MENGENAI EPISOD INI
In Episode 2 of Overwatch: Behind the Badge, I dig deeper into my story. This is the longer, unfiltered version — how my PTSD progressed over time, what “bullet time” felt like on the job, how trauma followed me off duty, and what eventually pushed me to retire early from law enforcement.
I talk honestly about judgment, isolation, hallucinations, my suicide attempt, and the moments that made it impossible to ignore what PTSD was doing to my nervous system. I also share how EMDR therapy helped me begin reclaiming my life, and why transparency and breaking the silence matter — especially for veterans, law enforcement, and first responders.
This episode isn’t about sympathy.
It’s about understanding.
It’s about transparency.
And it’s about breaking the silence around the things we’ve been taught to carry alone.
Content Warning:
This episode contains explicit language and discussions of PTSD, suicide, mental health struggles, hallucinations, and graphic content. Listener discretion is advised.
If you or someone you know is struggling, help is available:
988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (U.S.) — Call or text 988 (24/7)
Veterans Crisis Line — Call 988, then press 1, or text 838255
First Responder Support:
CopLine: 1-844-COPLINE (1-844-267-5463)
Fire/EMS Helpline: 1-888-731-FIRE (3473)
If this episode brings something up for you, pause it and reach out to someone you trust or a professional. You don’t have to carry this alone.
