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Jon Murphy, PMHNP-BC:
Hello, it's Jon Murphy here,
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psychiatric nurse practitioner.
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Welcome back to another
episode of Survival Notes.
00:00:10.531 --> 00:00:14.581
It's been a while since I recorded one
of these, and there's a reason for that.
00:00:15.661 --> 00:00:18.541
I'm going through a full creative shift.
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It's a renaissance of how I'm
working, thinking, showing up
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personally and professionally.
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I'm proud to say this, but this
podcast is now part of the Compass
00:00:30.301 --> 00:00:32.461
Point Institute podcast network.
00:00:33.271 --> 00:00:35.991
Right now we're hosted on transistor.fm.
00:00:36.391 --> 00:00:40.691
You can find that at
cpipodcasts.transistor.fm.
00:00:41.331 --> 00:00:43.621
They've been solid and behind the scenes.
00:00:43.621 --> 00:00:45.481
I've made some big operational changes.
00:00:46.321 --> 00:00:49.321
I've stripped away a lot of the
friction, especially the kind that
00:00:49.321 --> 00:00:54.841
was draining my time and energy notes,
documentation, the electronic health
00:00:54.841 --> 00:01:00.361
record, administrative clutter, all
of that is being delegated because
00:01:00.421 --> 00:01:02.371
that's not why I got into this work.
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I'm here for the real stuff,
talking, listening and connecting,
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survival, lived experience.
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The reason I'm able to help
people is because I've had to
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figure this stuff out for myself.
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Okay, let's rewind.
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At 22, I was making $10 an hour
opening doors at a psych hospital
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on the South Shore, Massachusetts.
00:01:22.801 --> 00:01:25.471
No plan, just showing up day after day.
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That was the job that
set everything in motion.
00:01:28.531 --> 00:01:31.861
Fast forward to 2017, and now
I have my master's degree.
00:01:32.221 --> 00:01:36.751
Graduated from Boston College and
starting my first role as a psychiatric
00:01:36.751 --> 00:01:39.451
nurse practitioner in Portland, Oregon.
00:01:39.721 --> 00:01:42.841
I showed up overdressed,
hung my diploma on the wall.
00:01:43.711 --> 00:01:48.781
And I felt the full weight of total
imposter syndrome and the first day,
00:01:48.781 --> 00:01:50.521
my first prescription, what happens?
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They couldn't pick it up.
00:01:52.741 --> 00:01:54.661
I didn't even know what
a billing code was.
00:01:54.751 --> 00:01:55.351
Think about that.
00:01:55.561 --> 00:02:00.421
Six years of higher education and
not one real world lesson about
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how healthcare actually works.
00:02:03.661 --> 00:02:07.231
It's when I realized there's
theory and there's the system.
00:02:08.026 --> 00:02:11.776
And if you don't learn how to navigate
the system, it doesn't matter how well
00:02:11.776 --> 00:02:13.486
you understand people or medicine.
00:02:14.326 --> 00:02:16.486
Over time, I've learned
to think in systems.
00:02:16.486 --> 00:02:18.436
I encourage my patients to do the same.
00:02:19.306 --> 00:02:21.736
I've also learned the power
of incremental change.
00:02:21.796 --> 00:02:23.026
That's one small thing.
00:02:23.056 --> 00:02:26.716
One really tiny, itty bitty
small thing instead of nothing.
00:02:28.291 --> 00:02:29.431
We get to the same outcome.
00:02:29.431 --> 00:02:30.271
Don't think about it.
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Don't wanna do it?
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Don't think about it.
00:02:34.321 --> 00:02:37.141
Do one little itty bitty thing,
then don't think about it.
00:02:37.621 --> 00:02:40.831
That's been true in my clinical
work and my healing, and now
00:02:41.011 --> 00:02:42.211
how I've run my business.
00:02:42.511 --> 00:02:44.611
Delegation used to terrify me.
00:02:44.948 --> 00:02:48.548
When I first started, I wouldn't even
let a secretary send a fax for me.
00:02:48.878 --> 00:02:53.198
Guilt, people pleasing over
responsibility ran the show, but I
00:02:53.198 --> 00:02:55.088
worked through it slowly, deliberately.
00:02:55.358 --> 00:02:58.598
The version of me that operated like
that doesn't even feel like me anymore.
00:02:58.598 --> 00:03:04.028
So the shift is real, and it
was most noticeable when I
00:03:04.028 --> 00:03:05.918
went no contact with my mother.
00:03:07.268 --> 00:03:11.798
My mother has narcissistic personality
disorder of a very malignant variety.
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I've done a lot of healing, taken
full accountability in my life.
00:03:15.968 --> 00:03:18.668
I'm 40 and I don't wanna
live in pain or worry.
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I want peace.
00:03:19.523 --> 00:03:21.773
I want structure I wanna create.
00:03:22.103 --> 00:03:27.023
So I'm building a life that supports
that for me, but most importantly,
00:03:27.443 --> 00:03:30.326
the people I serve, this is what
I've spent the most time doing.
00:03:30.326 --> 00:03:32.816
Our greatest asset is our
lived experience, our wisdom.
00:03:32.986 --> 00:03:36.076
Not everyone can do everything, so
therefore we have to turn to others for
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the wisdom and apply it to ourselves.
00:03:38.310 --> 00:03:41.700
We can learn from other people,
especially those that have life
00:03:41.700 --> 00:03:44.910
experiences that we weren't fortunate
enough to have, are different than ours.
00:03:45.408 --> 00:03:47.928
The more I reduce friction, the
more present I am, and that's
00:03:47.928 --> 00:03:49.338
where I can offer the most value.
00:03:49.608 --> 00:03:53.478
For anyone out there starting something,
especially business owners, the lesson
00:03:53.478 --> 00:03:57.978
is simple reduce resistance, build
momentum through one small step,
00:03:57.978 --> 00:04:00.318
accept that the system is the system.
00:04:00.558 --> 00:04:02.808
Learn it, navigate it, but
don't let it break you.
00:04:03.288 --> 00:04:06.258
And if it's going to, maybe
there's another way through it.
00:04:07.078 --> 00:04:09.958
I've stopped asking for
permission to speak.
00:04:10.798 --> 00:04:11.818
My voice matters.
00:04:11.818 --> 00:04:14.818
The realization came when I found
creative flow through music,
00:04:15.058 --> 00:04:16.408
songwriting changed everything.
00:04:16.408 --> 00:04:20.278
Once that part of me came online,
everything fell into place.
00:04:20.278 --> 00:04:21.148
So here we are.
00:04:21.568 --> 00:04:25.068
I'm speaking, , using this
medium, my voice, podcasting.
00:04:25.398 --> 00:04:28.398
To do what humans have always done,
tell stories, reflect, connect.
00:04:28.818 --> 00:04:29.598
There's more to come.
00:04:29.688 --> 00:04:32.688
This show, Survival Notes is my
place for unfiltered reflections,
00:04:32.688 --> 00:04:34.248
personal, professional, integrated.
00:04:34.818 --> 00:04:37.398
Over on YouTube, James and I are
building out the Compass Point
00:04:37.398 --> 00:04:41.118
Institute, content educational,
structured , clinician focused.
00:04:41.448 --> 00:04:43.578
We've also launched a
separate series, Toxic.
00:04:43.938 --> 00:04:47.808
It's where I talk about real stuff,
toxic relationships, healing, boundaries.
00:04:48.168 --> 00:04:49.728
If you're here and you're
listening, thank you.
00:04:49.848 --> 00:04:52.413
Reach out, leave a comment, let me
know what you want to hear more about.
00:04:53.133 --> 00:04:55.863
I'm always open to taking this
conversation in new directions.
00:04:56.343 --> 00:04:59.043
So until next time, this is
John Murphy, Psychiatric Nurse
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Practitioner, until next time.
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This file was generated by Descript
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Jon Murphy, PMHNP-BC:
Hello, it's Jon Murphy here,
00:00:04.621 --> 00:00:06.361
psychiatric nurse practitioner.
00:00:07.231 --> 00:00:10.501
Welcome back to another
episode of Survival Notes.
00:00:10.531 --> 00:00:14.581
It's been a while since I recorded one
of these, and there's a reason for that.
00:00:15.661 --> 00:00:18.541
I'm going through a full creative shift.
00:00:19.141 --> 00:00:23.071
It's a renaissance of how I'm
working, thinking, showing up
00:00:23.191 --> 00:00:25.381
personally and professionally.
00:00:26.941 --> 00:00:30.301
I'm proud to say this, but this
podcast is now part of the Compass
00:00:30.301 --> 00:00:32.461
Point Institute podcast network.
00:00:33.271 --> 00:00:35.991
Right now we're hosted on transistor.fm.
00:00:36.391 --> 00:00:40.691
You can find that at
cpipodcasts.transistor.fm.
00:00:41.331 --> 00:00:43.621
They've been solid and behind the scenes.
00:00:43.621 --> 00:00:45.481
I've made some big operational changes.
00:00:46.321 --> 00:00:49.321
I've stripped away a lot of the
friction, especially the kind that
00:00:49.321 --> 00:00:54.841
was draining my time and energy notes,
documentation, the electronic health
00:00:54.841 --> 00:01:00.361
record, administrative clutter, all
of that is being delegated because
00:01:00.421 --> 00:01:02.371
that's not why I got into this work.
00:01:02.821 --> 00:01:06.241
I'm here for the real stuff,
talking, listening and connecting,
00:01:06.511 --> 00:01:08.976
survival, lived experience.
00:01:10.141 --> 00:01:12.271
The reason I'm able to help
people is because I've had to
00:01:12.271 --> 00:01:13.861
figure this stuff out for myself.
00:01:14.701 --> 00:01:15.601
Okay, let's rewind.
00:01:16.561 --> 00:01:20.821
At 22, I was making $10 an hour
opening doors at a psych hospital
00:01:20.821 --> 00:01:22.321
on the South Shore, Massachusetts.
00:01:22.801 --> 00:01:25.471
No plan, just showing up day after day.
00:01:25.861 --> 00:01:27.961
That was the job that
set everything in motion.
00:01:28.531 --> 00:01:31.861
Fast forward to 2017, and now
I have my master's degree.
00:01:32.221 --> 00:01:36.751
Graduated from Boston College and
starting my first role as a psychiatric
00:01:36.751 --> 00:01:39.451
nurse practitioner in Portland, Oregon.
00:01:39.721 --> 00:01:42.841
I showed up overdressed,
hung my diploma on the wall.
00:01:43.711 --> 00:01:48.781
And I felt the full weight of total
imposter syndrome and the first day,
00:01:48.781 --> 00:01:50.521
my first prescription, what happens?
00:01:51.091 --> 00:01:51.871
They couldn't pick it up.
00:01:52.741 --> 00:01:54.661
I didn't even know what
a billing code was.
00:01:54.751 --> 00:01:55.351
Think about that.
00:01:55.561 --> 00:02:00.421
Six years of higher education and
not one real world lesson about
00:02:00.421 --> 00:02:02.731
how healthcare actually works.
00:02:03.661 --> 00:02:07.231
It's when I realized there's
theory and there's the system.
00:02:08.026 --> 00:02:11.776
And if you don't learn how to navigate
the system, it doesn't matter how well
00:02:11.776 --> 00:02:13.486
you understand people or medicine.
00:02:14.326 --> 00:02:16.486
Over time, I've learned
to think in systems.
00:02:16.486 --> 00:02:18.436
I encourage my patients to do the same.
00:02:19.306 --> 00:02:21.736
I've also learned the power
of incremental change.
00:02:21.796 --> 00:02:23.026
That's one small thing.
00:02:23.056 --> 00:02:26.716
One really tiny, itty bitty
small thing instead of nothing.
00:02:28.291 --> 00:02:29.431
We get to the same outcome.
00:02:29.431 --> 00:02:30.271
Don't think about it.
00:02:31.441 --> 00:02:32.191
Don't wanna do it?
00:02:32.971 --> 00:02:33.841
Don't think about it.
00:02:34.321 --> 00:02:37.141
Do one little itty bitty thing,
then don't think about it.
00:02:37.621 --> 00:02:40.831
That's been true in my clinical
work and my healing, and now
00:02:41.011 --> 00:02:42.211
how I've run my business.
00:02:42.511 --> 00:02:44.611
Delegation used to terrify me.
00:02:44.948 --> 00:02:48.548
When I first started, I wouldn't even
let a secretary send a fax for me.
00:02:48.878 --> 00:02:53.198
Guilt, people pleasing over
responsibility ran the show, but I
00:02:53.198 --> 00:02:55.088
worked through it slowly, deliberately.
00:02:55.358 --> 00:02:58.598
The version of me that operated like
that doesn't even feel like me anymore.
00:02:58.598 --> 00:03:04.028
So the shift is real, and it
was most noticeable when I
00:03:04.028 --> 00:03:05.918
went no contact with my mother.
00:03:07.268 --> 00:03:11.798
My mother has narcissistic personality
disorder of a very malignant variety.
00:03:12.398 --> 00:03:15.968
I've done a lot of healing, taken
full accountability in my life.
00:03:15.968 --> 00:03:18.668
I'm 40 and I don't wanna
live in pain or worry.
00:03:18.668 --> 00:03:19.268
I want peace.
00:03:19.523 --> 00:03:21.773
I want structure I wanna create.
00:03:22.103 --> 00:03:27.023
So I'm building a life that supports
that for me, but most importantly,
00:03:27.443 --> 00:03:30.326
the people I serve, this is what
I've spent the most time doing.
00:03:30.326 --> 00:03:32.816
Our greatest asset is our
lived experience, our wisdom.
00:03:32.986 --> 00:03:36.076
Not everyone can do everything, so
therefore we have to turn to others for
00:03:36.076 --> 00:03:37.966
the wisdom and apply it to ourselves.
00:03:38.310 --> 00:03:41.700
We can learn from other people,
especially those that have life
00:03:41.700 --> 00:03:44.910
experiences that we weren't fortunate
enough to have, are different than ours.
00:03:45.408 --> 00:03:47.928
The more I reduce friction, the
more present I am, and that's
00:03:47.928 --> 00:03:49.338
where I can offer the most value.
00:03:49.608 --> 00:03:53.478
For anyone out there starting something,
especially business owners, the lesson
00:03:53.478 --> 00:03:57.978
is simple reduce resistance, build
momentum through one small step,
00:03:57.978 --> 00:04:00.318
accept that the system is the system.
00:04:00.558 --> 00:04:02.808
Learn it, navigate it, but
don't let it break you.
00:04:03.288 --> 00:04:06.258
And if it's going to, maybe
there's another way through it.
00:04:07.078 --> 00:04:09.958
I've stopped asking for
permission to speak.
00:04:10.798 --> 00:04:11.818
My voice matters.
00:04:11.818 --> 00:04:14.818
The realization came when I found
creative flow through music,
00:04:15.058 --> 00:04:16.408
songwriting changed everything.
00:04:16.408 --> 00:04:20.278
Once that part of me came online,
everything fell into place.
00:04:20.278 --> 00:04:21.148
So here we are.
00:04:21.568 --> 00:04:25.068
I'm speaking, , using this
medium, my voice, podcasting.
00:04:25.398 --> 00:04:28.398
To do what humans have always done,
tell stories, reflect, connect.
00:04:28.818 --> 00:04:29.598
There's more to come.
00:04:29.688 --> 00:04:32.688
This show, Survival Notes is my
place for unfiltered reflections,
00:04:32.688 --> 00:04:34.248
personal, professional, integrated.
00:04:34.818 --> 00:04:37.398
Over on YouTube, James and I are
building out the Compass Point
00:04:37.398 --> 00:04:41.118
Institute, content educational,
structured , clinician focused.
00:04:41.448 --> 00:04:43.578
We've also launched a
separate series, Toxic.
00:04:43.938 --> 00:04:47.808
It's where I talk about real stuff,
toxic relationships, healing, boundaries.
00:04:48.168 --> 00:04:49.728
If you're here and you're
listening, thank you.
00:04:49.848 --> 00:04:52.413
Reach out, leave a comment, let me
know what you want to hear more about.
00:04:53.133 --> 00:04:55.863
I'm always open to taking this
conversation in new directions.
00:04:56.343 --> 00:04:59.043
So until next time, this is
John Murphy, Psychiatric Nurse
00:04:59.043 --> 00:05:01.413
Practitioner, until next time.
