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It's your girl Papi Britt.
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Welcome to Platicando con Papi.
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If it's your first time here, then welcome.
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And if you've been here before, then welcome back.
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Thank you so much for making time and space for me.
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It has been a very, very, very long time since I have posted on this channel on this podcast.
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I think the last time I posted was like in like January, February.
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And during that time I didn't even have my social media.
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I just posted it because I always tell myself this is like a passion project for me.
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So like I should be able to do it even if no one's watching.
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And so I posted that podcast, but I never like promoted it or anything.
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I was just like, you know, whoever is meant to find it will find it.
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Whoever is meant to listen to it will listen to it.
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But I did it more for me than anything.
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I figured it only made sense to kind of reintroduce myself since it's been so long.
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And I feel like so much has happened.
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I've met so many people.
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So much has changed since I first started my podcast.
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I started my podcast three years ago.
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And for the first maybe first year of it, I was pretty consistent with it.
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But it just turned into something that was no longer making me happy.
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It was actually making me miserable.
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So I had to take a step away.
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I haven't ever watched back any of my podcasts because it's a little bit traumatizing.
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I hope to be able to like watch them back one day and just like see where I was at and see like where I'm at now.
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But yeah, I created that podcast in my closet when I was living in Denver, downtown with my roommate.
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And I did it just because I've always enjoyed doing social media.
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I've had my YouTube channel since I like 2020.
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But I always like I'm a yapper, okay?
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So I just and I'm a very opinionated yapper, okay.
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I just wanted a place to like vent, to talk about myself, talk about my experiences, connect with people.
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I've always said like my goal for this podcast is to make people feel seen, heard, feel a little bit less alone.
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And same for me, like that's what it was doing for me because anytime I posted a podcast, I would get really good feedback.
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I would have people sending me paragraphs about how it impacted them and how it helped them or how they empathized with it, or how they were going through the same thing and they it made them feel a little less alone.
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And so I got a lot of validation and I'm very grateful that so many people had so much positive feedback.
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However, with that came a lot of hate, which for me just kind of blindsided me with the amount of hate I was receiving, and honestly, like at the end of the day, I'm human, and it was my first time really experiencing that level of hatred.
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Like people were trying to ruin my life, basically.
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And like one thing for me is like I'm a very open person, I own who I am, I know I'm not perfect, and I've always, you know, been very like unapologetic.
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This is me, what you see is what you get.
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But it really did get to me sometimes because not only were they saying like hateful things about me, they were just saying hateful things about my family, and it made it to a point where I just felt like I was just an absolute piece of shit.
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And with that, I also went through a really like shitty period of my life 2024, literally beat my ass.
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I got fired for my job, and I feel like that literally turned into a whole spiral of everything just going to shit.
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And obviously, like in retrospect, I know that I everything that needed to happen happened for a reason.
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The people that needed to be exposed were exposed, and basically, God got me away from where I didn't need to be, and I've taken these last two years to really like sit with myself, really think about like why certain comments, certain things were getting to me, why I was giving so many people so much power over me, and I've really taken the time to figure out exactly who I am and to stand firm in that.
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And I feel like moving back home helped remind me of who I am, it helped me ground myself, it allowed me to surround with people that actually know me.
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I was letting random people try to tell me about myself, and I just feel like it got so blurred.
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I was going through so much.
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I'm a very depressed person, and so depressed and anxious person, I've always had severe depression and anxiety since I was young.
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And yeah, it was just a really shitty period of my life, and I always told myself, like, if social media or like especially the podcast ever became something that wasn't making me happy, then I wasn't gonna do it.
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Like people were shitting on me so much, but then also shitting on me for not posting, like they would be mad that I posted, but mad that I did it.
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And I was just like, you know what?
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I don't owe people anything.
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People thought I owed them explanations to certain things in my life, and I also have learned, you know, not to overshare.
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I've always been an oversharer, but I realized that through that, like I realized that a lot of people did not have the best intentions towards me, and like a lot of the things that I was sharing, they were trying to use them against me.
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And honestly, like again, I sat down with myself and I've made peace with things.
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I have gotten closer to God, closer to my family, and like now I know that the only people that can judge me or tell me about myself or literally God and maybe my family, but I know who I am and I'm finally at a point where I feel like I'm not like in survival mode.
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I was driving the other day and was just thinking about the fact that like I'm finally not in survival mode.
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I feel like ever since I moved out of my parents' house like at 17, and even before that, like I started working when I was 14 and have been always very independent.
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And so obviously, with like losing my job, I'm a Capricorn, it really impacted me very heavily, and I really tied my value to my job.
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And so when I lost that, I feel like I lost a sense of my identity.
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I've always been a very hard worker, I've always had two to three jobs.
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I take pride in being a good worker and like not having a job, not having anything to do, and then having, you know, the the depression of having gotten fired, which was so shitty.
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I've never gotten fired, especially in that manner ever.
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And then just the added like hate comments and everything else, like it really put me in a really, really, really, really bad like mental state to the point where I started staying with my family because I just didn't have the will to get out of bed and get up and just felt like I had no value and no I felt like I had nothing to add to the world, basically.
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And so my family was literally like the people that were checking on me, making sure I got out of bed, and literally, like had it not been for them, like I would have struggled a lot.
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But oh my god, I and I said I wasn't gonna cry.
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I always end up crying on this podcast.
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Some things never change, and it's crazy because like me and my family have never been that close.
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Like, I am the black sheep of my family.
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I have again always been super independent, and so during that time it was also super hard for me because it was the first time I genuinely had to say I wasn't okay and said say that I needed help, which is something that like me as a person have never been very good at.
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I'm again hyper independent, so it was like really, really hard.
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But we're finally here.
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It's been two years.
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I am now in a very good place in my life.
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I'm happy, I'm medicated, I'm the healthiest I've ever been, and I feel like I'm finally at a point where I can get back to posting, get back to sharing a little bit more about my thoughts, my brain, what's going on, and finally get back to investing into this podcast because it's something that I genuinely really enjoyed doing and appreciated being able to like connect with people and just even like the creative process, which I mean it sounds like I just sit here and gap, but like sitting and like editing and everything else, like it gives me something to do rather than just sitting there and consuming content, like it allows me to create and to share, and that is also very healing for me.
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I've gotten very in touch with my spirituality, and I think that's the other thing that has really carried me through.
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When I got fired from my job in a podcast, I said, like, I feel like I hit rock bottom, like uh not rock bottom, and like I was like, I don't know.
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I feel like sometimes when people say like rock bottom, they're like off drugs and uh crazy, whatever.
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It was not that I just felt like you know, I have always felt like I had a safety net, I have always been to able to take care of myself.
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You know, I've always again been very independent.
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I fell out with like a lot of people.
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I a lot of people that I thought were gonna be in my life forever, people that I were in my circle, or people that I thought cared about me or that I could trust, like God showed me exactly who they were and like stripped me of basically every single person.
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Not every single person, but a large portion of the people that I considered people that were my friends are no longer in my life, which I'm okay with.
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Uh I've made peace with all of it.
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I don't think they're bad people.
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You know, I believe that people are in your life for a reason, for a season, and you know, they serve their purpose in my life.
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I serve my purpose in their life, and you know.
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It just felt like a lot at once, right?
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Like I'm already depressed, lost my job, sad as fuck, no well to live, getting hated on and shitted on by some random fucking miserable ass fucking people on the internet.
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I was like not doing too well, okay.
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So I had to take a step back because I remember saying like this post, like, how are you gonna get like cyberbully?
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Like, bitch, just turn off your fucking phone, like go touch grass, and that's basically what I had to do.
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I kept telling myself, you know, when all of this was happening, I'm like, it's happening for a reason.
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I know that like if I feel like I just like you know, got that safety net taken from me, fell to the ground, and I told myself, like, I'm in the ground, and that's only allowing me to build a foundation and create something different, create something new.
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That led me to getting closer to my family, eventually led to me moving back in with my family, and it's one of the best things I have done for myself because again, it reminded me that I wasn't a shitty person, that I did have people that love me, that I did have people that love me unconditionally, and that didn't have any other vendettas or hidden agendas towards me.
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It allowed me to get away from just the noise and and everything else, literally live in the fucking middle of nowhere.
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I was living in downtown Denver where and just like interacting with so many people, and I feel like I just kind of lost myself in that, and so you know, moving back home it allowed me to like re-ground myself, refind myself, refine the things that I love, and reminded me that I am not alone, and that not only is my family always there with me, but God has always been there in every step of the way, every single thing that happened in the last two years, I know that it was God.
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And in those moments, I they were super shitty.
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Like when I was, you know, falling out with certain people, or you know, when I lost my job or whatever else, it fucking sucked, but I kept telling myself it was for a reason, and I see it now.
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Like I know that God literally plucked me out of there and was like, Gon me, Hanno, like she has a different purpose, and I was at a point again where I literally felt like I had no value to add to this world, okay?
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I wanted to not exist, so he took me out of there, and that was the other thing.
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I started going to church, I started going very frequently.
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I can't say I'm the best Catholic in the entire world because I'm not, I'm a sinner, and so is everyone else, okay?
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People love to fucking throw stones and act like they're fucking perfect and judge.
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That's the other thing.
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Like, people love to fucking judge, especially when you sit here and like expose your life and whatever else.
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Like, people love to like judge you when they themselves don't have a life that I admire or want to live, and also like people like that that live to make other people miserable or sitting on the internet being judgmental, etc.
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etc.
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etc.
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Are literally just people that are miserable within themselves, and that took me a lot to learn.
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And I remember it would really trigger me when people would say certain things because I used to be a people pleaser.
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I think I, you know, I'm finally getting rid of that.
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Learned that the only ones whose job it is to be liked by everyone are clowns, so you know, I'm I know I'm not for everyone.
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I have always been a very polarizing person.
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Like I could literally walk in a room, say nothing, do nothing, and people have already decided what they want to what they want the narrative about me to be.
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I know that there are people that are determined to misunderstand me or to play certain labels or believe certain things about me.
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I've learned that I don't have to explain myself to everyone that I meet, and that I don't have to accept criticism or feedback from people again that I don't admire or that don't know me.
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I am the person that spends the most time with me.
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I know my character, God knows my character, and that's literally all that I care about.
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And it's crazy too because I eventually figured out who some of these people saying these things were who I figured out one of the people that was sending the most hate, sent creating fake pages, fake videos, just constant fake pages, and I knew it was the same person because they had the same type of like style of writing.
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It was the same person who would watch every single one of my videos first.
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That person pretended to like really admire me, would write paragraphs about how great I was, blah blah blah blah blah.
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And they one day forgot to switch profiles, and so they shared off their actual profile the the hate comment and that type of writing, and so I could tell like it was that same person.
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The same person that was literally praising me was the one that was haciendo me la vida cuadritos, like at least one of them.
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The other one might never mind, several people, and even now, like there are so many people that I know are within my circle, and even people I don't fucking know, like I don't know, God is so the universe shows me things even when I don't ask for it, like I things just come to me, okay?
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I'm a very intuitive person, very spiritually aligned person, very spiritually protected by the divine, by God, by my angels, by my ancestors.
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So things just come to me, okay?
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Even when I don't want to find out, I know I find out, and I know that there's people that have and still smile to my face and literally talk mad shit about me.
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Like if they're not addressing it with me, it's really not a problem.
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It's really a problem within themselves, and actually half the time I don't even know these people.
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It's like they know me, have a problem with me, and I don't even fucking know who they are.
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Like, ni and mi mundo ni ni ni existes.
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I've accepted, you know, that people are going to be miserable, and I know that this is probably gonna bring back a lot of that stupid bullshit, but at this point I'm blocking it out.
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I know that the universe does not play about me.
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I'm ruled by Saturn, I'm a Aquarius stelium, I'm a Capricorn Sun.
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Like the universe does not play about me and has continuously showed that to me because anyone that has tried to do wrong upon me, wished bad upon me, I have seen and witnessed their lives.
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They've gotten their karma basically.
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Like, I have learned that I don't have to lift a finger.
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That's also why when a lot of this stuff was going on or a lot of things I just didn't address, because I have learned that it's not my job to expose people or punish people or wish bad upon them, none of that stuff.
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Because at the end of the day, like everyone's gonna get their karma, and I I'm a very I'm heavily ruled by Saturn too.
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I know that if I wish bad upon someone, okay, I'm not that type of person.
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I again am not that does nothing for me.
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So I, you know, I'm not here to wish bad upon anyone that has done bad to me.
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The one thing I do know is that like tables do turn at the end of the day, and God exposes what he needs to expose, and people end up getting their karma, like la gente mala se destruye sola, and those are people that are miserable, like they're going to carry on being miserable in their lives no matter what, and so I just need to be okay with that, make peace with that, continue to show up, continue to share, continue to learn, continue to grow, and continue to like show up for this podcast because again, it's a something that I loved very dearly that I had to take a step back from, but you know, we're back, we're better than ever, healthier than ever, happier than ever, and I'm finally at a point where I'm very excited to get back to this.
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And like now that I'm back though, I do want to make it clear I don't need any input from other people.
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In the past, I would literally have random people show up to my job trying to tell me to do this with my podcast, do that with my podcast, join their podcast, collab with this person, ask me to allow them onto my podcast.
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Again, this podcast is for me, myself, and I.
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If I want to invite you on and whatever, like I will, but a lot of people do not align with me, my values, my ethics.
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So I'm not gonna have them on here.
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Again, a lot of people also want to just sit here and just talk shit about people, or again, will ask me to be on my podcast and I don't even know who they are, so very weird.
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So, yeah, uh, I don't need anyone two cents.
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I'm literally in the middle of nowhere minding my own business.
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I am sharing about me.
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This is my world.
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I'm not here to argue with anyone.
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I'm sharing my opinion, my views.
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If you don't like them, you can get the fuck out.
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But yeah, I'm really excited to be back to start posting again.
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I don't have a set posting schedule quite yet.
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I don't know when the best day to post is.
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So if you have a preference on what day I should post, let me know.
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But for me, I just kind of post whenever I feel inspired.
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But I do want to get back to having a schedule, posting regularly, and really invest my time and energy into this because it's something that I really enjoyed and really loved.
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And I know other people did too.
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I constantly have people asking me when I'm gonna post again.
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So we're finally back.
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Make sure to subscribe, leave a nice comment, like, share, whatever else, and I will see you guys in the next video.
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Make sure to take care of yourself, be kind to yourself, be kind to others, and make sure to leave things better than you found them.
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It's your girl Papi Britt.
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Welcome to Platicando con Papi.
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If it's your first time here, then welcome.
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And if you've been here before, then welcome back.
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Thank you so much for making time and space for me.
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It has been a very, very, very long time since I have posted on this channel on this podcast.
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I think the last time I posted was like in like January, February.
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And during that time I didn't even have my social media.
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I just posted it because I always tell myself this is like a passion project for me.
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So like I should be able to do it even if no one's watching.
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And so I posted that podcast, but I never like promoted it or anything.
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I was just like, you know, whoever is meant to find it will find it.
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Whoever is meant to listen to it will listen to it.
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But I did it more for me than anything.
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I figured it only made sense to kind of reintroduce myself since it's been so long.
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And I feel like so much has happened.
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I've met so many people.
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So much has changed since I first started my podcast.
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I started my podcast three years ago.
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And for the first maybe first year of it, I was pretty consistent with it.
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But it just turned into something that was no longer making me happy.
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It was actually making me miserable.
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So I had to take a step away.
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I haven't ever watched back any of my podcasts because it's a little bit traumatizing.
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I hope to be able to like watch them back one day and just like see where I was at and see like where I'm at now.
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But yeah, I created that podcast in my closet when I was living in Denver, downtown with my roommate.
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And I did it just because I've always enjoyed doing social media.
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I've had my YouTube channel since I like 2020.
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But I always like I'm a yapper, okay?
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So I just and I'm a very opinionated yapper, okay.
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I just wanted a place to like vent, to talk about myself, talk about my experiences, connect with people.
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I've always said like my goal for this podcast is to make people feel seen, heard, feel a little bit less alone.
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And same for me, like that's what it was doing for me because anytime I posted a podcast, I would get really good feedback.
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I would have people sending me paragraphs about how it impacted them and how it helped them or how they empathized with it, or how they were going through the same thing and they it made them feel a little less alone.
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And so I got a lot of validation and I'm very grateful that so many people had so much positive feedback.
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However, with that came a lot of hate, which for me just kind of blindsided me with the amount of hate I was receiving, and honestly, like at the end of the day, I'm human, and it was my first time really experiencing that level of hatred.
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Like people were trying to ruin my life, basically.
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And like one thing for me is like I'm a very open person, I own who I am, I know I'm not perfect, and I've always, you know, been very like unapologetic.
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This is me, what you see is what you get.
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But it really did get to me sometimes because not only were they saying like hateful things about me, they were just saying hateful things about my family, and it made it to a point where I just felt like I was just an absolute piece of shit.
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And with that, I also went through a really like shitty period of my life 2024, literally beat my ass.
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I got fired for my job, and I feel like that literally turned into a whole spiral of everything just going to shit.
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And obviously, like in retrospect, I know that I everything that needed to happen happened for a reason.
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The people that needed to be exposed were exposed, and basically, God got me away from where I didn't need to be, and I've taken these last two years to really like sit with myself, really think about like why certain comments, certain things were getting to me, why I was giving so many people so much power over me, and I've really taken the time to figure out exactly who I am and to stand firm in that.
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And I feel like moving back home helped remind me of who I am, it helped me ground myself, it allowed me to surround with people that actually know me.
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I was letting random people try to tell me about myself, and I just feel like it got so blurred.
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I was going through so much.
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I'm a very depressed person, and so depressed and anxious person, I've always had severe depression and anxiety since I was young.
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And yeah, it was just a really shitty period of my life, and I always told myself, like, if social media or like especially the podcast ever became something that wasn't making me happy, then I wasn't gonna do it.
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Like people were shitting on me so much, but then also shitting on me for not posting, like they would be mad that I posted, but mad that I did it.
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And I was just like, you know what?
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I don't owe people anything.
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People thought I owed them explanations to certain things in my life, and I also have learned, you know, not to overshare.
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I've always been an oversharer, but I realized that through that, like I realized that a lot of people did not have the best intentions towards me, and like a lot of the things that I was sharing, they were trying to use them against me.
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And honestly, like again, I sat down with myself and I've made peace with things.
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I have gotten closer to God, closer to my family, and like now I know that the only people that can judge me or tell me about myself or literally God and maybe my family, but I know who I am and I'm finally at a point where I feel like I'm not like in survival mode.
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I was driving the other day and was just thinking about the fact that like I'm finally not in survival mode.
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I feel like ever since I moved out of my parents' house like at 17, and even before that, like I started working when I was 14 and have been always very independent.
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And so obviously, with like losing my job, I'm a Capricorn, it really impacted me very heavily, and I really tied my value to my job.
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And so when I lost that, I feel like I lost a sense of my identity.
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I've always been a very hard worker, I've always had two to three jobs.
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I take pride in being a good worker and like not having a job, not having anything to do, and then having, you know, the the depression of having gotten fired, which was so shitty.
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I've never gotten fired, especially in that manner ever.
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And then just the added like hate comments and everything else, like it really put me in a really, really, really, really bad like mental state to the point where I started staying with my family because I just didn't have the will to get out of bed and get up and just felt like I had no value and no I felt like I had nothing to add to the world, basically.
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And so my family was literally like the people that were checking on me, making sure I got out of bed, and literally, like had it not been for them, like I would have struggled a lot.
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But oh my god, I and I said I wasn't gonna cry.
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I always end up crying on this podcast.
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Some things never change, and it's crazy because like me and my family have never been that close.
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Like, I am the black sheep of my family.
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I have again always been super independent, and so during that time it was also super hard for me because it was the first time I genuinely had to say I wasn't okay and said say that I needed help, which is something that like me as a person have never been very good at.
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I'm again hyper independent, so it was like really, really hard.
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But we're finally here.
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It's been two years.
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I am now in a very good place in my life.
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I'm happy, I'm medicated, I'm the healthiest I've ever been, and I feel like I'm finally at a point where I can get back to posting, get back to sharing a little bit more about my thoughts, my brain, what's going on, and finally get back to investing into this podcast because it's something that I genuinely really enjoyed doing and appreciated being able to like connect with people and just even like the creative process, which I mean it sounds like I just sit here and gap, but like sitting and like editing and everything else, like it gives me something to do rather than just sitting there and consuming content, like it allows me to create and to share, and that is also very healing for me.
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I've gotten very in touch with my spirituality, and I think that's the other thing that has really carried me through.
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When I got fired from my job in a podcast, I said, like, I feel like I hit rock bottom, like uh not rock bottom, and like I was like, I don't know.
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I feel like sometimes when people say like rock bottom, they're like off drugs and uh crazy, whatever.
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It was not that I just felt like you know, I have always felt like I had a safety net, I have always been to able to take care of myself.
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You know, I've always again been very independent.
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I fell out with like a lot of people.
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I a lot of people that I thought were gonna be in my life forever, people that I were in my circle, or people that I thought cared about me or that I could trust, like God showed me exactly who they were and like stripped me of basically every single person.
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Not every single person, but a large portion of the people that I considered people that were my friends are no longer in my life, which I'm okay with.
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Uh I've made peace with all of it.
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I don't think they're bad people.
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You know, I believe that people are in your life for a reason, for a season, and you know, they serve their purpose in my life.
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I serve my purpose in their life, and you know.
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It just felt like a lot at once, right?
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Like I'm already depressed, lost my job, sad as fuck, no well to live, getting hated on and shitted on by some random fucking miserable ass fucking people on the internet.
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I was like not doing too well, okay.
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So I had to take a step back because I remember saying like this post, like, how are you gonna get like cyberbully?
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Like, bitch, just turn off your fucking phone, like go touch grass, and that's basically what I had to do.
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I kept telling myself, you know, when all of this was happening, I'm like, it's happening for a reason.
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I know that like if I feel like I just like you know, got that safety net taken from me, fell to the ground, and I told myself, like, I'm in the ground, and that's only allowing me to build a foundation and create something different, create something new.
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That led me to getting closer to my family, eventually led to me moving back in with my family, and it's one of the best things I have done for myself because again, it reminded me that I wasn't a shitty person, that I did have people that love me, that I did have people that love me unconditionally, and that didn't have any other vendettas or hidden agendas towards me.
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It allowed me to get away from just the noise and and everything else, literally live in the fucking middle of nowhere.
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I was living in downtown Denver where and just like interacting with so many people, and I feel like I just kind of lost myself in that, and so you know, moving back home it allowed me to like re-ground myself, refind myself, refine the things that I love, and reminded me that I am not alone, and that not only is my family always there with me, but God has always been there in every step of the way, every single thing that happened in the last two years, I know that it was God.
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And in those moments, I they were super shitty.
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Like when I was, you know, falling out with certain people, or you know, when I lost my job or whatever else, it fucking sucked, but I kept telling myself it was for a reason, and I see it now.
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Like I know that God literally plucked me out of there and was like, Gon me, Hanno, like she has a different purpose, and I was at a point again where I literally felt like I had no value to add to this world, okay?
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I wanted to not exist, so he took me out of there, and that was the other thing.
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I started going to church, I started going very frequently.
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I can't say I'm the best Catholic in the entire world because I'm not, I'm a sinner, and so is everyone else, okay?
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People love to fucking throw stones and act like they're fucking perfect and judge.
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That's the other thing.
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Like, people love to fucking judge, especially when you sit here and like expose your life and whatever else.
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Like, people love to like judge you when they themselves don't have a life that I admire or want to live, and also like people like that that live to make other people miserable or sitting on the internet being judgmental, etc.
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etc.
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etc.
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Are literally just people that are miserable within themselves, and that took me a lot to learn.
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And I remember it would really trigger me when people would say certain things because I used to be a people pleaser.
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I think I, you know, I'm finally getting rid of that.
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Learned that the only ones whose job it is to be liked by everyone are clowns, so you know, I'm I know I'm not for everyone.
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I have always been a very polarizing person.
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Like I could literally walk in a room, say nothing, do nothing, and people have already decided what they want to what they want the narrative about me to be.
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I know that there are people that are determined to misunderstand me or to play certain labels or believe certain things about me.
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I've learned that I don't have to explain myself to everyone that I meet, and that I don't have to accept criticism or feedback from people again that I don't admire or that don't know me.
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I am the person that spends the most time with me.
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I know my character, God knows my character, and that's literally all that I care about.
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And it's crazy too because I eventually figured out who some of these people saying these things were who I figured out one of the people that was sending the most hate, sent creating fake pages, fake videos, just constant fake pages, and I knew it was the same person because they had the same type of like style of writing.
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It was the same person who would watch every single one of my videos first.
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That person pretended to like really admire me, would write paragraphs about how great I was, blah blah blah blah blah.
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And they one day forgot to switch profiles, and so they shared off their actual profile the the hate comment and that type of writing, and so I could tell like it was that same person.
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The same person that was literally praising me was the one that was haciendo me la vida cuadritos, like at least one of them.
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The other one might never mind, several people, and even now, like there are so many people that I know are within my circle, and even people I don't fucking know, like I don't know, God is so the universe shows me things even when I don't ask for it, like I things just come to me, okay?
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I'm a very intuitive person, very spiritually aligned person, very spiritually protected by the divine, by God, by my angels, by my ancestors.
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So things just come to me, okay?
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Even when I don't want to find out, I know I find out, and I know that there's people that have and still smile to my face and literally talk mad shit about me.
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Like if they're not addressing it with me, it's really not a problem.
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It's really a problem within themselves, and actually half the time I don't even know these people.
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It's like they know me, have a problem with me, and I don't even fucking know who they are.
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Like, ni and mi mundo ni ni ni existes.
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I've accepted, you know, that people are going to be miserable, and I know that this is probably gonna bring back a lot of that stupid bullshit, but at this point I'm blocking it out.
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I know that the universe does not play about me.
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I'm ruled by Saturn, I'm a Aquarius stelium, I'm a Capricorn Sun.
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Like the universe does not play about me and has continuously showed that to me because anyone that has tried to do wrong upon me, wished bad upon me, I have seen and witnessed their lives.
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They've gotten their karma basically.
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Like, I have learned that I don't have to lift a finger.
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That's also why when a lot of this stuff was going on or a lot of things I just didn't address, because I have learned that it's not my job to expose people or punish people or wish bad upon them, none of that stuff.
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Because at the end of the day, like everyone's gonna get their karma, and I I'm a very I'm heavily ruled by Saturn too.
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I know that if I wish bad upon someone, okay, I'm not that type of person.
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I again am not that does nothing for me.
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So I, you know, I'm not here to wish bad upon anyone that has done bad to me.
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The one thing I do know is that like tables do turn at the end of the day, and God exposes what he needs to expose, and people end up getting their karma, like la gente mala se destruye sola, and those are people that are miserable, like they're going to carry on being miserable in their lives no matter what, and so I just need to be okay with that, make peace with that, continue to show up, continue to share, continue to learn, continue to grow, and continue to like show up for this podcast because again, it's a something that I loved very dearly that I had to take a step back from, but you know, we're back, we're better than ever, healthier than ever, happier than ever, and I'm finally at a point where I'm very excited to get back to this.
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And like now that I'm back though, I do want to make it clear I don't need any input from other people.
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In the past, I would literally have random people show up to my job trying to tell me to do this with my podcast, do that with my podcast, join their podcast, collab with this person, ask me to allow them onto my podcast.
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Again, this podcast is for me, myself, and I.
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If I want to invite you on and whatever, like I will, but a lot of people do not align with me, my values, my ethics.
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So I'm not gonna have them on here.
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Again, a lot of people also want to just sit here and just talk shit about people, or again, will ask me to be on my podcast and I don't even know who they are, so very weird.
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So, yeah, uh, I don't need anyone two cents.
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I'm literally in the middle of nowhere minding my own business.
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I am sharing about me.
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This is my world.
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I'm not here to argue with anyone.
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I'm sharing my opinion, my views.
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If you don't like them, you can get the fuck out.
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But yeah, I'm really excited to be back to start posting again.
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I don't have a set posting schedule quite yet.
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I don't know when the best day to post is.
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So if you have a preference on what day I should post, let me know.
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But for me, I just kind of post whenever I feel inspired.
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But I do want to get back to having a schedule, posting regularly, and really invest my time and energy into this because it's something that I really enjoyed and really loved.
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And I know other people did too.
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I constantly have people asking me when I'm gonna post again.
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So we're finally back.
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Make sure to subscribe, leave a nice comment, like, share, whatever else, and I will see you guys in the next video.
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Make sure to take care of yourself, be kind to yourself, be kind to others, and make sure to leave things better than you found them.
