I Am A Ball

Moving with the Peace of an object.
I was a Bad Life Juggler
I used to think that I was a Bad – Life Juggler.
Always dropping my ‘balls’.
Reaching for opportunities too late,
as they fell to the floor and rolled away.
Feeling limited Control over any situation I was in.
Especially when other humans were involved.
I’d become frustrated when somebody else’s ignorance would Wreck the Perfect Pattern that I’d previously planned as being my most tolerable option.
I wouldn’t know how to react to the newly forming situation, franticly grabbing at it, often missing the appropriate point of contact, as it fell through my fingers.
This happened a lot.
I was inhibited by my perceived lack of ability in situation manipulation, so I avoided Human interaction.

While moving through many people.
One day, I was walking through a busy intersection, and I started visualizing all the other pedestrians as Balls, swirling around in a massive pattern,
with Me at the centre as their Commanding Juggler.
The Architect of all around me.
The metaphor fell through, as I was non-central and the pattern proved more complex than I could possibly understand. There were too many pieces, each with their own separate agenda.
So I let go of the mental image.
Released from thinking myself Responsible for them,
a thought struck me..

I… am a BALL !
Instead of the Manipulator of Fate’s pattern, I allowed myself to simply be an Object within it.
Instead of trying to change the surrounding pattern, my only responsibility was the peace and improvement of my own movement. Lending as much beauty as I can to the web of our interactive momentum. Appropriate, absent of Agenda.
Not fighting circumstance to achieve my limiting Preconceptions.
Enjoying My dance.  Allowing others in, but not Insisting
that they move to my tune.

I’m not Responsible for all the other Balls.
While there Are many times when I must actively impose my personal pattern upon surrounding circumstances, I have to learn when to let go.
If I can learn – when to be a Ball – then I can move through any maddening pattern with the peace of an inanimate Object revelling in the simplicity of it’s own Arc.
Enjoy!