SOME THOUGHTS FOR THE CLASS (on the pop cultcha...)

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Okay, let's get into it then.
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Alright, I had a Hello, hello.
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Yes.
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You know what I've been really listening to lately?
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You know what I've been messing around with again?
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Oh my god.
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And the way that the relevance of music from like around 2018 is 20, I'm realizing a lot of albums that I'm listening to lately are from 2018.
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And they're sort of like responsive, reflective of like the post-2016 moment.
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And it's like reactive in a way that feels like more urgent.
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It feels like the type of art that I'm seeking out today.
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And and this is one of them.
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Um, here we go, here we go, here we go.
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You would think I would have it ready because I started the recording.
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You know what I'm saying?
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Um, but check this one out.
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This is this whole album, this whole album right now.
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If you know me, you'll know.
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I am a parquet quartz head.
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Have been from the start.
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This is wide awake.
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This whole album feels like it could have been written simply yesterday.
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Because guess what?
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When you do not like, it does continue.
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They have a great song in this album called Normalization.
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Should I play a second of it?
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Because I'm because I'm a DJ.
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Um, this one's been getting in my head a lot, but it's like not as fun of an opener.
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Bing, boom, but like any with you, one could say that I started talking before my music, so it wasn't even an over in any ways.
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But this is a great one.
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Listen to this, listen to these lyrics.
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And this is actually gonna come up relevant in the rest of the episode.
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What do I call bullshit?
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Oh, they are good.
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Are they coming out with a new album soon?
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I love everyone.
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Okay, this is not where we're we're talking about.
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Um, but I will say that there's a there's a self-awareness um to these white men in music.
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Um Andrew Savage, I think, is you know, this the main song ro songwriter.
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There's a there's a self-awareness in this album that I'm like, this was something.
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Hey, there were there, there was something here.
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He was examining some violence as much as a as a white man can.
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Um in indie rock, punk music in today.
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Um, anyways, what am I saying?
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Welcome to she sorry, she got into her like 2012 music journalism bag for a second there.
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Um nobody cares.
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Okay, who was around then?
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Ever consider that that was more than 10 years ago?
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Wow.
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I've been thinking about lately how I was lying about my This is not what I thought I was gonna talk about.
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It's not on the board.
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I have been thinking though lately about how I've about my lies, about my lies of my youth when I was doing music journalism as a teen, just trying to survive, just trying to have a good time.
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I don't think I harmed anyone, um, but I realize that people are still around and I'm like, I wonder if they feel harmed.
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Um there's more on that.
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But those are my private personal conversations of which I'll have with those people if they want to have them.
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But I'm sort of like, hey, if you're around if you happen to be listening and you knew me when I was a teenager, pretending to be in my early 20s.
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Sorry about lying.
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Um, I was out of place.
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Okay, we're not gonna get into if you want to hear the depths of that, you could go back to the times that it was fresh when I was 21 in this podcast.
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And actually, please don't because I'm a little scared.
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Sometimes I see the downloads, sometimes I see the listens.
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I'm like, oh, people are listening to that's an old one.
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Hey, oh, that's an old one.
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And I'm like, I can't bear to listen, but like that's me.
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Um, so if you're going back through the through the chat, I mean, I've told people I've I've I've said, hey, the the the podcast has been so queer for so long.
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Also, pride, and go look at the the people uh that have been on the podcast.
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I I did say that on Instagram, but I always forget the implication of that, which is to listen to me so young um doing the podcast.
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But I'm sure there are things to laugh about.
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Maybe me and maybe me.
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Um but wow, look at we've got a board.
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Do you like my rock if you're watching the pr the visual podcast?
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Yeah, that's pretty much a rock that's shaped like a heart.
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Icky.
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I have to pick it up and show you.
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I don't this is actually really special to me.
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So if you I'm really laughing at myself today.
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If you're what if you're watching the YouTube, which I feel like there's like maybe it'll be a hundred in the end.
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This is something that I don't share with everyone, but I'll share it with you.
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I have thankfully I have so many other rocks that are very close and personal to me that like you'll never see, and and that's my boundary.
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Um, because some things have to be for yourself.
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Um, but you can see this one.
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It's shaped like pretty much a heart when you think about it.
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Yeah, it's grounding.
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Yeah, I need grounding.
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Yeah, my nervous system needs regulating.
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Don't we all?
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Okay, why did I why am I on here doing a solo podcast?
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Well, I'm reevaluating how to do the pod because of how I I think I said before I don't want to do my podcast.
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I well, first of all, I can't.
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I can't do my podcast out of my apartment because, right, guys, you know, there's the ghost.
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The ghost is here and the pod, and I don't know how to get it out.
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Um, should I back this up a little bit?
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I'm feeling a little bit claustrophobic.
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Um, feeling a little bit like, uh so the ghost is here as well as I don't want everyone to come into my pot my apartment.
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So this leads me mathematically to I gotta not do my podcast in my apartment.
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I check my recording again to make sure.
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Now, do I people are wondering?
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Everyone's wondering, does she have OCD?
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Does she have generalized anxiety?
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One of us, definitely.
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Anxiety for sure.
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Did we do an assessment recently with my therapist um for the old the the the good old ADHD?
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Did we come back?
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Now listen to this.
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I laughed out loud in her face.
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Uh sorry, and sorry to her.
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Um clinically significant.
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I love these terms.
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Yeah, I mean your results were clinically significant, hilarious.
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Um, anyways, uh I am talking about uh anxiety and therapy a lot, and wow, there have been so many times recently in the past few weeks where I've been confronted with a situation in which I watched like almost outside of myself the anxiety bubble, and like all of the worst case scenarios flood to my brain in the space between knowing and not knowing about one certain thing or one response to a certain thing.
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And it's so interesting to watch your brain come up with all the reasons of why which you could have been the worst, and where it's like, huh?
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Well, I said this, and they're never gonna talk to me ever again, and that's that, and it's over.
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You've done it again, Rebecca.
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And you know, obviously, then that but now the part of gross that I'm in is saying, Rebecca, still be silly.
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What are the facts?
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This is not true.
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XYZ, debunk the the myth that you are creating in your mind of how you have been the most villain, and um, and all of the worst things that could happen to you right now are going to happen to you.
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Um and so then you do it, you debunk it.
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Great.
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Maybe it settles for a while.
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Does it creep up again?
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Depending on if you've just been in the house for too long.
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Probably.
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Um, but I de-escalated myself at every turn recently.
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I'm going pew blocked, blocked, blocked, blocked, blocked.
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And it's like these things, these tendencies.
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I'm like, I think they were always there.
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I think they are worse now.
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After you know how you know the vibes.
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The thing about, and I tell my therapist this is the thing that's interesting about my little kind of brand of anxiety is like most of the origins of the anxiety do come from like at one point it was true.
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At one point, the worst thing did happen.
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Okay.
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Um, but that does not mean, as the therapy would suggest, that it is happening right now.
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And that does not mean that the worst thing is always going to happen.
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Because the worst thing happened those few times.
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Did they leave a mark?
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Did they make my brain hyper-vigilant?
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Survival mode, looking out for uh for danger?
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Yes, of course.
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And I promise I won't talk about this every time.
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I didn't even mean to.
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Here we are.
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Oh, it was because I was talking about my rock.
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Of course.
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What I'm here to talk about is real cultural events.
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They said Las Culturistas, what about Las Culturistas?
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One time when I moved to New York, I went to a show at the Bell House or something, and Bo and Yang was like, Oh my god, Rebecca, because he remembered me from doing reviews of Las Culturistas on A V Club.
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And sometimes it's remember, it's it's sometimes it's remember.
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Sometimes it's fun to remember times of your life that were from before that were different.
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And we'll get into it.
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Like one time I was a girly writing about the other people, and then I said, I can't do that anymore.
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I have to be me.
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I have to be a caterpillar blooming into a butterfly.
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And you know what?
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I had an image of earlier this morning.
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I'm laughing at myself today, and I'm being really personal.
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I'm kind of being like, You're my friend, like we're just on a call in which I'm talking so much.
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Sorry, most of my friends will know it's a lot of my calls.
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Okay.
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When I start, I can't.
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It's hard to stop.
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But then I try to check in.
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Um I had an image, I had a meditation I was doing, and that's and that's on we're trying to stay grounded, was making me think of the image of now.
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Listen to how beautiful this is.
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I'm crying.
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Listen how beautiful this is.
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The the image of the power.
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Okay, the power of like my like absolute energy of love and passion in this world.
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The the this power, and you really gotta get on the YouTube for this visual, but I'm gonna try to describe it.
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Um, there are tears in my eyes.
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Um, real ones on side, unlike Dylan's.
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We'll get into it, Dylan of Love Island.
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I've interrupted my own beautiful thought.
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The image of beautiful love coming from my heart, beaming out into the world, and then like going out and around to form actually butterfly wings.
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Like, imagine the the energy coming from your heart goes back around to the then it connects to the back of you to create your wings.
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Anybody needed to hear that today?
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So, yeah, it's basically what I'm about to out here, just kind of like letting my love beam through my heart, become to be wings, and then I'm flying, and then I'm free.
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Oh, that's the goal.
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That's the goal.
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Woo! I really got really took over me for a second there.
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I hope someone appreciates I so I hope someone's laughing or crying.
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I hope someone needed that visual.
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Okay, I'm talking about hashtag pop culture today-ish, you know.
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I almost wrote white supremacy on the board, but then I said maybe if you write white white supremacy on the board, when people click it, they're not pe what people are gonna not click.
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You know?
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This is sort of what we're talking about.
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People always want to avoid white supremacy, and I'm just like, guys, you can ignore it, but it will still wreak havoc.
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And what I'm realizing more and more as I'm almost a year into my time in LA is that I guess if you're a wh a white person who is benefiting from the structures of white supremacy, and especially if you're like a white leftist who's who's but who who sort of like recognizes the f the the inherent wrong of white supremacy and the systems that protect them, but they are being protected by it, then they simply will not rise up to do the very uncomfortable work of abolishing it, you know.
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Like duh, hashtag duh, but I'm really when I'm out here, I'm like, oh yeah.
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If it don't gotta do with you, you do really don't give a fuck, do you?
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And like here I am trying to, you know, anyways.
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My therapist literally did we like unfortunately I'm talking about this in therapy where it's sort of like, am I wasting first of all, what have I been doing?
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Second of all, is it have I been centering white people in my sort of like talks and posts and whatever, in the sense of like, am I literally out here trying to get racist to not be racist?
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And is that a waste of all of my time and energy?
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And is that also in some sort of way just reinforcing white supremacy?
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It's very tough and interesting um like to be like, well, I can't stand for white supremacy, and therefore I should call it out when I see it.
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I can't stand for anti-blackness, and therefore I should call it out when I see it.
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Um, but like, yeah, who and who and what am I building towards and with whom and with what energy and time, you know?
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Considering all of these things and like like some people are unmovable, unchangeable.
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Am I am I am I trying to revolutionize the Hollywood Studios LA?
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Maybe.
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Is it pointless?
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Maybe.
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Like, like, like maybe, maybe people uh have their dreams and they don't want your they don't want it to be interrupted by the how their dreams have been sort of co-opted by the Zionist state, right?
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These are all things we're getting into.
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I'm sort of doing a you know when you write an essay and in school and in the first paragraph you're kind of giving a preview of the essay.
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I guess that's what I'm kind of doing right here.
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And if you don't think this all has to do with Love Island, and also the Knicks in a way, you're not out here connecting the knots.
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Okay, let's get into it.
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Let's get into the the the fun stuff first.
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Okay, yeah, I've been watching Love Island, but I will clarify that I skipped a bunch of episodes in the middle when I because here's the truth.
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I just looked over at my cat and he was very sleepy, cute.
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Here's the truth when I started Love Island.
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Now I I I wonder if people are rolling their eyes at me.
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And if you're rolling your eyes, put you put your hand up in the chat.
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Um, when I started Love Island, I said, okay, what are they gonna be pushing this season?
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And I started the first episode, and immediately I had like very, very young girls talking about like, yeah, I want to settle down, find my man, like start a have a family soon.
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And I'm like, Soon?
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I mean, you're like when you're like 25, whatever.
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Um, I was like, there were things about the girls' interviews that we're giving.
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Okay, so we're pushing some trad wifey, some conservative values, like none of this is very new from any of these um reality shows, but okay, whatever.
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Noted.
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The second thing that was noted was Sean the Cop.
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Now, this is why I became behind on the episodes.
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Because when they introduced Sean the Cop, I said, now what are you trying to do to me?
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Now what are you trying to do to me?
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You know?
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I can't, I don't want this.
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I was like, I they better get him out.
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If they I paused the first episode, and then I literally just like didn't watch it for a couple weeks.
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And then I was like, all right, let me see what they're doing with all of this.
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I picked it back up.
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Thankfully, to finally see to it took far too long, but to see Sean kicked out.
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But you know, it was it was valuable information to see kind of like his vibe and what they were saying, and like officer sexy pants, you're really making me vomit in my mouth.
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Um, anyways, that's not necessarily shocking, but noted.
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If you thought if you thought Love Island was gonna be immune to copaganda, you were wrong.
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It's everywhere, it's everywhere you look.
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We'll talk about it later.
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So, okay, that was the first thing.
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And then, and then basically, like I got so far behind that I skipped a bunch of episodes to become um up to date.
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But I think you know, I I've seen what was relevant, and what I'll say is it's scary out here.
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It's scary out here.
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Um, the propaganda that they are pushing on this show is so extra evil this season that it is sort of like it's only shocking in how on the nose some of it is.
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And I guess I'm shocked when I see how some people respond to things that, like, oh yeah, they are really they're succeeding because they're tapping on a population of people who are already anti-black, who are already misogynistic, like they have chosen these men and women to perpetuate something they owe to.
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And I feel like this season, let me put on my notes.
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I forgot I had notes.
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Ah, yes, okay.
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Like, well, really, let's get in.
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So the Anaya and Casey little moment of which she apologized for getting in his face and disrespecting him.
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It's really hard for me to engage with any discourse that is trying to act like Anaya is the aggressor, and it's just like the the blatant misogynist, the blatant um sort of expectation for Anaya to take it, to take um Casey standing and raising his voice at her.
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And and I reroll the tapes, okay, he is incre he's getting closer and closer to the girls' space, and it's really just it is so expected for a woman to just stay small and to not defend herself.
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And like when a woman does defend herself, when a woman does and dare to reassert her space, and yeah, even maybe back him back into sitting down that she is like blamed for it, and she is the like the angry black woman trope is just you guys are do the the way that you guys are doing it, and you guys, I mean, just like the people that I'm seeing, you know, people are, and it's like obviously this so this like the like that stuff is very obvious to me, and everything that's been going on with Anaya has been really tragic.
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Um, I really feel like this show has just been putting out sort of like black trauma porn.
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It's just like how often can we watch Anaya in pain, um like for like as a story?
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Like, like her story is her rejection, is her in pain, is now her apologizing.
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Now another part of her story that gets to be highlighted and platformed is like her apologizing for taking up this space.
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And like, I think I will post the real about this, or maybe this is the real.
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But like, this is what is so concerning to me about the messages that Love Island is pushing, because there are the very obvious messages.
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Of like thin superiority, body fascism, white supremacy, um that are like obvious.
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Um and then you also have things like this that are like to me, the message is if you stand up to a man you better apologize.
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If you stand up for yourself against a man, it's disrespect.
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Even if a man started, even if a man has been harming you for like weeks and lying to you and disrespecting you, even if you just watched him um sort of dehumanize you, even if he has been acting like you were property that owed him some sort of sexual favors and that you were, you know, desexualized because you didn't put out.
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Um, even even if all of that is happening, apologize for the disrespect of you standing up for yourself and I guess getting in his face.
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And I'm not even and I'm not judging her.
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I'm judging this show because I know that the show knows exactly who they're casting when they cast it.
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In the same way that they know who KC and Sincere are, and Corbin is, and Alana was.
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Like, they also know who Melanie is, they also know who Anaya is, they also know who Kenzie is.
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Like they know how people are going to move in response to each other.
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And I think they know that the Anaya is the kind of girl who would feel like she needs to apologize for doing that.
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And I think it's a really convenient message.
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I think the other messages of the show have all been about women being subservient.
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They have all been about um upholding very old school patriarchy, you know, and the way that this show has really, really, yeah, normalized these tactics of abuse and manipulation.
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Like, I know people throw the term gaslighting around all the time, but like we have seen it multiple instances on this show.
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And it's not just gaslighting isn't just lying to someone, right?
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Gaslighting is acting like the other person is crazy for believing their truth, which is the truth.
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And manipulating someone to believe a different reality than is the one that they know is true.
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The one that they know is true.
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Like it is crazy.
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Um, if you've ever been gaslit, you'll know it's like, it's like, but I feel like I, but I did say this, right?
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But it and I meant it like this.
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But he's saying that I that I meant it like this, but like he's saying it so sure.
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He's saying he's saying it so sure, and he's acting upset that I won't admit to what he to his truth.
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He's acting so crazy, and I'm actually first of all, now I'm nervous because you're acting so assured of your reality.
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Am I fucking crazy?
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He's basically calling me crazy am I crazy?
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I mean, I might be crazy.
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Maybe I did mean it like that.
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Maybe, I mean, he's the one that experienced it.
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So then maybe do you know what I'm saying?
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I'm gonna stop now.
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I'm gonna stop now.
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Gal did it, all these people have done it, right?
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Um, and this fake accountability of just sort of being like, yeah, that was wrong and I was bad.
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I did the bad thing.
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Sorry, I did the bad thing.
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Whoops.
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It's really, really manipulative.
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And it's really, I'm I so hope that Melanie gets out of her sincere situation.
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But the way that she was crying at the end of the episode, and the way that even it shows how much doubt she has as she's trying to assert herself worth.
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All these people are around her saying, no, yeah, he fucked up.
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That was bad, that was bad, that was bad, but he really likes you.
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But he really likes you.
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And patriarchy, white supremacy, and everything that Love Island is pushing is telling Melanie and Anaya and every fucking woman on that show, well, you need to be chosen in the end.
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You want to be chosen in the end.
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And I think it's beyond like whether or not someone's thinking of winning, or you know, of course they all like have this in the back of their head, but like this is the message of the show is be a good girl and forgive.
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Be a good girl and apologize.
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Be a good girl and admit, yeah, you you I was being a slut, and and I'm and now that this is this is me talking about Kenzie.
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The the thing with Kenzie, like I'm not, listen, I'm not the number one Kenzie fan or defender, but what's going on with Kenzie is also loco because it's like now all of the men are they need a woman to become the villain.
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They have no villain on the woman's side, and they have so many villains on the men's side.
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So they say, okay, great.
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And and production did this, and the show did this, right?
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Like, okay, now we're gonna show her, you know, being crazy, and now my cat's here, uh, flip-flopping and whatever.
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And I'm not saying she she did it good or graceful, but I do feel that she was honest in every like she oh she was never close off with anyone.
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She, I'm pretty sure she always said that she was exploring these other connections, right?
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Whatever.
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Um, these these men now being like, well, wow.
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Kenzie was basically a slut.
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Kenzie was like double standard much.
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Kenzie did the same thing, and she disregarded all of these men's feelings, and she is bad now.
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And she is bad.
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And we actually really liked it when Kenzie was um a slut, when it benefited us.
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Like we loved, we love when the girls' sexuality, you know, uh when when they're when the availability of of their bodies for us, the men, is um easy access.
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We like really like that um for us, like when it benefits our narrative.
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And the moment that it stops benefiting our narrative, which um now that the boys have been so exposed on movie night, it no longer benefits their narrative.
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Um, yeah, now you're uh now you're slut.
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Now you're slut, and um, you're evil for hurting poor white man Dylan's feelings with his fake white man tears.
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I really can't stand this man and his performance.
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I've already popped off of that on on Instagram.
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Ah, I hate the guy.
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Wow, I really and and the thing is, and and that's a part of the the whole like fucking analysis too, though, is like the way that this show is trying to convince you that his fake tears are real is supremacist.
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It is white supremacist.
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It it does not discount the um horrible things that Casey has said and done.
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It does not discount that to also acknowledge the way that he is that that that and and that's the thing, even in the end of the episode, Casey's still not even painted that much as a villain, all right?
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Literally, there they are like that.
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It was good for you that you had that conversation.
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He's still even painted as that much of a villain, but still in comparison, the benefit of the doubt that like this show is giving the way that this show is literally using music and editing to like try to convince us that Dylan is feeling these feelings and he's not actually just being an a manipulator, pretty much forcing Kenzie into a closed-off thing.
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Um, because if not, she's she's bad girl, but not in the sexy way anymore.
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So it's all just very convenient.
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And if we're watching these shows, you really, if you're watching Love Island, you really because nothing I'm saying is new, especially if you are following Erica Hart on Instagram or reading Erica Hart's um book, Nasty Work, of which I am.
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I'm a very slow reader, but it's such a good book, and you really need to check it out.
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Um, Erica is doing all of the best analysis, and I literally uh I could I I could not be watching this show if I did not have another voice on the other side um also uh saying all of the things plainly that are they're very wrong.
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And and I think that these shows are useful for that in the in the in the sense that reality shows, whether highly produced or not, and actually, and that is the point, because reality shows are a microcosm.
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Let me say that again.
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Reality shows are a microcosm of real life, even in the way that they are produced, because it's like you have real life, and you know what produces real life, like who's the executive producer of real life?
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White supremacy.
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Okay, and it's the same fucking rule um in Love Island.
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So the way that it perpetuates and the way that rape culture perpetuates on that show, it is the same way that it perpetuates in real life.
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And the like low-key manipulative, abusive um behaviors that we've seen.
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Can I say the pie challenge or the cake throwing challenge?
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I saw someone else say this, and I was like, that is really true, and that is what was sitting so horrible with me.
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Is like low-key normalizing just like kind of violence against women.
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Now you're you'll say, Oh, Rebecca was a cake.
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These are girls with their head trapped, their head propped up under a fucking thing, having men, some of them who are angry at them, throwing stuff at their face.
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I don't give a fuck if it's a marshmallow or a fucking cake or a fucking rock.
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Like, that is fucking weird.
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That is gross and weird.
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And to have it after, you know, all of this drama, like you are asking what you are wanting is for the men.
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Cause and you even say it like in the fucking dialogue, like in Ariam, Ariana Maddox's shit, like, you know, you're gonna get your revenge, and the revenge is like throwing stuff at each other.
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It's very like, it just reminds me, and hate to say it, but it's like, yes, everything is simply this deep.
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But it reminds me of being in my relationship where I rationalize with myself for so long.
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Like, well, he doesn't hit me.
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Well, he doesn't hit me.
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Well, he doesn't hit me.
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Well, he doesn't hit me.
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Well, he doesn't hit me.
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He throws stuff.
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Oh, yeah.
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When he's angry, he throws stuff.
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He throws stuff around me, he breaks stuff, but he doesn't hit me.
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When you're doing that rationalization in your head in your relationship, things are already too far gone.
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And this type of stuff, not too far gone, you can get out.
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I did, you know, but like they've crossed that boundary, right?
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Like you're you I'll hate to break it to you, but I'll do it every time I guess I have to and can.
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Um, like when that type of expression of anger has entered the home, it's not safe anymore.
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And when people say like a you know, a throw can turn into a push can turn into a hit, like that is true.
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Like it is just that's true.
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Um so what are you normalizing?
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What are you saying is ha ha okay with that challenge?
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I can tell you if if I was in that chat, I would feel very fucking like it would not be funny to me.
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It is not fun.
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I would not be surprised if those girls are having flashbacks of cake throwing in their face.
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It's not good, it's really not good.
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Um, yeah.
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Anyways, anything else to let me look at my notes again.
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Now I have my cat on me, kind of like immobilizing me.
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Um, all right, all right.
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I have so many notes on things.
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I have notes on other stuff I want to talk about, but that's gonna be another day.
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Okay.
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Yeah, I mean, really, your hatred towards black women is really is really wild and and you really that and it's disgusting every time I see it.
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Um, and also just like on that tip, like thought experiment.
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What would the reaction of these things be uh if Casey or just like a black man were standing and yelling like at a white woman?
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What were how would people respond to that if she stayed small or if she got big?
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I just wonder.
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And you know, the thing is, is as a woman, there's no perfect uh option for the response to harm from men.
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I just want to clarify, I'm not even calling yelling harm, I'm not even calling KC abusive, uh I'm not even calling um you know standing up and yelling as inherently aggressive or violent.
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I think that these things they it's a case like everything, and this is why we're abolitionists, these are case-by-case basis.
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But in general, this is what this reminds me of is there is a woman being harmed in an interpersonal relationship one way or another.
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What is the best way to respond?
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Especially if you're feeling like physically threatened, because you stay small, you're not protected.
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That doesn't protect you.
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You stay small to try to stay protected.
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You just stay small to say, oh, maybe if I don't, if I don't trigger him more, or you know, but that still doesn't protect you.
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That's not a shield.
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You might still get harmed, and then you stand up for yourself and you do what maybe Anaya did, and that's still threatening, and you're still not necessarily uh safe.
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So, like when there are no good options for how to stand up for yourself towards male aggression, can you realize that the male aggression is the fucking problem?
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And anyone, and that's why like anyone trying to argue in the comments of my stupid Love Island real, trying to specify, well, she got into his fate.
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Can you not look at cause and effect?
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She would have nothing to respond to, she would have nothing to defend herself towards if he didn't start escalating.
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If he and and and and and it's always him trying to be heard when he's not even saying anything, when he's not saying anything.
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Anyways.
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But like that's what I'm saying.
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The fake apology thing of like being like, yeah, that was bad.
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We'll see how he moves now, but it just feels like the way that all of these men on Love Island and the world over get to just continue to perpetuate the same stupid bullshit, the same fucking anti-black violent bullshit, the same anti-woman bullshit.
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Louis C.K.
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can fucking do what he did.
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He's backing at it again.
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This is what happens when you get to just say, Sorry, because the world does not give a fuck about women.
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Because Love Island is an encapsulation of how white supremacy and patriarchy together discard women and their bodies at such alarming rates, and black women at even more alarming rates.
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Trans women at even more alarming rates.
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Black trans women, the rates are very alarming.
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It's not a fucking joke.
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It's just fucking true.
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I feel like sometimes I say stuff and I'm like, do I say it so cavalier?
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Like insensitive.
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And it's just like I hope no one thinks I'm insensitive.
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It's just that the plain fact of it all becomes so exhausting that it's hard to even continue to it's hard to figure out how to express it in a way that also encapsulates how pedestrian it's become.
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And I don't want to normalize that.
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It's very important and disgusting that black trans women are killed at the rate that they are in this country.
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The end, point like period.
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Okay.
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On being a woman trying to express herself, I want to talk about this a little bit.
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And with that, I also want to apologize to hot girls around the world, which I started to do in in the last episode with Charles, Charles Gould, check it out.
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Um, but I really want to get into today.
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Because, all right, I never considered myself a hot girl because frankly, I wasn't.
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I wasn't a hot girl.
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I wasn't really treated like a hot girl growing up.
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Um, I said that's us versus them.
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I'm us, they're them.
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I understand to to have this conversation, I have to once now um call myself a hot girl.
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The thing is, is that I it's I didn't decide it, other people did.
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And that's in and of itself the problem, right?
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I've had my little um glow up, glow up meaning escaping of abusive relationship and toxic lifestyle that was um killing me slowly on the inside out.
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Um and re went back into the sun and started caring about myself and loving myself more, and then guess what?
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That just makes you different, and people start to change treat you differently.
00:41:33.360 --> 00:41:40.159
I've also lost some weight, and that is always interesting.
00:41:40.960 --> 00:41:44.320
I lost my some weight, not on purpose, really.
00:41:44.639 --> 00:41:51.519
I stopped eating like uh I stopped buying red meat because of my PCOS.
00:41:51.679 --> 00:41:59.679
I realized that that was one of the things that could make you be feeling worse, and I was eating a lot of it, and I stopped eating that, and that made me feel a lot better.
00:41:59.840 --> 00:42:14.159
Um, I just started eating better for my PCOS, and also I don't have a car, so I walk a lot in the sun, and yeah, I guess I've maybe lost some weight since I've moved to LA.
00:42:15.840 --> 00:42:19.760
It's always weird and gross when people tell you that.
00:42:20.880 --> 00:42:25.760
It's always weird and interesting and gross when you start to get more attention.
00:42:25.920 --> 00:42:27.840
Um, and that is in line.
00:42:28.079 --> 00:42:32.239
I mean, I think it's not just that, you know, I think it's it's it's an amalgamation of things, whatever.
00:42:32.320 --> 00:42:35.599
I'm on my hot girl shit, as in, like I said, I love myself now.
00:42:35.760 --> 00:42:37.519
Um, or I'm working on it.
00:42:37.679 --> 00:42:40.559
Um and I'm like, and and that's the thing.
00:42:40.719 --> 00:42:47.039
Sometimes loving yourself means washing your face every day, and sometimes you weren't doing that before because you didn't love yourself as much.
00:42:47.280 --> 00:42:48.239
Know what I'm saying?
00:42:48.559 --> 00:42:53.039
Anyways, body fascism is a real thing.
00:42:53.280 --> 00:42:56.239
Um, thinness should not be the goal.
00:42:56.480 --> 00:42:59.440
Health should always be the goal.
00:42:59.760 --> 00:43:17.280
I always thought I was fat growing up because of how my stomach wasn't this flat, and I grew up with low-rise genes, and everyone's stomach was this flat, and no matter how many hours I was dancing, my stomach would never be this flat, and my never has my stomach has never been flat.
00:43:17.440 --> 00:43:22.159
My stomach has always had a little, it's just a little, because that is my body.
00:43:25.360 --> 00:43:29.920
Wise your primacy and thinness are intertwined.
00:43:30.079 --> 00:43:31.599
I do not aspire to this.
00:43:31.760 --> 00:43:36.480
Get into it in Erica Hart's uh nasty work, anyways.
00:43:37.119 --> 00:43:47.119
But as someone who is now it's both like like whatever hot feeling like people are desiring you more, that's one part of it.
00:43:47.199 --> 00:43:56.800
But it's really just like being more in my body as like a woman, like a thing that I think I avoided um for so long.
00:43:56.960 --> 00:43:59.840
Like I didn't really have to confront until I got like punched.
00:44:00.320 --> 00:44:05.840
And until like people started to um well, and I talked about it last solo episode.
00:44:05.920 --> 00:44:09.280
Like people have always treated my body as like a sexual object, right?
00:44:09.599 --> 00:44:12.480
Uh like in the cat collie way.
00:44:12.960 --> 00:44:23.360
Um, but now like people are approaching me with a little bit of a familiarity and a little bit of an entitlement.
00:44:24.320 --> 00:44:26.719
Then no me gusta at all.
00:44:27.679 --> 00:44:31.679
Like sometimes I do want to just be a girl in a space doing her thing.
00:44:31.920 --> 00:44:33.920
Actually, most of the time.
00:44:34.320 --> 00:44:40.639
Because I'm a funny, friendly person, people love to be like, like, like I'll say, like, no, no, I'm like for a real, like a loner.
00:44:40.719 --> 00:44:41.920
And they're like, no, you are right.
00:44:42.000 --> 00:44:44.719
I'm like, I am alone, and I would like to be, actually.
00:44:44.880 --> 00:44:47.440
Just because I'm charismatic doesn't mean I have to always share it with someone.
00:44:47.519 --> 00:44:48.639
Sometimes that's exhausting.
00:44:48.800 --> 00:44:50.239
Sometimes I want to share it with myself.
00:44:50.400 --> 00:44:58.480
Sometimes I want to sit in the park with my laptop, with my little book, with my little notebook, with my little binoculars looking at my birds, with my little joint.
00:44:58.880 --> 00:45:06.159
And maybe I even want to do it in a fucking bathing suit because I want to bathe in the sun, because I like being tan.
00:45:06.400 --> 00:45:10.079
And I found out that being in the sun makes me like myself more.
00:45:10.719 --> 00:45:12.400
Maybe I want to do that for myself.
00:45:12.639 --> 00:45:20.000
And maybe I don't want to be approached by you, a man that I don't know.
00:45:21.039 --> 00:45:23.519
Or maybe I said something too one time.
00:45:24.320 --> 00:45:27.360
This is a thing that is happening to me more and more and more.
00:45:27.440 --> 00:45:29.440
And I really fucking hate it.
00:45:29.679 --> 00:45:31.440
I really hate it.
00:45:31.679 --> 00:45:37.119
And this is as someone who like loves community and wants to connect, but it's like that's not what's happening here.
00:45:37.280 --> 00:45:38.639
That's not what's happening here.
00:45:38.880 --> 00:45:50.480
And um, and while I think that like, you know, yeah, we all gotta be loving and loving and chasing our hearts and stuff, but it's like there's a thing of self-awareness of like sometimes a girl's just trying to be a girl alone.
00:45:50.800 --> 00:45:57.360
Sometimes a girl's just trying to be a girl alone, and she's giving you no signals to come over here, no signals to come over here.
00:45:57.679 --> 00:46:15.039
And it's this weird thing that manifests both like in my real life, just like being out and about, and online, where and just like in my life, and like I have these opposing feelings, and they're both very strong.
00:46:15.280 --> 00:46:16.559
They're like icy hot.
00:46:16.639 --> 00:46:24.800
You know, you put on icy hot and it's like hot, and then it's icy baby, but they're strong as fuck.
00:46:25.039 --> 00:46:30.960
This is how it feels in my body and my mind, where I'm like, I have a deep desire to express myself.
00:46:31.119 --> 00:46:35.519
I have a deep desire to say, uh, you might ex you might notice being on a podcast of me.
00:46:35.599 --> 00:46:38.000
I here I am talking for 47 minutes on my own.
00:46:38.079 --> 00:46:46.079
Um, I have a deep desire to express, and I have a deep desire to express, yes, and in a naked way, in a very like open, honest, vulnerable way.
00:46:46.239 --> 00:46:51.519
Um, and then I also have the deep desire to be absolutely invisible, please leave me alone.
00:46:51.760 --> 00:46:53.679
Absolutely invisible, please leave me alone.
00:46:53.760 --> 00:46:55.039
Don't overlook at me one time.
00:46:55.840 --> 00:47:02.400
I'm trying to find the balance between these two because neither one alone um will get me what I want in my life.
00:47:02.639 --> 00:47:27.840
And I do think my dreams, um, my dreams require me to be expressing in that way that that where I don't feel like I'm being seen, and especially in a way where I don't feel like I'm being seen by like people who scare me, men who scare me, you know, um, or just like people who are ready and ready, willing, and able and at the edge of their seats to willfully misinterpret me or whatever, you know.
00:47:28.000 --> 00:47:33.840
I have a lot of trauma around willful misinterpretation and like people taking me in bad faith and whatever.
00:47:34.079 --> 00:47:45.920
And and and yeah, I just think like dang, I do think a lot of like sis men don't really have to think about this.
00:47:46.480 --> 00:48:02.639
I'm just like, this is a lot of, you know, I hate that I have in the back of my mind all of the ways in which being a woman um can come back around to hurt me and not like you know, people wielding that against um me.
00:48:02.800 --> 00:48:03.679
I'm just talking about violence.
00:48:03.840 --> 00:48:04.559
I'm just talking about violence.
00:48:04.639 --> 00:48:12.800
And I'm not saying like, oh, I'm scared of every man who comes up to me like in the park and I'm scared that they're gonna do violence onto me.
00:48:13.039 --> 00:48:21.039
I'm not saying that, but like a little bit, a little bit, or at least like I have that feeling more than I than I did before.
00:48:21.119 --> 00:48:30.960
And and it increases as I be um, as I become more and more uh, I guess as more and more people want to access me.
00:48:32.000 --> 00:48:34.320
I don't know what to do with all those feelings.
00:48:34.559 --> 00:48:39.519
Um, but know that if I'm ever really expressing myself honestly and truly, like I it's scary.
00:48:39.599 --> 00:48:40.559
It's scary always to do.
00:48:40.639 --> 00:48:41.840
It's always scary to do.
00:48:42.079 --> 00:48:43.840
Um it's always scary.
00:48:43.920 --> 00:48:45.119
And I wish it wasn't.
00:48:45.199 --> 00:48:54.400
Uh I I wish to understand, I wish to know what it would be like to just be like, yeah, I'm gonna put this thing out.
00:48:54.960 --> 00:48:57.119
I'm just gonna sing from my heart.
00:48:58.559 --> 00:49:04.159
I don't want to feel like whatever it's like to be that guy from the movie obsession, I'm not gonna watch it.
00:49:04.719 --> 00:49:06.239
Have no interest, too scary.
00:49:06.320 --> 00:49:10.960
And and and and I can't, and all right, here we are.
00:49:11.440 --> 00:49:14.800
Enough about me and my fears of being seen.
00:49:16.079 --> 00:49:18.400
Let's get into Hollywood, baby.
00:49:18.719 --> 00:49:27.679
It's been about time that we have to get back into the Hollywood um groove, which is to say, I need to criticize it all.
00:49:28.480 --> 00:49:29.840
Okay, let me get comfortable.
00:49:29.920 --> 00:49:31.280
I'm like, let me take my slides off.
00:49:31.440 --> 00:49:33.039
I gotta kind of settle into this one.
00:49:33.199 --> 00:49:36.000
Oh, well, oh my god, the recliner came out.
00:49:36.880 --> 00:49:42.239
Guys, it's chaos and commotion in this in the studio that is this corner of my fucking apartment.
00:49:42.480 --> 00:49:44.320
Oh, okay, okay, okay.
00:49:45.280 --> 00:49:47.199
Hollywood, baby.
00:49:47.440 --> 00:49:48.320
I need it over.
00:49:48.400 --> 00:49:49.280
I need it done.
00:49:49.599 --> 00:49:49.920
Okay.
00:49:50.800 --> 00:49:54.800
So I'm gonna pose something.
00:49:55.440 --> 00:49:57.840
And I will be posting this on Instagram.
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This is the clip.
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Do you ever feel like you have dreams that you always had since you were even a little tiny um insert what your gender is?
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Uh your identity, of course.
00:50:11.920 --> 00:50:28.320
Do you ever feel like you were whenever when you were a little insert here, um, and you first had the spark of the idea of the dream of of making movies and TV acting and writing and directing and shooting on the camera?
00:50:28.559 --> 00:50:31.840
Hey, maybe you want to do set design, all of these things.
00:50:32.079 --> 00:50:46.320
Do you ever do you ever think about having that dream, and then you have that dream, and then you you you grow up and and you try to pursue that dream, but then is this does has this ever happened to you?
00:50:46.480 --> 00:50:58.000
You're confronted with the fact that all of the places and spaces that you imagined your dream in, you're saying, wait a minute, uh-oh, it's built by the bad stuff.
00:50:58.239 --> 00:51:00.400
Uh-oh, it's bought by the bad stuff.
00:51:00.639 --> 00:51:01.360
Uh-oh.
00:51:02.239 --> 00:51:09.599
It is all here to perpetuate the agenda of the Zionist entity.
00:51:13.039 --> 00:51:14.719
I don't want to do that.
00:51:15.599 --> 00:51:16.639
Do you ever feel this way?
00:51:16.719 --> 00:51:18.480
I feel this way every single day.
00:51:18.880 --> 00:51:20.639
And I think a lot of us do.
00:51:21.360 --> 00:51:29.599
And I think that we have been given like two options.
00:51:30.320 --> 00:51:31.519
This is what it feels like.
00:51:32.000 --> 00:51:39.760
As someone who's been out here for almost a year now and having these conversations with a different swath of people.
00:51:41.039 --> 00:51:44.960
It's sort of like, well, that's the way it is.
00:51:45.440 --> 00:51:46.880
I don't know how you unravel it.
00:51:46.960 --> 00:51:48.960
You take their money and you do what you can with it.
00:51:49.039 --> 00:51:52.320
Like we've had we've had this discussion on this pod on this very podcast.
00:51:52.719 --> 00:51:57.519
There's sort of that one where it's like, but you still do have to compromise.
00:51:57.760 --> 00:52:05.119
Like, I still do have to slap my name next to Amazon or or any of the others, bad ones, Paramount.
00:52:06.320 --> 00:52:11.119
Or like, sort of like, then I guess you can't have that dream anymore.
00:52:11.440 --> 00:52:12.079
Sorry.
00:52:12.639 --> 00:52:13.760
Try to make something indie.
00:52:13.840 --> 00:52:23.519
And even when you try to make something indie, like it's sort of cascade, you know, the bigger it gets, the, the more, the closer you get to all of the evil corporations of which you were trying to avoid when being indie.
00:52:23.679 --> 00:52:29.840
And even the things that were indie, like the um, you know, the the things that were indie, how long are they gonna stay indie?
00:52:30.079 --> 00:52:33.840
And how and or or are they gonna become A24 bought by Josh Kushner?
00:52:36.719 --> 00:52:38.880
So it's like, okay, do what do we do?
00:52:39.119 --> 00:52:42.320
Give up on your artistic dreams, say, you know what?
00:52:42.480 --> 00:52:56.079
Actually, that was always really indulgent of me, and I'm going to give that up and work at a nonprofit 5013 or get into electoral politics.
00:52:56.239 --> 00:52:59.760
Boo! We're not a fan of electoral politics here.
00:53:00.239 --> 00:53:05.920
Like, you know, I for me, can't I can't see it for me, for me, I can't see it.
00:53:06.079 --> 00:53:10.159
You know, if that were supposed to be my fucking destiny and my dream, like, then that would have been it.
00:53:10.320 --> 00:53:14.079
I've always been inclined towards things of, I guess, quote unquote, social justice.
00:53:14.239 --> 00:53:19.199
I don't even like I don't these terms because you know, uh, this is not political to me.
00:53:19.360 --> 00:53:21.199
None of this shit is political to me.
00:53:21.440 --> 00:53:25.599
Political, it exists in the space of this thing called politics.
00:53:25.760 --> 00:53:30.159
This is human, this is evolution, this is human to human stuff.
00:53:30.400 --> 00:53:44.480
Okay, it is, it is, it matters to me that masses of people are being um murdered and dehumanized by fascist state that is propped up and reflected in our media.
00:53:44.639 --> 00:53:58.159
It matters to me to not perpetuate white supremacy um just because there are only three corporations that are allowing people to like make movies and TV shows.
00:53:58.400 --> 00:53:59.440
That ain't it for me.
00:53:59.599 --> 00:54:01.599
That can't be, those can't be the options.
00:54:01.840 --> 00:54:16.960
You know, like I I I go through these um these I look through jobs, I look, I look at the the landscape, and yeah, I know I talk about it ad nauseum on this podcast, but it really is all copaganda everywhere.
00:54:17.119 --> 00:54:23.679
And even the spaces that would seem like more more neutral when it's all the same money.
00:54:23.920 --> 00:54:45.760
We are not doing we're we are we're letting them use our bodies, our talent, our our ideas, our stories, um, to wash the fucking blood off their hands um for all of the crimes of genocide everywhere.
00:54:47.199 --> 00:55:21.760
When Hollywood only gives you the option of resigning your body and your image and your talents to the like three companies that are funding and producing our demise, who are enforcing white supremacy across the globe, when Hollywood gives you only those options to engage with, then you disengage from Hollywood.
00:55:22.000 --> 00:55:39.920
And I really think that there are people of conscience who are like me, who have had their dreams and who don't know what to do with the un with the tanglement, the entanglement of fascism and propaganda in the places that they once dreamed themselves to be.
00:55:40.159 --> 00:55:42.400
And I think we have another option.
00:55:42.639 --> 00:55:44.239
I know we have another option.
00:55:44.480 --> 00:55:46.719
Me and my friends are talking about it all the time.
00:55:46.880 --> 00:55:48.559
We are building it all the time.
00:55:48.719 --> 00:56:03.679
But it becomes more and more urgent to me as I see a casting call for a power the the new Paramount Plus um mini-series for firefighters for the mini-series of the about the day after 9-11, starring Jeremy Strong.
00:56:03.920 --> 00:56:05.920
Okay, I looked it up straight from deadline.
00:56:06.159 --> 00:56:09.519
The project about ailing 9-11 first responders, David vs.
00:56:09.599 --> 00:56:26.320
Goliath, legal fight for compensation, is one of the first two series ordered by the streamer's new uh regime, led by chair of DTC Cindy Holland and head of originals Jane Wiseman, who call it, quote, the kind of ambitious, resonant narratives Paramount Plus will champion.
00:56:27.119 --> 00:56:34.320
Okay, all this coming out right after uh Epstein's basically proving to us obviously what we always knew about 9-11, but okay.
00:56:35.119 --> 00:57:00.159
When this type of propaganda is getting geared up, and you know they got me with that one as one of the OG Jeremy Strongheads, when this type of propaganda is getting loaded into the can, and and when and when this merger goes through and all of these things, much like the abuse of Love Island, are normalized, we cannot simply shrug our shoulders and say, Well, I guess this is what it is, and we have to work with what we get.
00:57:00.320 --> 00:57:04.320
No, no, no, no, that is not how you change shit.
00:57:05.679 --> 00:57:09.679
I really don't think it takes that much to change everything.
00:57:10.960 --> 00:57:54.239
I really think it takes a dedicated few, handful, very rich, successful artists of their field, finally saying, you know what, enough is enough and I don't need all of this, and finally doing the work of deconstructing white supremacy and shedding the whiteness that their money has afforded them, shedding the privilege that that money has afforded them, and redistributing it to people who aren't getting a fucking shot at saying shit, who aren't who who aren't getting a shot to to tell their stories that would combat the propaganda that is being shoved down our throats.
00:57:54.559 --> 00:58:01.039
You know, in the same way that I AI isn't inevitable is is not inevitable, neither is fucking Paramount Plus.
00:58:01.440 --> 00:58:03.840
Neither is neither is A24.
00:58:04.000 --> 00:58:10.320
None of these bullshit things that they are using against us are inevitable.
00:58:11.280 --> 00:58:23.039
But if we continue to be like, well, if I do this one Amazon commercial, then it'll fund me for like a year and then I can do my other stuff.
00:58:23.760 --> 00:58:27.280
When we keep doing that, like I get I hear your logic.
00:58:27.760 --> 00:58:28.400
I do.
00:58:28.719 --> 00:58:30.480
I understand it's tough out here.
00:58:30.559 --> 00:58:33.039
They have not given us many options, as I've said.
00:58:33.280 --> 00:58:37.199
But when we keep doing that, then we just keep giving Amazon just keeps getting ya.
00:58:37.519 --> 00:58:39.440
Jeff Bezos just keeps getting ya.
00:58:39.840 --> 00:58:44.880
Oh, I guess I'll just do the AI commercial and then I'll do my art that is powerful.
00:58:46.960 --> 00:58:49.519
Then the AI commercial still got ya.
00:58:50.159 --> 00:58:57.519
Then the AI commercials keep happening, then they keep becoming hip, then it becomes, then it keeps becoming normal, you know?
00:58:57.760 --> 00:59:10.000
Like I just know that there are a lot of people who feel similarly to me, but don't feel like they're able to move any differently.
00:59:10.320 --> 00:59:12.079
And they have to take the scraps that they can.
00:59:12.320 --> 00:59:13.519
And I don't think that's true.
00:59:13.760 --> 00:59:31.440
I think it takes a room full of very rich people spreading their wealth through projects and production companies that are fucking loudly anti-fascist, that have no interest in perpetuating white supremacy and copaganda.
00:59:31.679 --> 00:59:50.719
I think it takes a room full of rich people um divesting from their own privilege to give it to others, and then just the masses finally being like, you know what, I'm not gonna spend$30 on these fuck ass um corporations and they're frankly not good stuff.
00:59:50.880 --> 01:00:10.320
And and I know, I know that they're gonna be feeding me Zionist propaganda bullshit, so I'm not gonna give them my money anymore, and I'm gonna spread this fucking$30 between like three creators um that make me laugh, and I'm gonna help them try to make their stuff because I would rather see that anyways.
01:00:11.360 --> 01:00:14.000
I think it's not that complicated.
01:00:16.320 --> 01:00:18.000
And I want to present that here.
01:00:18.239 --> 01:00:21.599
And hey, comment your project below.
01:00:21.760 --> 01:00:32.800
You gotta strictly anti-fascist, anti-racist, fucking anti-uh misogynist project um from your heart and you need money for it.
01:00:32.960 --> 01:00:48.880
Uh, and you don't want to take a job for like the Home Depot because their money funds ice, but you need to pay your rent, but you want to make your project, comment below, and then hopefully maybe someone with money will give you money, you know?
01:00:49.119 --> 01:00:52.639
Because this is really what happens is like I'm broke as fuck.
01:00:52.800 --> 01:00:58.639
I'm working a part-time job to semi-survive.
01:00:58.960 --> 01:01:02.960
I'm avoiding all my bills, and there's stuff I would like to make.
01:01:03.119 --> 01:01:14.400
Um, and I know that, yeah, probably if I auditioned for like all of the commercials that I see that want some ambiguous curls, um, maybe I would get that money and I could fund it.
01:01:14.639 --> 01:01:19.679
But then they had they got me, they used me.
01:01:19.840 --> 01:01:22.239
I don't want to be used, I don't want to be fucking used.
01:01:22.400 --> 01:01:22.960
That's the thing.
01:01:23.119 --> 01:01:27.519
It becomes extra super triggering to me also because I'm just like, my body, my choice.
01:01:27.599 --> 01:01:28.400
I don't want to be used.
01:01:28.480 --> 01:01:29.679
I don't want to be used.
01:01:29.920 --> 01:01:36.480
And you know, and and especially for these smaller roles where you're like not seeing what the full script is and you're like, I want to just audition for something.
01:01:36.639 --> 01:01:40.320
You're like, but I don't even know the ways in which I'm gonna be used.
01:01:40.559 --> 01:01:48.320
And you know that these corporations are choosing you for a reason, and it's never a good reason.
01:01:48.800 --> 01:01:50.400
It's not a good reason.
01:01:52.480 --> 01:01:53.599
The Knicks.
01:01:54.639 --> 01:01:56.079
Next topic, the Knicks.
01:01:56.239 --> 01:02:00.639
The Knicks won, and I want basketball like everything else to be free from the corporations.
01:02:00.800 --> 01:02:14.239
Basketball is another um example in which how all of these three corporations are funding our demise, and they are using our talent um to distract us and to wash it and um to fund it.
01:02:14.400 --> 01:02:16.719
Um that fucking sucks.
01:02:16.960 --> 01:02:18.320
I'm over it, I hate it.
01:02:18.480 --> 01:02:21.840
I need more people to stop, more people have power to stop.
01:02:22.000 --> 01:02:24.000
But that's not actually what I'm talking about with the Knicks.
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Really, what I want to talk about with the Knicks is how the parade, the the victory in the streets of New York City after the Knicks won.
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Showed me so much.
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Wanted exemplified.
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There's safety in numbers to do fuck shit when there's safety in numbers.
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You can do a lot of stuff when you're with a lot of people.
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And the NYPD, the seventh largest military in the world.
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The NYPD bigger than some countries' military.
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Even they could not actually contain the masses.
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That was New York after the Knicks win.
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Now I saw some takes that were being like, wow, you guys can come out and pretty much riot for a basketball game and not genocide.
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I don't disagree with this take.
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I mean, of course.
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But this is what I'm saying.
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I want to s I want to represent that take in a more invitational way.
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Or I just a more.
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I just want I want people to understand the gravity of this.
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I want people to look back on this and say, look at all those people in the street.
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Ungovernable.
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What could this mean?
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Now I'm not saying this is ever this is also a thing I will say is pretty much kind of unique to New York.
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The way that New York is landscaped, you know, the the the way that it is that it is um designed, the way it's it's it's um clustered and close.
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And you know, this is a this is a thing you can't have this in in LA, right?
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Like, I mean things are so spread out in in in California.
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But that's just to say New York.
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Very sympathetic marriage.
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And you've got a lot of numbers.
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And that NYPD has been doing some really naughty stuff for a very long time.
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I mean, I do think we need to abolish their asses, as I've been saying for many years now.
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Just consider what it was like to be out on the streets with your fellow man.
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Consider how much that's all I'll say.
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I think that's my cult that's my um Las Culture Rista cat culture catch-up.
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Abuse is everywhere.
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We are being abused by the companies, and um if we stand up for ourselves, they might they might yell at us and say that we were aggressive, like they're saying to Anaya.
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But don't let that stop you from saying no.
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Um, from saying, actually, no, I don't want to do this commercial.
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Actually, no, I don't want to take all of this money to whitewash the crimes of genocide.
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No.
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I mean, here's the thing.
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I am presenting these expectations to people who have no interest in, you know, furthering black liberation, frankly, um, or, you know, which is liberation for all.
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I come to LA with with, here's my problem is I'm a lover, I'm a dreamer, and uh part of my lover and dreamerness is that I reflect until I I wish to reflect until proven wrong onto everybody else's same similar values, where I'm like, well, surely everybody's here for life and love, and everybody's seeing the ways in which um they're perpetuating violence.
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Um and and and and and surely everybody's trying to find a way out.
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Fortunately, uh not true.
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Unfortunately, not true for everybody.
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I'm learning this.
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Um, I'm learning this.
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But I do think it's true for some, and the people that it's true for need to do it loudly.
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We need to continue to do it loudly, and yeah, get some of these rich people of conscience.
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Do they exist?
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I guess that's the question.
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Are you a rich person?
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Wait, where's the camera?
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Are you a rich person of conscience?
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Are you tired of fascism permeating its way?
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And it's not even permeating, right?
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Because fascism did build the propaganda machine that is Hollywood today.
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Um, you know, cop shows began because of they were being funded by the LAPD.
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Like, do you do you are you a rich person of consciousness who doesn't like propaganda and doesn't like how all this this stuff's going with the merger?
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And and you really think like people should be getting to do art that is expressive of um their unique perspectives, aka non-white perspectives.
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Um, and and do you do you also wish that people didn't have to choose between not pursuing their dreams and selling their body um to the Zionist state to further um white supremacy?
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Do you wish all of those things were untrue?
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Well, hey, I have a solution for you.
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Um fund a fund a person who fund a person that is that is is trying to make art that is anti-fascist and has nowhere um to to put it but online.
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Uh uh give fun fund a person who who would have been able to easily pay for their rent if they took the series regular job on the cop show, but they don't want to because of how they don't want to perpetuate white supremacy.
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Um and so now they're doing something else and not and barely getting by.
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Give that person some money because maybe then they could pay their rent and and pursue their dream as well.
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And their dream of expressing themselves in this way could also help other people to see themselves and pursue their dreams.
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And when you have a lot of l people um pursuing their dreams that are inherently decolonial dreams, like anti-fascist dreams, and they're expressing them out loud for the world to see, and the world is seeing more representations of like a decolonized mind and perspective on life, then I do then then guess what?
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You're you're funding the fucking revolution, baby.
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And and I do think that it turns into real real change.
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Um I'm literally I'm pleading pleading with the this is the nicest I could ask the white person.
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I mean the rest person.