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Hello and welcome to my first creative check-in.
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I thought it would be fun to post these mini videos in between the chaos of everything else as a way to kind of show you behind the scenes about what I'm up to each week and document my process.
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In these past nine years, I have been in the trenches of motherhood raising my kids, and I've created some incredible work in between all the crazy moments being with them.
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And they've actually created work with me.
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And now I'm reflecting on kind of this new season of motherhood that's opening up for me as my son just turned six and my daughter is about to turn nine, and I'm feeling more space for myself and my creativity than I have in years.
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Within these last nine years, there have been so many shifts and changes in our lives, as I'm sure there have been for you too.
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And this particular shift right now feels really big.
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It feels like I've almost been in this cave, you know, like to myself, working alone, very select about the circles that I join and the people I work with in my own business because I've really wanted to leave space to be with my kids and raise them, you know, like to give them this foundation of love for their beginning years.
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And my son just turned six this last week.
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Feels like a very potent time of year.
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It just turned to fall.
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And what I'm feeling in my own creative process is really the step into visibility and into sharing more of my work and my process.
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I've been pushing this whole time to express and share in bigger ways, and I just keep feeling like I would hit blocks, you know, like bigger than resistance blocks, like it's just not time blocks, and almost like this weight within all of that of just like being in this pressure cooker of transformation, like my own transformation and growth within myself and my family.
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And now I'm just feeling like almost like this weight is lifted and these doors are opening, and things are working out in a different way now that are just kind of enabling me to share more and show up more for my work.
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My challenge to myself right now, besides showing up in a more visible way, is to actually pause and acknowledge all of those things I've done and what I've been creating, you know, beyond the last nine years.
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Like, what specifically in this last season have I been creating?
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And I would ask you the same question.
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You know, if you're feeling like unstable or overwhelmed, there is so much power in pausing, right?
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Like we are pushed to produce and give and do all the time, and it's so easy to forget to pause.
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So I am allowing myself to pause, and if you are looking for permission to pause as well, consider this your permission.
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But what would happen if you actually let yourself pause?
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If you let yourself just kind of set the to-do list aside, maybe look back at what you've created.
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Maybe you're looking over your old schedule, maybe you're going through your art desk, your sketchbook.
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But what like kind of paper trail or what can you look back on and reflect?
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Like, what have you been up to?
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You know, it's I feel like I'm just like crossing things off, highlighting them in my notebook, and then jumping to the next thing without really letting my nervous system and my body really like embrace and absorb what I just did.
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You know, I keep finding like I'm telling myself this old outdated story that I'm not sharing and expressing the way I want to, and then when I look at what I'm actually doing, my actions are not matching up with that story anymore.
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So maybe as you reflect on what you've been up to, notice if you're still telling yourself the same story and if it's even true anymore for you, or what gifts gets to shift in the story that you're telling yourself.
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And so as you ponder those questions, I'm going to leave you with a poem that I wrote in my book Rose Unfolding, and it's all about the seasons.
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Ready?
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It's called Song of the Seasons, and it says, the seasons are a rhythm that begs you to join in, to learn how to blossom, bloom, surrender, and let go, to let a part of yourself die and rise like the phoenix from the ashes, to become more full, more expanded, and more rooted than ever.
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The seasons are a unified dance between all species, like the tides, they ebb and flow, creating movements around us and within us.
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Honor the flow of the seasons.
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Trust that the light will come back as you surrender into the dark.
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Follow the light that you find.
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Let yourself bloom in all of your glory each spring.
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Breathe into your expansion.
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Allow yourself to receive the harvest of your efforts and be brave enough to begin again.
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And so wherever you are today, whatever season of your life or your creative process you are in, entrust that it is necessary and sacred, and that you are exactly where you need to be.