Part of me was relieved when it fell apart. There, I said it. That's the thing people don't usually admit out loud, and it's where this episode starts.
This week we take the word everyone reaches for, self-sabotage, and pull it apart, because it's doing more damage than the pattern it's describing. You'll see why the relief you feel when a good thing falls over is the exact reason it keeps happening, why "self-sabotage" makes it sound like there's a defective part of you waiting to wreck things when that's usually not what's going on, and the four different engines that can be driving the whole thing.
Then the strange part: why the pull to bail gets loudest right as the thing you want is nearly in your hands. Running underneath all of it, the reframe the episode lands on: you're not your own worst enemy, a short-term protective strategy is just beating a longer-term intention.
In This Episode
- Why the relief you feel when a good thing falls apart is the reason the pattern repeats
- Why "self-sabotage" might be the wrong word, and what's actually happening instead
- The four engines underneath the behaviour: relief, protection, conflict, and capacity
- Why the pull to wreck it gets louder the closer you get to the finish line
- Why "fear of success" gives you nowhere to go, and the better question to ask instead
- What actually shifts the pattern, matched to whichever engine is driving yours
Timestamps
00:00 The Spark
00:13 Intro
00:53 The Relief No One Admits
03:09 What Self-Sabotage Actually Is
05:00 The Moment It Happens
10:18 What's Really Driving the Pattern?
10:47 Engine 1: Relief
12:45 Engine 2: Protection
16:21 Engine 3: Conflict
19:46 Engine 4: Capacity
26:09 Why Self-Sabotage Kicks In Just as It's Getting Good
29:59 What Can You Do to Stop It?
32:29 Wrapping Up
34:34 Outro
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