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All right.
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See to a start.
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Listen.
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New avatar.
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Illumination.
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It's not hard to be brave.
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It's easier to give too much away.
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Okay, I gotta stop.
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Guys, welcome to c I needed that.
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I actually needed that.
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I'm feeling revved up.
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I'm feeling pent up.
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I'm feeling revved up.
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I'm feeling pent up.
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Um what?
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Woo! Why am I about to start crying from Kalola?
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It's that I'm loaded up.
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Welcome to Classroom Crush.
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Um, I'm Rebecca and I'm loaded up and I'm and I'm ready to ask a series of questions.
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And it's and they all start with this.
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What does it mean?
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Dot, dot, dot.
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Anybody out here wondering about what it what does it mean?
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You know, at the beginning of my podcast, um, all those years, nine years ago, um I was considering what does it mean that all of these things happened to me uh when I was crushing and in love?
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What does it mean for who I became and how I approached love and relationships?
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This is what the podcast has uh is born of this idea, right?
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Now I ask, what does it mean right here, right now?
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What does all of everything that is happening to us mean for us today and tomorrow and yesterday?
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Do you know what I'm saying?
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Basically, uh it's very easy to be overwhelmed by everything, um, all of the horrors around us.
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Um, but I but in an attempt to not allow that overwhelm to do the the job that it wants to do, that it's here to, you know, the shock and awe is here to do, which is to demobilize, I come to uh bear uh to to uh offer some questions to help us parse it, um at least in my mind, how I've been par thinking about things.
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Anyone interested?
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Anyone watching, anybody listening, anybody care?
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That's fine.
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It's like at this point, it's like this is for me to have the conversations I want to have, and then hopefully one day, you know, I will have been pondering these things aloud, and um and and hopefully it will not all be for naught.
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Um I don't think it is, I don't think any of it is.
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Just saying it out loud for me helps me move through the world, and maybe if it does for you, that's awesome.
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If not, that's cool.
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It helps for me.
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Saying it on a podcast, I've just been doing it.
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Okay.
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This is gonna be dark and this is gonna be sad and fun.
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You know, there's stuff that's going on, but we can talk about it.
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We can talk about it.
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We have to talk about it.
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We have to laugh and cry in the same breath, because if not, we're not um in reality.
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So let's talk about it.
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One of my first questions, let's just get it out of the way.
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Let me just read this.
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A judge dismissed an order from a civilian engineer in the military sealift command after it was determined that her report of being raped in her own bed aboard a Navy transport ship was within her duties and must be treated as a workers' comp claim.
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Now, what does that mean?
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What does it mean to be raped in the Navy and that is considered a workers' comp claim?
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What does it mean for that precedent to be set that rape is a part of your work duty?
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What could that possibly mean for us?
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Just think about it.
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What does it mean when child sex abuse material is legal when the child sex abuse material is one way or another always made from actual real child sex abuse?
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What does it mean when nonconsent is legalized in such explicit manners?
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What does it mean when Asia Bennett, a twenty-two-year-old in Jacksonville, Florida, calls the police because of a domestic violence dispute, and the police come and shoot and kill her?
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What does that mean?
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What does it mean when the most progressive, and I put it in quotation marks, of our leftist, democratic socialists, of American candidates continuously sell out black and brown lives, sell out black and brown people, the people who got them elected, um, when they continue to deprioritize the defunding of the police, when they switch it up, they also conveniently switch it up when stuff when when they're elected, when they're nominated, all of these things.
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What does it mean when the the supposed uh best most hopeful chances for leftist uh politicians are so easily willing to capitulate to Zionists?
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What does it mean when they keep doing it in our face?
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What does it mean when we keep uh believing them?
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What does it mean when law enforcement continues to set the standard of humanization?
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And we could say, of course, this isn't true, we are all human, and yet if we are all here still keeping up this fucking charade of whatever Western quote unquote civilized society we think we are in, or we have continued to elude ourselves into believing that we are in, to believe that any of this is civilized.
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What does it mean if we continue to go along with this game, and in that game, the police get to kill people all of the time, and the police, whether we believe, you know, whether we adhere to it or not, and obviously I do not think of the police as the moral uh the the givers of moral anything, the the the arbiters of anything, really, besides violence, even if we don't adhere to it, if it is structurally that, what does it mean that they continue to get to decide who is allowed to be alive or not?
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What does it mean when we continue to say, well, that's just that?
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Okay, another question.
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What does it mean when young Latinos, Latinas and Latinos, Latinex, Latines are all over all the ads?
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What does it mean when they want to use our bodies to sell all of the cleaning products or the you know fucking phone plans and whatever?
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What does it mean when they want to use us to sell to us while they are also stealing us while they are also kidnapping people who look like us, who look like our fathers, who look like our uncles, who look like our aunts, who look like our children?
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What does that mean?
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What does it mean for us to constantly have to be monetizing our lives?
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What does it mean that I was late to pay my insurance because I didn't have the money, and then my insurance was terminated, and then I got back paid, you know, charged all the last like seven fucking sessions of uh therapy, and then they stole like a thousand dollars for me that I didn't have, and then like I have less money that I don't have rent.
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What does that mean when like one when when when a website doesn't work so you can't pay your bill, so then now you don't have um therapy for the next month?
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What does that mean that we're just kind of like putting up with that shit, you know?
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What does it mean when we understand that all of these systems are built on non-consent?
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What does it mean when we understand conceptually that all of this shit hinges on manufactured consent?
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And when will we understand that manufactured consent is just rape?
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And what do we do about it?
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I I'm sure people could be on the other line listening saying, Rebecca, okay, we've heard you see these thoughts, you have these thoughts, and now what?
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Okay, yeah.
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Now what?
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How do you decide to take your consent back?
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Can you?
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Can you decide on autonomy and rape culture?
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I think yeah.
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I think yeah, because none of this is natural.
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All of this is happening to us.
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And yeah, we're buried under it right now because it's all that we've known.
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And I know that people are like, well, yeah, of course, I don't want, I we it shouldn't be like this.
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We shouldn't have to pay to live.
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It shouldn't, da-da-da-da-da.
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But what are we supposed to do?
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I think the only way that we battle manufactured consent, the only way we rid ourselves of the rapist that is this fucking country and this heteronormative, fucking misogynist, patriarchal, white supremacist bullshit, is to exit the abusive relationship with the resources that we have, which is each other.
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I'm not saying it's easy.
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Escaping my very real abusive relationship was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
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Probably the I'm gonna hope, the hardest thing I'll ever have to do.
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And it really fucking sucked and it was really hard, but I did it.
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I could do it because I had community support.
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When will we realize that we have the support and it is each other?
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No one person, I can't on my own just fully decide to completely, you know.
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I mean, I could try to go off and live in the in the woods and whatever, and I know people who do that and whatever.
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Either way, me rescinding alone is not the answer to the issue of this ongoing assault against our autonomy.
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It's a collective issue.
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I can't go just like safety and numbers.
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I talk about it all the time.
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I can't just decide to stop paying for things.
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We have to decide to stop paying for things.
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How do we do that?
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We build networks together.
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How do we how do we remove ourselves from the domination that continues to um imprison us?
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We build outside of it.
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We stop looking to it for answers, we stop looking to these fucking leftist politicians for answers, we start looking to each other for the answers.
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Can it happen overnight?
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No.
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Can we start feeding each other?
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Yes.
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Can we start giving each other shit?
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Yes.
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Can we go on a general fucking strike?
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Yes.
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Can we create all of the things that we need to continue to live and survive outside of these systems?
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Yes.
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Can we do it alone?
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No.
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So what does that mean?
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Do we have to start like talking like this all the time?
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I think so.
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Yeah.
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I can't stop fucking talking like this all the time.
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Cause look around.
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I was talking about this last night with my friend.
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Like we always knew things would have to get worse to get better, and they probably would.
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And but this is now.
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It's now.
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The hinge is now.
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So are we gonna run to the same solutions that we continue to see or to that we continue to see fail us?
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The Zoran Mandanis that we continue to see capitulate and compromise, we are far past the time where compromise is okay.
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People are dying.
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But when we continue living it like it can, it will.
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You know?
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So yeah, no, I'm not gonna get in the fucking Waymo.
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No, I don't use Chat GPT.
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No, I'm not using Amazon.
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I haven't used it in fucking I can't, I I don't even know how long.
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Is it harder?
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Yeah, but it's only harder because we don't have these, these, these, I don't have these networks, at least yet in LA.
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I'm trying, I'm trying.
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I'm yelling on a fucking podcast.
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I'm going out, I'm talking to people, I'm trying to figure out who thinks the same way as me.
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And I think a lot of people do, but who's willing to move that way too?
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We all have to be more willing to tangibly be it.
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Because you can't just know about manufactured consent.
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How do you just know about it?
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Understand that it's an ongoing fucking abuse, an assault, a rape of us, of, of, of us here, of, of us there, everywhere.
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It's not enough to just know it.
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And I get it, man.
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Autonomy is really hard to fucking find.
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I mean, like, I'm building it every day.
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But I think that we need to be consciously understanding that this autonomy that we're building inside of us, like, it needs to be for all of us.
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We need collective autonomy.
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If you normalize not subscribing to the shit that we know is bad for us, then maybe that will become normal.
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Because you know, I was remembering and I was, I think something was about astrology was like telling me to look back into 2018, and I looked it up and I it was like, oh yeah.
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Brett Kavanaugh.
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Brett Kavanaugh.
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Do you ever think about what was normalized then and where we are now?
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We need to think about how many things should have broken all of this shit open already.
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And it's not a coincidence that now everything is happening at once.
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Every fucking corner of the horror that could be happening to us is happening.
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And we're not even in the heart of it.
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We're just, we are the ones that are continuing to let it happen by living our little, sweet little lives.
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But it's not sweet, right?
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We know this.
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We know this because we're being killed.
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We know this because it is so hard to live.
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And it's getting hotter and hotter every fucking day.
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So yeah, it's scary, it's dark, it's angering.
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But more than anything, it's urgent.
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And I look at how this fucking earth, how these plants and these animals heal and work together and the interconnectedness of like all of this shit.
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And I know that there is a different way.
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But not if we keep deluding ourselves into thinking that the way we've been doing it, if we just tweak, if we just tweak, we'll get where we need to be.
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You know what I realized recently?
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You cannot have boundaries with your oppressor.
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And I feel like that's what we've been trying to do for years upon years upon years.
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We have been trying to therapize and boundary our way into some version of liberation that never will be.
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Because you cannot set standards and rules with an oppressor that wishes to dominate.
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Your oppressor does not give a fuck about your rules.
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It does not give a fuck about what you care about.
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It does not give a fuck about your boundaries.
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That white man is gonna dominate the space one way or another.
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You could say it nicely, you can say it loudly, but when you're trying to negotiate with it, impossible.
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There's not a middle ground with your with a with with an oppressor.
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There's not a middle ground with white supremacy.
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There's not negotiation with white supremacy.
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There's not a compromise to be met for the liberation of all with white supremacy.
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And that's what I feel like we can are continuing to do.
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We're trying to make deals with the devil.
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Hello.
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So what now?
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You were sinned.
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Yeah.
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You quit.
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It's not a failure, it's actually a victory.
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To quit a system that has been telling you from the start that it's against you is the only way for us to reclaim our autonomy.
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For us to even get it.
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I can't even say reclaim.
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For us to get it for the first time.
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We need autonomy for ourselves and our fucking children and our grandchildren.
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And and you know what?
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We're supposed to continue to keep living.
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The solution isn't supposed to be we just stop having fucking children.
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Like, that's so crazy that that's where we're at.
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Where it's like, yeah, maybe, maybe the way that I'm gonna deal with it is just to not continue life.
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Well, they got us here.
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And I'm like, and and and that's not saying anything against people who are like not trying to have children.
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That's not what I'm saying.
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I'm just like, this should not be this.
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We if we if if if our humankind can continue to exist, it should.
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And it should be able to continue to exist.
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And when the people creating in the AI AI are telling us that the AI will be will probably kill us in like a day within the decade, that is when we should really, ah, yesterday be working our way out.
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We have to understand that part of the manufactured consent that is keeping this all of this illusion alive is that they are counting on us to continue to perpetuate the dehumanization that they have of all of all people, of all oppressed people, right?
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They don't want us thinking about how babies are dying in Cuba because of this blockade.
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They don't want us thinking about the genocide in Palestine.
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They don't want us thinking about all of the life that is being lost every day, that is not being lost, that is being taken every day.
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Cuba is 90 miles from Miami.
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People are dying in a second from catastrophic, unnatural disaster of Nepal, because let us be fucking real.
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This shit is not natural.
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It is all because of what we have wrought onto this place.
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What the powers that be have decided is fact and God, the way that this whole system is running that is so against this earth.
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And even if we see a clip of it.
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Like, how many people do you think you've seen die?
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I don't even know how many people I've seen die.
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It's in the hundreds of thousands.
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And I can't look away.
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It feels like looking away.
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That's the dehumanization.
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But to look and feel nothing, that is two.
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So I'm allowing myself to feel it all more and more and more.
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And that's why I've talked about like grieving, because like, how can you grieve thousands of lives that you never knew, but that you know are no different than your own?
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The only way I conceptual I can think about grieving them is to fucking fight for them is to not consider any of this inevitable and to do everything in the life that I have that is no different than their lives to figure out how to stop death.
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And if the only answers that anyone have has for me on how to stop death are the things that I know have perpetuated it.
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Like this fucking government, like this white supremacist big quotations democracy.
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Nah, I know pattern recognition.
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I'm not buying that shit anymore.
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You know what I do know keeps people alive?
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Having a house, having food, having water, having connections, having family, having art, having love.
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You'd think that the government could give you those first few.
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Water, food, shelter, but by the way, it was recently declared because of a case in Jackson, Mississippi.
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The Constitution does not grant you the right to clean water.
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They can't even give us that one.
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They obviously can't give us housing.
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They haven't.
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They obviously can't give us food.
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Look at where we are.
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None of this shit.
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Can't even eat the shit.
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We don't even know what we're eating.
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So why are we continuing to safety?
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We know they're not giving us safety.
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We know that safety is a relationship between you and me.
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Safety is not a thing that the police bring after um harm has occurred.
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So what are they giving us again?
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Yeah, we're gonna need some fucking gardeners.
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We're gonna need some planters and some growers, and we're gonna need some water filtration systems, and we're gonna need each other.
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And that is the shit that they knew we were starting to wake up to the fact of during COVID.
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We were starting to understand that this shit is a illusion if we can pack it up for this pandemic.
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Wait, we don't need wait, we could do it all this, but no.
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They made sure to not let that shit get too far and come back and give you the creature comforts because obviously, duh, is it gonna be easy?
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No.
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Is it gonna be necessary?
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Even if you think it doesn't touch you right now, it will.
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It will.
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Ooh, I'm sorry.
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I tried to be like, I don't, you know, I don't know how to talk about this stuff and be funny.
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But I'm not fucking comedian.
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By the way, I'm not a comedian.
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I don't know.
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I just have a podcast and I'm silly goose.
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I did improv.
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I'm not a comedian.
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I'm just a girl.
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I am an artist.
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I am a writer.
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I'm a fucking actor.
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I'm not even a fucking activist.
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I think we're all activists.
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We should all be activists.
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Activists shouldn't mean anything.
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Oh, what?
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I'm actively invested in in the continuation of life on this planet.
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Then yes, I guess I'm a fucking activist.
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But like, I I we should all be doing this.
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I don't know.
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Not to be like none of this is ever about me feeling superior.
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Actually, if anything, only it's me feeling crazy.
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I'm feeling crazy.
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I'm feeling crazy out here.
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So what does it mean when you're feeling crazy?
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What does it mean when everything is built on non-consent?
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We take it back.
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Okay.
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I just wanted to say that.
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We take it back.
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We have to take it back.
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And you have to decide what that means for you.
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I can't tell you, I don't know your life, I don't know what's going on there.
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But I think that you know the pockets in which your power can be taken back.
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And when we're when we're all doing it, when when when we're in our friend groups and we're saying, actually we're taking our back in this way, or our power back in this way, and we're all holding each other accountable like to it, and we're doing it together, and we're supporting each other to figure out the ways that we can really start to remove ourselves from what is destroying us, you know.
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When we do it together, it's possible.
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When we do it alone, when we just think about it, when we just talk about it, things stay these way, these ways.
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So hair in my mouth.
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Anyways.
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I just hope you all think about it.
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What am I doing?
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Every day I'm learning how to be um, how to not let the the pressures of um capitalism and all of the things um distract me from what I know is true.
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Um I am trying to really, really rid myself of all of the remnants of rape culture, white supremacy, patriarchy, pedophilia, nation that has poisoned my little, little brain um since I was a young girl that has that has inhibited me from standing in my power, um, while also trying to remember that it is scary to be a woman out here.
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Um, but I'm gonna continue to do everything I can to be brave in the face of it and stay true to my integrity and not get in that fucking Waymo, even if I'm broke.
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And you know what I mean?
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And and and continue to um try to build a network of artists that are committed to liberation and storytelling um in a way that will not be wielded by the state.
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That's kind of my goal.
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Big big goal.
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And then the asterisk in parentheses, what is of that is to abolish the the cop show to abolish the police.
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You know, that's where I'm standing my autonomy.
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I'm committed to this goal, one way or another.
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What's yours?
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Get into it, make it for life and love.
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Anyways, stay tuned for some announcements about a Patreon soon.
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Do you like do you like me?
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Hey, pause.
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Speaking of that, hey, do you do you like me and would you like to talk about your childhood crutches with me?
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Well then ring ring, give me a call on the ACAB phone.
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And um, I'm gonna tell you soon I'm gonna have Patreon listener-only episodes.
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That means if you're a listener and you want to call me up, I'm gonna have a number for you soon.
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Um and tell me about your crush stories.
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We're gonna chat about it.
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Um, so join the Patreon to give me a call, to listen to the episodes.
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Um, stay tuned for more details on that.
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Maybe I'm editing it in right here.
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Who's to say?
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Um follow me on Instagram at Rebecca Bolnes.
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That's R-E-B-E-C-C A-B-U-L-N-Z.
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And I will probably be posting more about it there.
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Anyways, this is from my quote unquote activism days.
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I didn't do it.
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Shout out to, I think their name was Leo.
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I love it.
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Um if you're and if you're only listening, I pulled out my it's a red, it's a red phone cardboard.
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Just get on if you're not listening, just get on the YouTube if you want to see what I'm talking about.
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Oh, and that's so cool that a roach just fell out of there.
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Oh, wow, it's two roaches.
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Anyways, I'm living with roaches because I can't afford not to, you know.
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Um so in that, and also, and now I'm trying to kill the roach, and I and you know what?
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It sounds like I'm lying, but I but post punch and everything, and if you don't know what I'm talking about, you have to listen to more of the podcast.
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Post punch, I am sort of like, I don't like to kill any of the things, whether roach or not.
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I mean, like, I will, but I'm sort of like, I'm sorry, brother.
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Like, I'm not as gross out by them as I used to be.
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Um because because I'm just like, they're just trying to live too, you know.
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Damn.
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So yeah, we'd be coexisting.
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No, but we're trying.
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But yeah.
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Anyways, that's a super awesome way to.
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Should I end the podcast now?
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What does it all mean?
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Take the power back.
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The end.
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Love you.
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All right.
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See to a start.
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Listen.
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New avatar.
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Illumination.
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It's not hard to be brave.
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It's easier to give too much away.
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Okay, I gotta stop.
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Guys, welcome to c I needed that.
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I actually needed that.
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I'm feeling revved up.
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I'm feeling pent up.
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I'm feeling revved up.
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I'm feeling pent up.
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Um what?
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Woo! Why am I about to start crying from Kalola?
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It's that I'm loaded up.
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Welcome to Classroom Crush.
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Um, I'm Rebecca and I'm loaded up and I'm and I'm ready to ask a series of questions.
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And it's and they all start with this.
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What does it mean?
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Dot, dot, dot.
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Anybody out here wondering about what it what does it mean?
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You know, at the beginning of my podcast, um, all those years, nine years ago, um I was considering what does it mean that all of these things happened to me uh when I was crushing and in love?
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What does it mean for who I became and how I approached love and relationships?
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This is what the podcast has uh is born of this idea, right?
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Now I ask, what does it mean right here, right now?
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What does all of everything that is happening to us mean for us today and tomorrow and yesterday?
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Do you know what I'm saying?
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Basically, uh it's very easy to be overwhelmed by everything, um, all of the horrors around us.
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Um, but I but in an attempt to not allow that overwhelm to do the the job that it wants to do, that it's here to, you know, the shock and awe is here to do, which is to demobilize, I come to uh bear uh to to uh offer some questions to help us parse it, um at least in my mind, how I've been par thinking about things.
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Anyone interested?
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Anyone watching, anybody listening, anybody care?
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That's fine.
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It's like at this point, it's like this is for me to have the conversations I want to have, and then hopefully one day, you know, I will have been pondering these things aloud, and um and and hopefully it will not all be for naught.
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Um I don't think it is, I don't think any of it is.
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Just saying it out loud for me helps me move through the world, and maybe if it does for you, that's awesome.
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If not, that's cool.
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It helps for me.
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Saying it on a podcast, I've just been doing it.
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Okay.
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This is gonna be dark and this is gonna be sad and fun.
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You know, there's stuff that's going on, but we can talk about it.
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We can talk about it.
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We have to talk about it.
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We have to laugh and cry in the same breath, because if not, we're not um in reality.
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So let's talk about it.
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One of my first questions, let's just get it out of the way.
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Let me just read this.
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A judge dismissed an order from a civilian engineer in the military sealift command after it was determined that her report of being raped in her own bed aboard a Navy transport ship was within her duties and must be treated as a workers' comp claim.
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Now, what does that mean?
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What does it mean to be raped in the Navy and that is considered a workers' comp claim?
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What does it mean for that precedent to be set that rape is a part of your work duty?
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What could that possibly mean for us?
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Just think about it.
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What does it mean when child sex abuse material is legal when the child sex abuse material is one way or another always made from actual real child sex abuse?
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What does it mean when nonconsent is legalized in such explicit manners?
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What does it mean when Asia Bennett, a twenty-two-year-old in Jacksonville, Florida, calls the police because of a domestic violence dispute, and the police come and shoot and kill her?
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What does that mean?
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What does it mean when the most progressive, and I put it in quotation marks, of our leftist, democratic socialists, of American candidates continuously sell out black and brown lives, sell out black and brown people, the people who got them elected, um, when they continue to deprioritize the defunding of the police, when they switch it up, they also conveniently switch it up when stuff when when they're elected, when they're nominated, all of these things.
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What does it mean when the the supposed uh best most hopeful chances for leftist uh politicians are so easily willing to capitulate to Zionists?
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What does it mean when they keep doing it in our face?
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What does it mean when we keep uh believing them?
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What does it mean when law enforcement continues to set the standard of humanization?
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And we could say, of course, this isn't true, we are all human, and yet if we are all here still keeping up this fucking charade of whatever Western quote unquote civilized society we think we are in, or we have continued to elude ourselves into believing that we are in, to believe that any of this is civilized.
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What does it mean if we continue to go along with this game, and in that game, the police get to kill people all of the time, and the police, whether we believe, you know, whether we adhere to it or not, and obviously I do not think of the police as the moral uh the the givers of moral anything, the the the arbiters of anything, really, besides violence, even if we don't adhere to it, if it is structurally that, what does it mean that they continue to get to decide who is allowed to be alive or not?
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What does it mean when we continue to say, well, that's just that?
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Okay, another question.
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What does it mean when young Latinos, Latinas and Latinos, Latinex, Latines are all over all the ads?
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What does it mean when they want to use our bodies to sell all of the cleaning products or the you know fucking phone plans and whatever?
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What does it mean when they want to use us to sell to us while they are also stealing us while they are also kidnapping people who look like us, who look like our fathers, who look like our uncles, who look like our aunts, who look like our children?
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What does that mean?
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What does it mean for us to constantly have to be monetizing our lives?
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What does it mean that I was late to pay my insurance because I didn't have the money, and then my insurance was terminated, and then I got back paid, you know, charged all the last like seven fucking sessions of uh therapy, and then they stole like a thousand dollars for me that I didn't have, and then like I have less money that I don't have rent.
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What does that mean when like one when when when a website doesn't work so you can't pay your bill, so then now you don't have um therapy for the next month?
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What does that mean that we're just kind of like putting up with that shit, you know?
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What does it mean when we understand that all of these systems are built on non-consent?
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What does it mean when we understand conceptually that all of this shit hinges on manufactured consent?
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And when will we understand that manufactured consent is just rape?
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And what do we do about it?
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I I'm sure people could be on the other line listening saying, Rebecca, okay, we've heard you see these thoughts, you have these thoughts, and now what?
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Okay, yeah.
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Now what?
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How do you decide to take your consent back?
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Can you?
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Can you decide on autonomy and rape culture?
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I think yeah.
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I think yeah, because none of this is natural.
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All of this is happening to us.
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And yeah, we're buried under it right now because it's all that we've known.
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And I know that people are like, well, yeah, of course, I don't want, I we it shouldn't be like this.
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We shouldn't have to pay to live.
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It shouldn't, da-da-da-da-da.
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But what are we supposed to do?
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I think the only way that we battle manufactured consent, the only way we rid ourselves of the rapist that is this fucking country and this heteronormative, fucking misogynist, patriarchal, white supremacist bullshit, is to exit the abusive relationship with the resources that we have, which is each other.
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I'm not saying it's easy.
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Escaping my very real abusive relationship was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
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Probably the I'm gonna hope, the hardest thing I'll ever have to do.
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And it really fucking sucked and it was really hard, but I did it.
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I could do it because I had community support.
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When will we realize that we have the support and it is each other?
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No one person, I can't on my own just fully decide to completely, you know.
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I mean, I could try to go off and live in the in the woods and whatever, and I know people who do that and whatever.
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Either way, me rescinding alone is not the answer to the issue of this ongoing assault against our autonomy.
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It's a collective issue.
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I can't go just like safety and numbers.
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I talk about it all the time.
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I can't just decide to stop paying for things.
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We have to decide to stop paying for things.
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How do we do that?
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We build networks together.
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How do we how do we remove ourselves from the domination that continues to um imprison us?
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We build outside of it.
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We stop looking to it for answers, we stop looking to these fucking leftist politicians for answers, we start looking to each other for the answers.
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Can it happen overnight?
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No.
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Can we start feeding each other?
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Yes.
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Can we start giving each other shit?
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Yes.
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Can we go on a general fucking strike?
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Yes.
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Can we create all of the things that we need to continue to live and survive outside of these systems?
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Yes.
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Can we do it alone?
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No.
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So what does that mean?
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Do we have to start like talking like this all the time?
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I think so.
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Yeah.
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I can't stop fucking talking like this all the time.
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Cause look around.
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I was talking about this last night with my friend.
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Like we always knew things would have to get worse to get better, and they probably would.
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And but this is now.
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It's now.
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The hinge is now.
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So are we gonna run to the same solutions that we continue to see or to that we continue to see fail us?
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The Zoran Mandanis that we continue to see capitulate and compromise, we are far past the time where compromise is okay.
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People are dying.
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But when we continue living it like it can, it will.
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You know?
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So yeah, no, I'm not gonna get in the fucking Waymo.
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No, I don't use Chat GPT.
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No, I'm not using Amazon.
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I haven't used it in fucking I can't, I I don't even know how long.
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Is it harder?
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Yeah, but it's only harder because we don't have these, these, these, I don't have these networks, at least yet in LA.
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I'm trying, I'm trying.
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I'm yelling on a fucking podcast.
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I'm going out, I'm talking to people, I'm trying to figure out who thinks the same way as me.
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And I think a lot of people do, but who's willing to move that way too?
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We all have to be more willing to tangibly be it.
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Because you can't just know about manufactured consent.
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How do you just know about it?
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Understand that it's an ongoing fucking abuse, an assault, a rape of us, of, of, of us here, of, of us there, everywhere.
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It's not enough to just know it.
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And I get it, man.
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Autonomy is really hard to fucking find.
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I mean, like, I'm building it every day.
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But I think that we need to be consciously understanding that this autonomy that we're building inside of us, like, it needs to be for all of us.
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We need collective autonomy.
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If you normalize not subscribing to the shit that we know is bad for us, then maybe that will become normal.
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Because you know, I was remembering and I was, I think something was about astrology was like telling me to look back into 2018, and I looked it up and I it was like, oh yeah.
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Brett Kavanaugh.
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Brett Kavanaugh.
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Do you ever think about what was normalized then and where we are now?
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We need to think about how many things should have broken all of this shit open already.
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And it's not a coincidence that now everything is happening at once.
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Every fucking corner of the horror that could be happening to us is happening.
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And we're not even in the heart of it.
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We're just, we are the ones that are continuing to let it happen by living our little, sweet little lives.
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But it's not sweet, right?
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We know this.
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We know this because we're being killed.
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We know this because it is so hard to live.
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And it's getting hotter and hotter every fucking day.
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So yeah, it's scary, it's dark, it's angering.
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But more than anything, it's urgent.
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And I look at how this fucking earth, how these plants and these animals heal and work together and the interconnectedness of like all of this shit.
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And I know that there is a different way.
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But not if we keep deluding ourselves into thinking that the way we've been doing it, if we just tweak, if we just tweak, we'll get where we need to be.
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You know what I realized recently?
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You cannot have boundaries with your oppressor.
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And I feel like that's what we've been trying to do for years upon years upon years.
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We have been trying to therapize and boundary our way into some version of liberation that never will be.
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Because you cannot set standards and rules with an oppressor that wishes to dominate.
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Your oppressor does not give a fuck about your rules.
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It does not give a fuck about what you care about.
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It does not give a fuck about your boundaries.
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That white man is gonna dominate the space one way or another.
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You could say it nicely, you can say it loudly, but when you're trying to negotiate with it, impossible.
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There's not a middle ground with your with a with with an oppressor.
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There's not a middle ground with white supremacy.
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There's not negotiation with white supremacy.
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There's not a compromise to be met for the liberation of all with white supremacy.
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And that's what I feel like we can are continuing to do.
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We're trying to make deals with the devil.
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Hello.
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So what now?
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You were sinned.
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Yeah.
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You quit.
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It's not a failure, it's actually a victory.
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To quit a system that has been telling you from the start that it's against you is the only way for us to reclaim our autonomy.
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For us to even get it.
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I can't even say reclaim.
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For us to get it for the first time.
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We need autonomy for ourselves and our fucking children and our grandchildren.
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And and you know what?
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We're supposed to continue to keep living.
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The solution isn't supposed to be we just stop having fucking children.
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Like, that's so crazy that that's where we're at.
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Where it's like, yeah, maybe, maybe the way that I'm gonna deal with it is just to not continue life.
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Well, they got us here.
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And I'm like, and and and that's not saying anything against people who are like not trying to have children.
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That's not what I'm saying.
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I'm just like, this should not be this.
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We if we if if if our humankind can continue to exist, it should.
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And it should be able to continue to exist.
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And when the people creating in the AI AI are telling us that the AI will be will probably kill us in like a day within the decade, that is when we should really, ah, yesterday be working our way out.
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We have to understand that part of the manufactured consent that is keeping this all of this illusion alive is that they are counting on us to continue to perpetuate the dehumanization that they have of all of all people, of all oppressed people, right?
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They don't want us thinking about how babies are dying in Cuba because of this blockade.
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They don't want us thinking about the genocide in Palestine.
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They don't want us thinking about all of the life that is being lost every day, that is not being lost, that is being taken every day.
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Cuba is 90 miles from Miami.
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People are dying in a second from catastrophic, unnatural disaster of Nepal, because let us be fucking real.
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This shit is not natural.
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It is all because of what we have wrought onto this place.
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What the powers that be have decided is fact and God, the way that this whole system is running that is so against this earth.
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And even if we see a clip of it.
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Like, how many people do you think you've seen die?
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I don't even know how many people I've seen die.
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It's in the hundreds of thousands.
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And I can't look away.
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It feels like looking away.
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That's the dehumanization.
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But to look and feel nothing, that is two.
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So I'm allowing myself to feel it all more and more and more.
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And that's why I've talked about like grieving, because like, how can you grieve thousands of lives that you never knew, but that you know are no different than your own?
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The only way I conceptual I can think about grieving them is to fucking fight for them is to not consider any of this inevitable and to do everything in the life that I have that is no different than their lives to figure out how to stop death.
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And if the only answers that anyone have has for me on how to stop death are the things that I know have perpetuated it.
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Like this fucking government, like this white supremacist big quotations democracy.
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Nah, I know pattern recognition.
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I'm not buying that shit anymore.
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You know what I do know keeps people alive?
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Having a house, having food, having water, having connections, having family, having art, having love.
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You'd think that the government could give you those first few.
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Water, food, shelter, but by the way, it was recently declared because of a case in Jackson, Mississippi.
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The Constitution does not grant you the right to clean water.
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They can't even give us that one.
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They obviously can't give us housing.
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They haven't.
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They obviously can't give us food.
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Look at where we are.
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None of this shit.
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Can't even eat the shit.
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We don't even know what we're eating.
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So why are we continuing to safety?
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We know they're not giving us safety.
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We know that safety is a relationship between you and me.
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Safety is not a thing that the police bring after um harm has occurred.
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So what are they giving us again?
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Yeah, we're gonna need some fucking gardeners.
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We're gonna need some planters and some growers, and we're gonna need some water filtration systems, and we're gonna need each other.
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And that is the shit that they knew we were starting to wake up to the fact of during COVID.
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We were starting to understand that this shit is a illusion if we can pack it up for this pandemic.
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Wait, we don't need wait, we could do it all this, but no.
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They made sure to not let that shit get too far and come back and give you the creature comforts because obviously, duh, is it gonna be easy?
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No.
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Is it gonna be necessary?
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Even if you think it doesn't touch you right now, it will.
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It will.
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Ooh, I'm sorry.
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I tried to be like, I don't, you know, I don't know how to talk about this stuff and be funny.
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But I'm not fucking comedian.
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By the way, I'm not a comedian.
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I don't know.
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I just have a podcast and I'm silly goose.
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I did improv.
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I'm not a comedian.
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I'm just a girl.
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I am an artist.
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I am a writer.
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I'm a fucking actor.
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I'm not even a fucking activist.
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I think we're all activists.
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We should all be activists.
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Activists shouldn't mean anything.
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Oh, what?
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I'm actively invested in in the continuation of life on this planet.
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Then yes, I guess I'm a fucking activist.
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But like, I I we should all be doing this.
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I don't know.
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Not to be like none of this is ever about me feeling superior.
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Actually, if anything, only it's me feeling crazy.
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I'm feeling crazy.
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I'm feeling crazy out here.
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So what does it mean when you're feeling crazy?
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What does it mean when everything is built on non-consent?
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We take it back.
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Okay.
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I just wanted to say that.
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We take it back.
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We have to take it back.
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And you have to decide what that means for you.
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I can't tell you, I don't know your life, I don't know what's going on there.
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But I think that you know the pockets in which your power can be taken back.
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And when we're when we're all doing it, when when when we're in our friend groups and we're saying, actually we're taking our back in this way, or our power back in this way, and we're all holding each other accountable like to it, and we're doing it together, and we're supporting each other to figure out the ways that we can really start to remove ourselves from what is destroying us, you know.
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When we do it together, it's possible.
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When we do it alone, when we just think about it, when we just talk about it, things stay these way, these ways.
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So hair in my mouth.
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Anyways.
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I just hope you all think about it.
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What am I doing?
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Every day I'm learning how to be um, how to not let the the pressures of um capitalism and all of the things um distract me from what I know is true.
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Um I am trying to really, really rid myself of all of the remnants of rape culture, white supremacy, patriarchy, pedophilia, nation that has poisoned my little, little brain um since I was a young girl that has that has inhibited me from standing in my power, um, while also trying to remember that it is scary to be a woman out here.
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Um, but I'm gonna continue to do everything I can to be brave in the face of it and stay true to my integrity and not get in that fucking Waymo, even if I'm broke.
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And you know what I mean?
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And and and continue to um try to build a network of artists that are committed to liberation and storytelling um in a way that will not be wielded by the state.
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That's kind of my goal.
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Big big goal.
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And then the asterisk in parentheses, what is of that is to abolish the the cop show to abolish the police.
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You know, that's where I'm standing my autonomy.
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I'm committed to this goal, one way or another.
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What's yours?
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Get into it, make it for life and love.
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Anyways, stay tuned for some announcements about a Patreon soon.
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Do you like do you like me?
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Hey, pause.
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Speaking of that, hey, do you do you like me and would you like to talk about your childhood crutches with me?
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Well then ring ring, give me a call on the ACAB phone.
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And um, I'm gonna tell you soon I'm gonna have Patreon listener-only episodes.
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That means if you're a listener and you want to call me up, I'm gonna have a number for you soon.
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Um and tell me about your crush stories.
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We're gonna chat about it.
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Um, so join the Patreon to give me a call, to listen to the episodes.
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Um, stay tuned for more details on that.
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Maybe I'm editing it in right here.
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Who's to say?
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Um follow me on Instagram at Rebecca Bolnes.
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That's R-E-B-E-C-C A-B-U-L-N-Z.
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And I will probably be posting more about it there.
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Anyways, this is from my quote unquote activism days.
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I didn't do it.
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Shout out to, I think their name was Leo.
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I love it.
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Um if you're and if you're only listening, I pulled out my it's a red, it's a red phone cardboard.
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Just get on if you're not listening, just get on the YouTube if you want to see what I'm talking about.
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Oh, and that's so cool that a roach just fell out of there.
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Oh, wow, it's two roaches.
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Anyways, I'm living with roaches because I can't afford not to, you know.
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Um so in that, and also, and now I'm trying to kill the roach, and I and you know what?
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It sounds like I'm lying, but I but post punch and everything, and if you don't know what I'm talking about, you have to listen to more of the podcast.
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Post punch, I am sort of like, I don't like to kill any of the things, whether roach or not.
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I mean, like, I will, but I'm sort of like, I'm sorry, brother.
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Like, I'm not as gross out by them as I used to be.
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Um because because I'm just like, they're just trying to live too, you know.
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Damn.
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So yeah, we'd be coexisting.
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No, but we're trying.
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But yeah.
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Anyways, that's a super awesome way to.
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Should I end the podcast now?
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What does it all mean?
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Take the power back.
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The end.
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Love you.
