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00:00:02.959Welcome to another Sidewalk Conversations.
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00:00:05.679My name is Pete Van Ward, and I'm your host.
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00:00:09.519And we have another great guest joining us today.
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00:00:11.279Back from season one.
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00:00:18.399And so excited to have him back, and I can't wait to introduce him to you.
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00:00:32.640I would like to just introduce our conversation today by sharing a little bit about what it is that I find to be most impressive when it comes to the life of individuals who are trying to walk out their faith.
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00:00:34.560And we can talk about a lot of things.
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00:00:36.159We could talk about the love factor.
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00:00:38.719We can talk about the fact that they are committed to truth.
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00:00:46.719But one of the things for me that is most impressive is somebody who's been at it and stayed at it for a long time.
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00:00:52.560You know, and the thing that happens often in Christian community is you have the great comeback story.
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00:01:02.719So maybe a person started around the church, had their rebellious season, and then they come back and it's like the lost sheep that's been found and everybody's cheering.
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00:01:04.879And I love those stories.
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00:01:06.480It's actually my story.
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00:01:13.680But what I actually find more impressive is those po folks who can say, you know what?
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00:01:25.200I found the Lord early in life, and I didn't need to go to all these other places in order to decide that this is what I wanted to do.
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00:01:33.599Like he's walked the walk from early on and he stayed on the path.
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00:01:46.799It's not necessarily the story that gets the most applause, but in my mind, it's one of the ones that are most impressive because it takes a real courage to be able to say no to the things that the world is inviting us to do.
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00:01:56.879And so that's what I want to encourage those of you who are watching who, you know, you wonder, like, is my story important?
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00:01:58.480Like, have I been okay?
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00:02:01.840I don't have a great testimony, so to speak.
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00:02:14.800And I just want to encourage you that this story, one of the reasons I want to tell this story is because it reminds me that there's something beautiful about staying strong from early on and persisting through.
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00:03:39.759Well, without any further ado, let me introduce you to my guest, Preston Jackson.
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00:03:48.000Woo! We're gonna give you a little like a laugh track, not laugh track, cheer track button.
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00:03:54.560Preston, uh, you might recognize the name because he's usually the guy on the other side of the camera.
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00:03:58.319He's the one that kind of makes everything look good and sound good.
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00:04:05.840And I've kind of been on his case a little bit for the last, I don't know, last season or so to say, hey, it's time for you to come back.
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00:04:08.800We gotta, we gotta do another interview.
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00:04:11.919And uh and so he's agreed to to do that with me.
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00:04:12.319Thank you.
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00:04:12.879Yeah, yeah.
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00:04:13.919Because you've been desperate.
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00:04:17.040We're like running out of yes.
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00:04:18.480There's no one, yeah.
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00:04:19.439Preston's.
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00:04:20.560Everyone's starting to say no.
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00:04:21.920I don't know what that's about.
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00:04:35.600Yeah, I have to be like, I want to give Preston a compliment because not only is he doing the podcast, which is not necessarily his, you know, most uh comfortable place, um, but he's actually wearing a really cool shirt.
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00:04:36.240Oh, okay.
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00:04:36.879Yes.
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00:04:40.959He's he's trying to impress the hosts with his Amsterdam shirt.
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00:04:46.000I can't, you know, normally I'm back there with my my fabletics and my raggedy t-shirt.
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00:04:47.920Had it look a little nicer today.
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00:04:50.480You're looking very sharp, brother.
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00:05:03.120Well, um, as I was saying in the intro, one of the things I um respect about you of many things is that you know you have been uh a person who was raised around the church from very early on.
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00:05:10.079Um you and my niece, uh Danielle, I think, were like buddies back growing up.
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00:05:12.000No, no, not so much growing up.
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00:05:12.720Really?
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00:05:15.199Well, because she's a few years older than me.
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00:05:15.920Oh, okay.
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00:05:17.680You know, she didn't want to have anything to do with me.
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00:05:18.720Oh, early on.
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00:05:22.079Then you became cool and yeah, yeah.
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00:05:28.399Later when we did when we were doing Celib Recovery together, and you know, after we were both done being teenagers kind of deal.
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00:05:32.079Well, you did grow up around the church.
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00:05:33.519I do know that much.
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00:05:36.480And uh and your family is all very active on the church.
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00:05:40.720Yeah, enough that I called you Uncle Pete for the longest time until I finally met you.
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00:05:42.879But no, my family has been there.
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00:05:49.279Uh uh, because my mom I was um six months old when my parents started attending Shoreline.
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00:05:53.120And so then so 26 years later, they're still there.
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00:05:57.279We've worked there.
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00:06:00.240I've spent yep, did my time on staff.
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00:06:08.079Almost all of my I've got, you know, all my five siblings and us, and both my parents, all of us have almost been on staff at some point at Shoreline.
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00:06:09.040That's so cool.
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00:06:11.680You know, I think we've got one more to technically.
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00:06:15.759My brother, uh you know, he'll he'll find something in the next few years.
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00:06:17.600He's just getting to he's only he's only 15.
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00:06:19.279So well, he'll find his way.
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00:06:24.639So let's let's uh lean into that a little bit.
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00:06:29.199I I know on our last podcast, which was a live podcast, so we don't have any record of it anymore.
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00:06:30.720And thank the Lord.
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00:06:32.560I was right out of COVID.
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00:06:36.160I, you know, I was like, if I can't do anything, I'm not gonna go get a haircut.
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00:06:45.199I my mother was absolutely horrified.
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00:06:55.680Okay, so tell me a little bit, like you know, some some would say that that was a good thing that you were raised around the church.
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00:06:59.040I certainly see it as something that you know served you well.
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00:07:00.879Um, but there's also the downside.
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00:07:02.800So let's deal with both of those things.
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00:07:12.160Like what when you look back at being raised at the same church, kind of going to the same church, being on staff at the church for a while, like what are some of the the benefits of that experience?
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00:07:31.839Well, like, you know, I guess like right off the bat, like being you know, my dad was on staff um and they key volunteer before that, and like so he was very involved for probably a decade.
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00:07:40.079Um, and he and my mom too was you know, she's volunteering and she was like a preschool coordinator, and she was she, you know, very active in the kids' ministry.
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00:07:43.920And so people over there knew her, but then my but she's quiet and reserved.
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00:07:51.120My dad is um very outgoing and very uh extroverted and talking to every single person.
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00:07:55.680So it's like growing up, it's you know, oh, you're one of the Jacksons or you're Anthony's kid.
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00:08:00.160So and everybody knows who Anthony is, so everybody knows who you are.
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00:08:25.759And so like I didn't necessarily grow up a pastor's kid, but I did grow up kind of in that same vein of I can't go anywhere in the church without somebody knowing me, somebody, you know, always worried about getting report, you know, a report getting back to my parents about what I was doing, or um, and some and that had some interesting, you know, um gave me some interesting, like self made me self-conscious in some ways about my spiritual development.
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00:08:27.120Okay, which is interesting.
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00:08:29.839But yeah um that kind of came later.
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00:08:56.960But I mean like the benefits I you know being a part of a church for so long, um, even today, like the connections I have with people, like a lot of my the business that I'm doing now, like I know it's people I've met at Shoreline or I've known forever, working with um, you know, got you know, I'm working with the man who was my kids' pastor, kind of like he ran he did Sunday school for you know, I think six years of my life, and like now I'm working with him as a colleague, and that's interesting.
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00:09:10.559And so like the it's been longer I've done been a part of it, the more I like have these connections with people and um you know, like a community that I just I also notice that other people don't have in like yeah, that kind of way, right?
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00:09:15.279And also just being like entrenched somewhere for so long, even the new people, you know.
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00:09:30.639Um, because like you said, I we used to work I was working at Shoreline up until a couple years ago, but even now, like the new staff hires all know who Preston is because you know they're that it's the legend lives on, and like I'm so I'm still there, and they're like, oh yeah, and they're like, Oh, this is Preston, I've been hearing so much about you.
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00:09:31.919And I'm like, it's been two years.
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00:09:33.360What are they still talking about?
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00:09:35.120It's gotta be negative.
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00:09:40.399So is there a downside like when you think about it?
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00:09:57.759I mean, I think you know, uh you give me a lot of credit for uh my faith walk, and I don't but I don't necessarily even think about it the way you you perceive it, because um, you know, I am not, you know, I'm staunchly not an evangelical, you know this about me.
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00:10:01.200And um I try to walk back that part of my past.
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00:10:06.000And but and so like in from that perspective too, I got some experiences.
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00:10:14.159Um, like my um my great-grandmother has been serving at a church for a long time, she plays the organ, and it's a um first Christian church.
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00:10:20.559And so like I got to have some experiences in the first Christian church growing up, like Christmas or like when we were out of town on a Sunday.
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00:10:20.960Yeah, yeah.
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00:10:29.279But like the biggest thing about being in one church is this the only is experiencing that, like for me, I think big drawback is only experiencing that tradition.
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00:10:29.679Right.
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00:10:34.480Um and having to intentionally seek out other traditions.
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00:10:40.639And even at this point, my understanding of other Christian traditions is more academic and observational.
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00:11:06.080And like, you know, I've you know, I don't have a lot I've never sat in uh Presbyterian service or, you know, gotten to experience, you know, what some of these other denominations have in a way that I think, you know, I might love to color out the side lines, and I have a big passion of mine right now is the different uh is like understanding the impact that tradition has.
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00:11:11.759Um and like I guess partly growing up in the more modern evangelical tradition is that there are no traditions.
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00:11:33.120And so it's something that you know I've had to try, I'm working through and working on reclaiming in my own spiritual walk, you know, having what are my spiritual traditions and or what traditions do I want, and then just even understanding like why I think because I think too a lot of the problem in the modern church is that there are no traditions, you know, there are or the tr we have there are traditions, but you know, people don't acknowledge them as such.
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00:11:34.799They all they want to tear down all the traditions.
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00:11:36.799Yeah, like I'm not traditional.
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00:11:41.200No, right, but then you that that thing that you do that's not traditional is now your tradition, right?
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00:11:49.200Yeah, but there's just something so important to tradition in spiritual formation and the passing of salvation from generation to generation, right?
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00:11:50.399Yeah, yeah.
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00:11:59.440So what like I I want to explore, uh and I appreciate you saying or clarifying that, hey, look, I I I still am in my own discovery process.
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00:12:04.000I didn't necessarily stay like rigid in the way that you some people might think.
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00:12:12.720Um and so you have you've had your own like questions and dis deconstruction of certain ideas and and kind of rebuilding.
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00:12:22.000Um but essentially I at least from an observational standpoint, you have essentially stayed within the path.
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00:12:31.120Um I mean you're still looking to Jesus, you're still like uh worshiping him.
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00:12:34.960Um you didn't you didn't go into super rebellion.
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00:12:40.320I didn't say no Jesus for the sake of not because I had to.
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00:12:41.200That's true.
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00:12:44.159So what what what do you attribute that to?
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00:13:01.679Like what what enabled you to stay relatively within the the well uh because I mean like since I was 16, I have never had a doubt that Jesus exists and that he's somebody worth following.
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00:13:05.519Um but that was also the culmination of its own spiritual walk.
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00:13:17.360Like I think um I think when I was like 12 is when I kind of like can start to like in my memory pinpoint things, but like that's when I was like, do I believe in this Jesus thing?
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00:13:19.679Um, why do I go to church every Sunday?
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00:13:21.279Do I agree with my parents?
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00:13:23.039Do I hold their religious beliefs?
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00:13:24.559What are religious beliefs?
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00:13:25.200Um, right?
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00:13:26.960Yeah, I think it's and that's a really natural thing.
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00:13:29.519You've always been like this philosophic deep thinker.
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00:13:32.639I can't say I was that deep, but like back then.
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00:13:36.559But I know I can, you know, I also know now it's really normal.
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00:13:41.440I mean, I you know, uh like last time I was on, we just talked about youth ministry because that's what I did for so long.
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00:13:49.440Um and like doing youth ministry, understanding like the developmental stages, and like now I can look back and I'm like, okay, that's completely normal developmental.
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00:13:54.960Like I'm, you know, rebelling against I'm you know, in my own way, looking reevaluating everything I believe about life.
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00:13:57.919And that's that's you know, the thing, right?
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00:13:58.799That's what everybody does.
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00:14:02.240And but even in that, like I was like, okay, do I want to believe?
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00:14:03.360Do I not want to believe?
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00:14:07.600I'm always I have always been very analytical and philosophical and scientific.
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00:14:12.480Um, I was gonna go and be a scientist, and that's what I wanted to do from a very young age.
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00:14:22.159Um, my mom still talks about the time that I tried to turn her car or try to figure out how to make her car run on hydroelectric power when I was like six.
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00:14:34.000And so um, like that also played a factor because I was like, you know, I've I've always, you know, always hearing the anti intellectual or anti-scientific bias in the church as well.
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00:14:42.720Like, you know, like you're even from the other side, like uh the science, you know, the intellectual side of like, oh, religion does, you know, the typical kind of like religion isn't real, we've got science.
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00:14:49.360Um, and so, you know, in living in that, and so hearing those arguments and taking them in and then evaluating for myself.
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00:14:54.320But um, it started when I was like, you know, probably you know, um 12, 13.
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00:14:58.399Um, and in that process, you know, I kind of made a decision really young.
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00:15:00.240Um, it was I mean, it was tough.
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00:15:03.039I I went through times where I didn't believe, times where I did believe.
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00:15:06.000Also, it didn't really matter if I believed or not, because you know, why?
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00:15:09.360If it if there's no God, then it doesn't matter at all, so why am I struggling?
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00:15:15.440Um and then um I made a decision at one point, I don't remember how old I was.
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00:15:19.120I was probably 14 or 15, and I was like, you know what?
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00:15:22.559Um of everything I know, I'm just gonna believe.
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00:15:29.679Um because this seems, you know, this seems like the best course of action and a little bit to hedge my bet.
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00:15:37.919Just in case just in case, and like, you know, if God is real, then at some point I'll find him and I'm gonna choose to believe until then.
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00:15:42.240And so it was a really conscious choice to like every day just choose to believe.
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00:15:56.240Um that culminated into an experience um a couple of years later when I was 16, where I found myself meeting Jesus, and from that day on I've never had a doubt.
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00:16:03.919Um and so I can't, you know, well, I mean, it was this I can't his classic summer camp moment.
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00:16:21.600Um, I've been, you know, choosing to believe, waiting, and I was praying, and I was like, you know, everybody talks about the Holy Spirit and feeling God, and like I've never felt that, and I want to experience that, and I God, I want to feel your spirit, and I want to, you know, I want to feel the presence of the Holy Spirit.
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00:16:47.919And I that through that summer camp, there was a couple of you know, each night something different happened, and I went through um I experience and I even through that I, you know, look back on it, like I experienced kind of three different aspects of God in that until you know the la I think I almost the last night or whatever, but I remember um part so back to the everybody knows who my dad is, and my dad also did youth camp for years and years and years and years and years, and I made him keep doing youth camp when I was in youth ministry.
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00:17:06.640And so even like in especially in the youth ministry, everybody knows who Anthony Jackson is, and my leaders knew who he was, and like so, like it's like it was a hard thing for me to explore uh my more spiritual side and like doing things that I felt like might get reported back.
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00:17:06.960Right.
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00:17:10.720You can't I can't be expressive in worship because I don't want to talk to my dad about that.
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00:17:12.880You know, I want to be my own thing, you know.
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00:17:16.160Being a child of six to, you know, I don't I want my own thing.
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00:17:33.119Um I don't want to, you know, I don't want a lot of attention brought on me either, because you know, and so that was a barrier, and there were several times when I'd be like in and I would be in worship and I'd be like, I have a feeling like I should do something, I should take some action, and I'd be like, No, I can't do that, you know.
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00:17:34.319What if somebody notices?
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00:17:35.119Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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00:17:39.519Um and so this that that summer camp I was finally like, you know what, I don't care.
00:17:39.519 -->
00:17:52.960And from that, in that moment when I kind of surrendered, I had, you know, like a throne room kind of moment, and I saw God and saw Jesus and had a really powerful encounter with that.
00:17:52.960 -->
00:17:58.240I was like, well, you know, now nobody can tell me God doesn't exist because I've seen him.
00:17:58.240 -->
00:17:58.799Yeah.
00:17:58.799 -->
00:18:00.799And love that.
00:18:00.960 -->
00:18:01.359Yeah.
00:18:01.359 -->
00:18:08.960Now you later, um, in fact, this was I I I think it was close to when I first came on staff.
00:18:08.960 -->
00:18:17.440You m you made another decision um where you were basically given an opportunity to go to a very prestigious school.
00:18:17.440 -->
00:18:27.440Well, because it the the this the academic standards were really high.
00:18:27.440 -->
00:18:34.640And and you uh I maybe I'm speaking too glowingly of it, but you passed with flying colors.
00:18:34.720 -->
00:18:36.319I mean you were I did get in.
00:18:36.319 -->
00:18:38.799I'd actually coincided with that.
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00:18:41.680No, okay, it was it was uh with the summer camp.
00:18:41.680 -->
00:18:55.920And then a different summer camp, because then I had a different issue of like um and something I've completely unworked since, but you know, and thinking, you know, that I'm you know looking for God's one exact plan for my life.
00:18:55.920 -->
00:18:59.119Um, which and like he's got something figured out already.
00:18:59.119 -->
00:19:00.640But I don't have to get into that.
00:19:00.640 -->
00:19:11.279But um so that was a tough thing because I wasn't just like praying because I was I graduate it was I think it was a couple years before you got there because I was it was when I graduated col high school, I was looking to go to college.
00:19:11.279 -->
00:19:13.759UTU was my first choice, I didn't get in.
00:19:13.759 -->
00:19:22.079Um I didn't want to go to the my the CAP program, so I only I only applied to two schools, one in Texas and then one in the UK.
00:19:22.079 -->
00:19:26.160And I got and the UK has a later start date, later admission.
00:19:26.160 -->
00:19:32.079So I hadn't, you know, school, I had been graduated for a couple months before I finally got my acceptance letter.
00:19:32.079 -->
00:19:35.200And so I got that one like the week before summer camp.
00:19:35.200 -->
00:19:41.759So I went into summer camp having been accepted to college, but still like, you know, God, is this what you want me to do?
00:19:41.759 -->
00:19:46.160Like kind of stuck in a decision paralysis, but like also just like waiting on God.
00:19:46.160 -->
00:19:50.240And I got some really good advice um from someone right before I went to summer camp.
00:19:50.240 -->
00:19:56.319And they're like, sometimes God tells you what to do, and then sometimes God leaves it up to you, and it's your decision to make.
00:19:56.319 -->
00:20:07.519And I was wrestling with that idea, and I also in that moment, I heard, you know, I had a really clear hearing God say, like, whichever direction you want to go, I'm gonna go in with you.
00:20:07.519 -->
00:20:28.480And so it's also at that so I did get in, and then I was doing that, but also at that time I had started doing celibate recovery with Danielle and we were doing the landing, and um, I was working with middle schoolers and I was you know a senior, but um my my heart really broke for them when I was work I just I was doing childcare at the time, really.
00:20:28.480 -->
00:20:32.079Even I we were doing celibate recovery, but I was like the child care employee.
00:20:32.079 -->
00:20:33.759That's how I was making money.
00:20:33.759 -->
00:20:56.000Um, but we were doing the lessons and I would sit with them and we talked about their lives and we would talk about their struggles, and you know, it was just like you know, my love for them and then the like the life that they had to lead, and also, you know, I just was like, I want to do this, I want to sit with students and talk to them about their life and help them figure out how to so you put it you put that other thing all on the side.
00:20:56.000 -->
00:21:02.880So I said, you know, I was like, God, I want to do this, and I was like, I'm gonna follow, I want to go this direction and kind of oh, go where my heart leads.
00:21:02.880 -->
00:21:07.119Because I did, I do, you know, it was it was a hard decision because I also love school.
00:21:07.119 -->
00:21:12.240Yeah, I love academia, and someday I'm still gonna finish my degree.
00:21:12.240 -->
00:21:22.960But um, I was going, I had gotten accepted into an honors physics program, and I was, you know, because my my goal was um to study uh quantum mechanics and get my PhD.
00:21:22.960 -->
00:21:35.119So like there was like this whole different track of life, basically, to go to the UK and study abroad and um get my degree, get my undergrad, get my graduate degree, do my PhD.
00:21:35.119 -->
00:21:42.480Probably would have ended up like a coder or something, you know, because that's really all physics degrees are good for these days, but maybe work on a really cool project.
00:21:42.480 -->
00:21:44.640And so, like, there was or become a professor.
00:21:44.640 -->
00:21:46.640I did one that's something I did want to do too.
00:21:46.640 -->
00:21:53.119So get um, so like, yeah, that was our whole track one direction, and who knows if you know, who knows what would have happened in that direction too.
00:21:53.359 -->
00:22:10.160But then there was this whole other track of like doing ministry and like and I and I think the reason I it stuck with me so much was because you know people talk about um like I want to do, I want to touch people's lives, I want to do and and I I love it.
00:22:10.160 -->
00:22:12.319I think that's an awesome aspiration.
00:22:12.319 -->
00:22:20.720But there's also in your situation, I thought, well, for him, it was like a real real either or choice.
00:22:20.720 -->
00:22:24.960Like you could have been successful at this other thing.
00:22:24.960 -->
00:22:29.039And um, you know, not everybody has those opportunities.
00:22:29.039 -->
00:22:35.839And so the fact that you said, you know, I'm gonna I'm gonna put that on pause, not to say that you might, yeah, I mean you may still do it someday.
00:22:35.839 -->
00:22:42.720But the fact that you said, I I I I love these kids, I want to do ministry, I'm willing to lay that down.
00:22:42.720 -->
00:22:45.359I just thought it was so so cool, so impressive.
00:22:46.000 -->
00:22:46.480Loved it.
00:22:46.480 -->
00:22:46.880Yeah.
00:22:47.440 -->
00:22:47.680Nice.
00:22:49.200 -->
00:22:51.119It was not the most selfless choice.
00:22:51.119 -->
00:22:55.920It was something that, you know, it was it was an easy decision to make because that's something I loved and wanted to do.
00:22:55.920 -->
00:23:05.039And you know, I wasn't like it wasn't all pious and like I'm gonna I'm gonna put aside my cares and my desires for the work of the gospel.
00:23:05.119 -->
00:23:07.279It was uh Oh yes, it was.
00:23:07.279 -->
00:23:10.160That's the that's the image I'm holding on to.
00:23:10.559 -->
00:23:13.119It was I love this is where I want to be right now.
00:23:13.359 -->
00:23:15.599Uh well I I think there's something to that too.
00:23:15.599 -->
00:23:18.240You know, I think the Lord does like I love how you said it.
00:23:18.240 -->
00:23:23.279I think the Lord does uh often give us the opportunity to say, well, is this what you're excited about?
00:23:23.279 -->
00:23:24.559Like, do you love this?
00:23:24.559 -->
00:23:26.000Because I'll go with you.
00:23:26.000 -->
00:23:26.640Yeah.
00:23:26.640 -->
00:23:28.799I mean, unless it's like evil.
00:23:29.680 -->
00:23:31.279You know, we talk about walking that back.
00:23:31.279 -->
00:23:47.440I am more and I'm more embracing of that idea now that like even before, you know, we don't as it's going down a rabbit hole, but even before like where does God want us to be, I more believe that wherever we go, yeah, I have a deeper understanding of that idea of wherever we go, God is with us.
00:23:47.440 -->
00:23:53.279And a primary belief in that, like, yeah, first he's with us and then he'll make it work.
00:23:53.279 -->
00:23:59.359And then if we're willing to listen, he'll guide us to places that he has designs or that are good for us, right?
00:23:59.359 -->
00:23:59.599Yeah.
00:23:59.599 -->
00:24:04.079But there's like uh I think you know, we we make it too much either or in my opinion.
00:24:04.079 -->
00:24:08.160You know, if you go off on the wild side, God's still with you.
00:24:08.160 -->
00:24:09.519Amen.
00:24:09.519 -->
00:24:10.079Right?
00:24:10.079 -->
00:24:13.119Yeah, he is.
00:24:13.680 -->
00:24:15.119That's what that's all about.
00:24:15.119 -->
00:24:19.039Um all right, so let's uh you what are you doing now?
00:24:19.039 -->
00:24:24.160Like you're you're like entrepreneuring now, you you you gotta you help me and help me.
00:24:24.559 -->
00:24:29.519I'm still working on explaining that to people and trying to get it down to my like 60 second small talk.
00:24:29.519 -->
00:24:29.839Uh-huh.
00:24:29.839 -->
00:24:31.759Uh, because there's so many things I'm doing.
00:24:31.759 -->
00:24:39.279I've been working on the podcast with you, been um doing you know my own consulting work and like marketing.
00:24:39.279 -->
00:24:59.599That's a weird shift that I never expected when you know, talk about like directions life could have gone, you know, when I was 18, I would never have imagined that I would be um doing marketing, um, or much less like running and kind of uh, you know, a two-man agency and doing consulting work with people.
00:24:59.599 -->
00:25:08.559Um, you know, because like I've got clients who are, you know, across I've got clients across across the globe, and I'm like working with people in all their places, and I'm like, what do I know about running an in?
00:25:08.559 -->
00:25:12.319Uh but here I am advising people on how to like do their marketing.
00:25:12.319 -->
00:25:14.000Why who I would never have guessed it.
00:25:14.000 -->
00:25:50.640So like you know, I do marketing consulting, and then um, you know, I've c recently had an opportunity to start another company, a tech company, and we're working on um with you know, we we're kind of like uh see this is where it gets complicated, and I guess in one minute, we're a uh we're a vendor of my company's a vendor of products, and so we're working with a couple of we're working on getting a couple products launched and um into our retail network because I have a couple of a part I have a couple partners who hire like an extensive network, and that's also, you know, that's another thing that's kind of a culmination of my time at Shoreline Um and my relationships there.
00:25:50.640 -->
00:25:53.599But like um, so you know, I've got several different things going.
00:25:53.599 -->
00:26:04.880I've got another, um, I s you know, there's another startup I've been working with as well, doing marketing with um that's kind of you know, still waiting to get its feet under it, and so and that's a completely different world.
00:26:04.880 -->
00:26:19.119And I, you know, I was working on a docuseries this summer and still working on closing out that project and you know, just kind of doing a little bit of everything, partly to make money, partly to do you see like a common thread between them all that kind of bring them together for you?
00:26:19.440 -->
00:26:22.000Um like what makes them attractive for you?
00:26:22.000 -->
00:26:23.519What makes them attractive for me?
00:26:23.759 -->
00:26:29.200Um I just you know, I like I like new things.
00:26:29.200 -->
00:26:31.599I'm always been a person who likes change.
00:26:31.599 -->
00:26:33.200I like to change things regularly.
00:26:33.200 -->
00:26:34.880I don't like things to say the same.
00:26:34.880 -->
00:26:41.440Um I loved when we would get new desk assignments at school because I liked to move and be in a different part of the room.
00:26:41.440 -->
00:26:44.640Um I hated classrooms where we were in the same place the whole year.
00:26:44.640 -->
00:26:46.640Um and like that's just who I am.
00:26:46.640 -->
00:26:52.079And so part of it is the novelty of it and getting to work on new projects and getting to do new different different things.
00:26:52.079 -->
00:26:55.759Like the film project was new, and I have some experience.
00:26:55.759 -->
00:26:57.920You know, I've got experience doing film stuff.
00:26:57.920 -->
00:26:59.200I mean, I that's what I do for you.
00:26:59.200 -->
00:27:03.440And I did that shoreline too, but like it's just undertaking a documentary.
00:27:03.440 -->
00:27:04.640I've never done that.
00:27:04.640 -->
00:27:15.359Um, and but also like I also like um I also just you know really enjoy business in a way that I didn't know I did, you know, 10 years ago.
00:27:15.359 -->
00:27:16.000Yeah, yeah.
00:27:16.000 -->
00:27:22.559Um, and I like putting them together and like organizing them, and I love spreadsheets and I like doing budget projections.
00:27:22.880 -->
00:27:29.759You did keep us like I remember at Shoreline, you were like the master of schedules and processes and systems.
00:27:30.079 -->
00:27:32.720I love processes and systems and logistics.
00:27:32.720 -->
00:27:37.039It's yeah that I knew I I learned I was really good at from an early age.
00:27:37.039 -->
00:27:39.359I because did you know I you probably don't know this?
00:27:39.359 -->
00:27:43.599I when I was 12, I was coordinating VBS at Shoreline.
00:27:43.599 -->
00:27:46.079Um I was like the assistant coordinator at that time.
00:27:46.079 -->
00:28:09.519There was like me and then the adult who would be the the actual enforcer, but like I was planning everything, doing routes and schedules, and like I so I didn't like I that's you know something I learned at a really young age, it's something I'm good at um and I like to do and like is you know, getting to work with startups like this too is something you know, there's a lot to figure out logistically, and you know, making it's a puzzle, it's fun, I enjoy it a lot.
00:28:10.240 -->
00:28:12.400You're good at it, you really are good at it.
00:28:12.400 -->
00:28:21.200So um now as you look out, like I'm I I love you know talking to people who are in different seasons of life than I am.
00:28:21.200 -->
00:28:26.640And so you you you know, you're a young guy, you're still looking at a lot of your life ahead of you.
00:28:26.640 -->
00:28:44.799Um when you think about what's happening in the church and and you know what it looks like for the this quote unquote next generation, what are some of the things that you're like excited about, you're optimistic about, and then maybe some of the things that you're like, uh I don't know.
00:28:45.279 -->
00:28:48.319Oh man, how controversial do you want me to go, Pete?
00:28:48.319 -->
00:28:53.680You know, because uh we can go there.
00:28:53.680 -->
00:29:02.720The things that excite me, uh I mean, I think the American church has been stuck for a really long time.
00:29:02.720 -->
00:29:14.640And you know, I'm anti-evangelical in all many ways, and so there's a lot of things I think that we've been doing in the last 50 years that are not um advantageous for the gospel.
00:29:14.640 -->
00:29:34.079Um and part, but like this question has this question is one that sent me down this like discovery and learning about traditions and trying to understand too, like um, and one of the things I'm unraveling from my past is like this idea of the right way to worship or the right way to spread the gospel, or what's the the real church?
00:29:34.079 -->
00:29:38.240I you know, we hear that I think we hear we're hearing a lot that of that in 2025.
00:29:38.240 -->
00:29:47.519But what's the real church, you know, or whether it's the Protestants or like Catholics don't know what they're talking about, or Catholics who are like Protestants know what they're talking about, or whatever.
00:29:47.519 -->
00:29:59.839Um, and so like even to that question, and trying to peel apart theologically and philosophically and experientially, like, what is church and like why does church?
00:29:59.839 -->
00:30:22.559church and what is the gospel and why does the gospel and how do people spread it and w what why is it is it the same or is it different than it was 2000 years ago and should we be doing church like they you know there's a rule there was this kind of call to let's do church like the apostles did it and like is that you know I was like that sounds like a lot a good goal but then I like sat with it and I was like should we do church that way?
00:30:22.559 -->
00:30:23.519Like is there a reason?
00:30:23.519 -->
00:30:26.559Is there a is it bad that we do church the way we do church?
00:30:26.559 -->
00:30:31.359And I say I'm anti-evangelical and but I do like the way we do church.
00:30:31.359 -->
00:30:33.200You know I it's what I grew up in I enjoy it.
00:30:33.200 -->
00:30:37.440I'm not like turn down the lights and get get that fog machine out of there.
00:30:37.440 -->
00:30:39.440I think there's space for it.
00:30:39.680 -->
00:30:53.119And um and so like now when you say anti-evangelical for those who may not be familiar with the term because I think I I we've we've had enough conversations about it or I think I know where you're headed with that but just like unpack that a little bit.
00:30:53.119 -->
00:30:54.319What what what do you mean by that?
00:30:54.640 -->
00:32:22.000Like the event you there's so much to unpack there but just like the uh you know the general evangelical doctrine and the evangelical you know there's the evangelical church which kind of arose in the last 70 years um the modern evangelical movement right there's been there's deeper roots to it but it's kind of amalgamation of the Baptist tradition and the uh Pentecostal tradition with its charismatic charismatic elements and it's also it's got its deep dogmatic and doctrinal elements too and this kind of more modern and it's the root of this non-denominational movement too right and that was started with like Billy Graham and you know goes forth in today and you know the biggest churches in America today are all non-denominationals right and so this I this kind of non non-movement but there's just there's some key um beyond the there's some key dogmas I would call them beyond doctrine not doctrines because there's some sh there's definitely there's separate this is a deep conversation deep but separating you know the levels of doctrine but I would I'll I'll call these doctrines dogmas separating out the there's some certain specific dogmas to the evangelical belief and um there are some also some certain practices like the anti-practice practice of tearing down tradition and being like we don't need to do it that way or just because or because it is an entrenched position like um you know it's that somehow it's wrong like it's too rigid and too religious.
00:32:22.000 -->
00:32:26.960And you know I've heard that um a lot in my life about you know being anti-religious.
00:32:26.960 -->
00:32:38.640You know we're we f I'm it I would I'm a Jesus follower but I'm anti-religious and I one point in my life I would have I associated with that idea like you know it's it's a relationship right it's that t-shirt relationship over religion.
00:32:38.640 -->
00:32:46.400But now I'm definitely thinking I lean more religion in my ideas and I think that there's a there's a strong place for religion.
00:32:46.559 -->
00:33:44.880And so like even being part of my anti-evangelical is rejecting that idea that religion is a bad thing or like there's that there is that there you know I don't like um what's the word what's the word I don't like come on Pete you preach this before you know what I'm talking about I don't like the the what's the rigid the the the dog uh the the legalism I don't love legalism yeah but I do like structured religious religion and tradition well and the reason I'm I'm kind of pressing you on it because on one hand you are a like systems process guy that you appreciate order and you appreciate like clarity but on the other hand you I I when I hear you talk about you're like but I also love mystery and I think we don't have enough appreciation for mystery or we don't have enough appreciation for history and I feel like we haven't even touched on that conversation.
00:33:45.599 -->
00:35:24.400So it's kind of like an interesting mix that you have of that and and and that's why I've asked you to it's not it's not controversial to me because I feel like you're you're like you you found a way to integrate it all but I I've walked back those things yeah and like it is I do agree it's interesting because um especially with you know the church tradition I was raised in is and you know but then also like I am very rigid in my thinking but at the same time like my earliest religious experiences my my transformative moment my spiritual moments are steeped in that mystery and that mysticism of like how can I be standing in this room it as in a like in the middle of the forest in South Texas but I'm also standing you know next to Jesus and like you know these things that I you know these weird moments in my life and it's lear it's learned too and I think is what I'm trying to say and like um it's something I've had to evaluate because I've also had some other really interesting moments um just you know with God and in weird places like well not so weird it's pretty like I guess um pretty cliche I was standing on the top of a hill in Ireland and I had a vision and of what God was doing and like and that's a weird mystical moment right um and so like you know having to reconcile having weird mystical moments but also being very you know um scientific in my own approach to life and like anal and not analyzing and so having to figuring out how to like make those things work inside myself has been a challenge.
00:35:24.400 -->
00:35:27.119But it's also I think it does it has produced something weird.
00:35:28.239 -->
00:35:28.800I love it.
00:35:28.800 -->
00:35:40.079I think it's beautiful and I appreciate the way that you're so thoughtful about these matters and that that you really have carved out a path for you that uh as I have encountered you very authentic.
00:35:40.079 -->
00:35:46.480You know it's just like this is like I'm not necessarily trying to fit into any box and I'm not really trying to make anybody happy.
00:35:46.480 -->
00:35:49.760Not that I'm trying to be you know purposefully offensive either.
00:35:49.760 -->
00:35:54.960It's just like I'm trying to I'm trying to figure it out and I'm trying to be authentic about what I know and believe.
00:35:54.960 -->
00:36:00.559And um and it's one of the reasons I feel like uh you know you have something to say to this generation.
00:36:01.920 -->
00:36:02.159Okay.
00:36:02.159 -->
00:36:05.039Where do we because we went off track there.
00:36:05.039 -->
00:36:08.719So that's what I told you at the beginning we can do that.
00:36:08.719 -->
00:36:16.079Yeah you did you took me we went and we had I had explained some anti-evangelicism we're talking about the future of the church.
00:36:16.079 -->
00:36:20.400No I think I'm you know this was going to be controversial.
00:36:20.400 -->
00:36:25.519I think that in some ways the church is um imploding and I think that's a good thing.
00:36:25.519 -->
00:36:40.079Um the modern church I think the the American church while I have been examining you know different ways of understanding what church is but I think that there is some collapse to the way we do church and to those to the non-existent traditions.
00:36:40.079 -->
00:36:45.760And maybe that's what's part of the problem is there are no traditions to hold to and that's caught that's creating some collapse.
00:36:45.760 -->
00:36:54.719But then you know COVID definitely helped do it um and the political climate is definitely helping do it or at least pull people apart and pulling the church apart.
00:36:54.719 -->
00:37:23.840And I think that that while is a painful thing and it's causing a lot of strife and it's gonna cause a lot of hurt to people I think it's also a good thing in that it's causing people to re-examine their beliefs and you know because I'm just I'm also just one piece of this whole deconstruction movement that kind of began even right around the same time I was like you know you know the reason I am the way I am today is because I started reading the Bible and understanding it.
00:37:23.840 -->
00:37:40.320And I learned how to read my Bible and it caused me to to um re-examine lots of things that I had thought I knew about life and about the Bible and understand the Bible and also trying to like reconcile parts of the Bible that I've read with my understanding of who God is.
00:37:40.320 -->
00:37:50.960And so like all of those things like I or just have been working and doing things and I think that that is I think that's something that's really good for the church.
00:37:50.960 -->
00:39:01.519The American church the global church to think about doing things differently because I think that the church I think in the history of the church too the worst times for the church has been when it's been very staunchly too staunchly in its traditions right too too entrenched it does not seem like we go back before I gave a um I gave a sermon at a youth camp one time and I was probably really informed by this topic but about the balance of spirit and truth and about the balance of the mystical and the balance of the knowing and the the present reality and like finding that you know walking in the middle line and that's where the church needs to be right it needs to be it's not too charismatic it's not too dogmatic it's not too it's not too apart from the world it's not I hate that's a bad one because I don't even believe that there's no such thing as too close to the world because we are the we are entrenched in it and we should be and like that's one of my thoughts too is like I think that we when the church gets stuck in these places where people think they know what it should be and I think that the gospel itself is this living breathing thing spirit that goes forth and it in itself it this is a controversial idea.
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00:39:42.960Some people might take offense um but that the gospel it's so far the gospel itself the because like the gospel comes in and creates transformation within people right and it changes who we are but I think that also in the same way that the gospel changes us um and takes away some of the worst parts of you know smooth out the worst parts of our edges um we change the gospel and I think that's even more true on like because you know the Bible doesn't say you a lot it says y'all a lot right it's a community driven thing and like in the community sense like the like the gospel comes in and transforms culture and nation and groups of people and it changes them from what they were into something different.
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00:40:12.719But it doesn't completely take it isn't like a it's not a force that removes who those people were right it's not like you know there's this there was this movement I know from the 90s and the 2000s of like this like everyone should like if the whole like the preaching preachers would be like if everybody followed Jesus we would be all the same and it would be like and like there's a certain way to have culture and there's a certain way to live your life and there's a certain way to do things and the gospel brings about this monoethnic culture thing.
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00:40:37.599And I don't believe that I think that the I think that there's the Bible clearly paints a picture of a multi-ethnic multicultural amalgamation of people coming to the temple of God and then and in the same way that by the gospel comes in changes a group of people but is also changed by who those people are and when it goes forth again to the next group of people it is inherently different in some ways.
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00:40:52.000And then it goes forth and like the church in itself is ever evolving in this idea of what the gospel does and how the people who last held the gospel took it forward because I think it also isn't something that exists independently of who we are.
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00:41:02.960It's something that we hand to each other and you know we accept the salvation together right it's a you know these things about me but you know it's something that we all have to do together.
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00:41:20.960Well and I think what part of what I think you're touching on is the tension of like there are certain things about the faith that remain consistent and then there are certain things that are always involving like the Lord you know prophet said I'm I'm doing a new thing which he's he's always doing a new thing.
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00:41:29.840So it's it's that figuring out like what's the essential like what do I need to continue holding on to regardless of what happens in the culture.
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00:41:32.880And then what what where is there room for creativity?
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00:41:35.760Where's there room for a new expression?
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00:41:45.920And that's and you know we s we can talk about it philosophically but in practice that's really hard to sort out and uh but I think we have to hold the tension for sure.
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00:41:53.039And I think it's in that I think there's a there's a looseness that we I think there's a looseness we should approach it with like we shouldn't be too rigid in those things.
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00:42:06.000And I know there's and but this that's that rigid that's that rigidity in those things that doesn't allow the gospel to do those things and at some point that thing breaks and we it's historically we see it happen and something new comes out of it.
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00:42:16.400And because the gospel isn't stopped right God doesn't stop moving and then there is salvation to a new group of people and it looks different afterwards.
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00:42:22.960And sometimes we chase after that and we probably should be chasing something that looks completely different than what happened before.
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00:42:26.079Because you know God did say I'm gonna do a new thing.
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00:42:35.920Well uh I have loved this conversation thank you for being willing to move on the other side of the camera and philosophize with me for a bit.
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