september 2026

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I'm gonna be real, team.
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We almost had to cancel the pod.
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We almost had to cancel the pod.
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I fully started using this microphone.
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It's never sounded worse in its life.
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What the hell was up with that?
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I literally like I started talking to it.
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It sounded like I was under gravel.
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It was horrible.
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And then I adjusted it and all of a sudden now she's crisp.
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Now she's crisp and gorgeous and more beautiful than she's ever sounded in her life.
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What happened there?
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What happened there?
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Anyway, thrilled to be with everyone today.
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Happy, happy September.
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Happy pod day, guys.
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I was writing up everything I wanted to talk to for this podcast, and honestly, I was like, I feel like there's not a lot to talk about this month.
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And then I remembered this is what all okay, this is what always happens every time I sit down to record the podcast.
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I'm like, wow, I don't, I feel like nothing happened this month.
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I feel like this was a really boring blase month, if you will.
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Like I really feel like I couldn't even, like, if I just skipped the catch-up bit, I wouldn't even miss anything.
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And then I start writing stuff down, and I'm like, oh my god, wait, I miss this, and I miss this and I miss this.
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It's crazy.
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Like, the way my brain forgets every single thing until I'm writing it down on a piece of paper should be studied by lab rats.
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First things first, on the fifth, I went to go see Harry Styles.
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Ah! Ah!
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Ah.
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For those of you canning along at home, that was night six, which meant it was the night where he wore those teeny tiny slutty little short shorts for no fucking reason.
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Good lord.
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I went with my cousin and her husband, and I'll be real, about five songs in, I looked over at one of them and I went, I cannot believe he's wearing those shorts.
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I was so beside my-cause you don't understand.
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Like, for months leading up to that show, my brain was like, How crazy would it be?
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If he put on those slutty little shorts and he came and did a dance for me.
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How slutty, how crazy would that be of him?
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How absolutely batch of fucking bananas would that be of him?
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And then he walked out in those shorts so short, I saw God.
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I saw God.
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This is a really humbling thing to admit on the internet, but I fully, there was one point, like towards the end of the show where he was talking so seriously and so like passionately and emotionally in the beautiful, articulate way that he does.
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And I looked over at my cousin and I said, You can see his legs shining right now.
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I'm no better than a man.
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I'm no better than a man.
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I'm not.
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And I'm seeing him again this coming Wednesday on September 30th for that Wednesday show.
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So if you're if you're watch if you're listening to this, it means that that's the day that I'm going to see Harry, which is crazy.
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Um so keep an eye, if you're listening to this day of, keep an eye out for what outfit he's wearing.
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Because it just know, just know if he is wearing anything pink or anything short short, I will be jumping into the pits of Madison Square Garden because I don't even have good seats that night.
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I'm in section 400 and something or other, but I'm in the room, bitch.
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I'm in the room.
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When I was in New York for the fifth, the show on the fifth, I also went to the pop-up, which fun fact, stayed in line for about two hours to get in the pop-up.
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That's kind of a ridiculous thing that I did, especially because for some reason I wore flip-flops.
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Hey, hey, why did I do that?
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Hey, what was that decision about?
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How my dog's out and the Harry Styles pop-up.
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What was that?
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But I ended up having to go by myself.
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And I must say, it was one, it was very con-like, convention-like in its experience, because it was such a fangirl culture going on at that place.
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Everyone was so nice.
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All the fans were so nice to each other, all the workers were so nice to us, we were nice to them.
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It was really awesome.
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People were offering to take pictures for me because they knew I was there by myself.
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I was making friends in line.
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It was crazy.
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I was like exhausted when I went back to my hotel room that day.
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But like, it was such an interesting experience to have outside of a convention where I just had that sort of out-of-body experience that I'm so used to having in convention halls where it's like, wow, fangirl culture, fan culture is so fun and whimsical and so unbelievably beautiful that I just am so lucky and happy that I decided when I was a kid that I wanted to be a part of it forever.
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I also bought my tickets to the UK finally.
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Yeah, I've been putting that shit off because I didn't want to put that money down.
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But I finally did it.
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I bought my tickets, so I'm officially going to the UK.
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I'm gonna be in Ireland for a few days and then I'll go to For the Love of Supernatural in Manchester, and then after that, I'm gonna go and spend a few days in London.
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Because if I'm gonna go out there, I might as well enjoy myself.
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I might as well experience it, you know?
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And I've spent a rather long time being bombarded in the most loving way possible by people in Europe, in the UK, all over the place, who are like, please come to the UK or Europe.
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I want to meet you.
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And I feel like I thought I knew how many people were gonna be there excited to say hello until I posted that I bought those tickets, and then the comments were just insanely full with a sheer volume, a mass, if you will, of people who were like, oh my god, I can't wait to see you there.
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So that's gonna be really interesting.
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I'm wondering the volume of people that will be saying hello.
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I hope every single person who wants to say hello does.
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I know that never happens.
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Every single time, without fail, when I leave a con, someone's in my DMs going, Man, I saw you and I didn't say hi and I wish I did.
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And I'm like, Why didn't you say hello?
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I'm there, I'm there for that.
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The last big thing that happened this month is that okay, so Ryan Secrest and iHeartRadio are doing this thing called Top Host, where it's like a competition to find a big podcast host, person, or whatever.
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And I got a bunch of ads to like apply for it or whatever, so I was like, you know what, it looks easy enough.
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So I threw my name in and I threw some pictures down and a little application, yada yada, and then I didn't hear anything for a hot second.
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Like I didn't hear a single damn thing.
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And then this week, out of nowhere, I get an email from Top Host with Ryan Seacrest, and they are informing me that I have been selected as like a competitor on that.
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So there's that.
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And let me explain what that means, okay?
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Because I feel like every person that I've sent this to has been like, what does that mean though?
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So it's not like I'm gonna be on like a talk show or anything right now.
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It's not like I'm gonna anything crazy is gonna happen.
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I'm not gonna be on TV, anything like that, but it's online voting and stuff, so you can vote every day, and I'm gonna keep like the link on my Instagram story the entire time it's eligible, but you can vote every day for the person who you think should be top host, and then that gets selected, and then it just gets the group of people who are in the running just gets smaller and smaller and smaller until there's one winner.
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And the winner gets$25,000, um, a flight out to Los Angeles to go be on on air with Ryan Seacrest, and a six-episode podcast series produced by iHeartRadio.
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Now, everybody calm down.
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Everybody calm the fuck down, okay?
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We all know I'm not gonna win.
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We all know I'm not gonna win, we know damn well.
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All right, let's all just sit here and be serious for a second.
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But like, how funny would it be?
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How funny would it be if amongst a sea of like people who want to do like true crime or like self-help or like other stuff, there is just me like in the bottom 20, like in the in the near the end, like I make it far.
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How funny would that be?
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I know I'm not gonna win, guys.
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We don't have to we don't have to pretend.
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No one has to try to make me feel better, no one has to try to give me confidence, it's fine.
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But like, how funny would that be?
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Imagine this podcast.
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This podcast, the one where I said that Harry Styles made me fucking horny earlier.
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Yeah, this one, this podcast on iHeartRadio, produced by iHeartRadio.
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What would I even say if I went on air with Ryan Seacrest?
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What would I even fucking say to him?
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Hey man, love those pauses back when you when you host American Idol, love that, love that down.
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You ate with that.
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What would I say to what would I say to Ryan Seacrest, guys?
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For real.
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Anyway, so yeah, that's the big thing that happened to me this month.
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I'm really hoping I can rally people and at least make it somewhere in that comp, not be dead last.
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That's what I'm hoping for.
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It would just be funny, I think.
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It would be so crazy.
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It would be incredible, actually.
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Because I love recording this podcast.
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I love having a podcast.
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It's such a good time, and I would love to do it on like a larger semi-scale in a way.
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I'm just so baffled by the fact that they looked at me and said, you know what?
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Yeah.
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Yup.
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Alright, and now for the feelings of it, I think I want to delve into something a little risky, which I probably shouldn't be delving into, but we're going to anyway.
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I've been, especially this month for some reason, I don't know why.
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Maybe it's because the stuff that happened for me happened about a year ago, so it's all kind of coming up a bunch.
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But I've been a little more open, if you will, on the internet recently with some of the issues that I've had, with the reasons why I no longer go to the US-based supernatural specific conventions anymore.
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And it's not something I ever like anticipated even coming close to talking about, especially even on the podcast.
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Like, I it's just it's something where like when everything went down with that for me last year, I really just sort of decided I wasn't ever gonna talk about it.
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And I guess I mean, I guess like a year has passed now, and there's part of me that's like if they were gonna do something to me, they probably would have by now.
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And also, like, I have on good authority that they're not gonna do anything, generally speaking, A, because they have nothing on me.
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No one has I've my uh as Taylor Swift has always said, I keep my side of the street squeaky clean, and that is just what I live by.
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And like, it's not someone has asked me recently, like, if there's an NDA that's keeping me from talking about it.
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No, there's no NDA.
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I would never sign an NDA.
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I don't care how much money I would be offered, I would never sign an NDA, I would never do that.
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I just I think there's an element of trying to decide what's even worth talking about.
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Do you know what I mean?
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And that's what the feelings bit is today.
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Cause, and I've said stuff like this before where it's like I could go online and like detail everything and post every single interaction that I've had with every single person ever, forever, and just really air it all out.
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So that way everyone has like all the pieces of information.
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And I'm sure there are a lot of people who want me to do that.
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I'm sure there's a lot of people who are probably frustrated, maybe even you listening, who's frustrated that I won't just like really air out all the business.
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But it's so complicated for me.
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Um, cause I I don't know, I have to think about how I'm gonna word this.
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It is, here we go.
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It's complex to have a difficult relationship with something or someone or anything that does in fact bring joy to a lot of people, regardless of my own experience with it.
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And I'm not interested in, you know, trying to take that joy or that experience away from anyone else.
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Like I'm really not.
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I the time that I enjoyed over there was very enjoyable until it wasn't, and I don't want people to I don't want what happened to me to become some sort of moral compass for others where it's like if you go, you're a bad person, because I really don't think that.
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And there's an element of concern that I have where if people were to find out about some of the stuff that I was told, some of the way, some of the ways I was treated, even that it would become almost like a moral compass thing.
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You know how, okay, you know how people will take like a social cause, maybe we're not let's speak broader.
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People will take a social cause, right?
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And they will sort of use it as a way to express here we go.
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It's a way to express superiority over others in the guise of moral justice, right?
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The first the first thing that's coming to my mind right now when thinking about stuff like this is like the stuff with Israel and Palestine, right?
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Where people will really use Israel and Palestine as an excuse for hating maybe like a music artist or anything like that when that's not what's important, right?
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What's important is that there's a genocide happening in Gaza and that's what we should be focusing on, okay?
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My stuff with supernatural conventions is obviously nowhere near anything like that, okay?
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I'm not comparing them, I'm comparing societal behavior or I'm attempting to.
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The focus should not be, here we go.
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The focus should not be how a company is treating your favorite influencer or anything like that.
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I am a girl who is not going to one kind of convention anymore out of many, many kinds of conventions, and I'm okay.
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As difficult as this is for me to say, especially to you guys, it kind of is a little bit the best thing that ever happened to me because I've grown so much outside of those walls and it's really built me up in a really positive way.
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The focus should be how people are being treated at conventions, period.
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Right?
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Sometimes at conventions there is a culture where honestly these the actors are sort of shielded very intensely.
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But and I mean they need to be, obviously, it needs to be safe for them.
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But I feel like there's an element in some places, wink wink, where the fans are seen as the villains.
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Like they need to protect everyone from us almost.
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And because we all care about these actors that we go see, we want them to be protected.
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So we're almost okay with being treated like, I don't know, monsters sometimes.
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People who want things to go wrong or who are like trying to pull one over on someone, trying to sneak to do XYZ extra thing with actor XYZ.
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But I feel like the conversation needs to surround the fact that that's not right.
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Do you know what I mean?
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The assumption should not be that we are monsters, that we are the problem, you know?
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Because that is how we end up getting treated poorly by staff at events that we pay good money to be at, by the way.
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Like, conventions across the board are not a cheap experience or hobby to have.
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And I feel like we all just kind of need to have a higher standard of experience where like there is no, oh, like they treated me like garbage or I had a bad experience with XYZ company, XYZ place, XYZ, whatever, but it's fine because they were just doing their job.
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No, there is not a single instance in a convention experience where you deserve to be treated like garbage, whether that be at the convention itself or that be through emails or DMs or anything at all.
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You do not deserve to be berated.
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You do not deserve to be told that you don't matter.
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You do not deserve to have people swear at you.
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I'm speaking from experience.
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You do not deserve to be treated in a way that makes you cry at every single convention you go to, and I was.
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Towards the end, I was.
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And you know what?
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I've been to a bunch of conventions this year, and I have not cried at a single one of them.
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Your standards for how you deserve to spend your time deserve to be high.
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Go to conventions that fill your cup in a way that is only positive.
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I'm going to continue doing the same.
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And if instances happen where things go sour, do not put up with that.
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There is no reason that you need to be putting up with that, especially at an event that you paid money to go to.
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But because the question of those cons has been coming up so much more recently, I feel like I do owe you some kind of an answer a little bit, especially because now I feel like nothing's gonna happen with it.
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Let's just say my let it was made very clear to me that my social media presence was not welcome.
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I was told verbatim that I will never, ever, ever be publicly associated with the brand or company, ever.
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And given the amount of history with this particular place, right, I it felt like a bit like a punch in the face.
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It did.
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And then the stalking of my social media started looking for reasons to get me banned, even though there weren't any.
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They started going to my friends looking for dirt on me that they were never able to find.
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It became, in my opinion, bullying and obsession.
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They did not want me there, and I walked away with my head held high, and it was the best thing I ever did.
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And I guess part of why I'm disclosing this much information now after all this time is because I feel like every time I mention it, even slightly, there's a lot of question about whether or not it was the supernatural fandom that treated me like that.
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Uh, and it wasn't.
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I just want that to be very, very abundantly clear.
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The supernatural fandom has been nothing but wonderful and kind to me.
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And they, you guys, are the reason that I continued going even when I was crying in bathrooms.
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Okay.
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It's true.
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And I must admit, it makes me a little sad that people would rather blame their fandom peers for cruelty than the potential of corporate overlords being mean.
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So I don't know.
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I guess I just want to set that straight too.
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Who knows?
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Maybe someday I'll go into like a deep dive or whatever, but for now, I think I'm just gonna let everything play out how it's playing out.
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I just, I feel like it's been long enough and it's been a year as of this month, so I feel like this is a good time to maybe open that can a little bit.
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And again, I really don't have any problems with people who want to go there.
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Like, but I don't, I'm serious when I say that I don't want that conversation to surround me.
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I want it to surround how people are treated at large at conventions that may not be as kind as they could be.
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Okay, top leaving leaving serious discussions as usual.
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I swear, the transition from the feelings bit to the rex bit is never smooth.
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I don't think I've ever been able to smoothly transition that once.
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First things first, I want to talk about how, as promised, I did continue watching Yellow Jackets from last month, and it is so good.
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It's so good.
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I'll be real, in the beginning, I was kind of like, because they start off the show showing you exactly how crazy things get, and then it sort of goes back in time a little bit.
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And I was a little in the beginning, like, when are we gonna get to the crazy stuff?
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Towards the end of season one, we start to get into the crazy stuff, and that's when it gets really good.
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Like, I think I'm like towards the middle of season two now.
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That show is phenomenal.
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I love a I've said this before when I've talked about shows like Orange is the New Black, and like I love a woman-led cast.
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Oh my god, I love women on my TV kicking ass and being insane.
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I love oh, I drink that shit like Pepsi Cola.
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Also, like I promised, I have continued reading Akassif, A Court of Silver Flames.
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I'll be real, I wish I had read more this month.
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I've been doing a bunch of other stuff.
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I've been spending a lot of time like doing my other creative-y type things that I like doing.
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So I haven't read as much as I would like to this month, but I've been continuing reading that and I've really been enjoying it.
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And I, for those of you wondering, I do love Cassian a lot.
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I love him a buttfuck.
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I love him so much.
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I love him down.
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But I miss Farah.
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I miss that arc, okay?
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I really do.
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I miss that side of the story quite a bit.
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But it's still, it's good.
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I'm enjoying it still, obviously.
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Briefest of mentions in terms of the movie route.
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I did end up watching Night at the Museum again this month, and I know this is not the first time I've talked about Night at the Museum, and it won't be the last.
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Just want to make that abundantly clear to all of you.
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If you have not seen Night at the Museum starring Ben Stiller and Owen Wilson and Dick Van Dyke and a thousand other important, incredible people, go watch it right now.
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Why are you still listening to my podcast?
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I'm not kidding.
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Go watch Night at the Museum.
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Oh my god.
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But the biggest thing I think I want to talk about in the Rex with this month is the life of a showgirl Encore, the new songs from Taylor.
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Because holy shit, y'all, everybody has so many opinions on those.
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Everyone has so many opinions on those.
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And you know what?
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Here's what I want to say.
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I want to say that in about six months, when everyone else is on the internet posting enough time has passed, we can admit that these are good songs.
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Now I've been in the motherfucking house.
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I've been in the motherfucking house.
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Patient Zero was arguably one of my favorites Taylor Swift songs of all time.
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And it's not even close.
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I listened to that song, I said, Oh, oh, she has it.
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Taylor Swift still has it, everybody.
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I am beyond baffled by the sheer volume of people who are not into that song.
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Oh my god, I swear.
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You know, at the time of recording this, mark my words, at the time of recording this, it is before the VMAs when she drops the music video.
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After the music video, people are gonna understand the song better and they're gonna like it more, and they're gonna be like, I've liked it the whole time, guys.
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No, you haven't.
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I'm alone in this restaurant, okay?
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I have to admit, you guys, I do have to say very briefly, um, Cleveland, we don't need to talk about Cleveland.
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Um, I okay, it's like a fun song.
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I'm sure there are layers to it that I don't understand that are maybe like inside jokes between Taylor and Travis or something like that.
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I don't know.
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But like, is it it's not, I I'm not bumping it.
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It's not my favorite of hers, okay?
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Someone online said that like a lot of Taylor's songs about Travis are about the fact that she's with Travis and they're not actually about Travis, which I think is a really good explanation for why that song feels so flat to me.
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It doesn't really feel like it's about her relationship with Travis.
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It feels like it's about like public perception, and that's just not as enticing to me, I guess.
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Not uh, you know?
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Girl, you got the NFL superstar.
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We don't need the gotcha moment.
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You have the gotcha moment already.
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He's sitting next to you in bed.
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Pink clouding is a song that I feel like a lot of people don't understand.
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Uh, I actually had to Google what pink clouding even was, which pink clouding, I guess, is when people who are addicted to substances and whatever, when they first get into rehab or treatment or whatever, they're very euphoric about being clean and all those different types of things, and that's called pink clouding.
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And that usually, as that will often fade into something more neutral, something that's maybe a little more difficult to hold on to, and that's why like there's issues with relapse and whatever, yada yada.
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So this song is about how she got out of a really bad relationship and got with someone else, and she was pink clouding.
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She thought she was okay, she thought she was happy, but she wasn't.
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She was not in a good place and she treated him poorly for it, and she feels bad.
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And I feel like a lot of people don't understand that level of complexity in this song because I feel like a lot of people listen to things and they don't Google what they mean or like research them.
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So people are just like pink clouding, what the fuck is she talking about?
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And it's like, no, you guys, you have to look at nothing means everything means something in a Taylor Swift song.
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You have to look at all the pieces.
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And I think that song did a really good job of sounding euphoric in that sort of false kind of fictional movie way, the way that Pink Clouding probably does feel.
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I hope that gives you a better perception of that song and a better understanding, I think, of what I've been able to pull from it.
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And I'm excited to listen to it like next summer on the beach.
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You know what I mean?
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And I think Babylon is incredible.
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Babylon is the Taylor Swift writing that we I've been, I feel like missing a little bit since Tortured Poets.
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There's a lot of layers in that song, and I feel like the perception that it gives you of nostalgia as this thing that can keep you out of the present that you someday will be nostalgic for.
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It's such a almost- I haven't, I don't know, I feel like I haven't really heard songs about that except for maybe good old days, uh, by I think it was like, oh my god, what was that, McLamore?
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Maybe Kesho was on it too.
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I feel like it's not a very common, it doesn't that specifically to me, the idea of living in the moment so that way and not being too hung up on nostalgia, like that is something that I feel like is so unique.
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And I think in a world right now where I feel like everything is nostalgia porn, like everything that we do, everything is a sequel, everything is a book tie-in version, everything, no one, nothing is like new or present anymore.
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Everything is just a callback to the past.
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And I feel like a song like this right now is so huge, especially when people are right now asking and wanting Taylor to go back to how she was writing music when she was unhappy.
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Think about that, too.
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These are just songs that I think a lot of people listened to once and had an immediate face value reaction to.
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Uh, but I feel like with all art and with all music, you need to listen to things at least like three times.
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Or you need to like read lyrics, like really invest yourself in the song because there's so much there that is beyond just that first song.
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Scope listen.
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I hope this gives you a little bit of a larger perspective on those songs that's not just I don't like it, it bad.
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Because there is, there is nuance to any song, any piece of artwork, and I feel like a lot of people don't want to look at Taylor Swift's stuff like that, which is honestly a bummer, because I feel like she's one of the best songwriters of our generation for a reason.
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You know?
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I feel bad now because we're gonna get into the fandom bit, and I don't have a ton to talk about with the fandom bit this month, you guys.
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I already told you about the Harry show.
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I'm seeing him again on the 30th.
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You know about that.
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The next Jared and Anson event is coming up on October 4th.
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I'm so excited with Mementis.
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I will be there.
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I hope I see all of you there.
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Remember, if you don't have tickets already, you can use my affiliate code bestie underscore emmy at checkout and you can get 10% off your ticket.
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I'm literally gonna go to that class and take notes.
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Like I fully will be taking notes.
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And when I leave, like I'm gonna go and buy like charcoal and like try to actually do art and then I'm probably gonna like send it to Anson or like tag it or whatever.
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Because he's really good about like being active.
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He's active on social media if you like try to like engage with him a little bit.
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He seems really he's really cool.
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And I love the event that he did with Jared.
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Seeing him watch Supernatural for the first time, like that first pilot episode for the first time was so much fun.
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Oh my gosh, this reminds me, I had two friends from New York from my office where I work at my day job.
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They came to Connecticut to come visit me.
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And one night we went we put on the pilot of Supernatural because one of them had never seen it.
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And it was so funny.
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At that scene, you know, where like John walks into the nursery and Mary's gone, and like because she's on the ceiling, obviously.
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My friend looked over at us and went, Where did Mary go?
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And we just had to sit there knowing that she was on the ceiling about to catch on fire, and we just said nothing.
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We were dead silent because it's a canon event and we couldn't interfere.
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It was so funny that we watched it at nighttime, and like it that first episode with the woman in white is like a little spooky.
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So my friend was like, I don't know if this is a show that I can watch at night.
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Like when she's the one who'd never seen it before.
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She was like, I don't know if this is a song I could watch at night, but I did like it, and I am probably gonna watch more of it.
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And we were like, that's good enough for me.
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Keep us posted as you watch more.
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I think since that night she said she's watched, I think, like two more episodes of Supernatural.
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So we're we're slowly turning her.
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We're turning her slowly but surely.
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I have to ask her which who her favorite character is so far.
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Damn.
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Man, who?
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Imagine if she doesn't say Sam Winchester, I'm gonna have to put her down.
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I'm gonna have to put her down.
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I'm joking, obviously.
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You're allowed to like other characters on Supernatural, especially the women, and you're allowed to like Dean Winchester, I will admit.
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Although in the I Okay, you know what?
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We're in the fandom bit.
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I'm allowed to go here.
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In the early seasons of Supernatural, Dean is not totally likable the whole time, okay?
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Later seasons, Dean peak.
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Love him, love Dean Winchester.
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But in the beginning, I think we I think we can all hold hands and agree that Dean Winchester is a little bit of a misogynist.
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And I think that's something that's okay to talk about.
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Men can grow, and he did, and that's great.
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But from the word go, I was a Sam Girl truther.
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Yes, God.
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And I'm still a Sam Girl truther.
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I'm not gonna sit here and lie to you.
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Every once in a while when I'm in like a bad mood, I just like, well, why am I admitting this to you?
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Why am I admitting this to you?
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Why am I admitting this on the internet?
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Every once in a while when I'm in a bad mood, I will go on Pinterest and just look at pictures of Sam Winchester and it makes me feel better.
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Like a baby with like a stuffed animal, you know?
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Jared, if by some miracle you hear this, no, you didn't, okay?
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We don't we don't need to stop.
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Just just stop it.
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I will say, one thing that I've had trouble with over the years is trying to pinpoint the exact time that Dean Winchester stopped being like kind of like a little bit of a pig with men with women.
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Uh whatever.
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Maybe it's when Cash shows up.
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Maybe that's the answer.
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Maybe the answer is when Cash shows up and he becomes a little fruity.
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You know?
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I'm not okay, listen, I don't get into shipping.
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I'm but whatever.
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The first time I watched Supernatural, I fully thought they had feelings for each other.
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That's that's what I thought.
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It's not my fault.
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Why were they looking at each other like that?
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Why were they doing that?
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Maybe I'm just violently autistic, but there was no reason for prolonged eye contact to that extent.
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There was no reason for it.
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There are friends in my life who I would follow into a burning building, okay?
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I don't think I've ever looked at any of them like that ever in my life.
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This isn't me saying I like ship anything or ship Destial, by the way.
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This is just me s this is just me looking at the cold, hard facts.
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This is just me watching the damn show.
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But also, what the fuck do I know?
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I'm a Sam girl.
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That's where my focus is 100% of the time.
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Emmy, what's going on in the plot with Supernatural?
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I don't know, but Sam's hair looks great.
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Sam's hair looks fantastic.
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Thank you for asking.
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I'm gonna go back and edit this.
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And I'm gonna have to like, I I'm not, you know what?
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No.
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Right here, right now, I'm committed.
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Committed?
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Hello, I'm gonna leave that too.
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I'm committing that I'm not going to edit out any of my Sam girl nonsense.
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I'm not doing it.
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And please don't take my critiques of Dean Winchester as a character, because none of the characters aren't supernatural or perfect.
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Sam's not completely perfect.
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We need to be able to critique our favorite characters because if we view anything or anyone as completely perfect, then we have a standard that we need to meet, and then those standards eat us alive and give us insecurities.
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So I need to be able to say that things aren't perfect, okay?
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So Dean Winchester is not perfect, and he didn't really care about women that much in the beginning of the show.
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Sorry.
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Sorry, damn! But I feel like okay, wait.
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So later seasons, Dean though, like I said, he gets he gets so much better.
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I think through friendships with people like Charlie and like Jody and Donna and these these women, all the women that come into his life in that way where they're so worthy of respect.
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Not that all women aren't worthy of respect, but he just reveres them and respects them so fiercely that I feel like it really affects the way he speaks about and engages with women at large.
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And I'll admit, it's a cool thing to see happen over the seasons, to see him become like a little gentleman, you know?
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Okay, I've spent about five minutes talking about Sam Winchester.
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We should probably get into the question bit before I continue to humiliate myself, and because I did promise that I'm not gonna edit anything out.
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So let's get into the question bit.
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As always, I pull these questions from my usually my Instagram story, because I do an Instagram QA every Saturday on my Instagram, or you can send them to me through email at bestie.emmy at gmail.com, or if you want to send anything to me there, that's fine.
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I need to be better about checking that email though, I must admit.
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But anyway, first question from SPN Swifty.
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Have you ever been recognized as a fangirl andor bestie emmy in the wild?
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And what's my number one story about it?
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Yes, actually.
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I'm not sure if you're asking about like at conventions specifically or like outside of conventions.
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Either way, the answer is in fact yes, which is crazy.
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The one time it happened outside of a convention was at oh my god, I think it was in Providence, Rhode Island.
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I was there shopping, I was visiting some friends, and one of the workers at a hot topic, yes God, yes god, walked up to me and was like, Are you, are you Emmy from like the supernatural fandom?
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And I was like, Holy shit, yeah.
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Yeah, that's me, babe.
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It was insane, and I remember like walking out of there and being like, you know what?
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If I was going to be recognized like fully in the wild, it would be at a hot topic.
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The people who follow me on the internet follow a very specific archetype, and I'm very proud of it.
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As far as like at conventions, though, I feel like conventions it happens all the time, especially if like any member of the supernatural cast is there.
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Um, that just kind of it's become a part of my life that I completely love when I go to cons.
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It's like having built-in friends everywhere.
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It rocks.
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One of the craziest instances though was when I think it was 2025 when I was at Fan Expo Boston for the first time with a press pass.
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And one of the workers I was talking to, and she was like, hey, like I follow you on TikTok.
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And I was like, oh my god, no way.
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It's so nice to meet you.
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And she we were talking or whatever, and she was like, Yeah, like, yeah, I don't know.
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I I actually read your fanfic.
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And I went, Whoa! For those of you who don't know, I wrote a fanfic in 2022.
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It's called Don't Stop Texting Me.
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My username on AO3 is Feel the underscore B.
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I'm never repeating that on here again.
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Write that down while you have it.
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That fanfic low-key did numbers though.
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Like it actually, like it people really liked that fanfic.
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I was really proud of it.
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But to have that crazy poll like three or four years later was like insane.
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Just from a random person who was at this working this convention, being like, I read your fanfic, by the way.
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I was like, whoa! Even my friends who were standing next to me were like, holy shit, that's a deep cut.
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Another crazy thing happened at Rhode Island Comic-Con last year when I was there meeting Joel David Moore, who's in the Avatar movies, and I was talking to him or whatever, and I mentioned, like, yeah, like I do social media, yada yada.
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And his handler was so funny.
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In the middle of my conversation with Joel David Moore, actor in the box office record-breaking film Avatar, literally looked at me and was like, Yeah, I actually follow you on like Instagram and stuff.
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You're I love your stuff.
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And I had a little moment with her, and Joel, Mr.
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Moore, if you will, was like, Oh, uh, that's so funny.
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So yeah, it's it's so fun every time.
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I love talking to people.
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I I it's like it's so funny because people are always like, Should we approach you if we see you whatever?
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I'm like, Yeah, girl.
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Gender neutral, by the way.
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Yeah, girl, come say hello.
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I love I drink that shit up.
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Oh my god.
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I mean, like, if I'm in like the middle of a photo op or like a the middle of an autograph, like maybe wait until I'm not in the middle of an active activity.
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But like, please, otherwise, come say hey.
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Next question's from Sean Marie who asked, Do I have or want tattoos?
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I've gone back and forth.
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I don't have tattoos for starters.
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I've gone back and forth with it my entire life, pretty much, where like I would like to have tattoos, I think, but I just don't think there's anything that I like enough to have it etched on my body forever.
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Maybe that's my own like trust and abandonment issues and shit.
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But like I feel like like there's no person that I'm like, I would want to have a tattoo to keep of them or like about them or whatever.
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Even like song lyrics or like show quotes or anything.
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Cause like, what if in the future it comes out that it's like that's a bad art, like the artist is not moral or something like that.
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Like, I don't want anything to tie me to anything on my body like that.
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It just stresses me out.
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I will say, or wait, okay, this actually this leads really well into the last question I'm gonna answer.
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Baby Bombshell asked, if I were doing anything else in life, like what would my dream job be?
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And honestly, I would love to be an author.
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Like writing novels, and fun fact, that's actually something that I'm working on right now, but I'm not talking about it a bunch because I don't want to jinx myself and I don't want to like I'm not giving anyone really or like telling anyone anything about it because I have I'm like terrified that like because I think it's a really the idea for the romance series that I have in my head, I think it's a really like good, unique idea, and I don't want anyone to do it before I do, so I'm not telling anyone really about it, but I'm kind of working on that right now because I really want to write and I love writing, and it's always been like I said, I write fanfics when I've been writing fanfics for my whole fucking life.
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So that's what I want to do.
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And honestly, if I was ever able to traditionally publish a book, I would probably get a tattoo for that book.
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Because that's been just such a lifelong dream of mine to get a book traditionally published and be able to do all of that stuff.
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And if it's a tattoo for something that I made, there's no way that the creator could be someone that I'm no longer fucking with because I always will have to fuck with myself.
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So there's that.
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So I don't know.
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If I ever get a tattoo, I'll let you guys know.
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But I don't have any right now.
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And I think that'll do it for September, you guys.
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Oh my gosh.
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Time flies when you're thirsting over Harry Styles and Sam Winchester and spilling tea and also talking about tattoos.
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Time flies.
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As always, I love you all so, so, so much.
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Um, stay sexy, stay yappy.
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I will talk to you guys on Halloween next.
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Oh my god, that's so fun.
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Keep the bits up, guys.
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Love y'all so much.
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Uh ha.
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I love you so much.