'm like, oh geez, now they're gonna market me on the new companies.
01:07:03.570 --> 01:07:04.769
And I'm like, I'm like, here I go.
01:07:04.930 --> 01:07:09.330
So I just asked, I'm like, oh, probably, you know, and I didn't want a series of that to happen.
01:07:09.410 --> 01:07:16.450
So I still had his, which I didn't know was his old number because again, I never called him again after that.
01:07:16.690 --> 01:07:20.450
And I just sent that message to remove me from the database.
01:07:20.930 --> 01:07:22.210
That was it.
01:07:22.930 --> 01:07:24.930
I was happy in that moment.
01:07:25.090 --> 01:07:29.170
I was planning an amazing birthday party.
01:07:29.330 --> 01:07:33.410
Um, I was frolicking at 50 in Beverly Hills.
01:07:33.490 --> 01:07:38.210
I was not mad at anyone, I was happy about life.
01:07:38.450 --> 01:07:47.810
So anyway, a couple weeks later, I sent a message, whatever, um, and didn't think about it, didn't think past go, you know, didn't even think about that.
01:07:47.890 --> 01:07:49.650
I didn't get a response or anything like that.
01:07:49.730 --> 01:07:52.130
I completely forgot about the message I sent.
01:07:52.370 --> 01:07:59.890
And so I'm driving down, I live in California, so I'm driving down to 405, and my phone rings and it says Billy Carson.
01:08:00.130 --> 01:08:04.930
And I look up the phone and I look at the exit and it says Carson West.
01:08:05.490 --> 01:08:10.370
And I'm like, whoa, that's a sign, and I'm living West.
01:08:10.769 --> 01:08:11.170
Cool.
01:08:11.410 --> 01:08:13.890
Hey, hello?
01:08:14.289 --> 01:08:16.050
And then he's like, hey, how you doing?
01:08:16.130 --> 01:08:19.250
I'm like, wow, amazing to hear from you, you know, and woo-woo-da-bam.
01:08:19.489 --> 01:08:20.769
He tells me his story.
01:08:20.930 --> 01:08:22.050
He tells me I tell him everything.
01:08:22.130 --> 01:08:23.890
He's like, Oh, I'm sorry, that's actually my ex.
01:08:24.050 --> 01:08:24.769
Can you send me that?
01:08:25.569 --> 01:08:27.010
I'm like, oh wow, you're not married anymore.
01:08:27.090 --> 01:08:31.329
Now, mind you, I've been off of social media that whole time.
01:08:31.569 --> 01:08:32.689
So I'm not seeing him.
01:08:32.769 --> 01:08:34.769
I don't know where the life went.
01:08:35.010 --> 01:08:37.649
And so he's telling me the story.
01:08:37.729 --> 01:08:41.649
And I feel, you know, just sad because I'm a hopeless romantic.
01:08:41.729 --> 01:08:55.250
I don't like to hear anyone, you know, it's think they found love and it doesn't work because at the time I'm in, you know, bliss pre planning this Bridgerton romantic, hopeless romantic themed birthday party.
01:08:55.489 --> 01:08:58.449
And so I didn't know what to say.
01:08:58.529 --> 01:08:59.890
You know, I don't know how to comfort people.
01:08:59.970 --> 01:09:02.210
How do you comfort a person that's gone through a lot?
01:09:02.289 --> 01:09:04.449
And you're like on cloud nine, you know.
01:09:04.609 --> 01:09:11.649
So I'm like, well, I'm having a party if you want to come, you know, and he's like, you know what kind of party?
01:09:11.810 --> 01:09:14.050
So I told him, I told him the whole story about this party.
01:09:14.130 --> 01:09:15.970
That's a whole other conversation.
01:09:16.130 --> 01:09:18.930
But it was like a really big deal at my 50th birthday party.
01:09:19.010 --> 01:09:20.210
And he lives in Florida.
01:09:20.289 --> 01:09:21.010
I live in California.
01:09:21.090 --> 01:09:22.050
So I didn't know if he was gonna come.
01:09:22.130 --> 01:09:23.890
And I was like, but you could come, you know.
01:09:24.130 --> 01:09:31.489
And um, you know, and and I was like, you could, you know, there's gonna be a lot of single women there, it's gonna be, you know, great or whatever.
01:09:31.730 --> 01:09:33.570
Just come and just, you know, have fun.
01:09:33.650 --> 01:09:35.570
There's gonna be a lot of different people there.
01:09:35.730 --> 01:09:41.970
And he's like, Well, I'm I'm gonna be in Turkey, so I'll see, you know, I'm not sure if this is gonna happen with the war or something like that.
01:09:42.369 --> 01:09:47.810
They were abducting uh people or some tourists got abducted by some Syrian rebels, and I was like, you know.
01:09:48.130 --> 01:09:49.090
Yeah, it was a rebellion.
01:09:49.170 --> 01:09:51.090
And then he calls me, he's like, Well, I'll let you know.
01:09:51.170 --> 01:09:56.210
So I'm like, okay, so I send them my um invite, which is totally feminine.
01:09:56.369 --> 01:09:57.810
I'm like, ah, he's not again.
01:09:58.449 --> 01:10:02.210
Calls me back and is like, hey, I'm coming to your party.
01:10:02.289 --> 01:10:03.570
I canceled my trip.
01:10:03.890 --> 01:10:06.690
And I'm like, whoa, I'm out here talking.
01:10:06.770 --> 01:10:08.289
Look, y'all see, I'm not used to this, right?
01:10:08.369 --> 01:10:14.529
I'm all but anyway, so so I'm you know, super excited.
01:10:14.690 --> 01:10:17.570
I call my brothers who are huge fans of his.
01:10:17.890 --> 01:10:22.770
After that, all the friends were coming because they knew Billy was coming to my party.
01:10:22.930 --> 01:10:24.449
So I was super excited about that.
01:10:24.610 --> 01:10:29.409
But yeah, so he ended up um coming, and yeah, yeah, it was pretty interesting.
01:10:29.650 --> 01:10:36.369
Yeah, it was a Bridgerton party, which I didn't know what the heck I had never seen Bridgerton, never heard of a Bridgerton, didn't know what a Bridgerton was.
01:10:36.529 --> 01:10:41.810
Yeah, I find out now that it's a global phenomenon, so I've been living in a box, obviously.
01:10:41.970 --> 01:10:42.289
Yeah.
01:10:42.449 --> 01:10:44.449
Um, I'm one of those rare people that you know, though.
01:10:44.529 --> 01:10:46.930
I just like how many movies have I not seen yet?
01:10:47.170 --> 01:10:47.810
Right, right.
01:10:47.970 --> 01:10:50.930
I mean, I just saw coming to America a couple years ago.
01:10:51.090 --> 01:10:52.050
Yeah, that's a problem.
01:10:52.210 --> 01:10:54.850
So I'm here to help.
01:10:55.010 --> 01:10:55.329
Okay.
01:10:56.130 --> 01:10:58.050
I'm the sending master of joy.
01:10:58.690 --> 01:11:01.170
So so a border of kind of people, right?
01:11:01.409 --> 01:11:05.170
But um, so uh I said, okay, what is this?
01:11:05.250 --> 01:11:09.409
And and you, you know, I said, you know, you know, what's your Lord's name and all this stuff?
01:11:09.650 --> 01:11:09.890
Yeah, yeah.
01:11:10.050 --> 01:11:11.970
So I think you get to I said, Well, I'm Lord Anke here.
01:11:12.449 --> 01:11:13.489
I'm probably Lord Anke.
01:11:13.730 --> 01:11:14.610
I feel like Lord Anke.
01:11:14.770 --> 01:11:18.050
I'm filling out all I'm filling out so much information for this part.
01:11:18.130 --> 01:11:19.329
I had never done this before.
01:11:19.409 --> 01:11:19.730
Yeah.
01:11:19.970 --> 01:11:23.890
And then I found out I have to get this Bridgerton type of uh outfit.
01:11:24.050 --> 01:11:24.449
Yeah.
01:11:24.690 --> 01:11:30.369
So I end up going and I find this um this Bridgerton like type clothing.
01:11:30.449 --> 01:11:31.489
And it's pretty cool.
01:11:31.810 --> 01:11:33.250
Yeah, it's been pretty cool stuff.
01:11:33.329 --> 01:11:38.690
You know, I get the jacket with the big collar and uh, you know, all the style the style, you know.
01:11:38.850 --> 01:11:39.730
And uh it was nice.
01:11:39.810 --> 01:11:41.650
And I showed up, I came, I came.
01:11:41.810 --> 01:11:44.369
You know, you want to tell them what happened before that?
01:11:44.850 --> 01:11:45.730
Uh which one?
01:11:45.970 --> 01:11:46.529
Which one?
01:11:46.770 --> 01:11:47.650
Oh, the flight.
01:11:47.810 --> 01:11:51.730
So our story is super romantic.
01:11:52.210 --> 01:11:53.409
Yes, yeah, yes, yes.
01:11:53.650 --> 01:11:54.449
So we can share that.
01:11:54.690 --> 01:11:55.489
Yeah, we can share that.
01:11:55.570 --> 01:11:56.050
We can share that.
01:11:56.210 --> 01:12:02.850
So, and I'm gonna share this because I want you guys to understand dating your timeline, what it looks like when you finally meet someone on your same timeline.
01:12:02.930 --> 01:12:03.489
Yeah.
01:12:03.810 --> 01:12:09.329
And Billy is a good job of seeing things once he figures things out.
01:12:09.489 --> 01:12:14.050
Now, mind you, like I said, I was frolicking in Beverly Hills, okay?
01:12:14.610 --> 01:12:16.050
In billion dollar mansions.
01:12:16.130 --> 01:12:16.770
Oh, what was that?
01:12:16.930 --> 01:12:17.890
In a billion-dollar mansions.
01:12:17.970 --> 01:12:18.690
Oh, yeah.
01:12:19.329 --> 01:12:19.650
Okay.
01:12:20.210 --> 01:12:34.289
So at the time he called me, he calls me back and he goes, So, am I um accompanying you to this birthday party or am I just showing up as a regular guest?
01:12:34.690 --> 01:12:41.970
I'm like, uh, it was so funny to me.
01:12:42.130 --> 01:12:45.489
And so he thought I wouldn't have a date.
01:12:45.810 --> 01:12:47.010
I gotta shoot my shop before.
01:12:51.090 --> 01:12:52.529
So I'm kidding, I'm kidding.
01:12:52.690 --> 01:12:53.890
So anyway, at the time I did.
01:12:53.970 --> 01:12:55.170
I was like, no, it's okay.
01:12:55.250 --> 01:12:56.850
I have a date, but thank you, you know.
01:12:56.930 --> 01:12:59.970
But there will be a lot of, you know, um, you know, single people.
01:13:00.289 --> 01:13:02.449
He kept trying to pawn me off on these other women.
01:13:04.130 --> 01:13:05.650
I don't care about them ladies.
01:13:06.050 --> 01:13:10.770
Yeah, but you know, I'm just willy-nilly in I'm just in my zone, you know.
01:13:10.930 --> 01:13:11.329
I know.
01:13:11.650 --> 01:13:17.010
And so I'm not thinking, you know, there's gonna be something after all this time or anything like that.
01:13:17.090 --> 01:13:22.210
Because I did tell them we were talking, and I was like, you know, let's just remain friends and always stay in each other's lives.
01:13:22.289 --> 01:13:24.050
There's a lot we can do with each other.
01:13:24.130 --> 01:13:28.930
There's a lot of, you know, um, you know, you know, familiarity there.
01:13:29.250 --> 01:13:37.890
Um, and we're both on the same path when it comes to just helping people, you know, and I have a mission, you know, which and he and I had one together and we were talking about that.
01:13:38.050 --> 01:13:45.810
So we just continue to speak and and try to do some business together and and remain friends through that because this is a little bit before the party.
01:13:46.050 --> 01:13:53.570
Um, so I at that time was, you know, not knowing I was I was transitioning out of a relationship.
01:13:53.730 --> 01:13:56.610
In that moment, I was in a relationship and very, very happy.
01:13:56.690 --> 01:14:05.250
Um, it was a newer one, it wasn't like something I was in long term, but I thought, oh, this is the one again, you know, was on the wrong timeline.
01:14:05.570 --> 01:14:10.930
Didn't think I was on the wrong timeline, but um things were revealed, you know.
01:14:11.489 --> 01:14:16.369
And so um, so I didn't end up, you know, uh being with that person.
01:14:16.529 --> 01:14:24.369
However, before the party, um, you know, Billy sent me this amaz this video.
01:14:24.529 --> 01:14:24.930
Yeah.
01:14:25.170 --> 01:14:27.570
And um I think I was in Amsterdam at the time.
01:14:27.650 --> 01:14:32.050
I was at the I was teaching at the Mine Valley University for a week in Amsterdam.
01:14:32.210 --> 01:14:32.369
Yeah.
01:14:32.690 --> 01:14:33.010
Yeah.
01:14:33.170 --> 01:14:52.529
Yeah, he was in Amsterdam, and he sent me this video, and I remember looking at the video because you told me you're in Amsterdam, and I was like, he's across the country, you know, and I was like, and so he he he gives me this message, this very heartfelt message, and I wasn't I wasn't expecting it.
01:14:53.010 --> 01:15:13.570
And it said something like, and and we can play a part of it at another time, but he basically said, you know, he didn't know my situation or if I was in a relationship or how serious it was if I was, but you know, um basically we deserved each other.
01:15:14.130 --> 01:15:33.810
And he told me that it was time for me to stop being a slave in that in relationships, and he knows that I've been because he was too.
01:15:34.210 --> 01:15:54.289
He's constantly giving and giving, and and the person not seeing my value, and he promised me that he would love me, he would care for me, he would protect me, and he would make me happy if I gave him a chance, because I deserved it, and so did he.
01:15:55.010 --> 01:16:10.529
And he said more than that, and it was crazy because when my father died, I was in the wrong relationship, I was in the wrong timeline.
01:16:10.850 --> 01:16:13.570
And I've been an independent woman, I'm very successful.
01:16:13.650 --> 01:16:20.050
I I it it's hard for me to say that, you know, over the past few years I've been saying, reaffirming that because you do it from survival.
01:16:20.529 --> 01:16:27.329
But I was very successful and I was one of those women that were like, I could have a husband or not have a husband.
01:16:27.489 --> 01:16:31.170
I'll be okay because I have the love of my children, my friends, and my family.
01:16:31.409 --> 01:16:51.890
So if I never get married, it's okay, you know, because God has taken care of me and I've known love, I've lost love, but you know, a relationship, a husband isn't necessary because I, you know, am all events until my father died.
01:16:52.529 --> 01:17:07.570
And when my father died, the way I was handled in that situation made me realize that, and I'm so grateful for that situation because it made me realize the purpose of your mate.
01:17:08.529 --> 01:17:17.250
And the purpose of your mate is someone that can hold your soul when it's broken.
01:17:19.250 --> 01:17:27.250
You can't get that from your friends, your kids, your parents, siblings.
01:17:27.810 --> 01:17:32.130
The only person that has that ability is your mate.
01:17:32.369 --> 01:17:38.130
And that's a spiritual union when it's right, and they're gonna know.
01:17:38.369 --> 01:17:43.250
And it's not something that they say, it's just their presence.
01:17:43.570 --> 01:17:52.529
And what I needed in that moment when my soul was in pieces, was just to be held in that presence.
01:17:52.770 --> 01:17:59.409
But being with the wrong person is not gonna be able to recognize when your soul is broken because they're not touching it.
01:17:59.730 --> 01:18:06.930
Yeah, so that's when I knew I'm on the wrong timeline.
01:18:07.730 --> 01:18:15.329
Now, mind you, after realizing that, I didn't know at the time I was on the wrong timeline, but I knew I was with the wrong person, and I blame myself.
01:18:15.409 --> 01:18:16.210
I said, you know what?
01:18:16.289 --> 01:18:18.770
This is why it's very important to choose the right person.
01:18:18.850 --> 01:18:31.329
So when these tragedies and these things in life that we don't prepare for happen, you have the right person by your side and you can move through those things with, and they have the capacity to love you through that.
01:18:31.650 --> 01:18:36.610
Not everyone has the capacity to deal with what your journey looks like.
01:18:36.930 --> 01:18:41.329
And I think there's they said, too much is given, much is required.
01:18:41.970 --> 01:18:46.610
And chosen people like myself and like him are that.
01:18:46.850 --> 01:18:49.329
And so when I realized that, that was fine.
01:18:49.489 --> 01:18:53.890
Now I didn't think about that again until Billy sent me that video.
01:18:54.130 --> 01:18:57.489
And when he spoke to me, he touched my soul.
01:18:57.730 --> 01:19:04.610
And when the video was over, he sent me this song, A Thousand Years, which I love that song from Twilight.
01:19:05.090 --> 01:19:16.690
And I'm a hopeless romantic, and I'm planning this weekend of Bridgerton and horse-drawn carriages, and Billy Carson has come back, and it's like, you deserve love, Beatrice.
01:19:16.770 --> 01:19:22.529
And I'm like, And so I try to laugh because it's my wall.
01:19:22.610 --> 01:19:25.090
I'm trying not to cry, but a therapist told me that.
01:19:25.170 --> 01:19:26.449
I don't know, I think it's good coping.
01:19:26.930 --> 01:19:32.930
But anyways, so he touched, he literally reached this man.
01:19:33.010 --> 01:19:34.850
I'm like, this man doesn't even know me.
01:19:35.090 --> 01:19:40.529
And he reached in my soul and just massaged it.
01:19:41.970 --> 01:19:44.850
And he and I felt it and I was just in tears.
01:19:45.090 --> 01:19:52.050
And um, and I was at that point very, very confused, and um, and I just responded, thank you.
01:19:52.210 --> 01:19:53.250
That was beautiful.
01:19:53.570 --> 01:19:55.570
I didn't have much to say after that.
01:19:55.970 --> 01:20:00.690
Then you can tell.
01:20:02.930 --> 01:20:03.329
Yeah.
01:20:03.970 --> 01:20:07.489
So that was, you know, and the reason, you know, I got on a flight.
01:20:07.650 --> 01:20:21.489
I got on a flight, yeah, but the reason why I um, you know, I I resonated so much with you and what I anticipated or felt like just in my core you were dealing with, I can't really explain it.
01:20:21.650 --> 01:20:23.090
It's just this knowing, you know?
01:20:23.409 --> 01:20:25.170
It's just on this understanding.
01:20:25.650 --> 01:20:31.810
And I I knew that what you were dealing with and how you were dealing with and how you were being handled wasn't appropriate.
01:20:32.289 --> 01:20:39.329
And so because I had picked up on that, whether it be through uh empathically or whatever, I just knew it.
01:20:39.409 --> 01:20:40.690
I knew it in my core, you know.
01:20:40.930 --> 01:20:41.970
And that's why I sent you that.
01:20:42.050 --> 01:20:46.930
And I didn't want to send it as a text, I wanted to send it to you as a video, which is why I sent you a video, you know.
01:20:47.810 --> 01:20:57.970
Um and I get got back and um from Amsterdam and teaching for a whole week straight at Amsterdam Un at uh Myan Valley University, which was a lot of work.
01:20:58.130 --> 01:20:59.810
It was great, had a great time though.
01:21:00.289 --> 01:21:08.050
And um on the beach in Fort Lauderdale in the morning, and um something just hit me like, you need to go see this woman right now.
01:21:08.210 --> 01:21:10.050
Now, of course, you live in California.
01:21:10.690 --> 01:21:13.090
Yeah, so I'm already in Fort Lauderdale Beach.
01:21:13.170 --> 01:21:16.850
Uh I'm at the four seasons like I always do on the weekends if I'm around.
01:21:17.010 --> 01:21:20.850
And I'm walking up and down the beach, and I said, you know what, I need to go there right now.
01:21:21.010 --> 01:21:29.970
So I literally pulled my phone out, bought a plane ticket, drove straight to the airport, well, got an Uber straight to the airport, and hopped on a plane to fly straight to California.
01:21:30.449 --> 01:21:36.210
And uh and then I got thwarted.
01:21:39.409 --> 01:21:46.610
I said, hey, uh as I got closer to California, I said, this is kind of creepy and weird.
01:21:46.850 --> 01:21:48.610
I started feeling real strange.
01:21:48.770 --> 01:21:51.730
Like, I was like, what the hell am I doing?
01:21:51.970 --> 01:21:53.010
Why am I doing this?
01:21:53.170 --> 01:22:03.890
And what I started feeling like I knew what I was doing, but I started feeling like you might be like judging me, like, how dare you just come halfway across the world to come see me.
01:22:04.289 --> 01:22:06.610
So, you know, long story short, do I land?
01:22:06.690 --> 01:22:15.170
And um I tried I contacted you before I landed, and I wasn't letting you know, you know, that I was gonna be there, and you were like, Are you coming for work?
01:22:16.690 --> 01:22:18.050
I was like, no.
01:22:20.050 --> 01:22:32.369
And you told me, you know, that um um obviously, unfortunately, you had some plans and um you were already uh it was uh somebody you were dating, it was their birthday.
01:22:32.610 --> 01:22:38.930
And um, and you were like, I just can't, you know, in good uh in respect for this person, I can't I can't come see you.
01:22:39.010 --> 01:22:41.090
And I was like, I understand totally.
01:22:41.489 --> 01:22:51.010
And um I bought myself a ticket while I was sitting in the gate that I had just landed at, and I walked to another gate and I got back on another plane.
01:22:51.170 --> 01:22:54.210
Oh my god, that was crazy because I was like, Well, where are you?
01:22:54.369 --> 01:22:57.890
Like, are you staying overnight or are you you're like nope, I'm heading back.
01:22:57.970 --> 01:22:59.010
I'm like, what?
01:22:59.570 --> 01:23:03.570
So you really flew here for just me?
01:23:03.730 --> 01:23:05.810
Yeah, and then I was in tears all over again.
01:23:05.890 --> 01:23:08.529
I'm like, ah, you know, this is so romantic.
01:23:08.690 --> 01:23:17.489
And then, you know, but in the end, you know, I had to, you know, for me, stay true to, you know, the commitment of myself.
01:23:17.890 --> 01:23:23.810
And, you know, and then I remember calling him, and we were talking because we're still friends leading up to this.
01:23:23.890 --> 01:23:26.529
Yeah, and afterwards we spoke, and he apologized.
01:23:26.770 --> 01:23:29.010
Like, I'm so sorry, I don't know what over came over me.
01:23:29.170 --> 01:23:32.050
And I'm like, you know, thank you for that, you know.
01:23:32.210 --> 01:23:47.650
And I said, Do you think what happened with us before um is happening now for me because I'm seeing someone and then you're showing up.
01:23:47.970 --> 01:23:51.570
Is this a distraction like what happened with us?
01:23:51.810 --> 01:23:56.210
You know, because after the video, I'm like, okay, we're so in alignment.
01:23:56.289 --> 01:23:58.930
Because even when we were dating, like it was just so easy.
01:23:59.170 --> 01:24:04.369
But I just don't, we both are like, I don't even know how it happened, it just didn't happen.
01:24:04.610 --> 01:24:23.730
Well, I had a, you know, not to cut you off, but my hypothesis was that both of us have been through so much past relationship relationship trauma and had experienced so much adversity, yeah, that when we got together, it was like, nah, this is just too easy.
01:24:24.850 --> 01:24:27.010
Oh my god, yeah, this ain't real.
01:24:27.329 --> 01:24:27.970
You know, this is too easy.
01:24:29.329 --> 01:24:35.650
She's too nice, you I'm a chicken eating vegan, she's too nice, and you know, and and I was like, nah, it's no way.
01:24:36.449 --> 01:24:37.010
Nothing wrong.
01:24:37.170 --> 01:24:43.650
And so it's that um that those past experiences were playing in our current moment.
01:24:43.810 --> 01:24:44.050
Yeah.
01:24:44.210 --> 01:24:54.449
Also, like I was telling you too before you go on, it's like at that time, if we would have gotten together back then, yeah, we would have been broken up by now because not because I'm a bad person or I would have been cheating or anything.
01:24:54.610 --> 01:25:07.170
I don't do that kind of stuff, but my the way that I understand a relationship, the level of patience I've been able to obtain, and also the amount of work that I did on myself was monumentous.
01:25:07.329 --> 01:25:15.409
You know, I had worked on so many other areas of my life before, but I had never really worked on myself in terms of going back and clearing traumas and triggers and things like that.
01:25:15.570 --> 01:25:19.650
And I had taken my whole my whole self-improvement to another level.
01:25:19.810 --> 01:25:20.210
Yeah.
01:25:20.529 --> 01:25:27.329
And so that put me in a, I knew that would put me in a great position for the next person that I that I you know that I met.
01:25:27.570 --> 01:25:30.050
But back then, I wasn't on that level yet.
01:25:30.130 --> 01:25:30.449
Yeah.
01:25:30.610 --> 01:25:42.449
Um, and so I don't know how it could have worked out, but possibly um being the where I was at that time to where I'm I am now, I feel like I'm two totally different people.
01:25:42.610 --> 01:25:42.930
Yeah.
01:25:43.010 --> 01:25:43.250
Yeah.
01:25:43.409 --> 01:25:43.730
Yeah.
01:25:43.970 --> 01:25:44.210
Yeah.
01:25:44.289 --> 01:25:58.610
And that's what I was asking, because I was like, okay, do you think because at that time it was really weird that he met his ex, and if and if I would have gone with him, it would have been a completely different timeline.
01:25:58.770 --> 01:25:59.010
Yeah.
01:25:59.250 --> 01:26:03.730
I wouldn't have been home for my ex to even win me back.
01:26:03.970 --> 01:26:04.130
Right.
01:26:04.449 --> 01:26:04.770
Right?
01:26:04.930 --> 01:26:05.090
Yeah.
01:26:05.250 --> 01:26:15.250
And he wouldn't have been in a position to where, you know, he was able to be open to meet someone.
01:26:15.409 --> 01:26:17.010
Well, that particular someone.
01:26:17.090 --> 01:26:27.010
I I don't know what that timeline would have looked like, but I know at that point, I don't think the opportunity would have been there for either of our exes.
01:26:27.250 --> 01:26:27.570
Exactly.
01:26:27.810 --> 01:26:28.529
At that point.
01:26:28.690 --> 01:26:37.250
So when he came around, and I'm thinking this person that I'm with at the time was my person, and then he's coming.
01:26:37.409 --> 01:26:43.170
I'm like, is this one of those situations that comes to thwart my destiny?
01:26:43.329 --> 01:26:43.570
Right.
01:26:43.730 --> 01:26:53.170
You know, and what better person to send than this tall, dark, handsome, intelligent alien man that I always had a crush on.
01:26:53.329 --> 01:26:54.289
But anyway.
01:26:55.970 --> 01:27:03.010
Uh, and and so anyway, so I, you know, I I I didn't get, you know, you know, it was just very interesting in my life.
01:27:03.170 --> 01:27:04.369
My brother was so funny.
01:27:04.529 --> 01:27:08.130
My brother, I confide in him a lot in things.
01:27:08.369 --> 01:27:10.369
And he just loves Billy.
01:27:10.529 --> 01:27:13.170
And I told him the situation, and he was so funny.
01:27:13.250 --> 01:27:16.449
He was like, oh, geez, I can't get somebody to go to McDonald's with.
01:27:16.610 --> 01:27:21.890
I mean, you got freaking this guy and Billy flying to see you.
01:27:22.050 --> 01:27:23.329
He was like, wow.
01:27:24.210 --> 01:27:26.930
He was like, I can't even tell you what a choice to make.
01:27:27.090 --> 01:27:30.289
And so it was it was very different for me.
01:27:30.529 --> 01:27:47.329
Um, I prayed actually, because I knew that at this point in my life, going into my 50s, that it was very important that I made the right decision in a partner because I wasn't gonna keep getting these chances to get it right.
01:27:47.489 --> 01:27:48.449
I just knew that.
01:27:48.930 --> 01:27:56.529
So I say, God, are you bringing this to me to pay attention to the situation I'm in because it's not the situation, or is this, you know, whatever.
01:27:56.610 --> 01:27:58.770
So I got on my knees and I prayed.
01:27:58.930 --> 01:28:00.610
I rarely get on my knees to pray.
01:28:00.690 --> 01:28:04.130
I'm more of a commanding type of speak things and resistance.
01:28:04.289 --> 01:28:08.210
But it had been years since I had gotten on my knees and prayed.
01:28:08.289 --> 01:28:09.570
And I prayed.
01:28:09.810 --> 01:28:13.329
And I asked God to reveal to me and guide me.
01:28:13.489 --> 01:28:17.329
And if he showed me and gave me signs, I'd be obedient and follow that.
01:28:17.650 --> 01:28:20.210
And I kid you not, what did I say that prayer for?
01:28:20.529 --> 01:28:23.090
Man, did a mask come off of the person that I met.
01:28:23.170 --> 01:28:31.970
And then I tried to stick it out, and then even a week later, I mean, it was what I found out was like, okay, no.
01:28:32.289 --> 01:28:40.289
And the thing about it, even people were like, yeah, but you can deal with that because this person was also a very, you know, well-known person as well.
01:28:40.449 --> 01:28:43.730
And, you know, very extremely successful and known.
01:28:43.890 --> 01:28:54.369
And it was one of those situations that the regular person, especially a woman, is not just gonna walk away from for or the reason I walked away from it.
01:28:54.610 --> 01:29:01.170
And for me, that was just one of my standards and deal breakers that, and which I won't Share what that is.
01:29:01.329 --> 01:29:07.329
Um, but I was like, no, this is, and I knew it was like almost a test from the universe.
01:29:07.570 --> 01:29:08.610
Are you ready?
01:29:08.850 --> 01:29:11.489
Are you truly ready for what you say you're ready for?
01:29:11.730 --> 01:29:20.850
And I just, and I knew without a shadow of a doubt, I didn't care how many benefits or how it looked for me, I did not want this as a part of my life anymore.
01:29:21.329 --> 01:29:24.050
Had nothing to do with Billy, had nothing to do with anyone else.
01:29:24.130 --> 01:29:24.770
And that was it.
01:29:24.850 --> 01:29:26.050
I ended that relationship.
01:29:26.130 --> 01:29:29.810
So by the time my party came and saw him again, I was single.
01:29:29.890 --> 01:29:31.090
I had never didn't tell him.
01:29:31.170 --> 01:29:31.250
Nope.
01:29:31.570 --> 01:29:31.970
He didn't know.
01:29:32.289 --> 01:29:32.930
I had no idea.
01:29:33.170 --> 01:29:38.369
He didn't know because I'm of the mindset of, you know, I'm just getting working through that and stuff.
01:29:38.529 --> 01:29:43.250
And I don't believe I'm not one of those grass is greener on other side situations.
01:29:43.409 --> 01:29:45.090
So so yeah, so I didn't tell him.
01:29:45.250 --> 01:29:55.090
And then at the end of that week, and it was like a three-day week, and um, he was just being a friend to me, you know, even leading up to that, he was just, we were talking and still just being friends.
01:29:55.329 --> 01:30:05.090
And um, by the end of that weekend, you know, I was kind of, you know, looking at him again because he wasn't looking at anyone else.
01:30:05.329 --> 01:30:10.289
And then at the end, and it was just, he was just, you know, making sure I was okay and everything.
01:30:10.369 --> 01:30:14.930
And we just by that on the boat and stuff, by the end of that, that connection was there again.
01:30:15.010 --> 01:30:20.850
I was still very afraid, um, and not necessarily really ready, but I felt that connection again.
01:30:20.930 --> 01:30:21.409
Yeah, yeah.
01:30:21.650 --> 01:30:22.449
By that third day.
01:30:22.690 --> 01:30:24.369
Yeah, actually, I I understood everything.
01:30:24.449 --> 01:30:29.090
I just wanted to take it slow because you know, I'm not a I'm not a a rush kind of guy, you know.
01:30:29.810 --> 01:30:31.489
And so uh I recognized that.
01:30:31.570 --> 01:30:35.090
And I even told you, I said, look, you know, if you're not, I'm gonna wait till you're ready, you know.
01:30:35.409 --> 01:30:36.770
And I'm just gonna I did.
01:30:36.850 --> 01:30:45.010
I told you I'll wait, you know, and I'll be here and I won't see anybody else until you're ready uh to, you know, to to come see me and to date, you know.
01:30:45.329 --> 01:30:48.770
And I said, what if I don't choose to date you though, Billy Carson?
01:30:49.010 --> 01:30:55.409
You just gonna wait for me to even what if I'm not choosing it, what if it's not, I'm just you know, we just stay friends.
01:30:55.570 --> 01:30:57.570
You said, well, that's a chance I'm willing to take.
01:30:57.730 --> 01:31:03.890
I'm not going to, you know, I'm not gonna, you said specifically, I'm not gonna lose you this time.
01:31:04.050 --> 01:31:04.449
Yeah.
01:31:04.690 --> 01:31:09.329
And when he said that, I said, ooh, mommy is lost here.
01:31:15.329 --> 01:31:15.570
Okay.
01:31:16.210 --> 01:31:22.369
But very head, Seatrus, you know, yeah, no rushing in anything.
01:31:22.529 --> 01:31:23.489
And and you did.
01:31:23.730 --> 01:31:30.369
And then, like, you know, a month goes by and you're like, letting you're like, hey, do you want to go to Egypt?
01:31:31.409 --> 01:31:33.329
And I was supposed to be in Italy.
01:31:33.409 --> 01:31:35.810
Well, you didn't tell them what I gave you for your birthday, huh?
01:31:36.050 --> 01:31:37.650
Oh, which part?
01:31:37.810 --> 01:31:38.369
Which one?
01:31:38.529 --> 01:31:39.489
Oh, okay.
01:31:39.810 --> 01:31:40.449
Oh yeah.
01:31:40.690 --> 01:31:46.770
So, oh I'm so glad you're gonna make me cry again.
01:31:47.010 --> 01:31:49.570
It's probably why, because it's supposed to be okay.
01:31:49.970 --> 01:31:51.010
All right, where's the camera?
01:31:51.090 --> 01:31:52.930
I gotta look directly in this camera.
01:31:54.050 --> 01:31:55.090
So, okay.
01:31:55.329 --> 01:32:00.529
Now remember I was telling you guys about finding somebody that can hold your soul when it's broken.
01:32:00.690 --> 01:32:01.650
Okay, that was one thing.
01:32:01.810 --> 01:32:05.409
But I had another requirement, which was very, very important to me.
01:32:05.570 --> 01:32:09.650
And it was that I wanted a man to love me so much, okay?
01:32:09.970 --> 01:32:13.329
I mean, not necessarily love me so much, but want to see me happy.
01:32:13.409 --> 01:32:18.610
It's very important that you get a person that likes you and wants to see you happy, okay?
01:32:18.770 --> 01:32:19.730
That's very important.
01:32:19.890 --> 01:32:25.650
I'm a person that everybody in my life, friends, family, cousins, everything, I make it a point.
01:32:25.810 --> 01:32:27.010
I want to see them happy.
01:32:27.170 --> 01:32:29.730
My joy comes from seeing the people I love happy.
01:32:29.970 --> 01:32:36.449
But I said, I don't know what it is to experience me, right?
01:32:37.010 --> 01:32:52.130
And so I wanted to meet someone that felt the way I felt, which is it's so important to me to make you happy, to make sure you're enjoying life, to make sure that you know you you wake up and look forward to the day if I can contribute to that.
01:32:52.210 --> 01:32:54.210
And I wanted a person that could do that.
01:32:54.289 --> 01:33:00.130
And I said to myself, I want a man that wants to see me happy and wants to give me the world.
01:33:00.369 --> 01:33:05.730
And the only reason he doesn't give me the moon and stars is because he can't reach them.
01:33:06.610 --> 01:33:08.770
That was very important to me.
01:33:08.850 --> 01:33:11.170
And I told my girlfriend that she says, Oh, you're crazy.
01:33:11.329 --> 01:33:12.610
So you asked for too much.
01:33:12.690 --> 01:33:13.409
I said, I'm not.
01:33:13.489 --> 01:33:15.810
I was like, because I've become what I expect.
01:33:16.369 --> 01:33:17.730
That's how I love.
01:33:17.970 --> 01:33:23.170
So if I can embody that, you can't tell me by law of attraction, I can't attract that.
01:33:23.409 --> 01:33:28.289
I want to experience what it's like to be loved by me, how I love.
01:33:28.930 --> 01:33:30.529
And so that was it.
01:33:31.570 --> 01:33:36.289
Do you guys know that for my birthday gift?
01:33:37.250 --> 01:33:45.170
Billy figured, gave me this gift, and it was a star named after me.
01:33:46.289 --> 01:33:49.250
Leave it to Billy Carson to figure out how to give you the stars.
01:33:49.570 --> 01:33:50.130
A real star.
01:33:50.690 --> 01:33:51.890
A real freaking star.
01:33:52.930 --> 01:33:55.090
And he didn't even know that's what I desired.
01:33:55.409 --> 01:33:57.650
And I said, oh yeah.
01:33:59.090 --> 01:33:59.890
All right, sorry.
01:33:59.970 --> 01:34:01.570
Y'all get interested in another side of me.
01:34:01.650 --> 01:34:02.449
I get a little hype.
01:34:02.770 --> 01:34:13.170
But yeah, so it was like gave me a star.
01:34:13.409 --> 01:34:15.409
He figured out how to give me the star.
01:34:16.210 --> 01:34:19.170
I was like, and also I called my girlfriend.
01:34:19.329 --> 01:34:22.369
I said, You remember you telling me he was asking me for I was asked for too much?
01:34:23.329 --> 01:34:25.090
Your girl got a star.
01:34:26.529 --> 01:34:27.090
What do you mean?
01:34:27.170 --> 01:34:28.050
How you gonna get a star?
01:34:28.289 --> 01:34:30.850
And I told her, tears, we're crying, I'm crying.
01:34:30.930 --> 01:34:33.250
I'm like, you're crying, I'm crying, we're crying.
01:34:33.409 --> 01:34:39.890
And so it was really, it's just amazing when you date your timeline.
01:34:39.970 --> 01:34:44.289
So that's how like those different signs, and that was just the first gift.
01:34:44.529 --> 01:34:51.250
And so that was so thoughtful, and it's and I can still see my star, it's named after me, Seatrice.
01:34:51.489 --> 01:34:53.489
And I and he framed it.
01:34:53.730 --> 01:34:54.610
He sent me one.
01:34:54.690 --> 01:34:59.730
There's one at my house, and then when I got to his house, there is one there.
01:34:59.970 --> 01:35:06.210
And it was just a thoughtful, like you don't meet people like that, man.
01:35:06.690 --> 01:35:12.770
Like that's when I said, okay, God's like, so that's why I say speak what you want into existence and all that.
01:35:12.850 --> 01:35:18.529
And when it does not look like that, get out of there because you don't want to be with the wrong person when the right one shows up.
01:35:18.770 --> 01:35:19.170
Period.
01:35:19.250 --> 01:35:22.369
Like this is how can it not be my timeline?
01:35:22.610 --> 01:35:31.650
And another way to recognize your timeline is that when talking to him, we had a lot of similarities growing up.
01:35:31.970 --> 01:35:35.570
He was kicked out at 16, I was kicked out at 16.
01:35:35.730 --> 01:35:47.890
You know, um, there was a, you know, some some journeys we went through with similar things with, you know, um past relationships that were similar things, and then it just brought us here.
01:35:47.970 --> 01:35:48.850
And here we are.
01:35:49.010 --> 01:35:50.210
We it's crazy.
01:35:50.289 --> 01:35:51.650
Like neither one of us drink.
01:35:51.810 --> 01:35:53.090
No, no drinking, no smoke.
01:35:53.329 --> 01:35:54.369
Neither one of us smoke.
01:35:54.529 --> 01:35:56.210
People always say, You, you're high all the time.
01:35:56.289 --> 01:35:58.289
I'm like, no, I just got sleepy eyes, man.
01:35:58.529 --> 01:35:59.970
He just got sleepy eyes.
01:36:00.130 --> 01:36:01.810
I don't smoke nothing.
01:36:01.970 --> 01:36:03.730
Yeah, and so it's so crazy.
01:36:03.810 --> 01:36:07.570
It's like, you know, and and but I mean, like I said, there's some differences, right?
01:36:07.650 --> 01:36:11.329
But our core beliefs, like our children, yeah, you know, he has five children.
01:36:11.489 --> 01:36:15.090
I have five children, three living, two that passed away.
01:36:15.409 --> 01:36:22.130
You know, so it it's we just kind of look we got grand, we have grandchildren, and we both have grandchildren, which is amazing.
01:36:22.210 --> 01:36:24.289
Yeah, we're both earth signs, you know.
01:36:24.369 --> 01:36:26.130
I started really believing in that stuff.
01:36:26.210 --> 01:36:29.650
That was interesting to find out how we're in alignment there.
01:36:29.890 --> 01:36:46.930
Um, you know, he's he's his path is like the four, you know, and our my family, I had it was a family of four, and our numbers add up to four, yeah, you know, so it was just, I mean, there's other things as well, but it was just phenomenal.
01:36:47.010 --> 01:36:47.170
Yeah.
01:36:47.409 --> 01:36:50.130
And so after that, I was still nervous, right?
01:36:50.449 --> 01:37:05.570
Because I was like, uh, you know, and so my, you know, um my brother was, I was went back to my brother again, and I was like, I had a choice between Italy and then he invited me to Egypt.
01:37:05.890 --> 01:37:12.610
And I'm like, I I don't know is it's gonna be two weeks and spending time with him in Egypt and all that stuff and seeing how that goes.
01:37:12.690 --> 01:37:17.170
And my brother's like, listen, you're on the fence, go to Egypt with him.
01:37:17.329 --> 01:37:24.449
You at that moment, you'll see his heart and you'll know who he is, not directly who he is to you, but how he treats others.
01:37:24.610 --> 01:37:25.570
Just observe him.
01:37:25.730 --> 01:37:30.130
And I've always been an observer, and he's like, You're gonna see his heart and then make your decision then.
01:37:30.369 --> 01:37:31.570
I was like, okay.
01:37:31.730 --> 01:37:35.970
And so when I told him I was going, you know, before then, it was great.
01:37:36.130 --> 01:37:47.489
I flew down and he just when I got here before Egypt, when I got here, this man literally rolled out the red carpet.
01:37:48.210 --> 01:37:52.210
Um, he just made everything perfect for me.
01:37:52.289 --> 01:37:57.570
He had a chef come quick, the chef was even vegan to make a beautiful vegan meal.
01:37:57.730 --> 01:38:02.050
And I mean, he just put so thought, so much thought into just impressing me.
01:38:02.130 --> 01:38:03.650
And I'm still confused.
01:38:03.810 --> 01:38:11.489
Like, you know, I know I'm the bomb.com, but how do you know I'm the bomb.com.
01:38:13.890 --> 01:38:18.130
And so, you know, it was just like, I'm just kidding.
01:38:18.210 --> 01:38:18.610
I don't know.
01:38:18.690 --> 01:38:22.449
It's it's the the bomb.com is in the eye of the beholder, okay?
01:38:22.930 --> 01:38:25.970
So in all of you are the bomb.com to somebody.
01:38:26.050 --> 01:38:27.890
Just find your somebody, okay?
01:38:28.130 --> 01:38:29.329
Be the bomb.com.
01:38:29.489 --> 01:38:32.449
But be the bomb.com so you can attract the bomb.com.
01:38:32.610 --> 01:38:32.850
Right.
01:38:33.010 --> 01:38:36.050
I so I worked very hard to be the bomb.com.
01:38:36.210 --> 01:38:36.449
Yeah.
01:38:36.610 --> 01:38:37.170
But yeah.
01:38:37.650 --> 01:38:44.289
I just wanted to give you, you know, the treatment that I knew that you deserved that I felt like you hadn't really received in a way.
01:38:44.369 --> 01:38:59.970
And even though you were, you know, you've been around very wealthy people and um and been in many mansions and and and all this, but I understand and know that there's there's um wealth and there's you know um success.
01:39:00.449 --> 01:39:06.289
But also then, how do you express a certain amount of romantic love within all of that?
01:39:06.369 --> 01:39:08.289
Yeah, whether you have the wealth or not.
01:39:08.449 --> 01:39:11.090
Yeah, you know, and that's why I literally put a red carpet out.
01:39:11.250 --> 01:39:21.409
You know, that's why you know I made sure that when you got here you had slippers for your feet to walk around instead of walking on these cold, hard floors after you take your shoes off.
01:39:22.210 --> 01:39:24.130
You know, plush, gotta have the plush, you know.
01:39:24.289 --> 01:39:26.850
They were plush, it was the best slippers ever.
01:39:27.010 --> 01:39:28.449
I love those slippers.
01:39:28.770 --> 01:39:39.970
Make sure you had, you know, you you're a vegan and you want to have that food, you know, and um and I wanted it to be not some cheesy restaurant throwing some processed food together, you know.
01:39:40.130 --> 01:39:46.130
So I had my chef of nine years come over and throw it around and you know, make you a phenomenal meal.
01:39:46.289 --> 01:39:49.010
I just wanted you to feel like you were at home, you know.
01:39:49.250 --> 01:39:50.449
I wanted you to feel special.
01:39:50.610 --> 01:39:52.610
I had your star waiting for you in your closet.
01:39:52.850 --> 01:39:54.289
He did, and he showed me my closet.
01:39:54.369 --> 01:39:55.730
I didn't even know I had a closet.
01:39:55.970 --> 01:39:59.010
He shows me this closet, he calls it a closet.
01:39:59.970 --> 01:40:01.170
Let me tell you something.
01:40:01.329 --> 01:40:02.690
This ain't a closet.
01:40:02.850 --> 01:40:04.610
This is a crib, okay?
01:40:04.850 --> 01:40:17.329
I'm talking about like I told you guys, like I you can fit a whole family of five in this closet, plus, it's your own bathroom, and it's just set up, and it was just so really thoughtful.
01:40:17.409 --> 01:40:26.050
Like you said, I've been in a lot of large homes and all that stuff, but this home was really different, and and it was but when you walk through it, it's like taking a journey through his mind, okay?
01:40:26.210 --> 01:40:43.489
So when I first got here, there's there's all kinds of you know, different, you know, ancient pictures and um artifacts and crystals and things like that, and there was a calmness here, and he just I've never seen a man make a home like this.
01:40:43.650 --> 01:40:49.090
Usually it's the women that make the home, and he's like, Yeah, I designed this, and I'm like side-eyeing them, yeah, right.
01:40:49.650 --> 01:40:56.369
I did, you know, and then he started talking about it, and he knew each one and all this stuff, and I'm like, huh, it's crazy.
01:40:56.610 --> 01:40:59.090
And then another thing I'll tell you about this house.
01:40:59.329 --> 01:41:07.570
When we were dating back in 2021, I was planning to move to California, and I kept sending him these houses.
01:41:08.050 --> 01:41:17.650
And when I and I was supposed, I had contracts on these houses, and I had ended up getting engaged, and I lost the contract on this house.
01:41:17.730 --> 01:41:25.010
And I had been looking, and I mean, this is this beautiful home, toll brothers out in California, and he knew he he saw the house.
01:41:25.090 --> 01:41:30.610
I mean, I don't know if he paid attention to the house, but I had told him about it, you know, over and over again, like my plans on moving there.
01:41:30.770 --> 01:41:32.610
And so my kids were looking at this house.
01:41:32.690 --> 01:41:38.529
I had a contract on this home, and um like I was moving in this home.
01:41:38.690 --> 01:41:50.369
And then when my ex came back around, I was like, well, you don't, you know, he didn't necessarily want to move to California, so it delayed my move, and I lost the house.
01:41:50.610 --> 01:41:51.730
But I thought it was worth it.
01:41:51.890 --> 01:41:53.329
I'm getting married, whatever.
01:41:53.570 --> 01:41:55.090
We'll get another house.
01:41:55.409 --> 01:41:56.770
Did not get another house.
01:41:56.850 --> 01:42:08.289
I lost millions in equity that I could have had, different opportunities there, ended up ending that um engagement after three months, and then also lost that and the house.
01:42:08.449 --> 01:42:13.250
Um, I ended up moving to California, but not in the area or the house I wanted.
01:42:13.409 --> 01:42:28.529
And by the time I was settled here and had my bearings and my head together to buy that house, it was like, you know, sold, it was gone, the whole community was sold out, and I couldn't, it took me two years to find that.
01:42:29.329 --> 01:42:35.810
I get here when I land, and this is the house.
01:42:36.289 --> 01:42:40.930
The front, the whole layout, same builder, but it's double the size.
01:42:41.810 --> 01:42:43.570
It's like, whoa.
01:42:43.810 --> 01:42:55.250
So you don't usually miss your destiny if you get back on track, yeah, you know, and so I'm looking at it and I'm like, all the signs are here.
01:42:55.409 --> 01:42:58.610
So after eating, I didn't have to wait to Egypt.
01:42:58.690 --> 01:43:00.930
I'm like, yeah, we go together.
01:43:01.170 --> 01:43:02.850
We ain't never breaking up.
01:43:03.409 --> 01:43:09.730
So yeah, this is that's our that's the beginning of our story.
01:43:09.810 --> 01:43:17.890
But I did go to go to Egypt and saw his heart and when I say, and then being in Egypt and the supernatural things that happened there.
01:43:17.970 --> 01:43:29.170
And then and it just that's when I knew, and he, I think he knew as well everything that we've gone through led us to these moments.
01:43:29.329 --> 01:43:29.890
Oh, yeah, for sure.
01:43:30.130 --> 01:43:34.130
It's prepared us for each other to love each other more, to value each other more.
01:43:34.289 --> 01:43:34.529
Yeah.
01:43:34.690 --> 01:43:37.970
Um, you know, so no regrets of anyone in my past.
01:43:38.130 --> 01:43:43.890
No, I send peace and love and light to them because I was prepared.
01:43:43.970 --> 01:43:49.329
And I this was another thing I used to do, and I'm just the last thing I'm gonna say, because I can get long-winded.
01:43:49.890 --> 01:43:54.449
But really, he's he learned patience.
01:43:54.690 --> 01:44:07.090
And so I when I would date a guy and I would end it, once I knew they weren't the one, I would say, Well, I'm and I told one guy, he's like, Oh no, you're right.
01:44:07.170 --> 01:44:08.850
I was like, No, I'm cheating on my husband.
01:44:09.010 --> 01:44:15.730
Yeah, because once I knew they weren't the one, I'm cheating on my husband because I know I have a husband.
01:44:15.810 --> 01:44:25.489
I know I made everything, my curves, my mind, my laugh, my imperfections, everything I was made perfectly for someone.
01:44:25.730 --> 01:44:33.570
You know, my mistakes, my ins and outs, everything, the person that I ultimately end up with, because that's my intention and belief, I made for that person.
01:44:33.810 --> 01:44:55.250
And so when we were, you know, divinely, and I call that divine, because God will use whomever and whatever, when you step into your purpose and your acceptance of I want a better life, then the universe moves through whomever and however and whatever to get you there.
01:44:55.890 --> 01:45:12.369
And that's how you know when it happens out of the box like we happened, which is the all the abnormal things, the coincidences that I don't believe in, um, our divine situations to get you where you're supposed to be.
01:45:12.529 --> 01:45:14.369
And there were just too many signs for us.
01:45:14.610 --> 01:45:21.730
There was just too much alignment to say that to know that we were supposed, because there was absolutely no way that we were supposed to be together.
01:45:21.810 --> 01:45:24.850
I right after my party, I was getting off social media again.
01:45:25.010 --> 01:45:28.369
There was absolutely no way for us to connect again or see each other.
01:45:28.529 --> 01:45:32.610
It was divinely, it was divine, and that's where I'm at right now.
01:45:32.770 --> 01:45:41.170
Like I feel that this is there's just something supernatural going on for us.
01:45:41.329 --> 01:45:44.289
And um, it's um it's a very special relationship.
01:45:44.369 --> 01:45:46.130
We, you know, I invited you to Egypt.
01:45:46.210 --> 01:45:51.489
Yes, and um, I said, if she shows up, shows up to Egypt, then that's my girlfriend.
01:45:51.730 --> 01:45:52.210
Really?
01:45:52.369 --> 01:45:56.770
Yeah, and then you showed up to Egypt, and as soon as I introduced you, what did I say?
01:45:57.010 --> 01:45:59.650
He goes, and I wasn't ready for this, right?
01:45:59.970 --> 01:46:02.130
I'm meeting people, I'm like, hi, how you doing?
01:46:02.210 --> 01:46:05.890
I'm in the crowd, you know, intermingling with everyone.
01:46:05.970 --> 01:46:07.409
Everyone was so nice, yeah.
01:46:07.570 --> 01:46:10.850
And so, and I'm happy, we're at the four seasons, I'm on cloud nine.
01:46:11.010 --> 01:46:13.650
And he goes, Hey everybody, this is my girlfriend, Seatrus.
01:46:13.810 --> 01:46:16.289
And I was like, Yep.
01:46:16.850 --> 01:46:18.130
Yeah, yeah, that's right.
01:46:19.890 --> 01:46:20.850
Pop McCarla.
01:46:21.329 --> 01:46:24.050
I'm like, yeah, so that's how he asked me out.
01:46:24.210 --> 01:46:25.329
Yeah, yeah.
01:46:26.130 --> 01:46:27.890
Gotta you gotta assume the close.
01:46:28.130 --> 01:46:28.610
Yes, yes.
01:46:28.690 --> 01:46:33.250
Well, I was I was his I was his at hello the moment we landed.
01:46:33.329 --> 01:46:39.170
I think I I was his, man, I was Billy's in 2020.
01:46:39.489 --> 01:46:40.449
I know, I know.
01:46:40.690 --> 01:46:43.890
I was Billy's when he slid and he moonwalked into the DM.
01:46:46.369 --> 01:46:47.329
I was his.
01:46:47.730 --> 01:46:49.090
But you know he was mine.
01:46:49.489 --> 01:46:53.489
I want to tell him something a little bit more about you know what we did, which is a little unique.
01:46:53.650 --> 01:46:55.489
Um, I don't think a lot of people do this.
01:46:55.650 --> 01:46:55.890
Yeah.
01:46:56.050 --> 01:47:04.529
Obviously, both of us are in our 50s, and we are, we're not, you know, I believe in love, even though I've had past relationships that just didn't work out for whatever reason.
01:47:04.610 --> 01:47:05.090
Yeah.
01:47:05.329 --> 01:47:09.650
And I'm a person, I'm a I'm a one-woman guy, always have been since I was a little kid.
01:47:09.810 --> 01:47:12.369
Since I was a teenager, I've always been a one-woman guy.
01:47:12.449 --> 01:47:12.529
Yeah.
01:47:12.690 --> 01:47:17.730
I've never been one of those guys that can date five, six, seven women and have all these side chicks and all.
01:47:17.810 --> 01:47:20.690
I just don't have the energy, the time, the bandwidth, or the morals for it.
01:47:20.850 --> 01:47:21.170
Yeah.
01:47:21.409 --> 01:47:35.409
Um, and um, you know, and uh when I asked asked you to come to Egypt, I also thought, well, maybe, you know, you might be anticipating that, you know, I might, we're gonna be in the same room and everything, the same bed, obviously, because that's the way it's set up.
01:47:35.810 --> 01:47:42.610
But I also wanted you to feel, again, calm, peace, with no um, you know, no expectations.
01:47:42.770 --> 01:47:52.130
And I think something that we both did intentionally in this new budding relationship, this new version, was we stayed celibate.
01:47:52.210 --> 01:47:55.250
We did not have any sex at all for months.
01:47:55.570 --> 01:47:56.210
Yeah, yeah.
01:47:57.090 --> 01:47:59.890
I um well, I gave him disclaimers.
01:47:59.970 --> 01:48:04.930
I was like, you sure you're gonna be with me because I'm celibate until I'm with someone I can see myself married to.
01:48:05.010 --> 01:48:06.449
I don't know how long that takes.
01:48:06.610 --> 01:48:07.810
I'm dating to marry.
01:48:08.130 --> 01:48:15.890
One of the things that I wanted to, you know, do was be very intentional in this relationship and not running race into having a sexual relationship.
01:48:16.050 --> 01:48:21.010
I want to really emphasize and learn about creating a friend.
01:48:21.409 --> 01:48:21.570
Yeah.
01:48:21.810 --> 01:48:27.570
I thought that was really important to create the friendship first, and you had the same energy as well, you know.
01:48:27.970 --> 01:48:33.329
Even though we technically didn't really totally discuss it, we just kind of felt it, I think.
01:48:33.650 --> 01:48:38.850
Um, and um, and then you told me, then you said, okay, this is you know what I'm looking for.
01:48:39.010 --> 01:48:40.690
Like, this is a few weeks in.
01:48:41.170 --> 01:48:48.289
And then you told me, like, hey, you know, um uh I'm celibate until these conditions are met or whatever.
01:48:48.369 --> 01:48:52.449
And uh, but I was in total agreement with it anyway, because I didn't want to race into anything anyway.
01:48:52.690 --> 01:49:01.970
I was just happy having a relationship with somebody I can confide in, somebody I could talk to, somebody that could be there for me, I could be there for them, and they'll be gonna learn and grow together, you know?
01:49:02.210 --> 01:49:02.449
Yeah.
01:49:02.529 --> 01:49:02.690
Yeah.
01:49:02.930 --> 01:49:03.090
Yeah.
01:49:03.250 --> 01:49:10.930
So basically, I even though I'd had these micro relationships, and even I I was seeing someone while talking to him, I was still celibate.
01:49:11.010 --> 01:49:16.690
I had been celibate since for four years since I had ended it with my ex.
01:49:16.850 --> 01:49:28.050
Um, I did have micro relationships that seemed like they would turn into something, but in those relationships, it was still, and they were only like a couple months, like, you know, not long term, super long term.
01:49:28.210 --> 01:49:32.850
The one um before meeting him was, you know, some months.
01:49:32.930 --> 01:49:35.329
It was longer, but I was still celibate.
01:49:35.489 --> 01:49:46.369
Um, as I said, you know, I wanted to be with someone that, you know, that valued me and I knew I could see myself married to before I committed my body again.
01:49:46.529 --> 01:49:47.570
That was very important to me.
01:49:47.650 --> 01:50:00.289
And then after speaking uh to Billy about that, he was like, you know, he had been um basically celibate as well, and from what he had shared with me since his last relationship.
01:50:00.449 --> 01:50:03.090
So we were in alignment there.
01:50:03.409 --> 01:50:33.090
Um, and he said he was like, he'll wait for me, you know, because again, he didn't, and we were, we waited because we both were like, we don't want to screw it up this time, we don't want to mess it up where we want to know that this is a spiritual relationship because what I've realized in my journey of dating and seeing people is that people are physical friends and spiritual strangers.
01:50:34.050 --> 01:50:42.449
And that's usually, and that and you find yourself trying to force alignment and misalignment because of the chemistry is so strong.
01:50:42.529 --> 01:50:42.690
Yeah.
01:50:42.850 --> 01:50:46.369
Now he and I have both, you know, so it was it was challenging.
01:50:46.610 --> 01:50:47.250
It was challenging.
01:50:47.409 --> 01:50:53.570
Being long distance made it a little easier, I'm not gonna lie, but you know, it was very challenging for me.
01:50:53.650 --> 01:50:55.970
Um, obviously challenging for him.
01:50:56.449 --> 01:50:59.489
My requirement was this not conditions.
01:51:00.050 --> 01:51:03.090
I'll give you a little history on why I was celibate and remained celibate.
01:51:03.970 --> 01:51:23.010
My first time being with a person, that that experience was pretty much traumatic in a sense of not abusive, but in a sense of I wasn't taken care of emotionally as a woman in her first time being in that position.
01:51:23.489 --> 01:51:30.930
And so what I found was that program constantly running in each relationship, in each encounter.
01:51:31.329 --> 01:51:34.210
So it was, it was always myself put aside.
01:51:34.369 --> 01:51:40.130
So I said, knew, I wanted to, I desired, and people thought I was crazy.
01:51:40.210 --> 01:51:43.090
My girlfriends, everyone thought I was this was a crazy requirement.
01:51:43.250 --> 01:51:45.250
I wanted to redo my first time.
01:51:46.050 --> 01:51:50.529
I wanted my first time with this next person to be my last time.
01:51:50.770 --> 01:51:56.610
And I wanted the experience with him, because at the time I made this decision, I didn't know who it was, to be special.
01:51:56.690 --> 01:52:04.449
And I wanted someone that would care for my heart and care for me in that space and understand that that was part of my healing.
01:52:04.770 --> 01:52:17.489
Um, and so that I could break that program from running where there was trauma around that union, which turned into other trauma outside of the relationship, which I strongly believe.
01:52:17.650 --> 01:52:20.289
And it set the tone for our relationship.
01:52:20.529 --> 01:52:26.449
And so I didn't want that, and I wanted everything to be different, starting with that most important thing.
01:52:26.610 --> 01:52:30.449
And so I shared with him kind of how I saw it.
01:52:31.010 --> 01:52:33.329
And it was up to him however he wanted to.
01:52:33.730 --> 01:52:39.650
Um, but yeah, he, when we finally got to that point, which was about what, six months?
01:52:40.210 --> 01:52:40.770
Yeah.
01:52:41.090 --> 01:52:42.930
Six months we stayed celibate.
01:52:43.010 --> 01:52:43.329
Yeah.
01:52:43.489 --> 01:52:44.529
Six months we stayed celibate.
01:52:44.690 --> 01:52:45.010
Every year.
01:52:45.489 --> 01:52:45.730
Yeah.
01:52:45.810 --> 01:52:46.130
Yeah.
01:52:46.369 --> 01:52:49.489
And this is going on trips, traveling the world, that's right.
01:52:49.730 --> 01:52:50.770
Staying in the same rooms.
01:52:51.010 --> 01:52:51.250
That's right.
01:52:51.810 --> 01:52:52.610
Same beds.
01:52:54.610 --> 01:52:54.930
Yeah.
01:52:55.170 --> 01:52:59.250
And so it it was, we definitely, well, almost six months.
01:52:59.329 --> 01:53:00.210
I think it was like five.
01:53:00.289 --> 01:53:02.289
Well, the six months since we had saw each other.
01:53:02.690 --> 01:53:03.730
Since we saw each other dating.
01:53:04.610 --> 01:53:05.489
By like five months.
01:53:05.650 --> 01:53:05.890
Right.
01:53:06.210 --> 01:53:13.570
But but even still, it was um, it was powerful, and he took care of my heart.
01:53:13.810 --> 01:53:16.930
He took care of this man is consistent.
01:53:17.010 --> 01:53:22.369
I mean, from beginning to the end, we had that conversation and he shared with me things about him.
01:53:23.010 --> 01:53:27.409
I made sure I'm taking care of his heart as well.
01:53:27.650 --> 01:53:29.329
And everything's been different.
01:53:29.489 --> 01:53:33.570
This is this is why we felt this was important to share.
01:53:33.890 --> 01:53:34.130
Yeah.
01:53:34.369 --> 01:53:36.449
I know it doesn't look perfect.
01:53:36.850 --> 01:53:40.930
I know we're not perfect, but we're perfectly imperfect for each other.
01:53:41.170 --> 01:53:41.409
Right.
01:53:41.570 --> 01:53:41.730
Yeah.
01:53:42.050 --> 01:53:51.250
You know, and but you know, I I just it's not gonna be for everyone, but it's gonna be for the people it needs to be for.
01:53:51.489 --> 01:53:52.050
Yeah, exactly.
01:53:52.289 --> 01:54:07.010
You know, you know, I think uh something that's important, people say, well, how can you, you know, how can you have a dating app and how can you now uh you know that teaches about the more engagement and love and true relationship and have a podcast called Date Conscious.
01:54:07.090 --> 01:54:10.850
How can you, you you know, you've been married before and you had divorces, you know.
01:54:11.570 --> 01:54:21.170
Well, who better to look to to say, listen, I'm being very vulnerable and saying I was in a few relationships before.
01:54:21.409 --> 01:54:25.409
I didn't choose the right path, I wasn't on the right timeline.
01:54:25.650 --> 01:54:25.970
Yeah.
01:54:26.369 --> 01:54:34.210
This is what I learned, this is how I grew, this is how I became better, and this is how I got on the timeline of true love.
01:54:34.449 --> 01:54:39.650
And um I think that people need to know that um they don't have to give up.
01:54:39.810 --> 01:54:40.050
Yeah.
01:54:40.210 --> 01:54:43.170
You know, me, I'm 54 going on 55, right?
01:54:43.250 --> 01:54:43.570
Yeah.
01:54:43.810 --> 01:54:45.329
You just turned 51.
01:54:45.570 --> 01:54:45.970
Yeah.
01:54:46.210 --> 01:54:52.690
Um, which is pretty cool because people thought, you know, when they saw our photos online, they thought I was, you know, going after some young chick again.
01:54:52.850 --> 01:54:53.170
I know.
01:54:53.250 --> 01:54:54.529
I was like, okay.
01:54:55.170 --> 01:54:56.130
That's what I think.
01:54:56.449 --> 01:54:56.850
That's right.
01:54:56.930 --> 01:54:59.090
This is a I'm a whole grandma, but okay.
01:54:59.489 --> 01:55:00.770
50 is the new 35.
01:55:01.250 --> 01:55:02.850
Okay, I mean, that's exactly what it is.
01:55:03.010 --> 01:55:03.570
We're going with that.
01:55:03.730 --> 01:55:04.690
It's the new 35.
01:55:04.930 --> 01:55:05.329
Yes.
01:55:05.570 --> 01:55:17.010
And um, you know, and so uh, but I think that people just need to know there are a lot of people out there that have been struggling with trying to figure out relationship situations, especially in this current era.
01:55:17.170 --> 01:55:17.570
Yeah.
01:55:17.810 --> 01:55:24.690
And I just want them to know, and you, I'm pretty sure you you're the same as our conversations we had, is that yeah, don't give up on love.
01:55:24.850 --> 01:55:36.210
Um, and um just figure out where um, not only in the past where situations weren't right for your timeline, yeah, but also where you went wrong as well.
01:55:36.289 --> 01:55:48.529
You know, there's always this delicate polarity of of of balance, and you have to figure out where was it, what trauma links, what situations, why did you make those choices over and over again?
01:55:48.690 --> 01:55:52.690
Yeah, and when can you begin to recognize the masks?
01:55:53.010 --> 01:55:56.369
Yeah, and um, and when you see the crack in the mask, why did you stay?
01:55:56.449 --> 01:55:59.090
And when you see the mask fall off, why did you stay?
01:55:59.170 --> 01:55:59.570
Yeah.
01:55:59.810 --> 01:56:04.210
Um, I think there's a lot of people out there that are fixers that want to fix others.
01:56:04.449 --> 01:56:11.090
We want to fix, we want to help, we want to, we want to see them do better, be better, we want to uplift them and get them up to where we are.
01:56:11.329 --> 01:56:11.890
Yeah.
01:56:12.210 --> 01:56:16.050
But there's an old adage that I added a little extra to the statement.
01:56:16.210 --> 01:56:21.489
It says, you can bring a horse to water, but you can't make it drink because you're thirsty.
01:56:22.050 --> 01:56:23.570
That's the part I added on.
01:56:23.810 --> 01:56:27.329
And uh that horse is gonna want to have to drink for itself.
01:56:27.570 --> 01:56:31.329
You can't make the horse go and drink just because you're thirsty for that person.
01:56:31.489 --> 01:56:35.170
That person has to be willing to, you know, see where they are.
01:56:35.329 --> 01:56:37.409
And everyone's on their own path, which is fine.
01:56:37.570 --> 01:56:41.650
It doesn't, it's not that they're right or that they're wrong, it's just everyone's on their own path.
01:56:41.810 --> 01:56:42.130
Yeah.
01:56:42.289 --> 01:56:49.489
And eventually that person may find someone on their timeline that is consistent with their frequency and their vibration and where they're headed.
01:56:49.650 --> 01:56:49.810
Yeah.
01:56:50.050 --> 01:56:58.289
But for me and for you, you know, fortunately for us and fortunately for me, I feel like I found someone that's on my timeline, a timeline.
01:56:58.369 --> 01:57:02.529
And people go, you know, why would you, you, you know, you you just jump out of one thing into another.
01:57:02.850 --> 01:57:03.570
Not really.
01:57:03.730 --> 01:57:08.690
I mean, people didn't know this has been announced now over a year and a half ago.
01:57:08.850 --> 01:57:09.090
Yeah.
01:57:09.250 --> 01:57:17.010
You know, and um uh I mean, I'm not a monk, but even though, you know, we we got together and we were celibate.
01:57:17.250 --> 01:57:26.210
But the thing people need to understand is uh when you get older, yeah, and you're not um a I'm not a playboy, right?
01:57:26.690 --> 01:57:28.770
So that means that I'm dating intentionally.
01:57:28.930 --> 01:57:29.329
Yeah.
01:57:29.489 --> 01:57:35.250
So I'm not dating just to run out here and just okay, date this one, date, this one, date this one, see how many I can get in the sack or whatever.
01:57:35.409 --> 01:57:36.690
I'm dating intentionally.
01:57:36.770 --> 01:57:42.289
So if I'm dating intentionally, that means I'm I'm looking for someone that's on the same frequency and vibration as me.
01:57:42.369 --> 01:57:44.130
I'm not out here just running the streets.
01:57:44.289 --> 01:57:44.529
Yeah.
01:57:44.690 --> 01:57:50.289
And so when I find somebody, it's not gonna take me 25, 30 years at my age to figure this out anymore.
01:57:50.529 --> 01:57:51.409
No, it made a month.
01:57:51.970 --> 01:57:52.369
Right?
01:57:52.610 --> 01:57:54.130
You know, trial and error.
01:57:54.369 --> 01:57:59.570
I'm not gonna be 80 years old going, you know, I think I better go find me somebody now.
01:57:59.810 --> 01:58:01.329
That ain't gonna be me, you know.
01:58:01.489 --> 01:58:11.810
And uh, and so I think that people might maybe I guess the perception is sometimes they might bring me down into their age brackets, even, you know.
01:58:11.970 --> 01:58:12.289
Yeah.
01:58:12.529 --> 01:58:16.690
Even though I'm older, they don't realize um, and I'm not an old man by far.
01:58:16.930 --> 01:58:22.050
I don't feel old, but you know, I do resonate with a lot of the younger crowd, you know, obviously.
01:58:22.130 --> 01:58:23.890
Um it's just cruel, it's really great.
01:58:23.970 --> 01:58:25.329
But um They got time.
01:58:25.570 --> 01:58:26.369
They got time.
01:58:26.610 --> 01:58:31.250
You know, we we we're we're we're we're you kind of get to the point where you know what you want, you know?
01:58:31.329 --> 01:58:31.489
Yeah.
01:58:31.650 --> 01:58:37.650
And after this last situation that I was in, I recognized and realized that I, okay, I really know what I want.
01:58:37.730 --> 01:58:40.529
I don't even know why I did that.
01:58:40.930 --> 01:58:43.010
Um, but I know what I want.
01:58:43.170 --> 01:58:47.810
Um and it's about, you know, you and I both are we're fixers.
01:58:47.970 --> 01:58:52.690
We're givers and fixers, and we wanna we wanna see the best in people too.
01:58:52.850 --> 01:58:56.050
I think that's another thing that we are both working on.
01:58:56.210 --> 01:59:00.770
Always seeing the best in somebody is very it's also a form of toxicity.
01:59:01.010 --> 01:59:01.170
Okay.
01:59:02.369 --> 01:59:02.610
Yeah.
01:59:02.770 --> 01:59:02.930
Yeah.
01:59:03.090 --> 01:59:05.170
I mean, well, my I agree with that.
01:59:05.329 --> 01:59:10.369
And just to add, um, because I mean that that was powerful.
01:59:10.529 --> 01:59:12.449
Um, very, very powerful.
01:59:12.610 --> 01:59:18.770
And because I was like, and I asked you, like, are you sure you're over this person?
01:59:18.930 --> 01:59:20.130
Are you ready for this?
01:59:20.529 --> 01:59:31.329
And then you told me, you know, a lot of times before divorce is filed, you know, um, you're fighting for something that's you what you shared is that, you know, is over before the actual action.
01:59:31.489 --> 01:59:39.329
And yeah, even still with that, I was like, you know, um, let me observe this and and see this, because I wasn't too long out of my situation.
01:59:39.489 --> 01:59:41.810
I wasn't, you know, as deep as you, of course.
01:59:42.130 --> 01:59:46.130
But um I also thought that was the one.
01:59:47.730 --> 02:00:06.210
But what I realized is that, you know, and it was crazy, and this is one of the hardest things to deal with, is like one day you get a revelation and you're like, I'm the problem.
02:00:08.770 --> 02:00:30.130
Oh, and when I got that realization with, you know, the previous relationship that I was intending on being a lifetime, that's when I said to myself, I spent so much time when I really saw myself in that relationship, and I saw that I how wrong I was.
02:00:30.690 --> 02:00:40.050
I kept thinking, oh, you know, I'm right, I'm doing all of this, I'm trying to get you to do this, I'm trying to get you to raise up and be this person.
02:00:40.289 --> 02:00:49.970
And really what I was doing and what I realized for myself is that I was not loving this person unconditionally.
02:00:51.489 --> 02:00:59.890
I literally looked at this person, and every time I said, okay, you need to change this, I was basically telling them they weren't good enough.
02:01:00.690 --> 02:01:01.409
Correct.
02:01:01.730 --> 02:01:07.010
And that, you know, is not was not fair.
02:01:07.090 --> 02:01:14.690
And when I realized that, you know, why am I trying to force a line misalignment?
02:01:15.650 --> 02:01:22.930
You know, and then making them suffer through pulling them in a state that they're just not ready for.
02:01:23.090 --> 02:01:26.449
It's like feeding a baby steak before it's ready.
02:01:26.529 --> 02:01:28.449
It's eating mashed potatoes, it'll get there.
02:01:28.610 --> 02:01:34.289
But that's it's not just because I'm at this level and they're there, doesn't mean we're at wrong levels.
02:01:34.690 --> 02:01:47.810
Doesn't mean that there's, but we're, I'm thinking, like, from my what I realized, and I think you and I talked about this, is that I was projecting my fears and my traumas of, you know, and how we are with our kids.
02:01:47.890 --> 02:01:48.210
Yeah.
02:01:48.449 --> 02:01:52.449
Don't, don't go, don't go there because you're gonna get hit and you're gonna do that.
02:01:52.529 --> 02:01:53.409
Those are our children.
02:01:53.489 --> 02:01:56.690
Yeah, but our mates, these are grown people that were already raised.
02:01:57.090 --> 02:02:01.570
And what we would try to do as fixers is try to re-raise grown people.
02:02:01.730 --> 02:02:02.130
Right.
02:02:02.289 --> 02:02:04.770
You know, and that's how I realized what I was trying to do.
02:02:04.850 --> 02:02:06.369
Yeah, and that wasn't fair to them.
02:02:06.449 --> 02:02:09.409
And they deserve someone that loves them unconditionally.
02:02:09.489 --> 02:02:09.730
Yes.
02:02:09.970 --> 02:02:22.130
Like, and they deserve someone, and I even told my ex that you deserve someone that's okay without going on dates and just sitting here, that's okay with this thing or that's okay with that, that does it that wants to live here in this area.
02:02:22.449 --> 02:02:24.210
You deserve someone that's fine with that.
02:02:24.369 --> 02:02:26.610
Yeah, it's like, no, no, I don't, no, I don't.
02:02:26.770 --> 02:02:34.050
I'm like, yes, you do, you know, and and so I left that with no, I don't have any bad feelings on that person.
02:02:34.130 --> 02:02:49.250
I actually left it with a little bit of guilt, like, whoa, you know, how to I didn't want, you know, sometimes loving someone so much, and I learned just like with my family, my friends, and all that stuff, I'm always trying to get them here.
02:02:49.650 --> 02:02:54.930
Like, come here, come be, you know, and then our poor mates are like, uh, you know what I'm saying?
02:02:55.010 --> 02:02:56.930
Like, so I was like, you know what?
02:02:57.010 --> 02:02:58.130
I'm not doing that anymore.
02:02:58.210 --> 02:02:59.010
I'm gonna flow.
02:02:59.250 --> 02:03:03.489
If the person opens up and wants that, you know, then I'm there for them.
02:03:03.570 --> 02:03:12.210
If they but what I can do is be the example, and if they see something in me that that that resonates with them and that's what they want to do, then they do it.
02:03:12.289 --> 02:03:13.489
I just love you where you are.
02:03:13.570 --> 02:03:17.489
Yeah, you know, and like, and I say I just say that, I'll give you an example.
02:03:17.650 --> 02:03:22.289
You like jerseys, you wear jerseys a lot, okay?
02:03:23.409 --> 02:03:25.010
I love you in the button down.
02:03:25.250 --> 02:03:29.730
I know, but you love your jerseys, and you know what I noticed about them jerseys?
02:03:29.810 --> 02:03:31.409
Yeah, them arms.
02:03:31.970 --> 02:03:34.529
So I said, wear them jerseys, baby.
02:03:34.770 --> 02:03:36.210
So I can look at them shoulders.
02:03:36.449 --> 02:03:39.489
The old me, I've been like, babe, what about a polo?
02:03:39.970 --> 02:03:41.489
You're not playing basketball.
02:03:41.970 --> 02:03:43.489
Why do you have a jersey?
02:03:47.250 --> 02:03:49.970
You know, but the new is like, and then how you are with me.
02:03:50.529 --> 02:03:53.570
Things I'm sure there's things about me, you're like, no, it's fine.
02:03:53.650 --> 02:03:59.810
She's you know, and you're and I love that about where we're at right now, yeah, you know, with each other.
02:03:59.970 --> 02:04:12.130
And we don't try to, you know, in the beginning there was, you know, things we'll talk about that on another podcast, but we work through that stuff and we have grown and healed in such a short period of time with each other.
02:04:12.369 --> 02:04:12.690
Yeah, yeah.
02:04:12.850 --> 02:04:13.650
It's just phenomenal.
02:04:13.730 --> 02:04:13.890
Yeah.
02:04:14.050 --> 02:04:14.850
That's all I have to say.
02:04:15.170 --> 02:04:15.409
Yeah.
02:04:15.650 --> 02:04:19.570
I mean, that's that's this is dating conscious.
02:04:19.810 --> 02:04:25.810
It's dating conscious, stating your timeline, knowing what you knowing what you want, understanding what you need as well.
02:04:25.970 --> 02:04:33.810
Yeah, you know, and I know that uh it's not about trying to make someone happy, it's enhancing the existing happiness that's already there.
02:04:34.050 --> 02:04:38.449
And you and I both get joy seeing each other light up and being happy.
02:04:38.610 --> 02:04:38.930
Yeah.
02:04:39.090 --> 02:04:41.730
You know, and neither one of us is in competition with each other.
02:04:41.890 --> 02:04:44.369
That's another problem that a lot of relationships have.
02:04:44.529 --> 02:04:50.289
Yeah, and a lot of my previous relationships have been all about some type of a competition.
02:04:50.449 --> 02:04:50.770
Yeah.
02:04:50.930 --> 02:04:57.250
And the competition thing that's happening, and I've seen it even outside of my relationship, is really a detrimental thing.
02:04:57.329 --> 02:05:00.369
I don't know if this is a new age thing, or I don't know what this thing is.
02:05:00.529 --> 02:05:12.930
Yeah, but there are a lot of couples where one couple, one person in the relationship, whether it's the man or the woman, or the man or the man, or whatever, whatever you're in, whatever kind of situationship you're in, doesn't really matter.
02:05:13.090 --> 02:05:20.690
There's one person that seems to be in some way envious or jealous of the other person and want to be in competition with that person.
02:05:20.770 --> 02:05:21.329
Yeah.
02:05:21.570 --> 02:05:25.489
And I could never understand this competition mindset.
02:05:25.570 --> 02:05:27.250
It's supposed to be collaboration.
02:05:27.409 --> 02:05:32.449
You know, what I have is yours, what you what you have is mine, and how can we enhance and build and grow together?
02:05:32.690 --> 02:05:44.449
Not how dare you get notoriety, how dare you become popular, how dare people ask you for photos or selfies, or how dare you become more successful, or how dare you make more money than me, or in these things.
02:05:44.529 --> 02:05:48.770
And I think that this is becoming like a pandemic.
02:05:48.930 --> 02:05:49.250
Yeah.
02:05:49.409 --> 02:05:53.409
This compet this relationship competition thing is just getting out of control.
02:05:53.570 --> 02:05:58.529
I see it on social media, I'm starting to see it everywhere where it's just competition.
02:05:59.010 --> 02:06:12.210
Um, and I would just say to people like, you have to recognize like one person might earn more, one person might be better in another area, one person might uh might become famous.
02:06:12.369 --> 02:06:14.770
Yeah, one person might not become famous.
02:06:14.930 --> 02:06:15.170
Yeah.
02:06:15.409 --> 02:06:16.050
You know?
02:06:16.369 --> 02:06:21.810
Um one person might excel in one area, and one person might excel in a totally different area.
02:06:21.970 --> 02:06:22.130
Yeah.
02:06:22.289 --> 02:06:29.010
One person might be better at people, you know, a better people person and a communicator, one person might be more reclusive and closed in.
02:06:29.170 --> 02:06:29.810
Yeah.
02:06:30.369 --> 02:06:35.489
If you're gonna be with somebody, you're gonna have to be with somebody that you can accept.
02:06:35.650 --> 02:06:35.970
Yeah.
02:06:36.210 --> 02:06:46.369
Live and learn to accept where they are with certain areas that may, to you, from your perception, be bigger or greater or something you might not be able to, in your mind, whatever for whatever reason, achieve.
02:06:46.770 --> 02:06:50.529
And if you can't, then you have to get out of that relationship.
02:06:50.610 --> 02:06:50.850
Yeah.
02:06:51.010 --> 02:06:59.730
You can't stay in a relationship where there's this bent-up envy and jealousy for someone because that's a disservice to the other person.
02:06:59.810 --> 02:07:03.090
I think that that's happening now across the board.
02:07:03.170 --> 02:07:07.170
It's a lot of that going on out there, a lot of competition type stuff going on.
02:07:07.409 --> 02:07:11.010
Um, you know, boss ladies want to be like, I'm, you know, I got this and I got that.
02:07:11.090 --> 02:07:18.050
I don't need no man, and I'm, and then they got the man, and then they're just taunting the man, and like I, you know, I'm making more than you, and then you got the guys doing it to the women.
02:07:18.130 --> 02:07:20.529
It's just like this, I've seen it on both sides.
02:07:20.610 --> 02:07:25.890
I've seen men getting jealous of women in their own relationship, and women getting jealous of men in their own relationship.
02:07:26.050 --> 02:07:28.690
And this even happened to me before several times.
02:07:28.930 --> 02:07:31.570
And it's like, wow, this showed me something.
02:07:31.730 --> 02:07:33.810
Again, like you said, dating your timeline.
02:07:33.890 --> 02:07:39.810
You're talking about being on the same vibration, the same frequency, you know, and and understanding.
02:07:39.890 --> 02:07:42.770
And for me, one of the biggest tests was we were in Egypt.
02:07:43.010 --> 02:07:43.250
Okay.
02:07:43.409 --> 02:07:50.930
Now, Egypt is a big test because number one, you ain't gonna be on the phone with your girlfriends 24-7, complaining about what's going on and calling your mom and this and that.
02:07:51.010 --> 02:07:51.730
Ain't nobody to call.
02:07:51.810 --> 02:07:53.170
We in the Sahara Desert.
02:07:53.570 --> 02:07:53.730
Okay.
02:07:55.170 --> 02:07:56.529
Well, not the jungle of the desert.
02:07:56.690 --> 02:08:03.409
Well, then also, you know, I got to see how you are gonna handle all this attention that I'm gonna get.
02:08:03.650 --> 02:08:05.409
People literally pulling on me.
02:08:05.570 --> 02:08:18.850
People want to take a selfie, people want to ask me questions, people want to keep my hold my attention, people want me to eat with them, people want people, people, you know, and and the reason why they're there is because I'm there and they sort of coming to see me.
02:08:18.930 --> 02:08:21.409
They're coming to be around in my energy, my frequency.
02:08:21.570 --> 02:08:24.930
They, you know, they're they're um, they're they're vibing with my information.
02:08:25.010 --> 02:08:26.210
That's why they showed up.
02:08:26.289 --> 02:08:29.090
That's why they paid for this tour.
02:08:29.329 --> 02:08:30.850
And so it's my job.
02:08:30.930 --> 02:08:33.650
You know, I'm I'm working, like I'm on the clock.
02:08:33.810 --> 02:08:56.050
And I really want to see how you were gonna respond in that kind of environment and situation where I'm being pulled in every direction for two weeks straight, you know, and and I also want you to see how I was gonna try to balance that with you to show you that I still recognize and see that you're there, I'm aware of you, and how I was gonna make the separation and show you some attention, but also I still got to do my job at the same time.
02:08:56.289 --> 02:09:07.409
And I saw that you really responded well, that you didn't have any anxiety, you didn't have any inhibitions, you were more than willing to uh to take some selfies or photos.
02:09:07.489 --> 02:09:11.170
You were volunteered to take photos of myself and my fans.
02:09:11.409 --> 02:09:14.610
Um, you were engaging with the people, they loved you.
02:09:14.770 --> 02:09:20.369
They finally was like, whew, like, you know, you're that you're motherly, like nurturing energy.
02:09:20.610 --> 02:09:23.730
I remember the first day we were there, the first day going on tour.
02:09:23.810 --> 02:09:27.329
I mean, the first day going on tour, the bus is about 6 a.m.
02:09:27.489 --> 02:09:27.810
or something.
02:09:27.890 --> 02:09:29.329
The bus is getting ready to pull out.
02:09:29.810 --> 02:09:30.930
And somebody was late.
02:09:31.170 --> 02:09:31.730
Who was late?
02:09:31.890 --> 02:09:32.050
Yeah.
02:09:32.210 --> 02:09:33.170
I don't want to call her name.
02:09:33.250 --> 02:09:33.570
I'm sorry.
02:09:34.130 --> 02:09:35.329
Anyway, we love you.
02:09:35.570 --> 02:09:36.449
She's great.
02:09:36.850 --> 02:09:39.970
Uh she's also in the 4BK Academy, but she was late.
02:09:40.690 --> 02:09:40.850
Yeah.
02:09:41.090 --> 02:09:43.489
And it was getting to the point where we were going to miss our opportunity.
02:09:43.730 --> 02:09:46.529
People done came from all over the world, you know, obviously.
02:09:46.770 --> 02:09:48.770
And uh and she just overslept a little bit.
02:09:48.850 --> 02:09:49.730
It happens, you know.
02:09:49.970 --> 02:09:51.250
And I just dropped in a live chat.
02:09:51.409 --> 02:09:53.090
We gotta pull off, they gotta stay home, we're gonna leave them.
02:09:53.409 --> 02:09:54.930
And I think that freaked her out.
02:09:55.090 --> 02:09:58.610
I didn't mean to freak her out like that when she saw the group text, you know.
02:09:58.770 --> 02:10:02.930
Um, I thought, because sometimes we go on these tours and some people just be like, I don't want to go.
02:10:03.170 --> 02:10:04.449
You know, I'm staying in a hotel.
02:10:04.529 --> 02:10:05.489
And it even happened later on.
02:10:05.890 --> 02:10:06.770
People stayed in the hotel.
02:10:06.850 --> 02:10:08.050
They just didn't go out that those days.
02:10:08.210 --> 02:10:09.250
They were like, I'm getting some rest.
02:10:09.329 --> 02:10:10.850
I don't need to go out and see this today.
02:10:11.010 --> 02:10:11.810
And it's okay.
02:10:11.970 --> 02:10:14.289
So I didn't mean anything negative or hardcore about it.
02:10:14.369 --> 02:10:17.250
I was like, man, just leave, let them stay, they'll just miss this today.
02:10:17.489 --> 02:10:21.010
And she came out and she was, she had a lot of anxiety and she freaked out.
02:10:21.170 --> 02:10:24.210
And then you literally just got off the bus.
02:10:24.369 --> 02:10:30.770
You went down to where she was, you embraced her, you held her, and you just talked into her in her ear.
02:10:30.850 --> 02:10:37.090
I don't know if you know what you were talking about, and you held her for like about three or four minutes and just calmed her all the way down.
02:10:37.570 --> 02:10:42.690
And everybody in the bus is looking out the bus windows like, what in the world?
02:10:43.329 --> 02:10:57.570
And you just took this lady from complete panic attack, yeah, all the way down till she was calm and her tears dried up, and you got her up on the bus, and she's a great friend now, you know?
02:10:57.730 --> 02:10:57.970
Yeah.
02:10:58.369 --> 02:10:59.890
And everyone saw that.
02:11:00.050 --> 02:11:05.890
That's day number one going out on tour in what I call the Billy Boot Camp, because it's hardcore out there.
02:11:06.610 --> 02:11:07.010
Right?
02:11:07.489 --> 02:11:14.369
And everyone was like, wow, you know, and that was like my first sign of the energy.
02:11:14.690 --> 02:11:26.930
And then the whole time it was there, you know, you were okay to if I wasn't able to talk to you because I'm teaching, or I'm I'm showing people hieroglyphs, I'm deciphering hieroglyphs and teaching them what this means, or whatever.
02:11:27.170 --> 02:11:32.770
I'm working and you're just free and you're okay, and you're taking your selfies and your videos, and you're doing your thing.
02:11:33.010 --> 02:11:36.529
And when I got a chance, I will come back to you and we take photos and videos together.
02:11:36.610 --> 02:11:38.210
But but you let me be me.
02:11:38.369 --> 02:11:40.289
You let me be Billy Carson.
02:11:40.449 --> 02:11:46.130
You didn't suffocate me, you didn't stifle me, you didn't try to stay up under my chin 24-7.
02:11:46.449 --> 02:11:50.050
You didn't get jealous that people were pulling on me each and every direction.
02:11:50.210 --> 02:11:56.529
And that's when I said, I took like a big, oh I just took it like an exhale, like, oh my God.
02:11:57.090 --> 02:12:02.210
Oh my god, you know, so I knew then that this was meant to be.
02:12:02.369 --> 02:12:03.890
Oh that's when I knew it.
02:12:03.970 --> 02:12:04.610
Yeah.
02:12:05.170 --> 02:12:06.289
Oh, that's sweet.
02:12:06.449 --> 02:12:11.170
I I remember that, and I was getting teary-eyed thinking about that situation.
02:12:11.570 --> 02:12:14.050
Um, and I'll speak to that.
02:12:14.529 --> 02:12:24.289
I think that when you see your partner, it is is and you have to know who you are so you can know who your partner should be.
02:12:25.170 --> 02:12:30.369
And you have a mission and a purpose in this world.
02:12:30.850 --> 02:12:42.610
You have people that you know, I I've had people come to me even well, it was after that, but at the time I knew I won't talk about that, but I'll just talk about at that time.
02:12:43.329 --> 02:12:49.170
At that time, just knowing becoming your girlfriend or being your mate.
02:12:49.570 --> 02:12:52.449
I understood in the beginning what that meant.
02:12:53.090 --> 02:12:59.650
Um, I mean, I have pastors and I come from a very religious family, and we have pastors of churches.
02:13:00.210 --> 02:13:01.890
And leaders and all that stuff.
02:13:02.050 --> 02:13:05.730
And that's on the you know religion, spiritual side.
02:13:05.970 --> 02:13:11.170
And my um grandmother and I, and you know, the women were missionaries and things like that.
02:13:11.329 --> 02:13:18.449
And so they always said, you know, uh there, you have a, you know, you have certain people like in the church called first ladies, right?
02:13:18.690 --> 02:13:26.770
And the first lady understands that the mission is bigger than her if she's the right first lady, right?
02:13:26.850 --> 02:13:30.130
So that was just growing up in church and religion and stuff like that.
02:13:30.210 --> 02:13:35.010
And they would teach us, you know, they would call him the the pastor, the man of God.
02:13:35.170 --> 02:13:38.289
And he had he would have God's purpose, right?
02:13:38.690 --> 02:13:41.329
And so God's purpose is for the people.
02:13:41.570 --> 02:13:43.730
So the woman had to support that.
02:13:43.970 --> 02:13:47.329
And what I would notice is, you know, church five times a week and all that.
02:13:47.409 --> 02:13:50.529
And the first ladies always were, you know, just calm.
02:13:50.610 --> 02:14:10.529
And when you would go in the presence of a first lady, I remember of the church I grew up in, and oh, she was so uh humble, like she would just hold you and touch you, and you just you know, the kids are running around, and she had a different energy than all the mothers in the church and everything, the first lady.
02:14:10.770 --> 02:14:19.090
And my um grandma explained that to me, you know, that spirit, and it's a understanding um of what that energy was.
02:14:19.170 --> 02:14:21.409
Yeah, so that was just on the religion side.
02:14:21.650 --> 02:14:34.369
So I think when I saw you and I saw people come up and say that you saved their lives, people are crying, talking about they saw you on a television one night and they didn't commit suicide.
02:14:34.449 --> 02:14:34.690
Yeah.
02:14:35.010 --> 02:14:36.369
Like I'm seeing this.
02:14:36.930 --> 02:14:50.850
So if even if you don't understand the what source has for you and what's working through you, the woman next to you and her purpose is we're the we're the portals from the spirit to the physical.
02:14:51.329 --> 02:14:57.970
And and and we have that innate energy, and we're uh we we should be able to recognize that.
02:14:58.210 --> 02:15:04.369
And and you're you're either a person, a woman's gonna see that in you, and it's either gonna be one way or it's gonna be another way.
02:15:04.850 --> 02:15:14.850
And it is a big journey, it's not something that's an easy task, but being your woman and your mate, uh, you have to understand that it's bigger than us.
02:15:14.930 --> 02:15:16.449
Yeah, you know, it's bigger than me.
02:15:16.529 --> 02:15:26.050
And as long as what you're doing is taking care of us, when it's time for you to take care of others, you know, I can, you know, we can do that.
02:15:26.210 --> 02:15:29.570
But the thing is, you did such a good job of seeing me.
02:15:29.730 --> 02:15:32.130
Like you, this is a hundred and something people pulling on you.
02:15:32.210 --> 02:15:32.770
You're still looking.
02:15:32.850 --> 02:15:33.489
Where's theatris?
02:15:33.730 --> 02:15:34.610
Theatrice, you're all right.
02:15:34.770 --> 02:15:37.489
I'm wandering around looking at how is baby.
02:15:37.570 --> 02:15:39.250
Is this the halls of mementos?
02:15:42.210 --> 02:15:44.449
Is this the mementos, baby?
02:15:47.970 --> 02:15:50.050
Um I'm lost.
02:15:52.050 --> 02:15:53.250
We underground.
02:15:53.409 --> 02:15:56.369
I'm on the Where we at?
02:15:56.529 --> 02:15:56.930
I don't know.
02:15:57.329 --> 02:15:59.810
We in tunnels and all the all kinds of different stuff.
02:15:59.890 --> 02:16:00.529
Where are we at?
02:16:00.690 --> 02:16:04.850
You know, and you're still, you gonna, and you look around, see all right?
02:16:04.930 --> 02:16:05.409
Where you at?
02:16:05.489 --> 02:16:08.130
You know, and you made me feel seen the whole time.
02:16:08.210 --> 02:16:09.170
And I noticed that.
02:16:09.329 --> 02:16:11.489
Like, I shoot, how's this relationship?
02:16:11.570 --> 02:16:17.570
We're on a date, and my that person's two blocks down the road, and I'm just sitting here, they don't know where I'm at.
02:16:17.730 --> 02:16:18.130
Oh man.
02:16:18.369 --> 02:16:24.850
You're charge, you're leading a charge of tours of people in a whole other country where everything's depending on you.
02:16:25.010 --> 02:16:27.650
You've got to watch your feet, you've got to watch your back.
02:16:27.810 --> 02:16:30.050
We've got armed security guards, everything.
02:16:30.210 --> 02:16:35.329
And I'm a wanderer because I'm like, uh, I'm like in awe of everything.
02:16:35.489 --> 02:16:44.369
And out of all those people, I mean, you got people coming up to you that are from there, that you know, from Egypt, like, oh my god, forbidden knowledge, you know, and all that stuff.
02:16:44.449 --> 02:16:45.409
And I'm like, oh, that's wonderful.
02:16:45.489 --> 02:16:46.529
You want me to take some pictures?
02:16:46.690 --> 02:16:49.729
And then over there, and I am a picture hoarder, so I'm taking everything.
02:16:49.809 --> 02:16:53.569
The group none left, Billy's right back, group gone.
02:16:53.649 --> 02:16:55.250
You're right back next to me.
02:16:55.569 --> 02:16:56.610
You okay, babe?
02:16:56.850 --> 02:16:59.569
Not rushing me, nothing, making sure I'm okay.
02:17:00.049 --> 02:17:02.850
And that alone is when I understood.
02:17:02.930 --> 02:17:05.250
I'm like, okay, he's a protector.
02:17:05.729 --> 02:17:09.329
You know, yeah, I mean, he's a and not just of me, of everybody.
02:17:09.489 --> 02:17:11.649
You were keeping track of everybody there.
02:17:11.969 --> 02:17:13.489
And then you still found time for me.
02:17:13.569 --> 02:17:17.170
So it was easy for me to sit back and be like, oh, go on, take a picture.
02:17:17.489 --> 02:17:18.850
No, he keeps going.
02:17:19.489 --> 02:17:20.209
Okay, I'll take it.
02:17:20.850 --> 02:17:21.569
You know what I mean?
02:17:21.649 --> 02:17:23.170
Because you made me feel that way.
02:17:23.569 --> 02:17:23.969
Safety.
02:17:24.369 --> 02:17:24.850
Yeah, you know.
02:17:25.489 --> 02:17:26.129
I appreciate that.
02:17:26.529 --> 02:17:29.170
And so, and plus I know your purpose and I support your purpose.
02:17:29.489 --> 02:17:29.729
Thank you.
02:17:29.969 --> 02:17:30.690
It's very important.
02:17:31.090 --> 02:17:32.129
Yeah, yeah, thank you.
02:17:32.209 --> 02:17:44.449
I appreciate that because that's that's been that's been one of my you know toughest areas is to to be to find somebody that that understands that I'm I'm I'm on a mission, you know.
02:17:44.609 --> 02:17:45.729
I really am on a mission.
02:17:45.809 --> 02:17:50.769
And um, and uh and this mission requires a lot of energy.
02:17:51.090 --> 02:17:52.929
Yeah, you know, a lot of energy.
02:17:53.009 --> 02:17:58.289
Uh, and everywhere I go, as you've seen now, it doesn't matter where I'm at, yeah, it's gonna happen.
02:17:58.689 --> 02:18:04.529
I don't care if we're in Jabip, somebody's gonna come up to me and be like, hey, you know, and that's what's happening.
02:18:04.689 --> 02:18:05.170
Yeah, yeah.
02:18:05.409 --> 02:18:13.969
And you did, and that and another thing you said that was your mission, but you also said another thing was your mission, and that moved me.
02:18:14.769 --> 02:18:26.529
So I don't know if you want to share that, but well, we were um, and you were, you know, you shared with me that, you know, that I also was your mission.
02:18:27.170 --> 02:18:32.769
And um, and you know, you don't believe people they get to talking that good stuff.
02:18:32.849 --> 02:18:34.689
You're like, man, Billy, he's smooth.
02:18:35.969 --> 02:18:38.369
Like, I don't know, he got the deep voice, he's smooth.
02:18:38.529 --> 02:18:39.969
Oh my God, is this it?
02:18:40.369 --> 02:18:55.009
One day you were speaking, um, and you shared, because I listened to you speak, and I'm learning more because, like you said, I don't watch all the videos all the time, and I was off social media for a long time, but I still learn about you as you do these speaking engagements.
02:18:55.090 --> 02:19:12.289
And you had a speaking engagement in California, and you were you were there and you shared your childhood story, and I got a download, and that's when I realized that you know I have my mission too, you know.
02:19:12.529 --> 02:19:33.009
It's a spiritual global mission as well, and we both have one, but my download was my mission was to love you, and you stated the same for me, but what I realized in that was how to love you, what type of mission that was.
02:19:33.569 --> 02:19:39.090
And when you love someone and you make it your mission to love them, it changes everything.
02:19:39.329 --> 02:20:03.969
And what I realized that mission was your inner child and my inner child, and we kept choosing from that inner space, and we finally got lucky, yeah, and now we can care for our inner child, and our and my your mission and our mission is to uh you know provide each other that nurturing we missed when we were younger.
02:20:04.129 --> 02:20:04.449
Exactly.
02:20:04.609 --> 02:20:21.009
Like it was the same timeline, like we didn't get that being held and touched and that intimacy, yeah, you know, not beyond sex, you know, and that's something that we both missed, and we both have been on that mission to love each other in that way, each other's inner children.
02:20:21.090 --> 02:20:24.209
Yeah, and um, it's just it's just been phenomenal.
02:20:24.369 --> 02:20:25.889
I mean, so much.
02:20:26.449 --> 02:20:34.849
I mean, what do you say about the fractals and stuff, baby, and the times, and you know, time is just a social construct, there's no such thing as time.
02:20:35.170 --> 02:20:37.409
Yeah, I will say it was so funny.
02:20:37.489 --> 02:20:41.090
Like, I know that this isn't our first lifetime together.
02:20:41.329 --> 02:20:41.969
Yeah, yeah.
02:20:42.369 --> 02:20:45.729
It isn't, you know, we've we've known each other thousands of years.
02:20:45.889 --> 02:20:48.529
Yeah, that's how I gotta develop the patience.
02:20:49.009 --> 02:20:52.129
Oh my gosh, yes, you're so patient.
02:20:52.289 --> 02:20:53.569
I'm so happy.
02:20:53.809 --> 02:20:54.689
Oh my gosh.
02:20:54.849 --> 02:20:56.929
I didn't even know I needed so much patience.
02:21:00.449 --> 02:21:01.569
But I'm so happy.
02:21:01.889 --> 02:21:16.289
You know, I'll tell you, to be honest with you, you know, um from what I've been through in my past, and you know, and not talking anything bad, but certain relationships require a certain amount of level of attention.
02:21:16.529 --> 02:21:21.729
And um if you're not in alignment, there's gonna be this friction that's always there, right?
02:21:21.889 --> 02:21:24.129
And this contention that just kind of builds up.
02:21:24.689 --> 02:21:32.849
And I can honestly say today, after everything that I've been through in the past, um, dealing with you is like a walk in the park.
02:21:33.809 --> 02:21:37.329
All that was like lifting my spiritual patience weights.
02:21:37.569 --> 02:21:38.449
Oh, I'm so happy.
02:21:38.689 --> 02:21:41.090
So my patience has been built up.
02:21:41.250 --> 02:21:43.569
And just you still you get frustrated every now and then.
02:21:43.649 --> 02:21:44.289
Yeah, of course, yeah.
02:21:44.369 --> 02:21:49.809
I'm a human being, but I just go back and reflect on my past and I go, oh yeah, this ain't nothing.
02:21:50.129 --> 02:21:50.849
Oh my God.
02:21:50.929 --> 02:21:56.529
I'm gonna, you know what, guys, I'm gonna do I'm gonna create some thank you letters and send them all to all of his exes.
02:21:56.929 --> 02:21:57.969
Oh, please send them all now.
02:21:58.049 --> 02:21:58.689
Send them all out.
02:21:59.969 --> 02:22:01.649
They got my patience on 10.
02:22:03.170 --> 02:22:04.769
Hope you're doing good.
02:22:05.889 --> 02:22:06.849
Thanks.
02:22:07.649 --> 02:22:08.929
You know, I'm kidding.
02:22:09.090 --> 02:22:10.609
I'm kidding, I'm kidding.
02:22:10.769 --> 02:22:11.649
But thank you.
02:22:12.689 --> 02:22:14.209
But um, you're so amazing.
02:22:14.289 --> 02:22:14.609
I love that.
02:22:14.929 --> 02:22:15.969
You're amazing too, babe.
02:22:16.129 --> 02:22:18.369
And uh, you know, that's why we're doing the date conscious app.
02:22:18.449 --> 02:22:18.689
Yeah.
02:22:18.849 --> 02:22:22.849
We're doing the date conscious app because we want people to make stronger connections.
02:22:22.929 --> 02:22:32.049
And the app is really focused around building stronger connections, yeah, creating deeper conversations with with your mate and the person that you're dating, or the person that even you're married to.
02:22:32.209 --> 02:22:32.449
Yeah.
02:22:32.609 --> 02:22:49.649
And if you don't have anybody, it's even set up to where you can look and find somebody so you can date conscious, find somebody on your timeline and see if you can start, you know, create that spark that puts you both on the same timeline, or if you're on the same timeline that you can begin to date and figure it out.
02:22:49.729 --> 02:22:53.489
It doesn't mean that every single match is gonna be made in heaven, right?
02:22:53.809 --> 02:23:14.609
But at least you're gonna be on an app with people who are speaking the same language, asking the same questions, truth seekers, wisdom seekers, spiritual people, people that are uh empathetic and uh you know looking to help the world and and see a better place, you know, and um yeah, uh I think just put themselves maybe their morals to a higher standard.
02:23:14.769 --> 02:23:20.049
Uh and so I you know it's not a hundred percent guarantee, but you get a better shot.
02:23:20.369 --> 02:23:22.929
And I let me tell you something about day conscious.
02:23:23.009 --> 02:23:31.250
Okay, so you might experience this, I don't know, but I is I've experienced things with Billy Carson that are not normal.
02:23:31.489 --> 02:23:31.809
Okay.
02:23:32.769 --> 02:23:36.849
I got contacted by his ex, another ex.
02:23:37.649 --> 02:23:37.969
Okay.
02:23:38.289 --> 02:23:38.929
Right, yeah.
02:23:39.250 --> 02:23:51.009
Slid in my DMs, yeah, and she told me what a wonderful, amazing human he is, and how happy she was to see that he found someone because he deserved it.
02:23:51.569 --> 02:23:54.929
I mean, this woman, I mean, she's beautiful.
02:23:55.009 --> 02:23:57.889
I mean, and I because I looked at it, I'm like, ooh, who's this?
02:23:57.969 --> 02:23:59.569
Yeah, I got I didn't know who it was.
02:23:59.649 --> 02:24:07.649
This is a very beautiful person, and she told me that I didn't know who she was, you know, and Billy hadn't hadn't mentioned her to me.
02:24:07.809 --> 02:24:18.609
And she shared with me who she was, and she shared with me why she was contacting me, and she went on to tell me from her experience who this man was.
02:24:19.250 --> 02:24:31.649
And another thing I'll tell you before when I was manifesting, I said, I need the next man that I'm with, I need the ex to co-sign for it, right?
02:24:31.889 --> 02:24:35.649
And this was an ex before we before we met the first time.
02:24:35.889 --> 02:24:36.129
Right.
02:24:36.209 --> 02:24:37.649
This is an ex before we met the first time.
02:24:37.809 --> 02:24:39.090
This is an ex before we maybe even met this.
02:24:39.649 --> 02:24:41.409
Yeah, it was someone before that.
02:24:42.209 --> 02:24:43.489
15, 16, 17.
02:24:43.729 --> 02:24:44.689
Yeah, it was a while ago.
02:24:44.769 --> 02:24:52.129
And so they had experienced, she had experienced him and she shared these things, and that was this that was the stamp of approval.
02:24:52.209 --> 02:25:04.209
I didn't necessarily need it, but I said, how wonderful of a person do you have to be that a woman that she sees you in love and is that happy for you?
02:25:04.369 --> 02:25:14.129
Yeah, you know, that so much that she reaches out to the other woman and states, you know, who he is and how he deserves that, and and wishes, gave us well wishes.
02:25:14.529 --> 02:25:15.729
I've never had that.
02:25:16.129 --> 02:25:17.409
And it was That was amazing.
02:25:17.489 --> 02:25:18.049
I was like, huh?
02:25:18.289 --> 02:25:18.609
Amazing.
02:25:18.689 --> 02:25:20.769
And I asked him, he said, what that was.
02:25:21.809 --> 02:25:26.449
And I'm like, oh my gosh, you know, she it wasn't like we became friends or anything like that.
02:25:26.609 --> 02:25:29.969
She just really wanted to share that with me.
02:25:30.369 --> 02:25:33.489
And I was like, that is amazing.
02:25:33.569 --> 02:25:37.170
I mean, this person has gone on with her life, has a relationship, all that stuff.
02:25:37.409 --> 02:25:43.969
But it was amazing, and you know, and yeah, I definitely took her word for it.
02:25:44.129 --> 02:25:45.329
And she was absolutely right.
02:25:45.489 --> 02:25:50.769
I mean, you've been consistent, you've been amazing, and I I'm I'm very happy.
02:25:50.849 --> 02:25:53.489
But yeah, if you ever get that happened, no, you got a unicorn.
02:25:53.569 --> 02:25:54.449
I got a unicorn.
02:25:55.170 --> 02:25:56.689
You know, we're both two little unicorns.
02:25:57.009 --> 02:25:57.250
That's right.
02:25:58.929 --> 02:25:59.889
Yeah, I love it.
02:25:59.969 --> 02:26:00.769
It's been great.
02:26:00.929 --> 02:26:06.849
Um, you know, this is um what it's all about, and uh it's an we wanted to share our story with everybody.
02:26:07.090 --> 02:26:12.209
Yeah, you know, a lot of people have been asking, you know, since we started posting ourselves on social media.
02:26:12.369 --> 02:26:12.849
Yeah.
02:26:13.090 --> 02:26:16.849
And it was going viral, like you wouldn't believe.
02:26:17.009 --> 02:26:18.049
Millions of views.
02:26:18.289 --> 02:26:18.929
Millions of views.
02:26:20.209 --> 02:26:21.009
You know, I'm new to this.
02:26:21.489 --> 02:26:22.049
Yeah, yeah, I know.
02:26:22.129 --> 02:26:22.529
Yeah, yeah.
02:26:22.609 --> 02:26:23.889
This is you know, this is not your area.
02:26:23.969 --> 02:26:27.889
You I mean, you don't rely on social media for monetization or capital.
02:26:28.049 --> 02:26:34.049
Now that you you know you are going to be speaking now and you have a book and things like that coming out, which is phenomenal, and you know, your programs that you have.
02:26:34.129 --> 02:26:36.369
So there's a need for social media, it's really there.
02:26:36.449 --> 02:26:38.769
But prior to this, it wasn't your your big thing.
02:26:38.849 --> 02:26:41.329
I mean, you were off of social media, you know.
02:26:41.489 --> 02:26:44.689
Um, which also that was kind of important to me too, you know.
02:26:44.849 --> 02:26:45.009
Yeah.
02:26:45.250 --> 02:26:53.649
Because I had I in the past I had people kind of, you know, uh kind of living off of my social media presence and trying to, you know, to capitalize off of that.
02:26:53.809 --> 02:27:02.849
And so the fact that you didn't even really need it, you know, makes me feel like oh, I'm hoping to share and and to, you know, to to show who you are to the world even more.
02:27:03.170 --> 02:27:07.889
Um because whether I post you on my social media or not, you're still gonna be you.
02:27:08.049 --> 02:27:08.289
Yeah.
02:27:08.529 --> 02:27:09.969
You were you before I met you.
02:27:10.129 --> 02:27:10.369
Yeah.
02:27:10.609 --> 02:27:12.609
So there's nothing I can do to to make you.
02:27:12.689 --> 02:27:14.129
You already made yourself, you know.
02:27:14.289 --> 02:27:14.449
Yeah.
02:27:14.689 --> 02:27:16.769
And I think that was an important thing for me as well.
02:27:17.090 --> 02:27:21.489
Finding somebody who's already made themselves and um, you know, no more rescue missions.
02:27:21.729 --> 02:27:23.569
You know, you can't go on another rescue mission.
02:27:23.649 --> 02:27:24.929
I just won't do it ever again.
02:27:25.170 --> 02:27:27.489
But babe, yeah, you rescued me.
02:27:27.729 --> 02:27:29.090
Well, I mean, you know what I mean.
02:27:29.329 --> 02:27:29.729
You did.
02:27:29.809 --> 02:27:29.969
Yeah.
02:27:30.049 --> 02:27:31.569
No, I mean like Well, you rescued me.
02:27:31.649 --> 02:27:34.929
I'm talking about emotionally, spiritually, you rescued me too.
02:27:35.009 --> 02:27:36.769
So this was your last rescue.
02:27:36.929 --> 02:27:40.049
I'm talking about this is the right type of rescue.
02:27:40.449 --> 02:27:43.969
Pulling somebody up from a level to get to your level.
02:27:44.049 --> 02:27:45.090
I'm talking about levels, you know.
02:27:45.329 --> 02:27:45.969
I understand.
02:27:46.209 --> 02:27:48.689
But uh, yeah, we know we definitely rescued each other.
02:27:48.849 --> 02:27:50.689
We found each other and we did it right.
02:27:50.929 --> 02:27:51.729
Yeah, we did.
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You know, we didn't just jump right in the sack and I didn't think you were gonna wait.
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I was like, nah, this man ain't gonna wait.
02:27:58.129 --> 02:28:01.090
You did good because you know the hips are hiping.
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I know.
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And it's real.
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And by the way, I'm gonna tell them.
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Don't tell them.
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You can tell, we're gonna tell them we tell them another time.
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We tell them.
02:28:08.449 --> 02:28:09.729
Okay, we're gonna, because I'm gonna show them.
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It's cornbread, pento beans, yeah.
02:28:13.569 --> 02:28:15.329
That's that down south.
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That's that down south.
02:28:19.329 --> 02:28:20.369
Yes, I'm definitely seven.
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Oh, yeah.
02:28:21.409 --> 02:28:28.609
But anyway, um I wanted to be able to go, again, you know, not to not to reiterate too much, but this is what it's all about.
02:28:28.769 --> 02:28:31.569
Yeah, and this is why this podcast is gonna be so important.
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This podcast is going to um give people some hope and hopefully some knowledge that you can apply.
02:28:40.369 --> 02:28:40.689
Yeah.
02:28:40.929 --> 02:28:51.569
It's not just gonna be a bunch of stories where there's nothing you can figure out how you can apply it to your life, because knowledge is not power, the application of knowledge is power.
02:28:52.129 --> 02:28:54.769
And until you can apply knowledge, you have nothing.
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If we sat in this room and devoured 10,000 books of information on self-improvement and relationships, yeah, and we just stayed in this room and had a great relationship, what good has that served the world?
02:29:07.409 --> 02:29:18.609
Yeah, it only it only becomes powerful when you can actually then share that knowledge in a way that people can then duplicate and apply it to their lives and get a result.
02:29:18.769 --> 02:29:19.009
Yeah.
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And then now you're doing, you know, you're doing the work, you're doing God's work, the universe's work, whatever you want to call it.
02:29:24.849 --> 02:29:26.689
Yeah, because now you're impacting lives.
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Yeah.
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And so I wanted to be able to take all these situations that I've been in and I want to alchemize them and take all that knowledge and turn it into something positive for people.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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That's amazing.
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And you have um honored to be a part of it, you know, honored for what we're doing together.
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Yeah.
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Um, you know, uh and you're my non-for-profit.
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Um can I share with that?
02:29:53.809 --> 02:29:54.129
Yeah, yeah.
02:29:54.449 --> 02:29:54.689
Okay.
02:29:54.849 --> 02:29:59.809
Well, I'm just gonna share that we have launched uh Nikki's house at Nikki's house.
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Um I am a survivor, we'll talk about this later.
02:30:03.649 --> 02:30:07.409
Yeah um, but at another another time, another podcast.
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And uh we have a non-for-profit which helps uh victims of domestic abuse find transitional homes.
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I came up with the idea many years ago because my nickname is Nikki, my middle name is Nicole, yeah, and people would always say, go stay at Nikki's house.
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If you're in trouble or you need somewhere to stay, go stay at Nikki's house.
02:30:26.929 --> 02:30:32.449
And I wanted to keep that energy, that safe place that people felt when they would come stay at my home.
02:30:32.609 --> 02:30:34.929
And so we've launched a non-for-profit.
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Um, we're partnering with the event this year during Domestic Violence Awareness Month.
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It's uh the masquerade ball through my family office, House Foster.
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Um, and it's gonna be amazing.
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It's gonna be in October, and we're gonna honor, and part of the proceeds will go to victims of domestic abuse, and we'll be talking about that more because obviously um dating conscious is being conscious also of who you're dating and who you are in that relationship and what's happening in that relationship and identifying when it's the right relationship, when it's time to go, and when it's time to stay.
02:31:11.729 --> 02:31:15.409
Um, and that's a that's something very, very big to my heart.
02:31:15.569 --> 02:31:18.689
Um, very, very um close to my heart, excuse me.
02:31:18.849 --> 02:31:22.369
Um, and and yeah, so more to come on that.
02:31:22.529 --> 02:31:30.769
Just wanted to share that in conjunction uh with day conscious and and what we're doing and what our purpose is, is is a lot bigger than a podcast.
02:31:30.849 --> 02:31:31.090
Yes.
02:31:31.250 --> 02:31:38.369
Um, we're wanting this to not only improve lives, but possibly save lives for those out there that um don't have a voice.
02:31:38.609 --> 02:31:54.529
Yeah, and when you told me about this nonprofit and and why and and the story behind it, I got behind it immediately because unfortunately there are a lot of men out there that have been a victim of even on the man's side of domestic abuse.
02:31:54.769 --> 02:31:55.170
Yeah.
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Including myself.
02:31:56.689 --> 02:31:57.009
Yeah.
02:31:57.329 --> 02:31:59.409
Um that's a story for another podcast, obviously.
02:31:59.729 --> 02:32:00.689
Story for another podcast.
02:32:01.009 --> 02:32:01.170
Yeah.
02:32:02.289 --> 02:32:04.769
And people, how can a big guy like you be well?
02:32:05.009 --> 02:32:06.929
I mean, I don't want to go to prison.
02:32:07.329 --> 02:32:09.889
So you take the abuse, you know, physical and verbal.
02:32:10.049 --> 02:32:10.209
Yeah.
02:32:10.449 --> 02:32:11.649
But that's another podcast.
02:32:11.729 --> 02:32:16.129
But what you're doing is so important because that is going to help save lives.
02:32:16.369 --> 02:32:16.529
Yeah.
02:32:16.769 --> 02:32:17.170
Literally.
02:32:17.250 --> 02:32:17.409
Yeah.
02:32:17.649 --> 02:32:17.889
Yeah.
02:32:17.969 --> 02:32:18.209
Yeah.
02:32:18.289 --> 02:32:26.529
And that's what we're that's that's, you know, really the goal right now is improving, saving lives, and um moving in there.
02:32:26.609 --> 02:32:41.649
But like I said, it's not just focus on that, um, just providing the fairy tales for women that, the fairy tales and men that have been stolen from them and putting them in a position of, you know, um, you know, happiness, joy.
02:32:41.729 --> 02:32:42.849
I'm I'm still on that.
02:32:43.009 --> 02:32:48.689
So uh Halloween 2026, the Biltmore Hotel in Los Angeles.
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Um, more information on that to come.
02:32:50.609 --> 02:32:51.409
Bridgerton time.
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Bridgerton time.
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All right, everyone, thank you for joining us for this very first episode of the Date Conscious Podcast, hosted by Billy Carson, Seatrice Foster.
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Yes.
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We'll see you again next time.
02:33:04.849 --> 02:33:05.329
Peace.
02:33:05.569 --> 02:33:07.489
Did you know you are royalty?
02:33:07.729 --> 02:33:17.090
Last year I hosted a private ball for my personal friends and family, and the evening became more magical than I ever could have imagined.
02:33:17.329 --> 02:33:21.569
People danced, laughed, celebrated, and even fell in love.
02:33:21.889 --> 02:33:35.969
Couples fell more deeply in love, and new friendships were formed, and yes, one unexpected introduction even became a$5 million investment for one of my lucky guests.
02:33:36.209 --> 02:33:45.969
It reminded me that when extraordinary people gather, not just to network, but simply to enjoy life, extraordinary things can happen.
02:33:46.209 --> 02:33:58.449
So this year, I'm opening up the doors and personally inviting you to the first annual House Postor Masquerade Ball, a Bridgerton-inspired royal affair.
02:33:58.609 --> 02:34:08.369
So this all-house Eve, leave the ordinary behind and enter a world of mystery, elegance, romance, and joy.
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Arrive in your finest Regency-inspired attire, lock the royal red carpet, dine and dance beneath the chandeliers of the historic Millennium Biltmore Hotel located here in Los Angeles, and celebrate amongst an extraordinary gathering of leaders, visionaries, entrepreneurs, philanthropists, entertainers, athletes, and distinguished members of our society.
02:34:37.809 --> 02:34:49.569
And because October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month, a portion of the proceeds will benefit at Nikki's house, a non for profit assisting victims finding a path forward.
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So secure your invitation today.
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Click the link below or visit the link in my bio.
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I'll be wearing my crown.
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Oh love too fast.
02:35:50.209 --> 02:35:51.170
I've stayed too long.
02:35:51.329 --> 02:35:52.449
I've called it love.
02:35:52.689 --> 02:35:53.649
When love was wrong.
02:35:53.809 --> 02:35:55.090
Now I know my words.
02:35:55.250 --> 02:35:56.209
I know my mind.
02:35:56.449 --> 02:35:57.489
I don't need perfect.
02:35:57.889 --> 02:35:59.009
I need a line.
02:35:59.250 --> 02:36:00.449
No more, maybe.
02:36:01.729 --> 02:36:02.289
No more.
02:36:03.250 --> 02:36:07.569
If I give you my heart, I'll give it with purpose.
02:36:09.489 --> 02:36:10.609
Stay conscious.
02:36:10.929 --> 02:36:13.329
Love with your eyes wide open.
02:36:14.449 --> 02:36:15.489
Stay conscious.
02:36:15.969 --> 02:36:17.889
Say what you mean, don't open.
02:36:18.929 --> 02:36:24.289
Know your heart, know your mind, don't just choose your timeline.
02:36:24.609 --> 02:36:25.409
Take conscious.
02:36:25.649 --> 02:36:28.209
Love is better when you know it.
02:36:28.449 --> 02:36:30.449
Uh uh, I made mistakes.
02:36:30.609 --> 02:36:31.649
I played it cool.
02:36:31.729 --> 02:36:34.049
I've lost good love, trying not to lose.
02:36:34.209 --> 02:36:36.609
I learned that chemistry, incompatibility.
02:36:36.689 --> 02:36:40.609
I wantin' somebody, and you want them and So what are you looking for?
02:36:40.849 --> 02:36:41.569
Something real.
02:36:41.729 --> 02:36:43.090
And what are you ready for?
02:36:43.329 --> 02:36:44.209
Something real.
02:36:44.449 --> 02:36:45.649
No more, maybe.
02:36:46.849 --> 02:36:48.209
No more almost.
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If we give this a chance, let's give it with purpose.
02:36:54.689 --> 02:36:55.649
Take conscious.
02:36:56.129 --> 02:36:58.529
Love with your eyes wide open.
02:36:59.649 --> 02:37:00.609
Take conscious.
02:37:01.170 --> 02:37:03.409
Say what you mean, don't hold it.
02:37:04.129 --> 02:37:06.209
Know your heart, know your mind.
02:37:06.449 --> 02:37:09.250
Two different roads, one timeline.
02:37:09.809 --> 02:37:10.449
Take conscious.
02:37:10.849 --> 02:37:13.170
Love is better when you know it.
02:37:13.409 --> 02:37:19.889
Know it, know it, knowing Maybe love isn't finding someone.
02:37:20.129 --> 02:37:22.049
Maybe it's knowing yourself.
02:37:22.289 --> 02:37:24.689
Maybe timing isn't everything.
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But it sure is hell, hell.
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So I know where I'm going.
02:37:29.729 --> 02:37:31.969
So do I together?
02:37:32.449 --> 02:37:34.609
Then maybe it's time.
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Take conscious love with your eyes wide open.
02:38:02.449 --> 02:38:06.209
Take conscious, no words left unspoken.
02:38:06.849 --> 02:38:09.170
Know your heart, know your mind.
02:38:09.489 --> 02:38:10.369
Choose each other.
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Choose your time.
02:38:12.609 --> 02:38:13.409
Take conscious.
02:38:13.649 --> 02:38:14.609
Love is better.
02:38:14.849 --> 02:38:15.889
And you know it.
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Know your heart.
02:38:32.529 --> 02:38:36.049
Take conscious choose your time.