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00:00:33.039Um and then we both got a bunch of shit to do.
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00:00:44.960Well, I've kind of if we talk about the exhibit, I'd rather lead into it maybe with this.
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00:00:50.560So if yours is not like like super specific to photography.
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00:00:56.479Um it's all related though, right, Alex?
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00:01:02.880So this is uh Rainier, uh Maria Rilke and um Reinier.
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00:01:04.480How do you the German?
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00:01:06.319Like you gotta really lean into it, right?
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00:01:08.799It's can it's um Camus.
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00:01:16.319But Rilke is a um is a poet at the turn of the 20th century.
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00:01:22.719And um this is a a little collection of letters, and it's it's called Letters to a Young Poet.
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00:01:35.840Uh this is a letter he wrote to someone, correspondence or he?
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00:01:38.239Correspondence, so yeah, he's replying to a letter.
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00:01:44.480Replying to the letter, he and this is this is from a younger, like uh presumably younger poet.
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00:01:51.359He's like 25 in this anyway, so it's funny, but he only lived to like 51, um, as people did in the late.
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00:01:54.560I think he I think he lived to probably 51 or 52.
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00:02:01.599So he's yeah, what 20.
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00:02:05.680Yeah, if he's born in 1875, he's about 28 years old here.
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00:02:11.680Um, anyways, uh I'm just gonna read a passage.
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00:02:12.800I'm not gonna read the whole letter.
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00:02:24.560The letters are phenomenal, and he's I mean, if you've read any of his poetry or any of his novels or anything, like which I have never heard of him, so yeah, and I would I would highly recommend checking it out, or maybe you can.
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00:02:33.280I I mean I can always just let you borrow this and you can get a measure of like if you like it, but it's very just expansive and um beautiful writing.
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00:02:47.919Um he says, but he's talking about um being a critic here because the gentleman who was corresponding with sent him some verse and was essentially like, hey, um, like what do you think?
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00:02:55.039Yeah, and I think this is a really interesting and and um from my perspective, agreeable response.
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00:03:00.719And then he actually does get into providing critique in a useful sense, yeah.
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00:03:02.560But I'll just jump in.
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00:03:19.919The reason that this has been top of mind was um I don't know, I've just been thinking about like the role of the critic a little bit lately, um and how much emphasis we put on it, and then also just um how disconnected it can be.
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00:03:41.680I I don't know, I was very frustrated when we left um the photography exhibition just because of the like and I mean this isn't like there they're they weren't being like critical or anything, but it was just a very like one-sided, very narrow-minded perspective on all of this like amazing work.
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00:03:47.120And it really, in my mind, did a really big like large disservice to the work.
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00:03:58.319I'm like, it's your job to go around and promote this work, and you're just not doing not doing a good job was I guess the the takeaway in my mind.
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00:04:04.000I just yeah, I just didn't think and these were like the the the curator of the collection or whatever.
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00:04:14.319Um and yeah, I guess I had this top of mind kind of going into that, and so I revisited it on um I guess Saturday morning or yeah, whatever.
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00:04:24.399Um, the the letter that reached out to him was very um personal and like very open.
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00:04:28.319So I like his immediate response is your letter only reached me a few days ago.
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00:04:31.680Let me thank you for the great and endearing trust it shows.
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00:04:35.040Um there is little more I can do.
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00:04:39.920I cannot go into the nature of your verses, for any critical intention is too remote for me.
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00:04:44.079There's nothing less apt to touch a work of art than critical words.
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00:04:49.040All we end up with there is more or less felicitous misunderstandings.
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00:04:54.399Things are not all graspable and sayable, as on the whole we are led to believe.
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00:05:08.240Most events are unsayable, occur in a space that no word has ever penetrated, and most unsayable of all are works of art, mysterious existences whose life endures alongside ours, which passes away.
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00:05:24.319And then um the next is having begun with this preliminary remark, all I will go on to say is that your verses have no identity of their own, though they do have tacit and concealed hints of something personal.
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00:05:28.560I feel that most clearly in the last poem, My Soul.
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00:05:32.480There something individual is trying to come into words to find its manner.
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00:05:40.399And in the lovely poem to Leopardi, perhaps a kind of affinity with this great and solitary man develops.
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00:05:47.279Still, the poems are not yet anything in themselves, nothing self-sufficient, not even the last one to Leopardi.
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00:06:00.639The kind letter you wrote accompanying them does not make me fail, does not fail to make many of these shortcomings I sense in your reading in reading your verses explicable.
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00:06:10.160Without for all that being able to give them a name, without for all that being able to give them a name.
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00:06:15.519You ask whether your verses are good, you ask me that, you have asked others before.
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00:06:24.000You send them to magazines, you compare them with other poems, and now you worry when certain ev editors turn your efforts down.
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00:06:30.800Now, since you have allowed me to offer you advice, let me ask you to give all of that up.
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00:06:51.199You I'm just gonna reread that because I think that's an important little thing.
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00:07:03.839Go into yourself, examine the reason that bid you to write.
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00:07:07.759Check whether it reaches its roots into the deepest region of your heart.
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00:07:12.240Admit to yourself whether you would die if it should be denied you to write.
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00:07:17.680This, above all, ask yourself in your night's quietest hour, must I write?
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00:07:30.879And if it should be affirmative, if it is given to you to respond to this serious question with a loud and simple I must, then construct your life according to this necessity.
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00:07:38.639Your life writes into its most inconsequential and slightest hour must become a sign and witness of this urge.
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00:07:46.560Then approach nature, then try, like the first human being, to say what you see and experience in love and lose.
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00:08:01.680They are the hardest, for you need great maturity and strength to produce something of your own in a domain where good and sometimes brilliant examples have been handed down to us in abundance.
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00:08:27.199I'm just gonna keep reading the whole letter at this point, but yeah, I think that's um we we really just sweeping statement here, but I think just yeah, my observation, or at least my personal experience is we tend to look outward um for mostly for reassurance.
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00:08:30.079Like we're just hoping for reassurance, like this is good, right?
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00:08:44.080And um we kind of lose a bit of ourselves in that because we live in a world at the time where I I think most people are always gonna be willing to give an opinion.
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00:08:46.639People love giving an opinion.
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00:09:01.440You kind of have to go inside to to do that.
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00:09:06.960So I I don't know, I've just been thinking about the critic in that context lately.
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00:09:07.440Yeah.
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00:09:22.159And um yeah, I mean that was top of mind and maybe led to some of the frustrated response or reaction from from our um our evening the other day, but I really enjoyed the photographs.
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00:09:25.919Um, as did I.
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00:09:31.279And I just I'm trying to think uh before we go into that a little bit more.
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00:09:38.000I just wanted to think about a few of the things that were said in the letter that struck me.
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00:09:50.879You know, and this is me reading between the lines, not necessarily of the writer of the letter, but the writer of the original letter.
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00:09:58.799And like he's pointing out, you know, you're looking to these external things, uh, editors and other people, me.
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00:10:16.240Um and you know, this is just pure speculation, but just you know, it's it's it's it's the feeling that I get is um what I have to imagine when anyone embarks on a risky endeavor.
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00:10:36.480Um, obviously if if it's it makes it makes me concerned that the that the writer is like choosing a uh choosing a craft and focused on the rewards that that craft might bring if you do good work.
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00:10:40.159Um whether it's being published good work, yeah.
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00:11:01.039The the money that you would get from it, the recognition, you know, all of the all of these the these these results that some people yearn for when they set out to do something um a little bit more from a a cerebral place than a instinctive place.
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00:11:29.600And I I mean I don't know anything about the guy who wrote the letter to this man, but um to be so caught up in submitting your work and getting published, I have to imagine that validation is really um creating maybe some inner inner turmoil that puts this person in a position to seek out all these external places uh validating him.
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00:11:34.639And it, you know, again, I think that people people in that position struggle all the time.
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00:11:41.679And I don't know if it's necessarily the root cause of that is someone chose to be a writer versus someone, you know, has no choice.
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00:11:45.600It just pours out of them and they just make the work, you know.
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00:12:13.759Um I've certainly felt uh times where the stuff that I'm doing has nothing to do with external validation, how many views I get, if someone accepts me for this or publishes me or gives me money for this or that, but then other times where I'm very conscious of that and in a sort of insecure place where I want to get all this stuff out and and get the validation or sort of like, am I on the right track with this risky endeavor that I'm taking on?
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00:12:16.799Um, so I can make other people in my life feel complicated.
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00:12:20.639Like writing to a different, like an external voice, I guess.
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00:12:28.000Yeah, you're you're using that as a guide, or not writing, but you're creating whatever you're doing towards that voice rather than your own voice.
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00:12:28.879Yeah.
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00:12:30.799Do you notice the conflict ever?
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00:12:32.639Like, is there like is your voice present?
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00:12:34.320Does that voice drown yours out?
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00:12:35.519What's your experience?
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00:12:45.840Yeah, I mean, you know, you just look at the screenwriting pursuit and it's sort of like, well, there's this thing I want to write that I, you know, I feel deeply that I'm that I'm connected to, but it's not commercial enough.
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00:13:06.240So how do I shape my work to be accepted by readers at agencies um to get, you know, um good reviews on the blacklist website for my manager to to you know think is a viable thing that they can invest their time in on speculation to uh to get purchased.
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00:13:28.000So it kind of um and and you know, this is uh uh pursuing screenwriting is very risky, but it's what's very risky about it is if you pursue it with that mentality rather than the mentality I think that is starting from your well, he's just writing, writing, you know, writing um without any without those things in mind.
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00:13:36.399And he's calling this young man out uh on it and um very tactfully though.
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00:13:38.399Yeah, yeah, very respectfully, I think.
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00:13:45.600Yeah, diplomatic and I think it's probably the best advice that you could give anybody who's trying to do something, yeah.
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00:13:50.000Like in a creative endeavor or creative field.
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00:14:02.960Because I mean, and I we've talked about this before, and we've both have experiences with people who are critical about work or something, or they think that they are yeah.
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00:14:05.679Like Yeah.
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00:14:16.240I I we'll have to this isn't the episode, I think, to get into like the importance of the critic, but we should definitely think about that a little bit and maybe talk about it a little more.
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00:14:32.720Yeah, I I I uh yeah, the uh an episode on criticism would be interesting to especially if we could bring, you know, we didn't just sort of arrive at it in the moment and there was it'd be cool to bring in somebody who is a crit.
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00:14:35.759That's tough because you do risk.
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00:14:46.720Obviously, if that's all you do, then you're probably gonna see that as a very like it's not gonna help it's not gonna be helpful for us to get in and be like, critics suck.
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00:14:46.960Yeah.
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00:14:52.879And then they're like, Well, I've devoted, you know, a decade of my life or two decades of my life to this.
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00:14:53.440Right.
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00:14:55.120This is why it's super important.
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00:14:57.279Like you're never gonna shift that understanding.
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00:14:59.679Yeah, we're never gonna synthesize that.
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00:15:02.240Maybe we do, but it's probably not.
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00:15:04.480So maybe that's not as useful.
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00:15:08.879But yeah, it would be cool to see that perspective.
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00:15:13.039Like, because I I I even me, like I think that there is some value to a critic.
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00:15:14.000Yeah.
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00:15:17.919In sorting what's good, what's bad.
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00:15:25.519Uh I mean good and bad, but like what is informed or what is like drawing on what has been done.
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00:15:56.799Like the critic's job is almost to in a sense understand what's come before and not place in in like some kind of linear order, but just to maybe see a little bit clearly some of the conversations that might not be um may have not been the intention, but are there with the work and how it kind of communicates with us as a species.
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00:16:20.879Well, I think another interesting aspect of you know, a critic, obviously, you know, like you we tend to think of the sort of um uh you know, the movie critic, you know, is sort of like the most sort of immediately thought of thought of person who provides criticism as uh a vocation.
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00:16:43.279Uh I I was just thinking of um, you know, different situations where someone, you know, a mentor mentee, you know, a mentor is in some ways, maybe they shouldn't, but in some ways critical, you know, uh you have an aspiring chef and they're in that person's kitchen to learn what to do, and they are given the opportunity to create their own dish.
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00:16:51.200And that chef maybe you know, destructively or constructively gives critical feedback on that.
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00:17:21.920Um and not to say that that's the same thing as someone who, you know, cr criticiz you know, is a critic for movies or art or whatever, um, as a job, but there's um there's a usefulness, I think, in certain situations, to criticism for someone who is um making things and putting them out there, uh, and especially in a mentor-mentee relationship.
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00:17:41.759And I, you know, I know the difference between a director releasing a film and a critic criticizing it, and someone in a position of um authority uh helping uh a student essentially learn how to execute a craft and have better judgment or taste or whatever.
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00:17:51.519But it is all over the place, and we definitely levied, and I try to always be have you know a more constructive point of view.
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00:17:57.440You know, this is what I was hoping for, this is what I felt it was, um, this is how I felt about it.
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00:18:14.640Um there's not a really strong point to all this, and I'm and and which is funny because that's one of the issues we had with the the talk, or at least I had with the talk before the um before the um the exhibition.
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00:18:52.000It just seemed more concerned with itself than, or like they seemed more concerned with their image that they were projecting to a crowd of people than actually one you came in with a hyper focused, like this is what this work represents to us, and you're just almost stripping away ambiguo like any kind of ambiguity gets stripped away because you're immediately trying to contextualize through your vision of the world.
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00:18:52.880Yeah.
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00:19:08.720And I don't think that's very helpful with photography, and photography is really interesting, and one thing they got close to and they didn't really talk about is like photography is an interesting medium, more so than a lot, because you do kind of have two distinct parallels.
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00:19:15.119You have documentary photography, which is essentially propaganda.
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00:19:24.319Um, but I mean, and I don't mean that in like an offensive way, but do you mean like like what you would see in Life magazine, that kind of thing?
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00:19:57.519Yeah, yeah, and like that the history of photography is made up of and I mean I guess you could do this with a lot of different things because you could be like, oh well, film is like there's a lot of Hollywood films or genre films and things like that, but photography is interesting though because it is so it is so you yeah, you have that documentary history and then you do have a bit more of like an expressionistic like art artistic side, and sometimes those things cross over and sometimes they don't.
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00:20:20.799Um but I mean orienting everything around the idea of like photography helps us find fact just seems like a really narrow and like kind of unthoughtful perspective on a gallery of work where and they're like showing photos and commenting on the compositions, and it just seemed like they were more interested in having it.
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00:20:24.000It's like you get called on in class, and you're just like, I just have to answer.
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00:20:46.079Yeah, so the teacher will go to somebody else, yeah, rather than being thoughtful about like, oh well, this is a rectangle and it's in the large format because large format, and yeah, there's like a clear, not real understanding of what large format is, but like there's a couple of words that you can throw in there to make it seem like you know what you're talking about.
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00:20:47.440I don't know, that was my experience.
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00:20:50.960Maybe I'm being really negative, and I tend to be a little negative on things like this.
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00:21:03.440Yeah, sometimes I tend to just be a negative person, but um well, I I mean, we just I my last talk at the Jocelyn or the Jocelyn was uh Alex Soth.
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00:21:05.920And it was just the complete opposite.
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00:21:08.880Yeah, it was just thoughtful and interesting the whole time.
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00:21:15.359And there were like three or four different moments where and like a 30-minute talk where I'm just like, oh man, I haven't looked at that that way.
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00:21:16.000That's interesting.
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00:21:34.240Or like, oh man, and there's just like this selflessness that he kind of exudes where he's just like, I'm just in the same boat, like I'm just figuring these things out just like you are, and like approaching his own work as if he was a stranger, but willing to give the context on it, but then being like, and here's some things I've just been thinking about.
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00:21:42.000I'm just like, man, I relate to that so much more than I relate to like somebody trying to I don't know.
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00:21:59.759Well, just to just give a little bit of context for the audience if they're uh if they're swimming a little bit, we went to the opening night of an exhibition at the Jocelyn Art Museum here in Omaha that Alex and I and uh and a few others attended, but he and I in particular were very excited about it because.
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00:22:03.599They don't often have a lot of photography at the Jocelyn.
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00:22:06.559It's mostly painting, sculpture, abstract art, that sort of thing.
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00:22:10.160And they have had photography, but in very small amounts.
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00:22:12.480Usually it's like of a series.
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00:22:15.920Like there was a Union Pacific series on the railroad, which is really cool.
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00:22:17.920But it was they were Polaroid photographs.
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00:22:19.119That Polaroid series.
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00:22:20.319Yeah, the Polaroids.
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00:22:26.640Um and they have um some Medrucher, or they did have some Medrucher.
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00:22:27.599That's right.
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00:22:50.400So we paid for the opening exhibit, and it included a opening conversation between the assistant curator of 20th century art and the gentleman who was the curator for the museum who held this collection, the Carter, the Carter Museum.
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00:22:52.880Um, no relation to Alex.
00:22:53.119 -->
00:22:54.799And um Uncle Joe.
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00:23:04.000We went into the theater at the Jocelyn and, you know, they sat down and had a slideshow and discussed the exhibit and the photographs there within.
00:23:04.799 -->
00:23:06.559Alex has given his feelings on it.
00:23:06.799 -->
00:23:09.279Yeah, I was gonna say I don't want to psych up all the oxygen on this.
00:23:09.359 -->
00:23:23.839Like so I had a hard time getting to sort of like a next level of constructive criticism beyond just focusing on to me what felt like something that was not well prepared.
00:23:24.000 -->
00:23:24.319Yeah.
00:23:24.640 -->
00:23:37.359And, you know, I'm all for, you know, me and Alex sitting down, kind of the premise of what we do is like we don't come in with um we don't come in with a topic.
00:23:37.440 -->
00:23:46.160It would be interesting to do an episode like that where we really had like, you know, and we've had some where both you and I read the same thing.
00:23:46.240 -->
00:24:06.799We have passages that we've highlighted, like we know we want to discuss it, but we haven't like made a slideshow, like each of us, and and like had talking, not talking points, but questions we wanted to ask, or points we wanted to hit on the artist's background, or the the technical um things that went into making the photograph, the context of the photograph, whatever.
00:24:07.119 -->
00:24:17.440And so I just felt like it was and and this is not you know me having any personal things against the the the two presenters.
00:24:17.599 -->
00:24:25.839Um it's an art form in itself and a craft in itself to lead a talk before the launch of an exhibit at a museum.
00:24:26.079 -->
00:25:02.480I just felt like it was the like the slideshow, like, yep, the text and the graphics and the pictures, like there was some work in here, but that there wasn't enough preparation between the two of them about what they wanted to talk about and to think critically themselves about how to talk about the work, and especially not from a deeply subjective point of view or sort of a declarative empirical point of view, like this is what this photo means, or and they didn't do a lot of that, but there was one photo you and I were struggling with.
00:25:02.720 -->
00:25:03.680They did a little for sure.
00:25:03.920 -->
00:25:17.119Yeah, that where it was sort of like this is us being critics of their I think the the thing for me is I just I'm just upset about paying fifteen dollars to to listen to them.
00:25:17.359 -->
00:25:20.480Because I you always call it unlocking the gate.
00:25:20.720 -->
00:25:21.039Yeah.
00:25:21.279 -->
00:25:26.880Like you that's the the whole point of a pre exhibition talk.
00:25:26.960 -->
00:25:44.640If you're gonna like if you're gonna take it back to like a first principle perspective, the entire point from my point of view, which obviously take that into context, but you want to get people excited to go see the photographs, not because you're dying at the talk and you're just like let me go see.
00:25:44.880 -->
00:25:47.359Maybe that was the tactic, and if so, they totally achieved it.
00:25:47.440 -->
00:25:48.960So yeah, kudos.
00:25:50.079 -->
00:26:26.559Um because you yeah, Alex and I, they a lot of the people in the audience were able to go through the exhibit before the talk, and I purposely didn't want to look at them because I was really excited about and had um somewhat lofty expectations of what the talk would do to just open the exhibition, unlock the work and give you a f a couple of things to look at or to see or to think about, not just I mean, the most surface level nonsense that you can come up with.
00:26:26.880 -->
00:26:36.400And so because I was, you know, having come from you know theater training and all that, and I I am not like the most perfect public speaker, you know.
00:26:36.480 -->
00:26:39.359I obviously in my YouTube videos, there's many that are scripted.
00:26:39.440 -->
00:26:42.720I use a teleprompter, I have the benefit of that.
00:26:42.880 -->
00:26:53.359Um, I have done some presentations um online to an audience um for other organizations where I have a slideshow and I'm talking about stuff.
00:26:53.519 -->
00:26:58.160I've done live streams where I'm talking about like a prepared thing.
00:26:58.400 -->
00:27:18.960And I'm not sitting here saying like I set the set the bar and I have a gold standard, but I'm like, I sit there and go, this has to be you know, communicating um the things that I think are most interesting or compelling about what the material is, something that engages the audience.
00:27:19.119 -->
00:27:27.200Um, you know, so I'm really focused on the craft of people coming to listen to what I have to say.
00:27:27.839 -->
00:27:34.240Um and so because I have done these before, and again, they're not perfect.
00:27:34.319 -->
00:27:47.200I'm not like I, you know, I'm not like the master of these things, but I feel like they were it was so far below even what I do on a live stream on YouTube about a video editing software.
00:27:47.359 -->
00:27:47.920Yeah.
00:27:48.240 -->
00:27:59.920And I felt like, and this is before I knew that like the legends of photography in the 20th century and 21st century were gonna be there.
00:28:00.000 -->
00:28:02.240I did not know Alex Soth had a photograph in there.
00:28:02.319 -->
00:28:08.559I didn't know Gary Winnegrand, Gregory Crudson, um, Robert Freud, Robert Adams, Gordon Parks.
00:28:08.720 -->
00:28:14.880Um, I didn't know that those photos were in there, but I knew there were gonna be some special work in there.
00:28:15.119 -->
00:28:25.119And so I just was I was I just felt it didn't match what was the power of William Eglinton being shown.
00:28:25.359 -->
00:28:26.400Yeah, William Egleston.
00:28:26.559 -->
00:28:28.319I got to look at a William Egleston print.
00:28:28.400 -->
00:28:30.400Like I'm sitting there like, holy shit.
00:28:30.559 -->
00:28:33.200Yeah, and I you know, so I don't know.
00:28:33.279 -->
00:28:41.759I I I yeah, I mean, I guess like I think the real frustration on my part is just and I'm not frustrated, like like I we made a donation to the museum.
00:28:41.839 -->
00:28:42.240Uh yeah.
00:28:42.559 -->
00:28:42.960That's fine.
00:28:43.119 -->
00:28:50.720Yeah, and I think you know, you speak with you vote with your dollar or whatever is the is the term that gets thrown around.
00:28:51.039 -->
00:28:53.200Yeah, hey, more photography, please.
00:28:53.440 -->
00:28:54.960Like yes, that too, yeah.
00:28:55.119 -->
00:28:55.839This is great.
00:28:55.920 -->
00:28:59.920We we like exhibits like this, please do more.
00:29:00.160 -->
00:29:01.759Um, so I'm not upset.
00:29:01.920 -->
00:29:04.480I mean, I would have liked my time.
00:29:04.880 -->
00:29:15.279Like I would have, I mean, you know, it's not the worst thing ever, but I just, you know, I try to not waste time on something.
00:29:15.440 -->
00:29:15.839Yeah.
00:29:16.079 -->
00:29:19.119Try to find something good from every conversation.
00:29:19.279 -->
00:29:26.960But sometimes there's just things where people are so guarded or the situation is so off that it's really gonna be hard to get an authentic takeaway.
00:29:27.359 -->
00:29:29.839Well, and I and I feel like That's my critique.
00:29:30.000 -->
00:29:34.400I I get that we, you know, it's very it's it's it's a struggle for public speaking.
00:29:34.559 -->
00:29:44.160It's um, you know, we we tend to have, you know, I imagine with um uh the woman who led the talk that she has a lot on her plate.
00:29:44.240 -->
00:29:48.319I'm not trying to make excuses, but I get all the pressures and the things going on.
00:29:48.799 -->
00:30:27.839Um but I felt like I was just watching two people manage a slightly prepared presentation poorly um and struggling to like like I just felt like I was watching people manage the the str the the the obstacle of just conducting a uh a talk and it and and anything that they they thought they were going into of any substance, they couldn't get past the level of just managing a competent talk.
00:30:28.079 -->
00:30:43.039Yeah, it didn't so if they tried to say something with a little bit more depth or articulation about this or that, and and I have a feeling that this gentleman knows what large format photography is, but he was so they were so busy managing just doing the talk.
00:30:43.200 -->
00:30:46.160Yeah, like you couldn't I'm not I'm not like attacking, yeah.
00:30:46.240 -->
00:30:52.559I mean, anyways, I I I don't think it's super useful to continue to be critical.
00:30:52.720 -->
00:30:53.680I'd rather get to that.
00:30:53.759 -->
00:31:04.640What do you think of the actual I I just want to make sure that that that my the focus of my criticism is articulated.
00:31:05.039 -->
00:31:09.519Yours was more on what was said, and mine was more on the execution.
00:31:10.319 -->
00:31:19.440Um and I I just yeah want to see more preparation and I just yeah, give me a better experience.
00:31:19.599 -->
00:31:25.920Just pay Alex Soth another however many thousand dollars to get back in there and I missed it.
00:31:26.079 -->
00:31:27.200Let him open the exhibition.
00:31:27.599 -->
00:31:29.680I was out of town for that one, which sucks.
00:31:30.000 -->
00:31:56.400I mean, it just goes to show though, like it's not about how prepared you are or what it's just kind of more I think you're gonna give more value or more you're gonna if if you make a gaff on stage and it is you know, or or you somebody asks a question or you you get into a situation and you're just like I'm not really familiar with that, or like I'm having a hard time kind of like that.
00:31:56.559 -->
00:31:58.079Happens, that happens to humans.
00:31:58.160 -->
00:32:03.279Sometimes you're just like, like, I know what that is, but I'm not at familiar enough to really get into detail about it.
00:32:03.359 -->
00:32:05.359You can just say that, yeah, and then move on.
00:32:05.599 -->
00:32:06.160Right.
00:32:07.119 -->
00:32:43.599But if you're willing to risk kind of some authentic, here's like my thinking, but then put that into the context that it is just your thinking, I think that's a lot more interesting than some prepared, you know, really poorly done elevator pitch about some things, and you try to like squeeze some obscure knowledge or terms into that aren't even that obscure, but maybe to a general audience, and yeah, I don't know, it just felt very performative, and I it's not what I wanted from the work, but getting into the work, what do you yeah, what do you think?
00:32:43.759 -->
00:32:54.960I mean, I don't have a lot of comments, but it's pretty I mean, I was just and they did a great job, like I didn't pay too much attention to something Audrey and I talked about um driving home.
00:32:55.039 -->
00:32:58.480Just did you notice anything like specific with the curation?
00:32:59.200 -->
00:33:06.799Um, and I didn't really notice any like maybe there was a theme or something that I missed or how it was curated, but I didn't really but yeah, it was just nice.
00:33:06.880 -->
00:33:09.519I mean, it was nice, they did a a good job.
00:33:09.599 -->
00:33:14.240It wasn't like no, I well, and I think that's sometimes the difficulty of a collection.
00:33:14.319 -->
00:33:15.759I don't well balanced, yeah.
00:33:15.920 -->
00:33:57.839I don't know that the people who you know, the Carter family or whoever it was that put this collection together, you know, like I have to imagine it's sort of like a combination of what's actually available to obtain under the umbrella of 20th century photographers that are, you know, everything from just William Eggleston out with a camera photographing something or Gary Winnegrand to um Gregory Cruson having an entire team of people stage a photograph to someone who's on assignment for Life magazine, um and it you know is like photographing something gun, yeah.
00:33:57.920 -->
00:34:00.720Yeah, very specific, you know, versus something he discovered.
00:34:01.119 -->
00:34:20.239Do you think that um they're they're definitely not sending the I I'm not familiar with the Carter collection, like I haven't been to the Carter Museum in Texas or anything like that, but I would think they're definitely not touring their like most prized prints or things like that, right?
00:34:20.559 -->
00:34:21.599Yeah, I don't know, yeah.
00:34:21.760 -->
00:34:36.719Hard hard to know, and I don't know how many how if this was the whole collection, if it was just a sample of it, what the you know decisions went into of um which ones to pick, which ones to not certainly wasn't because they did say that the collection was like the largest, yeah.
00:34:36.960 -->
00:34:42.960I think one of they said one of the largest collections of of uh photography in the world, I think is what they said.
00:34:43.360 -->
00:34:47.440Not just American, I think they said like all photography.
00:34:47.679 -->
00:34:48.159Yeah.
00:34:48.400 -->
00:35:00.880So so um uh so there's you know a lot of those variables that play in sort of assessing the collection.
00:35:01.199 -->
00:35:11.440Um, you know, did that family collect things based on what they liked, how it fit with the rest of the collection, all these very you know, variables uh go into it.
00:35:11.599 -->
00:35:45.599But you know, my first layer of reaction was just holy shit, there's an Eggleston, holy shit, there's a Wintigran, you know, like I'm just kind of going through that first run and processing these photographers that I've you know looked at their books, watched videos on them, you know, all of that stuff, watched documentaries, uh, and just sort of processing the names, like who's in here and who isn't, um, a little bit of processing technical things, which you know, cameras were used, the print quality, you know, all that stuff.
00:35:45.920 -->
00:35:57.119Um, and then try, you know, knowing that I, you know, would walk another lap and sort of process everything a little bit more from what was actually in the photograph.
00:35:57.519 -->
00:36:08.000Um, and then uh and then knowing that I would come back probably multiple times, even though it's ten bucks a pop if we want to go back and see it.
00:36:08.320 -->
00:36:09.440So that's what I also figured.
00:36:09.519 -->
00:36:12.000I was like, uh, paid like five bucks for this talk.
00:36:12.400 -->
00:36:13.119It's not too bad.
00:36:13.360 -->
00:36:13.519Right.
00:36:13.920 -->
00:36:14.480Whatever.
00:36:14.719 -->
00:36:17.840So it was worth it for just to see the theater in use.
00:36:18.159 -->
00:36:19.119Yeah, which was crazy.
00:36:19.199 -->
00:36:26.239I like to not know this entire massive room was even in the museum, um, and then get to experience that was pretty incredible.
00:36:26.719 -->
00:36:35.280So yeah, I think the the sort of starstruck aspect of it was like the biggest thing that hit me.
00:36:35.519 -->
00:36:41.840Um and then uh and then going through and actually taking in the photos.
00:36:42.000 -->
00:36:53.599Um the ones that struck me that I wasn't expecting the Gregory Crudson really hit because it's a massive print, I mean, and beautifully detailed and and all that.
00:36:53.760 -->
00:37:01.119And while that type of photography is not my personal preference, it I was yeah, yeah, very deeply affected by it.
00:37:01.360 -->
00:37:03.039And I wasn't expecting that.
00:37:03.519 -->
00:37:08.239Um and then yeah, that one large portrait of the two black women in their home.
00:37:08.480 -->
00:37:10.079Yeah, that was crazy.
00:37:10.559 -->
00:37:11.360Crazy good, yeah.
00:37:11.599 -->
00:37:17.679Yeah, and then Alex Soath had a photograph there as well, which was a massive print um a portrait.
00:37:17.920 -->
00:37:34.400Yeah, so so that's my sort of bumbling through a star-struck person who's just sort of like going, wow, like a print that William Eggleston had made or made is like I can look at it and be two inches away from it if I want to.
00:37:34.639 -->
00:37:36.000Pretty powerful.
00:37:38.239 -->
00:37:43.519We um one thing that we noticed, yeah, there wasn't like Walker Evans, there wasn't any Walker Evans.
00:37:44.079 -->
00:37:46.559Um Alfred Stieglitz, I don't think.
00:37:46.960 -->
00:37:47.760No Stephen Shore.
00:37:48.159 -->
00:37:49.440Yeah, no, yeah.
00:37:50.239 -->
00:37:53.599Um you said uh uh Joel Meyerowitz.
00:37:53.840 -->
00:37:54.559Joel Meyerowitz.
00:37:54.800 -->
00:38:00.559Just in like notable, much talked about 20th century photographers, I guess.
00:38:00.960 -->
00:38:07.599Why am I blanking on the gentleman from Vancouver color photography, 50s and 60s?
00:38:08.239 -->
00:38:13.119I I can't I was just what looking through his book too, and I'm probably blanking on his name.
00:38:13.840 -->
00:38:18.480Um with the like barbershop photo color.
00:38:18.639 -->
00:38:25.199Um it just blows me away that it can just be a complete void around somebody's name.
00:38:25.519 -->
00:38:28.239Somebody's just like what do they they call it ghost screen?
00:38:28.480 -->
00:38:29.920Yeah, just yeah.
00:38:30.159 -->
00:38:33.840And that's not I'm not pointing these out to say that there was disappointment.
00:38:33.920 -->
00:38:35.039Um I don't know.
00:38:36.239 -->
00:38:39.199And I'm I mean, I'm sure they have some of these works in the actual collection.
00:38:39.599 -->
00:38:42.400Helen Levitt didn't see anything, you know.
00:38:42.480 -->
00:38:48.639Um uh so yeah, they may have works in those collections, and if they did, like let's go to Dallas Fort Worth and check this out.
00:38:48.800 -->
00:39:02.079Cause um Well, I'm sure that uh the Dallas collection is probably I'm sure they have a permanent exhibition, yeah, likely, and then they tour like this is definitely yeah, their B work, their C work, especially if it's making it to Omaha.
00:39:02.400 -->
00:39:14.559And I think seeing an exhibit like this, you know, the thing that I'm excited about as far as the Jocelyn goes is how does this pave the way for more exhibitions?
00:39:15.440 -->
00:39:21.280And personally, a exhibition that I would prefer is one that's dedicated to a single artist.
00:39:21.599 -->
00:39:34.239You know, I certainly like, you know, I'm interested in the idea of a curator sort of compiling multiple photographs from various artists, but it is a little bit subjective to me when that happens.
00:39:34.400 -->
00:39:37.920Um, and obviously if an artist has a gallery, it's subjective as well.
00:39:38.000 -->
00:39:40.880But I like the subjectivity of the artist rather than the curator.
00:39:40.960 -->
00:39:41.119Yeah.
00:39:41.199 -->
00:39:50.159Um, personally, I don't dislike a curator's subjectivity, but um well, a curator is always somewhat involved in the meaning, and obviously there's like geographical constraints.
00:39:50.480 -->
00:39:50.880Collaboration.
00:39:51.760 -->
00:40:09.840But so I I would hope that you know, and we had Alex Alex Soth had a small exhibition at the Jocelyn, but I really would like to see, to be completely honest, I would love to see a single artist in the area that was dedicated to this exhibition.
00:40:10.079 -->
00:40:26.559If not, if it was a you know, someone with really prolific work, that entire Yeah, you'd have to have you have to have a lot of work to that entire wing, or if two artists, you know, there's there's there's two that they they have, um, one on one side, one on the other.
00:40:26.960 -->
00:40:37.519Um, but I do think that the Jostla needs to incorporate photography more, and that's very much a um self, selfish um uh hope of mine.
00:40:37.679 -->
00:40:48.400Um well some museums have just photography almost like just a section of gallery walled off where it's just this is photography.
00:40:48.559 -->
00:40:48.719Yeah.
00:40:48.960 -->
00:40:55.840And there's always, I mean, obviously, we're talking like pretty massive museums here, but I think that's a interesting idea.
00:40:56.000 -->
00:40:58.960I think it's probably worth yeah.
00:40:59.039 -->
00:41:19.679I mean, if if you're gonna run an art museum in the 21st century, like and the Johnson likes to like appear to be very like forward-looking and progressive, and but um I mean I think I think it's more done with respecting the form.
00:41:20.480 -->
00:41:23.039So yeah, like have film involved.
00:41:23.199 -->
00:41:23.440Yeah.
00:41:23.679 -->
00:41:28.559Like have um photography.
00:41:28.719 -->
00:41:28.960Yeah.
00:41:29.119 -->
00:41:34.400Like just because you have like some VR projection or something does not make you a progressive museum.
00:41:34.559 -->
00:41:35.119Right.
00:41:35.360 -->
00:41:42.480Uh if you're not representing photography and like film and these other art forms very prominently.
00:41:42.639 -->
00:41:43.039Yeah.
00:41:43.360 -->
00:41:58.079Um I think yeah, some sometimes you you see museums trying to look forward to like what's next, and not even realize, like, oh wait, we have two like very important genres of art that are just being completely overlooked here.
00:41:58.239 -->
00:41:58.480Yeah.
00:41:58.639 -->
00:42:14.719Because obviously you're gonna have paintings if you're if you're a museum, like you're gonna have paintings and you're gonna have sculpture, um, and you're gonna have, you know, various, okay, this is fifteenth century, this is you know, 19th century, 20th century.
00:42:14.960 -->
00:42:15.280Yeah.
00:42:15.519 -->
00:42:18.639Uh this is, you know, realism at uh expressionism.
00:42:19.119 -->
00:42:19.599Exactly.
00:42:19.760 -->
00:42:21.119But you're it yeah.
00:42:21.360 -->
00:42:28.159If you're overlooking two really significant mediums of art, it's like, uh.
00:42:28.639 -->
00:42:28.960Yeah.
00:42:29.199 -->
00:42:48.079Because I yeah, I mean, I like you you go to a museum, like I remember at um maybe it was the Met, and I think they had just like Jacques Tati playing over on uh in a section of the gallery, and it was just playing his films on like three different projectors constantly, just publicly.
00:42:48.159 -->
00:42:48.480Yeah.
00:42:48.719 -->
00:42:56.639Not like you have to go into a theater and sit down, and then there was like a Warhol film playing, and I'm just like this is really cool seeing this.
00:42:56.800 -->
00:43:01.280And then yeah, there's photography, and it's right there with all of the other work.
00:43:01.440 -->
00:43:01.679Yeah.
00:43:01.840 -->
00:43:13.599It's not like, oh, this is and then some of them have their own sections, but yeah, I just think that's a you're putting it on the same playing field as the other, the other work.
00:43:13.679 -->
00:43:16.000And and I'm not saying that Jocelyn do this.
00:43:16.079 -->
00:43:19.519Obviously, they have photography in their primary exhibition.
00:43:19.760 -->
00:43:26.400And like you have some films being projected and things like that, but well, and I just feel like we might leave a little on the table.
00:43:26.559 -->
00:43:27.360I'd like to see more.
00:43:27.679 -->
00:43:36.559I think what I'd like to see more of, too, is um you know, they even talked about it in the talk ahead of time, right?
00:43:36.639 -->
00:43:52.960They talked about the famous first exhibit of William Eggleston's guide with Sarkovsky and him working together to bring these his photographs into an exhibit at the Museum of Modern Art.
00:43:53.679 -->
00:43:59.840And, you know, obviously, like sort of the legend that it's become now is that critics panned it, they thought the photographs.
00:44:00.320 -->
00:44:05.119Like were boring and mundane, and you know, and I'm sure there's a few in there that were you know understood.
00:44:05.360 -->
00:44:10.079I like how that was another thing that kind of got me when they were talking about the Egglestons photos.
00:44:10.159 -->
00:44:22.400They were like, and he he's significant, and obviously we know that this is a significant part of Eggleston, like they're like, He's significant because he did color photography, yeah.
00:44:22.719 -->
00:44:32.719And then you could even they even got on like a thing on the stage where they were like, but it's funny though, it's kind of weird because there were other people that did color photography before Eggleston.
00:44:33.519 -->
00:44:52.719And I'm like, Yeah, like of course there were, and it's not even like Eggson did like the best color photography, but like look at the work, like spend time with the work, and like yeah, there's a lot more to an Eggleston photograph than yeah, this is a color photograph.
00:44:52.960 -->
00:44:56.480And I just thought it was a really I don't know, I was a little frustrating.
00:44:56.639 -->
00:44:57.440Yeah, no, I talked about it.
00:44:57.519 -->
00:45:21.440I'm also an Eggleston fanboy, so but what I what I love about that exhibit was Sarkovsky sees something in this work that you know the the the art world doesn't see or understand or maybe isn't even ready for, but he's pushing it forward because he sees how powerful and impactful the work is.
00:45:21.679 -->
00:45:30.000And I think what I would really like to see from the Jocelyn is that kind of um curation.
00:45:31.039 -->
00:45:45.519Not you know, MoMA put a painter or a photographer in there and then the art world went crazy, it went to San Francisco and London, and here's a really we're talking about three years.
00:45:46.079 -->
00:45:50.239One of the greatest curators of photography in absolutely yeah, for sure.
00:45:50.559 -->
00:45:54.400But to me, even if at one museum in one location, yeah.
00:45:55.199 -->
00:45:56.239Yeah, I understand though.
00:45:56.559 -->
00:46:29.199But the the in the the the to take that point of view in how you're gonna exhibit work at the Jocelyn rather than what I worry, and I do not think this is necessarily the case, but what I worry is once it's sort of proven that it's um accepted by the art world and audiences have heard it in the zeitgeist enough that they're gonna want to come check it out, that it's less risky, it's sort of proven that people are interested in it.
00:46:29.360 -->
00:46:46.000Um, I want to see them find an artist that the the curator sees something like Sarkovsky did in Egliston's work and they champion that work and champion the Jocelyn to be the place that exhibits it.
00:46:46.320 -->
00:47:15.760And I just worry that museums I mean it's it's kind of like you you know, you can levy the same critique on a lot of like universities, but I I worry that the Jocelyn is too and the people that they have making these curating decisions are too blinded by like a set of social beliefs that it's preventing them from like presenting work without some kind of uh like a social justification.
00:47:16.239 -->
00:47:25.599And the I get that just from reading the little placettes um and you walk around and you're just like just like present the f like talk about the form.
00:47:25.840 -->
00:47:26.079Right.
00:47:26.320 -->
00:47:38.559Like talk about the obviously the relationship to history, and obviously like like when you're getting into documentary photography and you have civil rights era photography, there is a social aspect to the work that can't be ignored.
00:47:38.639 -->
00:47:43.119There's a context that needs to be uh brought there or like illuminated, yeah.
00:47:43.360 -->
00:47:53.280Yeah, and but I just that's what kind of and this this is not just true of the Jocelyn, this is true of a lot of of these institutions.
00:47:53.440 -->
00:47:57.039It's just stop like uh respect art.
00:47:57.360 -->
00:48:10.960Yeah, like there's a difference between art and your you know, narrow or what historically will be proven as narrow um you know social point of view.
00:48:11.280 -->
00:48:11.679Right.
00:48:12.000 -->
00:48:25.679And do you feel like it's it's almost like there's a a whether it's conscious or not, a feeling of responsibility to bring work into the Jocelyn that is like progressive in our 100%.
00:48:26.000 -->
00:48:34.239Yeah, well it it's not I don't even know if it's I mean, yes, I think they like doing that, but I mean also I think people go to see that.
00:48:34.320 -->
00:48:34.480Yeah.
00:48:34.800 -->
00:48:35.519People like that.
00:48:35.840 -->
00:48:47.280But art museums are not art museums shouldn't be propaganda pieces for some curators narrow-minded, you know, whatever.
00:48:47.679 -->
00:48:53.760And there shouldn't be a conflict that arises because it's placed onto the work.
00:48:53.920 -->
00:48:57.440The conflict should arise because the work is doing its work.
00:48:57.760 -->
00:48:58.000Yeah.
00:48:58.559 -->
00:49:07.280Like if if the work is good, then you don't need a placket for somebody to start to find the appreciation.
00:49:07.519 -->
00:49:09.119Like, that's what we should be teaching.
00:49:09.199 -->
00:49:10.480That's a better society.
00:49:10.960 -->
00:49:16.880That's a more understanding society, that's a more empathetic society, that's a more engaging and intelligent society.
00:49:17.119 -->
00:49:22.960If you're engaging with artwork on the side of uh what do I appreciate about the form?
00:49:23.280 -->
00:49:26.079What can I gain from the historical context?
00:49:26.159 -->
00:49:30.880And then, oh, this is doing this work on me.
00:49:31.119 -->
00:49:31.280Yeah.
00:49:31.440 -->
00:49:37.519And maybe that was the artist's intent, maybe it wasn't the artist's intent, but like these are the ideas that I'm getting from this.
00:49:37.599 -->
00:49:55.119And then when I play with them, this is not some lazy, like chat GPT generated sound intelligent placket that completely you know puzzle pieces the work into a very little like square hole.
00:49:55.440 -->
00:49:55.840Yeah.
00:49:56.239 -->
00:49:57.039I don't know.
00:49:58.000 -->
00:50:00.159That's that's my frustration with it.
00:50:00.480 -->
00:50:04.159And it just it uh there's museums in New York that do this too.
00:50:04.400 -->
00:50:04.559Sure.
00:50:04.800 -->
00:50:14.079Um but there are museums in the world that understand that that's not the point of art.
00:50:14.800 -->
00:50:21.840And I'm you know, I think that that is and again, I'm I'm making this critique like it's something new.
00:50:22.000 -->
00:50:31.599Like museums have been doing this for 150 years, like 200 years, however long there's been museums, there's been perspectives.
00:50:31.920 -->
00:50:46.079But I just wish that you know, in my in my perfect world, you you have curators that are asking themselves the question of like, how can I present this to not like okay, this is how it works on me.
00:50:46.800 -->
00:50:52.960Now maybe we remove some of that and just let like how can I get that to work on the yeah, on who who the viewers are.
00:50:53.760 -->
00:51:09.360I mean, yeah, we just we uh we've like lost some ability to look at art and to treat art as uh something to you know learn from and I don't know.
00:51:09.840 -->
00:51:12.079Maybe that and maybe that's a lazy critique.
00:51:12.320 -->
00:51:12.639Yeah.
00:51:12.960 -->
00:51:13.360I don't know.
00:51:13.599 -->
00:51:27.599I just that's what frustrates me with the Jocelyn is you go and you read a placket and they're they're just like here's this that you know you can i if if you were to lay these out and be like, what year is this from?
00:51:27.679 -->
00:51:34.159I'll be like, oh, that was probably from 2018 to 2023 or something, and or 2022 to 2025.
00:51:34.400 -->
00:51:38.320It's just so obviously like zeitgeist brain.
00:51:38.400 -->
00:51:38.639Yeah.
00:51:38.800 -->
00:51:43.679And like very narrow, and it's just reactive and unintelligent.
00:51:44.400 -->
00:51:45.760I'm just like, come on.
00:51:45.920 -->
00:51:53.840Like we're dealing with works of art that should, you know, stretch themselves out of uh, you know, beyond centuries.
00:51:54.079 -->
00:51:54.400Right.
00:51:54.639 -->
00:52:05.360Let's not yeah, let's not time stamp it with the with our specific going to the stuff with you.
00:52:05.440 -->
00:52:15.119I you know, I I process things, you know, um on such a surface level often that I don't even get to where I I have that um takeaway.
00:52:15.840 -->
00:52:22.159Um so that's that's really helpful.
00:52:22.320 -->
00:52:32.320I'll be excited to go back through and and and and take your criticism to mine, which is funny because I just avoided the plaque, I just don't read them anymore.
00:52:32.400 -->
00:52:32.480Yeah.
00:52:32.800 -->
00:52:54.559I I actually I I I find myself not reading them, not necessarily because I'm I because I have concerns about the content, but I I I just like trying to look at the the the photograph as um uh as purely as possible.
00:52:55.039 -->
00:52:55.679Beginner mind.
00:52:55.760 -->
00:52:56.000Yeah.
00:52:56.239 -->
00:53:02.320Well, and I I like I I want to get into this all later, but I you you said the crude sin really spoke to you.
00:53:02.480 -->
00:53:03.199It's interesting.
00:53:03.440 -->
00:53:05.519And that was the one that Aaron liked too.
00:53:05.760 -->
00:53:14.960Um what yeah, what do you think was I I I think it was probably just again, I have sort of cinema brain allegiances.
00:53:15.280 -->
00:53:21.360He's super cinematic in his and so you know I can see that it, you know, like this is not naturally occurring light, yeah.
00:53:21.679 -->
00:53:22.880You know, all of that stuff.
00:53:22.960 -->
00:53:26.800And I like almost want to be as someone who's I'm pretty sure he doesn't use flashy though.
00:53:26.960 -->
00:53:30.559I'm pretty sure he uses like, no, he uses yeah, cinema lighting.
00:53:30.639 -->
00:53:44.079Yeah, he uh I don't know if I and I have watched his documentary about how he makes these photographs, and I mean I was like blown away by what all of the resources that went into literally one click of the shutter.
00:53:44.159 -->
00:53:44.400Yeah.
00:53:44.559 -->
00:53:49.360And he's not like, oh let's let's uh you know, like he's not firing it off multiple, yeah.
00:53:49.440 -->
00:53:54.960He's like everything is like broad to this moment, waiting for the light.
00:53:55.119 -->
00:54:04.719Um, there was one photograph he took where they had to wait for this baby to fall asleep on the mother, um, and they had to figure out all these different ways to induce it to sleep.
00:54:04.880 -->
00:54:14.400Um, and I think spoiler alert, they like heated the room up, they just got it really warm in there, and the baby finally fell asleep.
00:54:14.480 -->
00:54:16.480Yeah, and he got his photo.
00:54:16.960 -->
00:54:22.800But I think it was just a combination of I knew it, I spotted it from across the room.
00:54:22.880 -->
00:54:25.039I'm like, holy shit, they got a crude sense in here.
00:54:25.280 -->
00:54:37.840And you know, my brain is like, you know, I want to obviously favor my street photography, um, uh street photographers, uh, because that's what I am most interested in right now.
00:54:38.079 -->
00:54:50.719But as I stood in front of the crude sin, you know, again, a combination of the size of the print, um the quality of the print, all of that stuff, I just found myself completely disappearing into it.
00:54:50.800 -->
00:54:58.800Yeah, it was both a sort of a technical dissection, but then an emotional um surrender to it, if you will.
00:54:59.039 -->
00:54:59.440Yeah.
00:54:59.679 -->
00:55:02.159And um, I was just very moved by it.
00:55:02.559 -->
00:55:04.800The the big I love the big prints.
00:55:04.960 -->
00:55:06.159Yeah, it's my favorite thing.
00:55:06.239 -->
00:55:15.599Yeah, I it's really tough because it's not really financially feasible, but yeah, I just I think every photo should be huge.
00:55:15.840 -->
00:55:32.559I just I mean some of them don't work in that regard, but the the massive photos are just like I and maybe that is a little bit of the cinematic background too, but yeah, you can almost step into them and I I think it's interesting because it it acts almost like a painting, yeah.
00:55:32.800 -->
00:55:46.880Where that's what's unique about a really massive painting is you're there and you can kind of get into it and see all of these little micro scenes, but then you're you're also aware though of the whole thing.
00:55:46.960 -->
00:55:54.400Like if you were to try to convey it in a sequence of photographs just of these little portions, then you're sequencing it.
00:55:54.719 -->
00:55:58.800Or if you're putting it on film, you're there's a narrative to it now.
00:55:59.039 -->
00:56:04.559You've got this time element that's in, and when you're just there, it's just you get to look.
00:56:04.719 -->
00:56:20.480It's just a very human experience to get to see this massive, you know, tableau of all of these different things and just selective attention, selective, but you're aware of the whole at all times.
00:56:20.880 -->
00:56:29.679Well, I think with his photograph, the thing that struck me too is just the fact that it's staged and I know it's staged, yet it's still so moving.
00:56:30.960 -->
00:56:35.440You know, I you're just completely aware of just like a film.
00:56:35.519 -->
00:56:38.159You know, I know the dramatic elements that went into this, yeah.
00:56:38.400 -->
00:56:41.199And you know, the you know, the direction for the young girl.
00:56:41.440 -->
00:56:54.480So it's a a young girl sitting on a swing on a swing set, and you know, what looks like powerful sunlight, even though it's a um dusk setting, um, but a source light that's really illuminating her.
00:56:54.719 -->
00:57:02.000And then who I assume is her mother is in a trailer, a tra uh a mobile home uh that's a little dilapidated.
00:57:02.159 -->
00:57:09.679She's in the window that's looking out to the girl at the swing set, and she's very dramatically lit and all that.
00:57:09.840 -->
00:57:16.400Um, but just the idea that this young girl had to sit in the swing and look and posture herself a certain way.
00:57:16.559 -->
00:57:20.800And with Gregory, I mean, he's like my okay, take your arm, put your hand on it.
00:57:20.880 -->
00:57:35.920Like it's very like your fingers are separated, keep them together, like every little tiny detail, and that you could still capture something that has an element of realism in the sense of the emotional landscape of the photo, yeah.
00:57:36.000 -->
00:57:44.079Um, rather than the what your brain does to say, what light could possibly be shining on her at this hour?
00:57:44.239 -->
00:57:56.639The sky is dark, everything looks like dusk, but light doesn't look that color at that time of day, but this also doesn't look like you know, um uh man-made light.
00:57:56.960 -->
00:57:58.800I want to come in, dad.
00:58:02.960 -->
00:58:08.480Um yeah, so and there were other large prints.
00:58:08.559 -->
00:58:10.639Alex was a very large print portrait.
00:58:10.719 -->
00:58:14.400Um, the two black women in their home was a large print.
00:58:14.480 -->
00:58:21.519Both of those were more vertical orientation, where Greg's was more to traditional cinema, you know, um, a wider, larger format.
00:58:21.760 -->
00:58:22.880And that was probably my favorite.
00:58:23.280 -->
00:58:31.599Yeah, the two women that was Deanna Lawson.
00:58:31.760 -->
00:58:32.400Yeah.
00:58:32.880 -->
00:58:38.000And um Barbara and Mother 2017 printed 2021 inkjet.
00:58:38.559 -->
00:58:38.800Yeah.
00:58:38.960 -->
00:58:43.679A portrait, you know, it was it was, you know, uh you know, I assume stay right there.
00:58:43.840 -->
00:58:47.920I want to take your photo, you know, maybe some source lighting or something was involved.
00:58:48.320 -->
00:58:49.920Definitely if there was definitely a strobe, yeah.
00:58:52.000 -->
00:58:55.519And uh yeah, it was just really, really a great photo.
00:58:55.920 -->
00:59:01.280Yeah, yeah, that was uh fun to just kind of sit with that one and all the little details.
00:59:01.599 -->
00:59:01.840I don't know.
00:59:02.000 -->
00:59:11.679That's my kind of that's my kind of it's definitely where my taste is, just those little big details and yeah.
00:59:11.840 -->
00:59:35.840So and it may it was inspiring for me because I I I am wanting to do more um sort of in the moment portraits, and while she may have had some some lighting that she brought in, you know, I'm not quite there where I'm gonna do that necessarily, but I just want to sort of like develop the craft of actually like being with a person to the point where you ask if you can take their photograph on thinking what that's like.
00:59:36.559 -->
00:59:46.000Like the all the stuff in that photograph is really interesting, and you're you're in situations all the time where you can just absolutely really get into somebody's stuff and just be like, hey, stand here.
00:59:46.159 -->
00:59:46.400Yeah.
00:59:46.480 -->
00:59:46.800Yeah.
00:59:47.119 -->
00:59:56.079There's uh a YouTube channel where this young man takes does portraits of artists in their New York lofts, and he does videos of them as well.
00:59:56.320 -->
00:59:59.039And uh his channel's doing very well.
00:59:59.199 -->
01:00:06.800I started watching it when he was he just started, and uh you know, the videos are really um responding with people.
01:00:06.960 -->
01:00:26.639Um and I think while I'm interested in a little bit at least to start not having um uh uh sort of an appointment, you know, and and this is not me saying there's a negative about that, but he's actually like these artists are either reaching out to him or he's connecting with them, they set this all up.
01:00:26.719 -->
01:00:30.559He goes and films, he asks him questions, he takes photographs, it's a session in a sense.
01:00:30.800 -->
01:00:32.079Like a quid pro crow, too.
01:00:32.239 -->
01:00:36.400Like he like you're I'm sure he's big enough at this point.
01:00:36.559 -->
01:00:37.360Yeah, yeah.
01:00:37.599 -->
01:00:37.760Right.
01:00:38.000 -->
01:00:51.039And they yeah, and he can send the videos that he's made and they can watch it and know that you know they want, especially because many of them are moving out of their lofts, they can't afford it anymore, or they're older, that sort of thing.
01:00:51.519 -->
01:01:04.079But I'm really excited about trying to photograph people just after meeting them for the first time, you know, especially if it's in a home that's full of stuff, or you know, it's outside or whatever.
01:01:04.159 -->
01:01:15.199And I might bring like an on-camera flash or a flash that I can hold off to the side to get a little bit of of a of a key light on someone if it the lighting conditions are a little difficult, that sort of thing.
01:01:15.280 -->
01:01:18.000But yeah, I'm I'm very excited about playing around with that.
01:01:18.079 -->
01:01:26.159And so this exhibit with the portraits that it had was um inspiring to keep on that track.
01:01:26.320 -->
01:01:27.599Yeah, yeah.
01:01:28.320 -->
01:01:33.519I um one, I definitely think you should yeah, explore that more.
01:01:33.599 -->
01:01:34.239Yeah, yeah.
01:01:34.719 -->
01:01:38.719Um but no, I I I think I'd like to go see it again too.
01:01:38.880 -->
01:01:40.239Yeah, it's gonna be here till August.
01:01:40.559 -->
01:01:45.599So I'll probably go see it at some point, maybe not in the next like month or two, but definitely see it for a little while.
01:01:45.760 -->
01:01:49.679There's also several talks and things like that that I think we might we might enjoy going to.
01:01:50.079 -->
01:01:54.400The one in July I'm gonna go to with uh as long as it's not now well.
01:01:54.480 -->
01:01:56.400This is like the actual photographer is gonna be there.
01:01:56.639 -->
01:01:58.719So I think I think these will be much better.
01:01:58.880 -->
01:01:59.599Yeah, yeah.
01:02:00.239 -->
01:02:05.119Um so you had a particular thing.
01:02:05.360 -->
01:02:05.599Yeah.
01:02:06.159 -->
01:02:09.199We have some ideas here um to talk about.
01:02:09.599 -->
01:02:10.159We could.
01:02:10.320 -->
01:02:12.400I mean, so we're at an hour 15.
01:02:12.480 -->
01:02:14.639We're probably at like 58 minutes.
01:02:15.039 -->
01:02:18.800Because we did we did start start and then we had a technical difficulty.
01:02:18.880 -->
01:02:20.400So we sure did.
01:02:22.159 -->
01:02:26.800Um I have a quote, but I I was struck by another one that he had, but I'll read this one for now.
01:02:27.119 -->
01:02:32.400This is Saul Lighter, um, Forever Saul Lighter, um, which I think was a book made.
01:02:32.960 -->
01:02:34.480Is that just like a compilation of work?
01:02:34.719 -->
01:02:40.559Yeah, from from his foundation that was set up after his passing in 2013, I believe.
01:02:40.719 -->
01:02:49.440And so they're going through his massive body of work, especially the great majority of it that was unpublished or hadn't been seen.
01:02:49.599 -->
01:03:06.480And then this book is a compilation of that, but it also includes many quotations from him, um, from I think the conversations that were had by the documentarian who made the the film, um, which I'm totally blanking on the title.
01:03:06.880 -->
01:03:15.599What is it, like 10 pieces of life advice or 10 10 the film was what the heck was the name of that film?
01:03:16.000 -->
01:03:17.599Something with time in the title?
01:03:17.760 -->
01:03:25.039I can't uh man, I am like not remembering names and whatever.
01:03:25.440 -->
01:03:28.239It's been years since I've watched that that you're talking about the documentary, right?
01:03:28.480 -->
01:03:29.599Yeah, from 2013.
01:03:29.679 -->
01:03:31.519I think it came out in 2013.
01:03:32.000 -->
01:03:35.199Um I have it, I I bought it for a digital copy of it.
01:03:35.440 -->
01:03:36.000In no great hurry.
01:03:36.239 -->
01:03:38.880In no great hurry 13 Lessons in Life with Sol Lighter.
01:03:39.039 -->
01:03:39.199That's right.
01:03:39.280 -->
01:03:40.80013, yeah.
01:03:41.039 -->
01:03:42.639Uh so this is one of his quotes.
01:03:42.719 -->
01:03:50.880Um, and this relates to the exhibition as well, and just the work that I think both of you, both you and I do, but this struck me, and I'll explain why briefly.
01:03:51.039 -->
01:03:54.000When I did photography, I wasn't thinking of painting.
01:03:54.159 -->
01:03:59.440Photography is about finding things, and painting is different, it's about making something.
01:03:59.760 -->
01:04:03.360And in the context of the exhibition, you know, like the Gregory Cootson, right?
01:04:03.440 -->
01:04:09.119Like I'm I'm a little bit um not as interested in that.
01:04:09.760 -->
01:04:17.519Uh certainly I'm not about to tackle the massive budgets you would need and the lighting and all that stuff to do that type of photo, that level of photography.
01:04:17.599 -->
01:04:21.119Obviously, I could do it with the lights that I have, do something on a smaller scale.
01:04:21.440 -->
01:04:22.960Oh, that freaked me out.
01:04:23.280 -->
01:04:30.239Um But he, you know, really made that photograph essentially from scratch, got out of the location, found the thing.
01:04:30.320 -->
01:04:34.880Probably, you know, I'm looking at the pieces and I'm like, God, did they put that little thing over by under the window?
01:04:35.039 -->
01:04:38.320Was that there, or did they bring it in, you know, every little detail.
01:04:38.480 -->
01:04:44.320Um, did someone mold the lawn two days earlier because Greg wanted the grass to be a certain height in the photo?
01:04:44.480 -->
01:04:55.599I mean, and if you think I'm being crazy, watch this documentary because this guy is down to every last tiny little detail, and it's incredible how it all comes together.
01:04:56.000 -->
01:05:16.880And with me going on, you know, fixating on finding all these hidden treasures and bringing them to the shop or selling them on eBay or keeping them for my own collection, there's definitely a parallel, I think, and sort of the uh fixation between doing that, but then also going out with a camera and trying to find a moment.
01:05:17.280 -->
01:05:49.039Um, and him articulating this really kind of brought that home as to why I really enjoy I want to say street photography because I do this in rural places or or uh even um uh you know more fully natural places of state park or a national park, like look observing everything around me and trying to find something, just like I do at an estate sale, observing everything in the whole place to try to find an item.
01:05:50.079 -->
01:05:50.639Yeah, yeah, yeah.
01:05:51.679 -->
01:05:52.159Right.
01:05:52.400 -->
01:05:54.239Uh and so that little detail struck me.
01:05:54.320 -->
01:05:59.599I don't have a big profound thing to go uh rabbit hole to go down about that, but I just I never thought about.
01:06:00.320 -->
01:06:05.360Documentary photography in the context of trying to find something.
01:06:07.280 -->
01:06:32.000And even going back to when I was writing screenplays, you know, literally observing everything, everything two people were doing when they were talking to each other, how this person walked, uh, to mine all of it, to find something in it that could be jotted down on a piece of paper and then used for a character, used for a detail in a screenplay, um, a uh a dynamic between two people.
01:06:32.480 -->
01:06:41.599Uh and that's and what I love about the photography aspect is it's all of that all at once.
01:06:42.480 -->
01:06:49.039It's the observation, seeing it either happen or it developing, taking the photograph.
01:06:49.199 -->
01:06:54.719And while, yes, some editing's gonna happen and all that, but you essentially have the finished work immediately.
01:06:56.159 -->
01:07:10.400Um, and all of that combined is like it just kind of um kind of wraps up in a little bow how I feel about it, and it makes me sort of like see what I'm doing.
01:07:10.559 -->
01:07:15.119Like I see why I'm doing this versus I don't know why I'm interested in this.
01:07:15.199 -->
01:07:16.239I'm not quite sure.
01:07:16.400 -->
01:07:21.199There's something about it that interests me and I like it, and and I'm not sure why.
01:07:21.519 -->
01:07:31.280Something about photography for him was about finding things like just yeah, you're able to kind of deconstruct it and immediately put it it, it it place it anywhere.
01:07:31.519 -->
01:07:37.679Yeah, and it sort of creates like I no longer have to wonder why I'm interested in this, and now I could just go do it.
01:07:38.320 -->
01:07:39.440I get it now.
01:07:40.079 -->
01:07:44.719Um, and that that's really yeah, I get it, I get it.
01:07:44.880 -->
01:07:46.079Inside joke, sorry.
01:07:47.280 -->
01:07:48.960Yeah, I stop right there.
01:07:49.119 -->
01:07:49.360I get it.
01:07:49.440 -->
01:07:49.760I get it.
01:07:49.840 -->
01:07:50.639I see what we're doing.
01:07:50.880 -->
01:07:51.760I get it.
01:07:52.559 -->
01:08:07.519So yeah, that that and that's what I that's part of what fueled the real excitement, you know, and putting it in the group text and all that stuff to go is I want to go see the work that other people made from going out and finding things.
01:08:08.639 -->
01:08:14.559The Gordon Parks of the the kid with the smoking the cigarette and the glass just perfectly lit.
01:08:14.639 -->
01:08:15.599That one was crazy.
01:08:15.760 -->
01:08:16.159Yeah, yeah.
01:08:16.319 -->
01:08:22.560And that was uh a photograph photographs from a a an uh an edition of Life magazine.
01:08:22.880 -->
01:08:31.359Um and there were several more, there were a couple more in the exhibit or one more in the exhibit, but then many in the actual layout of the magazine.
01:08:31.439 -->
01:08:32.319But yeah, that one was crazy.
01:08:34.159 -->
01:08:41.920Do you think we reached a point where photography became so ubiquitous with new the newspaper or like the the document?
01:08:42.159 -->
01:08:49.039Yeah, that we almost lost some of the ability, like that that became the expectation.
01:08:49.199 -->
01:09:02.640Like, so what happens a lot in cultures, somebody will take something and they'll almost they'll carry a misunderstanding or like a reduction of the the concept or the the form.
01:09:03.039 -->
01:09:12.239And usually misunderstandings are um well one, they're organic usually, they're not like nefarious.
01:09:13.119 -->
01:09:22.720And usually a misunderstanding contains like a kernel of the truth or the truth of the original idea, but it's a little more digestible.
01:09:23.359 -->
01:09:37.439And I I almost wonder, yeah, if in American culture, like you reach a point where the photograph is viewed as, oh, this has to be it some kind of document of an idea, right?
01:09:37.760 -->
01:09:53.439Rather than and present that idea rather than an exploration of space through a lens, which is all it actually is, because of how ubiquitous it was with the newspaper or with the culture.
01:09:53.840 -->
01:09:54.880I I do think so.
01:09:54.960 -->
01:10:07.680And I think that um uh I that's part of why I really appreciate Saul's book is that he just has these very it's it's sort of like he would take it and be like, No, it's not as complicated as that.
01:10:07.840 -->
01:10:08.960It's it's just simple.
01:10:09.119 -->
01:10:14.079It's it's yeah, you know, he just he says in this one, I did things because I liked doing it.
01:10:14.239 -->
01:10:17.119When I'm asked why did why did you do certain things?
01:10:17.279 -->
01:10:18.000Because I liked it.
01:10:18.159 -->
01:10:18.720Yeah, yeah.
01:10:18.960 -->
01:10:22.800You know, he's not sitting there going, Oh yeah, see the woman with the red umbrella there?
01:10:23.039 -->
01:10:29.600If I take a photograph on a long lens and I do some compression and I do this, that's gonna communicate this idea, you know, all this.
01:10:30.000 -->
01:10:32.800And this is what it's representing, and this is how it's da-da-da-da-da.
01:10:33.039 -->
01:10:34.560And it's like, okay, no.
01:10:35.199 -->
01:10:36.560Or or I was in the moment.
01:10:37.039 -->
01:10:45.439I have a feeling about culture, and I want to tell people that feeling and get them to feel how I feel about it.
01:10:45.760 -->
01:10:47.680Yeah, or just not even get them to feel.
01:10:47.760 -->
01:10:52.000It's not not not even that like not even that didactic.
01:10:52.079 -->
01:10:57.840It's more just I want you to like here is my vision.
01:10:58.399 -->
01:11:03.520Like take a second, see through my vision, maybe you'll gain some kind of empathetic exp.
01:11:03.840 -->
01:11:08.319And not even that that empathetic side is the is the outcome.
01:11:08.479 -->
01:11:11.920The only outcome is here's my picture.
01:11:12.640 -->
01:11:13.920Like, look at it.
01:11:14.079 -->
01:11:14.479Right.
01:11:14.720 -->
01:11:15.760That's pretty much it.
01:11:15.920 -->
01:11:19.600Like everything else is just interpretation to that moment.
01:11:19.920 -->
01:11:24.079Well, and again, that's that's for me the draw of street photography or documents.
01:11:24.319 -->
01:11:26.720It's not even here's my picture, it's here's picture.
01:11:26.960 -->
01:11:41.600Yeah, here's a picture of something I like, you know, is is you don't have a lot of time to process, you just sort of see something happening and you don't and everybody sees different things or everything everybody keys in on a different thing.
01:11:42.000 -->
01:11:42.319Right.
01:11:42.479 -->
01:11:49.039And and and you just respond to something that strikes you in uh almost on the subconscious plane.
01:11:49.119 -->
01:11:50.720It's an instinctive plane.
01:11:50.800 -->
01:12:08.079You you you see something developing, uh, and especially if your skills are honed, you know, you're fast, you have your you know, technical things dialed in, you know, you know, you you've you've put in the reps to be able to grab that stuff instantaneously.
01:12:08.159 -->
01:12:11.039It's it's again, it's just an instinctive process.
01:12:11.439 -->
01:12:25.039And, you know, no doubt, even if a photographer looks at the work after the fact, um, like what they shot for the day, you know, they might be able to sort of go to find something interesting about a through line or a spine to it or something.
01:12:25.199 -->
01:12:38.159But even then, it's probably ascribing more meaning to it than is necessary because it was made ideally, maybe not ideally, but it was made likely out of um out of instinct or intuition.
01:12:38.479 -->
01:12:43.760Well, and I I love it when a photographer curates the work in a way where like maybe they are playing with ideas.
01:12:43.920 -->
01:12:44.479Yeah.
01:12:44.720 -->
01:13:04.560Um, I mean, like Eggleston's guide was curated in a way which I don't think is wholly foreign to the actual, you know, my like no matter what, you are carrying a set of ideas, beliefs, thoughts, experiences, and like intuitions w whenever you're doing anything.
01:13:05.279 -->
01:13:23.279You trace back through these episodes and kind of see what it's a little different here because we're talking about something, but that's gonna come through in the work, and a good curator is gonna key in on that a little bit and be like, okay, let me try to get as close to the experience of the artist in the making as I can.
01:13:23.840 -->
01:13:28.800But also, it's like once that work is in the world, and we've talked about this before, it's in the world.
01:13:28.880 -->
01:13:37.279Yeah, it is not theirs to interpret, it's not the artist to interpret, it is the audiences, and each individual audience member, it is their interpretation.
01:13:37.520 -->
01:13:49.359Yeah, and there's no like like like if you were to be like, I think this when I see this photo, there's no, oh, that's not right, because not even the artist actually didn't have that interpretation.
01:13:49.439 -->
01:13:50.560The artist was thinking this.
01:13:50.640 -->
01:13:55.439It's like, yeah, no, that's you're immediately just completely playing a different game there.
01:13:55.520 -->
01:14:00.800Like the whatever you think is about the like that's right, it's an object at that point.
01:14:00.960 -->
01:14:07.199It's just an object that you interact with in space, if if it's a print or whatever, a digital object.
01:14:07.439 -->
01:14:09.920It doesn't matter, it's it's your perception at that point.
01:14:10.000 -->
01:14:11.119There is no intent.
01:14:11.439 -->
01:14:19.680And maybe that's difficult for people, you know, uh, just to sort of like have what have the how they feel about it.
01:14:20.159 -->
01:14:30.239I don't know if there's something where like we want the answer, like, well, you know, and well, we think there's an answer to everything, and we love justification of our of our idea.
01:14:30.399 -->
01:14:32.000And we we don't want to be embarrassed.
01:14:32.079 -->
01:14:33.920I don't want to I don't want to look stupid.
01:14:34.079 -->
01:14:36.239Yeah, because I don't know what this is about.
01:14:37.119 -->
01:14:38.720I don't know how I should feel.
01:14:39.680 -->
01:14:42.640Spoiler alert, there is no answer to that.
01:14:42.880 -->
01:14:43.439Right.
01:14:43.680 -->
01:14:51.119And if somebody's giving you that, then they actually probably I mean, in my opinion, like the they're the ones that look silly.
01:14:51.199 -->
01:14:51.520Yeah.
01:14:51.760 -->
01:14:59.199Because they're trying to prescribe some rigid structure on something that by its nature resists rigidity.
01:14:59.520 -->
01:15:03.600So yeah.
01:15:03.840 -->
01:15:31.520Or there, you know, the the idea that the that uh an interpretation of uh a piece of work is another opportunity for signaling um or communicating you know the what it is that you feel is important about yourself that the world must know through um the deployment of your opinion or your criticism or your interpretation of things.
01:15:32.239 -->
01:15:35.840It's interesting because I think that gets into something too.
01:15:36.319 -->
01:15:38.319A lot of contemporary art does that.
01:15:39.279 -->
01:15:57.600And I think that work will only be interesting as time passes, almost as like an ironic reference to like the work is almost only going to be important as like a funny, like tongue-in-cheek.
01:15:58.000 -->
01:16:00.560Like, look at this, look at how silly this was.
01:16:01.359 -->
01:16:07.359Like, I I just don't see that work being taken seriously over like it's hard to take the self seriously over a long period of time.
01:16:07.520 -->
01:16:08.159Yeah.
01:16:08.399 -->
01:16:08.720Yeah.
01:16:08.960 -->
01:16:11.039Just period, just as an idea.
01:16:11.680 -->
01:16:46.800And so if you're creating work that's based around that, it's like almost like yes, you'll have to reference this period in time, uh like as a as a curator, as a you know, as someone who sorts or like attempts the completely impossible and kind of absurd task of sequencing you know, pieces of work, but you're gonna have to use something here, and you already see like this idea of like trying to have my like contemporary work.
01:16:47.760 -->
01:16:58.880And yeah, I mean I th I just think that again, it's just my my outlook, but yeah, I think you'll start to look at that as like, oh man, that is just the significance of the work is how silly it was.
01:17:00.000 -->
01:17:10.479And right now it's not silly, you can't really say that about it because it's too serious, like oh well that's that person is giving their but over the time the self starts to degrade.
01:17:10.560 -->
01:17:13.039And yeah, I think yeah, I don't know.
01:17:14.239 -->
01:17:23.600I think if there's one thing that I enjoy about consuming some criticism, especially from critics.
01:17:23.920 -->
01:17:24.800Hopefully that's better.
01:17:24.880 -->
01:17:25.600Air conditioning.
01:17:25.680 -->
01:17:25.920Yeah.
01:17:26.079 -->
01:17:28.239Especially from crit- Oh, that's right, you got an email.
01:17:28.640 -->
01:17:29.359That's what that is.
01:17:29.520 -->
01:17:33.920Oh, especially from critics who I appreciate their point of view.
01:17:34.560 -->
01:17:51.680Just like if I watch like BTS of a Scorsese film and uh or Scorse that Scorsese's giving about in another film, you know, they can sometimes illuminate elements of the cinematic experience of that film or the storytelling or the technical uh execution that I'm not aware of.
01:17:52.720 -->
01:18:07.279And when they point it out, even if I don't adopt their feelings about it perfectly, it creates an awareness that lets me then develop how I feel about it even more.
01:18:07.840 -->
01:18:10.560And so some of my favorite critics It's enriching.
01:18:10.720 -->
01:18:37.039Yeah, are just sort of like uh uh yeah, but people who can add a perspective to the film and the storytelling, both from an executed, you know, ex execution technical perspective to just uh an emotional um perspective that makes me see it in a way where I can agree or disagree, but then maybe see something more than I saw originally.
01:18:37.199 -->
01:18:42.000And that's part of why I like going to these exhibits with you guys, even though we're not there going, what do you think about this?
01:18:42.319 -->
01:18:43.199How does this make you feel?
01:18:44.720 -->
01:18:46.880You know, it I it's just like going to a movie.
01:18:47.039 -->
01:18:50.720I want to go to this stuff with you guys because I want us all to take it in and then we talk about it.
01:18:50.960 -->
01:18:52.399Yeah, go to dinner and talk about it.
01:18:52.640 -->
01:18:55.760You know, but like we just talked about the crude scene, you know.
01:18:55.920 -->
01:18:57.840Um and we talked about the winnegran.
01:18:58.239 -->
01:18:58.399Yeah.
01:18:59.039 -->
01:19:08.239So when you give your and again, you're not being critical of it necessarily, but you're just pointing out how it makes you feel, what you see, what you don't see, all that stuff.
01:19:08.399 -->
01:19:17.439Um, and the critic is a little bit going, you know, taking things uh a little bit further, you know, grading it A plus, you know, two stars, three two thumbs up, whatever.
01:19:17.760 -->
01:19:33.359Which is a completely ridiculous But I have found myself um sometimes uh this the b the the bad exam the sort of the worst example of me consuming criticism is sort of um that that uh scene uh from Goodwill Hunting.
01:19:33.439 -->
01:19:44.960I don't know if you've seen that movie where Matt Damon's character confronts the the kind of the douchebag guy at the bar who he calls out for just reciting something that he read in a book.
01:19:45.199 -->
01:19:45.439Yeah.
01:19:45.600 -->
01:20:23.199And you know, that that I sometimes might selfishly go, oh, I really liked Owen Gleberman's point of view and his write-up on you know whatever movie, and I'm gonna sort of repackage it so that when I'm sitting around with other people who I respect and look up to and want feelings of validation from them, I'm gonna sort of repurpose that criticism as my own uh or that perspective as my own to signal that I'm intelligent and I can think, you know, uh have a have have a reaction to a film that's on much deeper layers than just oh wow, there's a Gary Winegrad.
01:20:23.600 -->
01:20:23.920Yeah.
01:20:24.720 -->
01:20:27.359I don't think it's like I don't think there's an issue with the shorthand.
01:20:27.439 -->
01:20:38.159I I think the the issue like repackaging is a shorthand, is but I I think the issue arises when you get it, like you said the word signaling.
01:20:38.319 -->
01:20:38.640Yeah, yeah.
01:20:38.800 -->
01:20:41.600I think that's where the issue is present.
01:20:41.920 -->
01:20:57.119And that definitely happens when someone like me um has bouts of insecurity or uh moments where I'm desiring uh sort of that high school popularity, like you just want to or you just want people to think highly of you.
01:20:57.279 -->
01:21:19.600Yeah, you know, I'm susceptible to that sometimes, and I might find in a situation like that where we're um thinking, you know, uh um trying to speak deeply about a movie or whatever where I I might hijack someone's someone's point that they made that I thought was cogent and interesting and repurpose it as my own.
01:21:19.840 -->
01:21:30.960So I think that's where where uh consumers of criticism can uh take some missteps because that that's not the point.
01:21:31.439 -->
01:21:32.880I always I agree.
01:21:33.039 -->
01:21:49.119I think Yeah, I mean criticism has become a it's become a marketplace or it's become a yeah, you're trading in opinions, you're trading in like currency is are these sets of works you hold or whatever.
01:21:49.439 -->
01:21:58.399Um, and that creates a consumption around ideas or kinds of like oh I'm gonna watch all of these films because I need to consume them so I can say I watch them.
01:21:58.560 -->
01:21:58.640Right.
01:21:58.800 -->
01:22:00.159Um are you getting anything out of them?
01:22:00.399 -->
01:22:00.560No.
01:22:01.199 -->
01:22:04.239Or maybe, like maybe, yeah, just by being exposed.
01:22:04.319 -->
01:22:10.960Like, so it's not necessarily a bad thing, but I just the intention is interesting to me.
01:22:11.199 -->
01:22:16.399Um, another thing, and we don't have to spend too much time on this, we didn't get to any of the things, which is funny, so we'll just save them for later.
01:22:16.720 -->
01:22:17.680Save it for the next one.
01:22:17.920 -->
01:22:25.600Um but uh an interesting thing is I I found like we left the other night and I was doing like some little self-reflection after.
01:22:25.760 -->
01:22:37.359I'm just like I I kind of feel like one, I get kind of negative in those situations, and then I also feel like I I kind of suck up oxygen with like my opinion.
01:22:37.920 -->
01:22:48.000Like I'm just like, oh, like this is how I feel, and it's like I want to try to be more conscious of like you don't like nobody else needs to feel this way, yeah.
01:22:48.399 -->
01:22:52.079But like I do, yeah, I don't know.
01:22:52.399 -->
01:22:55.680I was I was having a hard time with that, kind of that.
01:22:55.840 -->
01:23:06.560Um I don't one, I don't like sucking up all the oxygen, and then also just the negativity of the whole thing, but then also, yeah, if I sit through something and I'm like this was complete nonsense.
01:23:07.439 -->
01:23:09.680Part of me feels a little bit compelled.
01:23:10.000 -->
01:23:13.920I mean, I obviously I'm not gonna say it to I guess I'm saying it on this podcast.
01:23:14.079 -->
01:23:14.720Yeah.
01:23:14.960 -->
01:23:17.840Um, but that's more me saying it to you.
01:23:17.920 -->
01:23:22.800Like, I'm gonna communicate that to like obviously like Audrey and I talked about it on the car, on the car ride back.
01:23:23.600 -->
01:23:25.840I'm gonna communicate those feelings.
01:23:26.479 -->
01:23:44.399Um I don't want to just crush things though, or just like be negative about things for the purpose of being negative, or I don't want that to be the takeaway, so I think I need to work on how I handle myself in those situations a little bit.
01:23:46.640 -->
01:23:58.479Something that I do in those situations is I just kind of go, this is making me feel this way.
01:23:58.640 -->
01:23:59.279Yeah.
01:24:03.119 -->
01:24:04.560What what is doing it?
01:24:04.960 -->
01:24:07.680And I I think I I try to sit there and go.
01:24:12.000 -->
01:24:19.840I wonder what's going on with these two human beings up here that that their lives have arrived at this moment.
01:24:20.319 -->
01:24:27.359At least for me, yeah, I'm disappointed in how this is being presented.
01:24:27.520 -->
01:24:28.159Yeah.
01:24:28.479 -->
01:24:37.760And I almost feel like I'm watching it as like a a piece of work, you know, like uh like an exhibit, you know.
01:24:37.840 -->
01:24:43.359Like what are all the contributing factors that like what was going on in her day?
01:24:43.840 -->
01:24:46.880This she even said this was the first time I've done this.
01:24:46.960 -->
01:24:53.600Yeah did this gentleman like just get off a plane an hour ago and showed up, you know.
01:24:56.159 -->
01:25:16.319And it's not about like making excuses necessarily for it, but it's about like what are the the interesting human elements that have led to what I felt overall was um uh uh an execution of a presentation that I I struggled with.
01:25:16.640 -->
01:25:22.079I just I will I want like she was probably my age.
01:25:22.399 -->
01:25:22.720Yeah.
01:25:23.199 -->
01:25:27.199And so that's like that is firmly in the next generation.
01:25:27.840 -->
01:25:32.079Like that is what will carry the museum forward over the next 30 years, right?
01:25:33.279 -->
01:25:52.560Um and I just I wish I I think part of what frustrates me so much is I just see the same bullshit, like the same mistakes that and you know it could be successful, but it's like like the same things that make Omaha, yeah, it's fine.
01:25:52.640 -->
01:25:54.720It's not that special in most people's minds.
01:25:54.800 -->
01:26:04.800And it's not like it is uh inherently more special here or anything like that, but like the things that make us seem average are the things that we do averagely, all right.
01:26:05.039 -->
01:26:24.960You know, we and like that is just that's a prime example, and it's just it it hurts me to see like a younger generation kind of continuing in that tradition, yeah, rather than being like, you know, you have an opportunity to lead a thing, get up there and really kind of carry it.
01:26:25.119 -->
01:26:41.760And so it gets me like excited about, you know, like the work Eli's doing or stuff like that, where yeah, you're taking a community that might not be completely literate or aware with some of these things and you're pushing it, but you're pushing it in like a really hands-off kind of way.
01:26:42.079 -->
01:26:44.159You're being really thoughtful about it.
01:26:44.800 -->
01:26:57.760And that stuff excites me, not stuff where you're like pumped about, oh man, we're going moving forward, like we're pushing and making, you know, trying to do better than what came before, yeah.
01:26:58.239 -->
01:26:58.800Better.
01:26:59.439 -->
01:27:05.359But yeah, and that was just like completely just oh we're not doing anything here, we're going backwards.
01:27:05.920 -->
01:27:10.960Well, and I I think I've had just the way we're framing everything is inherently wrong.
01:27:11.279 -->
01:27:19.520And if we keep going in this direction, either we're gonna figure out that it's a dead end or you're just gonna get so far that it becomes the reality.
01:27:20.319 -->
01:27:21.119And I don't know.
01:27:21.279 -->
01:27:22.239I just think that's it.
01:27:23.600 -->
01:27:24.640No, I I agree.
01:27:24.800 -->
01:27:41.359And I think that you know, um I think that that is something that I love about loved about living in Los Angeles and being on the coast.
01:27:42.399 -->
01:27:49.760I often felt way out of my league around people that were not doing things averagely.
01:27:50.079 -->
01:27:50.560Yeah.
01:27:50.880 -->
01:27:51.199Yeah.
01:27:51.600 -->
01:27:59.760They were dedicated with their like they were either obsessed with the thing that they were doing, they understood the stakes, they they had a goal.
01:28:00.399 -->
01:28:07.600In their life that was so powerful that they knew that nothing but their best effort was warranted and they could give their all in those situations.
01:28:07.760 -->
01:28:46.319I mean, you you're around everybody from A-list musicians in my in my background to um uh executives on studio lots, all these people where you're like, holy shit, like I I have phoned in a lot of my efforts in the past and some where I haven't, and that has gotten me in front in front of or around these people, and you have to bring it if you want to even Yeah, there's there's a huge misconception that like oh, if you you like it's easy to take a worldview that people just get into positions by like whatever, like politics or whatever.
01:28:46.560 -->
01:28:59.279It's like no, when you see people that are executing at a extremely high level, I mean I'm sure yes, there's plenty of people who make it into positions because of politics, but there's also plenty of people who execute at an extremely high level.
01:29:00.000 -->
01:29:04.479And they are where they are because of yeah.
01:29:04.640 -->
01:29:06.720I mean, obviously there's other factors involved.
01:29:06.880 -->
01:29:07.039Yeah.
01:29:07.199 -->
01:29:12.560It's luck and there's timing and there's you know, connections and things like that.
01:29:12.800 -->
01:29:17.359But there's some people you look at and you're like, yeah, not surprised.
01:29:17.520 -->
01:29:17.760Yeah.
01:29:18.159 -->
01:29:18.880Makes sense.
01:29:19.199 -->
01:29:22.079And then it but it that motivates you, that pushes you.
01:29:22.239 -->
01:29:24.159It's like the rising tide lifts all boats.
01:29:24.640 -->
01:29:26.880And that's what I want to see with Omaha.
01:29:27.039 -->
01:29:27.439Right.
01:29:27.680 -->
01:29:34.960Because that's where, you know, that's where right now it's it's oh, I can't wait to get out of here.
01:29:35.439 -->
01:29:39.760If you're young, it's like I can't wait to get out of here and go somewhere where I can actually do something.
01:29:39.920 -->
01:29:43.520And I mean, I get that, you know, with connections and things like that, but it's also just the mindset.
01:29:43.600 -->
01:29:46.560Like we have a really antiquated mindset.
01:29:48.640 -->
01:29:54.079And I fall victim to maybe not the antiquated mindset, but I fall victim to doing things averagely all the time.
01:29:54.159 -->
01:30:28.960And you could argue, you know, my lack of uh the success that I wish I had for myself or progress on this front or that front, or move giving up on screenwriting and moving into the production company, transitioning from that into this other thing, and then kind of doing, you know, that it's it's um you know, that that that it's that it that an aspect of that is present in me versus some of my peers who came out of acting school or film school or whatever and are and are doing things at a level that I had hoped that I would be doing things.
01:30:29.199 -->
01:30:35.680So I I don't want to make it seem like, first of all, if you live in Omaha, you're just an average person.
01:30:36.000 -->
01:30:36.239Yeah.
01:30:36.479 -->
01:30:42.239Um well, I mean, it obviously that's not obviously there's plenty of talent in Omaha.
01:30:42.319 -->
01:30:46.000It's just more so just the thought.
01:30:46.319 -->
01:30:46.640Yeah.
01:30:46.800 -->
01:30:54.800The intentionality, the the the depth of of preparation, of uh understanding of craft, of execution, all of that stuff.
01:30:55.119 -->
01:30:56.720Like and the expectation level.
01:30:56.800 -->
01:30:56.960Yeah.
01:30:57.119 -->
01:30:58.640It's just not yeah, very high.
01:30:58.720 -->
01:30:59.520And that's fine.
01:30:59.680 -->
01:31:03.680I'm not saying you need to live in a place that's like hyper focused on success.
01:31:04.000 -->
01:31:05.039That's not what I'm talking about.
01:31:05.199 -->
01:31:15.039Obviously, I don't even I don't even really prescribe to that I idea of like success, but I think doing anything you do, you should try to do it well.
01:31:15.520 -->
01:31:21.680And if you're not doing it well, you better have a damn good reason as to why it's not worth there's plenty of things that aren't aren't worth a lot of effort.
01:31:21.840 -->
01:31:31.359Yeah, plenty of shit problems that you just have to get by and figure out the easiest and least, you know, strenuous way to get past that problem.
01:31:31.520 -->
01:31:31.840Yeah.
01:31:32.239 -->
01:31:37.760But if if you've identified something that's worth doing, do it as best you can.
01:31:37.920 -->
01:31:38.239Right.
01:31:38.399 -->
01:31:41.359And it's not gonna be the best you're ever gonna be able to do it, most likely.
01:31:41.520 -->
01:31:42.159The best.
01:31:42.479 -->
01:31:45.760Again, these terms are just like the best isn't a thing.
01:31:45.840 -->
01:31:47.279That's not that's not real.
01:31:47.600 -->
01:31:48.720There is no best.
01:31:50.159 -->
01:31:54.560It's just, you know, are you like the crude son?
01:31:54.880 -->
01:31:55.279Yeah.
01:31:55.600 -->
01:31:56.960Just thinking through everything.
01:31:57.199 -->
01:32:06.800Everything, you know, like are you being thoughtful to that level where you're thinking you're sitting down and you're saying, I'm gonna spend eight hours thinking through every last detail.
01:32:07.680 -->
01:32:11.760I'm gonna spend 25 hours, I'm gonna spend a hundred hours.
01:32:12.479 -->
01:32:19.119He's probably spending like hundreds of hours per photograph thinking through every detail.
01:32:19.600 -->
01:32:21.199I mean, building they build sets.
01:32:21.439 -->
01:32:23.279I mean, it's just it's incredible.
01:32:23.760 -->
01:32:30.720Now, like it seems like I look around a lot and there is the like yeah, I spent 35 minutes thinking about this.
01:32:30.800 -->
01:32:31.520That's a lot of time.
01:32:31.680 -->
01:32:33.19935 minutes is a lot of time.
01:32:33.279 -->
01:32:36.319Yeah, that's like that's an hour block of stuff.
01:32:36.560 -->
01:32:42.319Or uh when you're on the street with a camera and you're like, oh, I see this kid, and there's the thick guy holding all the balloons, eh?
01:32:42.479 -->
01:32:42.720Fuck it.
01:32:42.800 -->
01:32:44.960It's too hard it's too far to go over and try to get it.
01:32:45.119 -->
01:32:45.840I don't want to get that, yeah.
01:32:45.920 -->
01:32:46.479Yeah, fuck it.
01:32:46.560 -->
01:32:48.000Yeah, it's just easier now to.
01:32:48.800 -->
01:32:49.119Yeah.
01:32:49.359 -->
01:33:05.039You know, this stuff like are you yeah, are you letting yourself and I mean look, I I raise that critique on myself too, but it's just that's how you you know do better than what what came before.
01:33:05.199 -->
01:33:14.079Again, better is like kind of a non-existent or very like vapor term, but that's how you do that.
01:33:14.239 -->
01:33:17.119You just attention, right?
01:33:17.279 -->
01:33:21.279And we we have less of that than we've ever had as a as a society, as a culture.
01:33:23.119 -->
01:33:24.960And this goes back to the letter you read.
01:33:25.119 -->
01:33:34.159I think the response to the letter that the author received was you are caring too much about these other things.
01:33:35.359 -->
01:33:37.279Oh, he it's really interesting.
01:33:37.600 -->
01:33:43.279You need to focus on the work and stop writing something and sending it off.
01:33:44.319 -->
01:33:47.279Well, and this is what he talks, he talks about solidarity.
01:33:47.439 -->
01:33:47.760Yeah.
01:33:48.000 -->
01:33:50.399Like you need to be in solitude.
01:33:51.600 -->
01:33:58.640Like you must, like if you if you ask yourself, you know, I said, ask yourself, do you want to write?
01:33:58.800 -->
01:34:02.880And I mean, obviously he's using writing, he's a writer, he does, he's a poet and a and a novelist.
01:34:03.439 -->
01:34:15.199If you want to write, if you said yes, I want to do that, then your biggest job is curating your thoughts and feelings and interpretation and turning that into words.
01:34:16.960 -->
01:34:19.840And so yeah, that's your burden.
01:34:20.000 -->
01:34:20.319Right.
01:34:20.720 -->
01:34:25.520Your burden is that you don't get to be, you don't get to do whatever.
01:34:26.880 -->
01:34:33.279You know, and I mean obviously these are you can be like, well, there's actually no real thing, like burden or anything, like obviously not.
01:34:33.520 -->
01:34:36.960Or I mean maybe not obviously, but in my opinion, yeah, probably not.
01:34:37.039 -->
01:34:44.399There is no like I'm meant to write, right, or like my destiny is write or being a writer.
01:34:44.560 -->
01:34:49.840But if if that is what you like, you ask yourself, like, oh, I need to do this.
01:34:50.000 -->
01:35:01.119If you have this urge to write or to take photographs or to whatever, like then stupid shit is not important, like it's secondary stuff is secondary at that point.
01:35:01.520 -->
01:35:06.159And he's uh I mean he he's a really big proponent of yeah, solitude, you know.
01:35:06.319 -->
01:35:08.880You need to go into yourself, and it's lonely and it sucks.
01:35:09.199 -->
01:35:10.479He's like, that's kind of the point.
01:35:10.560 -->
01:35:12.960Yep, that's where the good stuff comes from.
01:35:13.199 -->
01:35:17.840It's like, and there's so much that you could be doing, and this was in 1903.
01:35:18.079 -->
01:35:18.399Yeah.
01:35:18.720 -->
01:35:22.079So, I mean, obviously, there's a lot more you can be doing now.
01:35:22.720 -->
01:35:24.239It's like kind of up to you.
01:35:25.359 -->
01:35:28.479We all get a relative amount of time here, and yeah.
01:35:29.439 -->
01:35:37.520It had been a golden afternoon, and I remember having the familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer experience.
