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Hey, what's up? Sorry,
I was crying right now. Um,
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but I have a reason for that. I was watching a tick tock and
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it said like pain only weaves would
understand, and it said it had spoilers,
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but I was like, oh well, it might be for anemies I
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haven't seen, so I'll just look
at it, because I look at the
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tags and it was for the animes
I was watching, Tookyo goal. Sorry,
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evert I just ate. It was
so good and I'm sorry. Um,
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so it was for Tokyo go and
I haven't finished it and I just
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found a spoiler and I'm not.
Okay, okay, I should have paid
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attention, I should have listened.
Okay, moving on. So last podcast
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I was talking about Hunter Hunter and
I talked about my roommate as a cat
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and hi, I just finished that
now. It's been a whole month since
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that, I believe, and now, after I finish that little short anime,
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not hunter hunter. My roommate is
a cat. I think I started
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watching cells at work. Wait,
no, I started watching or in high
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school host club. That's a good
anime. I want to read the Manga
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because I don't know when season two
will come out and a lot of people
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are just like they're like, well, you want season two and it's been
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like years. So I'm just like
when we need just like read the Mong
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or something, you know. So
I want to read the Manga. I
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kind of already know what happens at
the end, but I will not spoil
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it. I don't think I'll.
Ya Know, I don't want to spoil
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it, but like I have an
idea of what happens and I kind of
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I'm not mad at that because I
like, you don't know when season two
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is going to come out, and
when you read the Manga you gonna find
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out anyways. So I'm not mad
that I got that spoiled for me.
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But the Tokyo good thing. Why? Why I do that to myself?
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I'm let me give me a moment. Okay, so I watched or in
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high school host club. Loved it. It was so funny, and now
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I'm after that I started cells at
work. It's just a bunch of biology.
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I don't a lot of people like
it, but I just it's cute.
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But I'm barely on like episode seven
or eight, and that was like
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three, two weeks ago that I
watched that. Like that, I got
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caught up to episode seven or eight
and I'm just like I'm in no rush
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to finish it because I'm kind of
like not obsessed over anything. It's because,
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like I like I don't care for
biology. I guess that's cool and
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stuff. I don't know, I
don't know. I don't know why I
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has a lot of hype. I'm
sorry, I'm sorry. If you love
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it, I mean it's cute.
Okay, I'M gonna stop talking about it.
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After cells at work I was trying
to find an anime to watch.
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I was like I started this one
called I forgot what it's called, but
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it's about like this girl who wants
to become like an animator or something,
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and she meets this other girl who's
like famous, or she has famous parents
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and and she wants to become an
animator as well. But you know,
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there's like different types of animators and
one of them, like one of them's
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for background, one of them characters, and they have this friend who's like,
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you know, wet. We're going
to make our own anime and I
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think I'll watch like the first episode. So and there's only like a total
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six episodes, I think, so
after Oh, so then I watched the
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first episode and I was like,
oh, that's sick, but I don't,
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I don't want to watch that right
now. And then I started death
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no. It's so good. I'm
currently on like episode thirty three, I
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believe, and there's only like thirty
seven episodes. But after put on,
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this is going to be a major
spoilers. So if you haven't seen it,
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just like don't listen to this part
and I don't know when else you
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can start listening. If I'll put
in this description that there's death, not
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spoilers. But after up, let
me say it right now, after else
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death, I'm I was like,
what's the point of watching now, like
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he was my favorite character and now
he's dead. Dude, what's the point?
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At first I was like, Dude, you gotta be joking. He's
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not dead, right. He's like
he's gonna come back, right, right.
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But then I was like no,
he's not, and then I lost
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it and I was like, Oh, I'm not okay. So I took
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a break from that. It was
only like one day or two days that
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it didn't watch death no, and
then I'm back on the grind watching death
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no, and I was like Shit. But at least like it's interesting,
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like elseund like, you know what, I'll keep watching just for l because
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he's very epic. He's not his
philosophy kind of like, in a weird
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way it did make sense. Like
one of the detectives was like, yeah,
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he is like making crime rates go
down, but one of the other
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detectives was like Bro but like that's
only because people are scared to do crime
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now, which I guess it's good, but like they're just springing fur their
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lives. It's not that there they
have a clean conscious, it's just that
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they don't want to die, and
I get that. It's very, Um,
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I don't know. I don't have
a word to explain it, but
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it's it's very cool. How it
like if anybody had the power of the
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death no, would they use it
for good or bad? And I in
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lights way he's using it for a
good reason. But it's very bad what
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he's doing. Like no human should
have the right to take someone's life,
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but at the same time people do. Like the only real thing that anyone
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should fear is not monsters, not
death, but people who cause death itself.
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And because have you actually ever seen
proof of a monster? No,
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but you have seen proof of killers
and serial killers and people out there beating
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others, and yet we're just afraid
of the non existent, when the true
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monsters are us. I was thinking
about this. I was thinking, like,
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let's say you had the power to
become a God, would you actually
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because I think as soon as you're
a human being, as soon as you're
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born, you don't have a chance. Like no, you know what it's
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like to be a human. So
why would you become a God? Because
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I don't think you're worthy. I
think a god is someone who or something
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that already exists and not something like
a human. I think it's a thing,
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I don't like an entity or something
like that. I don't think it's
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an actual human being, because if
you already have the ideals of a human
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being, what makes you any different? What makes you any more powerful or
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like, yeah, powerful, or
head of everybody else? If you already
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know what it's like you you have
no right to be a God. So
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that's why I believe in light's case, what he's doing is absolutely horrible.
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Yeah, the crime rates may be
going down and yeah, people are not
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out there more murdering anymore, but
it kind of loses the meaning of being
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a human. Well, not the
meaning of being a human, but like
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the essence of a human or something
like that. I'm not I truly believe
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that humans are born evil. They
we are the only ones that cause other
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pain, others pain, if we
truly intended to, and I believe every
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single human being is greedy, including
myself. So it's very like no one
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should have the right to be a
God. If you if a God already
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exists, then that's on like the
thing. It's not a human, it
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doesn't know how to be a human, so I think that gives it a
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right to at least judge us.
But no human should have, should be
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given the right to judge another,
since they're not like you. You know
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what they're doing and you know what
you're doing. So I don't know if
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you get what I'm saying, but
I know what I mean and it's very
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cool. I really like how death, know, made me think this way,
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because I don't know, I really
want to go more into death in
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death note, and I'm pretty sure
others don't be like. These are just
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my opinions. I don't take this
end like seriously or anything. If anybody
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even ever listens to this. I'm
just going to listen to this by myself,
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because I'm like, you know what, you have a point. I'm
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like, I know, I'm listening
to myself. My God, I made
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myself laugh. Oh my God,
I was on Tick Tock. I saw
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this edit of someone turning his Soka
from Hunter Hunter and too e boy,
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oh, like yeah, out here
making me act up, and that's not
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okay. A freaking clown or whatever
cannot make me act up, magician,
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whatever. And then I saw this
other tick talk and I was like it
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was just really funny and I couldn't
like I couldn't breathe, like my lungs
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were not functioning. Anyway, it's
back on death note. I don't know,
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I I still need to finish death, not because I'm barely on episode
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thirty three and I have like five
more episodes, but I I think it's
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very cool how it made me think
that humans do not have the right to
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possess any powers that God would because, where I'm coming from, like,
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once you have the sense of being
a human being, you're already evil,
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like you already know what it's like
to be greedy, wanting from the moment
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you're born. You're already complaining.
What's the point in judging others when you're
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not perfect yourself? I A God. Should it be perfect or not?
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I think I believe a God has
no sense of perfect I believe a God
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has a sense of authority, but
not perfection. Nothing is perfect. I
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believe in that. And I don't
know. My ideas are just mine.
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That's on me. Don't listen to
me everyone. Obviously everyone has their own
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opinion, but if anybody does ever
like listen to this, Oh you know
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what, I should link my instagram
or twitter on this, so if anybody
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did ever listen to this, they
could reach out to me, like,
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dude, I want to talk about
this with you. I wish people could
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listen to this and want to talk
to me, like, Oh my God,
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that'd be so cool. But anyways, I will link my instagram or
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whatever, or I'll say it right
now. It's a I'm a just spell
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it out because I don't know how
to pronounce it. AMT H Mt.
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but I wish people could listen to
this, but I know it's just going
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to be me. Um, but
yeah, very epic. I wish someone
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could know where I'm coming from so
they could help me like view things even
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more differently and be like but look
at this point, and I'll be like,
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oh my God, you do have
a point, and then I could
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counter it and then, like,
you know, just have a whole conversation
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about this concept. I don't know
what it's called or what I'm thinking,
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but I have a point somewhere and
I will get to that point once I
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get to discuss it with someone.
I would discuss it with my boss friend
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but like an know, I think
she'll just hate me, ranbling, not
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be like sorry, not bad,
I love you, I'll just send you
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more means, and she like anyways, yeah, I don know. His
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very epic Um after this, after
I finished us. No, and,
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you know, join the fandom or
whatever. I don't know if I'm going
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to join the fandom because I have
to really like an animate to do that,
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like hunt, my hero, I
could deem it was the first one
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I joined and I'm kind of very
scared of the fandom. But there are
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some really cute fan our of like, you know, just like deck,
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who looking like a soft bore and
like Oh, that's so cute, or
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like you know, in the most
recent episode. So today is January,
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it's January. Oh No, it's
not, it's February nineteen. And the
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most recent episode where Chart Oke was
like Clemmy, see your cute face,
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and then baccoes like, Haha,
you look so dumb, and then he
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like mimic to him. He's like, let me see your cute face,
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and then turn he's like, Dude, oh shoot, they're so spoiling it.
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I'm sorry, I should have warned
anyways. And then to Ur he's
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like, was it that bunny?
He's like yeah, was, and then
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I saw some fan art of like
Izawa, and then like hawks, and
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then dobby doing the same thing.
It's I was like, Damn, I
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wish I was as talented as sleep
these people, but they practice and that's
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why they're so good. I used
to be like, Oh my God,
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they're so lucky that they're so good
at art, but then I became cultured
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and realize that they practice and that's
all they became good at at ort and
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I'd be like wow, very epic. I wish I had the patience for
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that, but I don't and I
just don't like practicing whatever doesn't matter to
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me. Yeah, I really appreciate
artists. They are absolutely so. I
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was about to say talentless and and
that's not the word. They are so
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talented. I have no talents.
So anybody who's good at anything, I
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appreciate you. You are outstanding.
But you know what I do like doing?
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Like I like making a little cute
edits. I made one with a
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Hissoka the other day and I was
so proud of it and I tweeted it
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and no one liked it, like
it's fine, except it's because I use
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a fan cam of someone else's and
I gave them credit, of course,
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but ask them and I felt so
bad, but they liked but they're the
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only person that liked the and I
was like, maybe they're not mad,
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but I like I guess I made
their fan camp better. I don't know,
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but I made it so pretty.
I put like little Hissoka everywhere.
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I'm wow, I'm just really just
talking about anything at this point, but
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that's what this is, just me
talking. Um, I mentioned school briefly.
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Right now, Um, right now
I have to do this huge packet
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for apete world three. I hate
it, but I'm gonna do it anyways
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because I like having good grades,
because I've nothing else going for me.
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So I just have good grades.
Honestly, I'm so boring, like I
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I will never do anything wrong,
but I don't feel the need to.
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Like I don't feel the need to
do anything. That's the whole part of
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me being born. Like I don't
really like going out, but I will
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if it's with like someone I like. I'll go out if I'm in the
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mood, and then like wow,
in the middle of like being out,
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I'll be like down, I really
want to go home and just like watch
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animy. Wow, that sounds so
depressing and sad, but it's not,
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and he's like so fun. And
then you get into like discussions with other
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people and you're like yes, Oh
my God, like I could get into
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a discussion with someone about death note
and my thoughts about it and then how
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deeply I can go into it.
I hope I know what I'm talking about
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later, because when I listened to
this and be like dude, what the
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fuck are you sing, I'll be
like, I don't know, but that's
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what this is. My friend from
school, he, he, one day
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he texted me and he is showing
me something about like my hero, and
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I was like Oh yeah, and
then I answered it. Whatever and then
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I asked him, I was like, I'm you seen death know? He's
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like Nah. I'm like, well
you should then, but he knows like
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what death notes about, and he
was like what would you if you had
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the death note? And I was
like I wouldn't use it because, as
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I said, I don't think it's
a power of God since, like,
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everyone already kills everyone. I think
that's already now just a human thing.
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I was like, do you believe
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Yeah, it's not human nature,
but it is a possibility of someone,
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like someone is capable of killing someone, and that's absolutely horrible. I
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believe that everyone's born bad, but
it's not their intention. Those who don't
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want to be bad just don't do
anything and they'll have their thoughts, but
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they won't do they won't act,
is what I'm saying. They will have
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their bad times and they're bad thoughts, but they will not act upon them.
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Those who do have the instinct of
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wicked, the horrible, the ones
that are capable of death, and that's
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why I think humans are the ones
that everyone should bear the most. But
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at the same time, a human
can cost you so much happiness as well,
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but they can cause you so much
pain. You have to think about
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that too. So I think those
that cause you happiness, of course you
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should keep them in your life,
but I don't think we should trust everybody.
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I don't even think you should trust
yourself. But, like, what
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is trust? Just, like does
it really matter at this point? We're
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all going to end up in the
same place. So I don't know.
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It's a really long discussion. I
would like to add with someone. What
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was I talking about before this?
I forgot, but I don't know.
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I really liked the this discussion that
I'm having with myself, but I I
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would like to see how other people
view humans and how we think. I
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really wish I was in like a
psychology classrooming at that, because I'm pretty
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sure I have something to do with
like a brain or something. But I
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really don't like the idea that we're
just like controlled my brains and like cells
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and like that stuff. But it
is true. So that's why I think
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we're all programmed to be like that, but we aren't like but we are.
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I don't know, it's kind of
confusing. But we like we have
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the capability to be horrible. It's
what I'm saying, and that capability is
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within us, but also like any
other living thing, like an animal,
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and I don't know about plants or
whatever, but I do think that like,
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I don't know, it's very,
very I'm going to read more into
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like the way someone can be absolutely
horrible, so then I could talk about
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it more next time. But let's
move on after does know, I want
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to see I don't know what it's
called, g nut DOMs and that.
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I don't know. I just want
to see a comedy anime, because I
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love those, like the disastrous life
a psyche. Oh my God, it's
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so funny. I love it so
much and I'm starting to get really tired,
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but I don't want to stop talking
because I love this. But I
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should stop talking because last episode was
twenty five minutes and this one's about a
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be twenty three. Yeah, I'm
getting really tired and my phone's about to
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die, but I want to keep
talking. You know why? I'll keep
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on going to like thirty minutes.
Yeah, I've been also taking a lot
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of pauses, so I'm really tired. I just Oh yeah, I was
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talking about school earlier. Yeah,
I hate school, but you know what,
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like, there's nothing I can do
about it. Oh, I was
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not about talented people, and I
expect the artists and how I like making
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edits and twitter and all that.
I really do like making edits, like
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just making stuff prettier. That sounds
mean. MMM, wow, I'm getting
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really tired, but after this I'm
gonna go straight to my room and do
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homework. Oh, I was sorry
about how boring I am. Now I
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remember. Um, I don't know, I'm getting so tired. That's like
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the fifth time I said that and
I just had coffee not that long ago,
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like twenty minutes ago. Why am
I getting tired? I feel like
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sleeping. I want to take a
nap, but I won't I'm so tired.
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So sorry, let me let me
see. Um, I'm boring.
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HMM. What should I talk about? I really don't want to talk about
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anything else. No more. Okay, I guess I'll just end it here
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then, because I'm can't even keep
my train of thoughts straight. Um.
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So I'm sorry to myself because I
will be the only one listening to this.
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And Yeah, I'm sorry. And
if it's anyone else, at least
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one person. I appreciate you,
I don't love you yet, because I
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said that last episode. I was
like, not there yet. By the
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third episode I'll be like I'll love
you, but not yet. Oh Wow,
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I'm so tired. I'm so sorry. I appreciate you and I adore
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you, but I don't love you, not yet at least. So I'M
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gonna go do homework and then I'll
see. I'll see if I have anything
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else to talk about and then I'll
be like, oh, I love you.
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Want to do a podcast. Wow, I cannot believe it took me
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a whole month to make another episode. I'm so sorry, and you know
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how long it took to get that
but first one like uploaded to the podcast
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of a long time. Whatever.
I will be more interesting next time.
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And that's it. Thank you for
listening. By
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Hey, what's up? Sorry,
I was crying right now. Um,
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but I have a reason for that. I was watching a tick tock and
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it said like pain only weaves would
understand, and it said it had spoilers,
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but I was like, oh well, it might be for anemies I
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haven't seen, so I'll just look
at it, because I look at the
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tags and it was for the animes
I was watching, Tookyo goal. Sorry,
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evert I just ate. It was
so good and I'm sorry. Um,
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so it was for Tokyo go and
I haven't finished it and I just
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found a spoiler and I'm not.
Okay, okay, I should have paid
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attention, I should have listened.
Okay, moving on. So last podcast
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I was talking about Hunter Hunter and
I talked about my roommate as a cat
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and hi, I just finished that
now. It's been a whole month since
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that, I believe, and now, after I finish that little short anime,
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not hunter hunter. My roommate is
a cat. I think I started
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watching cells at work. Wait,
no, I started watching or in high
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school host club. That's a good
anime. I want to read the Manga
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because I don't know when season two
will come out and a lot of people
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are just like they're like, well, you want season two and it's been
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like years. So I'm just like
when we need just like read the Mong
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or something, you know. So
I want to read the Manga. I
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kind of already know what happens at
the end, but I will not spoil
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it. I don't think I'll.
Ya Know, I don't want to spoil
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it, but like I have an
idea of what happens and I kind of
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I'm not mad at that because I
like, you don't know when season two
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is going to come out, and
when you read the Manga you gonna find
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out anyways. So I'm not mad
that I got that spoiled for me.
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But the Tokyo good thing. Why? Why I do that to myself?
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I'm let me give me a moment. Okay, so I watched or in
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high school host club. Loved it. It was so funny, and now
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I'm after that I started cells at
work. It's just a bunch of biology.
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I don't a lot of people like
it, but I just it's cute.
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But I'm barely on like episode seven
or eight, and that was like
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three, two weeks ago that I
watched that. Like that, I got
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caught up to episode seven or eight
and I'm just like I'm in no rush
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to finish it because I'm kind of
like not obsessed over anything. It's because,
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like I like I don't care for
biology. I guess that's cool and
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stuff. I don't know, I
don't know. I don't know why I
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has a lot of hype. I'm
sorry, I'm sorry. If you love
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it, I mean it's cute.
Okay, I'M gonna stop talking about it.
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After cells at work I was trying
to find an anime to watch.
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I was like I started this one
called I forgot what it's called, but
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it's about like this girl who wants
to become like an animator or something,
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and she meets this other girl who's
like famous, or she has famous parents
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and and she wants to become an
animator as well. But you know,
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there's like different types of animators and
one of them, like one of them's
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for background, one of them characters, and they have this friend who's like,
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you know, wet. We're going
to make our own anime and I
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think I'll watch like the first episode. So and there's only like a total
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six episodes, I think, so
after Oh, so then I watched the
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first episode and I was like,
oh, that's sick, but I don't,
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I don't want to watch that right
now. And then I started death
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no. It's so good. I'm
currently on like episode thirty three, I
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believe, and there's only like thirty
seven episodes. But after put on,
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this is going to be a major
spoilers. So if you haven't seen it,
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just like don't listen to this part
and I don't know when else you
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can start listening. If I'll put
in this description that there's death, not
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spoilers. But after up, let
me say it right now, after else
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death, I'm I was like,
what's the point of watching now, like
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he was my favorite character and now
he's dead. Dude, what's the point?
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At first I was like, Dude, you gotta be joking. He's
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not dead, right. He's like
he's gonna come back, right, right.
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But then I was like no,
he's not, and then I lost
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it and I was like, Oh, I'm not okay. So I took
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a break from that. It was
only like one day or two days that
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it didn't watch death no, and
then I'm back on the grind watching death
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no, and I was like Shit. But at least like it's interesting,
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like elseund like, you know what, I'll keep watching just for l because
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he's very epic. He's not his
philosophy kind of like, in a weird
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way it did make sense. Like
one of the detectives was like, yeah,
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he is like making crime rates go
down, but one of the other
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detectives was like Bro but like that's
only because people are scared to do crime
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now, which I guess it's good, but like they're just springing fur their
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lives. It's not that there they
have a clean conscious, it's just that
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they don't want to die, and
I get that. It's very, Um,
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I don't know. I don't have
a word to explain it, but
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it's it's very cool. How it
like if anybody had the power of the
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death no, would they use it
for good or bad? And I in
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lights way he's using it for a
good reason. But it's very bad what
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he's doing. Like no human should
have the right to take someone's life,
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but at the same time people do. Like the only real thing that anyone
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should fear is not monsters, not
death, but people who cause death itself.
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And because have you actually ever seen
proof of a monster? No,
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but you have seen proof of killers
and serial killers and people out there beating
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others, and yet we're just afraid
of the non existent, when the true
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monsters are us. I was thinking
about this. I was thinking, like,
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let's say you had the power to
become a God, would you actually
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because I think as soon as you're
a human being, as soon as you're
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born, you don't have a chance. Like no, you know what it's
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like to be a human. So
why would you become a God? Because
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I don't think you're worthy. I
think a god is someone who or something
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that already exists and not something like
a human. I think it's a thing,
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I don't like an entity or something
like that. I don't think it's
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an actual human being, because if
you already have the ideals of a human
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being, what makes you any different? What makes you any more powerful or
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like, yeah, powerful, or
head of everybody else? If you already
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know what it's like you you have
no right to be a God. So
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that's why I believe in light's case, what he's doing is absolutely horrible.
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Yeah, the crime rates may be
going down and yeah, people are not
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out there more murdering anymore, but
it kind of loses the meaning of being
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a human. Well, not the
meaning of being a human, but like
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the essence of a human or something
like that. I'm not I truly believe
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that humans are born evil. They
we are the only ones that cause other
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pain, others pain, if we
truly intended to, and I believe every
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single human being is greedy, including
myself. So it's very like no one
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should have the right to be a
God. If you if a God already
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exists, then that's on like the
thing. It's not a human, it
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doesn't know how to be a human, so I think that gives it a
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right to at least judge us.
But no human should have, should be
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given the right to judge another,
since they're not like you. You know
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what they're doing and you know what
you're doing. So I don't know if
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you get what I'm saying, but
I know what I mean and it's very
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cool. I really like how death, know, made me think this way,
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because I don't know, I really
want to go more into death in
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death note, and I'm pretty sure
others don't be like. These are just
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my opinions. I don't take this
end like seriously or anything. If anybody
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even ever listens to this. I'm
just going to listen to this by myself,
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because I'm like, you know what, you have a point. I'm
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like, I know, I'm listening
to myself. My God, I made
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myself laugh. Oh my God,
I was on Tick Tock. I saw
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this edit of someone turning his Soka
from Hunter Hunter and too e boy,
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oh, like yeah, out here
making me act up, and that's not
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okay. A freaking clown or whatever
cannot make me act up, magician,
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whatever. And then I saw this
other tick talk and I was like it
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was just really funny and I couldn't
like I couldn't breathe, like my lungs
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were not functioning. Anyway, it's
back on death note. I don't know,
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I I still need to finish death, not because I'm barely on episode
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thirty three and I have like five
more episodes, but I I think it's
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very cool how it made me think
that humans do not have the right to
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possess any powers that God would because, where I'm coming from, like,
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once you have the sense of being
a human being, you're already evil,
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like you already know what it's like
to be greedy, wanting from the moment
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you're born. You're already complaining.
What's the point in judging others when you're
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not perfect yourself? I A God. Should it be perfect or not?
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I think I believe a God has
no sense of perfect I believe a God
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has a sense of authority, but
not perfection. Nothing is perfect. I
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believe in that. And I don't
know. My ideas are just mine.
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That's on me. Don't listen to
me everyone. Obviously everyone has their own
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opinion, but if anybody does ever
like listen to this, Oh you know
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what, I should link my instagram
or twitter on this, so if anybody
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did ever listen to this, they
could reach out to me, like,
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dude, I want to talk about
this with you. I wish people could
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listen to this and want to talk
to me, like, Oh my God,
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that'd be so cool. But anyways, I will link my instagram or
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whatever, or I'll say it right
now. It's a I'm a just spell
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it out because I don't know how
to pronounce it. AMT H Mt.
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but I wish people could listen to
this, but I know it's just going
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to be me. Um, but
yeah, very epic. I wish someone
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could know where I'm coming from so
they could help me like view things even
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more differently and be like but look
at this point, and I'll be like,
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oh my God, you do have
a point, and then I could
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counter it and then, like,
you know, just have a whole conversation
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about this concept. I don't know
what it's called or what I'm thinking,
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but I have a point somewhere and
I will get to that point once I
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get to discuss it with someone.
I would discuss it with my boss friend
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but like an know, I think
she'll just hate me, ranbling, not
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be like sorry, not bad,
I love you, I'll just send you
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more means, and she like anyways, yeah, I don know. His
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very epic Um after this, after
I finished us. No, and,
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you know, join the fandom or
whatever. I don't know if I'm going
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to join the fandom because I have
to really like an animate to do that,
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like hunt, my hero, I
could deem it was the first one
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I joined and I'm kind of very
scared of the fandom. But there are
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some really cute fan our of like, you know, just like deck,
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who looking like a soft bore and
like Oh, that's so cute, or
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like you know, in the most
recent episode. So today is January,
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it's January. Oh No, it's
not, it's February nineteen. And the
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most recent episode where Chart Oke was
like Clemmy, see your cute face,
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and then baccoes like, Haha,
you look so dumb, and then he
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like mimic to him. He's like, let me see your cute face,
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and then turn he's like, Dude, oh shoot, they're so spoiling it.
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I'm sorry, I should have warned
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like, was it that bunny?
He's like yeah, was, and then
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I saw some fan art of like
Izawa, and then like hawks, and
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then dobby doing the same thing.
It's I was like, Damn, I
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wish I was as talented as sleep
these people, but they practice and that's
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why they're so good. I used
to be like, Oh my God,
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they're so lucky that they're so good
at art, but then I became cultured
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and realize that they practice and that's
all they became good at at ort and
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I'd be like wow, very epic. I wish I had the patience for
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that, but I don't and I
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me. Yeah, I really appreciate
artists. They are absolutely so. I
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was about to say talentless and and
that's not the word. They are so
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talented. I have no talents.
So anybody who's good at anything, I
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appreciate you. You are outstanding.
But you know what I do like doing?
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Like I like making a little cute
edits. I made one with a
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Hissoka the other day and I was
so proud of it and I tweeted it
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and no one liked it, like
it's fine, except it's because I use
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a fan cam of someone else's and
I gave them credit, of course,
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but ask them and I felt so
bad, but they liked but they're the
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only person that liked the and I
was like, maybe they're not mad,
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but I like I guess I made
their fan camp better. I don't know,
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but I made it so pretty.
I put like little Hissoka everywhere.
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I'm wow, I'm just really just
talking about anything at this point, but
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that's what this is, just me
talking. Um, I mentioned school briefly.
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Right now, Um, right now
I have to do this huge packet
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for apete world three. I hate
it, but I'm gonna do it anyways
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because I like having good grades,
because I've nothing else going for me.
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So I just have good grades.
Honestly, I'm so boring, like I
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I will never do anything wrong,
but I don't feel the need to.
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Like I don't feel the need to
do anything. That's the whole part of
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me being born. Like I don't
really like going out, but I will
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if it's with like someone I like. I'll go out if I'm in the
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mood, and then like wow,
in the middle of like being out,
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I'll be like down, I really
want to go home and just like watch
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animy. Wow, that sounds so
depressing and sad, but it's not,
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and he's like so fun. And
then you get into like discussions with other
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people and you're like yes, Oh
my God, like I could get into
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a discussion with someone about death note
and my thoughts about it and then how
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deeply I can go into it.
I hope I know what I'm talking about
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later, because when I listened to
this and be like dude, what the
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fuck are you sing, I'll be
like, I don't know, but that's
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what this is. My friend from
school, he, he, one day
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he texted me and he is showing
me something about like my hero, and
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I was like Oh yeah, and
then I answered it. Whatever and then
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I asked him, I was like, I'm you seen death know? He's
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like Nah. I'm like, well
you should then, but he knows like
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what death notes about, and he
was like what would you if you had
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the death note? And I was
like I wouldn't use it because, as
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I said, I don't think it's
a power of God since, like,
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everyone already kills everyone. I think
that's already now just a human thing.
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Yeah, I believe that. Sorry, I was like thinking in my head.
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I was like, do you believe
them? I guess I do either.
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Yeah, it's not human nature,
but it is a possibility of someone,
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like someone is capable of killing someone, and that's absolutely horrible. I
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believe that everyone's born bad, but
it's not their intention. Those who don't
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want to be bad just don't do
anything and they'll have their thoughts, but
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they won't do they won't act,
is what I'm saying. They will have
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their bad times and they're bad thoughts, but they will not act upon them.
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Those who do have the instinct of
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wicked, the horrible, the ones
that are capable of death, and that's
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why I think humans are the ones
that everyone should bear the most. But
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at the same time, a human
can cost you so much happiness as well,
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but they can cause you so much
pain. You have to think about
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that too. So I think those
that cause you happiness, of course you
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should keep them in your life,
but I don't think we should trust everybody.
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I don't even think you should trust
yourself. But, like, what
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is trust? Just, like does
it really matter at this point? We're
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all going to end up in the
same place. So I don't know.
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It's a really long discussion. I
would like to add with someone. What
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was I talking about before this?
I forgot, but I don't know.
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I really liked the this discussion that
I'm having with myself, but I I
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would like to see how other people
view humans and how we think. I
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really wish I was in like a
psychology classrooming at that, because I'm pretty
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sure I have something to do with
like a brain or something. But I
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really don't like the idea that we're
just like controlled my brains and like cells
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and like that stuff. But it
is true. So that's why I think
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we're all programmed to be like that, but we aren't like but we are.
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I don't know, it's kind of
confusing. But we like we have
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the capability to be horrible. It's
what I'm saying, and that capability is
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within us, but also like any
other living thing, like an animal,
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and I don't know about plants or
whatever, but I do think that like,
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I don't know, it's very,
very I'm going to read more into
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like the way someone can be absolutely
horrible, so then I could talk about
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it more next time. But let's
move on after does know, I want
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to see I don't know what it's
called, g nut DOMs and that.
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I don't know. I just want
to see a comedy anime, because I
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love those, like the disastrous life
a psyche. Oh my God, it's
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so funny. I love it so
much and I'm starting to get really tired,
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but I don't want to stop talking
because I love this. But I
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should stop talking because last episode was
twenty five minutes and this one's about a
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be twenty three. Yeah, I'm
getting really tired and my phone's about to
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die, but I want to keep
talking. You know why? I'll keep
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on going to like thirty minutes.
Yeah, I've been also taking a lot
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of pauses, so I'm really tired. I just Oh yeah, I was
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talking about school earlier. Yeah,
I hate school, but you know what,
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like, there's nothing I can do
about it. Oh, I was
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not about talented people, and I
expect the artists and how I like making
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edits and twitter and all that.
I really do like making edits, like
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just making stuff prettier. That sounds
mean. MMM, wow, I'm getting
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really tired, but after this I'm
gonna go straight to my room and do
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homework. Oh, I was sorry
about how boring I am. Now I
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remember. Um, I don't know, I'm getting so tired. That's like
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the fifth time I said that and
I just had coffee not that long ago,
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like twenty minutes ago. Why am
I getting tired? I feel like
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sleeping. I want to take a
nap, but I won't I'm so tired.
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So sorry, let me let me
see. Um, I'm boring.
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HMM. What should I talk about? I really don't want to talk about
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anything else. No more. Okay, I guess I'll just end it here
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then, because I'm can't even keep
my train of thoughts straight. Um.
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So I'm sorry to myself because I
will be the only one listening to this.
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And Yeah, I'm sorry. And
if it's anyone else, at least
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one person. I appreciate you,
I don't love you yet, because I
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said that last episode. I was
like, not there yet. By the
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third episode I'll be like I'll love
you, but not yet. Oh Wow,
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I'm so tired. I'm so sorry. I appreciate you and I adore
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you, but I don't love you, not yet at least. So I'M
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gonna go do homework and then I'll
see. I'll see if I have anything
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else to talk about and then I'll
be like, oh, I love you.
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Want to do a podcast. Wow, I cannot believe it took me
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a whole month to make another episode. I'm so sorry, and you know
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how long it took to get that
but first one like uploaded to the podcast
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of a long time. Whatever.
I will be more interesting next time.
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