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[SPEAKER_00]: Welcome back to That's When Mama, Season 3!
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[SPEAKER_01]: Quick question for my moms.
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[SPEAKER_00]: When was the last time somebody asked you cis what you wanted?
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I don't mean like, what do you want for dinner?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Cause please don't ask me that unless you want to get cut.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But you know, when someone really asks you that question, what you want, what you really, really want?
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[SPEAKER_00]: The only thing I can think of is not really like an answer, but I think about like, you know, my 1996-Bice girlies.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Which, by the way, was really a song about polyamory.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Don't believe me, look at the lyrics.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Sorry to ruin your child.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But honestly, when people do ask me about what I really want, as a mother, once the last time you actually had an answer and was very confident in that, it depends on the day, it depends on my mood, it depends on if I'm tired, over touch, my mental load is training.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And honestly, it's kind of the perfect place to start this season because yes, motherhood is beautiful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's full of moments that we will make you cry in a grocery store or laugh so hard that you pee in your pants.
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[SPEAKER_00]: kids.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Shout out to all the ones that do a jumping jack and still peel a little bit in their pants.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We are here together, okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: But motherhood is also just very heavy to at times, right?
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[SPEAKER_00]: And you think so much about the where that heaviness comes from and I really do think it comes from a gap between the support that we thought that we'd have and the support that we oftentimes actually get, right?
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[SPEAKER_00]: The village or the village people, okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Alexa play why I'm saying no I'm just kidding, but the village that we were promised right the village that we had to build the village that was there maybe and disappeared when stuff got hard or the village that never showed up in the first agon place like where they are okay where are y'all can you can you come here they're coming underway.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But that's really what the season of that to my mom is going to be about.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's about motherhood, it's about support, the lack of support, the stories that we carry and the things nobody really prepares you for until you're already in it or like Googling something it to in the morning to figure out the answers.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Because Lord knows, I do not have the answers.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I just.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I think there is value in sharing stories and things that I have been through and known now that I have now been a mom for 16 years what I might I have a 16 year old and I have three kids I have twins and even there's so much that I've learned from me as a first time parent at 23 to me being a parent to that same son teenager now stuff I would have done differently and with my twins from.
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[SPEAKER_00]: ages zero to five.
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[SPEAKER_00]: There's so much I've acquired of knowledge of what I would have done differently, regrets, y'all learned from my regrets, but I think there's value in being able to share that with one another because it's hard and there's a lot of noise.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So season three, welcome.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Welcome to season three, and it's been a minute.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's been like a year and a half, I haven't even gone lie.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe not a year and a half, but you're in some change and the truth is you're growing
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[SPEAKER_00]: I need a little, I need to take a little beat.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Like I'd been going non-stop with the podcast, with everything episode after episode week, after week, and I went super hard all in.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm in areas of what we do, and I did it for a long time, and I loved it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I loved connecting with y'all.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I loved the conversations I had with my guests.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I loved everything about it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I loved creating a space that was deeper than like a 30-second reel or video.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But at some point,
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[SPEAKER_00]: stop feeling like joy and just start feeling like, like, pressure.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Less like, I can't wait to show up in more like, I gotta get this done, you know, and I never want to show up in any space like that where it feels like a burden, because that's never going to be the best thing for this community that we've built.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And at the same time, my life was completely shifting.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My twins were older now.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We're in a whole new phase and I guess as they get older, so many things do get easier physically they're less demanding a lot of things just I really love each age, but I really like this age as well, but I'm realizing it's the last time they're going to be this age.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so I think being present has been something that I've been wanting to prioritize as they get older, knowing that they're my last babies.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Um, I need to be more emotionally available for that days.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's, it's really tough shout out to the teenage parents because it just requires more of me and those things are important.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I need to shift gears a little bit because they have that both that will humble you in a second, toddlers and teens.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They they humble humble you quite a bit.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But mother had started feeling heavier.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And my bandwidth changed.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was going through things personally, too, with my family, my family's transitioning with lots of different things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So taking a step back.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had to just ask myself, what am I doing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Because it matters and where am I spending my time and I want to make sure I'm not trying to prove that I can do everything well all at the same time because that's a dangerous little trap moms get in.
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[SPEAKER_00]: thinking that we can do all the things all the time really well because we'll really be out here drowning.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Really be drowning and being like, no, it's just my lessons.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's fine.
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[SPEAKER_00]: No, girl, you're not.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You need a life like a vest.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Like what are you doing?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Get out of the water.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You gave me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Let's take a little break.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So that's exactly what I did.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And you go back.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We did the little Disney series on the podcast.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's in there, but I still want to also take a break
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[SPEAKER_00]: to figure out what I wanted this podcast to be about.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Cause I'm not exactly the same mama was when I started.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I know a lot of you listening aren't either.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Kids grow, our marriages shift, our friendships change, our bodies change, everything changes and our dreams can be different.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And the version of motherhood that I was showing up in even a couple of years ago might look different from the way I'm showing up now.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I didn't want to just come back to the podcast and be like, okay, I'm coming back just to come back.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I wanted to come back and have this season feel different.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So this is not me coming up on here and be like, I got the final product, y'all.
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[SPEAKER_00]: These are all the things that I did wrong.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And well, I will share those things in real time, but none of us have a final product of motherhood.
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[SPEAKER_00]: A none of us know we messin' up our kids.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Like, let's see the gentle parent at kids when they're for the, I don't know.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Are there trauma gonna be talking about,
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[SPEAKER_00]: There's this trend called Jessica, where you just yell out Jessica, when a toddler or kid is having a meltdown.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Are they going to be in therapy?
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[SPEAKER_00]: I still never knew who Jessica was.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My mom would just say that, like, who the heck knows what we're doing?
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[SPEAKER_00]: These aren't big deals, but all to say none of us actually know what we're doing, but there's so much value I think and just sharing what we did to and what we've learned from it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I don't care how you organize your pantry says.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't care.
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[SPEAKER_00]: what your gentle parenting voice sounds like, or if you have a good aesthetic on your, whatever, good for you, if you do, I'm gonna always support you, but I don't really care about that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We're just editing here in real time, and I'm just trying to share in real time.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I think that that's what I want this season to kind of feel like.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Not another place where you listen and think, dang, I am a terrible parent, and I'm not doing enough because she's doing all these things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You'll never, you will never feel that with me, okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Cause you probably feel better about your parenting.
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[SPEAKER_00]: after listening to a lot of my stories, but I don't want also to be another space where mother had feels like a performance review or assessing all the things that you've done.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I don't want it to feel like I've always telling you, this is the right way to be a mom.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I want you to just take something from it and feel maybe relief.
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[SPEAKER_00]: In some of these stories and episodes, feel seen in some of these stories and episodes, and just feel like you're a little bit less.
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[SPEAKER_00]: alone because I feel like there is so much noise making us feel the opposite of relief, making us feel anxious, making us feel like our baby's going to turn out x, y and z because we gave it a blue m and m. You know what I mean?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Just the most ridiculous things and this is going to be the opposite of that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So this season's about real stories, real questions and real support.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm grounding each episode from my own life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: The funny ones, the messy ones, don't comfortable ones, the ones that I maybe needed a little distance from before I could really talk about them honestly, if I'm being completely 100.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then I'm bringing it on the right experts, the right voices, to make sure that we're making sense of those stories.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Because stories can be powerful, but what are you going to do with it, right?
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[SPEAKER_00]: So yes, we're going to talk, we're going to laugh, and we're absolutely going to shoot the ship because you know it's your girl, but I'm also going to leave you with something.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Because your time is valuable.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.
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[SPEAKER_00]: If you're spending time with me, whether in the car on a walk, hiding in the pantry, doing laundry, pretending that you are still using the bathroom, when you've been done for like 10 or 15 minutes, shout out to the dads, three dads listening because I know y'all do all the time, but anyways, I just want you to feel like the time spent with me was worth it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So this season we're talking about birth about advocating for yourself.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We're talking about intimacy.
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[SPEAKER_00]: and our relationships and our partners and sex life after kids, we're talking about friendship, loneliness, the village, okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Parenting cycles, identity, and the version of yourself that you're trying to become while still packing lunches and answering stand be four questions at 8 a.m. in the morning.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And because it's me, you know what's gonna have a little nostalgia here and there, okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: 90s, 2000s hip hop and RB is my therapy.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's still gonna be your girl coming up here on the screen every day as a twin mom, as a teenage mom.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And as someone who has, I feel like the best taste in music.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So we're talking all the things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Not for you to feel like there's more things to worry about, but for you to feel a little bit of relief in all the noise that's out there.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So my hope for the season truly is simple.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I want you to feel less alone.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I want you to feel like somebody is saying the quiet part out loud.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I want you to laugh.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We all need a little bit more joy right now.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But laugh, but also take away something useful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: A question to ask yourself, a way to advocate for yourself, a little sense of relief, a new way to look at your friendships, your partnerships, your relationships, your parenting, your support system.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I want this podcast to feel like it's a part of your village.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And not the village of judges, you.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, not the village idiot.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, not the village that makes you feel like you're behind.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But the village that sits next to you and says, girl,
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[SPEAKER_00]: So welcome back, I miss this, I miss y'all, I'm so excited for season three of that for Mama.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Let's do it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: PACE!
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[SPEAKER_00]: And that's a wrap for this episode of That's For Mama Podcast.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But before you go, let me tell you how you can keep this village growing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: If you like what you heard today, please leave a review.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Your five-star love means so much to me and the team behind the scenes and helps us to keep going.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It also helps us to find parents like you who need to listen to these episodes, which mean the world.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So until next time, take care of you, take care of your crew, and remember, you're doing an amazing job.
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[SPEAKER_00]: See you soon.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Peace.
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[SPEAKER_01]: Is that too much love?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Welcome back to That's When Mama, Season 3!
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[SPEAKER_01]: Quick question for my moms.
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[SPEAKER_00]: When was the last time somebody asked you cis what you wanted?
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I don't mean like, what do you want for dinner?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Cause please don't ask me that unless you want to get cut.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But you know, when someone really asks you that question, what you want, what you really, really want?
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[SPEAKER_00]: The only thing I can think of is not really like an answer, but I think about like, you know, my 1996-Bice girlies.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Which, by the way, was really a song about polyamory.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Don't believe me, look at the lyrics.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Sorry to ruin your child.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But honestly, when people do ask me about what I really want, as a mother, once the last time you actually had an answer and was very confident in that, it depends on the day, it depends on my mood, it depends on if I'm tired, over touch, my mental load is training.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And honestly, it's kind of the perfect place to start this season because yes, motherhood is beautiful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's full of moments that we will make you cry in a grocery store or laugh so hard that you pee in your pants.
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[SPEAKER_00]: kids.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Shout out to all the ones that do a jumping jack and still peel a little bit in their pants.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We are here together, okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: But motherhood is also just very heavy to at times, right?
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[SPEAKER_00]: And you think so much about the where that heaviness comes from and I really do think it comes from a gap between the support that we thought that we'd have and the support that we oftentimes actually get, right?
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[SPEAKER_00]: The village or the village people, okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Alexa play why I'm saying no I'm just kidding, but the village that we were promised right the village that we had to build the village that was there maybe and disappeared when stuff got hard or the village that never showed up in the first agon place like where they are okay where are y'all can you can you come here they're coming underway.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But that's really what the season of that to my mom is going to be about.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's about motherhood, it's about support, the lack of support, the stories that we carry and the things nobody really prepares you for until you're already in it or like Googling something it to in the morning to figure out the answers.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Because Lord knows, I do not have the answers.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I just.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I think there is value in sharing stories and things that I have been through and known now that I have now been a mom for 16 years what I might I have a 16 year old and I have three kids I have twins and even there's so much that I've learned from me as a first time parent at 23 to me being a parent to that same son teenager now stuff I would have done differently and with my twins from.
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[SPEAKER_00]: ages zero to five.
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[SPEAKER_00]: There's so much I've acquired of knowledge of what I would have done differently, regrets, y'all learned from my regrets, but I think there's value in being able to share that with one another because it's hard and there's a lot of noise.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So season three, welcome.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Welcome to season three, and it's been a minute.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's been like a year and a half, I haven't even gone lie.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe not a year and a half, but you're in some change and the truth is you're growing
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[SPEAKER_00]: I need a little, I need to take a little beat.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Like I'd been going non-stop with the podcast, with everything episode after episode week, after week, and I went super hard all in.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm in areas of what we do, and I did it for a long time, and I loved it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I loved connecting with y'all.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I loved the conversations I had with my guests.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I loved everything about it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I loved creating a space that was deeper than like a 30-second reel or video.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But at some point,
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[SPEAKER_00]: stop feeling like joy and just start feeling like, like, pressure.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Less like, I can't wait to show up in more like, I gotta get this done, you know, and I never want to show up in any space like that where it feels like a burden, because that's never going to be the best thing for this community that we've built.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And at the same time, my life was completely shifting.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My twins were older now.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We're in a whole new phase and I guess as they get older, so many things do get easier physically they're less demanding a lot of things just I really love each age, but I really like this age as well, but I'm realizing it's the last time they're going to be this age.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so I think being present has been something that I've been wanting to prioritize as they get older, knowing that they're my last babies.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Um, I need to be more emotionally available for that days.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's, it's really tough shout out to the teenage parents because it just requires more of me and those things are important.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I need to shift gears a little bit because they have that both that will humble you in a second, toddlers and teens.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They they humble humble you quite a bit.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But mother had started feeling heavier.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And my bandwidth changed.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was going through things personally, too, with my family, my family's transitioning with lots of different things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So taking a step back.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had to just ask myself, what am I doing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Because it matters and where am I spending my time and I want to make sure I'm not trying to prove that I can do everything well all at the same time because that's a dangerous little trap moms get in.
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[SPEAKER_00]: thinking that we can do all the things all the time really well because we'll really be out here drowning.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Really be drowning and being like, no, it's just my lessons.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's fine.
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[SPEAKER_00]: No, girl, you're not.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You need a life like a vest.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Like what are you doing?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Get out of the water.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You gave me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Let's take a little break.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So that's exactly what I did.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And you go back.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We did the little Disney series on the podcast.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's in there, but I still want to also take a break
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[SPEAKER_00]: to figure out what I wanted this podcast to be about.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Cause I'm not exactly the same mama was when I started.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I know a lot of you listening aren't either.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Kids grow, our marriages shift, our friendships change, our bodies change, everything changes and our dreams can be different.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And the version of motherhood that I was showing up in even a couple of years ago might look different from the way I'm showing up now.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I didn't want to just come back to the podcast and be like, okay, I'm coming back just to come back.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I wanted to come back and have this season feel different.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So this is not me coming up on here and be like, I got the final product, y'all.
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[SPEAKER_00]: These are all the things that I did wrong.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And well, I will share those things in real time, but none of us have a final product of motherhood.
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[SPEAKER_00]: A none of us know we messin' up our kids.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Like, let's see the gentle parent at kids when they're for the, I don't know.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Are there trauma gonna be talking about,
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[SPEAKER_00]: There's this trend called Jessica, where you just yell out Jessica, when a toddler or kid is having a meltdown.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Are they going to be in therapy?
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[SPEAKER_00]: I still never knew who Jessica was.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My mom would just say that, like, who the heck knows what we're doing?
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[SPEAKER_00]: These aren't big deals, but all to say none of us actually know what we're doing, but there's so much value I think and just sharing what we did to and what we've learned from it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I don't care how you organize your pantry says.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't care.
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[SPEAKER_00]: what your gentle parenting voice sounds like, or if you have a good aesthetic on your, whatever, good for you, if you do, I'm gonna always support you, but I don't really care about that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We're just editing here in real time, and I'm just trying to share in real time.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I think that that's what I want this season to kind of feel like.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Not another place where you listen and think, dang, I am a terrible parent, and I'm not doing enough because she's doing all these things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You'll never, you will never feel that with me, okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Cause you probably feel better about your parenting.
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[SPEAKER_00]: after listening to a lot of my stories, but I don't want also to be another space where mother had feels like a performance review or assessing all the things that you've done.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I don't want it to feel like I've always telling you, this is the right way to be a mom.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I want you to just take something from it and feel maybe relief.
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[SPEAKER_00]: In some of these stories and episodes, feel seen in some of these stories and episodes, and just feel like you're a little bit less.
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[SPEAKER_00]: alone because I feel like there is so much noise making us feel the opposite of relief, making us feel anxious, making us feel like our baby's going to turn out x, y and z because we gave it a blue m and m. You know what I mean?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Just the most ridiculous things and this is going to be the opposite of that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So this season's about real stories, real questions and real support.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm grounding each episode from my own life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: The funny ones, the messy ones, don't comfortable ones, the ones that I maybe needed a little distance from before I could really talk about them honestly, if I'm being completely 100.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then I'm bringing it on the right experts, the right voices, to make sure that we're making sense of those stories.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Because stories can be powerful, but what are you going to do with it, right?
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[SPEAKER_00]: So yes, we're going to talk, we're going to laugh, and we're absolutely going to shoot the ship because you know it's your girl, but I'm also going to leave you with something.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Because your time is valuable.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.
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[SPEAKER_00]: If you're spending time with me, whether in the car on a walk, hiding in the pantry, doing laundry, pretending that you are still using the bathroom, when you've been done for like 10 or 15 minutes, shout out to the dads, three dads listening because I know y'all do all the time, but anyways, I just want you to feel like the time spent with me was worth it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So this season we're talking about birth about advocating for yourself.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We're talking about intimacy.
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[SPEAKER_00]: and our relationships and our partners and sex life after kids, we're talking about friendship, loneliness, the village, okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Parenting cycles, identity, and the version of yourself that you're trying to become while still packing lunches and answering stand be four questions at 8 a.m. in the morning.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And because it's me, you know what's gonna have a little nostalgia here and there, okay?
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[SPEAKER_00]: 90s, 2000s hip hop and RB is my therapy.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's still gonna be your girl coming up here on the screen every day as a twin mom, as a teenage mom.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And as someone who has, I feel like the best taste in music.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So we're talking all the things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Not for you to feel like there's more things to worry about, but for you to feel a little bit of relief in all the noise that's out there.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So my hope for the season truly is simple.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I want you to feel less alone.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I want you to feel like somebody is saying the quiet part out loud.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I want you to laugh.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We all need a little bit more joy right now.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But laugh, but also take away something useful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: A question to ask yourself, a way to advocate for yourself, a little sense of relief, a new way to look at your friendships, your partnerships, your relationships, your parenting, your support system.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I want this podcast to feel like it's a part of your village.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And not the village of judges, you.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, not the village idiot.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, not the village that makes you feel like you're behind.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But the village that sits next to you and says, girl,
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[SPEAKER_00]: So welcome back, I miss this, I miss y'all, I'm so excited for season three of that for Mama.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Let's do it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: PACE!
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[SPEAKER_00]: And that's a wrap for this episode of That's For Mama Podcast.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But before you go, let me tell you how you can keep this village growing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: First things first, are you subscribed?
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[SPEAKER_00]: If not, what are you doing?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Hit that subscribe or follow button wherever you're listening so you never miss a new episode.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We're streaming on all major platforms, so let's make it official.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Secondly, let's stay connected on socials.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Follow us on Matt's Twin Mama Podcasts on Instagram for short form, relatable content, and follow us on YouTube at that Twin Mama Podcasts for entire episodes and all of their glory.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And lastly, and this is a big one.
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[SPEAKER_00]: If you like what you heard today, please leave a review.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Your five-star love means so much to me and the team behind the scenes and helps us to keep going.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It also helps us to find parents like you who need to listen to these episodes, which mean the world.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So until next time, take care of you, take care of your crew, and remember, you're doing an amazing job.
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[SPEAKER_00]: See you soon.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Peace.
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[SPEAKER_01]: Is that too much love?
