The Difference Between A Tough Room And A Toxic Room

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Welcome back, everyone, to Caffeinated Jiu Jitsu.
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I am super excited to continue my conversation with you around uh topics that are important in identifying a good, healthy, safe place to train.
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And in this episode, I want to talk about something that does not get named clearly enough in this sport, and that is the difference between a tough room and a very toxic room because some of the best rooms in jujitsu are absolutely hard rooms and tough rooms to train in.
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And the rounds are tough, the standards are high, people train with purpose, you get tested, you get exposed.
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If you have some weak technique or something that needs to be worked on, you have to sometimes grow up a little bit if you want to survive there.
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But hard and oh yeah, hard and unhealthy are not the same thing.
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And I think a lot of us, especially early on, confuse intensity with quality.
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I think uh people assume that if a room feels scary, harsh, reckless, or full of pressure, that must mean it's serious.
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That must mean it's producing killers and world champions.
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And that must mean it's a real thing, you know.
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Um, but sometimes what people call a tough room is actually just a room with bad leadership, bad control, bad emotional maturity, and a culture that can burn people out.
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So during this episode, I want to take a I want to break that down.
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I want to talk about what safe actually means, the difference between intensity and recklessness, what trust feels like in a good room, and why toxic rooms can look successful from the outside, and how bad culture can quietly or how bad culture culture quietly drives people out long before anybody says anything about it out loud.
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Because if we truly care about jujitsu, then we should also care about the kind of rooms people are building for us to train in.
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That's what I'm getting at, and that matters because I think there's this weird idea in martial arts sometimes that if a room cares about safety, then it must not be serious.
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Like if people are expected to train with control, protect their training partners, and respect the room, somehow that means the room and the training is watered down.
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And and I don't buy that.
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I feel a safe room, um, well, a safe room is not necessarily a soft room.
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A safe room is a room where people can actually train consistently.
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It's a room where hard rounds are possible because people know there are boundaries.
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It's a room where you can push the pace without feeling like somebody is about to do something stupid just to win a Tuesday night round.
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The best rooms usually do not feel fake, they feel very honest, the training is real, the pressure is real, the fatigue is very real.
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The expectation to improve is there and very real.
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But so is the responsibility, and that's the difference.
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In a healthy room, people understand that being hard to deal with is not the same thing as being careless.
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You can make training demanding without making it dangerous in a dumb way, and honestly, real toughness usually shows up in discipline and not chaos in a room that can train hard while still protecting its people is not soft.
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I believe that room is is very mature.
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So if safe does not mean soft, then I think the next question has to be is what actually separates intensity and or intensity from recklessness?
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Intensity and recklessness are not the same thing, in my opinion, even though they can look very, very similar.
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You see, intensity is when someone brings real pace, real pressure, real focus.
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But they're still uh but there's still control in it.
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And recklessness is much, much different.
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You see, recklessness is when somebody treats every role like a personal fight.
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They rip submissions, they move without awareness, they slam through transitions with no regard for who they're training with.
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They use uh they use they use intensity as a cover for poor control and immature behavior.
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And here is the truth.
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I think a lot of people would offend recklessness by calling it hard training, but hard training should still have a freaking brain attached to it.
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A good training partner can push you to your edge without making you feel like they are willing to injure you just to prove a point.
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And a bad training partner makes you feel when you train with them like your safety depends entirely on your ability to survive their ego, and that's not high-level culture, that's not a safe room at all, that's bad culture with good branding.
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And in this situation, leadership matters a lot because every room teaches people what gets rewarded.
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There's a saying that I love, you know, anytime we accept a standard, that standard becomes the new standard, right?
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So if a coach tolerates reckless behavior or laughs off preventable injuries or praises people for going out there and taking off heads, then the room learns the absolute wrong lesson.
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And that can be very hard to recover from, especially if it happens a lot over time.
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The room becomes very dangerous in a way that's has nothing to do with being elite or having a champion mindset or being proficient in jujitsu.
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Healthy intensity, I would say, sharpens everyone, but recklessness, in my opinion, makes people guarded, anxious, and and worse, eventually absent.
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And I think that leads me into something or it leads us into something really important because one of the clearest signs that you're in a good room is not just how hard it is, it's how much trust you feel inside that difficulty of that room.
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And you know, a good room, the biggest difference is trust, and trust in jujitsu does not mean comfort all the time.
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It does not mean every round is nice and easy, it does not mean that nobody is coming after you and wants to tap you.
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And I I experience this all the time when training with white belts or though the uh or newly promoted promoted blue belts, and I'm sure purple belts feel the same, or any of the upper belts.
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If you if you've recently been promoted, you could probably understand what I mean here.
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And what what it means is is this is even in a hard room, you know people are trying to train with you, but they're not trying to take something out of you or out on you.
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And you trust that if someone catches you in a submission, that they'll they'll give you a chance to tap.
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You trust that if you're smaller, newer, older, or coming back from injury, that somebody is not going to use that as an excuse to run over you.
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You trust that your training partners are there to build something, not just collect emotional victories.
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And I believe that that trust changes everything because when you trust the room, you can open up and you can take risks, you can try new things, you can survive bad positions without freaking out and panicking.
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You can you can train hard because your your nervous system is not depending or spending the whole round wondering whether the person you're training with is about to do something stupid.
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And that's that's a huge difference.
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You know, people improve faster in small and safe rooms, right?
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And rooms where they feel challenged and protected at the same time, uh than in rooms where they feel consistently threatened.
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I think a good room keeps you honest, and I think a toxic room makes you very, very guarded.
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And if you have ever trained in both kinds of environments, you know that difference in your body before you even have the words for it, right?
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You feel that stress, you feel that anxiety, you feel that buildup.
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But here's what makes this really, really tricky is toxic rooms don't always look toxic from the outside, right?
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They might have champions, they might have highly technical grapplers, they may have jujitsu celebrities, they may have just straight mat killers, and they may, they might have a packed competition team, you know, that goes to the regional IBJ JF opens and new breeds and all of these events and just win medal after medal.
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And they may have the coolest social media clips that make the room look sharp and clean and professional and serious and battle tested.
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And some of that may be true, right?
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It can it can all be a little bit true, but success on the outside does not automatically mean health on the inside, and that's that's the same for for us as individuals.
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We know that.
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Not just, you know, is a room toxic or not, but a room can produce tough people and still be unhealthy, is what I'm trying to say.
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A room can can win medals and still run on fear, a room can have very strong branding, but still have a culture where people feel unseen, like a number kind of disposable.
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And that's what confuses people, especially those of us who are newer to jujitsu.
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We walk in and think, this place must be amazing because look how tough everyone is.
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But what they don't see, and what we don't see right away, is is the high turnover and the quiet resentment, the politics, the clicks, the favoritisms, the injuries nobody talks about, and the people who just disappear.
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The students who stopped loving, training, maybe blame themselves and just walk away.
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Toxic rooms can look discipline from far away, and some sometimes they are just controlled by ego.
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Sometimes what looks like loyalty is really fear, and sometimes what looks like toughness is actually emotional suppression, and that does not mean every hard or competitive room is toxic.
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Not at all, not what I'm saying.
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You can't judge a book by its cover, and you can't judge the health of a room by highlight reel alone.
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And maybe, maybe the biggest sign of bad culture is not always what happens out loud or very loudly, it's what happens very, very slowly.
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Bad culture usually does not drive people out all at once.
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It happens slowly.
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People start skipping class, they avoid certain training partners, those that are gonna kind of push them and and give them you know that extra sweat.
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They stop asking questions during technique teaching, they laugh things off that actually bother them.
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Like that's one of the worst things.
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They tell themselves they are just being sensitive, start blaming themselves, they start losing the part of themselves that used to be excited to train, and then one day they just stop showing up and they're just gone.
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And that is how a lot of toxic rooms lose people, not through one giant scandal necessarily, though we see those, unfortunately.
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You know, it's not not through one failed speech, it's kind of just through accumulation, and too many bad rounds, too much ego, too much feeling unsafe, too much, too much weirdness that nobody knows is there, or that everybody knows is there, but nobody addresses.
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And the sad part about this is some rooms wear that like a badge of honor, and they act like if you could not hang, then you were never meant for it.
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How insane is that?
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But that mindset ignores something very, very important.
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Okay, not everyone who leaves was weak.
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Sometimes they were healthy enough to realize, yeah, something something's something's freaking off here.
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Things are not adding up.
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And bad culture does not just drive out fragile people, it drives out thoughtful people.
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Good training partners, good leaders, parents, beginners, women, older athletes, competitors who are tired of the drama, people who actually love jujitsu and want a room they could stay in for years.
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White belt to black belt.
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I'm gonna be here my entire jujitsu journey.
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And it doesn't turn out that way for them, sadly, sometimes.
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And when those people leave, the room usually does not reflect that.
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It just gets louder about how tough it is, and that's not strength.
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You know what that is?
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That's erosion.
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So here is the line that I would draw.
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I want to make it very, very clear that I'm not necessarily talking from experience when I talk about toxic rooms, because I have been extremely fortunate in my jujitsu journey to train in some of the best, most amazing rooms ever.
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But I know these places are out there, and I know that because not everyone that I talk to, and not everyone in my jujits jujitsu community friends circle has had the same experiences that I've had.
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And I've heard the stories, and that's where this stuff is coming from.
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And you read about the stuff on Instagram and other podcasts, right?
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I've heard uh some of the other jujitsu podcasts I've had guests on uh that have talked about topics like this.
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A tough room challenges you, but a toxic room is gonna diminish you.
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You see, a tough room is gonna test me, but it also is gonna teach me.
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But a toxic room is gonna be it's gonna confuse suffering with value.
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And a tough room is going to have standards, a toxic room is going to have excuses for poor behavior, and I think this matters because jujitsu is already hard enough mentally, physically, it can be emotionally.
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The art itself is humbling.
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Those of us that train know if you've trained more than a week in jiu-jitsu, that is humbling, and the learning curve is very, very steep for all of us.
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The physical demand is real.
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You do not need a dysfunctional culture added on top of all of that for training to count.
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So, healthy intensity is one of the best things in this sport.
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It can change you for the better, it can sharpen your discipline, your patience, your confidence, and most of all, your character.
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But look, unhealthy culture can quietly take away your trust, your joy, your reason for showing up.
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It can stop your passion from brewing.
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So if you you're in a room that is hard, ask yourself some of these questions.
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Do I feel challenged here or do I feel diminished?
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Do I feel like I'm being sharpened and that my Technique is getting better, or do I just feel unsafe all the time?
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Do is everybody that I'm training with, you know, I worry that they're going to, you know, judo throw me, hip toss me as hard as they can onto the ground.
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Do I feel like people want me to grow?
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Or do I feel like I am surviving somebody else's ego?
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You know, our last guest, uh, Anseline Armstrong talked a little bit about this around, you know, she has trained in places before where she felt like she alluded to this, um, but that people should not be upset when somebody beats them.
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They should be excited for them, especially if it's somebody that typically doesn't beat them.
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You know, there should be no ego here, right?
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If I could rid the jujitsu world of one thing, if I had a magic wand, if I had the elder wand, I would do away with all things ego and jujitsu.
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Because these things are the difference, that's the difference, and it matters earlier than most people realize.
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I think it's important for all of us, those of us who have been training in our gyms for a long time to do this type of inventory about our gym.
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And those of you who are out there maybe gym shopping and looking for a new home because you had to relocate for a job or school or you know, um maybe you're just looking for a change.
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I don't know.
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Whatever reason for the move, make sure you're evaluating the place you're going to hang your ghe, right?
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And that you're going to train and spend time at.
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But understand that even though it looks hard from the outside, it may not be toxic.
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Or it may be.
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You just have to evaluate what type of room you're getting yourself into.
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So look, if this if this episode hits home with you, you know, share it with someone in your academy or someone who is trying to find that right place to train.
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Because I think there's one more topic that I'm going to cover uh in the next episode that's going to kind of round out this finding the perfect place to train series that this has kind of become.
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I'm not going to share that topic now, but um if there are any episodes that you listen to on Caffeinated Jiu-Jitsu more than once, it's it's this episode or it's these episodes within this topic.
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You know, and if you've you've ever experienced the difference between a tough room and toxic room, that lesson probably changed how you see jujitsu forever.
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And if that's the case, I would love to hear your story.
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It's uh it's gone further, it's expanded more broader when it comes to topics.
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Um early on, I didn't talk about topics like this, but now that I've got some time under my little blue belt, these are these are topics that are important to me, and hopefully they're important to you.
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