Can We Talk About the Process

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Got that airy's energy, just a
tad bit early to the party, but
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I mean you're gonna welcome and once
you hear what we got going on.
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What's up Ariel And this is Astrology
and Chill. It's a weekly podcast bringing
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down the happenings in these heapily hoods. Now, let's just say all you
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know is your zodiac sign. I
can assure you you are still very much
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in the right place. We're gonna
go ahead and get into it. For
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the week of March. Is that
March fourth? Yeah, we're already dead,
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babes. Okay, so the week
of March and forth through the tenth
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week of March fourth through the tenth
I like the way February, but then
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again, February is a short month, so even with an extra day,
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like, yeah, you know,
it's over pretty quickly. How you feeling
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like? Everybody good? Just check
it in trying to see what's going on.
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We got two major things that I
want to go of course, there's
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like something happening in these astros every
day, but the two other things that
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I kind of want to just focus
in on is the planet of Intellect entering
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into the sign of Aries. Okay, Aries, if you've ever met one,
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very very fiery energy, very very
in their most immature state, a
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little bit reckless as they jump into
action in their most mature state, a
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little bit more calculated as they jump
into action. Okay, an action,
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an action sign all the same.
The leader of the zodiac, the baby
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of the zodiac, believe it or
not, the oldest in the zodiac is
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Pisces. The baby is Aries,
and you get wiser as you go through
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the zodiac. So just keep that
in mind as Wally talking about it.
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But technically it's giving the January we
talked about this last week. The Aries
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is the january of the zodiac of
Pisces is the December, still in that
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very reflective getting ready for transformation,
surrendering things that we know, can know
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can cannot go with us when we
make our transformations. Sometimes transformation is hard
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as hell, and as hard as
it is, it is such a duality
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because like it feels good, it
feels crazy good. Okay, So Mercury
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entering into Aries giving us that fiery, get up and go, get into
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action type energy, taking some initiative, but you're really excited about it,
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like you've been ready for this transformation
anyway, it's like, now now it's
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time to really really make some changes. You've been feeling it for quite some
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time. Now it's actually time to
see it in motion. We also have
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a piece's new moon, which perfectly
lines up because in fact, to step
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back, the Mercury enters into Aries
on the ninth and then the very next
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day perfectly aligned with Mercury and Aries. It's not in alignment, but I'm
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just saying like they compliment each other
so well. The Piece's new moon starts
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all right, very excited about pursuing
anything that is a spiritual project, a
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spiritual venture, you know, really
just kind of peeling back your layers and
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understanding all of your things. Because
one thing about the two things for sure,
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like you never are done understanding.
You're never done getting to the understanding.
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Like that's that's the true wisdom right
there. Always stay at remaining in
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the student to this thing called life, to this thing called heart. Mm
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hmm. You got some opportunities to
pursue some very creative things. You are
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excited to get them up and running. That's why I said that Pisce's new
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Moon is lining up real, real
cute with that Mercury and aris the day
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before. Okay, and we already
know like new moons are all about them.
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Hmm. Okay, I got a
brand new what twenty eight days to
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get it in? What can I
do in these twenty eight days that can
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make a difference? And don't think
like think long term but understand short term?
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Does that make sense? You know? Like we can think about how
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this will impact us in the long
run, but we also need to focus
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on the d tales of right now
under those new moons. Mmmmmmm. She
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don't sit there long on the tenth
because she very quickly enters into aries that
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same day. But you know it
is what it is. The new moon
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is falling along the tenth, all
right. So that's the focus this week.
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New Moon energy, mercury and arias
energy. Are we looking for the
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theme card? Let's get into it, let's do it. What are we
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looking at? Oh? The three
of one's in reverse? Three the number
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of changes raw energy? No,
no, it was raw energy. Five
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is a number of changes and challenges. Three is a number of raw energy,
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all right, in groups as well. The wand card. The wand
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sweet, however, is a fiery
energy just flucked out of energy passionate inspiration
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in a will power. But see
here's the same. The three ones is
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thrown a reverse. So some of
our some of our themes are obstacles,
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delays, and frustrations. Now before
we do our at least I know,
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I do our usual panic and run
for the hearst. Let's get clear.
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Oh we still reverse? Okay,
no, no, no, it's fine.
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This is a very very much the
heart of the matter, babes.
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Okay. So because we got a
four cups in reverse cup energy again gets
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back to the emotions, the unconscious, the creativity. When we see our
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four cups in reverse, there is
a sudden awareness of choosing happiness, of
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choosing acceptance. Right, and it's
listen sometimes okay, because I'm you hit
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with it, hit and hit.
Just because you have chosen and to pursue
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peace and be happy doesn't mean that
peace will find you if it Like you
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know, it's not a snap of
the fingers, it's not a bat of
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the eye. Just because you have
chosen to pursue peace does not mean peace
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is available. It's one of those
things where you start to explore. Okay,
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now that I have chosen peace,
what this piece means there is,
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there is, there is my love
a process. Okay, when you decide
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that you are going to get up
and make your life different, it doesn't
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mean that now suddenly it is different. There is, there is, There
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is a process, and that is
part of your first straation. Because you
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are used to the fucking microwave and
we cooking in the oven this time.
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There we are that we have it. If you are used to cooking in
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the microwave. Let's be very very
clear this this meal goes in the oven,
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This journey goes in the oven.
You can cook it because we talked
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about this last week, if you
were here, if that was part of
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your sign, or if you heard
it. If you didn't, let's talk
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about it now. I can take
a pizza, a frozen pizza, and
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I can put that thing in an
air fryer and it's gonna be cute,
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it's gonna be cooked, but it's
not really gonna be the quality that I
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want. I could also put it
in the toaster oven a little bit better
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than the air fire, but again
really not the quality that I want.
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And I chose those two because it's
faster than putting it in the oven.
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Because in the oven, I gotta
wait for it to warm up, you
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know, and then then it's gonna
take it's precious fucking time cooking. But
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the quality when I get it,
no notes ten out of ten. Yeah,
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but I gotta wait. And in
a world that is not used to
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waiting, that is used to instant
gratification that we've all been trained to get
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the on demand era we got up. I get while you frustrated, I'm
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just saying, calm that ass down. Now, we're gonna stay in the
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cup suite for our pisces. It's
the King of cups, So in the
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royal suite. When you start thinking
about the family of cups, think about
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the King of Cups of course as
the father the but and I ain't necessarily
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talking about dude. I'm talking about
the father energy, protection and building.
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That's what the father energy is for
the King of Cups. You're looking at
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compassion and control and balance on this
journey. Compassion for yourself, that balance
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between your head and your heart,
because you know, pisces, it is
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going to take both of them.
You're not getting one without the other being
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the counselor for self, so that
it also flows over into how you treat
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other people, or treat yourself as
good as you treat other people. Because
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one or two things is happening.
Either you're giving all this wise diplomatic head
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over heart behavior out, or you
just have it for yourself, not non
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for nobody else. Does that make
sense? Have it for yourself and the
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people around you. Make decisions and
make moves that make a lot of sense.
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Again, for the balance of head
and heart. The needs of others
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don't necessarily come before for your needs. They walk right alongside of them,
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hand in hand. Finding equity because
there's a difference between equality and equity.
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Equity says that I know that at
five foot nine I can reach the shelf,
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but at four foot eleven you cannot. And so in order to make
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us, order to make this equitable, I'm gonna bring a stool so that
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you can stand on. And now
both of us are standing at five foot
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nine, and we can reach the
shelf. That is life, that is
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the piece, that is the harmony, that is the project that your heart
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is working on to show love and
always shaping. For listen, I know
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some spiritual people that just got ugly
ass behavior. They do not resonate love.
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And then they'll tell you some shit
about tough love. Baby love ain't
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gotta be tough, because I promise
you just say you lack tact. Okay,
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because you could deliver a message,
a message that is messy, with
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so much grace and dignity that people
can accept that mess is mess and figure
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out how to clean it up.
I can walk into my child's room and
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yell at him about how nasty and
disgusting this room is. Or I can
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walk in and be like, you
know what, they're just staring at this
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room should be at and it's clearly
not given that right now, how can
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we fix that? Watch the delivery? Because too many of us are far
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too invested in being in control and
far too invest it on people fearing us
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for respect. Meanwhile, don't know
how to respect you anyway. Moving on
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to the major ARCONA car for aries
aries has the tower card. It's in
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the upright position. Now when we
see the tower car, it's all about
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the shit is about to hit the
families grow. Okay, So the major
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Arcana is a journey because it starts
with the food, it ends with the
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world. Now, when it starts
with the food, it's not necessarily that
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that you don't know nothing. It's
just that you don't understand. Okay,
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I can know something, but understanding
allows application. Knowing something is just having
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the knowledge. Understanding is the application
you know for the highest quality. It's
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quality control, baby and training assurance
that what the little what you call to
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be saying anyway, the subject,
this one kind of starts to fall towards
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the end when we start getting more
into the to the super conscious part,
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the divine understanding of Okay, I
need I need to I need to get
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this, I need to get a
reason. We hear what am I trying
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to? What am I understanding?
And what connection am I making? Okay,
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again, there is disaster here.
There is trauma here. Okay,
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there is loss here. It's a
great loss. You are experiencing grief that
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you did not know. I did
not know I could experience grief here.
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Hey, welcome. Because I tell
people all the time that you don't just
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experience grief when a person transitions from
earthside. You don't just experience grief when
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a person leaves out of your life. You experience trans You experience grief every
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time your normal is disrupted and you
have to now accept a new normal.
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There are ways to be in control
of your emotions. There are ways to
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really dive into them and understand them. Because we cool with diving in and
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understanding and being on a quest of
happiness, but the idea of being on
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a quest to understand our jealousy,
to be on a quest to understand our
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anger, to be on the quest
to understand our hurt, no no,
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no, no no no, because
we won't hurt it and get rid of
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that. And I don't know if
you notice or not, but like part
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of healing is understanding your hurt and
admitting some things. I saw a post
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this week where and I wish I
could, Okay, I have to share
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it, and I feel like I
share it in my stories once, but
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I'll share it again in my story
so y'all can follow her. But she
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was talking about how you know this
person would never be the villain in their
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story. I understood, and what
I see is their wounds that listen.
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I had to stay with that shit
for two days, okay, because it's
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like I have made certain people villains
in my story, and I was cool
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with them just being villains in my
story, but it's like I didn't understand
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that they don't have to be villains
in my story, that my hurt can
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still be validated even when I accept
that that person could not carry the responsibility
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of the space they tried to take
up in my life. Their wounds were
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far too great to handle that responsibility. And so therefore, yes, they
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were irresponsible, and I got broken. They were already broken. And here
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we are. I need you to
understand that we don't have to be villains
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in each other's story. They don't
have to be villains in our stories.
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Understanding our wounds, especially while Charna
is doing her thug. That's a miss
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girl with those north No, it
was okay. Understanding our wounds makes the
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rich, makes the rich. Taris
tree of pinnacles in the upright position,
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you know, pinnacle energy this girl, because you are an Earth elements.
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It's just a nature stability, health, and prosperity. Why did I try
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to mix the words stability in nature
together? Stature? Okay, girl?
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And three is like a number of
groups raw energy, the raws. I
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just I want to I feel the
need to look up the word raw.
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Go on like a definition? What's
the what's the Oxford definition? Why wrestling
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came up? Girl? Please go
to hell, please go to hell.
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Hmmm, says uncooked. Mmm.
Part of the body is raw. It
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is red. Is painful, especially
as the results of a skin abrasion.
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Okay, hang tight, hang tight
tight. We're finna see how that's gonna
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play out, because I know I
had to follow my gut then go ahead
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and google album. Right, So
teamwork, co collaboration and building. Ooh,
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if that don't rub you row,
If that's not the raw, it's
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energy. Because when I tell you
something, when I tell you like the
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way you have to brush upon your
communication skills, the way you have to
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be very clear about your communication,
very clear about directions. And I'm learning
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that not just working doing group work
for college work, but like just working
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with people in this life in general. You know, we got a shared
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goal of getting somewhere, but I'm
gonna have to stop and learn your language
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so that I can communicate what I'm
doing over here on my side, and
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we could put this thing together other
and moving forward, combining our energy and
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effort so that we could get to
the goal. Accepting that maybe I thought
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I was an expert in this,
maybe I thought I knew, but maybe
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I don't know as much. And
being open to listening to you too,
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kind of stripping down everything. And
again that does not just apply that that
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applies across the board. In this
life. We don't spend enough time listening
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to each other. We really don't. We don't hear each other at all.
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We used to talking over each other
and making assumptions. I told my
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kid a couple of days ago,
we were riding in the car, and
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we've been in this exploration of what
love is, like that's what he and
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I have. Well, that's what
I just want. I want to teach
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him so he does not get the
wrong impression of love. And I was
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telling him, you know what,
you know, you know you're my team
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player, right and I'm your team
player, right. And he's like looking
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at me, like, well,
I don't start getting weird, but you're
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not about to start getting weird.
Stop playing with me, all right.
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And I'm like, you know,
this morning, when I made you breakfast
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without asking, I did not ask
him, but I just got up,
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did my regular routine, made him
breakfast. And when I was when I
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walked upstairs to tell him, hey, it's time to go. Your breakfast
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is buy your book back? He
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And I got frustrated because I was
like, I don't set up here
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and made you breakfast, and now
you just say, but I never asked.
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I never asked my team player what
it was that he needed that day
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to feel love, to feel nourished. So yeah, I did have to
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go back later on that day and
be like, you know what my reaction
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to that was not it was not
the business. Because I don't want you
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to ever feel like you are required
to do anything, you know, as
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far as not speak up for yourself, not to advocate for yourself, just
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because you're afraid of how someone will
react to how you said. I don't
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want that. You gave it to
me and I don't want that. It's
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not that I'm not appreciative, it's
just I don't that self intimacy also is
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coming up. But I don't feel
like they got nothing to do with you.
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I feel like they got something to
do with Gemini. So we all
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right, So the King of Pinnacles
pops up right here in the upright position.
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Again we stay with the earth energy, the security of nature, the
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health, prosperity. All right,
this is the this is this is father
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energy again that doesn't mean that it's
a dude. But this means that the
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energy of protection, all right.
Abundance, prosperity, and security are some
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of the themes that we are seeing
when we start looking at that King of
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Pinnacles card in the upright position.
You are a protector, You flourish,
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your kingdom is abundant. Everybody be
like it. Just because I'm connected to
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you, I already know that that
it's overflow, overflow. Ay man,
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Okay, things are moving in a
beautiful way right now. The money is
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money in that don't mean that it
has to be like a lot of money,
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but like desires are taken care of, wants, A MEP needs a
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MEP were good? You know,
Are we gonna go buy a yap?
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Heyll No. But it's but but
you know what, are we looking at
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it here? And life is good. It feels reliable. It feels feel
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like we didn't we didn't got to
the to this responsible place. That's really
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really good. Huh yep, that's
it. That's it now. Six of
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cups is what I got for for
cancer. I kept trying to make that
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other part make sense, but I
guess that wasn't for Gemini we'll figure out
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that self intimacy as we move six
of cups for cancer. Cancer understands cop
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energy, you are a water element
and shares cup energy. It was an
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element, so that six of cups
gives us familiarity, happy memories and healing.
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Okay, so maybe this is where
the self intimacy comes in at And
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this came to me like as I
was trying to understand something in service on
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Sunday. I have been sitting in
a church service struggling because so much of
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the teachings just don't align. And
I'm I'm still I'm I'm trying to a
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little why I'm there. There there
is a reason, but also there is
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not a reason. But but there
was this beautiful moment of self intimacy of
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again exploring emotions, familiar emotions,
those memories that make us the happiest,
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and letting them be what they are. Kenny Lantimore has like one of my
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favorite songs, uh for You,
and he like has this part as like
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you know every every side of my
heart? Let me ask cancer, do
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you know every side of your heart? Have you been so hell bent on
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fixing the things that were really really
messy that you have no idea how to
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now step into the parts that make
you feel loved and safe and protected.
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Can you give yourself that or do
you find it outside of other people?
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Now the answer is I find it
outside of other people. There's nothing to
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be ashamed of, but it is
something to admit, so that now we
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can figure out how we're gonna move
forward in that. Again, there's reflection
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happening here, and we're looking and
we're wondering, defining intimacy and all the
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things that it is. One of
my favorite people in the celebrity world that
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I've never met, Kelly Rowland said, I was talking about being a sensualist
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and it's like but basically the way
she described it was like it has to
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not just feel good, but smell
good and sound good. Like it gave
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to all five of her senses sight, sound, taste, touch, what's
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the fifth one? Sound? I
already said that smell. Y'all know how
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to how to do the census stuff
which you touch, you taste, smell,
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you, hear, you see,
Thank you. I was there for
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that lesson in kindergarten, I promise. But have you tapped into the intimacy
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of all of those when when we
started talking about joy. Do we understand
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what brings us joy as far as
a smell, and it could be a
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variety of smells. And I thought
that I had like just one avenue of
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like I liked very earthy, woodsy
masculine sense. And then I'm starting to
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discover that I like, uh,
the tom Ford lost cherry never ever would
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have would have went forward because it's
because I didn't think it was like a
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masculine type of musky smell. Smelled
it a door it. So I bought
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the dupe. They not forgegeve my
money. That's insane. That is an
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insane price for for some cent.
But it's like every day now, I
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want to smell good. I wanna
I wanna look good to me, to
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me my definition of look good.
I want to feel good, like I
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want my skin to feel soft and
look you're you see what I'm saying.
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It's the way that you take care
of yourself, begin to create those memories
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with yourself, began to like really
really dive into that for you again.
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When we start, when we started
taking those spiritual journeys of happiness, we
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start with ourselves and then start you
know, branching out to our people branching
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out to our people, all right
leo, uh, the two of cups
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in the upright position to a number
of duality. So instead of using or,
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we got and all right a number
of balance. So the two A
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cups balancing that I had in the
high unity, partnership con action. That
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is the name of the game for
you, my deario, close bonds,
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joining forces. Uh huh uh huh. He was like a let me drink
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some water. Understanding, equal exchange, understanding, you're a batter together,
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you are stronger together. I don't
know if you were here for the tarist
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talk earlier when I was talking about, Hey, you know what it ordered
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for me to work as a team
player with my kid because believed not me
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being his parent doesn't mean that I'm
in charge of him. It makes I
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might have a little bit more knowledge
on this role than he does, but
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we are still very much team players. In the order for equity to happen,
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I do have to share my knowledge
with him, and he has to
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share his knowledge with me because guess
what. Sometimes in this world, have
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you ever heard that Destiny's child?
Oh my god, here comes to Beyonce
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references again? Anyway, have you
ever heard that Destiny's Child song Happy Face?
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And there's this one verse where Beyonce
is like, I looked at the
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world through with child eyes, and
I saw these beautiful things that you never
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think about, like the ocean,
moon, lif stars and clouds. That's
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amazing how we don't appreciate our blass
things. And that's my song for the
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week. But no, seriously,
like like there are things that people who
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we have decided aren't as smart as
we are, aren't as knowledgeable as we
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are, that they have to give
us because they have because they don't know
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they will go find deeper. I
don't know about you, but like when
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I was in college, I realized
like everybody around me went to a better
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quality high school than I did,
and so the profession will say stuff like,
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oh you in high school and not
and everybody like shaking their head yes,
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and I'd be thinking, Nope,
I did not learn this in high
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school. But now I'm going to
go study at extra hars so i can
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feel like I've caught up with everybody
else. And not realizing that that is
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that was my superpower. Not knowing
made me go explore and feeling like,
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you know, will make you not
go explore the answer. And sometimes again,
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your team players can bring stuff to
your attention that you were never privy
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to lean on your people. I'm
not saying that you got to go be
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that person. I'm saying, whatever
you lack, your teammate can pick up,
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and whatever your teammate lacks you can
pick up. Compliment each other.
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Babes, Virgo, three swards and
reverse. There is no boodling this week,
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Virgo. I can assure you that
the three of ones is in reverse.
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We are talking about raw inner groups. Okay, but there's recovery here,
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here's forgiveness, and there's moving on. I promise it's no bullying this
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week. We are good. We
are good. We are good. You
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know that moment where you have to
accept that grief is happening and accepting what
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moving through that looks like for you, that's the biggest part. You know,
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ever been in a hurricane before?
But the shit gets ugly, nasty,
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horrible, disgusting. Okay, the
eye of the storm came and it
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gave you peace, calm, cool
and connected for at least five minutes,
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and then it got right back to
that ugly part of the storm. But
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then like the tail end wraps up, and you're like, that was fucking
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terrible. Let me walk outside and
assess the damages so that I know now
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how to start leaning up. Here
we are, the storm's over. We
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are now walking outside to assess the
damages to figure out how we're gonna clean
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up. I remember when we were
packing my grandmother's house, and now you,
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as our fellow earth sign, will
get this. They were like,
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okay, so what's the game plan? And I was like, all right,
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here's the game plan. Blase Blase
takes such and such closet. Blase
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Blase, y'all take such and such
closet, And me and Blase Blase are
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gonna take such and such closet.
All right, plan, let's go.
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Everybody grab a bag. And then
my mom was like, hold on,
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wait because we don't actually know what
she wants to get rid of, and
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that's not a plan that's gonna work. See, when you start to to
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to do the clean up efforts,
you start to realize maybe maybe some of
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the stuff that you learned about healing, maybe some of the stuff that you
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understood about recovery, is not going
to work because certain stuff needs to stay
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while other things need to go.
Maybe it's time to find somebody who can
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help you assess the things that can
stay and the things that need to go.
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Maybe therapy, But I'm gonna stay
out of that because sometimes therapy the
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you know, there's nothing in the
budget, nothing in the in the medical
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insurance for therapy. I get it. I get it that that's that,
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you know, So maybe we start
fighting a place at therapy rize and what
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doesn't apply, we let that shit
fly, and what belongs to us,
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you know, we go ahead and
put that in our back pocket for later
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or for now. You know,
it's kind of good thing. Do what
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you want to do. And I
can't tell you who the shock to with
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that. MCQUINNI swords for a libra. Think of this as the mother and
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not necessarily a goyle, but mother
energy. She's very nurturing, she's very
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uh, she's a teacher, very
kind, very goving type of laday and
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the Sward Suite is a air elemental. It's all about intelligence, logic,
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truth, ambition, confident communication,
like you know, you stuff the fun
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stuff. MS girls clear minded,
she's honest, she's independent, she's principal,
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she's fair, she gives constructive criticism
because she is here to build,
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not destroy. And again, some
of us love and a way that is
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destructive as shit. Some of us
understand how to love in a way that
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builds. Could you learn to love
in a way that builds? Becoming independent
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with your judgments being unbiased just because
this is how you think, move,
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breathe and understand you're not trying to
force it in on somebody else. Well,
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I think women shouldn't wear makeup.
You good for you for thinking that
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women wear makeup, though, And
I'm trying to keep it like as relatable
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as possible. But of course it's
a whole lot deeper than that. Watching
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your mouth and how you speak to
others has always been like the biggest part
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of how I have been trying to
move lately. Let me tell you this
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story. This is so ridiculous.
So I got some feedback from my professor
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about an assignment that me and my
group partner submitted, and I was telling
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a friend about it, and I
was like, basically, he was like,
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it was unoriginal, it was basic, and it wasn't abstract enough.
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And she was like, damn,
that is a very harsh criticism from a
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professor, Like can I read what
he said? And I was like sure,
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so I showed it to her.
She was like that, I get
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what you're how you got that,
you know, but you know, you
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could have used better words, like
how you phrased it was very harsh and
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he didn't phrase it as harsh as
you delivered it. And I was like,
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oh, And it never even dawned
on me that my delivery was harsh
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because that was just how I read
it to myself. Also because that's how
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I talk to myself. And then
I realized, one, baby, you
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are not very You're not very kind
of yourself, Like why would you say
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that? Second of all, because
I talk to myself like that. I
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sometimes find myself talking to other people
like that, and that is insane.
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You know, we call I know
sometimes you call it keeping a real being
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real bug ah. And now I
wanted to, like my group partner,
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like did she read that? And
I kind of want to clarify I probably
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should clarify that that's not necessarily what
the professor said outright. That was my
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interpretation of what he said, because
you know what she did that for me.
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She did that for me. She
was like, here's some notes on
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my interpretation of what he said in
the meeting that I missed, and I
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should probably have done the same because
the worst that I used were not the
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worst that he used. Does that
make sense? Libra? Her? That
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was insane? And I was like, you know what, I'm not gonna
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miss you because why would you point
that out to me that I was that
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I don't have any tax? She
said, See that's the problem with that
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right there. Again. I didn't
tell you didn't have any attack. What
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I said was that was a better
way to deliver that. Okay, you're
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right girl, do you think all
right? So? Uh? Nine of
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pinnacles for Scorpio. I feel like
I don't understand. It's in reverse being
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guarded, living beyond your means,
material and instability, just recklessly spending being
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superfessional. But why because we don't
do these kind of behaviors just haphazardly,
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Like do you have something to prove? Could it involve your friend groups?
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Because I see the three of cups
right here? Huh? The three of
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cups right here? Again, this
teamwork and collaboration and building is happening again.
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And you know what, oftentimes our
perception is so fucking flawed. It's
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not even funny. I scrap you
are. We're dealing with some flawed perceptions
436
00:37:57.519 --> 00:38:00.840
here, and that's why we're overdoing
in order to come safe for something we
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00:38:00.960 --> 00:38:05.880
don't have to even compensate for.
Nobody asks you for that, nobody needs
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that from you. You just assume
because this is the way that it's always
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been, from relationship to relationship,
career, familial, platonic, romantic.
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This has always been what is required
of you. And so you're delivering all
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of these things. And one nobody
asks, two nobody needs. But you
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won't know that until you start working
with your team to compliment each other,
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to compliment each other. Nobody needs
to outdo anybody. Nobody needs to match.
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Because remember going back to the to
the somebody. We're setting in the
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grocery store and we both need to
reach something on the shelf, and the
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shelf is at the perfect height for
me at five foot nine, not so
447
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much the perfect for you at four
foot eleven. But if I give you
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00:39:01.840 --> 00:39:07.280
a stool, it make you five
foot nine. It doesn't make you more,
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00:39:07.400 --> 00:39:10.199
it doesn't make you better. It
just boosts you to where now there's
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equity between us and were moving in
the same direction. Getting to the same
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goal. There might be somebody who
needs just a little bit more in order
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to match. Maybe maybe the goal
is not to match at all, just
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to compliment. Because what I lack
you make up, and what you lack
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I makeup. And it's not about
getting ahead, it's not about falling behind,
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and it's not about keeping up appearances
either. We're going to start working
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side by side, and again that
side by side might look different, just
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because sometimes an order for equity to
happen, somebody needs to take a little
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bit more. I feel like you
got it, and there's nothing else we
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need to do here. Some may
move. The sagittarius who has the six
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of swards, living farewell by the
way we go. Six of swards in
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the upright position swords a suite of
intelligence and logic and truth and ambition.
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Six a feminine number. It's all
about transition and leaving behind and moving on.
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It is time to go. Your
ban knew it was time to go,
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and it was time to depart.
Your band knew accepting that certain lessons
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are just what they are, and
I would love to remember them in another
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way. But it's done here,
even if it's still messy, even if
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00:41:08.639 --> 00:41:20.039
it's still broken, it's done.
Accepting that closure is walking away in this
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instance, not in every instance,
because some instance, you know, they
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live happily ever after the end.
I remember watching a movie that did not
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end happily ever after the end.
It felt like there was a cliffhanger,
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and it pissed me off. But
you know what, Sometimes life ends in
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a cliffhanger. A chapter ends in
a cliffhanger, and you never really find
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the answer, or at least the
answer that you're gonna be satisfied with the
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answer that you want to look at, but understanding that it's time to let
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go and move on. As challenging
as it is, as sad as it
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is, I did that this week, y'all. Oh my god, I
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started rethinking whether or not I should
really be packing up and moving on.
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Just for clarity. I started pole
dancing back in twenty sixteen. Every day,
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every week, three times a week. I was there, so like
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think, that's like eight years of
a habit, a habit of routine.
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The only time I wasn't doing it
was during the pandemic. But again,
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three times a week for eight years, this is what I did, And
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00:42:30.119 --> 00:42:35.800
recently I have accepted that it really
does not fit my life anymore, especially
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00:42:35.840 --> 00:42:38.239
as an instructor, like I don't
have anything to give to it. And
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even though my students were like I
felt like you were a great teacher,
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I always knew that I could give
them more, I could push them further,
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00:42:45.239 --> 00:42:50.199
but I wasn't even I didn't even
have the space to push myself further
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because it no longer fit into my
life. And so therefore I had to
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understand that it was time to fall
back. And even when I found out
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00:42:58.159 --> 00:43:02.159
that while the studio is still set
to close, it isn't closing when I
491
00:43:02.199 --> 00:43:07.519
thought it was. I'm walking away
prematurely, I still had to accept that
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00:43:07.679 --> 00:43:13.280
walking away prematurity prematurely makes the most
inside of my life. It makes the
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most sense for where I am right
now. Walking away prematurely makes the most
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sense. My got my love,
Vegetarius. Walking away prematurely makes the most
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00:43:23.719 --> 00:43:36.679
sense for you right now, all
right? So Ace of Swords for Capricorn.
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I didn't think about that for a
seconds, Like who is next the
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ace of swards? It's the number
one, so it's like the number of
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00:43:43.880 --> 00:43:49.199
beginnings where it all starts at and
then the swards h suite is an air
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element, intelligent logic, truth,
ambition to some of the energy that we
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are feeling around this. Now.
The theme of that Ace of Swords car
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00:43:55.840 --> 00:44:01.960
is like breakthrough clarity, sharp my
all, where all go systems are a
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00:44:02.039 --> 00:44:07.800
go. Everything makes sense. Now
we're like, oh, no, no,
503
00:44:07.559 --> 00:44:12.159
no, no, I get it. That doesn't mean it's finished.
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00:44:12.199 --> 00:44:15.400
That means it's just getting started.
That means I am I now understand that
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00:44:15.480 --> 00:44:19.920
there are ducks, and yes,
I have to now go round these motherfucking
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ducks up because remember, there is
a process. There is a process.
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00:44:23.599 --> 00:44:29.119
Okay, understanding that ducks need to
be in the row and the ducks actually
508
00:44:29.159 --> 00:44:31.039
being in the row are two completely
different things. Okay, So first I
509
00:44:31.079 --> 00:44:34.559
gained the understanding that the ducks need
to be in a row. Okay,
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00:44:34.760 --> 00:44:37.360
now I need to locate said ducks
that I'm going to put in a row
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and then put the ducks in a
row in order to say it is finished.
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00:44:45.280 --> 00:44:46.800
We are just at the point where
we understand the ducks need to be
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in the row. We haven't even
gonna go find the motherfucks yet. I
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00:44:53.159 --> 00:44:58.920
wanted to take away all the whimsical
fun shit of you know, I manifested,
515
00:44:59.039 --> 00:45:04.840
so it should be here. Now
there's a process. There's a process,
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00:45:05.719 --> 00:45:17.039
all right. Eight of wands for
Aquarius. Very quick movement. By
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the way, want energy is the
earth element, Passion, inspiration, will
518
00:45:22.360 --> 00:45:24.920
power. And now back to the
subject at hand. Very quick movement,
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00:45:28.840 --> 00:45:34.199
straight a hoad, straightforward, very
quick decisions. Yes, it is a
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process. But listen, right now
we'll get back to cooking in the oven.
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You woke up late, and you
understand that in order for you to
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00:45:43.039 --> 00:45:46.800
get out of the door at seven
point thirty and you just hopping out of
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00:45:46.800 --> 00:45:54.079
bed at seven o'clock, that means
using the toaster oven versus the oven.
524
00:45:55.000 --> 00:46:00.280
And we will come back and use
the oven when it is necessary. But
525
00:46:00.360 --> 00:46:06.039
right now that is not necessary.
Well, right now that is not going
526
00:46:06.119 --> 00:46:13.880
to be the best service because things
are moving quickly, and while I'm used
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00:46:13.880 --> 00:46:17.559
to going that route, I can't
do that right now. Hell, maybe
528
00:46:17.599 --> 00:46:20.920
even the toaster oven is moving too
slow. And we got to pop that
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00:46:20.960 --> 00:46:27.159
hole in a microwave a little getting
a little innovative while I'm doing something else,
530
00:46:27.199 --> 00:46:30.280
and that is in the microwave getting
a quick zap, and then I
531
00:46:30.320 --> 00:46:32.960
throw it into the toaster oven so
it gets a little crisp on the pizza.
532
00:46:34.760 --> 00:46:37.519
I'm doing ten other things, but
all in all, at the end
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00:46:37.519 --> 00:46:38.880
of the day, the goal is
to get out of the door at seven
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00:46:39.039 --> 00:46:43.760
thirty. And we do it,
and we pull it off. But we
535
00:46:43.800 --> 00:46:46.079
had to get creative with how we
pull that shit off in order to one
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00:46:46.320 --> 00:46:51.199
still reads the quality that we want, which is a crunchy little pizza.
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00:46:52.320 --> 00:47:00.119
But the process didn't look like everybody
else's process. But neither do we need
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00:47:00.159 --> 00:47:06.360
it does our life? You know
what I mean? Neither how you approach
539
00:47:07.280 --> 00:47:10.320
how you approach life, love and
delivery and the pursuit of happiness looks like
540
00:47:10.400 --> 00:47:13.880
what anybody else would have done,
could have done, should have done.
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00:47:15.480 --> 00:47:22.079
Mm hmmm. All right, that's
it for this week. We're good.
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You're not free to move about the
country. A new episode of the podcast
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is every Monday wherever you like to
listen to your podcast to see what else
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you can follow me on all socials. O L yeah, O H E
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L L E y e A ya, thank you for listening.