Trailer: BBC Journalist and Author, Barbara Want.

TW: cancer, loss, and grief.

I cried on camera for the first time.

Five episodes in, and I've kept it together through every conversation. But sitting across from Barbara Want, hearing her tell this story, I couldn't.

June 2005. Barbara had just published her first book. She threw a party. Her 3-year-old boys were there. Her husband Nick got her a little desk mount that said "author" because he knew she'd always wanted to publish a book.

She was so excited. So proud. It was the most beautiful moment.

And within a few days, the whole thing crumbled.

Nick had cancer.

Barbara was angry at herself for not having suspected. She went with him to the operating theater, trying to stay strong for him, for the boys.

The minute he went through the doors, she collapsed on the floor.

Sitting there, listening to her, I realized this is what At Work With™ is actually about.

Not just the wins. Not just the career pivots or the success stories.

The moments when your dream arrives and your life falls apart at the same time. And what it takes to rebuild after that.

🎧 NEW EPISODE Monday — Barbara Want, BBC journalist, author, and one of the most vulnerable conversations I've ever had.