Craig Eddie

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You're going to control on compete today we were joined
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by Craig Eddy.
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How you doing, I'm very good?
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Yeah, thank you good. When was that first met you? Then?
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Like we met to a mutual friend, wasn't it?
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It was through Emma Gray? And that was how long
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it was? That was like three years? It was like
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three years.
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Yeah. And then and then you came up and you've
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done some content for us when we're doing the kind
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of Rocket League to you still into your game, and then.
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I am still it's well for a while because for
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the past like year and a half, I've been I've
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had to take a step back for music and stuff
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because in your troubles and stuff. So then I was
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genuinely convinced that I was going to become a pro
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great pro gamer at one point, how you convinced that that?
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That was maybe about a year ago, all right, so
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since pretty much so I was like, well, I can
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date the music. I don't know if I can't see
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myself getting any better with that. So I was like, Ken,
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what I'm going to pick something I'm going to commit.
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It was like, I'm going to be a pro heat seeker,
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a player around Rocket League, and me and my mate.
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We played it all the time, and to be honest,
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we're we're quite up there. But then my years started
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sort of getting a bit better, and I was like,
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maybe maybe I should just stay right.
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So yeah, we'll talk about that. So at one point
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I'm like, oh, I can't have a musician anymore, and
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tell your family that and what you're going to do, Craig,
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I'm just going to sit and put the Xbox on.
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I'm I'm just going to play Rocket League.
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Well I never told my mom because oh, sure, absolutely
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freaked it. But then that's the thing that I've I've
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always been the type of person who, like I think
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I've been through probably in the past year and a half,
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like maybe four or five phases like a turn up
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snooker and I was like, came out, I'm going to
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I'm going to be a pro snooker. Yeah, and then
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the Rocket League, and then I was I was going
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to start my own podcast, and I was I'm going
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to be a pro podcaster. And I think it's just
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part of my personality. Were like Candy just sort of
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just day something just for fun. I need to get
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I need to get right into it, and I need
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to be like the sort of the best in the
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world or or just be like a pro.
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And it's with the snooker for example. Right, so we
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say yourself, like how far do you commit to doing that?
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Like what kind of preparation have you done for it?
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Is just talk about some of the things you've looked
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into it. I'm going to do that. How do you
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start with it? Then?
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Well, I went and I started. I'm pretty sure it started.
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I actually started off with a game because I was
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on the PlayStation store and there was I was just
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looking through the three games and there was a game
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called Blitz Snooker.
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I'm on the mobile, I was even producer.
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And I was playing it and I was like, I'm
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pumping everyone I play here. I think I think I'm
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I'm quite natural at this and obviously it tells you
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exactly what you're poking. Yeah, and do you know what
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you what you can do it?
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I was saying, my little girl, I actually got this
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big ruler on the house, right, and I had again,
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and I was aiming my shots with that because you
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couldn't doing your mobile, but then you could you could
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do that. Do you ever try that?
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I've tried that, but I might need to try that,
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but I ended up I was like, I convinced myself
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that I was just like I had like a natural
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knack for snooker. And then I went in because my
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dad's my dad's like he's he's in like tournaments and stuff,
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so I went in and played with him.
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So it's a bit of a link.
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Yeah, yeah, So it was a bit of a link there.
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So that I went in and I played a couple
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of games, and then I putted a few and I
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was like, I convinced myself again, like I've putted like
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two in like tours, so I'm brilliant. And then I
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started going on my cl playing like maybe like for
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like two or three years a day, and then about
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two weeks in, I was like, I'm not getting any
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better here. And then I kept on going in for
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like a litetle bit longer and I was like rampish
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next thing. So and then what else was it? I
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had a I've just I just go through all these
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phases where do you think.
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You where do you think you get that from having that?
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Like because something will think I like that, and I
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might think I like that, but I never think to myself,
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maybe I should I'm going to go and be the best.
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Yeah, I think it's it's probably just because I've got
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a d HD, so that probably is just tightly linked
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to that where it's like a I can I get
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really engrossed in something, or like I could day or
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I could I could day something for like maybe like
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two or three weeks, and then I get like boarder
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and then I need like the next sort of bitter stimulation.
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And then and then that sort of comes up where
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I'm like, oh that sounds exciting. Then I just throw
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my full life in it. So that's where I'm just
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like a walk in sort of. I've just I just
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know like kind of loads of facts about loads of
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different things, but then no like a sort of snooker
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trophy or that to show for it.
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It's a tricky one. And so for the music though,
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I mean I suppose the music then like how did
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you how do you get involved in music? Then?
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Well, when I've my dad was always like I've been
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brought up in music and stuff, like my dad was
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always playing music, well he was. He was like that
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was the chair by the I never fared that was
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that was? What was this saying?
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There, your dad, your dad influenced music.
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My dad. My dad loves like Stevie wonder right wet
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wet wet, and they were always just playing like a
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round the house. I was always around music. He was
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at gigging and stuff all the time. And what did
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he play as well? He played as well, like he
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he had a band, and he was like doing loads
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of weddings and like clubs and stuff, and he was
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like doing really well. And I guess it just felt
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really natural because I can remember the first time I
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think I had ever sung. I can't mind, my granny said.
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I was maybe like five or six, and I was
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in like a shopping center and I started singing Hero
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by Enrica Engl.
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Do you want to see? Love is all around?
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Love is to be fair? I did sing that day
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when I was about eight or nine. I think my
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dad he picked me up to the mic and I
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started singing that record. But I remember I started singing
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Hero Benrika and Glaze in the shop and sitting and
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then everyone like I started like crowding around apparently, so
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I kind of I can't of mind it much what
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I can't make That's what my granny, my grand i
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could say that the sky is green and the sky's green.
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That was like my first sorry ever experience. And I
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think just as time went on, like I was singing,
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and then I can I can remember being at my
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cousins and at my pals and they were like, go
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and sing, go and sing for folk. And I must
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have been about like ten or eleven, and I could
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never look at anybody in there. I could never like
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have them looking at me. So I would tell that
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me like shut the door. So I'd shut the door
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and I would sing and then they're like, oh, yeah,
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you're brilliant, brilliant, that's bright, Craig. But that that's that's
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how that's what I went. And then I think when
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I turned about thirteen or fourteen, that was when I
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got my first ever guitar. My grandpa bought me that
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and my mom went absolutely meant a litle them because
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he'd spent a lot of money on it and what
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was that electric acoustic? And I, well, I've always been
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known for like sort of gone between like loads of things,
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and I've been like that since I was yeah, like
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going through these phases you like want to be a
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snooker player, wanting to be like a race car driver
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wanted to be just all these things. And then obviously,
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when my grandpa bought me the guitar, my mom was like,
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why you spending that much money a guitar. He's just
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going to play it for two weeks. He's just he's
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just going to no touch it again. And it was
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just it was one of the only things, or one
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of the only phases you could say that I've just
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never let go because once I started playing so.
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Fast and there's so much to it that you create
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a freedom that you would like, you.
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Know, because I think it was just as soon as
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I picked it up, really really fast, and I just
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can't I mind. I just I got in for school
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and I just couldn't wait to get him, just to
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sit on the edge of the bed with the guitar,
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and I was probably playing it for like six or
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eight hours a day, really just sitting playing covering songs.
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Songs that just cover like what were you into, Like, obviously,
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can you remember like being a teenager, what did you like?
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The two very first songs that I learned all the
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way through was the eighteen beds Hearing and Wonderful Wonderball
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by Oasis, and then Don't Look back in Anger, and
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I think the first video I'd ever uploaded was what
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was the first one? I must have been wonder or
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don't look back in Anger? But I was on Skype
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with my mate and he was like, I was like,
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I've been learning to play guitar and I've been learning
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to sing, and then I sung on the skype or
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whatever I was at the time, and it was like,
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Na's point, you should upload that, and I was like,
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and he was always known for like being a bit
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of like a like they like just ripping the piffs.
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So I was like, oh, he's just saying this just
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to make a feeling, so.
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You can share it.
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So then I uploaded it and then I can mind
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like the video I must have been like twenty fourteen
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or something, and then I went pretty viral, and I
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was like, what the fuck? And I went into school
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and then foully, that was really good because I was
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dreading gone into school because you felt when it's like
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I was like, I'm going to have to get the
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piss rip dot me here. Everyone was like that was
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that was really really good. So I just kept on
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uploading for there and then I started just writing just
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a look mare and then founding out I had a
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bit of a knack for that.
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How do you do that? How do you go about
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like that make up wee songs with my girl and
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the can? How do you actually go about like is
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it just a hook? Is it? Is it a wee
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bit of song? How do you? How do you write
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a song?
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For me? It's it's weird because I could just be
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sitting there and like or I could even get an
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idea of just popping when we were talking, like you
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could say something and then just an idea or just
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sort of comes for somewhere like a like a lyric
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or a line or a melody, and then and I
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would just pretty much, I've got the voice notes on
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my phone. I would just record that, no matter where
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it was, whether it be like the lyrics or the melody,
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and then I would go home, I pick up the guitar,
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and it's it's different every time because sometimes I start
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with a melody, or I'll try and turn the lyrics
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just into the melody, so I could tough like a
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and then I would just sort of go.
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I don't know one one, I don't love to, I
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don't want I want.
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You, And then it just it's sort of I try
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to turn those sort of sounds into lyrics, and I
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would I would end it with like it's a mumble
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daily a.
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Damn, I want you. I don't think I want you.
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I just think I.
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Need you, And I would just sort of just go
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like that, and then I'll just build it for them, and.
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Always the music comes first, because what was quite disappointing
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to me is like Mike Patton from Face No More
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One said that he doesn't really care about the lyrics.
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He was like he would get the back of cigarette
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packets and something things, he would just find random stuff
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and he would put that in the lyrics. And I think,
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you think there's a meaning to it, But do you
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think do you find that you're trying to find the
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word sometimes to fit it rather than nubbs ae way.
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because I can I can find a word that phonetically
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fits really well and it runs off the tongue really well,
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but then or a lyric but I'm like, it doesn't
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make sense, but it sounds good. But then I'm then
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I've got that sort of that batly like right, sure,
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I just try and find another lyric that does make
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sense or just go with the one that just sounds good.
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And I always end up going with the lyric that
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makes the most sense, which it can be annoying because
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there's a lot of songs that should have teenn a
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book maybe like an hour, and they've taen like like
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a month because I've been trying to just like get
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the perfect and is.
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That and in your head? Right? Is that perfect to you?
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that are listening.
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It used to be so that was like perfect to
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other people. When I've I've been really over the past
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like a year and a half, I've been really focused
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on learning how to write and just do stuff for me,
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like even out with sort of like music and stuff.
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Just learning how to just to love just for me
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and to write for me. And that's I feel as
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if where I get my best work because when I'm writing,
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I got into the habit of whenever I was going
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into writing sessions or stuff before, like the label would
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give whatever our writer producer I was working with, like
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the almost like a breakdown and like write it should
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sound like this here's five songs that should sound like,
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here's here's some lyric. I didn't lay that.
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At all, and I know who is going to like that?
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I know it was. It was weird because it's just and.
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Is there a promise land, is there a thing that Sayst.
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Craig like, but at this album? Make it like this
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that does well? You can do what you want the
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album two three?
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Is that the way It's pretty much the way it works.
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But luckily I had because I had found a writer
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and producer called Dan who he got that and he
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was like, nah, we're just gonna let's just find but
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what you want to where you want to write. And
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then since then it's just been like I'm I just
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when I'm writing, it's just I'm no thinking of anyone else.
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So like if I write a lyric, I'm not like, oh,
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folk all love this, It's like no, I fucking I
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really resonate with that, and I really like that, So
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I'm going to go with that. And like the melodies
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and the genres and just the sound itself, like it's
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just it's always you've got to be I've kind of
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found that you've got to be a bit no selfish
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but just just go with it, just would you like
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pretty much?
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Yeah, Sharing is a good example of that because you
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see him for example and what you mentioned in earlier,
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but his careers went, he's tried to load just think
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wrapping everything like some of the dance music as well.
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So I suppose he's got that freedom now.
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But his core fans might be like, that's yeah, I
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think that's where well again, like even me jumping for
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sort of like career, the career to hobby to hobby.
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That also is pretty much how my my writing stuff goes,
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because I could write like you to get excited about it, yeah,
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because I would just or like whatever I'm listening to
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that time, because I didn't really have like a lot
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of people have, like a genre that they just they
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love it, Like they would pick a genre that just
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that's what they what they love, whereas I'm I'm sorry
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oher the place I kind of really again, I would
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just get bored the listening at the same genre sort
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of thing all the time.
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I say, I've got like a Spotify playlist it's like
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fifty six hours long and it's just everything and if
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I find new tunes, I'll add to In sixties music
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to sold to rock to wrap to pop, but like
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was anyway, here's one for you. It's any genres that
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you don't really likes, anyone that you don't kind of like.
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And I'm not saying you wouldn't you wouldn't listen to
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a song and it might get you but off, like
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if you'd had to say to you that's like, you know,
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rocks there, what's what's here? Or what? Maybe not signing
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rocks there for you?
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Right?
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But do you know what I mean?
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Like trying to think because I know that even if
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I never liked a certain type of genre the new,
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there is a high chance I will end up liking it.
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And if you do, like it opens up a door
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to a lot of music.
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I know. And if I was to say, now, oh
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I fucking hate that, and then I end up writing
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that song.
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And jazz music for example, like would you ever sit
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and listen to some jazz like I've actually listened?
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I used to I'm going to sound like an absolute
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weird of here, right, but I am. I used to
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make like like, well there's another one a chef so
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over the past, like just to take any things that
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you're just going to nail I'm not even exaggerating to
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you when I like a I convinced myself when and
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I was, I started making them because I, well, i'll
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sort of I'll go for the start as to why
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why that sort of why I went into wanted to
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be Chef Greig, the name Chef Greg. But I don't know,
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I don't know if I don't have So when I
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had first came down with like my tenatus and my
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hypercusus and stuff, I went to the doctor and I
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went to like countless and when it sort of e
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and ts and I was looking online and stuff like
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yours and throat Specialist and they. I was told so
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many times that I was just pretty much fucked and
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that I would never be able to sort of do
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music again or go to any loud places or do anything.
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So that that's obviously extremely hard to be to be
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told when you're just going to somebody for help and
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the tile like we can't help you, we don't know
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how to help you. So that I freaked out and
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that sentimental like quite a spiral for like maybe like
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three or four months. I was just like my eyes
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were just so wired, like you could what do you
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mean like that my like my pupils were so dilated.
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I was in fight a flight pretty much. I was
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just so wired.
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I was.
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So anxious, and I still get that now, but it's
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not as bad as it was because of the improvements
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of being making. But so then I was like, nah,
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After about three or four months, I'm like, I kind
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of just accept it. This is how I'm going to
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live and this is just what it is now. So
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I started doing my research online and I found it
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like diet and stuff, exercise, meditation, all these things can
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contribute towards like a decent tenatus and hypercursist recovery, which
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is obviously tenus. Is like, they're ringing and hissing in
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my ears?
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How bad is that? Then?
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How bad was it it was when it first started?
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Sorry, that's all right.
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That started a year and a half ago and I
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was in I remember me, my mum and my girlfriend
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at the time. Well she's still my well she's my phone,
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but like girlfriend, I'm just want to put that in
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there if she'll watched this to the bus, girl friend
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here she What was I saying that again?
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So did you say? And how it started?
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We went away to Elton Towers and on that night
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in the hotel. I remember I got home, got into
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the hotel room, and I was like, my tens just
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like because I did have tenus when I was on
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the roller coasters, do maybe something to do with the
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honest I've honestly.
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No, but a clear tought I did think that, maybe
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naive saying that, but do you know what I mean,
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like when you say can you go down? You throw
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your ears popping?
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I did think that, but I was like, god knows.
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But when I was like eighteen or twenty, the car
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went through a tenant this episode, but it was more
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like a sort of moderate episode of tenants, where like
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I could hear it in the hoose or when I
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was going to sleep, but then when I left the hoose,
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I couldn't hear it, I thought, pretty much. Whereas when
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I was in all towers in the hotel that night,
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I remember just going to bed and I was like, well,
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my my tennant's just kind of getting a bit loud,
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Like I can I can hear it as the loudest
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it's kind of been. Then I fell asleep and then
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woke up. It woke me up at about three o'clock
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in the morning, just like a kettle like screaming.
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Now you describe it in my yeah, wow, I was
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quite frightening.
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It was really I went in the instant sort of
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panic and it was almost like.
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A and it almost how long did they did it?
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Not stop? Just not stop?
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That's it's still never stop since. But when it first
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came back, I was like, because I went through like
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the moderate tenants when I was like eighteen to twenty,
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and then it came back and I was like, it's back,
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and it felt like it was just back with a vengeance.
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And then I remember when we're in a hotel when
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it was like traffic going past, and I was like,
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I can hear that above the traffic, Oh my god.
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And then the next again day we went to out
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on towers. It never really affected me that much. And
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then when I got home that night, I looked for
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it and I was like, there it is. Oh my god,
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this is so so loud. It's never been this loud.
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And then I just got into like this hyper vigilant
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state where I went I left the house and I
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was like just almost testing it and going like, right,
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what can I hear it above? And I was like
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I can hear it above that I can hear it
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above this. Oh my god, this is so loud. This
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is so loud. And I eventually just spiraled and spiraled
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and spiraled, and I just got to just like it
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was horrible. I've never been through any and like that
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or worse in my life that I think there's a
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lot of things worse than sort of because you're you're
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trying to run for it, but you just you can't
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get away fit and it's just it's screaming at you.
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And then then I developed the really bad hypercusus, which
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makes sounds like painful, so any sounds going in or
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like I kind of did the dishes for a while,
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which was a good one because I like, h I
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kind of did the dishes junk. But like when I
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was doing the dishes, any clank and I just had
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to like go sit down because it was like it almost.
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Putting a fear more die waiting for things to noises.
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Or like the hypercusus almost it feels I'm trying to
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explain it, but it's like it's so hard to sort
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of sort I've got a run who knows it's called
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I'm trying to explain it, but it's like almost like
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your ear is like or if you've got a bruise
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and then you like you push it and then you
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feel it's like ah. And it's almost like that in
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my right ear when there's certain sounds or it's like
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it happens with like my own voice as well, if
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I laugh too loud or or whatever, it's like it's
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like ah. So obviously when I was singing, it's it's
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not as bad as it was. I'm definitely improving, but
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it's it's like my ear is like bruised when I'm singing.
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And that's why whenever I'm singing now, I still need
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to sing with like either earplugs in or headphones in
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because it sort of isolates my ears from my own
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voice sort of thing.
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And so if you tried noise and obviously I'm just
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going to come in and you know, there's obviously among
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the things you've tried, right, but noise canceling headphones and
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things like that, do they help you? Even like loops
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what is called the Yeah, that's what.
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I've got to so but just it's just a habit
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and know, wearing them where you didn't need them sort
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of thing. So I would I would only wear them
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and like actual loud places where I need them because
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it's it's complicated because if you wear them when you
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didn't necessarily need to wear them, it can make it
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worse because your brain's like, right, so we must need
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to protect against just a normal, normal sort of sounds.
488
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So it's I mean, and it sensitizes even more. But
489
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as times went on, it's funny because this okay for
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wire got a a wire, became chef Craik. But I
491
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eventually started looking for ways to help, and I was
492
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like a big part of it was like the diet
493
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and stuff and the exercise meditation. So I've started doing
494
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like the ten key steps every single day, and I
495
00:23:16.079 --> 00:23:19.640
didn't have any sugar anymore, any processed food. So like
496
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I'm on like a a very strict It doesn't feel
497
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strict to me now because I've been eating like it
498
00:23:27.119 --> 00:23:29.960
for so long. Yeah, but it's like a like an
499
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animal based diet. So it's literally just like meat, eggs, butter,
500
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and fruit and sometimes raw milk, which is just pretty.
501
00:23:39.839 --> 00:23:41.880
Much what's wrong. Where do you get wrong milk from?
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You get it from like farms and stuff, So it's
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pretty it's not being like pasteurized or or straight for
504
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the right for no right for the it's on a
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bottle when.
506
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I get it in the old milk bottles again metal leads.
507
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It's it's quite mad that it feels quite primal.
508
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But what's just what's what's good about that? What do
509
00:24:00.400 --> 00:24:01.200
they say it's good about that?
510
00:24:01.359 --> 00:24:04.720
So this is pretty much this helps with sort of
511
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like inflammation because like you're because you're eradicating like sugar
512
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and stuff, because you're taking away any processed stuff with
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any of the preservatives or chemicals. It's you're just your
514
00:24:18.559 --> 00:24:20.759
body is you're giving your body the best chance. It's
515
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the survival. And then the inflammation reduces, which then helps
516
00:24:25.640 --> 00:24:28.960
the nervous system, which is directly correlated, which I found
517
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with tinnis because a lot of E and t's and
518
00:24:31.839 --> 00:24:34.920
stuff will argue that tenatus is just an ear problem,
519
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when I've really started to find that it's it's a
520
00:24:37.720 --> 00:24:41.519
brain problem. It's a nervous system problem. And since I
521
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started eating like that, it's just a starting notice and improvements.
522
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And then every every sort of thing that I started implementing,
523
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like the meditation, the ten case steps, eating well just
524
00:24:56.359 --> 00:24:59.039
just mind just mindfulness and stuff, which I never thought
525
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that would ever properly get into. Everything's just started sort
526
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of gradually, very very slowly improving, and it's more like
527
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my reaction towards it than the actual sound itself. By
528
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that that is what then got into me becoming chef,
529
00:25:16.240 --> 00:25:18.920
because I started making like the steaks every night, and
530
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I started making like obviously everyone on the beef scratch.
531
00:25:22.519 --> 00:25:27.519
I was buying like just whole food and were I think,
532
00:25:27.759 --> 00:25:29.319
I can't remember we're going to That was like, we're
533
00:25:29.319 --> 00:25:32.480
talking about like music and the jazz, So this is why.
534
00:25:33.000 --> 00:25:35.519
So this is when I would listen to jazz. It's
535
00:25:35.559 --> 00:25:41.160
a long answer to get to that. But then he
536
00:25:41.200 --> 00:25:43.720
asked me about any other genres. I'll tell him when
537
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I went to space. No, I went to numb jung.
538
00:25:46.839 --> 00:25:50.240
So now I used to to help sort of came
539
00:25:51.240 --> 00:25:54.400
like my nervous system. Whenever I'd made like a steak
540
00:25:54.480 --> 00:25:55.799
or whatever, I'd sit and eat it. But I put
541
00:25:55.839 --> 00:25:58.880
on jazz music and I like candles, and I would
542
00:25:58.880 --> 00:26:01.519
just sit and eat it. It's like, honestly, it's like
543
00:26:01.599 --> 00:26:03.799
something off the American side or something. If somebody walked
544
00:26:03.799 --> 00:26:06.319
in the maybe kind of on edge.
545
00:26:06.799 --> 00:26:08.759
But the thing is that you're talking about being a
546
00:26:08.839 --> 00:26:10.400
brain thing as well. It must because if it was
547
00:26:10.559 --> 00:26:12.119
just something to do with the e or you'd think
548
00:26:12.160 --> 00:26:13.880
an operation could fix it the n Yeah.
549
00:26:14.079 --> 00:26:17.079
Well, the fact that it fluctuates like that, that's really
550
00:26:17.160 --> 00:26:18.599
the sort of pene drop for me. The fact that
551
00:26:18.680 --> 00:26:23.279
it fluctuates is a direct sort of insight as to
552
00:26:23.319 --> 00:26:25.000
what it is. And it's just a brain thing because
553
00:26:25.960 --> 00:26:28.440
if it was damaged, Disney sot to get worse one
554
00:26:28.519 --> 00:26:34.880
day than better, like damage. And I have completely found that.
555
00:26:35.359 --> 00:26:40.079
And now I've been I've actually got myself to the
556
00:26:40.119 --> 00:26:42.960
point view where I can sing with headphones and earplugs in,
557
00:26:43.720 --> 00:26:47.039
and I've just been I've been writing so much, I've
558
00:26:47.079 --> 00:26:48.720
been working so much.
559
00:26:48.640 --> 00:26:54.680
New Body, because ultimately you're talking about doing something that
560
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in a sense hurts you sometimes or gives you a
561
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bit of fear. The music must just have you that much.
562
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You just.
563
00:27:01.279 --> 00:27:05.519
I think what happened is and it's it's all. It's
564
00:27:05.599 --> 00:27:09.000
weird because I kind of if if somebody was to
565
00:27:09.079 --> 00:27:11.640
tell me this like a year ago, that I would
566
00:27:11.680 --> 00:27:13.359
be looking at my ten it's just like this was
567
00:27:13.440 --> 00:27:17.079
meant to happen, then I would be like, go away.
568
00:27:17.640 --> 00:27:21.359
But now I'm like, if my Tenets and hypercrusis never hit,
569
00:27:21.799 --> 00:27:23.640
I wouldn't to be meditating every day. I wouldn't to
570
00:27:23.680 --> 00:27:25.559
be eating the way I am. I wouldn't to be
571
00:27:26.200 --> 00:27:28.000
I wouldn't love music as much as I love it
572
00:27:28.079 --> 00:27:30.160
now because it's it's it gave me that chance to
573
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like miss it because for a while, I think just
574
00:27:34.440 --> 00:27:37.839
I never really knew who I was what would you eat?
575
00:27:39.880 --> 00:27:42.880
So I never knew what laying I wanted to go
576
00:27:43.000 --> 00:27:46.359
down in the music or I was just I did
577
00:27:46.519 --> 00:27:48.079
lose my love for it quite a bit. And then
578
00:27:48.119 --> 00:27:50.640
my Tennate has came along and then it stopped me
579
00:27:50.720 --> 00:27:53.119
for doing it. And over the past year and a
580
00:27:53.119 --> 00:27:54.440
half it's made me realize that, no.
581
00:27:54.559 --> 00:27:55.599
This is what's tested.
582
00:27:56.720 --> 00:27:58.599
It's like, this is what I want to I really
583
00:27:58.680 --> 00:28:02.160
want it well, so it's it's kind of it's been
584
00:28:02.240 --> 00:28:06.720
like quite a it's been the best cruel lesson that
585
00:28:06.759 --> 00:28:09.640
I could have ever so had because I just I've
586
00:28:09.720 --> 00:28:13.599
never been more optimistic or mere passionate about music that
587
00:28:13.680 --> 00:28:16.720
I've ever been. Like, I'm just I'm doing it all
588
00:28:16.759 --> 00:28:19.200
the time that I've I've never been writing as much as.
589
00:28:19.079 --> 00:28:21.680
I'm saying you're coming out with stuff. Next year, Yeah, next.
590
00:28:21.599 --> 00:28:24.880
Year, I'll be I think, what was the plan is?
591
00:28:25.599 --> 00:28:29.359
So next year, I think I've already got like ten
592
00:28:29.480 --> 00:28:32.640
or twelve videos scheduled like on YouTube for like just
593
00:28:32.680 --> 00:28:34.559
to go up like every single week, and they're all
594
00:28:34.640 --> 00:28:36.240
like sort of like covers, but like with my own
595
00:28:36.240 --> 00:28:40.039
spin on it. And I'm also going to be like
596
00:28:40.160 --> 00:28:44.920
simultaneously like pushing my own stuff as well. But no, fully,
597
00:28:45.599 --> 00:28:48.480
but next year the plans are it's just to like
598
00:28:48.599 --> 00:28:52.200
to stay like just because consistency is what I've been
599
00:28:52.640 --> 00:28:57.119
completely missing, like I used to, Yeah, because I used
600
00:28:57.119 --> 00:28:58.839
to like upload for like two or three weeks and
601
00:28:58.880 --> 00:29:00.920
I was like, right now, that's happening. And it wasn't
602
00:29:01.000 --> 00:29:04.200
like a laziness thing. It was like a disheartened sort
603
00:29:04.200 --> 00:29:07.799
of like nothing's happening. It's obviously no for me sort
604
00:29:07.839 --> 00:29:09.440
of thing. But I'm like, no, two or three weeks
605
00:29:09.519 --> 00:29:13.519
is absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things. You
606
00:29:13.599 --> 00:29:15.960
need to be gone at this for two, three, four
607
00:29:16.079 --> 00:29:18.799
years before and it can start to properly take off.
608
00:29:19.640 --> 00:29:23.400
So the whole plan for next year is to get
609
00:29:23.480 --> 00:29:27.160
the weekly upload, so the fifty two videos throughout the
610
00:29:27.319 --> 00:29:30.480
entire year. And the reason why I'm scheduling them is
611
00:29:30.519 --> 00:29:33.920
because I'm also working on my own stuff for the
612
00:29:34.039 --> 00:29:36.880
full of twenty twenty six, and then twenty twenty seven
613
00:29:37.440 --> 00:29:39.559
is where I'm going to be starting to release my
614
00:29:39.680 --> 00:29:44.559
own songs like once every month, which is a really
615
00:29:44.720 --> 00:29:47.759
really hard thing today because making music costs money and
616
00:29:47.880 --> 00:29:51.039
it takes a lot of time. So I think that
617
00:29:51.240 --> 00:29:53.599
is my best sort of planning action, and I'm convinced.
618
00:29:53.920 --> 00:29:57.599
I've said that by twenty thirty five, I'll be headline
619
00:29:57.599 --> 00:30:02.160
and the hydro a. I'm so confident about that now because.
620
00:30:02.000 --> 00:30:03.480
You got to make it. It's like always a song,
621
00:30:03.480 --> 00:30:05.000
You've got to make it happen, right, but you do
622
00:30:05.160 --> 00:30:05.920
want to make it happen.
623
00:30:07.480 --> 00:30:09.559
I think now that I've got a plan, I can
624
00:30:09.640 --> 00:30:10.279
see the view.
625
00:30:10.359 --> 00:30:11.559
A chef right, you've be in space.
626
00:30:13.680 --> 00:30:16.359
I suppose I could probably do everyone. I could probably like,
627
00:30:17.359 --> 00:30:19.079
I don't know, how could I do that? I could
628
00:30:20.200 --> 00:30:22.759
get fock on stage and then just cook a steak
629
00:30:22.839 --> 00:30:24.079
for them and then think of them and.
630
00:30:24.160 --> 00:30:25.920
Is it's a YouTube you're going out through the exacty
631
00:30:25.960 --> 00:30:26.960
platform you're kind of going to.
632
00:30:27.119 --> 00:30:29.960
YouTube will be the main one and I'll be blown
633
00:30:30.000 --> 00:30:32.839
it like Facebook and stuff, as well, but YouTube is
634
00:30:32.920 --> 00:30:34.440
like the main one that I'm going to be trying
635
00:30:34.480 --> 00:30:39.079
to grow and then just uploading just I think I'm
636
00:30:39.119 --> 00:30:42.119
just learning to sort to be myself a lot more
637
00:30:43.119 --> 00:30:45.680
and the sort of public eye kind of thing now
638
00:30:45.680 --> 00:30:48.720
because before I think we're like the voice and stuff
639
00:30:49.519 --> 00:30:52.160
everybody just the way that it was sort of portrayed.
640
00:30:53.000 --> 00:30:57.680
I was portrayed as this and like I did sort
641
00:30:57.720 --> 00:31:02.319
of like it was. It was. I don't know, like,
642
00:31:03.119 --> 00:31:05.599
what do you mean. I'm trying. I'm trying to I'm
643
00:31:05.599 --> 00:31:11.519
trying to put it in the words I think. I
644
00:31:11.720 --> 00:31:14.400
think I put my cell across, like I am, I
645
00:31:14.440 --> 00:31:17.920
am anxious, but I think I put my cell across.
646
00:31:18.039 --> 00:31:22.559
It's just like the sort of vulnerable, anxious kind of guy.
647
00:31:24.359 --> 00:31:27.440
And then maybe that's who you were at the time
648
00:31:28.039 --> 00:31:29.799
you put yourself across, But you probably set a bit
649
00:31:29.799 --> 00:31:33.680
of paper born shaking, do you know what I mean? No,
650
00:31:33.920 --> 00:31:34.920
that's just probably who you were.
651
00:31:35.079 --> 00:31:37.279
And I got into this really weird mindset for a
652
00:31:37.319 --> 00:31:39.759
while where I was like, if I ventured out that
653
00:31:40.079 --> 00:31:44.559
sort of personality type or that sort of image, then
654
00:31:44.599 --> 00:31:47.000
people would start sort of disliking Well, so you felt
655
00:31:47.039 --> 00:31:49.039
like you fell out. I felt like it was weird.
656
00:31:49.359 --> 00:31:51.480
Even though I am anyone, is anybody talking to you
657
00:31:51.519 --> 00:31:52.839
to be like that? Do people say to you.
658
00:31:52.920 --> 00:31:54.680
This is not I just I just got in my
659
00:31:54.759 --> 00:31:57.319
own head. I know that sounds so weird, but like, listen,
660
00:31:57.359 --> 00:31:57.960
you love your life.
661
00:31:57.960 --> 00:31:58.519
That's what happened.
662
00:31:58.559 --> 00:32:01.839
It was like almost had this. I got it into
663
00:32:01.880 --> 00:32:04.079
my head that like, right, people have this perception of me.
664
00:32:05.079 --> 00:32:07.680
So I'm like, I feel as if if I come
665
00:32:07.680 --> 00:32:09.240
out and say that my anxiety is getting a wee
666
00:32:09.319 --> 00:32:13.279
bit better, then it's like, oh, I was faking it off.
667
00:32:13.839 --> 00:32:14.119
I don't know.
668
00:32:14.720 --> 00:32:17.799
I was like, well, I don't know. I mean, you
669
00:32:17.880 --> 00:32:20.000
went through that and you won, right, And then so
670
00:32:20.079 --> 00:32:22.839
I suppose and you're thinking, maybe you'll be looking at
671
00:32:22.839 --> 00:32:24.359
yourself in the mirror. You probably don't see what other
672
00:32:24.400 --> 00:32:25.920
people seeing you, you.
673
00:32:25.920 --> 00:32:27.599
Know what I mean, I think I think so it
674
00:32:27.720 --> 00:32:31.799
was I got into this. Really you're laughing for I know,
675
00:32:32.119 --> 00:32:35.000
I just got it. This really weird. I don't know.
676
00:32:35.319 --> 00:32:37.599
It's it's hard to but what age were you then?
677
00:32:38.039 --> 00:32:40.559
Twenty I would have been about twenty three.
678
00:32:41.920 --> 00:32:43.400
People even then used to be able to trying to
679
00:32:43.440 --> 00:32:45.160
find a way about who they was. A person you're
680
00:32:45.160 --> 00:32:47.599
talking about you've been twenty seven now, I feel like
681
00:32:47.599 --> 00:32:50.000
I'm only comfortable now in my forties one, do you
682
00:32:50.039 --> 00:32:51.279
know what I mean? So I think it takes a
683
00:32:51.319 --> 00:32:54.000
thing as the secret of life is you get old,
684
00:32:54.079 --> 00:32:56.359
are you care less and you're more comfortable? Yeah.
685
00:32:56.759 --> 00:32:58.920
But as I think I knew, I'm like, if if
686
00:32:58.960 --> 00:33:01.279
i am having like an ancient day, or if I'm
687
00:33:01.319 --> 00:33:03.759
having a good day or a bad day, I'll just
688
00:33:03.880 --> 00:33:05.599
I'm not going to try and hide it. I'm just
689
00:33:05.720 --> 00:33:07.680
gonna I'm just going to be me, you know, because
690
00:33:08.480 --> 00:33:12.079
it's just I feel as if that's what's missing the
691
00:33:12.240 --> 00:33:15.400
music industry and just everywhere nowadays. It's just authenticity and
692
00:33:15.519 --> 00:33:18.279
just folks being themselves, whether it's the bad parts of
693
00:33:18.319 --> 00:33:19.279
them or the good parts of them.
694
00:33:19.319 --> 00:33:20.720
So I'll tell you one thing, like I've said in
695
00:33:20.759 --> 00:33:23.640
a million times, I seeing Susan Boyle on that stage
696
00:33:23.799 --> 00:33:27.160
sing that song, she didn't give her monkeys who she
697
00:33:27.440 --> 00:33:29.880
was right, and you know what, that tore down everybody.
698
00:33:29.960 --> 00:33:33.480
There was no false pretends. This is me, And that's
699
00:33:33.480 --> 00:33:35.559
the most beautiful thing you can do is just be
700
00:33:35.799 --> 00:33:40.119
you mean, because they just folk are like maybe even
701
00:33:40.119 --> 00:33:41.640
their fright end. I'm like, he's got he's got the
702
00:33:41.680 --> 00:33:42.759
balls to actually be setting.
703
00:33:43.799 --> 00:33:44.559
So I just beat you.
704
00:33:44.720 --> 00:33:48.960
Man, Take easy, Craig, thank you, thank you very much