Why I write

Some people want to use you, Others want to be used by you. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit ayoto.substack.com/subscribe

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What if whiteness isn’t something possessed, but something performed—an anxious choreography of refusal, projection, and idealization? What if its power lies not in strength, but in its compulsive need to survive critique, to erase debt, to never owe? This essay does not ask whether whiteness is re…

moving through the quiet rituals of hospital life—moisturizing mama's skin, watching my baba massage through pain, painfully. wrestling with memory, detachment, and the strange intimacy of care. a meditation on love, loss, and time in transit. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this…