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Welcome back to another episode of Conversations at the Table.
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Joining me today is my friend Juan.
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Yes, sir.
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Juan, thank you for joining us.
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Thank you, brother.
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I asked you a question before coming.
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I said, Juan, what is your John 9 moment?
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A moment that Jesus came into your life that transformed you and that made you just want to proclaim his name.
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Have you meditated on that?
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Yeah.
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See, well, first thanks.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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Thank you for having me.
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Este probably the contrary belief for what people know.
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I love talking about this stuff because I like to be very transparent.
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Yes.
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I truly believe that every moment that I live is a blessing.
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Whether it's for me or for somebody else, it's a blessing.
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Yes.
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Sometimes we don't understand why things happen to us.
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We don't understand why the Lord allows things to happen to us.
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But it doesn't matter what happens to us.
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He knows what's going on.
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He knows what he's doing.
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And the the stuff that I go through, whether it hurts me or not, whether I understand it or not, is going to be used by him for a blessing.
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Yes.
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Whatever it is, every moment that I breathe.
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Yes.
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Okay.
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And if we are aware, we're able to be aware of this, we could see the amazing things the Lord does.
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Okay.
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Why does this happen to me?
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Why is this going on?
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Why this?
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Why that?
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Why that?
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You never are able to capture the beauty of everything that's going on.
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Okay?
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Yes.
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So my draw nine is hard to define.
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Okay.
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Because there's so many things that have impacted my life.
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Okay?
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Yes.
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When you first think about it, when you first think about it, obviously it would be my sister's accident.
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Okay?
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When Jenny passed away.
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Yes.
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And why would why would it be that?
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Because that's on the surface level, it's easy to see.
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Right?
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You asked me this question and you told me to process it.
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And I've been doing this for a great part of my life.
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Speaking is easy to me.
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Yeah.
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And when we would go to interviews, ever since I could remember, I never wanted to know the questions up front.
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And the reason I didn't want to know the questions up front is because I didn't want to get Juan in the way.
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I didn't want Juan to come through.
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And Juan wanting to sound correct or be smart or say the correct thing, I wanted it to come from deep within me.
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To be authentic.
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Yes.
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I wanted it to be the the true the true answer.
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Yes.
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On something like this, I heard the question that day and I shut it off.
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And I shut it off.
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Why?
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Because I wanted the Holy Spirit to speak.
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That's powerful.
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Right?
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Yes.
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So entonces on the surface, it'd be December 9th, 2012.
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Why?
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Because of what my family went through.
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Yes.
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My sister passing, so many things that we lived that day and those moments.
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The incredible growth that came out of that.
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Right.
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The incredible growth that came out of that.
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And like I said, December 9th is the hardest day in our life.
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Yes.
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It's the most glorious day for Jenny.
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Because he's in the present.
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Of course.
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Yes.
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We fail to remember that.
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Yes.
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Okay?
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Yes.
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And that day, whether we want to see it or not, that's when you're able to catch.
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That's that something changed in Juan in that moment.
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My family was going through so much.
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I had a very close relationship with my sister, thank God.
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My nieces and my nephews, because of the relationship Jenny and I had, asked me to be the one to go bring her home.
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Okay.
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Wow.
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When they said, uh Theo, um, we need you to bring my mom home.
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I didn't go for a body.
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Okay.
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I still thought my sister was alive.
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What drove me crazy was the thought that my sister could be hurt in a forest, that she jumped out of the plane, whatever.
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When I get to the site of the accident, I see the magnitude of what happened.
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Of what happened.
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That whole situation changed my perspective on life.
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And that's why I say you never know where the blessings are if you're not willing to see them.
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Wow.
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Okay?
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Yes.
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So we get there, uh, we go, gosh, I don't remember what a day it was.
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It might have been Tuesday.
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Monday night, Tuesday morning.
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Uh she passed away on a Sunday.
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So it might have been Monday night, Tuesday morning.
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And um uh I want to go directly to the site of the accident.
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I remember being with my brothers, and my brothers telling me let's go make my sister a cross, and my brother Lupe is saying, Well, we could order a meadow and being made.
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I said, No, bro, it's it doesn't feel right.
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He says, Why not?
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That's our sister.
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That cross should be made by our hands, nobody else should make that.
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And I don't know if I put my family through hard hard pain because of my thought process.
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Uh we go to a wood place, we choose two pieces of wood, we cut the wood, we get the ground, I don't know what they're called, like they make designs, I don't know what's the correct word, and we etch the name onto her cross and everything.
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We paint it, everything, right?
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We put it together.
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The day that um we're supposed to go, I see the we go see the rescue team that went to go look for my sister.
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And um we leave at five in the morning.
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Ironically enough, it was a foggy morning.
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We almost hit the same mountain that my sister passed away at in the helicopter.
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Oh wow.
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When you get it.
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We were barely able to lift up over the mountain because it was foggy and we were headed straight.
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Okay.
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Yeah.
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So we almost hit the same mountain.
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We get there, land on top because it was a canyon, it was in between mountains.
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And I told the pilot or the person in charge, please take me to where my sister's plane hit.
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And uh it's crazy.
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I I it's been 13 years, I've never had this conversation the way I'm gonna have it.
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Yeah.
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And este we land up top, we walk down like 45 minutes, then we said, take him in, and he says, It's over there.
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And I said, How do you know it's there?
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And he said, Because that's where it's still burning the hottest.
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So what does that mean?
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That means that the plane hit there, all the whatever, whatever, the fuel, yeah, stayed centered there, yes, and it continued to burn deep inside there.
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So I said, take me there.
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Because that's where I wanted us to leave the cross.
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So I walked down and then walked back up, and because it was down to back up, like 45 minutes, an hour, hour and a half.
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Ah, hour 15, 45 and 30.
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And the craziest thing happened, bro.
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And only my brother Gus and I went, and I don't remember if my brother Gus recorded, but I didn't want to.
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Yeah.
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I know this moment would stay alive in the rest of my life forever because of what I was living.
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Right.
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And it was like the scene of a movie.
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Pieces of airplane everywhere.
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Wow.
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Uh clothes, um my sister's eyelashes.
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Um I didn't want to touch anything.
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Right.
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Because I didn't know what belonged to who, and I didn't want to disrespect anybody.
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So I would see all this stuff and and I just wouldn't touch it.
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Either way, it's crazy.
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We get to where the plane hit.
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And people are not gonna believe this.
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It's crazy, bro.
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There was one page of a Bible floating right above the side of the accident.
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Wow.
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And it would not move.
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Wow.
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Okay, it was just like hovering.
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Yes.
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And I told my brother Gus, bro, you see that?
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I was like, it was crazy, it was surreal.
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Yeah.
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It was Romans 8.28.
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Okay.
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Okay.
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It was um, it was a uh Joyce Meyer Bible that my sister Rosie gave to Jenny, and that page stayed there.
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Like it really seems like it's from a movie the page is complete, it's perfectly burned around the edges.
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Like if it was done on purpose.
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And that and that's where you see, that's where it could be read.
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Yeah, yes, and and it was 828s, and uh, and I think uh it was something in regards to everything uh happens.
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Everything works for those who love the Lord, yes, yes.
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So and in that Joyce Mayer version, like there was like a little breakdown, okay, and it says stand firm and without fear.
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Wow.
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Okay, so if if I don't do music anymore, but my last album was titled Fear Me Sin Temor.
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So on the surface, that situation with my sister changed my life.
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Yeah.
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I come back home, we recognize her remains, we bring them home.
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Um, we had never lost anybody.
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I remember leaving and my mom walking out saying, uh, Hijo, bring my daughter home.
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You guys are strong, man.
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Please bring my daughter home.
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And I said, Mom, I'll be back in three days.
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Yeah.
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Why I chose three days, I don't know.
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I didn't know what I was saying at that time.
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How did I know we were gonna find her in three days?
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All I said is we'll be back in three days.
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And good enough, we came back on the third day, and I walk in, and all I see was my mom's she saw in her eyes what had happened.
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Yeah, and her face just dropped, and I understood what what pain was at that moment.
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I didn't know what pain was at that moment.
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Uh my dad's reaction, strongest man I know, yeah, just broken.
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Um my little sister, Rosie fellow her niece.
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But the the the ugliest part was my nieces and nephews.
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The hopelessness, I could like see my s my nephew Johnny's face, just the pain in his eyes.
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So at that moment, that very moment, I knew I I don't have the luxury to feel what I feel.
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Right?
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Because I went from having four kids to having nine.
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Wow.
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And for whatever reason, I was the youngest and I felt like my family wasn't looking to me.
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So breaking was not an option.
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Yeah.
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Yes.
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At some point in time, my my family needed us find strength.
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And I try to portray like I have it, even though I did it.
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So I really had a look in him.
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And then in in this whole moment, because you can face a loss however you want.
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You can be confused, upset, angry, hurt, whatever it is.
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Yes.
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And I don't know what came into me that I decided to say thank you.
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Wow.
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I don't understand why, but thank you.
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I don't wanna question you, I don't wanna have discussions, I don't wanna be upset.
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So instead, I I came to the realization, and that's why I learned to understand that everything is for a blessing, whether you understand it or not.
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So I came to the realization before she was my mom's daughter, before she was our sister, before she was the artist to the world, before she was the mother to my nieces and nephews, she was God's child.
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Yes, and he knows better for her than we do.
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That's when I said December 9th is her most glorious day.
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She no longer feels what she felt when she lived here, she no longer suffers what she suffered when she lived here.
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Her body is healthy, she's in the presence of the Lord.
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That's Jenny's biggest victory.
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Yes.
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And I still decided to say instead of anything else, thank you for letting me be her little brother.
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Wow.
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Wow.
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Wow.
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Wow.
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Thank you for sharing that, man.
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So wow I was able to turn the pain into gratitude.
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Yes.
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And since then.
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When did Juan change?
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There was a process because I continue to drink, I drank some, I consumed drugs, I started smoking a lot.
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And but I knew no matter what was going on, I was able to find in that moment that no matter what I'm going through, thank you, Jesus.
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Wow.
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So no matter if I'm fighting with my wife, no matter business is rough, no matter if I'm feeling alone, if I'm feeling down, if I'm feeling, thank you, Jesus, just thank you, just thank you, just thank you, just thank you.
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Doesn't matter what happens.
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Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you.
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And I found that your perspective on life changes.
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Wow, it's totally different.
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No matter what you're going through, if you're able to find within you the gratitude to say, thank you for the smiles, thank you for the tears, thank you for the good moments, thank you for the battles that I've won.
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Jesus Christ, thank you for the battles that I've lost.
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It changes the way you look at life.
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Yeah, yeah.
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So I think on surface level, it may be that.
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Wow, but I think my biggest change um just came gradually after that, little by little.
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Okay, so that was the moment I think that was the trigger moment that catapulted to everything else.
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Yeah, wow.
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There's a powerful word which is remember, right?
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When the Israelites were set from Egypt, they went through a process of going through the desert.
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There was a moment right before they got into the promised land that God told Joshua, tell the people to grab stones and stack them upon each other so that they could cross the river, the river would be open to them, and they could cross over to the other side of the promised land.
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And he said this: He said, The reason why you're lifting up those stones is that you would remember and you would tell generations to come what the Lord did for you in that hard season of letting you become free, because it was hard what they went through.
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But he said, Those monuments are for you to remember, and as you're saying that it just reminds me of that because it's not easy what you went through and what your family went through, but it is something that you could go back to and remember, and even though it makes no sense to human logic, how could you be grateful for something so horrible?
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How could you worship God when something so horrible happens?
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But in that comes alive that scripture that you saw, Romans 8.28, for everything works out for those who love the Lord.
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And when your heart is positioned in a place of gratitude, change happens, but it's only through that, Juan.
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It's that that monument that God built through this really hard season of you guys going through that.
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Wow.
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And see, and it's crazy.
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Check this out, brother.
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And I remember my sister so so vividly.
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My sister, I was nine.
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Jenny was nine when I was born.
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My mom worked at a plastic factory at Tushua Meat.
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It was a typical um Mexican family.
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Mom and dad are working.
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Somebody has to take care of the kid.
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You figure it out.
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Yeah.
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So Jenny at the age of nine became like my mom.
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I grew up at the age of 14.
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She's 23.
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At 14, I was almost this size.
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I was a big kid.
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I was real crazy.
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I protected her.
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Our relationship and our bond was very, very, very close.
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And um as hard as it is, you know, I I thank God that I was able to live that.
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How can you be grateful for that?
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He decided to let me live that.
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Yes.
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Because see, people don't understand, people don't comprehend, they want every blessing to be for them.
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God allows you to go through stuff so sometimes the blessing could be for somebody else through you.
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Yes.
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Right.
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And I had to go through that to be able to understand life, to be able to understand whatever I could, and just be able to live life in a different manner.
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Not in perfect, not perfect.
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That's never gonna exist in me or anybody.
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Anybody, right?
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But to be able to say in because if you could say thank you in the hardest moments, imagine in victory.
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I um heard this Stephen Furtick is my favorite preacher.
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And I heard a sermon that said, if you can't carry the problem, you're not ready for the blessing.
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Wow.
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Right?
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So I was I had to find a way to carry that.
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And there was times where um I looked to alcohol and stuff, you know.
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I just wanted to drown myself or whatever.
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And but that moment definitely defined something.
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different.
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I went through some hard times after, but at some point in time I and I wish I remember when it happened, but I don't.
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At some point in time I start I can't I started to use again after that.
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And I promised myself.
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I made a deal with me.
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I made a deal with the Lord.
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So it doesn't matter what I'm going through, it doesn't matter what it is, I'm gonna read a devotional every day.
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Every day every day.
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Were you on the list when I would send them because then okay.
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Yeah.
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I would get them.
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I still read them, I still watch the sermon, I just forget to send them.
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And that's something that I shouldn't permit because those devotionals changed my life.
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Yeah.
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So I made a deal with myself Juan, you're not gonna miss a day without reading a devotional.
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Yeah.
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No matter if you're loaded, no matter if you're drunk, no matter if you're hungover, no matter what it is, you're gonna read that devotional.
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Yeah.
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And then the Lord allowed me to, I think, create this OCD where I would see numbers on my phone and it gave me sometimes I didn't want to read the devotional.
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Yeah.
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I just didn't want to.
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Yeah.
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But I hate seeing stuff on my phone and numbers of three emails on Reddit and it drive me nuts and one of those emails was the devotional.
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That you had to show up it was a reminder.
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I had to read it even if I chose not to come and I would feel disrespectful just to delete it and not read the word that was being given to me.
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Wow.
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That's what I think that OCD was for and I just started reading and there was times where I didn't understand what I was reading because I wasn't connected spiritually close enough to be able to understand.
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Yeah.
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In order for you to be able to discern everything the father's trying to tell you you have to be close to the father if you're not close to the father it's it's like what's going on here?
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Yeah.
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Anyway so there was times where I'd read it and I was like bro what does this mean like no clue.
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Yeah six months would pass something would happen and the spirit would tell me remember that thing seven months ago six months ago that you read that you didn't understand that word.
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Here it is wow this is what it's for and then he will let you see it and yes and I understand so I did that for a year then that led me to watching Stephen Furtick sermons for almost all the time and that's when the spirit started coming alive in me the accident taught me to look to the Lord and always be grateful and and to understand that everything is a blessing in every moment.
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Yes but I started understanding more about the spirit more about the word in that one year that I committed so that's where the change within me began began.
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Wow right so that's why it's kind of hard because there isn't I mean the the the moment that my sister's accident happened triggered it but the process took a lot longer because it was every day God I'm gonna have to read this devotional I don't want to read this devotional brokay I'm gonna read it I'm just read it and that's when I think the change the changing of Juan happened and I found the value in what it did for me and I wanted everybody to experience what I experienced.
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Wow so that's why I started sending them out wow and if I show you my phone it's like brother you will not you do not understand what these devotionals do for me.
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Yeah wow and that's when the Lord starts working through you no matter what your life has been wow you know you're describing John 9 you're literally describing what happened to the blind man so check this out previous to John 9 Jesus had give had a lame man that couldn't walk he gave him the ability to walk okay that's one example we're talking about John 9 he gives a blind man sight.
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When that blind man received sight he had gratitude and he started proclaiming to everybody including the religious leaders they were very upset because Jesus had healed them on Sabbath he started proclaiming he started telling everybody he kept telling everybody this man healed me right two instances two miracles but two different responses one of them was ungrateful one of them told on Jesus to the Pharisees so that they were persecute him the other was grateful and stood his ground and said I was healed by this man then there was a second encounter Jesus appears to him after he is healed and after he physically sees and he tells him do you know who healed you and he said he reveals himself to him as Jesus as the Messiah what the man does is he worships him he began to worship him so this tells me something the lame man it never says Jesus appear to him again the other man Jesus appears to him gratitude opened the door for Jesus to continue to work in his life and through that he kept seeing right because think about this he was blind so he had to go through a process where he could see things and understand what he was looking at kind of like you were saying you were reading the word you didn't understand you're like what does this mean Jesus is giving you sight not only physical sight you know like in this case what happened that big event but he's giving you spiritual sight in the process and that's a process it doesn't happen immediately and that's the thing like with this John 9 we sometimes think it's instant it is the big event but then there's a process here here here's here's and this is what people don't understand bro and please correct me because this is stuff that I think that sometimes I wonder if I'm right I wonder if I'm wrong I think somewhere in the in the word in the the the it says that Jesus can do no more miracles because of lack of faith.
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Lack of belief yeah yes it's God we're talking about yeah okay people want miracles they want the change to happen they want to see God's work be done but they forget to remember that an action has to be taken by you God could have opened the blind man's eyes on that spot but he says go wash yes if he does not have the faith to go wash and doesn't go doesn't take that action it doesn't come to play that's right right yes so I don't know what it was okay that took me to that moment to say gosh I'm just gonna be a devotional I I don't understand I don't even remember where I got that devotional list from it's an email that comes every every night at 10 a 10 p.m I'm sorry and I read it the following morning I remember how I found it where it's at it's called Seven C's Ministry something I don't know what it's called anyway it took that action by me the Lord was telling me what to do but he is a gentleman he's not gonna force me to do anything right so it takes that action and that's what people fail to fail to see sometimes the Lord wants to do something with he wants to heal you yeah yes are you listening are you obeying because everybody says they have faith but faith without works is dead yeah the layman if the blind man doesn't go wash he probably doesn't receive sight we're talking about God God can say open your eyes and boop immediately it happens yeah no but it took the work it took the action to get it done so there's and I don't know why this is the third time that I think about this um people this is for este like afterwards like this this is so crazy and and and it's I speak very openly about my life somebody told me and this is this is so impactful I was a I was at a business meeting of all things and um I met this guy through oh god it goes back to the devotionals it's crazy I've spoken very openly about my addictions about my drugs about my infidelities about everything obviously this is stuff that I'm proud of but I know that this message is gonna hit somebody that's going through the same thing or went through the same thing.
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Right so I don't remember how I met this guy or how I knew him oh he he worked at a carniceria up here off of Arlington turns out the guy got really bad into alcohol and drugs and he would find in what I would speak hope.
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So one day I would go and get carne off of him I I I'd write to him and say I'm a carnalista so I wouldn't have to wait and that's that was it sometimes whatever he he wouldn't charge me wouldn't want to give it to whatever that's not the point the point is hey kompa prepared me one day on a Sunday he texts me and he says and I said oh I'm at the gym send me the address it seems so random yeah and I sent him the address and he gets there with the carne de a charola de carne I said I just came to give this to you and I said why and he says because I try to take my life I was on drugs and I was an alcohol and your story your story touched me very deeply and you were the light I needed you were what I will see to be able to get out of where I was at I didn't know the impact one's words could have right so I started sending him the devotionals every day so I put him on the list and I started sending the devotionals every day he says man bro no sabes cuanto me ido cuanto me ida okay so I meet this man his boss uh very successful guy very very very successful guy and for the business that I do now I'm sitting in front of him and he asks me Juan why are you doing this business?
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And I broke down this isn't a business meeting a 45 year old man crying yeah and he says his the guy's name is Arturo the guy that that brought me the charola he says Arturo told me what to do for him wow he says this goes for for people that are watching the most powerful thing you're ever gonna have in your life is your testimony because you don't know whose life you're gonna touch and that's when you don't comprehend the Lord literally uses everything he does alcoholic drug addict for twenty years we met because my wife and I were on the brink of divorce because I was just you know so entonces para que veas hasta ese momento del pleito de mi mujer y yo I sat with you after uh after that church it brings you to this God is still using that moment for this so what he said really resonated I was like wait the biggest the most powerful thing I'm ever gonna have because he's a believer most powerful thing I'm ever gonna have in life is my testimony so I I need to speak this openly so it got me to thinking further and deeper and deeper for example my wife I was a horrible husband I don't know a worse husband than me one could think how is what she went through a blessing the blessing wasn't for her it's for the people she's gonna touch with her testimony yes so that's why we really have to be aware every moment that the Lord allows you to breathe is a blessing.
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Whether you understand it or see it or not it is a blessing my sister Jenny would always tell me brother please you have so much talent stop drinking stop using drugs take care of your body stop cheating on your wife let her be happy let her live in life she couldn't teach me what she taught me in death wow Juan that's you know what's crazy man I I just I'm a landscaper by trade okay so a lot of the time God talks through me through plants and stuff like that it looks awesome one day there was this agave agave are beautiful but that day it was particularly beautiful there was a stem coming outside of like from the middle of it and up on top there was this beautiful flower and then I felt God telling me that agave is about to die it's about to it's giving its most beautiful moment at the time of death and then he said and up on top that flower that you see it's seeds do you know what happened when the wind comes the seeds get spread and you know what happens when the seeds spread new life comes so on the surface it looks like death is happening which it is but the seed must die in order for there to be more life and as you're saying that it reminds me of that yeah because we don't understand that my sister really wanted me to be certain you could do you could do so much brother you just don't understand and it literally took her passing for me to learn that so if you're able if people are able to capture that moment and no matter what it is that you're going through yes thank you Jesus today thank you for today thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you for this fight that I'm going through with my with my wife this stuff that I don't understand thank you because I know you're doing something amazing right now every day I know bro every day I know that either God's gonna do something amazing in my life or something through my life that day wow every day people say bro where do you how do you wake up like that they asked me this what's today Sunday they asked me this Friday why do you how do you how do you how do you wake up with that and I said bro like he's brought me through so much right I I didn't think I would live past 23 I I I thought I'd overdose I'd been shot multiple times I was just my life wasn't you know and he's had so much grace and so much love and he's nurtured and taken care of me so much I know that every day he's gonna do something awesome in my life or through it every single day and it is so beautiful to be able to wake up like that every morning.
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Doesn't matter what's going on wow man Juan going back to this John 9 moment before the miracle even happens Jesus' disciples asked him a question they said why is that my man blind who sinned did he sin or did his parents sin this is what Jesus said it was neither it was meant for the glory of God so a lot of the times we don't understand what we're going through but at the end if we anchor ourselves on Romans 828 like you were saying and we truly believe and we could be grateful God will work everything according to what's good and we don't understand because it says his thoughts are higher than our thoughts his ways are higher than our ways so how could something so horrible turn into something so beautiful only when you're anchored on God you could truly see only when Jesus is the center of your life will you truly gain sight and that's what happened in this story the religious leaders had Jesus the messiah they were waiting for the messiah they missed him why because they were so puffed up with knowledge they were so puffed up in their pride and in their ways that they missed Jesus but here was this man the blind man not only did he see Jesus physically but he saw him in the spirit and that's what I believe happened to you not only that but Jesus gave him this huge responsibility after he healed him his responsibility was to go and tell others of what he had done and he did do that because the layman had the same had the same um assignment but he wasn't grateful so he couldn't do it and as you're telling me you're already doing that one and with this business and where everything where God put you your testimony is only gonna be magnified because you cannot have a testimony without the test needs to be tested and that's not popular belief we don't like to hear that we don't like to hear that faith has to be tested because on the other side of it is beauty and that's what I see in your life after the test you understand in the moment of course you don't in the moment it's hard but when you hang on to Jesus it all makes sense and sometimes it takes years and it takes a process so I see that in your life so beautifully man.
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Bro and and I've spoken to people about this before and and you know people it's so easy for us to get lost in the moment it's so easy to be going through a problem and say man I'm this isn't gonna end I'm not gonna get out of this I I don't have the strength I can't do it and I always tell people that that that tell me something let me invite you to something I I don't like I don't live my life in the past but I guarantee you that there's moments in your life where you felt this exact same way that you felt you didn't have the courage the belief the strength the the the wherewithal to be able to get to that problem look back and you'll go you'll be able to find a bunch of moments that God that you felt that way and God brought you through them and you're here today it's good the same thing's gonna happen today right but you also have to look back and be able to say you know what thank you because I forgot I forgot that you brought me through that I forgot that that um that that that you allowed me to go through and my favorite worship song is not a very popular one I don't know if it's popular because there's huge worship songs but it's called Here Again Here Again.
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And I remember so vividly it was at Oasis Church in LA.
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The first time I hear this song.
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And there's a part of the song where it says, Not for a minute was I forsaken.
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The Lord is playing.
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We forget to see it.
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There's not a more powerful sentence to worship Tom for me.
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Not for a minute was I forsaken.
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The Lord is in this place.
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The Lord is in this place.
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This place is this.
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So I thought my life was because I've lived a crazy life, bro.
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I've lived I've had I've had more fun than ten human beings should have ever had, right?
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The beauty of my life has been through the pain.
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Right?
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It has been through the pain and I but because I was willing to look for it.
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Because it's there for everybody if you're willing to look for it.
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Now that's why when people, bro, how did you do it?
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I'm not smart enough.
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I'm not gifted enough.
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I'm not talented enough.
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Just no other way to say it, right?
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You know what, Juan, you're it it always blows my mind how God could say David was a man after my own heart.
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Because when you look at David's resume in the Bible, I mean this guy killed a dude, you know, he cheated.
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Like, like when you look at him, you're like, how could God say that?
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Yeah, right.
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You know what he had though?
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He had humility in his heart to look up, say thank you, and worship.
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And only when you have that, that's the open door to truly see Jesus in that way, man.
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And that's what's going on in your life.
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Yeah, and it's and it's this beautiful reverence.
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I love that song by the way.
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But that song describes the moment of coming to the presence of the Lord.
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God is holy one.
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And and when we read in the scriptures of the tabernacle, there was something that had to happen.
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The people, before they came to the presence of the Lord, they had to go through a process of purification before they could truly see the Lord.
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And it says this it says that sometimes if the priests would go to the presence of the Lord, they would tie a rope on them because sometimes the priest would die and they would fall before their feet and they would just drag them with the rope because they're like, if we go in there, we're gonna die too.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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And I would always think that's kind of cruel.
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Why?
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But it says that we are to consecrate ourselves before the presence of the Lord, and in that song, that's exactly what it says.
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We come to the presence of the Lord knowing that He is God, knowing that He is holy, and knowing that He is good, even though the situation doesn't look good.
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But that takes a posture of gratitude and reverence.
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And when we could do that, we will truly experience God.
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In the hard moments, man.
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Yeah.
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That's when it happens.
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The beauty in the hard moments.
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Yep, and and and I I really hope, and and I was speaking about it.
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Uh God, when was it?
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Yeah, it was Friday.
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I was talking about forget the success.
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You can make money a ton of ways, bro.
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Like that I've known people, I've known millionaires that are broken inside that are empty.
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Yeah.
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And I was God, I don't know, I don't remember where it was that I was speaking.
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I don't know if I was training, because I train all over the offices, all over the nation now.
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And I was like, I just hope you can live this moment in your life one day.
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So my hope the Lord gives you the opportunity.
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Because I speak about God.
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I got to where I got to, and um my business name Firm Family Foundation is the three crosses.
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Why?
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Because I believe he's a foundation of everything, every training that I give.
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This isn't a business setting I pray.
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If it bothers you, bro, I'm sorry if it bothers you, bro, but I'm not gonna bother.
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Um I'd rather it bother you than him.
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I'd rather you get upset than him be hurt.
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I'm not gonna deny him in any way.
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My business cards, but why would you put the crosses?
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What if it eliminates business?
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Are you kidding me, bro?
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Are you telling me I'm gonna deny him because I'm gonna lose a business, bro?
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Take all the business away, it doesn't matter.
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So I I uh I I tell him, I just hope you live this moment.
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I hope every human being is allowed to live the moment that I'm living, not the success, because success you can find, success you can find in a lot of ways.
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Yeah.
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That moment that the Lord has allowed me to live, just to be able it to every morning wake up and be so happy about life, so grateful about life, no matter what is going on, because I understand, I see now that everything he's gonna do is gonna be awesome.
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Because I'm not gonna do anything.
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I'm not gonna do anything.
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Everything that is gonna happen is gonna happen because he's watching, doing, allowing.
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All I all I pray to the Lord is God help me get Juan Rivera out of the way.
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Help me get me out of the way.
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Because I want to do Juan Rivera stuff.
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Yeah, you know, you know I'm Juan Rivera, I want to do Juan Rivera stuff.
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Help me get Juan Rivera out of the way so that I can my life can honor you.
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And um I thank God that um I'm forever gonna be a vessel that's gonna be learning.
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Yeah, learning and growing.
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And the day that I don't, God, the day that I feel that I'm not that if I I pray that I never get there, and if I get there, please just take me home.
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Because it will and that's why, bro, like I didn't know, you know, you you let me know, Juan, you don't understand.
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See, that's the John 9 moment exactly.
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Um, like people, uh and I and I and and uh I say this in a humble manner, I as humble as it can be.
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People ask me for interviews all the time, bro.
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All the time.
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People haven't seen me in an interview in a long, long time.
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Never done an interview at six in the morning.
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And and and you know, uh whenever I see a text from you, I am a hundred percent sure it's something from the Lord.
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That's awesome for you for somebody to see.
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Whenever Albert texts me, I know it's something from God.
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Wow.
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Uh that's I know it's gonna be something good, right?
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So when you said he, bro, can we do it for sure, for sure, whatever, you know?
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And and I really hope that this touches somebody's life because I just want my life to be that.
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You know.
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Wow.
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Well, thank you, Juan.
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Thank you for saying yes, and thank you for sharing the way you did.
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And I'm glad you didn't prepare how you said it.
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I'm glad that we were just able to talk openly and authentically, whatever God gave us.
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And I do know it's gonna help somebody.
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And I want to direct myself to you that is listening.
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As you heard Juan's story, and as you heard how Jesus has come into his life, it started with this earthquake-sized event that led to a process that was painful.
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The earthquake was painful, the moment that that changed his life forever was very painful, the process was painful, but all in all, he was able to see Jesus because of one thing: gratitude, Jesus, and knowing and trusting that it will all work out just like Romans 8 28.
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And I believe that's why God gave you that scripture so that it would be an anchor in your life, one.
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Everything works out for the good of those who love the Lord and are anchored to him.
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So as you hear this story, I I pray that it inspires you.
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I pray that if you're going through a hard time and you're questioning God and you're fighting with him, let that go.
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Surrender to him and he will make a way.
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Would you agree, Juan?
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It's it's I think it's the biggest change in my life, bro.
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Just be about, hey, I don't know, but I don't need to, and I trust you.
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And I thank you for whatever is gonna come out, because whatever it is that you're doing that I don't understand, I know it's gonna be awesome.
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I it's like it's just it's it's but it's a beautiful way to live life, bro.
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It is a beautiful way to live life.
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So thank you, Juan.
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Thank you, brother.
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Thank you, Jesus.
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Yeah, it was awesome, and that's why I just I don't like to prepare because I like it to come out just the way it is.
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I like the conversation.
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I don't want to think about it because the more you think about it is when I say, How do we get that dude out of the way?
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Because I don't want to try to sound too eloquent.
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No, you put here what I need to say, and it's just gonna come out.
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A vessel.
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So a vessel.
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Thank you, Juan.
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Thank you, bro.
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This was amazing.
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Praise the Lord.
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I hope, I hope it it touches, it touches somebody, and and and and if I can, like I really invite you that are watching.
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And I and I say this so often.
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We all go through struggles, we all go through problems, we all go through stuff we don't understand, we all go to things that we think we don't deserve.
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Um, first of all, I and look at just the difference, bro.
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I'm far blessed more than I ever deserve.
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I'll never deserve what the Lord has given me.
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I don't deserve to be breathing right now.
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Yeah, right.
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I have a beautiful wife of 31 years, I have four children, I have just become a grandparent.
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I I don't even think about the material stuff that God has given me because whether I had that stuff or not, the life that He's given me has been so beautiful.
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Even the hard moments that He's allowed me to live through are so are such beautiful testimonies in the story that He gave me in my life.
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Right.
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So I tell people, if you could just find it, just make a deal with you.
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And why do I say a deal with you?
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Because at the end of the day, this is for you.
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No matter what's going on, no matter what is happening, no matter what the situation is, just every day.
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Please don't start by asking God for stuff.
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Please first say thank you.
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Thank you.
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Thank you, thank you.
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And I tell I tell the people that I work with, mate, like we're so ungrateful at times.
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Make a list.
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I invite you to make a list and write down all the bad stuff in your life.
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Write it down.
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But then I also invite you to make that same list of every beautiful thing you have in life.
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The smallest things that you don't appreciate, the fact that you're breathing, the fact that you could walk, the fact that you could hear, the fact that that that that that you have a home, the fact that you have food to eat, the fact that your kids are breathing, that your kids are alive, that your kids are healthy, that the Lord's gonna do something great there in life.
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Write everything down and you will see that the good things in life are so much greater than the little things that we decide to focus on.
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And I remember when I was going through this situation and um I I decided to leave media, I decided to leave social media, and then something wanted to pull me back in.
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Uh, it was a negative thing.
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And I said, wait a minute.
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Am I gonna be so ungrateful to the Lord that I'm gonna focus on this one negative thing and not focus on all the beautiful things he's given me?
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Let that go.
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I'm gonna focus on the beautiful things.
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So if you're one, I invite you to do that.
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Make that list, and you'll see if you're able to look and say, Oh my God, what a blessed life I live, and I'm complaining about this.
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Yeah.
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Right?
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And if you're able to do that and you do that exercise, and then you go and in the mornings, instead of complaining, yeah, you bring your pains and your sorrows and your worries to the Lord.
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But also, don't leave.
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God, thank you for waking me up today.
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Thank you for letting me see today.
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Thank you for allowing my kids to be underneath my roof, my wife and my kids to be healthy.
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Thank you for the work.
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Like you might not be making the money that you want, but you still got work, you still got a way to sustain your family.
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Yes.
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Think about all this stuff.
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Bring that to the Lord.
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Bring first, you know, the fruits.
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Right?
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Thank you, Jesus.
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Thank you for this.
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Thank you for that.
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And then don't complain about the stuff that's going on.
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Thank you, Lord, because you're allowing me to live this, because you're you're closer to me than ever, because you're gonna teach me a lesson that's gonna change my life.
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Man, your house your outlook on life is so different.
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That's so powerful.
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Because at that point, God just becomes so big.
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Yeah, well, okay.
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Your problems just become so small.
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Yeah.
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And now you're empowered by the spirit because that gratitude just empowers you.
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So that's for you.
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And and and that worship.
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Yes, like I I I like uh uh at our uh in our in our business, and uh it's not that I'm trying to talk about the business, it's just what I'm living now so much.
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They say, like um, God Juan, it's so awesome to hear you speak all the time.
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There's so much gratitude in you, bro.
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Every day, every day, every day, every day, the Lord's gonna do something awesome.
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I may not see it today, but I know he's gonna do something awesome today.
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I don't understand what it's gonna be.
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I don't know where it's gonna be.
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I don't know if this message is gonna be heard by somebody in three years.
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Yes, right?
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Yes, but the Lord is doing something awesome in this moment, right?
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And somebody's eyes, bro.
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I complain so much about my wife.
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I complain so much about my wife, I complain so much of my wife.
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Thank God I have a wife.
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Yeah, yes, right?
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Thank God I have a woman that has given me children.
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Thank God I have a woman that is in that has been there with me in the most difficult times.
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Thank God I have a wife that has supported me, that has been there for me when nobody else.
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Somebody's gonna hear us say, you know what, maybe and and sometimes we don't see how ungrateful we are.
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Yeah.
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Yes.
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And it's uh you know, I I just thank God for this amazing life he's allowed me to live, and how long I'm gonna live it, I don't know.
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How long is he gonna have me here?
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I don't know, but as long as I am, hmm.
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Thank you.
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There's a song that says, As long as I have breath in my lungs, I will praise you.
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Qual is praise?
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Oh it's called It says, As long as I have breath in my lungs, I will praise you.
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Okay, so I heard that song.
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Where were my wife and I?
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Where were we?
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I heard it for the first time.
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Oh, the founder of our office got baptized last Sunday, and they were singing that song, praise, and that song has a part like not for a minute was I forsaken.
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It's similar to that.
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It says something similar to that.
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I'm glad you reminded me because I was gonna go look for for for it because I got touched so deeply when I was hearing it.
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You know, that song stuff.
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Yeah.
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That's beautiful.
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Yeah, bro.
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Man, thank you again, Juan.
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Thank you, bro.
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Appreciate you.
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Yes, sir.
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Anytime, invite me again.
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Let's do it again.
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Let me know.
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We'll see you next time.
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Welcome back to another episode of Conversations at the Table.
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Joining me today is my friend Juan.
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Yes, sir.
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Juan, thank you for joining us.
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Thank you, brother.
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I asked you a question before coming.
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I said, Juan, what is your John 9 moment?
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A moment that Jesus came into your life that transformed you and that made you just want to proclaim his name.
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Have you meditated on that?
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Yeah.
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See, well, first thanks.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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Thank you for having me.
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Este probably the contrary belief for what people know.
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I love talking about this stuff because I like to be very transparent.
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Yes.
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I truly believe that every moment that I live is a blessing.
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Whether it's for me or for somebody else, it's a blessing.
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Yes.
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Sometimes we don't understand why things happen to us.
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We don't understand why the Lord allows things to happen to us.
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But it doesn't matter what happens to us.
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He knows what's going on.
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He knows what he's doing.
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And the the stuff that I go through, whether it hurts me or not, whether I understand it or not, is going to be used by him for a blessing.
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Yes.
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Whatever it is, every moment that I breathe.
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Yes.
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Okay.
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And if we are aware, we're able to be aware of this, we could see the amazing things the Lord does.
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Okay.
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Why does this happen to me?
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Why is this going on?
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Why this?
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Why that?
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Why that?
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You never are able to capture the beauty of everything that's going on.
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Okay?
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Yes.
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So my draw nine is hard to define.
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Okay.
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Because there's so many things that have impacted my life.
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Okay?
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Yes.
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When you first think about it, when you first think about it, obviously it would be my sister's accident.
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Okay?
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When Jenny passed away.
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Yes.
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And why would why would it be that?
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Because that's on the surface level, it's easy to see.
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Right?
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You asked me this question and you told me to process it.
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And I've been doing this for a great part of my life.
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Speaking is easy to me.
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Yeah.
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And when we would go to interviews, ever since I could remember, I never wanted to know the questions up front.
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And the reason I didn't want to know the questions up front is because I didn't want to get Juan in the way.
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I didn't want Juan to come through.
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And Juan wanting to sound correct or be smart or say the correct thing, I wanted it to come from deep within me.
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To be authentic.
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Yes.
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I wanted it to be the the true the true answer.
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Yes.
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On something like this, I heard the question that day and I shut it off.
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And I shut it off.
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Why?
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Because I wanted the Holy Spirit to speak.
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That's powerful.
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Right?
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Yes.
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So entonces on the surface, it'd be December 9th, 2012.
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Why?
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Because of what my family went through.
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Yes.
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My sister passing, so many things that we lived that day and those moments.
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The incredible growth that came out of that.
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Right.
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The incredible growth that came out of that.
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And like I said, December 9th is the hardest day in our life.
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Yes.
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It's the most glorious day for Jenny.
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Because he's in the present.
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Of course.
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Yes.
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We fail to remember that.
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Yes.
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Okay?
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Yes.
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And that day, whether we want to see it or not, that's when you're able to catch.
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That's that something changed in Juan in that moment.
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My family was going through so much.
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I had a very close relationship with my sister, thank God.
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My nieces and my nephews, because of the relationship Jenny and I had, asked me to be the one to go bring her home.
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Okay.
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Wow.
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When they said, uh Theo, um, we need you to bring my mom home.
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I didn't go for a body.
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Okay.
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I still thought my sister was alive.
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What drove me crazy was the thought that my sister could be hurt in a forest, that she jumped out of the plane, whatever.
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When I get to the site of the accident, I see the magnitude of what happened.
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Of what happened.
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That whole situation changed my perspective on life.
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And that's why I say you never know where the blessings are if you're not willing to see them.
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Wow.
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Okay?
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Yes.
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So we get there, uh, we go, gosh, I don't remember what a day it was.
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It might have been Tuesday.
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Monday night, Tuesday morning.
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Uh she passed away on a Sunday.
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So it might have been Monday night, Tuesday morning.
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And um uh I want to go directly to the site of the accident.
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I remember being with my brothers, and my brothers telling me let's go make my sister a cross, and my brother Lupe is saying, Well, we could order a meadow and being made.
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I said, No, bro, it's it doesn't feel right.
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He says, Why not?
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That's our sister.
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That cross should be made by our hands, nobody else should make that.
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And I don't know if I put my family through hard hard pain because of my thought process.
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Uh we go to a wood place, we choose two pieces of wood, we cut the wood, we get the ground, I don't know what they're called, like they make designs, I don't know what's the correct word, and we etch the name onto her cross and everything.
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We paint it, everything, right?
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We put it together.
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The day that um we're supposed to go, I see the we go see the rescue team that went to go look for my sister.
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And um we leave at five in the morning.
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Ironically enough, it was a foggy morning.
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We almost hit the same mountain that my sister passed away at in the helicopter.
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Oh wow.
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When you get it.
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We were barely able to lift up over the mountain because it was foggy and we were headed straight.
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Okay.
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Yeah.
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So we almost hit the same mountain.
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We get there, land on top because it was a canyon, it was in between mountains.
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And I told the pilot or the person in charge, please take me to where my sister's plane hit.
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And uh it's crazy.
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I I it's been 13 years, I've never had this conversation the way I'm gonna have it.
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Yeah.
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And este we land up top, we walk down like 45 minutes, then we said, take him in, and he says, It's over there.
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And I said, How do you know it's there?
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And he said, Because that's where it's still burning the hottest.
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So what does that mean?
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That means that the plane hit there, all the whatever, whatever, the fuel, yeah, stayed centered there, yes, and it continued to burn deep inside there.
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So I said, take me there.
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Because that's where I wanted us to leave the cross.
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So I walked down and then walked back up, and because it was down to back up, like 45 minutes, an hour, hour and a half.
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Ah, hour 15, 45 and 30.
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And the craziest thing happened, bro.
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And only my brother Gus and I went, and I don't remember if my brother Gus recorded, but I didn't want to.
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Yeah.
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I know this moment would stay alive in the rest of my life forever because of what I was living.
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Right.
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And it was like the scene of a movie.
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Pieces of airplane everywhere.
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Wow.
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Uh clothes, um my sister's eyelashes.
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Um I didn't want to touch anything.
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Right.
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Because I didn't know what belonged to who, and I didn't want to disrespect anybody.
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So I would see all this stuff and and I just wouldn't touch it.
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Either way, it's crazy.
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We get to where the plane hit.
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And people are not gonna believe this.
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It's crazy, bro.
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There was one page of a Bible floating right above the side of the accident.
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Wow.
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And it would not move.
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Wow.
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Okay, it was just like hovering.
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Yes.
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And I told my brother Gus, bro, you see that?
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I was like, it was crazy, it was surreal.
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Yeah.
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It was Romans 8.28.
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Okay.
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Okay.
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It was um, it was a uh Joyce Meyer Bible that my sister Rosie gave to Jenny, and that page stayed there.
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Like it really seems like it's from a movie the page is complete, it's perfectly burned around the edges.
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Like if it was done on purpose.
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And that and that's where you see, that's where it could be read.
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Yeah, yes, and and it was 828s, and uh, and I think uh it was something in regards to everything uh happens.
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Everything works for those who love the Lord, yes, yes.
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So and in that Joyce Mayer version, like there was like a little breakdown, okay, and it says stand firm and without fear.
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Wow.
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Okay, so if if I don't do music anymore, but my last album was titled Fear Me Sin Temor.
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So on the surface, that situation with my sister changed my life.
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Yeah.
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I come back home, we recognize her remains, we bring them home.
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Um, we had never lost anybody.
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I remember leaving and my mom walking out saying, uh, Hijo, bring my daughter home.
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You guys are strong, man.
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Please bring my daughter home.
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And I said, Mom, I'll be back in three days.
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Yeah.
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Why I chose three days, I don't know.
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I didn't know what I was saying at that time.
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How did I know we were gonna find her in three days?
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All I said is we'll be back in three days.
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And good enough, we came back on the third day, and I walk in, and all I see was my mom's she saw in her eyes what had happened.
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Yeah, and her face just dropped, and I understood what what pain was at that moment.
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I didn't know what pain was at that moment.
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Uh my dad's reaction, strongest man I know, yeah, just broken.
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Um my little sister, Rosie fellow her niece.
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But the the the ugliest part was my nieces and nephews.
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The hopelessness, I could like see my s my nephew Johnny's face, just the pain in his eyes.
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So at that moment, that very moment, I knew I I don't have the luxury to feel what I feel.
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Right?
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Because I went from having four kids to having nine.
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Wow.
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And for whatever reason, I was the youngest and I felt like my family wasn't looking to me.
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So breaking was not an option.
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Yeah.
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Yes.
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At some point in time, my my family needed us find strength.
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And I try to portray like I have it, even though I did it.
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So I really had a look in him.
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And then in in this whole moment, because you can face a loss however you want.
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You can be confused, upset, angry, hurt, whatever it is.
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Yes.
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And I don't know what came into me that I decided to say thank you.
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Wow.
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I don't understand why, but thank you.
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I don't wanna question you, I don't wanna have discussions, I don't wanna be upset.
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So instead, I I came to the realization, and that's why I learned to understand that everything is for a blessing, whether you understand it or not.
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So I came to the realization before she was my mom's daughter, before she was our sister, before she was the artist to the world, before she was the mother to my nieces and nephews, she was God's child.
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Yes, and he knows better for her than we do.
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That's when I said December 9th is her most glorious day.
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She no longer feels what she felt when she lived here, she no longer suffers what she suffered when she lived here.
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Her body is healthy, she's in the presence of the Lord.
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That's Jenny's biggest victory.
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Yes.
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And I still decided to say instead of anything else, thank you for letting me be her little brother.
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Wow.
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Wow.
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Wow.
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Wow.
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Thank you for sharing that, man.
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So wow I was able to turn the pain into gratitude.
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Yes.
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And since then.
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When did Juan change?
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There was a process because I continue to drink, I drank some, I consumed drugs, I started smoking a lot.
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And but I knew no matter what was going on, I was able to find in that moment that no matter what I'm going through, thank you, Jesus.
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Wow.
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So no matter if I'm fighting with my wife, no matter business is rough, no matter if I'm feeling alone, if I'm feeling down, if I'm feeling, thank you, Jesus, just thank you, just thank you, just thank you, just thank you.
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Doesn't matter what happens.
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Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you.
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And I found that your perspective on life changes.
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Wow, it's totally different.
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No matter what you're going through, if you're able to find within you the gratitude to say, thank you for the smiles, thank you for the tears, thank you for the good moments, thank you for the battles that I've won.
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Jesus Christ, thank you for the battles that I've lost.
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It changes the way you look at life.
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Yeah, yeah.
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So I think on surface level, it may be that.
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Wow, but I think my biggest change um just came gradually after that, little by little.
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Okay, so that was the moment I think that was the trigger moment that catapulted to everything else.
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Yeah, wow.
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There's a powerful word which is remember, right?
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When the Israelites were set from Egypt, they went through a process of going through the desert.
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There was a moment right before they got into the promised land that God told Joshua, tell the people to grab stones and stack them upon each other so that they could cross the river, the river would be open to them, and they could cross over to the other side of the promised land.
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And he said this: He said, The reason why you're lifting up those stones is that you would remember and you would tell generations to come what the Lord did for you in that hard season of letting you become free, because it was hard what they went through.
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But he said, Those monuments are for you to remember, and as you're saying that it just reminds me of that because it's not easy what you went through and what your family went through, but it is something that you could go back to and remember, and even though it makes no sense to human logic, how could you be grateful for something so horrible?
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How could you worship God when something so horrible happens?
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But in that comes alive that scripture that you saw, Romans 8.28, for everything works out for those who love the Lord.
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And when your heart is positioned in a place of gratitude, change happens, but it's only through that, Juan.
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It's that that monument that God built through this really hard season of you guys going through that.
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Wow.
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And see, and it's crazy.
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Check this out, brother.
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And I remember my sister so so vividly.
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My sister, I was nine.
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Jenny was nine when I was born.
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My mom worked at a plastic factory at Tushua Meat.
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It was a typical um Mexican family.
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Mom and dad are working.
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Somebody has to take care of the kid.
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You figure it out.
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Yeah.
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So Jenny at the age of nine became like my mom.
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I grew up at the age of 14.
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She's 23.
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At 14, I was almost this size.
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I was a big kid.
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I was real crazy.
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I protected her.
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Our relationship and our bond was very, very, very close.
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And um as hard as it is, you know, I I thank God that I was able to live that.
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How can you be grateful for that?
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He decided to let me live that.
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Yes.
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Because see, people don't understand, people don't comprehend, they want every blessing to be for them.
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God allows you to go through stuff so sometimes the blessing could be for somebody else through you.
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Yes.
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Right.
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And I had to go through that to be able to understand life, to be able to understand whatever I could, and just be able to live life in a different manner.
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Not in perfect, not perfect.
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That's never gonna exist in me or anybody.
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Anybody, right?
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But to be able to say in because if you could say thank you in the hardest moments, imagine in victory.
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I um heard this Stephen Furtick is my favorite preacher.
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And I heard a sermon that said, if you can't carry the problem, you're not ready for the blessing.
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Wow.
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Right?
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So I was I had to find a way to carry that.
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And there was times where um I looked to alcohol and stuff, you know.
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I just wanted to drown myself or whatever.
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And but that moment definitely defined something.
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different.
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I went through some hard times after, but at some point in time I and I wish I remember when it happened, but I don't.
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At some point in time I start I can't I started to use again after that.
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And I promised myself.
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I made a deal with me.
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I made a deal with the Lord.
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So it doesn't matter what I'm going through, it doesn't matter what it is, I'm gonna read a devotional every day.
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Every day every day.
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Were you on the list when I would send them because then okay.
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Yeah.
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I would get them.
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I still read them, I still watch the sermon, I just forget to send them.
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And that's something that I shouldn't permit because those devotionals changed my life.
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Yeah.
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So I made a deal with myself Juan, you're not gonna miss a day without reading a devotional.
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Yeah.
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No matter if you're loaded, no matter if you're drunk, no matter if you're hungover, no matter what it is, you're gonna read that devotional.
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Yeah.
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And then the Lord allowed me to, I think, create this OCD where I would see numbers on my phone and it gave me sometimes I didn't want to read the devotional.
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Yeah.
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I just didn't want to.
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Yeah.
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But I hate seeing stuff on my phone and numbers of three emails on Reddit and it drive me nuts and one of those emails was the devotional.
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That you had to show up it was a reminder.
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I had to read it even if I chose not to come and I would feel disrespectful just to delete it and not read the word that was being given to me.
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Wow.
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That's what I think that OCD was for and I just started reading and there was times where I didn't understand what I was reading because I wasn't connected spiritually close enough to be able to understand.
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Yeah.
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In order for you to be able to discern everything the father's trying to tell you you have to be close to the father if you're not close to the father it's it's like what's going on here?
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Yeah.
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Anyway so there was times where I'd read it and I was like bro what does this mean like no clue.
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Yeah six months would pass something would happen and the spirit would tell me remember that thing seven months ago six months ago that you read that you didn't understand that word.
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Here it is wow this is what it's for and then he will let you see it and yes and I understand so I did that for a year then that led me to watching Stephen Furtick sermons for almost all the time and that's when the spirit started coming alive in me the accident taught me to look to the Lord and always be grateful and and to understand that everything is a blessing in every moment.
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Yes but I started understanding more about the spirit more about the word in that one year that I committed so that's where the change within me began began.
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Wow right so that's why it's kind of hard because there isn't I mean the the the moment that my sister's accident happened triggered it but the process took a lot longer because it was every day God I'm gonna have to read this devotional I don't want to read this devotional brokay I'm gonna read it I'm just read it and that's when I think the change the changing of Juan happened and I found the value in what it did for me and I wanted everybody to experience what I experienced.
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Wow so that's why I started sending them out wow and if I show you my phone it's like brother you will not you do not understand what these devotionals do for me.
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Yeah wow and that's when the Lord starts working through you no matter what your life has been wow you know you're describing John 9 you're literally describing what happened to the blind man so check this out previous to John 9 Jesus had give had a lame man that couldn't walk he gave him the ability to walk okay that's one example we're talking about John 9 he gives a blind man sight.
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When that blind man received sight he had gratitude and he started proclaiming to everybody including the religious leaders they were very upset because Jesus had healed them on Sabbath he started proclaiming he started telling everybody he kept telling everybody this man healed me right two instances two miracles but two different responses one of them was ungrateful one of them told on Jesus to the Pharisees so that they were persecute him the other was grateful and stood his ground and said I was healed by this man then there was a second encounter Jesus appears to him after he is healed and after he physically sees and he tells him do you know who healed you and he said he reveals himself to him as Jesus as the Messiah what the man does is he worships him he began to worship him so this tells me something the lame man it never says Jesus appear to him again the other man Jesus appears to him gratitude opened the door for Jesus to continue to work in his life and through that he kept seeing right because think about this he was blind so he had to go through a process where he could see things and understand what he was looking at kind of like you were saying you were reading the word you didn't understand you're like what does this mean Jesus is giving you sight not only physical sight you know like in this case what happened that big event but he's giving you spiritual sight in the process and that's a process it doesn't happen immediately and that's the thing like with this John 9 we sometimes think it's instant it is the big event but then there's a process here here here's here's and this is what people don't understand bro and please correct me because this is stuff that I think that sometimes I wonder if I'm right I wonder if I'm wrong I think somewhere in the in the word in the the the it says that Jesus can do no more miracles because of lack of faith.
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Lack of belief yeah yes it's God we're talking about yeah okay people want miracles they want the change to happen they want to see God's work be done but they forget to remember that an action has to be taken by you God could have opened the blind man's eyes on that spot but he says go wash yes if he does not have the faith to go wash and doesn't go doesn't take that action it doesn't come to play that's right right yes so I don't know what it was okay that took me to that moment to say gosh I'm just gonna be a devotional I I don't understand I don't even remember where I got that devotional list from it's an email that comes every every night at 10 a 10 p.m I'm sorry and I read it the following morning I remember how I found it where it's at it's called Seven C's Ministry something I don't know what it's called anyway it took that action by me the Lord was telling me what to do but he is a gentleman he's not gonna force me to do anything right so it takes that action and that's what people fail to fail to see sometimes the Lord wants to do something with he wants to heal you yeah yes are you listening are you obeying because everybody says they have faith but faith without works is dead yeah the layman if the blind man doesn't go wash he probably doesn't receive sight we're talking about God God can say open your eyes and boop immediately it happens yeah no but it took the work it took the action to get it done so there's and I don't know why this is the third time that I think about this um people this is for este like afterwards like this this is so crazy and and and it's I speak very openly about my life somebody told me and this is this is so impactful I was a I was at a business meeting of all things and um I met this guy through oh god it goes back to the devotionals it's crazy I've spoken very openly about my addictions about my drugs about my infidelities about everything obviously this is stuff that I'm proud of but I know that this message is gonna hit somebody that's going through the same thing or went through the same thing.
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Right so I don't remember how I met this guy or how I knew him oh he he worked at a carniceria up here off of Arlington turns out the guy got really bad into alcohol and drugs and he would find in what I would speak hope.
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So one day I would go and get carne off of him I I I'd write to him and say I'm a carnalista so I wouldn't have to wait and that's that was it sometimes whatever he he wouldn't charge me wouldn't want to give it to whatever that's not the point the point is hey kompa prepared me one day on a Sunday he texts me and he says and I said oh I'm at the gym send me the address it seems so random yeah and I sent him the address and he gets there with the carne de a charola de carne I said I just came to give this to you and I said why and he says because I try to take my life I was on drugs and I was an alcohol and your story your story touched me very deeply and you were the light I needed you were what I will see to be able to get out of where I was at I didn't know the impact one's words could have right so I started sending him the devotionals every day so I put him on the list and I started sending the devotionals every day he says man bro no sabes cuanto me ido cuanto me ida okay so I meet this man his boss uh very successful guy very very very successful guy and for the business that I do now I'm sitting in front of him and he asks me Juan why are you doing this business?
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And I broke down this isn't a business meeting a 45 year old man crying yeah and he says his the guy's name is Arturo the guy that that brought me the charola he says Arturo told me what to do for him wow he says this goes for for people that are watching the most powerful thing you're ever gonna have in your life is your testimony because you don't know whose life you're gonna touch and that's when you don't comprehend the Lord literally uses everything he does alcoholic drug addict for twenty years we met because my wife and I were on the brink of divorce because I was just you know so entonces para que veas hasta ese momento del pleito de mi mujer y yo I sat with you after uh after that church it brings you to this God is still using that moment for this so what he said really resonated I was like wait the biggest the most powerful thing I'm ever gonna have because he's a believer most powerful thing I'm ever gonna have in life is my testimony so I I need to speak this openly so it got me to thinking further and deeper and deeper for example my wife I was a horrible husband I don't know a worse husband than me one could think how is what she went through a blessing the blessing wasn't for her it's for the people she's gonna touch with her testimony yes so that's why we really have to be aware every moment that the Lord allows you to breathe is a blessing.
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Whether you understand it or see it or not it is a blessing my sister Jenny would always tell me brother please you have so much talent stop drinking stop using drugs take care of your body stop cheating on your wife let her be happy let her live in life she couldn't teach me what she taught me in death wow Juan that's you know what's crazy man I I just I'm a landscaper by trade okay so a lot of the time God talks through me through plants and stuff like that it looks awesome one day there was this agave agave are beautiful but that day it was particularly beautiful there was a stem coming outside of like from the middle of it and up on top there was this beautiful flower and then I felt God telling me that agave is about to die it's about to it's giving its most beautiful moment at the time of death and then he said and up on top that flower that you see it's seeds do you know what happened when the wind comes the seeds get spread and you know what happens when the seeds spread new life comes so on the surface it looks like death is happening which it is but the seed must die in order for there to be more life and as you're saying that it reminds me of that yeah because we don't understand that my sister really wanted me to be certain you could do you could do so much brother you just don't understand and it literally took her passing for me to learn that so if you're able if people are able to capture that moment and no matter what it is that you're going through yes thank you Jesus today thank you for today thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you for this fight that I'm going through with my with my wife this stuff that I don't understand thank you because I know you're doing something amazing right now every day I know bro every day I know that either God's gonna do something amazing in my life or something through my life that day wow every day people say bro where do you how do you wake up like that they asked me this what's today Sunday they asked me this Friday why do you how do you how do you how do you wake up with that and I said bro like he's brought me through so much right I I didn't think I would live past 23 I I I thought I'd overdose I'd been shot multiple times I was just my life wasn't you know and he's had so much grace and so much love and he's nurtured and taken care of me so much I know that every day he's gonna do something awesome in my life or through it every single day and it is so beautiful to be able to wake up like that every morning.
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Doesn't matter what's going on wow man Juan going back to this John 9 moment before the miracle even happens Jesus' disciples asked him a question they said why is that my man blind who sinned did he sin or did his parents sin this is what Jesus said it was neither it was meant for the glory of God so a lot of the times we don't understand what we're going through but at the end if we anchor ourselves on Romans 828 like you were saying and we truly believe and we could be grateful God will work everything according to what's good and we don't understand because it says his thoughts are higher than our thoughts his ways are higher than our ways so how could something so horrible turn into something so beautiful only when you're anchored on God you could truly see only when Jesus is the center of your life will you truly gain sight and that's what happened in this story the religious leaders had Jesus the messiah they were waiting for the messiah they missed him why because they were so puffed up with knowledge they were so puffed up in their pride and in their ways that they missed Jesus but here was this man the blind man not only did he see Jesus physically but he saw him in the spirit and that's what I believe happened to you not only that but Jesus gave him this huge responsibility after he healed him his responsibility was to go and tell others of what he had done and he did do that because the layman had the same had the same um assignment but he wasn't grateful so he couldn't do it and as you're telling me you're already doing that one and with this business and where everything where God put you your testimony is only gonna be magnified because you cannot have a testimony without the test needs to be tested and that's not popular belief we don't like to hear that we don't like to hear that faith has to be tested because on the other side of it is beauty and that's what I see in your life after the test you understand in the moment of course you don't in the moment it's hard but when you hang on to Jesus it all makes sense and sometimes it takes years and it takes a process so I see that in your life so beautifully man.
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Bro and and I've spoken to people about this before and and you know people it's so easy for us to get lost in the moment it's so easy to be going through a problem and say man I'm this isn't gonna end I'm not gonna get out of this I I don't have the strength I can't do it and I always tell people that that that tell me something let me invite you to something I I don't like I don't live my life in the past but I guarantee you that there's moments in your life where you felt this exact same way that you felt you didn't have the courage the belief the strength the the the wherewithal to be able to get to that problem look back and you'll go you'll be able to find a bunch of moments that God that you felt that way and God brought you through them and you're here today it's good the same thing's gonna happen today right but you also have to look back and be able to say you know what thank you because I forgot I forgot that you brought me through that I forgot that that um that that that you allowed me to go through and my favorite worship song is not a very popular one I don't know if it's popular because there's huge worship songs but it's called Here Again Here Again.
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And I remember so vividly it was at Oasis Church in LA.
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The first time I hear this song.
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And there's a part of the song where it says, Not for a minute was I forsaken.
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The Lord is playing.
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We forget to see it.
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There's not a more powerful sentence to worship Tom for me.
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Not for a minute was I forsaken.
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The Lord is in this place.
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The Lord is in this place.
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This place is this.
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So I thought my life was because I've lived a crazy life, bro.
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I've lived I've had I've had more fun than ten human beings should have ever had, right?
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The beauty of my life has been through the pain.
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Right?
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It has been through the pain and I but because I was willing to look for it.
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Because it's there for everybody if you're willing to look for it.
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Now that's why when people, bro, how did you do it?
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I'm not smart enough.
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I'm not gifted enough.
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I'm not talented enough.
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Just no other way to say it, right?
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You know what, Juan, you're it it always blows my mind how God could say David was a man after my own heart.
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Because when you look at David's resume in the Bible, I mean this guy killed a dude, you know, he cheated.
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Like, like when you look at him, you're like, how could God say that?
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Yeah, right.
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You know what he had though?
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He had humility in his heart to look up, say thank you, and worship.
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And only when you have that, that's the open door to truly see Jesus in that way, man.
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And that's what's going on in your life.
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Yeah, and it's and it's this beautiful reverence.
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I love that song by the way.
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But that song describes the moment of coming to the presence of the Lord.
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God is holy one.
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And and when we read in the scriptures of the tabernacle, there was something that had to happen.
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The people, before they came to the presence of the Lord, they had to go through a process of purification before they could truly see the Lord.
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And it says this it says that sometimes if the priests would go to the presence of the Lord, they would tie a rope on them because sometimes the priest would die and they would fall before their feet and they would just drag them with the rope because they're like, if we go in there, we're gonna die too.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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And I would always think that's kind of cruel.
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Why?
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But it says that we are to consecrate ourselves before the presence of the Lord, and in that song, that's exactly what it says.
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We come to the presence of the Lord knowing that He is God, knowing that He is holy, and knowing that He is good, even though the situation doesn't look good.
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But that takes a posture of gratitude and reverence.
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And when we could do that, we will truly experience God.
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In the hard moments, man.
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Yeah.
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That's when it happens.
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The beauty in the hard moments.
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Yep, and and and I I really hope, and and I was speaking about it.
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Uh God, when was it?
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Yeah, it was Friday.
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I was talking about forget the success.
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You can make money a ton of ways, bro.
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Like that I've known people, I've known millionaires that are broken inside that are empty.
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Yeah.
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And I was God, I don't know, I don't remember where it was that I was speaking.
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I don't know if I was training, because I train all over the offices, all over the nation now.
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And I was like, I just hope you can live this moment in your life one day.
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So my hope the Lord gives you the opportunity.
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Because I speak about God.
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I got to where I got to, and um my business name Firm Family Foundation is the three crosses.
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Why?
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Because I believe he's a foundation of everything, every training that I give.
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This isn't a business setting I pray.
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If it bothers you, bro, I'm sorry if it bothers you, bro, but I'm not gonna bother.
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Um I'd rather it bother you than him.
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I'd rather you get upset than him be hurt.
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I'm not gonna deny him in any way.
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My business cards, but why would you put the crosses?
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What if it eliminates business?
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Are you kidding me, bro?
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Are you telling me I'm gonna deny him because I'm gonna lose a business, bro?
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Take all the business away, it doesn't matter.
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So I I uh I I tell him, I just hope you live this moment.
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I hope every human being is allowed to live the moment that I'm living, not the success, because success you can find, success you can find in a lot of ways.
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Yeah.
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That moment that the Lord has allowed me to live, just to be able it to every morning wake up and be so happy about life, so grateful about life, no matter what is going on, because I understand, I see now that everything he's gonna do is gonna be awesome.
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Because I'm not gonna do anything.
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I'm not gonna do anything.
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Everything that is gonna happen is gonna happen because he's watching, doing, allowing.
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All I all I pray to the Lord is God help me get Juan Rivera out of the way.
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Help me get me out of the way.
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Because I want to do Juan Rivera stuff.
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Yeah, you know, you know I'm Juan Rivera, I want to do Juan Rivera stuff.
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Help me get Juan Rivera out of the way so that I can my life can honor you.
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And um I thank God that um I'm forever gonna be a vessel that's gonna be learning.
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Yeah, learning and growing.
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And the day that I don't, God, the day that I feel that I'm not that if I I pray that I never get there, and if I get there, please just take me home.
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Because it will and that's why, bro, like I didn't know, you know, you you let me know, Juan, you don't understand.
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See, that's the John 9 moment exactly.
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Um, like people, uh and I and I and and uh I say this in a humble manner, I as humble as it can be.
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People ask me for interviews all the time, bro.
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All the time.
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People haven't seen me in an interview in a long, long time.
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Never done an interview at six in the morning.
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And and and you know, uh whenever I see a text from you, I am a hundred percent sure it's something from the Lord.
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That's awesome for you for somebody to see.
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Whenever Albert texts me, I know it's something from God.
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Wow.
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Uh that's I know it's gonna be something good, right?
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So when you said he, bro, can we do it for sure, for sure, whatever, you know?
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And and I really hope that this touches somebody's life because I just want my life to be that.
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You know.
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Wow.
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Well, thank you, Juan.
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Thank you for saying yes, and thank you for sharing the way you did.
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And I'm glad you didn't prepare how you said it.
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I'm glad that we were just able to talk openly and authentically, whatever God gave us.
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And I do know it's gonna help somebody.
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And I want to direct myself to you that is listening.
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As you heard Juan's story, and as you heard how Jesus has come into his life, it started with this earthquake-sized event that led to a process that was painful.
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The earthquake was painful, the moment that that changed his life forever was very painful, the process was painful, but all in all, he was able to see Jesus because of one thing: gratitude, Jesus, and knowing and trusting that it will all work out just like Romans 8 28.
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And I believe that's why God gave you that scripture so that it would be an anchor in your life, one.
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Everything works out for the good of those who love the Lord and are anchored to him.
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So as you hear this story, I I pray that it inspires you.
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I pray that if you're going through a hard time and you're questioning God and you're fighting with him, let that go.
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Surrender to him and he will make a way.
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Would you agree, Juan?
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It's it's I think it's the biggest change in my life, bro.
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Just be about, hey, I don't know, but I don't need to, and I trust you.
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And I thank you for whatever is gonna come out, because whatever it is that you're doing that I don't understand, I know it's gonna be awesome.
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I it's like it's just it's it's but it's a beautiful way to live life, bro.
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It is a beautiful way to live life.
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So thank you, Juan.
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Thank you, brother.
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Thank you, Jesus.
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Yeah, it was awesome, and that's why I just I don't like to prepare because I like it to come out just the way it is.
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I like the conversation.
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I don't want to think about it because the more you think about it is when I say, How do we get that dude out of the way?
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Because I don't want to try to sound too eloquent.
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No, you put here what I need to say, and it's just gonna come out.
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A vessel.
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So a vessel.
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Thank you, Juan.
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Thank you, bro.
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This was amazing.
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Praise the Lord.
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I hope, I hope it it touches, it touches somebody, and and and and if I can, like I really invite you that are watching.
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And I and I say this so often.
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We all go through struggles, we all go through problems, we all go through stuff we don't understand, we all go to things that we think we don't deserve.
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Um, first of all, I and look at just the difference, bro.
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I'm far blessed more than I ever deserve.
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I'll never deserve what the Lord has given me.
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I don't deserve to be breathing right now.
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Yeah, right.
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I have a beautiful wife of 31 years, I have four children, I have just become a grandparent.
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I I don't even think about the material stuff that God has given me because whether I had that stuff or not, the life that He's given me has been so beautiful.
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Even the hard moments that He's allowed me to live through are so are such beautiful testimonies in the story that He gave me in my life.
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Right.
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So I tell people, if you could just find it, just make a deal with you.
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And why do I say a deal with you?
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Because at the end of the day, this is for you.
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No matter what's going on, no matter what is happening, no matter what the situation is, just every day.
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Please don't start by asking God for stuff.
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Please first say thank you.
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Thank you.
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Thank you, thank you.
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And I tell I tell the people that I work with, mate, like we're so ungrateful at times.
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Make a list.
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I invite you to make a list and write down all the bad stuff in your life.
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Write it down.
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But then I also invite you to make that same list of every beautiful thing you have in life.
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The smallest things that you don't appreciate, the fact that you're breathing, the fact that you could walk, the fact that you could hear, the fact that that that that that you have a home, the fact that you have food to eat, the fact that your kids are breathing, that your kids are alive, that your kids are healthy, that the Lord's gonna do something great there in life.
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Write everything down and you will see that the good things in life are so much greater than the little things that we decide to focus on.
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And I remember when I was going through this situation and um I I decided to leave media, I decided to leave social media, and then something wanted to pull me back in.
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Uh, it was a negative thing.
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And I said, wait a minute.
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Am I gonna be so ungrateful to the Lord that I'm gonna focus on this one negative thing and not focus on all the beautiful things he's given me?
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Let that go.
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I'm gonna focus on the beautiful things.
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So if you're one, I invite you to do that.
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Make that list, and you'll see if you're able to look and say, Oh my God, what a blessed life I live, and I'm complaining about this.
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Yeah.
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Right?
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And if you're able to do that and you do that exercise, and then you go and in the mornings, instead of complaining, yeah, you bring your pains and your sorrows and your worries to the Lord.
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But also, don't leave.
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God, thank you for waking me up today.
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Thank you for letting me see today.
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Thank you for allowing my kids to be underneath my roof, my wife and my kids to be healthy.
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Thank you for the work.
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Like you might not be making the money that you want, but you still got work, you still got a way to sustain your family.
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Yes.
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Think about all this stuff.
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Bring that to the Lord.
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Bring first, you know, the fruits.
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Right?
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Thank you, Jesus.
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Thank you for this.
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Thank you for that.
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And then don't complain about the stuff that's going on.
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Thank you, Lord, because you're allowing me to live this, because you're you're closer to me than ever, because you're gonna teach me a lesson that's gonna change my life.
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Man, your house your outlook on life is so different.
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That's so powerful.
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Because at that point, God just becomes so big.
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Yeah, well, okay.
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Your problems just become so small.
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Yeah.
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And now you're empowered by the spirit because that gratitude just empowers you.
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So that's for you.
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And and and that worship.
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Yes, like I I I like uh uh at our uh in our in our business, and uh it's not that I'm trying to talk about the business, it's just what I'm living now so much.
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They say, like um, God Juan, it's so awesome to hear you speak all the time.
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There's so much gratitude in you, bro.
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Every day, every day, every day, every day, the Lord's gonna do something awesome.
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I may not see it today, but I know he's gonna do something awesome today.
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I don't understand what it's gonna be.
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I don't know where it's gonna be.
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I don't know if this message is gonna be heard by somebody in three years.
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Yes, right?
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Yes, but the Lord is doing something awesome in this moment, right?
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And somebody's eyes, bro.
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I complain so much about my wife.
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I complain so much about my wife, I complain so much of my wife.
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Thank God I have a wife.
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Yeah, yes, right?
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Thank God I have a woman that has given me children.
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Thank God I have a woman that is in that has been there with me in the most difficult times.
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Thank God I have a wife that has supported me, that has been there for me when nobody else.
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Somebody's gonna hear us say, you know what, maybe and and sometimes we don't see how ungrateful we are.
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Yeah.
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Yes.
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And it's uh you know, I I just thank God for this amazing life he's allowed me to live, and how long I'm gonna live it, I don't know.
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How long is he gonna have me here?
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I don't know, but as long as I am, hmm.
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Thank you.
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There's a song that says, As long as I have breath in my lungs, I will praise you.
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Qual is praise?
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Oh it's called It says, As long as I have breath in my lungs, I will praise you.
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Okay, so I heard that song.
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Where were my wife and I?
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Where were we?
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I heard it for the first time.
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Oh, the founder of our office got baptized last Sunday, and they were singing that song, praise, and that song has a part like not for a minute was I forsaken.
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It's similar to that.
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It says something similar to that.
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I'm glad you reminded me because I was gonna go look for for for it because I got touched so deeply when I was hearing it.
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You know, that song stuff.
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Yeah.
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That's beautiful.
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Yeah, bro.
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Man, thank you again, Juan.
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Thank you, bro.
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Appreciate you.
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Yes, sir.
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Anytime, invite me again.
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Let's do it again.
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Let me know.
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We'll see you next time.
