Finding Inner Happiness Through Self-Worth and Authenticity with Henry Giovanni

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self-worth is happiness.
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When I hear the word self-worth, it's happiness, and it took me a long, long time to figure that out.
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Growing up on Disney movies where I was a Disney kid seeing the prince and the princess happily ever after, I always felt, like growing up up until three years ago, that I needed to be in a relationship to be happy.
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I would be in situations where I would jump into a relationship even when I didn't want to, because I felt like if I'm single, I'm a sucker, I'm worthless because no one wants me.
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I had that mentality so when I finally found self-worth, it's like wait a minute, self-worth is happiness.
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We have the power to bring happiness to ourselves.
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We don't need another person to make us happy, we need to make ourselves happy.
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We make ourselves happy.
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Anyone else, they got to make themselves happy too.
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Welcome to the Self-Worth Revolution podcast hosted by Vivian Medrano.
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I am not only a podcaster, but a mother, a nurse, a life coach and a survivor.
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This podcast is about turning your pain into your power, your experiences into your lessons, and to start living a life full of abundance, inner peace and fulfillment.
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My higher purpose are for my listeners to find their self-worth and their value by following their path to greatness.
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We are all deserving of living our best lives.
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It is time to stop identifying with our past.
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Start living in the present for a better future.
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This podcast will have guest speakers that will share their stories of how they transformed their lives and found their worth.
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My mission is to let my listeners know this is your time to shine, to know that you are not alone.
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Healing is empowering.
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It takes courage to be vulnerable and our voices have power.
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Hold on to your lives, because this will be an incredible ride of self-transformation, self-empowerment and radical change.
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It is time for us to take our power back.
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Hi, welcome to the Self-Worth Revolution podcast.
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I'm here with Giovanni Amaya.
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He's just a light of energy and he talks a lot about self-worth and a lot about self-love.
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And if you were here seeing me and seeing him.
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You could actually see that he has a really beautiful heart behind him and is encircled in flowers and growth.
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I'm sure this is where he's at right now just his journey of self-love.
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So, giovanni, without no further ado, I would like you to introduce yourself to all the listeners.
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Let them know a little bit about you.
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Here you go.
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Thank you, thank you, yes, I'm Giovanni Amaya coming at you live.
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Yes, she's talking about a cool painting I got in Venice Beach.
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I call it the tree of love.
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It's like a tree but there's like a heart in the middle and it really spoke to me, so I always grab everything that speaks to me.
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A lot of people know me as a realtor.
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I do real estate but I've really gravitated to motivational speaking.
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I've always been big on self-love, healing, overcoming traumas, and I guess that's something I've always done without me really knowing.
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Me and Vivian are similar in that way.
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Ever since we met.
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We always gravitated towards each other at every social event and we've always been on the same vibe.
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I feel like we're all about being sweet, true healing, and some people find me corny, but I don't care.
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If positivity is corny.
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Call me corny, I'll take it, Cause that's.
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That's what I'm all about.
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You know a lot of people don't find me like corny.
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I actually, I think because I'm in like my new space now I think that before I would think that people may think that I'm weird because I'm just like in this different light and in this different phase of life.
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But the more I become aware of my surroundings, I've actually realized that people gravitate to me because of how positive I am and because of my calm aura that I have within myself.
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So people feel safe within my space.
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So now I am a little quirky you know I'm a little goofy at times and that's who I am.
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And that's just who I am, and so I'm not yeah, I know, before I used to feel like, oh, I'm going to change who I am, so I could like blend in, so I could fit in Right.
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And I used to do that and I didn't feel comfortable with myself and I started realizing that why, if somebody is going to be my friend, if somebody is going to be within my circle of people I hang out with, why do I have to change myself in order to fit in?
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Why can I just be accepted as who I am?
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And so for a long time I didn't really understand that, until I started understanding that my validation didn't come from everybody around me, but within myself.
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And so, yes, I'm quirky, yes, I'm sensitive, yes, I sometimes speak up and sometimes I don't understand your joke and I will tell you like, I just don't understand your joke and I'm sorry, and you know, I'm okay to doing that, because before I would just laugh and be like I have no idea what they just said, but I'll just laugh just to fit in and I'm like, nope, didn't get it, Sorry, don't got that.
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So when do you feel was your awakening moment where Giovanni was like you know what, Giovanni, it is time for me to stop blending in and start being myself.
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It's crazy.
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I mean I've had, I've had a.
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It's been a long journey for me trying to blend in.
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I was always and going back to the corny thing.
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I guess because I'm a guy, girls, girls, you know it's different.
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But since I'm a guy and I've always hanged around masculine, very macho guys, I would get clowned in a lot oh, you know this, this and that.
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So I would always try to blend in but it just was not working.
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And then I got so frustrated where I would see people would do certain things that I didn't agree with or just joked all the time by putting themselves down.
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And I'm like, I've been bullied all my childhood.
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I don't like to joke putting each other's down, like, what's wrong with you guys?
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I felt like I was in another planet.
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So finally I just started speaking up for what I believe in and being who I am Like.
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If you guys think me being honest is corny, I'm corny.
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No, I don't think that's right.
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That's backstabbing why you do that Like.
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Like am I from another planet where we actually don't like to hurt people's feelings and like to support each other.
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So I just I just reached a point of being fed up.
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It's been about two, three years now where I just got fed up, where everyone kind of was looking at me like I was from another planet for being honest or truthful or not wanting to hurt people's feelings or calling people out when they did something wrong.
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Once I started standing up for myself and not being a people pleaser and calling out people's truths not in harm, just like what are you doing that for?
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That's hurtful.
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I started being disliked and I'm like, if me being true to myself is making me be disliked, I'm okay with that because I'm harmful really.
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Just everyone healing, growing, doing the right thing, as corny or simple as it sounds, that's gone, extinct.
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We've lost character out here in society.
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I feel like I just started finding myself, defending myself and defending my integrity, and I'm like I don't know what's going on, but I'm tired and fed up trying to blend in because it's not me.
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So let me just be me and I started just standing in my truth for the last few years and stop people pleasing and and and the fat just burned off and I'm okay with that and it's been about so it's been about three years now and I'm finally happy with that.
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And it's been about.
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So it's been about three years now and I'm finally happy with myself and my truth exactly.
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I think a lot of times we also try to force, by explaining ourselves, to keep people in our space, to keep them as friends, to keep family close to us, and I think the universe has a way of just removing certain people out of our space.
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And I think at that point in time, it's really not for us to be explaining ourselves to anybody, but it's just understanding that everybody lives their way, the way they would want to live it, and we just have to accept the person for who they are.
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And that is just the bottom line.
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Whether we like the person for who they are, we don't like the person for who they are, that doesn't matter.
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We still have to accept them for who they are and therefore, when we accept them for who they are, it's either they're going to be within our space and in our lives or they're not, and that's okay, you know, because not everybody is our person, and that's what's really important to understand.
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We don't have to be surrounded by so many people out there.
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We could have one or two friends within our space and that is more than enough.
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And I think a lot of times people want to be, feel that if you're in a big space of group, if you're in a big space of friendships, that you're this important person and the more people you have within you.
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That identifies who you are.
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Oh, I'm so likable, oh, I'm so lovable.
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Look how many people are I'm surrounded by and really that doesn't matter that.
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That that's really what society makes you believe that you have to have this material thing, you have to have this home, you have to have this car, you have to have this amount of people, you have to look this certain way, you know, in order to be accepted.
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And the reality of it is that as long as you accept yourself for who you are, then everybody around you will accept you yourself or who you are, then everybody around you will accept you, and you don't have anything you know.
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So when was your?
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We all have a breaking point right within our lives where we had a really hard time growing up, whatever that may be for any of us, because each of us have our own set of traumas and I always say this everybody's trauma is their trauma.
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No matter how small or big people may think, a trauma is a trauma.
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And so what has led you to the point where you are at right now, where you were like you know what?
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This is not me.
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What am I doing in this space?
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What am I accepting into my life?
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You know where were you, at Giovanni, before you started saying I need.
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You hit your awakening moment into your life.
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Well, the moment I was at when I hit my awakening if I can be honest and one of my biggest models is because I used to have, if I can be honest I had a really victim mentality growing up because I was like why, why, why, why is this happening to me?
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Because I got bullied as a kid.
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But then when I got my confidence, I ended up being a jerk, like I got into a place where I made a lot more money than what I was used to and it just just I just felt a little powerful, having money and I wanted the big bends and all the new brands and I just I felt so cool and that was just so rude to people and it's crazy to me because I was bullied as a kid.
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But then when I got confidence and got money, I was rude to people, very mean, and then, and then somehow everything just fell apart.
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Like I got my seven-year relationship fell apart and then like literally every friend, family member turned on me.
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I just wasn't into the type of work I was doing, so everything fell apart at once and that's the point I had my awakening and that's when I realized it happened for me, not to me.
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I found myself alone, not having any of my family members other than my mom no cousins, no friends, no brothers, no sisters had no one to call.
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I really just had myself.
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And so that's the point where I started looking within.
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I started just really analyzing within, like okay, so I'm completely by myself other than my mom.
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What's the problem here?
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It can't be the whole world, like, what have I been doing wrong?
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So I started taking inventory of how I treated people and how I didn't like to get bullied or talked a certain way.
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So why would I do that?
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So it was just that eye opener.
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I took inventory on how I treated people.
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I saw myself on video.
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I started realizing being alone and stuff.
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For a good amount of time I started really really realizing that the material stuff that I thought I really wanted I didn't even care about.
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Like what the hell?
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I don't even care about this Mercedes.
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It was just so much gas you know, like, let me get a Toyota Corolla.
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I mean, it just really humbled me down.
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It was a point where everyone turned on me, but in a crazy way I wouldn't take it back, I would do it the same way because it was sober.
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It humbled me Self-reflect.
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I dig deep and the most painful times of my life were the most gainful times.
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It really helped me drastically to become a better person overall.
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That's that.
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That was the point for me.
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So now my biggest question that I'm going to ask you you keep seeing people turned on you.
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Do you really feel that people turned on you?
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Or maybe people started feeling uncomfortable with just what you were saying right now, with certain behaviors or certain things that you were saying, that maybe they started feeling like it's not really they're turning on you, but they start sensing like you know what, this is not the person I want to hang out with anymore.
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You know, he's not that kind soul, he's not that humble soul.
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So in reality, when you say they turned on you, then, like you said, that was a victim mentality at that time, because it was all I, everybody's turning on me.
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How do you view that now?
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Do you still view it as though they turned on you or do you have it?
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Absolutely not on it.
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So what now?
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So now, when I was saying, oh, they turned on me, that was when I was in the victim mentality, of course.
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But now and my name is Henry Giovanni, for people that know me personally, it's Henry Giovanni and Henry, I associate him with, kind of like that arrogant douchebag.
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So now, the new me, the humble, the humble person, knew me, the humble, the humble person.
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So, no, I would say they definitely did not turn on me, because I've experienced people like the way it was and it was not pleasant at all.
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So they didn't turn on me.
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I wouldn't want to be around myself.
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So I completely understand, they were just like, hey, I don't want to be around this.
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And so they would do exactly what I would want to do.
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I would not want to be around myself.
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When I realized I would not want to be around myself as a person, that's when I was like, I realized I would not want to be around myself as a person.
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That's where I was like, okay, I understand that.
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I completely get it.
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So definitely, I understand that and I would run away too.
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So it's something that was much needed.
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It was.
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I thank everybody for it.
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I needed that to happen Because if I had one person to hang out with.
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That would totally distract me from taking self-inventory.
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I needed to be by myself to take that inventory and self-reflect and look at the toxic patterns that I was doing.
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So no, they did not.
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It wasn't an attorney, it was just like I don't want to be around that person and I wouldn't either.
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So I understand them, you know I understand them, and I think it takes a lot of courage for you to actually take accountability for it and stay it on here.
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You know what it was me.
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People didn't turn on me.
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I was a person that I wouldn't even like for myself to be around with, and so thank you for sharing your vulnerability, because that's really important for people to do.
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It's in order to change.
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We have to take accountability for the things that we've done, and it's okay, because we're not perfect, and I think what's important is that we learn through the things that we may not want to do and also through the things that we're really happy that we're doing.
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And so what would you say is some of the things that you have gained now and changing the way you expressed yourself, how you've changed the person.
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You know more so you become a better person of yourself.
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You know how do you feel now in how people receive you and how you receive people back.
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The way I feel now is I listen is a big thing I had a problem with.
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I had a huge problem not listening to people.
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It was always me, me, me, talking, talking, talking, over and over.
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I wouldn't even remember what they said because I wasn't listening.
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So, number one, I listened.
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The person I am now.
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I'm very cautious about people's feelings, about the way I speak to people, how I'm making people feel actually listening.
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So the way they receive me now is I see the people I associate with now they're receptive.
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Actually, a lot of people tell me I've changed and I used to think that that was a bad thing, like, oh, you changed.
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But they said I'm.
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A lot of people tell me I've changed and I used to think that that was a bad thing, like, oh, you changed.
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But they said I'm a lot more calmer, I'm a lot more calm because I'm like, let me, let me, you know, actually listen and calm down.
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I always felt so.
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So, on the go.
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So they're very receptive.
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They say I'm a lot more calmer, a lot more nicer, I, I'm just more considered.
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I listen, uh, to what they're saying.
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I consider people's feelings.
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I definitely just try to slow down.
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I feel like it was always about me, me, me, and it's like it's not just me.
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Let me, you know, collaborate and you know back and forth.
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And I just realized there's more.
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I'm in a different headspace.
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I've had a lot of these five best friends that were really close to me that passed away in the last 10 years, and my grandpa passed away this past year, so I've had a lot of death around me and being around them.
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They would always say things like I want to wear this, but I'm gonna look fat.
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Or I want in and out, but I'm gonna, I'm gonna get a salad instead.
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All that and then money, this, that all everything I've heard and been around and seen them pass is what I've learned is, at the end of the day, we don't take anything the money, the clothes, the designers and nothing.
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We're left with the memories.
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We're left with people's memories.
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How did it make people feel?
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And and what I've gotten from that is about the quality, your quality of life.
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How do you spend your time?
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Are you spending it with the people you love?
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How do you affect people?
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Are you that mean jerk?
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Are you bringing you know?
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Are you adding value to their lives?
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So my whole way of life, the way I look at, it has done a 360.
00:19:32.742 --> 00:19:38.893
I'm really big on quality time, how important it is and what's really important.
00:19:40.055 --> 00:19:48.616
You know, I actually love what you're saying, and the reason why is because it's coming from a different set of point of view.
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A lot of times, it's what people have done to us right, and so, because of what people have done to us, we choose to treat people in a certain way, right, and a lot of my speakers that I've had it's actually how they have used that and gained it as their power, as I have, you know, through my abuse, through my pain, through my trauma.
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I see that now as my gain, I see that as my power.
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You know, I've learned a lot from everything that I've gone through and I know that everything happened for me for a reason, and one of the reasons is for me now to be using this voice, to be using a forum like this in order to bring awareness to people.
00:20:28.973 --> 00:20:48.281
And the way that you're presenting you is I used to be in a me, me, me mentality, you know, and so now you're sitting here saying, if I didn't change my ways, if I didn't take accountability for the things that I was doing, I was losing friends, I was losing myself.
00:20:48.281 --> 00:20:57.590
You know, things would only be getting worse for me Instead of you changed all that around because you, realizing, you took accountability.
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Hey, what am I doing to create all this around me?
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What do you think got you to that place?
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Because Giovanni was not always at that place, where it was always me, me, me.
00:21:12.721 --> 00:21:19.195
What got you to the place where you started feeling that it was about me, me, me.
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What did you fear that, if you didn't do, you were in this place of?
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It has to be me.
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I have to protect myself.
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It has to be about me.
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You know, I can't show my true colors because if I do, I'm not going to be accepted.
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What led you to that moment where it was only me, me, me?
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So we could have a bigger understanding about why Giovanni got there before now, giovanni, is how you are a spirit.
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You know you're just.
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You light up a whole room now.
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Thank you.
00:21:50.250 --> 00:21:58.315
So so you're asking me how did I get to the, the, the selfish version of me, correct, right, okay, so the way I got there?
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As a kid some people follow me on social media as a kid, I was always very feminine from I was four, five, from four through well, really feminine from four to thirteen, and then I painted it down, but I was a very girly kid and I didn't know it was wrong.
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Well, it's not wrong, but at the time.
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I would get punished for it.
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I just walked, girly, I took my sister's Barbies, I would wear like tainted lip gloss.
00:22:25.077 --> 00:22:29.121
So I was a girly kid and I would get bullied hard.
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I would get beat up at school, beat up by the apartments.
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It was just.
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I was always beaten.
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And then once I became a teenager, like 16, 17, and people started telling me I was handsome and I started looking like a guy.
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I got confidence.
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So I feel that the drastic change of being like the skinny, girly boy that got beat up to a handsome, masculine looking guy, I had to tone down my, my freaking, my, my stardust, I guess.
00:23:00.673 --> 00:23:15.454
But but going from one extreme to the next, from being, you know, bully, skinny girly to then everyone telling me I'm handsome and masculine and they didn't want it to be around me, that extreme went from like whoa, people are giving me attention, this is way different for me.
00:23:15.454 --> 00:23:22.554
So it just was something totally different, totally new.
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I felt like it was some kind of power, like okay, well, I'm handsome, I have money, I can do whatever I want.
00:23:25.645 --> 00:23:30.680
It was like from one extreme to the next and it's just like.
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It's like this crazy movie I saw where like a nerd turned into like this hot actor and he can do whatever he wants, but he's a douche.
00:23:36.941 --> 00:23:38.163
That's what happened to me.
00:23:38.250 --> 00:23:42.554
I went from one extreme to the next, which tripped me out.
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When it self-reflected, I'm like, why would I be like that if I got beat up and teased for so long?
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But that's just what happened.
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So many years of being talked down to and telling me I was ugly and dark and ugly at this, To then being saying, oh, you're handsome, oh this that you know it was, it felt powerful.
00:24:01.019 --> 00:24:03.320
So, if I can be honest, it felt powerful.
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I felt I felt like just, I was it, you know, but it just, it just became too nasty I was.
00:24:09.726 --> 00:24:10.487
It was too extreme.
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I was a jerk.
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I was hurting so many people's feelings.
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I thought I was being funny, but I was hurting people's feelings and the way I saw that too.
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I was performing somewhere and someone recorded a clip and I'm trying to talk and talking over people and I'm like, oh my God, like he's so rude.
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I'm talking to myself like how rude, how stank, like I'm not even realizing the people around me were making faces like, and I'm like, oh my God, I was terrified, I had to see myself and I was like that guy's a jerk, I don't like him, what the hell is wrong?
00:24:42.776 --> 00:24:44.756
Like I wouldn't want to be around him and that's me.
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And that took a lot of courage for you to do that.
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It really took a lot of courage for you to acknowledge that, you know, although that you felt accepted, as you say, although that you felt accepted as you say, you felt accepted.
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Now People saw me more masculine.
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People stopped bullying me.
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Do you really truly think that people were accepting you for who you truly are, though, or were you trying to put a facade of who the society wants Giovanni to be and that's who they were accepting?
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And if so, how did Giovanni feel inside?
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Well, I wasn't acting more masculine.
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I just looked more masculine because I got broad shoulders and stuff, because I was a skinny little girl.
00:25:25.864 --> 00:25:30.541
I just got these shoulders and lifted weights, but I wasn't acting more masculine.
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I was still myself.
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I did tone myself down a lot.
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I wasn't as colorful as I was.
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So I think society, even though I thought they accepted me, it was a toned down version of me which was not really me.
00:25:45.394 --> 00:25:50.174
Also, I was being mean, funny because I thought that was funny.
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I was basically kind of just yeah, even though I was still kind of myself, I really was portraying kind of like yeah, even though I was still kind of myself, I really was portraying kind of like jerky people that I was around, certain people that I don't know how to explain it Certain people that I was around acted a certain way and that kind of just amplified it.
00:26:08.442 --> 00:26:12.920
So no, they definitely were not liking the real me because it wasn't the real me.
00:26:12.920 --> 00:26:23.156
Number one, number two if I'm someone with money, buying everyone's drinks and buying everyone's lunches, of course they're gonna want to hang around me, because once I stopped doing that, y'all disappeared.
00:26:24.759 --> 00:26:29.160
Um, so no, they definitely did not like me for the real me, because that was not the real me I was.
00:26:29.160 --> 00:26:31.068
I was just, I thought it was.
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I thought people would think it's funny if I had to certain way like very bossy, demanding, like that boss demeanor, but it was not working at all and they did not like me at all.
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It was a frat.
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Of course I genuinely don't think they were liking me because I didn't like me.
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That's okay.
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We all go through our points in life where we're not at our perfect place, and that's what's important.
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I think a lot of times people try to identify themselves with a past and they still kind of live in that past moment.
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But, giovanni, you're not that person anymore.
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You're a better, improved person of yourself, giovanni, and even though you're taking away your name Henry, which is you know how I know you, and even though you're taking away your name Henry, which is you know how I know you, that name doesn't identify with that person, because that person has always been you, giovanni.
00:27:23.262 --> 00:27:32.936
It's just you were going through a lot at that time and for that period of your time.
00:27:32.936 --> 00:27:37.680
You had to go through that phase in order to learn who you are now as a person, and you took accountability for it, and that's called growth.
00:27:38.230 --> 00:28:05.767
You've been thriving all this time now, and now that you're in this healthy space within yourself and you're self-loving yourself and you're creating an aura of positivity around you, and you tend now more to because you have moments, too, that will get triggered and I do see you whenever there's something that bothers you and you tend now more to because you know you have moments, too, that will get triggered, and I do see you whenever you know there's something that bothers you, but you try to handle it in a more positive way now, instead of saying, well, why did they do that to me?
00:28:05.767 --> 00:28:08.196
You mostly learn from.
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Why did that happen?
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What are they trying to tell me, you know?
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Am I trying to?
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Is there something I need to learn from here?
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Because everything that's given to us is a lesson in life.
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You know how we want to see it and how we want to accept it and what we want to learn from it.
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That's on us, but everything is a lesson in life.
00:28:26.596 --> 00:28:37.277
And so, now that you're in this space of yours, what would you say is different in how you feel about yourself?
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And also, what are you bringing out to people out there for them to see?
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This is me, and I'm proud of who I am and I'm not going to mold myself to fit in and I'm okay being Giovanni.
00:28:56.353 --> 00:28:56.513
Yeah.
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So those are two very good questions because it's something that those are like the theme of this whole past year.
00:29:01.838 --> 00:29:10.462
So I'm very proud of the new me because I feel like I stand not only for myself, but for something.
00:29:10.462 --> 00:29:12.277
I've gotten into many different things.
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People know me.
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I've gotten into luxury real estate, but I've also gotten into music.
00:29:15.895 --> 00:29:16.276
So I've gone into many different things.
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People know me.
00:29:16.426 --> 00:29:16.913
I've gotten into luxury real estate, but I've also gotten into music.
00:29:16.913 --> 00:29:25.163
So I've gone to industry events, so just going to a lot of industry events and meeting a lot of millionaires and huge business owners.
00:29:25.163 --> 00:29:33.096
It's a different world and there's so many people that own businesses and are a big deal and they're so sweet and humble.
00:29:33.096 --> 00:29:43.941
And there's other people I meet that come across a certain way online or on TV and they're so mean, like how I used to be mean and heartless.
00:29:44.923 --> 00:29:57.823
And the new me, let's just say I've been in situations where it doesn't matter how crazy or what I might gain, I stand strong to my truth, my honesty and my integrity.
00:29:57.823 --> 00:30:00.836
So I'm very proud of the new Henry.
00:30:00.836 --> 00:30:01.920
I'm going to take it back to Henry.
00:30:01.920 --> 00:30:02.902
I like what you said, ali.
00:30:02.902 --> 00:30:11.476
So I'm very proud of the new Henry, because it doesn't matter what people have offered me money-wise or materialistic-wise or opportunity.
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I'm standing true to my character and my true character is an honest, truthful, loving, flamboyant, creative person.
00:30:21.776 --> 00:30:28.575
Certain people have told me to stop singing because I sound horrible or it makes me look this.
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Why do I give it?
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Because I want to.
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So I'm staying true to my stuff and I'm very proud because I know I feel like a handful of people.
00:30:41.256 --> 00:30:43.117
Well, I feel if there was a poll.
00:30:43.117 --> 00:30:46.595
Well, I'm taking a poll with people around me and they say they would have done the other thing.
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Like a lot of people will take money over this or that, but not me.
00:30:50.289 --> 00:30:55.218
After everything I've learned, I'm proud of standing in my truth and my character.
00:30:55.218 --> 00:31:01.529
I finally have the power to stand in my truth, my character, my integrity, and that it's been a little difficult.
00:31:01.529 --> 00:31:07.571
It might be uncomfortable, but I'm proud of that, that I do it and the way I show it is by, even though I'm not perfect.
00:31:07.571 --> 00:31:11.540
I might pop off here and there online, but the way I try to show it now.
00:31:11.540 --> 00:31:19.070
I try to show it now by turning it into a positive, because something, a quote I saw.
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That's so true energy grows where energy flows.
00:31:22.602 --> 00:31:25.550
So it doesn't matter what the justification is.
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If I'm talking negative, it's going to be negative.
00:31:27.715 --> 00:31:33.756
So if I just change the dial to positive, like let me turn this into a positive flow and learn from it.
00:31:33.776 --> 00:31:37.403
You know, so I've been doing freestyle songs and posting them.
00:31:37.403 --> 00:31:41.057
I invent songs on the spot, so I just throw music out there.
00:31:41.057 --> 00:31:47.559
And whatever I throw out there, I try to give it a positive twist, like a learning lesson, because that's really what everything is a learning lesson.
00:31:47.559 --> 00:31:49.316
Failure is not failure.
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It's one thing you crossed off and it's getting you closer to your goal.
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You know that didn't work out.
00:31:55.323 --> 00:31:57.855
Stopping it's getting you closer to your goal.
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You know that didn't work out.
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Cool, let's try this.
00:31:59.038 --> 00:32:01.105
So I really try to twist everything as much as I can as a positive.
00:32:01.125 --> 00:32:02.810
And exactly, it's like what you just said.
00:32:02.810 --> 00:32:10.631
We are in charge of the channels that we bring into ourselves, right, so just like a radio station.
00:32:10.991 --> 00:32:21.040
If we don't like a channel, if we don't like what the, if we don't like what the music's saying, if we don't like what the announcer is announcing, we change the channel right to what it is that we want to resonate with.
00:32:21.040 --> 00:32:39.863
So that's exactly what we have to do If we get exposed to so much negativity, you know, and if our thoughts are negative, then that's what we're going to bring into our lives, because our thoughts are connected with how we feel about ourselves.
00:32:39.863 --> 00:32:48.844
So if we think positively about ourselves and what we're bringing in, then we're going to glow and our energy is going to be at a higher vibration.
00:32:48.844 --> 00:32:59.037
So, therefore, we're going to be able to attract people at a higher vibration instead of a lower vibration and, at the same time, we're going to be able to be very intuitive.
00:32:59.217 --> 00:33:08.202
When something feels unsafe, or an environment feels unsafe, or a person feels unsafe, whatever it is to know it's okay to walk away.
00:33:08.202 --> 00:33:13.657
You don't have to justify, you don't have to make explanations, you don't have to say anything.
00:33:13.657 --> 00:33:17.714
All you have to say is don't have to make explanations, you don't have to say anything.
00:33:17.714 --> 00:33:20.001
All you have to say is thank you, and you just leave and that's what's so important.
00:33:20.022 --> 00:33:26.159
A lot of times you would stay in this place because you were afraid of what other people may think of you.
00:33:26.159 --> 00:33:27.582
I can't believe she just left.
00:33:27.582 --> 00:33:28.530
Can you believe her?
00:33:28.530 --> 00:33:38.354
You know, and a lot of times you'd be surprised, but there are a lot of people that sometimes feel exactly the way you do and you are just that voice of reason.
00:33:38.354 --> 00:33:48.042
You are that voice that people needed to hear to say you're right, this is not comfortable and you walk away, and a lot of times you don't end up walking away alone.
00:33:48.042 --> 00:33:50.355
You end up walking away with other people, with you too.
00:33:50.355 --> 00:33:58.621
So now you have a voice and you're able to speak up and you're able to say things, and you don't need to.
00:33:58.950 --> 00:34:03.757
I actually like to call you Henry, too, because I know you, henry, you're like this.
00:34:03.757 --> 00:34:11.460
So I, that is you, and this is what I mean.
00:34:11.460 --> 00:34:14.132
We are our.
00:34:14.132 --> 00:34:28.463
We have to accept ourselves completely and wholly, and that means we have to even accept our imperfections and quote unquote, flaws right, there's no perfection in us.
00:34:28.463 --> 00:34:37.871
We're not these perfect beings walking around where we're like, happy and joyful all the time and we make the right decisions all the time.
00:34:37.871 --> 00:34:40.818
And you know, sometimes we we just don't get mad.
00:34:40.818 --> 00:34:41.900
Things don't affect us.
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No, that's not reality of it.
00:34:43.811 --> 00:34:47.278
So you need to accept yourself completely.
00:34:47.278 --> 00:34:56.943
And so Henry is a complete version of you, even with the things that you may have not liked, that Henry did at a certain point in his life.
00:34:56.943 --> 00:35:07.217
But that doesn't mean that you, if you lost that part of you, then you wouldn't be who you are right now, because you wouldn't have anything to look back on that you learned from.
00:35:07.217 --> 00:35:18.364
And so that's why I'm saying, like Henry, that's completely you and you are who you are because of what you've been through.
00:35:19.130 --> 00:35:26.990
You know, it's like me saying, oh, I'm going to change my name because it's associated with my abuse.
00:35:26.990 --> 00:35:35.755
Then that means that I'm forgetting that part of me and I'll never forget that part of me because it's part of me.
00:35:35.755 --> 00:35:39.297
But I don't have that part of me because it's part of me, but I don't have to identify and live with it.
00:35:39.297 --> 00:35:41.327
And so that's what you're doing.
00:35:41.327 --> 00:35:44.097
You're not identifying with it, you're not living with it.
00:35:44.097 --> 00:35:46.204
You're just saying I've grown from that.
00:35:46.204 --> 00:35:52.898
And it takes a lot of courage to grow and be where you're at and to be here on this forum saying you know what?
00:35:52.938 --> 00:35:53.159
I was?
00:35:53.159 --> 00:35:53.519
A jerk.
00:35:53.519 --> 00:36:01.059
I was a real asshole and I treated people horrible and I was not kind and I would have hated being in my own space.
00:36:01.059 --> 00:36:05.873
But I'm here now and people gravitate to me.
00:36:05.873 --> 00:36:16.250
I, people find me joyful, people find me spirited, and now the people who want to hang out with me love me for who who I am, and I don't need to mold myself anymore.
00:36:16.250 --> 00:36:29.018
So when you go to these entertainment things, do you ever feel at any time that you would ever change who you are right now to fit in?
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Absolutely not.
00:36:31.884 --> 00:36:34.449
When I go to these entertainment things.
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The opportunities have already happened.
00:36:36.713 --> 00:36:45.170
I'm not trying to go into details, but there's been at least a handful of opportunities where how can I say?
00:36:45.170 --> 00:36:51.367
Where my morals would be compromised if I don't speak up, and I've spoken up every time.
00:36:51.367 --> 00:36:59.065
I've had situations where, because I'm speaking up against something I think is wrong, I've had to leave that opportunity and that job.
00:36:59.746 --> 00:37:05.130
But I'm proud of myself because I stood up for what I believe in and what I felt was right.
00:37:05.130 --> 00:37:15.998
I've had opportunities where I've been offered money although give me this, this and that, but again, my character, my morals will be compromised and if I don't feel that's right, I wouldn't do it.
00:37:15.998 --> 00:37:38.760
So I've already I definitely have already had to walk away from financial opportunities where it would help me in the financial sense but it's not morally right in my compass, and I've had at least three, four jobs that I've had to walk away from, quit from and decline because there were certain things I felt were not morally right.
00:37:38.760 --> 00:37:44.744
And even if they are the big boss, if I'm telling them, hey, I don't think that's cool, I don't think that's right.
00:37:44.744 --> 00:37:46.188
Like, what are you doing?
00:37:46.188 --> 00:37:53.114
You know, and I was expected to be quiet or shut up and know I'm going to stand up for what I feel is right.
00:37:53.114 --> 00:37:56.382
It doesn't matter how much money anyone has.
00:37:56.442 --> 00:37:58.543
At the end of the day, we all are people.
00:37:58.543 --> 00:38:01.025
We all go to the same place, you know.
00:38:01.025 --> 00:38:04.088
Hopefully we all go to the same place.
00:38:04.088 --> 00:38:07.730
So material is nothing, and that's one thing.
00:38:07.730 --> 00:38:14.094
When I was the jerk version of me, I would be quiet if someone in power would tell me something.
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But no, I'm really big now in speaking the truth and speaking on what's right.
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So those opportunities have happened and I'm proud of myself, even though some people I mentioned it to some friends like you're dumb, I would have done it Like well, that's you, but for me I didn't want to do it, you know.
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So I'm proud of myself.
00:38:33.344 --> 00:38:44.490
And one quick thing I wanted to say when I was doing my self inventory, two guys that helped me a lot on YouTube was Aaron Daughtry and Jake Ducey.
00:38:44.490 --> 00:38:45.896
They do a lot of self healing and that helped me a lot.
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Those two guys helped me a lot too, so shout out to them.
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No, it's important to let people know.
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Even if you know people with big names, you know that they made a big difference in you, because I have a feeling that a lot of times people don't really realize what a big difference they make.
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Some of it is exposed through social media, where we could make a big difference in other people's lives by just bringing positivity out.
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And for me, for example, my algorithm is very different because of what I listen to, what I resonate with, you know.
00:39:21.788 --> 00:39:27.724
So I focus on bringing myself more energy, more positive light.
00:39:27.724 --> 00:39:28.864
I don't watch the news.
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I stay away from the news.
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I'm going to find out what's going on.
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You know, sometimes ignorance is the bliss, but I honestly always find out what's going on in the news.
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But, like they say, if you wake up watching the news that's really negative, then your day is just going to follow in the same way, and so I choose to create my day in a very positive way, so I end my day in a very positive way.
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Does that mean that things aren't going to happen along the way that may, you know, question me or what I'm doing and stuff.
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Of course it is.
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You know, I may be driving and somebody may cut me off and I could either get really upset about it or I could just be like, all right, cool, okay, cut me off and I leave it alone.
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And most of the time I just leave it alone where before I would get really upset and I'd be just like you know, how dare you?
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What the fuck are you doing?
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Like?
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Why are you driving like that?
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Can you slow down?
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Can you speed up?
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Like, what the hell?
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Like?
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And I'm like now, I'm like why am I giving so much energy to somebody I don't even know?
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So they cut me off.
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Oh well, those are your choices that you have.
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You could either react or you could respond in a positive way.
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So, to me, as long as I create my day, the way I'm going to do things like that, I'm not going to affect me, because the control that I have within myself is just that to control myself.
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I don't have control over others.
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I don't have control over changing others.
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I don't have control over what others are going to say or respond.
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That's not me, that is them.
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And so, being in this different phase of my life, I'm able to respond to my triggers in a healthier way.
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You know, and I think that's what you have been doing when people question your morals, or you know, like you said, when people question your morales, or you know, like you said, money is not everything in life.
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You know so.
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Therefore, there's going to be situations where, yeah, you could accept the money, but is that really going to be what's going to be happy for you?
00:41:25.786 --> 00:41:28.228
Is that truly what you need within your path?
00:41:28.228 --> 00:41:34.172
You know, and now you've spoken up for yourself and said that is not what I need in my path.
00:41:34.172 --> 00:41:37.625
You've spoken up for yourself and said that is not what I need in my path.
00:41:37.644 --> 00:41:48.331
I don't need to mold myself into this person that is materialistic, that's driven by money, but by you just bringing value to people as you are, value is going to be returned right back to you.
00:41:48.331 --> 00:41:49.173
It's a cycle.
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You know what you give out, you will receive in.
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So that was not the money for you.
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It's okay, that's fine, because the right money will come to you and you will know when that is.
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And I think that's what's important for people to know is that our life shouldn't be surrounded by money.
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It should be surrounded by what we give out to people, which is value, which is our authentic self.
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Positivity, kindness, love those are things that people need, and in return, you're going to get it back and it feels so much more powerful than when you just get meaningless numbers of money that's just going to go away anyways, because money doesn't buy anything, you know.
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It doesn't bring you happiness.
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Like you said, there's people who have so much money out there and you've been around them and they're just unhappy and unkind people.
00:42:46.213 --> 00:42:52.467
So then you start questioning yourself so does money really bring you happiness?
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What do you think?
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Does money really bring you happiness?
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I mean, of course, it helps.
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I feel that.
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I mean it makes things easier, of course, but the way I think of life now, the way I think now, is do what you're passionate First of all.
00:43:10.543 --> 00:43:16.548
I feel, as long as you're doing what you're genuinely passionate about whatever makes you happy, the money will come.
00:43:16.548 --> 00:43:27.795
For me specifically, I've just, with all the meditating and all the work I've done, I feel that, for me specifically, I feel okay, I'm here to serve.
00:43:27.795 --> 00:43:31.610
I'm here to self-serve, to give myself a service for everyone.
00:43:31.610 --> 00:43:39.027
I'm here to serve everybody, tell my story, uplift everyone and help everyone heal Like I had, like I healed.
00:43:39.027 --> 00:43:47.530
So I feel like I'm here to talk about my story, help people heal, help uplift everybody and be of service to everyone.
00:43:47.530 --> 00:43:48.693
That's number one.
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The money will come with it.
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You know, of course, we've got to pay bills and stuff.
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It's just the way the money comes.
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I want to do it the right way.
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If I'm doing it from, you know, of course, we've got to pay bills and stuff.
00:43:55.293 --> 00:43:55.548
It's just the way the money comes.
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I want to do it the right way.
00:43:56.552 --> 00:44:00.481
If I'm doing it from the heart, it comes Versus.
00:44:00.481 --> 00:44:05.472
You know, jack or Joe that might be, you know, overcharging on applications for no reason.
00:44:05.472 --> 00:44:07.166
I don't think that that's the right way, you know.
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So it's the way you do things.
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I think, do it genuinely from the place of love and from the heart, and the rest will follow.
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I love that.
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That's.
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That's so true and that's how I believe too.
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You know, it's as long as you're giving out and it's really with your intentions, then everything's going to follow back.
00:44:29.021 --> 00:44:48.391
I am a firm believer of that, and so you know my podcast called the self worth revolution, and I think it's really important that within ourselves, we're able to find that we're worthy and that we're deserving and that we're enough as who we are, you know.
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And as long as we find that within ourselves, then what anybody thinks of us, what anybody tells us, it's really irrelevant.
00:44:57.114 --> 00:45:03.291
And so when you hear the word self-worth, what does that mean to you?
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Self-worth is happiness.
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When I hear the word self-worth, it's happiness.
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And it took me a long, long time to figure that out.
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Growing up on Disney movies where I was a Disney kid seeing the prince and the princess happily ever after, I always felt, like growing up up until three years ago, that I needed to be in a relationship to be happy.
00:45:28.173 --> 00:45:39.295
I would be in situations where I would jump into a relationship even when I didn't want to, because I I felt like if I'm single like I'm a sucker, I'm worthless because no one wants me.
00:45:39.295 --> 00:45:40.483
I had that mentality.
00:45:40.483 --> 00:45:45.402
So when I finally found self-worth, it's like wait, self-worth is happiness.
00:45:45.402 --> 00:45:49.552
We have the power to bring happiness to ourselves.
00:45:49.552 --> 00:45:54.668
We don't need another person to make us happy, we need to make ourselves happy.
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We make ourselves happy.
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Anyone else they got to make themselves happy too, and if we hang out, let's be happy together, you know, but we have the power to bring it.
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Self-worth means happiness to me.
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We have the power to bring it.
00:46:08.324 --> 00:46:21.742
And once you figure out your self-worth, like wait a minute, I know how to mingle, I know how to sing, I can socialize, I'm pretty cool.
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Self-worth is your happiness.
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Once you know your self-worth, you're happy and you won't take, you won't settle for, for less, because you know your worth.
00:46:25.632 --> 00:46:32.588
You know, and I I catch, at least in the hispanic community we there's a lot, of, a lot of lovely words.
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You know, gordo feito negrito.
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It starts with that word.
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It's like damn, why do you call me donkey?
00:46:37.625 --> 00:46:39.498
Why do you call me fat?
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Can we get sweeter names for us guys, like.
00:46:43.744 --> 00:46:52.902
But once that sort of reminded me of like okay, when I hear someone say don't call her chubby, she's cute, you're cute, you know.
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So it's knowing your worth and standing in your way, knowing, knowing that, no matter what anyone says or jokes, you know what your worth.
00:47:00.311 --> 00:47:02.242
So it means happiness definitely.
00:47:02.583 --> 00:47:22.789
that is so funny because, okay, I think, as Latinos, the reason we call people feitos it's not truly because we believe they're feyitas, it's the opposite meaning, because we don't want them to focus so much on their look, but on everything else that they have within.
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So for me I'm the feyita.
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That's my.
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My mom calls me the feyita.
00:47:28.668 --> 00:47:32.387
Okay, yes, my mom calls me that.
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She calls me usually me.
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So it all depends on my mom's mood.
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Sometimes I'm like bonita and sometimes I'm the feita, but most of the time it's the feita and it's just.
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I don't even take it as though my mom knows like I'm ugly.
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No, I know it's a word of endearment, of just being loving, and I know it's really.
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It's kind of funny for people to understand it, unless you're Latino, you know, because I will call my kids the same, the same way, you know I would say me, me, gordo or something like that, and then my kids are like the thinnest kids you could just imagine.
00:48:07.340 --> 00:48:14.833
But I think for me it's mostly like I don't want you to focus on the outside, exterior part, but the inner part of yourself.
00:48:14.833 --> 00:48:29.054
And so when my mom says that, I know that's not who I am, and I know I don't resonate with that word at all, but I know that my mom is basically saying it in just a reversed way, you know.
00:48:29.054 --> 00:48:39.548
And so I understand what you're saying, because my mother inin-law, she's not Latina and one time she's like why are you calling her that?
00:48:39.548 --> 00:48:41.271
She's not ugly.
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And I was like I didn't really call her ugly, Like that's not at all my intention.
00:48:46.356 --> 00:48:56.199
I said I just basically called her that as a word of endearment because I want her to focus on how beautiful she is internally.
00:48:56.780 --> 00:48:59.527
Impairment, because I want her to focus on how beautiful she is internally and so and it's kind of hard to grasp it.
00:48:59.527 --> 00:49:20.213
But I guess when you grow up in the culture then you understand that it has nothing really to do with the exterior and more to do with the interior, because we all do it, and I guess it would be a good thing to ask a child what their point of view is when they're being called that, whether they would.
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Where I'm coming from, Because as a child, I believed I was ugly.
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So that's what was messing me up?
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I was like, well, I'm.
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And then my brothers and sisters happen to be beautiful.
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I'm like, oh great, guess, I'm ugly.
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So I believed it as a child.
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So I'm coming from the child aspect.
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I did not like it, and that's good, and that's good for us to know, you know, because I think it's important to bring that awareness out, because we do it and we do it unconsciously, because it's something that's been brought down to us generation by generation, because my mom was told that and I was told that, you know, and so it's a cycle and we have to break that cycle.
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So now I don't call my children that, you know.
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I just call them mijo and mija, and that's what I call them my love, you know.
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And so that's how I am.
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I don't really refer to them of anything that's going to be based on anything in regards to image, and that's something that't really refer to them of anything that's going to be based on anything in regards to image.
00:50:16.344 --> 00:50:23.021
And that's something that's really important to me, because I don't want my children to focus on their exterior.
00:50:23.021 --> 00:50:39.246
I always tell them that with you, your characters, what you have from within, your looks could always change, but what you have internally will not, you know, and so you choose to treat people in a very humble way.
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You know it's important to have that integrity within you, to know what is the right way to treat people, and it's the way that you would want others to treat you.
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It's a reverse effect, you know, and so that's why now I don't do that, and maybe because of that, you know, I don't break it with my mom doing that to me and that's just because, culturally, she's been doing it for a while and I don't see any.
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I don't, I don't resonate with it, so I'm okay, you know.
00:51:10.242 --> 00:51:14.467
But I could see how it could affect children and, as you said, it affected you.
00:51:14.949 --> 00:51:19.456
For me, I didn't want to be looked at my body image.
00:51:19.456 --> 00:51:28.161
I was very thin growing up and you would be shocked, but I was made fun of for being thin, you know.
00:51:28.161 --> 00:51:31.050
I was made fun of for having really long legs.
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You know, things that I would be picked on.
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People would like find little things to pick on me about.
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And now it's like I love my legs.
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They're long and they're beautiful and they're lengthy and they make me look taller than what I am.
00:51:46.606 --> 00:51:52.061
So now it's like every little aspect that was broken down and people would make fun of.
00:51:52.061 --> 00:51:53.746
I'm like I love my.
00:51:53.746 --> 00:51:56.413
I don't have a really top lip, I don't.
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I love that, you know, and people would always make fun of that.
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And I'm like this is me, you know, and it's like I'm starting to appreciate myself without me hiding behind filters, behind what people think I should look like.
00:52:12.025 --> 00:52:21.657
You know, I'm starting to love my body as for what it is, because this is who I am, and so I have to appreciate myself for who I am.
00:52:21.657 --> 00:52:29.273
I love myself for who I am, and that includes all the little, what you would call imperfections, within me.
00:52:29.760 --> 00:52:37.393
You know, and that's my self worth within myself, is accepting myself completely and fully for who I am.
00:52:37.393 --> 00:52:47.686
And so now, if somebody does try to say, well, you know what I don't really like that part of you, do you not think that you should maybe change?
00:52:47.686 --> 00:52:54.291
You know, example, your lips, because I've been told that you don't want to put a little bit of Botox in it or something.
00:52:54.380 --> 00:53:03.922
And now I'm like because if I do and I tell them this if I do, then I'm changing my face, and I don't want to change my face.
00:53:03.922 --> 00:53:05.123
I love my.
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No need for so that's not that.
00:53:07.565 --> 00:53:24.992
And so what has been your greatest, your greatest thing that you could tell people that you've encountered, that you embody now, that you would express to people and let them know.
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You have to do this for yourself, Because if I didn't do this for myself, I wouldn't have gained this greatness that I am now myself.
00:53:36.541 --> 00:53:37.963
I wouldn't have gained this greatness that I am now, definitely so.
00:53:37.963 --> 00:53:41.487
What I've experienced for myself is exactly what you said.
00:53:41.487 --> 00:53:43.291
First of all, your legs look amazing.
00:53:43.291 --> 00:53:58.764
Every time you walk in a dress on Instagram, I'm like look at her, my goodness, go ahead, by the swing, by the rock, go ahead.
00:53:58.764 --> 00:54:00.610
So it's crazy, right, like what we thought got picked on is what people like.
00:54:00.610 --> 00:54:01.574
Now that's the same thing for me.
00:54:01.594 --> 00:54:02.637
People would make fun of these dark eyebrows.
00:54:02.637 --> 00:54:07.710
They'd come and touch it with their finger, implying that I put eyeliner in my eyebrows.
00:54:07.710 --> 00:54:15.432
Look, these are straight up arabian, egyptian, cuban eyebrows, my eyebrows I used to get my friend up.
00:54:15.432 --> 00:54:15.833
I love them.
00:54:15.833 --> 00:54:26.762
Now my eyelashes I got dark, dark eyelashes for a guy and in elementary school, when it would rain, they would make fun of me and say you better go inside because your mascara is going to run out from town.
00:54:26.762 --> 00:54:27.746
I'm like what?
00:54:27.746 --> 00:54:28.668
Now?
00:54:28.668 --> 00:54:30.456
I don't care, I love these eyelashes.
00:54:30.456 --> 00:54:33.726
So my eyebrows, my eyelashes, I love them, I embody them.
00:54:36.293 --> 00:54:51.469
And the biggest thing, that they would make fun of me for being girly, different see, speaking now as an adult, I find people gravitating to me on Instagram, strangers wanting me to buy a house with me.
00:54:51.469 --> 00:54:52.092
I don't even know them.
00:54:52.092 --> 00:54:55.148
But they're like, we like your vibe, we like that you sing, you're so funny.
00:54:55.148 --> 00:55:04.277
So the things that they would make fun of me and I would tame down in school and I'm just myself yes, I sing, I make songs, I do jokes, I give advice.
00:55:04.277 --> 00:55:12.208
People online are looking for a realtor which you don't need to be a goofy singing realtor but they gravitate towards me because they're like you seem so much fun.
00:55:12.208 --> 00:55:18.536
I'm like it would be fun to shop around with you and I'm like that's so wild because I'm just being myself and I would hide that.
00:55:18.536 --> 00:55:23.913
And now people reach out to me because they want to be around me while we're shopping for a house or selling a house.
00:55:23.913 --> 00:55:26.166
So really just being yourself.
00:55:26.166 --> 00:55:28.927
We think people might make fun of us.
00:55:29.940 --> 00:55:38.427
Whatever we think they're making fun of normally's, because you know they might be lacking, because what I used to get made fun of and I used to take down.
00:55:38.427 --> 00:55:41.782
Now everyone reaches out to me because they like me, because I'm different.
00:55:41.782 --> 00:55:47.614
You know so, different is the new black, different is is it's trending.
00:55:47.614 --> 00:55:50.528
You know who wants good old, boring old school.
00:55:50.528 --> 00:55:52.536
Everyone wants what's different.
00:55:52.536 --> 00:56:00.853
It's cool to be different and you know that's what I try to tell them, my little brothers and the kids I'm around like, hey, be different, be you.
00:56:00.853 --> 00:56:14.128
You know, one of the kids I've helped with homework had a white hoodie with different colors splashed on it and it was just so cool, cause you know, there was a time where boys would like to wear rainbow splatter sweaters and stuff.
00:56:14.128 --> 00:56:14.849
And he's just like.
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I like it.
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I like it.
00:56:15.751 --> 00:56:20.940
I'm like I like to see young kids not caring and being who they are Really.
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Be who you are because you were made that way for a reason.
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We all have different special qualities and you don't want to hide that.
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We're special, everybody's special, everyone has special qualities.
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But be who you are because you're like that for a reason.
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You're going to affect people positively in so many different ways.
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So be yourself, because you'll be cheating yourself if you're not I love that.
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You'll be cheating yourself if you're not.
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And that is so true because your authentic self is your true power, because nobody is you and you are nobody else.
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So by being you, you're bringing value that not everybody else has.
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And that's the beauty of being diverse is, if we all were one type of person, we wouldn't learn from each other, we wouldn't be able to grow from one another.
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You know, and we all bring our own set of values, and isn't that what the beauty of connection is?
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is for us to connect with one another, learn from one another, laugh with one another, love one another, be kind to one another.
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Why?
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Because that's what we're meant to be.
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We're to, we're here to meant to be.
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We're here to be ourselves.
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And if we're not ourselves, then who are we?
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Exactly that.
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Thank you so much for being on this podcast and bringing out your vulnerability and being your authentic self, for you to come on here and really express how you used to be at one time in your life and who you are now, because you chose to transform yourself.
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And that's not to say that you need to hide who you were.
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You just learned who you from that and now you're just a better version of yourself, henry, and you're amazing, and I love you.
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And I'm glad I have you in my life and, yeah, we're gonna make great things together.
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You're gonna do amazing things and I'll make sure to share your Instagram and my notes so people could go and follow you and, yeah, sending you so much love.
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Okay, thank you.
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Thank you so much, so much fun.
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Love and appreciate you and look forward to working with you.
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All right, thank you so much.
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So much fun.
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Love and appreciate you and I look forward to working with you.
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All right, thank you.
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Thank you.
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Thank you for taking your time and connecting with me on this beautiful journey of life.
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If nobody has told you today, I am here to tell you that you are enough, you are worthy and you are deserving of the best.
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Every day that you wake up, I want you to take one moment and just look at yourself in the mirror and know that the person staring back at you is so proud of you and loves you beyond measures.
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You are a true warrior, thank you.