Savior Complex

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This is your girl, Therisa. And today, we are
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going to be discussing on episode 4, The Savior
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Complex. So, before we discuss, let me go ahead
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and pray us in. Father, we thank you for allowing
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us to be here again today to do once again another
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episode. Lord, in this episode, please teach
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us, show us, and allow us to have discernment
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on how we are not the Savior. Lord, give us insight
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and guidance. and let us learn something about
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ourselves that we can take after this episode
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let our viewers learn something and that we all
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would find a savior in you in jesus name we pray
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we thank you and we love you amen amen so i think
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it's first like we should go into what savior
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complex is okay so as far as a savior complex
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um a favorite complex is when you as a person
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feel that you can save everyone that every need
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that someone has you can handle it you can answer
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every question um and save your complex comes
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up when um you are trying to help everybody when
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you are trying to do everything for everybody
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um it can also show up in just being a serving
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member whether it's at a church a school um a
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restaurant a business just doing everything like
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you are the savior without not saying i was about
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to say without the knowledge but sometimes we
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most times we have a knowledge that we are not
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the savior but forgetting that we are not jesus
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it's the only ultimate true savior and I'm guilty
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of the Savior complex, to be honest. I just feel
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like I have to have my hands, like if I hear
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or see something where somebody's in need, I'm
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just like, we just literally had this conversation
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earlier today because I have a friend who's having
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car trouble. And I was like, well, I could take
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you to work, but, you know, which is no problem.
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But then I thought about it, like I was telling
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Therese, I was like, dang, like I signed up to
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do something. And I really didn't think about
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it. Like I want to help, but I'm thinking about
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the logistics of it now. Like she lives 25 minutes
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away from me going that way. So I'll have to
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go pick her up from this way to then drive almost
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like 30 minutes to take her to work to then have
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to drive another 30 minutes back home. So we're
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looking at traffic. We're looking at the time.
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Like she has to go to work sometimes 4 o 'clock
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or 5 o 'clock. That's high traffic area. So that
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means I'm going to have to leave earlier. during
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times where i'm going to be working and i might
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have a meeting during that time also getting
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off at like 11 or midnight so then that means
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i'm gonna have to get up late and you know because
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i'm gonna probably sleep i'm gonna get up do
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that take her get back home probably like maybe
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one something and it's just like dang i want
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to help but i i didn't think that i don't really
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have the capacity to do that every day until
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she's able to get a car yes and like When it
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comes to the Savior Complex, what I told her
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was, I think that sometimes we want to help people
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so much. And there's nothing wrong with helping
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people. Let's be clear. The Lord calls us to
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help and serve others. And that's actually something
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that she said. When she was like, well, the Lord
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called us. Yes, it is. However, if you've watched
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season one, you know what I'm about to say. If
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you are serving and it's... outside of god's
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will outside of him telling you to do so you're
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still out of order and so what that looks like
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is doing something that's detrimental to you
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um where you are pouring out to others so much
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that you actually don't have the capacity to
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do what god purposed you to do depleting yourself
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exactly and so um when it comes to not only her
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situation But with the Savior complex, I think
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that we do so much. Or that saying where people
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say, oh, I'll sleep when I die. Absolutely not.
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Or I'll rest when I die. Absolutely not. Because
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Jesus even rested. He withdrew plenty of times
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to go and pray alone. Sure, he would sleep on
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the boat. Not even, I'm about to say, because
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him praying is not necessarily resting. However,
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he would sleep on the boat. He would sleep during
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storms. And God rested. God literally took a
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day to rest. So when God created the world, he
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showed us how he wants it to go. And so that
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day that he took the rest was to show us that
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we need rest too. You think God needed rest?
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He never sleeps. God didn't need rest. He never
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sleeps. He did that to show us a principle that
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he wanted to instill in us. So with that, we
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have to be realistic about our capacity and our
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ability. but also we have to seek the lord when
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it comes to helping people seek the lord because
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what you are doing could be detrimental not only
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to yourself and your well -being but also to
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the lesson that god is trying to show them absolutely
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so um we called it the savior complex because
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when you do things like that you are forgetting
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you are never created to be anybody else's savior
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You were created to point people to a Savior
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in Jesus, but you were not created to be a Savior.
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You were not created to handle a lot of things.
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And I think a lot of times we also think about
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my own experience with Savior Complex, trying
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to be there for everybody, knowing that it's
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going to be... struggle for me for example I
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had a friend that was getting married we talked
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about this earlier had a friend that was getting
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married on a Friday night Crystal's daughter's
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birthday party was Saturday around 1 in North
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Carolina and I live in Alabama and so I booked
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the trip and the only flight that would have
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gotten me there Before the party, I think it
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would have got me there at 11 and the party was
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at one I think so it would have got me there
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at 11. Yeah, this is a charlotte though. You
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took you right you would have drive to raleigh
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No, no. Yeah, this was straight to raleigh However,
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it would have got me there at 11 I would have
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I wouldn't have been able to sleep because the
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part the wedding and I know my friend She wanted
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her wedding to have a good party. So the wedding
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was at night and I would have supported her during
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her wedding and I would have been there the whole
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time probably um and then I would have left I
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would have went home and only had a few hours
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of sleep and had to leave for the airport at
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like 7 a .m um for a flight because it was going
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to Charlotte so there's no direct flights from
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Huntsville to Charlotte I mean Huntsville to
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Raleigh so I would have to go 7 a .m leave go
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to Charlotte for a two -hour layover that's what
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took so long And so I would have got to her at
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11 and then immediately had to start getting
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dressed for this party. There's no sleep in that.
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I wouldn't have been my best self. I wouldn't
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have been energetic for a birthday party for
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a 16 year old. Like you want to be energetic.
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And so I had to talk to the Lord about it, but
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I had to be realistic. and i have to be like
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god i'm tired just thinking about it yeah um
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a couple weekends before that i had been two
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events in a weekend i was like oh jesus i cannot
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do this anymore like i can't do these two events
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in one weekend like i'm not young young like
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i'm young chicken but baby i'm not a teenager
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anymore like i'm tired now so like i'm like i
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can't do two big events in one weekend and i
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didn't want to be like rushing from my friend's
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wedding because my friend actually had seen their
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relationship from the very beginning um if i
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didn't want to rush from there and i didn't want
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to also get to crystal's party or her daughter's
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party and just give them my leftover trash of
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me yeah so being um realizing that i am not meant
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to be a savior i had to let her know i'm not
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gonna be able to come and also man i was gonna
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be able to support my friend when she dropped
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off her daughter for college but i was like lord
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what if they catch your attitude what if they
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are mad at me you know that type of thing and
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the lord had to remind me i handle it that's
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not like a personal problem yeah like i will
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handle it they will be okay because you can't
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kill yourself trying to please everybody um And
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so a part of getting over the Savior complex
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is understanding that God will handle everything.
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He is capable and knowledgeable of everything
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to be able to handle it all. And I think, too,
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another way to get over the savior complex is
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to figure out what is it rooted in. And a lot
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of times we don't understand, like, why we have
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this savior complex. Sometimes, like, I truly
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think of myself a pretty decent person. I'm not
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going to say I'm perfect because I'm human. But,
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you know, people do have a good heart. But sometimes
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where that savior complex comes from, it can
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come from a number of things. It could be just
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have a good heart. It can be. pride it could
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be insecurity and i can speak for myself from
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going to therapy shout out to therapy i know
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you guys want to hear me mention that um a couple
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times different times on different episodes because
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therapy is very important so if you you know
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do this in therapy jesus in therapy if you're
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struggling like go therapy but my therapist helped
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me to uncover that some of my um savior complex
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which is tied to people pleasing comes from insecurities
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where I feel like you know if I don't do a certain
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type of thing then maybe these people won't interact
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with me maybe that's the only reason why they
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like me which you know I know that's not the
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case but it's kind of like my mind was like wired
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in that way as in and that stemmed from childhood
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going through you know when you go through life
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And you have issues and things that you deal
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with. And if you don't like really unpack that,
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all you're doing is like each event that happens
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in your life just contributes and add on to the
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already issues you already had. So this is years
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of things, different relationships with people,
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different friendships, you know, just life events
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happening, just piling on top of each other that
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kind of like shape that. contribute to that insecurity
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um which came people people pleasing yeah i mean
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when you think about it i used to be a teacher
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and i used to teach um little children like four
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-year -olds um i used to teach even younger than
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that but for the most part of my teaching it
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was four -year -olds and a four to five and it
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would be like if you don't do this for me i ain't
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gonna be your friend and so at an early age kids
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are already thinking if you don't do something
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i'm not gonna be afraid so it's transactional
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and that's what that transactional relationship
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and that's exactly what she said she said that
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was i learned a transactional relationship early
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on because she asked me she was like when do
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you think that you wouldn't how far can you remember
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back where you noticed that because you did you
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did something it got a reaction that made you
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feel secure or i guess you know uh valued or
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or appreciate or wanted whatever and i had to
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think about it and i was like maybe in elementary
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school I was like I used to I was a pretty smart
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kid and I didn't I was a nerd I didn't really
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have like friends like that but because I guess
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I got good grades on like math and stuff I would
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let kids like cheat and stuff copy my paper and
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then the result of that was them talking to me
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and being my friend and then that stemmed up
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to you know when I started liking boys and Again,
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girl, I was a nerd. You know, remember Pippi
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Longstocking? I was, I was right. Frail, ashy
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knee. Like I was, I was a little tomboy too.
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And I was just nerdy. I've always been a goose
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drood. I was always a nerd. But yeah, when I
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started liking boys, I'm like, okay, you know,
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if I help with his homework, I remember I was
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playing basketball when I was living in West
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Haven. And cause I used to love to play basketball.
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And this guy that I had a biggest crush on, like
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I was out there just shooting on the court. He
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never talked to me before. I would try to get
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his attention at school, try to like say, So
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we rolled the bus together at like, I didn't
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exist. He saw me out there shooting and he was
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like, Hey, can I shoot with you? Can I, can I
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see a ball? And I was like, yeah. So me giving
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him and letting him shoot with me and use my
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ball, got the attention from him. And I'm like,
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well, sure. I, you know, all I gotta do is do
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this. And then maybe, you know, so that, that
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started it. It's funny that you say that because
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like, I think a few, of us think that same way
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like start with their childhood um relationship
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and it doesn't mean that there's something wrong
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with it yeah but at some point in your childhood
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because i think like kids do that so easily and
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naturally to them like i ain't gonna let you
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be my friend that whole thing so but i think
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at some point in your childhood or your growth
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um that you do it is Very important to understand
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and learn that relationships are not transactional
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as far as who cares for you. If I care for you,
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I'm going to be there for you regardless. It's
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not going to be because you did something for
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me. It's not going to be because you came to
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my party or whatever. Because what if something
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happened? What if an emergency happened and you
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couldn't come to the party? Would you be upset?
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um with that being said back to the savior complex
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understanding that everybody's not gonna be happy
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with you all the time everybody ain't gonna like
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you everybody didn't like jesus so who you who
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are you to think that everyone's gonna like you
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when they didn't even like our savior right so
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um exactly and so understanding that everybody's
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not gonna like you you can't please everybody
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and realigning your focus on who you need to
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be worried about liking you and pleasing and
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that boils down to jesus doing what the lord
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calls you to do um i know it sounds like noble
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to be serving oh i'm gonna give you know people
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my money like for example i had at the time this
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girl was my best friend and i was doing her wedding
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stuff and Her bridesmaids were not trying to
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chip in and my friend Chanel if she hear this
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story she gonna be like and was it like I love
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Chanel, but she this is when I first met her
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Like closely and I was like, I don't understand
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this is like this is my best friends bridesmaids
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Why they don't want to help why don't want to
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chip in for the party and blah blah they want
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to girl and so I Took it upon myself To use my
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rent money. I was the teacher at this point.
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And y 'all know teachers don't get paid during.
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One, we don't get paid good. But you don't get
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paid once a month. But you also don't get paid
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over the. Summer. Over the summer. And you don't
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get paid over the holidays. And so. You don't
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get paid over the holidays. Because you're not
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teaching. So. But you can now. Disclaimer. You
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can set your paycheck up to do all that stuff.
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But you'll just get paid less each week. each
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month because they they break it up yes they
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break it up but anyway at the time i was doing
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i was i need all my coins and so i took upon
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myself to use my rent money during the holiday
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because she got married december at the beginning
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of december and did all this stuff for her bridal
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shower her wedding every everything um and I
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thought that I was just doing the right thing
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because this is what I would want. And a friend,
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I would want my friend to do what they have to
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do. And at the time I used my rent money, I also
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was a business coach and I had a client who was
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on contract and I was writing a business plan
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for them and they owed me money and they were
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supposed to pay me the day before her wedding.
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They did not pay me. I ended up getting evicted.
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Yeah, girl. I got evicted. I asked her if they
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would have. She said no. It's a whole thing.
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It's a whole thing. And you done spent your grandchild.
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Baby, it's a whole thing. It's a whole thing.
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I'm not mad at her. It took me years to forgive
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because it wasn't just that. It was that on top
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of other things. But me thinking that I had to
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save my, at the time, then best friend from this
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not good enough bridal shower and that type of
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thing. And the Lord never told me to do that.
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Had I just consulted with Jesus about it, I wouldn't
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have had to have that struggle. I wouldn't have
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had to have it out with the girl. I wouldn't
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have had to be homeless for six months. But I
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lived with Chanel and her family at that time.
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And that's how we're so close now. But, like,
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I thank God that even in my foolishness of Savior
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Compass, he's going to get the glory. He's going
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to redeem my time, and he's going to create environments
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for me to grow anyways. It was because I felt
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like I needed to handle things. I needed to save
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her. I needed to save her feelings. I wanted
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to make sure that, you know, if things were getting
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dropped on one end, I could do it because that's
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what a friend should do. And I think, too, when
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you just mentioned that, it made me realize that
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with Savior Complex, too, it's a sense of arrogance
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and pride that comes with it because you're feeling
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like you could do a better job than Christ. That
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is exactly what it is. At the end of the day,
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you don't trust the Lord to do what you need
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to do. You just feel like you could do better.
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Like, I'm going to just step in and do this.
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Like you said, you're not trusting that God is
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going to be God. I need to put on my Superman
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underwear and just go out here and do X, Y, Z.
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And the audacity. Audacity. Of the creation.
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Why I feel convinced? Yes. It's the audacity
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of the creation to think that they can do better
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than the creator. Yeah. That part. And so, I
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feel like that's the end right there. No. I'm
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just feeling convinced. Again. Why? Honestly
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It was like I was like I needed you to say that
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out loud so you could know that you feel like
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sometimes even though that's never like You're
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not going into this like God you ain't gonna
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handle this guy But that's what you're saying
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you're doing. Yeah, and so it's definitely yes,
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it's definitely Something to think about especially
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when it comes to over committing I am very ambitious.
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Yeah, I love that word, ambitious. I am very
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ambitious. I am a business entrepreneur. I am
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a provoker at heart. Like, I am going to provoke.
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everyone to excel if you're around me. There's
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no way you can be around me for too long if I
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ain't provoking you to excel in something that
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you want to do. What about, didn't you say, where
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you at? Right. I'm going to hold you accountable.
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We're going to talk about your plans. I just
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cannot not be that, right? But in doing that,
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as a creative, we struggle. Creative struggle
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because our mind is on like 5 ,000 things at
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the same time. We have so many amazing, creative,
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intellectual, innovative ideas and business thoughts
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and stuff. However, the Lord did not give us
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all of those things. And let's be clear. God
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will give us businesses, business ideas, witty
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ideas, innovations, inventions. He will give
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us those. Sometimes he gives us things at the
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beginning to shift us and prepare us for something
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else. And if you've heard my business about the
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happy pup and play dog business, you'll know
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what I'm talking about. But sometimes God will
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give us things to get us moving, to keep us from
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being stagnant, right? But sometimes we give
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ourselves ideas and sometimes the enemy gives
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us distractions. And so learning to contact the
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Lord about what it is that you're doing when
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you get excited about a thing, understanding
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that God wants good things for you. So if he
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says no, there's a reason. But understanding
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we need to be aligned with God and what he wants
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for us first and foremost. Exactly. So I think
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that will help us with over committing because
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as an ambitious. creative who loves to help people
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um i would say honestly just thinking about my
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business coaching um stuff it if i would have
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talked to the lord about my client from the beginning
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i don't think i would have been so uh resistant
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and um so resentful to my clients when my business
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ended up looking unlike what diet gave me um
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i think that if i would have just put it in the
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lord's hand and focused and trusted on his wisdom
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and knowledge things would have looked different
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because i'm not everybody's savior and i tried
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to save everybody in their businesses and i'm
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learning that now with me and my business that
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i started my non -profit um saving those on my
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path it's called academic stock stlb you got
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to see a website soon still working on that but
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um basically it's a non -profit and i wanted
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my nonprofit to be centered around basically
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bridging the gap between resources that we already
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have currently and me kind of like being that
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middle because governmental resources, city resources,
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they run out. so what are those people are not
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existing yeah so they're just left to kind of
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just like wait and see what happens when you
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know space opens up so i wanted to kind of be
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like that additional resource once those have
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been exhausted you can come to me so you got
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to think about it from a perspective like non
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-profit you're helping people so you already
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know my gears start ticking so i'm just like
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okay i want to help homeless people i want to
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help elderly people i want to help vets i want
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to help single parents and it's just like First
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of all, you know who the only employee for this
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nonprofit? Me. It's only me. So it's kind of
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like you want to do a lot of stuff with limited
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resources because I'm 100 % funding this. I do
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not have any donors, sponsors, or anything yet.
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And it's literally just me. I have friends like
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you guys and other friends. Like, you know, I'll
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help out with this. Yeah, every now and then.
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But I have to, like, I need to prepare and I
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need to pace myself. follow god first let him
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tell me okay move here i want you to do this
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because you know if he gives you something he's
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going to take it and walk you through and lead
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you through the whole process he's not just going
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to give you something and just leave you on your
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own until you go figure it out like he has a
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plan we don't always know what the plan is and
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that's why we have to trust him he's going to
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open up those doors and line things up for me
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for it to happen the way it's supposed to happen
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because he gave it to me because he knows he
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want me he wants and he trusts me to help his
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people right so he's going to line it up to where
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certain things are going to happen at this time
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it's going to be the right time for the right
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people that's supposed to you know come across
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my services i will tell you this the other part
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about the savior complex when it comes to like
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as you was talking it was making me think about
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it we're talking about one thing i always say
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is the savior complex when you think you're gonna
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save everybody you take away from the lesson
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that god wants to show someone else you take
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away from their ability to go to christ themselves
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as their savior like to know christ as the same
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way we understand who how christ is jehovah jireh
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to us we take away their opportunity to learn
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christ as jehovah jireh to them but the other
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part on the flip side to us is we take away our
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lessons and our humble beginnings where christ
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instills the wisdom and the knowledge through
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the journey and the growth If we think we can
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save everybody and then we start getting frustrated
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on our path, we don't go to Christ no more. We
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don't want to talk to Him no more. We're too
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tired. We fall asleep. When we're trying to pray,
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we can't focus. Our mind is all over the place
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and cluttered. We're taken away from us being
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able to really pour out in the way that He wants
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us in the fashion that He wants us. If I'm spending
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too much time... doing something else i can't
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do what he wanted me to do um and sometimes it's
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hurtful like when i moved back to alabama recently
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i was like i'm gonna start back my dog business
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i had i told chris oh i don't have i'm not gonna
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go back to my house but i'm gonna have an apartment
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but this is how i'm gonna do it i'm just gonna
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pivot because baby i know how to pivot if i know
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how to do anything Because I know business. And
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so, I was like, I know how to pivot my business.
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I'm going to do this, this, and this. And then
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I have this, this, and this. Like, I had it laid
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out. And when the Lord told me to lay down Happy
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Puppet Play, I ain't going to lie, I acted like
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I did it immediately. Because I didn't. But I
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had to have a real heart -to -heart with him
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about it. And why Happy Puppet Play was so important
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to me at the time. And I had to allow God to
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show me that if I am your Savior and you know
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that I am your provider, there is nothing that
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Happy Pup and Play can give you that I can't
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give you. And if I did it before, I'd do it again.
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But right now, I need you to sit down and focus
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on something else, some other type of ministry
00:28:27.359 --> 00:28:31.259
that he wanted me to do. And if I was too focused
00:28:31.259 --> 00:28:34.529
on Happy Pup and Play, I could not focus on what
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he wanted me to do. And I would not have the
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ability to give my all and be effectively ministering
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in other areas. And lo and behold, now I have
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the opportunity to do Behind the Highlight Reels
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in the fashion that we are doing it this season
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and beyond because I had to lay down Happy Puppet
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Play. Did he give me that business? Yes, he did.
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Did he purpose it for a time? Yes, he did. Was
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I supposed to leave to move back to North Carolina?
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No, I wasn't. But did I go anyways? Yes, I did.
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And were you covered the whole time? And I was.
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Like, I went through hell. I ain't gonna lie.
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I went through hell and emotional hell. But I
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will say this. At the end of the day, listening
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to the Lord may be hard. It may be hurtful. My
00:29:25.450 --> 00:29:29.130
website just went offline last month. No, the
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beginning of August. So that was hurtful to go
00:29:31.759 --> 00:29:34.000
to happypublicplay .com and it wasn't there.
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I was like, oh my gosh. But I still have all
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my things for whenever the Lord is ready for
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me to restart it, if and when. But really being
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in a space where, Lord, I trust you. Because
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when nobody else is here, it was you. When nobody
00:29:50.619 --> 00:29:53.920
else was able to help, it was you. When I couldn't
00:29:53.920 --> 00:29:56.400
tell nobody else what was going on, it was you.
00:29:56.420 --> 00:29:59.779
So I have to trust you as my Savior. you know
00:29:59.779 --> 00:30:04.420
so um having that letting go of that savior complex
00:30:04.420 --> 00:30:07.460
it's a hard thing it is a hard thing it is but
00:30:07.460 --> 00:30:11.299
it is something that is beneficial in the long
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run for you and everybody else you try to save
00:30:13.539 --> 00:30:16.700
because you ain't really saving them and i learned
00:30:16.700 --> 00:30:20.160
to talk about not really saving them the savior
00:30:20.160 --> 00:30:24.119
complex with ministry um so i served in a lot
00:30:24.119 --> 00:30:26.759
of different areas at my church and it was a
00:30:26.759 --> 00:30:29.950
point of time last year where i It was a lot
00:30:29.950 --> 00:30:31.990
that was going on. Things just kept happening
00:30:31.990 --> 00:30:34.390
back to back. The loss of my father, my apartment
00:30:34.390 --> 00:30:37.170
flooding, me buying a house. Like, just all types
00:30:37.170 --> 00:30:40.750
of transitions and changes in my life. And, you
00:30:40.750 --> 00:30:42.789
know, I was still serving. You know, I work in
00:30:42.789 --> 00:30:44.509
children's ministry. So, any of you guys that
00:30:44.509 --> 00:30:46.369
serve in children's ministry, you know, we always
00:30:46.369 --> 00:30:48.289
lay there. Because don't nobody want to work
00:30:48.289 --> 00:30:50.049
with the kids. I don't know why. Don't nobody
00:30:50.049 --> 00:30:51.730
want to miss church. That's what it is. That
00:30:51.730 --> 00:30:53.609
is. They don't want to miss church. And then,
00:30:53.609 --> 00:30:55.869
you know, and then some people, like, be honest,
00:30:56.009 --> 00:30:58.730
they play. I can't nobody else back here. Yeah,
00:30:58.730 --> 00:31:01.109
I want to do the kids. So I used to be a children's
00:31:01.109 --> 00:31:06.789
ministry. I know I know It's so fun if you guys
00:31:06.789 --> 00:31:09.109
are watching this serving your children's ministry
00:31:09.109 --> 00:31:13.390
itself these kids are They are hilarious. Yes,
00:31:13.470 --> 00:31:17.190
but anyways, so, you know with us always being
00:31:17.190 --> 00:31:20.309
short i always felt like i needed to step up
00:31:20.309 --> 00:31:23.190
and serve like i remember when we used to i'm
00:31:23.190 --> 00:31:24.930
so thankful that we don't have three services
00:31:24.930 --> 00:31:26.910
no more because there was time i was serving
00:31:26.910 --> 00:31:30.349
three services eight o 'clock ten o 'clock one
00:31:30.349 --> 00:31:32.910
o 'clock getting the church at like seven something
00:31:32.910 --> 00:31:36.589
not going home to like three is insane that is
00:31:36.589 --> 00:31:40.329
a full work day but during this moment where
00:31:40.329 --> 00:31:42.269
i was having all of these different issues i'm
00:31:42.269 --> 00:31:45.400
like you know Does not mean high school leaders.
00:31:45.519 --> 00:31:47.799
I need to be here because I'm over I'm a poor
00:31:47.799 --> 00:31:49.660
leader over high school. You know, there's not
00:31:49.660 --> 00:31:52.579
a lot of people and okay, so I'm gonna need to
00:31:52.579 --> 00:31:55.599
come in here and it's just like when I basically
00:31:55.599 --> 00:31:58.700
reached a breaking point where I I didn't give
00:31:58.700 --> 00:32:01.200
no notice. I gave a literally that day I came
00:32:01.200 --> 00:32:03.059
to church and said this is my last day like during
00:32:03.059 --> 00:32:05.339
one of our impact sessions, which was kind of
00:32:05.339 --> 00:32:08.400
like hindsight looking in. It was definitely
00:32:08.400 --> 00:32:12.400
wrong to say that at that moment. But it was
00:32:12.400 --> 00:32:16.140
wrong because I knew I had things going on, and
00:32:16.140 --> 00:32:18.099
that's something I should have prepared and told
00:32:18.099 --> 00:32:21.059
my team. Like, hey, you guys, I'm going to take
00:32:21.059 --> 00:32:23.359
a hiatus for a little bit. I get what you're
00:32:23.359 --> 00:32:26.839
saying, but that wasn't wrong necessarily. What
00:32:26.839 --> 00:32:28.859
was wrong was you thinking you could handle it
00:32:28.859 --> 00:32:32.380
as long as you did to lead to that. But at that
00:32:32.380 --> 00:32:34.500
point, that was the right thing for you to do
00:32:34.500 --> 00:32:35.960
because what would have been wrong was you still
00:32:35.960 --> 00:32:40.720
stayed in that space. Knowing that you were over
00:32:40.720 --> 00:32:44.359
your limit and your capacity. And I left for,
00:32:44.380 --> 00:32:46.940
I want to say about three months. For about three
00:32:46.940 --> 00:32:49.440
months I left. Might have been a little bit longer
00:32:49.440 --> 00:32:53.279
than that. And when I came back, guess what was
00:32:53.279 --> 00:32:57.079
still running? That I thought that needed me.
00:32:57.220 --> 00:32:59.279
So it's kind of like one of those things where
00:32:59.279 --> 00:33:02.880
if you are feeling burnt out from serving or
00:33:02.880 --> 00:33:05.460
if you feel like life is just really lifing right
00:33:05.460 --> 00:33:08.849
now. you know it's not your job like as much
00:33:08.849 --> 00:33:11.450
i when i tell y 'all i love my church as much
00:33:11.450 --> 00:33:15.470
as you love your church if you're not right and
00:33:15.470 --> 00:33:18.309
i know the areas might be you know short and
00:33:18.309 --> 00:33:20.890
stuff it's not your job to keep everything else
00:33:20.890 --> 00:33:23.849
afloat you're a volunteer you are not on payroll
00:33:23.849 --> 00:33:26.809
and i keep that mindset now moving forward i'm
00:33:26.809 --> 00:33:29.529
a volunteer i love girl baby even if you own
00:33:29.529 --> 00:33:33.170
payroll because at the end of the day like if
00:33:33.170 --> 00:33:35.940
you Again, this is where you need to seek the
00:33:35.940 --> 00:33:38.000
Lord's wisdom because even if you're on payroll,
00:33:38.359 --> 00:33:41.799
you need to be honest with people. And I say
00:33:41.799 --> 00:33:45.380
this about my, now that I'm a new leader at Word,
00:33:45.680 --> 00:33:48.660
I say this, but I've been saying this before
00:33:48.660 --> 00:33:51.539
I became officially a leader because I'm just
00:33:51.539 --> 00:33:53.220
a natural leader. I didn't ask for this, but
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thank you, Lord. These people will replace you
00:33:59.220 --> 00:34:02.599
before they bury you Before they get your funeral
00:34:02.599 --> 00:34:04.720
announcement out your job announcement would
00:34:04.720 --> 00:34:08.599
be somewhere on the board And so you have to
00:34:08.599 --> 00:34:13.340
take care of home first You have to get yourself
00:34:13.340 --> 00:34:17.639
together because you ain't gonna be no good if
00:34:17.639 --> 00:34:24.769
you are Over your capacity You cannot serve at
00:34:24.769 --> 00:34:27.210
work, whether you own payroll. I know the paycheck
00:34:27.210 --> 00:34:30.769
look good, but you cannot serve at work like
00:34:30.769 --> 00:34:34.090
you're supposed to if you are doing too much.
00:34:34.130 --> 00:34:37.449
So sometimes you have to take a leave. Sometimes
00:34:37.449 --> 00:34:39.989
you have to take a mental break. That work going
00:34:39.989 --> 00:34:43.150
to still be, I came to Nashville. I got so many
00:34:43.150 --> 00:34:44.929
projects going on right now. I need to be over
00:34:44.929 --> 00:34:47.650
there. It's almost year end. for the government
00:34:47.650 --> 00:34:50.349
and i got a week and you know the big exodus
00:34:50.349 --> 00:34:52.389
of the government because that man came up in
00:34:52.389 --> 00:34:56.570
there january 20th and listen i got four i work
00:34:56.570 --> 00:34:59.469
in research so i have four hospitals that i was
00:34:59.469 --> 00:35:02.550
supposed to have yeah but we came to nashville
00:35:02.550 --> 00:35:07.469
pto prepare the others yes and i even on yesterday
00:35:07.469 --> 00:35:09.809
i was calling my lawyer okay what we're gonna
00:35:09.809 --> 00:35:12.309
do like we talked about the project she said
00:35:12.940 --> 00:35:14.860
No, ma 'am. This is the last time I'm going to
00:35:14.860 --> 00:35:16.579
hear from you. I ain't going to hear from you
00:35:16.579 --> 00:35:18.800
until when you come back. When is it? I'll talk
00:35:18.800 --> 00:35:21.880
to you on Thursday. And I brought my work laptop.
00:35:22.059 --> 00:35:24.920
I brought my work phone for the sole purpose
00:35:24.920 --> 00:35:27.400
of using it to record. Girl, I brought my work
00:35:27.400 --> 00:35:29.440
laptop to record everything. And I was like,
00:35:29.500 --> 00:35:32.219
I haven't opened it because I said at the end
00:35:32.219 --> 00:35:34.480
of the day, that work going to be there. You
00:35:34.480 --> 00:35:36.940
ain't going nowhere. The fires that I'm going
00:35:36.940 --> 00:35:38.179
to put out, I was going to have to put them out
00:35:38.179 --> 00:35:40.480
anyway. So I put them out when I get there on
00:35:40.480 --> 00:35:44.019
Wednesday or Thursday. Those people can survive
00:35:44.019 --> 00:35:46.860
without me. I like to think I'm important, but
00:35:46.860 --> 00:35:50.199
the reality of it is, Lord forbid, if I drop
00:35:50.199 --> 00:35:53.519
dead today, they're going to figure it out. So
00:35:53.519 --> 00:35:56.599
let them figure it out because this may be an
00:35:56.599 --> 00:36:00.480
opportunity for them to excel or expand their
00:36:00.480 --> 00:36:02.980
knowledge and their capacity or move into a position
00:36:02.980 --> 00:36:06.909
that God wants them to move. Exactly. Or just
00:36:06.909 --> 00:36:09.869
find somebody else to do it. Or wait until I
00:36:09.869 --> 00:36:14.010
get back. But again, it could also be an opportunity
00:36:14.010 --> 00:36:17.570
that God wants to use to show them a new skill
00:36:17.570 --> 00:36:20.250
in them that God has instilled in them that they
00:36:20.250 --> 00:36:22.409
have not been utilizing. Or a new confidence
00:36:22.409 --> 00:36:25.349
in Him. Or show them how to better prepare. Yeah.
00:36:25.789 --> 00:36:30.710
So, you ain't the Savior. At the end of the day,
00:36:30.949 --> 00:36:33.610
the Lord gonna do what He needs to do regardless.
00:36:34.769 --> 00:36:38.639
You, Ain't the, you know, what is it? End all,
00:36:38.719 --> 00:36:43.179
be all? That ain't you. You are a number. The
00:36:43.179 --> 00:36:49.320
Lord loves you. He does. And he wants to move
00:36:49.320 --> 00:36:53.739
you and excel you. But he never created us to
00:36:53.739 --> 00:36:56.840
hold it all. Your name ain't Jesus. Even if your
00:36:56.840 --> 00:37:01.800
name is Jesus, it ain't Jesus. So our anchor
00:37:01.800 --> 00:37:08.019
verse today. It's Psalms 27, 20 and verse 7.
00:37:08.159 --> 00:37:11.719
So Psalms 20 and verse 7. But you mentioned a
00:37:11.719 --> 00:37:14.300
good verse about casting all our cares. Yeah.
00:37:14.420 --> 00:37:18.400
And that's, again, part of releasing that Savior
00:37:18.400 --> 00:37:21.860
complex is understanding how to cast and drop
00:37:21.860 --> 00:37:25.960
all your burdens. And what's my verse? Dang it.
00:37:26.059 --> 00:37:30.260
Is it Proverbs? I can't remember. I repeat it
00:37:30.260 --> 00:37:31.820
every day. It's written on my mirror. That's
00:37:31.820 --> 00:37:33.320
why I try to close my eyes. I think it's like
00:37:33.320 --> 00:37:35.420
something five through, no, six through seven.
00:37:35.980 --> 00:37:38.539
It may be Proverbs five, six through seven. I
00:37:38.539 --> 00:37:41.159
may have made it up, but the whole don't worry
00:37:41.159 --> 00:37:43.360
about anything, but pray about everything and
00:37:43.360 --> 00:37:48.519
thank God for that whole thing, that verse. Because
00:37:48.519 --> 00:37:52.099
at the end of the day, releasing the Savior complex
00:37:52.099 --> 00:37:55.550
allows you to not worry about anything and pray
00:37:55.550 --> 00:37:59.150
about everything. So in conclusion, Crystal,
00:37:59.409 --> 00:38:03.590
where will you be moving to release the Savior
00:38:03.590 --> 00:38:08.849
complex in your life after this episode? Hmm.
00:38:10.570 --> 00:38:13.769
Where would I be moving? Well, you mean like
00:38:13.769 --> 00:38:16.889
how am I going to release the Savior? Yeah. I'm
00:38:16.889 --> 00:38:18.579
going to give it all to God. I'm going to pray
00:38:18.579 --> 00:38:22.059
more. I'm going to realize and pause before I
00:38:22.059 --> 00:38:26.239
take on anything. Pause and pray and ask God
00:38:26.239 --> 00:38:28.699
and wait for a response. I think that's one of
00:38:28.699 --> 00:38:30.900
the biggest things. We always say pray to God,
00:38:30.980 --> 00:38:33.920
but nobody never emphasizes on waiting, being
00:38:33.920 --> 00:38:36.900
still and waiting for a response. Because when
00:38:36.900 --> 00:38:39.239
you're just saying, Lord, what is it that you
00:38:39.239 --> 00:38:40.920
want me to do? I'm going through this right here.
00:38:40.940 --> 00:38:43.519
That's a supplication. That's not prayer. You're
00:38:43.519 --> 00:38:46.869
giving your request. Prayer is you are having
00:38:46.869 --> 00:38:49.070
a conversation with God. You're saying something
00:38:49.070 --> 00:38:51.929
to him and he's saying something bad. So, yeah.
00:38:52.030 --> 00:38:54.929
So you need to remember once you pray, pause,
00:38:55.269 --> 00:38:59.789
wait for an answer. And then if you don't get
00:38:59.789 --> 00:39:01.710
an answer right then and there, you still wait.
00:39:02.409 --> 00:39:06.809
You still wait until you get a clear confirmation
00:39:06.809 --> 00:39:10.230
from the Lord, whether it's a yes or no. And
00:39:10.230 --> 00:39:12.789
I get it. We live in a society where we feel
00:39:12.789 --> 00:39:15.610
like we need to answer right now. like if i have
00:39:15.610 --> 00:39:17.449
this answer right now like this is like dire
00:39:17.449 --> 00:39:19.449
a lot of times there are some one -off situations
00:39:19.449 --> 00:39:21.429
where you kind of like need to answer right then
00:39:21.429 --> 00:39:23.889
and there and i will say once you pray if you
00:39:23.889 --> 00:39:27.789
don't hear anything you know result think about
00:39:27.789 --> 00:39:30.550
exactly what it is way to pros and cons think
00:39:30.550 --> 00:39:33.030
about how remember the lord know what you need
00:39:33.030 --> 00:39:35.610
so if he not answering you is either because
00:39:35.610 --> 00:39:37.469
he already told you the answer you just don't
00:39:37.469 --> 00:39:39.590
want to hear the answer that he told you that
00:39:39.590 --> 00:39:43.150
you know what it is or he wants you to sit still
00:39:43.759 --> 00:39:47.800
Like a lot of times we don't want to admit that
00:39:47.800 --> 00:39:50.500
God has already told us and we already know.
00:39:50.579 --> 00:39:52.239
And we always thought, well, something told me
00:39:52.239 --> 00:39:57.039
this. We already know the answer. No, I was thinking
00:39:57.039 --> 00:40:00.980
about my ex that I knew what the answer was.
00:40:01.179 --> 00:40:05.000
And the Lord told me. So it just, I didn't want
00:40:05.000 --> 00:40:06.599
to hear that. I didn't want to hear it. I looked
00:40:06.599 --> 00:40:10.220
to the Lord, my ex, this one's recent one. At
00:40:10.220 --> 00:40:13.980
the end of the day, I know for me, I am going
00:40:13.980 --> 00:40:20.059
to realize that these businesses, my job will
00:40:20.059 --> 00:40:26.099
run without me. I'm going to do my 10 hours a
00:40:26.099 --> 00:40:30.420
day and then go home for 10 hours, 4 days and
00:40:30.420 --> 00:40:33.519
then go home. The stuff will be there tomorrow.
00:40:34.179 --> 00:40:36.900
It will be there next week. I will do what I
00:40:36.900 --> 00:40:39.900
need to do at this point in time. Unless I'm
00:40:39.900 --> 00:40:42.260
clocking in for overtime, and then we will talk
00:40:42.260 --> 00:40:44.980
to the Lord about that. But at the end of the
00:40:44.980 --> 00:40:50.119
day, I have to make sure that I am at my peak
00:40:50.119 --> 00:40:54.760
so that I can hear the Lord for me and do what
00:40:54.760 --> 00:40:57.940
needs to be done. And so in closing, did you
00:40:57.940 --> 00:41:00.179
pray? No, you prayed. I'm praying now, but we
00:41:00.179 --> 00:41:03.579
got to do shout outs. Oh, shout outs. So shout
00:41:03.579 --> 00:41:08.590
out. i don't have a shout out today she ain't
00:41:08.590 --> 00:41:11.289
y 'all know my favorite she gave me these little
00:41:11.289 --> 00:41:14.570
uh pins to go on your thing um thank you though
00:41:14.570 --> 00:41:16.849
i got them in my favorite yeah i love them and
00:41:16.849 --> 00:41:18.889
they're super cute they're like little like pans
00:41:18.889 --> 00:41:20.469
that you pin on but you just put them on yours
00:41:20.469 --> 00:41:22.809
now i see them in person because i got what they
00:41:22.809 --> 00:41:25.190
look like same ones and my favorite thing they're
00:41:25.190 --> 00:41:27.050
very cute and they got all different colors so
00:41:27.050 --> 00:41:30.110
shout out to sheer for that again I don't think
00:41:30.110 --> 00:41:31.929
these earrings came from Shein, though. I don't
00:41:31.929 --> 00:41:32.989
remember where these came from. They look like
00:41:32.989 --> 00:41:35.550
the signature crumple in the earrings. They might
00:41:35.550 --> 00:41:38.530
came from Shein. No, I don't think these came
00:41:38.530 --> 00:41:41.050
from there. This time, you know, all my earrings
00:41:41.050 --> 00:41:42.690
used to come, I think these came from somewhere
00:41:42.690 --> 00:41:45.969
else. But anyways, and then shout out to the
00:41:45.969 --> 00:41:49.849
Lord for convicting us today. And shout out to
00:41:49.849 --> 00:41:53.920
our viewers, followers, listeners. Because everybody
00:41:53.920 --> 00:41:55.760
don't be watching YouTube. Some people listen
00:41:55.760 --> 00:41:58.840
on audio. So shout out to that. Oh, shout out
00:41:58.840 --> 00:42:02.760
to my trainer. Okay, trainer. Okay. Courtney
00:42:02.760 --> 00:42:05.760
Duncan in Huntsville, Alabama. Shout out to him
00:42:05.760 --> 00:42:08.320
because he the one getting me back together after
00:42:08.320 --> 00:42:10.219
I had gained that 50 pounds back after losing
00:42:10.219 --> 00:42:13.929
100. So shout out to him. All right. so for me
00:42:13.929 --> 00:42:16.769
i got a couple shout outs so shout out to sbj
00:42:16.769 --> 00:42:20.570
boutique it is a black owned jewelry line i have
00:42:20.570 --> 00:42:24.230
on her earrings they're black circles and oversized
00:42:24.230 --> 00:42:26.969
and we'll make sure we link all the um these
00:42:26.969 --> 00:42:30.619
people information also i'm so sorry i do not
00:42:30.619 --> 00:42:32.619
know i forgot your name because i forgot the
00:42:32.619 --> 00:42:34.739
card but this hat came from the black business
00:42:34.739 --> 00:42:37.699
expo that my church does says grace i actually
00:42:37.699 --> 00:42:40.340
bought like three hats from her um i forgot her
00:42:40.340 --> 00:42:43.380
name but if i can find it i'll make sure i put
00:42:43.380 --> 00:42:47.559
her instagram and tag her also from my shirt
00:42:47.559 --> 00:42:52.179
here is from community love hug in um the harbor
00:42:52.179 --> 00:42:54.909
in maryland and i just want to like because I
00:42:54.909 --> 00:42:57.289
don't want to mess this up. I actually wrote
00:42:57.289 --> 00:43:00.389
their about me on their thing so I can give a
00:43:00.389 --> 00:43:02.289
proper explanation of what they're about because
00:43:02.289 --> 00:43:03.809
I thought it was really dope. I got a chance
00:43:03.809 --> 00:43:06.590
to meet one of the owners there. So it's a black
00:43:06.590 --> 00:43:09.269
-owned brand and creative retail space that houses
00:43:09.269 --> 00:43:12.130
brands like Community Unity Love, which is what
00:43:12.130 --> 00:43:15.710
I have on, Paradise Vibing, Rare Roses, and Different
00:43:15.710 --> 00:43:19.010
Youth. The brand is built on putting three principles.
00:43:19.670 --> 00:43:22.869
communication unity and love to action and they
00:43:22.869 --> 00:43:25.630
believe that as a people if we can get some communication
00:43:25.630 --> 00:43:28.469
we can establish some unity that will produce
00:43:28.469 --> 00:43:31.250
love amongst each other and result in community
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love so the shirt is pretty dope i like it and
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it's comfortable it's some good material too
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so if you're in maryland they also got a website
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which i'm gonna link to don't just support your
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black entrepreneurs all right and with that said
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crystal it's gonna press out yes Heavenly Father,
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we come to you. We just want to lift you up and
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give you thanks. Thank you, God, for yet another
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successful podcast episode. Lord, we pray that
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as we move forward, that you save us from the
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Savior complex that we have produced within us.
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Lord, you did not give us that to carry. So,
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Lord, we cast that right now to you in the name
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of Jesus. We cast the pride, the arrogance, the
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insecurities, whatever it may be, God, that led
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us to have this Savior complex, Lord. And we
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pray, God, that you increase our faith, Lord,
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so that we see you as our one and only Savior
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and not ourselves. We pray, Heavenly Father,
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that we allow you to work through every situation,
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every opportunity, every issue, God, that we
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are facing and having in our life, Heavenly Father,
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and just Be still. Be still and know that you
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are God. So, Lord, we pray, God, that you continue
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to open up our eyes so we can see, open up our
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ears so that we can hear, and open up our hearts
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so that we can accept and know, Lord, that you
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are our God and we can rely on you for any and
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everything. And it's in Jesus' name that we give
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thanks and we pray. Amen. Amen. So, we will see
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you guys back for episode five. Oh, my gosh.
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