When redemption doesn't look how we hoped

What happens when the redemption story we prayed for never comes in the way we imagined? In this episode, I share my journey through a traumatic pregnancy, a birth that didn’t match the script I held onto, and a miscarriage that left me reeling. For a long time, I convinced myself that God’s goodness depended on receiving the ending I longed for. But what I’ve come to realize is that His goodness is steady—even when my story feels broken.

This is a tender reflection on grief, unmet expectations, and the surprising places where tiny glimmers of hope break through the cracks.

In this episode, you’ll hear:

✨ Why I bet on a “redemptive” birth story to heal a traumatic pregnancy—and what happened when it didn’t go as I prayed

✨ How well-meaning but untested theology can wound people in pain

✨ The temptation to create a future redemption narrative in order to avoid sitting with present suffering

✨ Why God’s goodness doesn’t hinge on our stories having “good endings”

✨How I’ve learned to live in the tension of grief, hope, and longing

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