HollingsWorthless Program Ep. 271

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M cruising down the black.
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It's a Tuesday night.
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Oh yeah, catch you buy some time of Jay and
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Carlos feeling bright.
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They got the mic, stay in truth dropping.
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Jam life comedy coach that they've played.
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It's a fam a sun That's when we.
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Beat chunking life comedy.
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Gotcha, don't you see a sunn p Aiming for free
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the same night groove, Come alive on the straight. Oh yeah, it's.
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Time open the real dog Jane dropping jokes, Calas bringing
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team doves they can never want, woke.
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Jazz list soul, grouse, chuck in the back, grab your snacks.
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Wee back and got you.
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A track, the real talking to trumping jokes, Calos breaking
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deep dives, making everyone woke, jazz lick soul, cruise fucking
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the back, grab your snacks, lean.
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Back and got track.
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Yeah, sounner upee that's where we beat tucking life comedy.
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Don't you see a sunner upee? Ain't nothing for free,
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just a night groove, Come alive on the straight.
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Oh yeah, hey, joke and break it down.
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Can talk about dreams and talk of the town from
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the highest of the lost.
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Never miss a beat.
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Colors, this crew bringing that he last sucking day.
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You just really missed the groom every episode? Gotcha Philismooth?
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And then break it down?
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Will they not take you for a ride to the
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intact day.
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Let's set the fire.
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Oh yeah, oh, what's up?
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Everybody?
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Welcome to the Hallings with this program on one of
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your host big Hallings. With that as usual, today we
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will have the Fab four, the Fantastic four, Ah, the
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fucking Goon Squad fore Man, no baby uh. Starting with
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oh my god, you guys have no idea. How excited
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I am? You seen him on Amazon Prime. He's the
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host with the most part time famous, full time funny Carlos.
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We're in the building. What's going down? People?
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And I'm gonna jump to Tyler. You know him as
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the Seattle Native aka Chief Green Cloud aka Hiama Smoke
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and aka Sakaduda aka pot of Hot Mess aka Chief
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spin and Ball. They call him the box check Ma.
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They say he's uncancellable man the Hey, I'm not racist, Tyler,
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don't call me Joseph Smith.
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Hello.
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And last, but not least, we have the Og, the Scorpion,
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the Devil's Threesome, the Archie Bunker because he keeps it
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all in the family. What does the fox say, phil Fox?
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Fox like the animal?
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Yeah, hello him A little.
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Stuttered, I'm stuttered here a little, just a little, but
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you know, no, you look you look great, a little
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better first.
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Yeah, I like the the fucking Three Musketeers facial hair
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you got going on.
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By the way, nice, nice to meet Carlos. I haven't met.
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First time. Yes, I've warned him, not warned. I've told
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him a little. We've told him a little bit about
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your eyes are up. Yeah, you do Victoria's would you say, Ejacula?
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Yeah, eja Yeah.
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Victoria said, you're looking good, fella, and you do. You're
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fucking like your you your skin looks good. You're fucking glowing.
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Uh.
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So do you want to uh? Do you want to
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give us an update of like from last time you
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were on and like the ups and downs and everything.
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I meant, oh, man over what hey, what I think
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it's been way more than that a year?
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Oh ye ship balls? Uh?
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Well short, a little update, Uh, I mean well, by
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the way, last time I think we talked, right, I
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was uh, I am pregnant, by the way.
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But I uh I.
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I became a journeyman, right, I did construction right, became
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an operator, a heavy equipment operator, became a journeyman, and
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you know, you would think, Wow, that's you know, you
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went through an entire apprenticeship for four or five years.
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You made it.
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You're gonna fucking do that for the rest of your life.
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Well after you became a journeyman and uh, I had
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been laid off from the last company for the season.
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I sat out of work for over a year.
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Nobody would hire me I needed They said, I needed
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more experience. Well, how the fuck am I supposed to
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get more experience if you won't give it to me?
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So lie, Well, I tried to do the best I
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could to lie, but uh, I'm too I'm too honest
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when it comes at least to my work.
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I guess I don't know. I lie about a lot
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of other shit in my life.
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But but yeah, so uh so I got really depressed
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and down on myself for a while. I had saved
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up all this money before I became laid off, and
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I was on an employment for over six months. And
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then after that I lived off of my my savings,
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had like twenty K and savings, lived off all that,
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used all that shit up. Then I started living off
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credit cards, used all the credit cards up, and went
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straight deep as I could into debt. My credit score
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is like a fucking four hundred right now. It's really bad.
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And I just I, yeah, I didn't know what else
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to do anymore. And so obviously the best answer would
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be just let's make everything way worse and go right
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back into fucking using bad substances. So so I did
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that for a little bit again, unfortunately, and hello Sandy,
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and and and then you know, it was like, this
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isn't the answer. This is clearly not the answer.
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I need to do something.
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And also, well, a couple of things, uh, well, and
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it's okay, you're talking about this stuff with the new job,
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right like they know or you're fine with it.
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Yeah, whatever it should be. I don't think they watch podcasts.
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I don't want you to go back into an unemployed status,
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you know, I'll be okay, well, okay, cool, then well
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let me well, so well, we don't need to discuss
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all of that in those details. We'll just say back
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to opiate's right. I was, I was, I was using
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opiates again, and you know it is what it is.
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Yeah, you know, sir, thank you.
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I already like Carlos put them down. But yeah, so, uh,
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by the way, Phil, you look at all the love
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you're getting it.
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I know, I love you guys. Thank you guys so much.
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I'm so happy it makes it makes me to come
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back in another six months for sure.
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Yeah, but I just so to finish up.
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To finish up the long story short, uh, I needed
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to fix the situation.
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And so I didn't know where else's turn.
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So I turned to my family, right, and my pops
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is a is a carpenter, has been his whole life,
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and you know, he runs he runs jobs now he's
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he's high up enough in the company. And I was like, hey,
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you know, if you will make me a carpenter, you know,
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because it's union work too. So I was like, if
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you just will make me a straight up carpenter and
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I can come work for you, I'll do it. I mean,
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I have construction experience, but you know, not carpentry per se.
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But I mean still I've been out there in the
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field for quite a while. So so yeah, he was like, sure,
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you need help, I'll help you out. And so their
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current job that they've been working on is in Boise, Idaho,
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and and it's gonna be about another eight months until
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it's done.
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So I have I have a.
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Place at my own place here in Boise. I'm living
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in and I'm exploring the city a little bit. I
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have a whole new, like rejuvenated vibe.
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You know.
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It's I'm just like a new person. I feel like
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he just nice.
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And and just so people know, because I I think
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I would. I would try and call you or text
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you over the you know, over the last year or whatever.
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And yeah, I being a close friend of yours, I
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know how you are when when you don't respond, I
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know that you're off.
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Everybody knows.
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Everybody knows your first son because you feel like I
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think because you feel bad and you don't you know,
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I'm not gonna judge you or anything, you know, but
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I uh, you know, Jesus was a carboner, be proud fox. Yeah,
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and it's whoa easy Yeah, Jesus.
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Jesus didn't do that, right.
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Oh no, he did not. He did not.
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Uh more like this, oh man, but uh.
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But I would like in the in since the last
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time you're on here, I would I'd call you or
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text you at different times, and sometimes it was just
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to tell you that, like people on the podcast, you know,
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or the people in the chat were asking how you
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were and wanted an update, and you know, everybody loves.
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You, so you know, yeah, I appreciate it.
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I'm so happy, like I you know, I talked to
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you obviously before you came on today, but uh, you know,
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and got the update and so I'm so happy for
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you and uh, and it's it's good to actually see you.
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I mean, we talked, but we didn't do like FaceTime
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or whatever.
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But I guess I should have picked up because those
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encouraging words probably would have saved me sooner.
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You know. Yeah, good thing I didn't.
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Dude, I would be texting me like are you alive?
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Because I would be the only one. Yeah.
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I would text you just like just anything, and you
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have no responses.
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But I'll give you. I'll give you one.
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I'll give you one little story that you know, I
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don't think really anybody knows, and it's not I will
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only tell you the story in order to try to
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not make other people want to do the same ship.
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Right.
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So, when I kind of relapsed the first time, this
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last little bit or whatever, ago, I saw an old
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friend that I had used with in the past and
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met up with him, and uh, and you know, I
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had been a long time since I had used, like
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I don't know, a year whatever, and I'd been on
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some like kind of opiate medication fucked up in Freddie
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Mercury by the way, So uh I uh, I was like,
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you know, doing some opiates and stuff.
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And then this.
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Guy also he he used uh he used math or
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whatever too, right, And I normally never smoke that shit.
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I don't like it.
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I would rather go down than up, and so but.
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It was I'm just going to clip the part of
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you saying I'd rather go down.
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Sure, yeah, please, and so I uh, so I was
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doing both and I was like, I was like, man,
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I'm we're fucking sitting here just not doing anything, but
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just continuing to do more and more.
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And then we were like, okay, well, let's take off.
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And he got in his car and started to back out,
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and like before I decided to drive away, I was like, ah, fuck,
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before I drive, let me just do one more hit, right,
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And I took one more hit and the next thing
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that I remember happening is uh like he was like
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like shaking me awake, right, and I was like, the
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fuck happened, and he's like, I just fucking norcanju Like
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two times he was like, you were fucking you were
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you were gone, you were down for a little bit,
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you know what I mean? And uh, I was like, fuck,
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that's you know. I didn't believe him. I was like,
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you're fucking lying, dude. I was like, fuck off, Like
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I didn't fucking whatever. And then he goes, look and
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the ship's on the other chair in the video. Yeah,
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he's like the fucking He's like, I called the ambulance.
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Ambulances on the way, and I was like.
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Well, let's get the fuck out here. I want to
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deal with the ambulance. But because I felt okay at
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that point. But but either way, I mean, none of
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that as good. And I mean this, it's there's real consequences, right.
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I mean I tried to use harm reduction practices as
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much as I can if if I you know, am
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in those situations, but don't put yourself in the situations
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to begin with. And you know it's hard because you
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can fucking die. I mean, like I don't, I'll just
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I'll just I'll just take measures to like try to
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reduce me dying. You know what, I mean, so like
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instead of you know, so people use these little blue pills, right,
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and and so instead of putting like a full one
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on foil or whatever and and just letting loose on
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the whole thing, you know, I'll break it up in
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little pieces and and you know, just take a little
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bit and and I'll just try to like slowly get
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to the level I'm looking for, right, instead of just
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taking one big fucking mega hit and being like because
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I do still, I mean, the the goal on opiates
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is to not off, right, I mean, it is to
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pass out.
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I mean that's the I don't want to.
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Say the best part, but it's it's definitely one of
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the highs you're seeking. And so I mean, with that,
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I would say there's always there's not always a guarantee
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that when you do not off or pass out, that
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you're gonna wake up, right, are you? You don't, I
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mean you don't know. You just you're you know, it's
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it's a it's a weird fucking roller coaster to ride.
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But anyways, I just wanted to share that. I mean,
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I I don't don't really share that with anybody, And
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the fact that I just shared it all with you
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is really just you know, just fucking if it can
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help anybody or make give you a little bit more
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of a like this ship is real, Like don't fucking
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do it?
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You know?
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Yeah, yeah, pills that remember that I'm breaking the break
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them a little pieces.
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That's what you That's what we got out all that,
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damn it at the end of the day breaking.
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I was trying not to teach a class on it,
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but you know, feels like this is how I do it.
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So first, what you want to do is uh, Natasha
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said Phil, seriously, we need you, we equals in the world.
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No pressure. Just please answer the calls next time. You
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are loved and you are worthy.
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So let me Yeah, go ahead, Thank you, Victoria.
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Glad to hear and see you're doing better. We love
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you so much. Sandy just said, Lord.
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That ship was very funny.
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On the flip side of that note, I'll say that
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I started using I started doing a lot of meditation
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after I'd cleaned up and and and there's this app
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called Waking Up. I don't know if you guys have
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heard of it, but it's it's a specific kind of meditation.
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The dude's name is Sam Harris. That does it. I
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don't know if any of you are.
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Familiar, but it's it's been the best meditation app I've
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ever used. And when I didn't have money, they even
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offer a free, uh like scholarship subscription because it's otherwise
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it's like one hundred bucks a year or whatever. Right,
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and so it's it's really cool and it it really
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is what kickstarted my whole mindset shift and everything. And
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and it's just I'm, like I said, I'm in a
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really good place now. So I yes, I shared all
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that bad shit, but I'm doing so much better right now.
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And the change of pace and scenery and all of
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that is.
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I mean, you look good things for me.
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You look great, Like I said, I mean you you
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know from I mean, I've seen you in all ends
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of the spectrum, you know, at different points, and you
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look you look as great as you've ever been.
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Thanks buddy.
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I'm also working really fun ken hard, as Carpenter says it.
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You know, you know what's the funniest to me is
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that you're a journeyman, Carpenter. And do you remember when
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you tried to put in a lock for me in
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the door.
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It was too old man, that was an old door.
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I didn't get it.
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It's like the nineteen thirties or some shit fucked up
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my whole door. He's like, I could do it, man,
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I do this all the time. And then handyman, Yeah,
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yeah that's right. Oh fuck. So you're you're in Idaho
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now and uh so, and part of the job is
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you get you get to live rent free at this place.
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Yeah, the company's taking care of it.
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Yeah.
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So I mean no, but I mean I'm getting back
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on my feet. So I mean that is definitely one
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of the big perks. And so when I moved out
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of the place I was, I was staying with a
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buddy at his house, and and so when I knew
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this was happening, I you know, moved all my shit
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out and you know, I'm done with that. And then yeah,
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this place is getting taken care of for me month
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after month, and that just allows me to get shit
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paid off and and really, like I said, back on
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my feet. So so I'm really looking forward to the
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next eight months for sure.
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So how much debt do you got?
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Now?
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How far in the hole with that fucking thing you
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have on and that voice it's so fucking creepy.
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Not your fucking hole.
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Satan Jesus, you want to make a deal, where do
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I sign?
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No?
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Ship, don't say? Okay, no, I don't know. Fucking twenty
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thousand dollars, I don't know. It's a lot for me.
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I don't know. It might be some people.
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But Tyler, Uh, Sanders said, so proud of you? Are
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you now a member of a boy band?
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I don't know.
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Yeah, sure, well no, you know what that just made
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me think is looking at us all here if we
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were a boy band.
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Uh.
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First of all, Carlos would definitely be the bass. He
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would be the low voice singer and especially got the
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shades on. I think I think Phil would be the
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bad boy. He'd probably be the bad bad boy, I
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don't think know.
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Because he's too chill, okay.
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And I'd be the old veteran.
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Of course.
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I'd be would you say Tyler the manager, the guy
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that sought us all out, dude?
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That was like.
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And then uh, and then Tyler would be the one
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that would go to rehab.
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What yeah, I'm sober?
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Okay, Well I got to you got two people saying
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I would have been the manager that I was just
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one and Sander said, would have.
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Been a manager. Huh, that's too funny.
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Yeah, you you'd be you were like it. I can
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see like I'm trying to get on this new edition kick.
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Let me get some white boys.
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I need to stop me another group dig, can you?
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I mean you know the drums.
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Okay, we'll go with that Scooter Bron.
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Yeah that's the guy's name, right, Scooter Broun.
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What up?
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And you'd be like Scooter Bron, dude.
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There it is.
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So you're you're in excuse me, Idaho. And by the
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way we're doing we're just doing a quick one today.
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I think I mentioned that to you, Phil because we're
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gonna all go watch the Yeah, the debate. Uh funk
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off Victoria. She just said, Lou Pearlman, you motherfucker Carlos.
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That's the actually boys guy. That's the boys guy.
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That's the fact.
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I just looked him up. The old.
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Victoria would be one of the groupies. So, uh, you're
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you're there in Idaho. You said you were there for
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eight more months.
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I mean that's roughly an estimate, but something like that probably.
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So what do you after? Okay, fast forward, let's say
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ten months. What what do you what do you want
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to do after that? Are you or is it a
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thing by the way, and you know, as you're going
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through this, if it's a thing where you're like, I
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don't think that far out day, I take it day
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by day. That's fine too. I'm just or, how have
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you thought about, like what you want to do down
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the road? You're about to say something smart ass, I
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already fucking know you.
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No, no, I was I was gonna say.
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I think that I always have tried to think so
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far out, like in the future, and like like try
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to think about these big, lofty goals that I'd like
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to accomplish, and I think at least since I've been
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here for the first time, I kind of actually am
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just almost living day by day. I'm not trying to
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look super far in the future. And I think maybe
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that is a maybe that is a good thing, you know,
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because because then when you say you kind of set
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yourself up for failure. I feel like when you look
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too far in the future and you're just starting out
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to meet your expectations, you can still kind of have
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those those long term goals. I feel like, but I
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don't know, I don't know what the answer is, but
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I think it's good to just kind of live right now, right,
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and just focus on what's going on right now.
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Yeah, and it's fucking it's working, so that's the most
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important thing.
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Uh and uh.
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And now with again, we're doing a short one now,
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but do you do you would you want to come
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back and do some more episodes?
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Yeah, we'll see what happens.
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No pressure, no thanks, yeah, yeah, I mean.
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I will tell you this.
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It's such hard work that like, so, I'm a big
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bath taker. I love my baths, and I'll fucking I'm
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so sore sometimes after work I'll sit in the fucking
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bathtub the hot water for like fucking three or four hours, dude,
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just to fucking soak these muscles and let them fucking
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relax a little bit because it's yeah, it's fucked So anyway,
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all I'm saying.
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Is, well, what's fucking tired after work?
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Bro?
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Really quick? What's like a what's a day? Like an
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average day?
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Um? Get up and you said come.
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Back and get this love PHILM I love you, guys,
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Thank you.
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I wake up at like five fifteen whatever in the
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morning and then get to work by like six thirty,
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start at seven, work till three thirty. Fucking just bust
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ass all day where fucking you know, fifty sixty pound
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fucking construction bags, you know, the fucking harness with the
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tool bags on the sides.
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It's fucking heavy.
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And uh, you know, climbing fucking ladders and hooking off,
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tying off, dude, it's it's it's kind of fun and cool,
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but it's it's not easy work. And then come home
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and like I said, just like sometimes I'll just come
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home late, on on the bed immediately and pass out
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for like hours, wake up like in the evening, eat
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and then go right back to bed. It's I'm still
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like getting acclimated a little bit too. I think how
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hard it is. But anyway, we're getting there.
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Do you want.
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To do you want to come back?
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Phil?
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I like baths, that pretty much.
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That pretty much fucking sums me up as a human ball.
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I like that.
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All.
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Uh, well, we got to cut it short.
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You know.
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You know, it's any any time, Phil, we want you back,
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you know, any.
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Sorry, I fucking hog the whole time, but I mean no,
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this was this was hard to do it.
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You know, nice to meet you, man, Nice to meet
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you too.
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Carlos Sandy said, You're gonna be cool and Uh okay,
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let's do our plugs and then get out of here. Uh, Carlos,
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what do you got?
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I'm a daily comedy club all week, so if y'all
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know somebody in Vegas, tell them come hard let me
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for they o'clock show all week and I'm also headline
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a new comedy club Friday.
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So y'all come through part time fames dot com.
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Tyler This Saturday, I'll be in Calgary, Alberta at the
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Laugh Shop doing a dope show. Come out and see me.
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Nice.
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If you're in Canada where my Canadians, there's no Canadians. No, yeah,
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I don't know what territory you're in it.
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I think she's Toronto. I'm I will be in Escondido
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this weekend, which is pretty close to San Diego. So
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if you're there or you know anybody there. Victoria wants
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to be wardrobe consultant. Sure, all right, and if you
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know anybody in San Diego are near there, please tell
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him to come out. It's Friday and Saturday at the
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Grand Comedy Club. You can go to Big irshj dot
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com for tickets. And uh again, I just want to
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say Phil, I love you. Everybody in the chat loves you.
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It's so good to see you, like see you and
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not just talk to you, but to see you and
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that you look so fucking great. Man, I'm so happy
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and uh any the door is open for you for eternity,
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you know, anytime if you want to do it once
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a year, great, you want to do it.
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I'm serious, I know, I know, I appreciate you.
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There's no pressure at all. I just I just want
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you to know if I mean it would have been
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a bug where you're like, hey, you'd.
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Like to do a little longer one with you guys.
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You know, anytime, man, you have for you.
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I got plenty in the bathroom.
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And usually when I end this I usually say I
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love you all, but tonight I'm gonna say until next week,
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I love you, Phil, I love you too, buddy.
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Shut up.
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If you if a person fucking listens to this till
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the end, you deserve a prize. Your prize is to
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go to iTunes and ready to review thiscast give it
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five star cards. You motherfuckers.
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Fucking say some.
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Nice you focks right now, you motherfuckers.
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You know this fucking piece of ship. For five years,
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I averaging about two fucking reviews a year.
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Go fucking write some of you motherfuckers.
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Oh fuck, that is the realest time I've ever heard you.
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God yeah do what the fuck