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Hello, hello, hello and welcome back to the Ecstatic Life Podcast.
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I am host Nicole Goff, and today my guest is Kelty Jean author, podcast host and a woman who refuses to let life's plot twists have the final say.
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After a traumatic snowboarding accident and brain injury forced her out of the corporate world, she was initiated into a deep reckoning with identity healing and the wisdom of the body through marriage, farming, menopause.
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PTSD.
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Yet even another concussion.
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Yes.
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Life really kept testing her.
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Kel Jean kept choosing to rise, to listen and to create meaning from the mess.
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She's now an EFT practitioner, a nervous system guide, and the voice behind the Do It Anyway podcast, and she's here to remind us that joy, purpose, and aliveness aren't postponed.
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They're practiced.
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Welcome, Kelt.
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How are you today? Oh my gosh, I'm so good.
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And, uh, thank you so much for having me here.
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Ah, this has been, uh, this has been in the works for a little while and I am super excited to finally have you on.
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Uh, a little backstory for the audience.
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We are in a manifestation program together and um, that has been such a fun ride.
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The last.
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Couple of months.
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It's been like a full season.
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It was like through all the holidays and we're showing up like two days a week.
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And in fact, I think we're in like three different programs together right now, but showing up like two, three days a week through all the.
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Holiday chaos to like manifest our dream lives together.
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And so, uh, when I found out that you were doing a podcast also, I was like, oh man, we, we have to swap.
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So, um, I super excited to finally have you in the, uh, the, the hot seat.
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No, no pressure.
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I'm so excited to be here.
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And it's, and it's interesting 'cause I feel like the life that we live online is like my real life and the life that's going on around me is like, just like this non, um, like this what part that doesn't even really matter.
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And so I just, I love being here with you and with these women that are so supportive and well, so you are actually kind of like isolated in the winter, right? So we are like worlds apart.
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And as far as that goes, I'm here in Florida and it, it gets, like, I'm, I'm in a sweater.
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It gets kind of cold here in North Florida, but like you're kind of like isolated in the snow on a farm right now.
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Right? So.
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Yeah, so these online interactions are like most of the interactions, these are my social life, they're my little nuggets of gold throughout the day.
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And, uh, my sanity through this cold, um, slow winter in Canada.
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Wow.
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Yeah.
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So, um, I think we have another, uh, thing in common where you are hoping to get to, uh, a, a tropical location in the near future as well, right? Yes.
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Last in Canada are getting the older you get the tougher it is.
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And you know, it's funny 'cause I used to make fun of the snowbirds and I was always like, I will never be one of them.
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And it just goes to show that we're allowed to change.
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And now I am really excited to be one of them and to leave for at least two months every winter, um, to like the sun somewhere warm because it, it, it's challenging.
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I can imagine.
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I, I can only imagine because I've actually literally never seen snow.
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Oh my god, I couldn't even imagine.
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I'm like truly a Florida girl.
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Um, so, so yeah, that's like a whole world that I know nothing about and I'm pretty sure I'd probably freeze to death.
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Um, yeah, I don't think I even like own anything that could withstand snow.
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So, um, I just kind of wanted to like open up with kind of like your, your backstory.
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So we touched on it in that introduction.
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Um, but if you could just kind of give me, uh, a little overview of like what brought you here.
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Like how, how, how did life bring you to this point? Okay.
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Well this is a really interesting story and, um.
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Uh, you know, it probably starts quite a bit younger, but I'm gonna go back to, uh, about 2000.
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No, I'm gonna go back even further.
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So I, my dad ended up passing away when I was in my twenties.
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And I, I couldn't be here anymore because everything reminded me of my dad.
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And so I decided I'm going on an adventure.
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I'm gonna go live my life.
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And I went to the city and I enjoyed it and it was great and it was real, um, fun at first and I.
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Um, got into the programming of, you know, this is what you do.
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You go to school, you get a job, you work there until you retire, and then, and then you can live your life.
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And so I was doing all the things I was supposed to be doing.
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I was working downtown Calgary.
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And it never felt like me.
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I, I, I always was like, there's something else.
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Like, this isn't me.
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I know this is who I was told to be, but it, it never felt like me.
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It never felt comfortable.
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And so I decided I'm gonna leave the city and go back to the country.
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And I told my grandpa that and he said to me, oh no, Kel, this is your life now.
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You got a good job with the government.
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You need to stay here and.
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And work until you retire and then you're, when you retire, you know, then you can live your life.
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And from previous experiences that I had, I realized this was not, this was not me.
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And so I left, I, I'm actually.
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Um, sadly what happened was my grandparents were in a car accident.
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Um, the gentleman I was dating, his dad had cancer.
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He ended up dying in my house a week after my grandparents were in a car accident.
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And then I lost, I was pregnant and I had a miscarriage and lost my baby.
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So, like, it was grief on grief, on grief.
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And I decided after that, like, I'm going back to the country.
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This is not the life for me.
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And grandpa's voice wasn't there anymore to tell me to stay.
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So I had, I finally had the courage to leave and go back to the country.
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And so the goal was to take a year off and figure out like what it is that I actually wanted to do with my life because I knew this wasn't what I was supposed to be doing with my life.
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Life has a way of sort of giving you, um, autopilot where you just kind of keep going.
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And I was so programmed that this is the life that you live.
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And I ended up dating this guy who wanted to be with a successful woman.
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And in my mind a success meant a nine to five.
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And so I went back into the corporate world and I started out as a casual.
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Because I'm incredible and magnificent.
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I worked my way up and all of a sudden I was the boss.
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I was like the executive assistant to the director of Human Resources and instruction.
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I was working 6:00 AM to 6:00 PM I was taking my work home with me and data inputting in the evening times and living for the weekends where I could like go for a hike and finally be me.
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And, um.
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And so I was at work and I was daydreaming of the life I live now, and I, I, like, I swear I manifested this, um, not in the form, but I was like dreaming of just doing whatever I wanted, going for a walk like.
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Doing something different, helping people.
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And so, uh, then one day I was out, uh, snowboarding and I could have stopped and got my helmet.
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I could have went five minutes outta my way and got my helmet and I decided I'm not going to because I never fall and.
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That cha I did.
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I fell and it changed the whole direct tra trajectory of my life.
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And yet I think that it happened for me, not to me, because I didn't want to work in the corporate world.
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That wasn't me.
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And if I would have not got the brain injury, I would've stayed there forever.
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And so I'm super grateful that it happened and uh, there's been a lot of challenges, but that kind of is.
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Where, how I ended up where I am now.
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Wow.
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Um, the, the brain injury did that.
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Sever the relationship you were in that got you into that corporate world, or were you still in that relationship? Um, so I was getting out of that relationship at the time, so we were kind of like, we were engaged, um, and it just wasn't.
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I think maybe we had split up, but we were still secretly like seeing each other and, and we were, we were very, um, and, and that's another thing that if I had to hit my head, I wouldn't have had the courage to walk away from that man, because I was, I was previous to the person I am now somebody who.
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Believed that my worth was in how much a man loved me or how much attention I could get from a man, like that kind of thing.
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And I would've never walked away no matter how bad or toxic it was for me.
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That person as awesome and great as she was, would've never walked away.
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So again, it's one of those things that happened for me and not to me, and I couldn't really see it at first, but looking back, our mentor always says, the dots line up looking back and I can see how.
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This has happened for me and it put me on a life, like a trajectory of a life that I want to live like where I want to be.
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And so, yeah.
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You know, some, sometimes we ask for things and it's like, uh, we expect this to be like handed on a nice little neat platter and instead we're like, smacked by rock in the head or something like that.
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Wake up.
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Yes, yes.
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But as you said, like you were, you were living in what sounded like, um.
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Automation you were, you were headed down this path that you thought you were supposed to.
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I use air quotes, quote unquote, supposed to live, and you were with a man that you thought you had to be this inauthentic version of yourself to be with.
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And so, you know, sometimes it really does take a massive shaking to really wake us up out of that dream.
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And it's like.
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The comparison of the slow death of your soul, of your passion, of your aliveness, what makes you, you compared to the trauma and drama and hardship that was caused by that brain injury? Looking back, um, which would you choose? I, I wouldn't change it for the world.
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I, I love the person I am and I mean, like, yeah, there was some challenges and some really hard and really dark times.
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Uh, but like now, like everything that happened brought me to here and I am this incredible.
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Um, just spiritual being, having this human experience and, and I love who I am.
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I love who I'm becoming, and I wouldn't, I wouldn't change it for the world.
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That's, that's beautiful.
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And I feel the same way, you know, and I feel like that is an echoing of most of the women who I have on the podcast.
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You know, these, these, um, these things that at the time seem so terrible can be our.
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Best and biggest teachers really.
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And I, I wanna go, I wanna go back and highlight, so the, the loss of your father and then subsequently the loss of the baby and the loss of your grandparents, and in an accident at the same time too.
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I mean, just to say like, that's tragic and I'm so sorry, but how, how did this grief shape you? How did working through this shape, you, you had said in your intake that you are the happiest, sad person that you will ever meet.
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So can you kind of touch on the, on the way that, that, that loss and grief also shaped how you see the world today? Yeah, and I think that that's kind of almost two things as well.
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And so I'm gonna go back just a little bit further in that I was saying that I'm the happiest, sad person that you'll ever meet.
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I grew up with premenstrual dysphoric disorder.
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And so as soon as I started menstruating, I became this different person where I had two good weeks of the month and two bad weeks.
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And when I say bad weeks, I mean like dysphoric.
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Like I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.
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Um, it was horrible.
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And so kind of two things happened there.
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First of all, with the PMDD at such a young age, I realized like.
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I only have, can't get a little emotional.
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I only have half the time that other women have.
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Because they, you know, would maybe get PMS for a couple of days, but I had two weeks of every month that was a write off.
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And so I was like, if I'm gonna have half the time that everybody else has, I'm gonna have to be double as joyful or like double as alive, double as living in the good days that I have.
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And so there was that, um, where I was like determined to find joy in the days that I could.
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And then I think what happened was when my dad died, um, watching my dad, I mean, he was a, he was a hard, hard worker and, um.
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Like, it was also challenging to live with them because it was like, there is work to be done.
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Like we weren't allowed to go have fun.
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There was work.
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Like he was a hard, hard worker.
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And so, um, but he planned on having fun.
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He planned on retiring and then going to see the Grand Canyon and going to travel and do this and going to Scotland and doing all of these things.
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And he worked so hard.
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He had this intention of when he was done working, he was gonna do those things.
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Um, he died.
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He turned 65 in November.
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He died on Christmas Eve.
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He had one retirement check and he didn't even cash it.
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It was sitting on the side of the, we had phones back then that connected to the wall.
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It was sitting beside the phone.
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And, um, he didn't even, he didn't even cash his retirement check.
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That's what he was living for.
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He was living to retire.
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Like he was working to have that life.
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And so when he died and didn't get to do any of the things that he wanted to do, I was like, I am not going to be that person.
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I will not spend my life, um.
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I didn't realize how, like, how like this is obviously like really in me.
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Like I am not gonna spend my life working for other people, doing things for other people, not being in joy, not being in happiness, only to.
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Maybe if I'm lucky enough to survive all the poison that I'm eating and all the garbage going into my brain and all of the, the crap.
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Like maybe if I'm lucky enough to survive that maybe I can enjoy my life for a little while like that.
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That is not me.
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That is not what I came here to this earth to do, and it is not how I'm going to live.
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And so again, even just with grandma and grandpa, they were healthy.
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They were.
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Um, they were one of them, grandpa was going to go to Barbados, I think the following week, and my grandma was gonna be going off to Africa or somewhere and um, and they were in that car accident together and.
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And again, I we're like, life is short.
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We don't know what's gonna happen.
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My boyfriend's dad getting cancer and brain tumors and losing the baby.
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I mean, all I ever wanted to do growing up was be a mom.
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And I realized, you know, after I miscarried that, like that's prob maybe not gonna happen.
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What else can I do? How else can I find joy? How can I live my life to the fullest? And so, yeah, that, uh, losing those people and, and going through that pain and that, um, and seeing how, uh, also how other people acted when they lost people.
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How, like, my world is over now.
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I don't ever want my world to be over because somebody else I love.
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It's gone.
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If someone else, I love leaves and then it makes me wanna live my life harder.
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So that's kind of where I got to where I am today.
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Well, what a gift that your father actually gave you though, in that, you know, what a, what a gift to, to show you because, you know.
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You were on that path, you were headed down that path to, to recreate and do the exact same thing.
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And so yeah, what what a, what a gift to be able to see that.
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And yes, it's tragic and of course like of course there's so much grief, but to be able to see that other side of it that I'm gonna live.
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Write fricking now and live in this moment and not postpone happiness because we're not guaranteed retirement, we're not guaranteed tomorrow.
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So yeah, that's, that's so in line too with the mission with this podcast too, with ecstatic life.
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To really to live every moment.
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And that doesn't mean to just, you know, throw all caution to the wind and just do whatever and be totally, uh, chaotic and, um, uh, hedonistic.
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That's the word I was thinking of, you know? Um, but to to be here, to be present, to be here for your life, and to be doing what you love now.
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Not doing something that you hate day after day.
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And I mean, let's be for real a career that's, that is the majority of your life when you are doing it.
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Like you said, you're working, you know, what'd you say? 6:00 AM to 6:00 PM And taking home work to do out of that 12 hours like that is almost your entire life when you're in it.
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And to be dedicating that much of your life to something that is like killing your soul.
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Yeah.
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And I think even for me, like one of the things that really gets me on that is we are asked at five years old, what do you wanna be when you grow up? And like we're supposed to decide one thing and do that one thing for the rest of our lives.
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Like I am a multifaceted being.
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I didn't come here to do one thing.
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I came here to do it all.
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I wanna experience all of it.
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I wanna do a little bit of this and a little bit of that.
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And so I feel like.
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Um, getting, getting, getting into a career is like asking someone to decide who you are at a young age and stick to that person and don't change.
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And, and, um, I, that's another thing about this world is that yeah, I find that we're told to decide who we wanna be and be it, and I am like, I, I hope that a year from now I'm, I'm not this same version of me.
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Like I don't wanna be the same version of me for my, my whole life.
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And.
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And, um, yeah.
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And then the, the other thing that I wanted to say on that is, um, you know, it's not even just about the joy.
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It's about being with myself through everything.
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Like when I'm sad, I allow myself to be sad and I sit with myself and I, and I feel that like I didn't come here just to be in joy, although joy is fun, and joy is awesome and I love it.
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I came here to experience all of the emotions of life.
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So when I'm.
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You know, going through something, I go through it and I honor it.
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Yeah, definitely.
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And that's something that I say all the time, you know, it's not, it's not about living in la la land and pretending plastering on a fake smile, you know, fake it till you make it, quote unquote.
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It's, it's not about that at all.
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It's.
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Deeply feeling your emotions and it's being present with them, and it's being there for the alchemy too, you know, because if you, if you are in that deep grief, like on the other side of that, the other, the balance of that is.
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Extreme joy.
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And if we rob ourself of the experience of those emotions, then they're not there to be our teachers either.
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And that actually brings me to another question that I had for you.
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Um, so, you know, we didn't touch on your second brain injury.
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Let's, let's get to, let's get to that, uh, first and then, um, I'm, I'm curious how, how these things really, um, these healing journeys.
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Through not just the, the grief, but through the, um, the PP, uh, the PMDD and through healing the brain injuries Got you back in touch with your body.
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So, um.
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I, again, like, it's interesting and I'm, I'm still in the process of, of the dots only line up looking back and, and trying to see how this did happen for me.
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It doesn't necessarily always feel like it in the moment, but again, I know this happened for me.
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So, um, I actually have to take you back to June because in June I decided I struggled.
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Of course, with PMDD, I went into post menopause early.
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I've had like five of myalgia and PCOS and like all of these.
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Health issues that I dealt with my whole life.
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And of course, as I'm becoming this amazing, um, greatest version of myself, I'm realizing how powerful the mind is and how maybe just maybe I had all that stuff going on because I had it all going on in my mind.
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And so I just decided to claim health and I mean.
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I had back surgery when I was 17.
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And so, you know, after that, anytime my back twitched, I was like, oh my God, am I gonna be in a wheelchair? Like, I like it, you know? And so my thoughts were always thoughts of unwell anytime anything came up.
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So I decided that I'm going to switch that and I decided that I am health and I'm only going to think healthy things.
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And so, um, for example, when my back is sore now, I, I go, I don't think, oh, my back is so sore.
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Oh my gosh, am I gonna be able to walk in 10 years? I think, oh, I feel the sensation of my back getting stronger.
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And so, you know, it's changing the, the way I think about things.
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And so I claimed health.
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And, um, of what we're learning in manifestation class is that a lot of times when we decide on one thing, the contrast will show up.
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Ah, yes.
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The contrast.
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Contrast.
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And so in June, I decide to claim health.
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In August I had, I was having a really good day.
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I went to dump the, um, grass clippings in the chicken coop.
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I smashed into a low laying beam.
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Knocked myself unconscious.
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Woke up half an hour later in the hospital, um, and then a week later started having ventricular premature ventricular heart palpitations.
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And so I was in and out of the hospital then for kind of the rest of August.
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And um, I remember being in the hospital room and seeing to someone, one of the doctors like.
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I know this looks bad, but don't think for a second that I think of myself as an unhealthy person like I am health.
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And so I knew that this was the contrast showing up.
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Um, I was kind of disappointed that it showed up in the form of another concussion, but as, as, as one does that we just move on and.
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And so it was again, one of those things where, you know, there was a couple dark days, but I realized in the end that this is happening for me.
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I claimed my health.
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I'm not surprised that this is showing up because the contrast shows up when you decide something.
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And, um, I think that the way I moved through that was, um, twofold.
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One, that I did not allow the thoughts in my brain to.
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Go down any dark holes.
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And so I was able to control my thoughts.
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It was challenging after the brain injury, but um, and there was like a couple days of anger there, but then I turned it around as to this is happening for me.
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This is for my greatest good.
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Um, I can't see it, but it's happening for me.
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And so getting through that.
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Uh, I think there was a couple things.
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One, I I'm surrounding myself by these women who believe in me, and I think that that really made like a lot of difference.
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Um, and I'm surrounding myself, uh, also with women who are doing really big things, you know, despite setbacks to site, despite being afraid.
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They also made me realize that I can still keep going.
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I can still do this.
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And, and I think like my podcast was already scheduled to be launched and I had a choice to either, you know, not launch it or do it anyway.
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And I just decided that this kind of like goes along with the theme of my podcast of, of, um, you know, I always say one of the things I say on my podcast is that.
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Perfection is not a prerequisite for purpose.
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And so even though I knew I couldn't show up the way, I would've been able to show up two months prior.
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Um, I gave myself permission to show up just as I am, just where I am.
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And, um, I gave myself permission to not be perfect.
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And I think that that made all the difference in the world.
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That's so beautiful.
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And I wanna, I wanna put a, a pin in the healing journey in the somatic way, but first I do wanna go back and touch on one thing.
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So to clarify from your, uh.
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First brain injury that you had from your snowboarding accident.
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You had actually experienced, um, a lot of like, difficulty with like organizing your, your thoughts and like it actually caused some, like, long term problems.
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So you hadn't brought that into this conversation yet, but I just know from interacting with you.
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You know, for the past few months, um, that that's been a real big thing.
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So for you to, uh, start this podcast, the do it anyway podcast, like even if you're not showing up perfect, even if you're not showing up on time, even if you're not quite ready, do it anyways, which I absolutely freaking love.
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Um, but like, so this, this has been, um, a, a, a journey for you too, and what I would say, like a self reclamation.
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Like, you know, so, um, I just wanna highlight that and say that like, for, for you to show up for yourself in that way is, is beautiful.
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And so, um, so yeah, like in your intake, you had, you had talked about that alchemy, that transformation, that, that growing, that healing that you've been through.
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And so I'd love to, to touch on that a little bit because that's something I'm.
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So passionate about the transformation, the, the healing, and just to show to every woman that it is possible, no matter how bleak something looks, no matter how horrible and trying and dark it feels in the moment that there is always redemption and healing available.
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So, you know, and I think the biggest thing that about this is the story that we tell ourselves.
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Um, and, and quite often the stories that we tell ourselves are not our own stories.
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They're programs that other people have told us.
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Um, and so when I got this first initial brain injury, you know, the doctors, I went through brain rehabilitation program and I got to the point where I could kind of garden for about four hours a day, but I couldn't.
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I still couldn't read, I couldn't do the computer work.
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And, and so the doctors had said, you know, this might be as good as you ever get.
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And so, you know, good job, and, and you're doing good 'cause you're not depressed and most people in your situation are depressed.
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And so keep doing what you're doing and really good job and kind of like, this is as good as you're gonna get.
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And so I decided I have a brain injury, so I can't, I have a brain injury.
323
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I can't do this, I can't do that.
324
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I, and, and I mean, there was, there's cognitive challenges pulling the thoughts.
325
00:29:31,54.6056337 --> 00:29:38,284.6056337
I was, um, a poet, a writer before I got the brain injury, and I wrote like 10 poems a day.
326
00:29:38,584.6056337 --> 00:29:40,504.6056337
And after the brain injury, I stopped writing.
327
00:29:40,989.6056337 --> 00:29:44,584.6056337
I, I just, um, because I decided that I can't do it.
328
00:29:45,94.6056337 --> 00:29:59,854.6056337
And so, um, you know, I at one point started thinking, well, what if I could do it? You know? And so I changed the story in my mind and I just decided that.
329
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Even though I can't do it the way I used to be able to do it, like it's not gonna look the same.
330
00:30:05,64.6056337 --> 00:30:06,564.6056337
It doesn't mean I can't do it.
331
00:30:06,564.6056337 --> 00:30:09,624.6056337
I can still show up and it's okay if it looks different.
332
00:30:09,624.6056337 --> 00:30:18,774.6056337
And so I really truly think that it was all in the stories that I told myself about what I was capable of and, and what that needed to look like.
333
00:30:19,134.6056337 --> 00:30:22,254.6056337
And, um, so then.
334
00:30:22,584.6056337 --> 00:30:27,444.6056337
Last year I through, I went through a really dark in 2023.
335
00:30:27,444.6056337 --> 00:30:29,694.6056337
It was a really bad year for me.
336
00:30:30,24.6056337 --> 00:30:34,404.6056337
And, um, through that I kind of came to a point where a couple things happened.
337
00:30:34,404.6056337 --> 00:30:39,684.6056337
I was in a bad spot and I pulled, uh, angel card and it said, when you're nervous, be of service.
338
00:30:40,374.6056337 --> 00:30:42,924.6056337
And I started going, oh.
339
00:30:43,554.6056337 --> 00:30:59,304.6056337
What can I do for the world? Like where I'm at right now? What can I do for the world? And of course I was, I was, I had my Reiki certification and my EFT certification, but I didn't have the confidence in myself because I had a brain injury and I believed that I couldn't do it.
340
00:30:59,754.6056337 --> 00:31:01,584.6056337
And so I.
341
00:31:02,79.6056337 --> 00:31:05,379.6056337
I started offering Reiki services.
342
00:31:05,379.6056337 --> 00:31:15,129.6056337
I started offering EFT services and I started seeing how me putting myself out there was affecting the world in this really positive way and affecting these people in this really positive way.
343
00:31:15,129.6056337 --> 00:31:23,979.6056337
And I started seeing when I believed in myself, how much it affected the world around me and how much effect I do have on the world around me.
344
00:31:24,399.6056337 --> 00:31:26,709.6056337
And so, um.
345
00:31:27,384.6056337 --> 00:31:45,594.6056337
I really think that it just all came down to the fact that I decided I couldn't, and then I just decided that I could, and I, I, and then I started doing all the things and, and they probably don't look like someone who doesn't have a brain injury, but they're amazing for me and I'm really excited about all of it.
346
00:31:46,104.6056337 --> 00:31:48,354.6056337
I hope that, yeah, yeah.
347
00:31:48,354.6056337 --> 00:31:50,94.6056337
No, no, that's, that's beautiful.
348
00:31:50,94.6056337 --> 00:31:50,754.6056337
That's beautiful.
349
00:31:51,324.6056337 --> 00:31:51,684.6056337
Yeah.
350
00:31:51,684.6056337 --> 00:31:52,284.6056337
So.
351
00:31:53,139.6056337 --> 00:32:07,539.6056337
I wanna go back and highlight EFT for anybody out there that's listening who didn't catch, uh, my podcast, uh, on EFT and manifestation, that's the emotional freedom technique or tapping.
352
00:32:07,839.6056337 --> 00:32:12,399.6056337
So if you are listening right now and you do not know what that is, check it out.
353
00:32:12,399.6056337 --> 00:32:18,849.6056337
It is such a beautiful nervous system healing tool and, uh, me and Kel are like deep, deep in it right now.
354
00:32:19,964.6056337 --> 00:32:25,934.6056337
With using it to like, I guess, brainwash ourselves in, in a lot of ways to having better lives.
355
00:32:25,934.6056337 --> 00:32:26,204.6056337
Right.
356
00:32:26,204.6056337 --> 00:32:27,944.6056337
To believing, to believing in ourselves.
357
00:32:27,944.6056337 --> 00:32:28,244.6056337
Yep.
358
00:32:28,364.6056337 --> 00:32:28,904.6056337
Yeah.
359
00:32:28,904.6056337 --> 00:32:29,414.6056337
Yeah.
360
00:32:29,414.6056337 --> 00:32:30,464.6056337
That's what I tell my husband.
361
00:32:30,464.6056337 --> 00:32:35,354.6056337
He like sees me like tapping in the morning and I'm like, I'm just over here brainwashing myself into becoming a millionaire.
362
00:32:35,504.6056337 --> 00:32:36,74.6056337
Don't mind me.
363
00:32:37,514.6056337 --> 00:32:37,574.6056337
Yeah.
364
00:32:38,324.6056337 --> 00:32:42,734.6056337
And thank you so much for bringing that up, because that was a really big part of my journey as well.
365
00:32:42,734.6056337 --> 00:32:48,734.6056337
And of course we hit 2020, um, and that was hard for, um, everybody.
366
00:32:49,4.6056337 --> 00:32:52,814.6056337
And so I discovered this.
367
00:32:52,814.6056337 --> 00:32:56,359.6056337
I, I actually was introduced to tapping when I was in my twenties, and it was.
368
00:32:56,699.6056337 --> 00:33:01,199.6056337
Ongoing joke in our family where I was like, tap it out, tap, tap, tap it out.
369
00:33:01,469.6056337 --> 00:33:04,109.6056337
And um, I used it in emergency situations.
370
00:33:04,109.6056337 --> 00:33:12,629.6056337
Like if I was having a panic attack, I would tap and I didn't realize what a powerful tool it was and I kind of got to this place where.
371
00:33:13,34.6056337 --> 00:33:19,814.6056337
Um, you know, I think I, you've maybe noticed like I'm not someone to give up on myself really easily, and I just, like, I didn't know what to do with myself.
372
00:33:19,814.6056337 --> 00:33:22,424.6056337
I was, you know, my marriage wasn't in a great place.
373
00:33:22,424.6056337 --> 00:33:31,394.6056337
I didn't, I, you know, I, I just struggled with the, with the seclusion and the thoughts that were going on in my mind and the stories in my mind.
374
00:33:31,754.6056337 --> 00:33:35,29.6056337
And so I went and took my EFT certification and it.
375
00:33:35,694.6056337 --> 00:33:37,344.6056337
Changed my life.
376
00:33:37,344.6056337 --> 00:33:40,134.6056337
Like, like that I would say, sorry, you asked that.
377
00:33:40,134.6056337 --> 00:33:41,844.6056337
And I, I kind of went all over the place.
378
00:33:42,84.6056337 --> 00:33:42,654.6056337
I took all that.
379
00:33:42,779.6056337 --> 00:33:43,599.6056337
No, no, it was perfect.
380
00:33:44,429.6056337 --> 00:33:51,324.6056337
That was, um, that was the, the number one catalyst for all of the change that happened in my life.
381
00:33:53,994.6056337 --> 00:33:54,924.6056337
That's awesome.
382
00:33:54,924.6056337 --> 00:33:55,464.6056337
Yeah.
383
00:33:55,824.6056337 --> 00:33:56,429.6056337
And you know.
384
00:33:57,99.6056337 --> 00:34:12,499.6056337
Combining the EFT with the manifestation, uh, like we're doing in this program we're in together has been such, um, like a boost to that because it's not just working with accepting what is, which is great, like it's.
385
00:34:12,799.6056337 --> 00:34:21,409.6056337
EFT is a beautiful tool for when you're having some kind of, like you said, like panic, some kind of stress, some kinda, you know, emergent situation.
386
00:34:21,589.6056337 --> 00:34:25,159.6056337
It can definitely be a resource to like pull you out of that.
387
00:34:25,489.6056337 --> 00:34:29,719.6056337
But then this next level of using it to actually.
388
00:34:30,59.6056337 --> 00:34:37,499.6056337
Stop level yourself to, to actually step into the next higher version of yourself is just so powerful.
389
00:34:37,709.6056337 --> 00:34:42,989.6056337
And when, when I learned about the work that Jocelyn Dawn, who is our mentor, is doing, I was just like.
390
00:34:43,539.6056337 --> 00:34:56,739.6056337
Oh my gosh, that is so cool like this, taking this nervous system tool and then using it to acclimate to the highest version of yourself and every day returning to that is just, is just so beautiful.
391
00:34:56,949.6056337 --> 00:34:59,524.6056337
Um, you've been working with Jocelyn longer than I have.
392
00:35:00,119.6056337 --> 00:35:12,899.6056337
So I know she, um, uses you like, as an example in a lot of our classes is like how much you have shifted, like the, the just massive upleveling you have done.
393
00:35:13,139.6056337 --> 00:35:17,549.6056337
Um, so yeah, no, we can totally go into that and, and, and talk about that a little.
394
00:35:18,384.6056337 --> 00:35:33,24.6056337
Yeah, the, it's just been so incredible and I think one of the things that, um, you know, with EFT that I think a lot of people don't realize, and like I know we learned about our nervous system in school, that like, that we had a nervous system and that it will go into fight or flight if you're in danger.
395
00:35:33,354.6056337 --> 00:35:38,844.6056337
Um, and what they didn't tell us was that, um, our nervous systems were designed like have not.
396
00:35:39,239.6056337 --> 00:35:49,79.6056337
Um, evolved since the caman days, and so our nervous system can't differentiate, um, a mean text from a saber tooth tiger.
397
00:35:49,409.6056337 --> 00:35:52,829.6056337
And so, you know, I was living in fight or flight.
398
00:35:52,829.6056337 --> 00:35:57,899.6056337
I, I had kind of like realized, oh, since the brain injury I had been living in fight or flight, and then I went, oh my God.
399
00:35:57,899.6056337 --> 00:36:02,729.6056337
Actually my whole life I've been living in fight or flight and I didn't even realize it.
400
00:36:02,879.6056337 --> 00:36:03,839.6056337
And I mean.
401
00:36:04,214.6056337 --> 00:36:07,874.6056337
Um, we don't like the nervous system.
402
00:36:07,874.6056337 --> 00:36:08,954.6056337
You think fight or flight.
403
00:36:08,954.6056337 --> 00:36:09,224.6056337
Okay.
404
00:36:09,224.6056337 --> 00:36:15,944.6056337
Like, I'm gonna get ready to fight you and you think you're gonna feel it? Well, we don't because that can show up as procrastination.
405
00:36:15,944.6056337 --> 00:36:17,744.6056337
It can show up as being tired.
406
00:36:17,744.6056337 --> 00:36:19,334.6056337
It can show up as yelling at your children.
407
00:36:19,334.6056337 --> 00:36:22,664.6056337
Like it can show up in so many ways that we don't realize.
408
00:36:22,694.6056337 --> 00:36:28,784.6056337
And so, um, like I think that everybody in the world should be doing EFT and especially with how.
409
00:36:29,364.6056337 --> 00:36:39,684.6056337
You know, I might be secluded, but I have the world at my fingertips on the line, on the line online, and um, I can see that, um.
410
00:36:40,974.6056337 --> 00:36:43,434.6056337
The world needs a nervous system reset.
411
00:36:43,434.6056337 --> 00:36:47,4.6056337
Like everybody is ah, really like wound up.
412
00:36:47,4.6056337 --> 00:36:47,874.6056337
And it's your fault.
413
00:36:47,874.6056337 --> 00:36:48,534.6056337
It's your fault.
414
00:36:49,44.6056337 --> 00:36:51,234.6056337
And like everybody's looking at to blame everyone else.
415
00:36:51,234.6056337 --> 00:36:57,504.6056337
And I mean, I think I was doing that too before I started tapping like, it's your fault 'cause you said this to me and it made me upset.
416
00:36:57,804.6056337 --> 00:37:03,444.6056337
Well really that was a trigger with me and I needed to look within myself to, um.
417
00:37:04,899.6056337 --> 00:37:06,429.6056337
You know, find that within me.
418
00:37:06,429.6056337 --> 00:37:14,319.6056337
And so, um, it's, it's incredible how many of us are walking around in fight or flight and don't even really realize it.
419
00:37:14,319.6056337 --> 00:37:21,879.6056337
And it's incredible how this tool can bring you back to like something sacred, something like that.
420
00:37:21,879.6056337 --> 00:37:26,19.6056337
We've forgotten something, um, like.
421
00:37:27,84.6056337 --> 00:37:39,834.6056337
Primal in us that like this connection to ourselves, this connection to like when we slow down enough, we can hear the world talking to us through, um.
422
00:37:40,839.6056337 --> 00:37:43,179.6056337
Through nature, through like everything.
423
00:37:43,209.6056337 --> 00:37:57,669.6056337
And um, yeah, like I just, I think it's maybe I should have an admission to like get, I know one of Jackie's mission is to like get EFT in the household of like every person because it's just such an incredible tool and it literally saved my life.
424
00:37:57,669.6056337 --> 00:38:06,939.6056337
Like I, I will go as far as to say it, it saved my life and I was having, um, um, issues with my cortisol.
425
00:38:07,254.6056337 --> 00:38:14,814.6056337
Which I think a lot of women are, because our bodies are not meant to be stressed out 24 7, and it's going to have a toll on us.
426
00:38:14,814.6056337 --> 00:38:17,274.6056337
Eventually, it's going to have an effect on us.
427
00:38:17,364.6056337 --> 00:38:21,954.6056337
And so my cortisol was so outta whack and the doctor wanted to put me on all this medicine.
428
00:38:21,954.6056337 --> 00:38:23,364.6056337
I said, just gimme five weeks.
429
00:38:23,754.6056337 --> 00:38:26,934.6056337
And I went in five weeks later, my cortisol was totally balanced out.
430
00:38:26,994.6056337 --> 00:38:35,784.6056337
So like it, it just, not only did it help my nervous system, it helped my body to actually feel safe again.
431
00:38:36,594.6056337 --> 00:38:43,584.6056337
Yeah, you're like 100% speaking my language right now, this is like my whole like, coaching business.
432
00:38:44,394.6056337 --> 00:38:51,504.6056337
It's just like all of what I do and I use, um, I use a lot of other tools and so EFT is actually a new tool for me.
433
00:38:51,534.6056337 --> 00:38:51,564.6056337
Oh.
434
00:38:52,104.6056337 --> 00:38:53,364.6056337
Um, so yeah.
435
00:38:53,364.6056337 --> 00:38:53,664.6056337
Yeah.
436
00:38:53,664.6056337 --> 00:38:56,664.6056337
I, uh, but it, there, I have a, a toolbox and it is like.
437
00:38:56,859.6056337 --> 00:39:00,129.6056337
Such a beautiful tool in that toolbox.
438
00:39:00,489.6056337 --> 00:39:01,689.6056337
Um, but, but yeah.
439
00:39:01,689.6056337 --> 00:39:08,919.6056337
Uh, going back to the, um, accountability, the self accountability, I think that that is another epidemic.
440
00:39:09,69.6056337 --> 00:39:20,289.6056337
We have an epidemic of, uh, women who are completely in, uh, their, uh, sympathetic nervous system, totally activated all the time, fight, flight, and there's also freeze and fawn.
441
00:39:21,479.6056337 --> 00:39:42,299.6056337
You know, so we're, we are living in this like hustle, stress culture all the time with all this pressure you talk about, like on the web, on social media, there's all this pressure to perform, there's all this pressure to have careers and to be out there in the world doing things, which is very new to the female nervous system.
442
00:39:42,859.6056337 --> 00:39:53,659.6056337
Like, if you talk about the tens of thousands of years that we've had a career, it was raising babies and caring for people and, uh, taking care of the home.
443
00:39:53,659.6056337 --> 00:40:07,579.6056337
And, you know, now all of a sudden being with other women being in sisterhood 100%, and now all of a sudden to have this like masculine structure in the last, you know.
444
00:40:07,974.6056337 --> 00:40:10,464.6056337
A hundred hun less than a hundred years.
445
00:40:10,464.6056337 --> 00:40:15,84.6056337
Really this pressure to perform in the workplace in that way.
446
00:40:15,84.6056337 --> 00:40:19,104.6056337
Like of course we're all, our cortisol is all outta whack.
447
00:40:19,104.6056337 --> 00:40:20,964.6056337
Like, so, so yeah.
448
00:40:20,964.6056337 --> 00:40:34,209.6056337
But the, the self-accountability part, you know, the really like, um, the, the taking inventory of what is going on for you and then taking radical responsibility for doing something about it.
449
00:40:35,289.6056337 --> 00:40:38,769.6056337
And that's what these tools like EFT really can do.
450
00:40:38,769.6056337 --> 00:40:41,439.6056337
Like they put the power back in your hands.
451
00:40:41,589.6056337 --> 00:40:48,759.6056337
And so that is like my big mission in life is also to give these tools to women because.
452
00:40:49,794.6056337 --> 00:40:50,124.6056337
Yep.
453
00:40:50,184.6056337 --> 00:40:50,484.6056337
Yeah.
454
00:40:50,514.6056337 --> 00:40:56,424.6056337
'cause we, we can change this paradigm and it doesn't mean you have to leave the workforce.
455
00:40:56,454.6056337 --> 00:41:05,934.6056337
Um, of course, you know, like, uh, you, you left the corporate world, you left a career that was not aligned with you, and now you are stepping.
456
00:41:06,99.6056337 --> 00:41:10,689.6056337
Into a career or have been stepping into this career that is aligned.
457
00:41:10,689.6056337 --> 00:41:18,549.6056337
So it's not to say that, you know, women should stay home and cook and clean and raise babies, and that's all we can do because obviously that's not what I'm doing.
458
00:41:21,609.6056337 --> 00:41:27,489.6056337
Um, so, so yeah, we can be in, in the world and doing these things, but to regulate your nervous.
459
00:41:27,489.6056337 --> 00:41:34,324.6056337
System and to be able to come back in to balance in that way is just so, so, so important.
460
00:41:34,654.6056337 --> 00:41:39,844.6056337
So that actually like dovetails we're, I know we're getting like close to the end, like, and close to our hour.
461
00:41:39,844.6056337 --> 00:41:40,924.6056337
It always goes by so fast.
462
00:41:41,134.6056337 --> 00:41:48,664.6056337
That dovetails into, um, kind of the last thing I really wanted you to talk about, which is what the work you are doing.
463
00:41:48,724.6056337 --> 00:41:49,414.6056337
Um.
464
00:41:49,609.6056337 --> 00:41:50,299.6056337
Right now.
465
00:41:50,299.6056337 --> 00:42:04,459.6056337
And I, I wanted to, you, you had, uh, something that you said in your intake form, which was that you call yourself a midwife of modern metamorphosis, and I thought that that was just so beautiful and so in line with this podcast.
466
00:42:04,459.6056337 --> 00:42:15,79.6056337
So I, I wanted to to ask you like, how, how you are now working with women and then also what your mission is with your podcast again.
467
00:42:15,319.6056337 --> 00:42:18,409.6056337
Um, so yeah, if you could just kinda kind of touch on where you're at today.
468
00:42:18,464.6056337 --> 00:42:20,204.6056337
We are definitely gonna do that.
469
00:42:20,204.6056337 --> 00:42:31,959.6056337
And I wanna just go back and say, could you imagine if you were only raising kids and like you weren't out living your highest best life, how much the world would miss out on your magic? Yeah.
470
00:42:32,384.6056337 --> 00:42:32,774.6056337
Yeah.
471
00:42:33,14.6056337 --> 00:42:34,394.6056337
I, it's like so twofold.
472
00:42:34,394.6056337 --> 00:42:41,144.6056337
'cause like I think that my number one mission here on this earth is to raise.
473
00:42:41,499.6056337 --> 00:43:01,659.6056337
The generation after us that is gonna be so much more awesome than us, right? I wanna raise the next generation of leaders and visionaries and people that are like comfortable in their skin and know how to regulate and aren't like these bags of trauma that have to fix themselves, which let's be for real, like our generation.
474
00:43:02,739.6056337 --> 00:43:04,659.6056337
And the generation after us.
475
00:43:05,79.6056337 --> 00:43:12,369.6056337
Um, yeah, we, you know, got come in with a lot of stuff, a lot of baggage, I'll just say.
476
00:43:12,459.6056337 --> 00:43:20,109.6056337
And so we're having to like relearn, but I want to raise this generation and that's why I run homeschool co-ops.
477
00:43:20,109.6056337 --> 00:43:23,109.6056337
That's why I'm so active in like my community with children.
478
00:43:23,289.6056337 --> 00:43:27,759.6056337
Not only just raising my own five children, but I, I want to.
479
00:43:27,964.6056337 --> 00:43:44,914.6056337
Give the world a generation of people who are actually able to use their full potential and um, are connected to the people and the earth and, you know, uh, spirit and all of that so that, you know, it's like soup.
480
00:43:44,914.6056337 --> 00:43:47,734.6056337
So if I just had to do one thing, that would be the one thing.
481
00:43:47,734.6056337 --> 00:43:48,629.6056337
I love it, but.
482
00:43:50,529.6056337 --> 00:43:57,9.6056337
Is that the only thing I wanna do? No, I definitely have so much more besides that to give.
483
00:43:57,9.6056337 --> 00:43:58,269.6056337
So, so, yes.
484
00:43:58,269.6056337 --> 00:43:59,199.6056337
Yeah, I love that.
485
00:43:59,274.6056337 --> 00:44:14,289.6056337
And, and it's like, um, I think I read this thing one time that said like, teaching the kids nervous of some work and how to feel their emotions is crime prevention and um, you know, like drug control and like, whatever, because um.
486
00:44:15,729.6056337 --> 00:44:22,959.6056337
They're hopefully not gonna be, um, doing the things we did to dull out our emotions because we were taught that we cannot have big emotions.
487
00:44:22,959.6056337 --> 00:44:26,949.6056337
And if you're going to, you have to go to your room and deal with it on your own and you're too much.
488
00:44:26,949.6056337 --> 00:44:28,989.6056337
And like it was, it was, yeah, it was really intense.
489
00:44:28,989.6056337 --> 00:44:35,139.6056337
So, so, um, that's one thing I wanna teach women is to like, how to take their power back.
490
00:44:35,139.6056337 --> 00:44:35,529.6056337
And so.
491
00:44:35,964.6056337 --> 00:44:41,664.6056337
I know, like I used to be the type of person that was like, um, you know, you made me so angry 'cause you did that.
492
00:44:41,994.6056337 --> 00:44:46,764.6056337
Well, you know, now I'm the type of person that I realize, like I'm, I'm feeling anger.
493
00:44:46,944.6056337 --> 00:44:50,334.6056337
Like it's not that you made me like, and um.
494
00:44:50,949.6056337 --> 00:44:59,349.6056337
So I am an EFT practitioner and I work with women and I have, I do work with men.
495
00:44:59,349.6056337 --> 00:45:01,179.6056337
I find women.
496
00:45:01,269.6056337 --> 00:45:12,669.6056337
Um, I find that women are more apt to do the work and put the effort in, and so I do really love working with women, although I work with men as well.
497
00:45:12,984.6056337 --> 00:45:29,514.6056337
And so I'm a, I call myself like an intuitive EFT practitioner where, um, I work with women, but I also use my intuition and I also have some tools that we, you know, the tapping but also some somatic, um, dancing and that kind of stuff.
498
00:45:29,904.6056337 --> 00:45:30,414.6056337
I am.
499
00:45:32,679.6056337 --> 00:45:36,609.6056337
Um, really as, you know, passionate about doing the things anyway.
500
00:45:36,609.6056337 --> 00:45:49,59.6056337
And so I know that a lot of people in this world have these dreams and they don't do them because while they were told that you're supposed to get married and have kids and go to college and dah, dah, dah, and, and that dream was not a part of that.
501
00:45:49,449.6056337 --> 00:45:52,389.6056337
Um, and also that they're scared of what people are gonna think.
502
00:45:52,389.6056337 --> 00:46:00,549.6056337
Like, I, I think a lot of women are really terrified of what people are gonna think of them because we are taught from a young age to look outside of us.
503
00:46:00,549.6056337 --> 00:46:01,569.6056337
For approval.
504
00:46:01,569.6056337 --> 00:46:06,429.6056337
I mean, we get stars on a chart in school if we're, and so we're looking outside of us.
505
00:46:06,429.6056337 --> 00:46:08,199.6056337
We're taught to look outside of us for this.
506
00:46:08,199.6056337 --> 00:46:18,939.6056337
Like, is this okay with you? Like we're taught to ask, is that okay with you? Is that okay with you? But we're not taught to ask, is this okay with me? And so, um, I want women to.
507
00:46:19,794.6056337 --> 00:46:27,504.6056337
Get their power back to connect in with themselves, to feel all of their emotions, uh, to fall madly in love with themselves.
508
00:46:27,864.6056337 --> 00:46:30,744.6056337
And I also do, uh, reiki.
509
00:46:30,744.6056337 --> 00:46:38,814.6056337
I'm a reiki practitioner and I am in a course right now, um, to become.
510
00:46:40,74.6056337 --> 00:46:51,744.6056337
This, I'm working in this course, uh, to, for more healing, which I, I won't go deeper into it right now, but I'm really excited about that and I'm gonna be offering, um, online healings in probably about two months.
511
00:46:52,164.6056337 --> 00:46:58,794.6056337
And, um, I just wanna be here to support women to become like the highest, best versions of themselves.
512
00:46:58,879.6056337 --> 00:47:03,294.6056337
And two, um, I really wanna teach women that they don't have to.
513
00:47:04,9.6056337 --> 00:47:10,669.6056337
They'll have to live with the program that they've been given, that they can rewrite their story anytime they want to, and they get to choose the story.
514
00:47:11,769.6056337 --> 00:47:34,449.6056337
Speaking of stories, we haven't touched on your books and you know, I'm, I'm, I'm not exactly sure when this is coming out, and so I don't know if they will be published at that point or not, but do you wanna touch on that? 'cause I know that that is been a, a big deal for you, so, uh, you're soon to be published author as well.
515
00:47:34,839.6056337 --> 00:47:35,199.6056337
Yeah.
516
00:47:35,199.6056337 --> 00:47:35,679.6056337
Thank you.
517
00:47:35,679.6056337 --> 00:47:38,529.6056337
I am, I am like so over the moon excited about this.
518
00:47:38,529.6056337 --> 00:47:47,229.6056337
And it's one of those things where, um, you know, this is also the work that we do is I was like, one day I'm gonna, one day I, one day I was like this one day person.
519
00:47:47,229.6056337 --> 00:47:49,449.6056337
And, and I always thought one day I would write a book.
520
00:47:49,449.6056337 --> 00:47:50,889.6056337
And this is not, I didn't write the book.
521
00:47:50,889.6056337 --> 00:47:52,179.6056337
I thought I was gonna write.
522
00:47:52,479.6056337 --> 00:47:53,19.6056337
Um.
523
00:47:53,764.6056337 --> 00:47:54,814.6056337
I always had that dream.
524
00:47:54,814.6056337 --> 00:48:00,454.6056337
One day I'm gonna write a book, and then when I hit my head, I decided I can't, I can't write anymore.
525
00:48:00,784.6056337 --> 00:48:10,594.6056337
And then, um, through the tapping experience and through, um, some various programs with Jocelyn Dawn, who's amazing, I highly recommend checking her out.
526
00:48:10,924.6056337 --> 00:48:12,424.6056337
Um, I.
527
00:48:12,849.6056337 --> 00:48:15,849.6056337
Um, look, I don't even understand how this came.
528
00:48:15,904.6056337 --> 00:48:19,869.6056337
I, I actually feel like this was, I don't feel like I wrote these books.
529
00:48:19,869.6056337 --> 00:48:26,109.6056337
I feel like God Source Energy wrote these books and like used me as a conduit to get them out into the world.
530
00:48:26,199.6056337 --> 00:48:35,439.6056337
And so, um, the Sacred Earth Book, and I don't know when they're coming out either, so it's editing a big, i writing a book is a big deal and it's taken a while.
531
00:48:35,769.6056337 --> 00:48:38,509.6056337
Um, but The Sacred Earth Book has a workbook with it.
532
00:48:39,84.6056337 --> 00:48:42,294.6056337
I'm hoping to, to write a, do a program on this.
533
00:48:42,294.6056337 --> 00:48:54,654.6056337
And it is an invitation, so the premise of it, um, I have it up there is, um, the only way out is in, and so it's about turning in towards for everything and going, returning to yourself.
534
00:48:54,799.6056337 --> 00:49:06,649.6056337
Again and again and, and some ideas of what the work might look like and why doing the work, which the work is not work, but what we call tapping and meditating and stuff.
535
00:49:06,649.6056337 --> 00:49:13,789.6056337
And, and so that, I'm really excited about that one coming out and I was a little bit unsure 'cause of course I'd never written a book before and I.
536
00:49:14,99.6056337 --> 00:49:22,799.6056337
Was in this, when I had my second concussion, I was in this bad place and I was editing and I had to edit my book and it actually helped me through what I was going through.
537
00:49:22,799.6056337 --> 00:49:24,869.6056337
So I was like, oh my God, this is incredible.
538
00:49:25,499.6056337 --> 00:49:28,559.6056337
And then I wrote a kid's book as well, which is gonna be coming out.
539
00:49:28,589.6056337 --> 00:49:35,399.6056337
And um, I see it being in libraries and stuff because it's called, um, chase and Auntie's Big Spring Break Adventure.
540
00:49:35,429.6056337 --> 00:49:37,169.6056337
'cause my friend is a single mom.
541
00:49:37,944.6056337 --> 00:49:49,554.6056337
And I went up to hang out with my nephew for spring break and we learned about science and we learned about, um, like encouraging people and we learned about problem solving and I wrote a book about it, a kid's book, and it's incredible.
542
00:49:50,154.6056337 --> 00:49:52,974.6056337
And then, um, I, I played about the sun will rise when it rises.
543
00:49:52,974.6056337 --> 00:49:56,844.6056337
I went out to Sun Gaze and I was, I thought I had timed it perfectly.
544
00:49:56,844.6056337 --> 00:49:59,124.6056337
I went out to Sun Gaze and the sun didn't come up.
545
00:49:59,124.6056337 --> 00:50:05,934.6056337
And so I actually like turned around to go back inside and something in me went, what are you doing? You know the sun is going to rise.
546
00:50:06,449.6056337 --> 00:50:11,339.6056337
And, and then this book came of it and it's about slowing down.
547
00:50:11,339.6056337 --> 00:50:28,49.6056337
And like that nature doesn't rush, but we like, and so like we are all just rushing to get there, like get where dead, like what's the hurry? So, um, it's this, it's an invitation to slow down and, and, um, these books have been infused with my light and my energy.
548
00:50:28,49.6056337 --> 00:50:32,369.6056337
And so everybody that reads these books will receive some sort of.
549
00:50:34,479.6056337 --> 00:50:39,99.6056337
Light ignition of the light within them, and I'm, I'm really excited, so thank you.
550
00:50:39,99.6056337 --> 00:50:43,989.6056337
I'm, I'm really excited about them and getting them out into the world and I can't wait and it's taking forever.
551
00:50:46,989.6056337 --> 00:50:49,179.6056337
Maybe you should go back and read the third book.
552
00:50:53,529.6056337 --> 00:50:54,99.6056337
You're right.
553
00:50:54,309.6056337 --> 00:50:54,879.6056337
I totally should.
554
00:50:59,169.6056337 --> 00:51:08,139.6056337
Oh, well, just to wrap this up, I, I want to hear a little bit about your podcast, and I know it's a, it's a baby podcast, right? You've just.
555
00:51:08,284.6056337 --> 00:51:11,404.6056337
You just got started and I hope that you'll have me on.
556
00:51:11,884.6056337 --> 00:51:15,154.6056337
Um, because you know, the, the do it, do it anyways.
557
00:51:15,154.6056337 --> 00:51:17,434.6056337
Like that has been my story as well.
558
00:51:17,434.6056337 --> 00:51:27,334.6056337
It's like, yeah, but you have all these kids and like, yeah, but I'm, I can start a business even though I have five kids in a homeschooling co-op and I run a not-for-profit.
559
00:51:28,349.6056337 --> 00:51:30,784.6056337
I'm gonna do it anyways, so, yeah.
560
00:51:31,864.6056337 --> 00:51:32,224.6056337
Yes.
561
00:51:32,224.6056337 --> 00:51:32,234.6056337
Yeah.
562
00:51:32,234.6056337 --> 00:51:37,744.6056337
So I, and that is just embodies the whole concept of the podcast and I think, um.
563
00:51:37,889.6056337 --> 00:51:40,709.6056337
So, yeah, this, this podcast had been a dream of mine.
564
00:51:40,709.6056337 --> 00:51:45,659.6056337
I mean, when I was 14, I, I wanted to be on video and doing something like this.
565
00:51:45,659.6056337 --> 00:51:47,459.6056337
And again, I had decided that I couldn't.
566
00:51:47,459.6056337 --> 00:51:51,929.6056337
And then through writing books, I realized like I can actually do big things.
567
00:51:52,319.6056337 --> 00:52:00,899.6056337
And so I decided to start the podcast and it was really scary because there is a bit of a disconnect with what's going on in here and what's coming out of here.
568
00:52:01,319.6056337 --> 00:52:04,559.6056337
And, um, but the whole purpose of it is.
569
00:52:04,559.6056337 --> 00:52:09,414.6056337
To remind people that we can do big things and, and we can do them now.
570
00:52:09,414.6056337 --> 00:52:10,404.6056337
We don't have to wait.
571
00:52:10,404.6056337 --> 00:52:17,874.6056337
You know, I, I, I didn't, um, I was doing this on my phone, like I'm still doing it in my, in my notes.
572
00:52:17,874.6056337 --> 00:52:19,524.6056337
I don't have any fancy gear.
573
00:52:19,524.6056337 --> 00:52:20,694.6056337
I don't have any equipment.
574
00:52:20,904.6056337 --> 00:52:23,4.6056337
Um, I can't show up consistently.
575
00:52:23,334.6056337 --> 00:52:29,904.6056337
And, um, and so like in the past, these things would stop me and I decided, you know what? I'm just gonna do it anyway.
576
00:52:29,904.6056337 --> 00:52:30,744.6056337
And so.
577
00:52:31,54.6056337 --> 00:52:45,664.6056337
Um, the whole point of the podcast is to encourage people, um, to do the things that they wanna do, to do, live the dreams, to, um, and again, I say on there that perfection is not a prerequisite for purpose.
578
00:52:45,934.6056337 --> 00:52:49,594.6056337
And I encourage people to do the things, even if they're not gonna be perfect at it.
579
00:52:49,774.6056337 --> 00:52:51,904.6056337
For example, I love to sing.
580
00:52:52,264.6056337 --> 00:52:53,704.6056337
I love singing karaoke.
581
00:52:53,704.6056337 --> 00:52:56,584.6056337
I could not carry a tune if it were in a bucket.
582
00:52:57,184.6056337 --> 00:53:00,334.6056337
I, people do not like to hear me, but I do it anyway.
583
00:53:00,334.6056337 --> 00:53:05,674.6056337
I go out to karaoke, I sing, I blast my karaoke here, and I do it anyway, even though I'm not good at it.
584
00:53:06,64.6056337 --> 00:53:07,594.6056337
And I put myself out there.
585
00:53:07,594.6056337 --> 00:53:15,244.6056337
And even though I'm not good at it, and I just hope that other people can see this and know that they're more powerful than they think they are.
586
00:53:15,364.6056337 --> 00:53:19,144.6056337
They're more capable than they think they are, and they can in fact do the big things.
587
00:53:19,144.6056337 --> 00:53:20,854.6056337
And it doesn't matter if it's perfect.
588
00:53:21,624.6056337 --> 00:53:22,884.6056337
And I would love to have you on there.
589
00:53:22,884.6056337 --> 00:53:23,424.6056337
I can't wait.
590
00:53:25,344.6056337 --> 00:53:26,634.6056337
That, that was beautiful.
591
00:53:26,634.6056337 --> 00:53:29,694.6056337
That is a, a beautiful, perfect way to wrap up.
592
00:53:29,694.6056337 --> 00:53:32,814.6056337
And I will link to everything, uh, in the show notes.
593
00:53:32,814.6056337 --> 00:53:42,174.6056337
So anybody out there that's listening that wants to, if you have a healing story, a do it anyway story and come on Kelsey's podcast, there'll be a link to get in touch with her about that.
594
00:53:42,504.6056337 --> 00:53:43,114.6056337
A link to the.
595
00:53:43,334.6056337 --> 00:53:51,344.6056337
Books if we have like a, a release, uh, or a page or something, hopefully I can always go back in and update it and add it later too.
596
00:53:51,704.6056337 --> 00:53:53,954.6056337
Um, and Ali to work with you.
597
00:53:53,984.6056337 --> 00:54:08,24.6056337
Uh, before we go though, is there any, any words of encouragement, any words that you would want to leave for a woman that is listening? Um.
598
00:54:08,589.6056337 --> 00:54:14,229.6056337
Anything you feel called, anything that wants to come through you, uh, message to my audience.
599
00:54:15,339.6056337 --> 00:54:15,699.6056337
Yeah.
600
00:54:15,699.6056337 --> 00:54:27,729.6056337
You know, the thing that comes to my mind right away is this John Milton quote that I absolutely love, and it is that the mind is in its own place and it can make a hell of a heaven or a heaven of a hell.
601
00:54:28,239.6056337 --> 00:54:30,579.6056337
Um, and then it was some Burke that said it can.
602
00:54:31,194.6056337 --> 00:54:35,94.6056337
It can create the most sublime happiness for its owner or destroy him.
603
00:54:35,574.6056337 --> 00:54:45,54.6056337
And I think that if you're struggling in life right now, and I just want you to know that it's not too late to change your story.
604
00:54:45,594.6056337 --> 00:54:49,224.6056337
And if I can do it, you can do it too.
605
00:54:51,864.6056337 --> 00:54:52,734.6056337
Amazing.
606
00:54:52,734.6056337 --> 00:54:53,484.6056337
Perfect.
607
00:54:53,604.6056337 --> 00:54:55,104.6056337
Thank you so much for coming on.
608
00:54:55,104.6056337 --> 00:54:56,334.6056337
This was so much fun.
609
00:54:56,694.6056337 --> 00:54:59,349.6056337
And it wasn't scary at all, was it? Not at all.
610
00:55:00,414.6056337 --> 00:55:01,344.6056337
You did it anyways.
611
00:55:04,524.6056337 --> 00:55:12,444.6056337
Uh, well thank you so much and I can't wait to see you very, very soon, I'm sure in one of our manifestation programs.
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Hello, hello, hello and welcome back to the Ecstatic Life Podcast.
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I am host Nicole Goff, and today my guest is Kelty Jean author, podcast host and a woman who refuses to let life's plot twists have the final say.
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After a traumatic snowboarding accident and brain injury forced her out of the corporate world, she was initiated into a deep reckoning with identity healing and the wisdom of the body through marriage, farming, menopause.
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PTSD.
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Yet even another concussion.
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Yes.
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Life really kept testing her.
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Kel Jean kept choosing to rise, to listen and to create meaning from the mess.
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She's now an EFT practitioner, a nervous system guide, and the voice behind the Do It Anyway podcast, and she's here to remind us that joy, purpose, and aliveness aren't postponed.
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They're practiced.
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Welcome, Kelt.
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How are you today? Oh my gosh, I'm so good.
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And, uh, thank you so much for having me here.
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Ah, this has been, uh, this has been in the works for a little while and I am super excited to finally have you on.
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Uh, a little backstory for the audience.
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We are in a manifestation program together and um, that has been such a fun ride.
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The last.
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Couple of months.
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It's been like a full season.
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It was like through all the holidays and we're showing up like two days a week.
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And in fact, I think we're in like three different programs together right now, but showing up like two, three days a week through all the.
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Holiday chaos to like manifest our dream lives together.
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And so, uh, when I found out that you were doing a podcast also, I was like, oh man, we, we have to swap.
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So, um, I super excited to finally have you in the, uh, the, the hot seat.
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No, no pressure.
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I'm so excited to be here.
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And it's, and it's interesting 'cause I feel like the life that we live online is like my real life and the life that's going on around me is like, just like this non, um, like this what part that doesn't even really matter.
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And so I just, I love being here with you and with these women that are so supportive and well, so you are actually kind of like isolated in the winter, right? So we are like worlds apart.
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And as far as that goes, I'm here in Florida and it, it gets, like, I'm, I'm in a sweater.
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It gets kind of cold here in North Florida, but like you're kind of like isolated in the snow on a farm right now.
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Right? So.
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Yeah, so these online interactions are like most of the interactions, these are my social life, they're my little nuggets of gold throughout the day.
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And, uh, my sanity through this cold, um, slow winter in Canada.
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So, um, I think we have another, uh, thing in common where you are hoping to get to, uh, a, a tropical location in the near future as well, right? Yes.
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Last in Canada are getting the older you get the tougher it is.
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And you know, it's funny 'cause I used to make fun of the snowbirds and I was always like, I will never be one of them.
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And it just goes to show that we're allowed to change.
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And now I am really excited to be one of them and to leave for at least two months every winter, um, to like the sun somewhere warm because it, it, it's challenging.
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I can imagine.
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I, I can only imagine because I've actually literally never seen snow.
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Oh my god, I couldn't even imagine.
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I'm like truly a Florida girl.
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Um, so, so yeah, that's like a whole world that I know nothing about and I'm pretty sure I'd probably freeze to death.
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Um, yeah, I don't think I even like own anything that could withstand snow.
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So, um, I just kind of wanted to like open up with kind of like your, your backstory.
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So we touched on it in that introduction.
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Um, but if you could just kind of give me, uh, a little overview of like what brought you here.
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Like how, how, how did life bring you to this point? Okay.
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Well this is a really interesting story and, um.
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Uh, you know, it probably starts quite a bit younger, but I'm gonna go back to, uh, about 2000.
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No, I'm gonna go back even further.
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So I, my dad ended up passing away when I was in my twenties.
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And I, I couldn't be here anymore because everything reminded me of my dad.
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And so I decided I'm going on an adventure.
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I'm gonna go live my life.
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And I went to the city and I enjoyed it and it was great and it was real, um, fun at first and I.
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Um, got into the programming of, you know, this is what you do.
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You go to school, you get a job, you work there until you retire, and then, and then you can live your life.
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And so I was doing all the things I was supposed to be doing.
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I was working downtown Calgary.
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And it never felt like me.
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I, I, I always was like, there's something else.
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Like, this isn't me.
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I know this is who I was told to be, but it, it never felt like me.
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It never felt comfortable.
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And so I decided I'm gonna leave the city and go back to the country.
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And I told my grandpa that and he said to me, oh no, Kel, this is your life now.
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You got a good job with the government.
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You need to stay here and.
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And work until you retire and then you're, when you retire, you know, then you can live your life.
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And from previous experiences that I had, I realized this was not, this was not me.
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And so I left, I, I'm actually.
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Um, sadly what happened was my grandparents were in a car accident.
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Um, the gentleman I was dating, his dad had cancer.
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He ended up dying in my house a week after my grandparents were in a car accident.
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And then I lost, I was pregnant and I had a miscarriage and lost my baby.
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And I decided after that, like, I'm going back to the country.
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This is not the life for me.
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So I had, I finally had the courage to leave and go back to the country.
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And so the goal was to take a year off and figure out like what it is that I actually wanted to do with my life because I knew this wasn't what I was supposed to be doing with my life.
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Life has a way of sort of giving you, um, autopilot where you just kind of keep going.
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And I was so programmed that this is the life that you live.
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And I ended up dating this guy who wanted to be with a successful woman.
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And in my mind a success meant a nine to five.
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And so I went back into the corporate world and I started out as a casual.
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Because I'm incredible and magnificent.
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I worked my way up and all of a sudden I was the boss.
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I was like the executive assistant to the director of Human Resources and instruction.
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I was working 6:00 AM to 6:00 PM I was taking my work home with me and data inputting in the evening times and living for the weekends where I could like go for a hike and finally be me.
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And so I was at work and I was daydreaming of the life I live now, and I, I, like, I swear I manifested this, um, not in the form, but I was like dreaming of just doing whatever I wanted, going for a walk like.
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Doing something different, helping people.
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And so, uh, then one day I was out, uh, snowboarding and I could have stopped and got my helmet.
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I could have went five minutes outta my way and got my helmet and I decided I'm not going to because I never fall and.
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That cha I did.
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I fell and it changed the whole direct tra trajectory of my life.
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And yet I think that it happened for me, not to me, because I didn't want to work in the corporate world.
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That wasn't me.
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And if I would have not got the brain injury, I would've stayed there forever.
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And so I'm super grateful that it happened and uh, there's been a lot of challenges, but that kind of is.
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Where, how I ended up where I am now.
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Um, the, the brain injury did that.
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Sever the relationship you were in that got you into that corporate world, or were you still in that relationship? Um, so I was getting out of that relationship at the time, so we were kind of like, we were engaged, um, and it just wasn't.
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I think maybe we had split up, but we were still secretly like seeing each other and, and we were, we were very, um, and, and that's another thing that if I had to hit my head, I wouldn't have had the courage to walk away from that man, because I was, I was previous to the person I am now somebody who.
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Believed that my worth was in how much a man loved me or how much attention I could get from a man, like that kind of thing.
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And I would've never walked away no matter how bad or toxic it was for me.
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That person as awesome and great as she was, would've never walked away.
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So again, it's one of those things that happened for me and not to me, and I couldn't really see it at first, but looking back, our mentor always says, the dots line up looking back and I can see how.
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This has happened for me and it put me on a life, like a trajectory of a life that I want to live like where I want to be.
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And so, yeah.
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You know, some, sometimes we ask for things and it's like, uh, we expect this to be like handed on a nice little neat platter and instead we're like, smacked by rock in the head or something like that.
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Wake up.
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Yes, yes.
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But as you said, like you were, you were living in what sounded like, um.
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Automation you were, you were headed down this path that you thought you were supposed to.
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I use air quotes, quote unquote, supposed to live, and you were with a man that you thought you had to be this inauthentic version of yourself to be with.
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And so, you know, sometimes it really does take a massive shaking to really wake us up out of that dream.
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And it's like.
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The comparison of the slow death of your soul, of your passion, of your aliveness, what makes you, you compared to the trauma and drama and hardship that was caused by that brain injury? Looking back, um, which would you choose? I, I wouldn't change it for the world.
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I, I love the person I am and I mean, like, yeah, there was some challenges and some really hard and really dark times.
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Uh, but like now, like everything that happened brought me to here and I am this incredible.
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Um, just spiritual being, having this human experience and, and I love who I am.
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I love who I'm becoming, and I wouldn't, I wouldn't change it for the world.
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That's, that's beautiful.
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And I feel the same way, you know, and I feel like that is an echoing of most of the women who I have on the podcast.
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You know, these, these, um, these things that at the time seem so terrible can be our.
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Best and biggest teachers really.
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And I, I wanna go, I wanna go back and highlight, so the, the loss of your father and then subsequently the loss of the baby and the loss of your grandparents, and in an accident at the same time too.
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I mean, just to say like, that's tragic and I'm so sorry, but how, how did this grief shape you? How did working through this shape, you, you had said in your intake that you are the happiest, sad person that you will ever meet.
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So can you kind of touch on the, on the way that, that, that loss and grief also shaped how you see the world today? Yeah, and I think that that's kind of almost two things as well.
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And so I'm gonna go back just a little bit further in that I was saying that I'm the happiest, sad person that you'll ever meet.
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I grew up with premenstrual dysphoric disorder.
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And so as soon as I started menstruating, I became this different person where I had two good weeks of the month and two bad weeks.
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And when I say bad weeks, I mean like dysphoric.
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Like I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.
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Um, it was horrible.
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And so kind of two things happened there.
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First of all, with the PMDD at such a young age, I realized like.
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I only have, can't get a little emotional.
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I only have half the time that other women have.
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Because they, you know, would maybe get PMS for a couple of days, but I had two weeks of every month that was a write off.
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And so I was like, if I'm gonna have half the time that everybody else has, I'm gonna have to be double as joyful or like double as alive, double as living in the good days that I have.
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And so there was that, um, where I was like determined to find joy in the days that I could.
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And then I think what happened was when my dad died, um, watching my dad, I mean, he was a, he was a hard, hard worker and, um.
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Like, it was also challenging to live with them because it was like, there is work to be done.
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Like we weren't allowed to go have fun.
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There was work.
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Like he was a hard, hard worker.
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And so, um, but he planned on having fun.
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He planned on retiring and then going to see the Grand Canyon and going to travel and do this and going to Scotland and doing all of these things.
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And he worked so hard.
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He had this intention of when he was done working, he was gonna do those things.
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Um, he died.
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He turned 65 in November.
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He died on Christmas Eve.
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He had one retirement check and he didn't even cash it.
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It was sitting on the side of the, we had phones back then that connected to the wall.
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It was sitting beside the phone.
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And, um, he didn't even, he didn't even cash his retirement check.
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That's what he was living for.
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He was living to retire.
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Like he was working to have that life.
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And so when he died and didn't get to do any of the things that he wanted to do, I was like, I am not going to be that person.
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I will not spend my life, um.
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I didn't realize how, like, how like this is obviously like really in me.
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Like I am not gonna spend my life working for other people, doing things for other people, not being in joy, not being in happiness, only to.
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Maybe if I'm lucky enough to survive all the poison that I'm eating and all the garbage going into my brain and all of the, the crap.
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Like maybe if I'm lucky enough to survive that maybe I can enjoy my life for a little while like that.
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That is not me.
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That is not what I came here to this earth to do, and it is not how I'm going to live.
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And so again, even just with grandma and grandpa, they were healthy.
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They were.
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Um, they were one of them, grandpa was going to go to Barbados, I think the following week, and my grandma was gonna be going off to Africa or somewhere and um, and they were in that car accident together and.
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And again, I we're like, life is short.
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We don't know what's gonna happen.
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My boyfriend's dad getting cancer and brain tumors and losing the baby.
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I mean, all I ever wanted to do growing up was be a mom.
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And I realized, you know, after I miscarried that, like that's prob maybe not gonna happen.
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What else can I do? How else can I find joy? How can I live my life to the fullest? And so, yeah, that, uh, losing those people and, and going through that pain and that, um, and seeing how, uh, also how other people acted when they lost people.
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How, like, my world is over now.
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I don't ever want my world to be over because somebody else I love.
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It's gone.
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If someone else, I love leaves and then it makes me wanna live my life harder.
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So that's kind of where I got to where I am today.
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Well, what a gift that your father actually gave you though, in that, you know, what a, what a gift to, to show you because, you know.
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You were on that path, you were headed down that path to, to recreate and do the exact same thing.
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And so yeah, what what a, what a gift to be able to see that.
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And yes, it's tragic and of course like of course there's so much grief, but to be able to see that other side of it that I'm gonna live.
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Write fricking now and live in this moment and not postpone happiness because we're not guaranteed retirement, we're not guaranteed tomorrow.
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So yeah, that's, that's so in line too with the mission with this podcast too, with ecstatic life.
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To really to live every moment.
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And that doesn't mean to just, you know, throw all caution to the wind and just do whatever and be totally, uh, chaotic and, um, uh, hedonistic.
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That's the word I was thinking of, you know? Um, but to to be here, to be present, to be here for your life, and to be doing what you love now.
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Not doing something that you hate day after day.
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And I mean, let's be for real a career that's, that is the majority of your life when you are doing it.
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Like you said, you're working, you know, what'd you say? 6:00 AM to 6:00 PM And taking home work to do out of that 12 hours like that is almost your entire life when you're in it.
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And to be dedicating that much of your life to something that is like killing your soul.
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Yeah.
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And I think even for me, like one of the things that really gets me on that is we are asked at five years old, what do you wanna be when you grow up? And like we're supposed to decide one thing and do that one thing for the rest of our lives.
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Like I am a multifaceted being.
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I didn't come here to do one thing.
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I came here to do it all.
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I wanna experience all of it.
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I wanna do a little bit of this and a little bit of that.
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And so I feel like.
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Um, getting, getting, getting into a career is like asking someone to decide who you are at a young age and stick to that person and don't change.
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And, and, um, I, that's another thing about this world is that yeah, I find that we're told to decide who we wanna be and be it, and I am like, I, I hope that a year from now I'm, I'm not this same version of me.
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Like I don't wanna be the same version of me for my, my whole life.
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And.
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And, um, yeah.
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And then the, the other thing that I wanted to say on that is, um, you know, it's not even just about the joy.
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It's about being with myself through everything.
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Like when I'm sad, I allow myself to be sad and I sit with myself and I, and I feel that like I didn't come here just to be in joy, although joy is fun, and joy is awesome and I love it.
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I came here to experience all of the emotions of life.
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So when I'm.
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You know, going through something, I go through it and I honor it.
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Yeah, definitely.
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And that's something that I say all the time, you know, it's not, it's not about living in la la land and pretending plastering on a fake smile, you know, fake it till you make it, quote unquote.
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It's, it's not about that at all.
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It's.
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Deeply feeling your emotions and it's being present with them, and it's being there for the alchemy too, you know, because if you, if you are in that deep grief, like on the other side of that, the other, the balance of that is.
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Extreme joy.
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And if we rob ourself of the experience of those emotions, then they're not there to be our teachers either.
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And that actually brings me to another question that I had for you.
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Um, so, you know, we didn't touch on your second brain injury.
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Let's, let's get to, let's get to that, uh, first and then, um, I'm, I'm curious how, how these things really, um, these healing journeys.
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Through not just the, the grief, but through the, um, the PP, uh, the PMDD and through healing the brain injuries Got you back in touch with your body.
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So, um.
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I, again, like, it's interesting and I'm, I'm still in the process of, of the dots only line up looking back and, and trying to see how this did happen for me.
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It doesn't necessarily always feel like it in the moment, but again, I know this happened for me.
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So, um, I actually have to take you back to June because in June I decided I struggled.
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Of course, with PMDD, I went into post menopause early.
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I've had like five of myalgia and PCOS and like all of these.
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Health issues that I dealt with my whole life.
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And of course, as I'm becoming this amazing, um, greatest version of myself, I'm realizing how powerful the mind is and how maybe just maybe I had all that stuff going on because I had it all going on in my mind.
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And so I just decided to claim health and I mean.
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I had back surgery when I was 17.
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And so, you know, after that, anytime my back twitched, I was like, oh my God, am I gonna be in a wheelchair? Like, I like it, you know? And so my thoughts were always thoughts of unwell anytime anything came up.
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So I decided that I'm going to switch that and I decided that I am health and I'm only going to think healthy things.
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And so, um, for example, when my back is sore now, I, I go, I don't think, oh, my back is so sore.
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Oh my gosh, am I gonna be able to walk in 10 years? I think, oh, I feel the sensation of my back getting stronger.
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And so, you know, it's changing the, the way I think about things.
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And so I claimed health.
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And, um, of what we're learning in manifestation class is that a lot of times when we decide on one thing, the contrast will show up.
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Ah, yes.
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The contrast.
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Contrast.
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And so in June, I decide to claim health.
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In August I had, I was having a really good day.
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I went to dump the, um, grass clippings in the chicken coop.
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I smashed into a low laying beam.
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Knocked myself unconscious.
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Woke up half an hour later in the hospital, um, and then a week later started having ventricular premature ventricular heart palpitations.
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And so I was in and out of the hospital then for kind of the rest of August.
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And um, I remember being in the hospital room and seeing to someone, one of the doctors like.
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I know this looks bad, but don't think for a second that I think of myself as an unhealthy person like I am health.
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And so I knew that this was the contrast showing up.
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Um, I was kind of disappointed that it showed up in the form of another concussion, but as, as, as one does that we just move on and.
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And so it was again, one of those things where, you know, there was a couple dark days, but I realized in the end that this is happening for me.
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I claimed my health.
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I'm not surprised that this is showing up because the contrast shows up when you decide something.
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And, um, I think that the way I moved through that was, um, twofold.
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One, that I did not allow the thoughts in my brain to.
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Go down any dark holes.
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And so I was able to control my thoughts.
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It was challenging after the brain injury, but um, and there was like a couple days of anger there, but then I turned it around as to this is happening for me.
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This is for my greatest good.
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Um, I can't see it, but it's happening for me.
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And so getting through that.
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Uh, I think there was a couple things.
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One, I I'm surrounding myself by these women who believe in me, and I think that that really made like a lot of difference.
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Um, and I'm surrounding myself, uh, also with women who are doing really big things, you know, despite setbacks to site, despite being afraid.
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And so.
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They also made me realize that I can still keep going.
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I can still do this.
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And, and I think like my podcast was already scheduled to be launched and I had a choice to either, you know, not launch it or do it anyway.
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And I just decided that this kind of like goes along with the theme of my podcast of, of, um, you know, I always say one of the things I say on my podcast is that.
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Perfection is not a prerequisite for purpose.
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And so even though I knew I couldn't show up the way, I would've been able to show up two months prior.
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Um, I gave myself permission to show up just as I am, just where I am.
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And, um, I gave myself permission to not be perfect.
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And I think that that made all the difference in the world.
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That's so beautiful.
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And I wanna, I wanna put a, a pin in the healing journey in the somatic way, but first I do wanna go back and touch on one thing.
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So to clarify from your, uh.
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First brain injury that you had from your snowboarding accident.
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You had actually experienced, um, a lot of like, difficulty with like organizing your, your thoughts and like it actually caused some, like, long term problems.
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So you hadn't brought that into this conversation yet, but I just know from interacting with you.
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You know, for the past few months, um, that that's been a real big thing.
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So for you to, uh, start this podcast, the do it anyway podcast, like even if you're not showing up perfect, even if you're not showing up on time, even if you're not quite ready, do it anyways, which I absolutely freaking love.
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Um, but like, so this, this has been, um, a, a, a journey for you too, and what I would say, like a self reclamation.
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Like, you know, so, um, I just wanna highlight that and say that like, for, for you to show up for yourself in that way is, is beautiful.
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And so, um, so yeah, like in your intake, you had, you had talked about that alchemy, that transformation, that, that growing, that healing that you've been through.
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And so I'd love to, to touch on that a little bit because that's something I'm.
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So passionate about the transformation, the, the healing, and just to show to every woman that it is possible, no matter how bleak something looks, no matter how horrible and trying and dark it feels in the moment that there is always redemption and healing available.
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So, you know, and I think the biggest thing that about this is the story that we tell ourselves.
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Um, and, and quite often the stories that we tell ourselves are not our own stories.
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They're programs that other people have told us.
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Um, and so when I got this first initial brain injury, you know, the doctors, I went through brain rehabilitation program and I got to the point where I could kind of garden for about four hours a day, but I couldn't.
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I still couldn't read, I couldn't do the computer work.
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And, and so the doctors had said, you know, this might be as good as you ever get.
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And so, you know, good job, and, and you're doing good 'cause you're not depressed and most people in your situation are depressed.
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And so keep doing what you're doing and really good job and kind of like, this is as good as you're gonna get.
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And so I decided I have a brain injury, so I can't, I have a brain injury.
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I can't do this, I can't do that.
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I, and, and I mean, there was, there's cognitive challenges pulling the thoughts.
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I was, um, a poet, a writer before I got the brain injury, and I wrote like 10 poems a day.
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And after the brain injury, I stopped writing.
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I, I just, um, because I decided that I can't do it.
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And so, um, you know, I at one point started thinking, well, what if I could do it? You know? And so I changed the story in my mind and I just decided that.
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Even though I can't do it the way I used to be able to do it, like it's not gonna look the same.
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It doesn't mean I can't do it.
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I can still show up and it's okay if it looks different.
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And so I really truly think that it was all in the stories that I told myself about what I was capable of and, and what that needed to look like.
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And, um, so then.
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Last year I through, I went through a really dark in 2023.
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It was a really bad year for me.
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And, um, through that I kind of came to a point where a couple things happened.
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I was in a bad spot and I pulled, uh, angel card and it said, when you're nervous, be of service.
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And I started going, oh.
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What can I do for the world? Like where I'm at right now? What can I do for the world? And of course I was, I was, I had my Reiki certification and my EFT certification, but I didn't have the confidence in myself because I had a brain injury and I believed that I couldn't do it.
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And so I.
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I started offering Reiki services.
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I started offering EFT services and I started seeing how me putting myself out there was affecting the world in this really positive way and affecting these people in this really positive way.
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And I started seeing when I believed in myself, how much it affected the world around me and how much effect I do have on the world around me.
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And so, um.
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I really think that it just all came down to the fact that I decided I couldn't, and then I just decided that I could, and I, I, and then I started doing all the things and, and they probably don't look like someone who doesn't have a brain injury, but they're amazing for me and I'm really excited about all of it.
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I hope that, yeah, yeah.
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No, no, that's, that's beautiful.
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That's beautiful.
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So.
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I wanna go back and highlight EFT for anybody out there that's listening who didn't catch, uh, my podcast, uh, on EFT and manifestation, that's the emotional freedom technique or tapping.
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So if you are listening right now and you do not know what that is, check it out.
353
00:32:12,399.6056337 --> 00:32:18,849.6056337
It is such a beautiful nervous system healing tool and, uh, me and Kel are like deep, deep in it right now.
354
00:32:19,964.6056337 --> 00:32:25,934.6056337
With using it to like, I guess, brainwash ourselves in, in a lot of ways to having better lives.
355
00:32:25,934.6056337 --> 00:32:26,204.6056337
Right.
356
00:32:26,204.6056337 --> 00:32:27,944.6056337
To believing, to believing in ourselves.
357
00:32:27,944.6056337 --> 00:32:28,244.6056337
Yep.
358
00:32:28,364.6056337 --> 00:32:28,904.6056337
Yeah.
359
00:32:28,904.6056337 --> 00:32:29,414.6056337
Yeah.
360
00:32:29,414.6056337 --> 00:32:30,464.6056337
That's what I tell my husband.
361
00:32:30,464.6056337 --> 00:32:35,354.6056337
He like sees me like tapping in the morning and I'm like, I'm just over here brainwashing myself into becoming a millionaire.
362
00:32:35,504.6056337 --> 00:32:36,74.6056337
Don't mind me.
363
00:32:37,514.6056337 --> 00:32:37,574.6056337
Yeah.
364
00:32:38,324.6056337 --> 00:32:42,734.6056337
And thank you so much for bringing that up, because that was a really big part of my journey as well.
365
00:32:42,734.6056337 --> 00:32:48,734.6056337
And of course we hit 2020, um, and that was hard for, um, everybody.
366
00:32:49,4.6056337 --> 00:32:52,814.6056337
And so I discovered this.
367
00:32:52,814.6056337 --> 00:32:56,359.6056337
I, I actually was introduced to tapping when I was in my twenties, and it was.
368
00:32:56,699.6056337 --> 00:33:01,199.6056337
Ongoing joke in our family where I was like, tap it out, tap, tap, tap it out.
369
00:33:01,469.6056337 --> 00:33:04,109.6056337
And um, I used it in emergency situations.
370
00:33:04,109.6056337 --> 00:33:12,629.6056337
Like if I was having a panic attack, I would tap and I didn't realize what a powerful tool it was and I kind of got to this place where.
371
00:33:13,34.6056337 --> 00:33:19,814.6056337
Um, you know, I think I, you've maybe noticed like I'm not someone to give up on myself really easily, and I just, like, I didn't know what to do with myself.
372
00:33:19,814.6056337 --> 00:33:22,424.6056337
I was, you know, my marriage wasn't in a great place.
373
00:33:22,424.6056337 --> 00:33:31,394.6056337
I didn't, I, you know, I, I just struggled with the, with the seclusion and the thoughts that were going on in my mind and the stories in my mind.
374
00:33:31,754.6056337 --> 00:33:35,29.6056337
And so I went and took my EFT certification and it.
375
00:33:35,694.6056337 --> 00:33:37,344.6056337
Changed my life.
376
00:33:37,344.6056337 --> 00:33:40,134.6056337
Like, like that I would say, sorry, you asked that.
377
00:33:40,134.6056337 --> 00:33:41,844.6056337
And I, I kind of went all over the place.
378
00:33:42,84.6056337 --> 00:33:42,654.6056337
I took all that.
379
00:33:42,779.6056337 --> 00:33:43,599.6056337
No, no, it was perfect.
380
00:33:44,429.6056337 --> 00:33:51,324.6056337
That was, um, that was the, the number one catalyst for all of the change that happened in my life.
381
00:33:53,994.6056337 --> 00:33:54,924.6056337
That's awesome.
382
00:33:54,924.6056337 --> 00:33:55,464.6056337
Yeah.
383
00:33:55,824.6056337 --> 00:33:56,429.6056337
And you know.
384
00:33:57,99.6056337 --> 00:34:12,499.6056337
Combining the EFT with the manifestation, uh, like we're doing in this program we're in together has been such, um, like a boost to that because it's not just working with accepting what is, which is great, like it's.
385
00:34:12,799.6056337 --> 00:34:21,409.6056337
EFT is a beautiful tool for when you're having some kind of, like you said, like panic, some kind of stress, some kinda, you know, emergent situation.
386
00:34:21,589.6056337 --> 00:34:25,159.6056337
It can definitely be a resource to like pull you out of that.
387
00:34:25,489.6056337 --> 00:34:29,719.6056337
But then this next level of using it to actually.
388
00:34:30,59.6056337 --> 00:34:37,499.6056337
Stop level yourself to, to actually step into the next higher version of yourself is just so powerful.
389
00:34:37,709.6056337 --> 00:34:42,989.6056337
And when, when I learned about the work that Jocelyn Dawn, who is our mentor, is doing, I was just like.
390
00:34:43,539.6056337 --> 00:34:56,739.6056337
Oh my gosh, that is so cool like this, taking this nervous system tool and then using it to acclimate to the highest version of yourself and every day returning to that is just, is just so beautiful.
391
00:34:56,949.6056337 --> 00:34:59,524.6056337
Um, you've been working with Jocelyn longer than I have.
392
00:35:00,119.6056337 --> 00:35:12,899.6056337
So I know she, um, uses you like, as an example in a lot of our classes is like how much you have shifted, like the, the just massive upleveling you have done.
393
00:35:13,139.6056337 --> 00:35:17,549.6056337
Um, so yeah, no, we can totally go into that and, and, and talk about that a little.
394
00:35:18,384.6056337 --> 00:35:33,24.6056337
Yeah, the, it's just been so incredible and I think one of the things that, um, you know, with EFT that I think a lot of people don't realize, and like I know we learned about our nervous system in school, that like, that we had a nervous system and that it will go into fight or flight if you're in danger.
395
00:35:33,354.6056337 --> 00:35:38,844.6056337
Um, and what they didn't tell us was that, um, our nervous systems were designed like have not.
396
00:35:39,239.6056337 --> 00:35:49,79.6056337
Um, evolved since the caman days, and so our nervous system can't differentiate, um, a mean text from a saber tooth tiger.
397
00:35:49,409.6056337 --> 00:35:52,829.6056337
And so, you know, I was living in fight or flight.
398
00:35:52,829.6056337 --> 00:35:57,899.6056337
I, I had kind of like realized, oh, since the brain injury I had been living in fight or flight, and then I went, oh my God.
399
00:35:57,899.6056337 --> 00:36:02,729.6056337
Actually my whole life I've been living in fight or flight and I didn't even realize it.
400
00:36:02,879.6056337 --> 00:36:03,839.6056337
And I mean.
401
00:36:04,214.6056337 --> 00:36:07,874.6056337
Um, we don't like the nervous system.
402
00:36:07,874.6056337 --> 00:36:08,954.6056337
You think fight or flight.
403
00:36:08,954.6056337 --> 00:36:09,224.6056337
Okay.
404
00:36:09,224.6056337 --> 00:36:15,944.6056337
Like, I'm gonna get ready to fight you and you think you're gonna feel it? Well, we don't because that can show up as procrastination.
405
00:36:15,944.6056337 --> 00:36:17,744.6056337
It can show up as being tired.
406
00:36:17,744.6056337 --> 00:36:19,334.6056337
It can show up as yelling at your children.
407
00:36:19,334.6056337 --> 00:36:22,664.6056337
Like it can show up in so many ways that we don't realize.
408
00:36:22,694.6056337 --> 00:36:28,784.6056337
And so, um, like I think that everybody in the world should be doing EFT and especially with how.
409
00:36:29,364.6056337 --> 00:36:39,684.6056337
You know, I might be secluded, but I have the world at my fingertips on the line, on the line online, and um, I can see that, um.
410
00:36:40,974.6056337 --> 00:36:43,434.6056337
The world needs a nervous system reset.
411
00:36:43,434.6056337 --> 00:36:47,4.6056337
Like everybody is ah, really like wound up.
412
00:36:47,4.6056337 --> 00:36:47,874.6056337
And it's your fault.
413
00:36:47,874.6056337 --> 00:36:48,534.6056337
It's your fault.
414
00:36:49,44.6056337 --> 00:36:51,234.6056337
And like everybody's looking at to blame everyone else.
415
00:36:51,234.6056337 --> 00:36:57,504.6056337
And I mean, I think I was doing that too before I started tapping like, it's your fault 'cause you said this to me and it made me upset.
416
00:36:57,804.6056337 --> 00:37:03,444.6056337
Well really that was a trigger with me and I needed to look within myself to, um.
417
00:37:04,899.6056337 --> 00:37:06,429.6056337
You know, find that within me.
418
00:37:06,429.6056337 --> 00:37:14,319.6056337
And so, um, it's, it's incredible how many of us are walking around in fight or flight and don't even really realize it.
419
00:37:14,319.6056337 --> 00:37:21,879.6056337
And it's incredible how this tool can bring you back to like something sacred, something like that.
420
00:37:21,879.6056337 --> 00:37:26,19.6056337
We've forgotten something, um, like.
421
00:37:27,84.6056337 --> 00:37:39,834.6056337
Primal in us that like this connection to ourselves, this connection to like when we slow down enough, we can hear the world talking to us through, um.
422
00:37:40,839.6056337 --> 00:37:43,179.6056337
Through nature, through like everything.
423
00:37:43,209.6056337 --> 00:37:57,669.6056337
And um, yeah, like I just, I think it's maybe I should have an admission to like get, I know one of Jackie's mission is to like get EFT in the household of like every person because it's just such an incredible tool and it literally saved my life.
424
00:37:57,669.6056337 --> 00:38:06,939.6056337
Like I, I will go as far as to say it, it saved my life and I was having, um, um, issues with my cortisol.
425
00:38:07,254.6056337 --> 00:38:14,814.6056337
Which I think a lot of women are, because our bodies are not meant to be stressed out 24 7, and it's going to have a toll on us.
426
00:38:14,814.6056337 --> 00:38:17,274.6056337
Eventually, it's going to have an effect on us.
427
00:38:17,364.6056337 --> 00:38:21,954.6056337
And so my cortisol was so outta whack and the doctor wanted to put me on all this medicine.
428
00:38:21,954.6056337 --> 00:38:23,364.6056337
I said, just gimme five weeks.
429
00:38:23,754.6056337 --> 00:38:26,934.6056337
And I went in five weeks later, my cortisol was totally balanced out.
430
00:38:26,994.6056337 --> 00:38:35,784.6056337
So like it, it just, not only did it help my nervous system, it helped my body to actually feel safe again.
431
00:38:36,594.6056337 --> 00:38:43,584.6056337
Yeah, you're like 100% speaking my language right now, this is like my whole like, coaching business.
432
00:38:44,394.6056337 --> 00:38:51,504.6056337
It's just like all of what I do and I use, um, I use a lot of other tools and so EFT is actually a new tool for me.
433
00:38:51,534.6056337 --> 00:38:51,564.6056337
Oh.
434
00:38:52,104.6056337 --> 00:38:53,364.6056337
Um, so yeah.
435
00:38:53,364.6056337 --> 00:38:53,664.6056337
Yeah.
436
00:38:53,664.6056337 --> 00:38:56,664.6056337
I, uh, but it, there, I have a, a toolbox and it is like.
437
00:38:56,859.6056337 --> 00:39:00,129.6056337
Such a beautiful tool in that toolbox.
438
00:39:00,489.6056337 --> 00:39:01,689.6056337
Um, but, but yeah.
439
00:39:01,689.6056337 --> 00:39:08,919.6056337
Uh, going back to the, um, accountability, the self accountability, I think that that is another epidemic.
440
00:39:09,69.6056337 --> 00:39:20,289.6056337
We have an epidemic of, uh, women who are completely in, uh, their, uh, sympathetic nervous system, totally activated all the time, fight, flight, and there's also freeze and fawn.
441
00:39:21,479.6056337 --> 00:39:42,299.6056337
You know, so we're, we are living in this like hustle, stress culture all the time with all this pressure you talk about, like on the web, on social media, there's all this pressure to perform, there's all this pressure to have careers and to be out there in the world doing things, which is very new to the female nervous system.
442
00:39:42,859.6056337 --> 00:39:53,659.6056337
Like, if you talk about the tens of thousands of years that we've had a career, it was raising babies and caring for people and, uh, taking care of the home.
443
00:39:53,659.6056337 --> 00:40:07,579.6056337
And, you know, now all of a sudden being with other women being in sisterhood 100%, and now all of a sudden to have this like masculine structure in the last, you know.
444
00:40:07,974.6056337 --> 00:40:10,464.6056337
A hundred hun less than a hundred years.
445
00:40:10,464.6056337 --> 00:40:15,84.6056337
Really this pressure to perform in the workplace in that way.
446
00:40:15,84.6056337 --> 00:40:19,104.6056337
Like of course we're all, our cortisol is all outta whack.
447
00:40:19,104.6056337 --> 00:40:20,964.6056337
Like, so, so yeah.
448
00:40:20,964.6056337 --> 00:40:34,209.6056337
But the, the self-accountability part, you know, the really like, um, the, the taking inventory of what is going on for you and then taking radical responsibility for doing something about it.
449
00:40:35,289.6056337 --> 00:40:38,769.6056337
And that's what these tools like EFT really can do.
450
00:40:38,769.6056337 --> 00:40:41,439.6056337
Like they put the power back in your hands.
451
00:40:41,589.6056337 --> 00:40:48,759.6056337
And so that is like my big mission in life is also to give these tools to women because.
452
00:40:49,794.6056337 --> 00:40:50,124.6056337
Yep.
453
00:40:50,184.6056337 --> 00:40:50,484.6056337
Yeah.
454
00:40:50,514.6056337 --> 00:40:56,424.6056337
'cause we, we can change this paradigm and it doesn't mean you have to leave the workforce.
455
00:40:56,454.6056337 --> 00:41:05,934.6056337
Um, of course, you know, like, uh, you, you left the corporate world, you left a career that was not aligned with you, and now you are stepping.
456
00:41:06,99.6056337 --> 00:41:10,689.6056337
Into a career or have been stepping into this career that is aligned.
457
00:41:10,689.6056337 --> 00:41:18,549.6056337
So it's not to say that, you know, women should stay home and cook and clean and raise babies, and that's all we can do because obviously that's not what I'm doing.
458
00:41:21,609.6056337 --> 00:41:27,489.6056337
Um, so, so yeah, we can be in, in the world and doing these things, but to regulate your nervous.
459
00:41:27,489.6056337 --> 00:41:34,324.6056337
System and to be able to come back in to balance in that way is just so, so, so important.
460
00:41:34,654.6056337 --> 00:41:39,844.6056337
So that actually like dovetails we're, I know we're getting like close to the end, like, and close to our hour.
461
00:41:39,844.6056337 --> 00:41:40,924.6056337
It always goes by so fast.
462
00:41:41,134.6056337 --> 00:41:48,664.6056337
That dovetails into, um, kind of the last thing I really wanted you to talk about, which is what the work you are doing.
463
00:41:48,724.6056337 --> 00:41:49,414.6056337
Um.
464
00:41:49,609.6056337 --> 00:41:50,299.6056337
Right now.
465
00:41:50,299.6056337 --> 00:42:04,459.6056337
And I, I wanted to, you, you had, uh, something that you said in your intake form, which was that you call yourself a midwife of modern metamorphosis, and I thought that that was just so beautiful and so in line with this podcast.
466
00:42:04,459.6056337 --> 00:42:15,79.6056337
So I, I wanted to to ask you like, how, how you are now working with women and then also what your mission is with your podcast again.
467
00:42:15,319.6056337 --> 00:42:18,409.6056337
Um, so yeah, if you could just kinda kind of touch on where you're at today.
468
00:42:18,464.6056337 --> 00:42:20,204.6056337
We are definitely gonna do that.
469
00:42:20,204.6056337 --> 00:42:31,959.6056337
And I wanna just go back and say, could you imagine if you were only raising kids and like you weren't out living your highest best life, how much the world would miss out on your magic? Yeah.
470
00:42:32,384.6056337 --> 00:42:32,774.6056337
Yeah.
471
00:42:33,14.6056337 --> 00:42:34,394.6056337
I, it's like so twofold.
472
00:42:34,394.6056337 --> 00:42:41,144.6056337
'cause like I think that my number one mission here on this earth is to raise.
473
00:42:41,499.6056337 --> 00:43:01,659.6056337
The generation after us that is gonna be so much more awesome than us, right? I wanna raise the next generation of leaders and visionaries and people that are like comfortable in their skin and know how to regulate and aren't like these bags of trauma that have to fix themselves, which let's be for real, like our generation.
474
00:43:02,739.6056337 --> 00:43:04,659.6056337
And the generation after us.
475
00:43:05,79.6056337 --> 00:43:12,369.6056337
Um, yeah, we, you know, got come in with a lot of stuff, a lot of baggage, I'll just say.
476
00:43:12,459.6056337 --> 00:43:20,109.6056337
And so we're having to like relearn, but I want to raise this generation and that's why I run homeschool co-ops.
477
00:43:20,109.6056337 --> 00:43:23,109.6056337
That's why I'm so active in like my community with children.
478
00:43:23,289.6056337 --> 00:43:27,759.6056337
Not only just raising my own five children, but I, I want to.
479
00:43:27,964.6056337 --> 00:43:44,914.6056337
Give the world a generation of people who are actually able to use their full potential and um, are connected to the people and the earth and, you know, uh, spirit and all of that so that, you know, it's like soup.
480
00:43:44,914.6056337 --> 00:43:47,734.6056337
So if I just had to do one thing, that would be the one thing.
481
00:43:47,734.6056337 --> 00:43:48,629.6056337
I love it, but.
482
00:43:50,529.6056337 --> 00:43:57,9.6056337
Is that the only thing I wanna do? No, I definitely have so much more besides that to give.
483
00:43:57,9.6056337 --> 00:43:58,269.6056337
So, so, yes.
484
00:43:58,269.6056337 --> 00:43:59,199.6056337
Yeah, I love that.
485
00:43:59,274.6056337 --> 00:44:14,289.6056337
And, and it's like, um, I think I read this thing one time that said like, teaching the kids nervous of some work and how to feel their emotions is crime prevention and um, you know, like drug control and like, whatever, because um.
486
00:44:15,729.6056337 --> 00:44:22,959.6056337
They're hopefully not gonna be, um, doing the things we did to dull out our emotions because we were taught that we cannot have big emotions.
487
00:44:22,959.6056337 --> 00:44:26,949.6056337
And if you're going to, you have to go to your room and deal with it on your own and you're too much.
488
00:44:26,949.6056337 --> 00:44:28,989.6056337
And like it was, it was, yeah, it was really intense.
489
00:44:28,989.6056337 --> 00:44:35,139.6056337
So, so, um, that's one thing I wanna teach women is to like, how to take their power back.
490
00:44:35,139.6056337 --> 00:44:35,529.6056337
And so.
491
00:44:35,964.6056337 --> 00:44:41,664.6056337
I know, like I used to be the type of person that was like, um, you know, you made me so angry 'cause you did that.
492
00:44:41,994.6056337 --> 00:44:46,764.6056337
Well, you know, now I'm the type of person that I realize, like I'm, I'm feeling anger.
493
00:44:46,944.6056337 --> 00:44:50,334.6056337
Like it's not that you made me like, and um.
494
00:44:50,949.6056337 --> 00:44:59,349.6056337
So I am an EFT practitioner and I work with women and I have, I do work with men.
495
00:44:59,349.6056337 --> 00:45:01,179.6056337
I find women.
496
00:45:01,269.6056337 --> 00:45:12,669.6056337
Um, I find that women are more apt to do the work and put the effort in, and so I do really love working with women, although I work with men as well.
497
00:45:12,984.6056337 --> 00:45:29,514.6056337
And so I'm a, I call myself like an intuitive EFT practitioner where, um, I work with women, but I also use my intuition and I also have some tools that we, you know, the tapping but also some somatic, um, dancing and that kind of stuff.
498
00:45:29,904.6056337 --> 00:45:30,414.6056337
I am.
499
00:45:32,679.6056337 --> 00:45:36,609.6056337
Um, really as, you know, passionate about doing the things anyway.
500
00:45:36,609.6056337 --> 00:45:49,59.6056337
And so I know that a lot of people in this world have these dreams and they don't do them because while they were told that you're supposed to get married and have kids and go to college and dah, dah, dah, and, and that dream was not a part of that.
501
00:45:49,449.6056337 --> 00:45:52,389.6056337
Um, and also that they're scared of what people are gonna think.
502
00:45:52,389.6056337 --> 00:46:00,549.6056337
Like, I, I think a lot of women are really terrified of what people are gonna think of them because we are taught from a young age to look outside of us.
503
00:46:00,549.6056337 --> 00:46:01,569.6056337
For approval.
504
00:46:01,569.6056337 --> 00:46:06,429.6056337
I mean, we get stars on a chart in school if we're, and so we're looking outside of us.
505
00:46:06,429.6056337 --> 00:46:08,199.6056337
We're taught to look outside of us for this.
506
00:46:08,199.6056337 --> 00:46:18,939.6056337
Like, is this okay with you? Like we're taught to ask, is that okay with you? Is that okay with you? But we're not taught to ask, is this okay with me? And so, um, I want women to.
507
00:46:19,794.6056337 --> 00:46:27,504.6056337
Get their power back to connect in with themselves, to feel all of their emotions, uh, to fall madly in love with themselves.
508
00:46:27,864.6056337 --> 00:46:30,744.6056337
And I also do, uh, reiki.
509
00:46:30,744.6056337 --> 00:46:38,814.6056337
I'm a reiki practitioner and I am in a course right now, um, to become.
510
00:46:40,74.6056337 --> 00:46:51,744.6056337
This, I'm working in this course, uh, to, for more healing, which I, I won't go deeper into it right now, but I'm really excited about that and I'm gonna be offering, um, online healings in probably about two months.
511
00:46:52,164.6056337 --> 00:46:58,794.6056337
And, um, I just wanna be here to support women to become like the highest, best versions of themselves.
512
00:46:58,879.6056337 --> 00:47:03,294.6056337
And two, um, I really wanna teach women that they don't have to.
513
00:47:04,9.6056337 --> 00:47:10,669.6056337
They'll have to live with the program that they've been given, that they can rewrite their story anytime they want to, and they get to choose the story.
514
00:47:11,769.6056337 --> 00:47:34,449.6056337
Speaking of stories, we haven't touched on your books and you know, I'm, I'm, I'm not exactly sure when this is coming out, and so I don't know if they will be published at that point or not, but do you wanna touch on that? 'cause I know that that is been a, a big deal for you, so, uh, you're soon to be published author as well.
515
00:47:34,839.6056337 --> 00:47:35,199.6056337
Yeah.
516
00:47:35,199.6056337 --> 00:47:35,679.6056337
Thank you.
517
00:47:35,679.6056337 --> 00:47:38,529.6056337
I am, I am like so over the moon excited about this.
518
00:47:38,529.6056337 --> 00:47:47,229.6056337
And it's one of those things where, um, you know, this is also the work that we do is I was like, one day I'm gonna, one day I, one day I was like this one day person.
519
00:47:47,229.6056337 --> 00:47:49,449.6056337
And, and I always thought one day I would write a book.
520
00:47:49,449.6056337 --> 00:47:50,889.6056337
And this is not, I didn't write the book.
521
00:47:50,889.6056337 --> 00:47:52,179.6056337
I thought I was gonna write.
522
00:47:52,479.6056337 --> 00:47:53,19.6056337
Um.
523
00:47:53,764.6056337 --> 00:47:54,814.6056337
I always had that dream.
524
00:47:54,814.6056337 --> 00:48:00,454.6056337
One day I'm gonna write a book, and then when I hit my head, I decided I can't, I can't write anymore.
525
00:48:00,784.6056337 --> 00:48:10,594.6056337
And then, um, through the tapping experience and through, um, some various programs with Jocelyn Dawn, who's amazing, I highly recommend checking her out.
526
00:48:10,924.6056337 --> 00:48:12,424.6056337
Um, I.
527
00:48:12,849.6056337 --> 00:48:15,849.6056337
Um, look, I don't even understand how this came.
528
00:48:15,904.6056337 --> 00:48:19,869.6056337
I, I actually feel like this was, I don't feel like I wrote these books.
529
00:48:19,869.6056337 --> 00:48:26,109.6056337
I feel like God Source Energy wrote these books and like used me as a conduit to get them out into the world.
530
00:48:26,199.6056337 --> 00:48:35,439.6056337
And so, um, the Sacred Earth Book, and I don't know when they're coming out either, so it's editing a big, i writing a book is a big deal and it's taken a while.
531
00:48:35,769.6056337 --> 00:48:38,509.6056337
Um, but The Sacred Earth Book has a workbook with it.
532
00:48:39,84.6056337 --> 00:48:42,294.6056337
I'm hoping to, to write a, do a program on this.
533
00:48:42,294.6056337 --> 00:48:54,654.6056337
And it is an invitation, so the premise of it, um, I have it up there is, um, the only way out is in, and so it's about turning in towards for everything and going, returning to yourself.
534
00:48:54,799.6056337 --> 00:49:06,649.6056337
Again and again and, and some ideas of what the work might look like and why doing the work, which the work is not work, but what we call tapping and meditating and stuff.
535
00:49:06,649.6056337 --> 00:49:13,789.6056337
And, and so that, I'm really excited about that one coming out and I was a little bit unsure 'cause of course I'd never written a book before and I.
536
00:49:14,99.6056337 --> 00:49:22,799.6056337
Was in this, when I had my second concussion, I was in this bad place and I was editing and I had to edit my book and it actually helped me through what I was going through.
537
00:49:22,799.6056337 --> 00:49:24,869.6056337
So I was like, oh my God, this is incredible.
538
00:49:25,499.6056337 --> 00:49:28,559.6056337
And then I wrote a kid's book as well, which is gonna be coming out.
539
00:49:28,589.6056337 --> 00:49:35,399.6056337
And um, I see it being in libraries and stuff because it's called, um, chase and Auntie's Big Spring Break Adventure.
540
00:49:35,429.6056337 --> 00:49:37,169.6056337
'cause my friend is a single mom.
541
00:49:37,944.6056337 --> 00:49:49,554.6056337
And I went up to hang out with my nephew for spring break and we learned about science and we learned about, um, like encouraging people and we learned about problem solving and I wrote a book about it, a kid's book, and it's incredible.
542
00:49:50,154.6056337 --> 00:49:52,974.6056337
And then, um, I, I played about the sun will rise when it rises.
543
00:49:52,974.6056337 --> 00:49:56,844.6056337
I went out to Sun Gaze and I was, I thought I had timed it perfectly.
544
00:49:56,844.6056337 --> 00:49:59,124.6056337
I went out to Sun Gaze and the sun didn't come up.
545
00:49:59,124.6056337 --> 00:50:05,934.6056337
And so I actually like turned around to go back inside and something in me went, what are you doing? You know the sun is going to rise.
546
00:50:06,449.6056337 --> 00:50:11,339.6056337
And, and then this book came of it and it's about slowing down.
547
00:50:11,339.6056337 --> 00:50:28,49.6056337
And like that nature doesn't rush, but we like, and so like we are all just rushing to get there, like get where dead, like what's the hurry? So, um, it's this, it's an invitation to slow down and, and, um, these books have been infused with my light and my energy.
548
00:50:28,49.6056337 --> 00:50:32,369.6056337
And so everybody that reads these books will receive some sort of.
549
00:50:34,479.6056337 --> 00:50:39,99.6056337
Light ignition of the light within them, and I'm, I'm really excited, so thank you.
550
00:50:39,99.6056337 --> 00:50:43,989.6056337
I'm, I'm really excited about them and getting them out into the world and I can't wait and it's taking forever.
551
00:50:46,989.6056337 --> 00:50:49,179.6056337
Maybe you should go back and read the third book.
552
00:50:53,529.6056337 --> 00:50:54,99.6056337
You're right.
553
00:50:54,309.6056337 --> 00:50:54,879.6056337
I totally should.
554
00:50:59,169.6056337 --> 00:51:08,139.6056337
Oh, well, just to wrap this up, I, I want to hear a little bit about your podcast, and I know it's a, it's a baby podcast, right? You've just.
555
00:51:08,284.6056337 --> 00:51:11,404.6056337
You just got started and I hope that you'll have me on.
556
00:51:11,884.6056337 --> 00:51:15,154.6056337
Um, because you know, the, the do it, do it anyways.
557
00:51:15,154.6056337 --> 00:51:17,434.6056337
Like that has been my story as well.
558
00:51:17,434.6056337 --> 00:51:27,334.6056337
It's like, yeah, but you have all these kids and like, yeah, but I'm, I can start a business even though I have five kids in a homeschooling co-op and I run a not-for-profit.
559
00:51:28,349.6056337 --> 00:51:30,784.6056337
I'm gonna do it anyways, so, yeah.
560
00:51:31,864.6056337 --> 00:51:32,224.6056337
Yes.
561
00:51:32,224.6056337 --> 00:51:32,234.6056337
Yeah.
562
00:51:32,234.6056337 --> 00:51:37,744.6056337
So I, and that is just embodies the whole concept of the podcast and I think, um.
563
00:51:37,889.6056337 --> 00:51:40,709.6056337
So, yeah, this, this podcast had been a dream of mine.
564
00:51:40,709.6056337 --> 00:51:45,659.6056337
I mean, when I was 14, I, I wanted to be on video and doing something like this.
565
00:51:45,659.6056337 --> 00:51:47,459.6056337
And again, I had decided that I couldn't.
566
00:51:47,459.6056337 --> 00:51:51,929.6056337
And then through writing books, I realized like I can actually do big things.
567
00:51:52,319.6056337 --> 00:52:00,899.6056337
And so I decided to start the podcast and it was really scary because there is a bit of a disconnect with what's going on in here and what's coming out of here.
568
00:52:01,319.6056337 --> 00:52:04,559.6056337
And, um, but the whole purpose of it is.
569
00:52:04,559.6056337 --> 00:52:09,414.6056337
To remind people that we can do big things and, and we can do them now.
570
00:52:09,414.6056337 --> 00:52:10,404.6056337
We don't have to wait.
571
00:52:10,404.6056337 --> 00:52:17,874.6056337
You know, I, I, I didn't, um, I was doing this on my phone, like I'm still doing it in my, in my notes.
572
00:52:17,874.6056337 --> 00:52:19,524.6056337
I don't have any fancy gear.
573
00:52:19,524.6056337 --> 00:52:20,694.6056337
I don't have any equipment.
574
00:52:20,904.6056337 --> 00:52:23,4.6056337
Um, I can't show up consistently.
575
00:52:23,334.6056337 --> 00:52:29,904.6056337
And, um, and so like in the past, these things would stop me and I decided, you know what? I'm just gonna do it anyway.
576
00:52:29,904.6056337 --> 00:52:30,744.6056337
And so.
577
00:52:31,54.6056337 --> 00:52:45,664.6056337
Um, the whole point of the podcast is to encourage people, um, to do the things that they wanna do, to do, live the dreams, to, um, and again, I say on there that perfection is not a prerequisite for purpose.
578
00:52:45,934.6056337 --> 00:52:49,594.6056337
And I encourage people to do the things, even if they're not gonna be perfect at it.
579
00:52:49,774.6056337 --> 00:52:51,904.6056337
For example, I love to sing.
580
00:52:52,264.6056337 --> 00:52:53,704.6056337
I love singing karaoke.
581
00:52:53,704.6056337 --> 00:52:56,584.6056337
I could not carry a tune if it were in a bucket.
582
00:52:57,184.6056337 --> 00:53:00,334.6056337
I, people do not like to hear me, but I do it anyway.
583
00:53:00,334.6056337 --> 00:53:05,674.6056337
I go out to karaoke, I sing, I blast my karaoke here, and I do it anyway, even though I'm not good at it.
584
00:53:06,64.6056337 --> 00:53:07,594.6056337
And I put myself out there.
585
00:53:07,594.6056337 --> 00:53:15,244.6056337
And even though I'm not good at it, and I just hope that other people can see this and know that they're more powerful than they think they are.
586
00:53:15,364.6056337 --> 00:53:19,144.6056337
They're more capable than they think they are, and they can in fact do the big things.
587
00:53:19,144.6056337 --> 00:53:20,854.6056337
And it doesn't matter if it's perfect.
588
00:53:21,624.6056337 --> 00:53:22,884.6056337
And I would love to have you on there.
589
00:53:22,884.6056337 --> 00:53:23,424.6056337
I can't wait.
590
00:53:25,344.6056337 --> 00:53:26,634.6056337
That, that was beautiful.
591
00:53:26,634.6056337 --> 00:53:29,694.6056337
That is a, a beautiful, perfect way to wrap up.
592
00:53:29,694.6056337 --> 00:53:32,814.6056337
And I will link to everything, uh, in the show notes.
593
00:53:32,814.6056337 --> 00:53:42,174.6056337
So anybody out there that's listening that wants to, if you have a healing story, a do it anyway story and come on Kelsey's podcast, there'll be a link to get in touch with her about that.
594
00:53:42,504.6056337 --> 00:53:43,114.6056337
A link to the.
595
00:53:43,334.6056337 --> 00:53:51,344.6056337
Books if we have like a, a release, uh, or a page or something, hopefully I can always go back in and update it and add it later too.
596
00:53:51,704.6056337 --> 00:53:53,954.6056337
Um, and Ali to work with you.
597
00:53:53,984.6056337 --> 00:54:08,24.6056337
Uh, before we go though, is there any, any words of encouragement, any words that you would want to leave for a woman that is listening? Um.
598
00:54:08,589.6056337 --> 00:54:14,229.6056337
Anything you feel called, anything that wants to come through you, uh, message to my audience.
599
00:54:15,339.6056337 --> 00:54:15,699.6056337
Yeah.
600
00:54:15,699.6056337 --> 00:54:27,729.6056337
You know, the thing that comes to my mind right away is this John Milton quote that I absolutely love, and it is that the mind is in its own place and it can make a hell of a heaven or a heaven of a hell.
601
00:54:28,239.6056337 --> 00:54:30,579.6056337
Um, and then it was some Burke that said it can.
602
00:54:31,194.6056337 --> 00:54:35,94.6056337
It can create the most sublime happiness for its owner or destroy him.
603
00:54:35,574.6056337 --> 00:54:45,54.6056337
And I think that if you're struggling in life right now, and I just want you to know that it's not too late to change your story.
604
00:54:45,594.6056337 --> 00:54:49,224.6056337
And if I can do it, you can do it too.
605
00:54:51,864.6056337 --> 00:54:52,734.6056337
Amazing.
606
00:54:52,734.6056337 --> 00:54:53,484.6056337
Perfect.
607
00:54:53,604.6056337 --> 00:54:55,104.6056337
Thank you so much for coming on.
608
00:54:55,104.6056337 --> 00:54:56,334.6056337
This was so much fun.
609
00:54:56,694.6056337 --> 00:54:59,349.6056337
And it wasn't scary at all, was it? Not at all.
610
00:55:00,414.6056337 --> 00:55:01,344.6056337
You did it anyways.
611
00:55:04,524.6056337 --> 00:55:12,444.6056337
Uh, well thank you so much and I can't wait to see you very, very soon, I'm sure in one of our manifestation programs.
