IGG Extra 5

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Hello, everyone. And welcome to our very first
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IGG Extra of Summer 2026. What? I can't believe
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we're in our second round of IGG Extras. I know.
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And I can't believe it's summer. It's so crazy.
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It's definitely not been feeling 100 % like summer
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for you. I feel like it has for me in certain
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ways. We just celebrated 4th of July at my house
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yesterday. We did. And it was like a torrential
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downpour. Torrential. That was not the summer
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vibe. And I feel like you haven't been over and
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outside in the yard a ton. And of course, the
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day you're coming over, it's like, let's just
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open up the skies. And I even packed my embarrassing
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bathing suit and everything. I was ready. But
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it's too rainy. It was. And the day before was
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gorgeous. Like sun was out, we're floating in
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the pool, Sean, Connor and I. So it's, I almost
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wish if we really looked at the weather, we flip
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-flopped the party days. I know, really. That's
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probably why most people did fireworks Friday
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night because they knew the weather was going
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to be a little bit iffy. I know, I know. Yes,
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my neighbor was shooting them off the day before
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and we're like watching this amazing show. I'm
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like, hmm, I wonder why. They're doing it tonight.
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Yeah. We learned the hard way. Why? Yeah, sure
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did. Sure did. Well, since our last episode when
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we ended season two to today, so much has happened.
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It's been two weeks. So much has happened. And
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we've got a lot to catch you guys up on. And
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I think we should start with, Room, what's been
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going on with you? Because I feel like it has
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been quite the rollercoaster ride, including
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a hospital stay. So why don't we give everybody
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the update? Our last episode is what?
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22nd? Mm -hmm. So you guys last heard us
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right before I was going to have my first round
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of AC chemo, which is like phase two of chemo
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for me. Right. Had that. It sucked. Like, I don't
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know how else to phrase it. It was the infusion
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chemo experience itself was awful. Like, I felt
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like I was crawling out of my skin. I was jittery.
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I was jumpy. I was terrified. I mean, you hear
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these horror stories about, and I'm going to
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say it because I know there are people, it's
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divided, but the nickname is the Red Devil. And
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I'm going to continue to say Red Devil because
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that's what it feels like. Right? And you know
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what I think too? It's whatever resonates for
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you. Yeah, I know it's healing me. Don't get
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me wrong, but. It's also devilish. First of all,
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it is very bright red as it's going into your
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body. It's kind of weird to watch. But yeah,
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it's devilish for sure. Like it does devilish
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things. It does. In the long run, it won't. Right.
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But right now. Right, right, right. So chemo
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itself really, really sucked for me. I didn't
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do terrible though the days after. Right. You
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didn't. You seemed, I feel like leading up to
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it, you were like in a holy panic attack the
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night before, right? Just anticipating it all.
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But then you're right. After it wasn't too bad.
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Well, they had me take steroids for the first
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time, like separate from infusion day. So I took
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steroids Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. And that
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was also not fun. So this specific steroid alone
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is the thing that makes me feel like I'm crawling
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out of my skin and I'm anxious. So like to take
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it, I get the purpose. The purpose is to fight
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off an infection and to help with nausea. But
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yuck. It did. So it did have me feeling great
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Wednesday and Thursday, I'll say. And I did go
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in to school on Thursday just to try and like
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make sure my classroom was shut down appropriately,
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say goodbye to everyone. And then Friday kind
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of is when it all kind of started. I started
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to feel symptoms on Friday, but I would say Saturday
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is when things started to really progressively
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get worse. And it was just like nausea, bone
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pain. So I don't know if anybody watched that
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video, but like I had a Neulasta, which is a
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shot that went off in my arm. Yeah, that was
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so crazy. It's like pow. Yeah, and then it was
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weird. So I injected this medicine that goes
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right to your bones because of this specific
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chemo. target your bones. So it was supposed
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to help with the bones, but it just made my bone
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pain like 100 times worse, which is normal. Right,
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right. So come Sunday, I sprouted a little bit
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of a low -grade fever. No big deal, right? I
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was in the 99s. Right, right. I think the highest
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I hit was 100 .1. Fine. Right. Monday comes around,
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I still have a low -grade fever. It's still hovering
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around 100. So I'm like, I got to call the nurse
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line or whatever. I called the nurse line and
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she's like, well, it's not. At the threshold,
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which for my chemo center, the threshold is 100
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.4. She's like, you're peeing, you're eating,
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you're drinking. She's like, you don't seem confused.
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She's like, right now, manage it with Tylenol
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and hydration and rest. So I was like, okay.
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Perfect. Perfect. But I guess the day went on
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and I started to feel worse and worse and worse.
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And I bet you if we had taken my temperature
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Monday night, it would have been past the threshold.
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But when I woke up Tuesday morning, I took my
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temperature and it was 100 .5, which. So I had
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to call and they said I had to go straight to
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the emergency room. Oh, it's like, that's the
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last thing you want to do to go to the ER, but
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you know that you needed to go. And you were
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uncomfortable at home on top of the fever. I
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was extremely, extremely uncomfortable. And if
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you think about it, like... Chemo just wipes
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you out in general. I'm cumulatively 13 chemos
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in. My gosh. I cannot believe it's 13. Yeah.
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So Anthony was at work. My dad had to come and
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get me and bring me to the hospital. By the time
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we got there, Anthony was waiting for me in his
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mailman uniform. Ready to report for duty. I
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was like, this is deja vu. I feel like we were
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just here when you broke your hand. I know. I
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thought it was going to be one of those situations
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where the ER just basically like ran some tests,
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you know, gave me some fluids, told me everything
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looked okay, sent me home. That's not what happened.
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I know. My blood work came back showing that
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my white blood cells basically crashed and my
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absolute neutrophil count, which are the cells
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that fight bacterial infections, was literally
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zero. Oh, they can't be zero. They need to be
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like what? Anything other than zero. Anything
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but zero. Right. So I was considered neutropenic,
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which basically means my immune system had almost
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nothing left to fight with. So I was on the neutropenic
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protocol, which when you came to visit, you noticed
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every nurse had a mask on and gloves. They have
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to just for my safety. Right, right, right, right.
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Not for them. Not for them. For you. Yeah. And
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then I had a fever on top of it, so that's considered
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a febrile neutropenia, which is, like, worse
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because it's a double whammy. So that's actually
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considered an emergency for cancer patients.
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So they admitted me right away. I will say, the
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emergency department, was an experience. Always, always
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at that place. What the heck? It took them an
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hour to find somebody to come put my port in.
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Like how can it take one hour to get, and that's
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like the IVs. Why isn't every nurse trained?
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That is a really good question. From what I've
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learned, because my aunt is a nurse, and when
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this was all going on, I was away with my mom
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and my aunt. My aunt was sharing that not everybody
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is comfortable accessing. Yes, and I understand
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that. But it was like. It took an hour for someone
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to access my port. Right. Then an hour to see
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the doctor. Then two hours to get any kind of
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medicine in me. So you were just rolling around
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there with nothing. In the most uncomfortable
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bed ever. I kept telling Anthony, I'm like, my
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ass is so numb. I don't even think I have one
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anymore. But they have a little visitor. Don't
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mind Billy. This is my dad and stepmom's dog.
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Billy? Be quiet. She's so cute. But once I was
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admitted and I got up to the oncology floor,
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whole different experience. Like white gloves
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experience. White glove experience. The nurses
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were incredible. And I'm going to give a personal
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shout out to Nurse Emma. I love her. I met Nurse
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Emma. She is wonderful. Yes, we bonded because
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we both have gastroparesis. And I'll be really
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honest with you. I think she was the first nurse
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in my whole entire life well, not my whole life,
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but since diagnosis to truly believe me because
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she understood what I was feeling. Right, right.
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And let's just p for pause for a second. What
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are the chances that your one nurse happens to
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have this rare disease, gastroparesis, right?
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Like, what are the chances? Yes, but... All the
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nurses were incredible. They had a plan. They
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got my pain under control. They helped with the
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nausea. They started me on antibiotics right
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away. And honestly, they made me feel safe, which
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is important when you're in the hospital. They
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took such amazing care of me. I don't think I'll
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ever forget how kind they were in a moment that
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was probably one of the scariest moments of my
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life for me. And you know what? What do they
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say? It's not always what people say. It's how
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they make you feel. It was just how everybody...
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on that floor was making you feel. Let's just
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also add, you had like the corner suite. I did.
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Everybody kept, every nurse that came in was
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like, ooh, presidential suite. I was like, I
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mean, I do like to roll VIP, so. I mean, it was
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just so perfect. Beautiful window, beautiful
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view. So the crazy thing about all of this is
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though, they never actually found an actual infection.
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They did blood cultures, urine tests, chest x
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-rays, CT scans, all the things. But sometimes
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when your immune system is that suppressed, you
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can spike a fever and they never find a source.
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So they treated me for everything just to be
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safe. And thankfully, my blood counts did start
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to recover. Okay. And you had a blood transfusion
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too, right? I did need a blood transfusion because
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my red blood cells had dropped really low, which
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explains why I kept... People were like, how
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do you feel? I was like, I've been run over by
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a truck 15 times. Right, right. Now it makes
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sense. But after, it took us a long time to get
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that fever down though. Right. And then I started
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throwing up and dry heaving so I couldn't keep
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any food or liquid down. But you know what I
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loved about the nurses on that floor is they
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problem solved with me. They didn't come and
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stand above my bed and talk about me like I wasn't
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there. They worked it out with me. Like at one
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point I said to Emma, I was like, I think I might
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need more fluids. Like, like I feel like when
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the last time you gave me a bag of fluids, I
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felt good. And she goes, I wonder. I have an
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idea. She's like, I wonder if I could give you
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like fluids and electrolytes if that would help.
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So like as soon as that half of that kicked in,
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I was like, I'm feeling good. Yes. So we problem
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solved things together and it made me feel like
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I was part of the decision making process in
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my hospital stay, which was like. Yes, which
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is so huge because it's like so much is out of
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your control. So to be able to have a little
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bit of control in the situation is huge and advocate
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for yourself and have people listen. Checkity
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check check. Yes. Anthony was with me for so
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much of the time and you came to visit me and
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Connor came, although I'm so sad he had to see
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me puke like that. I know. It was like one of
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those things though, even when I got back from
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my trip and I let Connor know you were in the
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hospital and I'm like, I'm going to visit Aunt
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Room. He was instantly like... can I come? I'm
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coming. I'm coming. Like he's just like me. Like
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he, if you're not well, he needs to like get
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eyes on you and be close to you. And I'm like,
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well, I don't know if kids can come. And that
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was going to be my excuse. If you didn't feel
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like you were in a state, but Room, you looked
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amazing that day. You think you were already
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in there for like. Yeah, two days. I wouldn't
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have let him come if I looked like not. And I
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think it was just a freak thing. You were just
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vomiting. And what did he even say? I forget
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what he said. Mom, I know what it's like to throw
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up from gluten. I just didn't want to watch her
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throw up. Because when I looked over at him,
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he was like head turned. Yeah, so he handled
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it perfectly. He's like, everybody pukes, Mom.
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It wasn't like anything. But actually, my mom
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also came to visit me, which is nice because
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she... I was in a really emotional state when
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my mom came. It's like the universe knows when
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you need a specific person. The universe knew
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I needed my mom at that moment. But actually,
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you and Connor broke me free. I sure did. That
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was the best because we... You showed up in the
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morning. I wake up in the morning, guys, on Thursday
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morning to a little hospital fairy cleaning my
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room. Well, I texted you the night before. I'm
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like, I'm going to come first thing. And I texted
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Anthony too, because I knew he was going to be
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at work and like stress that he couldn't be there.
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So I'm like, I'll be there. And you're like,
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no, no, no, whatever. I'm like, yes, yes, yes.
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So I arrive and you were sleeping. So I was like
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quietly doing things. And then just tidying things
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up, taking care of things, chatting with the
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nurse. And then I knew she was coming to wake
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you up anyway. So I just do whatever. But I'm
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like, morning. Oh my God. I will say like. Breaking
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free of the house. When you got me home, that
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was the best shower, nap, and bowl of soup I've
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ever had in my whole life. Because that day,
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that morning when I was there, I left. And then
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I had to take Connor to an orthodontist appointment.
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And we were coming back, we thought, to visit
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you. And I was thinking, oh, maybe we need like
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a sponge bath situation or whatever. I was going
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to help you change your clothes and stuff. And
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you texted me, or you called me. You're like,
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they're setting me free. I'm like, whoo! Connor
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was so excited to be a part of the breakout.
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He was pumped. It was really cute. It was really
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cute. So we got you home quickly. It wasn't long
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either. Like you got the okay and we were pretty
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quick with it all. So you get home, take the
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best shower of your life. Best shower of my life.
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And like, I am physically doing better. I mean,
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I have like my moments. Last night was one of
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them. Fourth of July night. Got sick. I started
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throwing up a little bit. I think my body is
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still just kind of like processing, you know.
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Mentally, I'm still pretty shook though. Right.
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Yeah. Well, that was a lot. And I think watching
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you too, when you were getting sick, watching
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you throw up, the last time I saw you puke like
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that was when you were in a flare. And I know
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that was like kind of on your mind a little bit
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too, right? I was freaking out a little bit that
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I had. This had sent me into a flare. Right.
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But I think yesterday, you coming over, so I
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hosted 4th of July. You came over at Room. Think
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about all you did after just recently getting
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out of the hospital. And you stayed pretty long.
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We did. We did. Yeah. I mean, we would have stayed
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longer if I didn't throw up. Although I will
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say, we came home. I got in bed and passed out.
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Fireworks were going off for like hours. I don't
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know how I slept. I mean, that's how tired I
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was. Right. You were exhausted. But I think getting
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out of your house, coming over, being outside,
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being around people, eating that chicken hot
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dog, which was pretty delicious. Wegmans has
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these new chicken hot dogs that everybody was
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like going crazy for. We usually do Zweigels,
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but threw them in the mix. I've had a bunch of
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people ask me the same question, so I figure
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I'll answer some of them right now. Yeah, let's
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do it. Are you done with chemo? No. A negative
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no. Unfortunately, I still have to do this three
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more times. Is this going to happen every time?
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Potentially it could. Will they change anything?
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I don't know, but I hope so. So it's like you
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don't really have a ton of answers. I'm just
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as in the dark as everybody else is. I will say
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it's a... It's a little scary thinking that this
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round of chemo could knock me out because technically
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that was like June 23rd. It's July 5th and I'm
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still not the greatest. You know what I mean?
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So like how much time am I actually going to
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have between treatments to feel like I have a
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life? Not to mention this has instilled almost
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like that. Fear we felt during COVID, like, should
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I wear a mask? Right. Am I going to get sick?
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Am I going to catch something? You know what
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I mean? Right, right, right. Because you're immune
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compromised big time right now, so. And then,
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of course, we went straight from spring to, like,
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the depths of hell, and it's, like, 100 degrees,
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and wearing a mask outside sounds terrible, but.
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You got to do what feels right, and you got to
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protect yourself, you know? You really do. You
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really do. I'll tell you, you know, I think I'm
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going to be scared for the rest of my life of
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certain things because of cancer. Right. Yeah.
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And how could you not, right? This is part of
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your story now. This is making a huge impact
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on who you are and how you look at life and the
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choices that you make from today moving forward,
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you know? I'll tell you, I do not want to go
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back to the hospital, though. Oh, my God. And
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I had such a sad moment. Did I tell you about
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my sad moment? When was your sad moment? When
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they wanted to send me for a CAT scan and the
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nurse comes in the room and she's like, oh, I'm
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sorry, we have to do a pregnancy test first.
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I started crying hysterically. And it was Emma
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and I felt so bad. And I was like, I'm sorry,
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it's just that. Before all of this started, we
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were right in the middle of our IVF journey and
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pregnancy tests are just a little triggering
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because I should be taking a pregnancy test right
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now. And she had no idea. She was like, oh my
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God, I'm so sorry. I'm like, it's okay. It has
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nothing to do with you. I was like, it's just...
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You said pregnancy test, and I'm emotional, and
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I feel like I've been fighting tears for days.
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Right, right. All of this is emotional. It is
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emotional. It is. I'll be really honest with
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you guys. I cried myself to sleep hard last night.
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I'm sure. Well, you left my house, and I kept
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crying, and I just, like, scooped my arm around
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you, and I walked you to the car crying, tucked
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you into the front seat. I just want everybody
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to know that. I am a really strong person. I'm
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so strong, and I know that I'm going to kick
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cancer in the ass, but I've got to be really
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honest with all of you. You see the smiling,
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happy stuff, but really I'm the scared stuff.
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I'm scared every second of every day. How could
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you not be? I don't want everybody to think it's
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sunshine and rainbows all the time because it
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isn't. Even people who looked at the hospital
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pictures are like, you look great. Right. Thanks.
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But I was in the hospital, like terrified, not
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doing well. Right. Right. And I think so many
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of our listeners can connect with that, Room
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It's like you on the outside, sometimes you do
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look okay. And on the inside, you're slowly,
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slowly just falling apart. Like you're not over
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here puking and shitting rainbows. It's a lot.
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It's a lot. I feel like with both sides, right?
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You have the, you find the joy and you focus
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on the good moments, but then you have to fall
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apart and you have to let all those scary feelings
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sit with you, right? And then move through you
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and you shift. It's this ever evolving, like
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roller coaster. Ever evolving, roller coaster.
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freakin, you're like, hi. Yeah, it's literally,
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there's, you're not in the. high for too long
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and you're not the low for too long. It's literally
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just like this weird up and down. And I'm feeling
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carsick all the time because of it. But she does
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have the most adorable vomit bags. I do have
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cute puke bags. They're so cute. They're purple.
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And they come in very handy. Yes. Okay. When
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I watched you tie this baby up, she like vomits
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like a queen, first of all. It's like the quietest
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queen -like vomit. And then afterwards, it's
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like... twist, not it. And she like passed it
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to me. I'm like, this is freaking fantastic.
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Right. I feel like everybody should have that
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in their car. I gave you one from my car last
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night. You did. I didn't need to borrow one back.
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You can have one back. It's more for Connor.
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He is a wild projectile vomiter. Yes, he is. Although
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he did tell me he doesn't ever plan on throwing
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up again his whole life. Well, that's quite the
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statement to make. We were sitting, you went
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and got the car. We were like sitting on the
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bench waiting for you. And I said, I look at
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him, and I'm like, if we go sit outside, we could
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try to take our masks off. He's like, let's go.
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So we go do that, and I'm sitting out there,
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and I start doing kind of the sound. He's like,
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are you going to throw up? I'm like, I'm really
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trying not to. He goes, you can do it. I'm not
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going to throw up ever again in my whole life
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if it makes you feel better. I was like, thanks,
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buddy. Oh, my God. Always bringing that cheerful
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joy. Oh, my God. That's my update. While I was
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suffering in the hospital, you were on quite
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an adventure. I was on quite an adventure. I
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was. And the reason I went on this adventure
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is because of you and Anthony. You and Anthony
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went there for your one -year anniversary to
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Niagara -on -the -Lake, and you raved about it.
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And you also talked about how it was probably
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more of a girls' trip if I was to do it. So my
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mom, my Aunt Cathy, and I, every year we do an
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annual girls' trip. And I pitched it to them,
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and they said yes. So we left. We left on Sunday.
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It was actually really a crazy start to summer.
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I had Friday was the last day of school. Then
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my brother -in -law and his girlfriend, Paulinka,
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came into town. We had Sean's cousin, I forget,
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my cousin, Claire's surprise 30th birthday on
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that Saturday. So just a ton of us getting together.
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It was amazing. And she was so surprised. And
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then I woke up Sunday morning and my aunt and
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my mom showed up at the driveway and like, I
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don't know, 9 .30 a .m. to head to Canada. So
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it was just like, I feel like school ended. It
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was like bing, bang, boom. But the trip was really
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great. Niagara -on -the -Lake is like out of
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a Hallmark movie. It is. Oh, totally. And they
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did say that they have viewed a few... filmed
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a few there. It was amazing. The food was fantastic.
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Lots of gluten -free options. Just walking and
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shopping. The shopping. Oh my gosh. And the flowers.
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Yes. Gorgeous flowers everywhere. Everywhere.
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So well -maintained. So it's called a microclimate,
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which is basically because we did go on a wine
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tour. And so the flowers are beautiful there.
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The grapes are just, I guess, incredible for
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this wine that they make. But it's basically...
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a winemaker's dream. So it's all about where
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it's located. Yes. And how they have warm summers,
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mild winters, and just that moderated temperature
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fluctuations that kind of helps everything grow
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there, especially those grapes. I got to tell
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you, I went on the most informative wine tour
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of my freaking life. I know. I was going to say,
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we never learn things on wine tours. Okay, so
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I feel like any other wine tour you do here in
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like New York or Finger Lakes, it's like, we
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got... So you're really just learning a little
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bit about the wine, shoot it back, and on to
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the next. They were so detailed and thorough.
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So we booked a wine tour, and we didn't know.
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There could be up to, I think, 12 people. So
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there was three of us. We didn't know who you'd
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be with. So we're like, we can get paired with
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a bunch of crazies. It ended up being a mom and
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her two daughters and the mom's birthday. She
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was turning 85. Oh, my God. And the daughters
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were taking her on this trip. The six of us had
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the best time at first. I'm like, oh God, is
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this going to be great? Or is this going to be
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awful? So like we're sitting in the van learning
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with them. We're in our private room tastings
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with them. And it was really, we had an amazing
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time. It's like you said, the universe pairs
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you up with like people who you're meant to be
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with, right? And we were so meant to enjoy that
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wine tour with them. So that was really great.
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I drank my most favorite red wine of my life.
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And are you ready for the name of it? What is
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it? It's called Calm the Franc Down. Is it a
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cab franc? Yes, it is a cab franc, but... It
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kind of is, it was an oops wine. So the winemaker,
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when they made it, it's really for the people.
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It was like an oops. They were making the Cab
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Franc and then something ended up happening with
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the grapes. And I'm probably doing a really bad
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story, like retelling the story because this
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was the last winery and it did get a bit hazy
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for me at the end. But there's that, what's that?
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Is it Malbec? Yes. So there's a Malbec situation
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involved. It is amazing room, but I... Oh, I'd
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give you a taste. But I can't drink right now.
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Well, I also drank it all. We'll have to go back.
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We'll have to go back. We'll have to go back.
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Did you go to Wayne Gretzky's winery? Okay, so
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we did not go to Wayne Gretzky's winery. We only
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went to the four that were on the tour. So we
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did that. But just, I can't say it enough. If
00:25:47.000 --> 00:25:49.400
you want to go for just a great weekend away,
00:25:49.500 --> 00:25:51.359
we had so much fun. Oh, but I have to tell you
00:25:51.359 --> 00:25:53.869
the craziest thing that happened. What? Okay,
00:25:53.890 --> 00:25:56.369
so one night, my mother likes to go dancing.
00:25:56.589 --> 00:25:58.670
So, I mean, who doesn't like to dance? But she
00:25:58.670 --> 00:26:00.410
was, like, really into listening to live music.
00:26:00.670 --> 00:26:01.630
Oh, yeah, there's not a lot of dancing there.
00:26:01.789 --> 00:26:04.970
So we went to this Irish pub after dinner, and
00:26:04.970 --> 00:26:08.930
we get there, and we go to go in. And, like,
00:26:09.089 --> 00:26:11.109
we just, you know, want a spot at the bar. She's
00:26:11.109 --> 00:26:12.670
like, I'm sorry, I have no spots available at
00:26:12.670 --> 00:26:15.049
the bar. We're like, oh, no, no, no. We just
00:26:15.049 --> 00:26:16.430
want to get a drink and just stand and watch
00:26:16.430 --> 00:26:18.670
the band. She's like, I'm sorry, there's no spots
00:26:18.670 --> 00:26:21.410
available at the bar. She's like, I do have a
00:26:21.410 --> 00:26:23.849
spot. I have a four top if you like to sit at
00:26:23.849 --> 00:26:25.750
a table. We're like, no, no, no. We don't want
00:26:25.750 --> 00:26:27.829
to eat. We just want to stand at the bar. No,
00:26:27.910 --> 00:26:30.589
guess what? At this place, you cannot crowd control.
00:26:30.930 --> 00:26:33.349
You have to either have a spot at the bar, like
00:26:33.349 --> 00:26:36.230
a seat, or be at a table to be welcomed in. So
00:26:36.230 --> 00:26:38.329
we get the table. We're like, this is so strange.
00:26:38.730 --> 00:26:42.009
We're sitting at the table. Everybody is sitting
00:26:42.009 --> 00:26:44.230
down. This beautiful band is playing. They are
00:26:44.230 --> 00:26:46.410
so good. Sitting with their hands folded. I wonder
00:26:46.410 --> 00:26:49.349
how the band felt about that. I wonder if that's
00:26:49.349 --> 00:26:51.529
just how it always is there. You know, the more
00:26:51.529 --> 00:26:53.269
we were thinking about it, I'm like, the waiter
00:26:53.269 --> 00:26:55.349
comes over, I go, is anybody going to dance?
00:26:55.470 --> 00:26:57.569
Like, isn't this almost insulting? I mean, Anthony
00:26:57.569 --> 00:26:59.289
would be a good person to ask this question.
00:26:59.349 --> 00:27:01.509
He's a musician. Like, when everybody's just
00:27:01.509 --> 00:27:04.690
kind of sitting stoic, not dancing or moving
00:27:04.690 --> 00:27:07.589
around, like, what kind of vibe is that, right?
00:27:07.829 --> 00:27:09.869
So I remember, I know exactly the pub you're
00:27:09.869 --> 00:27:12.490
talking about, and I remember... like hearing
00:27:12.490 --> 00:27:14.970
the history of it, it's supposed to mimic an
00:27:14.970 --> 00:27:19.339
authentic Irish pub. know that I see people in
00:27:19.339 --> 00:27:22.400
Ireland just sitting there while I see like kilts
00:27:22.400 --> 00:27:25.380
flying, beer flying, everybody doing shots. It
00:27:25.380 --> 00:27:27.400
was just a really, but you want to know what
00:27:27.400 --> 00:27:30.720
I ended up doing? I, so we got our drink and
00:27:30.720 --> 00:27:33.180
we're just like, you know, dancing in our seat,
00:27:33.200 --> 00:27:35.440
wiggling. But then a great song came on. So you
00:27:35.440 --> 00:27:37.480
stood up, didn't you? I did. I was dancing. And
00:27:37.480 --> 00:27:39.400
I go to the waiter, I go, is anybody going to
00:27:39.400 --> 00:27:41.440
dance? And he's like, those two over there, you
00:27:41.440 --> 00:27:44.319
could tell there was something. Yeah. And so
00:27:44.319 --> 00:27:46.059
we danced a little bit. But it was just a really
00:27:46.059 --> 00:27:48.539
different experience. That was like last summer
00:27:48.539 --> 00:27:50.759
we went to the Beach Boys. And I'm like, is anybody
00:27:50.759 --> 00:27:52.460
going to stand up and dance? And you were like,
00:27:52.480 --> 00:27:54.619
me and you all. and we were the only ones in
00:27:54.619 --> 00:27:58.000
our section for the whole show. Sometimes in
00:27:58.000 --> 00:28:00.599
just moments like that and the energy is high
00:28:00.599 --> 00:28:02.500
and the music is good, you just kind of flow
00:28:02.500 --> 00:28:04.339
with it. Yeah, you just get a feeling. Yes. Come
00:28:04.339 --> 00:28:06.960
on. So that would be my only like very odd thing.
00:28:07.079 --> 00:28:09.880
But it was a really great way to kick off summer.
00:28:09.980 --> 00:28:12.240
We had the best girls trip and now we're already
00:28:12.240 --> 00:28:14.099
brainstorming where we should go next. So hey,
00:28:14.180 --> 00:28:16.859
if any of you listeners out there have any ideas
00:28:16.859 --> 00:28:20.569
for us, we love shopping, drinking. And spas.
00:28:20.829 --> 00:28:23.430
Yes. Okay. That's a very good combination. We
00:28:23.430 --> 00:28:25.230
did do a spa too. We did a little. I know. I
00:28:25.230 --> 00:28:28.970
was so jealous of your spa experience. It's 124
00:28:28.970 --> 00:28:31.430
Queen Street Spa. It's where we stayed and they
00:28:31.430 --> 00:28:33.509
had that circuit that you love where you go from
00:28:33.509 --> 00:28:37.829
like warm, cold rest, warm, cold rest. My mother
00:28:37.829 --> 00:28:40.069
was a little resistant to it, but she did relax
00:28:40.069 --> 00:28:43.799
into it and it was just an amazing. Makes you
00:28:43.799 --> 00:28:45.859
feel good? It does. It does. So that is how I
00:28:45.859 --> 00:28:49.079
kicked off my summer. And now here we are. Here
00:28:49.079 --> 00:28:51.779
we are. You guys are listening. Today is July
00:28:51.779 --> 00:28:55.500
6th. Tomorrow is my 43rd birthday. Oh, shorty.
00:28:55.519 --> 00:28:57.839
It's your birthday. We're going to party like
00:28:57.839 --> 00:29:00.180
it's your birthday. Such a weird season for me.
00:29:00.279 --> 00:29:03.440
Usually I'm like super pumped for my birthday.
00:29:03.519 --> 00:29:06.559
This year I'm like, hmm. It's my birthday. It's
00:29:06.559 --> 00:29:10.240
your birthday. But Connor and I are taking you
00:29:10.240 --> 00:29:12.920
on a little secret adventure. Secret adventure.
00:29:13.019 --> 00:29:16.319
And then we'll have some cake. And then Anthony
00:29:16.319 --> 00:29:19.319
and I are celebrating my birthday and our anniversary
00:29:19.319 --> 00:29:22.220
the following weekend. Because hes got to
00:29:22.220 --> 00:29:25.440
work on your actual birthday. Yes. Yes. So we'll
00:29:25.440 --> 00:29:27.319
do a little something together the night of my
00:29:27.319 --> 00:29:30.420
birthday. And then the following weekend, we're
00:29:30.420 --> 00:29:32.440
going to have a nice fancy dinner that's like...
00:29:32.940 --> 00:29:35.420
Birthday and anniversary, combined. I love that.
00:29:35.480 --> 00:29:37.819
I love that. Make sure Anthony eats four hamburgers
00:29:37.819 --> 00:29:41.859
before you go wherever you're going. I think
00:29:41.859 --> 00:29:43.259
that's going to be something we do today is we
00:29:43.259 --> 00:29:46.319
pick out the place that we're going to go. Yeah,
00:29:46.339 --> 00:29:48.960
Anthony and fine dining don't mesh well. Well,
00:29:48.980 --> 00:29:50.740
you know what? Actually, all the guys yesterday
00:29:50.740 --> 00:29:52.640
were saying that. We were talking about how like,
00:29:52.740 --> 00:29:54.119
yeah, you know if you're going there, you got
00:29:54.119 --> 00:29:57.640
to eat a good, healthy, hearty lunch. You're
00:29:57.640 --> 00:30:00.960
going to taste the food, not necessarily. I mean,
00:30:00.980 --> 00:30:03.549
for me, it'll make me full. It won't make Anthony
00:30:03.549 --> 00:30:05.910
full. Well, depending on where we pick. Like
00:30:05.910 --> 00:30:08.190
if we go to a steakhouse. Yeah. Ooh, I can't
00:30:08.190 --> 00:30:09.990
wait to see where you guys are going to go. I
00:30:09.990 --> 00:30:12.230
know. That'll be fun. Something new and exciting.
00:30:12.549 --> 00:30:14.869
And I'm going to get dressed up. I love that.
00:30:15.170 --> 00:30:18.970
And I might go bald. Do it. I was just rubbing
00:30:18.970 --> 00:30:22.650
her head before we started because I go, I keep
00:30:22.650 --> 00:30:24.230
looking at her head. She's like, I'm not wearing
00:30:24.230 --> 00:30:26.710
my head thing. I'm like, don't. You have a great
00:30:26.710 --> 00:30:28.529
shaped head. So I'm like rubbing her head. I'm
00:30:28.529 --> 00:30:31.839
like. I have this gigantic, like, valley at the
00:30:31.839 --> 00:30:34.099
top of my head that if I was going bald, like,
00:30:34.119 --> 00:30:36.460
there would be a little pond of pool, like, water
00:30:36.460 --> 00:30:38.220
if it was, like, raining on it. Like, I have
00:30:38.220 --> 00:30:40.200
the war -shaped head. You have the best. You
00:30:40.200 --> 00:30:42.720
rock and roll girl. I've got some good earrings
00:30:42.720 --> 00:30:45.039
that I need to show off. Yes, do that. Cute little
00:30:45.039 --> 00:30:48.400
outfit. Yeah. Yeah, I love it. It's the little
00:30:48.400 --> 00:30:50.759
things in this journey that you have to get excited
00:30:50.759 --> 00:30:52.720
about. So we talked about things you're looking
00:30:52.720 --> 00:30:55.960
forward to. So fun little birthday treats this
00:30:55.960 --> 00:30:59.740
week, which will be super fun. Okay, so are you
00:30:59.740 --> 00:31:04.220
reading anything good right now? Okay, so I'm
00:31:04.220 --> 00:31:07.240
actually doing two things. This is the summer
00:31:07.240 --> 00:31:09.279
that I am going to be reading some fiction books.
00:31:09.680 --> 00:31:14.410
I am currently rereading a favorite. nonfiction
00:31:14.410 --> 00:31:16.390
book though first, just to kick off my summer.
00:31:16.970 --> 00:31:20.049
Because I've listened to The Limit Does Not Exist
00:31:20.049 --> 00:31:22.990
by Shoshana Raven. She's so amazing. I've listened
00:31:22.990 --> 00:31:25.970
to it on Audible like three times, but then I'm
00:31:25.970 --> 00:31:27.970
the type of person who likes to get the actual
00:31:27.970 --> 00:31:29.990
book and reread it and highlight and make notes.
00:31:30.130 --> 00:31:32.109
Okay. So I am currently doing that, the nerd
00:31:32.109 --> 00:31:35.829
in me. But my fiction book that I'm listening
00:31:35.829 --> 00:31:37.549
to is, I got to look, what is it called? A Court
00:31:37.549 --> 00:31:39.930
of Thorns and Roses. A Court of Thorns and Roses
00:31:39.930 --> 00:31:42.250
that someone I work with recommended it to me.
00:31:42.410 --> 00:31:45.099
So I'm like, okay, I'll do it. So I'm listening
00:31:45.099 --> 00:31:47.660
to it on Audible. I'm still on chapter three.
00:31:47.700 --> 00:31:50.319
And I'm also not driving a ton, but I'm also
00:31:50.319 --> 00:31:52.319
not like when I went out for my seven mile run,
00:31:52.480 --> 00:31:55.740
I didn't choose to listen to it. I'm going to
00:31:55.740 --> 00:32:00.160
ruffle some feathers by saying this, but it's
00:32:00.160 --> 00:32:05.109
very rare that I DNF a book or a series. I DNF'd
00:32:05.109 --> 00:32:07.190
both of that author series, including the one
00:32:07.190 --> 00:32:09.549
you're reading right now. Oh, okay. See, and
00:32:09.549 --> 00:32:11.750
I know you said that, and usually you love fantasy
00:32:11.750 --> 00:32:13.990
and all this kind of stuff. For me, it was too,
00:32:14.250 --> 00:32:16.950
like, when I'm reading, I don't want to have
00:32:16.950 --> 00:32:19.809
to break out a whiteboard and keep track of worlds
00:32:19.809 --> 00:32:23.990
and people and all the things. Like, I felt like
00:32:23.990 --> 00:32:26.250
I needed that to keep track of, like, the world
00:32:26.250 --> 00:32:29.640
building and the characters. Like when I read,
00:32:29.680 --> 00:32:31.799
I typically read before I'm going to bed. So
00:32:31.799 --> 00:32:33.160
I need something that I can just like digest,
00:32:33.299 --> 00:32:35.279
not something that I have to like really, really.
00:32:35.640 --> 00:32:37.700
Maybe if I was reading during the day and I had
00:32:37.700 --> 00:32:39.740
time to like think about it. I think I would
00:32:39.740 --> 00:32:42.339
need to take notes to keep track. I mean, I do.
00:32:42.480 --> 00:32:45.400
Like I shared, I do like to take notes, but not
00:32:45.400 --> 00:32:47.720
for a fiction book. I want it to be light, easy,
00:32:47.819 --> 00:32:49.880
and fun. And this is not a good way for me to
00:32:49.880 --> 00:32:51.799
kick off my fiction reading. Yeah, I was going
00:32:51.799 --> 00:32:54.940
to say, it's not light and easy. Most people
00:32:54.940 --> 00:32:58.859
are obsessed. Our friend Taryn is obsessed. My
00:32:58.859 --> 00:33:01.619
cousin Janelle is obsessed. I know so many people
00:33:01.619 --> 00:33:04.059
obsessed with it. I just couldn't get into it.
00:33:04.099 --> 00:33:05.819
And to each their own. That's why they make different.
00:33:06.599 --> 00:33:09.680
Different authors. Right, exactly. So I'm going
00:33:09.680 --> 00:33:12.299
to give it like two more chapters. Yeah. I'm
00:33:12.299 --> 00:33:14.319
usually not a book quitter either, but I feel
00:33:14.319 --> 00:33:17.559
like time is limited. And they're like thick,
00:33:17.740 --> 00:33:20.440
thick books. Yeah, this is a lot of hours. I
00:33:20.440 --> 00:33:22.880
don't even know how many hours it said. But either
00:33:22.880 --> 00:33:25.279
way, that's what I'm going to do. But I'm going
00:33:25.279 --> 00:33:28.220
to, oh my gosh, the chapters are like. Okay,
00:33:28.240 --> 00:33:30.799
are you ready? It says I have 15 hours left.
00:33:31.079 --> 00:33:34.339
15 hours? 15 hours and eight minutes left. I'm
00:33:34.339 --> 00:33:38.039
only on chapter three. So I do think I'm going
00:33:38.039 --> 00:33:41.279
to pick up that Colleen Hoover book that was
00:33:41.279 --> 00:33:43.519
just made into a movie. I'm blanking on the name.
00:33:43.599 --> 00:33:46.599
Me too. Reminders of him? Was it reminders of
00:33:46.599 --> 00:33:49.430
him? I think so. I think so. Because you know
00:33:49.430 --> 00:33:51.730
what? The last time I texted you, yes, reminders
00:33:51.730 --> 00:33:54.730
of him. And I said, I wanted to, let's read this
00:33:54.730 --> 00:33:57.049
and go see the movie. And I never did. All right.
00:33:57.049 --> 00:33:58.490
So that's going to be what I'm going to read
00:33:58.490 --> 00:34:00.029
next. What about you, Room? What are you reading?
00:34:00.190 --> 00:34:03.589
I am currently obsessed with the Off Campus series.
00:34:03.890 --> 00:34:08.989
I watched Off Campus three times right now that
00:34:08.989 --> 00:34:11.869
I've watched it. On the third book of the series.
00:34:12.030 --> 00:34:16.110
Okay. It is so good. I am flying through them.
00:34:16.860 --> 00:34:19.599
Like I, it takes me about a week to read each
00:34:19.599 --> 00:34:21.599
book. So I'll be done with the series before
00:34:21.599 --> 00:34:24.239
you know it. Yay. Now, are you reading? What
00:34:24.239 --> 00:34:25.440
are you reading? Do you find yourself reading
00:34:25.440 --> 00:34:27.300
during the day, all the time, or mostly more
00:34:27.300 --> 00:34:30.199
just at night before bed? I most, so fiction
00:34:30.199 --> 00:34:32.500
books are at night before bed. And then I have
00:34:32.500 --> 00:34:36.119
a nonfiction book that's a cancer patient wrote
00:34:36.119 --> 00:34:38.239
that my cousin bought for me that I read like
00:34:38.239 --> 00:34:42.599
if I'm out and about and I have it with me. And
00:34:42.599 --> 00:34:45.969
that. a huge day reader but like once once our
00:34:45.969 --> 00:34:47.809
patio is fully set up because we've been waiting
00:34:47.809 --> 00:34:49.769
for our patio to be finished I think I'll probably
00:34:49.769 --> 00:34:52.050
be outside reading a lot because you can only
00:34:52.050 --> 00:34:54.329
watch so much the other day I was like I have
00:34:54.329 --> 00:34:56.309
nothing to watch I found like this one random
00:34:56.309 --> 00:34:58.349
show I put it on and like by the second episode
00:34:58.349 --> 00:35:02.190
I was like oh what is this yeah yeah so sometimes
00:35:02.190 --> 00:35:04.769
you need to have a new balance right yeah yeah
00:35:04.769 --> 00:35:08.820
all right speaking of shows any show you're loving
00:35:08.820 --> 00:35:10.760
right now. Oh my God. Or that you loved. We're
00:35:10.760 --> 00:35:13.840
late to the game, but we're watching Yellow Jackets.
00:35:14.230 --> 00:35:17.289
Oh, yes. Yep. I'm obsessed. Like right now, I'm
00:35:17.289 --> 00:35:18.630
literally sitting here. I'm like, I can't wait
00:35:18.630 --> 00:35:21.210
to watch the next episode. You would hate it.
00:35:21.289 --> 00:35:25.670
It's so much gore and like fantasy. Not for me.
00:35:25.809 --> 00:35:28.849
Not for me. But I love it. Yeah. It's good. Oh,
00:35:28.969 --> 00:35:31.110
well, that's good. What are you watching? Well,
00:35:31.269 --> 00:35:33.869
everyone who is into Game of Thrones, it's back.
00:35:34.170 --> 00:35:36.469
Oh, my God. It's so good. Like I get excited.
00:35:36.809 --> 00:35:39.150
Today's Sunday. It's coming. You're excited.
00:35:39.250 --> 00:35:41.969
I'm excited. But I do know anybody who's watching.
00:35:42.989 --> 00:35:45.909
I'm a bit worried. My favorite character, things
00:35:45.909 --> 00:35:48.010
might go the wrong way for her. But I can say
00:35:48.010 --> 00:35:50.650
for sure, Sean read the book, so he has all that
00:35:50.650 --> 00:35:53.489
knowledge and I have zero knowledge. So he's
00:35:53.489 --> 00:35:55.210
always like, you're not going to like the way
00:35:55.210 --> 00:35:56.909
this is going to go. I'm like, don't say that
00:35:56.909 --> 00:35:59.989
to me. He gives you the heads up. He does, he
00:35:59.989 --> 00:36:03.650
does. But honestly, I love that show. And that's
00:36:03.650 --> 00:36:05.969
not anything I think I would ever watch if it
00:36:05.969 --> 00:36:07.869
wasn't for Sean. It was like one of those that
00:36:07.869 --> 00:36:11.070
we started and he pitched it to me. I was shocked
00:36:11.070 --> 00:36:13.739
when you told me. Talk about blood and gore.
00:36:13.800 --> 00:36:15.780
It can get a little gory sometimes. I have to
00:36:15.780 --> 00:36:17.159
close my eyes. I don't want to have a nightmare.
00:36:18.199 --> 00:36:22.619
I do. It's true. I don't want to have a nightmare.
00:36:23.260 --> 00:36:25.820
I do. I get nightmares very easily. Oh, my God.
00:36:25.820 --> 00:36:29.019
That's so funny. I do, too, but I guess I don't
00:36:29.019 --> 00:36:31.119
remember them. Yeah. So, like, if it had to do
00:36:31.119 --> 00:36:35.519
with a show, I don't know. I mean, everybody's
00:36:35.519 --> 00:36:37.719
different. Yeah. Everybody's different. I used
00:36:37.719 --> 00:36:40.380
to. Remember when I— Oh, my God, guys. Back in
00:36:40.380 --> 00:36:41.880
the day, man, I used to be scared of everything.
00:36:42.639 --> 00:36:45.599
One time, I was so scared after watching a Law
00:36:45.599 --> 00:36:48.239
& Order SVU episode, I locked myself in my closet,
00:36:48.300 --> 00:36:51.139
and I called Lauren, and it was almost the middle
00:36:51.139 --> 00:36:53.679
of the night. It was late. And Sean had to come
00:36:53.679 --> 00:36:55.760
pick me up and bring me back to their house so
00:36:55.760 --> 00:36:57.699
I could have a sleepover on their futon. She
00:36:57.699 --> 00:37:00.980
was afraid to stay by herself? Yep. I was like,
00:37:01.039 --> 00:37:03.280
there's definitely someone upstairs, guys. Someone
00:37:03.280 --> 00:37:06.510
come get me. I made Sean go check. Oh, my God.
00:37:06.530 --> 00:37:08.510
And your house was big. That was that house
00:37:08.510 --> 00:37:09.710
on Barrington right? It was an apartment. It was
00:37:09.710 --> 00:37:11.610
humongous. It was so big. And it was so many
00:37:11.610 --> 00:37:13.889
cracks and crevices. Oh, it was kind of creepy.
00:37:14.329 --> 00:37:16.650
It was. You needed to be picked up. And we ended
00:37:16.650 --> 00:37:18.110
up having a fun sleepover. We did have a fun
00:37:18.110 --> 00:37:19.929
sleepover. But, yeah, so I'm not afraid like
00:37:19.929 --> 00:37:21.690
that anymore. Which is good because then there
00:37:21.690 --> 00:37:24.590
would be literally nothing for me to watch. Yes,
00:37:24.610 --> 00:37:28.090
yes. With Anthony, at least. Right, right. That's
00:37:28.090 --> 00:37:31.309
true. You know, other than the hospital stint,
00:37:31.309 --> 00:37:33.289
I think we're doing pretty good for the start
00:37:33.289 --> 00:37:35.469
of summer. Yeah, I think so, too. I think we're
00:37:35.469 --> 00:37:38.349
kicking off pretty strong. And, you know, just
00:37:38.349 --> 00:37:40.829
here we go. We've got to soak in the summer of
00:37:40.829 --> 00:37:44.360
2026. Yes, as much as we... As much as we can.
00:37:44.500 --> 00:37:46.539
As much as we can. We got a lot to look forward
00:37:46.539 --> 00:37:48.519
to. You have your birthday this week, a fun special
00:37:48.519 --> 00:37:52.280
dinner. Our anniversary. Your anniversary. Oh,
00:37:52.380 --> 00:37:55.340
my gosh. Time is flying. You're two already.
00:37:55.679 --> 00:37:57.980
Crazy. Crazy, crazy. Time flies when you're having
00:37:57.980 --> 00:38:00.280
fun. Time flies when you're having fun. And,
00:38:00.340 --> 00:38:03.519
hey, you know, next week I'm running the Boilermaker.
00:38:03.679 --> 00:38:07.500
Yes. Yep, yep. So send me all next Sunday the,
00:38:07.579 --> 00:38:10.119
what is it? Wait, it's your anniversary. It's
00:38:10.119 --> 00:38:12.760
Sunday. The 12th. On the 12th, I will be running
00:38:12.760 --> 00:38:15.480
nine miles in Utica, New York. Please say a prayer
00:38:15.480 --> 00:38:16.960
for me. I'm really not very prepared for this
00:38:16.960 --> 00:38:20.559
race. But I do know how powerful my mindset is,
00:38:20.619 --> 00:38:22.579
and I know that if I can run it in my mind, I
00:38:22.579 --> 00:38:23.960
can run it then. And there's treats during this
00:38:23.960 --> 00:38:25.780
race. Yes, this is the one I told you guys about.
00:38:26.280 --> 00:38:29.539
Popsicles, oranges. I'll take a band. A band.
00:38:29.760 --> 00:38:31.539
Or you can dance. You don't have to have a table.
00:38:31.800 --> 00:38:34.519
Exactly. Exactly. I'm going to dance on a table.
00:38:34.579 --> 00:38:37.599
Let's show those people at the Irish pub that
00:38:37.599 --> 00:38:41.099
day. what it's really like. All right. Well,
00:38:41.219 --> 00:38:44.579
that felt good to come back with our first IGG
00:38:44.579 --> 00:38:47.400
Extra. Summer update for y 'all. Little summer
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