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Hello, hello, hello.
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Here we are.
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All alone.
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Anyone need to break the mic.
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Don't need to break the mic.
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Jesus.
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All almost um Let's do it.
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Okay.
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Well, hello, hello, hello, hello, everybody.
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Welcome to Her Path, Her Pace, where Growth Meets Grace.
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I am your lovely host, Shay, and thank you for joining me on another lovely Tuesday.
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Oh my goodness.
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Hi guys.
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I know it has been a while.
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And the last time I said it was the last time.
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And you know, because I genuinely sincerely believe that that was the last long break I was gonna take.
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You know, I thought I was gonna get it together.
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I thought I was gonna have everything all together and all that.
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But you know what?
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We're here, and I apologize.
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I do like I have to start before we even topic segments, all that.
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I have to start this episode by just sincerely apologizing.
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And yeah, because it's just that's just been a lot lately, and I've been working through a lot and all that, and we'll talk about it, but I just wanted to start by this episode simply by apologizing because uh there's no reason why I haven't at least communicated anything and said anything.
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It just got hard and got a little dark, a little like, oh my gosh, I was just fighting old habits and what like I said, we'll talk about all of that in the episode.
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But once again, I like sincerely want to just start this episode by just apologizing for disappearing, and I will do the work and I have no problem putting in the work to rebuild trust, rebuild communication, to foster this community.
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Um because yeah, that's what I'm supposed to do, that's how I'm supposed I'm supposed to show up.
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Uh no matter what, I'm supposed to be here.
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So I apologize for disappearing.
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Um and yeah, so I'm not gonna say never again, because I never say never.
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I will sincerely do my darn best to not just away ever again, um without at least communicating and saying something or making a post or something, you know, saying something.
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But you know, thank you for still being here.
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And for those of you that I have to rebuild trust, I completely understand I have to rebuild that and keep going and keep moving forward.
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All I can do is apologize and do my best continuing on.
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So yeah, that's that.
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Okay, so now that I've apologized, I've apologized, let's uh go ahead and dive into life lately.
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So honestly, um, I will talk about life lately, really, and our main topic since it this is a reflection episode.
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I don't know if you guys picked up on this pattern, um, because it, I mean it has only it hadn't even been a full year yet, but each quarter of the year, I've been doing reflection episodes, and so we are entering Q4.
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So this episode is gonna be what a reflection episode, reflect, reset, and let's go, okay, type of thing.
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So in our main topic, we will actually really talk about where I am right now, what's going on in my world, and all those things.
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But on a lighter note, before we get into that heavy stuff, um, I have been watching TV and been keeping up with what's going on in these TV straits.
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And I'm gonna say, y'all, a different world, the reboo, baby, baby, baby.
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Oh man, send me the helmen, send me the helmet right now, send me the helmet right now.
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Send me right now.
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Oh my gosh.
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And it got renewed for the second season.
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I'm so sad.
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I am so sad.
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Yes, I I'm sad.
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I'm so excited for season two, so ready.
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Um, you know, what's so crazy is talk to my mom about it.
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Because my mom grew up on a different world, so she was like around that age when that came out and was like really, so she got a different little take on it, and um, it was interesting to talk with her about it because we have different generations, we got different, you know, viewpoints and stuff on that because she has different things that she wanted to see from the show versus me.
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I watched a different world, but I didn't grow up on it.
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Like, how did I say I mean I did grow up on it because my mom would put it on, but it it it was tight, it sat differently in my world, you know, than it did for hers.
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And just having that conversation was a bit interesting because we both we both ultimately liked it, but we just had different wants and needs and expectations of a reboot, which is so crazy.
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Um, but yeah, loved it, enjoyed it, and it really for me it did meet my expectations and things of a reboot.
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I wasn't I loved how they intertwined and like weaved in the old cast with this new cast and you know that type of storyline.
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Um, but this was a point that my mom did make um in our conversation was like she wanted to see more of she wished there would have been an episode or even just a couple episodes before we got the new generation at Hillman that um explained or gave us like some backstory, like even if it was like a snapshot mirage of how the cast, the OG cast grew up in life and over time and then ended up here, if that makes sense.
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And I was like, Yeah, I can understand it, I get there, but I was like, I think they'll eventually do it throughout the show because I think a lot of people forget that, and even pause, I'm saying a lot because I'm lots going through my brain right now.
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Um, but I think a lot of people forget that it's a different world in the original.
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It it took a while, well, not a while, but yes, they talked about some serious topics and they hit on some real big things.
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Um, but it didn't it didn't happen off bat, it didn't happen off rip, it just you know it happened eventually over time.
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So I feel like this is this is once again a show.
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You gotta give time to see what can potentially happen.
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And now that they have our feedback and they understand and they know different generations are watching this because different people from different like it's a different world was a black home for me, home staple.
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Like, I I wanna say I was well, no, not everybody watched it, but I'm pretty sure, no, almost all of us in my house watched it, even my brothers who probably were forced to watch it.
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My baby brother, I know he was forced to watch it, because if it was on TV and we had promoted, he was watching it type thing.
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So, yeah, but um, so I feel as we give more feedback and we have conversations and different things like that, it'll be it'll be great.
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Um, and it can eventually hit on a lot of expectations across generations that have grown up or watched this and grown to love the original and now watching the reboot.
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But yeah, I'm so excited.
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I'm so excited, um, but yeah, so that's that.
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So now that we are all caught up on you know my TV loving things, yeah, what I've watched lately.
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Let's go ahead and talk about some glow-up goals.
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All right, all right, all right.
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So for this week's glow up goals, we are in Q4, y'all.
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We are in Q4 of the year, and I was a bit intentional about you know waiting until this point to actually drop an episode um and upload one and record one because I wanted it's about 75 days, a little under 75 days left in the year now, and so we are officially in Q4, officially in Q4 of 2026, and I don't know because it has been a while since I dropped an episode, but in the last episode that I did have, uh, we talked about making a list of goals that you wanted to achieve um within by the end of the year in this Q in Q4.
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And um I just wanted to bring that to your remembrance.
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And out of that list, I genuinely want you to take the time to pick one thing.
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Out of that th list of three to five things, I believe, I want you to pick one thing, and I want you to actually take the time this week to write it out and make a plan as to how you are going to accomplish that one thing.
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We're going to make that one thing a reality and it's gonna get done.
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That's what I want you guys to do for this glow up go for this week's glow up goals, glowing up in action.
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Choose that one thing.
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And if you can't remember anything from that list, make a new one and then after you make a new one, look it over and choose one thing.
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And after you choose that one thing, make a plan for that one thing.
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Okay, have milestones, little benchmarks, however, you need to set up your plan to get that one thing done, get that one thing done before the end of the year.
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Okay, okay, okay, cool.
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So now that we are all glowing, growing and going, let's see who we are in step with on today.
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Okay, so for this week's shared steps, I actually want to take a moment to acknowledge Hispanic Heritage Month, um, which was celebrated actually last month and kind of into this month.
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So I just wanted to take the time to shine a light on it.
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So this week's flowers are going to Amara La Negra.
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Now, some of y'all might recognize Amada from Love and Hip Hop Miami, but she's also a singer, actress, and advocate who has been very outspoken about her experiences as an Afro-Dominican woman in the entertainment industry.
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And something I really appreciate about her is how intentional she's been about embracing her identity.
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Throughout her career, she's spoken about experiencing colorism, being told she didn't look Latina enough, and even facing pressure to change her natural hair just to fit certain beauty standards.
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And instead of accepting that she needed to change herself to fit somebody else's idea of what a Latino woman should look like, she has continued to embrace all aspects of her and her heritage.
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And I also want to take the time to acknowledge her journey as an artist because this woman has been pursuing entertainment since she was a little girl.
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Her mother worked incredibly hard to support those dreams, and Amada has continued building her career while using her platform to bring attention to conversations that are often overlooked.
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And I believe that's something worth celebrating.
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Because representation isn't just about seeing someone who looks like you on television, it's also about seeing someone who shares parts of your identity and isn't afraid to celebrate them.
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So this week's flowers goes to Amara La Negra for her artistry, her advocacy, and for continuing to make space for Afro-Latino women to be seen, heard, and celebrated.
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Keep doing your thing, girl.
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Okay, okay, so now that we are all in step, let's go ahead and set the mood with some tunes.
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Okay, so for this week's Her Playlist, I have two songs.
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Um, and both songs are representing like where I'm at in life, what I'm going through, and just you know, in terms of like the main topic and how the conversation's gonna go.
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And the first song is I Trust You of James Fortune.
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And I chose this song because you know it's an acknowledgement of even though life is gonna be life and it has been being life, I am still staying steadfast and holding on to my faith and trusting God to be there and come through with the promises and not only just with the promises that he has made, um, but you know, trusting that he hasn't placed these things on my heart and make, you know, trusting that everything genuinely is happening for a reason.
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And even if I can't see it right now, even though it gets hard and I'm struggling a bit, time to time, I'm my human is coming out.
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Um my human is coming out.
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That kind of sounds weird.
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No, the my human nature I'm is being you know, just being human and um get weary and worried, but through all of that, I am still trusting you, and I will trust you, and I will continue to trust, can continue to choose to trust you.
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Um and then the set the second song the second song is No Weapon by Fred Hammond, and it's just because this it was so crazy is um nothing in the Bible said that the weapon will not be formed.
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Nothing is said tells you that things won't still come your way, come in your path, try to throw you off, and then say nothing will not try.
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It just said no weapon formed against me shall prosper.
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So the weapon's gonna get formed, the things are still gonna try and come your way, but it won't prosper.
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And so it's just a reminder and a re-declaration for me to just say no weapon formed against me shall prosper.
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And I know God will do what he said he would do because he's a man of his word.
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Yeah.
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No weapon formed against me shall prosper.
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It won't work.
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God will do what he said he will do, he shall stand on He's a man of his work, he will come through.
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I think that's how that goes.
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Not too sure.
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Let me look and see because we can pull up lyrics.
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But it's the I the idea of the song is God will do what he said he will do.
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Yes, God will do what he said he will do, he will stand by his word, and he will come through.
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Said he would do he's not a man that should lie, he will come through, and so it's just like I said, just a reminder and a redeclaration from me, um, and reinforcing like yes, no, the weapon, no weapon formed against me shall prosper, and that's because God said, No weapon formed against me shall prosper, and he will come through.
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He's not a man, he shall not lie, and he will always be there, and he is ever present and he is there.
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And just once again, reminding myself that that is that, and that is how I that is what I truly believe, and that is how I feel, and it is okay to not be okay because God is there with me and through it, and choosing to trust and choosing to believe and all of those things.
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So that's why those two songs are the songs on our playlist for this week, okay?
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Because these are the two songs that are in my playlist for past little minute on repeat for a little minute on repeat on repeat.
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Okay, so yes, I trust you by James Fortune and No Weapon by Fred Hammond.
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So now that the mood is set, let's go ahead and walk through this thing, y'all.
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Okay, so as I've mentioned a couple times now in this episode, we are officially in Q4.
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Quarter four, the final quarter of 2026.
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Um I have already acknowledged and apologize, but I'm gonna take this time to acknowledge and apologize again for my little Houdini acts.
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I apologize.
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I apologize.
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And all honesty, y'all, but it's just, I know, I believe it was the last episode I dropped, or the episode right before.
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I'm, you know, still figuring it out.
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Still figuring it out very, very, very heavily.
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Very, very heavily.
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And um, I kind of did make a mistake in uh kind of trying to jump the gun and not acknowledge how I really was feeling.
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You know, I was trying to immediately shift my perspective and you know, take a positive outlook and be like, oh, chipper chipper, but in a way by doing that, I was not acknowledging how I was really feeling, I was neglecting to give myself the space and time to truly feel how I was feeling, um, and all those things.
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And so I just kind of and that's what caused me to need to like just because it was a lot because I wasn't I was fighting old habits.
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And um, but in me finding those old habits, it gave me new awareness and I was able to see the growth um in that because when I get overwhelmed when there's a lot of frustrating things happening in life and I feel like I'm being pulled so many different directions, my natural instinct is to isolate, go into a turtle, go into a shell, hide away, nobody, everybody leave me alone.
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Like I'm here, but I'm not here.
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That's my natural instinct.
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Um, and the more frustrating and overwhelmed I feel, and the more chaotic my life seems to me, the more I isolate and unintentionally like push away from every well, I don't not even push away, pull away, because I I just oops, I slowly become this recluse and I lock in and tighten down on my own and not in a healthy way.
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Um and the qu the so what's so ironic about that is one of my top love languages is quality time.
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I genuinely love spending quality time with the people around me in my life, in my circle.
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And so once I start, you know, pulling away, that's kind of when people should start asking some questions.
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And I'm not gonna sit here and act like people haven't been, like the people in my circle in my village, in my life have not been.
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Um, however, because I was fighting how I've been feeling and being dismissive towards my feeling and not truly acknowledging them and being honest with myself, I would just, you know, oh, it's okay, I'm fine.
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And it took me some time to recognize, no, Shay, no girl, no girl, no girl.
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You still doing that thing that you said you don't want to do no more.
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You're still doing that thing.
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Um, and the growth in it is that I was able to recognize it a whole lot sooner because in the past, baby, I'll be the victim.
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I wouldn't let nobody be there, and nobody not being there was everybody else's fault but mine.
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And that's just not the truth.
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Yes, have there been things in my life that have triggered and caused me to have this response?
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Absolutely, but I'm grown, I'm an adult, and as I'm growing and I'm getting older and I'm going through things, if I want better, if I want something different, I can't behave and react and respond in an unhealthy in that same unhealthy manner.
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Um, and so yeah, this time around I can see it and I have acknowledged it.
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And now because I've seen it, now I've acknowledged it, and now I've allowed myself to feel it.
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Um I can move better and I can adjust and do my best to be more present, be more To let people in.
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Let me just to let people in and not pull away.
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Because it my when you pull, people can feel pushed.
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I'm learning.
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When you pull, people can feel pushed.
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And even if that's not my intention, that's not what I'm trying to do.
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By me, you know, being that way and all those things, it can cause tension, it can cause weariness, it can cause people, it can hurt other people and hurt people, hurt people.
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And I didn't realize that because I was hurting and how I was feeling that I was hurting others in my life, even though it wasn't intentional, it was never intentional.
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And yeah.
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And so it also made me bring up the question of how do you know when you're genuinely just taking time to yourself and for yourself versus when you're isolating because you don't want to deal with anything or add anything or anybody else to your plate?
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And I believe that's a very healthy question to have.
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Well, another question of okay, well, am I thinking this way because I'm trying to protect my peace, or is it me still finding being a people pleaser?
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Like, where is the balance?
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Um, because uh am I concerned about how people feel, or is it more of a people pleasing?
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Is it because I'm not trying to uh because I'm being so drastic and dramatic, and because I'm not really allowing myself to feel, and this is this me lashing out in isolation um when people do check in and I pull away, and what's making me to have this push-pull type of thing?
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Why do I feel the need to explain and justify?
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Or do I even feel the need to explain and justify?
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Why or why not?
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Do I feel like so many questions?
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Am I frustrated because I feel like I'm constantly expected to show up and still perform as if everything is fine and dandy?
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Am I the one who thinks I'm supposed to still show up and perform and act like everything is fine and dandy?
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Is this what other people have put on on me?
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Is this what I'm putting on me?
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Is this what I'm still letting other trauma and other situations in my life still control about me?
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Um, and like just where is the line, the healthy line, the healthy boundary between taking time for myself and shutting people out?
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Where where does that line get drawn?
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Um, and so like there's just something that I am actively working through, trying to figure out, and I've talked about it, and I genuinely I don't have the answer.
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I really don't have the answer.
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I'm only I'm taking it a day ahead of time and I'm trying to figure it out and I'm working through it.
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Working through it.
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Don't have the answer.
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Those are just all the questions that have come up.
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And so it's that, and you know, like I said, in this feeling of overwhelmingness and frustration, it's it's all coming from sourcing from I'm just tired of feeling stuck.
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You know, uh, I've talked about in another reflection episode how I feel about my job and all of those things, but it's not just necessarily just this job, it's any job that has I've that's come across in a way where I'm not where I believe I should be and not where I have worked to be.
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Um because, like, in my head, like, and not even just in my head, check the resume.
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You can look at the resume.
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I've done everything I've been told to do.
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I've gotten the education, I've networked, I've talked to people, I've put in the work, I've put in the time, the work, I've built the skills, I've gotten the certifications, I've done all of these things.
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I'm currently pursuing another degree to further my education, to gain more experience, to gain more knowledge.
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And yet it's kind of like, okay, I've done, I've done all the things.
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I was in this cycle of people saying, Oh, you need the education, go to school, get the education.
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Went to school, got the education.
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Oh, you don't have the experience.
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Okay, cool.
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Um people are turning me around because I don't have the experience.
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Okay, well, I'm gonna find a new different way to get experience in these relevant areas so I can gain the transferable skills to do with the things I need to do.
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And in the process of doing all that, I'm also gonna still network and talk to people and get to know people and go out to these things and do that and do that and show up for this and do that.
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Okay, so now, okay, well, it's like, oh, well, that doesn't count as real experience, or oh, now you're overqualified, or oh, this, that-da-da-da-da-da-da-da.
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Just rejection after rejection after rejection.
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Oh, oh, there's a better candidate, or oh, we decided to go with another candidate when in reality it's because of this person to this person, and I didn't know that person and all of those things and my gaps, my bridges are gapping.
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It's just a constant cycle of well, god dang it, what am I supposed to do?
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What am I supposed to do?
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I put in all this time, I put in all this energy, I put in all this effort, I've put in all this work, I have continued to work and work and work and work and work, and the problem is I have no problem working.
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I have absolutely no problem working.
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The resume shows that I have no problem working.
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The things that I've done shows I have no problem working, I have no absolutely nothing against putting in the work.
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I know hard work is needed to get to anywhere in life, to get to where you want to go, to where you see yourself, all those things.
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I have absolutely nothing wrong with that.
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There's absolutely I have no problem with putting in the time, working, and even working my way up.
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Like, never been my issue.
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Never been my issue.
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It's just kind it's just at this point in my life, it's just it's reaching a point for me.
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It's just like, well, what is it all for?
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I've done everything everybody said to do to set yourself up for success, and yet I am still in this cycle of feeling drained and stuck.
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So now what?
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And like I said, the growth, a part of the growth of recognizing the old habits and stuff sooner is also now I I'm allowing myself to feel that and not feeling bad about it.
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I'm acknowledging my feelings.
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Granted, I was dismissive about them at first, and I tried to put on this, you know, this face, this facade, and convince myself that it was okay, and you know, fake it till you make it type of thing, which yeah, you gotta fake it till you make it, but you also should take time to allow yourself to feel and acknowledge how you feel.
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And that's that was the part I skipped.
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But now I'm allowing myself to say it, I'm allowing myself to voice it, and I'm allowing myself to feel it, and I'm acknowledging it because my acknowledgement doesn't mean I'm ungrateful.
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I'm very grateful that I have a job, very grateful that I have the ability and resources and the people around me to do the things that I need to do and to get where, like, you know, I just but I also I'm not trying to just survive.
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I'm not just trying to stay on this hamster wheel.
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Uh that's not that's not what I want.
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I'm grateful, but it ain't what I want.
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And both truths can exist in understanding and allowing myself to not feel bad for feeling that way.
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Like, that's just that's just the that's the truth of the matter.
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Learning to allow both truths to exist and understanding, okay, yes, I feel this way, but now which one am I gonna feed?
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Okay, I feel this way, so now what are we gonna do about it?
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Okay, so that's that's in the acknowledgement because there was a point I was just like, no, I should just uh because like the whole thing of people, other people have it work.
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Some people don't have a job, well I'm not talking about other people.
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I'm talking about me and how I feel and what I'm calling through.
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I can't speak to nobody else.
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I can't speak on what anybody else has going on.
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But I know what I'm going.
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But I got going on.
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I know me.
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But even I just you know, but but there's growth in that.
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Two both truths can exist, both truths do exist and they coexist, and it's just about which which one you want to feed more.
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You want to feed the negativity or do you want to be positive and change?
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You can acknowledge the negativity and you well, acknowledge the negativity.
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That's not what I mean.
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You can acknowledge the downside to a situation and choose to see the upside because what I was doing was ignoring the downside to the situation and just trying to make myself believe the upside.
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But yin and yang, it's all about balance.
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You can't have one without the other.
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Both can exist, and if you ignore one, the other may suffer, type of situation, type deal.
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And that's that's how it is for me.
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And it might that might not work for you, but not that might not be you, but it's me.
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So yeah.
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And the anchor in all of it, and finding the balance of you know, acknowledgement and feeling and working through and going through and continuing on is I have still had my faith through it all.
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My faith has not changed.
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Yes, I've been getting weary, yeah.
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The light been a little, it's been a little.
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I can't lie, I'm not gonna sit here and lie, but call me delusional.
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But that's what having faith is, I guess.
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Like, that's what I'm learning.
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Having faith is is still believing and still trusting and still choosing to go forward and go on.
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And I love now this movie, praise this.
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If anybody's like, I don't understand why this movie is still on Peacock, why people still watch it.
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If you're watching the numbers, yes, I am one of the people that keeps it steady because I watch it at least two to three times a week.
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I am not lying, it is my comfort movie.
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I watch it two to three times a week.
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No lie, it is on my constant suggested to watch because I watch it that often.
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And one thing that was said in it, which is so crazy because I find it guys funny.
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Um, because for me, I'm a I don't know about y'all.
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As a believer, you know, it takes a little, you gotta, I need like three confirmations, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, a million confirmations.
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Um, but you know, God confirmed this in three times for me.
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And I watched Praise This like this past week, and I was listening, and not listening, but the scene where um Chloe Bailey's character is at the bar after, you know, the competition because she stole somebody's song and the praise team, you know, they really went rocking with it because they felt like they could have made it to Nashville's if they stuck to what they knew.
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And Crystal Renee's character, who is she's the first lady of the church, it's her bar and all that stuff.
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So she done get the drink, da da da da.
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Crystal Renee's character comes, sits down at the bar, talks to Chloe's character, and something that Crystal's character said that really resonated with me, and crazy enough, never.
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I've as many times as I've seen this movie, I've never paid attention to this line, to that interaction.
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But what rang out to me that time, that time when I watched it was that her character said, God does not promise to give us everything we want, but he promises to always be there.
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And I just I paused the movie.
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I don't even know what I was doing, I don't even think I was really just listening and paying attention.
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But at some at that point in the movie, I started.
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I literally I've watched this movie so many times I can cite it on mute.
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And I stopped whatever I was doing, I paused and I just started crying.
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Like, boo hoo, uh hoo-hoo hoo-in.
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Boo hoo a hoo-hoo who in.
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That is what he promised.
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He does not promise to give you everything you want, but he promises to always be there.
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He promises to always be there.
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And after I watched the movie, I was out at the lot, was it no, not the library.
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I was at a bookstore.
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I think I was at a bookstore, but it was just because I just I love being around books and I was just looking at different books.
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I didn't end up buying anything because yeah, I can't get no books right now.
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But crazy enough, walked into the bookstore and it wasn't a Christian bookstore, just a regular bookstore, and at their front display, as soon as you walk in, lo and behold, the footprints poem right there.
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Right there.
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Just another way of God saying is in the footprints poem.
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For those of you who don't know it, it's a poem basically about God saying when it went to one set of footsteps, of footprints, that wasn't me leaving you, that was me carrying you.
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And I looked.
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I said, Okay, okay, God, I hear you.
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I'm listening, I hear you.
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And then third confirmation at church, we had our church anniversary program, and our guest speaker, he the pastor, he spoke in that was one of that third times of charm.
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And yeah, he said that God didn't say life wasn't gonna lie.
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God didn't say that it was gonna be easy.
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He never promised easy.
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He promised to always be there right there with you.
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And I said, Oh, that's God's promise.
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Yeah, we can ask for all the things and all of the materialistic woes, well, woes, materialistic things, and all of these dreams and accolades and all the wealth and things like that, but God's promise is to always be there with you, to never leave or forsake you, to never let you be alone.
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That's the promise.
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That's God's promise to be there, and that that's that was the reminder that I was being told in the confirmation that my faith has not just been in vain, me believing, me still having hope, holding out hope.
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Um isn't dependent on everything going the way I want it to, and everything looking the way I want it to, and even though I'm in this situation and I feel like this and I feel stuck, God is still present, ever present there with me, holding me, carrying me, walking with me, guiding me through it all.
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And I just have to choose to believe, choose to stay faithful, choose to still have hope and trust in Him.
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And even in acknowledging my frustration, even in acknowledging how overwhelming I overwhelmed I feel, and how it just feels like I'm being drained left and right, energy sucked out of me.
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Um God is still ever present.
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Me making it through the day.
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Thank you, God.
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You know, just that reminder.
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And my faith is been a faith the size of even if it's been the size of that little mustard seed at times and I've been weary because maybe I do get weary.
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Still human, but my faith in God and trusting and believing Him to be there.
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He confirmed I am there.
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I have been there, still am there, still right here.
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So yeah, but that's that's really where I'm at right now, you know?
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I don't have no grand revelation, ain't got no five-step plan solution.
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I'm still in the thick of it, figuring it out myself, um, working through old habits, finding balance, and still learning and trusting in God through it all.
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So if you are in a season where you feel stuck, you don't know what you're doing, you feel like you're giving it all you got, and now what?
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I get it.
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I get it, I'm right there with you, and we can figure it out together.
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Okay, so now we have reached the point in the episode where you can write in your letters to me.
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You can send in letters, testimonials, share your stories, your experiences, things you have grown through, things that you are growing through, anything that you would like to share, or if you would like some advice, you can also send those letters to this email.
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Not licensed, not certified, but I can give you the best big sister advice that I can give you.
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Okay, you can write those letters into lettersalongtheway at gmail.com.
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That is L-E-T-T-E-R-S-A-L-O-N-G T-H-E-W-A-Y at Gmail.com.
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Okay, so for this week's grace note, I did want to leave with a scripture, and it is Romans 12 12, which is be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer.
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And this has been a daily scripture that I've taken with me.
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Every day I literally carry it in my phone case every day, all day, every day.
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It's always with me, it's always a constant reminder for me.
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Um, and it's a reminder that life no one's asking you to pretend.
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Um, and it's a reminder for me that even when life gets to life end, it you can still be hopeful, you can be frustrated and still faithful, and you can be tired and still grateful.
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But you know, whatever season you're in, you need to give yourself permission to be human through it all.
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Keep praying and just keep hoping and keep believing.
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So that's the grace for this week.
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So we have reached the end of another episode, and I just want to say thank you guys so much for joining in, sticking it out with me, writing it out with me, and I truly understand and completely get it.
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I gotta rebuild trust, rebuild the community, and that's perfectly fine.
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I will do the work and put in the time to do better and be better, okay?
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But thank you for sticking it out with me.
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If you have been sticking it out and just waiting, you know, I really do appreciate that.
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Um, once again, don't forget if you would like to send in any advice letters or share any testimonies or stories, you can write those letters in to lettersalongtheway at gmail.com.
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Actually, don't think that's my avatar anymore.
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But trust me, you'll see it because it'll say host of the podcast, okay, in my bio.
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Um, so yeah, so thank you all for joining and riding along with me and walking it out with me.
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And you know, just before we go, guys, I know, I know it's been a minute since you heard me say it, but remember to pause, breathe, take a beep, and don't forget to give yourself some grace.
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Until next week, guys, goodbye.
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Hello, hello, hello.
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Here we are.
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All alone.
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Anyone need to break the mic.
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Don't need to break the mic.
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Jesus.
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All almost um Let's do it.
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Okay.
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Well, hello, hello, hello, hello, everybody.
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Welcome to Her Path, Her Pace, where Growth Meets Grace.
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I am your lovely host, Shay, and thank you for joining me on another lovely Tuesday.
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Oh my goodness.
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Hi guys.
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I know it has been a while.
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And the last time I said it was the last time.
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And you know, because I genuinely sincerely believe that that was the last long break I was gonna take.
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You know, I thought I was gonna get it together.
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I thought I was gonna have everything all together and all that.
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But you know what?
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We're here, and I apologize.
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I do like I have to start before we even topic segments, all that.
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I have to start this episode by just sincerely apologizing.
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And yeah, because it's just that's just been a lot lately, and I've been working through a lot and all that, and we'll talk about it, but I just wanted to start by this episode simply by apologizing because uh there's no reason why I haven't at least communicated anything and said anything.
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It just got hard and got a little dark, a little like, oh my gosh, I was just fighting old habits and what like I said, we'll talk about all of that in the episode.
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But once again, I like sincerely want to just start this episode by just apologizing for disappearing, and I will do the work and I have no problem putting in the work to rebuild trust, rebuild communication, to foster this community.
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Um because yeah, that's what I'm supposed to do, that's how I'm supposed I'm supposed to show up.
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Uh no matter what, I'm supposed to be here.
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So I apologize for disappearing.
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Um and yeah, so I'm not gonna say never again, because I never say never.
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I will sincerely do my darn best to not just away ever again, um without at least communicating and saying something or making a post or something, you know, saying something.
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But you know, thank you for still being here.
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And for those of you that I have to rebuild trust, I completely understand I have to rebuild that and keep going and keep moving forward.
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All I can do is apologize and do my best continuing on.
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So yeah, that's that.
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Okay, so now that I've apologized, I've apologized, let's uh go ahead and dive into life lately.
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So honestly, um, I will talk about life lately, really, and our main topic since it this is a reflection episode.
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I don't know if you guys picked up on this pattern, um, because it, I mean it has only it hadn't even been a full year yet, but each quarter of the year, I've been doing reflection episodes, and so we are entering Q4.
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So this episode is gonna be what a reflection episode, reflect, reset, and let's go, okay, type of thing.
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So in our main topic, we will actually really talk about where I am right now, what's going on in my world, and all those things.
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But on a lighter note, before we get into that heavy stuff, um, I have been watching TV and been keeping up with what's going on in these TV straits.
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And I'm gonna say, y'all, a different world, the reboo, baby, baby, baby.
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Oh man, send me the helmen, send me the helmet right now, send me the helmet right now.
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Send me right now.
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Oh my gosh.
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And it got renewed for the second season.
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I'm so sad.
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I am so sad.
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Yes, I I'm sad.
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I'm so excited for season two, so ready.
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Um, you know, what's so crazy is talk to my mom about it.
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Because my mom grew up on a different world, so she was like around that age when that came out and was like really, so she got a different little take on it, and um, it was interesting to talk with her about it because we have different generations, we got different, you know, viewpoints and stuff on that because she has different things that she wanted to see from the show versus me.
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I watched a different world, but I didn't grow up on it.
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Like, how did I say I mean I did grow up on it because my mom would put it on, but it it it was tight, it sat differently in my world, you know, than it did for hers.
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And just having that conversation was a bit interesting because we both we both ultimately liked it, but we just had different wants and needs and expectations of a reboot, which is so crazy.
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Um, but yeah, loved it, enjoyed it, and it really for me it did meet my expectations and things of a reboot.
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I wasn't I loved how they intertwined and like weaved in the old cast with this new cast and you know that type of storyline.
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Um, but this was a point that my mom did make um in our conversation was like she wanted to see more of she wished there would have been an episode or even just a couple episodes before we got the new generation at Hillman that um explained or gave us like some backstory, like even if it was like a snapshot mirage of how the cast, the OG cast grew up in life and over time and then ended up here, if that makes sense.
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And I was like, Yeah, I can understand it, I get there, but I was like, I think they'll eventually do it throughout the show because I think a lot of people forget that, and even pause, I'm saying a lot because I'm lots going through my brain right now.
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Um, but I think a lot of people forget that it's a different world in the original.
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It it took a while, well, not a while, but yes, they talked about some serious topics and they hit on some real big things.
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Um, but it didn't it didn't happen off bat, it didn't happen off rip, it just you know it happened eventually over time.
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So I feel like this is this is once again a show.
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You gotta give time to see what can potentially happen.
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And now that they have our feedback and they understand and they know different generations are watching this because different people from different like it's a different world was a black home for me, home staple.
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Like, I I wanna say I was well, no, not everybody watched it, but I'm pretty sure, no, almost all of us in my house watched it, even my brothers who probably were forced to watch it.
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My baby brother, I know he was forced to watch it, because if it was on TV and we had promoted, he was watching it type thing.
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So, yeah, but um, so I feel as we give more feedback and we have conversations and different things like that, it'll be it'll be great.
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Um, and it can eventually hit on a lot of expectations across generations that have grown up or watched this and grown to love the original and now watching the reboot.
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But yeah, I'm so excited.
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I'm so excited, um, but yeah, so that's that.
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So now that we are all caught up on you know my TV loving things, yeah, what I've watched lately.
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Let's go ahead and talk about some glow-up goals.
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All right, all right, all right.
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So for this week's glow up goals, we are in Q4, y'all.
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We are in Q4 of the year, and I was a bit intentional about you know waiting until this point to actually drop an episode um and upload one and record one because I wanted it's about 75 days, a little under 75 days left in the year now, and so we are officially in Q4, officially in Q4 of 2026, and I don't know because it has been a while since I dropped an episode, but in the last episode that I did have, uh, we talked about making a list of goals that you wanted to achieve um within by the end of the year in this Q in Q4.
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And um I just wanted to bring that to your remembrance.
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And out of that list, I genuinely want you to take the time to pick one thing.
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Out of that th list of three to five things, I believe, I want you to pick one thing, and I want you to actually take the time this week to write it out and make a plan as to how you are going to accomplish that one thing.
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We're going to make that one thing a reality and it's gonna get done.
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That's what I want you guys to do for this glow up go for this week's glow up goals, glowing up in action.
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Choose that one thing.
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And if you can't remember anything from that list, make a new one and then after you make a new one, look it over and choose one thing.
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And after you choose that one thing, make a plan for that one thing.
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Okay, have milestones, little benchmarks, however, you need to set up your plan to get that one thing done, get that one thing done before the end of the year.
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Okay, okay, okay, cool.
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So now that we are all glowing, growing and going, let's see who we are in step with on today.
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Okay, so for this week's shared steps, I actually want to take a moment to acknowledge Hispanic Heritage Month, um, which was celebrated actually last month and kind of into this month.
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So I just wanted to take the time to shine a light on it.
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So this week's flowers are going to Amara La Negra.
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Now, some of y'all might recognize Amada from Love and Hip Hop Miami, but she's also a singer, actress, and advocate who has been very outspoken about her experiences as an Afro-Dominican woman in the entertainment industry.
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And something I really appreciate about her is how intentional she's been about embracing her identity.
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Throughout her career, she's spoken about experiencing colorism, being told she didn't look Latina enough, and even facing pressure to change her natural hair just to fit certain beauty standards.
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And instead of accepting that she needed to change herself to fit somebody else's idea of what a Latino woman should look like, she has continued to embrace all aspects of her and her heritage.
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And I also want to take the time to acknowledge her journey as an artist because this woman has been pursuing entertainment since she was a little girl.
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Her mother worked incredibly hard to support those dreams, and Amada has continued building her career while using her platform to bring attention to conversations that are often overlooked.
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And I believe that's something worth celebrating.
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Because representation isn't just about seeing someone who looks like you on television, it's also about seeing someone who shares parts of your identity and isn't afraid to celebrate them.
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So this week's flowers goes to Amara La Negra for her artistry, her advocacy, and for continuing to make space for Afro-Latino women to be seen, heard, and celebrated.
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Keep doing your thing, girl.
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Okay, okay, so now that we are all in step, let's go ahead and set the mood with some tunes.
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Okay, so for this week's Her Playlist, I have two songs.
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Um, and both songs are representing like where I'm at in life, what I'm going through, and just you know, in terms of like the main topic and how the conversation's gonna go.
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And the first song is I Trust You of James Fortune.
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And I chose this song because you know it's an acknowledgement of even though life is gonna be life and it has been being life, I am still staying steadfast and holding on to my faith and trusting God to be there and come through with the promises and not only just with the promises that he has made, um, but you know, trusting that he hasn't placed these things on my heart and make, you know, trusting that everything genuinely is happening for a reason.
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And even if I can't see it right now, even though it gets hard and I'm struggling a bit, time to time, I'm my human is coming out.
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Um my human is coming out.
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That kind of sounds weird.
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No, the my human nature I'm is being you know, just being human and um get weary and worried, but through all of that, I am still trusting you, and I will trust you, and I will continue to trust, can continue to choose to trust you.
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Um and then the set the second song the second song is No Weapon by Fred Hammond, and it's just because this it was so crazy is um nothing in the Bible said that the weapon will not be formed.
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Nothing is said tells you that things won't still come your way, come in your path, try to throw you off, and then say nothing will not try.
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It just said no weapon formed against me shall prosper.
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So the weapon's gonna get formed, the things are still gonna try and come your way, but it won't prosper.
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And so it's just a reminder and a re-declaration for me to just say no weapon formed against me shall prosper.
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And I know God will do what he said he would do because he's a man of his word.
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Yeah.
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No weapon formed against me shall prosper.
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It won't work.
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God will do what he said he will do, he shall stand on He's a man of his work, he will come through.
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I think that's how that goes.
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Not too sure.
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Let me look and see because we can pull up lyrics.
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But it's the I the idea of the song is God will do what he said he will do.
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Yes, God will do what he said he will do, he will stand by his word, and he will come through.
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Said he would do he's not a man that should lie, he will come through, and so it's just like I said, just a reminder and a redeclaration from me, um, and reinforcing like yes, no, the weapon, no weapon formed against me shall prosper, and that's because God said, No weapon formed against me shall prosper, and he will come through.
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He's not a man, he shall not lie, and he will always be there, and he is ever present and he is there.
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And just once again, reminding myself that that is that, and that is how I that is what I truly believe, and that is how I feel, and it is okay to not be okay because God is there with me and through it, and choosing to trust and choosing to believe and all of those things.
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So that's why those two songs are the songs on our playlist for this week, okay?
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Because these are the two songs that are in my playlist for past little minute on repeat for a little minute on repeat on repeat.
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Okay, so yes, I trust you by James Fortune and No Weapon by Fred Hammond.
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So now that the mood is set, let's go ahead and walk through this thing, y'all.
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Okay, so as I've mentioned a couple times now in this episode, we are officially in Q4.
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Quarter four, the final quarter of 2026.
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Um I have already acknowledged and apologize, but I'm gonna take this time to acknowledge and apologize again for my little Houdini acts.
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I apologize.
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I apologize.
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And all honesty, y'all, but it's just, I know, I believe it was the last episode I dropped, or the episode right before.
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I'm, you know, still figuring it out.
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Still figuring it out very, very, very heavily.
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Very, very heavily.
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And um, I kind of did make a mistake in uh kind of trying to jump the gun and not acknowledge how I really was feeling.
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You know, I was trying to immediately shift my perspective and you know, take a positive outlook and be like, oh, chipper chipper, but in a way by doing that, I was not acknowledging how I was really feeling, I was neglecting to give myself the space and time to truly feel how I was feeling, um, and all those things.
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And so I just kind of and that's what caused me to need to like just because it was a lot because I wasn't I was fighting old habits.
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And um, but in me finding those old habits, it gave me new awareness and I was able to see the growth um in that because when I get overwhelmed when there's a lot of frustrating things happening in life and I feel like I'm being pulled so many different directions, my natural instinct is to isolate, go into a turtle, go into a shell, hide away, nobody, everybody leave me alone.
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Like I'm here, but I'm not here.
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That's my natural instinct.
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Um, and the more frustrating and overwhelmed I feel, and the more chaotic my life seems to me, the more I isolate and unintentionally like push away from every well, I don't not even push away, pull away, because I I just oops, I slowly become this recluse and I lock in and tighten down on my own and not in a healthy way.
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Um and the qu the so what's so ironic about that is one of my top love languages is quality time.
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I genuinely love spending quality time with the people around me in my life, in my circle.
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And so once I start, you know, pulling away, that's kind of when people should start asking some questions.
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And I'm not gonna sit here and act like people haven't been, like the people in my circle in my village, in my life have not been.
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Um, however, because I was fighting how I've been feeling and being dismissive towards my feeling and not truly acknowledging them and being honest with myself, I would just, you know, oh, it's okay, I'm fine.
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And it took me some time to recognize, no, Shay, no girl, no girl, no girl.
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You still doing that thing that you said you don't want to do no more.
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You're still doing that thing.
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Um, and the growth in it is that I was able to recognize it a whole lot sooner because in the past, baby, I'll be the victim.
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I wouldn't let nobody be there, and nobody not being there was everybody else's fault but mine.
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And that's just not the truth.
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Yes, have there been things in my life that have triggered and caused me to have this response?
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Absolutely, but I'm grown, I'm an adult, and as I'm growing and I'm getting older and I'm going through things, if I want better, if I want something different, I can't behave and react and respond in an unhealthy in that same unhealthy manner.
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Um, and so yeah, this time around I can see it and I have acknowledged it.
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And now because I've seen it, now I've acknowledged it, and now I've allowed myself to feel it.
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Um I can move better and I can adjust and do my best to be more present, be more To let people in.
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Let me just to let people in and not pull away.
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Because it my when you pull, people can feel pushed.
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I'm learning.
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When you pull, people can feel pushed.
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And even if that's not my intention, that's not what I'm trying to do.
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By me, you know, being that way and all those things, it can cause tension, it can cause weariness, it can cause people, it can hurt other people and hurt people, hurt people.
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And I didn't realize that because I was hurting and how I was feeling that I was hurting others in my life, even though it wasn't intentional, it was never intentional.
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And yeah.
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And so it also made me bring up the question of how do you know when you're genuinely just taking time to yourself and for yourself versus when you're isolating because you don't want to deal with anything or add anything or anybody else to your plate?
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And I believe that's a very healthy question to have.
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Well, another question of okay, well, am I thinking this way because I'm trying to protect my peace, or is it me still finding being a people pleaser?
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Like, where is the balance?
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Um, because uh am I concerned about how people feel, or is it more of a people pleasing?
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Is it because I'm not trying to uh because I'm being so drastic and dramatic, and because I'm not really allowing myself to feel, and this is this me lashing out in isolation um when people do check in and I pull away, and what's making me to have this push-pull type of thing?
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Why do I feel the need to explain and justify?
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Or do I even feel the need to explain and justify?
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Why or why not?
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Do I feel like so many questions?
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Am I frustrated because I feel like I'm constantly expected to show up and still perform as if everything is fine and dandy?
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Am I the one who thinks I'm supposed to still show up and perform and act like everything is fine and dandy?
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Is this what other people have put on on me?
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Is this what I'm putting on me?
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Is this what I'm still letting other trauma and other situations in my life still control about me?
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Um, and like just where is the line, the healthy line, the healthy boundary between taking time for myself and shutting people out?
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Where where does that line get drawn?
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Um, and so like there's just something that I am actively working through, trying to figure out, and I've talked about it, and I genuinely I don't have the answer.
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I really don't have the answer.
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I'm only I'm taking it a day ahead of time and I'm trying to figure it out and I'm working through it.
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Working through it.
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Don't have the answer.
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Those are just all the questions that have come up.
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And so it's that, and you know, like I said, in this feeling of overwhelmingness and frustration, it's it's all coming from sourcing from I'm just tired of feeling stuck.
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You know, uh, I've talked about in another reflection episode how I feel about my job and all of those things, but it's not just necessarily just this job, it's any job that has I've that's come across in a way where I'm not where I believe I should be and not where I have worked to be.
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Um because, like, in my head, like, and not even just in my head, check the resume.
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You can look at the resume.
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I've done everything I've been told to do.
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I've gotten the education, I've networked, I've talked to people, I've put in the work, I've put in the time, the work, I've built the skills, I've gotten the certifications, I've done all of these things.
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I'm currently pursuing another degree to further my education, to gain more experience, to gain more knowledge.
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And yet it's kind of like, okay, I've done, I've done all the things.
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I was in this cycle of people saying, Oh, you need the education, go to school, get the education.
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Went to school, got the education.
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Oh, you don't have the experience.
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Okay, cool.
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Um people are turning me around because I don't have the experience.
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Okay, well, I'm gonna find a new different way to get experience in these relevant areas so I can gain the transferable skills to do with the things I need to do.
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And in the process of doing all that, I'm also gonna still network and talk to people and get to know people and go out to these things and do that and do that and show up for this and do that.
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Okay, so now, okay, well, it's like, oh, well, that doesn't count as real experience, or oh, now you're overqualified, or oh, this, that-da-da-da-da-da-da-da.
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Just rejection after rejection after rejection.
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Oh, oh, there's a better candidate, or oh, we decided to go with another candidate when in reality it's because of this person to this person, and I didn't know that person and all of those things and my gaps, my bridges are gapping.
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It's just a constant cycle of well, god dang it, what am I supposed to do?
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What am I supposed to do?
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I put in all this time, I put in all this energy, I put in all this effort, I've put in all this work, I have continued to work and work and work and work and work, and the problem is I have no problem working.
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I have absolutely no problem working.
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The resume shows that I have no problem working.
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The things that I've done shows I have no problem working, I have no absolutely nothing against putting in the work.
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I know hard work is needed to get to anywhere in life, to get to where you want to go, to where you see yourself, all those things.
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I have absolutely nothing wrong with that.
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There's absolutely I have no problem with putting in the time, working, and even working my way up.
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Like, never been my issue.
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Never been my issue.
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It's just kind it's just at this point in my life, it's just it's reaching a point for me.
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It's just like, well, what is it all for?
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I've done everything everybody said to do to set yourself up for success, and yet I am still in this cycle of feeling drained and stuck.
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So now what?
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And like I said, the growth, a part of the growth of recognizing the old habits and stuff sooner is also now I I'm allowing myself to feel that and not feeling bad about it.
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I'm acknowledging my feelings.
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Granted, I was dismissive about them at first, and I tried to put on this, you know, this face, this facade, and convince myself that it was okay, and you know, fake it till you make it type of thing, which yeah, you gotta fake it till you make it, but you also should take time to allow yourself to feel and acknowledge how you feel.
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And that's that was the part I skipped.
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But now I'm allowing myself to say it, I'm allowing myself to voice it, and I'm allowing myself to feel it, and I'm acknowledging it because my acknowledgement doesn't mean I'm ungrateful.
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I'm very grateful that I have a job, very grateful that I have the ability and resources and the people around me to do the things that I need to do and to get where, like, you know, I just but I also I'm not trying to just survive.
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I'm not just trying to stay on this hamster wheel.
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Uh that's not that's not what I want.
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I'm grateful, but it ain't what I want.
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And both truths can exist in understanding and allowing myself to not feel bad for feeling that way.
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Like, that's just that's just the that's the truth of the matter.
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Learning to allow both truths to exist and understanding, okay, yes, I feel this way, but now which one am I gonna feed?
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Okay, I feel this way, so now what are we gonna do about it?
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Okay, so that's that's in the acknowledgement because there was a point I was just like, no, I should just uh because like the whole thing of people, other people have it work.
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Some people don't have a job, well I'm not talking about other people.
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I'm talking about me and how I feel and what I'm calling through.
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I can't speak to nobody else.
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I can't speak on what anybody else has going on.
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But I know what I'm going.
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But I got going on.
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I know me.
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But even I just you know, but but there's growth in that.
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Two both truths can exist, both truths do exist and they coexist, and it's just about which which one you want to feed more.
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You want to feed the negativity or do you want to be positive and change?
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You can acknowledge the negativity and you well, acknowledge the negativity.
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That's not what I mean.
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You can acknowledge the downside to a situation and choose to see the upside because what I was doing was ignoring the downside to the situation and just trying to make myself believe the upside.
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But yin and yang, it's all about balance.
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You can't have one without the other.
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Both can exist, and if you ignore one, the other may suffer, type of situation, type deal.
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And that's that's how it is for me.
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And it might that might not work for you, but not that might not be you, but it's me.
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So yeah.
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And the anchor in all of it, and finding the balance of you know, acknowledgement and feeling and working through and going through and continuing on is I have still had my faith through it all.
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My faith has not changed.
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Yes, I've been getting weary, yeah.
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The light been a little, it's been a little.
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I can't lie, I'm not gonna sit here and lie, but call me delusional.
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But that's what having faith is, I guess.
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Like, that's what I'm learning.
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Having faith is is still believing and still trusting and still choosing to go forward and go on.
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And I love now this movie, praise this.
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If anybody's like, I don't understand why this movie is still on Peacock, why people still watch it.
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If you're watching the numbers, yes, I am one of the people that keeps it steady because I watch it at least two to three times a week.
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I am not lying, it is my comfort movie.
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I watch it two to three times a week.
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No lie, it is on my constant suggested to watch because I watch it that often.
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And one thing that was said in it, which is so crazy because I find it guys funny.
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Um, because for me, I'm a I don't know about y'all.
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As a believer, you know, it takes a little, you gotta, I need like three confirmations, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, a million confirmations.
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Um, but you know, God confirmed this in three times for me.
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And I watched Praise This like this past week, and I was listening, and not listening, but the scene where um Chloe Bailey's character is at the bar after, you know, the competition because she stole somebody's song and the praise team, you know, they really went rocking with it because they felt like they could have made it to Nashville's if they stuck to what they knew.
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And Crystal Renee's character, who is she's the first lady of the church, it's her bar and all that stuff.
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So she done get the drink, da da da da.
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Crystal Renee's character comes, sits down at the bar, talks to Chloe's character, and something that Crystal's character said that really resonated with me, and crazy enough, never.
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I've as many times as I've seen this movie, I've never paid attention to this line, to that interaction.
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But what rang out to me that time, that time when I watched it was that her character said, God does not promise to give us everything we want, but he promises to always be there.
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And I just I paused the movie.
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I don't even know what I was doing, I don't even think I was really just listening and paying attention.
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But at some at that point in the movie, I started.
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I literally I've watched this movie so many times I can cite it on mute.
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And I stopped whatever I was doing, I paused and I just started crying.
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Like, boo hoo, uh hoo-hoo hoo-in.
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Boo hoo a hoo-hoo who in.
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That is what he promised.
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He does not promise to give you everything you want, but he promises to always be there.
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He promises to always be there.
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And after I watched the movie, I was out at the lot, was it no, not the library.
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I was at a bookstore.
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I think I was at a bookstore, but it was just because I just I love being around books and I was just looking at different books.
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I didn't end up buying anything because yeah, I can't get no books right now.
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But crazy enough, walked into the bookstore and it wasn't a Christian bookstore, just a regular bookstore, and at their front display, as soon as you walk in, lo and behold, the footprints poem right there.
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Right there.
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Just another way of God saying is in the footprints poem.
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For those of you who don't know it, it's a poem basically about God saying when it went to one set of footsteps, of footprints, that wasn't me leaving you, that was me carrying you.
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And I looked.
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I said, Okay, okay, God, I hear you.
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I'm listening, I hear you.
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And then third confirmation at church, we had our church anniversary program, and our guest speaker, he the pastor, he spoke in that was one of that third times of charm.
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And yeah, he said that God didn't say life wasn't gonna lie.
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God didn't say that it was gonna be easy.
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He never promised easy.
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He promised to always be there right there with you.
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And I said, Oh, that's God's promise.
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Yeah, we can ask for all the things and all of the materialistic woes, well, woes, materialistic things, and all of these dreams and accolades and all the wealth and things like that, but God's promise is to always be there with you, to never leave or forsake you, to never let you be alone.
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That's the promise.
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That's God's promise to be there, and that that's that was the reminder that I was being told in the confirmation that my faith has not just been in vain, me believing, me still having hope, holding out hope.
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Um isn't dependent on everything going the way I want it to, and everything looking the way I want it to, and even though I'm in this situation and I feel like this and I feel stuck, God is still present, ever present there with me, holding me, carrying me, walking with me, guiding me through it all.
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And I just have to choose to believe, choose to stay faithful, choose to still have hope and trust in Him.
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And even in acknowledging my frustration, even in acknowledging how overwhelming I overwhelmed I feel, and how it just feels like I'm being drained left and right, energy sucked out of me.
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Um God is still ever present.
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Me making it through the day.
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Thank you, God.
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You know, just that reminder.
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And my faith is been a faith the size of even if it's been the size of that little mustard seed at times and I've been weary because maybe I do get weary.
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Still human, but my faith in God and trusting and believing Him to be there.
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He confirmed I am there.
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I have been there, still am there, still right here.
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So yeah, but that's that's really where I'm at right now, you know?
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I don't have no grand revelation, ain't got no five-step plan solution.
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I'm still in the thick of it, figuring it out myself, um, working through old habits, finding balance, and still learning and trusting in God through it all.
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So if you are in a season where you feel stuck, you don't know what you're doing, you feel like you're giving it all you got, and now what?
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I get it.
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I get it, I'm right there with you, and we can figure it out together.
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Okay, so now we have reached the point in the episode where you can write in your letters to me.
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Okay, you can write those letters into lettersalongtheway at gmail.com.
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Okay, so for this week's grace note, I did want to leave with a scripture, and it is Romans 12 12, which is be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer.
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And this has been a daily scripture that I've taken with me.
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Every day I literally carry it in my phone case every day, all day, every day.
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It's always with me, it's always a constant reminder for me.
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Um, and it's a reminder that life no one's asking you to pretend.
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Um, and it's a reminder for me that even when life gets to life end, it you can still be hopeful, you can be frustrated and still faithful, and you can be tired and still grateful.
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But you know, whatever season you're in, you need to give yourself permission to be human through it all.
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Keep praying and just keep hoping and keep believing.
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So that's the grace for this week.
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So we have reached the end of another episode, and I just want to say thank you guys so much for joining in, sticking it out with me, writing it out with me, and I truly understand and completely get it.
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I gotta rebuild trust, rebuild the community, and that's perfectly fine.
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I will do the work and put in the time to do better and be better, okay?
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But thank you for sticking it out with me.
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If you have been sticking it out and just waiting, you know, I really do appreciate that.
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And you know, just before we go, guys, I know, I know it's been a minute since you heard me say it, but remember to pause, breathe, take a beep, and don't forget to give yourself some grace.
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Until next week, guys, goodbye.
